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mimipolo · 2 days ago
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nam-gyu hate fuck? Maybe hes pissed at you because you almost knocked him over in red light green light, and then had the audacity to click x at the vote. So when the lights go out he follows you to the bathroom?
Nam-gyu X reader
(nsfw)
I'll be honest I had no idea what I was doing at first but I swear I had an awakening half way through.
You'd pissed him all the way off now. He could put up with your teasing eyes and the way you managed to still look hot in a crappy tracksuit, even when you had the audacity to nearly knock him off the finish line in the first game . But why would you choose "o"??
His eyes glared daggers into your back as he watched you press "x" confidently as if you'd get away with it.
He'd make sure that wasn't the case.
Votings over and it's ended in a tie, everyone's tense and trying to convince the other to join their side. Amidst all this you slip away to go to the bathroom, he leaves the crowd slowly to follow suit.
You were just shaking off your wet hands when he swings open the bathroom door and casually walks in. He has his hands stuffed in his pockets and wearing an expression that just looks like he's plotting something. Why the hell is he in the woman's bathroom??
Immediately you recognised him as the guy always with Thanos, always just a step behind him ,but just as cunning. The only interaction you had was when his friend had made the odd attempt of hitting on you. But right now, he was nowhere to be seen.
"You went and chose "x" huh?"
You remain quiet, eyes darting around the bathroom as you back away from him but he grasps your arm suddenly making your heart jump.
"You're gonna ignore me now? You gotta mouth, speak."
"What's it matter to you what I chose."
You say through gritted teeth, nervous to speak up to him but also refusing to let him push you around. Your expression sours as he begins to grin wide, like he's pleased with your response and it'd justify what he's about to do.
"Vote "o" next round." He says harshly as he tugs you closer, his body close to yours. He only chuckles when you try to step away, grabbing your other arm to keep you near.
"That a no?" He's tilting his head down towards you, it's almost like he was hoping you'd go against him, you could hear his heartbeat as he eyed you over lustfully.
Unfortunately you had missed the arousal in his hate filled gaze as you spit back a "Hell no", you're being pulled into a bathroom stall before you could even think.
"How bout I convince you to choose "o" yeah? I'm pretty good." His words are smug as he has your back to the colourful stall wall, his hands already fumbling to unzip your tracksuit, kissing loudly at the skin of your neck. The whole situation had your hairs standing up on end, an alarming sense of arousal coursing through you.
A sharp bite to the curve of your shoulder has you flinching, a pained gasp escaping your lips as he looks up at you sadistically.
"I bite though, hard. But you'd probably like that, not even sayin' a thing."
"You asshole..."
You're left shocked by his lust coated words, your hands finally moving to grip his own tracksuit in an attempt to get him off but he's unfazed. Sucking and biting into your flesh as his hands reach down to rest on your hips, one sliding down the waistband of your sweats and into your pants.
You jolt violently at the intrusion, eyes widening in shock as you feel your resolve start to crumble. Your hands tightening around his clothes rather than pushing him away, craning your hips forward when cold ringed fingers press against those bundle of nerves. Shivering softly at the sensation, he just laughs at you, pulling down your tracksuit more for better access.
He didn't lie when he said he was good, each swerve of his fingers had you twitching against him, desperate for him to slip just one inside.
"You're wet from just this? Almost making me feel bad... but you've been the one teasing me this whole time."
"You're fucking crazy-" you manage to barely get out between gasps.
His tone still comes off as arrogant but you can hear him becoming breathless from just watching you crumble under his fingers. Two thick digits pushed inside you. Immediately taking him like you'd been hoping.
"Didn't even hav'ta push that much, you been fucking in this shitty place?"
The accusations make you whine softly as you squeeze around him, it's not true but something about the way he says it has you hooked. He was such an asshole, a sleeze and a junkie but you couldn't defend how you were murmuring against his chest for more.
"More? I knew you were just playing hard to get..."
What you didn't expect was for him to flip you on your back, hands roaming up your body to squeeze at the soft flesh as he presses his evident hard on against the curve of your ass.
"You'll never think of leaving after this." He hisses against the shell of your ear stripping himself down to line himself up against you. Before you could argue with him, even lie and say you'd vote "o" this time he's already inching himself inside you, a sharp jolt shooting through your senses. He's huffing and moaning when he bottoms out, not wasting a moment as he's already moving, making sure you take all of him as he pulls your hips back.
He's surprisingly slow, almost affectionately so. But his words are vulgar and degrading, his hands harshly grabbing anywhere they wished. Your arms are braced against the walls and your eyes squeezed shut with ecstasy as he softly reshapes you. It was like he was making sure you knew and remembered what he was doing to you.
You're honestly convinced he's louder than you, your voices filling the air as you take him. Eventually he gets desperate, his thrusts becoming sloppier and faster and his dirty words only getting whinier "such a slut", "just keep taking it."
Your stomach drops when you hear the bathroom door open, he's quick to silence you. Placing a firm hand over your mouth as his other hand reaches between your legs again to press roughly against your sensitive bud. He's biting his own lip to keep quiet as his hips shudder and he spills everything he's got in you, painting your walls thickly with his cum. He's murmuring and panting against your shoulder about how good you took him before slipping out of you.
He snickers quietly watching you almost fold when he releases his hold on you, pulling up your pants and sweats and sitting you down on the toilet seat.
"I trust you know what to vote, I'll come remind ya if you forget." He whispers as leans down to grin dazily at you, his eyes scanning your fucked out expression. Clearly happy with his work he kisses your cheek deceptively sweetly, before leaving the stall. You hear him wash his hands and whistle softly as he walks away, the creak of the bathroom door signalling his exit.
What the hell was that about...
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mika-no-sekai-blog · 13 hours ago
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Azriel x reader
Word count: +3400
Warnings: none (?)
Summary: When love becomes a painful burden and you can't stand it anymore, you decide to turn it into hate, avoiding its source at any cost. However, Azriel has enough and seeks you out.
When I wrote it in my head (late at night of course), it was perfect. But I forgot the exact wording😮‍💨 Now I'm not so sure about this. Also I bit changed the intended end to cut down the word count
Anyway, I hope you will enjoy it
Despite my resolve to not to look in that direction, my eyes darted to the dance floor again and again, pulled by power stronger than my will. Pain sharp like dagger carved deep into my heart as I watched Azriel dancing with some female whom he just met at bar. Their bodies seemed to be glued together as their hips swayed in the rhythm of the music, even their foreheads were touching. Female's arms wrapped around his strong shoulders and neck, sliding down and back up his biceps and chest only to once again return back to their start point, holding him close. Pulling him closer. He didn't seem to mind it though as his own hands travelled all over her body, squeezing soft flesh wrapped in tight mini-dress at times.
I felt bile rising in my throat and turned back to my drink, wishing it was something stronger than just mojito—something that would burn not only my throat, but also my heart with all the traitorous feelings. I wished I had never made that mistake and fallen in love with him. Things would be much easier.
We used to be friends, really close friends. However, ever since I realized I felt something more for him, my feelings kept deepening with every passing day to the point it physically hurt to even look at him. He didn't seem to feel the same way though, not noticing anything, and I was too scared of refusal and never confessed. After just few months I was so agonized that I couldn't even step out of my room without bursting into tears and that's when I decided to rather hate him than to suffer like that.
I started ignoring him, avoiding him at any cost, twisting everything into anger. I went so far as not even answering him when he directly spoke to me. It still hurt, but it was more manageable kind of pain than what I felt before. This was how I had lived for the last two years, working hard to build the wall of the hatred around my heart brick after brick, yet I had a long journey ahead of me.
I threw the straw on the table and knocked back half of my drink, trying to think about anything except of what was happening to my left. I was so focused that I noticed Cassian only when he tapped his glass to mine.
"What are we drinking to?"
"To fucked up life."
Cassian's guttural laughter was so loud that it even overbeat the pulsing bass of the music.
"To fucked up life then," he toasted and got his drink down in one gulp. He was in his element, beaming with excitement.
Rita's was full of all kinds of faeries as usual, the dance floor pulsed with life, bodies swaying, alcohol flowing. After the warm-up drinks, our group fell apart — some were at bar, some were dancing and some disappeared to who-knows-where. Cassian was the first one to mingle between the dancers. It was almost midnight, yet this was the very first time he stopped for a while. Well, stopped.. His body was somehow managing to keep moving along the music even while he was sitting.
He reached over the table, caressing my cheek, his expression softened. "You need to learn how to let go, doll."
"It's easier said than done," I sighed and straightened up to get away from his reach. I used to be quite touch starved person, enjoying every contact with persons dear to me, but lately I could hardly stand anyone in my close proximity.
His eyes narrowed at me for a second, but he said nothing and drumming fingers on the table turned to the dance floor. He bit on his bottom lip. Devilish smile spread on his face and he turned back to me.
"Then I'll help you."
"Help me with what exactly?" I frowned, already having bad feeling.
"To let go. Come!" He raised a brow, jerking his head toward that maze of bodies. "Come," he repeated, offering me his big hand when I didn't react.
Out of the corner of my eye, I gazed at the full dance floor. "No, never," I grimaced. "I'd rather die than to do that."
"Come! I promise you will have fun."
"I can't dance." All my friends knew that, including Cassian. I wasn't willing to dance even where nobody could see. That kind of activity simply wasn't up to my liking nor ability.
"I'll teach you."
"No."
"I'm not accepting no as an answer this time," he grinned, rounded the table and gripped both of my hands, pulling me with him. He was too strong. I followed him involuntarily, squeezing in between dancing bodies. He took me to the back where weren't so many faeries and we didn't have to jostle with others. Only then he let go of my hands. I immediately crossed them on my chest, feeling awkward.
"Relax," he pulled me closer, his hands on the small of my back. I pulled my lips into thin line, frowning. I didn't like this at all. "Just feel. Let the music lead you."
"The music leads me back to the table," I grunted to which he laughed.
"Just bit move that ass of yours. Like this." He gripped my hips, pulling on and pushing them to demonstrate the movement he wanted me to do.
"Geez, you are so stiff," he was laughing his ass off. The small amount of alcohol I drank finally kicked in. There was nothing funny on this, yet I couldn't help myself and giggled.
"That's it," he praised me when I did as he instructed. "Just like that."
When I got used to the motion, he let go of my hips and took a step back to have a better view. "And now add legs." He demonstrated several simple moves and I tried to mirror them. I felt like idiot.
"You are doing great. Don't stop." He again stepped closer and took me by waist. We danced together for a while, Cassian's mouth never closing — showering me with praise, stupid jokes and stories — and I really had fun just as he'd promised.
"That hardly can be called dance. Let me show you how to do it," a deep voice spoke somewhere behind me and shiver ran down my spine. My heart flipped at that sound and smile froze on my face. I knew that voice too well.
"As if you could dance any better," Cassian snorted, but he started retreating. I desperately grabbed fabric of sleeves on his forearms, wordlessly pleading with him to stay.
"Just have fun, doll," he shrugged and turned away, immediately finding another dance partner. I stared after him in disbelief, my back still to the newcomer. I felt him move, slowly circling me and I swallowed hard. I turned to the opposite side, determined to head back to our table, suddenly too thirsty.
Scarred hand grabbed my elbow, yanking me back and I was met with his broad chest. I didn't dare to look up.
"Not so fast, Y/N," Azriel mumbled and I wondered how it was possible that I heard him so clearly over the loud music.
"I don't dance," I retorted, pulling away. I didn't get far though, his strong arms keeping me at the place.
"I just saw you with Cassian. Just one dance. I'm not asking for too much."
No matter how desperately I searched for good reason to decline, any reason honestly, I found none. "Fine," I grunted at last.
For a while we danced and I moved as Cassian showed me, but I felt so uncomfortable.
"Try it like this," Azriel said, his hands moving to my hips.
"Don't touch me," I barked at him, my mind flooded with imagines of him touching that female not so long ago. "I don't even want to think about where your hands were before."
His body stiffened as if I slapped him and he fell out of rhythm. "I can assure you that I washed my hands properly."
He sounded hurt and I felt pang of pain in my chest. I realized the ambiguity of my own words. And because this was Azriel, he probably thought I meant his work which was quite sensitive topic for him. He didn't torture people because he enjoyed it, but because he had to—to protect this court, to protect his family.
Ignore it! I ordered myself, clenching teeth.
It took him a moment to recover. Just as we began dancing again, he keeping hands at his sides, the song ended, immediately followed by much slower one. A lot of faeries around left the dance floor. I took it as my call and followed the suit.
"Wait!" Azriel grabbed both of my hands. "We haven't even danced yet."
"But-," I stuttered.
"One song. Please."
It was that damn word please. He hardly ever used that word. He was always polite and perfect gentleman and everything, but it seemed he didn't have this word in his vocabulary. I could count on fingers of one hand how many times I heard him to say it in almost two centuries we knew each other.
"Just one song then."
"Yeah, just one," he agreed. His hands reached for my waist. "Can I?"
I just nodded, still feeling bad for unintentionally hurting him like that. He hesitated.
"You should put your hands here," he guided them to his shoulders, but I immediately let them fall to his biceps. I didn't want to hold on to him like that bitch. I inhaled sharply, surprised by the sudden strong wave of jealousy.
Hate. You aren't jealous. You hate him, I had to remind myself.
"That's also fine," he sighed, snapping me out of my spiralling thoughts. "Now you need to come a bit closer."
He gently pulled me to him. I made sure there was a wall of air between us, already sensing where he was heading. Unfortunately, I was so occupied by keeping him as far from me as possible that I didn't notice drunken faerie passing by. She dangerously swayed, unstable on her own feet, and shoved me from behind. Clumsy idiot as I was, I lost balance and once again ended up pressed to Azriel's chest. He was fast, his arms immediately wrapped around me, not letting me step away. Now our bodies were touching.. everywhere — hard parts pressing into soft ones.
I felt heat climbing up my neck, my ears already burning.
"Dance partners usually look each other in the eye," he muttered, amused. He had some guts to tease me.
My head snapped up in rush of disbelief and rage, my eyes met with honeyed hazel ones. Those warm orbs completely captivated me, imprisoned me in their depths and I couldn't look away anymore. All my thoughts vanished at once.
It was long since I properly looked at him, let alone so close up. He hadn't changed much. If anything, he was even more handsome than before.
Idiot! Stop thinking such shit! He isn't handsome. He's disgusting. Not so long ago he was touching some random female and now he's here, touching you with the same hands. He's promiscuous pig. Absolutely repulsive.
My chest heaved as I was fighting with myself, heart against mind. My heart pounded so hard it had an echo.
Wait! What a nonsense! Heart can't have echo, can it?
Just then I realized it wasn't some echo but a beat of another heart. It was Azriel's heart that hammered just as fast as mine and so strongly that I felt it through our connected bodies. And if I felt his, then he had to feel mine as well. At that thought panic started to creep up on me.
Azriel leaned down, so slowly. His warm breath fanned my face, our noses touching.
The song ended replaced by another and dance floor filled again. Azriel seemed to be too occupied and didn't even notice it, but I did. I shoved him away with all my strength.
He didn't expect it and wavered, his grip on me loosened. I jerked from his arms, recoiling. He reached for me.
"Y/N, wait.. Just one more-"
"No more dancing," I said, my voice so cold that I startled even myself. "You wanted one song and you got one. I'm done here."
I didn't wait for his reaction and showed him my back. I marched over to our table, emptied my glass in one go and even one shot that was left there. The alcohol burnt its way down my throat and I grimaced. I grabbed my things and without looking back or leaving a message to others, I left.
I stomped down the snowy road, hardly noticing the slippery ice under soles of my boots. Only once I got all the way down to the Sidra, I paused on one of the bridges, letting out an angry sigh. I drew the thick cloak closer, feeling the chill of winter night, and looked up at sky full of stars, my warm breath creating quickly disappearing puffs of steam. I was on verge of tears, angry, hurt and confused. What was that even about?
"Y/N, are you all right?"
Not again. I wanted to flee away, but his big hand blocked my way.
"Stop already running away from me!"
"Leave me alone!"
In the attempt to get away, I lost my footing on slippery stones. I would fall down into deadly cold waters if it wasn't for his strong arms that kept me upright.
"Please." There was that word again, this time even more desperate than the one before. "I can't do this anymore. Please, tell me what I've done that it made you this mad. I will apologise as many times as you wish. I'm willing to do anything to gain your forgiveness."
"I thought that when I leave you be, your anger will ease and you will eventually tell me what happened, but it's already so long and it's getting worse and worse," he continued when I just stood there, gazing down into dark waters of Sidra.
How was I supposed to tell him that he did nothing? That I was just stupidly in love with him and that I couldn't deal with my own feelings anymore? I couldn't possibly tell him that. So I was silent while cold tears rolled down my cheeks.
"I'm so desperate that I even tried to provoke you to no avail. I don't know what else to do to mend our relationship back to what it used to be. And I miss you.. so much. So please, tell me what happened, so I never again repeat the same mistakes."
He stepped closer, hugging me from behind. "Please." When he breathed out near my ear, shiver ran down my spine and my eyes closed. All strength, all fight left me and my shoulders slumped down. Azriel gently turned me around, so now I faced him. His warm hands cupped my wet and cold cheeks, his thumbs wiping tears away.
"Speak to me otherwise I-.." His voice was low, dangerously low.
"You what?" I whispered the words into silent night, needing to hear the answer.
"I.." Suddenly his face was so close that it was the only thing I saw, his breath hot on my face. My head, heart, lungs, whole my body shut down. I was just standing there, gaping, hypnotized by his sad eyes.
He waited until I inhaled and then his lips sealed over mine, his eyes holding my gaze. The kiss was slow, careful, hesitant.
I was stunned, my eyes the size of full moon above us. As the new sensation settled in, a firework boomed in my chest and I.. moaned.
He made a sound back in his throat that vibrated through whole his chest. Shutting his eyes closed, he unleashed, deepening the kiss. His lips, hard like stone and so soft at the same time, hungrily danced over mine, his tongue gently pushed into my mouth, looting and exploring.
Azriel tasted like an old whiskey Rhys poured me once from his precious collection. The rich spiced and woody taste was mixed with something sweet and delicious and I moaned again as I realised I tasted strawberries on his lips. My knees buckled and I clasped hands around his neck, my fingers tangling with strands of silky dark hair. He swallowed my moan and holding me upright, he pulled me even closer — as if it was possible — his fingers digging into my flesh.
His enormous wings wrapped around me, cutting off the rest of the world, wall of shadows protecting us from any prying eyes.
We kissed and kissed until my lungs began to burn with need for air. Yet I held on as long as I could, wanting this moment to last forever and only when I felt like I was going to faint, I slightly pushed against his shoulders. Reluctantly, his mouth released mine, but stayed close enough that I felt its every move. Both of us staggered weakly and he chuckled.
"Gods," he muttered under the breath, heaving heavily. "You taste better than I've imagined. I wanted to do this for so long."
I was still too dazed to think straight. I just knew that I was happy, my heart hammering into the ribcage so wildly as if it was trying to break through it. His lips travelled all over my face, leaving dozens of small pecks behind. As he calmed down, he hid his face in the crook of my neck, inhaling deeply, still holding me in an iron grip.
"Why are you angry with me?" His voice was muffled by fur of my cloak. Under my cheek pressed to his shoulder, I felt his pulse, strong and fast, just like mine. I inhaled his rich scent of early morning mist in the snowy mountains.
"I'm not angry, not really." My face burned with shame. I sounded pathetic even to myself, somehow defeated. My traitorous heart wanted to believe that this was real and that it would last, while my mind was screaming that it was only a short-lived dream.
He was silent for a while, most likely putting together pieces of a puzzle. Maybe it was my salvation that he was a spymaster with a brilliant mind. I didn't have to sink to the very bottom to voice aloud just how lame and stupid I was, saving me from the most shameful moments.
"Never - do you hear me? Never do that again. There's no need for such..." I thought it impossible yet his grip grew even firmer. He sighed heavily, pushing words through clenched teeth. "-ve you."
He muttered something, but I heard only the last part of it. What did he say? No matter what I filled in, nothing made a sense.
"What?" I whimpered, hardly holding my tears back.
Azriel inhaled deeply. "-ve you."
"I.. don't understand."
He straightened up, looking into my eyes, his face deep shade of crimson.
"I said, I love you." His voice was firm, but his wings around us trembled slightly, giving out just how nervous he was.
My eyes widened in disbelief. I certainly misheard. "Eh?"
"As you heard," he looked away shyly, his hands slowly falling down, releasing me. "I started to feel it shortly after we met, but it took me too long to recognize the feeling for what it is. I was full of myself, I should have noticed your pain much sooner. I'm so sorry, Y/N."
His words tore down the dam and the tears began freely flowing down my cheeks in streams. Years of the pain and suffering for nothing.
"You are really the worst. I hate you," I sobbed.
Azriel stiffened and then chuckled when I leaned in, hiding face on his chest. "Am I? You owe me chocolate for at least last two years. And that is not all. I believe you owe me one more thing."
"What do you mean?"
He licked his lips and biting on the bottom one, he slowly pulled me into another embrace. "When someone-.. No. When I confessed to you, you were supposed to answer something like 'I love you, too', don't you think?"
I hesitantly wrapped my arms around his waist and still sobbing retorted, "as if I could say such thing so easily."
His smile only grew. "Then I have to coax it out of you," he cooed and captured my lips in another sweet kiss and another and he kept kissing me until my heart healed, mending all the wounds of the past years.
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amphibiahawks321 · 17 hours ago
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Hello, I wanted to ask if you could write something about male reader x fallen angel Emily. Along the lines of him helping her thru panic attacks and making his best to make her smile thru her day, thanks
[Emily is seated on a couch in the Hazbin Hotel's dimly lit lobby, toying with a loose thread on her sleeve, Y/N notices her frowning across the room and decides to check on her]
M!Reader : Hey Emily, how are you holding up...?
[Emily's shock by Y/N's sudden approach, not seeing Y/N coming towards her]
Emily : O–Oh! Hey there Y/N! S-Sorry You just caught me off guard, I was a bit–.....Nothing, nevermind...
[Emily laughs lightly though it didn't do anything seeing as Emily is clearly forcing herself to smile]
[Y/N sits down beside her, concern on his face as he leans a bit closer to Emily and gave her a kiss on the cheek which made Emily let out a short giggle]
M!Reader : Are... Are you sure? You look like you've got a lot on your mind...
[Emily placed a hand on Y/N's cheek, trying to reassure him]
Emily : I'm fine.. Nervous chuckle... Just havin one of those days, you know? Nothing to worry about...
[She let her hand go from Y/N's cheek, Y/N was about to say something until he sees her right hand trembling and clutching onto the edge of the couch and seeing her smile slipping]
[Y/N noticed this and gently grabs her left hand and starts gently gripping it with both of his hands, surprising Emily]
M!Reader : Emily... I know something is wrong... Look at me, It’s okay, You’re safe....
[Emily's expression quickly changed, her voice trembling on her own words as she starts frowning and tears start coming out of her eyes]
Emily : I—I can't... It feels like I–I can't breathe... I just can't–
[Emily starts gripping a flock of her hair—Y/N immediately starts placing a hand on her cheek making Emily calmed down a bit, making her stop gripping her hair while his other hand still holding onto her left hand]
M!Reader : Listen to me... Take a deep breath, okay?
[Emily starts doing so, her breaths shaky but gradually slowing]
M!Reader : Good, just like that! Keep going, You're doing great
[Tears start welling up more, her voice barely a whisper]
Emily : I—I hate this feeling... I just... hate feeling like this...
[Y/N leans closer to Emily, giving her a warm hug, wrapping his arms around her making her heart beat starts slowing down]
M!Reader : i... know it’s hard... The feeling of... That day you–.... It must've been the worst feeling any angel could ever get... The feeling must be catching up to you... (Smiles warmly) But you’re not alone... I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere...
[Emily starts up meeting Y/N's gaze, her trembles starting to leave her body and managed to make a genuine happy smile she always has]
Emily : Thank you... I don't know what I'd do without your words—
M!Reader : Woah woah woah, you didn't really think that was the only thing I'll do to help you did'cha?
[Emily smiles widen as she starts giggling]
Emily : Chuckles... I see that You got other plans?
M!Reader : Hell yeah I do! We are going out and we are GOING to get ice cream!
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radioactivepeasant · 3 days ago
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Snippet Thursday:
Giving Sig gray hairs for fun and profit (sorry, Sig, it's for a good cause)
Going with the winner of the poll here: "Damas Commits to the Bit too hard and Sig is Going To Slap Him"
Premise: Sig went on all of two missions with the Demolition Duo and decided "dibs, my rookies now, no take-backs".
"No leads on Mar yet."
Sig slouched in the corner booth, eyeing the empty bar as he spoke quietly into his talk-box. "Been trying to work out why Jak was able to talk to that Oracle in the slums. Only thing I know for sure is that it's teaching him to control all the dark eco Praxis forced into his bloodstream."
"His bloodstream?!"*
Damas sounded appalled.
"Eco outside of the core organ is some of the worst pain a hu'men can experience shy of a gut-shot! When did that happen?"
Sig clenched his teeth hard.
"Over the last two years. Snatched the kid off the street and put him through that for two years trying to make a super-soldier while Jak fought him every step of the way."
"I wish I could say that didn't sound like a logical progression of his depravity," Damas hissed on the other end of the line. "That your recruit managed to walk away from that -- let alone resist for two years -- is impressive."
There was a thoughtful note in the king's voice. He was considering something. Now was as good a time as any to try to catch him in an agreeable mood. Sig braced himself.
"...I have a request. I know you don't want to get involved in the civil war beyond runnin' guns, but-"
"Spit it out, Sig."
Sig rubbed the skin under his prosthetic eye and groaned.
"I'm...scared for Jak, man. Every time I see him, he's weaker. Kid’s about to drop over the edge of exhaustion and he keeps trudging on because he says "they" told him to. And I'm pretty sure he's talkin' about the Underground. Now, I know it's off agenda, but- I wanna follow him back. Find out whose trying to work him to death and straighten em out."
He could barely see the shrug on the monitor as Damas answered.
"Why're you asking me? He's your kid."
Something warm fluttered in Sig’s stomach and he grinned despite himself. "Yeah. I...guess he kinda is at this point, isn't he?"
The line was quiet for a few seconds. Time enough for sounds to begin emanating from the street. Then,
"When you find Mar-"
When. Not if. As if his success wasn't even in question.
"When you bring him home, bring Jak, too. I want to meet this kid in person."
"You think I'd let him and Daxter stay here?" Sig scoffed.
Just then, the door swung open, bringing with it the ottsel's familiar voice.
"I'm tellin' you, sweetheart, it's all about the pine-pears. Slice em, grill em, put em on the steak. I guarantee even Hoverboy will love it."
Tess walked in with the boys -- Sig didn't blame them for walking together. This wasn't the nicest neighborhood even without the KG -- and she giggled.
"Daxxie, I've never even had pine-pear. How am I supposed to convince Krew to put something on the menu if we can't get any?"
Jak looked worse than before. The circles beneath his eyes were deep and purple, and he looked dehydrated. Daxter perked up from his shoulders to glance in Sig’s direction.
Crap. He loved the boys, but they weren't cleared to know about Spargus yet.
"Hey, shift's gonna be starting soon, hon. Imma have to call you back."
"I beg your pardon?!" Damas sputtered.
After a beat, in which he must've heard the other voices, he sounded calmer. "Ah. You have company. Carry on."
"Yeah yeah yeah. No, I'll remember. Don't worry about it," Sig said quickly, and a little louder than necessary. "Milk, eggs, paper towels. You need me to grab anything else when I clock out?"
Jak stopped next to his table and cocked his head with a soft frown.
"Who you talkin' to?" he asked.
With a sardonic lilt, Damas’s voice grated in his ear.
"Oh, is that my "stepson"? Yeesh, he sounds rough. Tell him to take a nap."
"Tell him yourself!"
"Sure. Watch your ears."
And before he had time to brace himself, Sig had his ears ringing as Damas raised his voice and loudly called,
"Hey kid! Be good for your old man today. Take a nap when he tells you to this time."
"What the-?" Jak squinted at the talk-box.
Sig flushed scarlet from the tip of his ears to his neck when he heard the usually stoic king burst into uncontrolled cackling.
"I'm gonna round up the kids, and then I'm gonna smack you when I get home" he whispered harshly into the line.
"You wouldn't!" Damas snickered, just before ending the call, "Think of the children!"
"I am going to get him for this," Sig muttered as Jak’s face twisted in confusion.
"Who the heck is that?"
"A menace, that's who," Sig growled. "Ignore him."
Unfortunately, Jak did not.
The more time he and Daxter spent with Sig, recovering from missions under the guise of "Wastelander training", the more comfortable he became with Sig having more or less unceremoniously adopted them. And the more comfortable with Sig he got, the more accustomed he became to encrypted calls from Spargus. The ones Sig wouldn't tell him about yet.
Damas’s terrible habit of taking a Situation and running with it came back to bite them both when a message came while Sig was running perimeter check. And Jak answered the comm.
"You...are not supposed to be on this line."
To his credit, Damas kept reasonably calm.
"Where's your dad, rookie?"
"Sig's clearing the building," Jak answered with a shrug.
"I'd go grab him, but apparently broken toes disqualify you from pest control."
"Eco would fix that quickly enough."
"That's what I said!" Jak gestured vaguely towards the door. "It's not even the worst injury I've gotten in a base!"
Daxter paused on his way past Jak to the kitchen.
"That's true," he called over, "I think catching the live scatter rounds with your bare hands still holds the title on that one, pal."
"Eh." Jak made an entirely too casual shrug.
"Now, don't tell me you were juggling ammunition," Damas said, with a bit of mild reproof under the dry tone.
"The kid tried to channel em," Jak defended himself, "Slight burns or crabby toddler with super strength? Definitely could have been worse. Sig freaked out over that one, too."
Damas’s face went blank very abruptly.
"What toddler."
The door opened, and Jak glanced over.
"Oh, hey Sig. Your "it's complicated" is on the comm."
Sig made a very amusing impression of a fish out of water. He rushed across the room and snatched the talk-box.
"You don't have clearance for my comm, cherry! You know that!"
"What?" Jak asked indignantly, even as Sig propelled him out of the room.
"It's just that stepdad guy! What's the big deal?"
Sig glared at the box. "You did this."
Damas barely noticed. "He can stay, I need to clear something up with him."
If looks could kill, Damas would have been shaking hands with his ancestors at that moment.
"Out. Go run your weapons drills." Sig waved the boys away.
"Well so much for being consistent with him," Damas needled.
Another discreetly murderous glance was aimed at the camera lens.
"Are you serious right now."
"Jak may have information about Mar's location, Sig. I'm dead serious."
Sig snapped back to look at Jak so quickly that Jak was afraid he was going to get whiplash.
Jak blinked.
"Uh...we're not talking about the dead city founder guy, are we? Because I don't know where he is, but the old lady is making me look, so I can probably get you intel later."
*"Toddler,"* Damas corrected tightly, "Green hair, wearing an amulet of Mar. Powerful but uncontrolled channeling potential. Would be about four now."
Jak relaxed. "Oh, him! Yeah, I dropped him off with Vin at the power station because the Shadow was letting him play in the street again."
The combined stares of his semi-legal guardian and the man on the tiny screen left him fidgeting uncomfortably.
"....what?"
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marisol-000 · 3 days ago
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Speaking to you from inside your mind
Alrighty!!! I promised and now I'm delivering! The oneshot for the Tgs Hearing Aid au! This'll be a bit odd since I have no idea how to write people with hearing aids but if I don't try I never will so here goes
Shoutout to @lillibethnougatesquirethe3rd, @basilthesnakingthing, @mistakes-have-been-made, and @littletownman who helped make this au with me!!!!
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It was an ordinary day like any other when Jekyll heard something. Which wasn't too unusual, he often heard things. Most everyday in fact, big fan of it that man. But today he heard something odd.
A small shifting, like fabric or long hair, something soft. He doesn't think much of it, almost tuning it out entirely. On a busy campus like this there could be a marching band made entirely of trumpets and it wouldn't be worth looking up for. So he didn't even consider looking around the classroom when all the notes and textbooks he could ever need were right in front of him.
Until it happened again. More shifting, someone shuffling around. It sounded louder, like they were getting closer to him. But that doesn't make sense, there was no one near him.
In fact, there was no one in the room with him at all.
Jekyll had stayed after class to finish up his notes and was clearly the only person there. Finally peeking his head out of his book he eyed the room with confusion…yup. Just him. The classroom was large but it was no auditorium, just a few rows of chairs with hardwood tables, nowhere for anyone to hide. He was sitting in the front row, as close to the teachers desk as he could, with the door across from him. He was probably just hearing someone in the hall or next room over. Sure it was late and most everyone had left campus already, but he was still there. Though he'd probably have to hurry to avoid getting locked in, again.
He had almost managed to convince himself it was nothing when he heard a new noise. Clinking, like small bells or bracelets. Jekyll looked again, bewildered. Okay there was nothing in here that would make those noises, there's nothing even moving near him. What was going on?
“Alright try it again.”
He jumped. The voice was right. in. his. ear.
A low mumbling.
��You're going to parr-e later?”
For a moment he sat shocked, looking around with wide eyes. There's no one around him, certainly not close enough to be speaking right in his ears. Feeling a bit silly, he tentatively called out.
“Er, hello?”
He heard a yelp and startled curses. This wasn't making sense he could hear the voice right in his ears. Was he over the speaker system maybe? Or- or-
“Who said that?! I'll fuck you up you fucking…fucker!”
There it was, a voice as clear and loud as his own. It was a man's voice, he couldn't tell the age. And scratchy. He spoke with an exaggerated cockney accent, though Jekyll couldn't tell what was under it.
“Not you i'm talking to whoever's prankin me right now. Where are you you prick!?”
Oh right, that's him.
“I'm right here.” Jekyll said, pushing his chair back and standing, “Where are you?”
He could hear the shuffling of footsteps near him, like the person was wandering around looking for him.
“Well? Come out then!”
Jekyll tried to get over his surprise and think logically about this. How do you hear someone who's not in the same room as you? You call them. And if you want to hear them directly in your ears? You connect to your headphones.
As a child Henry Jekyll had a… certain hobby that led to a series of infections. He was fine for the most part but a particularly bad ear infection resulted in loss of hearing; and he'd eventually had to get hearing aids. He'd had them for so long he didn't even think about them when he heard the man's voice. Most days he forgot about them entirely after putting them on in the morning. The man must have connected to them somehow and was ‘on call’ with Jekyll.
“Excuse me. Er, hello?” “Man I cannot be hallucinating again last time it was- yeah you remember- with the eyes and junk-”
The other man was still talking, rambling really, with the occasional swear thrown in for good measure. Whoever this was was getting old quick. Jekyll cleared his throat impatiently.
“A-hem! Right, so I believe l know what's going on here. Our headphones got connected.”
There was quiet on the other end, whatever gesture or expression the other man was making was lost on Jekyll, who continued.
“I think when you turned your headphones on they accidentally connected to mine instead of your laptop or phone or whatever. So if you could just… disconnect your bluetooth device for a moment?”
“Hey!” he snapped, “My 'bluetooth device’ is my fucking hearing aids asshole!”
Jekyll blinked. Wait. This man also had hearing aids? What were the odds? Probably pretty high actually they must be on the same system.
That didn't explain why they were hearing each other now though. He certainly hadn't paired them together, maybe the man's headset had linked to the nearest thing like it? Or a bug from a new update he hadn't checked?
“Huh…my bluetooth device are my aids. They must have connected somehow…”
There was a moment of silence on the other end, “Wait really? Huh… What kind do you have?”
“HJ7.”
“Same.”
Well that increased the odds of a system error rather than blind luck(deaf luck?). Jekyll didn't exactly run into people like himself all that often, it was likely he simply hadn't been close enough to someone else's aids to run into a problem like this before.
“Right well, I'm in room 208 right now so if you come here we can try to figure this out.”
“What? Room 20- where the hell are you i'm not even in a building right now you git!”
Jekyll grit his teeth, god he just wanted to finish his notes and go home already. The man's voice was starting to give him a headache.
“I'm in the Rose building, room 208. If you use the front door and take the stairs on the left it's on the right side of the hallway.
“…wait. The Rose building? You're at that fancy ass college? Right now?”
“Yes. Upstairs on the right so if you could just come upstairs then we can sort this all out.”
“Well I can't fucking do that can I! I'm at The Copper Cog!”
Jekyll paused. The copper cog? The penny university next to that courtyard? That was all the way across town! What was going on?
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Hi, I was wondering if you could ask: what would Sans (UT)'s reaction be like to holding his newborn baby that he had with Reader? (I need a dose of tenderness) ps: I love how you write
I'm not a fan of babies, but I'll give this a try...
"Would you like to hold the baby?"
Sans gave you a tentative look, almost asking for your permission to hold the baby first.
You'd been the one giving birth to them for hours. Why would the nurse ask him instead of you?
"Go ahead," you nodded at him with a reassuring look.
Sans gulped as he put his arms out. The nurse started by placing the baby's diapered butt on one hand, then their head on the other.
It made sense to hand them that way, since the baby had absolutely no strength on their neck yet.
"it's good to finally meet you," Sans chuckled quietly. He wasn't sure if the baby was asleep or not. "you certainly know how to make an entrance."
You watched Sans with heavy lidded eyes, as he walked closer to you to study your baby.
"five fingers, five toes..." he hummed, handing the baby to you. "i'd say you made a fine baby."
You just smiled, accepting the baby and carefully wrapping them with your arms.
"they say babies need skin to skin contact," he hummed as he lifted up your sleeve a bit. "that way they connect with their parents better or something like that."
"I think it just comforts them," you chuckled, looking down at the baby before looking at Sans.
He had his eye dots glued to the baby.
"Take that off," you scoffed at him.
"my hoodie?"
"And your t-shirt."
He stared at you as soon as you said it, his smile frozen in a weird arch.
Nurses were still coming in and out of the room, so you understood his hesitance.
"Please," you rolled your eyes, "this medical professionals have seen this baby rip my insides. They'll survive seeing your ribcage."
"heh," he shook his head before taking off his hoodie , "i guess you're right, but i think you forgot about one little detail."
"What's that?"
He pulled his t-shirt over his head with ease, looking down at his naked chest before tapping his breastbone.
You raised a brow at him expectantly.
"i don't have no skin."
You rolled your eyes, stretching your arms to hand him the baby back. "You're his dad. They'll manage with what you have."
"i don't think babies are too adaptable," he stressed as he held the baby again.
They seemed fuzzy now. Like they'd just been waken from a nap, but their eyes were still closed.
"i know, buddy," he nodded with his eye sockets closed, "i hate it when people keep passing me around when i'm napping.
"I'm sure it happens often," you chuckled.
Sans kept looking at the baby as they seemed to settle down again, watching them slowly reaching for his chest with their little hands.
"i think they're looking for boobs," Sans whispered.
"Let them look," you snorted, a big smile plastered in your face.
The baby's hand then settled on a rib, grabbing it with their four fingers on one side and then a thumb on the other.
"look," Sans blinked at the baby.
"I told you they would manage with ribs."
"i think they're afraid i might drop them."
"They're just getting attached," you hummed, closing your eyes.
Sans just looked at the baby's face, studying all the similarities they had with you. The ears were the same. So was the forehead somehow.
How are foreheads even similar when you have no hairline yet?
"will you even grow hair?" Sans whispered.
The baby hiccuped, making a weird face that almost made him burst out laughing.
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sneeb-canons · 2 hours ago
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Headcanon #1000
[ v ALL BY @0ne-eyed-ghost !!!!!!! GO FOLLOW THEM NOW!!! v ]
Oho you really shouldn't've asked me for headcanons you fool ?
You absolutely silly soul? Pointing at you?
LOUD CRACKING OF MY HANDS.
Happy 1000 posts :]
1-2 FOR EACH OF THEM!!!! BECAUSE I'M SANE I PROMMYY!!!
Heart; TW; self harm urges; trauma related shit!!! eyes gone MISSING!!!
Heart often just. Remembers he doesn't . Have his eyes. They are gone, not even there !!!! And will reach up to try and feel them ??? Often leads into panic attack related scratching and itching, which just further irritates his already sensitive and healing scars- Often Mind or Soul will hear the frantic flapping and grab some kitchen mittens and shove them on his hands/claws, just to protect him from his own tendencies- Usually ends with one of them either talking him down or just . Physically holding him down until he comes back around. I think about this often like a normal person ?
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This ones fine :] Bird moment.. I own 3 birds IRL and have a fixation bully me for it
Heart I think CAN fly if he so desired, but . He's so shit at taking care of his own wings………. Fun fact; Birds have this stuff called pin feathers and sheaths on those baby feathers that protect them as they come out, but !!! Those sheaths hurt a loottt of bumped!!!! Also dampen the ability to fly since. It's just a thick blob of sheath stuff with a feather in the center that's not like. Out of the casing yet :]
EITHER WAY. The few days when it's like. Shower day. Heart doesn't quite like those days because of these pin feathers, so Soul and Mind typically have to 1; restrain him; and 2; clean off the idiots feathers for him so he's no longer in PAIN from getting clean, but he sure swears like. The whole time they have to do this. Big grouch.
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Perfectionism at its finest methinks………….
Mind probably sounds the most like whole?
In his normal voice that is! I like to think he's the most. Anxious over-practicing one just to be SEEN as perfect; he wants to be the best and never be anything less. Just. Singing too much can literally harm your voice and permanently strain your vocal cords, making your voice sound VERY hoarse or even hurts to speak!!!!!!! Methinks Mind did this 1 too many times and ended up Losing his ability to speak / Sing normally, so he had to get the ol' voice bank throat filter which stabilizes his throat enough to speak and to sing, he just no longer sounds like whole [WHICH; REALLY PISSES HIM OFF HE WAS SO PROUD OF BEING THE MOST SIMILAR VOICE WISE]
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JOURNALING IS NEVER SOMETHING I'VE MANAGED TO KEEP UP WITH IT'S HARDDDD SHOUT OUT TO THE MIND [You know who You are.]
Mind often takes his time staying up later writing down notes and things; Sort of like journal logs? Small things that bothered the other two, what to avoid, what to do more; Just to . Try. and get them closer to their goal of being together as one
It usually also contains like; small things they laughed at, small things he notices the two of them do when they're anxious, sad, frustrated- small body ques to remember to notice and ask about. He's not Very Good at verbally supporting people but he sure does his best to do things in small ways to make things more comfortable, like making probably very tiny snacks from time to time when Heart's in a funk, grabbing blankets whenever he finds Soul sleeping somewhere uncomfortable, Sorting stuff for the two of them, Doing laundry… Just basic housework but things the other two Definitely would Not do…
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I think about Darrell often I think he's the most lore giv- I'LL STOP I'LL STOP I LOVE AND LIVE FOR BIRDS
Soul !!!!!!
He feels the most comfortable and like he can breathe when he's out and about around other wild animals, he loves to be able to care after smaller things- Things that can't cause as many fights, and secretly thinks if he can master doing this surely he can master wrangling the other two together into this whole "Let's become Whole" Ideal! Which is why he has owned Multiple animals!!!!! Darrell is just the one that has stuck around the most, and the one he's become the most emotionally attached to- I'm sure if you watched him long enough he kisses Darrell to bed every night and tucks him in :-] WHICH I like to think he'd also be very strict with Darrell? Like an overly protective Father of his only child. It's funny to me
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I've never been good at like. Thinking about what soul enjoys doing but when I do think I write like 10million things
I like to think he goes stargazing often, likes just. Being outside. More than inside the house. Which is why he comes home so late so often and isn't around for whenever the other two get into small banters, HE'S OUT WATCHING THE SKY!!!
He watches the star patterns a lot and enjoys charting all the different changes and new stars he finds every night during the different seasons, especially enjoys showing them off to Mind who enjoys cataloging new info and keeping it stored safe and sound..
I also like to think he talks to himself quite a lot, pep talks himself about stuff-
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He's always trying to sound like he's got everything all figured out but Quite clearly has No idea whatsoever what would help. He usually panics and goes to his default of "Violence would totally Solve this problem!"
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SMALL VIOLENCE IDEA FROM JUST WRITING THE SENTENCE ABOVE YAHOO
Being the Trident owner means he Can physically inflict harm and wounds to them that Will last and Don't go away; Whichh is why the other two react so badly to whenever it's pulled out or around inside the house- Heart can especially tell if it's nearby just by the sound and smell of the metal alone
TECHNICALLY LIKE 3-4 FOR SOUL BUT THAT'S BECAUSE I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL
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imtrashraccoon · 1 month ago
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If I had a nickel for each time I think of reordering a major plot point in my long fics, I'd have two nickels. It's not a lot but it's weird that it's happened twice...
Context!
You know that Underfell fic that I've been hinting at for months? Yeah, I'm going to rewrite the beginning to fit a better idea I had recently. I didn't have fourteen chapters written or anything...
Also, like two days ago, I realized that it would probably be a good idea to introduce the Bad Sans' earlier than I had originally intended in The Nightmare of Apathy. Why? Because I think if I wait to end an arc beforehand, it'll feel weirdly disjointed. Going to toy with the idea a bit because it means Aylin and Nightmare won't have as much repertoire built up.
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sainz100 · 22 days ago
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#carlos sainz#autumn posts#explored this event last eve and omg so many wonderful moments!!!!#oh to be able to time travel 🚀 surfing the web will have to do!!#also I'll still reblog and post RBR of old and Max related content in 2025 but#wow they have made some immensely frustrating decisions as a company#I do sure despise their upper management!#also tbh I am glad newbies get chances but it seems like 2025 is going to be maybe too many rookies maybe o.o idk I just got here#and I know F1 teams are probably trying some succession planning and lots of new brands hopping on seem geared to younger fans#and I love Gabi and Jack and I'm sure Ollie and Kimi are great! idk them as well yet! and I miss Franco :(((#but idk I'm already missing the older drivers we lost like what do you mean Carlos is fourth oldest he's my age 🥲#idk I like grizzled old men!!!! and drivers who are still in their prime!! 30s isnt old!!! (I know it is in the world of f1 but...)#idk I know big F1 is trying to plant seeds but they're pulling up perfectly gorgeous trees to do so....I just got here too!!!!!!#hmmmm rambling balogna from a new fan#also I dont like watching cars crash so really really hoping the races next year with all these green drivers aren't too bad 🫣#idk I get worried!! and all the engineers and bts folks have to deal with wrecks so#mannifesting safe drives and good starts 🙏✨#and rbr and vcarb are on my shit list for now but the Max blogging will not cease#he and I will both be in our sixties and I'll be here salivating hehe 😵‍💫✨#gosh dad bod Max 😵‍💫❤️✨ heaven help me the thirst blogging will be off the charts here#okay enough yapping!!!#wishing everyone a v excellent Friday!! ☀️☁️🌙✨#brb soon to spam F1 Live in London content bc oh gosh what a rich well#also I won't spam too much hehe I'll space it out#also the Little Mix girlies (gn) were OUT at this event so that was fun!!#an insta feed of F1 drivers and a ton of Little Mix bloggers since they performed there! and I like Jade!! I gotta check when her albums out#okay autumn out!!! 🫡❤️✨ bye for now!
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francisforever2014 · 1 month ago
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you know i act very hee hee ha ha about it but sometimes being in the humanities is very scary when all anybody talks about is how you're really dumb if you pursue a humanities degree and how there's no way that jobs exist in the field that you love and that it's not worthwhile to do literally anything but stem. even though i know this isn't true obviously especially bc i'm surrounded daily by people who disprove this but damn........... can we stop being so mean :(
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forcedhesitation · 7 months ago
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dead by daylight-- the game where you can play as steve harrington from stranger things, and can get sent to partake in a match of murder hide and seek at midwich elementary from silent hill, where you can then use a lute to perform bardic inspiration from dungeons and dragons to give a bonus to your teammates, except for the one who is being chased by nemesis from resident evil 3.
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pastafossa · 1 year ago
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*heavy breathing* I decided to try to find a workaround for the long covid brain fog tonight.
Aka a new pot pot strain a friend recced to see if it would help me out with this.
It worked.
Do you know how well?
I just came up from a fucking five hour writing spree.
I'd planned to edit TRT's new chapter. And I did for a bit. But it wasn't enough. I had that itch, one that had been rattling around under my skin for months.
I needed to CREATE.
I NEEDED TO WRITE.
So I turned my eyes to the Raven fic's final chapter, where I'd been slowly working on adding the new scenes I wanted and redoing a few to match the new ones.
I didn't just enter the writing zone. I blew that fucking door off its hinges. I saw the scenes in my mind's eye, and I typed the words that came, and even when the words didn't show up, I waved it off, slapped in a placeholder, and blew past it. My hyperfocus latched on like a gator and did fifty thousand death rolls.
I wrote FOUR. POINT. EIGHT. THOUSAND. WORDS.
IN FIVE HOURS.
I may have forgotten to drink or eat anything so that's familiar too
This proves it. Getting TRT's new chapter written, if not edited, proved the words were still there in my head. And THIS proves I can still enter that miracle zone that makes everything worth it oh god i missed the zone. As best I can tell looking over it, this didn't fix my 'what word did I want here???' problem that I continue to struggle with. I still have a lot of placeholder words. But what it did do was remove my frustration, my anxiety, and my long pauses when I couldn't find a word I wanted. It was far easier to just continue on. It also gave me, for just a few hours, the ability to focus, enough that even as it slowly wore off I'd built enough momentum to keep going for a while.
Now I just gotta find a way to get there more regularly like I used to, without the herby nudge. Tomorrow I'll try the same thing though, only with editing instead, now that my itch has been thoroughly scratched.
And if anyone hears triumphant howling tomorrow evening, just know that it is I, Pasta, summoning the words again.
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guinevereslancelot · 4 months ago
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decided to leave my job and i'm gonna fr gonna cryyyyy
#literally can't work with my new boss bc i can't trust her#she went to the head of the department with complaints abt me without ever speaking to me or giving me any indication she was unhappy#and various other reasons im not happy w management and the school in general#HOWEVER#i love the kids sm and im gonna miss them and worry abt them 😭😭😭😭#im literally scared for some of them bc it feels like the other teachers have no empathy for some of my favorite kids#one of them who is so so sweet and when he cries i'm the girst to comfort him bc everyone else thinks he needs to toughen up 😭#also my new boss sucks so so bad and is gonna be such a bad influence on him and all the other kids#and my main co teacher said she's gonna quit if i do so i cant even beg her to look out for my babies and take care of them 😭💔#and it would be unprofessional to mention any concerns to the parents but genuinely some of the kids would be better off elsewhere#like im actually worried about it#i dont want some of the really sweet sensitive kids to lose their sweetness bc they're being treated unkindly#and the worst bullies and spoiled kids are the ones the teachers dote on#so it encourages some of the sweet ones to act out for attention#anyway 💔#i really do need to go tho#and i'm sure i'll love the kids at my new job#but im so sadddd#also its unlikely i can find a well paying job w this age group even tho i love this age group#its basically impossible not to get attached to them at this age and i get to pick them up and hold and cuddle them and stuff#and you cant really do that with the older kids sadly#literally on the verge of tears even seriously thinking abt leaving#things have been p bad for a while due to management but i never seriously considered leaving bc i love the kids so much#but i literally can't see a future here#and my new boss clearly hates me and im worried she's going to try to get me fired#she already made up a bunch of lies about me and its only been three weeks#anyway i only make 15 an hour so hopefully i'll at least get more somewhere else and i know i'll still love the kids#its just really hard#which is why i've stayed this long#i was p unhappy before my new boss even started bc of the way they treated my old boss
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I can’t see a damn thing
#DQIX#WPDQIX#WPVG#Where are my glasses!#So anyway I finally beat this save lol#Well - made it to postgame anyhow#Which is long haha#Everyone still sub 50 level-wise! That's remained consistent#Although a lot of extra levels in other vocations to build up points#I cannot BeLieve Goresby-Purrvis TKO'd me on my first attempt back - I was well-leveled! I was fine!#RNG >:(#We beat him the second go around - after I looked up a guide to make sure I wasn't trying to fight him way underleveled lol#No I was actually over by like.......5-8lvs............................#His OHKO move is way too OP he managed to successfully roll it Twice in his turns >:0 Hate that furry#Anyway the rest were a cake walk lol#Like yeah I went and healed after Barbarus but aside from that I didn't even bother pfft#I didn't realize I had so little of the main campaign left! Like I'm happy to be in postgame now but dang I could've done this way sooner#I'll run around with the Express after a bit ♪ Wanna see if I can unlock some of the other vocations and collect more clothes#Do a full aesthetic run lol - finish out the Mini Medals sidequest#Plenty to do yet!#Then I really wanna look into a recording setup for my 3DS hmnn#I don't really want to send this lad away to get rigged up - and I have been looking to buy a new one but hmmnnn#I dunno#Worst case I just stream with DeSmuMe lol#I'd love a physical copy of Kuzu's adventure <3 But I also can't deny the usefulness of save states#Going back to the church every time is....Mm#I wonder if there are any USB DS controls I could use :0 That's be great I love the way the buttons feel#Still - it being a slower paced game wouldn't make it particularly demanding haha
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wispwatched · 1 month ago
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HELLO HI I live, I swear! friendly reminder to look at my muses page before interacting, thank you! it will tell you who is or can be a Rook, as well as you know. general character information. also my rules ?? its on this blogs pinned post, that one.
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goldentigerfestival · 2 months ago
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Forgot to post this earlier but I did in fact comb the entire Vesperia script to determine how many times he uses ま/まあ throughout the game, along with a few other phrases he uses repeatedly. This counts all of main story, every single sidequest, and every single skit in the game.
Final counts were:
ま/まあ: 280
Ma/Maa; translates to "well". He uses this at the beginning of a sentence usually, but it's sometimes in the middle. "Ma" is usually more quick and snappy. "Maa" is more thoughtful and/or prolonged. Obviously it can vary based on context, but that's the general breakdown.
んじゃ and any variants: 133
Nja, along with variants such as "ja", "soreja", etc. Variants are counted when they're all used to express "let's get going", when they're about to head off ("ja" could be used in a sentence such as "ja/but then, why is xyz like this", etc). They encompass translations such as "well then" (let's get going implied. includes "so then", "then" "alright then", and so on), "we should be off", "let's get going", "let's go", etc. (not to be confused with 行こう(ikou), 行くぜ, (ikuze), and other similar versions of this phrase. That can also mean "let's go", but any instances of Yuri using that particular phrase was not counted because it wasn't a variant of, specifically, んじゃ, which is also his most common "let's go" ja variant).
おい / おいおい: 66
Oi/Oi oi; translates to "hey"/"hey, hey", though "oi" is more or less an accepted word in English nowadays.
おっと: 12
Otto (not to be confused with "oto", referring to sound); an expression of surprise that can translate roughly to "whoa there" (which is the most common translation I do see for it and what I'd use in most cases too, context of course varying). The reason I included this one despite it being so seemingly low in number is because it's not a particularly common expression, much less one used multiple times by a single character? It's so rare from anyone else, which is just a regular thing relative to Yuri and his dialogue/speech (i.e. most characters sparingly use phrases repeatedly, as compared to Yuri... as you can see lol. Other characters use these words/phrases, but nowhere near as regularly, if regularly at all).
Realized along the way I should've included やれやれ (yare yare, "good grief", "oh dear", "oh boy" etc), but by the time I realized I should have in case it was an interesting count, I was too far into the script to be able to handle going all the way back through it LOL.
No. No, I am not joking that Yuri used ま/まあ 279 times throughout the course of the game. That is to say, it could be more if I missed any, but on the assumption I didn't, that's where it stands.
Why do I love this so much? Because it's a very specific character quirk of a character I adore. I'm very fond of his repetition. Thank you.
#GTF Vesperia Things#GTF Yuri Things#so glad I gave him his own tag jpfjugDFJISHFG he fuckin' needs it#OH ALSO note that I may or may not have (I genuinely don't know I don't THIIIINK I did?) accidentally picked up#the “but then" etc variant of ja. at this point I don't remember and I'd have to go back through my doc of this#bc I was skim-combing the script juggling several phrases mainly for ma. if I ever do a recount I'll confirm lol#also shoutout to Rays for using ま/まあ 68 times for him which is 4 more times than he uses it in Vesp arc 1 main story#I'm both thankful and amazed that Rays' writers ACTUALLY kept it to the correct general extent at large (when you consider the size of#both games and Yuri's role) I've always expressed how dedicated they are to the source material of the legacy chars but#that CEMENTED it LOL. the way they retain speech quirks for legacy chars is amazing and I applaud them#he uses おい / おいおい 54 times throughout Rays#おっと was used 10 times throughout Rays which is hilariously almost identical to Vesp's usage#んじゃ they did keep but I didn't count the amount of times#now MIND YOU Rays is split into 4 arcs prior to Recollection (which he's not in) and has to contend with about 200ish legacy characters#Yuri is largely in arc 4 and has a large chunk of appearances in arc 2#he's mostly absent from arc 3 after the beginning of it and he's not in arc 1 much after the first chapter (which is his chapter)#he does show up in a lot of skits early into Rays tho since they only had so many chars to work with for arc 1 skits#and I also included count of those phrases in events (both skits and events throughout the game)#WHAT I'M SAYING is that Rays still managed to retain his word choice repetitiveness#and managed to get the count that high which is a very accurate reflection of it#while trying to put about 200 legacy chars through a revolving door#they were THAT on the nose with Yuri's quirks and further cements that this is a very Yuri thing#and a character quirk choice that was brought in from the game of origin#and they DID do this with other chars not just him... but the fact that they DID to me means#they thought it was important enough of a quirk to make sure they didn't lose it in his dialogue#WHICH. I AGREE. I AM VERY VERY DEEPLY PLEASED THEY KEPT IT#it just goes to show how dedicated they were in faithfully translating the characters into a gacha game#(not tl in the loc sense but tl in the ''writing a char outside their origin game for a non-origin game appearance'')#it also proved my theory that Yuri's vocal repetition was done intentionally bc they found it part of him enough to carry it over#anyway yeah i have yuri lowell brainrot and he pretty much owns 98 percent of the real estate in my brain these days
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