#not wasting anymore time ig
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obsessed w the way hiccup and astrid beat around the bush abt their feelings for like three years and then the SECOND they officially get together they get engaged.
#not wasting anymore time ig#i love them#astrid goes from ‘whaaaat???? we’re just friends!!!’ to ‘omg i need to find the perfect betrothal gift😟’ in like two seconds#it’s so funny#and also very cute. like the second they got a taste of what a relationship is actually like they said oh HELL yeah i want to be w u forever#lets get MARRIED#hiccstrid#httyd rtte#race to the edge
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#remembering that one time i was 12#and my mom signed me up for a competition hosted by fucking harvard without telling me#about shopee's business plans#and what they could do to profit or sth#and i balled by eyes out crying bc i couldn't understand anything (neither could my teacher at school)#and mom wouldn't help me#so i cried some more#and she yelled at me bc she already put in money#ig now history is repeating itself#cuz my mom is telling me how she wasted her money on me for ielts#because i couldn't understand a single thing in the reading section (pt 3)#because the topic was fucking finance (AGAIN) and i could comprehend what it was saying#i just didn't understand what it meant#same thing went for a stephen hawking book once#discussed theories i haven't even touched about in schools#i dont think 13 year olds are supposed to be forced to consume medias about finance and politics and academics all the time#i mean im 13#im taking ielts soon#thats 3 years earlier than the minimum#which is 16#likehonestly#i dont wanna do this#anymore
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step 1: perform a lot of moral posturing about victims of rape and incest in relation to kink
step 2: ignore the incest and rape victims/survivors you know who are talking openly about how that's bad actually
step 3: say insane shit about how liking petplay or being a furry means you want to commit bestiality
step 4: be surprised and hurt when your friend who has experienced incest doesn't find you to be compatible with them anymore
step 5: spiral about how they abandoned you for no real reason even though they offered to explain why they don't feel comfortable being your friend, reaffirmed love for you, and wished you well going forward despite this and other weird things you've said
step 6: ignore all the times they very much offered you emotional support in at minimum well wishes when you were spiraling and conveniently forget that you failed to offer them the same when they were spiraling about incestuous abuse and sexual trauma, things you claim to be very concerned about
#vague#let's go 2016 ig we're so back down to the person i'm vaguing#cannot believe we're being messy again at our big ages. but ok#i'm genuinely quite mad about this now#before i just felt bad that we can't be friends anymore#but now i'm outright mad because i do not have the time or the energy to waste on self pity that serves to deflect from blame for#the very real things you have done to harm others#we are GROWN ADULTS
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Lil sketch i made few days ago on a particularly normal day
#doodz#by nirmal day i mean i was extremely negative about how i didnt have aby ibterest in doing art abymore#the motivstion to do so yk the drill with me lmao#it was like monday? its sunday now#si ig im fine. look st sal i suopose#its just sad aint it? i dont have sny strong interest to really see the point of spending hours and days doing art. i work slow!#si its a lot of time wasted yk its hard ti see the point whrn i can do so many other things#ill still do art#its just ginna be. not really a hobby anymore
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Little rant about my friend and consuming media lmao
Ok how do you consume media and still have NO IDEA who even the main character's name is? I recommended tma and bsd to a friend - well he started both. I ask him about it - like who his favourite character is or what he thinks of it - and he's so.... Confused almost? Like he just shrugged and said that he actually had no idea what was going on - which ok is kinda fair with bsd but like. you know the characters at least. Each one of them is introduced in some dramatic way, you can't MISS any of that and surely there's at least one character that gets your attention/that you relate to/that you find interesting. I mean ok maybe you forget the name or sth, but you at least remember the characters when I describe them to you, right? But no, my friend had no idea who for example Dazai was - DAZAI?! Like. What???? Or Atsushi.. the fucking main character???? Or chuuya???? Or - anyone??? I was so perplexed. How can you watch something and still have no idea about what you're watching?
The same happened with tma. I recommended it, he listened to the first few episodes. I asked him what he thought of Jon. HE DIDN'T KNOW WHO JON WAS I MEAN WHAT???? Oh idk he's just the guy reading the fucking statements. Before every statement he says "audio recording by Jonathan Sims" like how can you... miss that?
Idk, am I just consuming media so intensely or is he just... I don't even know.... Disinterested in engaging with the media one is consuming? It's not even that he doesn't like it. I asked him and he said it was good. But what exactly does he find good when he has no idea about. like. anything.
#vent post#personal#ranted to my mum about it as well and she said it might be bc he's stoned out of his ass the whole time#hhhhh#but i think more and more people don't have media literacy anymore#like they don't consume media critically they just watch whatever gets their attention first#it feels so dystopian....#like wasting your time on those types of media just so that you're passing the time and not engaging with it#idk if that makes sense#i think I'm kinda hurt as well bc i thought we could talk about these series together#i even watched some of the things he enjoyed but he doesn't have a clue about them either#he always says that i become the “expert” on those mediums anyways so he doesn't have sth to add to the conversation#but that's not at all what i want? like I'm not the expert of anything i just want to talk about what he enjoys#and maybe get him to talk about things i enjoy as well#this all feels so bitchy I'm so sorry#ok rant over ig#thank you for reading all of that🙏💕
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the thing abt the whole 'ull stop caring what others think of u one day' line is that it's v misleading in how it's typically worded. bc in all honesty, the older i get, i HAVE started to care less & less what ppl think of me.
but, like, it's not been a magical awakening that i woke up with one day. it's a mentality i've had to actively work on. & build up over time.
& i've only been able to do that by understanding who i am as a person, & honing in on what i stand for & stand against.
& through working on those things, i've been able to start working on caring less when someone perceives me otherwise. because, at that point, it's not me they're perceiving. i'm not gonna change the mind of someone who is actively choosing to perceive me as something i'm not. & it's not my responsibility nor problem.
so, like. yeah. you do learn to stop caring abt what others think of u. but, that's the thing. it's something you learn. it's something you have to work on. it's a mentality you have to build. & it's something that, like any other lesson, can be faltered with at times.
but, it's just. part of being human, i guess.
#mine#idk what this is it's almost midnight & im reflecting on this past year ig.#just been talking w the others in the headspace & we're like#wow yeah like unless we do smth genuinely wrong & cause harm then like...#actually we dont give a single fuck what other ppl think anymore.#this year has ripped us all to absolute shreds. & SO fucking much of that has come from ppl hurting us#by perceiving us so far beyond who we actually are.#idc anymore. im just trying to survive. whatever way i can. w whatever makes it even the tiniest bit easier.#the people who are worth my time & energy are loving & understanding. even when i do fuck up.#the people who only intend to use me for whatever reason are the only ones who give me any slack#they're not fucking worth wasting any more of myself than they've already taken.#keep that shit. it's not me anymore. if it ever was.#idc.
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I think people need to start doing rewrite AUs for Security Breach the same way Warriors fans are constantly making their own rewrite AUs of their favorite arcs (usually PO3).
#ramblings#fnafposting#*I* want to do a rewrite au of sb but i do not have the time or energy to spend on it so whatever#ig im not in fnaf fandom anymore so ive no clue if people are/arent doing rewrite aus for sb but if theyre not they should!!!!#vanny is such wasted potentional i think the fans should rewrite sb to actually involve her as a treat
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you would think that me ending a friendship with someone i knew for ~10 years would leave me devastated but tbh all i feel is disappointment and cringe for them 😶
#want some tea?#if the only times a person shows discontent or just outright says weird shit about YOUR OCS is ONLY when they are not cis#run#too bad i was excusing and ignoring a lot of shit for years#glad i have actually decent ppl by my side that even helped me see that some things that were said were 10 times worse than i assumed#just another story i get to tell when it's time to talk about cringe ppl from my life ajkdhasjklasd#also like imagine sending a whole ass google doc after u have been told to fuck off#and u didnt even check if the link works#funniest shit even but also shows how much they care ig??#anyways#im just kinda glad that im not lost in any delusion anymore and really just moving on from this. character development#sucks that so much of my brain effort was wasted but oh well#anyways to my bestie mutuals if anyone wants to have playdates with ocs pls let's do it i got a whole bunch who need oc friends now akdjlsh#not even joking i love ocs interactions so much hhhh#adry.txt
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GORGEOUS case bro I've never seen one with a continuous design like that and the embossment itself is so tasteful... always happy to see Mr. Dunkulous too <3
ALSO AYO YOU WATCHED MONDAY? How was it? Either way you're almost done with the Sabu Tsutsumi catalogue then... that's epic... I'm glad you liked Destiny too, it really is such a cute movie
Also I'm pretty sure PS4 preloads are open too BUT I'm still salty Xbox gets it a day early </3
Its one of the first designs i ran into while looking up wallet cases LMAO lucky me me thinks…. Its very pretty <3 mr dunkulous here to stay and keep me company lest i totally lose my mind <3<3
AND I DID i mentioned so durin stream yesterday ! i REALLY loved it, sabu keeps putting ttm in terrible situations and it makes me giddy seeing him panic 🥰 AND DESTINY WAS ADORABLE it was so cute….. really wholesome and what my soul needed….
OH PS4 PRELOADS OPEN ? Ill check it out when i get home later……. Why does xbox get it a day early thats rude me thinks…..
#snap chats#cancelling a post i was gonna make to bitch in the tags of this one <3#anyway on this day this monday we remember the words of our king ryuji goda#A Real Man Oughta Be A Little Stupid DO YALL WANNA KNOW HOW MAD I AM.#HOW I JUST SPENT A FRACTION OF MY FOOD MONEY ON A STUPID CARD#WHEN MY FUCKING ID WAS UNDEE MY TABLET. CAN YOU IMAGINE MY RAGE. MY ANGER.#I TORE UP MY ROOM ALL WEEKEND BUT NEVER THOUGHT TO CHECK UNDER MY FUCKIN TABLET#its a lilfunny….. im tryna make the most of it ok GODAMMIT IM SO MAD THO I CANT#$20 is like $5 in todays society everything is twenty fuckin dollars i cant live like this#at least my deadnames not on my id anymore… and it doesnt look like its falling apart ig…#STILL HAVE THIS TERRIBLE PHOTO AND ID RATHER BE DEADNAMES AND HAVE $20 THAN NOT HAVE $20#NO ONE TALK TO ME ANYWAY kinda funny. hang on.#at least i dont have to get a new sticker… i just scalpe the old one from my oher card.. lol… knife came in handy…#was leaving to Waste Twenty Dollars when i ran into one of my roommate’s boyfriend for the ninth time this semester#and we both clamber into the elevator and he like ‘ive seen you a lot lol so uhh whats your name :)’#and the struggle i had… do i say Aforementioned Dead Name do i say my Thinking Of Changing First Name do i say Last Name….#the safe answer is always last name so thats what i did but god i floundered..i stared at him for a second longer than i shouldve#today sucks. at least i dont have a night class today…#i’d stream y0 but streams dont go well when i stream them at 5#plus i have to work on a comm… ouugg lemme cap it here before i rant for thirty tags straight LMAO#anyway. love my new case. destiny was cute. angry jealous frog ttms funny and sad at the same time. monday made me giggle 🥴#this was a good post to make while making sure my cars battery didnt die LMAO ok bye <3
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while i want to be off anon to say this, i feel like you wouldnt be too happy to know that i know what your vent blog is (i dont follow this blog, dw) but i genuinely want to say that i saw what 🍷anon sent you and im like! what!
thats not okay. i dont like it when people compare another person who already hates themself enough to people whos presence they enjoyed in the past. i know who/what that anon was referencing and i despise the fact that they said that to you because i feel its entirely unfair. maybe you do have some mental issues and are generally apathetic but that doesnt make you undeserving. maybe youve moved on and we've moved on, but that doesnt change the fact that you still feel things, however unreal and dreamlike it may be. youre still deserving of being treated with respect and dignity even if youve made mistakes that are entirely out of your control. you didnt ask to be born with several mental disorders. you didnt ask be apart of cluster B. what that anon did was pretty much kick you while youre down.
i understand if you dont want someone sticking up for you because you feel you dont deserve it, but im going to do it anyway because i still know you and i knew you and saw how passionate you were and still are about my ocs and about others' ocs. your interests and passion was admirable and even when some people didnt understand, we still saw how much you loved what you knew and talked about.
i wish i was braver to ask this off anon, but alas, i am not. if you feel that no one cares about you. or that youre just "there on the internet" i still care about you. because you still exist. living or not, dream or not, you exist in my memory and will continue to do so. look forward to the future and remember that theres a chance there can be someone who will be patient enough to love you the way you want to and need to be
If you were there when I was actively saying that shit in the server, then I don't think you should say this to me.
#anon#ask#thanks. ig for saying this#some of the words did make me tear up irl#but you shouldnt have sent this. shouldnt have done this. quite a waste of time for you to say this#also. i dont mind if ask off anon. i AM curious of who you are.#i have my guesses. but thats rude of me. and i shouldnt dwell on you guys. as you guys shouldnt dwell on me#oh. you can also follow! i don't.. mind#some of my older mutuals follow this blog. so#and besides. in the server i was also talking about my own childhood ig? eh. doesnt count anymore#you now know just as much as my prince does....#also. you were using past & present words. ah. are you really done with me?#then unfollow my main
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wow so apparently 30 tags is the limit, that's cool, not rereading any of that shit, the void can have it and my run on sentences
#im running on about 3.5hrs of sleep rn#i went to bed at 6am because i couldn't stop crying ig#god thats so pathetic#i have like 2 people that care about me#like actually care about me#my siblings all still live at home and my entire family forgets i exist#more often than you'd think#i only have one irl friend aside from my boyfriend and she's got her own shit#i used to share a bed with her and now im lucky if we exchange one message per month#my best friend is just Some Guy from the uk and he's 6hrs ahead so it's probably inconvenient for him to talk to me#and yeah maybe it's just my brain fucking with me#but i don't feel like a person#i feel like some vaguely human shaped alien or something#trying to decide if i should drop out of uni#if i do my boyfriend will probably break up with me though#he wants someone who can build a life with him#im not sure i even have a future#at this rate he's probably gonna drag me to the er to have a nice little vacation#surrounded by nursing staff and other patients#im too fuckin old for this shit#ive seen what life has to offer me#i just want out yknow?#all i am and all i will ever be is a personality disorder#summed up by 3 words:#dramatic#emotional#erratic#does that sound like a life worth fighting for?? ive done so so so much dbt and it's all been for nothing#just a complete waste of my time#my mood stabilizers aren't helping anymore either
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augh I am. not feeling it today. wahhh
#yesterday I was ready to tackle anything ever but now I fear I must crawl into my shelter and stay there#i think it's just too warm. I also feel. guilty a lil bit ig#Told my mother I emailed the doctors about smth I thought she already knew about and apparently she did not :explosion:#so she got worried even though it's almost definitely nothing and I'm just wasting my time going to get anything checked out#they emailed me back asking to call them cause of course they would...I'd literally tell them the same thing as the email but alri#augh it's just that. I'm an Adult she doesn't have responsibility over me anymore she shouldn't care as hard as she did#...I say did because I think she maybe forgot. yay <3. I have to fucking call them tho awful#emailed in the first place to avoid that </3#and I could only email them cause my friends sat us down someplace and wouldn't let us leave until I sent the email#obviously I don't want someone to supervise my call that shit's embarrassing but...wahhh. ;-;#I don't feel like an adult today tho. I don't want to be. not that I have a choice in that really aha but. still#Android.txt
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@bubbled-clouds
Everyone else the entire movie: I want to be happy or comfortable, even if that’s selfish of me
Death: I need that cat fucking dead
#i love him#like yeah he wants puss dead but the reason is that puss didnt value his 9 lives and just carried on carelessly#just wasting his time being alone and arrogant#and thinking he's basically immortal#then when puss finally realized that he's supposed to cherish his lifes and his time with his loved ones#death doesnt want him dead (immediately) anymore bc he just hated puss bc of that#and ig you could interpret it as hating puss bc he didnt fear death aka him#many thoughts
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I need to make new friends so I can stop putting up with these losers
#I don't even like them I don't want to spend time with them they are just placeholders#they are from the past. I have changed and bettered myself and they have not. I no longer relate to them#and yetttt. they're what I have. bc they're what I had when I was different#but I'm not that person anymore yet I'm still stuck with them#bc it's either them or nothing and some sort of companionship is better than absolute loneliness#but I've outgrown these relationships and don't want to waste my time on them anymore#this is prob a temporary feeling but idk if I even fw my ex anymore#at some point you gotta realize that some people just aren't gonna grow and mature and improve themselves#and if you can deal with that it's fine. but to be surrounded by that is kinda exhausting#like no sorry I have a life to live and responsibilities and things that need done#I think I'm in a weird little transition tho. bc I used to fit in better with the irresponsible losers and whatever despite never being one#but now I just don't vibe with that anymore#but I'm also not a big ol nerd that can go vibe with those people so idk. I'm changing#gotta figure out who my people are ig. and then find them#just tired of wasting time on stupid people lmao#ik this sounds bad but I am half asleep and cannot think of good words to use so this isn't entieely accurate#goodnigjt guys#Sera
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jeno fucking a dumb sensitive overly submissive reader?
a/n: sorry to the anon that sent this months ago... but, ig i'm officially back now :D
by the time jeno decides to slide his fingers out of your poor sopping cunt, you can barely tell where or when you are anymore. you sit and twitch in his lap, basking in the numbing daze of being fingerfucked through a countless number of orgasms. his arms wrap around your body bringing your back flush against him, his erection presses firmly against your ass.
"baby...” he whispers lustily into your ear.
"jen- i-i just-" you've barely caught your breath and your legs are still shaking.
"don't tell me you've had enough, i haven't even cum yet." he pouts while rocking his hips against you to emphasise his desperation. "lemme keep making you feel good." his mouth grazes your shoulder as his hands skim down your tummy to push your thighs apart.
"you don't want me to stop, do you?" it sounds more like he's telling you than a question. of course, he knows what your body wants better than you; there's no way you can deny him.
jeno wastes no time rearranging your tired limbs, laying you on your back. he crawls over you eclipsing and caging you with his muscular form, a darkness akin to that of a starved beast ready to descend swirling behind his sparkly brown eyes. your entire body jumps in surprise as you feel his hard cock brush against your puffy folds.
"sure you can take it?" he chuckles, reaching a hand down to take hold of his girth and slap it down against your swollen clit - a feeling you can't help but mewl at.
"please, jeno, please! i want- i need your cock." tears begin to prick your eyes. the empty feeling between your legs begins to gnaw at your sanity.
how can he deny you when you beg so, so well? you bite back a whine as he buries his swollen tip into your slit. a sensation so searingly pleasurable begins to spread through your body as he sinks into you.
"oh my f- jeno!" you shriek, the stretch becoming more overwhelming with each inch. "it's so, i- you're so-"
"it's okay," he coos out as your clumsy hands rush to claw at the sheets. "i know baby, you’re still sensitive, but you’re gonna be good and take it all, m’kay."
this was the part jeno loved. his eyes don't leave your face for a second as he bullies the rest of his cock into you. your eyes gloss over and your mouth lolls open, the feeling of being filled so well was just too much for your poor, dumb brain to handle.
your sensitivity seemly becomes contagious, as he takes a moment to revel in your warmth; your walls grip and suck around him, even though you swore you couldn't take it a couple of minutes ago.
he takes hold of your waist pulling out to sharply thrust back in forcing a hiccup out of you. the meek sounds turn into garbled moans about how good it feels as he picks up the pace, each thrust sending you further into hysteria.
"takin' me so fucking well." he strains, “my perfect, dumb little fuckdoll.”
his heart swells as tears begin to spill from your eyes but it's overpowered by the need to ruin you further. as you sob, he clutches your jaw and kisses you tenderly while bucking into you viciously. your cunt convulses around him so enticingly, your legs spread further under the influence of his strong hand so easily,
"shit, not gonna last long, baby, feel too good." you can barely even process what he’s saying any more. all you can do is take him and feverishly shudder at the feeling of your silky walls being stretched to their limit.
jeno just barely makes out the word ‘inside’ between the jumble of sounds coming out of your mouth.
"cum for me first, yeah?" jeno can feel his balls tightening, your heat gripping him dizzyingly tight, begging to be pumped full. "wanna see you make a mess all over my cock."
jeno's thumb rubs down on your clit in rapid circles as his thrusts start getting choppy. his moans getting whinier by the second.
a burst of power seems to shoot through him as he lifts your hips higher angling himself to perfectly hit your spot. you let out a shrill before releasing; making a bigger mess than either of you expected as you squirt all over his abdomen.
“good girl, messy fucking slut,” the sound of your skin slapping together becomes overwhelmingly wet. all the stimuli push jeno over the edge; his nails dig into your hips, pushing the both of you to your limit to hit your deepest spots.
“gonna- take it all for me, i’m- fuck!” he lets out an almost pained groan as he pumps thick, hot spurts of cum deep inside of you. eyes rolling back as his mouth hangs open.
jeno just barely catches himself before smooshing you under his weight. you’re still trembling and gasping at the aftershocks of it all as he rests his forehead against your own. his breath fans over your face before he connects his lips with yours passionately, turning into somewhat of a doting puppy now his carnal desires have been satiated.
“okay? too much?” he breathes out, sweetly dotting kisses all over your face.
“‘m okay,” you slur, eyes barely staying open. he had drained all the energy out of you; you’re surprised you’re even still conscious.
“did so well for me,” he plants one last peck on your lips, “think that might have been the hardest i’ve ever cum, thank you.”
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Loss of decorum (part two)
I’m feeling too angsty to finish up part nine of ADIF (they’re so in love I can’t make them feel angsty in this moment) or write the very smutty Radioapple so… we’re here! 🫠 better than not writing ig
Part 1
How Alastor ended up dry humping a hotel resident in a hallway.
「Warnings/Promises: Alastor x GN!Reader, pillow humping, reader humping, violence against bedding, angsty little shit」
MINORS DNI 🍷 🛏️
What could he do? What power did he have when your existence collided so mercilessly into his?
You had started out as another thing in his peripheral.
He wasn’t sure when his perception of you shifted from the American Common Squirrel energy wielding sinner to a black hole of his focus.
You were always moving, be it your body or your mouth. Depending on if the topic fell under one of your litany of obsessions, you could go on for far too long. Your voice became background noise. Ambient sound he didn’t notice anymore until you left the room and suddenly— ah, the uncomfortable silence.
The shape shifting from small, inferior creature in his orbit to something substantially worse was too subtle for Alastor to clock it.
Was he finding a space to settle while he read the paper? Well where were you mindlessly mumbling to yourself…. That’d be a good spot.
Everyone gathered in the common area to waste time discussing the future? He’d find himself waiting for your arrival before zoning out.
Distance soon became irksome. He’d approach the bar inches behind you in hopes you’d jump and shriek with surprise. But you’d be so focused on whatever nonsense task you were busy with (like cleaning or bonding with Husk) to notice him, moving away from his bubble before registering any shock.
The audacity.
It only got worse from there.
Your scent lingering faintly in the air where you had just been. The warmth of your hand still seeping from the wood of the bar top.
Absence was suddenly something he became acutely aware of now. The void left behind from you in every room, and soon, on every piece of him.
He was taken by surprise himself when one day you forgot yourself and placed a hand on his lower back. Just trying to get his attention so you could walk behind him safely, Alastor spun around and gave you the dirtiest look.
“Excuse you.” He hissed, and to his dismay you smiled back and moved on. But the feeling lingered on his back. And when he removed his coat and waist coat before bed he could still feel the pressure of that hand. Small compared to his own, he noted, as he let his larger palm settle over your ghostly one to try and replace the sensation. It was of no use. You’d marked him somehow.
A slap to his arm when he said something you thought was hilarious did it too. Then the time your leg brushed against his for a moment when you took a seat beside him. He moved to a nearby chair but it had been too late. Before long he was covered in your absence. It spread, a piece of thigh now the knee up. He could feel it. All the places you no longer were.
Alastor was quite sure he had blacked out. The first night he lost some battle he wasn’t aware was waging in himself, he left his body entirely. The beginning of the trouble. He remembered undressing and checking his skin for any signs of you. And then….
Somehow, at some point, he’d pulled his pants down enough to free the uncomfortable tightness there. Unsure of when, he grabbed hold of a pillow. He was sure it was the whiskey… he told himself as much as he thrust down into the long and soft tube of down-feathers. His head was heavy, antlers looming and forcing him to rest his forehead against the mattress.
What exactly he was thinking about he couldn’t say for sure. It was all a blur of sweat and fuzzy images and errant feathers as his claws tore into the pillow accidentally. He’d been too rough, hands shredding the fabric and hips thrusting the poor stuffing from its casing.
Humid breath primed the sheets for the drool that left his panting, open mouth. While your name could only be pieced together across butchered syllables intermingled with gasps and groans, you were there. He focused on the sound of you, the nape of your neck, the warmth of your skin, the softness he was sure you had for him.
And then the pillow was utterly ruined, messy in ways not entirely dissimilar to his earthside victims. Different fluids, different innards, same principle, he thought. A moment of passion he struggled to control.
A moment that became a pattern. A routine.
Alcohol didn’t help, as he often found himself destroying more bedding when he imbibed… no, it didn’t help. Until it helped too much.
Until you followed him down an empty hallway late at night. Stumbling and slurring, having gone drink-to-drink with him, you reached out and hugged his arm against your chest and said his name in a way he could only perceive as intimate.
Once again, his memory was full of holes about the details. But soon you were on the wall, his hands at your chin and hip, one of your legs around his thigh as he pressed his growing erection into you. He pulled back nearly as quickly as he pressed in, but when you moaned he flinched.
“Do you like this?” Barely understandable as it was diced by the static sharpness of his radio tones.
You nodded, sliding both hands up his wide chest and holding onto his shoulders. He wished he could stop, his face pure frustration as his body took the reins. He watched somewhat helplessly as he humped into you like a hapless teenager. His muscles knew the motions now by heart, memory driving the feeling of his cock up and down your core. Through the discomfort of the friction you found the pleasure of the circumstance.
His hands pulled your legs up by the thighs and you wrapped your body around him instinctively. So tight and determined was your hold on him that he could let his hands roam elsewhere. Tenderly and clumsily he tried to not tear you like your pillow counterparts. His hands roamed and flexed as if telegraphing his thoughts of calm down, gentle.
Drunk or not, you were aware it was a public space so you bit your lip to keep the louder sounds down. Alastor felt his cock jump with every whine you made; his body lit up by just your stifled moans into his chest.
You felt it too, the twitching of something large and solid rubbing against you. Your body tried to roll back against his thrusts, chasing the pleasure available there, but Alastor held you firm in response. “Don’t move, I’m already at my limit.”
For some reason he had thought he could pull away before cumming, but he couldn’t. It was impossible to stop himself, not with you so eagerly clinging to him. His body grew stiff against you, breath held in his lungs as you looked down to see the smallest sheen forming just to the side of his pants zipper.
You wanted to touch it, to feel the sticky proof of his want for you, but found yourself landing ass first as your support disappeared with no warning. He heard your yelp as your tailbone hit the hard floor but he was already gone in every sense that mattered.
He went about the following day glaring menacingly at you; an unspoken warning.
You took the hint.
But when Alastor found himself again rubbing his clothed erection into yet another pillow, he suddenly regretted the cold attitude he gave you. The pillow was now utterly useless.
It lacked the scent of you that rose off your neck, heated blood rushing through your veins. It was too soft, no true form to accept his cock and give him the sensation of closeness to something so tantalizingly unknown. The room was too quiet, your satisfied sounds so loud in his memory. The bunch of feathers and fabric wasn’t capable of wrapping trembling arms around his body to remind him this was something both parties wanted. No twitches. No warmth. No sighs.
No accident that night when he tore the pillow in half. He’d fucked himself by not quite fucking you. Nothing in his bed would be able to satisfy him any longer. Before, he could ignore the occasional physical arousal easily enough as he had nothing to compare that option against. He’d nearly always powered through it, and when it was just unbearable his fist was enough.
Then, somehow, for some reason, he needed to act out the way you made him feel. His thighs and core throbbing to move. The pillow was fine, if not embarrassing in new and horrifying ways.
And now, his hand and cushions were all moot. He’d had a glimpse of what he didn’t know he was missing. Ignorant bliss torn from him like it had been from Adam in his garden.
He simply couldn’t go back. Alastor wondered how long he could keep himself from you. Worried if your hands would snake up his shoulders again or push him away.
Panic turned his blood cold and cock soft. What if you denied him? What if the damage had already been done to you both?
He knew the only way to find out was to try again.
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