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quarterlifekitty · 3 days ago

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more medieval fantasy au time! reader whose life sucks and wont be missed by anyone in the present life suddenly finds herself back in time after blacking out and being mistaken for the assassin who was given orders to kill any of the cod boys (or price becos he's my hubby). cod boys/price decides to keep her under their watch closely in case she makes any more attempts to kill them. love myself some slowburn enemy to lover shite <3

Fun fact about me. I enjoy that shite, played out isekai manga/manwha trope where a girl gets reborn into the story of her favorite dating simulator except she’s reborn as the villainess and has to try to use her knowledge of the game to change the story and avoid dying to the heroine or one of her many devoted love interests. But often her sudden change in personality piques the interest of one of those love interests…. Here’s a very dark hentai with a somewhat similar plot to this trope, if you’re interested! Ghost coded, imo. Noncon warning.

Anyways

Prince!Gaz doesn’t believe you when you say you weren’t trying to kill him, but he does believe you when you say it isn’t your fault. Poor thing. Must’ve been forced into it! You don’t have to worry about that anymore, he’ll keep you safe from whatever criminal underbelly manipulated you into doing this. He turns you into a bit of a pet project. A perfect rehabilitation of a criminal. It’ll be a brilliant morale boost. Maybe even more so if he takes you as his wife? Controversial, yet romantic— the bards will eat it up for sure.

Knight!Soap thinks it’s a bit fishy. Why go after him? Why not the captain of the guard? He’s kind of a dickhead, but he doesn’t make any personal enemies. He’s just gonna have to keep you until you fess up and tell him who hired you and what the motive was. And how lucky he is that the assassin they sent was so cute and squeezable, too! He doesn’t mind having to keep you.

Warlord!Ghost considers this an open proposal for marriage. He’s very much attracted to your gall and open animosity towards him. Both excellent qualities in a wife and a mother. Very well— he accepts!

Lord!Price can see that you’re not a natural born killer. This must have been your first time. Your attempt failed— so he won’t have you killed… he takes a look at you and decides that humiliation is a more fitting punishment. So he’ll be keeping you collared and on a leash for the foreseeable future.

Artificer!Nikolai can see what’s happened right away. You have the smell of otherworld clinging to you. You’re not from around here. But he’ll play along as if he doesn’t know that. As for your punishment… he’s been wanting an apprentice. Some cute little thing to help him around his workshop. Looks like you fit the bill on that.

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sttoru · 5 months ago

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ngl i just wanna archive this blog 🧎🏽‍♀️

#sttoru chats.#it’s been on my mind fr #like i don’t find any joy in writing anymore tbh 😭 it feels like so much energy is being drained from me when i write #like for the past two to four months #i have to force myself to find motivation #i dont wanna deactive bcs my fics are gnna get deleted and i dont have em saved anywhere #i wanna quit tumblr #its just so egh #i have a life to focus on #and then theres ppl who ask me for a part 2 in my inbox continously or wjo remind me of old drafts #im TIRED MAN

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hamandeggbun · 3 months ago

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I hope this isn't weird but I've been reading this by @batmanisagatewaydrug and I had like the sudden, strongest urge to make art properly for the first time in ages, so uhhhh have some Jessie (or Jess? Can I call her Jess because I love her?) who is a terrible wet cat of a woman!

I wanted to get this done fast and human anatomy is not my forte so I traced a picture of Natalie in the City, who's a fashion blogger and has some cute fits, though no supervillain ones as far as I'm aware :3

#ham art #i think jessie lies wetly fixed my art block?#after i started this it motivated me to finish off a little comic that's been in my drafts forever and post it and i've got anime fanart #rotating in my mind now! :D maybe i'll even finish off my valentine's unburied art from last year #also i know the tiny underboob window's wrong because she wears a bra that would render that salacious little bit of skin invisible #but i just could not resist #i hope i've done her justice!#jessie is the coolest and awfulest and i love her she's so fun to read thank u op #also i've come to the realization that if i'm just having fun drawing i don't actually have to do the parts that aren't fun i can skip that #if i find drawing human proportions and perspective in general stressful and just wanted to do the fun outfits and face/makeup and hair #i can do that! this is like. a hobby. so i don't need to laboriously force myself to get better at anatomy if i don't wanna #also also i was so pleased that i guessed ricochet's colouring correctly on the first try! (except i missed the freckles)

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binart · 10 months ago

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hi bina!!!!! I'm cackling at the fact that you popped up in my dash because of thick shiro. it's been a long time since I've seen you. I've missed you and your art so much!!! I hope you have been doing well!! <3

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hi!! :D

i've been doing a little better these days, thankfully! i'm glad i could grace your dashboard with The Man Himself.. B^) all of us could use more thicc shiro tbh.. hope you've been doing well too!! <3

#with my improved mood i find i'm able to motivate myself to draw more which is nice..#i have sooo much stuff i wanna make #like i had this idea of keith and lance going on vacation together on earth but on alien planets too and!! taking a bunch of selfies #and drawing those surrounded in like a polaroid type thing #i've done a couple so far and it's been fun! esp bc it forces me to practice backgrounds lol #binask

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fantomette22 · 9 months ago

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Sigh

It seems i’m what you guys says in english as « art block » and « writer block » since a while sorry for not doing much this last times.

And DS2 dlcs bosses are kicking my ass too 😩

#delete later #idk maybe i should force myself seriously but motivation is hard to find this last times #at least i still have all the great things i did archive here!#i wanna leave from there (current appartement and finish studies it will be better hopefully #also why so much shit is happening to my friends i hate it #also why people are so i don’t care about you anymore for some reason

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sapphire-heart-tippy · 1 year ago

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I'm back everyone! Just gonna take it easy for now. I still have some things to finish, and need to focus on my mental health. Just been distressed with anger and sadness, but I've been finding ways to soothe my negative emotions

#tippy rambles #weirdly enough coloring in coloring books helps me a lot- its a good distraction from the hurt /genuine #plus pretending vanilla is motivating me to do chores and take care of myself genuinely helps me out #although i will admit- i think one of the reasons for my mood is i have been forcing myself to keep my room clean every night and-#vacuum and do laundry every thursday... the adhd really disliked that. so maybe the rigid routine makes me feel trapped-#so im trying to find a way to keep my spaces clean consistently while at the same time not stressing out

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seventh-district · 5 months ago

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I'm probably far from the first person to say this, but you can't tell me that this song doesn't just scream Aventurine, c'mon.

#like. i don't even need to explain it do i. the lyrics are Right There they speak for themselves #aventurine #hsr aventurine #honkai star rail #hsr #Seven.txt #music stuff #panic! at the disco #p!atd #another song + character commentary post wow mayhaps i'll start making more of these but i fear people and their Opinions #but whatever. if i don't distract myself with a silly little tumblr post im gonna have a meltdown so. here. character commentary be upon ye #anyways listening to this and thinking of Aven gives me chills every single time i can't help it #as usual if u disagree feel free to keep that shit to yourself this is just my opinion let me have it in peace #Spotify #'oh but it's too Positive! he's actually miserable inside! he wouldn't embody this song that's just the mask he puts up!!!'#yeah ur right. and who said i wasn't talking about the mask #i'm not saying that this song embodies his truest self necessarily. but i think it does suit Some aspect of him #maybe the side that's trying to keep going. the side that picks him up off the floor and pushes himself out into the world day after day #forcing himself to find whatever scraps of hope he can hold onto. the song doesn't say '*Had* to have high hopes' for no reason #i dunno i'm just spitballin here. there's plenty of ways you can see Aven in this song. if u Want to #if you've never peeled urself off the bathroom floor and washed tears off your face while playing the most upbeat song you can find-#-to try and summon the motivation to keep going in spite of how u just spent 20mins wishing for it all to be over. well #well then u just can't understand my vision here

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angelicwolf98 · 6 months ago

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#why am I such a disappointment #it’s like I do nothing right #I just told my dad that I applied for a part time tutoring position #I was proud of myself #been struggling to find a job #yet what does he do #goes off on me #about not getting a job this summer #says I really disappointed him #I’m trying to find a teaching job #this is my last summer before I’m full force in the work force #I just wanted to enjoy that freedom #don’t have much on my resume #but only cause my parents said a job could wait #as long as I’m in school #didn’t mention that rule #didn’t apply for graduate school #i’m trying #i’m really trying #but it’s hard to get motivated #i feel like I’m never enough #and can’t share the things I’m proud of #cause then he just goes off on me #and it makes me feel so worthless #so stupid #such a disappointment #nobody cares though #26 unemployed and uninsured #just needed to rant

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sorikkung · 7 months ago

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people interacting w wgoin in my notes... this would be a rly bad time to say all my writing will probably be on hiatus for the indefinite future huh

#not like it makes a practical difference considering i only upload twice a year at best #but im realising how much my writing is shame motivated and its just not sustainable or healthy #it saddens me that these stories i invested So much time and effort into will probably never get finished #i wanna hold out hope that they will but #i dont want anyones expectations to be too high #bc knowing myself they probably wont #i started wgoin thinking that this would be the story i commit to finishing and not just abandon as soon as i get bored #but that was before i had really realised how my brain works #and for a while writing these chapters have felt very forced #gbgb had a much better run till it crashed and i was just unable to pick it back up #tbh that one could potentially still be saved bc of how open ended it is if i get any inspo for it back whatsoever #bc it had no strict plan i was entirely making it up as i go #and im realising thats how i write best. i tried to plan wgoin so id commit to finishing it but im realising that has the opposite effect #if i plan anything too thoroughly writing it becomes like gnawing on lead #cause i got all the dopamine out of the idea already #i write best when i have nothing but a vague idea or a vibe #gbgb crashed bc i ran out of vibes and ideas but if i find any again who knows #there is the possibility where i scrap the plan i had for wgoins entire plot and make the rest up as i go #which i might try purely bc i love the story sm #and i think i enjoyed writing it most back in the first three parts where i Was making it up as i went #which is why im saying indefinite hiatus instead of discontinued #bc there is hope for them. just not. much #so if u stick around maybe follow me on ao3 if u dont wanna see all my posts n just my stories #maybe in 3 years time youll see another wgoin notif or sumn #sorry to the small but dedicated handful of readers who really loved these fics #i wanted to write more for you guys bc ik its hard to find this kinda fic anywhere else; its why i started writing it #but i am but one unmedicated autist w severe adhd. we r working on the unmedicated part tho #ive learned so much abt how my brain functions now n how to make the most of it tho #i told myself id finish any new writing before i post it. so know anything new Will be complete :3 #mischiefing time

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chewwykeys · 1 year ago

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Jul 30 2023: Got this recorded today, it’s kind of sloppy and I need to work on my RH accuracy and pay more attention to what my LH is doing, I also need more control over the tempo. After the first refrain of the main theme right at the beginning I let the LH eighth notes get uneven and it speeds up a lot which is a part of the sloppiness. Happy with it overall though, definitely the best recording I’ve gotten of this section so far. I’ve been doing a lot more intensive practice on my scales and it’s been paying off.

#idk what I’m gonna this shit as iwjdoddokapcodj #idk I’ll leave it for now #I have this really great book of training exercises #and like… whenever I use it consistently I see AMAZING results. sometimes I kinda wish my teacher would just force me to do drills #good to have to find the motivation myself ig

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carcarrot · 1 year ago

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i become a director and leave it until the day before the theatrical release to make my movie

#what will happen if i continue to be bad at planning and good at procrastination #my last like. 3??? sparkstembers have been done in like an hour the very DAY i am posting them #while i am at work.#however this is forcing me to become good at doing editing n stuff quickly #but also still make it look good! or as good as i can #i would be doing more work and trying to get ahead if i could #but my mobile hotspot stopped working w my laptop for some reason so now i cant work on the bus rip #ive got to get back to being ahead of schedule but ough!!!!! finding motivation and inspiration hard #im slowly very slowly incorporating me myself into these. today's im doing a silly voiceover #for a couple future ones i may make a guest appearance because i cant help myself.#also once im done w all of these FINALLY im gonna make something terrible in time for russ's birthday

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bigboysteveharrington · 2 years ago

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Why must my writing motivation primarily strike late at night?

#I have stayed up longer than I should have and I got over 1k of chapter 27 of The Things in Life That I Can't Find written but now I'm #forcing myself to stop writing and go to sleep while knowing my brain is on pique motivation mode #Mine

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