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“Are you crying?” Fina exclaims in alarm. Tsurumi is equally startled when he wipes at his face and his hand comes away wet. Not once had he shed tears, not even when he’d lost them. Pulling a chair up to him, Fina dries his cheeks with soft dabs of her handkerchief. With her hand on his shoulder and her beautiful, bright eyes soft with more love than Tsurumi can bear, she waits for an explanation that he cannot give.
gnawing on "theatre" by Saengak again... it's free serotonin to me
#when I said I'm not above fix-it fics a while ago I meant this one specifically#it's incomplete but just complete enough for my peace of mind <3#it's also really fun to think about how this setup could've played out#I mean. could Tsurumi have saved his men from whatever fucked them up to begin with this time advantage#(I know he realistically wouldn't care to sfjkhdsfjds let me speculate)#tsukishima should be easy. ogata...possible I think#best course of action with usami is to stay away imo#koito family though? I don't think it's fixable without intense mind games.. (assuming Heinojou's death is unavoidable)#neglectful grieving father is better than dead father but Koito would probably grow up a lot more miserable#omom#golden kamuy#tsurumi tokushirou#hasegawa fina#hasegawa kouichi#hasefina#tsurufina#fic fanart#not much but egh
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Have a late valentines gift from the automaton au guys♡ they love you
(I love you too)
#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#sundrop#moondrop#dca#daycare attendant#dcamv#my art#automaton au#hi i am alive#sorry i am still not much better.... i am feeling pretty egh but i am proud to say this was something i felt good about drawing#so things are looking up i guess#i might still need to take things slowly#no projects no drawing things because i feel like i have to deliver something#just drawing because that makes me happy#lets see were that takes me
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nine roses for my darling 💜💙
#lust!sans#skelesona#mblue art#lavender#indigo#happy v-day ! managed to doodle despite feeling egh today haha :'')#i miss them very much so#havent drawn them for a long time :'')#just realized the purple roses form an N somewhat; owh my heart i didnt even notice that...#LN
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Happy birthday Ebenholz!!
#arknights#arknights fanart#ebenholz#ebenholz arknights#my art#illustration#watercolor#ngl i really hate this & how it turned out but. it is my goat boy's bday so it can be posted i guess#aka me spending way too much in my class learning watercolors drawing my favorite little blorbo#idk have this im still very egh about it
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I at once spurred alongside Raffles, as he rode, bronzed and bearded, with warworn wideawake over eyes grown keen as a hawk’s, and a cutty-pipe sticking straight out from his front teeth. I can see him now, so gaunt and grim and debonair, yet already with much of the nonsense gone out of him, though I thought he only smiled on my misgivings. -The Knees of the Gods
#letters from bunny#crime and cricket#aj raffles#lfb#tbh i struggle to have fun w this one#especially in this middle bit where its just War Adventure Story like. egh#i like a lot of it a lot as like. a narrative and what it does for bunny and raffles' arcs#but the colonialism/patriotism is just so much#and its not even like jubilee cup where its at least silly and fully fictional#its a real conflict that was pointless and cruel#idk its frustrating bc theres a lot of KNEE that i care abt very much but. ughghgh i wish it wasnt what it is yk#edit fwiw ik a lot of these tags r negative and also notnrly relevant to the drawing sjdjdh#at the end of the day i Do like knee and i like how this drawing turned out !#its just wat i was thinking abt while working on it#and looking up refs for the uniform especially#british military history is uhhh bad?
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ngl i just wanna archive this blog 🧎🏽♀️
#sttoru chats.#it’s been on my mind fr#like i don’t find any joy in writing anymore tbh 😭 it feels like so much energy is being drained from me when i write#like for the past two to four months#i have to force myself to find motivation#i dont wanna deactive bcs my fics are gnna get deleted and i dont have em saved anywhere#i wanna quit tumblr#its just so egh#i have a life to focus on#and then theres ppl who ask me for a part 2 in my inbox continously or wjo remind me of old drafts#im TIRED MAN
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*taps mic*
... Hello? Empty auditorium? Yeah, okay.
Welcome to Second Chance!
*cough* ow
A roleplay discord server inspired by the traffic series (Double Life and Last Life for the most part).
We don't have a minecraft server, but we have... imagination?
For the most part, this life or death game will depend on promises and trust between our characters! The more trustworthy you are (and the less trust you break), the more likely you are to survive. The "boogeyman" we're familiar with will be replaced by the "hyena", who will have to kill one of their allies so as to not end up on their last life.
More information in the discord server itself! We already have a good amount of people in, but new faces are very much welcome! (In fact, this is the second time I'm trying to advertise here... ough.)
We hope to see you there! ^–^
p.s. (because i genuinely forgot to include this): you can join by dming me and asking for the invite.
#trafficblr#trafficsona#hermitcraft#hermitblr#grian hermitcraft#grian#traffic series#life series#all life series#double life#double life smp#last life#last life smp#third life#third life smp#i'm only gonna tag this much. egh.#text
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i say this as a astarion fan who loves him to death— stop giving him content. i know the new patch tended to everyone’s shit but…to add more content to the companions who already had hours and hours upon content whilst wyll and minthara fans are left in the dust is crazy. the content disparity is jarring when wyll only has 8 hours worth of content and astarion has like 12+. like huh.
the pandering is too on the nose man. how many people have to point this out and regurgitate themselves over and over again only for this company who supposedly listens to their fanbase ignore these complaints.
#is the white gamerbase really this loud.#please. focus on wyll and karlach and minthy. Make them able to match up to the others and make them worthwile to pursue without getting#disheartened by lack of content#bg3#sleeptalking#astarion is my favorite character. he did not need to be a sun king or whatever the fuck#i dont even think evil astarion enjoyera like that. what is that.#there is so much you can do with wyll. please. larian. please#egh i downloaded the game again to have some fun but honestly imma go back to playing elden ring for now
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i haven’t made jojo art in so long TwT just wanted to make something cool and edgy yeah
#mayor doidles#fanart#jojo’s bizarre adventure#jjba#jojo no kimyō na bōken#jojo#jojo part 5#vento aureo#risotto nero#digital art#cell shaded#i was very much on autopilot making this one. just wanted to make A Thing#it’s one of those days ya know#which is why the shading in some areas is Utter Nonsense#that’s just how my cell shading and heavy line work tend to go egh#i originally had the same composition planned but for miku (specifically how she appears in utsup’s ‘ga’)#but i’ve been drawing miku so much lately that i wanted to go somewhere else for a change#resident edge lord rizzy was the second character to come to mind#art#artists on tumblr#la squadra#jojo fanart
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mmfmmgmgmmmgmhm I fucking love the detail of ennard’s last resort towards the end of the (private room) 5th night being to FUCKING USE ELIZABETHS VOICE TO TRY AND CONVINCE MICHAEL TO GIVE UP AUGHADJD. Like. Dude would not have heard his sisters voice in years so. AUGH. It just really shows how little there was left of Elizabeth versus Baby. If that makes sense???? Like, Elizabeth is so far gone from her own humanity at that point, and probably integrated far too much with Baby’s programming to kill (plus Baby’s desire to get out of the facility no matter what), that Elizabeth/Baby resorts to using her own voice to try and get Michael to do what she wants. God I fuckigng love SL’s fifth night HUAGAGCVJHHF
#there’s so much to ramble about and not enough ability to form the right words in my head :’)#hhhfggjhjgkvkgk#elizabeth afton#circus baby#ennard#michael afton#sister location#fnaf#egh fuck u I’ll tag em all anyway I don’t rly care bc I’m too tired rn#screm into space
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ermaid
#uncertain abt various coloring choices so things may be subject to change#if/when i draw her again?#idk i had need for a much LESS human than saoirse character for various fics so i threw together a design#ive only got basic lore for her rn but yk#art#doodles#Melodie#shes not actually a mermaid shes a siren but i didnt know what else to do for the caption#egh
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hhmmnggg white lines or no? thoughts?? oh shit they got a thing for this kinda stuff now
#cant decide if its 2 much or not....#like cus its kinda messy n im not gonna clean it up lol so i feel the white makes the messiness more obvious? very contrasty#but also clearer n closer 2 canon?#egh#idk#rambles#poll
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tbh I feel like I would like bbc ghosts more if I hadn't heard so much about how it was so much better than that "awful" show I happen to also like
#don't get me wrong they're m children now!!! and I did thoroughly enjoy it#but idk I don't feel comfortable engaging with the fandom and I feel like watching stuff about it or whatever is me forcing myself#to because everyone likes it so much better than cbs ghosts#and I genuinely feel like I would like it more if I hadn't heard about how good it was :/#or maybe it's just bc I feel like I HAVE to like it sooo much better than cbs#idk#anyway I finished it today and I promise I did love it#but :/#cbs ghosts#ghosts cbs#ghosts#oasis's ghosts chatter#not tagging bbc since I don't appreciate negative stuff in tags I go through and this is kinds negative lol#I even feel bad saying this bc I do like it I just feel like I HAVE to assure ppl of that fact and egh
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actually having a massive dilemma bc of eurovision this year and its both ethical and personal. basically last year i went "ava you need a hobby" and i was like "goud is my hobby" and then i was like "something else ava" and so as my new years resolution was to get back involved in my drama society at uni. i miss performing so much. they had auditions for their first spot but i literally couldnt audition as there was no role for me and also i was in my hometown that weekend of auditions and had a concert the other night.
anyways they announced auditions for the open spot (which realistically funnily enough is where i'd pitch goud if i were to pitch goud but sometimes i feel i'll never be confident enough in myself to do that bc it is a very personal work to me at its core. also i'd need a co-director and i almost dont trust someone else with directing these characters) and i flipped through the thingy and what do you know? i can make auditions and there is a role for me. unfortunately i looked at the show dates and it happens to be a certain week in may.
with talk on the town of boycotting eurovision because of israel (which i do not support israel being there i always found it odd bc they arent europe and thats big words coming from an australian) and the ebu flipping around until the song deadline on whether or not to ban them, i have found myself less enthusiastic about this year compared to others. i was talking to someone about how israel (or the not finnish blue and white flagged place) basically is the elephant in the room hindering this, but even so, i only have a handful of entries i really put on repeat (netherlands, croatia, finland) from this year. so the whole situation is affecting my excitement for the event, and you'd think this would make it easier but its not. bc it still is my favourite event of the year and while i can participate in everything to do with the season, to do this and then not watch the finale is a waste to me. so now im at a dilemma with what to even do bc i'd love to be on stage again but it comes at a cost, and i'd love to watch eurovision but it also comes at the cost of a certain not finnish blue and white place being there.
so like, i made a list but this is somehow worse. bc like, i feel like i dont win either way.
watching it
i won't feel depressed bc eurovision is important to me and boycotting it will probs mean sacrificing a huge part of my mental health
i already have watching plans with someone
people in my life know me as the eurovision girl and will ask me about it / i hate being vocal like this (i think its bc people wont take me seriously and i struggle to articulate thoughts regardless especially in situations like that)
joost klein / i already know half the songs anyways
i will feel shit because of israel being there (i have already boycotted KAN and the entrant and their song regardless of what happens)
boycott
i'll probably still feel depressed bc its my favourite event of the year
if i dont watch it i can audition for the play and performing makes me happy just as much as eurovision/ i havent performed since pre amsterdam
can always watch later, however not the same and may get spoiled
anyways
thanks.
#i feel bad tho bc if i do get in to the play theres at least a 70% chance i'll have to say no#egh if only it was the week after#i submitted the first form but i havent booked a slot yet#its just if the auditions were after the ebu deadline this would be easier but i feel like i have to choose now#bc auditions are friday to tuesday#i could try and do both? semi one i will have no issue bc its on a wednesday morning and theres no show night before#ALSO if you're going to say to me 'ur a shit person for even having a dilemma' im probably going to block you#like im literally choosing between depression and guilt here and im not sure how much being on stage will distract me#eurovision#esc
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you have GOT to stop using chrome. switch to firefox
I WOULD! were it not hell for my sensory issues... Google sucks ass in every way but I am stuck here because i get overstimulated by UI changes so very easily.
#ask#if there were a way for me to completely copy my chrome theme over to firefox then i would switch in a heartbeat but as it stands... egh#it works so much better but!#my brain is stupid.
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recently been in love with the idea of f!morgan and lucina qpr and have enjoyed developing it in my headcanons. i decided to leaf through the fe awakening artbook (which i will tirelessly remind everyone i have) to see lucina and morgan's supports and maybe build something off of that.
turns out f!morgan can only support with lucina if lucina is her mother 🥲 BOOOOOOO
#mayor talk#fe#sometimes i forget you can romance the 2nd gen/'child' units :/#and that robin x lucina is a fairly popular ship#putting aside my hcs for robin [where robin would be lucina's uncle making the ship completely unfavorable]#i never liked robin x second gen... even if the second gen-ers are adults from the future or whatever#its kind of a headache to think about when you factor in that theyre time travelers too#but especially lucina since like..... lucina is a literal baby in the current timeline and robin has obviously seen her like that#i just do not like the implications robin x lucina has..... egh#i can only reason that lucina x robin is somewhat popular because it's sort of like m!chrobin if it was straight#['popular' idk maybe the opinion has shifted but ive seen a few folks suggest that lucina is the canon wife for mrobin which... no]#[no one has a canon partner in awakening. chrom x sumia is the most heavily encouraged but not really canon imo]#[as seen in heroes and them pairing chrom off with mrobin so they dont accidentally canonize a wife for chrom]#i wont make a huge stink if you ship mrobin x lucina since at the end of the day i dont really care that much about it#though i will probably avoid those that like it since i just cannot stomach it LMAO#*like it a little too much as in they primarily post/talk about it. yeah
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