I came across a journal entry from September 2017 where I was physically reliving trauma with absolutely no memory of any abuse and I was having very bad amnesia. Way worse then anything I experience nowadays and I wonder what that's linked to. I remember being so scared and I was switching out and having full on flashback blackouts and then "waking up" just as the flashbacks stopped. It was so scary.
Another entry in September 2018 when I went back to my mother's house I was excessively cleaning because I felt so dirty and I spoke about the fact that I was remembering memories of things but then at the time of writing I couldn't remember what it was anymore but it was bad. I just remember knowing it was bad.
I think I'm having the same experience this year, the remembering and then amnesia. It's like my brain wants me to remember but then realises I actually cannot deal with it but I'm getting all the body memories and flashbacks despite not remembering and it's hell.
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Hualian: two guys who seem kinda normal at first blush but then you have a second conversation with them and you realize what absolute freaks they are especially for each other. Luckily they steadfastly refuse to discuss bedroom matters with others (bc you are unworthy)
Wangxian: you meet these two and you’re like oh ok. This one’s the freak and this one’s the guy who keeps him in line. But then as you get to know them you realize more and more that the roles might actually be reversed from your first impression. And THEN you come to the inevitable conclusion that they’re both freaks and nothing is keeping either of them in line except the will to fool others
Bingqiu: hopelessly undisguisable freak4freak. One look at these guys and you know something’s up. You talk to them and just Know that they have kinks you’ve never even heard of nor do you want to. You live in fear of trying to hold a conversation with them.
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In the stripped club. Straight up "shrimpin it". And by "it", haha well. Let's just say. My Poscas
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I remember when viv retweeted my cherrisnake wedding and got my hopes up
viv u heartless bitch
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not me being in a puddle of tears because Cherry Magic TH predicted marriage equality kjdhsgd help???? 😭😭😭
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the outsiders characters as silly cats
Ponyboy
Johnny
Dally
Soda
Darry
Two bit
Steve
Randy and bob
Cherry and Marcia
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My brain doesn't like hotels when I'm alone. Noted. I'm also overstimulated rn.
Apart from these things I am very well. Having a great time and feeling very stable. Going to put my queue back on lol
Sending love to you all
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wed 3.27.3 // chill spring studying ૮₍。´ᴖ ˔ ᴖ`。₎ა
yall love those cherry blossoms LOL but anyway today i’ve been kinda just coasting thru classes bc im excited for easter break ₊*̥(°´˘`°) i wanted to share some more cherry blossom trees around campus with u all bc its so pretty and it makes me so happy everytime i walk under them. i lwk need to lock in for physics and calc this semester but im just gonna keep being chill and work steadily
𓍢ִ໋🪷˚*ੈ♡⸝⸝🦢✎✧˚ ༘ ⋆。˚📝 𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒✧˚ ༘ ⋆。˚♡ ୭🗒️˚. ᵎᵎ 🎀
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What I truly admire the most about the production behind Cherry Magic (Thai), is the way they find increasingly weirder suit cuts and camera angles to try and make New Thitipoom look in any way, in any capacity, on any planet in any form, smaller than Tay Tawan.
They keep failing, but they do keep trying. And that should be admired.
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I think it is cruel and unusual punishment that I got into stardew valley approximately three months before the 1.6 update and absolutely GRINDED out my farm and almost reached perfection and then I was told that in order to best enjoy the update I should make a new save 😭😭😭😭😭 why couldnt I have just waited three months more months to get into stardew WHY I DONT WANT TO MAKE A NEW SAVE IM ATTTAAAAAACHEDDDD
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