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i have an urge to go to italy, suddenly. perhaps naples. nobody ask me why
#now that I’m thinking about it I’ve never actually been#actually now I’m thinking about it even more…..why the fuck have I not been to most places#why do i say yes to Spain but no to Croatia#unless it’s a typical ‘holiday’ country…..I don’t go#do you want to visit Spain for the 14th time? absolutely I do. do you want to go to Italy just one time? kill hourself
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one of the most infuriating things in this world is having a visitor that's outstaying his welcome. OH MY GOD LEAVE. PLEASE LEAVE. Like I'm about to beg on my knees "please you're occupying my bed my bedroom my bathroom for over a month!!! over a month!!! and I have to take it all silently with a smile!!!!! don't u have a house? GO BACK TO YOUR HOUSE!!! GO HOME FOR GODS SAKE"
#my brother is visiting from spain#“visiting”#he's fucking occupying my bedroom for over a month#i have to share a bed with my dad and with my other brother that likes to ducking sleep HORIZONTALLY ON THE BED#he keeps KICKING ME OUT#and now the motherfucker somehow managed to take a FIFTY MINUTE SHOWER ON THE ONLY FUNCTIONING BATHROOM#MY BATHROOM#LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE#GO HOME PLS#lile ppl have routines I NEED TO TAKE MY SHOWER#GO AWAY#i cant stand it anymore#and he's made a fucking mess all over the place#like an actual mess as in leaving his lugagge sprawled all over the floor#i hate it here LEAVE#like he keeps the ac on 24/7 despite knowing our dad's struggling financially and that's gonna hike up the light bill#like omg#SE MANCA
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I keep drinking coffee thinking it's gonna make me Productive and then instead of doing the work I actually have to do I just compulsively make spreadsheets :(
#my homework is. not done#but!!! i just realized if i take 2 spanish classes i can have a russian/spanish major instead of just russian#(it's complicated but this would leave me with: double major languages and history with a joint major in asian middle east studies)#(plus a minor in religious studies and concentration in islamicate studies)#first i gotta: relearn spanish for like the third time#but it's ok i'm hopping thru spain in less than a month so i should proooobably do that anyway#man when i was touring colleges my mom was like really dismissive about the idea of double majoring and now i'm here like#How Many Things Can I Stack Up To Get Big Number On Transcript#aaaaaaaand because of ames requirements i did the dumb thing and ended up learning persian while my spanish is still kinda iffy#итак совершилося то что я пытался предотвратить as they say#so i'm just gonna have to study two languages at once next semester... or just keep going thru the cycle of relearning them abt every year#my russian is a big girl it can survive on its own but i now gotta feed the babiessssss#tho ig what this kinda cyclically learning and forgetting spanish has taught me is like#languages are less like babies and more like those lil desert plants that wither up when they don't have any water#they might look dead but they're nearly impossible to kill completely#and will bounce right back after a lil care n patience. i just gotta like.... water em#the one thing standing in my way is ideological opposition to my spanish textbook#i have to pay $200 for access to a *website*#*i don't even get a book just a shitass ebook*#but it's ok one of the spanish profs likes me i think? i think she would let me skip the intro lit class#only problem is it was Genuinely Hard for me to follow along when i audited advanced lit... 90% of the class was heritage speakers#tho ig like. having taken a class meant for native russian speakers should help w learning to survive that kinda thing#genuinely i think i can do it#just gotta make that my goal. study. do it for zapata#and if i wanna go into translating... having good spanish should help right? like if i finally get b2 spanish?#yeah. if i could do kazakh history for native russian speakers i can do spanish lit for heritage spanish speakers. it's equivalent enough#but ok i'm gonna visit my buddy in spain who did nearly the exact same shitass majors combination as me#tho i think he did spanish/arabic for his language major and just Happens To Also Be Fluent In Russian cuz he's Like That#it's ok he's two years older than me i have two years to become that cool#he can tell me what to do
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Another Stray Kids tour, another one when they don't even mention Spain
All that talk about loving El Clasico and how sexy the spanish language, but we can only see Franchute and London, aye?
#fuck them#i love them#but what the fuck?#don't hispanic stays exist for them or what?#it's always Paris this and Paris that#and now London too#i won't say anything about Italy because they're our cousins and i'm happy for them#but are you fucking kidding me?#if they actually visit all of those but don't even come near Spain even for a SINGLE trip#i'm out#stray kids#skz#skz 2024 tour#i'm sick of seeing all the frenchies and london stays posting shit about it#and if they have spare time for any activity or holidays it's always Paris#i'm done#stray kids tour
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Something nice happened to me that i want to share I work in a cafe and last week there was this older woman that came in but she only spoke Spanish and was struggling to communicate that she wanted coffee with milk so I told her that I'm learning Spanish and she was so happy I understood her it made my entire day... And then she came back every single morning to get coffee and she would ask me questions to help me practice speaking 😭😭❤️❤️❤️
She also came back with her grandson and daughter one afternoon and her daughter asked me if I'm the one learning Spanish because she told her about me and how happy she was someone understood her and they complimented my spanish and I could cry forever about it it was just the sweetest thing ever waagh :(( 💥💗💗💥💥💗💥💗💗💥💥
#she went back to spain cuz she was only visiting for 2 weeks but now her daughter gets coffee here sometimes :') its so nice#also my coworkers were super impressed with me it was so awesome#anyway it was nice and made me happy and i wanted to share that dont mind me
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i realized. by july i'll have been on all PIGS countries 😳😳😳😳
#my pigs i love you <33333#for the uninitiated#PIGS = Portugal Italy Greece Spain#AND I WILL VISIT ALL FOUR IN THE SAME YEAR#I JUST REALISED THAT AS WELL#cause right now i'm in italy#i live in spain so.#i'm going to the eras tour in portugal next month#and now i have this summer course in greece#i have collected them all#someone give me my prize please
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never forget when I was in the peak of hating my friend's girlfriend (named martina) but I was also in my hardcore techno phase and I was listening to always hardcore by bodylotion and was like 'let's look at the discography let's see what other songs they have' so I clicked on a random EP and. there it was.....
#then i showed it to my other friend and we danced to it in her room. a beautiful moment#god i think my friend is STILL with her even though she's the worst#she would always threaten to kill herself every time he like. chose to spend time with his friends instead of her or something#and he's still with her#luckily she's from spain and he's from here and uni's done so they've been apart for months#but i have this horrid feeling she's here now#seen some suspicious things on her story and i dread to think she might be in the country. bc that means she's either visiting or#living with him#i guess I'll find out in a few weeks when i see him at our gig#god i hope she's not there she brings down the vibe so badly#okay stop rambling#ramble#suicide tw
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creating your own fantasy world is soo fun because you can pick your inspirations. and you can choose there will be NO fantasy france and NO fantasy britain but maybe there will be islamic era spain and cowboys. and 15th-17th century polish aristocracy. whatever you want !!!
#maybe even beautfil country of ireland but id need to do a looot of research#as ive never been there and dont know the vibes#im gonna have to study islamic era spain/portugal/whatever but for history . cuz ive been there and know the vibes#well i didnt time travel. i visited old buildings now
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christ i'm finally home. thank gd
#sasha speaks#i wanna talk about me#rehearsal in the morning#then i discovered that my phone is. broken. very distressingly so#the back is popping off because the battery is bulging. very Not Good#so i had to make an unplanned visit to the phone store...#spent like thirty very stressful minutes on call with phone insurance to file a claim.#good news is they're sending me a replacement and it'll be here monday#so i don't have to scramble being phoneless for very long. and i'll definitely have it ready for spain next weekend#which is really the important thing...i need my phone to travel sorry#but gd. i'm wiped#i haven't had much to eat today i've just been going nonstop since close to 8#well i have an iced chai and a pastry now. and i'm chillin.#all my roommates and a bunch of their friends are out at pride rn#it was pretty neat seeing so many people out on the metro and around the city all decked out for pride today tbh#lots of colors and hair/face paint and funky outfits#i would go if i wasn't so tired. and bad with crowds#but. gah. enough excitement for one day i just want to sit in front of a screen for a bit...#shoutout to my 6'1 skinny straight white man roommate tho and his mustache he dyed rainbow for pride tho
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I just had a really lovely day today!
#i did no work! which was fantastic but means that I have work to do tomorrow#i went climbing which was fantastic#got to see all my climbing friends as well and catch up#we went out for lunch and ate a mango in the park!#then we ran into one of our other friends from climbing and chatted with him which was lovely#he was with his cousin who was visiting so we ended up talking to his cousin#who was super sweet! and called me and two of my friends very charismatic which was incredible#then I went home showered and then went out to see my friend#we got a bit of dinner and then went to our friends' big joint birthday party#where I had such a fun time!#got to catch up with some of my friends who i hadn't seen in ages#ate a kitkat#made friends with new people!#also got asked if I was Asian like five different times which was a little weird because I'm not lol#took a bunch of cute photos with friends#screamed along to karaoke#and then I was hanging out with this guy who I'd met before but we'd never really talked and we had a lovely conversation#got to hear all the drama from this friend of mine!#he is soo dramatic but low-key with good reason#the guy he liked told him that he also liked him and then a month later said sorry I've met somebody else let me tell you all about him#and then at the end of the night this friend came up to me and just 'quiero coger'#but I was thinking Spain Spanish and so said 'coger que'#so then he said 'no quiero chingar'#and finally i was like 'ah gotcha but you should say joder instead '#anyway all in all lovely lovely time#now I have to write my personal statement and do a ton of work 😭#darkeyedghost
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the kids at the school i work at invited the other auxiliary to go with them to granada but not me lol
#the one place i want to visit while here in spain#idk why they asked her and not me#but she came with me to ask the teacher organizing it if i could go to and he said no#lol#:)#thats fine whatever#what do i even do now
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All of the Ren Lore i’ve compiled from his single player series and old streams
Favorite meal is roast lamb and roast potatoes
Has an ex-girlfriend
Hates One Direction
Was on a boating team in high school
His mother’s first cat’s name was Ebony
His single player world started in 1.2
Ren’s favorite language is Spanish
Ren has been to Spain several times
His brother had a dog named Rorschach
Ren’s favorite armor set in the original Diablo was the Moon set
Ren and his brother used to have to shower/bath together, then dry off infront of an electric fireplace. Through a series of events, young Ren got his butt stuck to the glass pane of the electric fireplace, and has had a scar on his butt since.
Ren has said “I always think about [Ren’s brother’s username] when I think about my butt”
Ren knows how to do a cats cradle
Ren used to have frosted tips
Ren’s favorite commander deck is Kraum/Tymna
Ren got kicked in the literal butthole by a horse
Ren likes burning things
Ren created a rigged marble slot machine in high school
Went on an introspection journey, visiting all the places he lived and all his jobs pre-YouTube
Did the insane thing of asking the lady who was now living in his first house if he could go inside and check out his old room
Ren had a patreon tier where he’d sent his patrons a “Ren Crate”, a lootcrate full of stuff
Ren doesn’t drink (anymore)
Officially has OCD
Ren loves apple juice
Ren loves driving games
Event manager for The Deftones once
Plays MtG on Sundays
Ren wants to retire with Doc
Ren’s wants his spirit animal to be a shark
Ren’s favorite book series is LotR
Ren is “below-average hairy”
Ren’s favorite season is Autumn
Ren’s birthday is October 11th
Ren is a slut for tiramisu and ice cream
Ren wants to open an LGS/tabletop cafe
Ren is not a religious person
Ren worked in a seedy pool bar
Ren almost got an upper back tattoo
Ren loves green tea
Ren is Left Handed
Ren was at one point a vegetarian for several years
Ren has lost his wallet multiple times, once leaving it on a train
Ren eats a whole lemon every day, and drinks lemon juice straight from the lemon
Ren got in trouble at boarding school for “trying to summon demons”. He was just playing MtG.
Ren has had a pair of lucky underwear since he was 18
Ren’s favorite ice cream is strawberry
Ren loved getting aggressively physical in rugby
Ren loves cinnamon buns
Ren used to have super long butt-length hair
Ren really liked playing with fireworks when he was younger. They’d bury huge ones in the sand near their house to make craters.
Ren loves Love Island
Ren can only sleep on his arm
Wears exclusively Star Wars socks and has matching pajamas
Beat Gabriel Nasif in a Magic Grand Prix
Ren hates Oysters
Ren’s favorite dog breed is a chihuahua??
Ren’s favorite dnd class is bard
Ren enjoys cleaning the bathroom the most out of any room
Ren’s favorite musical is Les Miserables
Ren has a favorite kitchen knife, and used to cook a lot.
Ren’s favorite tool is the hoe (of course)
Ren and Iskall used to play League
Never farts irl
born in the same city as J R R Tolkien
Ren named his first car Maximus
Ren is a bath person
Natural Mace Race runner
Ren really likes pet rats
Ren has a very consistent shopping day of tuesday
Ren has an extremely strict sleep schedule
Ren has 7 pairs of the same pajamas to wear 24/7
Ren has a BA in English
Ren does 100 push-ups a day
Ren does a 15k bike ride every day
Ren had a max weight of 110 kilos, is now down to 80
Ren uses youtube in light mode
Ren has seen Metallica live
Ren wore fake glasses in college
Ren has 20/20 vision
Ren has been in plays during school, and blinded the lead with glitter accidentally during one of them, trying to spice up his one line.
Ren has a “black book” of atleast 9 board game ideas
Ren gets pretty motion sick
Ren enjoys mosh pits
Ren really likes competitive monopoly and risk
Ren burned his eyebrows off with a bunson burner once
Ren still cries at The Lion King
Ren plays Ornn, Urgot, and Tristana in League
Ren was allegedly born in 1982
Ren drunk-puked into his shirt in a german taxi the night he met Doc infront of the people sponsoring them
Ren drives stick shift and loves it
Ren thinks he might have a gluten allergy
Ren puts butter in his coffee
Ren tried to write a YA fantasy novel, got 80k words in before scrapping it
Ren would like to live with Keralis hypothetically out of any of the hermits
Ren’s favorite superhero is wolverine
#rendog#head empty only rendog#that’s the only tags i’m doing#no one needs to know i’m recording this#no one official anyway#I’m loving reading your tags#hermitcraft
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Pros: Mom said she canceled the Spain trip after talking with her sister, and I don't think she's lying. Maybe 80% sure she's not lying.
Cons: Mom is using her canceling the Spain trip as an excuse to resume badgering my sister to let her come up for my nephew's surgery, insisting her vertigo attacks and how she kept trying to stand during them weren't 'that stressful' for my sister and didn't 'make that much more work" for her (they did).
I was trying to do a concise summary of why I'm angry at my mom but it was something like five paragraphs long so long story short, my mom's had multiple health issues this year that had her end up in the hospital three times (possibly more, I feel like I'm forgetting one). She's also currently recovering from cracked ribs and a broken lumbar and pneumonia in late August. Despite this, she's convinced she should still do an international trip in November. (Nevermind the last two times she's traveled abroad she's ended up in the hospital).
My sister and aunt keep telling her not to do it and giving her a list of reasons it's a terrible idea. She keeps waffling on whether or not she'll cancel. Today, she told me she told them she'd canceled but hadn't decided yet, and that I shouldn't tell them. I told her I wasn't doing this and hung up.
The conversation deteriorated from there.
Mom said she didn't deserve that. I said my sister and aunt didn't deserve her ignoring all their concerns and then telling me to lie to them. She said it wasn't lying, just not telling them, and that I always assume the worst of her.
Furious at her. Every time she has a health flare or ends up in the hospital, it makes all of us sick with stress, and she keeps trying to brush it off or act like it isn't a big deal or we're making mountains out of molehills. Meanwhile I spent last night telling my sister she wasn't a bad daughter for telling mom not to come out for my nephew's surgery next month because the last time mom visited she had three severe vertigo attacks and almost fell (again). I don't think she realizes just how angry all of us are about it, or how selfish it is for her to act like family members being scared she'll end up in the hospital for the 4th (fourth) time this year is irrational.
#i don't really care about the spain trip#I care that she keeps ignoring boundaries and not listening to people#which is exactly what she's doing with my sister right now#like would the trip to spain have been a terrible idea and almost definitely resulted in her injuring herself? yes#is she just as likely to injure herself flying to visit my sister or when she visits her brother in December? also yes!
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hi, nishi!!
first off, congrats again for 300 followers!
so, for the event, my character will be: itoshi sae.
flavor: spicy
add ons: topping 1- eye contact. topping 2: best friend's brother.
thank you, and take your time.
ORDER 8: READY TO GO !
sae + spicy + eye contact + best friend's brother w.c. 800+
note. thank you ira 🤍 and thank you for your patience with this !! ik i've been slacking a little with my posting schedule, but i swear i'll prioritize the event fics from now on before posting other fics. (my own personal time-out 😞)
interested in more? check out the lounge !
stepping into the threshold of rin’s kitchen, the last person you had expected to see was sae.
as far as you were aware, he was still supposed to be in spain for another two weeks. but rin had a habit of never telling you when sae had a change of plans, when he was was back, and, much to your dismay, when he was coming over. that was simply up to you to find out, for yourself, whenever you visited.
like now.
sae’s standing just a few feet away from you, leaning on the counter as he sips on the remainder of his water, eyes staring off into the window across the room. he’s clad in a plain tee and sweats, waistband hanging unreasonably low on his hips and giving you a clear view of his v-line, and his hair is unruly from having just woken up— yet, somehow, he manages to pull the look off. a little too well, you note to yourself. he looks a little too good, and it almost feels like a sin to check him out so blatantly, like it’s a sin to be thinking such things about him. maybe it is, in a way.
you could already feel the pressure of rin’s judgemental stare, although not there physically, at the way you gawk openly at his brother. “gross, never call my brother ‘hot’ ever again,” his distant words echo somewhere in the back of your mind, reminding you that he’s not particularly fond of the idea of you cozying up with his brother. you had mentioned it in passing, once, as a joke, only to be met with distaste and a nasty side-eye. “it’s disturbing, so please, shut up.”
you should take that as a sign; you should leave, clear your mind, and go back to minding your own business. acting like you don’t care all that much about him, despite your painfully obvious attraction. unfortunately, you were never truly known for your acting. because as you’re about to turn away, about to spin on your heel and walk back to rin’s room, you freeze in place.
your gaze gets caught on the way his biceps flex under the thin material of his shirt, the lines becoming more defined as he brings his drink up to his lips. hook, line, and sinker— the way you can’t seem to look away, even for just a second. your eyes hike down and then up the line of his bicep, and then his forearm, and then the hand that’s gripping onto the glass. equally distracted by the veins that decorate the skin on his hand, prominent as his fingers stretch around the glass. you’re distracted by him, in his entirety.
you forget that you’re standing in his periphery, and the realization comes to you a second too late.
sae’s eyes flicker over to you once he notices your presence, scanning down the length of your body as he does a brief once-over of you, one of his brows quirking up at the way you linger awkwardly at the entrance of the kitchen. he’s still sipping his drink, lips pressed tightly against the glass, but his eyes remain locked onto yours. they’re passive, unreadable like always, digging into your skin uncomfortably as the two of you stand there in silence. neither daring to say a word, or maybe, just not knowing what to say.
you should feel embarrassed at the thought of having been caught, but you’re more flustered by the way he eyes you down. the weight of his stare is steady and intense, coupled with the dragging silence, and it makes you shift awkwardly on your feet. you’re about to clear your throat, come up with some lame excuse of forgetting what you needed from the kitchen, and booking it to rin’s room. but as your mouth opens to speak, sae cuts you off.
“nice outfit,” he says, voice low and even. you follow the way his eyes form a trail down your body, landing on the oversized shirt you were currently wearing. you can feel the way he lingers at the hem of your shirt, staring at the way it stops shy of your upper thighs. before they flick up back to meet your eyes, still passive, but now flickering with amusement?
you blink at him once, and then twice, and then a third time. “what?” you manage to sputter out, taken aback by the random compliment, feeling the surface of your skin burn from the way he had blatantly checked you out, too. but, also confused; you glance down at the shirt, noting that it was nothing worth complimenting. “uhm, thanks? rin lent them to me 'cause i spilled something on my clothes. they're comfy, at least."
the amusement flickers off into nothing, at your answer.
sae seems displeased, evident in the way he reacts to your words. he presses his lips together, and for a second, you see a flash of jealousy in his eyes. or maybe, it’s your delusions speaking. you’re not quite sure.
he gets up from where he was leaning on the counter, focused on you as he takes a tentative step towards you.
your feet stay locked in place as he closes the distance between the two of you with slow, calculating steps. “that’s my shirt you’re wearing, you know.” the jealousy in his tone is more apparent, putting emphasis on my and you’re, dragging the syllables on his tongue. "not rin's."
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#ᯓ★ nishi's dessert lounge .ᐟ#blue lock#bllk#blue lock x reader#bllk x reader#itoshi sae#itoshi sae x reader#sae itoshi#sae itoshi x reader#sae x reader
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“just because i got you a gift, doesn’t mean I like you” with alexia 🎄
secret santa ─ alexia putellas x reader
part of my christmas series. full masterlist here!
in which: a silly christmas tradition defrosts you and alexia's relationship
warnings: emotionally unavailable alexia is a warning on it's own
wc: 5.1k
a/n: probably one of my favs from the series. hope you enjoy!
Making the move to Barça a couple months ago was a much harder decision to take than some people might think. Admittedly, there are a lot of upsides to playing alongside the best players in the world. The standards are high, the training sessions are good, you're in better shape than you've ever been in and you're steadily growing your trophy cabinet. On the other hand, nothing was harder than leaving your family behind in England.
You grew up in London, a steady youth leading the way towards being picked up by the Arsenal academy, where you went through all the youth groups and eventually got picked for the first team. Everything seemed to be going well, you were playing a good amount of minutes, fitting right in to Arsenal's defensive line. The first couple years you couldn't imagine yourself ever playing for a different team than the Gunners, but an injury-ridden year completely changed that. It started with a few niggles that kept you out of the occasional game, but a couple months into the season you suffered a lateral ligament injury to your right ankle, keeping you out for the best part of 3 months. You tried your best to get back into the squad, but you felt like Arsenal had moved past you.
At 27, still one of the best defenders in the game, you let your agent know that you needed a change. It hadn't been easy for you to come to the conclusion that it was better to leave, but you weren't ready to give up on your career yet. Not when you were supposed to be in your peak years now. Endless meetings, phone calls, late night text messages and a lot of turmoil later, the perfect deal struck. You were starting to feel a bit hopeless in your position, so Barça's offer came at the perfect time.
They expressed how they thought you'd be a perfect fit in their defensive line. Standing tall at 5'7, your aerial threat was one of the things they voiced could be helpful to the team. The contract in itself was perfect. They offered you three years, good pay and they would help you with accommodating to Spain – housing, visa, finances, the club would take care of all of that so you could focus on settling in through your football.
It seemed like a no-brainer, but obviously there were two sides to the story. You were determined to get your career back on the right track, but leaving your family behind in England wasn't an easy decision to make. It took a lot of tearful hugs and heartfelt promises to visit from your family, before you managed to cut the cord completely and sign the contract with the Spanish giants. Nonetheless, you always felt like your family supported all your decisions, and just like you they were certain that this was the right move for your career.
Now 3 months later, if anyone asked you, you would still say that this had been the perfect step. You accommodated to the weather fairly quickly, settled into an apartment that the club had found for you, and took up a couple extra language classes on offer to try and master the Spanish language a bit quicker – you had a basic understanding, and you could manage during games and training sessions, but still struggled here and there.
You'd felt at home within the team, too. It was definitely one of the things that had been on your mind prior to your first training session. You were nervous about whether you were going to be good enough, whether they would deem you worthy enough of wearing the blaugrana colors, but any doubts melted away like snow in the sun when you got invited to a team bonding night right as your first training session ended.
You went out for a meal and drinks in one of Barçelona's hidden gems, one that the girls seemed to love. It was clear that they had been here quite a few times, because the waiter knew some of their orders by heart. You bonded with Ingrid throughout the night, both of you sharing experiences of having to leave your family behind in a different country to play football here. You warmed up to her, she was nice to you and seemed to really like your company, but you stayed a bit distant from the rest of the girls. Everyone was deep in conversation with each other, most of the time conversing in Spanish. You were well aware that they didn't have to involve you in their conversations, you were a 27-year-old adult at last who could stand up for themself, but you found it hard to really integrate fully with the tight group that had seemed to form over the years. From a different point of view, it might've seemed that you were uninterested and not bothered trying to mingle with the rest of the team, but that wasn't the case at all. Although, that wasn't what people picked up. Especially not the captain.
You've not had more than a handful conversations with Alexia, ever since you signed for Barça. In the beginning, you tried putting it off to the fact you both weren't entirely comfortable in the other's language. But as time went on and you got settled more and more into the team, playing more minutes and getting closer to most of the girls, you couldn't just put it down to that anymore. You had tried a couple times in the early days of you transfer to string together a conversation with the Spanish midfielder, but you never got further than the odd "Hola" or "Good game, Ale". You tried to shrug it off, but you couldn't say that it didn't bother you. Alexia seemed open and chatty towards your teammates, but seemed to block off the second you neared within a 5-meter radius from her. And even though you had bonded quite well with her best friend and her girlfriend, they didn't seem to want to say anything about it.
A couple weeks had passed, and you found yourself in a meeting talking about the month ahead. December would be busy, UWCL games ramping up and the league and cup to keep up with. There was a lot of tactical talk going on and while you know you shouldn't, you zoned out a bit, tired from the already long day – and it was far from over. You had an appointment planned with the physios after the meeting, a quick routine check for your ankle, but they would need to take some tests here and there, pushing your relaxing on your couch tonight even further back on the agenda. You got pulled out of your thoughts when the tone in the meeting changed, going from very stern and tactical to a little bit lighter, and it wasn't until you noticed the powerpoint slide that you understood why.
SECRET SANTA
Your eyes widened in surprise and a small smile grew on your lips, a light hum of chatter making it's way through the meeting room as some girls rehashed up some memories from the year before. You hadn't expected secret santa to be a tradition within the Barça squad, but you found it fun. Otherwise so very composed and professional, it was nice to see a different side to the club and the staff.
"Okay, girls! As you can see from the powerpoint slide, we're doing secret santa again this year! Last season went well and we thought we should reintegrate it again. We're going to draw names now in the meeting, and then we'll arrange a date further down the line when we figure out what our schedule will look like." A couple staff members explained the ins and outs a bit further for anyone who had never participated in the lighthearted Christmas tradition, and then the name drawing started. Someone had written everyone's names on little pieces of paper and put them in a bowl, letting it go round the meeting room and having everyone take one. You were sat near the back, so there was only a couple pieces of paper left when it was your turn. You picked one and shielded away from Esmee and Keira who were on either side of you, reading the name that was written on the paper. Mapi Léon. A smile crept on your lips upon reading your defensive partner's name. You didn't give in to Keira’s prying and soon the meeting concluded, sending everyone on their way for the next part of their day.
Most of the girls were headed home now, but you made your way to the physio's office. They checked a couple things and made you do a couple tests, measuring and calculating whatever they deemed necessary to ensure that your ankle was perfectly fine. Lucky for you, it didn't take long as you thought it would. You were the only one that still needed treatment, so the physios were able to round off their checklist for you quite smoothly. You were sent on your way with a pat on the shoulder, telling you to keep it up the way you were doing – both on the pitch and with your ankle. You shrugged it off at the time but you couldn't deny the way it made you feel a little warm inside. You were still quite self-conscious about yourself and your football here in Barçelona, so it was more than welcome to get a compliment about it, especially from someone that isn't the coach.
December was rough. You thought you'd get a little reprieve from cold winters as you now were a bit more south compared to England, but you were fooled. It was cold, it was busy, the training sessions only getting harder as the games ramped up in both domestic competitions and the Champions League. The month felt like it was going on forever but eventually you reached the end. Your final training session of the week, Thursday, but more importantly secret santa day. After you wrapped up both the outside and indoor session, everyone went for a shower and then gathered in the cafeteria. You all had some post-workout food and then got together at one big table, conversation flowing easily as everyone prepared to receive and give their gifts. You were one of the first who had to give their present. You'd gotten Mapi a big batch of her favorite coffee blend, along with a couple different syrups for her to try. You knew she loved her coffee and you hoped she'd be happy with it, but a subtle nudge from Ingrid had set you up in the right way and you were quite certain that the Spaniard would be pleased with your present.
"Oooh, muy bien!" Mapi wore a bright smile as she opened your present, clearly happy with what you bought her. Ingrid and you shared a knowing look before her girlfriend pulled you into a tight hug, pressing a smacking kiss against your cheek in thanks. Your cheeks flushed a little when you realized the two of you were in the centre of attention, quickly sitting back down and letting the afternoon roll on. What you didn't notice, though, whilst you and your defensive partner were sharing an embrace, was the jealous look in Alexia's eye.
Admittedly, she had been cold to you, some would even say it was borderline rude the way she treated you ever since you came in. But she had a reason. And she knew damn well that didn't excuse her behavior, but she couldn't bring herself to either telling you what was on her mind or dropping her cold act. So she kept it going, knowing it made you uncomfortable, although that was the last thing she wanted to do. In reality, Alexia had started developing some feelings for you. None very deep, because how in the world would that be possible based on nothing more than a handful three-sentence conversations, but you had piqued her interest. Your hard-working nature, the way you held yourself, your professionalism – but who would she fool if she said she didn't find you attractive. It might've been the biggest one, even. Alexia felt attracted to you. But by the time she realized that, she'd kept the cold act up for so long that she didn't think there was a way back, so instead of confessing to you she only acted more distant and more cold. She knew she was in the wrong, but an opportunity had popped up to make it up to you and she wasn't going to let it slip.
Time flowed easily, and before you knew it your name was called. Your eyes shot around the room to see who would get up, but seeing her walk over to the pile of presents was the last thing you'd expected. Alexia's light expression that she was wearing earlier, had changed to the stone cold one that she wore whenever she was in close proximity with you. You noticed how neatly wrapped her present was. A beautiful beige wrapping paper, with gold accents here and there, topped off with a small black ribbon. She came to stand beside you, propping one of her arms on the back of your chair, leaning her body over to you and dropping the present on your lap. You were well aware of how close the Spaniard was to you right now, probably closer than she'd ever been. When she didn't say anything, you just went to unwrap the package that was heavy in your lap. You didn't recognize the packaging immediately, but when you realized what was underneath the wrapping paper you could feel a couple tears pricking your eyes.
An array of British snacks and comfort foods sat in your lap, from Cadbury chocolates to Walkers crisps, digestives and so much more. You hadn't expected such a thoughtful present from anyone, especially not Alexia. You quickly wiped away a stray tear that had escaped your eye, quickly standing up and turning your body towards Alexia. "Thank you," you said, not knowing what to do with your hands as you played with the rings on your fingers. You were more than thankful that most of the girls weren't paying attention to the interaction, most of them caught up with their own presents or inspecting what others had gotten. "Can I give you a hug?" You didn't want to overstep any boundaries, but you wanted to thank her appropriately for the present. You'd never voiced to her directly that you missed home, so it was clear that she'd just been paying attention. Maybe more than you thought she had been. Alexia didn't respond verbally but pulled you in a hug, awkwardly patting your back as she didn't know what to do with herself. In reality, she wanted to pull you tight, rub comforting patterns across your back and press a kiss against your crown but she knew that was a place she wouldn't return from. So instead, she did the next best thing; push you further away. "Just because I got you this, doesn't mean I like you."
Your body tensed up at her words and you suddenly noticed the burning sensation of her arms around you, quickly removing yourself from the embrace and sitting back down, nearly giving yourself a whiplash from the sheer force that you backed away from the midfielder with. You'd allowed yourself to get comfortable in the hug, sensing as if you two were crossing a bit of the boundaries that had been present ever since you met one another, but her comment put you right back where you started – maybe even further. The interaction didn't go lost on Mapi, who whispered something in Alexia's ear as she passed the defender to go back to her seat, Mapi clearly angry at her.
You sulked for the remainder of the evening, knowing you were being a pain in the ass but you couldn't bring it in you to care this time. When you said your goodbyes and made your way out of the facility later that evening, you felt a hand tugging you back before you could open the door of your car. Startled by the unexpected touch, you clutched your chest where your heart would be as your eyes met Ingrid's. "Ingrid, don't scare me like that, for god's sake," you said, playfully hitting the Norwegian's shoulder who only laughed at your reaction. The conversation soon took a turn, though, when she mentioned the earlier events. "Hey, about Alexia, I kno-", she started, although you didn't let her finish. "Ingrid, it's fine. She doesn't like me, I get it. I'll just steer clear from her. I don't need it to be told to my face, we can just avoid one another and everything will be fine."
Ingrid closed her eyes and shook her head, placing a hand on your arm that was animatedly waving along as you spoke. "No. God, no. You're so wrong." "I'm wrong? Ingrid, you heard what she said to me. I don't think I need more confirmation than what she verbally told me a couple hours ago." The Norwegian pinched the bridge of her nose and let out a deep sigh, before she spoke up again. "I know this is going to sound weird, but Alexia doesn't hate you. She doesn't dislike you, not at all. It's quite the opposite, if you ask me."
"The opposite?" you asked, a confused lilt in your voice as you urged Ingrid to speak further. "She'll give me hell for telling you this, but I can't just be a bystander to this anymore. She's hurting you." Ingrid took a deep breath and looked you in the eye. "Alexia likes you. And she doesn't know what to do about it. So she does what she does know, and that's pushing you away. I, uhm, agree that it isn't the way she should handle it and certainly not like she did just earlier, but she doesn't know any better." Your thoughts ran rampant in your head, thinking about all the conversations and interactions you had in the past months and gauging whether there was any point where Alexia acted like she liked you, even for a moment. "Ingrid, what the hell are you talking about?" You raised your voice, to which she put a hand on your shoulder, reminding you that you were outside the parking lot just outside the facility. "I know it sounds insane. I didn't believe it either when Mapi told me, but you know she wouldn't lie to her best friend about that. Now, I don't know how you feel about her, but I suggest you talk about it. Because she's been sulking about the situation at our house the last couple weeks and I can't bear it anymore. She has to do something about it, and quick."
"Ingrid, I-" "Y/N. Don't argue with me on this. I don't know how you feel about Alexia, but I know how it's been weighing on you that she's been treating you like this. If anything, it's just an opportunity to clear some of the tension. If you don't want to do it for her, do it for me and Maria." You nodded, begrudgingly, but you nodded nonetheless. You didn't say much more because you needed some time to process what the Norwegian told you, so you sent her away with another promise to text Alexia and then drove home. You took your time that evening to process everything. You thought back to the couple months, and the newfound information still felt like a fever dream. Alexia liked you. Liked liked you. You couldn't say it didn't flatter you. You also couldn't say that some of those feelings weren't mutual, but you'd need some time to explore those. And you'd need lots of time and conversations with Alexia before you could move past the way she treated you the past months. But you were ready to give it a try. So later that night, you sent the Spanish midfielder a text, secretly hoping that Ingrid had notified her that she'd told you, softening the blow a little bit already.
To: Alexia Hey, Alexia. I'm not sure how to approach this, but here goes nothing. I spoke to Ingrid today about us, and about you, I assume she told you this? I don't want to wave this away and say I think the way you treated me is excused now that I know the reason behind it. I know you know that too, and I'd love to talk about that if you are open to do so too. Nonetheless, I was still shocked when Ingrid told me the reasoning behind your behavior. I didn't expect it and it still feels a bit like a fever dream. I'm flattered, even? I'd love to explore it, Ale, but we'll have to talk about some things first.
You sent the message before you could overthink any of your word choices, and plopped down on the couch. You wanted to set your mind to the show that was playing on tv, but you couldn't focus – your thoughts seemingly unable to drift away from Alexia. You thought about what you wanted to say to her, how you wanted to word whatever you were feeling, but right before you could dive in the deep end of your feelings you heard a notification sound coming from your phone, slightly startling you. You picked it up with haste, eager to see what the blonde had replied.
From: Alexia Hola :) I'm sorry you had to find out through Ingrid, that's not fair on you. I know I should've told you and I know I've been childish about it, but I didn't know what to do with myself. I completely understand if my behavior has put a barrier between the two of us, because I've been nothing short of immature. I would love to talk to you about things, because I've been silent about it all for long enough. If you're down, I could call you? I hope you're enjoying your present.
A small smile tugged at the corners of your lips at the mention of her present, glancing over to the basket of snacks that was placed on your coffee table. You grabbed a packet of crisps and sat back on the couch, enjoying the salty snack while you typed a response to Alexia.
To: Alexia It's okay. I can understand where you're coming from, but I'm glad you're acknowledging that it was immature. I loved the present. What you said while I hugged you confused me even further, and I know I was killing the mood after that. I'm sorry for that. But thank you, it means so much to me. I'd love to call, but could you maybe come over instead? I'd prefer it if you were near, but don't worry if you can't. I know it's late and it's been a rough week.
From: Alexia I'll be right there.
You hadn't put your phone down as another message from Alexia chimed in, letting you know she was on her way to your place. You decided not to question how she knew your address, assuming she probably got it from Maria or Ingrid. You quickly freshened up a little, brushing your hair and putting on some fresh clothes, still in your training attire from earlier. You tidied a little, putting dishes in the dishwasher and rearranging your cushions as a knock on your door pulled you out of your thoughts. You opened the door to a sight you thought you'd never see. Alexia was sporting a small smile, a thin layer of sweat present on her face from the rush she was in coming here. In her hands was a small bouquet of red roses, and you wondered where she'd found the time to pick those up along the way. You felt warm inside and ushered the blonde to come inside, not wanting her to be in the cold hallway much longer.
"Hi," you said softly, still feeling a little apprehensive whenever she was around. Old manners died hard. "Hi. These are for you." Alexia stretched her arm out and gave you the bouquet of flowers, which you gratefully took and put in the empty vase on your kitchen counter. "Thank you so much. You know you didn't have to do that but, uhm, they're really nice. Thank you. I still needed some for this vase, clearly," you chuckled, your cheeks flushing slightly red at the loving gesture from the Spanish midfielder. You were still struggling to wrap your mind around the shift in behavior from Alexia, grown very used to her stone cold personality whenever you were around her. It was a very welcome change, but it was one that you'd have to get used to.
"Do you want a drink?" You asked Alexia, who was seemingly lost in thought while she looked around your apartment, taking in her surroundings. You decided to let her do that and fill up two glasses of water for you and her, slowly making your way over to the living room where she was looking through your vinyl collection. "You've settled in nicely, I really like how you decorated your apartment," Alexia said when she heard you shuffling around behind you. A bright smile crept on your face at the compliment. "Thanks. I've spent a lot of time trying to make it look cozy. Being that far away from my family and friends, it's just nice to have a place that feels like home." "I can imagine. I've never moved away from here and I've never had to struggle with something like you are right now, but I can imagine it's not easy at all. You're doing great." You looked away from Alexia's gaze as you felt your cheeks heating up again. "Do you want to sit?" You tried to steer the conversation away from the current topic, earning a nod from Alexia as she sat down on your couch, opposite to you.
You talked for hours on end, the conversation topics ranging from your family to hers, to your move to Barçelona and what sparked it, to how you've been feeling at the club, to eventually the – still slightly apprehensive – relationship between the two of you. Talking to Alexia felt easy, something you never thought you'd say. She was interested, listened with intent and really seemed like wanted to hear what you were saying. She asked questions, tried to understand your views on things and voiced back exactly how she felt. You hadn't expected her to be so open about her feelings after everything that happened the past couple of months, so it was a welcome change for the blonde to put her heart out like that. When you felt like she adequately expressed her feelings about you, you too talked about your own. You said that you really wanted to explore things between you, that you couldn't deny the blonde's charming energy and that you had found yourself gutted with how little the two of you had bonded over your first couple months in Barçelona – more than eager to make up for lost time.
When the night came to an end, you could feel a weight had been lifted from your shoulders, and Alexia felt the same. It had been nothing less than a burden for her to carry around, forever dancing around feelings that she didn't know how to express, pushing you further than she ever wanted to do. She was eternally grateful for the opportunity you were giving her by wanting to talk to her.
"Thank you, honestly. You didn't owe me anything and yet you gave me the chance to explain everything and talk about my feelings. I owe you one." You smiled brightly at Alexia and waved away her comments. "Don't worry about it. We've talked about it, we're okay. I understand where you were coming from. It's fine, Ale, I promise. I'm glad you came to terms with it."
The two of you started to make moves towards your front door, knowing you should end your conversations and call it a day, but with the prospect of a day off tomorrow and no training to wake up for, neither of you really felt the intent to wrap it up. Nonetheless, a couple moments later Alexia found herself in the hallway, leaning against your doorframe as you talked a little more, wrapping up your conversation.
You noticed Alexia looking down at her feet, playing with her fingers before she lifted her head and locked eyes with you again. "I might not be in the position to ask you this right now, but would you maybe want to go on a... date together?" You chuckled at Alexia's nervousness, a slightly red tint covering her cheeks as she spoke. You took one of her hands in yours and nodded fiercely, a smug grin covering your lips. "Yeah, I'd love to. Text me, okay? I'm free whenever." Alexia's smile grew wider with each word you spoke, the Spanish midfielder giddy about the prospect of taking you on a date. "I will. I promise. I should get going now, it's getting late." "You should. Be safe getting home. Have a good night, Ale."
You pressed a soft kiss to Alexia's cheek after wishing her a good night, causing the midfielder to blush deeper than she already had been. She stumbled over her words as she wished you another goodnight, clumsily walking backwards and gripping the handrail as she nearly fell head first on the first step of the stairs of your apartment block. You couldn't hold back the chuckle as you watched Alexia steady herself and rush down the stairs. "Be careful, capi!" you yelled after her, earning nothing more than a grumble and some Spanish curse words that you couldn't make out.
Sticking to her promise, Alexia was way more open with her feelings moving further. You went on a couple dates, you shared a few kisses and before you knew it you were dating. If someone told you that goddamn Secret Santa was what would bring you two closer, and eventually start a relationship, you would've never believed them.
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