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(same anon as before) No prob, I'll just post what I wanted to talk about here.
I'm trying to write a fic with KvZ as the focus and you depict him so well with your art, I kinda want to ask for your opinion on him and Genshin and their relationship (huge GnKnt shipper here) just to get a different perspective and more depth into what you think of them. I love how you portray them both and I'd appreciate hearing what you think.
Also as an amateur artist, if you could give me any art tips about drawing like you do, especially with all the symbolism and metaphors, I'd really appreciate it.
That's all, thanks, and sorry if I bothered you!
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Thank you! But you give me too much credit. Iâve mostly just drawn variations of the two standing in the dark [gestures to img below]. Admittedly, I havenât thought too deeply about their relationship beyond Klimtâs mental decline (and how that affected the people around him) and their final duel. But if itâs anything, I view them both as impulsive and emotional. I donât really have a solid opinion on the matter of their marital status. Sorry, I just enjoy seeing guys who are doomed by the narrative be self destructive and tear their lives apart đ¤ˇââď¸
As for art tipsâ I donât know how experienced you are, but regardless of skill level, you should have a good grasp on the fundamentals (eg: values, proportion, perspective, line quality, etc.). Once you have a handle on the basics, drawing from life, doing master copies, photo studies, etc. helps further develop and hone your skills.
I donât have any good resources explaining things, but search around; there's plenty of free art learning resources online. Iâve heard good things about Proko on youtube. It's also good to look at artists of different styles, mediums, and eras. That way, you can learn from analysing their techniques and you can develop a style of your own.
A small word of adviceâ if you're still a beginner, don't get too caught up on the details and on complex techniques. Those things will come in due time (or if you want to push yourself, but I don't really recommend force. you should enjoy creating art). Beautifully rendered art with unintentional poor proportions and composition sticks out like a sore thumb (unless you don't mind, then you do you).
Explaining my creative process is tough since most of it just kind of happens, so Iâm sorry if this comes out incomprehensible. For me, when it comes to symbolism, itâs basically analysing the character and what situation you want them in and honing in on specific ideas. Letâs use these pieces for example:
Kazuma has an association with snakes because his family crest represents snake eyes. Here, Iâm using the snake to symbolise his hatred, which stems from his father's death. On the left, he wields it. He's seemingly calm and under control. The snake is ready to strike. To the right, his hatred spirals and nearly consumes him. It's the demon inside him đ¤
Besides the obvious of what happens in their story, some things you can draw from is how a character presents themselves, perspectives, occupation, hobbies, personal effects, cultural/religious/societal/etc. background, conflicts, era/location, etc. But other than that, symbolism can be incorporated in smaller, subtler ways, like the way someone holds a bottle, how an article of clothing is worn, and the like. Watching movies/tv, reading comics, and other media helps. Pay attention to how the director/author frames and lights things đ
(side note: karuma is a recurring symbol in tgaac)
Not sure if anything I wrote here is of help, but yeah
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â just you wait, florian... â
how we coping tonight, kieran nation?
#i didn't mean to make my first fanart of kieran be so intense but here we are#i'll make up for it with my next drawings bc i need to see this kid happy at least a lil bit#he also kinda ended up looking a little similar to allister... which make sense i'm pretty sure take designed both of them#also if any of you fuckers make yandere comments on this post it's on sight#pokemon#pokemon scarlet and violet#pkmn scarvi#pkmn scarvio#the teal mask#pokemon kieran#kieran#rival kieran#đ : comfort characters#đ¨ : mj draws#scarvio spoilers#sv dlc spoilers#sv spoilers
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cooper howard & lucy maclean + the definite contrasts, the striking similarities (aka ghoulcy foreshadowing)
#vaultghoul#ghoulcy#falloutedit#fallout series#fallout prime#lucy maclean#cooper howard#the ghoul#cooper x lucy#lucy x cooper#fallout tv#what a bitchshow to color#anywaysss i hope this makes sense because in my head it does!#the đľ ones are about the background lyrics from those very moments btw!#it looks similar to my the ghoul/cooper + dating business post intentionally (and not because i'm lazy af surely not)#i said i'm gonna make part ii so here we are#*ready for s2 and for cooper to eat lucy raw straight off the bone*#and if not... dogmeat should trap her people the 101 dalmatians way because they are a bit dumb#đđđ just saying#shitty things i do for love
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your body isn't your own
#monkey d luffy#koby one piece#eustass kid#killer one piece#described in alt text#my art#my comic#secret modern au#art is concept ect#here i wanted to see how much i could implied with as little dialogue as possible. worked best in the first comic tbh#luffy is intersex in this AU now! (and a cis man) it's smth i had considered multiple time but never settled on until now because#i wasn't sure what to do with it but with how the plot evolved it makes a lot of sense and fixes some parts.#it's funny! he was meant to have some undiagnosed vague hormone disorder but i decided it's likely pms/pmdd (and maybe smth else#he's got a lot going on) and you kind need an uterus for that sooo.#genderwise he went through various flavors of gnc cis guy to genderqueer to ??? but now i'm thinking cis guy is best.#* VICE admiral btw. this what happen when you write comic past midnight
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MAN THAT REALLY COLORS THIS RESPONSE IN THIS CONVERSATION SO DIFFERENTLY FOR ME
#bg3#like here my silly ass that doesn't know shit was thinking 'wow i'm actually surprised he's pretty chill with this'#JOKES ON ME I'M BOOBOO THE FOOL#IT'S P R O B A B L Y MORE LIKELY THAT HE JUST ASSUMES IT WON'T LAST AND HE HAS NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT#WOW............DAMN............GOT ME#CAUGHT ME SLIPPIN CAUSE I AM A LORE NOVICE HERE....................................#like SURE you could ASSUME that astarion would be flippant about having multiple partners like why wouldn't the flirty one be that way righ#but no no no there's much to think about here i'm unpacking the fucking layers i can feel my mind peeling like an onion#woag mama#i'm not articulate today b/c brain fog but i hope that made any sense#and hey maybe I'M even making assumptions but calling it a 'harmless affair' just.....that hits different#astarion
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I don't believe in destiny, but if destiny exists, then it is heading for Donna Noble.
#mine#doctor who#dwedit#david tennant#catherine tate#dw spoilers#i..... am not sure where i wanted to go with this gifset#it started off with the doctor and donna and destiny and aliens#and then i decided to throw in donna missing all the alien things#and now it doesn't really make sense???#or does it? idek#there's just a lot going on here bc i'm too excited#but it IS about donna so i'm gonna post it anyways :')#wooo 5 gifsets this weekend!!#haven't done that in a while :D
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This little NPC is lost. The Narrator [Black] has come to guide her back to where she needs to be. [Blank Scripts AU]
I imagine Black would be a lot more tolerant toward his NPCs since they're basically just the Dungeons spawns, and by extension, his own creations.
[If you're familiar with manhwas / manhuas that features the dungeon / system genre, you'd be able to understand this AU a lot easier. The majority of my inspiration for worldbuilding came from those specific genres.]
[NOTE: 'Dungeon' is just another term for the Parable. Technically, Black owns a Dungeon and the Parable is just a small part of it. The Dungeon itself is much, much larger.]
For context, the comic below references this post about the Dungeon's children/guard dogs.
[They're more like the immune system since all they do is make sure the (body) is safe.]
[The reason the Narrator [Black] considers them his children is that the Dungeon is feeding off his energy and in turn shares the 'nutrients' to the monsters it produces, which transforms them into an image that resembles his power.]
And the old man below is Joseph!
Joseph is NOT AN NPC! He is a person who exists outside of the Dungeon!
[There are two separate 'worlds' for this AU. Inside the Dungeon (where most of the game-like stuff is happening) and the world outside (pretty much their normal world.)]
[There is a secret third world, and that's our world. Our reality.]
These characters are not actually important or anything, I just made them to make the AU feel more lively. To make a world that exists, you know?
When the Narrator [Black] first established himself in their world, he found a growing problem with homelessness. Not understanding human norms or why this has become a problem in the first place, he offers (tricks) them into working for him as janitors for the Dungeon and they accept for the money.
Most of them left after they got paid, but Joseph was one of the people who stayed. He doesn't have anywhere else to go and has no ambitions in life. He just wishes to live a peaceful life with food and a roof over his head.
Joseph defaults to referring to the Narrator [Black] with feminine terms due to his appearance despite his voice. The Narrator [Black] is not the type to care for such terms anyway so he doesn't care how other people refer to him as long as there's respect.
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This post focuses more on the worldbuilding and background aspects of the AU! There are a lot more in store for the Blank Scripts AU, and I want to explore more on how the characters might interact with their surroundings and how this would work to make a world that makes sense.
It would be so cool if people made self-inserts or OCs for my AU actually. I'd love to see how you guys would work with my stuff. Play around with it like a barbie world for your little barbie dolls. Be canon compliant, be canon divergent, who cares, have fun.
#tsp blank scripts au#I REALLY HOPE I'M MAKING SENSE HERE#this AU is genuinely so big in my head#I barely know how to navigate my way around it to show bits and pieces to my audience little by little so that you get what's up first#before I just dump a truck-full of lore on top of you and expecting you to just understand what the heck I'm on about#because I'm pretty sure if I don't introduce you to the world first you're just not gonna understand what's going on half of the time#let's take it slow okay? sorry if some of these posts come off as boring#I just really love this AU and I'd love to show it to you in a presentable and palatable way so that we can both be on the same level of-#-understanding this AU together#you know what I mean?#and also because I just wanted some background/side characters interactions#tsp au#tsp oc#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp#tspud#tsp narrator#narrator tsp#my drawing museum
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Eddie, at 3 AM: Would you still love me if I was a worm?
Steve, who really wants Eddie to shut up so he can sleep: I already love you
Eddie: Aw
Eddie:
Eddie: Wait
#steddie#eddie munson#steve harrington#eddiesteve#stranger things#listen this goes through my head any time I see someone pose the question 'would you still love me if I was a worm'#I'm not even sure anymore if it makes sense but here just take it#solar wrote
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01. wine
#one piece#donquixote doflamingo#Doffytober2024#vewu art#doffy posters#decided to draw something for it... today xd#a bit rushed but it is here wohoo!#this bottle is not very wine-like i have to admit but shhhhh details#what does doffy see inside tho?#i guess it is not his first bottle then. more like the third or something#does the typography make sense? i'm not sure but whatever#let the man drown in his ambitions#he absolutely doesn't have trauma đ
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#HEHEHE THEY'RE SO CUTE I LOVE THEMMM#such a shame these scenes are so brief đ#avatar#avatar 2#the way of water#sully family#jake sully#neytiri#neteyam#kiri#lo'ak#jeytiri#lĂŹ'fya leNa'vi#gif#i'm actually not sure whether Jake is meant to be saying âsloa tsyalâ (wide wing) or âslotsyalâ (stormglider) here#but i thiiiiiink i hear the -a sound in there#i mean i suppose it doesn't REALLY matter; either one would make sense in this context#and the species name âslotsyalâ derives from âsloa tsyalâ anyways (as I'm sure you could've guessed hrh)#(btw âsyuâ is not a real word; just the closest I could come to the âwhooshâ sound effect he's making with Forest dialect phonetics hrh)#it sounds like he also says something else before Neytiri says âhufweâ but I can't make out what it's supposed to be#cuz the voiceover narration is talking over it -_-;#in the next shot when Neytiri is running around she also says something#sounds like it might be âtysal latsuâ meaning roughly âmust be a wingâ#or perhaps âtsyal atunâ meaning âred/orange wingâ which would make sense with Kiri's little Toruk toy#but I think there's an S sound in there so idk#again it's hard to tell because the narration is playing over it#SHUT UP NARRATION JAKE I'M TRYING TO HEAR WHAT'S HAPPENING IN THE SCENE đ#oh well
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hi everyone how are we doing i'll go first i'm doing Bad :)
#OFMD#OFMD Season 3#and i guess this also applies to-#Good Omens#JSDLKSJDLKS#these little whispers of similar posts inspired me idk#and also meow and the wifey in my dm's have expressed Similar Pain#it's just HARD OUT HERE#also me clowning lol 'i'm trying to be patient' and then whips back around with this post#BUT I JUST HSJKDKLSDS LIKE I WILL WAIT#BUT I'M ANXIOUS ABOUT IT :)#IT'S JUST A WAY MORE NERVE-WRACKING WAIT#BECAUSE I DON'T TRUST THE STUDIOS AT ALLLLLL#and god it's like#with ofmd AND good omens#it's legitimately just one more season#surely they'd just want to finish the story and see it all completely through and lock the viewership IN#SURELY IT WOULD MAKE THE MOST FINANCIAL SENSE TO WRAP UP A STORY AND THEN HAVE A COMPLETED STORY AND ATTRACT PEOPLE WITH THAT STABILITY#RIGHT???#LIKE COME ON NOW
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Nie Mingjue is the opposite of a man trying to escape the narrative. He's constantly being pushed OUT of the narrative and yet he keeps coming back in. He's a corpse before the story even starts he was a minor blip in the mc's life he should NOT be this deep in the narrative and yet there he is. Jgy literally killed him in his efforts to get out of the narrative himself and then nmj was like Fuck You (haunts you thereby trapping you both in the narrative forever) his brother's need for vengeance for his death is the reason the plot even exists he's so inside of the narrative he basically becomes it.
#mdzs#Nie Mingjue#does this make sense? what i'm saying here?#nmj is not trapped in the narrative he is very comfortable here and does not want to leave#even if it's going to kill him- even after it HAS killed him- he wants to stay#mdzs meta#i'm not sure this counts as meta but i'm putting it here
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"The podcast is about our neighbours being murdered." "Yeah, but you made it sound cozy."
That's it. That's the show.
#if ever two lines have summed up an entire show...#this one felt a bit all over the place but i LOVED it. i actually teared up at that convo between charles and doreen oh my god#i don't have a big age difference with my brother but still. siblings. you get it#i CAN'T BELIEVE the actors got it. they pointed out all the stuff people on here have been saying for ages!!! vindication!!!!!!!!!!#and i think they're right AND that this person that has been watching the trio since s1 is *one* person.#unsure about the westies and dudenoff. it might be a murder on the orient express situation but i don't buy that for some reason#this feels like a scheme but not a murder cover-up? maybe when dudenoff stopped responding to them they decided to keep up the illusion#and get his money so they could continue paying a low rent? idk it doesn't make sense to me that they would kill him#i'm not sure they even know that he's dead. but hey! what do i know! ive gotten plenty of things wrong this season#also loretta and oliver... OH my god i really thought they were through for a moment there my goodness#don't scare me like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so much in this one i didn't even mention THE DOLLS. or bev melon. oh my god so much#omitb#omitb spoilers#omitb s4
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#I can't think of any more but I'm sure I'm missing something#Me personally I've been waiting on that Beastclan lore for a while#I really liked getting new lore about existing parts of the world if that makes sense#Instead of here's lore because here's a whole new thing it's just elaborating on what's already here#Plus I like the Beastclans and I liked the new familiars and I really want more scenes#Honestly what I really want is more of those lair location banners. More scenery!! I love the environmental art for FR#But I'm also content with anything because all my wishes were already answered with the world map update#Nothing more they add could ever top the sheer joy I felt#flight rising#flightrising
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Chapter 105.5 Thoughts: Control, Manipulation and Partnership
Or, how Chuuya is actually the most qualified character to land a victory over Dostoevsky.
I just want to preface this with: I think Chuuya has woken from the brainwashing. We can't see his eyes, he's holding his hat again, and look at the progression of his face and expression from the last few chapters with him (these are in order btw from left to right).
I'm not completely sure how he did this, but I chalk a lot of it up to sheer stubborn determination on Chuuya's part, mostly because it's funny and he was clearly fighting back before Dazai's speech. However, I find it likely the speech did contain some kind of code - others have pointed out how "Goodbye!" might be a reference to the original author's last unfinished book and we know skk's codenames for things generally are based off their real counterparts' works so, maybe he'd already broken out of it, maybe there was something in there that gave him the final push - who knows at this point honestly? Either way, it means Chuuya had the capacity to break out of the vampire curse on his own and that's incredibly funny to me for many reasons but mostly:
Fyodor: "Bold of you to assume Chuuya's ability can't overcome flooding."
Dazai: "Bold of you to assume Chuuya's personality can't overcome brainwashing."
But really, this highlights something interesting here, both in what Chuuya's role is ultimately intended to be in this arc, and in the way Fyodor and Dazai manipulate and value others in very different ways.
I've said it before but it bears repeating: we already know that Fyodor is an excellent long-term planner, while Dazai is effectively able to counter him because Dazai shifts into thinking like his opponent. They're foil characters for a reason; they're both highly intelligent, manipulative, and willing to play the long game for the sake of winning against their opponent.
Thing is, I also stand by the idea that personality-wise, they're not similar at all - and that has serious implications for the people they are connected with. The build-up to the prison escape arc really highlights this. Some examples:
Chapter 46: Fyodor believes that all people are sinful and foolish and that his goal is to remove sin. Dazai believes that all people are sinful and foolish but asks what's so wrong with that.
Chapter 64: They decide to have a "super-happy chit-chat" about their problems. Dazai's solution to Fyodor's issue with his lazy subordinates is to get them to think lazing around is a bad thing so they will put in effort of their own. Fyodor's solution to Dazai being unable to woo the waitress is to isolate her from her job, house and family so that she can only rely on Dazai.
Chapter 77: Fyodor believes god is perfection and harmony, and thus that the people capable of change are the superior ones with most control. Dazai believes god is the accidental and illogical and believes it is the ordinary people who fight and live in that uncertainty who create the greatest change.
So, what's happening here? Fyodor's manipulation is shown to be very exacting and direct. He leaves no room for error and regards people on a hierarchy - God above all, himself as a servant of God's will, and the sinful and foolish humans he has little regard for. Dazai's manipulation involves manipulation of the situation, and is often indirect. It involves people coming to the conclusion he intends for them to on their own. And from his later dialogue with Sigma, we see he doesn't regard the world in that same kind of hierarchy.
Now, look at the way Fyodor picks an item and Dazai picks a person when starting the game. Look at the way Fyodor refers to Chuuya respectfully but brainwashes him entirely and mocks Dazai for not being worthy of "using" his ability. Look at the way Dazai is a complete ass to Chuuya but ultimately lets him make his own choices (begging people to take note of that moment in Stormbringer where Dazai cuts himself off to correct his referring to Corruption as Arahabaki's true power to Chuuya's true power).
So, the actual strength Dazai has over Dostoevsky then, is not really his strength at all, it's the strength of others and their choice and willpower to act in the way they believe is best. It's the only means of getting a leg up on Dostoevsky, otherwise they will continue to go around and around in circles forever.
And Chuuya is the best candidate for finally throwing Fyodor off his game.
Firstly, let's just establish something: no matter how mad he is at Dazai, he's not going to side with Fyodor, not willingly. Fyodor threatened the Mafia in the Cannibalism arc by attacking Mori, first of all. I doubt he's forgiven him for that. Secondly, Fyodor embodies everything Chuuya can't stand about Dazai, at the very least, younger Dazai - the manipulation, the lack of consideration and connection with others, the callousness and lack of regard for life.
Well, perhaps he's not quite as irritating. +1 point for Dostoevsky I guess?
But lastly, it is more advantageous for Chuuya at this point to help fight against Fyodor, especially since most of the Mafia has been vampirized by his organization. Helping the Agency stop the terrorist plot will help the Mafia by extension by undoing that. And we know from Stormbringer that no matter how much Chuuya is personally hurt, he considers taking out the threat to his people a higher priority. Always.
(You could make the argument that he was told whatever Teruko told Atsushi and decided to join, but not only do I find this wildly out of character, but if that was the case then there would've been no reason to brainwash him.)
That said, I don't think this was preemptive "Dazai's master plan #3057", and in fact, I stand by the idea that Dazai had no idea Chuuya was going to be in the prison. It is very, very important to me that for the rest of this arc, no matter what Chuuya does, that his actions are his own. Not Fyodor's, not Dazai's, but his. And not just because I hate that he's being controlled right now and that freedom of choice has always been important for Chuuya.
But because it makes narrative sense.
The vampires are a bit silly, yes, but they represent the way Fyodor and Fukuchi think - humanity will commit atrocities. They cannot be trusted to make their own decisions. They want to make a world that is free by... mind-controlling people so their plans work without a hitch. In short, they choose, on behalf of others, to sacrifice human autonomy for peace. So, if we are going to turn this arc around, we need to have characters breaking out of that control and thinking for themselves, in spite of the uncertainty of the outcome.
We already see this with Atsushi in the last chapter! He finally takes initiative and makes that choice to leave the room when he doesn't exactly know what the right thing to do is. And this is also why I don't think Teruko is wholly convinced by the DoA either - she lets him go. She gives him the freedom to choose what he does with that information.
Another one of the focus characters here is Sigma. Sigma is a guy who has no past, whose humanity is questioned, who keeps being used by organizations for his valuable ability, who has no home but desperately wants one... oh wait. Remind you of anyone's younger self? This could go one of two ways: Chuuya fails to assert his autonomy, leaving Sigma to learn from that failure, or, Chuuya succeeds in asserting his autonomy, leaving Sigma to learn from his success.
I think it, by necessity, has to be the latter. Sigma's at a tipping point right now, and I think seeing someone try to assert their freedom only to fail would damage him greatly. And I think it's a waste of Chuuya's character honestly.
Chuuya needs to assert his autonomy in this arc. Not just for thematic reasons but because I can think of no one else who can effectively break the "super-genius stalemate".
I keep hearing "Dazai knows Chuuya" in response to Fyodor calling their bond shallow, and that is absolutely true! But Chuuya also knows Dazai. Incredibly well. Odasaku knew Dazai's soul, but Chuuya knows Dazai's mind, knows his strategies and ways of thinking without even needing words. What's more, Chuuya has thrown off Dazai before and done what he didn't expect him to.
Which is nifty, because Dazai and Fyodor think a lot alike. Chuuya is in a unique position to thwart Dostoevsky because he may actually be able to predict him to a degree. Chuuya can absolutely land a victory against him, and it's excellent because it would be completely unexpected to Fyodor, who apparently thinks Chuuya's strength lies only in what his ability has to offer and not much else.
But listen. This also can't be skk's plan. I need Chuuya to sideline both of them. Both for the sweet, sweet catharsis of putting those two idiot geniuses in their places and also because I need Dazai to have screwed up. He wasn't wrong about people making their own choices in uncertainty. People need to assert their autonomy to create change. Dazai can't be wrong in this regard.
But with going ahead with the trap to drown Fyodor despite also having to drown Chuuya when he promised not to let him get killed... this needs to have been a mistake, otherwise the value of Dazai's emotional speech to him is diminished.
I want Dazai to try to laugh it off. I want him to say he always knew Chuuya would escape and then for Chuuya to deck him because "no, the fuck you didn't".
I really think Dazai hoped Chuuya would make it. Do remember that Chuuya was one of the first reasons young Dazai decided to try giving life a chance. The fact that he flashbacked to all his key memories with Chuuya says a lot. But his survival was no guarantee and it seemed very unlikely.
So, Chuuya is faced with the fact that Dazai nearly sacrificed him to kill Dostoevsky and save his new Agency friends.
And I hope he finally gets mad. I hope he finally expresses hurt on his own behalf for once. I hope they are forced to break their status quo that they have carefully maintained by not talking about anything ever. I hope they are pushed to uncomfortable places and that it is Chuuya who finally spurs this development.
Let Chuuya break the stalemate between Dazai and Dostoevsky. Let him shatter the status quo that him and Dazai have kept going for year after year.
Autonomous action in the face of uncertainty is necessary for change.
#am i assigning too much narrative importance in the main manga to chuuya? perhaps#will i stop? no#unfortunately this meta doesn't include gogol which is an oversight because he absolutely has to play a role as well#i'm just not quite sure what yet. same as chuuya i suppose#either gogol asserts his autonomy or he... fails. yeah. either he gets dostoevsky killed or... he fails.#i just don't know where he fits in with everyone else is the thing#listen though. it is significant that gogol decided not to play his dying role in the doa's plan though.#gogol is the free spirit of the doa and yet he's closer to sigma and bram in terms of how he is more controlled than controller#anyways sorry this is so long. just my two cents on the matter#bsd#bsd spoilers#bsd chapter 105.5#bsd chuuya#bsd fyodor#bsd dazai#bsd sigma#bsd meta#i don't even know if this makes sense anymore. here.#storyrambles
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do you consider your self made?
#my art#self portrait of sorts#been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things#for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer#(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good)#and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like#I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them#are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize#to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough.#things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either#im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now#just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later#anyways. love you#cw:#top nudity#artistic nudity#the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple#if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw#my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way#lindwormposting
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