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#.#i uhm#dontnfeel good about anything right now#at all#i hate myself actually#like#desperately so#i relapsed#on purpose i guess?#it felt like the only thing tha could make me breathe right again#it worked#i can breath#but#i fee horrible#i hate myself#i want to finish the job#how do you move on from this shit#i cant tell anyone#im scared#i wasnt th inking#ive got a swim meet and i hope its high enou gg up so no one can see it#i hte myself#i hte everything#nothing has a point anymore#i dont see the end goal anymore#i just keep getting stupider and stupider#and uglier#and more disgusting#tw sui talk#tw sh in tags
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When in doubt, Soup it out.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#a-yuan.#wei wuxian#Yes I am skipping over LWJ's panic at WWX joking about giving birth to A-Yuan. It's funny bit but there are many more to come!#The last time these two sat down together the tensions were so high. The peace is nothing more than a layer of cold fat on the surface.#It's not 'really' them coming to see eye to eye. It's them not having the energy to say what they really want anymore.#LWJ is very defined by his jealousy and the conflict it creates with his need to put his feelings aside for the perceived greater good.#To live a life where you are always second and never ever allowing yourself to be first...#If other people can be at peace and happy - it has to be worth it right?#If he orders a plate of food that he will struggle to eat but is the favourite thing of the person sitting across from him#Is it not worth the sacrifice?#But remember! You can't take anything for yourself ever. No matter how much you want it.#He did it once before and he regrets it so much. So all he can do is accommodate.#And WWX? Well. You can't let anyone in if there isn't enough water to splash around in.#Keep things shallow and they just move on. Even if you'll miss them when they go - this is just how things are now.#No more teasing and trying to pull a reaction from LWJ anymore. You'll never be more than someone he can't stand so what's the point.
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What if Wade died and Logan went batshit insane? I'm talking teeth gnashing, claws out, full-on feral murderous rampage. Mind blank with nothing but fear and adrenaline and unbridled fury.
Logan went through all that suffering, all that pain and loneliness and grief just to finally find a home. Only to have it ripped away from him in a moment.
He already went on a killing spree when the X-men died. He was full of anger and regret over their death, over how he never let himself get too close.
If he was that upset over the deaths of his makeshift family who he never truly opened up to, imagine how horribly he'd react to losing Wade. The only person he let himself be emotionally vulnerable around. The first person who actually understood him and wanted. The only person he thought he'd never lose. Someone he was prepared to spend centuries with, who his entire life and future and home was built on.
He'd snap. He rampaged and killed the culprits and civilians alike when the X-men died, before settling into a miserable, drunken state waiting to die.
He couldn't deal with another loss like that. He'd break.
And so he did. This time, it didn't just stop with civilians who got in his way. It was like his mind refused to accept Wade's death, tearing apart anyone in sight while looking around like a wild animal. Eyes somehow razor sharp and unfocused all at once.
He destroyed the entire city, running purely on instinct. He eviscerated and fucking tortured the people who snapped the ability-restructing collar around Wade's neck. And once he got the name of their boss, he crunched their heads beneath his foot.
He went on a single-minded mission to obliterate every single last one of the people remotely involved in Wade's death. He didn't just stop at villainous bases—he murdered their families, the suppliers, everything. His signature was the claw marks he left behind.
He stopped caring about everything. He didn't sleep. Didn't eat. Never took a break. The only person that made his miserable life worth living was gone now. He jumped into each fight with reckless abandon, a complete disregard for his life or any injuries he could sustain. The only thing he cared about was violence. Revenge.
The X-men tried and failed to stop him, to get through to him. He snarled and pinned them to the ground or incapacitated them. He managed to get away or evade them each time.
Logan was once called the Worst Wolverine. The people in this universe were about to find out why.
#poolverine#deadclaws#kitkat#deadpool 3#deadpool and wolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#deadpool movie#wade x logan#wade/logan#hed snap their spines#absolutely feral logan#he gives 0 fucks anymore#his only goal is to avenge wade#but he keeps finding new people to kill#because if he stops he has nothing#bonus points if wade somehow resurrected or survived and came back to find everything in ruin#poolverine angst
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‘the black bastard of the wall’ moniker is the exact opposite of the ‘white wolf’ moniker and this perfectly highlights the irreconcilable differences between book Jon and show Jon
#‘white wolf’ highlights his stark heritage parallels him to robb and tries to align him with perfect moral goodness#‘the black bastard of the wall’ is only about jon. it has nothing to do with his stark heritage nor ghost. it’s only about jon#it’s literally white vs black#stark/winterfell/moral goodness vs bastard (targaryen bastard to be specific)/the wall/moral greyness and the duality of it all#he’s already a snow and he’s surrounded by white up north with a white direwolf so being the black bastard and dressing all in black#is perfect imagery of the duality theme in jon’s storyline#d&d rly wanted their jon to always stand in robb’s shadow 🙄#while book jon has an international reputation while still stuck at the wall#my boy is stuck in westerosi alaska and he’s got ppl across the sea yapping about him for pastime#that’s fame baby#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#GOT critical#jon snow#book jon snow#and i wanna know what other monikers george plans to give jon#while i wouldn’t be that suprised if the ‘white wolf’ did come from george it’s the way it’s jon’s only moniker in GOT that pisses me off#‘the black bastard of the wall’ supremacy#the white wolf seems kinda lame in comparison but say jon gets it if his hair turns white like some theorize#if that happens then i’ll like it more cause it’ll be about jon!#like… the young wolf is about robb. not grey wind. the starks are compared to wolves and robb is a young king and he just so happens to have#a direwolf. in the show jon’s ‘white wolf’ moniker is honestly more about ghost than jon! and that’s ughhh#but robb had the wolf moniker first so it feels once again like the showrunners were placing jon in robb’s shadow#UGHHH I HATE THE SHOW AND HOW IT RUINED THE WAY SO MANY PPL VIEW THE CHARACTERS#let jon be the black bastard !!#his color was always black and the wall is his !!#put some respect on his name and his badass moniker#i don’t want to see anymore shit about the white wolf cause that’s only d&d’s shit invention at this point#valyrianscrolls
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i think a core component of the okumura twins relationship is that if you told them before the series what happens in the future, they would worry about each other before themselves
#i stand by this 100%#especially with yukio people act like he actually hates rin#when in reality he spends a lot of time worrying about his safety to his own detriment and to the detriment of him#cuz he thinks about it as an authority figure and not as a peer and he doesnt really know rin that well at this point#hes used to the 'if nothing bad happens he'll be same so if he does nothing nothing will happen' but of course that doesnt work anymore#rin is already a demon hes already an exorcist and yukio cant cope with the fact that bad things have ALREADY happened#and his problem solving method failed and continues to fail that he doesnt know what to do#in terms of rin of course he also has his own problems#rin does this too but more as a brother and less of an authority figure#its more of a 'yukio should have to deal with this so im gonna do it even if it kills me' even tho in this case yukio has more experience#rin needs to keep him safe and to keep him safe he needs to fight the things that threaten his little brother#but that also fails because of yukio's aformentioned experience but also rin's lack of experience#rin knows how to fight bullies but he doesnt know demons but hes still trying even if yukio doesnt want him to#anyway i think its sweet how hard they try for eachother despite being out of their element#and also how hard they're trying to appear like they're not trying to keep eachother safe to eachothers benefit#okumura twins#ao no exorcist#blue exorcist#yukio okumura#rin okumura
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some stories are written precisely to elicit strong emotions from the reader INCLUDING negative ones. some stories and characters are meant to be upsetting, they are meant to challenge you and make you uncomfortable!! when a story makes you feel Big Feelings sometimes you are meant to sit in those feelings and ask yourself why! fiction is a great space to explore these emotions in a safe environment. you, as the reader, are meant to think critically about the art you are enjoying and that includes asking yourself questions like why has the author presented their art in this way and what are they trying to tell me. and then you get to have fun picking it apart and figuring it out and deciding what, exactly, the art means to you.
#this post has been in my drafts since SEPTEMBER and it just gets more and more relevant lately#and sure sometimes we decide in the end that the art is bad and that we don't like it. that's fine. i'm not arguing anyone's right#to dislike certain things. it's fine!!! but why are you acting like it's a personal offense??? what's going on??#like idk what is in the water these days that people have become so averse to Storytelling#the whole POINT is to make you FEEL SOMETHING!!!#why are you getting mad at artists for making you feel something!!!!#between some of the asks i and other authors get to the recent stuff with mouthwashing and epic saga and fucking nosferatu#NOSFERATU. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SCARY???#i really feel like i am losing my mind. i keep thinking of that 'disco elysium but its a little girl looking for her lost cat in the alps'#tweet. like this is really where we're at. people would rather feel Nothing. no one wants to be challenged#no one wants to explore Themes or read social commentary anymore it's so dire#let's all just go read our bland cozy fantasy story with found family and No conflict & nothing interesting to say at all#i'm sure we'll all be safe there#fuck!!!#also this isnt aimed at that anon i got a few days ago this is just like. a general trend i have noticed that is happening Everywhere rn
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(note: this is purely from a character perspective, not a comment on CCs.)
grian and scar have now both been in opposite positions to the original 'cactus ring', and it's so interesting to compare their attitudes to sacrifice on both ends. whether or not scar threw the fight in the cactus ring, he did offer for grian to kill him before it began. grian declined this, but was clearly fighting with the intention to win during the fight itself – he's giving scar a chance, but not sacrificing.
in secret life, scar's on the other end of things. he's fighting another winner – who herself has been sacrificed for previously – and, like grian, is going into what he assumes to be a fair fight... but which is in his favour due to the others' willingness to sacrifice themselves for him. this is a common pattern for winners: in whichever order, they take the win once, and are once willing to sacrifice themselves to let another take it.
cut to wild life.
this time, it's grian in the final two once more, yet again against an – albeit more distant – ally. he's got a win under his belt already, so you might expect him to do what pearl did, what scott did, right? sacrifice their chance at glory to let another taste it for the first time.
and yet:
"I'm going to have to kill Joel"
"Can I win this? I worked so hard on this series, I'd love to win it!"
because here's an important thing about life series!grian: though he's willing to even the playing field, he's not willing to sacrifice – not when it matters. pledge your loyalty to right a wrong, yes; give lives to gain allies hours, yes; refuse others' sacrifices to fight on fair terms, yes. but in the end, no matter how much he wants to stick with friends, no matter how bad he feels about it, no matter how may "i'm so sorry"s he gives – he will put his own life first, in the end.
there's a reason he's the reason for so many of his allies' deaths, after all. and in its contrast, the wild life finale showcases this beautifully.
(and for the record, i don't see anything wrong with this from an out-of-univere perspective – it's been 5 seasons and 3.5 years since Grian's last win, and even if it hadn't been, it's the CCs place to judge fairness, not ours.)
#it would be so SO interesting to add martyn into the mix#(<– probably my most common quote but. he's the brainrot singularity ok)#i don't doubt for a SECOND life series martyn is extremely selfish#(it was so nice to have that recognised after limlife – even if it arguably did get worse over time)#(cue cc!martyn's 'ren's death permanently made martyn more selfish after 3rd life')#but the thing is – does the win even mean much to him anymore?#he was so ready to take the crown he was so ready to end it all#and yet#next series he's right back. everything starts as normal. nothing changed#does it even matter anymore? is there a point? to me it's no coincidence he's started placing lower afterwards#(before it was 6th (last member of dogwarts to fall in 3rd life despite being on the losing side of the war) 3rd 3rd 1st)#there's no way he has of knowing his fragment was repaired by a listener – he has no idea what fragments even are + is unconscious in the-#-void + has NO idea watchers and listeners are even at play!#(that's sth there's often confusion around – he's NOT a listener in his lore! he's not on a similar playing fieldl! and though the watchers#did reveal themselves at the end of last life/ that was wiped from c!martyn's memory as he went into the light (lore stream)#he's a regular confused traumatised person whose changed for the worse over the death games whom the watchers dislike after evo#who just wants things to be over with...)#anyway this to say#though if he WANTED to get to the end i'm SURE he wouldn't sacrifice himself (c!martyn at least – it's still relatively close to the win so#-not sure abt cc!martyn)#...does he actually want to?#anyway martyn ramble over#wild life smp#wild life spoilers#3rd life smp#secret life smp#grian#goodtimeswithscar gtws#trafficblr#double life smp
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Well they caught him. If he wasn't the exact kind of person tumblr loves, the conspiracy theories about this being a random person being framed would have continued to spread. But he's an attractive 26 year old white man who was caught carrying a manifesto about corporate America and has an internet history that matches up with tumblr's general politics. So everyone is going to get excited about how he's a martyr and go back to acknowledging reality in that there isn't a conspiracy to frame the wrong guy.
The discussions over whether or not this man should be lionized as a hero are honestly not as relevant as the comfort with which people are going to drop the conspiracy theory they would have been fully committed to if this man's politics turned out to be nuts. The ease with which the userbase of this website switches between realities based on whether or not they confirm their biases is really alarming. I just hope people understand how weird it is to claim a random person is 100% going to be framed by the FBI on one day, and then drop that by the next day when it becomes clear that the person being "framed" is the exact kind of communist you had hoped.
#gingerswagfreckles#i feel like this comes off as waaah the ceo got shot and i really dont feel that way#i dont care he had it coming#and also. i cannot say yet bc not much info has come out but so far the shooter doesnt seem like someone i dont generally agree with#(preliminarily. maybe the manifesfo is super nuts idk)#but i really think that everyone's excitement to celebrate this guy as a hero is going to#distract from the fact that leftists have like decided conspiracies theories are completely acceptable#and not only that they're fun and true based on nothing but also that they stop being true#when theyre no longer politically beneficial#which just like. do you guys even understand how bad that is. not just that ppl are all gung ho about conspiracies now#but that theyre not dropping them in response to new information that disproves them#but in response to new information that makes them politically inconvenienient to continue to believe#it implies that a huge chunk of leftists are not basing their opinions on reality and facts but whatever makes them feel good and confirms#their identity within their social group. which has been true to some extent for a while#but we are getting to the point where people arent uncomfortable with the cognitive dissonance#that comes with believing in different versions of reality from one moment to the next based on what feels like it would be cool#in that moment#idk we are all doomed i think#i saw this coming back in 2017 and no one listened to me :/ people dont believe in objective truth anymore#they believe truth is something malleable that can be changed to confirm their beliefs#rather than something objective that they should change their beliefs in response to#like why are you all dropping the whole this is a random person being framed thing if you believed that yesterday#like oh ok NOW the police are a reliable source for identifying who the perpetrator is?? bc the perpetrator turned out to be someone you#think is cool?? i do not believe you guys would be believing these same souces arent in on a conspiracy against leftists if this guy#had turned out to be someone you dont like and agree with#luigi mangione#united healthcare#united healthcare ceo#united healthcare ceo assassination
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reading the (first?) Rinezha fight scene in TBG right now and the many parallels i'm seeing to Mareven is quite insane actually. if i had a nickel every time a rich guy and a lower-class girl fell in love and she became a sort of ally for him/his side/country only for him to betray her at the most unexpected moment -when his side no longer had any use for her anymore- and he later made it his sole purpose to try and capture her to convince her to join his side but since she absolutely loathes him she refuses and so he resorts to using a cruelty on her the likes of which he hadn't before because she was his weak spot and so their relationship is forever corrupted with no chance of going back to what they were. i'd have two nickels. which isn't much but it's weird that it happened twice.
#they don't make ships like this anymore#OBVIOUSLY want to point out that Nezha's targeting on Rin is nothing compared to Maven's straight up abuse towards Mare#Rin has more means to defend herself than Mare does#AND Nezha never once refers to Rin as his possession or “his” because he isn't an absolute freak. the way Maven is#so their targeting Rin and Mare respectively is absolutely different in nature and through different means and for different goals#(though both do it for political reasons *also*).#but their relationships are wholly different and only resemble each other on a surface level (the similarities i pointed out)#just wanted to add that so it doesn't seem i'm comparing Nezha's (also wrong ofc) violence on Rin to the absolute nightmare Maven puts Mare#through. or that i'm downplaying the violence they both inflict on Rin and Mare or anything.#that said. i'm eating my own organs right now. the parallels. THE PARALLELS#rinezha#the poppy war#mareven#red queen#the burning god
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btw my headcanon for sophia amell in veilguard is that she has been 'oh no... I think your letter got lost on its way to me first warden... too bad, I'll just stay here in amaranthine until I hear from you, then.... is this a letter I see before me...... a tragedy. I can't read all of a sudden. my eyes. you sent a messenger? my messenger now I'm adopting them. no message received sadly try again'-ed all summons to go to weisshaupt, so she's in denerim with alistair when stuff starts to go to shit and at least they spend the impromptu superblight together. they may both be right on the edge of the calling (? we just don't know!) and ferelden might be about to fall, but at least they're king arthur and merlin-ing (erotic and romantic connotations) it up together at the end of the world and kissing and holding hands about it. and what more could I hope for for them. that's what beating the odds looks like for wardens I think.
there's a particular incident where she saves his life through the power of spirit healing and. maybe the guiding hand of Something that seems to still reside in the petals of the rose he gave her that she's worn in a little glass vial around her neck and that have not withered all these long years, and it inspires actual myths and romantic literary traditions and folk ballads and all sorts of nonsense that outlast them both. neither of them care tho they're just. hugging right now. drenched in darkspawn blood like the old days. resting their foreheads together. taking every moment they may have left just to be together. whatever you do don't go without me. wherever you go let me go too. and with you let me be buried, and where you go after that let me go with you then as well. (of course. of course. after all of this, where would I ever go without you. the one good thing about the blight is that it brings people together. the one good thing is that it brought me to you.)
#head in my hands. anyway they were never married officially of course but like. no one is in any doubt after that point lol#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: sophia amell#alistair theirin#warden x alistair#I think ferelden would also be so grateful to have one of the most powerful mages not only of her own age but of any#act as the shield of both the people and their mythically morale-boosting king that they're just like#'yeah I guess she's kind of an evil mage advisor whispering in his ear and everything. but she's our home-grown evil mage advisor'#('also she summons a MEAN thunderstorm. sweet andraste's fried nipples')#the *people's* eminence gris and honestly queen in all but name at this point why bother with playing it plausibly deniably cool anymore#everyone knows the king is a married man in all but law and foreign politics anyway let's dispense with the bullshit#for the duration of the blight double whammy at least lol#I've had the idea with her saving his life while he's king and there still being -- *something* in the rose (the hope the love)#that helps her do it for a looong time now but I could not have asked for a better opportunity than veilguard gave me#what's more romantic than this?????? nothing. nothing. love that has lasted a warden's lifetime and will last beyond#I don't even know if they eventually die during this I just know they're together no matter what. and that's all that matters
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#sometimes I love sitting in complete darkness also knowing death is literally around the corner#it's so thick in the air it's unreal#I haven't mentioned anything about it here but#my kitty has cancer and things haven't looked good at all during the last 2 days#I fear that it won't take too long anymore until she will die#I'm so used to doing everything by myself and I know I will manage somehow as always but#I can't deny I sometimes get so fucking tired of always putting on a brave face and pretending that everything's fine#and not talk to my few friends who unfortunately suffer so much themselves and sadly don't even live near me#and yet I don't even want to talk because I'm way too exhausted#mayhaps just the presence of someone who cares and understands could be enough I think#but there's nothing like that anymore so I keep pushing myself forward despite always falling back deeper into the dark hole#I have long accepted how things are but#knowing the one thing that gave me the most strength during dark times will be gone is unbelievably painful#I'm confident things will become brighter at some point. just wondering when. I think I finally deserve a break#just wanted to get it off my chest before retreating back into my “idgaf” behavior#tumblr and moots are my witness#likely tbd#tw cancer
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something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.
“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”
#makoto naegi#Danganronpa character analysis#Danganronpa#danganronpa thh#danganronpa future arc#I fucking love Makoto Naegi man.#I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known#he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said#he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky#he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did#if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world.#he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done#and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend.#I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though#post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do#it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to#and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc#he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions#I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse#and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate#and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable.#honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually#I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself#that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels#it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it#it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic#anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for#the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!
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Hey! Just letting the, like, three people who follow me for Lovejoy/Wilbur, I won't be posting about him anymore.
I can't take back four, almost five, years of finding comfort in him, interacting with that community, and listening to his music (and finding a Hell of a lot of comfort in that), but I can and will support Shelby all the way.
Always support and listen to the victim. Remember this is Shelby's story, not Wilbur's.
#although this is directed at not posting about lvjy/Wilbur anymore remember this is SHELBY'S case. not his; don't make it about him at all#i won't be deleting the few posts I have on them (especially my concert clips because those are a wonderful memory for me) because ->#I'm using this site as an archive. It was a point in my life that will be staying up even if it has nothing to do with me#wilbur soot#the band lovejoy#lovejoy#mel's rambles
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qsmp francophone cubitos and their dynamic drive me wild, they all know they’re mutually lying and obscuring the truth to one another, they all know they’re keeping each other at arm’s distance, they all know they’re not as open as they once were when it was just them and the aftermath of a plane crash, but the love is still there. the worry and the concern. they pry information out of one another in supposedly subtle ways that really just convey how much they still care about each other. what’s your stance on the federation. how’s your code arm doing. even if in the end you don’t turn to me, please call out to someone. maybe looking out for yourself is looking out for others as well. i don’t know you anymore but i will protect the unknown anyway
#qsmp#qsmp french#jay rambles#i need to go sleep . said i’d go to sleep ages ago . rotating them in my mind anw . fawk#it’s like. they KNOW they’re not being frank with one another. and it’s almost a game they play#i ask you this question and you know what i mean . but i will not say it outright .#for how long can we dance around the topic until one of us spills the obvious out into the open air#<- etoiles broke first btw lmao . and he and baghera went right back to pretending like neither of them knew any better too#insane of them . fuck#(for context it was about bbh and ron . both him and baghz were prodding at each other trying to gauge how much the other knew#and etoiles at one point just said ‘oh my god i know you know baghera !!! please !!!!’ it was a very validating moment for french cubito#enjoyers . right until they went back to pretending nothing had happened . win)#shoutout to like two months ago when etoiles said smth along the lines of how baghera isn’t telling him everything bc she doesn’t trust him#i will explode and explode and explode#antoine’s whole Thing early on about being distrustful and wary of others and how it hurt that he wasn’t always told everything anymore#a slow unraveling of the status quo that you don’t even realised has happened until you look around you
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the beginning of luke doing... this...
he doesn't yet think to call himself layton's apprentice, so he's borrowing emmy's title and role of assistant: i must be helpful to the professor, so i must remain at his side even when the situation puts me in mortal peril! even when i'd be scared out of my wits! it totally isn't because i feel safe in the professor's presence... no! it's out of obligation! (etc. i've been over this before.)
what especially irks me here is that when layton has emmy and luke promise to get out of harm's way should it arise, luke just tells him to be careful! he doesn't even promise! literally every time the concept of promises has arisen, mostly layton promising to keep luke safe or uncover the specter's secret or other such things, luke hasn't believed it... and here he is, ducking away from promising to keep himself safe. what the heck!
#melonposting#professor layton#luke is so fascinating to me. he's scared of things yet simultaneously has no sense of self-preservation#but in an abstract way? as a sheltered kid he hasn't been exposed to much danger#his father has raised him in a safe environment but recently has done nothing to comfort him when he is troubled#thus putting luke in a weird spot. he wants to be comforted but doesn't expect it anymore#and because until recently he'd been comforted like any kid... he doesn't know how to comfort himself#it's only when layton comes around that luke can deal with his own fears 'maturely' if you will#but you can expect that he still gets scared as he always has. it's just that now he's resigned himself to rely on himself in those moments#except the very person who taught him how to be mature about his fears is the one who promises to keep him safe#somewhere in luke's mind he knows that layton would comfort him if he broke down#(something he has taught himself to stop doing)#and thus he gravitates towards layton#because he is terrified. and because perhaps he wants layton to have to save him from danger.#perhaps somewhere he wants things to be so scary he can't help but break down...#and he gets to be a scared little kid again......#with layton as his caring father.......#sounds a lot like clive huh? driving oneself to the edge in the hopes that someone (layton) will save you?#of course this latter bit (all this 'perhaps') is speculation but it's certainly possible. and it's certainly sad#but anyway... at some point luke's steeled himself to danger enough where nothing seems to really ruffle him#and so there's nothing stopping him from continuing to do this. continuing to call himself layton's apprentice.#continuing to suppress the scared child within him by acting like a fearless adult...
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The true Girl, so Confusing duo of Ever After High. Somebody please talk to me about these two their dynamic has been rotting my brain for weeks.
#raven queen#briar beauty#ever after high#eah#eah edit#LIKE????#the way they go from being less than acquaintances to briar disliking raven for what she did on legacy day#not even because of what she did to her but of what she did to apple#to her slowly questioning her own destiny and raven dismissing her worries because she thinks she's just a party girl#to briar apologizing to raven after she lives through her destiny because she finally sees that they both have it badly!!#the system is hurting everyone!!!!#and as much as apple and raven are reflections of each other i rlly do think briar and raven#are the true mirrors because they were both raised for a terrible destiny by mothers who weren't as present#as they should have been and pushed down their doubts about that destiny bc they thought there were no other options#and then got shown a way out#briar was just raised to be a heroine in her story while raven was a villain#and the way apple plays into their dynamic!!!#the way all she wants is ravens attention and briar is happy to help her until raven starts causing apple distress#and she shoves down her own wants bc it's what she's been doing her whole life anyway#but she can't pretend anymore!! and it's raven's fault and she's losing her best friend and everything is boiling over!!!!!#and apple finally comes around bc of raven!!! even tho raven has done nothing but fight her on it!!!!!#while briar did everything for apple and apple barely ever tried to see her point of view!!!!!#i'm fucking losing it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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