#not nothing but I s2g if I was a youtuber

[saki-nemeiko]

Pr*sek*i garbage game story wise but I appreciate the character analysis I see like go girl they gave us nothing

[worldwright]

Good evening, really early

Currently on phone, really tired, thought 2ould only see one person outside roommates today but no, had to see 2 eople dont know :/

Trying new site for merch, so directly buying from jp so not that expensive but dunno prive for shipping, first try is with squishy kenjaku Keychain :3 before real deal (pathetic wet anxious husbqmd)

Have a wonderful morning my friend !

good very normal morning where nothing obnoxious is going to happen tonight!!

i'm going over to my friends' for a completely unprompted party, but i'm pretty sure that the city is going to be doing a fireworks display over the water for no reason in particular! they have a fantastic view, it'll be nice :3

i'm gonna bug all of them to register to vote UNTIL THEY DO. this one is actually life or death

finished the magnus protocol (the follow-up series) and i can't find their release schedule but i s2g that can't be the end of the season, sooooooo i shall be checking my youtube notifications religiously for the next few days lol

hope you have a lovely evening friend, enjoy the fact that you're not going to be hearing random explosions until 2am!!

[lilsnowpea93]

Essay time: I can pinpoint exactly why I’m frustrated w capitalism and this current system of how we work in the US. I’ve figured out my place in the world right, I figured out what my “work I should be doing” is (if that’s even necessary morally). But I’ve found the closest things to a typical capital earning career, things that I’m uniquely good at and have “something to offer society” (again just appeasing capitalists w this speak, I’m explaining how the system doesn’t work for some ppl who should be included in society actively doing their thing.) Ok so my shit is like, I do graphic design for friends, we make things. I also make affordable sliding scale art. I make music and encourage ppl to stream/download it for free. I make content online sometimes (way more of a hobby), and I also sell miniature skateboard decks for very affordable prices, or bartering. To summarize, I’m a creative person making stuff that handfuls of people enjoy. That is enough for me, I don’t care about popularity (now that I have other income thank you) and I just want to make neat things and be mentally and physically healthy. Not too much to ask you’d think. NOW, to make this all fit into the capitalist system we are in.. We can spitball, I would have to have so many design projects, from multiple wealthy clients. Or I would also have to somehow get lucky enough to become a somewhat recognized musician and/or artist. Maybe I would become a real content creator. Or I would make my hand crafted items full time. Probably a layering of constant monetary successes in these fields would have to happen for a livable income.

So let’s investigate my specific case. 1. my design caters to liiike, skaters, small brands, etc. You can’t invalidate those niches, they have influence on overall design and are where cool shit sometimes happens. So small doesnt equal bad, most of the time. But small DOES equal not having much money to spread around. 2. Getting famous from art or music is so bad. Trying to do it looks cringey, actually doing it probably sucks so much. Not caring about return is so much fuckinnnggg better !!! I cannot express this enough. U make better stuff. Maybe if u want to be creative, just making it and being proud of it should be the baseline, at least for me. And if a few friends like it, even better. There’s nothing wrong with aiming big I guess but, s2g if there was a way to know the likelihood of that shit, it’d be like wild disproportional. Fuck outta here with that “temporarily embarrassed millionaire” bs. And for me my art/music is kind of specifically me on purpose like I’m gonna do my thing and no one has to like it because I didn’t make it to be like other things or be palatable in a way we contemporarily think of as normal. 3. The content I make online is organic. It’s mainly centered around filmed skateboard tricks. I hope it’s entertaining, I try my best to come up with ones that I feel like doing and that not many people have seen before. I want to add to peoples inspiration when they’re choosing what tricks they want to try. Thinking up rare tricks isn’t something you can just “content” pump out, that would be so weird lol. Like ew being a content creator at shit ruins everything. It wouldn’t even be feasible to make money at that nuh uh. I did try YouTube art vlogs for a year or two but nahhh 4. Bruh do u know how many mini skateboards I’d have to make to equal even half a “normal” jobs pay? They take like an hour or two each no that’s not feasible. Especially the way I make them, more organic and less templates/fancy power tools. I prefer the result that way, it’s harder to get right and takes more time but it’s a skill I have and there’s an art to it so frick offff.

Ok having explained all that- I do believe what I do is a positive force in the communities I’m part of irl and online. I know for a fact that people interact with what I make and are happier because of it. That is very fulfilling. I make things to make them, typically, but that is a huge added bonus, and reason for living frankly.

U may also recognize the thread of affordability or free-ness that runs through everything I like to do. People don’t have random money for buying stuff that’s not for basic survival needs rn. Especially my friends. This is just realistic, like no one’s gonna buy my art if it’s over $50. They can’t afford it, hell I wouldn’t be able to afford it. I used to stress over this, now that I have a steady job I could care less. I’ll give things away for free idc. Cuz good creativity is worth so much and nothing simultaneously I guess lol.

Now, viewing all this from the American capitalist workforce etc perspective: all of these activities are difficult. I put a so much time and effort into each one. I’m kind of a perfectionist and I have very specific tastes. Not to say all my work is good or perfect, but just saying that typically I super care. So I’m passionate about my hard work that I do. A small but not insignificant number of people enjoy the work I put out. However, it does not make barely any income (not my motivation to do my life’s purpose lmao I just do the things I’m good at and like). SO, does that insignificant income part then mean that, I shouldn’t do this stuff? To certain people who understand creative careers they would say that my current path can be a stepping stone to a more real career. To that I say, I’ve been at this step permanently for 10 years, this is it. And also, how are people who are legit at the stepping stone thing supposed to survive?

Now, why I mention all this stuff super hinges on this reality: Currently I work a 30-35 hr full time job at 17/hr and that has made my life a bajillion times easier (I can’t express), but I can barely do the shit I actually want to do, and barely still have good personal and space hygiene and mental health and do easy hobbies like MAYBE sometimes playing a game. If I wanted my life to be upgraded like, having a car, buying a small house, being able to buy the clothes I want, eating out instead of only always spending time making food personally, etc., I would have to work 8 hr 9-5 and find a job that pays even better, but I doubt I could do that because my “real” skills are cleaning the floor/toilet and sometimes fixing things, I could easily get paid less for less hours. Working that 8 hr 9-5 job that’s in a different field I probably don’t like very much would 100% kill all the other things I do. I know this because sometimes I have to work that schedule. Nothing else gets done, apartment doesn’t get cleaned, I barely take care of myself, let alone express the skills that feel like my “purpose”. Maybe that���s a me mental health issue, it seems like some people can do it. Imagine having kids added on to that, this is why I won’t have kids. My past Christian culture really wanted me to have kids. Ur trippin. I regularly fail at taking care of myself.

So what all this tells me, is that my actual skills, which I am pretty good at due to years of experience, have succeeded at so many times in terms of people effected, measurable good done.. I kinda probably shouldn’t have done it, I’m getting good at the wrong thing, it doesn’t make money as its first goal. Meritocracy my assss bro. There’s worth in what I do. The things people like me do are part of the culture. Absolutely not saying I make any waves in that department lol, but I’m part of it, I add my two cents. The culture is what makes shit interesting, it’s what makes people happy, ppls days better, it’s human connection thru shared interests and progression of an art form. Like idk what to tell u I think it’s cool. But to the normal viewpoint, all my stuff is just hobbies. But they’re kinda more than hobbies right? Like I’m just trying to check the capitalist boxes, I don’t think everyone should have to hold their things they do to wild standards of almost fitting into capitalism like mine do. But still, I can’t do it in the way they want, even with the help of having the internet.. and I’m not about to ruin and taint what I love to make not even enough dollars to live from. I don’t even know what I want bro but all I know is that shit doesn’t woooork. Like for some people it does! But not for ppl like I’m describing, who are definitely worth having in society and letting flourish etc. To me creative ppl are a bajillion times more interesting than someone who works in business. Like they can do that sure, that’s probably their thing I guess, buuut idk what are u adding bro, when u die what will u have done. Better been like donating to charities or something. The ppl this system wants u to be are so boring and inhuman. It literally wants to suppress creativity. I hope I’ve proven that here, I know I’m a unique case w my weird shit I do that goes beyond music or whatever’s popular rn. Like I add to society in these ways.. and my regular job does too, I’ve always worked for non profits I like. But still, objectively trying to do both is really gnarly. If only I could be randomly famous for one of those things I like doing to support the rest, I say jokingly because it is not feasible and will likely never happen. Let’s be real there, for most creative people it does not happen. But they still add to their communities and are positive facets of life and society at large. They should be able to do their thing! I also recognize that this experience is very very common. Like I’m granularly describing mine but there are definitely so many ppl with similar things happening all the time. We’re not free to do what we want. The system tells u the opposite but eh there’s a big twist. Sure I could be less free. Literally hate that argument so much tho because it’s always in regards to human made systems like, yes, AND humans COULD fix the terrible instances where the poor people are mega oppressed. We should all be on a better page. We have the resources to be but we’re not. The system and ppl who control it aren’t interested in that I guess. Like, clearly, that’s the reason. Our lives are all a little or massively worse for it. Humans can’t human as effectively, society is less colorful and interesting. As humanity we have less to offer and show for our time on earth.. We don’t even have a clear reason to explain why we’re here or why we’re conscious entities. If I know one fact about reality, we’re not here to solely make money. I refuse to get obsessed with that. But we’re all coerced to be, and the system is built to clearly influence that desire, at the risk of punishment. Like, no, fuck u and fuck money. It’s so awesome that this attitude seems so worthwhile and also so antithetical to living within our system. Fuck all that man that’s terrible. Again, I’m sure we could figure out a way to fix this, but we don’t. We also have bigger problems we refuse to fix. Humans are so cooool hahaha I love us awwee. Sorry for cynicism lulz but it is worrying! Hard not to think about it all the time ya know.

[gender-euphowrya]

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[fingertipsmp3]

Looking for true crime podcasts is like one of those “you can only pick 3” memes and the options are: you like the hosts’ voices, there are minimal ad breaks, minimal banter, the hosts talk respectfully about the crime and victims

[sneezefiction]

could i have headcanons for oikawa, kenma, noya and tanaka for how they’d react if their s/o told them she wanted to break up as a joke ? thank you 🥺🥺🥺

Oikawa, Kenma, Nishinoya, and Tanaka x Reader - Fake Break Up Headcanons

a/n: have some goofy headcanons w/ some of the best boys, babe <3333 i hope you enjoy and thank you for requesting!!

warnings: slight language

total wc: 1080

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Oikawa

there are times when Oikawa just won’t give you the attention you need

yeah, he’s a sweet boyfriend and all, but between volleyball practice, appeasing fangirls, and his social media platforms, he doesn’t have much allotted time for only the two of you

while trying to figure out how to garner some of Oikawa’s focus, a lightbulb goes off in your head. 

you’re sure you’ve seen a TikTok or Youtube video of people breaking up with their s/o as a joke… 

so while Oikawa is distracted by some form of social media, scrolling mindlessly on the couch, you’re tilting your phone camera up to video this moment

you come sit at the edge of the couch and utter some of the most terrifying words ever spoken

“Tooru, we need to talk.”

his head shoots up, body following with it

“What’s wrong, baby?” his eyes are wide and he’s unquestionably nervous

“I think we should break up.” you’re doing all you can to keep a straight face, waiting for a goofy reaction

but right as the words leave your lips, you feel instant regret

the most shocked expression adorns his features and you swear you can already see tears welling up in his eyes

“Wait, wait, wait it’s a joke I’m sorry! Look there’s a camera and everything, Tooru, I’m sorry!” you bounce forward, gathering him in your arms

you finally just let him know that you’ve been jealous and frustrated (baby needs attention)

he literally makes you promise to never prank him again, bc he insists “his whole heart shattered” and that “it was an act of cruelty”

y’all cuddle all night bc he can’t let you go after that scare

Kenma

ok so Kuroo has been trying to get a new reaction out of Kenma for the past 2 weeks

and nothing is working at all

so him, being his true scheming self, asks you to get involved

you accept bc he paid you you’re curious too and ask him what you need to do

“Just… y’know, break up with him or something?” he suggests nonchalantly

“What the hell, Kuroo!” your jaw dropping at his absurd request

“Bro, I already paid you! No take-backs.” he shrugs “Also, you gotta record it and send it to me.”

when you get home you feel like such a sucker for agreeing to it, but you’d rather not owe Kuroo any favors so you get everything set up as quietly as possible

Kenma, in his usual gaming position tucked under a blanket on your shared bed, scoots over to let you in, but you seat yourself at the edge instead

“Kenma…” wow you feel weird, “I uhm. I don’t think this is working out between us.” you’re cringing at yourself

you’re basically hoping he’ll make a weird face so that you can turn off the camera and explain everything to him quickly

eyes still glued to his game, Kenma simply states, “Kuroo put you up to this, babe.”

“I’m sorry plea- wait what, how’d you know?” you stutter out, confused

“He’s been doing weird-ass stuff for a long time, y/n.” he shrugs

“...okay… tell me more?” your focus completely shifting to storytime with Kenma

now you know all about Kuroo’s strange history with your boyfriend… and it’s all recorded, right there, on your phone 

Noya

it started off with a seemingly harmless game of truth or dare w/ the Karasuno boys, including your boyfriend, Nishinoya

you’d agreed to go along with it because they promised it would be chill nothing is ever chill w/ these kids, i s2g

however, you’ve already used up your maximum number of “truths” so you’re forced to pick dare for this turn

suddenly all the boys, except Nishinoya, are huddled together

you two just stare at each other with great confusion

simultaneously, all the boys turn around, making you jump, and say

“Nishinoya, get out.”

well ok this is weird

once he leaves, and may i say very reluctantly, you’re faced with the most painful of dares

“Y/n, the council has decided. For your dare, you must fake break up with Nishinoya later this week.”

fools. absolute idiots. but who are you to deny the council of boys?

so when the dreaded day comes, you facetime the boys in, leaving them on mute on your kitchen countertop and make your way up to Noya who’s actively attempting to make dinner

so you begin, “Nishinoya I… I just, uhm…”

“Yes, baby what is it?” his eyes dazzle when they meet yours

lmao you can’t, he just looks too excited to see you and you know for a fact his funky, lil heart would break

“I, uh… just wanted a hug actually.” 

“Why didn’t you just say so!” he responds, a grin stretching across his bright face, squeezing the absolute life out of you

“It was… supposed to be a dare from the boys the other day, but-” you try to explain

“Y’all’s dares are lame as hell.” Noya cuts you off finally realizing their presence on the counter, still pressed up against your body

baby had no idea

the council is displeased… and a little jealous

Tanaka

this guy has been on his Xbox all damn day

and it’s starting to wear on you

all the yelling, the thundering laughter, and weird code words were interrupting your reading, thinking, and ruining the cozy, weekend vibes

you’ve tried everything so far:

you made him his favorite meal? nothing. asked him to go out with you tonight? “Let’s do it tomorrow babe.” telling him to be a little quieter? somehow he managed to increase in volume.

so you text Kiyoko and ask her what she would do

homegirl literally suggested you break up with him, so that’s a no-go…

but maybe you could just… threaten it kinda? your babe can take a joke and it might finally get him to calm down

so you walk over to him and loudly exclaim,

“I swear if you don’t stop obsessing over whatever it is you’re playing, I’m just gonna leave.” trying your hardest to sound coldhearted

Tanaka yanks his headphones off and he’s on his feet, horrified

and now you’re just laughing, your sputtering boyfriend unsure of your contrasting words and emotions

“Sorry babe, you’re just… so loud. And I kinda miss you.” you hold out your arms, trying to draw him toward you

“Not funny!” now you’ve done it.

he’s gonna pout for a while and you’ll be the one to deal with it

but... if you give him a kiss and a real apology, he’ll snap out of it real fast

[agirlneedsgoals]

I'm in a weird place today. I'll cut this to spare you (there is brokenness, coveting, complaining, talk of writing, dinner menus, and babble about current and past tv shows).

Last night, I suddenly had skin crawlies. I haven't had it like that without some kind of obvious trigger in YEARS. Maybe a decade, even. It felt like things were crawling on my arms, my face, my hair, my neck, and my shoulders. I knew nothing was there, I couldn't help touching to try and brush it off but I knew better than to scratch like I used to. Yay for self-control! I had to take Xanax to be able to sleep.

I woke up this morning hurting from the top of my head down to my toes. I think it's how I slept but I didn't feel this way once at @clockwrkheart's when I was there this last weekend. I think it's their bed and her pillow. I covet.

I'm writing! In tiny drips and drabs but I am writing. It's not my own stuff. It's fanfic, which I've never been particularly good at but this seems to be...coming together? Idk. I currently have about 4000k on the one that's working for me now. I'm just doing what I can, I'll check it for pacing and character later. I inflict it on one of my bffs constantly, but she has to say it's good because it's in her contract.

Enh, nobody'll see it even if I post it cause it won't be here. 😁

I have our meal calendar filled for over a week! Proud of myself but I'm not the one to make it most of the time, either because I'm exhausted or I'm just...not up for it. *is broken* But I want to. Does that count? Here's my dinner menu:

Tonight: lemon-turmeric soup and sandwiches (why sandwiches? because we didn't get any good bread to dip in it because I was gf when I put it on the menu and soup alone can't keep my sugar up overnight)

Thursday: chicken apple sausage, mashed root veggies, miso orange green beans

Friday: tuna noodle casserole w/Caesar salad (the only quintessentially 50's recipe I eat; mostly because my Oma made it when I was little)

Saturday: shrimp scampi (okay sometimes idk what will be going with the main)

Sunday: spaghetti and meatballs w/roast cauliflower (frozen meatballs and dressed up jar sauce because fuck you that's why)

Next Monday: tostadas

Next Tuesday: garlic butter baked tilapia, sweet potatoes, roast squash, broccoli

Next Wednesday: chicken fricassee, mashed potatoes, spring mix w/lemon vinaigrette

Next Thursday: honey mustard salmon, golden carrots, broccoli, green rice

Next Friday: gnocchi alla vodka (I'mma make both from scratch, actually), cloud eggs, Caesar salad

Next Saturday: Italian shakshuka, garlic bread

Next Sunday: curried chicken salad w/good bread (that just means I want crusty Italian or French bread)

Nobody cares about that except me, but there it is. 😋

They mark the doors of elves in The Witcher, to mark them either as homes they need to raid or homes they have raided, when they're putting all the elves in chains. But they draw a little elven piggy and I shouldn't but I find it ADORABLE.

I got 2 lbs. of strawberries from Sam's Club. I'mma eat them all dipped in sugar. You can't stop me, I'm an ADULT.

I only watched like 3 or 4 seasons of The Vampire Diaries and I never watched The Originals. It's on my list, I just never got to it. But YouTube has been suggesting a ton of vids from them and some of it is SO WELL EDITED. Like these people should edit movie trailers because it makes stuff that I KNOW was blisteringly stupid, look good.

Oh, my God, the love story between Klaus and Elijah. Not in the incesty way, just in the true love brother way. Those two could break curses on each other, s2g. I adore it. And there's a Caroline vid that made me actually cry. AND WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME DAMON AND BONNIE BECAME BESTIES??? If I can't have them as a couple (I shipped them in the books, tbh), I want them as bros. 💕💖💕💖💕💖

Okay, I'm gonna stop this now. If you read this far, I owe you cookies.

[sun-stormz]

I s2g, do people really have nothing better to do then hate on someone because of a minecraft manhunt, saying it may be staged. So what if its staged or not? Its a fucking youtube video about a video game, its not the end of the world.

Holy fuck give dream a break man, like, he hasn't done something seriously wrong, has he?

Its a fucking video game holy fuck

[muqiing]

tagged by @leonzhng​ thanks for making me dig through my most embarrassing crushes 😭✋

i’ll tag @highwarlockkareena​ @yibobibo​ @lan-xichens​ @purplexedhuman​ @aheartfullofjolllly​ @lanzhansmiles​ @nyx4​ i feel like i tag you guys in everything i am so sorry please ignore this if u don’t wanna do it !!

putting this under a read more for reasons

MEN 2010 – 2016

literally nothing more embarrassing than falling on the same type of white man over and over again (with the exception of minho from shinee bless his heart)

tommy joe ratliff → he was the bass player for adam lambert during his glamnation era (think of songs like for your entertainment and if i had you) idk why exactly i liked him so much but i just did.... however i searched him up again quite recently and found out he’s one of those republicans that says the dumbest shit on twitter so Big Yikes

harry styles → “baby you light up my world like nobody else, the way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed, and when you smile at the ground it ain’t hard to tell...” and BOOM 13-year-old me was sold for well over two years

louis tomlinson → basically i liked harry most until around 2013 when for some reason i started to like him a little less, and i got more focused on louis tomlinson, and although i didn’t like one direction anymore louis tomlinson always had a special place in my heart

ashton irwin → so ashton is 5sos’ drummer, i discovered 5sos through one direction & i stanned them until late 2014

harries twins → the harries twins (jack & finn) are basically the reason i started spending a lot of time on youtube, they were funny and pretty and they just had good videos in general, so for almost two years i’d watch their content regularly

choi minho → my first steps into kpop happened bc i was watching videos on youtube (most probably the harries twins) and suddenly i saw the sherlock mv in my recommended videos so i clicked on it and then 14-year-old me proceeded to fall for minho like an idiot

brooks twins → still youtubers, the brooks twins were 3/5 of the janoskians (jai & luke brooks, beau brooks, daniel sahyounie, & james yammouni), an australian youtube comedy group that was active from 2011-2018 though i was only around from 2012-2014 (when jai brooks was dating ariana grande)

jc caylen → surprise! another youtuber! jc caylen was part of o2l (our2ndlife) a youtube collaboration channel on which each of the 6 members posted videos on a certain day in the week (mondays with connor, tuesdays with ricky, wednesdays with sam, thursdays with jc, fridays with trevi (my 2nd favorite member bc she participated on the x factor), saturdays with ricardo, and then they had surprise sundays every week) and i remember how much joy jc & the others always brought me with their silly videos

misha collins → up next, you might know him as the gay angel that was sent to superhell after confessing his love to the homophobic hunter on supernatural, it’s misha collins! basically misha was a huge source of comfort for me, and i even went around calling myself emmisha for almost two full years (cringe)

henrik holm → he played even bech naesheim in skam and my crush on him reached that level of ridiculousness where i actually tried my hand at learning norwegian (i can only remember how to introduce myself and some curse words i would make a great first impression on him)

MEN 2016 – 2021

min yoongi → okay so my baby steps into kpop happened through shinee’s sherlock, but i only got really invested when yoongi dropped agust d 1 because Holy Fuck y’know??

kim namjoon → oh man i remember thinking namjoon was cute and a very good leader and then BAM he dressed like THAT at the 2016 mma’s and i fell in love. hard

park seojoon → i started liking park seojoon whilst i was watching hwarang (you guessed it, i watched it bc of taehyung), although he wasn’t my favorite character by far, but he was very silly off camera & i liked that (i’m not that into him anymore tho </3)

kim seokjin → OH BOY LET ME TELL U i liked seokjin from the very beginning (i got to know bts in late 2014) and i always liked seeing him perform and be himself and god once i realized i had a crush on him it just hit me like a mf truck, and he’s still one of my favorite people to this day

jung hoseok → god fake love era hoseok really hits different.... also yes i know i have all of bts’ hyung line on my list BUT bts was a really big part of my life for almost 6 years soooo honestly they deserve it i still think they’re great guys

choi san → when ateez made their debut in 2018 i immediately fell in love with san, he was such an amazing dancer and he captivated me right from the very beginning, to this day he’s still my bias in ateez uwu

xiao zhan → AND THEN, OCTOBER OF 2019 HAPPENS AND I WATCH CQL AND... i fall in love with xiao zhan, something i’d never expected would happen bc when i watched cql for the first time i wasn’t as invested in the story, but i really really really liked xiao zhan and one thing led to another and now here i am as a xfx

wang yibo → the thing is, i’ve known yibo since eoeo except i didn’t know cql yibo was uniq yibo (bc i’d forgotten his name) and when i looked it up i can tell you my jaw dropped to the floor bc holy shit????? also he is very silly and i love him loads ok

lee minho → ah, the man who has been my skz bias since 2018, not only is minho my bias i also kin him (there’s a lot of aspects of myself that i see in minho and vice versa) and he’s very comforting to me

bang chan → honestly, it was only a matter of time before i’d fall for bang chan, i knew the moment i got into skz again that i’d start biasing him and, well, here i am, double biasing chan & minho

WOMEN

this list is shorter bc i’ve in general always had less crushes on women than on men??? blame society forcing me into thinking i was straight for a LONG time

ariana grande → remember the 2011 layout of twitter?? where u could not only have an icon and a header, but also a background and ur twitter page was smack in the center of ur screen with the big ugly menu bar at the top??? yeah ariana grande was always my background for my l*rr* st*l*n*s*n layouts

perrie edwards → this was right around the time she was dating zayn & little mix was breaking out into the spotlight, yeah i just really loved her

andrea russett → okay so remember o2l?? andrea russett was kian’s girlfriend for a pretty long time and they always did videos together and i always thought she was super pretty

lily collins → maybe i don’t like clary in tmi all that much but i sure liked the way lily collins looked

alona tal → MY BISEXUAL AWAKENING, it’s only when i saw alona tal in spn that i realized, fuck i might be gay

park jihyo → i discovered twice (my 2nd jype group after day6) through the like ooh-ahh mv and red-haired jihyo really did something to my heart (i just rewatched it and god zombie bang chan is so mf cute)

kim jisoo → when bp made their square two comeback i was immediately smitten for red-haired jisoo in playing with fire, it’s also when i realized she was my bias out of the four members

shin ryujin → the reason that i have blue hair is partially bc of ryujin and her amazing intro in wannabe :D

xuan lu → her portrayal of jiang yanli was SO ON POINT and she’s just such a kindhearted wonderful person wow i want her hand in marriage

lee yoobin → god i’ve known dreamcatcher from back when they were still called minx and ever since i’ve always looked at dami that bit more than the rest, i was also able to see dreamcatcher live in october of 2019 and the whole experience was just so amazing !!

FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

there’s a whole lot more than just these 10 but i wanted to fit the evolution into one (1) slide as best as i could lmao

peter pan → this movie came out in 2003 (?) and he’s honestly the first fictional character i remember ever having a crush on

legolas → i was really doubting between placing haldir or legolas here but i only really got a vague haldir obsession when i was like 14

zuko → LOOK. ZUKO IN ATLA? HOT. ZUKO IN LOK? HOT EVEN IF HE’S AN OLD MAN.

will turner → man was annoying sometimes but i really liked him and his relationship with elizabeth was cute

jo harvelle → gosh i can’t believe she’s the only female character in here???? yeah she was one of my two spn faves and i’ll never forgive the screenwriters for the way they killed her off

castiel → does your fave ever get sent to super hell for being gay? no? well. mine did

kili → fili and kili’s storyline tore my heart out, spit on it, and then laughed straight in my face, KILI WAS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE DWARF

howl → i only watched this movie for the first time in 2020 so i kinda fucked up the tl cause i watched cql in 2019 but shh, anyways howl with his blonde hair was good looking but howl with his black hair just hits differently. i want a howl

lan jingyi → MY BABY BOY, TINIE LITTLE BABIE WHOMST I MUST PROTECT ok no but seriously this kid. i love him a lot

mu qing → BARK BARK. that’s all (that’s not all i love him a whole lot and it hurts me to see so many people misunderstand his character and only see the bad parts of him when they can forgive others for fucking up (eg. xie lian himself & feng xin) but bc mu qing doesn’t deal well with emotions suddenly he’s the bad guy??? i s2g if ppl are gonna do to him what they did to jiang cheng in the tgcf la i will RIOT)

[tarajenkins]

novasiri said: Just.. imagining if they put thought and time into Eulmore. GUESS WE GOTTA. @novasiri : Square loves their unrelenting angst. Imagine if, instead of the disjointed and contradictory “social commentary” they tried to shoehorn into Eulmore, we just pile MORE angst on. Why let us cry for only half the story lmao

Give us the sorrow of a city that was the first and last line of defense against the Sin Eaters for 80 years, the trauma that shellshocked them into not caring. 

Make Ran’jit more interesting than just his last line of dialogue, build that “overprotective to the point of bad” vs. “I only saw you as someone else and if I didn’t I probably would never have saved you” showdown

Yoshida said back then he wanted us to ask ourselves: was Vauthry really a friend of the Sin Eaters, or was he controlled by someone? The entire arc should have revolved around that somehow, imo, and not just because I’m biased. The “Surprise! Lightwarden!” twist wasn’t really a surprise or a twist if you took the time to notice this Hume was unnaturally tall, had oddly glazed over eyes, had pointed ears, had a second face in his chest, and just happened to have the ability to control Sin Eaters--so go hard. 

Show us the man that told the idle 1% they were going to pay for the comfort of the whole population of Eulmore if they wanted to get in, the population that was mostly workers.

Show us the man who doesn’t let Beehive visitors touch the dancers unless they want to be touched.

Show us the man who had to be brainwashed to believe he was doing something good, when he had the power to not care if he was bad.

Tell us how he went from that to what he became. (Spoiler alert: Tempered in the womb by a shithead)

It was just so telling that the writers had our little “Academian” only notice LOL FAT I s2g (And if Square really wanted to go hard, show internal struggle with Vauthry, ffs why would you not want his VA to talk as much as possible.)

Honestly though, a damp sponge would have more depth than what we were given, I would settle for anything that didn’t rely on bodyshaming, even if it read like a campy cartoon from the 80s.

Headcanon I have no idea if it would work but what the hey: Hydaelyn knew there was a Lightwarden in that child via the previous Minifilia, but did nothing--because She needed something to hold back the Light and buy Her time, too. And so, Vauthry was used as a means to an end to the last, as he was by the Ascians, his father, Ran’jit, and the Eulmorans he was indoctrinated to believe he was born to protect. OR FOR UPBEAT ENDING PLEASE HELP HIM Here, have my two-song playlist for instant gross sobbing over Vauthry headcanons for Original Sin:

Vauthry (normal playlist for him features a lot of NIN somehow, but): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3rnxlW5TrBs Unna (why is this the only vid on youtube of the version I use): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNdu-Wb_0Nw

[yibo-wang]

Hi Aamna,

What a beautiful meaning, something tells me it suits you perfectly because you enjoy the quiet of just sitting down and enjoying the moment.

I have never read/seen the raven circle but I have seen some amazing aesthetics floating around here that one of the people I follow reblogs. Lan Zhan means blue? Wow I didn’t know that. Then I am ashamed to tell you that after I wrote Blue, the little guy from A Foster’s Home for Imaginary Friends came to mind of course his name is Bloo and not Blue but hey I think is close enough lol.

See this is why I have only made one set of Wibo’s gifs and that was enough for me to last me for the rest of my life. I don’t think I could do it like you and see him constantly dancing over and over in front of me as I make them. *bows to you and anyone that does them*

I am now in your friends shoes, I been pestering one of my online friends to watch it. I have tried everything gifs, pics, showing her the boys. But alas nothing has made her budge. Today I spent almost an hour explaining to her who is who and nothing *gets a determined look* but I won’t give up she has to see it because I know she will love it.

What got me into the Untamed was I saw someone post the promotional poster and they were saying that it sounded good and that was base on a bl novel and they were maybe thinking of watching it. By this time I had seen other bl base shows that had been made in China and I love them. So once it aired I had to wait until Viki had it because I told myself I wasn’t going to pay for another streaming service, after five episodes I gave up and payed for IQIYI and since then I haven’t looked back.

Now for my question(s), what are five characters that you love? Also, what are the things you love and hate about each of them?

Your C.C Blue 🌸

Hi blue!!! Hope you're well! 💛 oh oh you should definitely read trc, it's even getting a tv series soon!

Omg Foster's Home that takes me years back wow! Reminds me of Blue's clues too now XD nothing to be ashamed about tho <3

Ahaha I swear! Giffing him is really distracting lol I end up spending a lot more time on his gifs than anyone else's 😅 I swear these tv series would make me bankrupt if i ended up paying for all of them 🙄 I only rely on netflix and youtube (which does affect the translations but what can I say I'm broke 😂)

Thank you for the question! I'm gonna answer it under the cut cause it might get pretty long lol

1. Lan Zhan

What's there not to love? Unashamedly I'm a simp for characters who defy the rules they've been taught after realising the faults in them. Who question the authority and the system that's been going on for ages. But for lan zhan especially it's how he's so quiet and everyone thinks he’s this stonecold person all the time which he can be (cough cough *sushe*) BUT HE FEELS SO SO MUCH! lan zhan in that aspect is everything i was growing up and still kinda am. lan zhan is loyal, he’s righteous, he’s smart and whatnot. he’s a disaster drunk (s2g drunkji is my fav thing), he loves rabbits, he loves wei ying,he needs to go to horny jail, he can be extremely petty and his sense of humor is so unique, he took one look at ayuan and wei ying and decided that yes i will be a father to him, he gets extremely soft around children (someone please tell me a fic where wangxian raise children together because wangxian raising children can be so personal) AND I  JUST HAVE A LOT OF LOVE FOR HIM. if we’re talking about dislikes i don’t think i have any tbh. 

2. Wei Ying

Extremely disastrous and bi king wwx. Questions authority, would give up everything to protect the weak, looks like a hot cinnamon roll but could kill you, just wants to own a house with the love of his life and raise their kid and cook together. (ngl i really like that last part), he’s king, compassionate, ridiculous sense of humor, would flirt like a pro but if reciprocated turns into a blushing mess, HE IS ADORABLE I LOVE HIM. also not to mention creates a totally new method of cultivation like it’s no biggie, hype focuses on what he loves, loves to draw lan zhan wearing a flower (love that king), terrible communication skills, loves his family to death, deserves the world,, i love him with all his flaws

3. Jiang Cheng

ah my repressed and angry purple grape, 10/10 want him to learn how to handle his emotions in a healthy way but i love him nonetheless. listen just like lwj, jiang cheng has a lot of emotions and love, he’s just extremely bad at expressing them. he loves his family, he adores his brother even after the whole journey they’ve gone through. he just wants people to stop leaving him :(. i especially love cloud recesses era jc when he’s just a ridiculous kid who’d scold his brother for playing with a rabbit and then 5 sec later you’d find him doing the same thing. also him raising jin ling, a+ asian parenting on his part when it came to raising jl. also ep 2 rewatch when you see jc and lwj sitting in the tea shop while everyone around them is confused af ILOVEIT

4. Wen Qing

All my favorite characters suffered so much and i would like to give them hugs. Also just putting it out there that my hc is that wq is definitely a lesbian. THE GREATEST DOCTOR IN QISHAN if not the world. miss wen qing performed the core transfer surgery like SHE DID THAT. she’s so kind and compassionate and grumpy and sarcastic and her love for her brother and the wens and later wwx. she just wants them all to be happy and safe but she has to be self sacrificing just like everyone else because theyre all so self-deprecating and i just love her so much (ik i keep on saying how much i love them all but it’s true T-T) 

5. Jiang Yanli 

Miss Yanli sweetest most kindest person alive. she just loves to make soup and loves her family. buuuuut would 10/10 would roast you to death and be petty af and i love it sm! she  her only flaw is her terrible taste in men but the jzx does turn his ways so ig she’s forgiven. i love how yanli is said to be plain and not have good health and a strong golden core but she’s still so treasured and loved (rightfully so!). I LOVE HER SO MUCH! im really sad that she couldn't see a-ling grow up or wwx come back. 

(ik you only asked 5 but wen ning is definitely on this list too)

who are your fav characters? and what do you like and dislike about them?

[997]

btw i had my first “””paranormal””” experience last night.... which is funny since im the most skeptical person i know abt anything ghost/demon/angel/anything really related kjhgfhjhsklgjfhk last night at around 1am THE SECOND i turned ghostwatch off and went to youtube to watch comedy stuff.... for 2 entire seconds i felt a small hand stroking my shoulder and i s2g... i just looked at it and i had nothing there the sheet was still over me there wasnt any type of wind going on i just felt a pressure sliding on my shoulder and was like....... kay!

[justasmallbloginabigklainefandom]

@phalloutklaine thanks for the tag and i love the christmas lights in your icon. nice touch.

fav color/s: red, especially the deep dark reds

last song: Prologue by Natasha, Pierre and the Great Comet of 1812

last movie: Over The Moon (i needed that asian rep when i was younger i s2g)

currently reading: uh.... my own fanfiction. Power move. But the last book I read was Red, White & Royal Blue to celebrate Trump getting COVID.

currently watching: nothing, actually. I think the last thing I watched was Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, but that was 2 or 3 months ago. Oh, wait, I am following Wayward Guide for the Untrained Eye on YouTube.

sweet, spicy, or savoury: sweet and savoury

tea or coffee: (looks at all my tea bags) .... yea

[blazingsnark]

Knit/Crochet Asks: 1, 2, 4, 6, 10, 14

s2g bless your ass lily

1)  Do you knit or crochet or both?

Currently, just crochet, but I do kind of want to get into knitting.  Knit fabric has more of a drape to it, while crochet can be made stiffer and three-dimensional.

2) What’s your favorite yarn brand?

There’s this adorable little yarn store down the street that I adore, but they’re really expensive and everything is hand-dyed in wool… All-around favorite has to be Caron Simply Soft.  It’s really soft, especially for acrylic, and really cheap, especially for bright and soft yarn!

4) Do you prefer neutral tones, jewel tones, or earth tones?

Jewel + neutral all the way, baby.  Especially combined.

6) How many WIPs do you have?

Surprisingly, only three at the moment!  One’s a fluffy-ass cat pillow, one’s my 6x6 granny square blanket (and growing), and one’s the skull shawl I’ve just recently started.

10) Do you like to knit/crochet in public?

Sure, why not?  Nothing says “fuck off please don’t disturb me” like having headphones in and a fluffy half-made scarf on your lap.

14) What type of music do you listen to when you craft?

I’m more of a youtube-and-crochet person, but when I do listen to music, it’s usually just one of my many (trash) OC playlists.

[canonicallysoulmates]

Supernatural 14.14

You know when something is so stupid you just have to laugh at it? This episode is like that and I’ll get to why in a minute but I wanna talk about the positives first cause there were some positives, not all of it was bad. 

I have to start the positives by mentioning Rowena cause if you have read my opinion posts before on episodes that have her you’ll know I love her, I always like seeing her on my screen this was no different so to my Rowena loving self she counts as a positive ❤️

I really liked seeing her and Sam work together, that is something that I would love to see more of cause I love the relationship she has with the boys. 

I love love love that Maggie and the other AU hunters are finally dead! I have fucking hated that group since s13, thank fuck they’re gone! That makes me so happy 💃

I like that Jack got his powers back, I like that he called himself a Winchester (baby Winchester 🤗) and the few Sam and Dean bits we got were really good. 

But the key word is few, there were not nearly enough Sam and Dean scenes, there wasn’t nearly enough focus on these two characters.  That’s always a huge negative. 

And, while I like that Jack got his powers back, I don’t like the way he got them back; the ending of this episode is probably my biggest problem with it and why I think this episode is laughably stupid. Let me explain, this episode ends with Michael escaping Dean’s head while Dean was knocked out, possessing Rowena, getting into a “fight” with Jack, and Jack using the magic that was keeping him alive to force Michael out of Rowena, kill him and absorb his powers. 

It was incredibly anticlimactic, it was un-emotional, there wasn’t a proper fight, there wasn’t build up to this, Michael’s death happened in I think less than 5mins.  

The main plot of this season had been Michael and how he’s this big bad and he’s gonna do a lot of harm and according to Billie, death herself, the only way to stop him is locking Dean in a box but it turns out this whole time, from the moment Jack got that little bit of magic he could force this powerful archangel out of the vessel, kill him and absorb him in less than 5mins. Jack, who earlier in this episode was coughing up blood and is supposed to be weak and not use his powers because he could die, somehow found the strength to do that, and it’s not like he’s a battery and he was recharged because he used his fucking powers twice in this episode before he used them to kill Michael. 

It’s lazy writing, it’s stupid writing, it makes the season pointless cause there’s still episodes to go, and I don’t think I would even mind it if it had at least been properly done, if it had been build up, but it wasn’t, it was an afterthought like the writers didn’t know what to do with that character anymore or how to get out of the hole they wrote themselves into so they went with the laziest, fastest fix. And even it being an afterthought I don’t think I would mind if it had been done earlier instead of spending 11 episodes (? not counting 14.04 and the 300th) building up to nothing.

Look, I’ve never been a fan of the whole Michael!Dean storyline but holy fuck if they were gonna make almost a whole season about it they should have put more thought into it and it’s a real shame cause Jensen gave that character his all. I s2g he put more thought into that fucking storyline that Dabb and the writers did. 

Even without that ending, there’s really nothing special about this episode, I found the case boring, I wish Jack had gotten to properly interact with the boys instead of him pretty much interacting only with Castiel which this episode had way too much of him for really no reason he’s fucking useless and was unnecessary, the whole thing didn’t really flow together very well. This is not the worst episode Dabb and co. have given us but it’s not something I would consider watch worthy, all the positives can be enjoyed through gifs and clips on youtube, same with the important parts so I wouldn’t recommend this episode. If you wanna check it out I suggest using it as background noise cause it’s not worth your sole attention. 

[illgiveyouahint]

me trying to figure out what was the name of the two gay guys in that tv show whose name I also cannot recall