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phagodyke · 6 months ago

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been so brain fogged again today :(

#ive lost so much time. i got home at 5:30 and all i remember doing is preheating the oven n cooking my aubergine while i showered #which takes like an hour. no fucking idea what happened to the other hour and a half thats scary #and ive had to run a trial involving other ppl so ive had to talk to coworkers and explain things all day and i was struggling so bad #even in the morning like my words werent forming properly and i kept feeling like i was just hearing myself talk #as if it wasnt me talking it was someone else and also my eyes are struggling to focus and im SO TIRED!!!!!! ANDIVE had a headache all day #and painkillers dont help :(#i dont know why its been so bad. i slept rly well last night n ive been eating properly #and i took 5mg dex after lunch bc i could feel i was already crashing and it didnt do anything at all as far as i could tell #ill try it again tomorrow maybe today was jusr a weird one idk #man and after i finish cooking and eating its pretty much already bedtime. i dont even have time to do anything for myself :((((#not that i could im so so soooo tired #but still. ahhhhhhh #its ok. its ok just a strange day. my head feels.so weird and bad. at least its all physical and not emotional tho #and at least in 10 mins ill be eatinf imam bayildi. aubergine save me......#i need a hug and an ice pack for my poor head and for someone to tell me im going to feel better tomorrow and tuck me into bed #wah!#.diaries #but at leaat im not sad or ruminating i would rather have this than the mood swings its all okkkk

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deoidesign · 3 months ago

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Return date for my webcomic, Time and Time Again!

It's been set for a while but sometimes they change the date without warning, so I'll keep you updated if anything changes!

I'm extremely proud of the work I've been doing on it, I can't wait to share everything!

See you then!

#i still have to finish book 4 #soooo iiiiiii will do that... this week...#really trying to be done with it but this one is taking so long for all the changes!#hoping to have an update on that soon too #might have taken on a few too many projects #but yay! return!#yippee!!!#i would say sorry its been so long but theres no way it could have been shorter and other people are gone way longer #i tried to leave things on a nice note so itd only be missed for wanting more #and not missed for feeling abandoned #ok! time to get up for another day of work! really need some things off my list so my days can be like.#9/10 hours instead of 12 LOL #im so tired. im legitimately extremely overworked it's a problem #ok bye back to work for me #return #hiatus stuff #time and time again #announcement #use this post to talk about how excited you are and make guesses and shower me with praise :-)[-[#LMAO

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bonemeal12 · 4 months ago

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eepster

#my art #not satisfied with this but also I was just waiting till I could go home when I drew this so whatever. no more time for this guy.#dc #tim drake #inspired by how fucking tired I am rn im soooo tired im so eepy seepy tired im so tired (I will be staying up till 1 again)

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luck-of-the-drawings · 2 years ago

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DISTRACTIONS sometimes its the drive to help and save our friends that pushes us to learn and to succeed. unfortunately its normally ''unethical'' to replicate that in a classroom setting. I ONLY JUST FINISHED THE LAST PAGE HERE, THE FIRST TWO WERE LITERALLY FROM LAST YEAR, N A FEW MONTHS APART. LOOOOK AT MY EVOLUTION. im very proud of this and bled REALLY HARD FOR THE LAST PAGE. PLEASE ABSORB THIS.

#gillion tidestrider #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #the last page honestly just took super long bc i dropped it for a long while. only recently wiped the dust off o it.#IM RLY PROUD OF ALOT O THINGS ABT THAT LAST PAGE #LIKE THE PERSPECTIVE N THE WIDE SHOTS OR WHATEVER #IT WASNT EASY BUT I MADE IT LOOK GOOD!! IM SO HAPPY WITH IT #I ALSO just really love drawing gillion as soooo small #just a little guy with the weight of the world bolted to his tiny tiny shoulders #n yknow what while im here ill talk abt the first two comics aswell. i like taking inspo from JTHM for this kinda stuff #more specifically SQUEE n the way his dad was just sooo honest and cruel to him. 'yeah its your fault my life sucks' n all that. i imagine #that gillion prolly dealt with alot o that too. i know weve already seen the elders #but i did initially imagine them to be very much like the Tallests from invader zim. they just hate this little guy. hes so small n lame #hes prolly had teachers like that im sure. i like thinkin about gills experience in school!!#i fell in love with him the moment he said that he wasnt good at being a student like girl ME TOOOO WAAAAAA #HE SUCKS In school and everyone is just sooo tired of him but they gotta put up with him bc hes the Chosen One #but GOD they wish they had someone more competent i bet. it was prolly a relief when they banished him #could u imagine being that? someone so insufferable that people sigh in relief when youre gone. poor poor gillion #ANYWAY THATS ALL MY THOUGHTS #TALK ABT UR THOUGHTS IN THE TAGS TOO DIPSHIIITT CMAAAHHNN

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fear-no-mort · 4 months ago

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thinkign about how alone and unloved morty was for all his life and rick was the first time anyobdy ever put such an amount of intense attention and dependency onto him . and rick had a whole new family and losing them made him stop seeing the value in other people as a whole and morty was the one and first thing that woke him up

#really long Tag rant down there #one of the most Things Ever about them to me is how morty barely even understands just how much rick loves him. more than anything #and its something ricks done on purpose hes made sure of it #because hes so weak he cant handle it #them being together is agony in avsolutely every way and sense but also theyre the best part of eachothers lives #morty because nobodys payed attention to him quite like rick has and all the exciting space adventures and rick just cause. he literally #just likes him thats it. and he never knew it #also i was thinking of this earlier. one of the reasons season 1 is soooo good to me is cuz you get to see morty grow on rick in real time #stuff like that moment where morty walks through the door and rick is instantly at the sight of him SUPER excited and he goes hey!!! but #then he clears his throat and goes Hey trying to pretend like this dumb scaredy kid isnt becoming his favourite thing hes ever known day af #er day #and goddamn night shaym aliens. in that moment where he realised morty had been fake the whole time i rlly wonder what he was thinking and #how he felt. like. oh man this is messing with me way too much this is Bad #and then he got drunk over it and yknow. that . is it post credits. i think. that scene #n literally At the Very beginning he was tired n drunk n stupid thinking like man fuck this im gonna blow this place up and do what prime #did to me. But he brought morty with him Even just at that point it flashed in his mind and he absolutely could not bear to let morty die #Breathes in #im rewatching in October bc anniversary month. i literally can’t wait im so actually impatient i considered just doing it today So hard #odiespeak

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boyfriendyke · 6 months ago

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there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help

#in my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i'll never write i emphasize this theme #by changing psyche from a princess and youngest daughter to a poorer girl and eldest daughter who is very like. sophie hatter esque #also tbh when i first started thinking about my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i was reading hmc LMAO #also also ALSO. as a kid i always felt like the story was soooo deeply about regret and atonement and forgiveness #like YES the story is about love but not about easy love. love is difficult and requires work and sometimes u hurt each other !!!!!#it always struck me as a kid how psyche just. accepts the tasks.#i always read it as like. psyche KNOWS these tasks are unfair and i dont even think she expects to achieve them #but she accepts them anyways because she so deeply regrets what she did to eros and has no idea what else she can do.#am i verbalizing this well or have the worms eating my brain reached an irreversible point #also tbf im pretty sure the version i read as a kid didnt include the multiple times psyche tries to kill herself LMAO.#but we're ignoring that because i love the idea that shes just. so aimless and resigned to the tasks #ALSO on eros' side of things #i dont have like proper analysis about it but as a kid i saw eros hiding his face as like. fear?#like. fear that the person he loves will think he's a monster if he reveals his true self. or somethin. which also. i think is very queer #also very beauty and the beast. for obvious reasons since it was based on psyche and eros lmao #oh also. i already mentioned it but psyche and hercules r so similar.#did something unforgivable to a loved one --> given multiple impossible tasks to atone for it etc etc #i dont have any real analysis abt it i dont remember a lot abt hercules tbh but. yah #ALSO. okay i think retellings of hades and persephone where theyre totally in love and stuff r kinda tired.#BUT. in the theoretical adaptation i always imagined a scene where psyche does the last task where she goes to the underworld #and shes tired shes soso tired #and she goes to persephone and persephone is gentle and motherly which aphrodite has Not been to psyche #and i think if persephone is unkidnapped and truly in love w hades #then i think there could be a fun parallel between persephone and psyche in which like. theyre both in love w ppl #who are seen as monsters. and shit. or whatever #anyways. idk what made me think abt this again. ACTUALLY i do know i might write a twine for the neotwiny game jam #and it might be inspired by psyche and eros #anyways. lmao #jc.txt

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thebigqueer · 2 months ago

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literally having the worst day ever and i cant ever be happy (has only experienced minor inconveniences today but they keep adding up)

#first of all i didnt get a lot of sleep so im mad tired #second of all the place i usually get lunch on campus said they werent doing bagels at the moment and it ruined me #cuz i was soooo excited to get bagels #third of all i was already cranky so i got all in my feels last night #so i had a dream where my gf who isnt my gf and saw each other on one fo the campuses and she was w her friends #at one point we were both leaving and iw as watcing her and her and her friend knew i was there #so then her friend comes over and shes like '[gf name] loves you so much'#and i was about to cry tears of joy i was like REALLY???#and then her friend started laughing and gestured to my gf who isn't my gf's OTHER friend behind me and she was like 'jk lol she meant #this friend not you el oh el'#and then my gf and her friends were all laughing at me and i burst into tears #and then in full on sobs i was like 'i loved you so much how could you leave me'#and then my gf was just like 'well youre a bad person and you think youre sooooo myseterious and youre a terrible person and i never loved #you' and oh my god it ruined my morning #i know a lot of it was just psychological cuz i was already moody when i went to bed #and i have this werid paranoia where i think her and her friends talk shit about me #which i doubt they do but it still stresses me out #so thats probably why that hapepned #and then on top of all that. fourth of all im getting lunch and i literally see her outside. like i dont see her for days and of course #the day i least want to see her shes right there #i mean im generally doing better than september and i didnt feel the same sinking feeling #i used to in like sept but still like brooooo bro this day could not be worseee #the only good thing that happened was that i passed my physics exam <3 #also yeah again i said these are minor inconveniences im just frustrated lol #sunny rambles

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megroha · 4 months ago

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#all i do on tunglr is little vent posts lately #anyways im tired of being so uncomfortable and unhappy all the time #if i'm lucky i can distract myself for a little while but i always come back to it #i really really miss my adhd meds!#i just feel like a stupid dumb idiot because i can't do anything!!!!#:O mfw my disability disables me #but it really is soooo fucked #everywhere i look i see things that used to bring me so much joy but they're also big missed opportunities!#because everything just falls apart in my hands #i can't Lock In to anything #my life just never starts?#i need my independence i need to live on my own #but as a real life zombie i could not possibly hold down a job that would afford me that rn #i dont want to waste any more time but i do need a chill 3 week coma #i need to be put in a sensory deprivation tank for 4 days #i need another media detox probably but i'd still be equally unable to get anything done #i need to go live on a mountain

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kath-artic · 2 months ago

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wowowow.... im the luckiest person alive rn

#we went out to a show friday night and it just felt so natural being out with him #and then we housed some chinese food together and watched an episode of next gen #and then we were up in his room fooling around before bed and we were both soooo tired #like drifting in and out of consciousness #and hes sitting over me about to lean down and kiss me but i cupped his face in my hands and we just sat like that for a while #and i know i was not hiding the emotion on my face bc i saw his face change immediately #and he asked me what i was thinking and i said something to the effect of 'im just looking at you and thinking oh wow'#and he said 'i dont think thats the word youre thinking of' and i told him he was right #and i wish i could remember more of the conversation. but its also kind of cool that the whole thing was like a dream #but eventually we both just said we loved each other #its just crazy how natural its been. how easy it is #and then i went over again last night because neither of us was going out and i just sat and read while he worked on his pedalboard #and i was in my stupid catdog pajamas. and then we ate pasta and watched music videos in bed and brushed our teeth together #and it was just so. comfortable and playful and casual and normal #just sharing a space without any expectation

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spinecurlingmice · 2 months ago

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everytime somebody even mentions cereal i get really hungry and go i want frosted flakes so bad. bad news we're a,most out of frosted flakes because of my crazy intake of them

#but theyre just so good #i would eat them forever if i could #im too tired to get up ughhhhhh #no im not i just dont want to even though i do #and i am kinda tired #whatever #frosted flakes #ure soooo #good #news to u my love #ure delicious #sogood #fffuccccck #in bed still #i want them bad #...sighh #ill get up eventually #micetalk

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jennrypan · 2 years ago

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...question.

Kagami found out Marinette was ladybug apparently and..SHE FUCKIN TOLD FELIX??

Girl.

Yo. What the fuck is this mess, why is Kagami suddenly only revolving around Felix?? Like..damn immediately find a replacement Adrien and whatever he says goes apparently, sure.

This isn't Kagami salt before you ninnie mugs get it twisted. I'm just appalled by the writing.

Also why is NONE OF THEM TRYING TO LET ADRIEN IN OR FUCK. EVEN CHAT NOIR?? Aka Ladybugs fucking partner. Like. Didn't Ladybug give him some communicator when they went to New York?? Or Shanghai?? One of them. Can't she tell him there's somethin fuckin important happening.

Or is he just the fucking damsel in distress that needs everyone to save him cuz that's a REALLLLLLY good plot line to have, just sooo super duper good. Insane.

Keeping an important detail from the person you love to "protect" them is just as shitty and just as stupid, you're just showing you don't think they can handle shit and you think you know them better than they know themselves.

#ml spoilers #j.p speaks #mlb writing salt #seriously..whos making these decisions #TELL ADRIEN THINGS. I THOUGHT WE GOT THROUGH THIS IN SEASON 4 #and even then Adrien wasnt even allowed to be actually UPSET at Ladybug cuz of her break down so it became about her.#im soooo tired of Ladybug atp. literally all her issues could be SOLVED BY TELLING HER PARTNER ANYTHING.#all these plot points could be fixed..easily.

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scourge-sympathiser · 1 year ago

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the AU from todayz scourge is technically my oldest! as it first came abt whn i waz like. 12 giv or take a few yearz lol

#textz #obv very different now from then ahahaha #biggest thing waz my younger self taking part in the tired n true i like these 2 the most so i will smash thm togther #which doesnt work so well looking back n goin ahh direct blood relativez lmfaooo #i would draw jayfeather slash scourge n thn get soooo mad whn ppl thought jay waz ash LMFAO i waz a hardcore ashfur slash scourge HATER #i think i evn wrote a lil fanfic 1 shot of this AU ahaha im like not much of a writter so itz fun 2 find whn ive tried #which remindz me of the lil talljake 1shot i posted her AGEZ ago.. i bet i could spruce tht up i still like many aspectz of it

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platonic-qpr-selfshipping · 1 year ago

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I'm having one of those "I wish I could just be part of the Astral Express crew" moments

#rambling rambling rambling #i know being part of the astral express would have its own challenges and all but #sometimes i wish i could just be there and suddenly feel safe #i like everyone in the crew so much and I guess anyone in it can bring me comfort somehow so #I crave being accepted and I believe they would do it with no doubt nor hesitation #and my honkai s/i being probably the most similar to me s/i makes it even easierrr for me to wish to be there #because that's basically me #being there and being supported and living happily and having others to rely on nearby and being themself and being loved for it and and #and i want that #ugh the struggle #Welt pls come home #ive had a long evening and tomorrow i'll have a long morning idk what im saying at this point im just tired #i just wanna exist peacefully ig #no rush no judgement no negative expectations #also I wanna share blankets with March and Dan Heng #and Stelle too I love her but almost never add her in my imagines because I think I would join the crew before her soooo i havent thought+#much about meeting trailblazer and all of that as my s/i #I wanna be in the Astral Express so bad #I wanna look at the stars and share blankets as we continue our eternal travel #together #as nothing more nor less than family #im so tired #n is talking #vent #ig?#cw vent #tw vent

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vhvrs · 2 years ago

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i wish more ppl should be willing to approach viktor/jayce through league w/t arcanes influences... its such a different form of love and history that gets scrubbed away by forcing league n arcane into the same timeline (also does the same back to arcanes setup!) when the two should be getting equal care and effort put in not just bc like leagueverse is just older meaner one note versions of more fleshed out characters n arcanes 'fixing them' or whatever i see a lot... let them be different. increase the vkjc biodiversity in the process.

#bc i do get tags like this way too often n its kindve disheartening. my league fanart isnt only worthwhile if you can pretend its arcane #jayce giopara isnt only worthwhile if you think hes jayce talis etc etc #does a disservice to the writing in arcane too bc they went to a lot of effort to change the story #n regardless of thoughts on it changing it to fit into a framework that will not exist ever for it just is making everything soooo boring #also i just need more league only viktor n jayce i love seeing ppls interpretations! have fun!!#im v tired so i could def word this more coherently later but eh

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clarabowmp3 · 10 months ago

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omg also I have so much tea (?) to spill online cuz I can’t do it irl 😭😭😭

#okay SO #i have this long time friend from sec school #Like we’ve known each other 6+ years now and she’s rlly nice and fun #We were much closer abt 4-5 years back when we were in the same class #But other than that we were still kind of close cuz we stay like a block from each other + we shared a class all 4 years of sec school #So now that we’ve graduated from jc we went out etc and and it’s been so fun BUT #she met this guy on discord thru a server and they had/are still having some weird situationship thing #And at first I didn’t mind her telling me abt it etc but I mighttt be a lil tired of hearing abt it #I FEEL SO BAD she’s literally done nothing wrong but idk how to express how im feeling w/out seeming like im NOT 100% supportive of her yk #Like she also had a pick me phase (we were 14 when ELSE were we going to have that phase) and has always struggled a lil w emptions/affecti #Part of which has to do w her parents so also understandable #But I find myself feeling soooo annoyed now #Like recently she texted me that she texted him that she was taking a sm break which was true but now she misses him #And she was like omg I want to turn off my feelings 😭😭😭#It makes me feel JSNXKLDLS girllll what r u doing #grow a backbone??#Maybe it’s also cuz I totally don’t understand what she sees in that guy #Omg I could make a whole other post abt how MEDIOCRE he is jkskdn #but atp im starting to miss her pick me era 😭😭😭 and I feel SO BAD it’s smth I’ve had all my life #I will dislike ppl who I find annoying even when they literally did nothing and are living their best life #KILL ME #it’s okay I’m so normal abt this hehe

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narwhalandchill · 6 months ago

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also like . huge fan (not) of the way that hsr is having the worst endgame modes of all time . AND. at the same time. genshin Also gets whatever the fuck THIS abyss is like . what the actual fuck.

like u know its fucking bad when i take 1 look at the lineup and unanimously bench international 😭😭 ajax im so sorry but theres a limit to the cringe im willing to commit to enduring for a clear Even when its for u xx. like im sure i couldve figured out A Clear somehow but it wouldve cost my actual sanity wkjjfjkwjkwdkj

(putting the pyro lectors on 12-1-2 2nd wave not final wave feels. Actually SO personal against childe teams wtf. like extending childes melee so he solos their shields without worry for the CD bc its last wave anyway has been THE strat since those fuckers fucking released as enemies and now its like nah fuck you actually. what the hell hoyo)

(give him the narwhalpilled final form op alt already hoyo i WILL c6r5)

anyway. ended up going for the. easiest way out possible and i am Completely shameless on that one.

did aggravate and tazer to safely clean up that demonic 12-1 at first, realized 12-2 is also hell so then i just leave to double up on hyperbloom lmao. o7 truly

except unironically this shit had me crafting and leveling a second fucking prototype amber bc kokomi and neuvi had been sharing my R5 one before 💀💀 bc like. neuvi just wasnt doing enough dmg with that one fontaine event catalyst i usually substitute for either of them and i cant run prayers on him bc he will overcap crit but kokomi Also needed the pamber.... so now she has a 80/80 r2 one.

also i had ZERO patience for DMC energy issues btw thats a 4p deepwood build with SEVENTY crit rate 245% ER and R5 fav (=overkill much) . i love fa🅱️onius . DMC unironically still such a solid unit tho like. had a surprisingly great time using them after the longest time . theres some thinking around positioning ur lotus so it hits multiple waves more efficiently but with that figured out it was p kewl all things considered

ALSO WHAT THE FUCKKKKK i only. NOW. looked at my XQ gears since he was feeling rly Off in terms of ER on 2nd half despite my nahidas R5 fav and i.

I FORGOT I PUT THE LVL 90 ONE ON QIQI FOR THE CLORINDE TEAM 😭😭😭 and bc theyre both R5 its not like. i had any issue proccing the passive so That didnt clue me in to there being A problem. oh my fucking god i made this so much more cringe for myself than it actually wouldve been didnt i..................

#WDKJKJAKJDJKDW I FELT LIKE THE DMG WAS OFF TOO SOMEHOW 😭😭#BUT LIKE SINCE THE WHOLE ABYSS IS SO CRINGE I WAS LIKE MAYBE THEY JUST MADE THE ENEMY THIS TANKY....#this is embarrassing. and also why id rather 'waste' resin leveling extra unneeded weapons and artifacts #than rely on my own ADHD ass to remember to put ppls gears back on them every time............#but yeah. this is why neuvi as boring he is to play is still a pull i dont regret. sometimes im too tired to big brain international #and or. the content just is too fucking cringe lmao #AND kokomi CONTINUES to be my least regretted 5* pull Ever like i wasnt That sure abt going for her when i did in 2.1 but she is SOOOO good #kokomi tazer got me my first ever 36* all the way back in the Last hours of 2021 (true story) and i always love her #with mono hydro with nilou with hyperbloom with tazer with furina. the fishie Always delivers i love her. even freeze in the past #bc back then it was more of a. needed a hydro for freeze teams and mona evaded me until NAVIAS banner so correct call there .#didnt have that many pulls i could afford bc polar star had just leaked and . yaknow. but i won the 50-50 and shes been invaluable <3 #genshin #gaming tag

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