#not out of action brain i guess

[emloafs]

me leaving my bubble and seeing everyone hate on demetri for taking the last sekai taikai spot

[sonic-adventure-3]

unmmmmm outfit concept or something

[thebibliomancer]

[acircusfullofdemons]

Having a paracosm for 7ish years has spoiled me. Trying to not only start but keep a new paracosm going is just. insanely difficult. who are you people what is going on why am I here. all boring answers till everything gets some real development i hate it so much.

[skybristle]

you think that an iterator could develop cancer like. The Normal Way [by it just being an off the cuff mutation] . Like. I imagine Generally speaking that they have inspectors / other organisms to clear out potentially harmful organisms so generally doesn't happen but like if an iterator completely stagnates for a long period of time .... hmmm....

[blujayonthewing]

reading this book on urban exploration and also stumbling onto a youtuber who is doing (and explaining!) literal ancient alchemy is doing something to my brain chemistry (positive)

[pulchrasilva]

Having people you care about who are suicidal while you're not suicidal is truly a special torture I think I want to go back to wanting to kill myself im gonna throw up

[sassenach082]

Really love your whole story! And I love how we can see like small funny conversations after reading each chapter. I gotta know how you plan this all out. Do you plan it all out from the get-go, how much of an actual outline do you have for all of this? I'd really love to hear about your process!

Also good luck with chapter 18, I can feel that it is being a bitch to work with, carry on soldier🫡

Oh boy nonnie! If only I knew how to explain this in a way that doesn't make me sound like I'm completely and entirely out of my mind.

I'll try and explain it in a somewhat coherent fashion!

I have a doc that I use where I organize by chapter more or less what I want to do. It doesn't usually end up being that in the final draft but it helps me to get where I need to go by putting in the key scenes that link the narrative together.

A while ago I took a creative writing class and the teacher said something that stuck with me. "If you get stuck, just put in brackets of what you want to happen and keep going. Come back later!"

This ended up being really helpful! I don't do brackets but I'll put in something like this: / and then something cool happens with these characters regarding xyz! OR this character says:

this character says:

this character does this:

/ and I just keep going with whatever the scene is. It helps a lot! I also will frequently go back and re-read my own stuff while checking my outline, and my brain kind of makes connections of extra scenes I can add. Sometimes I get a wild hair and just go "oh this would be perfect" but I don't know how to write it or what I want to say, so I'll put in the placeholder to remind me even if I'm not ready to write it at the time.

This of course leads to an outline that is a hot-freaking-mess, but it works for me. I have an outline doc and I kind of just highlight as I go. Sometimes scenes I wanted don't fit in that chapter (I tend to have REALLY LONG chapters) so I'll just keep it where it is and go back and add it in later, or I'll move it into the box for the next chapter.

When I'm writing I tend to focus on one character at a time, since I do third person POVs mostly. So on chapters where it's two character POVs alternating, I usually do one character first and then check my outline to go back and plug in the rest of the stuff for the other character. It can get confusing/frustrating at times, and sometimes I go completely off my rails and do something entirely different (thanks brain) but knowing a general outline of what I'm doing really helps. Once I have a general outline I can go in and write the scenes as I get inspired to write them. I'm very much not a start at the beginning author considering I wrote this entire beast with the final scene completed first which I've had written almost a year now.

I hope that was coherent enough to understand! My google drive is a hot mess of documents called Untitled with numbers after them and then drabbles and a whole bunch of other stuff. Currently the i'll ride au outline doc is 15+ pages and has the series loosely mapped out with bullet points of what I want to happen.

My poor beta is the best for putting up with me!

[atlasrot]

i dont know why but tumblr uniquely tires me out in a way that other social media does not. i cant confidently explain why though? it Could be that i somehow conditioned myself to get tired while looking at it bc i check it almost exclusively at times before i go sleep or something

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

[nohkalikai]

i understand it's an issue of wanting to relate to people and not wanting to be left out but there has got to be a better way of trying to fit in

[keeps-ache]

at some point i'll start recording while i draw. mostly cuz i want to see what i did to get to this point but it'd be neat... if i did it hvhsd

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[miqojak]

💐 How does your OC handle being unwell or forced to rest in bed? Who cares for them and in what ways? Does your OC enjoy being doted on or are they a terrible patient? Reversed: is your OC good at taking care of others who are ill or in need?

(I rise from the grave - and miss Jak too much! Here's an answer to your old ask that I'm dusting off!)

She's only been confined in such a way once, really, and it was moreso due to a severe injury in her back... and it drove her nuts. She is not an indoor cat. She needs to go run around outside, burn off energy in any way possible, run the gang, run her restaurant... she doesn't have time to convalesce! Plus you know... having been a prisoner of war for a while, she does not like being confined to one room/one space for long periods of time. Makes her antsy, and more claustrophobic as time goes on.

And you know, I don't know if her current lover is much of one for 'doting'... that's more Jak's love language (shhh, tell no one)? He'd absolutely help her out if she needed it, but she'd have to ask nicely, first... and she hates asking (but has asked him for help before... it's possible). Especially nicely.

When the shoe is on the other foot? She's much more in her element - it's mostly that she grew up tribal, and there was always an element of taking care of one another instilled in her. Her parents were doting with one another, as well, which helps set a good example, but it's really about tending to the other people in your tribe. You're a pack. You're family. Everyone is important, everyone has a role, and you tend to others as you would want them to tend to you... and even moreso, if they're special to you. It's lead to a few 'housewife' jokes, despite her being anything but in nature - save for those behind-the-scenes moments in which she chooses to cook dinner for him, or even bathe him... and that's a 'normal' thing for her in regards to him.

One of the first real displays of trust between them, however? Was just that - her tending to him when he showed up at her doorstep all weary and bedraggled after a fight... when he could have gone to anyone else. He came to her. And that told her things that he took many more months to actually say out loud with words; it proved that he trusted her... and she hauled his ass up the stairs in what was then just her tiny little apartment, she put him in her bed, pulled his armor and shoes off (complaining the whole while, naturally), and was headed right back down the stairs to sleep on her couch... when he invited her to stay in bed with him. I'm also pretty sure that's the first time they shared a bed for something more intimate than just sex, at that, and she was shook. Actually sleeping in the same bed as someone else is really taking a risk - for people like them, anyways. It meant a lot to her! (And still does every time it happens, really.)

That said, Jak doesn't dote on anyone else in this manner, and would need to make some friends for me to really say otherwise, but... if a friend got close enough to really mean something to her, and fell ill, she'd no doubt tuck them away and tend to them in the only way she can, without healing magic: cooking. That and... spend a bunch of her money on a healer, because... throwing money at problems makes them go away, right?

[bumbleblurr]

out of the hundreds of tf ships that have massive drastic size differences, like proportionally comparable to a building and a chihuahua, I manage to mainly care only about the ships where one of them is like. Just a head taller than the other

[dagasinfilo]

growing up scrutinized to hell really is wild. you will be having panic attacks back to back and be like if you reach for a tissue to wipe your face it means you’re lying. every muscle in your body is clenched and you can’t move? well youre clearly doing that on purpose. a manipulation to gain. um. something. see! you can move now that obviously means you could move all along. and you can’t even challenge that thought because 1 you have no frame of reference even if by all means you just know that’s bullshit 2 challenging the thought means you’re lying (and also evil because why do you want to convince yourself you’re not lying? hm? that’s exactly what somebody who’s lying would say. )

it really completely messes up every possible train of thought you can have. constant battle with your own brain. what do you even do with that. (trying to figure that one out means you’re lying)