#now I'm really craving a chocolate pizza

[sister-kym]

Pineapple on pizza sounds yummy if the pizza is sweet, but wait until you find out what Brazilians will top our pizzas with. From chocolate to banana with cinnamon and dulce de leche. And don't get me started on "Romeo and Juliet" (minas cheese with goiabada, a guava marmalade).

You say it’s 2023 and people should have moved on from the lawsuit but Tobias Forge & GHOST is known for getting sued and fucking over his band mates. I like GHOST but like most people I fucking detest the singer. He needs to pay them what they owe

Anyway, what do you guys think about pineapple on pizza? Like I was always in total opposition, just out of principle, and then yesterday I went to this new pizza place and my friend was like, ooh you need to try the one with pineapple. And I was like, ugh fine whatever. But it was actually so good? I went home and the gravity of the situation hit me.. Mamma mia, did I let the Italians down? Will they ever allow me into their beautiful country again? I was meant to visit Sicily again this November, but now I don't know. I feel so lost and ashamed I can barely listen to my secret Ricchi e Poveri playlist on Spotify

[quimichi]

MATCH UP TRADE ♡

@merbear25 SO SORRY I'M LATE :((( I had it in my drafts, hit post and--missed and didn't notice--I had soo much fun doing this tho! I hope my picks for you are to your liking ♡

MEGUMI

@ i seriously have almost no idea why i imagined megumi with you specifically...but i think its really cute so deal with it-♡

@ first of all, he would TOTALLY get why you want time for yourself sometimes. Mainly because he does need his time sometimes too. Maybe you can both agree on specific "alone times" so no one is like lonley alone when the other is alone??? Yk what i mean???

@ we all know Megs is a little stoic- he would never EVER admit you're cute. Like super adorable and sweet. You're caring, supportive and clumsy?? Makes him all fuzzy inside. Especially when you maybe drop something out of nervousness

@ or when you silently or loudly support him. The latter makes him blush tho

@ oh but he can hate your strong-willed ass. No you're not coming to this misson, stop preparing. HE SAID STOP WHY WON'T YOU LISTEN HE WANTS YOU SAVE???

@ sooo you're patient? You really need that with him. He would take it very slow in the relationship. Like don't get me wrong he trusts you, loves you and appreciates you so damn much. But he still kind of struggles to show his feelings to you. So your patience will be greatly appreciated. You're gonna be rewarded too :3

@ not really a cuddly person but would try it for you. If the time really allows it yk.@ but would hold you close at night nonetheless. Kind of a harsh grip on you but hey, he just wants you close-

@ can he watch horror movies? Yes. Does he like them? They're ok. Does he watch them for you/with you? Most definitely yes!

@ oh but hes kinda creeped out by your collection. He's not scared of many things, maybe like none...but what definitely makes him uneasy are those dolls and nutcrackers-

@ oh and hes super scared of you being mad-

@ its like me, I'm not scared of many things but my mom being mad?? Nah--it's the same for Megumi

SANJI

@ HEAR ME OUT!!! OK PLS

@ Sanji 🫥

@ you do know how to have fun! You're adventurous! But also you're a very responsible and collected person (at least thats how i see you-)

@ i feel like Sanji wants and needs someone like you! You're not boring. You're very interesting and different. And you can hold his ass back-

@ would teach you cooking! And if you ever crave pizza, sushi, chocolate strawberries or a lemon cake, he will do it for you. Any meal and dessert for his beautiful lover!

@ many many many MANY compliments but its Sanji...its a crime to be insecure around him

@ your dolls lol-he gives you some as presents but is still like...creeped out at them.

@ definitely yelled a "QUIT STARRING" at one of them some time

@ ok now the difficult part...You're scared of large bodies of water (same) he will make sure you forget about it. Just don't go outside--or don't think of it. Just prepare dinner with him!!!

@ would definitely hold and comfort you if you're ever scared of a Strom. Especially on the sea cause...2 dislikes collide with one another--

@ super protective of you, what a surprise ik. Not even Luffy can get roo near you lol-and hes his captain-would kick his ass--

[heslikefireandiceandrage]

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tagged by @a-lil-bi-furious (thank you, friend 💜)

Last movie: On the Beach at Night Alone (2017)

Last show: Dungeon Meshi (Netflix)

Last song: "Future Starts Slow" by The Kills

Song stuck in my head: "Vai Baby" by Black Alien

Favorite color: Is black a color? Purple

Currently reading: currently rereading The Titan's Curse (PJO 3) and reading Starcrossed (two Greek mythology-related books) with a friend for our little book club.

Currently watching: too many things actually but the one I'm obsessed about is probably Dungeon Meshi (this show is actually so so funny and insane everyone should watch it). Also, the new True Detective season.

Next on your to watchlist: probably Anatomy of a Fall (2023) but the one I'm looking forward to is Poor Things (2023) which only premieres in February here 😪

Currently consuming: Water (please drink more water you will feel better)

Currently craving: Brazilian carrot cake with chocolate topping

Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweets

Relationship status: Single

Current obsession: Marcille from Dungeon Meshi and the relationship between Laios and Falin because siblings will always have a special place in my heart in any media.

3 favorite foods: Pizza, gyoza, brigadeiro

Last thing you googled: "pokémon that looks like pastry" because I couldn't remember Fidough's name

Dream trip: I don't really have a "dream trip" per se, but I'm currently in the (very) early stages of planning a trip to Europe.

Anything I want right now: Sleep.

tagging with no pressure at all to play: @highlycalcifer @holochromatic @dustydaydreamer @constantanious @flowerynameslover @captain-archernerd @curvesofherflesh @aroace-barbie @theoncominghailstorm @wozw4ld

[look-i-love-u]

Weekly Tag Game(s)

I am soooo late. I'm later than late. I'm fucking atrociously late to do these. But maybe you'll still want to read my replies`?! Maybe? I got tagged by so many amazingly lovely people: @juliakayyy, @guinguin1984 , @ardent-fox, @ian-galagher, @francesroserecs, @surviving-maybe, @suzy-queued, @energievie, @creepkinginc, @deathclassic, @iansw0rld, @michellemisfit

Name: Vey

Where in the world are you? Germany

Do you have a favorite towel? No

Can you skip rocks? I can. On a really good day.

Tell me about a weird slang term from your area: Arschgeige (I'll let you figure that one out yourself)

Favorite toast topping: butter and marmelade

Thoughts on bread pudding: Never had it

City or country living? City

How do you cheer yourself up after a bad day? Cuddling my dog

Are you a pessimist or an optimist? I'm trying to counter my pessimistic nature with undying optimism. Works sometimes. Not always.

Can I tag you in random stuff? Definitely! Please do.

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Name: Vey

Age: in my thirties

Favourite colour: Clothes: Black, lipstick: pink

What emoji best describes your current mood? Unfortunately it’s 😑

What season is it where you are right now? Autumn

Were you up before or after the sun this morning? Before

Are you currently in possession of a pumpkin? Nope

Do you prefer to carve or paint your jack-o-lanterns? Carve. But painting is fun too.

Do you have a favorite pumpkin-spice flavored treat? If so, what is it? I don't know what pumpkin-spice is. I do love pumpkin bread and waffles. But those are made with the real thing.

What's your favorite season and what's your favourite pie that you associate with it? Spring. And Strawberry cake. Pie isn't really a thing here.

We're having a pot-luck, what are you going to bring? couscous salad and aioli

It's chilly outside and you need a hot drink in your hands, what are you drinking? black tea or hot chocolate

Will you be wearing a costume for Halloween? Is it ready? I don't celebrate Halloween

Finally, what's something you've made or done recently that you're proud of? Ehm... I made a pretty good pasta bake the other day. I finished reading a book. I started a new crocheting project. I finally managed to send off Evie's birthday present.

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🔤 Name: Vey

🎶 Last song you listened to: In a Crowd of Thousands - Reinaeiry feat. Chloe Breez

🎵 Artist on Spotify giving you the feels right now: Not on Spotify. But usually Alexa Feser

👯‍♂️ Fave Blorbo Moment: "I just want everyone to know, I'm fucking gay."

🍟 Your guilty pleasure snack: chocolate. All the chocolate.

🌮 What food are you craving today: pizza

📖 Last fanfic tab you opened: The Unintended Consequences of Fight or Flight

🖌️ Favorite fic project you've created: Flower U-Up

👩🏼‍🎤 Next tattoo you want (or would consider if you're not a tattoo person): I don't have tattoos. I don't want one.

🧐🆓 What's living in your head rent free this week: Seducing the entire Baldur's Gate party. Oh well, just Baldur's Gate in general.

[dragonprincequotesimadeup]

A bunch of incorrect quotes for fun

Soren: Remember that time you dared me to lick a swingset? Claudia: No, I said "Soren, don't lick that swingset" and you said "Don't tell me what to do" and licked the swingset.

Callum: Are you a cuddler? Rayla: I'm a machine of death and destruction. Callum: Rayla: ...Yeah, I'm a cuddler.

Soren: A fistfight CAN be romantic.

Claudia: So Terry, how did your first time cooking dinner go?  Terry: Pretty good if I do say so myself.  Claudia: Oo! Okay, what are we having?  Terry: Alright, so for appetizers, we have a potato.  Claudia: A whole potato?  Terry: Yes. And then for the main course, we have grilled cheese sandwiches!  Claudia: These just look like big slabs of black.  Terry: Because that's what they are!  Terry: And then for desert, we have chocolate.  Claudia: These are just chocolate chips?  Terry: They sure are!  Terry: And then for drinks, we have toast!  Terry: *lifts up a glass of blended toast* Bon appetite! 

Terry: Maybe the real monster was the friends we both literally and figuratively murdered along the way.

Rayla: Why are there little handprints all over the walls? Callum, whispering: Why are there little handprints all over the walls? Ezran, whispering: Because I have little hands. Callum: Because he has little hands.

Rayla: I apologize for saying 'fuck' in front of Ezran. Callum: You just said it again Ezran: Rayla: I am not a role model. Soren: Welcome to my very first vlog, in which I try different hair products! Soren: *sprays hairspray in their mouth* Soren: Well, right off the bat I can tell you this one is not very good. Rayla: The only straight I am is a straight-up badass. Ezran: *is visibly upset* Rayla: Ezran, what happened? I haven't seen you like this since you found out candyland wasn't an actual country. Claudia: Come on, Soren! How many times do I have to apologize? Soren: Once! Claudia: ...No.

Terry: I’ve been dropping them the most insanely obvious hints for like a year now. No response. Claudia: Wow. They sound stupid.  Terry: But they’re not. They’re really smart actually. Just dense.  Claudia: Maybe you need to be more obvious? Like, I don’t know… “Hey! I love you!”  Terry: I guess you’re right. Hey Claudia, I love you.  Claudia: See! Just say that!  Terry: Holy fucking shit.  Claudia: If that flies over their head then, sorry Terry, but they're too dumb for you.  Terry: Claudia. 

Soren: I’m a fool, not an idiot.

Soren: How do Rayla and Callum usually get out of these messes? Ezran: They don't. They just make a bigger mess that cancels the first one out.

Soren, sweating: Corvus, there’s something I need to ask you- Corvus: Finally! You’re proposing! Soren: How’d you know? Corvus: Soren, you’ve dropped the ring five times during dinner. Corvus: I even picked it up once.

Claudia: Isn't it amazing how I can feel so bad and still look so good?

Terry: Name a more iconic duo than my crippling fear of abandonment and my anxiety. I’ll wait. Claudia: You and me! Terry: *tearing up* Ok.

Callum: I’ve invited you here because I crave the deadliest game... Rayla, nodding: Knife Monopoly. Callum: I was actually going to play Russian roulette, but now I'm really interested in whatever knife Monopoly is.

Corvus: Please could you go to the shop and get a carton of milk, if they have avocados get six. Soren, coming back from the store with six cartons of milk: They had avocados!

Soren: The greatest trick the devil ever played was getting me banned from an all you can eat pizza buffet. Corvus: Why’d you get banned? Soren: Touched the rat. Corvus: … What rat? Soren: Chunky Cheese.

[brightlotusmoon]

We're watching a YouTube channel of a guy in Japan getting food from claw vending machines. While his odd game of 'only eat what he wins for 5,000 Yen daily for a week' reminds me of US poverty and eating disorder culture, it is waking up memories of me as a child watching characters on TV and wanting to eat something. Like mirroring.

Charlie Brown and his sandwiches, Ninja Turtles and pizza, He-Man and She-Ra with fruits, you get the idea. If it was food on TV, it was like a gentle nudge from my brain.

"Eat because your blorbos are eating, you need to eat more." Because my hunger signals were fucked up. But we didn't really understand. It was the fucking 1980s and Nancy kept insisting we say no to drugs while Ronald murdered our loved ones. I remember drinking chocolate Ensure often.*

Dear gods was I ever autistic.

Anyway, now I'm craving soba noodles. Which we have! But husband is currently making garlic bread for sandwich so I'll have soba another time.

Living with a creative cook who was offered a half scholarship to Culinary Institute Of The Arts in the 90s has many benefits.

Heh. My friend just commented "Watching Food Wars has made my partner and I both intensely better chefs due to this same mirroring need."

And I finally realize how much I was mirroring throughout my childhood and adolescence.

(*the doctor who invented the original Ensure treated my husband's brother, who was born too early, developed cerebral palsy due to medical negligence, needed most of his intestine removed and 44 years later still can't eat solids.)

[greasygrimeygopher-whats]

Webkinz Recipes By The Cuddly and Snuggly Teddy Bears!

OOPS ALL CARBS (I swear this wasn't on purpose im sorry). Comfort Foods for the Teddy Bears. Man, I wish these had plushie versions. Also, I haven't made one of these in a while; they are so fun tho. Anyway. Here we go!

"Jest The Best Bagel" Funny Face Mini Veggie Pizza (THE REST OF THE OWL. [sorry] Replace the bread flat things with bagels for authenticity. Also, you can make whatever faces you want; animal ones are really cute)

"Peanut Butter & Honey Sandwich" Peanut Butter and Honey Sandwiches (This recipe has butter in it as well, which I assume you can choose not to use for dairy purposes. Or not needing a refrigerator purposes)

"Choco Chip Waffles" Double Chocolate Waffles (The sheer amount of chocolate may kill you. Chocolate batter, chips and sauce. Worth it)

"Lasagna" World's Best Lasagna (Bold claim, Website. I always forget how to spell lasagna. I guarantee I could not do it without spell check, but to be fair, I haven't eaten it much. There is about fifteen million lasagna recipes out there, so options abundant)

"Cinnamon Bun" Cinnamon Raisin Rolls (I almost forgot about the raisins! I was putting just a regular cinnamon roll recipe, until I looked at the in-game recipe again. Remembered now)

"Birthday Party Sandwich" Mac and Cheese Dogs (Um. This one has you make your own Mac and cheese, but feel free to take the boxed kind and put it with some boiled hot dogs between two white bread slices. Then turned into grilled cheese with chili. I don't know if this is making me hungry or sick. Maybe just do the recipe version...)

"Teddy Bear Porridge" Peanut Butter Kiwi Oatmeal (Peanut butter and oatmeal is pretty good tho. Also please shape the kiwi slices and maybe grab a few blueberries/banana slices if you got any. Also, I didn't know the difference between oatmeal and porridge; turns out oatmeal is a type of porridge. My ignorance, cured)

"Honey BBQ Chips" BBQ Sweetpotato Chips Recipe (HUNGRY. HUNGRY. I WANT THESE. I think I have a craving rn so I have zero other commentary. sweetpotato)

I recently got the Cuddly Teddy Bear for Black Friday to renew my account and I LOVE HIM. I'd get the Snuggly one next year if it wasn't a member only pet. RIP. (If you lose your membership, do these pets just get snapped how does this work)

Part 1: Dreamy Sheep

Part 2: Pink Poodle

Part 3: Cocoa Dinosaur and Marshmallow Bunny

Part 4: Midnight Monster

Part 5: Love Puppy

Does anyone actually read this far?

I kinda wish that we could still visit each others houses in Webkinz. I'm gonna make the Backrooms in my house. I'm really gonna. All those kinscash old furniture items fit. And the hotel theme. I'm ignoring the estore stuff because I'm cheap. I even named my Cuddly Teddy Lucky 'O Milk. His room is party themed. Thus, the inclusion of the Jester Bagel and Party Sandwich. Little secret there. Okay, now I should check to make sure all the above links go to the right places. Thanks.

Have a song.

[earlgraytay]

Thanks for the tag, @bakomglaset !

Get to know me

Share your wallpaper:

A pretty image of Beignon from Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn.

The last song you listened to: SING by My Chemical Romance.

Currently Reading:  The Vor Game by Lois McMaster Bujold.

Last Movie: The Super Mario Bros Movie.

Craving: Chocolate. Specifically, Cosmic Brownies. :(

What are you wearing right now: Pink linen button-down, navy blue sweatpants.

How tall are you: Taller than Miles Vorkosigan.

Piercings: Used to have my ears pierced, but the holes closed up.

Tattoos: None.

Glasses? Contacts?: Yes, glasses.

Last drink: Coffee, three sugars.

Last show: Splitting my attention between Trigun (with my friend Lifa) and Oshi no Ko (with my partner).

Last thing you ate: Pizza with my bestie!

Favourite colour: Lavender.

Current obsession: Too many to count! Let's go with the kids's book I'm writing. Or the Vorkosigan Saga. or Bugsnax. Or Trigun.

Unrelated Obsession: The Sims (2 or 4)

Any pets: Do ball jointed dolls count?

Do you have a crush on anyone: Not sure how to answer this question, tbh!

Favourite fictional character: oh god there are so many

Miles Vorkosigan. Dairine Callahan. Vash the Stampede. Mina Murray-Harker. Jo March. Elizabeth Comstock.

The last place you traveled:  The last big vacation I took was to Montreal for CrossingsCon! It was really exciting.

I tag @yooniesim , @amairylle, @terrarkul , @fierceawakening, @ladyyatexel , @tabby-shieldmaiden , @tyrantisterror , @0koyote, and anyone else who wants to do this!

[schreckensbleiches-nervenbuendel]

I was tagged by @underxstars. Thank youu! 😌💚

Share your wallpaper (phone): it's my favorite character from my favorite manga 'Soul Eater'

The last song you listened to:

Currently reading: I'm not reading any books at the moment because no time and concentration, but I got a whole box of 'the three investigators' books waiting for me.

Last Movie: 'In meinem Himmel' - the only movie that makes me cry like a baby every time I watch it.

Craving: chocolate and cigarettes

What are you wearing right now: I cleaned my apartment today. So I'm wearing black shorts and a black tank top.

How tall are you: 1,71 m

Piercings: two earlobe piercings on each side and a nostril piercing. I did earlobe piercings myself and I'm thinking about doing a third one.

Tattoos: on my left wrist - 'relapse' / on my right wirst - 'recovery' / in the font of an old typewriter

Glasses? Contacts?: Glasses

Last drink: water 😌

Last show: I'm re-watching 'Shameless' right now and I'm really shocked by the amount of sex scene. And the timing of the sex scenes is also very weird, like 'yeah, sure, something very traumatic happened a few hours ago and you seem very distressed. Let's not hug. Let's fuck - that's enough comfort'

Last thing you ate: tomato and mozzarella pizza

Favourite colour: Green. I love dark green! Reminds me of forests and moss.

Current obsession: the three investigators and Tatort are my longtime obsessions.

Unrelated obsession: I'm watching a lot of Let's Plays at the moment. I loved the Resident Evil 7 & Village Let's Plays.

Any pets: nope 🥺 but I had a few ghost insects and giant millipedes. They were soo cute 😩

Do you have a crush on anyone: my bf 😅 sometimes I just look at him and can't believe that he's my boyfriend. And I'm crushing on my friends because they're all so cute and funny. I just love em.

Favourite fictional character: Skinny Norris and Justus Jonas 😏 I guess, that's obvious.

The last place you traveled: the Netherlands

Again, thanks for tagging me! I'm tagging @peppsta @alintheshitposter and everyone who wants to do this!

[whirlwind-lancer-dilan]

Get to Know Me Better

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better. Or however many. Whatever.

Tagged by @aragarna! I don't know what will come of this, the end result may be disappointing. 👀💦

Three ships: Oh my... I know I might get hate for something, let's see: RaZor, I won't say who they are but only the name I gave to the ship, someone could understand the same, I already know someone who is disappointed with me for the RaZor ship. 🥲 Kierthur (RDR2) Clerith (Final Fantasy VII).

First ever ship: I don't remember it, maybe Seifer Almasy X Squall Leonhart (Final Fantasy VIII), it's been ages so I'm not sure if it was this one but it's one of the oldest ones I remember.

Last song: Beck Broken Drum, I'm listening to it now on the radio.

Last movie: Zorro 1975 which I recently rewatched on Zorro's Discord server along with other users.

Currently reading: I have no books to read at the moment. If manga is okay as an answer then I would say: Giant Killing, Edens Zero, A Sign of Affection, Vanishing My First Love and Black Butler (this last one is really starting to tire me unfortunately)

Currently watching: The computer screen 😂, I would like to try to draw if I can.

Currently consuming: Nothing, it's almost 2 in the morning and I'll have to take the thyroid pills soon. I would like a pizza... 🤤

Currently craving: Pizza, supplì, chocolate, eggplant parmiggiana, tiramisu and Zorro 🤣

Tagging: Anyone who wants to. I'll read your posts if you tag me. 😊

[dis-trict9]

Im gonna answer them all right here, right now.. (Im so bored) 01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Kinda

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? I don't remember..

03: Do you regret anything? Many things

04: Are you insecure? Yes

05: What is your relationship status? Single... (And I hate it)

06: How do you want to die? Easily and fast

07: What did you last eat? Pizza...

08: Played any sports? Rugby (only because my gym class forced me to)

09: Do you bite your nails? Not often, but yes

10: When was your last physical fight? Never had one..

11: Do you like someone? I like many people but not romantically/sexually

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? Yes

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? About 4 people (And Grammarly...)

14: Do you miss someone? Yes

15: Have any pets? Yes, 2 cats, 1 dog

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? Tired and kind of empty (in a good way)

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? Bro, I've never even kissed anyone...

18: Are you scared of spiders? Unless they're daddy-long legs, yes

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Depends on the year

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? Uhm I don't want to even know what that word means...

21: What are your plans for this weekend? Visit my mom :D

22: Do you want to have kids? How many? I have off and on thoughts about this

23: Do you have piercings? How many? I wish I did

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? Somehow, Science

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes, many

26: What are you craving right now? Chocolate cake... And cuddles

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Unfortunately, I think I have

28: Have you ever been cheated on? I'm not really sure

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? I'm pretty sure

30: What’s irritating you right now? The fact I made my ex-gf cry (AND FUCKING GRAMMARLY)

31: Does somebody love you? Idk

32: What is your favourite color? BLUE 🩵

33: Do you have trust issues? Yes

34: Who/what was your last dream about? My bsf making out with a skz member (I got mad at him for it 💀) ((Don't ask me about my dreams...)

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? One of my friends

36: Do you give out second chances too easily? Most likely

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive, unless I don't really care about what's happening, then forget

38: Is this year the best year of your life? Not at all

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? Bro I'm 20 and still ahven't had one...

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? No

51: Favourite food? Spaghetti

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Sometimes

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? I breathed

54: Is cheating ever okay? It depends

55: Are you mean? Probably...

56: How many people have you fist fought? No one (I'm about to fist fight Grammarly though.)

57: Do you believe in true love? Not really but sometimes yes

58: Favourite weather? Rain

59: Do you like the snow? No

60: Do you wanna get married? Depends

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Idk but I love when it happens

62: What makes you happy? Things I like/people I like

63: Would you change your name? Yes

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? I've never kissed anyone... (On the lips)

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? I say sorry because I'm not attracted to women in that way (We can still be friends though!)

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? Uhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmm. Does my sister count?

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My mom or sister

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? My bsf

69: Do you believe in soulmates? Yes and no

70: Is there anyone you would die for? Uh not right now

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[em0tionl0rd]

Personal Feelings on Activism:

Something that bothers me and probably peeves the social justice activists on this site is..

The fact that I have to put my own survival first over others and those in need.

"Pick your Battles"

There is only so much time and energy you have in any given moment. I personally have to monitor my stress levels constantly. I've been in "survival mode" for years and have just barely learned to calm down and relax and feel like everything is going to be alright without the need or plan to flee from any given situation. Something I've become so used to that I seek out danger just to feel comforted by that feeling of needing to escape or fix/change a situation instead of moving on, or changing my focus to something more important.

I can only help so many people at any given time with what I have. I prefer to help people in person. The most readily available resource I have to give is my knowledge. Maybe some footwork or heavy lifting. But I do what I can, when I can, and make sure it counts.

Now when it comes to trouble overseas, I can only hope (and pray but in this case praying is hoping) that things improve for people that are struggling with famine, natural disasters, diseases, or war. There is nothing I can personally do to help these people. Money is too impersonal for me to trust. I don't know where it goes, who handles it, and what it is used to pay for. In my eyes that doesn't make me a bad person.

Would I want to travel overseas to do humanitarian aid? Maybe. If I knew a group of people that had the means to do so. I don't have the power and connections currently to make such a move. Nor do I want to risk my own stability, or put myself in danger.

Now that might sound fairly reserved, or even selfish. I get that. That's not my intention, but I'm putting this out there for future reference.

I have a lot going on in my personal life that makes it difficult for me to "care" about things outside of myself.

That being said, let's lay these things out so that these issues can be addressed:

I live alone. I do not feel like I have any close friends or family that I can trust. I was verbally and physically abused/manipulated as a child. I tried to force people to be my close friend growing up, and change people by attempting to force my ideas on them so that I could trust that they would understand me. When I fell in love (or thought I was in love) I would act extremely possessive and manipulative towards them.

I feel like I can't keep any friends. Something always happens. I do not have a good history with "trust". Yet now I can casually talk to anyone without that sense of insecurity bearing down on me as strong as it used to. I still feel strongly about who I consider "a friend", yet am (mindlessly) open to almost anyone about anything and just have to stuff that guilt deep down inside and pretend that I'm not that dumb or trusting.

When it comes to money, it's difficult. Again, I try to conserve what I have, but at the same time there is unnecessary spending. My ex's liberal spending habits were a bad influence, but that is improving. I don't impulse buy, or "stress/comfort" buy as much as I used to.

I probably do buy a lot of food that I don't need, but with so many different intolerances and sensitivities, it is really hard. I'm basically forced to buy specialty or health food, because the cheap stuff will leave me feeling miserable. The food I crave tends to be bought frequently, like cheese. Lots of cheese. Sandwiches, chips, chocolate, pudding, fruit candy, and vitamin drinks. They aren't cheap. Again, because I have to hand-pick products based on their ingredients list due to my sensitivity.

I used to order Indian, Mexican, and pizza delivery when I lived in the city almost once every week. Again, thanks to my ex's habits. Thankfully I don't have that luxury anymore.

I'm a very hungry carb-starved person. Unfortunately, I eat a lot.

My rent is high, thanks to my dad talking me into this lease. It's a good place, but extremely unaffordable and I fear that I will have no savings at all, not even money for food, and this is yet another reason I will have to rely on him financially (a trap if you will) until I can be fully self-sustained. It's unfair but.. "pick your battles"

At least I have a job now and am being paid (albeit not a lot).

At my last job, I worked until my mind and my body almost gave out. I was under so much stress. I was over-eating and taking fistfuls of vitamins just to stay alive. Fighting off depression and general malaise. I wasn't getting enough sleep. I wasn't keeping my apartment clean. I was just wallowing and suffering in a space that reminded me of my ex.

I felt unsafe at work due to a psychotic creep I tried to make friends with who followed me home one day, started a sexting relationship with me, and later blocked me, accusing me of trying to find out where he lived and pretended that I didn't exist while working in the same department for the last eight months I worked there instead of talking things out.

I went a whole year without working and have made a lot of progress since the beginning of the year. Again, at least I am working. I was very worried that I wouldn't be able to work due to the pain in my right knee because I'm still limping and it hasn't gotten much better. I knew healthcare would be too much of a headache to deal with while unemployed, and talking to the lady at the local DHS (while my dad was pressuring me) caused me to have a breakdown. It reminded me of my mom doing the same thing instead of actually helping me.

Also my dad running out of money while himself being unemployed and on disability/unemployment while enduring ongoing litigation with his former employer for unpaid unemployment due to a work-related-injury induced seizure that left him out of work for six months.. was kind of a big reason for me to forcibly become independent because he's a very careless spender and lies about his financial problems and lies about being able to help out financially in order to spend more money on his kids which is extremely uncomfortable.

And re-realizing why I need to distance myself from my mom. She's just a bully and always finds something about me to make fun of or poke fun at for no reason. When she offers financial assistance I tend to avoid it because I don't feel comfortable with the way she acts towards me. I don't need her feeling any reason to be close with me, because then she starts suggesting weird unhelpful things that she thinks might help me. Like moving back in with her or that I might have X disability.

All of that being said, there are a lot of things to think about. Generally, I have to put myself first. I have to weigh the benefits of every decision I make carefully (sometimes I don't. human impulses). I have to watch my stress level, my hunger level, my cravings, my thirst (hydration), and a myriad of other bodily senses. Most notably my sanity level, because if I ever become overwhelmed by any of these, on-top of negative exterior stimuli, I may start to spiral. One thing leads to another and I have to spend my time (carefully) physiologically recuperating because my mental wellbeing is intrinsically linked to my physical wellbeing, so if I'm not careful about my stress level, I begin to feel like I'm going to die, and..

"Sadz, you are just a fat selfish asshole" could be a valid statement.

(I'm not actually fat and can't seem to gain or lose weight)

Again, that being said: I do what I can. Locally.

_ _ _

Every day I wake up I worry about the environment around me and it makes me want to cry. My state's economy relies on reckless large-scale agricultural practices that are destroying the land, water, and soil ecology. Every day I see destruction. Dying trees. Algal blooms. Clear-cutting. And construction.

There's nothing I can do to stop these people. These businessmen. These politicians. These farmers who are just following the rules in order to make a living, and the corporations that are forcing them to make unsustainable changes to their farming practices.

Every day I have to worry about what my state governor will do next. What the politicians in my state will do next. How helpless I feel about violent crime, homelessness, and gun laws. Anti-abortion laws and laws aiming to take control of women's bodies. Drugs, alcohol, and reckless drivers. Disinformation online. Ethanol and big trucks. Military spending.

The general psychodrama of people all around me in this country choosing to follow a partisan populist puppet political leader just because they hate their country so much that they want to see everything that made this country great burned and destroyed.

I just want there to be peace, and for people to be regarded over profit and this individualist capitalist apocalyptic narrative.

I started volunteering with the local Democrats office. I follow a local water pollution activist and author on Twitter. I follow their local water quality activism group and have attended meetings. I joined an in-person watch party of the recent presidential debate. I attended Audubon Society meetings when I was living in the city where we had environmentalist speakers. I was even a part of a mass-protest right before the pandemic in my state's capitol for the environment.

To me, it is so much more important to be there, and be present, and participate in something than to anonymously donate money. Don't get me wrong, funding is important, especially grass-roots, but it is so bleak to think that everything has become a money race. Especially when funding is being thrown around, left and right, and so much has made it's way into a myriad of disinfo campaigns, and so so many people are being scammed out of their life savings.

I'm sorry if it seems like I don't care about X issue(s) over-seas. I kind of have a lot on my plate right now. I'm also just trying to survive.

But most of all, I'm just trying to stay sane.

Because I don't have a lot of hope for my own country anymore.

[meditating-dog-lover]

My weight

Growing up I really struggled with my health and weight.

I recently took photos of myself and compared them to older photos from 2021, 2023, and my Cyprus trip and I've lost a lot of weight with intermittent fasting.

It's just IF and walking (nothing intense or long distant, just at work, with my dogs, and my own walks). Also an overall healthy diet. I never counted a calorie, don't eat diet foods, eat junk and treats here and there, etc... All I really do is skip breakfast. I never felt deprived at all. I still eat carbs, chicken tenders, pizza, pasta, and chocolate. Now my diet and portion control are really good, which is why I dropped weight rapidly, without feeling exhausted, hungry, or out of it. Since January the most psychologically and physically demanding thing I struggled with was my eczema, not my hunger.

I'm pretty thin now and even thinner than I was in late 2021 based on my pictures. I can't tell for sure as I never weighed myself or got my body composition assessed. But I'm slimmer now and can even go further. I'm back to my 2018 body for the looks of it (give or take). 

For fat loss, portion control is way more important than exercise.

I see exercise as a tool that can help me with my insulin resistance, and it really did in 2021 when I did my bloodwork and had a pretty healthy fasting blood glucose. It never hurts to ask my PCP about this during my next annual checkup. I do want to do more than just walk for increasing my insulin sensitivity, but I want a go-to workout that doesn't feel like a challenge or a chore and something I can enjoy and do without thinking or worrying, just like how I approach IF and walking. And it has to increase my insulin sensitivity, that's a must.

Overall just growing up with poor dieting, excess weight, excess laziness, insulin resistance, dental problems, feeling bigger than everyone else, bloating issues, etc... is psychologically damaging. My diet is better and IF helped me lose a lot of weight, and my dental health is a lot better, I'm just working on my gut health still and plan on finding a go-to workout that will help increase my insulin sensitivity.

I want a healthy insulin/blood sugar profile, I want a healthy body fat percentage and weight, I want good teeth, I want to feel lighter, I want to eat healthy, I want to feel light and not bloated, all without feeling deprived. I've done so much for my health since 2022/early 2023. All this "holistic healing" stuff may seem like a headache or a lot of effort and worrying, but it's helping me so much towards improving my health. My diet got better since I started supplementing, so have my teeth along with my new dental care routine and nasal breathing, and the continuous IF should help with additional fat loss, exercising will help with insulin sensitivity/laziness, and my gut health protocol should help with any bloating or heaviness I feel here and there.

I'm going to keep the IF up. I'm so happy it made me lose fat rapidly without feeling any pain, discomfort, deprivation, dizziness or hunger. All while working full-time and being pretty busy and occupied in general. My dog is my fitness coach because he encourages me to walk a lot. My supplements help me with my cravings and prevent me from eating a lot of junk. I still don't deprive myself and don't eat diet food like sugar free or fat free or low calorie or low carb variants.

I'll go towards exercising to help with insulin sensitivity, though at my own pace because I'm happy this new goal of IF I started helped me a lot with my body fat. I'm going to celebrate this and make this a habit and solidify it before turning to a new habit. But becoming more insulin-sensitive is definitely a goal of mine, I just want to do an exercise I know I'll enjoy and not have to worry and think a lot about.

Also it's a good idea to have good posture. And worth noting my cholesterol/lipid profile is pretty good.

Overall I just want to feel healthy and light - low body fat, high insulin sensitivity, feeling small/light/not bloated, great teeth, and a healthy diet.

It will all work out. One step at a time, gut/skin health and then exercise.

[christina-thebarber-yogi]

Hey y'all!! I know it's been a while but I'm back with more new year new me bs. I am not doing the 75 hard challenge this year. Instead I'm doing the whole 30 elimination diet. I won't be posting daily body pics but I'll post some food pics and all that. I meant to start with the updates sooner but here we are. I'm on day 8 and it feels like day 80. I "practiced" a little bit before the new year and I felt like I could do it....

For those who aren't familiar with the whole 30, participants basically cut everything out that is known to cause inflammation and cravings, a reset, if you will. What is eliminated is added sugar (all sources except fruit juice which is weird to me but whatever), alcohol (I haven't drank since before the challenge last year anyway), white flour (pasta, tortillas, pizza), dairy (I don't like it anyway), grains (rice, oats etc), corn (I guess it's also a grain), beans, diet soda, basically anything that makes you feel like 💩. However, it's quite meat heavy for me. I like eggs but I don't want them every day. I prefer oat milk to almond milk especially in my coffee. It's only 30 days but I think fish is making me bloated and gassy. I've tried several kinds (since I'm not buying snacks on bogo now and can afford it) and most have caused me gastrointestinal distress. I don't want to eat chicken every day but nuts and seeds only take me so far without lentils and quinoa and rice to bulk up my diet. I love fruits and vegetables and I really ate eggs sparingly (and they come from the fancy farms and all that) to begin with and very little meat. There is a plant based version that I might try after the reintroduction period. I miss overnight oats with date paste and chia seeds and walnuts. My boyfriend just came in the room with a bag of chips ahoy and I want one. My daughter has been making homemade chocolate sauce and she puts very little sugar in it but I still can't try it for 20 more days 😩

It's not all terrible though. I sleep better. I don't wake up with yukmouth. My clothes have gotten a little looser. My joints hurt less. I. Cook. Everything. So not going out to eat or grabbing a coffee has saved me the money I need to get the best of what I want to fix so that I'll actually want it and the people in my house who share it with me don't complain that it's not good. I'm waiting on the boundless energy that I was promised. I'm waiting for January 31st so I can have an oatmeal pancake and some lentils and rice and grits and maybe even pizza (vegan pls). I'm waiting on these Tums to kick in that I don't feel like I should red by now. Anyone else doing this?

The pics are of my last meal of 2023 (lions mane mushrooms over polenta with microgreens) and my first dinner of 2024 (before I smashed it it was roasted chicken and sweet potatoes, garlic kale, romanesco and purple cauliflower)

[thoughtsofnowandagain]

16 March 2023

Not much to report. It's been a week or so since I last posted and the whole time I just wanted to get on here and post even though I didn't have much to say.

Megan's wedding was gorgeous. There was only 20 guests and it was so low key, it was perfect for Megan. She had an outside ceremony (moments before it started snowing!) and although it was cold when the sun was out it was stunningly warm. She had her wedding party at the weekend and that was really lush too though I was coming down with a cold that morning, so I didn't drink much but that didn't stop me dancing all night!

It's Thursday today and its the first day that I've woken up and felt okay and not so sick. This might be a false sense of security and I don't want to jinx anything but I feel good right now. Usually, I'm sick for weeks but I think I've managed to shake most of it off in a week which is amazing for me! I did not something different this time. As well as taking cold and flu medicine on time and paracetamol on time, I've been drinking warm drinks constantly whether that be a camomile tea or a mint tea, no dairy products (like cheese, chocolate, cream, tea), A vitamin C fizzy at least once a day, and hre's the stickler...

Good food and good mentality. I've given into every craving I had, usually mum's cooking. I made my own Chicken and sweetcorn soup, and Silky steamed eggs, and yesterday I had mum's chicken fried rice. THE TASTIEST.

Good mentality. That was a hard one but it is something that I've been practising for the past few months or so. So instead of wallowing in self pity thinking 'i feel so rubbish, I'm not well, I don't feel good, etc' I've been thinking 'I cant wait to feel better, I'm going to feel so much better once I'm over this, Once I rest I'll feel strong again' but honestly just getting on with it because although I'm sick, life still goes on. Money still needs to be made, laundry still needs to be done, food still needs be cooked and eaten. This week, I did cancel a client because I knew she had health issues already, I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable. But that's it.

I also had a 'sick day'. Sam is sick too at the minute, though you'd think he was much much worse than me by the way he's going but alas, we do indeed have the same illness and sorry but, I am stronger than him. I've said to him, he has to carry on. He can have one sick day and you can use that day to moan and really wallow in self pity but after that, you're done. Now you can opt to have a sick day but then not take it and save it for when you're worse, but if you take it you can't take another one, even if you're 10 times worse the next day.

I think also by having good mentality, you're willing yourself to feel better. I've been embarrassingly been thinking to myself 'come on white blood cells, you can do it' and I think it's working. I'm sure there's a study somewhere about 2 plants. Completely identical plants being looked after the same way at the same time. But one plant has encouraging words spoken to it and the other with discouraging words and guess which one flourished. The encouraged plant blossomed much better and I'll take that as a new motto.

Not long until our holidays! 6 Weeks until Cyprus! I'll have to find a dress soon now that I've got Megan's wedding out the way. I wore my sage green satin cowl neck dress to megan's and I was hoping to reuse it for Cyprus but I don't think the fabric will survive another go in the washing machine. I'm also not going to diet to get holiday ready which I'm quite nervous about. I mean, I wont engorge myself but I'll eat like I normally eat. Though I will stay away from pizza and kebabs which aren't foods I crave or want ever but Sam does and when Sam does, I'll order one and eat it out of lack of energy.

From the kebab/pizza/curry house I'll tend to get a plain boiled rice, with a chicken curry. Nothing too saucy, but something that's like grilled chicken with seasoning. That'll do me.

[slavy77]

Well darn it, I really really like food.

I think I was blessed with extra taste buds or something because when something tastes so good, I just can’t help but eat another helping. Pizza, tacos…oh man kids cereal…it takes all I can to resist and I still often fail.

I don’t really have an addictive personality. I don’t think there are too many things that I can’t live without. Even the eating thing, I don’t crave it. It’s just when it's right there available to me.

This inability to control myself is why I'm not as fit as I want to be. And it mentally frustrates me. I tell myself I’m not going to over eat. I’m not grabbing a piece of chocolate. I’m not going to eat fast food…then I see it and the craving gets me.

I know I’m not alone here and I’m not just talking food. Drugs, alcohol, social media, sleeping, gossiping, TV…I could go on and on.

I know we all have a vice that we want to quit. We know it's not helping us but we can’t seem to control it. We want something more, but fall into the same old ways. We look for easy ways out, but once we get traction we slide back into the ditch moments later.

Life is like this. I often feel like I should be further along in life. I don’t feel I’ve hit my calling yet. There is something in me that says I’m not there yet. I had this feeling many years ago with my faith.

I felt I needed to be a better person, but I was stuck in the ways I was raised, which felt like going through the motions. Then I started reading more. Mom gave me Jesus Calling and it put me down a path. A friend gave me the book Wild at Heart which planted a seed of faith in me that renewed me. Then I found the right pastor and church that inspired me and now I’m starting to feel like I’m doing something right.

The key to whatever you are trying to improve on is small steps. There are no leaps or ladders. You have to take the small steps and build on them. You want to be in shape, you can’t just go run a half-marathon…start with walking a mile.

You want to be all swol, you can’t start doing power squats, go to the gym and do dumbbell work or even bands. You want to be a thought leader, you won’t get there because you want to; start with turning off the TV and reading. You want to find your faith in God, download the Bible app and open it once a day to a really easy daily devotional.

I’m going to conquer this eating thing. I’m using my faith to help…God help me not eat another piece of pizza. Some days I will be human and fail, but I’m going to take those little steps. No candy sounds like the first step for me. Well here I go.