#not in an approving way or like a good job way

[swimmingenthusiasty]

Woah. That phrase is nostalgic of school. Fucking stationary. Pencil case.

Every surface is fucking smooth. and flat. The tables the floors the board the field the court the path the brains.

The girls like steaming compost heaps inside uniform. Sterile, kept from dirt and dust, yet somehow gross. Warm and fixed in place behind a desk like the zits and pustules on their face. Insecure eyes darting side to side and only finding each other, other girls to judge. Like some type of layer in hell.

Loosing their shit over 'guys' who are all mummy's boys at that age. Yelling over their egos, mum flavoured cries for approval. Repeating mum's script. The asian one talking about a 'gud future' it was just what mum said. The stickler worried about safety was just mum's script. Literal fucking babies. With egos. Because those are the two things that mums make. Babies and egos. It's like full circle for the girls looking because nothing less conceited would have sufficed.

There's no patriarchy. Guys stop moving without egos. Without someone to hype them up. If guys want to function without girls, they will invent women amongst themselves to hype them up. If you want dad to keep going to work and mum does a shit job of hyping him up, you better find a way fast. Either you become like a girl and hype or you get used to making your own home. If she insists that you just can't do that and you can't say no because you're still a mommy's boy and her script overrides yours. Then I hope you like lacey stuff. There was one more thing. Oh, this is when I knew it was him. Women created guys like this because of the way they are with eachother. The way they compete and stuff but always indirectly, through a middle thing. That's why they made men.

This is brother's air. Before he leaves for work is when he has the most to give and he only gives when he sees something in my messages. Doesn't make it less true. I mean i don't know if it is fully correct. I'm like a windchime at this point. Anyone you put me near, I'll make a noise to their presence, to their movements, to the air they displace. Guys usually make writing happen though. Girls will make something actually happen.

If I really wanted I can take with me this feeling about -not being a guy's hype prop by releasing my concern for finances and a place to sleep, for stability. Not stability itself but my concern over it.

She wanted me to replace him in her life, to earn for her in his place and she'd go gut whatever he'd had left without holding back. Mistakes me for him often like it already happened in her mind. Like there was no need to ask. She put me between them when I was little and said I should defend when they fought. I think she also liked cucking when they were good. I think she's a bit gay the way she talks about little girls and women's thighs. I don't know if that means I got it from her, like passed down or if I reacted to how gross she was being. Anyway. All that to say that the next time I'll say 'okay burn the house down if you like' when she tries to make herself your problem (her moods and emotions are hers) or her lifestyle your fault (her lack of lasting friendships does not make you a mandatory friend forever, you're no different to all the other people who wouldn't want to stay) or insists her decisons are your decisons (all those times you say something and get ignored, it wasn't hard to hear what you said, she didn't forget that quick. It's up to you to decide how much respect you want) but then that's no way to practice having a house and any fight or playing up will get a crowd. It's hard to affirm without resorting to disrespect when someone is actually dismisive and disrespectful. I can see how their conversations always went the same. She got what she gave. Then that carries over into other conversations. Or you just feel a bit sad and resentful at real kindess, and i've seen it on my father's face. Like he's thinking oh I have to get used to this now? Where were you this whole time. You're only temporary, it's her shit that I'm used to, we'll be back in the shit and you'll be gone, so just be gone early as a favor. It's not just her. He attracted her from a lifetime of the same shits. It made him more than rough around the edges as a consequence and I've gone through all that's like and I wouldn't want to repeat what he felt or how he became. Input output. Change his input, don't have the same shit he had.

All this sympathy towards him. Told you it was the brother. He misunderstands that's why he thinks I need to think this stuff. I need these people to take back their issues. Him you can't tell him anything other than you're hurt, you need to work on yourself. You're allowed to tell someone enough and they should leave. You don't need a million and one ways to push people away. Some are really hurtful. She was at fault when you said enough and she just smirked that you reacted and looked a fool infront of your house. Now for her, you really can't tell her anything. That's why it's taken so long to peel her off. But being here is because he failed me. I went to him, to be my lifeline IF I needed the van sold. End of story. He betrayed himself so often that he just wanted someone else to take the shit. That's why he called her seconds after he hung up and promised me he wouldn't. That's not exactly why though. There's something severly damaged about him from that last disrespect. She went to his last respectable friendship source, the guy she couldn't dis, undisputed source of respectability amongst both of them and the guy called and shamed him. It's like how the guy at the end of 1984 broke. He will just do anything after that. To appease his opressor. My father had a right to a boundary that she could not cross. He is helping by staying away. He is preventing himself from further betrayal. He is of no use to either of us in this fight. Let me finish and if I betray myself it won't be his influence. Don't fuck bears next time pa pap.

Think of leaving and that's how I know brother's air is wrapping up. It always shows up at the end as what he wants. So stressed to see the car parked, room taken up. Doesn't make it the wrong decision necessarily. Im pretty sure i could sneak guys around in the morning. To help line her up. So they want the same thing. I couldn't get him to line up with her though. I can ask for more stuff, room back, more space in the garden, hang around the house a lot. Though I still think he'd stay and get more sabotagey. It's what he's practiced. More foreign for him to get a place. More familiar to ruin something that's around. I get nothing from a fight. I don't want to have the house, I don't like to be here all the time. I can visualise him moving out. Like he does. But again, for what? I would gladly exchange the feelings for them for something good towards myself. It's just that the best way to do that is not clear cut. Everyone did the best they could with what they had. You can't choose them. If however she chose you to be her backup financial plan that's something but not at all uncommon. If she fought hard to hold you back so she wouldn't be alone then that is also not unheard of in love.

It's about learning about these behaviours from others and knowing better and also, unfortunately, it's about undoing hangups they might have caused. If they weren't undoable, many unfortunate consequences are permanent. It becomes a question of acceptance and if you accept will it also define your direction? Will you do something with it, every. single. day.

Early bird gets the moon

Lake Elkhorn, Maryland.

📷: @zalman_waihaus

[johnnyutah]

Hello, Kerry. I want to play a game. Up until now, you have spent your life among the dead piecing together their final moments. You're good at this because you like them are also dead. Dead... on the inside. You identify more with a cold corpse than you do with a living human. I believe you want to join your true family indeed your only family in death. I believe you must be dead on the inside for three reasons. The first reason is because you are so mean to me and you keep insulting my traps. Why does it even matter if I welded the door shut. Hoffman told me you were mocking my work while still standing inside the crime scene and that is so mean and rude. Yes I said Hoffman he’s in on this too surprise Kerry and also surprise Rigg and also surprise to that hot FBI girl. Reason number two. You must be dead on the inside because why the hell else are you wasting your precious gorgeous life on Eric Matthews. ERIC MATTHEWS. I can’t even begin to tell you how depressing you are to stalk. If you feel bad about what happened to that fucking evil ugly stupid UGLY cop, why not try taking care of his teenage son. I hung out with Daniel for like two hours he’s honestly so chill. You ruined his parents’ marriage because you couldn’t resist sleeping with the ugliest MAN in the world. You kind of owe it to the kid. Reason number three. Detective Kerry you must identify more with a cold corpse than a living human, which makes you so good at your detective job, because if you aren’t dead on the inside, what’s with the reaction time, HUH? I literally stood in your bedroom for like three seconds before you noticed I was sneaking up behind you. Who stands in their room watching themselves on hidden camera when they’re trying to find a vengeful serial killer. Did you even watch Scream. What is your favourite scary movie Agent Kerry? Do you react to jumpscares that slow? I’m surprised you’re approved for duty with a reaction time like that. I bet I could jump out of the shadows now and you wouldn’t even flinch until the end of the tape. I bet you’re still trying to process the big Hoffman reveal. Well guess what there’s literally no point. I could give you a six hour time limit for this trap and it wouldnt fucking matter. By the time the tape is finished… no you know what it literally doesn’t matter there’s no way you’re reacting in time. This is why they put Tapp in Dead By Daylight and not you. Fuck it. The device youare wearingishookedintoyourribcage andbythetimethistapeisfinished youwillhaveoneminutetofindawayout. Attheendofthatminute youshouldknowbetterthananyonewhathappensthen.Thereisasimplekeythatwillunlocktheharness, Kerry. Itisrightinfrontofyou. Allyouhavetodoisreachinandtakeit. Butdoitquicklyylylylylkciuqtiod… Hang on. Okay, you listening? ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS REACH IN, Kerry, and take it, Kerry. But Do It Quickly, Kerry. The Acid Will Dissolve the Keys In A Matter Of Seconds, Kerry. Make your fucking choice

[10 seconds of static silence]

Post script. Do you like women

[buddiesmutslut]

Read a Tangled Buddie au & now I’m thinking about other Disney movies for them. (Putting a page break bc it got a little longer than expected lol)

Tiana!Eddie & Prince Naveen!Buck would be fun (Eddie working 3 jobs to support his son is literally canon, & if he’s after stability, Buck could definitely mess that up a bit w his voodoo froggy mess, but also help IMMENSELY in the end bc uh. Who’s going to file custody charges against the princes? Also, Buck’s slutty past lol. I’m also feeling May as Lottie, bc EddieMay friendship & Bobby as Big Daddy is elite. Or maybe one of Eddie’s sisters! I love putting them in fics 😍 No idea who Ray is, nobody is allowed to die lol. Idk, maybe Ray & the alligator stay who they are in the movie since they’re not people. Idk, I haven’t put a TON of thought into this give me a break)

Elsa!Maddie, Ana!Buck & Kristoff!Eddie ofc (giant childhood secret that comes out at the worst time in the worst way? Hello canon. Probs Tommy!Hans bc ofc. Also Gerrard as the Duke of Weasletown bc that’s funny to me. I think this one might actually be written already? Or something like it bc I feel I remember seeing a Tommy!Hans & I approve, yay Disney Buddie!!!!)

I already saw someone say Beauty & the Beast and I AM ROOTING FOR YOU (I can’t remember who but still!)

Tarzan is one of my all time fav Disney movies, but I rly don’t see a world where Buddie could fit into that & still have Chris around and with them? Unless Eddie & Chris also shipwrecked too? Idk :(

I would say Merida!Eddie from Brave, but I really don’t think I could see Helena being as good a mom as Merida’s was. The Diazes holding an event to marry off their son still hits, but everything else would have to be changed lol.

Idk guys, I was thinking about this in the shower & having fun w it, this is so incredibly unserious lol. I’d still love to hear all of your favorites & how/if Buddie could fit into them! These are just a couple of my favorites, idk, I think it’s a fun sandbox to play in 🫶

[baji-sideblog]

Fairytale Yans

A knight’s beginning

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Some are just born unlucky but for Arthur he’s always felt hopeless in a sense. Like the gods overlooked him entirely. He was an accidental pregnancy, born the youngest of seven siblings in a struggling household of nobles trying to hold onto their status and whatever money they had with an iron grip. He was forgotten quite often for his much older siblings that had more potential. They had more promise to help their family keep their struggling power. Arthur’s parents didn’t know what to do with him whenever they noticed him.

His siblings weren’t much better either, but he could never blamed them, even at a young age Arthur could see how much stress was they were under. How drained and tired they were he wanted to help but he didn’t know what he could do since he was still a child. Though it never erased the loneliness, since he didn’t have any friends his age nor was he given the attention he needed. One day a higher ranking noble offered his parents a deal to take Arthur he’d even pay for him. His parents took the deal.

Arthur was terrified he was scared of the worse and cried for the whole ride back to the noble’s home. He was just 10 and he felt like he was going to die, the noble did not bat an eye. Once they got to his home the noble handed him a sword and told him to fight. Of course he was absolutely demolished in the fight by the much older man. He was left bleeding from his eyebrow his hands shaking from how heavy the sword was. The man walked over to the crying boy and spoke sternly.

“You will learn how to fight. And you will fight well for that is your purpose”

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Days, weeks, months, to years that was just his life fighting and training. He’d get injured and cry, but have to get up and fight through the pain anyways. Scars grew on his body especially his hands though he didn’t mind the life to much. The noble that trained him Lance was like a parent in a way to him he definitely gave him more attention then his bio parents did. And he latched onto it even if the treatment and training was rough and harsh he still appreciated his makeshift dad.

Lance doesn’t say a lot to him but Arthur thrived off any positive attention even if Lance didn’t show it much through facial expressions. Every time he looked at Arthur with a little surprised durning fights he got excited, since it means he did good. He wanted approval, he wanted praise, he wanted to feel wanted.

Soon enough when he was deemed ready Arthur was given to the royal family as a guard for Prince Caspian when they were both the age of 17. He wasn’t surprised it happened Lance never hid anything from him there wasn’t a point to. But it still hurt Arthur he felt like he was abandoned all over again. He just wanted to curl up in a little ball and give up, but he couldn’t he had a job to do now. That’s the only reason he existed for after all it was his purpose.

In a blink of the eyes he was 24 and being handed a new mission to look after you. A person cursed to be a swan. Arthur couldn’t lie he was a nervous wreck he was taught only to fight not really how socialize. But he saw your fear, your uncertainty, he sympathized with you having felt that for so long. You weren’t too scary to talk to which Arthur was relieved about he was a major crybaby and socializing was hard. It was hard to please people with words.

Showing you around the castle was nice actually especially when he got to introduce you to his horse. You were nice. And the way you stuck close to him made him happy he felt needed in a good way. Not like some tool, but like a protector. Arthur wanted to be that for you he felt selfish thinking of satisfying his own insecurities by using you, but he reason it’s ok he can be selfish just this once plus he’d take care of you! That’s fair right? He’d watch over and protect you and you make him feel good a fair trade right?

He looked down at your swan form as you slept next to him and gently pet your head.

“Maybe this is my destiny to be by you, I mean you’re the only one that’s smiled at me heh…. I won’t lose you, and you won’t abandoned me no you’re too sweet for that right? Right? Yeah you won’t you won’t..”

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[welcometogrouchland]

Batman #149 by chip zdarsky is mostly unremarkable, but I'm really fascinated by how it makes a great case for 'good' endings not saving 'bad' stories*. Because there's a lot of interesting concepts in this issue (bruce having to deal with his rapidly aging and decaying clone making him think about his own life, re-establishing a 'nest' so to speak for his family after pushing them away, etc) but bc of the OOC slog that came before it, almost every moment w/ the batfamily comes off as unearned and disingenuous imo.

Like, everything with Damian is the perfect example in this. Because in isolation it's...fine. admittedly it's a missed opportunity to not go deeper into how Damian would feel about a clone of his dad who tried to kill considering Damian's relationships with clones of himself (the heretic rejects and respawn) or with former enemies who wanted him dead but who were manipulated and/or brainwashed (like suren and maya).

Zdarsky doesn't go into any of this but you could maybe excuse it as the issue not being about Damian. However, coupled with the previous bizarre characterizations of Damian in 147 and 148, it ends up not being fine- instead it starts to feel...icky how Damian (who, despite often being drawn and written as white, will never have his connection to the non-white al ghuls forgotten and will always be effected by racism even when not portrayed as a poc) is constantly written as overly violent, uncaring and narrow minded in this run. Coupled w/ trying to recanonize the morrison origin for Damian it's like. OH this is badly written and laden with subtle bigotry, sick**

That's me going into detail on it with Damian but it's applicable to other things in this issue- the way Cass, Steph and Duke have all been ignored or turned into jobbers makes their inclusion in the 'family' here feel hollow instead of satisfying. Bruce proclaiming that Zur was still a part of him and he needs to accept responsibility for his actions (when it means taking in clone son) wrings hollow when just last issue zdarsky was bending over backwards to separate Bruce and Zur bc otherwise the Jason thing would get really awkward. Ends are achieved through means that feel hollow or strange. I'm at my destination but damn why'd the bus have to do all that???

I only really have opinions on this latest arc of zdarskys Batman bc it's the one I've read the closest (bc I'm a hater, masochist and avid follower of even the bad damian storylines) but it's not saying great things.

Bc zdarsky can do one thing good in this book, and it's write Bruce and Tim. And yet this entire story, whether of his own volition or editorial mandate, includes other characters who aren't Bruce and Tim, the fabric starts to unravel in very telling ways.

(p.s, I think pennyworth manor is an interesting idea but I feel like in execution it's just gonna be 'bruce living in a house haunted by the memory of the people he couldn't save' but with a different dead guy this time. Illusion of change and whatnot)

*whether or not the ending is good is up to you ofc, as is your opinion on the proceeding arc! I saw some ppl complain that the ending was too "WFA" for them, which I get even if I dont think it'll literally be the same premise. If anything it's probably a lead into the new tec run. Likewise many ppl who aren't in the weeds of Damian and Jason characterization liked the previous arc! But I have my opinions and rest my case before the bench

**disclaimer, I'm white and portrayals of bigotry in comics are complicated and subjective, but I am basing my point here off what other poc comic fans on socmed have been saying about 149. Also the "sick" is sarcasm incase that wasn't obvious

[icewindandboringhorror]

I was just thinking what a cool job this might be.. what if you were just the person who makes little still images of cute animal figurines doing various activities to post on social media...? like.. show up to work and just spend the whole day like "hmm... this table should be placed to the left a little.. let me set this miniature bagel down in this way... this tiny rabbit should be wearing a scarf", setting the backgrounds, the lighting, etc. ... dream job perhaps lol...

[arachnerd-8-legs]

im getting real sick of 'intelligence'

who decided reading books and writing counted as intelligence? who decided that getting high scores on a strict, unfeeling system meant you were better than everybody? who decided that people should be turned into numbers, tie their worth in society into numbers, to compare people on a scale that ultimately does not matter, so that the people who didn't dump everything to perform for it are berated and the people who did end up with nothing?

who decided not reading or writing was a lack of intelligence? who decided that living differently to them was a sign of lower 'societal worth' than those who conformed?

[lavellane]

do i make ashara more devoted to mythal post trespasser or do i alienate her from the evanuris entirely. is she immune to propaganda by virtue of how badly solas damaged her ability to believe in anything or is she especially vulnerable to it now bc she still WANTS to believe in anything. is she sporting subtle mythal details in her costume design or is she not

[lususnatura]

alright, but one of blamore's hobbies is sculpture-making and so he HAS made numerous smaller ones over the years, but the one he's making right now is this statue of artemis (whom is the greek goddess of the hunt, the wilderness, and wild animals which is EXACTLY why it chose to make a sculpture representing her) is something it aims to be a little bit shorter than himself — so i guess you could say it is sort of a big project?¿ yeah LMAO and if blamore isn't gardening, then it'll usually be working on it.

now, so far, he's only got the bust done all the way to the shoulders as of now + it's mixed media so it's made mostly of wood, BUT it's also got some other elements like wire and some random things that you might not normally think of mixing into a sculpture in it. though man's doesn't just show anyone his progress on it because he usually wants thing's to be 'done' before he does... and that is to say that, if it does happen to show this sculpture to you, then you are officially one of its friends (':

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

[wwillywonka]

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[itspileofgoodthings]

me like ..... am I a bad teacher .......because I make class fun and my students laugh ........ surely this is wrong ........

[ripclaudia]

rolling my eyes so hard at these posts being critical of the way gerri spoke to roman in the last ep. like bfr she's only getting criticism because her fight was with tumblr sad boy roman roy. 😒

in a way i understand ppl saying that she was being unprofessional but then again when have her conversations with roman ever been particularly professional? they're deep into mixing business with personal, and given that personal is not gerri's greatest strength, it's no wonder that she didn't quite manage to read the situation to her benefit. they've never particularly operated in the area of professionalism and especially considering how gerri has been treated lately and with roman doing something extremely stupid, it's no wonder she might not be acting her most professional, especially when she's having the conversation with roman.

[2024skin]

can't decide if I want to be a gynecologist or if I want to marry one

[pkbeamgamma]

i dont think its um normal for my manager to joke about firing me back when i had covid (for non-covid reasons) like ok thats so crazy. did i need to know that

[wildlygay]

🚪

Send me 🚪  ( or ‘door’ )   and I’ll generate a number for my muse to show up on your muse’s doorstep ( a mix of angst, silliness, and fluff ) … 3. Possessed.

She honestly looked like a absolute trainwreck. Even more then she usually does, her plating was covered in scratches and her faceplates looked pale. Usually during a possession there's energon everywhere, primus almighty maybe the bot in question dies but in this case (yes i'm going the comedic route) the supposed 'demon' is this comedically weak one who just started her job and wanted to possess something easy. Like Quickshadow obviously. Heatwave came to her apartment to check up on her because she usually sends him a meme every evening at like 2 am and that hasn't happened in two weeks. When he enters, she's laying on her couch looking black-out drunk looking up at the ceiling. She is muttering demonic enchantments in what can only be described as very bad latin. Her cats were on top of her, Dough trying to smack the demon out of her system with his paw, to no avail.