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doctorsiren · 2 months ago

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give this angle another tri

#doctorsiren #gravity falls #the book of bill #bill cipher #scalene cipher #euclid cipher #stanford pines #theraprism #gravity falls fanart #digital art #my art #procreate #yeah I finally checked out thisisnotawebsitedotcom hooray!#don’t ask what everything on the second page says #I don’t even remember at this point LMAO #I just wanted to make it look neat but now my hand hurts from all that coded writing #there also may be some spelling errors in there bc that always seems to happen with me HAHUIHS #by merely messing up the cipher lmao #I based Scalene and Euclid off of old cartoon parents #Scalene is based around just like…50s cartoon mom #and Euclid has that 50s cartoon dad thing but also Professor Utonium #little billy….he’s just my young Miles Edgeworth…he’s Astro Miles real…#when I think of his home world I envision it all 50s styled #like cartoon depictions of that time with bright colours and bold geometry #in my head it’s idealistic but done so on purpose so that destroying such a place would be an even more absurd thing to do #destruction caused by his hubris and thirst for wanting something MORE wihtout appreciating what it was he already had #and now he has nothing in the end and it’s his fault and he knows it #thinking about him missing his parents and regretting that decision every single day hurts me 😭

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fisheito · 4 months ago

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hiya l'il-- medium?...large?? Assorted Sizes-Guy

oh thanks! i could always use more spices-

. what am i supposed to do with this.

#surrounded by henchmen (smaller Me's) i peer reproachfully into my inbox #2: ...get him pregnant?#*slaps 2 upside the head* you absolute GOON he's ALREADY pregnant we can't get him DOUBLE pregnant #2: well... why not? if creatures can have two uteri then i don't see why--#Me: *drags my hand down my face* yes i know but. just. dont #3: Picture this. your snake wife is so full and round (because who knows how many snakelets are in there)#3: one day he has to stop working much earlier than usual. u kno. cuz of the MASS. and he starts getting insecure about his body changes #3: so he touches his tummy . looks up at you with those big eyes and murmurs 'am i... unsightly like this?'#3: and u whisper reassurances to him while kissing his face #3: then u promptly rail him on the nearest comfortable surface to erase any doubt of him being unattractive #Me: ..............WHAT THE FUFK?#3: *shrugs aggressively while maintaining eye contact*#Me: NO. pregnancy isn't even our kink. why are we-#3: not YOUR kink maybe #Me: *incredulous stare* how the-- you know what . Go to the timeout zone. i'm not dealing with this today #4: the ask says 'snakumo' though. Wouldn't he be in snake form then...?#3: so? THIS CHANGES NOTHING.#Me: GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#3: *rolls eyes and mutters while walking away*#5: who's greg?#4: dude you can't be serious. if WE know the meme then YOU know the meme #5: i'm serious. i haven't been online in 16 years #4: look. when you wonder if sex will hurt baby top of head-#Me: WHY ARE WE DISCUSSING THIS?#2: because we are currently engaged in a circle of ppl squicked by pregnancy... who must make pregnancy jokes #4: it's all about the joke potential ya see. gigglemaxxing #Me: *massaging my temples* i'm not ready to be a father. i never will be.#6: KNOCK HIM UP AND EAT HIS EGGS SO U CAN KNOCK HIM UP AGAIN. NO ONE SAID YOU HAVE TO BE A FATHER !#3: (muffled from a distance) HELL YEAH BROTHER #Me: SHUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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eeblouissant · 2 months ago

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“Am i the only one who thinks diagramming sentences is fun?”

#when I tell you I just about hit the ceiling when she said this #my most favourite thing about Dorothy is how much of a nerd she is I just 😭 i will never stop talking about it #like yeah yeah okay deep dreamy voice tall & gorgeous okay okay cool BUT. SHES A NERD ???????#her loser energy has captivated me.#i cant ever shut up I just can’t #this was originally me scribbling down some studies and then the first pose hit me. and a lightbulb blinked on in my head #i think this is my most fav Dorothy I’ve ever drawn oh my god 🥹 she’s so sweet what even #diagramming sentences & daydreaming abt her wives she’s literally just a girl #also. this is most definitely the moment Blanche was referring to when she said she had only seen Dorothy so happy one other time at #her wedding. i cannot stop giggling at the thought of it because she definitely caught her being a Loser™️ & just observed. Like a creature.#silly nothing headcanon but Dorothy is ambidextrous!!! she can write/draw/etc with both hands #the golden girls #golden wives #dorothy zbornak #blanche devereaux #rose nylund #art #artist #artists on tumblr #digital drawing

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fluffypotatey · 10 months ago

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Pre divorce shadowpeach didn't seem to be the type to fight a lot. In fact the shadowpeach divorce probably blew up that big due to all the unsaid frustrations they never let out.

So I'm just imagining shadowpeach never fighting in an obvious way (closest to fighting would be backhanded comments or barbed words) but that just makes things more unsettling

oh yeah 100% it didn’t help that swk was always leaving FFM out of his need to get stronger and be the best and be respected. not to mention they probably never saw their times together as the right moment to voice their concerns out loud because this was their time to wind down and they just had to wait it out, wait until everything was perfect enough to have those talks

#then everything went to shit #nothing was okay #swk was trapped under mountain all by his lonesome and def going insane #then Macky visits him (i’ve assumed that memory in s4 was Macky’s 1st and last visit) and they can’t pretend everything is ok anymore #tbh it was probably super ironic for them bc it might’ve been that swk would act like nothing was wrong & everything was under control #pre-battle with Heaven with Macky being the one with some concerns. but then Macky visits acting like everything’s chill and swk can’t #thus their fight is equally harsh and explosive (bc that’s what i find fun) and they never really say they’re done with each other #but both confirm to themselves that this is probably the end of their relationship and then oops! swk is free but won’t come home #why won’t he come home? Macky isn’t sure but he knows that swk is looking carefree with some new buddies and gets pissed #(Am I placing assumptions? Yes. Do they have any semblance to canon? They do if you consider my heart and passion)#anyway mixing jttw events that lmk hasn’t confirmed: Macky dies by SWK’s hand (whether directly or indirectly)#and the divorce is set in stone (bc how can a relationship reconcile or get back if the other is dead? as far as swk knows)#fast forward to lmk and they still can’t be civil or ignore their relationship issues like before and fight/butt heads constantly bc yeah #like yeah past shadowpeach is cute & fluffy & codependent still but they don’t have that hostility like in their divorced/still married era #lmk #shadowpeach #asks

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camelspit · 9 months ago

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curious to know why you dislike juline?

tbh i had no opinion at all of her and then about a year ago there was a poll on which member of the collective was the best. and the tiergan lovers website let tiergan down. in favor of her. /hj

in seriousness, dislike was a bit strong. im still mostly neutral on her. she does sort of feel like just another sparkly girlboss in the series which. admittedly is a trope in kotlc thats started to piss me off a bit bc it seems like every adult woman falls into it.

juline is like. the final evolution of that sparkly girlbossery. she has no real relationship damage for more than 2 minutes after revealing shes been lying to her family for years and was part of the organization that grady thought killed his daughter.

in general! it doesnt seem like she ever faces any consequences for lying to her family or pushing them to the side a bit in favor of the black swan.

idk maybe there were problems (specifically with dex) and we never saw them bc theyre not sophies problem but. whatever.

also what is her "official job." was she passing off as a stay at home mom? does she work in the nobility? idk

#juline is like the supreme version of the never do wrong girlboss to me #like yeah she faced consequences with her family!! for a total of 3 minutes!!#i dont expect this to be too fleshed out bc the plot is busy enough without including every trial and tribulation in julines life #but shannon its not too hard to make female characters that arent all the exact same #i can count on 1 hand how many women dont fall into shannons strong badass sparkly mother trope #i get the need to make women strong but that means nothing when every woman has the exact same personality #the only exceptions i can think of off the top of my head (galvin and alina) are put down by both the narrative and most of the fandom #cadence stands out to me also bc.#in general in the later books shes treated well despite her conflict with sophie.#and while shes still a strong character. she doesnt have the sparkly motherly bullshit everyone else has.#<- possibly a side effect of her time with the ogres #sorry this got rambly!! to summarize my problem isnt with juline exactly but with women as a whole in the series #kotlc

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deiscension · 9 months ago

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Type of person who says "I think my lipstick would look soooooo good on you!", gives you a kiss on the cheek, declares their lipstick looks fantastic on you and they'd like to see it on you more often, then breezes on by all those mixed signals to continue on with whatever was at hand.

#▌ ◈ shi qingxuan ; ⌜ study ⌟#yeah this is all i've got until later i think #discord convos got me holding my head in my hands. lady u've got to learn how to differentiate between different affections #surface level its cute sure but beneath i think its worrying. maybe even irritating/contemptable. depends on the person.#girl who cares you so so so much but her stunted emotional advocacy/expression makes her seem airheaded and unserious #girl who plops you both down into the friendzone bc she's wholly unaware of her own capacity for intimacy beyond friendship #when i say intimacy i mean genuinely any display of connection/attraction/what have you #queen of mixed signals and hard to get bc she's not reading her own signals and doesn't know she wants to be gotten #her ignorance is wreaking havoc yet again!!!!!#i have so many thoughts about sqx and Deep Feelings:tm: be they platonic or any other type of attraction #but this'll have to do for now. ogh. hopeless romantic but quite literally hopeless. so entirely hopeless. girl u've got nothing.#what is it tsun and i say.... stuck in the dark forest (metaphorically) (literally) (horrible beast)

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aromanticasterisms · 1 year ago

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feel like i need a corkboard and red string to make sense of the narzissenkreuz stuff

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #it's not too confusing it's just. a lot. and in bits and pieces #but yeah. the artifact set. the order of skeptics questline and both of the big world quest questlines in fontaine.#also head in my hands. elynas. i have nothing to add but like aughu. auuuuuguuh. dead sentient dragons.#elynas. durin. does orobashi count.#going bonkers i love how someone said ''since apep pretty much said the natlan line we'll probably get dragon lore there''#and i went yeah that make sense.#then boom fontaine. hydro dragon. elynas. dragon lore. what the fuck #presuming. elynas is a dragon of course but what else could it be #but i was right about the melusines being born from its body!!#but........not like apep i don't think. they weren't alive before elynas died #REALLY cool questline btw and i'm not just saying that because i love the melusines [lying]#but i wasn't expecting it to meet up with the other world quest #so when she was like ''mister jakob--'' i literally fucking gasped aloud.#getting to take both of the companions back to the narzissenkreuz ordo was really cool though. i liked that #everyone say thank you to that random guy who tried to scam us and leave us for dead at the bottom of the ocean!!#never would have been able to unlock this loredump without you <33333

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avid-adoxography · 1 year ago

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I have nothing to say to defend myself.

Just take it.

#self shipping #the thematic whiplash. the just some guy energy below vs the absolute menacing aura above. the cringe on my face.#this picture sure has everything uh jcbdfjdhc *head in hands sobbing*#back at it again with meme redraws because it's the only thing i can draw lately #better than nothing! but still...#also shout out to will ferrel for having one of the hardest faces to draw. my god.#he's the only one i got a reference for. everyone else got drawn from memory and it showssss fbjfbfjfj #buddy the elf #yeah no i ain't tagging him as a f/o. despite the uhh... well.. *vaguely gestures at the obvious red flags*#f/o: king Cornelius (the Horned King)#f/o: Ricardo #f/o: Sturm #avid-art #now if y'all excuse me I'm throwing myself in a bottomless pit. bye 🕳️🏃

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keeps-ache · 10 days ago

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okay i'm out of evil mode. peace love and a little bit of still-tired on planet earth lol 🧃

#just me hi #slept ! ! ! was it good? hell nah kfshvg #but i slept :D #wasn't allowed to go to bed for a couple hours cuz parents wanted to play a movie. it was good but it put me in a weird headspace lmsfh #//ooou my ear's doing the Thing #you know the thing. the thing it does. loll #ever since that ant was in there that one time (dear lird) when i wake up from laying on it it'll feel like. a bit inflamed on the inside ?#and kinda itchy. not good things but it's likely not going to kill me so 💥💥#'it's likely not going to kill me' <- things i likely said while pretending i couldn't see anything for like 3-4 years #oh but yea i'm going to assume it's nothing bc i was also getting phantom feelings and sounds for some weeks that caused panic so i'm not #even going to put weight on it. it's just itchy no biggy Kfshvhf :)#//anyway i think i also had a dream but i do Not remember those well At All lol #i know the last one had oath in it though so that one was cool. don't remember much else but that was sick Lmfsh :3 #//Ohh it's rainingggg yippeeee :D <3 #don't get much snow but we'll get tons of rain... i miss you michigannnnn <//3 #//but anyway the dream thing just reminded me #so this detail may not be important but my oldest brother and i are joked to be twins. there's 2 years and at least a foot of height betwee #us (i am the short). people get our voices mixed up when we talk low and i think that's funny #we were also thick as thieves as kids. not a good thing for anybody else but Yeagh kfshvg #but there was this one time we'd both woken up and were talking abt both having had a dream the night before; giving details and such #and we had the same dream ? it's still kinda odd to this day but we had the Same Exact Dream on the same night. if not odd it's neat! :3 #anyway so somewhere in the past year my brother (apollo) got a lunar on his right index finger #i kept forgetting tho and asking if it was a blood bruise (that is my bad boss ✋) and eventually the info stuck in my head #anyway so somewhere in the past two months i also got a lunar on my right index finger. i didn't even notice it until i was tryna wash my #hands and it wouldn't come off lmaoo #now that's going on ig. the timeline-clone theory grows stronger every day Kfhsvhfgsfg #//forgot what else i was going to say i went to go look into the phrase 'thick as thieves' lol #i don't understand how someone heard 'thick' and thought 'yeah. that means close now' kfshd #anyway it's old as you've prolly guessed. the earliest spot it's popped up was a newspaper that printed a letter that was written in 1827 #but it mighta been used earlier than that. neat!

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bismuthburnsblue · 30 days ago

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dress research still going strong, heres todays thoughts-

i am pretty heavily leaning towards the robe a la francaise as my base dress. first, its quintessentially 18th century in a way im not sure the l'anglaise quite comes across as, and i can find way more reference images of the exact details i desire for the french gown than the english. the english seems to lean more towards a closed front, which im not looking for in my design, and generally??? seems to be later in the century. while im not pinning myself anywhere in particular, the fact that the francaise seems to have developed first, and had a much longer life, are definitely things to consider.

the other thing im noticing about the l'anglaise is that it leans a bit more towards bum roll territory. not completely, but im seeing more examples with that kind of shaping, more backwards volume than sideways. im not sure im explaining that right, but theres definitely a vibe (my completely unsupported theory is that the watteau pleats negate the need for any shaping back there by adding backwards volume as a cape, while without them it feels like it needs a little more going on)

i think the most important thing for me and my needs though, is that francaise are inherently size adjustable. you technically get some leeway with all stomacher dresses, as the act of pinning something in place will give you choice of width, but in the french dress the lining is also split under the back pleats. its tied together, letting you adjust it as much as you need for that particular wear. this sounds GREAT to me since this dress is intended for cosplay, i love extra size flexibility without compromising the original vision.

i still feel like i have a ton of research left to do, i have many more extant dresses to stare at before i make my decision, but this is where my next step of research has left me.

i think next i want to focus in on the under layers, as ill need to get that all sorted before i can truly start the actual dress. i have a stays pattern i think will work, theres even a project idea can blend into this costume, and im feeling 75% confident about my pocket hoop plans (most of my issues are around "what the fuck am i boning them with?"), so im feeling good about this!

#yeah im switching between french and english terms. what about it #todays long ramble is long and uninteresting but /i/ wanted to say it all. so #Lady Stede Build #big flashing lights that im not letting myself stary this yet #there was some.... stuff going on before n i got a bit too into following my whims. i am finding a happy medium now i think #but i have a handful of projects i wanna finish before i consider starting this #im not saying 'nothing before the new year' or anything but also. vaguely in my head thats when i think my schedule opens up more #but yeah. trying to follow my wants still while also. not starting too many things #it was a goos experiment though!

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 1 month ago

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I did something completely out of my comfort zone and I lived!

#Wasn’t prepared for freeway driving at all but I surprisingly didn’t screw myself or the person following me over #now that I have Siri hooked up to the car stereo that is #Also nothing quite like being on high alert all day to give you a tension headache #But fortunately for me it wasn’t warranted because if anyone wanted to like chop me up and put me in a freezer they would have #But I’m talking to you now and I’m obviously not dead so woohoo #Don’t worry I never go into anything unprepared. And I’m the most resourceful person I know other than my father #Who does not surpass me but equals me #But yeah they’re actually nice and neurodivergently-honest and not trying to love bomb me so far as I can tell #Because I was getting “this is weird” vibes but never the “don’t do this you’re gonna die” feeling #And they’re quite obviously auDHD so I crunched some numbers based on observable behavior and determined #much of the bubbly “too much” behavior was coming from that #but I was unaccustomed to it because I’m on the polar opposite end of the DSM for ADHD (unsure of autism)#and am less likely to recognize behaviors I don’t engage in as being a symptom of neurodivergence #If that makes any sense at all #Like I’m heavily heavily introverted and quiet and soft-spoken and never initiate friendly physical contact with anyone while talking #I’m very reserved with people I don’t know and am in possession of the most blunted affect known to man and don’t reveal my hand #Ever #So seeing someone engage in the opposite of those behaviors to a degree that isn’t normal with me made me take a step or two back #because my sensory/social/trauma issues are opposed to those kind of things #So I prepared just in case my assessment of them was incorrect but everything turned out fine.#I may be extremely introverted and socially awkward (or at least I feel like I am)#but I make up for it by being able to read shrimp social cues— social cues you didn’t even know existed #(And I also project the vibe of “I have eyes in the back of my head” which makes me kind of scary for someone as slight as I am)#But yeah I’m grateful to have met them and that they’re nice #It sounds like I don’t like them but I swear I do. The circumstances of the journey made me more apprehensive than the person themself

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ratwars · 2 months ago

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Not sleeping enough and having a low grade headache is just who I am as a person apparently.

#no reason for this nothing to blame my sleep hygiene is the best it has ever been. i am just fucked for life arent i? cool great #how do i figure out how to embrace this like the permanent ringing in my ears so i can function and not be aware of my own misery #poking my brain with a stick like the stupid meat blob it is let me solve your stupid puzzle you dumb jackass #-pers #-vent #i really blamed external factors this whole time only to get my ass handed to me when those were gone and be forced to contend with the #fact nah. you just have permanent insomnia issues. yeah not nearly as bad as before but cmon 😭#the options to treat this are more or less the same and still suck ass #ambien makes me do crazy things in my sleep and call and text ppl horrible things i dont remember. trazedone somehow doesnt do shit #and gives me nightmares for the short bursts i do get.#benzos were what i ended up on for the last few years of being on mediciation and you can only get 15 a month and tbh the sleep i got #on those did not feel restful it felt more like going under anesthesia then waking up like i was out but my body doesnt feel like it #plus i almost choked to death on a tic tac while on that shit too there is no warning #like you are good then you are gone and the time always varied #also sustained a head injury while on it too that was actually super bad idk why i thought of the tic tac incident first #the other thing caused me to drop out of college for a few years lmao

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kushanna · 3 months ago

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#very good to see this question being adressed finally since it's the only thing i've been talking about for the past two episodes!!#also ugh. nothing makes me more stressed out than this eternal (eternal since episode 3) question of #whether or not beato is putting on a facade. or something in between. i'm not even joking it makes me SO upset #though i figure at this point i just gotta go ahead and put my hand near the fire hoping it doesn't burn me. which is what i want to do #cause i think i'd rather make a fool of myself (again) than to be forever in deep mistrust of everything. who lives like that?!#without love it cannot be seen i guess?? lmao now i'm just saying whatever but yeah i don't think this is a story that's #insincere and cynical at it's core so. obviously i will think as well lol use my head but yeah. you know what i mean #in any case my clown hat will be ready. ughh it's all lambdadelta's fault #anyways changing the subject completely. remember when beato called herself furniture in the balcony scene #that was so funny of her wasn't it 🥴#umineko spoilers #umineko liveblog

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villa-kulla · 2 years ago

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mini laloward concept: howard affectionately calling lalo “mi bandido”. bonus points if it’s while pulling him in closer by the bandana, smiling against his lips.

#that's all #laloward #in some 'howard completes his corruption arc' AU where he's lalo's right hand man #aka the one in my head lol #but yeah #lalo comes home from a hard day's work of glamorous swashbuckling banditry #hair flying and smiling pulling down the bandana like a goddamn train robber #and howard looks up from where he's cooking the books and positively /melts/#anyways happy sunday i worked 7 hours have a few lines of self indulgence #'have a few lines of self-indulgence' is also what lalo says convincing howard to do coke with him #not because he's THAT into it. the best cartel bosses are the ones that don't get hooked. but it's fun sometimes #especially in bed when sprinkled across your boyfriend's chest muscles #which lalo does to howard but then pauses and howard's like what are you waiting for #and lalo's teases him like 'nothing i just can't find the lines against your skin anymore'#and lalo kisses him before howard can protest he's been tanning a lot since they got to mexico thank you very much #which he HAS but lalo can't tell him that because then howard will stop sunbathing by their pool so much #and lalo's no fool #aaaaaanyways. post SYS? sure.

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sucrose-soymilk · 1 year ago

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hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better

#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow #Seven’s Small Thoughts #not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary #and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much #i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know #i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else #which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways #and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog #i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t #nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty #anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic!#anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah #i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently #it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy #maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get #i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller #and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!!#so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available #which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless #that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine #trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip #i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly #eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it

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sherlock-is-ace · 7 months ago

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#welcome to another installment of: angel spits out all his thoughts about autism cause if he keeps them inside his head will explode #in today's episode: is it possible that my ''panic attacks'' have been autistic meltdowns all this time?#then answer is maybe!#ok so i was watching this youtube video from channel I'm autisticn now what? (check it out it's great!)#and meg was talking about the different types of autistic meltdowns and how they might manifest #and then in the comments people were discussing autistic meltdowns vs panic attacks and how cofused they used to be about them #and that got me thinking... there's a big thing that needs to happen during a panic attack for it to be a panic attack #and that is anxious thoughts... many people talk about fear of death during panic attacks #and that was never my experience. I don't feel like I'm going to die when I have these ''attacks''#they feel painful and like i'm completely out of control but my head is quite clear in that regard #i always thought it was because i don't think dying is like The Worst thing that could happen to me so maybe that was why #and it never ocurred to me that it could be an autistic meltdown because i always saw those as ''little boy hits his head against the wall'#(horrible i know) but it's more than that! (plus i sadly started self harming when the ''attack'' is too bad so not i fit that idea lol)#it's the uncontrollable crying. the throwing anything you have at hand across the room. the not being able to utter words #(other than ''no'' in my case) it's the complete lack of control #and that fits so much more to what i experience! i even related to meg's personal anecdote about a meltdown she had as a child #being separated from my mom made me go into full panic modes as a kid and that was seen as a tantrum but it was more than that to me!#and as an added bonus the only therapist i've ever seen in my life used to call my panic attacks ''pseudo-panic attacks''#because even she felt it didn't quite fit in the description (not that she was a good therapist so i can't put her as an example lol)#but anyways... yeah every day that goes by i'm more and more convinced I am autistic and it scares me to fucking death #because of the way my mom reacted when i first raised the question. so yeah this is for nothing lol nothing will change in my life #¯\_(ツ)_/¯#angel talks #personal

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