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toastsnaffler · 3 months

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been so brain fogged again today :(

#ive lost so much time. i got home at 5:30 and all i remember doing is preheating the oven n cooking my aubergine while i showered #which takes like an hour. no fucking idea what happened to the other hour and a half thats scary #and ive had to run a trial involving other ppl so ive had to talk to coworkers and explain things all day and i was struggling so bad #even in the morning like my words werent forming properly and i kept feeling like i was just hearing myself talk #as if it wasnt me talking it was someone else and also my eyes are struggling to focus and im SO TIRED!!!!!! ANDIVE had a headache all day #and painkillers dont help :(#i dont know why its been so bad. i slept rly well last night n ive been eating properly #and i took 5mg dex after lunch bc i could feel i was already crashing and it didnt do anything at all as far as i could tell #ill try it again tomorrow maybe today was jusr a weird one idk #man and after i finish cooking and eating its pretty much already bedtime. i dont even have time to do anything for myself :((((#not that i could im so so soooo tired #but still. ahhhhhhh #its ok. its ok just a strange day. my head feels.so weird and bad. at least its all physical and not emotional tho #and at least in 10 mins ill be eatinf imam bayildi. aubergine save me......#i need a hug and an ice pack for my poor head and for someone to tell me im going to feel better tomorrow and tuck me into bed #wah!#.diaries #but at leaat im not sad or ruminating i would rather have this than the mood swings its all okkkk

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bonemeal12 · 6 days

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eepster

#my art #not satisfied with this but also I was just waiting till I could go home when I drew this so whatever. no more time for this guy.#dc #tim drake #inspired by how fucking tired I am rn im soooo tired im so eepy seepy tired im so tired (I will be staying up till 1 again)

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luck-of-the-drawings · 1 year

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DISTRACTIONS sometimes its the drive to help and save our friends that pushes us to learn and to succeed. unfortunately its normally ''unethical'' to replicate that in a classroom setting. I ONLY JUST FINISHED THE LAST PAGE HERE, THE FIRST TWO WERE LITERALLY FROM LAST YEAR, N A FEW MONTHS APART. LOOOOK AT MY EVOLUTION. im very proud of this and bled REALLY HARD FOR THE LAST PAGE. PLEASE ABSORB THIS.

#gillion tidestrider #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #the last page honestly just took super long bc i dropped it for a long while. only recently wiped the dust off o it.#IM RLY PROUD OF ALOT O THINGS ABT THAT LAST PAGE #LIKE THE PERSPECTIVE N THE WIDE SHOTS OR WHATEVER #IT WASNT EASY BUT I MADE IT LOOK GOOD!! IM SO HAPPY WITH IT #I ALSO just really love drawing gillion as soooo small #just a little guy with the weight of the world bolted to his tiny tiny shoulders #n yknow what while im here ill talk abt the first two comics aswell. i like taking inspo from JTHM for this kinda stuff #more specifically SQUEE n the way his dad was just sooo honest and cruel to him. 'yeah its your fault my life sucks' n all that. i imagine #that gillion prolly dealt with alot o that too. i know weve already seen the elders #but i did initially imagine them to be very much like the Tallests from invader zim. they just hate this little guy. hes so small n lame #hes prolly had teachers like that im sure. i like thinkin about gills experience in school!!#i fell in love with him the moment he said that he wasnt good at being a student like girl ME TOOOO WAAAAAA #HE SUCKS In school and everyone is just sooo tired of him but they gotta put up with him bc hes the Chosen One #but GOD they wish they had someone more competent i bet. it was prolly a relief when they banished him #could u imagine being that? someone so insufferable that people sigh in relief when youre gone. poor poor gillion #ANYWAY THATS ALL MY THOUGHTS #TALK ABT UR THOUGHTS IN THE TAGS TOO DIPSHIIITT CMAAAHHNN

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fear-no-mort · 11 days

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thinkign about how alone and unloved morty was for all his life and rick was the first time anyobdy ever put such an amount of intense attention and dependency onto him . and rick had a whole new family and losing them made him stop seeing the value in other people as a whole and morty was the one and first thing that woke him up

#really long Tag rant down there #one of the most Things Ever about them to me is how morty barely even understands just how much rick loves him. more than anything #and its something ricks done on purpose hes made sure of it #because hes so weak he cant handle it #them being together is agony in avsolutely every way and sense but also theyre the best part of eachothers lives #morty because nobodys payed attention to him quite like rick has and all the exciting space adventures and rick just cause. he literally #just likes him thats it. and he never knew it #also i was thinking of this earlier. one of the reasons season 1 is soooo good to me is cuz you get to see morty grow on rick in real time #stuff like that moment where morty walks through the door and rick is instantly at the sight of him SUPER excited and he goes hey!!! but #then he clears his throat and goes Hey trying to pretend like this dumb scaredy kid isnt becoming his favourite thing hes ever known day af #er day #and goddamn night shaym aliens. in that moment where he realised morty had been fake the whole time i rlly wonder what he was thinking and #how he felt. like. oh man this is messing with me way too much this is Bad #and then he got drunk over it and yknow. that . is it post credits. i think. that scene #n literally At the Very beginning he was tired n drunk n stupid thinking like man fuck this im gonna blow this place up and do what prime #did to me. But he brought morty with him Even just at that point it flashed in his mind and he absolutely could not bear to let morty die #Breathes in #im rewatching in October bc anniversary month. i literally can’t wait im so actually impatient i considered just doing it today So hard #odiespeak

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boyfriendyke · 3 months

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there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help

#in my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i'll never write i emphasize this theme #by changing psyche from a princess and youngest daughter to a poorer girl and eldest daughter who is very like. sophie hatter esque #also tbh when i first started thinking about my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i was reading hmc LMAO #also also ALSO. as a kid i always felt like the story was soooo deeply about regret and atonement and forgiveness #like YES the story is about love but not about easy love. love is difficult and requires work and sometimes u hurt each other !!!!!#it always struck me as a kid how psyche just. accepts the tasks.#i always read it as like. psyche KNOWS these tasks are unfair and i dont even think she expects to achieve them #but she accepts them anyways because she so deeply regrets what she did to eros and has no idea what else she can do.#am i verbalizing this well or have the worms eating my brain reached an irreversible point #also tbf im pretty sure the version i read as a kid didnt include the multiple times psyche tries to kill herself LMAO.#but we're ignoring that because i love the idea that shes just. so aimless and resigned to the tasks #ALSO on eros' side of things #i dont have like proper analysis about it but as a kid i saw eros hiding his face as like. fear?#like. fear that the person he loves will think he's a monster if he reveals his true self. or somethin. which also. i think is very queer #also very beauty and the beast. for obvious reasons since it was based on psyche and eros lmao #oh also. i already mentioned it but psyche and hercules r so similar.#did something unforgivable to a loved one --> given multiple impossible tasks to atone for it etc etc #i dont have any real analysis abt it i dont remember a lot abt hercules tbh but. yah #ALSO. okay i think retellings of hades and persephone where theyre totally in love and stuff r kinda tired.#BUT. in the theoretical adaptation i always imagined a scene where psyche does the last task where she goes to the underworld #and shes tired shes soso tired #and she goes to persephone and persephone is gentle and motherly which aphrodite has Not been to psyche #and i think if persephone is unkidnapped and truly in love w hades #then i think there could be a fun parallel between persephone and psyche in which like. theyre both in love w ppl #who are seen as monsters. and shit. or whatever #anyways. idk what made me think abt this again. ACTUALLY i do know i might write a twine for the neotwiny game jam #and it might be inspired by psyche and eros #anyways. lmao #jc.txt

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megroha · 1 month

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#all i do on tunglr is little vent posts lately #anyways im tired of being so uncomfortable and unhappy all the time #if i'm lucky i can distract myself for a little while but i always come back to it #i really really miss my adhd meds!#i just feel like a stupid dumb idiot because i can't do anything!!!!#:O mfw my disability disables me #but it really is soooo fucked #everywhere i look i see things that used to bring me so much joy but they're also big missed opportunities!#because everything just falls apart in my hands #i can't Lock In to anything #my life just never starts?#i need my independence i need to live on my own #but as a real life zombie i could not possibly hold down a job that would afford me that rn #i dont want to waste any more time but i do need a chill 3 week coma #i need to be put in a sensory deprivation tank for 4 days #i need another media detox probably but i'd still be equally unable to get anything done #i need to go live on a mountain

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jennrypan · 1 year

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...question.

Kagami found out Marinette was ladybug apparently and..SHE FUCKIN TOLD FELIX??

Girl.

Yo. What the fuck is this mess, why is Kagami suddenly only revolving around Felix?? Like..damn immediately find a replacement Adrien and whatever he says goes apparently, sure.

This isn't Kagami salt before you ninnie mugs get it twisted. I'm just appalled by the writing.

Also why is NONE OF THEM TRYING TO LET ADRIEN IN OR FUCK. EVEN CHAT NOIR?? Aka Ladybugs fucking partner. Like. Didn't Ladybug give him some communicator when they went to New York?? Or Shanghai?? One of them. Can't she tell him there's somethin fuckin important happening.

Or is he just the fucking damsel in distress that needs everyone to save him cuz that's a REALLLLLLY good plot line to have, just sooo super duper good. Insane.

Keeping an important detail from the person you love to "protect" them is just as shitty and just as stupid, you're just showing you don't think they can handle shit and you think you know them better than they know themselves.

#ml spoilers #j.p speaks #mlb writing salt #seriously..whos making these decisions #TELL ADRIEN THINGS. I THOUGHT WE GOT THROUGH THIS IN SEASON 4 #and even then Adrien wasnt even allowed to be actually UPSET at Ladybug cuz of her break down so it became about her.#im soooo tired of Ladybug atp. literally all her issues could be SOLVED BY TELLING HER PARTNER ANYTHING.#all these plot points could be fixed..easily.

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serendipitous-mage · 29 days

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......... who's gonna tell him ... .. ill do it @markiplier

#IM KIDDING ALKJNFGADFBG IM SORRY MARK BUT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO NAMED THIS PLAYLISTTTTTT #actually you know what on the slim to none chance i submit this at Just the right time and it gets a bunch of notes #and he somehow does actually see this post #(hi sappy/backstory tm incoming feel free to continue scrolling lmao>>)#mark you helped my mom so much #she was sick for 5 years and in that time as she got weaker and more tired what she had an abundance of was Time #and as someone who since losing her has now also become extremely depressed i underrstand Even More how horrible that kind of Time can be #to have and go through and be frustrated and devastated and bored out of your mind #but some of my friends started me in watching your videos #and she was my best friend #i shared everything with her #so of course i shared your videos too #and we would watch a lot of them together but you also have so many on your channel from so far back in addition to the new ones #that she had plenty to go back through and watch on her own while i was at school #we always felt like your humor and mentality fit right in with the rest of the household like you were a longtime friend #or neighbor from just down the road who we spoke with regularly or smth idk it was just so easy for your videos to be engaging and upliftin #she could have a playlist on to fall asleep to and be distracted from everything coming up...and that means more #than i could ever begin to thank you for #i think fnaf had been one of the things id been introduced to you through..and then tiny box tim we loved tiny box tim #back when you were first getting into making shorts and improving equipment/editing quality i always thought it would be so cool #if we somehow ran into one another on the street somewhere and i could offer to help #because i was watching those videos too! i want to make them as cool as possible and im going to school for it i know tips and tricks #and by now im sure youve probably surpassed what i know haha the INSANELY awesome and frankly gorgeous cinematography and impressive #but anyway... i know she had those videos to fill the Time when i was at school #and sometimes when i wasnt but when i was too exhausted #and i know you made her laugh and smile through it all #and that means everythingto me #ok well thhat got sappy fast sorry everyone christ #ive thought so many times over the years about trying to write something in the comments on a video or send an email or something and like #i feel bad same time cos i know soooo many people have similar stories or treat youtubers/celebrities like theyre actual saviors and angels

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scourge-sympathiser · 10 months

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the AU from todayz scourge is technically my oldest! as it first came abt whn i waz like. 12 giv or take a few yearz lol

#textz #obv very different now from then ahahaha #biggest thing waz my younger self taking part in the tired n true i like these 2 the most so i will smash thm togther #which doesnt work so well looking back n goin ahh direct blood relativez lmfaooo #i would draw jayfeather slash scourge n thn get soooo mad whn ppl thought jay waz ash LMFAO i waz a hardcore ashfur slash scourge HATER #i think i evn wrote a lil fanfic 1 shot of this AU ahaha im like not much of a writter so itz fun 2 find whn ive tried #which remindz me of the lil talljake 1shot i posted her AGEZ ago.. i bet i could spruce tht up i still like many aspectz of it

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platonic-qpr-selfshipping · 10 months

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I'm having one of those "I wish I could just be part of the Astral Express crew" moments

#rambling rambling rambling #i know being part of the astral express would have its own challenges and all but #sometimes i wish i could just be there and suddenly feel safe #i like everyone in the crew so much and I guess anyone in it can bring me comfort somehow so #I crave being accepted and I believe they would do it with no doubt nor hesitation #and my honkai s/i being probably the most similar to me s/i makes it even easierrr for me to wish to be there #because that's basically me #being there and being supported and living happily and having others to rely on nearby and being themself and being loved for it and and #and i want that #ugh the struggle #Welt pls come home #ive had a long evening and tomorrow i'll have a long morning idk what im saying at this point im just tired #i just wanna exist peacefully ig #no rush no judgement no negative expectations #also I wanna share blankets with March and Dan Heng #and Stelle too I love her but almost never add her in my imagines because I think I would join the crew before her soooo i havent thought+#much about meeting trailblazer and all of that as my s/i #I wanna be in the Astral Express so bad #I wanna look at the stars and share blankets as we continue our eternal travel #together #as nothing more nor less than family #im so tired #n is talking #vent #ig?#cw vent #tw vent

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vhvrs · 1 year

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i wish more ppl should be willing to approach viktor/jayce through league w/t arcanes influences... its such a different form of love and history that gets scrubbed away by forcing league n arcane into the same timeline (also does the same back to arcanes setup!) when the two should be getting equal care and effort put in not just bc like leagueverse is just older meaner one note versions of more fleshed out characters n arcanes 'fixing them' or whatever i see a lot... let them be different. increase the vkjc biodiversity in the process.

#bc i do get tags like this way too often n its kindve disheartening. my league fanart isnt only worthwhile if you can pretend its arcane #jayce giopara isnt only worthwhile if you think hes jayce talis etc etc #does a disservice to the writing in arcane too bc they went to a lot of effort to change the story #n regardless of thoughts on it changing it to fit into a framework that will not exist ever for it just is making everything soooo boring #also i just need more league only viktor n jayce i love seeing ppls interpretations! have fun!!#im v tired so i could def word this more coherently later but eh

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clarabowmp3 · 7 months

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omg also I have so much tea (?) to spill online cuz I can’t do it irl 😭😭😭

#okay SO #i have this long time friend from sec school #Like we’ve known each other 6+ years now and she’s rlly nice and fun #We were much closer abt 4-5 years back when we were in the same class #But other than that we were still kind of close cuz we stay like a block from each other + we shared a class all 4 years of sec school #So now that we’ve graduated from jc we went out etc and and it’s been so fun BUT #she met this guy on discord thru a server and they had/are still having some weird situationship thing #And at first I didn’t mind her telling me abt it etc but I mighttt be a lil tired of hearing abt it #I FEEL SO BAD she’s literally done nothing wrong but idk how to express how im feeling w/out seeming like im NOT 100% supportive of her yk #Like she also had a pick me phase (we were 14 when ELSE were we going to have that phase) and has always struggled a lil w emptions/affecti #Part of which has to do w her parents so also understandable #But I find myself feeling soooo annoyed now #Like recently she texted me that she texted him that she was taking a sm break which was true but now she misses him #And she was like omg I want to turn off my feelings 😭😭😭#It makes me feel JSNXKLDLS girllll what r u doing #grow a backbone??#Maybe it’s also cuz I totally don’t understand what she sees in that guy #Omg I could make a whole other post abt how MEDIOCRE he is jkskdn #but atp im starting to miss her pick me era 😭😭😭 and I feel SO BAD it’s smth I’ve had all my life #I will dislike ppl who I find annoying even when they literally did nothing and are living their best life #KILL ME #it’s okay I’m so normal abt this hehe

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narwhalandchill · 3 months

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also like . huge fan (not) of the way that hsr is having the worst endgame modes of all time . AND. at the same time. genshin Also gets whatever the fuck THIS abyss is like . what the actual fuck.

like u know its fucking bad when i take 1 look at the lineup and unanimously bench international 😭😭 ajax im so sorry but theres a limit to the cringe im willing to commit to enduring for a clear Even when its for u xx. like im sure i couldve figured out A Clear somehow but it wouldve cost my actual sanity wkjjfjkwjkwdkj

(putting the pyro lectors on 12-1-2 2nd wave not final wave feels. Actually SO personal against childe teams wtf. like extending childes melee so he solos their shields without worry for the CD bc its last wave anyway has been THE strat since those fuckers fucking released as enemies and now its like nah fuck you actually. what the hell hoyo)

(give him the narwhalpilled final form op alt already hoyo i WILL c6r5)

anyway. ended up going for the. easiest way out possible and i am Completely shameless on that one.

did aggravate and tazer to safely clean up that demonic 12-1 at first, realized 12-2 is also hell so then i just leave to double up on hyperbloom lmao. o7 truly

except unironically this shit had me crafting and leveling a second fucking prototype amber bc kokomi and neuvi had been sharing my R5 one before 💀💀 bc like. neuvi just wasnt doing enough dmg with that one fontaine event catalyst i usually substitute for either of them and i cant run prayers on him bc he will overcap crit but kokomi Also needed the pamber.... so now she has a 80/80 r2 one.

also i had ZERO patience for DMC energy issues btw thats a 4p deepwood build with SEVENTY crit rate 245% ER and R5 fav (=overkill much) . i love fa🅱️onius . DMC unironically still such a solid unit tho like. had a surprisingly great time using them after the longest time . theres some thinking around positioning ur lotus so it hits multiple waves more efficiently but with that figured out it was p kewl all things considered

ALSO WHAT THE FUCKKKKK i only. NOW. looked at my XQ gears since he was feeling rly Off in terms of ER on 2nd half despite my nahidas R5 fav and i.

I FORGOT I PUT THE LVL 90 ONE ON QIQI FOR THE CLORINDE TEAM 😭😭😭 and bc theyre both R5 its not like. i had any issue proccing the passive so That didnt clue me in to there being A problem. oh my fucking god i made this so much more cringe for myself than it actually wouldve been didnt i..................

#WDKJKJAKJDJKDW I FELT LIKE THE DMG WAS OFF TOO SOMEHOW 😭😭#BUT LIKE SINCE THE WHOLE ABYSS IS SO CRINGE I WAS LIKE MAYBE THEY JUST MADE THE ENEMY THIS TANKY....#this is embarrassing. and also why id rather 'waste' resin leveling extra unneeded weapons and artifacts #than rely on my own ADHD ass to remember to put ppls gears back on them every time............#but yeah. this is why neuvi as boring he is to play is still a pull i dont regret. sometimes im too tired to big brain international #and or. the content just is too fucking cringe lmao #AND kokomi CONTINUES to be my least regretted 5* pull Ever like i wasnt That sure abt going for her when i did in 2.1 but she is SOOOO good #kokomi tazer got me my first ever 36* all the way back in the Last hours of 2021 (true story) and i always love her #with mono hydro with nilou with hyperbloom with tazer with furina. the fishie Always delivers i love her. even freeze in the past #bc back then it was more of a. needed a hydro for freeze teams and mona evaded me until NAVIAS banner so correct call there .#didnt have that many pulls i could afford bc polar star had just leaked and . yaknow. but i won the 50-50 and shes been invaluable <3 #genshin #gaming tag

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femboty2k · 4 months

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man I'm so sick of this shit just be nice to fat women (especially trans ones!) or kill yourself idc

#if I read the words 'healthily round' or 'the hot kind of fat' one more time #im gonna figure out how to send ballistic missiles with my mind #sick of you fucks #fat women are better than you not sorry <3 #like #I want to exercise and eat better but I dont CARE about losing weight #I could stay right at the 380lbs I'm at and be FINE #I'm just so sick of this fucking asterisk that people need to be attached to fat people's lives #'oh no its okay she actually works out a lot and doesnt eat sweets or anything like that'#who GIVES a FUCK #why do YOU give a fuck????#THATS A WHOLE NOTHER PERSON YOU FUCKWIT #just leave people fucking be #I have soooooo so so so so soooo many problems with social shit about my weight #and they all shake terrible hands with my transness #im sick of it #im sick of these little requirements being needed to be seen as a person let alone a woman #fuck you if you've ever said anything like what I've talked about here #change or die #I 1000000% do not trust thin people to talk about anything constructive when it comes to the treatment and depiction of fat people #im tired #and im mad #im gonna be a bitch about it #leave if you want #fuck

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kxllerblond · 4 months

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oooh there about to be some mfing ND on ND crime at work if this fucker keeps trying me

#high anxiety noise sensitivity high sense of justice ND #meets vocal stims and 'doesnt do his job because he knows he can get away with it and push shit onto other ppl' ND #like he NEEDS a job coach and he needs help but there's like. INTENT in this shit he does. like he KNOWS and i feel like #all the NT's at work just ignore it and let him do it because they dont fucking realize it IS something he can help and change #he has focus issues and memory issues. all valid but not at all related how he actively ignores direction or gets sassy and how ill watch #him fuck shit up after having looked around to make sure no one sees him. shit he's been told SOOOO many times how to do/etc. AND HE KNOWS #i have told this bastard sO MANY TIMES to not abandon me in the evening to cover his TEN+ MINUTE BATHROOOOM BREAAAAAAAAKS!!!!!!!!#and he just walked out before i could even say No. I won't be Covering Your Position. Get a Manager.#and i was late getting home #wishing ill intent on him!!!! im tired of everyone having to fix his shit or deal with his gross behavior or get extra work #just because management doesnt know how to deal with a bad employee who HAPPENS to be ND and because corp wont get him a job coach #it's not FAAAAAAIR AND IM OVER IT!!!!#cw negativity #anyway the plus side of coming home pISSED is im awake and ready to write #and like MULTIPLE PEOPLE HAVE QUIT /because/ of this dude like idk if there's legal shit involved or like fucking what but like i have #no idea why he still has a job. he's been there longer than me btw. i think at some point he said like fucking 5 years #PERISH!!!!

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hydrasango · 1 year

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so how are we feeling about the dynamo kit guys

#captain 3 #agent 3 #splatoon #splatoon 3 #axel (oc)#so im not as sad abt it as when i drew this #IM STILL SO ASTRONOMICALLY BUMMED #IT COULDVE BEEN BOOYAH BOMB THO FUCK #hell on wretched terrible earth #its probably not TERRIBLE i could get away with using my special as an ink refill like i do with cooler #im a terrible support guy to be frank i kinda just throw tacticooler doen as an ink refill #CUZ LIKE yeah i kinda need it im liteally dynamo #i can see how it could be good #but man…im so tired of siper chump guys #I MISSS YOUUUUUUUUUU #MISS YOUUUU SOOOO BADdd #(refrencing the fucking sad mlp video which i watched in full after finding out the special)#i feel like this kit will grow on me #because it is looking like dynamo DOES have a bomb #WHICH ROCKS BTW #ive not mained a dynamo with a bomb in a solid minute #like not since splat 1 #but stilll :((((#booyah bomb…. :(((

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