#nowhere close to having kids
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was looking at deals for prime day earlier just to see what was out there and available and everything coming up was housewares, baby stuff, and maternity stuff and like
excuse me i need to go cry
#my heart#cruel reminders of where I am in life#getting evicted#delays in marriage#nowhere close to having kids#but yay all the stuff is on sale great#that’s great
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Prompt:
Dick is thrown back in time to a couple days before his past self is scheduled to leave on the mission to space, the one during which Jason will die.
Past Dick gets a very frantic and concerning phone call from someone claiming to be his future self, begging him not to go on the mission. And for some reason he‘s supposed to keep an eye on Jason? What the hell is that about? They’re not that close…
#prompts#time travel shenanigans#time travel au#future dick is desperate to save Jason#past dick is just confused#him and Jason still have a bit of a strained relationship#it‘s been getting better but they’re nowhere near CLOSE close#and dick is still a bit weirded out about the kid idolizing him so much#and now his supposed future self is screaming at him to go find Jason this instant? sus#last he knew Jason was being his usual kid self and throwing a temper tantrum or something#not something he would cancel a mission to space for….#and how bad could it be if he goes to space for a couple weeks?#he can always talk to Jason afterwards#Right?#jason todd#batfamily#dick grayson#bruce wayne#batfam#robin#red hood#jaybin#jason and dick#Nightwing#batman#fanfiction
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i was the happiest these past two nights ♡
#two pics of hyunjin and seungmin bc Bias and Holds a very precious spot in my heart respectively#also that’s the best i could get for lix and innie i’m sorry jdñajs#but yeah it was so. i have so much to say#the first day they were kinda holding back i could tell but once they got comfortable and realised the kind of crowd we were they just went#—all out#they gave us so much energy#they learned a chilean cuss word that also means amigo and they wouldn’t stop saying it both days#<-chan actually said it out of nowhere the first night and we were all like WAIT WHAT YOU’RE ALLOWED TO SAY THAT!??!?#he then proceeded to call changbin hueón. then hyunjin said it too. i cried#we also learned by felix himself that he does in fact have a half chilean cousin and they ate chilean chorizo once when they were kids#lino threw water at us in my section and it hit me right in the eye#changbin and lix’s water got to me as well#i don’t even have words for hyunjin and how beautiful he is#like i can’t believe i saw him up close with my own two eyes he is so unreal i still can’t believe he exists#they are all sosososo precious to me#but seungmin was definitely the mvp this time. everyone is gushing over him#i knew this from the maniac tour but he is so charismatic and it just hits different in person#he was also so happy to be here we could feel how much he loved it here and it warmed my heart so bad#and it was cute how excited he was to perform cinema and how happy he got when we did the fanchant he proposed on his live the other day#they apologised for just now coming here after seven years. lix said they should’ve come a lot sooner#but it was so worth the wait#i hope they have the best tour as it goes on and that they come back for the next one now that they know how much we love them over here<3#dominate tour
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pls make sure you and your partner are on the same page about having kids before even talking about marriage i cannot stress this enough
#like i have never even been in a serious relationship and im nowhere close to marriage idk if i even want that#but like even i know this#i would never even get into a relationship with someone who wants kids tbh
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TW. Vent
(basically me talking about how my relationship with my sister is)
me and my sister have always had what I would consider a forced relationship but sometimes it actually works and flows on it’s own despite the fact that we have practically nothing in common and we are polar opposites and it’s really saddening to think about
anyway my sister and I actually texted back and forth today about snow bc our area got a few inches and she was asking about how bad things are at my moms because we live on a 13% incline on a backroad in a small town so I sent a couple of pictures told her about shoveling the driveway earlier and asked how things were at our dad’s house where she is staying for winter break until her second semester starts in a few weeks (she’s a freshman in college)
and it hit me how even if we have our moments where conversations are easy and we don’t really fight we still fall into the pattern of older mature perfect sister and problematic childish little sister who can’t seem to be able to even compare to her.
Still we mirror each other relentlessly if I do something wrong at my moms I’m ‘just like my sister’ if I dare defend her when they wrongfully comment about her calling her selfish or ignorant for not wanting to deal with them after they literally said the equivalent to hoping she was severely injured at the least ‘I am taking lessons from her’ or ‘being corrupted’ and it’s exhausting
@local-lover-boy
#Can we tell that I have spent my whole life being compared to her and not once has it been in a good way#And I spent years trying to relate to her to no avail#Think the final nail in the coffin was when our cousin who has never struggled to interact and be friends with her#She asked if I could not be included in a family event despite the rest of my family going because I ‘wasn’t normal enough’#And I guess that made it click that me and my older sister are two different genres#she’s a cliche cheerleader Barbie falls for a jock and they get married in a church and grow old together#And I’m just a queer kid struggles with faith despite growing up in it and doesn’t believe a relationship can actually work out for good#Two very different books#Another thing that gave this realization was when we were out with a friend from church and she mentioned she had never doubted her faith#And I have never not struggled to believe it’s been a constant uphill battle trying to get myself to believe and not question the religion#I ended up crying for half an hour straight after that when we got to our next stop#Because I have fought so hard to be nowhere close to her and when I am actually similar to her it’s not even in the good ways#It’s her few flaws that I have in common with her#It’s the things that could make people dislike her that we share#Btw I’m autistic adhd so I have spent my whole life being ‘not normal enough’
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I want to serenade it and marry it and grant it a knighthood for services to my realm and make it an heir to my kingdom omg my crops are at last literally watered and I can breathe through my nose
#i know i shouldn't have it that close to my tv but i had nowhere else to put it#if you get nasal congestion winter try a humidifier#the one we had when i was a kid was awful but this one doesnt even make any noise
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sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it
#re:kinder#not art#so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me#i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on#but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!?#until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE#i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games#and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line#i did not know the context but it was devastating#AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND??#I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY??#like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me#I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS#then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art#so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU#personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood#AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭#its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids#but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy”#AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED#many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough#IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!!#i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize
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lads how many nights does the spectre of a sudden and never before felt want for bottom surgery have to haunt you when you stop to think before you're supposed to like. start googling doctors
#like i thought i had this shit sorted#deadass the moment they chopped my tiddies off#I was like dysphoria is over#that bitch don't know me no more#i was so confident dysphoria was over I made a very serious offer to be a surrogate for a close friend of mine.#like to honest to g-d have their kid when were older#Like that level of fucking with having a vagina. ig#but years later. in the night#coming for me#phone haunting the phalloplasty reddit#the pengis that could be...#so out of nowhere#guy who does not have thousands of dollars for another surgery#but man.#man.#>-)o#personal#vent#dysphoria
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the utter lack of affection or care amongst my extended family is so bleak and miserable
#like I don't get on or chat with fucking any of my english cousins. the few I did#get on well with disappeared from my life out of nowhere because of family drama#the ones left are older than me and they never cared about me lol#and they're all boys which I don't think helped things when we were younger#but that shouldn't matter. I get on with my spanish male cousin fine ! he's lovely!#but the people I'm with every winter and birthday etc are just completely cold and detached#I have no real relationship with any of my uncles or aunts or cousins#it's not like there's even one I can go and talk to while everyone else is ignoring me lol#I've got my brother and that's it and of course he's just a little kid#he's either trying to get attention from the adults or trying to get me to play with him#which is fine. but. ugh.#it's just like I should've had this big network of people who cared about me statistically I should've had at least one family#member who I had some kind of unique or close bond with and I never did I never got it#I grew up with two sisters and I never got it. I think about what it could be like with sisters who gave a shit about me all the time#If I had someone to talk to besides my parents or about my parents it would be such a weight off my back#and all I've got it my brother and he's just too young for me to put any of my life on his shoulders#my biggest fear is that when he hits puberty he'll begin to think I'm embarrassing and stupid and not like me anymore#and then I'll really have nothing
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so. werewolf!chan x witch!reader fic with a side of best friend and ghost!seungmin for halloween?
#stray kids#skz#bang chan x reader#stray kids x reader#skz x reader#I wrote 1k words in like an hour and im nowhere close to being done#i dont even have a PLOT#i just know minnie is a sassy ghost#and chan is the type of wolf to sleep at your backdoor because he misses you
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Something I've noticed amongst my family is that they would rather keep you at a distance but let you know they're "thinking of you" by praying for you, and not making any real effort to ask how you are, or if there's anything they can do for you.
#apparently my grandmother told my aunt that I'm sad sometimes and some other stuff?#and then my aunt texted me out of nowhere today to tell me I'm in her prayers#it's weird cuz my aunt really only texts me on my birthday (which is sad to me cuz we used to be so close when I was a kid)#I did thank my aunt cuz I know she meant well. got no response to that btw. and it really just got me thinking#if I were in a really bad place (I'm not. it's just a very neutral place for me rn) I think it would do me more good#to have someone reach out and say 'hey I was thinking abt you recently. what's going on? are you up to anything new? blah blah blah'#rather than just telling me they're praying for me and then fucking off immediately#like I'm aware that my mental health is no one's responsibility and no one is obligated to take on my burden#but I just feel like the prayer thing is a way of washing your hands of a situation. you can say you did something for them. tried your best#and if things go sideways (ie I end it all or whatever it is my extended family thinks I'm going to do) they can sidestep blame#idk. this might not make much sense#but it just saddens me a little.
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I have a secret fixation I won't say the name of out loud because it's pretty... on the nose with writing in spite of being compelling with the concept and world building. It has flaws, undoubtedly, but I love it nonetheless. It is an indie production and falls prey to the "has so much to say but sacrifices clarity in fear of early termination". And it's 3D animated which often gets flack, which I find unfair due to the effort such a style requires. On top of it all, the same production company released a pilot that went viral very recently.
And yet I find myself hesitant to share my love for it, something I find odd given my tendency to embrace unbridled joy even when the subject doesn't seem to warrant such a thing.
Being vague because I see the main characters as my kids and I didn't know what to do about it- and the parents were just shown more in the latest episode and um.
I think I might want to, I dunno, be the third in this ???? My age is starting to show. I don't want kids, I don't want to have kids, I don't want to be a parent. But... consider... polyamory. Consider, they aren't my kids, but I am the partner of a parent.
I hope this makes sense, I'm having a moment evidently.
#melviships plushing hours#ha ha what if I (sprints)#also there is a gag in show where two characters are implied to have feelings for each other and as of late#implied to be ? dating ? maybe ?#but instead they use language often attributed to friendship and I find honestly sooo refreshing#like this could be so easily read as queerplatonic#in fact I'm hoping the show never tries to say this is romantic and keeps doing this 'we're close friends but y’know in a partner way'#because dammit an aspec can dream for aspec kids to have these things !!!#if I delete this out of nowhere it's because I'm frightened dog about stuff I like sometimes#do not throw the mangled toy to me I'll cry about it aheem heem#elaborating on the tags about said gag: it's rather obvious it's supposed to be read as romantic#but I stay firm in my convictions
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I think every transmasc should have a girl blorbo
Delve deep into her writing/character and expand on it and extrapolate ESP if the source material Does Not do her justice or doesn't give her the things she deserves. Find your pain in her pain and find her pain in yours and give her the things you will never have. Whether it was taken, starcrossed, or never meant for you. It could be for her. It could be.
Bestow upon her a gift, what remains of a life never lived. Leftover love of things that never fit right, never suited you, never were meant for you. Things you learned to love anyway, a love both real and manufactured out of necessity and survival.
And bestow upon her another gift, of love that has nowhere to go, of doors you've had to lock shut, doors you know go nowhere for you. Give her the key. Take up your pencil. Draw her in an adorable outfit. Draw her surrounded by loved ones, who love her so dearly back. Every drawing, a wish. That she can have a kinder life than mine. That I could give that to her. A parting gift, from me to someone who I can no longer host, that can now live on peacefully within her and lead an even better life than it ever could have within me. It was in the wrong house I had to rehome it.
Something adjacent to Gandalf Big Naturals ect ect
#fun fact! yesterday i had to explain gandalf big naturals to my therapist.#i feel like. there is so much that can be said here.#it's not necessarily about seeing yourself in a female character bc i literally never have.#i could have a few things in common i could acknowledge like oh sakura from ccs has brown hair like mine#and she's in the same grade as me (when i started reading ccs as a kid). but that's where it began and ended.#the first character i EVER saw myself in was nonbinary. and after that i actually started seeing myself#in exclusively male characters. like. it gave me permission too.#but this isn't really about that it's about like. recogizing common ground (keeps you normal about women)#(bc DEAR GOD. w how close i am w my sisters w my prev life experience you think i would be. however#being transmasc can and WILL give you shrimp color insecurities and insane tendencies.)#but it's also about like. an entire life that has nowhere to go. both in the past and in the present actually.#like it's so much more than just dresses i still own and think are cute and pretty and don't have the heart to get rid of#what i'm trying to capture here is it's more than just what you had to leave behind that no longer suits you.#it's everything in the wake of living as yourself and being dead in the eyes of people who say they still love you.#a ghost that haunts itself by living.#and it's about things that just have never been and never will be. the grief of which will consume you forever#every drawing of sharena is a love letter and a wish and a gift. that's what she is to me.
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thinking about gorgon and his potential. thinking about gorgon and his mini-reality scene in royals. thinking about gorgon and how he was scared of romance after his wife died. thinking about gorgon and how he struggles to connect with his children. thinking about gorgon and how he has an incredibly limited friend group outside the family he grew up with. thinking about gorgon and how often he gets into fights even with that family.
thinking about gorgon and how he sticks to how life has always been in attilan, consistently being the first to oppose change and being incredibly vocal about it, even if change is visibly necessary. thinking about gorgon and how he dedicates himself to attilan and his job so thoroughly that he cannot extract himself from it at all, cannot stop fighting ever. thinking about gorgon and how he fears change and commitment and lasting love. thinking about gorgon and how whenever any of that might possibly come to light, he draws himself in and hides from the only people who have stuck around. thinking about gorgon and how he'd rather die himself than risk losing again.
#would you believe me if i said im thinking all of this bc i watched ice age 2 and had an epiphany#because. um. 😳#gorgon could have such an interesting arc if marvel let him have more than one (1) small problem every ten years#like that scene is royals went NOWHERE his kids are just GONE. his entire relationship with medusa went nowhere!!!!#like i dont WANT him to be with medusa. but hes obvs still close with her! and shes back w bb!#to be terrified of loving again and then THAT relationship fails?? his kids are probably dead??#i just!!! oughgjghgj gorgon <3#gorgon petragon#inhumans
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WIBTA for taking advantage of my boss’ possible manic episode?
I know this already sounds bad but hear me out.
So I (30M) am the sole employee of this guy (62M) who’s honestly just a miserable boss and an even more miserable person. It sucks so bad working for him—the pay is horrendous, he’s verbally abusive, and the working conditions are awful (in the winter I literally have to stay bundled up the whole work day because he refuses to put the heat on in the office). He wouldn’t even give me holidays off if it wasn’t for the fact that there’s basically nothing to do those days because everywhere else is closed. I’m almost positive he unironically thinks poor people should die if they can’t work. His nephew (aka his only living relative and just the nicest guy) came by yesterday to invite him to Christmas dinner and he told him he’d see him in hell.
I cannot stress this enough—it’s BAD. I’d quit, but it’s been hard finding a better job and I’ve got four kids at home, including one with special needs.
Anyway, so here’s where I’m wondering if I’d be the asshole. Today was Christmas Day and he showed up at my house out of nowhere (huge red flag, I know). At first I thought he’d forgotten I had the day off and he was here to chew me out, which was worrying enough, but then his whole demeanor changed and he was super happy and excited and talking about how he was going to raise my salary. He even mentioned possibly making me a partner in the firm.
Now if that was it, I’d feel a little weird about the suddenness of it but it’d be fine. I’m not going to complain about having more money to feed my family. But then he started talking about how he wanted to pay our mortgage off. He talked about wanting to pay for our son to get the very expensive medical care that’s probably going to save his life. He mentioned at one point that he was going to be donating a huge amount of money to charity too—I knew he was rich but it staggered me. All this from a guy who doesn’t (didn’t?) even want to turn on the heat or the lights because it costs too much money.
It was such a sudden and drastic change that happened very literally overnight and now I’m kind of concerned he’s having a manic episode or something. I really, really want to accept his sudden generosity (I probably will; my wife is all for it and thinks he owes it to us), and I would love to believe that he’s truly had a sudden change of heart (an actual Christmas miracle lol) but I’m just worried about the possible consequences of accepting huge financial gifts like this from someone who I believe might be experiencing some kind of break from reality. Even if there’s nothing legally wrong with it, I’m worried about the ethics of it.
TLDR, my asshole boss might be in the middle of a mental breakdown. WIBTA if I accepted his offer to pay off my mortgage and my son’s medical expenses?
#a christmas carol#charles dickens#the muppet christmas carol#watched this last night and we were discussing how it must be like to be Bob Cratchit on Christmas morning lol#personal#erika's blog and bar
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my whole life has been nothing but swallowing my pride and getting fucking hit in the face no matter what when will it stop when will i be happy when can i have one thing
#im already an alcoholic who will never find anyone that loves him im in a failing relationship thay isnt even a relationship bc#neither of us can handle long distance commitment i just agonise over her and believe what is likely to be lie after lie bc i lnow she lies#the only friends i feel like genuinely understand me is 2 in the state above me and a couple more across entire america im so tired#2 more in europe. everyone is so far away#i feel like anyone that knows me could never ever love me because of this shit. i have nowhere else to go so i just ramble amd ramble#its so ugly. who the fuck could ever love that who could love someone with this body my chronic pain is just getting worse i look so ugly#and ill ive ever had are my looks so now what. now what.#i cant handle anything im scared of everyone i cling to the people that i do trust until they get sick and leave im so tired#im so sock of still living in this house i cant talk about sny of it bc people will just think im gross and i just. want people to like me#i used to pay people to be my friend as a kid. never worked#im just awful to be aroynd bc people make me so scared all they hear is my fear and see that i evade everything#until i get close and its fucking suffocating
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