#not just a dream but a song within a dream that easily compares to the blorbos 🐙

[hwnglx]

pick a pile - you in your own eyes vs. you in your fs' eyes

welcome lovely reader! let's take a peak into how you view yourself, compared to how your future lover will view you. breathe slowly, take your time and use your intuition to go with the pile that speaks to you the most. remember to take what resonates, and leave what doesn't. 𓆩♡𓆪

°❀⋆.pile 1ೃ࿔*:･

you in your own eyes

you see yourself as someone who isn't very easily impressed or satisfied. you might struggle with chronic pessimism and seeing the brighter side of things sometimes and seem aware of it. you are manifesting a better life for yourself.

you might lack substantial belief and trust in yourself to do well, and see yourself as someone who's more of capable of hoping and wishful thinking, rather than courageously taking the initiative and acting on your desires.

you believe you don't have the needed tools to follow your dreams just yet (financially, mentally or in terms of maturity) you also might be afraid of change; this could result in a habit of just staying in your comfort zone in the end.

you might see yourself as someone who's still too immature and inexperienced. not sure why this came through, but some of you might even think that you just aren't overly smart. (spirit is telling me you're wrong!) you might feel like a late bloomer who's been a little stagnant in their life or slower in your growth compared to others. a lot of comparing yourself to other people here.

i heard “dreamer with a heavy heart” from the song cruel world by faye. perhaps you could connect to that song; it talks about feeling like the world just challenges you continuously, but the dreamer inside of you remaining alive despite the hurt.

you might think that you're quite alone in this world. someone who's just used to being on your own, doing things on your own. you see yourself as a person who tries lighting their own path instead of relying on anyone else.

you see yourself as someone who's constantly wishing to learn from the things that life throws at you, and turning every life lesson into something that helps you grow.

you might experience fomo sometimes; fear of missing out.

it does seem as if you're still trying your best to hold on to this glimmer of hope within you.. you're aware that you're someone who could make it happen, if only they took a leap of faith.

you're very humble, dedicated and eager to learn at heart, so deep down you acknowledge that the potential and desire is there. you just aren't sure how to translate it into reality.

i think you're in the midst of slowly healing from negative experiences, which have had a profound impact on you. you're trying to practice self-forgiveness and letting go of the past, but still might struggle with self-doubts and insecurities.

you in your fs' eyes

your fs will see you as someone resilient with a strong personality, who's had to endure a lot of challenges and conquer many obstacles in their life. this gave you thick skin.

they might look at you as a person who wasn't as easy to get to, because you do have your walls up at first, and people need to prove themselves to you before they can get past them. they look at you as someone who's protective of their own space, and doesn't allow people to access them as easily.

their first impression might consist of seeing you in snappy defensive mode, where you had to stand up for yourself.

they'll think that you're someone independent who challenges the status quo; focused on first and foremost, going after what you set yourself up to, unafraid to stand out and be different. a person who's more interested in following their own rules, instead of joining the crowd or blending in.

your fs looks at you as a person who's determined to build their own financial stability and independence before relying on anyone else to do it.

which is interesting, because i do think this person could be relatively well off and wanting to provide you, but you don't seem very interested in basking in anyone else's money.

they could see you as marriage material quite quickly and think about building a future together, but soon after might realize you're not someone eager to jump into a commitment as such, if you don't feel secure in yourself first.

this has the potential to humble them quite a bit, and awaken the realization that you're someone more self-sufficient; and if anyone feels the desire to be with you, they gotta remain patient and consistent in their efforts.

you seem like a person who can make people work for your attention in order to understand the value of it, which your fs is likely to take notice of and feel even more intrigued by.

it's possible your fs isn't really used to people playing hard to get with them, which is why you might stand out a lot.

°❀⋆.pile 2ೃ࿔*:･

you in your own eyes

you see yourself as artistic, creative, passionate and warm.

you might believe that you're the type of person who's quite sure of what they want in material or financial terms, ready to realize your ambitions and goals in a bold manner; but with a soft spot when it comes to their emotional world.

like you usually have a strong character, but some sappy little things might still get you all sensitive, teary-eyed and emotional. some of you might be a little embarrassed about this too. (don't be, it's very endearing)

i feel like some of you might have fire suns with water moons

you might see yourself as a dreamy person, who's in love with the concept and idea of being in love. someone who often finds themselves seeking romance and everything it entails.

you look at yourself as a person who tries to find beauty in everything they do; just loving to romanticise life and its little things. you might love and identify a lot with art, music, etc.

at the same time, you seem to be aware of how you definitely are not as easy as you appear to be, and for sure find yourself cautious of people trying to take advantage of you.

like i see you as a person who can be willingly delusional sometimes just to beautify life a little bit, but absolutely not as a person who's easily fooled or played with.

it's almost like the more people get to know you, the easier it is for them to spot your more sensitive and soft side. the rest might see more of your more fiery and strong sides, since that's usually how you present yourself to the outside.

it seems like as time went on, you've learnt to be more wary of people's motives and intentions, and understood the importance of cultivating clear boundaries in terms of how closely you connect to others, and how much you let them in.

you can have your outgoing and social moments, but it's likely you've become good at keeping a healthy inner distance to a lot of people you're surrounded by; almost like making them believe they're your friend, when in your eyes they're not really.

you also might see yourself as someone who's not afraid to fight when necessary; a person who will not allow others to step all over them. you'll step over them twice as hard.

i see a lot of this inner fierceness inside of you coming from potential trust issues; not always feeling like everyone has your best interests at heart. you might have been betrayed a few times, which has taught you to be more cautious, and just keeping certain, more personal things to yourself.

you in your fs' eyes

your fs sees you as a vibrant and charismatic person, who has this very radiant and captivating presence to them.

they might feel like the world stops whenever they look at you; you make everyone and everything else feel less important.

their first impression is likely to consist of you being this attractive, charming and confident person, who has an inspiring and intriguing effect on them.

similarly to pile 3, they're likely to look at you as a person who's quite different to them in a variety of ways; whether that's your ethnicity, culture, views, beliefs, lifestyle, upbringing.

your fs sees in you, someone who can pull this spark of energy and motivation out of situations others would feel sad about.

like the type of person who's just eager to gets the spirits up if the mood ever gets too gloomy and negative.

they look at you as a bright and powerful person, who doesn't like dwelling on the past and isn't easily beat down by their losses, but on the contrary, sees them as an opportunity for a new and potentially even better start.

example, they might watch you go through a break up and wonder how much it'd affect you emotionally, just for you to get back up and appear as confident and vibrant as ever.

you're giving a person who has the best break-up glow ups.

like you wanna prove to whoever lost out on you, that it in no way is your loss, but definitely is theirs. it's giving princess diana black revenge dress.

as the connection progresses, it's likely for your fs to see you more and more as someone they'd want to settle down and start a family with.

for my girls out there; your fs might quite literally, want you to be the mother of their children. they're likely to look at you as someone who has great potential to be a mother, because you're so multi-facetted and wellrounded.

in your fs eyes', not only are you a strong, independent and self-sufficient character who's capable of confidently taking charge of situations, but you're also immensely nurturing, caring and kind towards the people dearest to you.

they think that you hold a lot of empathy and genuine love for the special people in your life, and have this natural ability to make them feel understood, and taken care of.

i thought of this moment when justin bieber talked about seeing hailey bieber with a baby and thinking “she is the one.”

also, this keeps coming through; they just think you're beautiful. like.. so so pretty. they might stare at you a lot.

“i could look at you all day and never get sick of the sight.”

°❀⋆.pile 3ೃ࿔*:･

you in your own eyes

you see yourself as a bit of a lone-wolf, someone who doesn't feel understood by many people, and doesn't really feel like they always fit into too many places.

a person who's in continuous search of their true belonging, and their spot where they feel safe and comfortable.

you think of yourself as a deep, reflective and introspective person who seeks profound understanding of yourself and life. you might be aware of how you need alone-time, as well as times of peace and quiet to recharge.

you long to find your own identity and true purpose, outside of what other people want or expect from you.

some of you might even feel the desire to move overseas in hopes that the change of environment could help you step into your power and strength more. there's some feelings of.. feeling like you're not where you should be, and believing that your current environment doesn't serve you. this isn't where you see your best self thriving and blossoming.

some of you might be using your spirituality to manifest a better life, and spend a lot of time on the internet trying to find guidance and ways to manifest your dream life.

you simply do not see yourself as a person, who's okay with just allowing others to take control of what you do, or your life.

you see yourself as a very driven person, who once they set their mind to something, absolutely have to get it done. like tunnel vision, this is what i want and nothing else.

while at the same time, you usually aren't someone who acts on a completely impulsive whim; you try your best to make all your decisions based on logic and reason.

you might recognize yourself as being a fairminded person, who's eager to balance your focus on your goals and your strong determination, with the importance to remain responsible and just in the way you get there.

there might be a struggle in you, between following the path you deem as best for yourself, while also making sure the people around you don't have to suffer because of it.

this dilemma between serving yourself, and serving others.

the dilemma between standing out, and fitting in.

you're strong, pile 3.. i know the road here wasn't easy, but you're persevering and doing an absolutely applaudable job.

you in your fs' eyes

your fs will view you as someone who's quite different to them. a person who's like a breath of fresh air.

they might notice that you hold beliefs different to them, proceed with things differently or approach certain situations differently, and therefore intrigue them majorly.

they'll look at you as a person who can transform them. someone who has the potential to change their life in a significant and impactful manner.

they also could see you as someone quite unpredictable, who always brings something new and fresh to the table.

your fs could be someone with masculine energy, potential earth sign. they're someone who's work-oriented, mature, possibly older than you in age, good with money and has a strong sense of responsibility.

they will see you as a person who's much more in tune with their emotions than them, and has this beautiful sense of empathy, and compassion for the people around them.

a loving person who supports others in a gentle and caring manner, and has a comforting and warm effect on them.

they will like how you bring this new sense of affection into their environment.

you could help them steer their gaze away from work work work, and make them believe in the beauty of love again.

like this person will literally have their fantasies awakened because of you. you will make them believe that soulmates are real, and that they finally found their person in you.

the puzzle piece they didn't know was missing in their lives.

it's almost like “how am i so attracted to pile 3.. when they're so different to me?” you'll quite literally have them wrapped around your finger.

this person might be someone who's usually quite stubborn and stuck in their ways, but something about your unique existence will change that; they'll want to understand someone else's opinions for a change.

they'll truly feel this desire to put themselves into your shoes and look at things from your point of view. you might quite literally teach them what empathy means.

both of you give the vibe of someone more independent, but are likely to change that for each other.

like you will make your fs want to be alone together with someone; that person will be you. and vice versa.

you'll find home in each other.

oh i could go on & on about this pile, the energy is so sweet

even as i started shuffling, i already began going into full on dreamy lovey-dovey 🥰 mode

[artist-issues]

Disney doesn't need to change "the formula." That's the last thing that Wish proves.

What Wish proves is that "the formula" only works when you know why the ingredients are in it, and you use them the correct way.

The Princess Character is meant to wish for only half of the movie's message, and go through an adventure that teaches her what the other half is; what her dream was missing. Ariel dreamed of understanding but she was missing love. Tiana dreamed of achieving her goals but she was missing faith. Jasmine dreamed of freedom but she was missing trust. Belle dreamed of adventure but she was missing being understood.

The Villain is meant to highlight the opposite of the movie's message. Jafar gets what he wants through trickery and manipulation; that's the opposite of Aladdin's "truth will set you free" message, and he gets imprisoned in a lamp. Scar thinks being a King is having his way all the time and can't learn from his past of living in Mufasa's shadow; that's the opposite of The Lion King's "Let the past remind you of your responsibility to selflessness." Gaston loves only himself and is always obsessed with appearances; that's the opposite of Beauty & the Beast's "true love is found within a heart of self-sacrifice." That's what makes them such good villains. (and that clear direction is what drives good villain songs, since Magnifico's is what everyone is talking about)

The sidekick is supposed to compare/contrast with the main character's qualities. Abu is a greedy thief, which is what everyone in Agrabah thinks Aladdin is; when he scolds Abu and teaches him selflessness, it shows us who Aladdin actually is. Flounder is easily frightened and looks at the glass half-full; when Ariel coaxes him and leads by example, we see her bravery and positivity reflected in Flounder's tiny character arc. Timon & Pumbaa do whatever they want all day just like young Simba always dreamed of; when Simba goes to live with them, he finds that "getting his way all the time" makes him forget who he really is and feel empty.

The setting is supposed to show off the characters and highlight the movie's message. Rapunzel's tower is designed to be pretty on the inside because of her influence; if it were too dark and prison-shaped, we'd wonder why she didn't work up the courage to leave sooner. Just like how Quasimodo has made his corner of the bell-tower beautiful, too; they're taught the world is cruel and they're not strong enough for it, but they make their own worlds beautiful enough to hint that that's wrong right from the start. Ariel's grotto is shaped like a tower with no roof so that she only has one window to the forbidden Surface, and it's the light that comes from that forbidden world into her dark grotto which literally makes her able to see human things differently. Tiana's apartment has no interesting features except her father's picture, a perfectly made bed, a drawer with no extra outfits but stuffed with tip money, and only two dresses; both of which are for work.

None of that is happening in Wish, because they didn't know why the formula ingredients are there. Disney needs to understand and return to the formula the right way; forgetting it was what got them here.

Asha learns nothing to add to her dream, unless you count "the power to grant wishes is in me." Which you shouldn't, because we didn't even know she was confused about that until the animals sang a song that was completely off-topic and she had the chance to jump in and sing "I'm a Star!"

Magnifico does not demonstrate the opposite of Wish's message effectively because his character has nothing to do with a philosophy against making wishes, and everything to do with power. (He is the strongest character in the film. But because the message and core concept of what wishes are are so bad, that's not saying much.)

Valentino, and Asha's friends, do not highlight anything about her character through compare/contrast. Valentino is brave and all over the place. Her friends are seven-dwarfs parodies. Happy, Doc, Sneezy, Dopey, Bashful, Sleepy, Grumpy. None of that contrasts with Asha's vague characterization of "cares too much." None of it compares to that characterization, either.

The setting is empty. There are no interesting details that teach you something about any of the characters. None in Asha's home, none in the neat-and-tidy one-dimensional forest, none in the Rosas square, and none in the bland, empty castle. Magnifico's study is the closest anything gets; there's a loose concept that all of Asha's friends have to work together to open the roof, and take a leap of faith to weigh the pulley system down. Unfortunately, none of these characters is shown struggling to work together, OR to take leaps of faith, at all, before this point.

The ingredients of the formula are in Wish. They're just not being used correctly. This is how not to use the formula; it's not the formulas fault. If it ain't broke. They should never have let people convince them to try and fix it.

[octoooo]

The hoodie is met with mixed results

Sbgy prongle kiss scribble

[ginxyy]

Loving the Leader

My soulmate Seungcheol

The first time I met Seungcheol, it was in the bustling corridors of our shared world, a place filled with laughter and the melodic harmonies of dreams taking flight. He was the anchoring force within the chaotic swirl of music, his laughter like the sun cutting through clouds on a gloomy day. As the leader of Seventeen, he commanded respect effortlessly, his presence unfolding like a well-rehearsed choreography that required no practice. Yet, beneath that authoritative exterior lay a man who could turn ordinary moments into the sweetest memories.

Our journey began quietly, in shared glances that seemed to dance as subtly as the morning light filtering through the curtains. I was there, in the background, often invisible, but somehow, every time I stepped into the same space as Seungcheol, I could feel the vibrancy of his energy wrapping around me like a soft, warm blanket. He would tease me about my propensity to get lost in thought, stating that I was as easily distracted as one of his younger members. In his trademark bossy manner, he’d chastise me playfully for the meals I skipped, insisting that I needed to eat to keep up with his whirlwind lifestyle.

“It’s not just me. The boys need you as much as I do,” he would say, his tone half-serious, half-mischievous, his brow furrowing just enough to let me know he meant what he said.

Every meal with Seungcheol became a ritual in caring. He’d whip up something simple yet delicious, his hands deftly moving through the kitchen while I would sit at the table, my heart swelling at the sight. Watching him in the kitchen felt like witnessing a performance a show of domesticity that weaved through the air with comforting aromas and animated banter. “A leader cannot run on empty,” he'd tease, as I picked at my food, and I could hardly deny the truth. There was something inherently nurturing about him, something that made me feel like the mothering presence in a fraternal household. His authority melted seamlessly into affection, pushing me to look after the other members, too.

Days flowed in and out like waves, each one richer than the last, each moment like an emotion wrapped in silk and presented with a flourish. Our evenings often found us sprawled on the couch, both exhausted after long days. Seungcheol would pick up a guitar, fingers lightly brushing the strings, filling the air with melodies that encapsulated all the unsaid words blooming between us. I’d lean my head against his shoulder, letting the music carry me away, feeling so acutely that here, in this intimate cocoon, we truly belonged to one another.

But love is never devoid of challenges. The busyness of our lives often pulled us in different directions. While he strategized for a performance, I’d be coaching the younger members on concepts of “emotional coordination” as he liked to call it emphasizing that each song needed a tale, a muscle of emotion that could only be expressed when they truly felt it. It was important work, but nothing could compare to the time I craved with him.

One chilly evening, months into our relationship, Seungcheol surprised me with a chance to escape the bustling world for a quiet evening under the stars. We drove to a secluded hilltop, our laughter echoing within the silence that enveloped us as we sat atop the car, taking in the sprawling view of the city that felt like an artist’s palette scattered with jewels. “Just look at how beautiful this is,” he said, his voice soft, and I couldn’t help but steal a glance at him bathed in moonlight, his eyes sparkled with dreams and warmth.

“I think it’s even more beautiful up here with you,” I admitted, feeling a blush creeping into my cheeks. I’d never been particularly good with words, but he understood me without the need for elaborate sentences his confident smile told me he appreciated my shyness, just as much as he appreciated this stolen moment.

Our fingers found each other, intertwining with a familiarity that spoke of comfort and longing alike. The stars above twinkled mischievously, providing an audience to our unspoken vows. In that beautiful expanse, he turned towards me, brushing a stray hair from my face and leaning in closer, our breaths mingling in the cold night air. I closed my eyes as he whispered my name like a prayer, and then, the world fell away. It was just us, and the world became a canvas upon which we painted our love.

As we navigated the intricacies of our burgeoning relationship, he would take me to practices. Positioned in the background, it often felt like I was both a part of the team and above it. I watched him lead with grace, his voice commanding yet soothing, and I could hardly help but beam with affection, feeling proud of the man who balanced responsibility with joy.

“But remember,” he’d remind me with a mock-seriousness. “If I’m the leader, you’re basically the mom.” I would laugh, playfully rolling my eyes, but somewhere deep down, I realized he was right. There was a symbiotic rhythm to this dance we had choreographed a push and pull, him bringing out the best in me while I made sure he didn’t forget his own needs amidst the chaos.

Over time, my heart burgeoned, nourished by his attention, his playful authority, and the undeniable tenderness that lay beneath his bossy exterior. Our love was not just a whisper of romance but a resounding promise the kind that binds souls through thick and thin.

Life became less of a challenge and more of a waltz with Seungcheol, beautifully imperfect yet profoundly deep. With every meal shared, every laugh exchanged, and every stolen kiss under the star-lit sky, I understood what it truly meant to be in love with a man like him. Together, we flowed as seamlessly as harmonies in his songs, crafting our unique symphony. And in my heart, I couldn’t help but feel whether he led us through the chaos or simply held my hand amidst the mundane that we were not just two people lost in love but a tightly-knit team ready to face the world together.

[orchideous-nox]

The Amazing Devil are underrated storytellers

Like I'm sure many people did, I discovered alt-folk band The Amazing Devil through Joey Batey as a fan of The Witcher. Someone on TikTok was talking about the song Fair and how the actor who plays Jaskier (or Dandelion, depending on preference of material) from The Witcher sang it.

Instantly, I knew I had to listen to this song and I sat with it on repeat for an hour, picking through references and laughing at how pure and simple the love conveyed in those words was. It's the kind of love you dream of, where your partner completes you and life without them seems impossible. A love that goes beyond you both, as if there was no choice but to fall for one another. It's not pretentious or impossible to understand. It's universal and I fell in love with it.

Months later, I found Battle Cries, a song of overlapping whimsies. It tells the tale of two lovers ending their relationship and trying to find pieces of calmness in the uproar of their breakup, comparing it to a war not just between each other but within themselves. There a metaphors deeply woven within the lyrics and each line is magic as Joey and Madeleine sing over each other, words occasionally syncing up, representing the way they struggle to feel in tune with each other at the end of their relationship.

Battle Cries lead me to Marbles, the story of a couple where one of them is suffering from memory loss, the trials and tribulations of watching the person you love forget who they are and who you are too. It is a beautifully told story that feels so genuine, making me wonder how close to home the inspiration was. This song is an absolute guarantee at tears while also making you laugh.

Ruin came to me next, as wells as Drinking Song for the Socially Anxious and The Horrors and The Wild, three songs with such incredibly different vibes that don't just need to be listened to but thoroughly devoured.

Finally, a song I can never praise enough, Inkpot Gods. This song brings together so many ideas and images I love. Again, it is heavy on its use of metaphors but contains one of my favourite references they have ever used. The song discusses the love you can hold for another person and the lengths you will go to so you can protect them. It talks of breaking generational expectations and being there for someone when they can't defend themselves.

The best part of Inkpot Gods, however, is the Lord of the Rings reference where Madeleine sings "you might not fear a man//but to a woman by the end you'll kneel and plead". This is popularly theorised to be about Eowyn in The Return of the King and the line "I am no man" she speaks as she ends her foe's life, a show of her strength not despite of her gender. Easily the best line of the trilogy to me, and hearing it in song form cements this, following it with "I'm more than what my mum told me", breaking this tradition what what a woman can or should be.

While Joey Batey was the draw to The Amazing Devil's music for me, Madeleine has kept me there, she has such a beautiful voice and her and Joey together have made some stunning music that I will always love. They tell these fantastic stories within a few minutes, creating characters worthy of epic tales and narratives so deep and complex it leaves you thinking for long after.

[moonchildridden]

ThamePo’s Episode 11. Let’s talk about it

So, I am currently stuffing myself with everything sugary I can find in my kitchen to replenish myself for the amount of energy that I spent watching this episode and trying to calm myself down because my brain is just a cacophony of thoughts trying to make sense but failing miserably. I’m pretty sure I wont touch this episode again in my entire life, not even during my rewatch sessions because everything that happened was engraved in my brain in pure iron and I won’t forget so easily.

I had another post to write (and I still will write it) about ThamePo, but then this episode happened and everything went south in a matter of minutes. Suddenly, my main goal was not to gloat about Thame and how his surroundings shaped his visions of romantic relationships but how this episode was just a visual demonstration of the sabotage Pemika has been making with MARS since day 1. So, yeah, let’s talk about episode 11.

I won't make this post in the format you guys are used to when it comes to my thinking bits about something because I don't even have a clear idea to where to I even start talking about what’s been bugging me, leaving me to do things randomly and hope they make sense:

Pemika’s golden egg is solemnly Thame. Not even Ice, one of her most famous artists gets the “preference treatment” Thame gets, even if it’s not what Thame wants.

This is not something new, we saw this happening time and time again, since episode one, in how Pemika looks at Thame as Oner’s golden ticket to success and will do whatever it takes to make that happen, even if it means sabotaging her other artists. However, in this episode, alongside the last week’s one, made very clear that Pemika, as a CEO, has a very biased and tunnel vision when it comes to her business. For her, Thame is the only one worth investing, the only one worth saving, and the only one worth pushing higher, because is the one, according to her, responsible to push T-pop to new heights. In her hands, Thame it's just a pawn in a game he did not consented to play.

2. Because of that tunnel vision, she never really viewed MARS as what MARS was supposed to be seen as, a five member group, but rather as a stepping stone to make sure Thame could get the attention necessary to align with her plans.

Take what happened after the announcement of Thame’s korean debut: Dylan, who was never allowed to write songs to the company or have his songs recognized by the company, got the chance to write one song with a well known writer; Jun managed to get a lead role in a series/film; Nano got a couch assigned to help him improve his singing and raping. Those things happened very suddenly and in rapid succession, making me realize that Pemika has been withholding opportunities from the members of MARS, opportunities that would’ve helped them develop their talents within the group, because she needed to make the others appear as “weak” compared to Thame, because she wanted Thame to succeed and the other stay stagnant.

Don't get me started on the “I’m helping them archive their dreams by doing this” bullshit because she knew Nano needed to improve in other skills but refused to acknowledge that until Thame was dead locked in going to Korea. She knew Dylan wanted to write songs with other people but refused to let that happened until Thame was forced to leave the group. She knew Jun wanted to have lead roles but probably refused whatever offer was made to Jun regarding that until Thame was out of the picture. The fact that Pepper wasn’t even mentioned in having a specific thing attached to him can be a visual testament in how the company sees him a disposable person, that adds nothing to the group and it’s only there to make MARS be a five member group and nothing else.

What the rest of MARS got after Thame was pushed away was nothing more than a consolation prize, a way of her saying “see what happens when Thame does what I want? You get to have your dreams fulfilled”, because Pemika needs to use Nano, Jun, Dylan and Pepper’s dreams as a trading coin with Thame, as she knows Thame will ALWAYS choose MARS over his solo career.

One thing that occurred to me while having those epiphanies was the fact that all the rest of MARS got after Thame was pushed away could’ve been theirs sooner but Thame reuniting the group paused Pemika’s plan.

PEMIKA. USED. THEIR. DREAMS. AS. CONSOLATION. PRIZES. Change my mind.

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I know I mentioned about Pemika’s sabotage of MARS as the main subject of this post but there’s few more things I would like to talk about the episode:

The words choices from Pemika (again!) when she talked with Po. I may be thinking like that because of the fact that ThamePo have a queer relationship and all that but the words “clean and pure” sounded a tad homophobic to me, specially considering the fact that she was trying to make a “cleanse” on Thame’s image to go to Korea. Again, I can be reading too much into it (not only because of ThamePo but also because me, myself, being queer) but if you guys can bring another interpretation to those words that don't go into homophobic territory, I would appreciate it a lot.

Po and Baifern’s talk, where she explained her feelings towards Thame’s “departure” from the group. She talked about how, no matter how sad she became after the news broke, she couldn't impose her needs on Thame, because as a fan she needed to focus on what was best for him as a person/artist and not what he thought was the best for him; now, tell me, where was that rational thinking when Pepper’s “scandal” happened and she simply decided to close the fanbase because “her feelings as a fan got hurt”. I am in to right to judge other people’s emotions regarding certain things but it irked me the way she could be so rational about Thame (because it was related to his professional life) but couldn't extend the same courtesy to her bias (because it was related to his personal life). Baifern is the fandom stand-in in the series and was used brilliantly to showcase the double standards fans have when it comes to their favorite artists.

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Now, onto things to turn this Friday night even more depressing:

- Thame was forced to watch his members break down in front of him, without having the power to change anything. Even if, this time, all of them saw how important MARS is for everyone, having to confront the news together, instead of second guessing the reasons to why their dreams were being cut again, the pain was doubled because it was live, there, for all of them to see it. Nano loosing it was like ripping my skin apart, being doused with gasoline and lit on fire after, pure diabolical.

- When Earn broke up with Po, he had Baifern to console him and be there for him, while Thame was left alone dealing with the aftermath of the shitshow that was his clash with the rest of MARS. Now, while Thame had MARS by his side, Po was left alone to heal because Baifern couldn't know that he had been dating Thame or it could make things even worse.

All in all, this episode was simply made to make us suffer. I wish I could show you guys actual footage of me crying my eyes out during the breakup scene for you to understand how painful it was to see all that unfold, Thame begging for Po to fight for them and Po having to turn his back on the man he loved, Po alone in his apartment, Thame walking until his house, crying, hurt and confused, trying to understand why things had gone south out of nowhere, being hugged by his members and then having all he wanted stripped away from him because Pemika decided that greed was more important for her than her artists. I hate how hollow and furious this episode made me feel and will need more than a week to forget all I felt today.

If you guys want a place to vent frustrations, cry or just reminisce how we spent a week freaking out because of ThamePo’s first kiss, I’m all eyes. That being said, please, take care of yourselves, I love all of you.

[sechsviciado]

when doves cry

reaperken/touka ; written circa nov/dec 2022

no warnings or ratings really?

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so after my slight reaperken/touka rambling yesterday i figured that i really have nothing to lose from posting this small snippet of a fic (oneshot??) thats been sitting in my google drafts for nearly the past two years; if this is crappy i can always just delete it but ive wanted to contribute a bit more to keep tokyo ghoul tumblr alive so i figure why not?

i felt so smart when i came up with the title since ken was a dove during that entire reaper arc until the events of cochlea. i didnt really pay attention to prince's lyrics in the song but looking back at it now i guess some apply? not really any inspiration was gained from it though, i just grew up with music from the 60s-90s so the title kind of came to my mind and it happened to be a prince reference. not really any ratings or warnings yet?? its nowhere near finished and im not sure if ill even finish it because i feel my writing heavily lacks.

anyway, without further ado

how many months had it been?

it had been months — years — since he recalled feeling this exact way. of course, haise had felt this way too, but it would never compare to the feelings he had for her before that brief period of time where he had lost recognition of everything and everyone who once meant something to him. ironically, it's when he felt most at peace with the butterflies in his stomach, beating against his rib cage and the cage surrounding the longing which could never be released. he’s regained his memories now, but he knew something was different within him even when he laid his glassy eyes on her again on that first visit to :re as sasaki haise. why did he feel so entrapped and yet so wrongly distant even when he had no recollection of her prior on that first visit to the cafe?

it would never be the same.

it would never compare to the feeling of falling in love with her and the realization that came with it. the realization that left him in a state of both a mix of surprise and agitation for days and with a feeling that could only be described as his heart skipping a beat and yet crumbling at the same time. it would never happen, would it? he had chosen to face that reality when he was still his old self, naive and too ashamed of his actions to actually face her after all the pain he caused her as a result of the pain which engulfed his entire life, too. too ashamed to accept his new reality, hiding behind his eyepatch — too ashamed to admit he had fallen in love so easily. he wasn't any different now.

haise may have fallen in love with her through the lens of a reborn figure with a fresh start and no boundaries to stand behind (apart from his obvious shyness and the weird sense of familiarity), but it just occurred by fate. the same fate that had snatched him from her years prior had found a way to bring him back into her arms and make him belong to her once again. he can't help but believe that maybe there was some future destined between them; the embittered part of his heart and soul makes him realize even that destiny would probably be cursed or filled with further strife.

though he supposed that didn't matter now.

not when he was even more distant from her than when he was an amnesiac with no recollection of her apart from the same old feeling of confusing comfort and longing. it's humorous and yet painful to think about how low he'd fallen in this aspect, not even being able to face her once again. despite his older age, he was still just a boy when it came to this same ancient rush, wasn't he? it doesn't matter. she surely didn't want anything to do with him anyways, especially not after everything that he's done. he's betrayed her and everyone who was once a part of him once again, and he’s chosen to accept that painful reality ever since he vowed to stop dreaming and flung tsukiyama off that building. facades all break down eventually.

though he supposed that didn't matter now, either.

he’d be disposed of soon enough before any of this could matter at all — before hinami was to be the one to disappear from the purgatory that was life as a ghoul. there was no heaven and there was no hell; there was no afterlife. heaven was bliss and safety on earth while hell was anguish and pain.

it was selfish of him to hope touka would feel any sort of pain after all of the grief and rage he's put her through time and time again, but he hoped he'd at least be remembered by the person he felt he loved most in this lifetime — the one who hadn't thrown him aside but who had instead built a nest for him as if though her life depended on it. he can't help but wonder… he’s had everyone he's ever known and cared for snatched from his hands by the same twisted fate that led him to await his upcoming death, he doesn't know if the puddle of both coldness and warmth in his stomach is either fear or love.

he'd truly cherish any memory he had of her before he’d be killed.

he vaguely remembers telling her, years ago, that he'd be sad if she died; he just hopes she would be saddened at his death, too.

[mizunoyouni]

ੈ♡₊˚•. Slumbering Garden

➳❥ Pairing - Hwei x gn! Reader

₊˚♡⋆˚ Summary - Hwei's sleepless nights are constantly plagued by you, the object of his desires.

.°˖✧˚ Content - 1k words of extremely flowery and romantic rambling. Centered mostly around Hwei's thoughts. One (1) suggestive paragraph if you squint.

So this is love?

It's different from how Hwei imagined it would be. In fact, you're different from what he first thought you'd be. 

But perhaps that’s not such a bad thing.

Because when it comes to your eyes, he's been wondering if anything else in the world could possibly compare to them. Your voice echoes when you're not around, hauntingly beautiful as it stands comparable to the melodies of even the highest praised musicians in all of the land. And when he’s able to finally savor your name on his tongue, he believes it’s exactly what the nectar of the gods must taste like. Drunk on just the mere thought of you is what he is, but he’ll never let you know. 

Instead, he’ll quietly search for stones and gems that could match even a fraction of the joy in your eyes so that he might keep them in his pocket and gaze at them in place of stealing glances at you. Then he’ll seek out a silent songstress, begging for her to play another song, another ballad, another tragedy— anything to distract him from the sweet sound of your voice that follows him everywhere, even in his dreams.

Despite his efforts, he remains the same love drunk fool he wishes to bury deep within the ground. And although he wants to loathe the way you’ve invaded his mind and created a home for yourself there, he doesn’t have the heart to stop sipping on the sweet taste of adoration as it dances on his tongue. Everyone has their vices after all, and he is evidently no different. 

Maybe in another life, you'd be just another passing ghost to him like the thousands of others who had left only foggy memories of themselves behind. But this is now, and you aren't a fleeting figure who would so easily disappear once he closes his eyes for the night. Instead, you linger and remain in the deepest corners of his mind, refusing to let him rest.

“You've been lacking sleep,” you pipe up one day. “What's wrong?”

With a sluggish wave of his hand, he aims to put an end to your worries, but your eyes linger on his tired face.

It's soft, the way your concern brushes against his skin so tenderly. Of course you didn't mean to send a shiver down his spine— how could you know what exactly your words mean to the painter? If only you knew the depths and inner workings of his mind— the constant streams of thought, the tumbling and churning of his worries, and the little sanctuary that houses every thought and memory pertaining to you.

But you don't know, and you can't possibly know just how much Hwei looks at you, or thinks about you, or how his mind is utterly consumed by you. The warm feelings that bubble up in his chest and threaten to pour out from his beating heart can’t be said— at least not in the daylight.

Only at nightfall can he share every waking thought while swathed in the comforting glow of the full moon. Silvery light greets him as if he is an old friend, and that much is enough to allow him to relax under the watchful gaze of the moon’s shadow. Rambling to his only audience, his words are tangled and clumsy as he trips over himself foolishly over and over again in the same nightly routine. He thought he’d be used to it by now, but every single time, he’s at a loss for words, grasping at straws and coughing up petals as he chokes out all the bits of his soul he swallowed down during the daytime. 

He speaks of you so gently, so sonorously that he almost feels embarrassed as the moon hangs there in the dark sky, listening to him silently with keen ears and an open mind. All of his honeyed and rosy words are carried off into the night, but it’s only a matter of time before the sound of a tired sigh and a soft giggle reaches his ears and he’s covering his reddening face. 

How has it come to this in the first place? He can only wonder.

Although the flowers that had blossomed from his lips during the night twinkle under the encouraging moonlight, by dawn they had withered and faded away without a single trace, swept away with the darkness that died as the sun rose.

The moon had whispered to him before she faded from view, suggesting that a garden would spring up underneath his feet should he continue locking his heart away with each passing night. Her shadow, however, remained to comfort him quietly for a few more moments before he, too, retreated as the first rays of sunlight descended. 

Only the scent of the flowers remain as it kisses Hwei’s skin in an apology for not lasting just a bit longer. It was almost taunting how it felt more like a burning reminder of the words he choked back each time he spoke to you.

And just like that, another day had marched in, chasing away the sleep that he so desperately longed for and leaving him with only dark circles under his eyes as a reminder of his costly price of love.

If only for just one night could the thought of you so kindly escape his mind, then perhaps he might hope and beg for a future where he could give you a night of sweet dreams in return. Maybe then, the flowers that only bloomed in the moonlight would finally show themselves to you as tiny red roses decorating your skin, glowing in the warm morning sunlight.

He can so clearly imagine your soft laugh reserved only for him when you return the favor, pressing flowers of your own to his face and neck. Should that day ever come, he’s sure he can die a happy man. But until then, he will continue to chase sleep, hoping and praying that the sweet visions of you will fade away so he may finally rest.

But alas, obsession keeps the mind awake, and yet it is those who never sleep that dream the most, he's learned.

୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ Author's note - In all seriousness, my sleep deprived mind just went brrrr so I apologize if this doesn't make sense (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

[wandafiction]

Aurora Borealis - Just Us Chapter 78

Warnings: Brief Talks On Death and Accidents

Word Count: 3046

Series List | Chapter 77 | Chapter 79

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Gentle cracks, pops and hisses filled the calm, quiet atmosphere. Gentle eyes watching the flames dance with the small breeze that was passing by. The embers that managed to escape their burning prison made haste in dancing up towards the clear night sky. The stars shining brighter accompanied the moon in bringing a refreshing sight to the city eyes of those watching. 

The moon seemed to light up the night sky like it had never before, the silhouettes of the forest danced along the ground everytime the wind picked up before settling back down. The snow on the peaks of the mountains glowed gloriously under the night light of the night sky. 

In the distance maybe a wolf or two, heard calling out to one another. Their long, well-known but only ever a single howls. It sounded neither mournful or joyful but rather wild. It was of single tone, but once one wolf started their beautiful song others joined in. Each with their own distinct voice.

The wind whistled through the ears of those who had their eyes trained on the sky. For they were not looking at the moon or the stars, or the snow on the mountains or even the dark dancing shadows of the forest. No. They were looking up at the aurora borealis. 

The way the green glowed through the sky above them dancing to its own tune as it creates mesmerising patterns and everlasting memories. Hints of blues, purples and reds intertwine with the bright green, an interpretive dance in the night sky that will always have the full attention of those below. 

I watch from the doorframe of the front door as Wanda and the boys cuddle under a couple layers of blanket, all wrapped in hats, scarfs and woolly socks. Their eyes trained on the sky above them, as the boys lean their heads in Wanda's shoulder as she wraps her arms around them. Have I been staring at them instead of the sight above me. Yes, yes I have. But in my mind there is no more beautiful sight than what I see in front of me and not above me. Nothing can compare. 

The night sky may be beautiful and mesmerising but the 3 people cuddling up on the large outdoor couch, well, I am enthralled with the sight. Hypnotised one might say, by their carefree smiles, their wonder filled eyes, their rosey cheeks and all the love they have for one another wrapped up in the blankets with them. 

I mustn't let myself fall back into the haze of the relationship me and Wanda had, well still have but it's different now. We are going to work together to make it work and not get trapped within a bubble of our own creation. I will admit that looking at the sight of the three in front of me, I can see why I got lost in it so easily. It's everything I ever wanted, a woman, children, a family. But I can't rely on them for all my happiness and dreams, so for now I will take this moment and never forget it and maybe one day we can return as a family with a ring to show for it. 

I smile at myself, when I realise I still see my future with the beautiful, goddess of a red-head that I met in a bar and her two very mature young boys. I can plan the future, if I see one and I'm so happy to be able to envision it all in just this moment. 

I smile wider when Wanda turns her head to the right, an animated smile on her face as she waves me over. Already wearing my winter clothes, I walk on the cold ground that's already hardening with frost, crunching beneath my feet as I make my way over. The boys take a quick glance towards where the noise is coming from, smiling when they see me and not second later look back up to the sky. I move to stand behind the couch, my arms lazily resting over Wanda's shoulder as she brings my hands into hers holding them against her chest. Tommy sits forward more, taking his head off Wanda's shoulder as he puts his hands out towards the fire to keep them warm.

I lean my body down so I am matching Wanda's height, resting my chin on her shoulder as she leans her face against mine. Her cold cheeks send a small shiver through my body as she pulls my arms tighter around her, obviously enjoying the extra warmth. I press my lips against her cheek then nuzzle my face into the crook of her neck as my hot breath fans out across it. Wanda's thumbs start to rub circles on my knuckles as one of her fingers traces the ring on my finger.

"This is truly magical." Wanda is the first to break the silence that has only been filled with the sound of the fire in front of us and the wolves in the mountains. 

"It's spectacular mom. How is it even possible?" Tommy's eyes are full of wonder as they search the plethora of colors above us.

"I'm not sure, I just know that I will never get bored of watching." I press a kiss to Wanda's jaw as I bring my face from her neck.

"The Aurora Borealis, most commonly known as The Northern Lights. The one above us is rather rare as it has blues and reds within it so it makes this moment even more special. They can also be seen from space."

"Do you know why it happens?" Billy turns to look at me for answers.

"I do. Do you want the scientific version or the easy speaking version?" 

"Both because it sounds smart when people say things that seem completely made up." Tommy pushes himself back on the couch resting his head on the edge of his mother's shoulder.

"Okay so basically these Aurora's because there's not just one type, are caused by a change within the magnetosphere. This change is caused by something called solar wind. These changes cause the charged particles within the magnetospheric plasma to alter the direction in their trajectory. The changed particles, which are mostly electrons and protons, will precipitate up into the thermosphere and exosphere. This results in the ionisation and excitation of the atmospheric constituents which causes the emitting of the light and different colors that you see before you. It gets a lot more complicated but that's the basic science."

I let out a small giggle when they all turn to look back at me with raised eyebrows and jaws open, wow you can really tell that they are all related. They have so many of their mothers' mannerisms it's uncanny sometimes. The boys look back to the sky letting out small gasps as a curtain of color joins another, but I look down to Wanda who is still looking at me in awe. I cup her head with my hands tilting it back so it is leaning against the back of the couch and I lean down to give her a spiderman kiss. It's only really a quick few pecks as the boys are present but it's enough to get her to smile against my lips.

"Okay now the dumbed down version for us." I laugh at Wanda's words pecking her lips once more as we join the boys in looking back up to the sky.

"So when charged particles from the sun make contact with atoms within the earth's atmosphere, it causes the electrons within those atoms to increase to a higher energy state than they already are. Eventually, the electrons will drop back down to a lower energy state which releases something called photons. These photons are what emit the light that you are seeing." 

"Okay so, somehow particles from the sun make it to earth and then this happens?" Tommy waves his hands towards the colorful lights above.

"Yeah. Think of it as the sun has done a giant burp or coughed and the particles have sprayed across and managed to find their way to earth. These particles mix with gases in the atmosphere that make them glow." Tommy hums in acknowledgement.

"Okay so to get a cool dance show in the sky the sun needs to be sick." I laugh out loud at Billy's cheeky grin as Wanda rolls her eyes but soon enough we are all laughing. 

"I guess that's one way to describe it Billy." 

"You're both as bad as each other sometimes." Wanda huffs out as she brings my left hand to her lips planting a kiss on my ring causing me to smile at the action. She really is showing me she is okay with me wearing it and it makes my heart soar everytime she interacts with it. Its quiet for a moment before I see Billy look down at the ring then up to me.

"Y/n." I turn to him with a soft smile.

"What's up Billy?" Of course I am prepared for the question or questions he may want to ask.

"Why do have a ring on your finger when you aren't married to mom? Also I thought you said your surname was Barton not Stark?" I see Wanda's eyes go wide as her head turns to look at me then Billy, I always see Tommy take a glance at the ring then up to me. 

"Why don't we take this conversation inside? I will light a fire and get us some drinks. Then we can sit down and talk about it properly in the warmth of the cabin instead of out here." 

"Okay." Both Billy and Tommy stand and start walking back to the cabin as Wanda turns to look at me with worried eyes. 

"Are you sure baby?" I nod as I smile down to Wanda.

"Yeah, they have questions and it would be worse to not answer them."

"Okay, but just say what you're comfortable with don't force it out." 

"I won't, but let's go in before you catch a cold." Wanda stands folding up the fee blankets, tucking them under her arm as move next to her wrapping my arm around her shoulders as we walk inside. "Go get some comfy clothes on it will start the fire and make some drinks."

"You got any wine?" Wanda places the blankets on the back of the couch that faces the fireplace.

"What sort of question is that? Of course I have wine." I act offended as Wanda rolls her eyes. "I will open a bottle and make the boys some hot chocolate." 

"Mmm okay." Wanda stands on her tiptoes to peck my lips. "Love you baby."

"Love you too Princess."

I make my way into the kitchen, checking that no one else is around before I brace myself against the counter top. One hand holding onto the edge while the other covers my mouth to hide the sob that wants to escape me. I don't know why I've suddenly got the urge to cry or scream, I am perfectly okay with telling the boys. Maybe I just didn't expect it to be so early, I shouldn't have worn the ring because they were obviously going to see it and question what it was. 

Maybe it's because I have to yet again relive that worst moment in my entire life, nothing that happened before their death can compare up to it. Not the homelessness, not my mother's or father's way of bringing up a child. Nothing can compare to the loss and eveytime I think I'm okay telling the story the guilt of how I'm moving on consumes me. Its always the fucking guilt. I don't want to feel guilty anymore.

"I got you." I take in a sharp breath when I feel Wanda’s arms wrap around my waist  resting her head between my shoulder blade, her hands gently rubbing at my abdomen. "It's okay. I've got you." 

"I'm sorry, I don't know why I'm crying." I keep my one hand on the counter while the other wipes are my tears as I try and calm myself down.

"Because this is a lot for you Y/n. We don't have to do this tonight if you're not ready. The boys can wait, they would understand." 

"I can't let this fester. Not with them and definitely not in my mind. If I don't tell them the guilt of not telling them is going to crush me at some point."

"Is that guilt greater than the guilt you feel for wanting to tell them?" I nod my head. "I'm proud of you for being able to recognise that."

"Yeah, I had a therapy session during the week and we talked a lot about how their isn't just one type of guilt. And how I need to learn to identify the different types."

"So what guilt are you feeling now?" 

"The guilt of opening up that wound again, telling the story. But also the guilt of hiding it away, I'm never going to get better...be able to let myself grieve properly if I hold it all in." Wanda presses a few kisses to my back.

"I'm so proud of you Y/n. It may have only been one therapy session but you have taken in the advice and are applying it. So how much are you going to tell the boys?"

"Only the basics, but I will answer their questions to the best of my ability."

"Okay, but if you can't answer something don't be afraid to not answer it. They will understand." 

"They are so mature it's scary."

"It really is sometimes."

"It just means you raised them right." Wanda squeezes me slightly.

"I love you."

"I love you too." I turn around in her arms pressing a kiss to her forehead. "Help me with the drinks?"

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"Okay so what questions have you got for me?"

Me and Wanda are sitting on the couch tucked under a warm blanket, holding one another's hand underneath and in our others we both have glasses of wine. The boys are both sat on separate arm chairs adjacent to the couch, angled so they can look at us. The only other sound is that of the fire that is slowly heating the cabin. 

"Are you married?" Tommy asks a little shyly. 

"No, not anymore." 

"Why do you still wear the ring?" Billy points to my hand that's holding my wine glass. 

"Do you boys know what a widow is? Have you had those sort of conversations before?" 

"Isn't a widow someone who was married but isn't anymore because their partner died." A sad smile forms on Billy's face when he realises where this is going. "Oh."

"So, I got married to my girlfriend of 3 years after I turned 18. We were married for just over 2 years, before she died." 

"I'm so sorry Y/n." Tommy goes to say something else but decides not to.

"You can ask Tommy." 

Wanda squeezes me hand under the blanket, her caring eyes watching my every word to make sure I'm not about to breakdown. I feel a lot better than I did in the kitchen now that I've started speaking about it.

"How did she die?" Tommy runs a finger around the top of his cup still very nervous to be asking questions.

"We were in a car crash. She died almost instantly." 

"So you wear the ring to feel closer to her?" I nod at Billy's question.

"Yeah, I used to wear it all the time before it got thr...lost down the garbage disposal." I change my words not wanting to even touch the whole Steph subject. 

"Why have you only started wearing it recently? I haven't noticed it before." 

"Because it was meant to be our 3 year anniversary last Monday. I put the ring on, went to visit her and when your mom came and picked me up I tried taking the ring off. I was a little worried she would be angry, but instead she stopped me and said I could wear it as long as I need to." 

Wanda leans forward to place her drink on the coffee table before nuzzling her head into my neck and I feel her lips leave small kisses on the skin she has access to.

"So why is you surname Barton but also Stark?" Tommy tilts his head.

"So when I married Sarah I took her last name so I went from being Y/n Barton to Y/n Stark. When she died, it was hard to hear the name Stark so I went back to Barton but a lot of my documents still say Stark because I just haven't gotten around to changing them." 

"I'm really sorry for your loss Y/n." Tommy moves from his armchair, holding out his arms as he walks over to me practically falling on top of me as he engulfs me in a hug. 

Wanda grabs my wine glass to put it on the coffee table when she sees me struggling not to spill it as I wrap my arms around Tommy. My eyes move to Billy who starts to walk over to use so I unwrap my left arm from Tommy and Billy practically jumps at the opening. I have both my arms wrapped around the boys, closing my eyes to relish in the moment as they both squeeze me tightly. Not a moment later Wanda squeezes onto my lap, wrapping her arms around the boys as she rests her head on the front of my shoulder below Billy's head.

"Is there any other questions you boys have?" 

"No. Thank you for telling us." Billy mumbles against my shoulder, so I squeeze both the boys closer causing them to be squished against Wanda who let's out a small laugh. 

"Can we stay like this a little longer? This is nice." I mumble into the huddle of bodies.

"I agree." The boys say in unison.

"We can stay here as long as you need us." I plant a kiss on the top of Wanda's head at her response.

"I love you guys."

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[sunarc]

HQ boys as Love Songs

a/n: Uhhhhhh hi so I made this and I wanted to include some of my favorite artist. I thought why not do one of theses with artist other than most of ones ive seen. If you haven’t heard some of these songs and artist nows a chance to enjoy some new music. Please enjoy the music links I’ve made for you and let me know if you want more

Bokuto Yebba’s Heartbreak by Drake/Yebba

“And all the times you wasn't chosen, well, I'll make it up to you

All of the feelings you're not showing

When your river's overflowing, mmm”

Bokuto falls in love with you the moment he meets you. He knows people talk about how love at first sight isn’t real but all he can think about when he sees you is how he wants to have you in his life forever.Bokuto knows you can handle things on your own but he wants to shelter you through any storm that comes. You have his heart and if there's ever a time when you feel overwhelmed or that everything is just too much Bokuto will always be there to wipe away every tear that may drop. He loves you too deeply to ever watch you fall. 

Kita Picture Perfect by Jhene Aiko

“Too perfect of a thing

Too a perfect, you're a dream

Too good to touch

Too good, too much

Much too perfect to be reality”

Loving you feels like a dream, it’s so calm and blissful and Kita can’t help but to catch himself randomly smiling at the thought of you. You have him under a spell. He finds himself daydreaming of you any moment he gets. Getting to see your smile makes Kita’s heart skip a beat. In any reality or dimension Kita knows he’d fall in love with you each and every time. The words fall past his lips so easily. He’s like a kid who has found an endless supply of candy. He feels himself blushing and getting shy at the mere thought of you. You are the soft melodic feeling that Kita has been waiting for and he never wants to lose the feeling

Suna Frozen by Sabrina Claudio

“Cover the window and come uncover me

Let's forget the world even exists

Cause nothing compares to this”

Suna feels like his heart might jump out of his chest. He’s never felt like this over someone. The way your skin feels against his and the way your breathing has calmed he can tell you are asleep. He refuses to move for the fear that he may disturb you. You look so beautiful like this. The world seems to fade away and all that's left is you. There’s your tank top that keeps falling off your shoulder. There’s the blanket that covers the two of you. There you snoring ever so softly but it's the cutest thing Suna has ever seen. And there’s him. There’s Suna laying with you holding your head against his chest and wondering what he did to deserve you. Suna isn’t sure and he’s not sure if he’ll ever know. All he can think right now is how he never wants this moment to end.

Ushijima Everything by Kehlani

“Love the way you teach me

Love the way you listen

You know all my details

You so damn attentive”

Ushijima feels so shy around you. His tall and strict demeanor crumbles whenever you’re around. You know so much about him and he is the same. He can’t help but pay such close attention to you. From your favorite color to your favorite book he knows all of it. He likes to keep track of all these things so that he can gift you with your favorite things to show you his love. He’s not great with his words but he is a giver. He’s so good at listening to you. He pays attention and is thoughtful. He’s a man of very little words but his actions speak a thousand words within themself.

Sakusa Find someone like you by Snoh  Aalegra

“Nothing's ever perfect but you're perfect to me (uh huh)

And fuck bein' asleep, you're a dream, I need you

Though we got a past, I want you, yeah

And even when it's bad, I love you”      

Sakusa knows he can be a bit difficult to be with. He knows he’s a lot to handle yet somehow you love him through it all. He’s never loved someone so deeply. With  you everything feels different. He feel like he’s floating on cloud nine with you around. You’re so sweet and gentle with him and Sakusa can imagine living in a world without you. You’re so perfect to him. He has spent his entire life desiring the feeling of needing something and he’s finally found that in you. Sakusa needs you more than anything in this world. He feels so at peace around you. He can’t believe he’s found someone like you. He can only dream that you feel the same way as him.

[astrxlfinale]

HC; Frequent Locales.

So Caelus is the adventuring sort, lives that very dream,so how exactly does he chart his paths? Giving a good reflection of both my interp's style and through the viewing of the media at large, a key aspect of what will have Caelus stepping anywhere in intrigue is sentience itself.

A thriving metropolis, a humble village, your run down bars where the worst of the worst could be, hell even a ship! One crucial detail for him is that beings who charted beaten paths, and in kind to make new, unknown variances to such paths are his jam.

It all comes from his natural intrigue with life that holds more conscious thought. So a land where the wave of wisdom for conversation, a line of line made off ethics/code compared to just natural instinct, it charms him down to the bone despite the constant cost of being agitated by it. In his head that's where wondrous views of creation and hard work truly brings out that innate shine.

So say we had a nature setting? Unless the forest itself is spotting mythical qualities (flora that flips you, enchants with a sacred song), seeing him there is like finding a tumbleweed in the desert, purely by chance. (Or obligation.)

It doesn't necessarily have to be grounds currently occupied either. Old haunts, mansions with a grueling past and even more dangerous secrets lying within, there's a very good chance you'll see him committing firm into ensuring all secrets are unearthed in such scenarios too. It initiatives that burning drive that always served as his guiding light.

To a degree this is also why a lot of manmade inventions are his heavily preferred too. What's the catch? How did a way of life require this particular convenience? Can he listen to those intrusive thoughts and momentarily hide within a sizable and luxurious dresser? These easily manage to get his mind flowing, the imaginative quality truly forming a sense of fun that cannot be rivaled.

That said? Going on nature based expeditions, or just casual outings in general with either his party from the Express to loved ones is an easy shoo in as well. Memories, experiences with such a gilded lining are a priceless treasure for Caelus.

[theothershin]

tyler holt for the character list! if that's alright!

I don't see why you'd come to me for this, since you're clearly more versed in Holt language than me, but of course it's more than alright! Admittedly, I've been re-blogging this sort of thing and waiting for someone to ask me, and at last here it is! So yeah, I'm a bit thrilled.

Anyway:

My favourite thing about them You know, I've always loved this guy, but I never stopped to think about why I really like him. I guess if I had to say, it would be his relationships with his brothers, especially Dale. I've always been a sucker for familial relationships enduring through hard times, but Tyler's relationship with each member of his family is unique. And everything is made even more tragic because these relationships do not persevere throughout the hardship they all go through. No matter what, Dale dies, his body eternally lost in the destroyed motel as it goes up in flames. No matter what, Jay is scarred as a teen, only until Zoe pays him a visit, if she chooses to forgive him. But even after that, he's still alone for the rest of his life. Sharon and Tyler are together at first, but Sharon decides it's best to leave. She's either left alone, or is stuck in a life with a man who loves her, but whom she doesn't love. Tyler is now alone in jail or in a hard life where he must now work for himself, or he's dead. His relationships are all shattered. Tyler's story doesn't end well, and even though it doesn't exactly end with a big, terrible bang, it's really not a good ending. And to make things worse, he's alone. So that's a really interesting part of his character

Least favourite thing about them Tyler doesn't panic all too often, but when he does, he loses his temper easily. He gets mad and exaggerates what he really means, and gets really mean. It's annoying sometimes and sometimes tiring, but everyone has flaws and everyone has to endure their own and others' flaws.

Favourite line "This will all be over when we win. Remember that, and do your part." This can be used in so many situations, namely war. Not that war has anything to do with ADF.

brOTP Vince and Tyler. They're both so similar within their own lives, and their roles within the whole Desert Dream Motel Mistake-Massacre. They may not be bros as in friends or bros at all, but they are parallels of each other.

OTP I don't think I really have an OTP, but I don't really mind the Vince/Tyler ship.

nOTP I don't know. There's not really many ships in this small fandom. But I guess I would never ship something like Joyce/Tyler. That's a recipe for disaster.

Random headcanon I headcanon that Tyler is a very neat and organised guy.

Unpopular opinion Jay is kinda mid compared to Tyler. I have nothing against Jay, he's just not as interesting.

A song I associate with them Endless Confusion by Faisal Latif.

Favourite picture of them I saw a post of a picture of the part when Tyler was picking up the phone to call someone(we never learn who that is, but I suspect it's Shanon. After all, she shows up when she learns that everything has gone wrong, and she shows up later on in chapter 3. Plus, who else is Tyler gonna call? We don't know any friends who show up or anything remotely similar). And there was a text underneath which said, "Give me some time to think and I'll probably come up with something that sounds coherent." Or something like that. That was my favourite picture of Tyler, but honestly I don't know how to get my hands on that one, so I'll just bestow you with this picture:

I'm not sure if I've told you anything new really, but I hope you enjoy it anyways!

[warmglowofsurvival]

Interview: Twenty One Pilots by Jay Campbell

Some people will remember Thursday, Jan. 12, 2012 as Athens' first snowfall of the season. Others will fondly recall the date as their first exposure to Twenty One Pilots at the Union.

The band consists of Columbus, Ohio, natives Tyler Joseph (vocals/keyboards) and Josh Dun (drums). I caught up with the duo just before their show that night.

JC: When did you first meet, and did you think you’d end up performing with each other?

Josh: I met Tyler through the band's previous drummer, about two years ago. They said they needed me to play at a show for them and that’s when it all started.

Tyler: After the show, we talked about our dreams and goals, not only within music, but in life, and we just connected. We had the same amount of passion and it just worked out perfectly.

JC: What is the story and meaning behind the band name?

Tyler: Well, it goes back to when I was in college, studying theater at Ohio State University. We were studying All My Sons by Arthur Miller, and it was one of those books that just hit you. The main character made airplane parts for the war, and he found out that his parts were faulty and would fail if used. So he had to make a decision to spend his money trying to fix them, or to use the faulty parts. He decided to use the faulty parts, and due to his decision, 21 pilots died in flight. It showed me that every decision that you make will have great outcomes or dire consequences, and it’ll be something that will forever stick with me.

JC: Some websites label you as rock, electronic, pop or rap. But it's difficult to compare you to bands or musicians in those genres. If you had to create a new genre that would describe your music, what would it be called?

Josh: Wow, that's a tough question. It’s so hard for us to put ourselves in any genre. One of our goals as musicians was to break down the walls of musical genres and combine different aspects into our own. Our manager calls us "pop-rock-piano-rap," which fits us but is a mouthful. If you can think of one and send it to us, we'll roll with it.

JC: On your song "Time to Say Goodbye," you sample "Con te Partiró" by Andrea Bocelli and then rap over it. Could you explain what you were thinking when you did this?

Tyler: Well, I’m really tied to melody. I don’t care what genre it is, if it catches my ear, then there must be something good about it. And then listening to the lyrics, I connected to his message and combined it with mine.

JC: If you had to pick a trademark song–one that that everyone recognized–what would it be?

Josh: It would have to be "Holding Onto You" or "Ode to Sleep." "Holding Onto You" could easily be recognized with its unique rap combined with an emotional-yet-catchy bridge. And "Ode to Sleep" is the closest to us with its meaning; it's probably the most connected with us that any song could be.

JC: Are you currently signed with a label?

Josh: Currently, no. But that should change in the near future.

Tyler: We're not really interested in being signed for the most money possible. We are talking to people that will give us control of the music we make. That's the most important thing we want if we're going to sign with someone.

JC: One final question: What made you want to perform here in Athens?

Josh: Our first time here was last year at one of the fests, and at that time I wasn’t the drummer. I was called by Tyler to come and fill in because the previous drummer quit. So I quit my job and drove here straight from Wisconsin. So I got here in time for the show, and after one song, the fest was shut down by the police. I wanted to come back, redeem myself and have a successful show here.

Tyler: As he said. He quit his job for a show that got shut down after one song. So we both agreed that we would come back and perform without getting shut down. But Ohio University is a cool place all around, and we had to come back!

[waiting-on-a-dream]

𝚃𝚛𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝟷 𝚖𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 𝚒𝚗𝚏𝚘

Haha, I gotta give it to Lina for being able to think ahead compared to me. Or maybe I'm just impulsive. 😙

Trial 1 song titles:

Ichiro: Outsider

Akane: Open your eyes

Daisuke: Artificial happiness

Suzume: Red string of love

Haku: Social performance

Yui: Dance, dance, dance!

Rin: Sakura spring

Noa: Melancholy

Kiyoshi: True colours

Mayumi: Macrophage

Trial 1 song previews

Ichiro: Today as well, passes without a hitch. I shall go to sleep dreaming of a good tomorrow. What were the colours of today's sunset again? Let's continue playing when I wake up, okay?

Akane: Disgusting, the lot of them. Revolting, all of them. Their faces blur together, for they have no eyes. Its hard to tell them apart. Whatever. I wonder what I'll eat for dinner.

Daisuke: Hey there, don't look so down. Hey there, what's with the frown? Here, I'll give you some candy, candy-! So make sure to smile lots and enjoy yourself until. dawn. comes.

Suzume: Love can be so difficult sometimes. Maybe I'm just not good at it. But you're waiting for me, so with this red string of fate, I'll try my best to reach you. Please wait for me. I'm coming, I'm coming.

Haku: Life is a play after all, and everyone knows their scripts. Everyone except you, who steals the show so easily. If that's the case, allow me to be the one who shines the spotlight on you.

Yui: Dance, dance, dance! To the flashing lights, to this upbeat tune. This is the life I chose for myself. I won't let my hard work go to waste, no I won't! I'll keep dancing until the show is over.

Rin: Spring rolls around once again. Years fly by in the blink of an eye. Will you still smile at me like you did back then? I'm dying to know. I'll give you a penny for your thoughts, so please let me know.

Noa: We push and pull like waves to shore. I run away, as far as I can, but I still find myself coming back to you. Is there no end to this mortal suffering? Can we end it already? I'm sorry for troubling you.

Kiyoshi: Everyone has their own role within this multi-coloured society. I won't forgive those who disrupt the peace. Go ahead and run along to the ends of the earth, I'll meet you there.

Mayumi: The scale of justice can never be balanced. There is good that goes unrewarded, and evil that goes unpunished. With these hands that have saved so many lives, I shall take one to save more.

[tashiihought-7]

K-Pop in Jamaica: A Surprising Cultural Connection

When most people think of Jamaica, their minds immediately jump to reggae, dancehall, or the vibrant rhythms of ska. But in recent years, a surprising new musical genre has started to captivate the hearts of many Jamaicans: K-Pop (Korean Pop). This seemingly unlikely pairing of Jamaican and Korean cultures has blossomed into a passionate community that is constantly growing. Let’s explore how K-Pop has found its way to the island and why it has resonated so deeply with Jamaicans.

The Global Reach of K-Pop

K-Pop's international appeal is undeniable. From the catchy tunes of BTS to the electrifying performances of BLACKPINK, K-Pop's polished choreography, addictive music, and diverse content have transcended language barriers and geographical boundaries. It's not just about music — K-Pop is a lifestyle, a fandom, and an all-encompassing cultural phenomenon that has won over millions around the globe, including fans in Jamaica.

The Rise of K-Pop in Jamaica

In recent years, Jamaica has seen a rise in the popularity of K-Pop, with local fans creating dedicated communities both online and offline. Social media platforms like Twitter, Instagram, and TikTok have become hubs for Jamaican K-Pop fans to share their love for their favorite idols, participate in dance challenges, and even host virtual fan meets. Local Facebook groups and WhatsApp chats dedicated to K-Pop have sprung up, where fans exchange news, discuss music videos, and even organize K-Pop-themed events.

The K-Pop fandom in Jamaica is also characterized by its vibrant creativity. Jamaican fans are known for creating unique covers of K-Pop songs, often blending them with reggae and dancehall beats, resulting in a fusion that highlights the best of both worlds. This creative reinterpretation of K-Pop music is a testament to Jamaica's rich musical heritage and its ability to adapt and innovate.

Why K-Pop Resonates in Jamaica

But why has K-Pop resonated so much with Jamaicans? There are several reasons. Firstly, Jamaicans have a deep appreciation for music and dance, which are integral parts of K-Pop. The high-energy performances, intricate choreography, and visually stunning music videos are aspects that easily appeal to Jamaican audiences. Additionally, the concept of community, which is strong within K-Pop fandoms, mirrors the communal spirit found in Jamaican culture.

Another factor is the storytelling aspect of K-Pop. Many K-Pop groups focus on themes such as self-empowerment, love, and social issues, which often align with Jamaican experiences and values. The messages of resilience, positivity, and self-expression found in K-Pop lyrics resonate deeply with Jamaican youth, who see their own struggles and aspirations reflected in the music.

K-Pop Events and Activities in Jamaica

While the K-Pop community in Jamaica might be smaller compared to other countries, it is no less passionate. Jamaican K-Pop fans have organized several events, such as dance cover competitions, K-Pop nights at local clubs, and viewing parties for concerts and music award shows. These events are often characterized by a mix of K-Pop and Jamaican music, allowing fans to celebrate both cultures simultaneously.

In recent years, some Jamaican YouTubers and influencers have also started creating content around K-Pop, offering reactions to music videos, sharing their thoughts on comebacks, and even participating in K-Pop dance challenges. This content has helped to further grow the community and attract new fans.

The Future of K-Pop in Jamaica

As K-Pop continues to gain traction worldwide, its presence in Jamaica is expected to grow. The local community is expanding, with more young people discovering the genre and engaging with its diverse content. Jamaican K-Pop fans are also hoping for more recognition from K-Pop artists, with many dreaming of a day when a K-Pop group might perform on the island.

Moreover, there is potential for cultural exchange between Jamaica and South Korea through music. Imagine a collaboration between a K-Pop artist and a Jamaican reggae or dancehall star — a fusion that could create a unique and powerful sound.

Conclusion: A Unique Cultural Bond

The rise of K-Pop in Jamaica is a testament to the power of music as a universal language. Despite their differences, both Jamaican and Korean cultures share a deep love for rhythm, dance, and storytelling. The growing K-Pop community in Jamaica represents a unique cultural bond that brings people together, showing that music truly knows no borders.

Whether you're a die-hard K-Pop fan or simply curious about this genre, there’s no denying the magic that happens when two vibrant cultures collide. K-Pop in Jamaica is more than just a trend — it’s a celebration of global music, unity, and the ability to find joy in unexpected places.

Do you have any specific aspects you'd like to explore further in the blog, like fan stories or a focus on certain K-Pop events in Jamaica?

[tashiithought-7]

K-Pop in Jamaica: A Surprising Cultural Connection

When most people think of Jamaica, their minds immediately jump to reggae, dancehall, or the vibrant rhythms of ska. But in recent years, a surprising new musical genre has started to captivate the hearts of many Jamaicans: K-Pop (Korean Pop). This seemingly unlikely pairing of Jamaican and Korean cultures has blossomed into a passionate community that is constantly growing. Let’s explore how K-Pop has found its way to the island and why it has resonated so deeply with Jamaicans.

The Global Reach of K-Pop

K-Pop's international appeal is undeniable. From the catchy tunes of BTS to the electrifying performances of BLACKPINK, K-Pop's polished choreography, addictive music, and diverse content have transcended language barriers and geographical boundaries. It's not just about music — K-Pop is a lifestyle, a fandom, and an all-encompassing cultural phenomenon that has won over millions around the globe, including fans in Jamaica.

The Rise of K-Pop in Jamaica

In recent years, Jamaica has seen a rise in the popularity of K-Pop, with local fans creating dedicated communities both online and offline. Social media platforms like Twitter, Instagram, and TikTok have become hubs for Jamaican K-Pop fans to share their love for their favorite idols, participate in dance challenges, and even host virtual fan meets. Local Facebook groups and WhatsApp chats dedicated to K-Pop have sprung up, where fans exchange news, discuss music videos, and even organize K-Pop-themed events.

The K-Pop fandom in Jamaica is also characterized by its vibrant creativity. Jamaican fans are known for creating unique covers of K-Pop songs, often blending them with reggae and dancehall beats, resulting in a fusion that highlights the best of both worlds. This creative reinterpretation of K-Pop music is a testament to Jamaica's rich musical heritage and its ability to adapt and innovate.

Why K-Pop Resonates in Jamaica

But why has K-Pop resonated so much with Jamaicans? There are several reasons. Firstly, Jamaicans have a deep appreciation for music and dance, which are integral parts of K-Pop. The high-energy performances, intricate choreography, and visually stunning music videos are aspects that easily appeal to Jamaican audiences. Additionally, the concept of community, which is strong within K-Pop fandoms, mirrors the communal spirit found in Jamaican culture.

Another factor is the storytelling aspect of K-Pop. Many K-Pop groups focus on themes such as self-empowerment, love, and social issues, which often align with Jamaican experiences and values. The messages of resilience, positivity, and self-expression found in K-Pop lyrics resonate deeply with Jamaican youth, who see their own struggles and aspirations reflected in the music.

K-Pop Events and Activities in Jamaica

While the K-Pop community in Jamaica might be smaller compared to other countries, it is no less passionate. Jamaican K-Pop fans have organized several events, such as dance cover competitions, K-Pop nights at local clubs, and viewing parties for concerts and music award shows. These events are often characterized by a mix of K-Pop and Jamaican music, allowing fans to celebrate both cultures simultaneously.

In recent years, some Jamaican YouTubers and influencers have also started creating content around K-Pop, offering reactions to music videos, sharing their thoughts on comebacks, and even participating in K-Pop dance challenges. This content has helped to further grow the community and attract new fans.

The Future of K-Pop in Jamaica

As K-Pop continues to gain traction worldwide, its presence in Jamaica is expected to grow. The local community is expanding, with more young people discovering the genre and engaging with its diverse content. Jamaican K-Pop fans are also hoping for more recognition from K-Pop artists, with many dreaming of a day when a K-Pop group might perform on the island.

Moreover, there is potential for cultural exchange between Jamaica and South Korea through music. Imagine a collaboration between a K-Pop artist and a Jamaican reggae or dancehall star — a fusion that could create a unique and powerful sound.

Conclusion: A Unique Cultural Bond

The rise of K-Pop in Jamaica is a testament to the power of music as a universal language. Despite their differences, both Jamaican and Korean cultures share a deep love for rhythm, dance, and storytelling. The growing K-Pop community in Jamaica represents a unique cultural bond that brings people together, showing that music truly knows no borders.

Whether you're a die-hard K-Pop fan or simply curious about this genre, there’s no denying the magic that happens when two vibrant cultures collide. K-Pop in Jamaica is more than just a trend — it’s a celebration of global music, unity, and the ability to find joy in unexpected places.

Do you have any specific aspects you'd like to explore further in the blog, like fan stories or a focus on certain K-Pop events in Jamaica?