#not everyone is the scum of the earth u think they are

[stealchain]

idk if its bc im seeing more twitter/tiktok people migrate here or my recommended is just fucked but im seeing so many posts I thibk are super mean and annoying

[mercymornsimpathizer]

💥💥💥uh oh! complaining alert!! 💥💥💥

[suiana]

yandere! cheater and gn! reader who's in their villain arc...

you've suspected that something was up when your boyfriend started to get busy with his work, coming home late, hiding his phone from you...

of course you just wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt that he really was just stressed from his work. he was yourboyfriend after all. you had to trust him, didn't you?

well everything was shattered when you found one of his side chicks under your shared bed. she was naked, only wearing a pair of undies while holding in her pee.

"wtf why are you hiding under here?"

"your bf doesn't want u to know that he's cheating. told me that he'd kill me if i came out."

yeah, so the girl was an asshole to get with your man when she knew that he was in a relationship but at least she told it to your face straight up. also she pissed herself while getting out from the bed so there's that.

meanwhile, your boyfriend was sobbing and crying when he came home. you had found out of his side affairs, a side he never wanted you to find out about. to be honest, your boyfriend didn't know why he he got with others in the first place. he had everything he could ever want in you. you made him feel alive, all the good things you know. being with you was like a dream come true and he constantly felt like tearing out his skin from how happy you made him.

you were his god.

oh, yeah, thinking about it now that's probably it. he felt that you were too good for him and didn't want to taint you. which... was why he resorted to sleeping with others.

shitty move, yeah he knows. don't need to repeat it.

but you... why were you so forgiving? you welcomed him back with open arms, sobbed a little and told him how hurt you were! he thought you'd have up and left by now!

but you didn't.

he knew you were too good for him, he had to treat you better now. he just had to, this was obviously you giving him a second chance, right? oh he just loves you so much!

unfortunately for him, it wasn't a second chance. no, you were about to absolutely ruin this man.

it started with the small things. small rumours about him ranging from how he had a small dick to how he's a pushover... you needed to start your plan slow, you know. tear his reputation of a good and sensible man bit by bit. gotta build up that tension teehee >w<

then from the rumours, you started manipulating the people close to him. crocodile tears, white lies, and a whole pity party for yourself... telling his friends and family members how your boyfriend was an absolute shit of a boyfriend, how he didn't treat you right and how he was the worst an alive... well, it wasn't much of a lie. he did spoil you and treat you like a deity but if he really treasured you why would he cheat in the first place? there's no space left in your life to pity him.

the most important part was to constantly reassure him that you loved him and to make sure that he never finds out that you were the one ruining his life from behind the scenes. can't let him find out that his angel lover is the one that's bringing him to social death now!

by this stage, your boyfriend was completely dependent on you. everyone around him was looking at him like he was the absolute scum of the earth. where did the rumours come from? why was everyone avoiding him? he couldn't even go to work without his coworkers side-eyeing him like he grew an extra head! he's just lucky he didn't get fired-

oh and what do you know. he got fired.

he comes home crying, an absolute mess and a shell of the man that he used to be. what was once a confident and charming man is now a desperate and pathetic boyfailure.

"baby i got fired, i'm so sorry. i don't deserve to be with you."

his arms wrap aorund your legs, tears staining your pants as he seeks comfort from the only person still left by his side. yes, you're the only person left dying for. even his own parents desserted him, yet you stayed. he's so thankful-

"yeah, you're right. you don't deserve me."

it's like time stops the second the words fall from your lips. he slowly looks up at you, eyes widening in horror as his tears dry up. what? was he growing delusional? he must've heard you wrong. no way his beloved god just said that!

"haha... you're so sweet baby. joking around in a time like this-"

"i'm not joking. you don't deserve someone like me."

you slap his hands away, looking down at him as he remains on his knees on the floor. you had a smug smile, expression all cocky as you even started to laugh.

"haha! did you really think i wanted to stay with you? fuck no! i have standards okay? i really didn't want to stay with a cheater!"

your boyfriend didn't know what to think. what were you saying? he doesn't understand. is this a late april fools prank? the way his heart was clenching and the way he felt his face paled shows just how much he doesn't like your words.

"babe stop-"

"i hate you god damnit. i really thought you'd be the one for me but no! you just had to go ahead and cheat!"

but you didn't listen to him.

"let's break up."

oh yeah, you hear that? that's the sound of his heart shattering.

he quickly crawls over to you, face pale as he grips onto your pants tightly. his hands shook with each word he uttered, tone desperate as tears streamed down his cheeks once more.

he never thought he'd start begging for someone to stay when it was usually the opposite but... you were his god. the one he's devoted his entire life too.

so he'll gladly get on his hands and knees for you if he has too. you can't leave him. he doesn't want to be alone.

"please! forgive me! i know i did something wrong but i'm trying! you can't leave me too!"

he looks up at you, face completely flushed as he continues to turn himself into an even bigger pathetic mess. he doesn't care what he looks like now. he's practically lost everything. he has nothing left to lose.

"i promise i'll be better! i haven't cheated since you found out last time! d-doesn't that count for something?"

he gives you a shaky smile, as though that would convince you.

it wasn't.

in response to his words, you could only give a disgusted expression, kicking him away before walking past him to the front door. what a pathetic man he was.

"you know, you look best when you're like this."

you state, glancing at him with a smile before turning to leave his house. well, there's that. your plan was complete and your now-ex boyfriend was absolutely destroyed.

so why did it feel like... something bad was about to happen?

you quickly look back at him, keeping your cool and remaining nonchalant before you feel the blood drain from your face. your best friend?! where did they come from?! and the fact that your crazy ex was holding a knife to their neck-

"no... don't leave me... you can't leave... i have no one else but you..."

what were you supposed to do now that he was holding your best friend hostage?

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Leto! Joker x side chick! Reader ig…

1248 words

Barely proofread ts so i’m so sorry if u see errors

pt 2

Description: You work at one of Joker’s clubs and he starts to take an interest in you….

Every night there would be presents and money left on my small table in my small ass kitchen in this small ass apartment. 

It all started when I finally learned the real identity of my boss’s boss’s boss at the club I worked at. I really needed money desperately for my family who lived out of the country. I’m currently working on the papers so they can gain legal presence but until then I need to work hard and study hard. 

At the club I worked at, they paid me better than most places and I would be able to go to university in the daytime and work at night. 

The club was pretty high class, there were many high profile politicians who were VIPs. Given that they were even at a club, they were most if not all sleezebags who tried to hit on the staff to the point that I could file sexual harassment charges. But nevermind that. 

The club was so high class and full of VIPs that I didn’t expect it to be owned by the biggest crime lord in this city, the Joker. This whole city was corrupt in and out. Even if I tried to file those sexual harassment charges I would’ve been shut up instantly. 

When I saw this head of green hair and his pale deathly looking skin and his red lips that I couldn’t tell if it was lipstick or blood, I tried my best to not be noticed by him. 

Though he looked like a corpse he was extremely attractive. Maybe in another universe I would actually try to get at him. Well and if his fellow Clown Queen of Crime didn't exist. She frightens me even more than Joker. Well actually that’s a lie but as a girl I can say that we’re ruthless when it comes to boyfriends and husbands and such. Too blind and in too much love to use actual reason.

Harley’s beautiful though they genuinely look good together. 

I went over to Joker’s table where he was talking to (or more like taunting) his client to drop off the drinks. It seemed that everyone else already knew what his regular drink was and his client’s. 

I tried my best not to mess up or to not loudly drop the drinks because at this moment I could actually not stop my whole body from shaking. They continued talking about their deal without even looking at me. I kept a friendly smile on my face. 

I walked off a bit quickly because I was terrified. Yet I felt like someone was staring right at me. I quickly turned my head and all I could see in that moment was Joker with his usual devilishly grin looking straight at me. My blood ran cold. 

When I was out of his sight I closed my eyes and started to pray. 

‘Dear God, please forgive me for any sins I have committed for I do not want to die tonight. I have too much to live for so please don’t let me die. Thank you for everything you have blessed me with Lord, amen.’ 

I was crying internally. 

Literally was gonna kill myself right then and there. But I brought myself back to reality and back to work. 

Whenever I would come to work the Joker would be there with Harley. 

I literally think I’m going crazy because I think he keeps looking straight at me…. With his girlfriend/wife/partner in crime which was even worse. Yeah he was hot but cheating men are scum of the Earth. And Joker’s a mass murderer and other stuff. To be honest I kinda forgot I’ve been too busy with school to care about politics….

I finally got a shift off and a day off of school today. I’m just gonna sleep and lounge around and be fat. I got out of my bed to go get some more ice cream in my kitchen. 

It felt a bit unnerving when I was in the kitchen, like someone was watching me. I shook off the feeling because I had locks on every single window and door. The crime in my country is a bit bad so Gotham wasn’t that much different. 

As soon as I turned around to go back to my bedroom with my ice cream in hand…

“Boo!” 

“What the fuck?!” I screamed so loud that I dropped my bowl of ice cream and it shattered. 

“The look on your face doll… it’s so… funny!” The intruder was the Joker and he couldn’t and wouldn’t stop laughing at my reaction. 

“…” I just stood there in silence thinking about how that bowl was so expensive…

I didn’t want my floor to be sticky so I started picking up shards of the really expensive bowl. 

“Aww~ Are you.. mad doll~?” He teased me with his usual grin. 

“Not really, I’m just a little sad because this bowl was really expensive.” I sighed to myself. 

“If that’s it then here.” Joker tossed money at me. 

“Um… It’s okay I’ll just work for it back.” My mom always taught me that I shouldn’t accept money and that I should always offer to pay so I gave that money back to him. 

“Just take it Doll, think of it as my~ first~ gift~ to~ you~” he really emphasized on the last part like really. 

He got comfy and sat down on a table chair as I cleaned the floor from the sticky mess. 

That sounds a little wrong, I just mean my ice cream trust…

After cleaning it all, it occurred to me…

Why and how did the Joker get into my apartment…

My blood ran cold. I feel like I could turn into a reptile with how much my blood goes cold. 

“I liked seeing you at my club but I like seeing you in this shaggy apartment more.” He looked at me. 

“Um… how did you get in here?” I spoke quietly afraid I would somehow strike a nerve. 

“It was easy! I broke your window.” He spoke like he just finished climbing Mt. Everest. 

My mouth dropped to the floor. 

Like I tried to close it but it just wouldn't. 

“…” 

“What~? Cat got your tongue Doll?” He grinned. 

I’m actually going to kill myself. 

At this point I hope he pulls out the glock 19 and shoots me….

Wait but all my windows are barred up…

I looked into my living room and realized there was glass everywhere and the metal bar was stretched apart enough where it would fit the Joker perfectly. 

Calculating the cost in my head I actually started to cry. Tears ran down my face. 

I would be fine if I picked up a few extra shifts but I had to study more because finals were coming up. I’ll have to cut down on food and sleep…

The Joker awkwardly patted my back. 

“Here’s some more money Princess.” 

“I.. Cant accept it.” I said between sniffles and pushed his money back to him. 

He suddenly grabbed my head with both his hands and made me stare him in the eye. 

“Take. The. Money. Princess. Or else I’ll shove it down your throat.” His face was way too close to mine. 

“Thank you…” I tried my best to smile while he was still manhandling my head. 

He kissed me out of literally nowhere. 

My blood went cold again. 

I don’t want to be a mistress or some side bitch….

And Harley’s gonna kill me……

Yet it felt so good. 

[zv5x]

Riddler who slowly hugs u tighter and tighter until you're whimpering and you can't breath or wriggle away before telling u that he knows u were trying to escape but that he doesn't blame you. Obviously you were being manipulated by that ex lover of yours. He was too merciful to let them off the hook that easily, and intends to rectify his mistake.

Of course he knew what those ropes on the floor stood for. He immediately knew you were attempting to escape. And on top of that, to see you fiddling with the door handle right as he makes his way in after a hard day of work...what a terrible thing to come home to, right angel? Of course the knew you were trying to leave him. Why wouldn't he? What, did you think he was stupid or something? Of course, you tell him no, that you could NEVER think that, and that he's the only remotely intelligent man in Gotham. But he doesn't believe you. Just look at those ropes on the floor. Clearly, the scum of the Earth still holds your tongue.

He gently, slowly, whispers their address into your ear, while brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. He traces kisses along the side of your head, while you try your damnedest to squirm away from him. He doesn't bother using the syringe to get you to sleep yet. He just wants a few more minutes like this with you. He just wants a few more minutes to tell you what he's going to do to everyone you ever loved, and what he'll do to you right after that. He'll play the event in his brain over and over again.

Enter their homes Hear their screams Come back home to you

The idea alone makes him feel just so…good. He could scream.

You could too, in fact.

[fandomworld9728]

Oh! U can include Alastor, Adam, Vox, Angel Dust, Lilith, Eve, and Peter (if optional) for the MHA au! :3

(AH! LET ME FREAK OUT BECAUSE NO ONE EVER ASKS FOR PETER! AND IT'S RARE I EVER GET ANYONE OTHER THAN ADAM, VOX, & ALSTOR! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS GIFT!)

(I hope this is good. I struggled a bit with it)

(First part of ask)

Name: Lucifer Morningstar

Hero Name: Venus

Age: 15

Quirk: Sin/Virtue (Later gets a quirk awakening, Quirk evolves into Fallen Angel)

Summary: Lucifer is a first year at U.A. and in Class 1-A. High and from a family of high society. He is the illegitimate child of Walter Morningstar (Pro Hero: Cyrus) and Ophelia Eveningsun. He is the youngest out of all his siblings and the most naturally talented.

While most of the family detests Lucifer and his quirks, his siblings on both sides of his family love and adore him.

Name: Alastor Boudreaux

Hero Name: Hunter

Vigilante Name: Radio Demon

Age: 17

Quirk: Wendigo/Radio Frequency

Summary: With his deer features and how his quirks affect him, Alastor has always been an outcast where he lived. This resulted in everyone around him mistreating him in one way or another. The only person he could count on was his mother.

At night he is a vigilante to rid the world of the scum or the Earth, but still wanting to be able to take care of his mother (and to have a cover) he is a 2nd year at U.A. high and in Class 2-A.

Alastor falls for Lucifer when he found out about not just Alastor's secret identity but also everything that he had been hiding from everyone else and still accepted him.

Name: Adam Edelman

Hero Name: The Man

Age: 15

Quirk: Holy Blessing

Summary: Is first year at U.A. and in Class1- B. He is always in competition with Lucifer and always has been ever since they were children. It didn't help that their families were always at odds.

Adam fell in love with Lucifer when they were children but will never admit it to anyone besides his best friend.

Name: Victor Petrov

Villain Name: Vox

Age: 28

Quirk: Electrokinesis

Summary: Victor wanted to change his life but also get revenge on the people who made his life a living hell. This led him down a dark path and to form the well-known villain team The Vees.

He fell for Lucifer during The Vees' attack on U.A. when they were fighting one on one.

Name: Anothny Dobre

Hero Name: Doesn't have one yet

Vigilante Name: Angel Dust

Age: 16

Quirk: Spider

Summary: Grew up in a family of criminals but broke away from that life once he met Lucifer and the other students of U.A. With the help of them, Anothny wants to make up for all the bad he's done in his life.

Anothny fell for Lucifer when they first met, and he inspired him to take charge of his life.

Name: Lilith Giordano

Hero Name: Siren

Age: 25

Quirk: Siren Song

Summary: Works at her family's agency with her younger brother and hopes to one day have an agency of her own. Lilith is the number 10 Pro Hero in Japan and inspires women to peruse careers most people would consider were for men only.

Lilith fell for Lucifer when he came to work at her family's agency for internships and he saw her more than just a pretty face and sex appeal.

Name: Eve Athanasiou

Hero Name: Artemis

Age: 13

Quirk: Marksmen/Nature Control

Summary: Eve is a naturally gifted young lady and always praised for her talents. But with that praise comes a lot of pressure on her to be the best. She is the youngest in her class at Seiai Academy.

Eve fell for Lucifer during the Provisional Licensing Exams when he encouraged her and saw her for more than her gifts.

Name: Peter Giordano

Hero Name: Saint Peter

Age: 19

Quirk: Angelic Song

Summary: Peter works at his family's agency with his older sister, Lilith, and is a part of a wonder duo with her. Hopes to one day become a teacher at one of the many hero schools in the world.

Fell for Lucifer during his time at his family's agency during his internship and thinks he is the most adorable thing he's ever seen.

(I'd love to expand this concept more ^-^ )

[ultr6violnce]

𖤐ִ ࣪♱ jack thurlow

𝘿𝙍𝘼𝘽𝘽𝙇𝙀𝙎 ♱ִ ࣪𖤐

note: most of these r js kinda random little drabbles some r nsfw some aren't , a few are just kinda little hc's formed into something more!! hope u enjoy angels ♡.

perv!jack touching you ever chance he gets. you'd be sat watching a movie , a blanket covering the both of you n' he'd start off subtly. his thumb would just be rubbing over ur thighs n' giving it soft squeezes , just waiting til your mind would drift off and stay focused on the movie n' once it had he'd start sliding his hand up further. when you'd notice n' scold him with a slight , 'jack what do you think you're doin..?' a small little pout would form on his face as he'd start cooing in ur ear. 'dont sorry 'bout it baby , just keep focused on the movie.' his fingers eventually sliding between ur shorts n' panties and he'd begin teasing ur wet folds with them before he'd slide his finger inside you , earning soft little gasps n' whimpers from you as his fingers would start moving faster curling up inside you as he'd keep cooing sweet nothings in ur ear.

rough dom/perv!jack who'd place his phone in ur guys room to record you both as he had you on all fours , his hand gripping at ur neck as his cock pounded you deeply , his n' your loud moans as his tip would consistently hits that sweet spot inside you. he'd lean forward , burying his face in ur neck as he makes sure the camera catches every moment of ur filthy little session together. he'd eventually cum inside you , thick ropes of it spilling from his tip and filling ur womb as loud moans errupted from his lips causing his nails to dig into the skin of ur neck as he gives u one last thrust before pulling out , n' he'd take his phone n' record as his cum would ooze from ur hole. eventually saving the video so he could use it for his own personal pleasure later on.

lovestruck!jack who basically hates everyone but you. he's never been the affectionate type n' he's always had this grumpy demeanor about him. that was til he met you. the moment his eyes settled on you , his whole perspective changed. n' suddenly you were the most person in his life. he'd take whatever chance he could to see you , hold you , touch you , kiss you etc. he is absolutely love struck by you. you were the bright sun in his dark storm. he loved you more than anything and would do absolutely anything n' everything for you. that man would move heaven and earth for you if it meant spending his whole life with you. to him everyone else is scum but you..no. you were his girl. you were his beautiful girl n' there would be nothing you could ever say or do that would make him think or feel differently.

softie!jack who would do literally anything to cheer you up. it's kinda obvious he's not the most lovey dovey person , he doesn't do well with affection but the second he notices that you're even a slight bit sad it's like something switches inside him n' he's suddenly the most loving man in the world , he will literally buy you anything. you want some new jewellery? he's already buying it. you want a nice beautiful bouquet of flowers? he's on it. you want a basket of chocolates? he's on his way with them. he would literally do everything to makesure you're smiling , even if he didn't do it much himself he'd always makesure you were. in his mind he'd probably go insane if he ever thought you were losing ur spark just even a little bit.

perv!jack who LUVSSS watching you suck on his fingers whilst ur riding him. your pussy swallowing his cock whole as your hips bounced on his lap as you took him deeper , groans and moans leaving his lips as he could feel himself getting closer. he'd always need something else to finish him off so he'd raise his fingers up to ur mouth and slip them in between your lips , letting you take them in your mouth. his eyes narrowing as he watches you suck and swirl your tongue on them. he'd feel his balls tighten at the sight and loud moans would start spilling like a waterfall from his lips as he'd eventually release his big load inside you. practically cumming buckets inside ur pussy as he kept his fingers in your mouth as his hips bucked up and he'd just rest his head on ur shoulder as he'd keep his softening cock inside you.

atheist!jack x religious!reader - he wanted you to see him as ur god. he didn't want you to worship the god you called 'your god'. he fucking despised it. he was your god. especially when he fucked you or did anything to you. he'd sometimes have you bent over his knee , his fingers plowing into you , his cold , metal rings grazing your walls. n' when he'd fuck you. he'd fuck you good. he'd makesure the only god you knew n' worshipped was him. his hand would slap firm , red handprints on your skin. whilst his cock would just pound you to the point where you could've almost said you felt it in your stomach. n' he'd always makesure to give you the best load. he'd cum fucking buckets for ya before just watching it drip out as he pulled his cock out , mumbling a small 'who's your GOD baby ?' as he'd nuzzle his face into your neck , your soft pants lingering around the room. 'y-you jack..it's only you. you're my GOD ! ' n' just by those words he'd be ready to pound you senseless again.

a/n: hope this is good enough my loves , im gunna try n' get another post out later cuz the ideas are kinda swimming in atm!! idk who im gonna write for so if you wanna send some reqs in then pls feel free to do so , i might not get round to some of them but I'll try my hardest angels!! luv u guys smmm ♡ .

[regretevator-confessions]

i think its very obvious that some of u are not familar with how fandom spaces work because yall are calling ships “toxic“ n then its just two characters who kinda dont like eachother 😭😭😭this is just what fandoms DO .making two characters in love even if it doesnt follow canon rules is just .normal fandom stuff dude. its not that serious..... i get not liking a ship but u dont have to act like its the scum of the earth just because people dont see these characters the same way u do

partybeetle? AWESOME SAUCE !!! i love them a lot and i see why its popular !! i mean yeahj pest isnt like .super fond of poob but hey guess what .puts my hand on your shoulder. I can imagine anything i want. if u seriously think theyre toxic n noone should ship them for the sole reason of “they dont always get along“ u would not survive like .any fanbase ever. I get its not everyones thing but cant we just hold hands and frolick in the field instead of yelling at eachother ❤️lalala

Also to people who say pest would be genuinely toxic and manipulative in any ship: hey do u know that just because someones rude doesnt mean theyd be abusive in a relationship? its very important u understand that pest is allowed to like people without being seen as “toxic“

thats all sorry for the yapfest....

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[snifekinner]

do norway and iceland for the siblings meme ??

oh FUCK yeah i willl!

who hogs the game consoles?

they band together to hog them from everyone else. denmark is bouncing on the sofa just barely clinging onto his ability not to snatch, because nor and ice are locked in a tiebreak which has been going on for a full hour. he wants a turn so badly. nor and ice will deathmatch until they both starve to death or one of them wins, whichever is sooner.

who usually causes the fights?

norway. they both have low emotional intelligence but iceland is slightly more switched on (he's younger, he has younger friends). one might say he's securely attached. norway is very avoidant-dismissive attachment: he causes fights by getting too clingy, but sometimes also for being too distant and cold.

who steals the others' clothes?

norway steals everyone's clothes. iceland wouldn't want to steal norway's clothes. he doesn't even really like borrowing stuff off norway because you can never be sure if it's been washed recently.

who eats all the good snacks before the other can get any?

neither - norway will guard the snacks vigilantly to make sure ice gets his share, and iceland isn't the greedy sort, he never takes more than his share. denmark, however...

which one gets the top bunk or bottom bunk?

iceland goes top bunk because he's ever so slightly shorter, and because norway doesn't like not being able to get to a door easily. nor also goes bottom bunk because he wakes up during the night a lot so it's easier to get out of bed and go for a wander without disturbing ice

who speaks up when the other asked for no pickles?

lmao we all know it's nor speaking up for ice. it's not even a shyness thing, ice just hates being difficult with service workers.

which one likes to go into the other's room, fart, and immediately leave?

shared behaviour. probably more iceland because he's the little brother and everyone knows little brothers are the scum of the earth.

which one bails the other out of jail?

gonna say iceland bailing norway out of jail. norway's been arrested for snufkin-style crimes (trespass, vandalism, grand larceny). iceland doesn't get arrested, partly because he's not the type to break the law and partly because there's like 4 police officers in iceland and he knows them all by name

which one won't stop repeating an embarrassing story about their sibling as a child?

norway norway norway. not just one embarrassing story but multiple embarrassing stories. constantly. you ever heard the phrase, "to dine out on a good story" meaning it's a story you can tell loads of people over dinner? nor has a six course banquet about ice's childhood stories.

who do they each think the favourite child is?

they both know it's denmark.

that said, i did have a great story going with my friend anna (bruh idk what your tumblr is anymore, lmk so i can tag you) where ancient scandinavia (i.e. norway's mum) and he had a really fractious but interesting relationship. he always thought he was her least favourite but it was because she recognised he could use magic like her and wanted to make him tough. it was such a great story ugh, i should write a fic about it

ed: ITS @nyoiiceland !!! 💖

anyway thanks for the ask anon! if u wanna pm your blog i would love to send an ask back!

[doctorguilty]

therapy stuff

anyway, now that I'm back on track with therapy.. my therapist tried to do a catch up on what's been going on with me in the time she was absent, which was uhh a lot, she asked how I was feeling overall. and I talked quite at length about everything going on, my sister this, my partner that, my family this n that, and by the end of it, she was like well seth, I asked how you were feeling, but you didn't really tell me much about that. and even when I asked if how these things things affecting people were making you feel, like if your sister experiencing xyz was making YOU feel concerned for how it impacts your situation, it was still about how you're concerned for HER situation. that's not your feelings. And I'm like... confused. I sort of get what she's saying, but I don't quite understand how they aren't my feelings. She specializes in BPD and this is like, the big difference here from everything else I've ever experienced with this stuff, ok, and is like see like, whenever we talk this is a pattern you have of enmeshment, and that's very common with BPD, to not know how to talk about your own feelings versus others, but like.. do you even know the difference? and I just felt like all the gears in my brain stop moving and I paused like. I.. don't know....... I guess I don't. like. seriously. I legitimately have no idea how else to answer the question when she asks how I'm doing. but when she points out that it's about everyone else it I SEE that it makes sense that it totally is. so I'm just like of like. lisasimpson.png about it .

i feel like I've heard this before in a way, EXCEPT in a very very negative cruel way coming from people who want to paint me like the worst person ever like, telling me I'm selfish because I like take everyone else's feelings and make it all about myself on purpose etc etc (tumblr dot com loveeeeeeeees to do this btw !!! :^)))) pretend that like hyperempathy/enmeshment/etc are not symptoms of any sort of disorders whatsoever and are just like Dark Empath(tm) TikTok girly pop pysch shit and you are the scum of the earth if you struggle with that like ok. guess i'll die) so all I do is like beat myself up over it while being like Shrug emoji I'm the worst what can ya do, but then like my therapist yesterday is like. you are LACKING selfishness in your emotions, you are incapable of talking about your own feelings for 60 seconds without talking in detail about someone else and your concern for them, ig that's just the difference when you work with someone who actually treats ppl with bpd like actual human beings and not demons cause hdsjgkdfhdh <:l

and this is not the first session where i was essentially being told I Need to be more selfish in some kind of way like I need to be more vocal about needs, I need to take up space, etc, like it's still really hard to accept any of that and there's like small steps I've taken i guess but . overall I still feel like the Worst person ever and I've been conditioned time and time again to believe I am the epitome of selfishness no matter WHAT I do. i'm literally embarrassed writing this post right now like I can't believe I'm out here trying to justify feeling like I'm a decent person when I must be just tricking my therapist into thinking I'm a better person than I actually am. but I'm going to post it anyway because I am a pathetic little worm of a person.................................................rips my skin off , wails and weeps. do u see what I'm dealing with here

[neverchecking]

Thank you for giving me permission to let me send any idea I get ^u^ your list has given me more ideas and thoughts 🩵 and it has helped play into a specific one ✨ so I am here to share one that had been at the forefront of my mind that I need to share with you and your amazing brain

Btw will be using fem pronouns cause it’s a bit easier for me to write this all out, but you don’t have to ^u^

I genuinely can’t stop thinking of all the possibilities that could arise from the chain— which now includes Cal and Sage whenever I talk about the chain as a whole, they deserve all the love 🩵— knowing that their goddess has a darker side. Before I get into that, will add that personally, I feel like y/n would never abuse that power, maybe cause she has some morals; never targeting kids ofc, but also those that flirt with her but back down immediately upon seeing her boys? Those people are fine, because they’re respectful at the very least— and don’t have the audacity to think they could ever measure up to even a fraction of her perfect boys. But others that keep pushing? Target acquired. But also I imagine she doesn’t want to abuse her power cause she doesn’t want to be even remotely close to Hylia or even Zelda; she actually genuinely loves and cares about her boys, and they already do so much for her, she would never want them to feel like she’s using them. Which, I mean to be fair, if we’re being technical, she kinda is using them, but it’s for her and her boys benefit ✨ she’s just giving them permission to deal with the scum of the earth

Anyway, back to the number one thought at the forefront of my mind, me thinks, as a treat for the boys since you mentioned that they find it hot as hell, them getting to witness their goddess as she chooses her next victim ✨

Before I do that, I wanna bring up some things you wrote, like from Sage figuring out reader knew what they were doing; “They enjoyed teasing the scum of the Earth, dangling their own supple body in front of them like a treat on a stick only to set their guard dog on them the second they overstepped.” This. This imagery right here is scrumptious. 10000/10 delicious. It sparked this idea in the first place. But also the fact that it’s not just one guard dog, it’s eleven guard dogs at the ready ✨ because even when the chain know the truth, that reader knows about their darker impulses and even encourages it, she still doesn’t stop goading those people into crossing a line so her boys can deal with them— at least, she won’t unless it genuinely upsets her boys, cause while she enjoys riling up the chain and seeing how possessive they can be, she doesn’t want to actually make them upset if they really don’t like it.

Which actually plays into another thing you wrote for the list— thank you for the list 🩵— specifically on Twilight’s part; “He's just a simple country boy who was raised in a village where everyone was honest, so he can only think the same of everyone, especially his Goddess, until proven otherwise.” Which again, this. I love this— I love everything you write but this had me going “awww” out loud, he’s so precious 🩵 but also this plays into the whole thing with reader not wanting to upset her boys. If the chain doesn’t actually like that she uses her body in a way that goads those scum, she’ll respect their wishes and just straight up tell them. Especially since well, she has nothing to hide if her boys know the truth, cause I feel like y/n— in an effort to not be in any way, shape, or form like Hylia or Zelda— would be honest with them about it. Literally straight up about who’s on her shit list.

And if we bring up the point system, the higher on her shit list, the more points the chain gets for dealing with them ✨ like if someone was flirting with her and wouldn’t back down? On her shit list but not very high up there, so extra points if the chain deals with them quickly. Someone saying some insulting shit about her boys?? Higher up on her shit list, extra points if the one who was getting insulted dealt with the person. Someone who insults her boys, flirts with her, and doesn’t back down???? The highest you could ever be on her shit list, extra points if they make it a painful death ✨ no one insults her perfect boys and gets away with it

So imagine this, the chain and reader at one of their castle towns, and y/n overhearing from one of the men they pass making a snide comment about that Hyrule’s Link and the chain getting to witness for the first time the way their goddess’s sweet smile tightens just the slightest bit, how her kind eyes shift into one that craves bloodshed but flickers back into that kind look so quickly, but now her eyes and smile hold something much sharper— except now she’s not directing that smile to them, she’s looking at the man that had the audacity to ever say anything about her boys. Now this is where the idea splits into two routes, cause I can’t be 100% sure whether or not the chain would want her to stop trying to goad the scum of the earth, so I shall give you both versions ✨

If the chain truly doesn’t mind, they would get to witness it with new eyes how their goddess expertly plays into the innocent role, how she maybe pretends to be lost or something and just uses her body in a way that gets her the exact reaction she wants from the man. Just like how you said, she dangled her body in front the man like a treat on a stick, just waiting for the man to overstep, and once he does, whether the chain pull their goddess away or she just drifts back to them, she’s content now that she’s gotten what she wanted, which is a target painted on that man. And she patiently awaits for her boys to deal with him like she knows they will.

Is the chain does mind, she gets closer to the Link of the Hyrule they were in, and since she would be honest, she would ask him if they knew that man, if he was of importance, and if anyone would notice if he just, disappeared. Never to be found again. Whether she has to be outright honest and bluntly asks them to deal with the man, or if that’s enough of a hint for them to have a target painted on the man, she’ll make sure they know exactly who she wants them to deal with.

Regardless of the route, the one(s) that deal with the man get lots of affection after they’ve dealt with the scum ✨

— 🫐 anon

🫐anon. Listen here-

Everything you just wrote up there?

I AM (s)CREAMING.

THERE IS SO MUCH TO GO OVER AND IM SO READY-

First, you didn't need permission lovely! I'm more than happy to read what you guys send and start a conversation. I feel like I've made some great friends here with all of you guys! And I'm so ready to hear all of your ideas. Because your brain=just as amazing man

Now, I love including Cal and Sage because those two when with Wild are such a delicious trio. Full of resentment and bubbling anger just waiting to boil over? Drives me nuts. There is just so much potential there and I wanna love them all because it's what they deserve.

I totally like that entire idea of Reader not abusing their power. I imagine they view themselves as a benevolent being rather than a strictly Godly one. Like you said, kids are out of the question. People who respect their boundaries and understand that they could never measure up to the deities that are their boys are imposing on another person's relationship (Whether it's poly, a cult, etc., etc.) are also safe. It's the ones who don't respect that line. Who cross it and view Reader as nothing more than a piece of meat. Who want nothing more than a quick lay. Those are people who Reader deems as expendable. Because, really, Hyrule would be a better place without them in it.

And they would have to really push it. Reader is only instigating it if they push. From then, it's just baiting the boys into seeing it. Because you're right. She doesn't want to be at all like Zelda- or Golden three forbid, Hylia. They did nothing but use and abuse her perfect companions, with little to no second though to the aftermath. While, yes, she is also using them to a degree, it's more of a trade. She'll give them companionship and someone to lean on rather than them relying on no one but themselves.

When it comes to them knowing their Goddess has a darker side (Should we give this an AU name? I feel like we should-), it absolute riles them up.

🫐anon. Lemme let you in on a lil' secret- When writing that line, I was literally giggling to myself like a whole ass school girl. Like I was damn proud of that line so thank you for noticing.

Imagine having eleven guards dogs, prowling about, waiting to attack first and ask questions later. All their waiting for is the command. If it does genuinely upset her boys, she can definitely step back.

I'm glad you like the list so much! It was fun to figure out! Yeah, honesty is a huge difference between Reader and Hylia/Zelda. They never came outright with anything, lest it be a life or death situation. They've all had issues like this with their Zeldas, who simply didn't tell them something until they were facing down death itself. She'll straight up be like, hey, this happened, deal with how you want to, or, better yet, I'm dealing with it, i'll be back in a few minutes.

Now. A point system.

🫐anon. Your genius knows no bounds.

Now, imagine, if you will, someone not only insults her boys, and flirts without backing down, but dares to try and touch whats not theirs. That is the absolute pinnacle of fuckery.

I imagine this would happen in like Warrior's Hyrule because, let's face it, his is the messiest. Most people, half of them absolutely hate Link for starting a war, the other half want him in their bed, very little in between. And their ballsy because who's gonna stop them? Those jokes they call knights? Yeah, right.

Now, option A)

The man has already pushed. He pushed a fragile dam and it snapped, now he's left to deal with the anticipated torrent. She's sauntering over to him, fluttering her lashes and puckering her lips, doing all of the cheesy moves to get what she wants. And it works. Once he's hooked, his fate is seal. Because the boys are not the one to truly fear. No, Reader is. She makes the calls. She'll determine if you are worthy of their time. If not, if you've failed her test before it even begins?

Count your hours because they are fleeting and they are fleeting fast.

Option B)

Let's say this is Warriors Hyrule, she'll go to him on how to deal with this directly. Depending on the Hyrule, she'll let that Link lead the way. Some, like Wars, require some tact and poise when it comes to dealing with unwanted pests. With populations as heavy as they are, there are some hurdles they have to jump to make sure its done properly. They can't be sloppy, or they'll get caught. If it's someone like Hyrule's or, hell, even Sage's Hyrules, they can get as sloppy as they want as long as they remain out of sight.

You bet your ass that they are absolutely soaking up all the attention bestowed upon them for a job well done. Anything for their Goddess.

[artfightdramaconfessions]

Ok some of ya guys gotta stop assuming the worst of everyone just because you have insecurities about urself. Stop being upset if people unfollow u, stop assuming they are asshole becuz of that. stop assuming people are ignoring u just becuz they dont comment or revenge. not everyone is as confident in commenting. not everyone has time to revenge. stop assuming that people are the absolute scum of the earth becuz they cant live up to your standard of artfight etiquette which frankly comes off as entitled and genuinely I wouldn't think anyone was wrong for ignoring u if this is how ya guys wanna act about anything you see as a slight against U.

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[triscishistrionic]

Uhhhm, is it Normal for people with autism to randomly start distrusting & kinda hating everyone they know because of small incidents where theyre misunderstood or am i,, like, Messed Up. if i am, Messed Up, should i like, look into that or like nahh, its probably the normal amount of messed up?

First of all, you aren't messed up!! I can promise you that <33

Second of all, it's definently not impossible that autistic people could experience this after ostracization, trauma, or other reasons, but I wouldn't say it's a common experience for autism in particular?

I have a special interest in personality disorders, and while this could be from anything disordered or not, I would look into paranoid personality disorder (ppd) and borderline personality disorder (bpd)!!

PPD deals with suspicion, distrust, and of course paranoia about the people around you, and BPD has factors like seeing things in extremes, or a "one or the other" or "all good and all bad" mindset. This is known as black and white thinking, or "splitting" as its known in the bpd community.

I have BPD, and something that happens frequently with me is hating people I come across (sometimes people I've never met) because of one small thing I didnt like about them. For example, If they looked at me weird in the hallway, said something that offended me, or even just walk or talk too slow to name a few, a switch in my brain will decide that they're the scum of the earth, and that often wont change unless someone influences me otherwise.

Sometimes it takes a few times for this to happen, or the hatred is less intense than other times, but this is a common theme for me. Another common thing with BPD if frequent and/or very intense anger that may be inappropriate at times, and this can tie back into the hatred involved in splitting.

I don't have PPD or as much knowledge as of like to have on it, so unfortunately I cant do another breakdown of it here :(

All of this isnt to concretely say you have BPD or PPD, because that's a decision that's up to you to explore, but I did recognize some b/p pd traits from what you said and took it as an opportunity to infodump mhehehehe-

Even if you dont explore these routes I hope u found this interesting!!! :3

[yanderu-deredere]

Gawain Dubhán Byrne, Gavin Ciarán Byrne, Eun-jeong Yoo, Ryuunosuke Yamamoto with a reader who is extremely afraid of the dark, who can cry and always grabs the yanderes as his lifeline.

a/n: i feel like i always say this but this is literally me as fuck, esp with my night blindness loool neway, thank you for the request! and hopefully this is what you were asking for!

warning: gender neutral reader

gawain dubhán byrne ★ profile

goddamn coward when it comes to horror movies, haunted houses, things that go bump in the night

i wouldn't say he's as bad as you when it comes to being in the dark but i'd like to say that he comes pretty close

but guess what? he becomes the bravest man in the world when you get scared

he has an overprotective streak a mile long and he wants nothing but to take care of you so when you give him the opportunity?

he eats that shit up

so its safe to say he absolutely lives for this

lowkey is super terrible at hiding that he's not scared sometimes tho and it's kinda funny

like he's really bad at not flinching at small noises but he'll be as stiff as a board, trying his hardest not to let it show that he'll probably piss his pants if the noise gets any closer

thankfully, gawain would be the overly prepared type to like have a flashlight at all times, phone always at 100%, there's batteries in every drawer, etc

if you start crying, he'll get even braver. he'll get super serious and all of the fear in his body like literally evaporates and disappears

there's nothing he takes more seriously than you crying becos the last thing he ever wants to see is you sad and scared and crying

the kind of nerd that carries and embroidered handkerchief in his pocket for times like this!

Gawain wrapped an overprotective arm around you, his hand firmly yet gently cupped over your shoulder. His other free hand held his handkerchief, carefully dabbing the corner of it onto your cheeks to wipe away your tears.

"There, there." His voice was soft, soothing, calm in a way that made you feel calm too "Don't worry, I'm here too, I won't let anything happen to you, my love."

gavin ciarán byrne ★ profile

unfortunately, this mans lowkey loves scaring the shit out of you

the type of boyfriend to sneak up behind you and grab your side and make you scream

it's a bit different when you're like really scared tho like when the two of you are already in a scary situation

if the two of you are at a haunted house for halloween or when the two of you are watching a horror movie and it's really dark, he'll be hesitant to try to scare u

like yeah, he wants to surprise you but he doesn't want to terrify you

the most unfortunate part about this whole debacle is that this stupid idiot can sometimes have a bit of a difficulty telling between when you're just a little bit surprised and when you're downright terrified

honestly, the type to just hold you and not really have much else useful he'll do cus he'll be too panicked to think of anything else

if you start crying, he'll feel like an absolute jerk and he might try his best to make it up to you by trying to make you laugh or by bribing you with your favourite sweet treats

Gavin practically crushes you against his chest, one of his hands gripping onto any piece of clothing you have, the other cupping your neck and pressing your head into his chest.

"I'm so so sorry, baby, oh my god, I'm so sorry!" He babbles almost nonsensically, the panic and guilt eating at his heart "Please don't cry! Please don't cry!"

eun-jeong yoo ★ profile

approaches this with the most logic out of everyone on this list

also out of everyone on this list, eunjeong is the hardest to scare? he's seen the scum of the earth in the slums of lovelock so things like horror movies and monsters that go bump in the night don't really send a shiver down his spine

so he'll be calm and collected for you loool

he's not as ready as gawain but he'll definitely keep in mind that you have such a terrible fear of the dark. the worse your fear, the more he'll be prepared for it

he always has a lighter with him becos he smokes when you're not around is just always prepared so, if you feel safe, he'll flick it on for you and see if that makes you feel better

or he'll just hold you close if his lighter doesn't work

eunjeong also has the nicest calmest voice out of everyone on the list so he could talk you down very well i think

if you start crying, i think it'll fluster him a bit and he'll panic just slightly (definitely not as badly as gavin) but he'll recover fast and try to comfort you as quickly as he can

Eun-jeong cradled you in between his legs, your back pressed tightly against his chest, his knees on either side of yours, his arms caging you in. In his hands, in front of you, he flickered his lighter on again, the flame dancing like ballerina in the dark.

"It'll be fine." He muttered against your ear in that calm yet almost monotone voice of his "The light will be on when they fix it. I'll be right here while we wait. It will all be okay."

ryuunosuke yamamoto ★ profile

a lot like eunjeong except way more emotional loool

like eunjeong, he's kind of seen the worst of humanity so there's not a lot that can scare him

like what can be in the dark? a monster? baby, youre in love with the worst monster in lovelock!

i'd say jokes aside but unfortunately that's not a joke

neway, that aside, in my humble opinion, ryuu would be the best to have around when you're in the dark

he'd do his best to make light of the situation, maybe make you laugh a little bit, maybe make fun of himself so you can giggle at his expense

he'll try to get your mind off of the fear so to speak

if that doesn't work, he'll just point out how big and manly and strong he is and what kind of monster could win against someone like him? not any kind that exists, that's for sure!

if you cry, he'll panic a lot like gavin. he's not very good against you crying becos he's weak against stuff like that. it makes him wanna cry too but, of course, he has to be strong for the both of you!

he'll comfort you the best he can and try to make you laugh or maybe even try to find the closest light source possible if making you laugh doesn't work!

"Oh no! Don't cry!" Ryuu suddenly screamed out, making you flinch and ramping your anxiety up even more.

He quickly noticed that, of course, and felt even worse. He wrapped his arms around your shoulders, his hand cupping the back of your head and pressing your face into his neck "Ohhh, nooo, if I see you cry, I'll cry! Please don't! Ahhh, dam'it!"

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Hi BPP!

I want to ask u sth serious pls its ok to ignore. What is ur view of solo stans? Do u think solos are bad or army can be friends with them?

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I’m not friends with any solo stans, Anon. I’ve said what I think about solos before so I won’t rehash it, but given what I said, any ‘friendships’ I’d have with the solo wouldn’t be genuine. I know it, so why bother, you know? Anyway, while I’m not friends with solos, there are a few I occasionally talk to who generally give me the gist of what’s current. They’re intelligent, able to form a proper argument in their heads and see from an opposite point of view. So in many ways, my kind of people… they just also happen to be more morally ambiguous than I am and a little bit sociopathic. So, of course, they’re solos. Anyway, the ones I sometimes see are good at keeping their opinions concise and coherent. I also really appreciate their extremely sardonic sense of humour. I’ve noticed solos are really good at that biting, cynical, but richly humoured commentary that war veterans take on during their third campaign. You get this sense especially from PJMs. Those bitches have fought taekookers every day of their lives. They’ve seen some shit. Because taekookers are the actual scum of the earth, backwater stupid, oloriburukus that god forbid you ever encounter in real life. And nobody has to deal with taekookers more than PJMs.

And so for that reason, when I receive a silly ask from someone who is obviously a PJM, I usually delete it before I even finish reading it. Quietly, respectfully (?), and promptly. Rather than post them for jokes or whatever (though this might happen later lol). Not like that’s something special - a lot of asks I think are weird do get deleted and every solo gets the same treatment from me.

I don’t like that solos are so myopic and pessimistic. I don’t like the mindset being a solo stan (especially the sort at the frontlines of dealing with other lunatics) forces you to inhabit. I do like that their communities are a bit more close knit than ARMY, but that also means that solo stans have much less variation in thought and belief, than ARMYs do. It kinda irks me too that a lot of them are really tunnel-visioned in particular ways. But at least they provide raw manpower for supplemental streams and sales. And for voting, solos are admittedly more disciplined on being consistent at this, than any other section of the fandom.

Too many of them just want to see it all burn. I don’t like that either.

And so, no Anon, I’m not friends with solos nor do I think it’s alright to be friends with one. But it’s not like you need my opinion anyway, since everyone here just does what they want.

[katherinebotten]

Jack Donoghue, the opioid epidemic merch hoodie, and Salem

Jack is cool because of what he brings to the situation. The situation isn’t cool. It’s cool because jack is there. Jack sets the tone he does not let the tone dictate how he is received. He has a romantic mid-west America sensibility. Humble. Disappearing to become a heroin addict ploughing the fields of Alaska like a gold-rush miner in the 1800s. Always in a BPD codep relationship but he remains the Elvis of his life. The captain of his ship. Enough self hating insecurity that we relate to him yet enough mastery over his exterior material conditions that we are in awe. The shame never takes him under the way it would us. He is a god amongst men because shame would kill us mortals yet he takes his shame and turns it into capital through the commerce possible from fine art. Everyone else tries to be Salem but only Salem is Salem. Everyone else should try being themselves. He dated lana because they are both magicians. Liam wanted to be Jack. Every boy wants to be jack. If I saw a person in a Salem t-shirt I would make sure not to talk to them. I think identifying with Salem is for losers only. But I can’t deny the appeal of jack. And of Salem! 

Daisies boyfriend wore a black hoodie it said “I survived the opioid crisis” and I wanted it even though they are the most loser couple of insecure losers on earth. Australia’s prom king and queen if the high school was Insecure High. And it really makes you think, huh, it must be true… money doesn’t make you happy. I didn’t know who made this hoodie - for days I was thinking about it. It was like a sigil. Charged with subcultural power. Then I googled it and saw it was Salem merch... Of course! Salem merch is cringe by nature because when you signal the code that your into Salem you also signal that your a desperate creton lazy death lover with no creativity. Like every art gallery in Melbourne named after death. But this hoodie got me. Death has built in sex appeal that’s why I think it’s lazy. I wish Salem made pro-life merch but they wouldn’t, couldn’t, and won’t. Because then they wouldn’t be Salem. I come for the death and stay for the sex. Jack is the Bee Gee’s “Stayin’ Alive” song, walking down the street in spring using your denim cock crotch as a compass. Jacks cock = true north. He is magnetic because he is a child looking for a whore and/or a mother and won’t break out of himself to become sovereign (ie to become a magician) and we identify, the magnetism is that he is us but he looks, sounds, and seems cool doing it, so we idolise. We want to feel okay. We also can’t break out to become sovereign selves, we want company. But jack is accidentally a magician and I can’t figure out why. He is a martyr in that he becomes magician so we don’t have to and we praise him for it. (Idk how u become a magician without becoming a magician????) He is America. He is a poet. He is a beat poet. He is a dumb hunk. Drunk. Drug addict. Sex addict. Bpd pest. Annoying regressed pitbull. The archetype of the Casanova, Eros, Mars the planet named after the Roman god of war. He signals an authenticity that hipsters feed off but being death obsessed isn’t authentic it’s fake and a cover and fear centric and our authentic core is always life obsessed. My magic coach max says life and death are the same thing. Idk I just know Jack is a loser because death is pathetic but I also know that he gets me everytime and we love him because we want to love the fearful parts of us too and in jack we see the dualism of fear and the things we do to camouflage it that to dumb people appears as fears opposite. We want to empower the parts of us that are scared and weak and lying to cover themselves over as strong (see: in Melbourne - indifferent, apathetic, amoral, apolitical). So we love jack. Scum John Travolta. A boobytrap. Salem is for the codependent. Salem is loaded, charged, cool. 

I watched a fan made documentary on YouTube about Jack and spent the next 12 hours totally desperate to relapse. Every product we want has a secret promise it will make us feel safer. No one wants to die and to change is to die and to be attracted to darkness is liking this sensation you get when you think you are changing because you are dying because you like darkness, and how happy it lets you feel making believe like you're changing when your actually not. Surrounded by darkness my loser XXXXXXXXX thinks he is so cool because he loves death but he doesn’t change he is stuck because he thinks the attraction to death is death (he's not brave enough to die). The final thing out of Pandora’s box was hope and it was the cruellest of all because it kept people exactly as they were. Unchanging. We are such liars. Salem hoodie losers declare themselves as liars. Looking beyond death is life, like in Zazen setting up seated meditation and staring through the hoodie. Refracted out on the other side is the understanding that there is a quality within you that is dependent on external validation for your sense of mysticism, and this is of a low vibrational frequency and probably blocking you from real divine union, being yourself, knowing your purpose and carrying it out.

I wish they didn’t have the opioid brands on the back it makes it uncool, glib and heavy handed. It’s cheap like loser graphic design not fine art and you could find anything that looks like that at Savers or someone in Brunswick yuck. The front is kind of dope in that it’s a public service announcement and mysterious and doesn’t technically have to be true. Then the brands on the back is this energetic doubling down but it’s confused and Vibrationally comes off as not mysterious. Too “of the world”. Plus can you imagine all the losers behind you as you walk being intrigued or scared while reading the branding on your back it’s kind of beyond ugly thing to force to happen in the environment in fact I would go as far as to call the graphic element on the back of the hoodie environmental rape. 

It seems like no matter what he has friends and some what accepts himself. If it was one of us who ended up picking olives in willunga, South Australia, or being a cleaner on a FIFO offshore oil refinery, or in the mines of deep Queensland I doubt we would remain cool and desirable, it is the perserverance of Jack’s essense despite the material conditions that we admire. It’s like he is in the olympics of remaining cool despite what is happening around him. I would kill myself if I ended up childless and living in the fleurieu peninsula alas I am sober and Jack copes by smoking, driving a ute, staying reflexive to trends, and contributing to the zietgiest with markers reminding us of his virility via Instagram posts. I’m torn, it’s not king behaviour. I stan a drop-out, jack hangs-in. 

One day zac described to me that Ed Sheeran was famous because he distilled the essense of England into a man and that is what was being celebrated. England championing the spirit of “England”. The schizophrenia of it was enticing, I don’t know if it checks out. I think we just want to be carried off to sleep, our consciousness blunted. Nothing toooo much but enough of enough to think we’re being satisfied. A Course In Miracles says nothing of this world could be satisfying. I think jack represents the edge of an edge most hipsters are happy to occasionally occupy or aim for. If Jack actually was a frontier explorer we wouldn’t know or see him because he wouldn’t be so representable and locatable. (I wonder if that’s truly true?)

I like jack because he shows me beauty in hopelessness. Where jack is is ok not because it is ok but because jack is there. This is a representation of presence-creation. If I am ok then I can be present. At the end of it all we love hope. The art is dark but it represents making the most of nothing and that is hopeful. Jack is a magician because he is an alchemiser. 

I still think wearing Salem merch shows yourself to be retarded it’s the same as saying I am four years old but I can’t deny that the graphic design of the Salem font is an effective sigil. I respect the mastery of magic in this regard. Salem tea towels would be cool. “I survived the opiod epidemic” on a teatowel would have such a different register vibrationally than a black hoodie. I guess I’m missing the point again people want death not life from salem and tea towels are too life coded. I wonder if there is a way for salem to have less loser attracting merch? 

I know they have such bad porn star sex. I actually feel so sad writing that, I look into their eyes above and see broken 4 year olds crying out for affection and security. They could perfectly heal together, two of the same wounds. My heart breaks to think of both of them stuck on the same merry-go-round from hell.