#now THAT'S just depressing

[ionomycin]

temple at the end of the road

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[evgar]

nicky loves putting flowers in his mama's hair, naturally whenever rio is around she makes sure to grow the prettiest ones for them

[great-master-airplane]

what do you define as "doing well" for something you post?

It varies. Usually, I prefer reader reblogs/comments to outweigh the amount of times I've reblogged the post myself for more interaction, which is typically 3-4. Usually, I hide my own reblogs so that it doesn't skew my perception of how well my audience is reacting to the wip/fic.

Let's take yesterday's wip for example. I did a poll two days before the wip that got over 50 votes on it. Sure, a small handful of votes was by the same person, but that was still a reasonable amount of interest in the upcoming wip.

But when it came to the actual wip, I didn't even get half of the interest in the fic that the poll suggested I would. Most of them were likes, which are honestly kinda worthless to me, and two reblogs. I think I've been lucky enough to get one more reblog today.

To me, that indicates failure in some region: either the expectation was for a more popular ship (which probably wouldn't have gotten many notes, either tbh), poor quality of writing, or a lack of general interest in the fic now that the wip has been revealed.

Also in the case of yesterday's wip: I know fyosiglai isn't a popular ship. I know that I can expect less interaction in the long run. But I recognize the names of users who do like or interact with the ship, and if most of them only bother to leave a token like? With no reblog or even a comment in the replies? Then of course I assume something is wrong with either the wip itself or with how I've written it.

Tl;dr: lack of notes or feedback = not doing well

[firefrightfic]

to anyone missing my writing please know i am also missing my writing

[traaumaa]

*has several debilitating disorders* idk maybe i'm just lazy

[lotus-pear]

"dazai would princess carry chuuya" "dazai would hold chuuya bridal style" no shutup dazai would pick chuuya up like he's a sopping wet kitten or a sack of potatoes

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Council of lovefools.

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[bioethicists]

'recovering' or 'healing' by starting to hate your former self + shame or mock others for being the way you used to be isn't actually very healing. you can acknowledge + be grateful that you have changed without transferring all your self hatred/shame onto others.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

crusty evolution redraw. in theory.

[jacklesraised]

some new sad girl guy spring dialogue for sebby!

also bonus bc its summer 13 now and i already gave him a bouquet

[hinamie]

もう一回、もう一回

[stil-lindigo]

scorched earth.

a comic about a princess who died in a fire.

(this is a sequel to bite of winter, a comic about Snow and what became of her after her death.)

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creative notes:

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all my other comics

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[bobbinalong]

konbart zine pitches. the blacked out one is the one i ended up working on (it's still not done, ugh). go follow @konbartzine to get the zine once it's finished

[tea-cat-arts]

Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

[teatitty]

Underrated part of shippuden imo is that Kakashi is perfectly fine reminiscing on the past and talking about Sasuke casually but to Naruto and Sakura any mention of him is like a trigger word for instant depression

Like you know it's bad when even Kakashi is going "this really fucked you guys up damn". But on a more serious level it makes sense that Kakashi would "move on" in a sense quicker than them, since he's probably had to deal with runaways and traitors before. That isn't to say he isn't still affected [we know he is] I'm just saying he's more experienced with it so he also knows how to move past it enough to be able to talk about it without much issue

Sakura and Naruto though... this is still like. A very fresh new experience for them lmao. Rip