#not really but thats my irl photo tag

[queeriboh]

I heard the northern lights could be visible tonight so I drove 30 minutes out into the middle of nowhere. I couldn't see anything w my bare eye so I didn't have any expectations, but I took some pictures on nightmode and

holy shit

[shadyhouse]

dont think i ever posted the tattoo i got last month lol

[sunbedo]

Hey guys. gay rights

[sentientgopro]

If there's one thing I wanna bring with me from Reddit, It's r/legoguns.

Now that I'm getting off reddit, there's one thing I wanna bring with me and it's this subreddit and idea, it doesn't seem to really exist on Tumblr. Here's some of my designs, and some of the best of other people's, with credit. All of mine can be realistically built with full functionality (mag release, charging handle, etc.)

MK18 of mine

Okay, when i first posted i forgot a "keep reading" button lmao. Heres 1 image as an eyecatcher though. 29 more to go.

Different kinda M4 built on same reciever

PPSH41.

Onto other people's far superior stuff.

"3rd version of my AUG" by u/vipeDoesStuff

"Messed around with the idea of a Nine- Tailed Fox issued M4 rifle" By u/Foxlegofirearms

"glOwOck" by u/VipeDoesStuff. Pure perfection.

"Lego AWM!" By u/JimsLegoGuns. Also on YT under the same name, has some tutorials that are a great place to start when learning the general conventions of designing these things.

"The Stoner Family" by u/FoxsLegoFirearms

"My custom UMP-45 haven't posted the irl version" By u/_xMr__

"4 generations of Aks" By u/FoxsLegoFirearms

"Sig Sauer M18" By u/VipeDoesStuff

"Finally made my 3a1 Carbine IRL" by u/JimsLegoGuns

"Glock 17" by u/VipeDoesStuff

"Glock 19 gen 5 MOS and a custom knife. Kinda EDC- ish." By u/jacqo_B

"Family photo (yes I like John Wick)" By u/FrostTGA

"TTI Pit Viper" By u/FrostTGA

"Contractor .308 from Payday 2" By u/VipeDoesStuff

"You want to see what 4 years of researching, time, effort, learning and pain looks like? Here you go." by u/FoxsLegoFirearms

"Lego P90" by u/edups2

"Some BO2 builds from a while ago" By u/edups2

"The 7 Gun" By u/BallsHD4K60fps

"Cock 19, sadly no balls" By u/BallsHD4K60fps.

"LEGO M4 MW SKELETONIZED" By u/edups2

"Lego Call Of Duty Zombies Ray Gun" by u/NickBrick

Aand thats image limit. Damn, I got carried away with that. Ive been picking very specifically too, there's ALOT of better stuff than just this that ive missed. Just take a little look through the r/legoguns sub. Anyway, I'm hoping these are gonna get some new people interested in this sorta thing, or increase the amount they're being posted on Tumblr. Lego guns sounds ridiculous but once you see how good they can be, it starts making more sense. So, I'm gonna tag this with #Lego guns in the hopes that it catches on. Thanks for reading. Including all Migration tags too, and 196 bc why not.

[jacenotjason]

Have you done fun and not so fun fact for Julie?

I have not! Let’s do that! Sorry this took so long, it was rotting in my drafts!

Funfacts n Notso Funfacts round with Julie!

Fun Facts!

Julie still has her siblings! I’ve been meaning to redraw that group photo of them all but with their opposite versions! They’ve all sort of.. rotated? (OP. Julie is more like Franny, OP. Franny is more like Julie, OP. Bea is more like Jonsey, OP. Jonsey is more like Bea.)

She still loves her siblings, but she doesn’t like them, sort of like most actual siblings.

She performs stand up regularly and is incredibly popular, (both in show and outside of it)

She is incredibly skilled with self defense, and is really good at identifying actual helpful self defense tools, she also has a large collection of them! They’re all pink, ofc, and she gave a pink taser to Sally as a gift! (And also non-canonically gave a sparkly pink pocket knife to OG Julie!)

Her cigarettes of choice is a pun. They’re on her original introduction sheet, they’re called “Rose Butts” …get it :3

^ they’re also pink

She absolutely loves anything spicy. She is a CHEF when it comes to spices and shit >:D she gets excited whenever she discovers a sauce or spice shes never tried (“IF IT MAKES YOU COUGH WHEN YOU SMELL IT YOU KNOW ITS GOOD!”)

She is very knowledgeable when it comes to fashion, but much more aggressive then OG Julie. She will get very angry if she sees someone wearing low rise jeans

Julie does actually perform standup irl. Well.. irl in the puppet universe. So, she does it on the show, but her actor was also a comedian! She began using the Julie puppet on stage behind a table, like Randy Feltface! The actress sadly had to stop using the Julie puppet after the show was cancelled :(

Her favorite drink of choice is Cherry Wine.

Her favorite food is cherries!

She’s very open about expressing your sexuality and femininity! :D!

Despite being the youngest, she moved out first. She does not leave her siblings alone about this.

Her Venus Flytraps are her children! I talk about this more in depth in her home profile, but she loves them! Here’s some old art for it! This was made in like 30 minutes back when the profiles were still in development and i wanted to show Julie with her plants:

In the distance you can hear Sally furiously googling “how to become a Venus flytrap”

Not-So Fun Facts:

She was raised by a single mom, who passed when she was about 19. She misses her a lot :(

Her dad dipped we dont talk about him

…thats all i got

Maybe ill have more when I FINALLY DECIDE ON A BACKSTORY FOR HER

ALSO I MADE A TAG FOR THE FUNFACTS N NOTSO FUNFACTS ROUNDS!! Yaay!

[littlegreenplumbob]

People you'd like to get to know better - tag!

i got tagged in a tag by @calicosimgirl 😁😁 which is insane to me bc i consider myself just a little tumblr stalker who occasionally posts piccys of my sims. tysm💚 this is my first tag as im extremely new to actually frequently using tumblr so idk how to do these things so i really hope im right with how i do this

Last song you listened to:

safety pin by 5sos. i am obsessed with those guys<33 ive seen them live in concert once and i cant wait to do it again:)

also! blissful ignorance by foxhaunt. im seeing them at a gig in manchester next month after seeing them around on tiktok and this song? it just perfectly scratches my brain in all the right ways

Favourite colour(s):

green!!!! my irl nickname is littlegreengirl, i have green hair and the majority of my clothes are green. i just think its funky. i also wear a lot of black so i guess that too

Currently watching:

superstore! cant believe i never watched it before. and also the new disney+ percy jackson. i also love bad education, b99 and futurama. i am a chronic watch-till-youre-sick-of-it so anything ive seen before that i can just whack on and know its funny.

Last movie you watched:

percy jackson sea of monsters. ive been rereading the books and reigniting my passion, what can i say (even though i have thallasophobia weirdly)

Sweet/spicy/savoury:

savoury. bc i dont think there is anything better than gherkins 🤩🤩

Last thing you googled:

i think it was ‘average amount of teeth’ bc i was on facetime with my best friend and we fell into a rabbit hole of how many teeth people have. if youre wondering, i have 24 (and that is the least amount of teeth out of everyone ive asked???)

Currently working on:

i havent played my nsb save in a while since im back home from uni atm. i go bsck on sunday so im sure i will be back into sim mode the second i step foot on mancunian ground. ive been really interested in posting lookbooks as well, as soon as i figure out how to take ok quality photos and sort out my cc. but if youre talking physically working, im at work on my break rn and i have been slaying at making those big macs.

i fear i have exposed a lot of myself to some people who do not need to know this much about me. but i guess thats the point!!!! i think tags are very fun and if anyone wants to tag me in future ones, hell yea! lets see what other weird things i can google inbetween now and then

im not sure who else to tag as i mainly only follow cc creators haha - pls dont feel any pressure to respond or anything but id like to make friends on here:)

@mooneonthings @simfestation @fayethegray

[elaichoi]

gasp 🔴 live viewing of soulmates au unfolding irl

yes in fact i am (confirmed)

to be fair i haven't been on tumblr that long i joined somewhere btwn jan-mar of this year and so i don't think ive experienced many of your themes (blog profile wise), but i remember stalking the tags and it was easy to spot what works were yours based on the header edit, it stands out and is v eyecatching among other stuffs in the tags ^_^

mhm i think your style is very deviantart fs hehe,,, NAUR FR they r the ogs i used to want to be them so bad. for reference i started getting into kpop around 2/2.5 gen,, i was an admin on a facebook snsd fanpage and posted like png shadow/swirl edits 😭😭😭 simple times

hell i'd love to! i don't think i'm mentally there i fr lack the creative capacity, its in very rare circumstances do i see something that i kind of envision and edit in my head and ill usually screenshot it to keep the idea there but i even more rarely ever jump into starting the edit.

yes it is! i still have and use it, it was the 'it' app for photo editors back then me thinks, kind of like the ae of photo editing... at least from my viewpoint on the ig fanpage editing scene. it was the hotter sister to picsart lmaoo

see soulmates au!! we couldve crossed paths but we didn't!! until now!! 😾

omg wait stop it cus i used to love reading imagines n shit on ig but im pretty sure i stopped because i felt like it wasn't a popular content type esp since its a photography platform. i browsed the tags for imagines n stuff but it was meh,, i only followed ONE imagines account 🥲

wait so to clarify, u also edited on ig alongside writing?? imagine if we crossed paths on the algorithm dats crazy 😭 you're the cool one i wish i could be skilled in both literature and art ?? i simply do not have enough brain cells for that ^_^

canva on phone is my enemy‼️ at least the last time i used the mobile app,, bc i now use it only on desktop, sometimes on ipad... cus u alr cannot see the layers i cannot be doing anything complex bc i will def tap on the wrong layer and thats annoying -_- the patience u have ㅠㅠ well assuming the app is still like that idk maybe it changed

HAHAH i used to draw before like pencil paper shit so i thought i could do it digitally....and after years of not drawing on pencil paper too 💀💀

u are so much more articulate than me goodbye thats embarrassing 4 me T_T

soulmate does exist <3 look at us being prime example!!

actually i think ive active with my account within the time frame as well, probably feb-march i think, but before that i didn't care about the account that much but like slowly started make headers im a tryhard ( only after i stopped obsessing tumblr themes bc i couldn't figure it out) ARE you fr?? like u could tell my works in the tags of my header?! dude that's so,,, that's like such a huge compliment that I've got something that makes someone go ah yes it's that same. author like it feels so fulfilling, YOURE REALLY BUTTERING ME UP ILYSM!!! thousand consentual kisses!!!!

YOURE SO COOL WTH YOU'VE BEEN HERE SINCE 2/2.5 GEN PLS THATS SO awesome ive been into kpop since mid 2017 so most of my groups like og ones were third gen but I listened to 2nd gens too and SNSD my beloved!!! genie was my introduction of kpop tbh and replay by shinee is what made me stay so i can say im a child of 2nd gens too lmao but holy shit I want YOUR PLAYLIST!!!!!!!! GIVE ME SONG RECS!

tbh i get you i only edit for my headers or blog too tbh like usually if there is no purpose you don't really feel like editing bc it's like what are you even gonna do with it? and you've said that you've always posted them so maybe the fact you don't have anywhere to showcase your art has you feeling like that too?

"hotter sister of picsart" this is so real bc all the hot editorson Instagram ( the western artists collage style specially) all used superimpose and thr fact they used to pay for it too.

bro like imagine if we did cross paths i think i was more active on ig during 2019-2021? imagine if we had ever crossed paths since we both worked on kpop lmao, okay but if you like posted your work under #kpopgfx im pretty sure i have came across at least once!

did kpop have imagine accounts? i knew a lot of dating door accounts tho lmao but then again i was stuck in wattpad, and that's all the delulu you need lmao.

lmao yeah i always wrote with my works, most of my edits were based on stuff i wrote basically like love stories based on songs, certain ideas (was BIG on mythologies and all the other things.) but really fr tho i wonder if I actually ever saw your work tho because i never had the guts to interact with other editors.

lmao im the same with canva but on laptop i for the life of me cant do that plus i just use it get pngs and other stuff also when i want to do masking lmao. i usually collect shit on there and then manipulate those on my own app.

bro that is insane that you used to actually drawing like as someone who can't draw a single straight line this is so cool to me i really wish i could draw tbh

articulate and me? lmao im literally all over the place but it's so sooo fun to talk to you!!

[voyeuristicvixen]

Capt’s Log No. 41_ FrEeEeEEe

Meroe’s Juneteenth Jam was a great success! Lots of people came out and enjoyed the festivities and all the performances were so inspiring! One day we had 100+ people touching down on the sim and at the end of the event, Strawberry Linden herself came through, it was a highlight of my whole SL experience not gunna lie. Strawberry is a humble and gracious person and Secondlife featured our event on their socials the next day. It was all just really fun and it also happened to be my first time helping to plan and execute an event for the museum in my pops Ras’s absence. It felt really good to know I made him proud. .

H.E.R performed! I absolutely love the messaging in her songs, it was the perfect way to open up the festival and to solidify the vibes of Meroe moving forward. Juneteenth is not a holiday that my pops, or I, celebrate like that... for us, the movement is a constant endeavor. We dont stop with juneteenth in the unifying of our people and diaspora, or in the upliftment and teachings. Its something that has to continue until we are truly free in mind and spirit. We are almost there! But there is still a ways to go.

Father’s day was a difficult day for Yemi and I, her dad has not been able to get online and I honestly didn’t feel or think he would care anymore about us or her. We talked today though and are friends so when he gets back on the grid, he will spend time with her. He said she will always be his daughter. That made me feel good, I told him that now Yemi feels more like mine than before because we get to spend more one on one time together. Lol But shes still a daddy’s girl at heart.

We still in our pink lady era though, I feel like since I lost my old IG page and went through the break up with Wav, people who were following our work and union have since been on different vibes with me. LMAO. I resonate with the pink ladies because they have rumors spread about them and reputations that are controversial or tarnished in some way by the general public and yet they give no fucks and they continue to do what they do regardless. Thats how I feel. People will talk and say whatever they want, FUCKEM.

We got a new dog, Orion! It took me forever to settle on a pupper that fit me and finally found this guy. My first choice was so opposite him, was a doberman! But I love Orion’s personality! It shines through more than any of the other pets I saw in the RezzRoom!

I usually write my little caption paragraphs under the photos and I realize these have all been above. I wonder which flows better. So I got accepted as a Secondlife Mentor! \o/ I literally signed up as soon as I saw the flyer I wasted NO TIME. Its something I was already doing on my free time anyway, so to be official with the tag and training it means so much to me, manifested that shit!

Last week I also got to witness my first probate, I have never been to one before and I know so little about SL greek life. It is a whole other world to me. I like how they raise money for RL causes. I think that is really dope and powerful thing that a virtual roleplay organization can still create real life change through their endeavors. It was such a honor to be asked by Gigi to witness that momentus occasion in her SL journey.

I legitly cried IRL. Anything that has to do with sisterhood, it hits home for me and triggers me deeply. I wish that someday I can be apart of that but I wont hold my breath! lol

I think its really cool that I am suddenly apart of a SL family, we’re so chill laid back and unofficial with how we do things. We dont all have to share the same last name we just uplift and support one another. I got my pops and my brother and my mama bear, DONT MESS WITH US!

The closing ceremony of juneteenth featured this great “Enter the diaspora” exhibit which is still up and you should go see it this week! This was curated by Valentine and she did an amazing job on it! I ended up DJing the party, and it gave me a chance to get in some much needed practice. I look forward to collabing with Jamrock and building up the mystory connections to its best!

The theme was comics, black and queer. I dressed as Nubia! Did you know that Nubia is a lesbian? I did not know that till I came to this exhibit. Theres so many hidden gems here!

Storm block the wind so I can light my joint! XD

[serenagaywaterford]

these two 😍

[arpiniko]

So art review huh? ofc i'm later that most other artists. i always am.

what a year huh?

i know it is supposed to be only about art in here. but i really feel like sharing the overall run of that year. for myself. and since my ankle is swollen and in a bit of pain from unknown spider bite and i cant sleep its a good time to write it right? i'll tag it as a long post i guess so you can skip it. and maybe figure out how to put this all unter a cut on pc later.

january 2k21. what a year. or more. it felt like it lasted for actual 3years or 5min. i remember only deep darkness. oh i spiralled down as if i were pole dancing slide then. moment ago, i was with my fren buying some xmass presents for her fam and some of her frens. oh i was jealous of that. her having them in some kind of unwritten deal of getting each other presents. i wanted to be that. i wanted to matter to others. and just few days later. jan. and i felt so bad i told her i might be taking a break from social interactions. spoiler alert. itwas the dummiest thing i did all year. or actually the outright bad, terrible step. that made me miserable. i barely started that tarot art series, i had huge hopes with that. but. i mentally was so low. the lowest ever. just finished my phd. my bro wed. my other bro created a one man photo studio or sth. and i was the most miserable i ever was. even worse than after or before any operation i had.

january was... a void. so was feb, and march and april. but with those i will write more below. but... it was terrible for me. i got out of bed bc i had no other idea living with parents and having them 24/7 around. thats good in retrospect. but i can tell weekly i ate maybe total of 4 dishes. not full. just dishes. the only thing that got me going was my hammy. Płomyczek. little flame if you may, my little sunshine. you remember that post about a guy who had depression and got shrimps and they elevated him from the darkness? it was similar but not as strong. it just kept me.... nose above the water level.

also. january was just after my granny had a head stroke. she spent few weeks at hospital recovering. and you would expect her to come back very disabled. many have that after one. but she came back so similar. tired. recovering. relearning how to write, and loosing words. but... she could walk. read. count remember talk and do basicly anything she could before. so thats a great news! she still needed a lot of help. shes being after hesd stroke. grandpa still recovering after his half foot amputation. that was not ..... ideal. and i had to be the one, in my very drowning condition, that took care of them. me. who barely ate a 2day meals over the week. i had to have strenght to help granny with groceries, carry and help grandpa with putting on clothes, any house chores. i was living for them. not for me. i barely lived for hammy. and now i had to find any strenght to go daily and commute 1h each time to grandparents. do art. bc that was the only thing i did for myself then.

february was very similar. i drew some more tarot (thanks gods i at least could do any art at all), took care of plomyczek and grandpas and i got back on discord on one group. just one. it was the art one with few of my irl freinds. they didnt do much like... they couldnt. i would not allow to drag others with me. oh right. i forgot to mention why the isolation from my fren in the first place. she was going through her very hard and exhausting studies. some other shit oappened o her. and she was already succumbing to darkness. and my foolish ass though that with breaking any convos with her would ease the pain she had. that i wouldnt flood with my problems and i was dgragging her down. maybe i was. maybe i wasnt i dont know that. anyway. the dc. that was another spark that kept me up. just. social interactions. seeing other ppl arts. hearing their ups and downs and just.... people. around. even virtually. that was. what actually i think lifted me up. i wasnt just nose over water level. it was one eye. sometimes two. or maybe mouth. but still never good. but it was a little step forward.

so far forward that:

march.

i wrote a letter. with pen in paper. you know the one you see in movies or sth. to my fren. the one i ghosted. bc i felt a bit better. and i saw in her update on ig as i randomly after a long time of inactivity i saw she was very much struggling with her uni and life. and i wasnt there. but i wasnt yet ready. or rather i already went so deep i didnt know how to speak again. so i wrote a letter to her. i know i tend to over you i's and me's and all when i talk. so i prioritised in there to onlt speak of her. to encourage, to give her a bit of reassuring. i am so bad with words. it must have been terrible letter. on one hand i hope she burned it bc it was awful. but on the other. i hope it means to her. bc she means a lot to me!

i gave her the letter with a bit of hmmmmmm snacks? i dont know... few snacks, a bit of cookies i baked with very little strength that i used to bake them rather than eat for a day i believe. but. i said i gave her it? well plan was to just go to her home and just..... hang it on the fence. i wasnt ready to face her. i really wasnt. but.... something made me not hang it. i... texed her. asking is she was at home. oh gods i trembled so hard there. it was hella cold but my body was so boiling from cold sweat. i was pretty sure i was gonna collapse or run away or dunno. but she was there. she went out. saw me. and invited over. oh i was pathethic. i still am. even now reminiscing about that brings up tears. but. if i had therapist they would say it was the greatest step i could do atthat state. anyway. we had a bit of talk. i was crying all the way. but i hoped we can just ignore it and take it as a game bug xD i believe. i want to believe i helped her. somehow. just her knowing, maybe? that i care. i miss her. i do regret. but ok. she sorted out the school stuff not soon after. so i like to tell myself at least i .... didnt nailed her coffin.

there was other thing that happened in march. barely it started. i... had to bid farewell to plomyczek. some things happened. maybe my neglectence or some other reason. but he caught some nasty bacteria. and basicly blocked his nose. and hamster cant breath with mouth as humans. i run like crazy. on even less sleep and food than before. i went to 3 diff vets. gave him a lot of meds. but i was too late, he was too tired. and the source of it wasnt knows. who knows? maybe that was covid? but i decided to put him to sleep. ahd here comes more tears. oh boy. he was my sunshine. my little flame of hope. when i chaned his water i got some for myself. i gave him a apple and got some for myself.he greeted me in the evening and was by me all the worst hours of the day back then. and he left. i just hoped he never had to suffer. honestly. i only remember that rush time as a blur. i only wanted him to be safe and happy. only that matters. ..... that was very hard emotionally month for me.

april. it took me about month. to recover from grief. maybe long maybe short. i still miss plomyczek very much. i started talking with ren a bit. very, very little. but thats better than nothing. slowly i guess. but this month wasnt easy on me either. some may say its nothing. but for me it was... very difficult. i mean i got new hamster. maybe too fast. maybe not. wegielek. little coal. (i guess you can tell i have a certain system for names heh) and i believe he was a bit traumatised in a pet shop. dunno how exactly but his socialization and taming was very difficult. nonetheless i loved him immediately. he has a little temperament. and i love wim with his little trauma. i try to ease it as i can. and it works most of the time. but he still has some ticks. but i love him. so thats a happy thing to happen.

the unhappy thing is... april i know as my birthday. well mine and my bro. since hes also from april (later few days but older 3 years). i know corona and stuff was still happening barely first vaccs were given to eldest. but he still invited some frends over. then went to bar to have a drink. and... me. i.... i ofc got some wishes from fam. since they are there 24/7 right. but.... i got only one more wish from friend. and not the one that i was close with anymore. and thats it. we had a thing on that dc server where we wrote our bday dates. and we would cheer and all for each other... and somehow.... none noticed. i also spent the whole day. waiting for the one little text. from that fren. but none came in. not that day. not tomorrow. not week later. she forgot. everyone did.

but you know. one person. one anonymous on here. one person wrote me a little bday wishes as ask. and i havent replied to that yet. why? bc that alone kept me up for months now. its sincere. and i hope whoever sent it had a wonderful year and has a amazing this and next and next and next and how long they want. thank you.

and april finished. i was devastated about that birthday. i was so sad. i actually spent the next day never getting up. first time in a year. even my family felt i couldnt get up. but it passed.

i dont really remember much about may. meaning nothing too bad happended then. oh wait no. i do remember one thing. just after the end of april i twisted my ankle. and had to get some first aid or whatever its called. and i realized my insurance might be gone by now. i have never worked. i only went to school and that ended in 2020. and i actually might have to pay few hundreads for my health. (shaddup americans. this is new concept to me. let me be scared as well) turned out my uni's insurance was valid till end of may. i was safe for now. but what then? covid was raging. work was either impossible to get or i had no mental capacity to even apply let alone attend anything. so maybe another studies? course? anything. and i applied for a free school for a disabled and elderly caretaker assistant. me. a pshysicly disabled bitch with crippling depression were to learn how to take care of others. ye i know, jokes.

but i had to take whatever. and classes were online anyway and never in peson and never even knew my teacher bc all was sent in pdf's etc. but i.... learned. a bit. ye. finally after years understood how to read and understood pressure. thanks school. so that. attending these classes made my legal status again as a student. meaning my fam can connect me to their insurance and it doesnt cost like 100+zl per month but barely 6zl a month. big diff right. and i kept that status through holidays.

ah yes. holidays.

june july and august. there weren't much stuff happening again. usual. nothingness during covid times, i stayed home that time. i even had i think 2 weeks free house. home alone if you will. i havent rested in so long like back then. i felt so much better. i hadnt my family constantly on my back since they went to mountainside. i hoped i could invite some friends over but non could. i tho got invited to my friend for oh ever so divine pierogi! or rather dumplings. bc they were gyosa dumplings. but holy fuk! she made them herself and as always they were just so delicious, and she made herself the sauce and oh gods i'm hungry now. (that friend is one of admins on that dc server i mentioned) i wish i could cook something for her in return but its never goingvto be so oh sooooooo amazing and her dumplings.

this post is already hella long. but also there wasnt much great or terrible happenings. i cant pinpoint most of the events to the certain date or sth. but there was few good things - usual meeting with local art friends from around were resumed! unfortuantely on black saturday (you know us have black friday and poland has black week) so the crowds around were AWFUL. and the meet was smaller than usual also bc covid. but it was still so amazing to meet these few ppl i havent met ever since covid started.

on the other hand. my psychiatrist lets say... broke up with my case. like she straight forward told me she sees she doesnt help me anymore and i shall find a new one. which is fine i guess. i understand where she comes from. but it also felt a bit like a betrayal. but. what is importan she gave me prescription for my meds for half a year. thats good. plenty of time to fine new one. but also. somehow. i dont recall exactly when. but i.... gradually stopped taking meds since that event. and i know what some may say - its very dangerous, and i will spiral down or sth. but. BUT. i took into consideration all that. i have them on hand all the time. if i ever feel like my chin is touching the water. i have them. i can get them. but the thing is. i may not be happy yet. i may be so oh so broken still. but. its much much better than i was before.

this january. vs the one last year. i cant even comprehend anymore how i could led to that drowning. and after i stoped taking meds. and mind you its now about 4-5th month since then, i have much better controll over myself, my moods, my thoughts. my mind and body. i still will burst into tears when thinking of plomyczek, i still am zoning out and dissociating, bit also i get myself together slowly. i make some small changes to my life. very small. but before, they were impossible, i am starting again on building my portfolio to get to art school. hopefully i'll make it till june, and i finnally hoping to get myself to some therapy and doc that will tell me if i have adhd bc that shit sounds too familiar to not be a case in my too many problems xD

things arent bright yet. but they are not overwhelmingly dark and drowning as they were. in this deep black waters i think i finally found place where i can keep my head above water and feel my feet on some ground. i do hope i can get up and get better soon!

so, to everyone that ever helped me, with word, with thought, with commission, with smile or pierogi, with a hug or a funky meme, i see you and i love you a little bit. Thank you! it really means a lot to me!

[bibillyhillsbaby]

♧ hey hot stuff 😛😛 ily bye

oh look who decided to stop bye, it just so happens to be the love of my life 🙄

You’re my: other irl bestie that is not jill, the other love of my life - my sun moon my stars, my past and hopefully future roommate, my future wife, uhhhh my everything, my soulmate if you will?

How I met you: i can never remember when we actually met for the first time but i do remember that one of the first things i ever told you was that my tiddies are different sizes (like, very different) and you took that in stride although i think it did haunt and vex you for a time lol 😘 i remember that i wanted to be friends with you because you seemed like the nicest kindest sweetest person in the whole world (which turned out to all be a ruse.... jk jk)

Why I follow you: because you're the love of my life??? also because i love your main blog aesthetic and posts about art and food - your bts blog because your tags make me LAUGH OUT LOUD on the regular and i can ALWAYS tell it's you before i scroll up to see who it was that reblogged (you are an english major after all, you have a way with words) also just, you are special and you make people feel special - you are the best listener in real life so i can only imagine that you extend that toward all of our friends here ❤️ i know that i cherish you and i know that everyone else in our lil fandom does too because how couldn't they when you're so kind??

Your blog is: i'll do @hazeltae because LOOK AT HOW CUTE HOBI IS!!!!! a soothing green that reminds me of walks in the woods and hikes with you (which, we didnt do enough of them when we had the chance, here's to hiking when we see each other again) - also just you tagging people in things makes me 🥺 you're just so damn thoughtful and kind and i love you

Your URL is: @shelikesperfume is iconic because brandi carlile wlw reasons obvi, and @hazeltae is just perfect like idk how to explain it but it just fits you?? it soothes me when i see and even though you rarely show up on my dash for some reason??? any time you randomly appear it's like coming home - i see hazeltae and im like OH!! thats my baby right there!!!!! (ik you don't like baby but i do sorry bout it, you're my baby)

Your icon is: bucket hat tae!!! sweet and comforting just like you, although your hobi icon on shelikesperfume is truly my favorite photo in the entire world

A random fact I know about you: oooh what can i expose about you in public??? im honestly trying to think about anything embarrassing i can say but to quote you, "i think you're perfect" so i can't think of anything..... instead i will say that when we lived together and shared a bathroom we had photos of us next to a graffiti of the pope in rome next to the toilet because we are strange 😚

General opinion: perfect person who i love so much. i fr fr dont know where or who i would be without you i love you so much - very glad i got you into bts (yes this is my not so subtle way of announcing that i am the one who got you into bts but like who is gonna read this besides you hahaha so it's just for you) - i love screaming about them together, sending each other pics of them when we are sad, and overall having something to get us through this time - to quote bts, "you got me, i got you" always and forever babe 💕

A random thought I have: if you read this right before you leave for work mayhaps i will have made you cry very early in the morning so sorry about that OH but just had another thought WHAT does your queue tag mean??? everytime i see it im like WHAT DOES IT MEAN!!!! am i stupid?? is it really obvious?? please answer my desperate questions okay bye now ily

moots send me a ♧ so i can shower you in love!

[i-am-dulaman]

7 Questions, 17 People

Tagged by: @evening-rose-309 I love these so much thank you

Nickname: IRL i dont really have one but online i usually go by Dulaman

Zodiac: idk dec 26th you figure it out

Height: 6ft4″ :( im too tall. help i have back problem and look weird in photos with other people

Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff obviously

Last Thing I Googled: “Specific heat capacity of porridge”

Song Stuck In My Head: March March by the Chicks

Number of Followers: 1181

Amount of Sleep: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Lucky Number: red 14 is what i play on roulettes and its let me down every single time 

Dream Job: tax evasion investigator or florist. 

Wearing: shorts n a tank top 

Favorite Song: idk dude my brain doesnt work in ‘favorites’ i just jump from one obsession to the next on a daily/weekly basis

Favorite Instrument: ignoring what i just said ^ favorite instrument is easily violin

Aesthetic: beach summer vibes (even tho arguably i like winter more)

Favorite Author: what up im jared im 19

Favorite Animal Noise: the little mrrp cats make

Random: idk dont put me under pressure to be creative thats not cool you cant force randomness 

Tagging: @nxvixtion @missybellyott @eunique @sleepyleshen @iamjamhot @sun-bleached-bones @kuro-tsuki-san @wanderingwistfulness @violetchachkii @hemingsways

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Saving Grace - Part 13

Note: Poorly written smut happens in this part! I apologise now!! 😂 But we all knew this was happening in this part. Hope you all enjoy this update i know its been a while.... please be kind! I love you and thanks for reading 💕

Somewhere on the way to the bedroom I had pulled off Bucky's t-shirt in between heated kisses. I pulled back for air and saw he had somehow stumbled his way into the kitchen.

"Buck....wrong room!" I laughed, he looked around and chuckled before righting his course to the bedroom. He held me against the bedroom door trailing kisses down my neck before falling back onto the bed with me straddling his waist making us both laugh. I run my fingers over his stubbled jaw as i looked into those beautiful blue eyes of his....i still couldn't believe he was mine.

"You okay?" He asked tucking some loose hair behind my ear so he could see me clearly.

"Im good, just admiring the view" i smirked wiggling my eyebrows at him.

"Makes two of us doll" he smiled before flipping us over so i was laying on the bed "lets get rid of these shall we?" He asked reaching for the waist band of my sleep shorts, i bit my lip nervously and nodded quickly before i thought too much about it and ruined the moment!

I felt my panties being removed with the shorts and took a calming breath.

"You okay?" He checked again.

"Mmhmmm"

"If you want me to stop i will...."

"Dont you dare!" I snapped playfully sitting up on my elbows to look at him as he stood up from the bed and dropped his sweatpants to the floor. Once he was free of them he crawled back up the bed towards me, one of his knees nudging my legs apart to make room for him between my legs, i felt him running his cock through my wet folds and he let out a sexy as fuck moan.

"Im not gonna last long doll, not this first time anyway..... i feel like i could cum already just thinking about how your gonna feel around me..."

"I dont care i just need you, we've waited so long for this Buck"

"Okay baby"

"Just go slow okay.... its been a while and after having Grace....plus wow! your packing Barnes!" I said making him laugh before he kissed me as he lined himself up with my entrance.

"I got you baby dont worry".

I moaned in delight as i felt him pushing inside, he buried himself to the hilt and held still for a few moments letting me adjust to him.... he started slowly thrusting his hips and i swear i can i already see stars!

"Ah fuck......" he moans "your squeezing me so good baby"

"Ahhh fuck Bucky!!" I said loudly as i felt him hit that special spot.

God i forgot i how good sex felt.... and sex with Bucky.....wow!! His grip on my hips is tight and im sure i'll wake up with bruises but i dont care! 

His metal hand trailed up from my hip and cupped my right breast, his thumb rubbing over my nipple gently...he leans in and kisses me, my hands slide over his shoulders to the back of his neck so i can hold him in place as i return his kiss. Bucky's hips start to thrust quicker as he nears his end but i can tell his still trying to go easy on me.... his right hand suddenly moves down to my clit and before i know it we're both falling.... that coil snaps and i bury my face in his neck as my walls clench around him, i let out a loud moan when i feel him bite down on my shoulder as his warmth fills me.

"Jesus christ....." he muttered resting his head against my shoulder trying to catch his breath.

"You've ruined me for all other men Buck" i chuckled scratching the hair at the back of his neck.

"Good! That was my plan all along doll" he laughed lifting his head to look at me "for the record... their won't be any other men. Your stuck with me I'm afraid"

"Your the only man i want anyway, i love you Buck" i told him as i closed the distance and kissed him.

Bucky and i couldn't get enough of each other, we spent the rest of the night and most of the following day in bed making up for all these months we waited. But it got to the point where i had to have a rest, we dont all have super soldier stamina! A fact i had pointed out to Bucky!

After a hot bath together Bucky told me he was cooking us dinner, a date if you like, he wanted to treat me right and do the proper thing....little things like this just made me love him more.

While he cooked dinner i was in the bedroom going through my clothes for something 'date worthy' and talking to Wanda checking in on my babies. As much as i was loving my time alone with Bucky i was really missing the kids.

Wanda had just finished telling me about their day and how well they had been behaving. Grace had been with her all day but Harrison had been out with Steve and Sam, they had taken him to the park and had dinner and ice cream, he'd been so tired when he got back he just crashed out for the night.

"Thats great Wan, that makes me feel so much better"

"I'll send you some photo's their very cute"

"Okay" i laughed as i carried on pulling clothes out my bag, nothing was date worthy all i had was comfy clothes!

"So how's it going with you and Bucky?" She asked in a teasing tone.

"Shit Wan..... im not gonna lie its been amazing!... HE is amazing" i gushed falling back on the bed and covering my eyes with my arm.

"Really??! details!"

"Yes really and No! No details" i laughed at her "all i will say is wow!"

"So his packing huh?"

I burst out laughing especially as i had said the same thing myself!

"You could say that" i nodded even though she couldn't see and she screeched excitingly down the phone.

"Worth the wait i take it"

"Definitely!" I sat up to start looking for an outfit again and came face to face with a grinning Bucky.

"Hey Buck...."

"Hey beautiful"

"Oh my god..... did Bucky just hear all that?" Wanda asked and Bucky just smirked, oh he heard!!

"I think thats a yes" i told her making her laugh like it was the funniest thing in the world.

"Hey Wanda" Bucky called out still looking amused while i sat here feeling myself blush like crazy!!

"She says hi back"

"I just came to tell you dinner will be ready in 10 doll" he said before disappearing back into the kitchen.

"And his cooking you dinner?? Y/N marry that man!!"

"Dont tempt me!" I chuckled "right i gotta go, gotta find something to wear for my date"

"Call me tomorrow with DETAILS!!"

"I'll call you but no details Miss Maximoff! Im keeping them to myself! Kiss my babies for me, i love you all"

"I will and we love you too".

Saving grace tags: @jennmurawski13 @kenzieam

@captainchrisstan @s-t-r-i-k-e-us

@lets--be-honest @ms-betsy-fangirl

@damnaged-princess @farfromtommy

@disneylovingal @lbuck121 @billweasleey

@rynabarnesrogers @heathens-takeitsl0w

@lacontroller1991 @supervengerslock

@barnesandrogersworld @mariswritingforfun

@perpetually-tuned-out @thummbelina

@marvelousstyles @broco8 @ineffableg-irl

@ilovesupersoldiers @writeroutoftime

@ek823 @Imjstaghoststory @patzammit

@cap-just-said-language

[taltos-seidmadr]

I'm just here to say, I love your tag "Loki is that you?" Because it makes me consider if the subject is Essentially Loki IRL or if this was just Image With Loki Vibes, and for Brian Molko? May actually be Loki, it seems to check out...

Thank you. Thats exactly my process of thinking usually. Either/or, sometimes both. You are absolutely on the money with this.

I have a personal story about how Brian Molko ended up here. This all happened years, almost decades before the whole Loki thing burst into my life. I actually vividly remember when I got into Placebo, it was at that time when Sleeping with Ghosts(?) came out and was doing hella rounds on the charts. I wouldn’t say I was a fan but I developed this weird fascination with their music. There was a melancholia to it that felt weirdly haunting to me at the time in spite of being overall rather mellow and radio friendly. And I was just obsessed with Molko’s voice for some weird reason. I found it kind of funny that a band named Placebo has a singer who sounds like his voice could cure illnesses. It was also a pretty dark time for me, and I just happened to find a lot of comfort in that voice somehow, almost in the acoustic sense. I never looked up the band, I didn’t even know Molko’s name, but I was listening to that album, or at least some songs from it, almost nonstop, for a few months. It really got me through that time. Maybe that is why after these few months passed, I could literally never listen to another Placebo song for like... a decade, I kid you not. I just wasn’t able to, I’d hear the voice and it was just like a volcano of emotions all of a sudden. I couldn’t handle it.

So, again many years passed, and - this was literally just a few weeks ago - it just happened that I wanted to have a photo of Brian Molko for a joke or something so, for the first time ever in my life, I googled him. And I was not unaware of what he looked like, I still remember the music videos from 10+ years ago, but what I was not prepared for, was this:

And just for context, compare that to, say, these

And i was like. AH. OH. OKAY. I SEE YOU. I SEE YOU VERY CLEARLY, MY DUDE.

It’s just one of those coincidences that really make you think, isn’t it?

[sunflowerhae]

Wow! It’s the second part!

Maknae line *air horns*

Read part 1 here! ✨

Ggtrj / Gwennie • @kunswifegwen

I’m actually so thankful Z added u to the gc bc I seriously think you made us complete. I just adopted u (without abi knowing) and I feel like it’s a GOOD fit bc u remind me a lot of well,,me (in a good way) and not just bc we have the SAME NAME. This is ur first peach anniversary, and I hope it’s not ur last bc I love u being in the gc, and ur public fights w Z are amazing to witness anyway I wanna get closer to you in the future and love u Etc etc ok byeeeee!!

Things that remind me of you •_•

•”whore”

•3/4 of the couple line

•1/3 of the chain smokers line (🌿)

•my child

•model trains

•fighting

•hot Cheetos

•vans

•locals

•lionel Ritchie

•the color blue

•frogs

•toes

My favorite memory of you •.•

•it wasn’t long ago, but when u accidentally Ft the gc and I was the only one who answered. We only talked for like 2:30 but I had fun 😌and it was like our first time talking irl it was cute haha

Ur fav memory of me •.•

✧･ﾟ:* ♡ *:･ﾟ✧

Cissy • @bbjisungg

Cisssssyyy!!! I wish u talked more😔but Ik that even tho u aren’t that active, ur still close and I’ll always consider u a close friend and I WILL ALWAYS TAG U IN TAG GAMES UNTIL I DIEEEEEE

Things that remind me of you •.•

•sneaking

•Jisung

•💕💞

•ferns 🌿

•”bet”

•toes

My fav memory of you•.•

•obvi when we sluthed together but also when u first joined the gc bc of the energy and the vibe we all had together I thought it was great 🥺

✧･ﾟ:* ♡ *:･ﾟ✧

Zainoo / z • @huangvibez

Z Ily so much omg I think ur so funny and cute and watching u fight Gwen is iconic. I think this past month we didn’t really get much closer, BUT THATS Ok! Ur still someone who I really love and I’m glad we’re pretty close all n all. Keep doing u sweet child😌 and treat my new kid RIGHT (I don’t really get ur relationship but good for u)

Things that remind me of u •_•

•we bare bears

•frogs

•Gwen (I’m not kidding)

•the letter Z

•green

•”I-“

•4/4 of the couple squad

•🍑🧀🧦👁👄👁 these emojis in that order

•lactose intolerance

•cheaters

•toes

My favorite memory of u •.•

•when we were the last two on the first ft call (on discord) and we talked abt that cute brand but we couldn’t remember the name, like I can’t remember the name now

Your fav memory of me•

•I ran out of pictures but I’ll type it out

“Hmmm that one call where you were making that power point”

“When you tried convincing your parents to let your best friend to live with you”

✧･ﾟ:* ♡ *:･ﾟ✧

Elie • @bbyyangiex2

elie ur the bb of the gc but ur not a bb, ur like the toughest person Ik. The amount of times the gc turns into a cult for u should be worrying (our current name is elievators) but I’m not worried at all. U are disgusted by the couples and I respect that,,, but also am anxiously awaiting the day u get a gf and realize how great marriage is😌 I love hating on men w you, and comparing u secretly to the gum wayv picks up on their shoes (not that I think ur the gum, just that u stick to them like it 😌)

Things that remind me of u•

•wayv

•50s dance shoes

•getting bit by a dog

•nctnetwrite

•the Addams family

•edits

•lesbianism

•FINGERS (mmuuhahahaha)

My favorite memory of you•.•

•it’s actually when u wanted to be an admin for nctnetwrite and you helped make all the photos and such,, I really feel like we got closer doing all of that idk if that makes sense

💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

I love all of you, happy anniversary 😌💞💕

For the three month we’re having a video call idc what you have to say

[matchamabs]

apparently theres some kinda ask meme going around and i got called the f u c k out by @pyrrhic-procastinator so lets see if i can do this right ok

1. List 3 things that make you happy.

im actually findin it hard to think of things christ. ok ok uhhh

1. buying old comics for my collection makes me pretty happy

2. crepuscular activities

3. drunk scrambled eggs

2. Which fictional character is most like you?

ok thats really hard bc there are lots of characters with lots of little snippets of me in them so its hard to find one that covers all bases but im gonna go with two that i think are the Most Notable.

- Asakusa Midori from Eizouken cuz we’re both raging autists with a trademark hat who acts like hot shit and then gets scared over absolutely nothin

- Jin Bubaigawara from BNHA n this one is like a special one to me ok cuz ive never seen a character (or anyone irl come to think abt it) who actually possesses one very specific quirk of mine n hes such a good depiction of what my daily life is like so i vibe immensely w him

3. What’s the thing you miss most since being in quarantine?

shaggin

4. Favourite snack?

i have phases of snacks tbh but i remember theres this one kind of christmas biscuit that they probably sold at lidls or smth and i havent eaten one in fucking y e a r s but i can still remember the taste and i could probably eat them forever

5. Describe your dream job.

Freelance animator for games and to work on my own series

6. Do you prefer being around people or enjoying your own company?

idk both but im normally more in need of alone time than together time so probably bein by myself right

7. What’s been the best day of your life so far?

last month i came 1st in tetris 99

8. Let’s get philosophical: what do you think happens when we die?

hole in the ground, black for eternity, family get drunk in a field for you, job done

9. If your house was on fire, what would be the one thing you would save? (The people and animals you live with are already safe)

i have this old double sided clock thing that belonged to my great grandma. its got a photo of her in it holding me as a baby. i dont think i could forgive myself if i let that get crispy

10. What’s the best way to win your heart?

cook with me, go thrifting with me, read comics with me and we’re probably already going out ngl

aw fuck i gotta tag ten ppl? i dont even know ten ppl. alright uhh lessee lets do @wrexingdrew my man aaaand @fucksplosion too ur sound as well lad @phantost how could i forget u but idk if this is still ur tumblr lmao. @frosty-tian idk if anyone else wants to take this on go right ahead but u better tag me ok

now for some questions hmm

1. whats ur favourite meme?

2. when u get takeaway, whats ur go to place to order from?

3. if u had to marry one of the wiggles, which one?

4. whats ur favourite type of weather?

5. what font do u hate the most?

6. if u were a dragon and had a hoard whats the hoard gonna be made of?

7. favourite studio laika film?

8. what decade aesthetic from the past century is ur favourite? (like roarin 20s or swingin 60s n stuff)

9. what shade of brown is your favourite?

10. would u like a jar of bees?

:))))) ur all mfin welcome lads. now apparently u gotta tag 10 ppl and write ur own 10 questions if u want but if ur lazy thats peng too