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61. sun bleached flies — ethel cain
STOOD IN A DARK AND GRIMY HALLWAY, illuminated by a flickering, dying light that shines over the muck and rust that has long melted into the walls of this crumbling place— a building repurposed time and time again, but no amount of replacing checkered flooring has managed to fully wash out the blood from its crevices. It doesn't need to be there for Michael to see it ( he sees it in his mind every day, drowns in it— whether it's Evan's, pouring down from sharp teeth onto matted fur and all over Michael, or the dots left on his father's collar before he connected the dots, or what he can only imagine all those lost spirits endured ). He has searched for this, crafted the remains of his life around one purpose: savior, atonement, revenge, whatever it could be called ( he doesn't have nearly enough faith in himself to think he's done any good yet, the brewing anger for his father is just stronger than that ).
And here he is. Dark hallway. An open door into a hidden storage room.
He didn't expect for them to talk.
He started guarded, started focused, started with a rehearsed goal he's stewed in for a long while now, but it's fallen apart in the face of his father again. Michael can feel his cobbled-together pieces cracking at the shaky foundation, anger's mask pulling back to reveal a grief so strong he feels like he's going to shatter. "You know? I always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me." He doesn't mean to make it about himself. He really doesn't. But his father's eyes bore into him and his guilt twists disgustingly in the pit of his stomach and he stopped vying for his father's approval a long while ago but that doesn't mean he stopped wanting it. "And yeah, I didn't deserve it, but you were supposed to do that anyway— that was YOUR job." The prepared, fiery yet focused disposition that he walked in with is practically gone, leaving a childish hurt in its wake. "Even when I was the only one left, you— you cared about this delusional bullshit more!— and now you want me to listen to you?"
#not sun bleached flies................#left this intentionally vague so it can be springtrap/a survival william/whatever fits best!#also didnt specify michaels ...status. decisions hard#⁂ ・゚: and through it all the rise and fall the bodies in the streets ➛ in character#slaughterlocked#⁂ ・゚: i feel more free than i have in years‚ six feet in the ground ➛ answered
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#aesthetic#grunge#photography#southern aesthetic#rural south#rural aesthetic#rural photography#southern americana#southern gothic#ethel cain#carpet bed ep#ethel caín#strangers ethel cain#mother ethel#emptycore#ethereal#preachers wife#preachers daughter#thought daughter#southern goth aesthetic#scenery#sun bleached flies#hayden anhedönia#graveyard aesthetic#dark grunge#rural gothic#goth aesthetic#goth photography#golden age#gothic
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@/hisethelcain. “wrote the album closer last night. listening 2 it all day today and crying happy tears abt it :^)” twitter, 16 mar 2020.
#ethel cain#hayden anhedönia#2020#2020/03#preacher's daughter#(i am 99.9% sure this is in reference to 'sun bleached flies' despite it not being the closer)#sun bleached flies#twitter: hisethelcain#making of: preacher's daughter
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#ethel cain#preachers daughter#americana#southern gothic#america#sun bleached flies#abandoned#rural photography#photography#rural america#alabama#twd aesthetic#golden age#ethelcore#family tree#midwest#bones and all#vintage#vintage americana#chapel#american gothic#post apocalyptic
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#girlblogger#preachers daughter#ethel cain#coquette#femcel#female manipulator#girl blogger#dollette#this is what makes us girls#lana del rey#lanadelrey#pink#sun bleached flies#girl blogging#born to die#feminine#girlblogging#girl interrupted syndrome#angelic#vs angel#it girl#pink pilates girl#pink pilates princess#coney island queen#lizzy grant#nyphette#balletcore#black swan#trailer park princess
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for sure
#ethel cain#mother cain#preachers daughter#southern gothic#sun bleached flies#appalachian gothic#southern americana#american gothic#rural gothic#hayden anhedönia#forsure
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#listening to Sun bleached flies on repeat#having difficult relationship with my art again#struggling to see beauty in it#so tired#dunno how to caption this one#illustration#digital art#oc art#sketch#digital illustration
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We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know And that's why I could never go back home
Sun Bleached Flies - Ethel Cain @mothercain
#ethel cain#sun bleached flies#preachers daughter#ethel cain sun bleached flies#collage#collage art#art journal#mine#Artists of Tumblr#first collage since august baybeee#mothercain
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Disruption
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#mine#ethel cain#hayden anhedönia#mother cain#southern gothic#western gothic#spotify#hayden silas anhedönia#white silas#miss anhedönia#mothercain#preachers daughter#sun bleached flies#nicole dollanganger#american teenager#southern gothic aesthetic
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If it’s meant to be, then it’ll be.
#mine#analog film#film photography#southern gothic#midwest gothic#preachers daughter#prairie#regional gothic#canadian gothic#farm house#farmhouse#rural gothic#rural goth#Ethel Cain#sun bleached flies#southern alberta#southern canada#southern goth aesthetic#farmcore
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#aesthetic#grunge#photography#southern aesthetic#dark grunge#rural aesthetic#rural photography#rural south#southwestern#southern goth aesthetic#southern americana#southern gothic#southern gospel#ethel cain#ethel caín#preachers daughter#church#jesus christ#jesus loves you#rural gothic#gothic#god#nature#ruralcore#rural#rural landscape#night#strangers ethel cain#emptycore#sun bleached flies
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sun bleached flies by ethel cain + gerard way as joan of arc
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when ethel cain said “i tried to be good am i no good am i no good am i no good” which started with her self-loathing after being abused by her father and neil perry said “i was good. i was really good” and then he killed himself because he knew that he would never be good enough for his father
#strangers ethel cain#ethelcain#ethel cain#hayden silas anhedönia#hayden anhedönia#preachers daughter#feelings#writing#coming of age#quotes#web weaving#american teenager#sun bleached flies#a house in nebraska#southern gothic aesthetic#southern goth aesthetic#southern gothic#dead poets society#neil perry#mommy issues#daddy issues#intergenerational trauma#mothercain#mother cain#western nights#family tree#ptolemaea#august underground#televangelism#on fathers
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yesterday I showed my momma, a 64 year old queer woman raised southern baptist with autism that only got diagnosed a year ago, sun bleached flies. she started crying and told me how she felt the music. how true it was to what she experienced being alienated by her family for being different. how the church was weaponized against her. how she reconciled with God after everything was said and done and decided to take her faith into her own hands. I think that's very special. thank you, @mothercain . your music touches the souls of everyone.
#diary#shes also a daddy's girl and rlly liked the lyrics abt 'how my daddy raised me'#decided not to tell her abt the father in the ethel cain lore LMAO#ethel cain#preachers daughter#sun bleached flies#hayden anhedönia
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