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oh no it's Wanting A Soulmate Hours
#now i'm going to be sad for a while#:(#why can't I have a soulmate#everyone else gets one#tw internalized arophobia
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do skully have pokemon?
Pumpkaboo is the obvious one, but y'know, sometimes the obvious one is the right one! (we'll say SUPER SIZE Pumpkaboo, just for fun. big pumpkin for big skeleton boy.) and another person actually also suggested Greavard, which I somehow hadn't considered, but feels so perfect that I feel like I should have. dangit.
(they can also have little Nightmare Suit costumes :D)
#art#twisted wonderland#pokemon#poketwst#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#(sorry for leaving anon off for a while! i've gotten a rash of spam and i'm gonna wait it out a couple days before turning it back on)#also apologies for the rest of this not really being pokemon related#i don't have anything right now for part 4 of the event so i'm gonna use this space to go off about it#because. oh man.#a sad lack of the scullsman but a FEAST of everyone else#gotta love malleus and leona uniting in the common goal of hunting trey down for trying to game their whiny pettiness#(trey doesn't know what to do with someone he can't easily distract with cake)#also further confirmation that malleus WILL kill a small child and leona WILL point and laugh the whole time#also sebek's plans revolving around what he knows he's good at: screaming extremely loudly and hoisting nerds#and let us not forget what i consider to be the crowning jewel#which is jamil figuring out IMMEDIATELY where scully has taken his prisoners#only for everyone else to just. literally refuse to do anything about it.#jamil just standing there and going 'WE KNOW WHERE THEY ARE! WE CAN JUST! GO GET THEM!!!! WHYYY AREN'T WE GOING'#visibly losing his entire mind and it's beautiful#top 10 twst event moments honestly#also some delightful character consistency from jade being all#'actually my dicking around is a sign of my immense trust in your abilities to get things done :)'#'but also consider: there are currently two housewardens chasing a child'#'alternately angrily screaming poetry and begging them not to sue'#'and if you will pardon my city of flowers...there is no fucking way i'm missing that'#lock shock and barrel did not sign up for this. how did these idiots turn out to be somehow weirder than the three of them.#twisted wonderland must be a frightening place indeed
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"I'll make a save here and try breaking up with Astarion, just to see the dialogue- I could see him get kinda nasty about it, but I honestly don't know what to expect so---"
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#-ke me back but that didn't fit#astarion#squirrel plays bg3#when i tell you i reloaded so fucking fast.....#curse my curiosity#jesus fucking christ he's so RESIGNED#it's such an “ah; there it is. yeah can't say I'm surprised but it was nice while it lasted”#it sounds a bit mean but i fully thought he'd get at least a bit nasty about it#(the breakup also doesn't seem to have any options that nets disapproval???)#(which is just..... sad)#(it'd be so much less painful if he could at least hate you for it you know)#(this boy's self-esteem is -as we say in my country- beneath the miner frog's asscheeks)#(and now i need to go spend some time kneeling on the floor sobbing please do excuse me)
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from what I infer from some of his dialogue, my guess is that while lucanis hasn't had a proper relationship before he has had one night stands and short term flings. and -- listen, I know he's a dick and a menace and probably a hopeless case but please do still spare illario dellamorte a moment of your thoughts and pity for the role of incredulous yet intrepid wing man that he's all but certainly had to play on several occasions for that to happen. there are 100% people out there who were trying SO fucking hard to get no strings attached laid by this stupidly hot emotionally unavailable mysterious stranger who won't be in town for long without lucanis ever realizing it. people who would have remained tragically unlaid if illario weren't there to clue him in.
I'm just imagining Illario staring in pure dismay and disbelief at his dumbass of a cousin failing to pick up what someone isn't just putting down but scattering all over the floor like glittery confetti burning with a magnesium flame brightness to spell out 'SIR PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE RAIL ME THIS IS AN OFFICIAL ENTHUSIASTIC INVITATION TO MY BED' and having to push him out the door after them like 'maker's breath sometimes i don't understand how you have the wits to grip the right end of a knife, lucanis, they were throwing themselves at you and you just stared at them in mild puzzlement until they gave up and went away go fucking GET THEM for the sake of my sanity if nothing else!!!'
#'oh was THAT what that was' lucanis realizes as illario all but throws him onto the person's lap and walks away shaking his head#once he was actually there and the stiuation and what's expected of him were understood I think he'd do wonderfully!#but provably he uh. takes some clueing in at times#illario 'cousin one day you will have fun even if it kills me' dellamorte (dramatic irony edition)#tfw your cousin-brother is SO hot. and so autistic.#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#illario dellamorte#lucanis dellamorte#every day I think about 'get that man to stop yelling at me'. illario snooze that guy for me please. their *Dynamic*.#i finished murder of crows last night and the way lucanis' 'not. now' is so out of proportion to what's actually happened.#he sounds mildly annoyed. like illario blunted one of his knives or something instead of shredded his soul. this family is. something#we never get how much of illario's 'that isn't even my cousin that's a demon' shit is real beneath the. general scarness of him lol#but you know what I call that? free narrative real estate. I'm going to go ahead and make myself so so sad about this for no reason <3#illario loves and hates this guy in ways even he himself doesn't understand. so annoying when abel gets back up again#and still wants you to come to family dinner tonight while your hands are dripping with his blood#if anyone had to listen to lucanis anxiously deciding what would be the best way to court the prickliest man in thedas#and deciding on one of the worst possible options. it was illario. again he sucks and he deserves this. but still. the mind boggles
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the curse of immortality (spoiler: Kiran is also on this picture 👍)
#Feh#feheroes#fire emblem heroes#Grima#Filling my angst art quota with this for a lifetime since I don't really normally draw angst#But this is something I've had on my mind for a really really long time as a scenario/thought#Grima is technically immortal while Kiran isn't and I'm sure this is something he has to think about at some point#Like sure he can bring people back from the dead but does that keep them young forever? Probably not. And if he brings them back as risen#Is it still the same person?#There's alot of thoughts I have about this so I had to channel them into this#Also honestly I just kinda really wanted to draw Grima be genuinely sad for once#There's really not alot of scenarios I can see him in where he would be openly sad but this? Yeah this would break him#I have this headcanon that if Kiran would ever pass away in the Fallen timeline or any really#he'd just keep carrying her skull with him because he has a hard time letting go#So yeah surprise Kiran cameo 💀#Back to my regular scheduled silly posting now
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Lesbianism
#tf#transformers#rotb#Akjajkajkajk I really tried to get good shots but I guess these'll have to do#also I find it really funny how they're kinda just ignoring Optimus in the background while he's in pain#poor guy 😔#elena wallace#airazor#airlena#Y'all should go check out the deleted clip it's really cute I swear 😭😭😭😭😭#I'm so sad that this wasn't included in the movie but at least we get to see it now
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ultimately i think the appeal of daniel and armand to me is that it's very much a typical dark romance storyline where the heroine is kidnapped and tortured by an evil monster but using her wits she manages to seduce him and make him emotionally vulnerable to her, because she is More Special and More Clever than all of his other victims, and because of this she enjoys a level of dangerous favor and protection from him, except in This version of the dark romance it's two toxic old men who both have the worst fucking personalities imaginable. who truly just fucking suck beyond measure. like no pun intended, they are Garbage, one is the actual literal immortal devil and the other is just kind of a deadbeat with no moral compass, neither of them is willing to work on himself and neither of them has ANY reason to want to rail the other as bad as they do.
and yet. There They Are,
#i am not immune to evil stockholm syndrome dark romance that makes certain booktokers puke.#i am also not immune to a pair of shitty people who absolutely SHOULD fucking HATE each other#and who are going to be nasty little freaks about the other instead. possibly also while hating them.#'why do people write enemies to lovers so soft' i'm always saying. i just want you all to know#this is maybe the first time i've seen an enemies to lovers arc done in EXACTLY the GROSSEST ways i DESPERATELY WANT IT#and it is FUELING me. i am THRIVING. i am REFRESHED i am FINE i am NO LONGER SAD my SKIN is CLEAR#the layers. the drama. literally don't care about anything else going on in this show it's all them 2 me. theyre everything. thanks#i'd apologize for my taste but like. i'm not gonna apologize for finding the evil ships hot in the evil ship show. come on now.#iwtv#devil's minion#with that i need to like. go pick my partner up from work and then go to sleep. thanks for watching me do this on main everyone!
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collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS
#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking#my immediate thought was#i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him#bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent#but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally#it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying#the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias#then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought#i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him#AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND#originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went#WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN#BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS#but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it#i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding#so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown#i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said#yakuya#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya
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Nothing like Heartstopper S2E8 removing some of Taylor Swift's "seven" lyrics just so that the singing can specifically come back in at "Or hide in the closet" while Isaac is processing difficult emotions related to the book he's reading (i.e., Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex by Angela Chen).
Did I mention "Or hide in the closet" hits just as the camera focus finishes shifting away from Isaac?
This is fine
#This is not fine#Warning: Long tags ahead (2 topics)#TOPIC 1:#I'm glad Isaac feels safe enough to be reading this book and processing emotions around his friends#That's the positive spin on “he's quietly dealing with a lot while next to his friends and they're not noticing and he's not sharing" right#The contrast of this with the happy friend-bonding montage time feels purposeful and sad (esp. with lyrics about staying in the closet)#but on the bright side this is in the midst of happy friend-bonding montage time so we also see them having happy bonding times together#- showing the friendship is still strong even if right now Isaac isn't wholly known or fully fitting#Hopefully this is leading to Isaac telling his friends what he's going through in S3 and the friendships adapting to fit him better#TOPIC 2:#Also - don't think it's unintentional that where the camera focus shifts to is Nick with his arms around Charlie and then kissing his head#I think we're being purposefully distracted from Isaac with allo 'cuteness'#Because what the other characters often get swept up in - especially as they all couple up in S2 - is alloromantic/allosexual interactions#And that's frequently what the world prioritises or cares more about too#I think the show is intentionally calling everyone - from the characters to us watching them to the whole world - out#So that hopefully we (general) can all be more aware and do better#[In case you were wondering this N&C/Isaac scene is also right after we see short clips of Elle & Tao and Tara & Darcy cuddling -#which also seems very intentional: Isaac - sandwiched in between views of cuddling couples - alone in more ways than one]#CONCLUSION:#I think everything is working together to highlight the contrast between what N&C and Isaac are respectively experiencing in this moment#Did I mention this is not fine?#It is well done though#heartstopper mini moment#isaac henderson#aroace#aromantic asexual#lgbtqia+#queer#taylor swift#seven
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MAN I'm seriously so sad about season 2. Bc I wish act 2 had the same emotional impact on me as it appears to have on so many others. But rn I'm just somewhere between unable to care and actively annoyed by some of those writing decisions. Seriously the more I think about it the less I like it.
#act 3 come through please 🙏#I don't think it can salvage some of the things I have contentions with but still... please...#don't ask me about the silco vander flashback with jinxs + vis mom#or the bizzare choice to do so much of the storytelling through this weird music video format they've got going on#completely stripping it of the weight these plot beats could've had if they were... normal scenes#and also missing the point of how the music was used in season 1 and what made it so effective#bc it was complementary to instead of replacing the storytelling#seriously don't ask me about these things I will spontaneously implode on the spot#whyyyyy would they recontextualize season 1 like this with that flashback#to me it kind of ruins the character dynamics and themes in s1. it just makes me so sad you have no idea#also what even are they doing with Jinx rn for real#aaarghhhh just... so many things that are making me scratch my head#also I'm so terribly sorry but I could not care less about Isha sorry lol#like i get that its sad conceptually but she was such a non-character that i struggle to feel impacted at all#same with sky tbh. i thought her role in s1 was alright but there is so much emotional weight put on her now#in terms of her relationship to Viktor but that was barely established so it's weird to have her around#and clearly you're supposed to care but they haven't given me much reason to#isha and sky were non-characters just there to die to further the development of other characters#they didn't really have anything going on on their own and that's just a type of character and plot device that does nothing for me#also i thought the war between zaun and piltover + internal struggles in zaun bc silcos gone would be the main focus#but that stuff seems so sidetracked rn#also sorry i dont like what they did with vander and warwick either. that man should've stayed dead lol#it honestly just makes his death feel less impactful and i dont know what this is supposed to do for the story or the themes???#that just feels like a pointless plotline that is taking up time that could've been spent on other things#i just... i could go on like this for a while like there are so many things that just puzzle me#it's so weird considering how tight and thematically consistent season 1 was#let's see where act 3 goes but... i kinda have a bad feeling about it ngl#obv im glad others are enjoying it and this is just my opinion! also a lot of this are probs just my personal tastes anyway#arcane spoilers
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Hey, I was wondering if you create headcannons for the Blush Blush boys. If so, I was wondering 👀
Can you describe how any of the immortal characters (Stirling, Seth, Reece?, Aki, Haru, Fuyu) would react if their SO/MC/Love interest reincarnates after they die of old age for example?
I’m a huge fan of reincarnation x immortal stuff, cause it gives off a happy ending and hope that their love will never die even if they’re reborn in a different time💖
I wanna start at the top by saying I think all of them freak out at least a little bit when they see their long dead lover seemingly up and alive again
I'll get into each one individually but needless to say, it's a bit of a shock to the lot of them
also I did a thing about The Immortals dealing with your death (that I will but a link to here later but right now I can't be bothered to shift through my many bullshit posts to find it atm OOPS SORRY)
(ps: love your stuff btw!!! <3 )
STARTING OFF
Stirling:
I think he's gone through this too many times and loves the drama of it all too much to ever have him claim that he will never love again after you (at least not forever)
but suffice it to say he doesn't think he'll ever have a love like you again in any of his life times worth of living he has left to get through
he also didn't become a vampire to kick the bucket quickly nor does he think he'll be headed in the same direction as you when he eventually does so he's in no particular hurry to 'follow you' as it were
so he has made his peace with forever longing for you and eternally mourning your passing a little bit all the time
until one day he happens to spot
well
you
I mean it can't be you but he knows that face
he knows that body
that aura, that smile
it's definitely you
your face was probably in the crowd at one of his competitions
he did loose points for how he fumbled when he clocked you
(but he still won don't get it twisted)
I think the moment his routine is done he b-lines it to his dressing room then directly to go find 'you'
he does find you in a crowd and nervously and suddenly asks if you'd like to go for dinner with him
like
now
right now.
how bout it??
you tentatively say yes and you two end up having the most awkward dinner of either of your lives
he's trying so hard not to flip out cause it's definitely you but also it can't be
can it????
BUT YOU WERE DEAD
he slowly begins to romance you
the new you
which is a lot like the old you
I think he's the handsome yet mysterious man who is romancing you and he doesn't fully let anything slip until one night you stay over and you find a painting of what is definitely but also so not you on the wall
cue him finding you staring at it and accidentally scaring you
only to calm you down then explain the whole sorted mess
and how he believes you are the reincarnation of his lover
I think no matter what there's going to be some push and pull moving forward
he has to decide if he loves you or just the idea of you that acts as some theoretical replacement for his great dead love
will there be a happy ending??
will love prevail??
can love continue on even after death??
only time will tell...
but he does not intend to give up on you that easily...
Seth:
you being reincarnated is actually his doing
against his best laid plans, you didn't end up in hell with him when you died
I think he could only stand it for a few months before he called in a favor and got your soul entered into the reincarnation program
that DOES mean he'll have to wait 18+ years to even attempt to make a move
and also that you won't remember him
or much if anything of your previous life
which means there's a 50/50 toss up that you'll be happily taken when he can actually find you again
he doesn't watch over you as you grow cause that's too creepy
but he does put some lesser demons/spirits to keep an eye on you and keep you safe
he doesn't want to have to start this process all over again
nor does he know how many otherworldly favors he can rely on for this
I think he 'randomly' bumps into you one day when you're old enough and he starts flirting and asks you out
I think whether or not he tells you about the whole deal will depend on how things play out
he doesn't necessarily see the need to but on the other hand
maybe it's worth you knowing
also it's the biggest romantic move he ever pulled
also honesty is nice in a relationship
but all in all it's just nice to have you back again
where he can see and hold and kiss you
also he probably had to call in a favor just to get to the mortal realm in the first place
idk he's burning a lot of big favors for this meet cute to go down but it's worth it
Reece:
I think with Reece it's less of a reincarnation and more an alt time line version of you
one where you never met and you got to live your life without it being crash landed into by a space traveling cat boy
I think at first he meant to keep his distance
you're not HIS you after all
but he couldn't help but watch you just
exist
for a bit
he missed you
and I think one thing lead to another and he ended up bumping into you and you gave him that cute smile and he didn't mean to but he heard himself asking you for coffee before he could give it a second thought
and then before he could give it a second word you had said yes
and then he was just over come with joy cause you said yes to a date so excitedly and quickly
it all kinda just
happened
I think you have a wonderful first date and he spends most of it working up the courage to tell you everything and also just enjoying the date
but towards the end of it he finally fesses up
you guys had done all this before
well, a different version of you in another timeline/universe
but all the same
he has already gone down this road
and now he's just doing it again cause it's hard for him to stay away from you
but you are gone
were gone
are
in his version of things anyway
and this was fun but maybe...
maybe it should end here
one last night
where he got to tell you goodbye
(with a kiss)
but this is Definitely Not Dr Who bby--- something crazy happens at the end and the goodbyes are put on hold while you two go on Just This One crazy space adventure (that is totally not just this one lol)
CUE THE DOCTOR WHO THEME BEING PLAYED ON THAT CAT PIANO!
Aki:
OOO BOY IS THIS DUDE IN DENIAL
no grace, no decorum, no hesistation
he sees your face in a crowd and runs up and hugs you and begins to tear up as he says how much he missed you
meanwhile you are in the iron grip of big excitable fox man (time has past since your death and he's grown some) whom you definitely don't know and also he's calling you bunny
you try to tell him he's got the wrong person sorry
BUT HE IS HEARING NONE OF IT
cue him telling you all about your lives together and talking you to the home of the autumn clan and doing anything and everything to desperately rejog your memories
if you do get your memories back then commence Aki's great romance two electric boogaloo
but if you can't then he will get so heart broken
he'll ask you to still stay
let him learn the new you
let him show you the him you forgot
let him love you again
please don't leave him
(if you do decide to leave low key Aki will follow you and try to check in on you from time to time)
(if not out right sneak stalk you)
(please accept his feelings reincarnated love-chan)
Haru:
shocked, stunned, shook
he sees your face from across the bar and he can't believe it
like actually he can't believe it
he ends up staring for a really long time
then he's just watching you from different spots around the bar
getting better looks at different angles
keeping the biggest eye on you and drinking you in
yep
it's definitely you
but it can't be
they must just look like you
a lot like you
like exactly
must be a distant relatives
genetics are crazy
or maybe you had a love child...???
NO.
no no no no
you were Haru's loyal mate until the day you died
you wouldn't
and even if you did, you def would've invited him to the threesome
(one of the reasons he loved you so much)
whatever
he must be so drunk out of his mind and crazy lonely that he's seeing shit
whatever, they're hot and he could use a you substitute in his bed (not like he's had many people in his bed after you anyway-- too heart broken)
so fuck it, fuck them (like, in the sex way not the angry way)
so he goes up and starts hitting on them and when they turn around
oh no
they're definitely you
right down to the look they're giving him
I won't lie, he panics and bolts
he can't stop freaking out about last night all the next day
so he goes to that bar again and low and behold there you are again
Haru can't tell if he's relieved or more panicked by that
but still he has to dig some more
so he goes back over, trying the whole time not to absolutely loose it
gives you some line about being overcome by your beauty which is why he left in a panic haha
but seriously he'd love to get dinner with you sometime, here's his number, give him a call
oh also what's your name
he again can't tell if he's happy or freaked when you do actually call
he spends the whole dinner gently prying for info and just generally vibe checking to see if they're like his dead lover
and they really are
they definitely look it
and thus begins Haru's new torment of being so fucking CONFLICTED
he's so freaked that it's like you're alive again but also so happy to have you by his side
I think there's a lot of push and pull until he spills the beans
and then even more after he does
this is about to be the messiest relationship of Haru's life
which is saying something
BUT HE CAN'T NOT, IT'S YOU
Fuyu:
Fuyu bumps into you by chance and he's the most torn up about it of the lot of them
and visibly so too, he can't hide his feelings on this even a little bit
I think he is the quickest to tell you the whole thing
and also he calls you by the name of your past life (which may or may not be your name now)
he really does believe you are his heavenly gift sent back to him because your love is so fated
he takes some time getting used to
it's actually funny, this is the exact opposite of who you two were the first time
he's so unbelievably open to you from the word go
he bares his heart and feelings so much
you look so much like yourself before you left him, he can't help it
you were his safe place that he let all his walls down around
he can't put them back up now
his heart is beating open and bloody for you
he doesn't try and play it cool, he doesn't beat around the bush
he let's you know who you were to him
ARE to him
and asks you to be his once again
steam rolling you with love
and then waiting 'patiently' (not patient, he's sitting by like a puppy who wants a bite of your food) for you answer
it's quite a situation you find yourself in, isn't it
#bear text#blush blush game#blush blush#bear talks#bb game#sad panda studios#kitsune bundle#haru#fuyu#aki#reece#seth#stirling#I won't lie so--- the takahashi inspired haru fic I have brewing DOES involve a massive time jump but surprisingly DOESN'T involve#reincarnations even though YOU'D THINK IT WOULD given the style of show it's directly inspired by lol#dead ass tho everytime Inuyasha is still torn cause he's pining over Kikyo like BRUH#I get she didn't mean to kill you originally but she's now fully aware of what's going on and she's still trying to kill you and Kagome lik#a handful of times I know the first love is the deepest but she's also a walking corpse and at some point ya gotta let it go my guy#y'all were sweet and shit but too much has happened and also you low key have a new girl who looks just like your ex like--- just#side note the og ranma was taken off d plus while I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF WATCHING IT and now I'm basically fucked I'm so SAD
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Time was at a standstill. Vegas was holding his breath without noticing, and continued to hold it when he did - he was afraid of what would happen if he exhaled loudly enough to draw attention to himself. His gaze was shifting between Pete and the man who was standing before them in the doorway, blocking their entrance. Vegas had never seen him before, but even so, he recognized Pete in him enough to know who he was. A dangerous aura surrounded him. There was an edge to his presence that Vegas would only come across people of certain circles. He was a fighter. A muay khao. Pete's father. Shame coursed through Vegas' body, smearing his skin, settling in his lungs, rendering him speechless. I thought he was dead, he wanted to tell Pete if he could. He wanted to scream at him, I thought you killed him. Pete was the one who broke the stillness. As if awakened by something, he took a half-step back and made a motion with his arms, almost raising them to his chest, but not quite. In an instant, Pete reverted into the pet Vegas had been keeping at the safehouse, bound by handcuffs and afraid of his belt hitting flesh and drawing blood. A lump formed in Vegas' throat. "Have you stopped practicing? Your form is off." The uncanny similarities between Pete and his father appearance-wise didn't mean a thing when it came to their voices. Vegas shivered. Was this what Pete would sound like in a few decades? (Were these the condescending words he'd choose to spew? Was Pete going to embody his father? Was Vegas embodying his?) "What are you doing here?" Pete whispered. "They let me out for a few days, so I came here to collect some money. Imagine my surprise when I found out my offspring left the job someone found him worthy enough of doing to... do what exactly? Yaai didn't want to tell me." He crossed his arms, waiting for an answer. Vegas didn't know what he was allowed to say. If he was allowed to say anything at all. "It's none of your business." "I'd say it very much is my business, as well as yaai's business who was dependent on the money you were making being some rich asshole's human shield." A choked sound scratched Vegas' throat. He didn't like getting reminded of Pete being the main family's bodyguard, even though he stopped being one mere months ago. Especially like this. That was the first time Pete's father stopped looking at his son and turned his head to look at Vegas. For a moment, there seemed to be recognition in his eyes. Did he know who Vegas was? Did he care? A snort came out of his mouth. He leaned on the door. "Oh, I see how it is." He laughed, scratched his neck. "I never expected you to whore yourself out for money. Tell me, is it preferable to the path I carved out for you?" Vegas could sense the disgust in his voice. He could also see it on Pete's face. He was too astonished to share it, but not enough to be unable to speak. "Khun, there has been some misunderstanding-" "Don't bother. I can recognize a faggot when I see one." Pete's movements were too fast for Vegas to stop him. A direct jab to the nose; his father fell like a pack of cards, groaning like a wounded animal. Surprisingly, no blood - Pete held back. Vegas didn't know what to think about that. "That was a pathetic attack, even for you." "Get up." "We're not in the ring, son." Pete growled. Vegas could see his hands trembling as he was keeping them in the air, maintaining an offensive stance. "That never stopped you before." "You were too young to understand what I was doing back then. What I was preparing you for." Pete was silent. "The world isn't kind. It'll fuck you over one way or another." He got up, spat on the ground. "You still haven't learned a thing. You're too old to afford being naive." He turned around, and without sparing a look at Pete again, said: "Now get the fuck out of my house." (For @musictooth, whose posts about Pete's father have reignited my passion for this specific concept and for @wretchedamaranth, whose comments on my writing are always lovely and precious ❤️)
#tw slur#vegaspete#pete saengtham#snippet#yu is writing#I started writing this today while waiting for my bus to arrive and wrote most of it on public transport <33#(hopefully it doesn't show lol)#there's a lot of context missing here but basically: VP visit yaai and a wild father appears#I didn't have space to include her unfortunately but just imagine her in the background with a sad look on her face#which is mostly fixed on Vegas :))#for no reason at all :))#due to a certain someone who I won't name (😤) I mayyy turn this into a fic? Maybe?#because 1. I did have a similar idea a year or so ago but never did anything with it and 2. this concept NEEDS to be explored more come on#because in my mind Vegas and Pete can't go to yaai's house until/unless Pete's father leaves#all their stuff is in her house#and they only have Vegas' car with which they traveled there#and Bangkok is too far away to go back now in the middle of the night (yes this happens at night time)#so basically what I'm saying is: VP will spend their night in the car :)#I'm sure the combination of an agitated Pete and a tired Vegas who's also equating Pete with his father due to their external similarities#will be a delightful experience for them both#I'm vibrating out of my skin just thinking about it#can I promise I'll write it and put it out there? Hell no#can I still get excited by the prospect of it happening? Hell yes#sorry I'm rambling a little too much over here#I just haven't felt this good writing in MONTHS#thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed it <3333
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liko and roy
#pokemon#liko#roy#art#fanart#my art#i have A LOT of feelings about this#first off in a way i'm glad we're getting new protags bc i feel like ash has done everything but also#seeing ash go is makes me really sad#he has been with me since i was a kid and now he's going away...#i'm glad they ended things while they were good ig#i'm not MEGA sad bc there's over 20 years of content with him but still#i hope at least that ash still somehow will be in the new anime#i think it would be really fun if he was all grown up#ANYWAY sorry for all the rambling#i'm very sad and happy
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if you have a good vibe/kind thought to spare and could send it my way. i'd really appreciate it.
#saying goodbye to my friend murphy tomorrow#i'll be okay. it's the right decision and i'll get through.#life is just going to be really hard and sad for a while#i don't want to talk about it in any detail but i feel like i have to say it out loud#and i have this paranoid anxiety thought that's like if I don't tell people he's gone they will ask about him#snd I won't be able to handle that for a little while#I don't need acknowledgment or sympathy. I don't need to talk to anyone. I don't need cheer-up fodder#so no need to send me anything or talk to me about it really i promise#just if you can take a second to love and appreciate the animals in your life. that would be really nice.#you don't have to tell me about it it would just be nice to feel there's love out there#writing this all out is making me feel so stupid. i've deleted and rewritten several times#but i gotta because it would be a lot worse if i was worrying about not talking about it#so yeah. no need for likes or comments or dms or asks or anything. just give someone some love for me ok?#murphy is the senior yellow lab you may have seen me post pics of sometimes. he's my parents' dog but he's my buddy.#and he's gotten me through a lot. like a lot a lot#and i'm going to miss the hell out of him#and i'm so worried about my parents. they're going to have a much worse time than me.#and they don't need anything else on their plates right now#it's just everything you know?#and all at the same time too. 2024 has been just one gut punch after the other#so yeah. if you could give your pet a hug or a treat or a scratch or take them on their favorite walk. that would be awesome#this was good actually typing all this nonsense out helped a little. still don't want to talk about it but at least i have ideas for#the 'leave me the fuck alone' email i'm going to send everyone tomorrow at work
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Me watching the prequel movies: "Padme's alright, but she's kind of boring and I don't care for her that much."
Me watching Clone Wars: "Padme Amidala could dropkick me, step on my neck, and spit in my face, and I would thank her. She is so cool and smart and I want to be her and also maybe be her assistant. She's a savvy politician who believes in peace but is not afraid to shoot a bitch if needed. Revenge of the Sith Anakin doesn't deserve her."
#star wars#star wars prequels#star wars the clone wars#sw tcw#padme amidala#sw prequels#sw padme#literally did not give a shit about her while watching the movies#then i watched the show and oh my god she is amazing#every time there was a padme episode i absolutely loved it and had an amazing time#actual girlboss#also now i can actually understand why she was so loyal to anakin even when he became a trainwreck#their relationship was imperfect but actually really sweet and i saw the chemistry#they felt like a power couple sometimes and really balanced each other out#and while anakin always had some aggressive tendencies#i understand how padme would be caught off guard and still love him/think she can change him#she's seen him at some of his low points and he bounced back so how is this different and why is he acting different?#it's actually really sad#i didn't care when she died while watching the prequels#but when i watched the show i'd suddenly feel really upset because i'd remember what's going to eventually happen to her#this strong and amazing woman would die of grief while giving birth after her husband betrayed her and that was heartbreaking#and then years later her planet would be destroyed by that very husband she had once loved so dearly#god damn it now i'm sad
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This. This. This entire conversation with Morrigan actually makes me want to sob. She and my Tabris always becomes close friends over the course of DAO; that, paired with the fact that my Tabris always romances Alistair, makes everything about this hurt so much more when you take DAO's ending into account.
Her confusion over why my Tabris didn't send her away. Why she didn't abandon her after they learned of Flemeth's plans. Why Tabris went out of her way to slay Flemeth and bring her the true grimoire. She asks Tabris why, and is baffled when the answer is, "I did it because I'm your friend," as if it's that simple.
The way Morrigan looks at the warden, the way her voice cracks when she says, "I want you to know that while I may not always prove... worthy... of your friendship, I will always value it."
She knows how this will end; Flemeth sent her with the wardens with the end goal of stopping the blight and obtaining the old god soul through the dark ritual. Morrigan knows that Alistair and Tabris are the only Grey Wardens here, and assuming they don't find more, one of them will have to die defeating the archdemon unless they agree to do the dark ritual.
With that context, her asking Alistair, "And what if a Grey Warden has forced to choose between the Warden he loved and ending the Blight? What should his choice be?" suddenly has so much subtext weaved through the words that I'm gonna start foaming at the mouth. She's practically telling Alistair that a warden has to die. She's scrutinizing his reaction to find any hint that suggests he would agree to the dark ritual in order to save himself and the woman he loves. And when he doesn't choose, she has her answer.
Morrigan made comments to Tabris about him, almost hopeful that their relationship was just a physical thing between them and not actually riddled with feelings... and then gives disapproval when Tabris says she loves him.
She doesn't want the warden to die; hell, she doesn't want Alistair to die, either; whether because she does actually care about him or because she knows it'll break her friend's heart if she loses him, or both!
Things would be so much easier if the only two Grey Wardens left to defeat the blight didn't fall in love, wouldn't they, Morrigan?
She knows that in the end, no matter the outcome, she will lose the woman she called sister and it's devastating.
Morrigan, who has never known true friendship. Who grew up isolated in the woods with an abusive mother and terrible implications for her future. Who discovered said mother planned to take over her body just as she did with her other daughters. Who doesn't understand kindness as it was rarely given to her without a catch. Who isolates herself from the others in camp. Who finally has a companion she cares about... and in the end, if her plan works and the dark ritual is completed, she'll end up pregnant and alone and wearing Tabris' resentment like a tender wound on her heart.
Or Tabris will reject the ritual, and will die to the archdemon.
Or her lover will.
I just- the dynamic between the warden, romanced Alistair, and Morrigan is so good and painful and rich that I'm gnawing on furniture as we speak.
#dragon age origins#dao#alistair theirin#dao alistair#dao morrigan#dao tabris#warden tabris#i'm replaying dao right now in case my recent written posts haven't made that obvious#the relationship dynamics the warden has with each of the companions is so so soooo good like there isn't a companion i dislike#i play into the slow burn with alistair's romance but it's not even just the romance aspect it's also their friendship too#playing dao and not romancing alistair would feel wrong at this point for me it's so crucial to the entire story and its development#and i love morrigan's friendship with the warden and how gutted tabris is when she comes clean about everything and offers the ritual#and then bails once everything is over and tabris is torn between hating her and feeling hurt and not wanting morrigan to be alone again#i talked more in depth about morrigan and the ritual in a previous post but it's a lot... especially when it comes to the witch hunt dlc#oh and then there's the friendship between tabris and zevran like don't even get me started on that sksksks i won't be able to stop#even a character like oghren who is the last person you'd think tabris would ever become friends with since he's y'know *oghren*#but i'll go on the record and say there's more to oghren that gets overlooked and overshadowed by his glaring flaws#and i don't wanna talk about leliana... she makes me too sad like ever since my last playthrough where i accidentally triggered her romance#while i was deep in alistair's romance i have a really hard time not reading into the things she says to tabris#in my last playthrough i dunno what i did but she confessed to tabris even though she was fully aware that tabris and alistair were togethe#and it was a *mess* okay like it really felt like we killed marjolaine and leliana was in a vulnerable position yet was hardened enough#to be like 'i know she and alistair are together but i'll take my shot anyway and attempt to break them up' like.... noooooo leliana D:#and the rest of the game it felt like she was bitter and still in love with tabris and i felt *horrible*#i just said i don't wanna talk about it but hhhnnngggg i'm taking extra precautions to not have a repeat of that this time#excuse my tag ramblings i'm just very passionate about dao and the companions okay#also want to note that this is my interpretation of morrigan's motivations based on how i play the game and my warden#so others might view this reaction and the warden/romanced alistair/morrigan dynamic differently and in that case#i would be interested to hear that different interpretations because those are always fun to read
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