#not even doxxing myself this is just too funny

[koschei-the-ginger]

My mum just casually mentioned recently that when I was about 4, I taught myself fluent slovak from watching foreign tv, and the reason why I never shut up as a kid was because I'd been simply used to people not understanding me anyway

[sigsfigs]

sorry for no art was too busy MEETING BRENNAN ZAC AND ERIKA????????

[tra-archive]

Please read this whole post and reblog it, radblr. I don’t want anyone to forget this happened to me and I also don’t want anyone to forget how disgusting the TRA community is.

Next month, it’ll be one year since I was harassed, doxxed, and targeted by a disgusting person and their sick followers. I won’t say their name because they still have a cult following, but if you need a hint, look up the drama with photomatt in February 2024.

On my old account, an anon told me about an account getting banned from tumblr and the ensuing chaos from TRAs. I answered the ask and posted a picture of the person’s new account so radblr could block if they needed to. I had no idea who this person was until I got that anon ask, just to be clear.

The person found the post and reblogged it, accusing me of being the one who led a “targeted harassment campaign” against them and got their account banned, and told their followers “you know what to do” or something like that. Keep in mind, I didn’t know who this person was at all so I obviously wasn’t the one who got them banned. I also *gasp* didn’t use their preferred pronouns, so that was a huge scandal as well.

After that, their followers began to harass me and send violent threats to my inbox. (Edit: oh and this evil person accused me of sending them to myself for attention, which is so fucked up and misogynistic I don’t even have words for it.) Here’s the worst one that I still have trauma from to this day:

My account was then termed by tumblr. I made a new account and called for radblr to report the account for sending their followers to harass me. Well, this made everything worse because the hate I got on this new account was a thousand times worse. This person’s minions created multiple posts about me (look up m3nrbad for proof, that was the account name). There were hundreds of comments calling me misogynistic slurs and calling for me to be doxxed and even lynched. They also found my Reddit account and harassed me there too. I even got a few text messages to my PHONE NUMBER. I have no idea how this evil person’s followers got ahold of it, but I changed my number and my mother took me to buy a new phone just to be safe. Here’s what one of them said about me, encouraging their followers to false report me:

A short while after this, the evil person’s blog was termed again and they were (I think) IP banned from all of tumblr. The CEO photomatt threatened to take legal action against them. It had nothing to do with me, but I can’t lie, it felt so good seeing that happen to them after the hell they put me through. Here’s me reacting to the news:

TRAs on tumblr of course threw a hissy fit and attacked Matt for months because their leader was banned. They also acted like this person was being systemically oppressed by tumblr of all fucking places. Keep in mind this person is white and born male, acting as if they were so oppressed by a website.

I eventually deleted that other blog and made this one. I spent hours and hours blocking every single person who reblogged, liked, and commented on posts about me, as well as blocking almost every one of a big tra’s followers. I was determined to stop being harassed.

Anyway, I know I shouldn’t be dwelling on this because it’s just internet drama, but people still worship this person and act like they’re such a poor victim, and in reality that’s not true. That month was hell for me and my actual safety was threatened. If it wasn’t for some of you gyns being so amazing and funny on here, I would’ve never come back to radblr.

Thanks for reading all the way through.

-Sirona

[bebebelll]

Pretty girls and flowers | lando norris smau

pairing: lando norris x student!reader warning: cursing, unrealistic if lando did this in real life the girl would absolutely get doxxed

yn_phd good morning by best pals! this month's episode will be out this tuesday. my lovely amazing talented so pretty best friend got two tickets to silverstone so if you're there come say hello👋! the podcast guest will be my old professor from freshman year so put down any questions you have about mary i of england! stay healthy and hydrated ❤️❤️

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bestie_n omg dont praise me like that im blushing

username can you ask why henry 8 never made a marriage for mary?

username god i dont even like history that much but fuck are vlogs calming and sweet and pretty af

scuderiaferrari it's been a lovely weekend with charles_leclerc and carlossaiz55! P4 and P7 💪 Here is the first taste of the silverstone photo dump!

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username CHARLES IN P4 CHARLES IN P4 CHARLES IN P4 I REPEAT CHARLIE CHUCK IS IN P4

landonorris whos that?

carlossainz55 its me landonorris no the pretty one charles_leclerc me? landonorris ew no the PRETTY one charles_leclerc ew? i will drive you to the wall

username not charles threatening to send lando into the wall in the comments

username you just fucking know he'd do it too just ask max

username is lando trying to hook up with the girl in the photo?

yn_phd i put on a little bow so i could be the prettiest girl at the bookstore ❤️today i wrote a page, went on a reading binge about chariot racing in ancient rome, had a breakdown and ate pasta.

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username is this the girl @ landonorris

username lando the pretty girl is here

username cmon lando shoot your shot

username i mean he'll miss but its gonna be funny username no one trusts the rizz of this man with a shit beard

bestie_n who is lando? where have you people come from?

carlossainz55 i think this is the girl we were with

carlossainz55 she got lost around the track so we took a photo and got a staff member to help her. she was prettier in real life. good luck mr no rizz you need it username NOT CARLOS COMING FOR LANDO

username LANDO NORRIS

username this is the girl? not really seeing it doesnt feel like landos type you know

landonorris haha okay people lets not do this haha its not that funny it is a bit embarrasing hah (my dms are open for pretty girls always)

alex_albon well youre talented in the car at least

landonorris my dad scolded me for getting drunk on twitter so i went to eat their fridge empty. love being home

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username is he trying to look extra cute and soft to seduce the pretty girl?

username you just googled boyfriend material and tried your best huh

georgerussel63 i though youd chosen to go with the shirtless gym photos?

alex_albon you sent like fifteen different gym pics to the groupchat and then dont choose even one? fuck our help then i guess landonorris shut up shut up shut up

username i can see the pretty girl in the likes though 👀

yn_phd me and the gang went to a lecture about lord byron's sex life on thursday. i had a pretty cute visitor this weekend and even our lord and king aragorn the cat liked him!!

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bestie_n it was a lecture about lord byron's reputation and fame and how it effected the romance genre?

yn_phd exactly!

username are we gonna get an episode about THE george gordon byron please say yes

yn_phd my best pal i will rant about the whole geneva squad

username did lando norris actually do it

username did landonorris attend the lecture too?

landonorris ive never been happier that i chose karting and skipped school

yn_phd i have discovered hidden depths in myself. i can cry about essay structures and then drive bumper cars an hour later

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landonorris it was just karting babe they were not bumper cars

yn_phd but i crashed so much? landonorris you were great!! i was so proud!! 🧡

username okay but how does this relationship even work? if she doesnt know anything about racing?

yn_phd i tell him everything about the tudor dynasty and he explains to me how the drs works

landonorris use date night to play uno and see whos more competitive (me, i won)

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yn_phd the way i screamed after you gave me those cards

username lando really be gambling with a new relationship

alex_albon poor girl

georgerussell63 remember when we played uno and lando got a +4 card from all of us and he got a mental breakdown alex_albon yeahh we had to take 10min break cause he left for a drive around the block maxverstappen1 the neighbours made a noise complaint too

yn_phd i got him flowers and later we both crash landed on the bowling alley floor

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alex_albon oh so this why you called me crying your tits off

maxverstappen1 he called you too?

landonorris pretty girl🧡🧡

yn_phd pretty guy❤️❤️

[dee4479]

Ferns a Doxxer? Vee is a pedophile and draws necrophila? Bullshit. I want some textual evidence and images provided otherwise, there’s weird shit going on and some people who hate on them done way worse than they did. I’m willing to go back and back an entire group if I have to, prove your point that that they did all this shit. As matter in fact it’s gotten bad where some of these people actually caused real harm to them, so come on I want the evidence otherwise if this is just pure bullying then you’re just straight up being lying asses.

Not to mention the fuck y’all doing too? Some of you guys actually do this shit and have no evidence, I personally know Fern myself and also the part of sexualizing and ‘pedophiles’ yet you are sexualizing a minor? Ferns literally a minor, not only someone accuse of them doxxing but also the fact we just saw that I provided got turn into this.

If you wanna prove a point, provide evidence but instead some people make it worse. Honestly where do you actually show how they’re a Doxxer and then proceed to sexualize them.

This person says all this and has no proof, some of you guys who believe this are unbelievable. How would you really know if this is all true? I want someone here to actually provide me it.

How about y’all listen to this person? Not only wasting your time and shit, you also don’t have again, EVIDENCE? Yet persists on saying she’s a groomer and shit while clearly there’s nothing brought to the evidence wall. So come on I need more.

Oh and it can be anyone right? Why would this person Racheal draw this, if you wanna prove a point of someone being a Pedophile and then someone for doxxing, yet you are shipping a grown person and a legitimate minor? So technically you’re the one who ever drew it or say sick shit like this deserve to be labeled as goddamn pedophile. So really it’s the group all combined are hitting the A Minor keynote.

Not to mention Faulty Illusion made literally Fern and those other people self harm themselves and this isn’t a joke especially how someone didn’t do anything wrong, yet no one questions that? Be better.

And I will not even provide images but also if Christopher was really a minor then, why would someone draw Vee in his belly being as the womb? She didn’t draw it yet someone drew that and with the drama, it just gets worse, people wanna prove Vee is a pedophile and do the sickening shit with her and Fern. Not to mention to Skellyweb, because of that, this is the dumbest fucking statement. So if you did draw it, and not sexual intent? Yet you drew it like that, what the fuck are you honestly saying? You can't draw that type of shit and say it wasn't intent, you're basically saying it was instinctual? Like if it wasn't for an intent, then why would you draw it. Not to mention, without Vee's consent. Funny right? And for the second part, you basically said Vee is supposedly impersonating and to supposedly make your criticism less valid? How does this make sense, when did this happen in your life? It shows you have some actual mindless thralls in your community that will believe anything and will attack her without any actual evidence of this. Creepy relationship too? Now we're making shit up. You're just shifting the blame for something you drew and get surprised it gets leaked out, so supposedly Vee revealed it yet there's instances you are known to make this type of shit. Why are you surprised? Impersonating a Minor and then making these weird comments doesn't also provide much because you clearly haven't actually had chemistry with her? I know her and she doesn't even do that at all. Stop being surprised someone saw this image too because you make weird shit, its deemed to come out.

Third, it's not even that easy. The fact that we have groups attacking one person, you could say stop and they'll still attack, that just shows how some of your mindless thralls go that far. Acting like its easy yet you don't try, so you're not also in that position and would be saying "OH I CAN"T JUST SAY STOP AND THEY WONT!!" Like you don't even think of someones shoes.

Calling everyone out in this image, not even worth a second to type in. But all these people maybe even more hating and yet none of y’all can single handedly provide anything, if you wanna bring something to the table and prove a point, stop turning up with a fucking empty plate you bring no contribution to the economy.

It’s especially known I’m not leaving out Fanatic Canon, that person is also being hated for being associated. You would attack anyone who’s associated, acting like they were a victim when it’s clear again, you don’t get no reason to be hating on Vee when you can’t give a reason or show the reason.

"Persons a kid, they don't deserve be stalk 24 yo woman!111" Vee isn't even 24? Do your fucking math right? She went to college for 4 years at 18, dumb as hell, she's 22, TWENTY TWO. Not to mention again, and AGAIN, you got groups attacking for blatant ass evidence thats basically cardboard. It doesn't matter if you're a group of kids or adults, maybe go outside or do something?? Play a fucking sport or do something, maybe read some fucking books while you're at it because you're no different than a mature person.

I want these groups to really confront me too, I wanna hear y’all and actually provide something. You attack a persons fanbase and have no actual motive, only just to hate, barking and no fucking bite. You have to be in big groups just to attack the littlest, lower than scum itself, and I’m sure this provides what those people are.

So really are you in a good standing point? The only differences is you’re just some pathetic rioters but no actual grit or anything to get a protest in. You take up a sign and when things don’t go your way you all the sudden start crying and harming people who didn’t do anything.

So really, I don’t give a shit if you’re a minor or an adult, the fact y’all banded together and do this nonsense just shows your no better than an actual mature person. I don’t ride anyone or no one, but it’s what to these people because you want to defend someone who’s clearly not in the wrong. So really, stop complaining when someone just ages a character up a little when they're 17 but no actual intentions with a minor. It's just diabolical literal artists are sexualizing real life people... but self-shipping is an issue? Get a fucking move on. Don't even try to impersonate Vee or Fern for evidence too, I know them personally, and I can just make them show their DM's! So come on.

Stand your ground, prove me wrong for those people.

[pucktoxicity]

i had a whole message ready to go and dropped my phone, so this might end up being shorter. first, as context, i went to a massive hockey school and was with my boyfriend who was on the team throughout our time there and after. still talk with him, but i’ll be honest and say that all the sh*t that comes with having a relationship with someone that’s high profile was just too much.

1. the reading stuff is hilarious. obviously they can read—they just don’t HAVE to read. even in college. was at a party at one of his teammate’s places and opened the fridge to grab something and there were textbooks, still in the plastic, sitting on the top shelf. it was a class i was also taking. when I confronted the guy about it as I held said textbooks in hand laughing (it was near midterms) he said “it doesn’t matter. i’ll pass.” he passed and it definitely wasn’t because he understood a damn thing in that course.

2. cliques exist on teams. ill break that down further. my boyfriend hung with like five of his teammates and a handful of athletes from another big sport at my school. those were who we were around on any given day. on weekends after games, or if there was a stretch with a break from some games, the entire team would go out. your ass better be at those team events or if not you better have a good reason why you’re not there. there was an issue off the ice involving the team and there was definitely a rift afterwards because a few of the guys were not there. it made for a really bad season with a team that should have done well.

3. they’re not tagging pics in real-time. they’ll post stuff a few days later with the tags on the locations so people think they know where they are if they post anything at all. that’s equally true for public and private accounts where tracking can be controlled. im sure most people recognize this, but i’ve never seen it stated outright. i was even asked to hold off on posting things until we were somewhere else even though my accounts are private. if they want you to know where they are, you’ll know where they are.

4. for the love of god do not send them nudes. not unless you want that entire team and possibly more to have them. getting nudes was a game to them.

5. which brings me to—they are ALWAYS involved in some sort of game or challenge with one another. the nudes was one, i can’t give anything more specific because i’d likely dox myself. not really feeling up for that blowback. just—they’re always betting each other over something and keeping tabs/score with something likely unrelated to hockey. sometimes it’s funny and sometimes “ew.” but there’s always something.

6. the sh*t they do off ice is hilarious and often unexpected. one of my best friends is the biggest a-hole on the ice, led the team in penalties, etc. off ice he’s the nicest human you will ever meet. he doesn’t read for fun, but he’s a nerd over a specific genre of movies that you wouldn’t expect. video games are pretty constant. they’re psychotically competitive even with those. watching giant man children rage quit video games is hilarious. oh and some of them have the weirdest habits. can’t really elaborate on that one. if anything i’d send it another time.

7. as someone that had a whole school watching my every move and then a whole city watching my every move, i can tell you it gets old fast—for everyone involved. i had people (guys and girls) show up where i lived. 95% of the sh*t i read online that was supposedly about me, him, me and him, etc was not even close to true. take what you see about any of the players or the people involved with them with a grain of salt.

8. sadly some of the worst guys are the ones in the longest relationships, or had families, etc. that was really horrifying to me. strictly anecdotal to my experience with two teams and their circles, but yeah. it was bad.

9. because the question comes up a lot—where? i met my boyfriend at mandatory study hall freshman year because im also an athlete. we never talk hockey. i talk hockey with my other friends and family, never with him or his teammates. he’s in it all day everyday, it’s his job, just like when im done with work i know i don’t want to talk about it, they’re the same way. if he brings it up, sure, but i’m sure as hell not gonna be the one to do that.

and for those keeping score: tall and natural blonde. many of his teammates over the years dated brunettes but they almost always ended up dying their hair blonde. so I don’t know if it’s blondes initially all the time. if anything i would just add that WAGs are their own beast with all the peer pressure and competitiveness of a team. the going blonde thing might be due to the pressures within that group.

way longer message than i intended but hopefully some valuable insight for those who have asked. as you’ve said, they’re humans like anyone else, their job is just different. oh, and summers were mostly working with skills coaches and rehabbing injuries/getting surgeries that are overdue that weren’t publicized. the public doesn’t know half the sh*t these guys are playing through.

everyone thank this anon for her service because this is absolutely perfect, no notes.

the ones i can most agree with / corroborate from my own experiences: she is 100% correct. do not send these guys nudes (i never have & never will, but know that they get them spread around quickly!!), and the same goes for competing over things. good lord, it’ll be the stupidest shit sometimes too but somehow it becomes a competition 😭 it’s crazy! and the same goes for schoolwork. it’s not just hockey. i have a friend who went to an SEC school with a historic football team (and sorority rush, cough cough), and she said the same thing about football players. they’ll pass. no matter what. doesn’t mean they’ll have a 4.0, but they’ll pass enough. i’m sure it’s the same with big hockey schools up here and the midwest as it is in the south with football. that doesn’t surprise me at all, unfortunately.

also, that last line. the public doesn’t know half the shit these guys are playing through. YUP. the things their bodies go through in not just a season, but in one game, are absolutely insane. and she’s very correct about privately-handled, unannounced offseason surgeries. 🙂‍↕️

i think the most interesting thing for you guys to see is her insight that most brunette WAGs end up going blonde & that whole explanation of the blonde WAG stereotype in every level of hockey.

whoever you are, i adore you, this was an amazing read, and if you ever want to talk privately in dms and stuff, i’d love to! if not, no worries, and thank you for stopping by & talking to me 🥰💋❤️

[warringwarrioridiot]

So I just deleted twitter because a bunch of people threatened to kill, rape, and doxx me over the fact that I used to trace proshippers. They proceeded to call me a Nazi and say that I was just as bad as Hitler for saying proshippers are disgusting and don't deserve all the sympathy they get. They repeatedly told me to kill myself and said that I was a horrible artist with no skill, claiming I was jealous of these proshippers. They also kept using the fact that I put a meme from Nyan Neko Sugar girls like ??? It's a MEME for God's sake. One person even said to "keep my filthy hands off of Neko Sugar girls" like bro 💀

That shit was my childhood + I always incorporate memes into my posts because that's just who I am. I don't like weighing people down with drama so I try to lift their spirits by putting funny jokes or images into it so they don't feel as bad.

While this was all happening, I had a massive panic attack, which I haven't had since middle school. It was fucking rough because I was doing it in front of a friend too. Luckily they were very understanding of how I felt.

I don't think y'all realize how fucking awful it is to compare someone to Hitler for hating people that literally fetishize incest and pedophilic culture. Like how TF are you going to compare me to a GENOCIDAL MANIAC for not supporting incest.

One person even tried to pull the whole "freedom of speech doesn't equal freedom of consequence" bullshit. Like who the fuck do you think you are lil bro? 💀

Oh and someone even doxxed my family's names (including mine) so that was fucking scary.

I. Hate. Proshippers.

They're disgusting and literally fetishize the most illegal shit. I don't gaf about the "trauma" they might have because I have trauma too. Doesn't give me a right to be a fucking incel.

Respectfully unmoot/unfollow me if you actually think proshippings can be excused. You're basically excusing John Wayne Gacy's crimes because his father beat him or wtv.

I understand that proshipping can be explained by trauma, but that doesn't excuse it.

Also to my friends on Twitter that defended me: thank you for understanding. I really appreciate your support and desperately needed to hear your kind words. :)

And a message to the incels on Twitter who called me a Nazi, a bad artist, and threatened me:

Thank you for reading and have the day you deserve.

[crsssie]

from one admirer to another : valentine's?

pairing: leon kennedy x reader || masterpost: from one admirer to another

synopsis: from one admirer to another, an online penpal service, allows for two people with common interests to write to each other without ever revealing their actual address! Luckily for both you and Leon, you get matched up! What do eggs and Christmas even have in common anyway? sure hope it's that modeling business and NOT that Ada Wong addiction.

featuring: reader as scrambled eggs // leon as christmas

To: Christmas

Cute invite! Sorry I wasn't able to make it. I had a prior conflict. I had something that day too. Huh.

Sesame bun is hilarious. Miss girl blinks at you in the darkness, but she likes sleeping with my bestie more than she likes sleeping with me, and honestly? it's fine. My bed is enough for me. I love sleeping on a bed with enough move room for two grown adults. No, I'm not talking about sex. It's obviously about a pillow fight. Tsk tsk. Get your head out of the gutter!

I managed to convince Ada to sign two things for me the other day when I bumped into her at a coffee shop, so here's a small print (again) but signed. Thank me with a hundred-dollar bill please thank you i love you :) (joke) send me another polaroid of Sunny and I'll call it even. Sweet boy :( please give him lots of pets for me.

I've been moderately busy lately too. Spring is always the worst time of year. It doesn't help that all I've been doing lately are photoshoots with romantic undertones. What do you mean I shot an ad about a flower delivery service to your loved one and never even received flowers myself?! Anyways, I promise to dox myself if you agree to send me flowers :3 you know, as a little friendship thing? It'd be a great time to confess your undying love for me (JOKE)

But on a more serious note, it's only ever been me giving others flowers. Hm... no I have no other reason for telling you this. I just thought it'd be a little funny.

Tell me about how your walk went? Spare NO details. Give me all of that juicy info.

Happy Valentine's! scrambled eggs

"Happy Valentine's day pookie!" You call, roses in your arm as Ada laughs, thanking you for the flowers. "Another year to being single together."

"Another year of being roommates." She hums, handing you a bag. "This is for you."

"You didn't need to."

"You deserve it." She smiles, taking the flowers. "Let's get some photos after this. You have to open your gift, though."

"Is it food?" You reach in to reveal two small boxes, and your heart stops in your throat at the brand.

"No."

"Yes." She hums. "Come on. Open them."

You open the first one and then the second, sitting them on the counter as you wrap your arms around Ada, squealing. Ada pats your arm gently as you do, and you shake her in your arms.

"I love you i love you i love you i love you oh my god I must've solved world hunger in my past life to deserve someone like you oh my god!!!" You sob. "I'm gonna pop a ring!!"

"Okay, let's back it up with the ring."

You cry, shaking her. "I love you!!"

"Love you too. Happy Valentine's."

"HAPPY VALENTINE'S"

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[riverstixxelf]

I love the SPN fandom but honestly it’s so stressful sometimes 😭

For example earlier today I googled “Misha Collins girlfriend” because I heard a rumor that he has a girlfriend, I couldn’t find much besides stuff talking about Vicky so I scrolled down and saw a tumblr post saying something about Misha being attracted to men (which I don’t necessarily disagree with, but I don’t want to tell another person what they are) and women so I clicked on it and it was a huge post (like, a couple paragraphs) talking about some strange things. I don’t remember exactly but at one point the user brought up the “fact” that Misha makes jokes about women and sex?? As in making jokes at the expense of women… and I was like… are we talking about the same Misha here? He DOES make jokes about sex but I don’t recall him ever making jokes at the expense of women. Only thing I can think of is that one story about one of his earlier acting jobs and he didn’t know the “no tongue rule” but that was mostly at the expense of himself. Then I scrolled and found another post that was pretty disturbing…

Someone had screenshotted a regular instagram caption that Jensen posted just talking about how he just got done traveling, he wanted to take a nap, something like that—nothing sexual about the post at all or anything that would suggest that—and someone captioned it with something talking about him and Misha rubbing their [babymakers] together??? I audibly laughed out loud because wtf 😭😭

I don’t want to shame Jenmish shippers (I say Jenmish because Cockles is just a… very interesting name), even though I think it’s the slightest bit strange to be shipping real people… but again I never want to put anyone down for anything because I myself have said some stuff about Jensen and Misha that might suggest something between them.

Another thing is just the amount of hate for various cast members. Mostly the hate I see is for Jared and Misha; J2 fans who hate Misha, Jenmish fans who hate Jared, etc. There’s a lot of love in this fandom but ohmygOD there’s so much hate too. I guess that’s true for any fandom, but it’s so tiring sometimes.

Also, in this fandom, you’ll get hounded for any opinion you have. If you don’t like destiel, you’re homophobic. If you do like destiel, you’re also homophobic for some reason because queer bating or whatever… for the record i’d like to state that I am a proud destiel shipper just fyi. But I see so many people take it to the extreme, make little things into big things or something along those lines. Same thing with cockles shippers I was talking about earlier. I feel like I have a pretty neutral viewpoint on stuff regarding destiel; I see most things how they are, and I make my assumptions based on CANON things. I don’t say “Dean and Cas are definitely fucking”, I say “Dean and Cas love eachother but they cant express it, because Cas wasn’t even sure what love was and Dean’s highest ideal of love is family, which is why he says Cas is like a brother to him”. Now, if you don’t agree with me, guess what… that’s okay! If you don’t think destiel exists, that’s a valid point, and i’m not gonna dox you just because you have a different opinion than me. Because that’s just it, it’s an OPINION.

I could get into Sam haters and Dean haters and stuff… but I’m tired. Actually, you know what, screw it. I WILL GET INTO IT!!!

I’ve had a few experiences with Dean haters especially, and most of the time they just ADORE Sam and thinks he’s done nothing wrong. Let me clarify that I don’t hate Sam- like- at all. Then again, Dean haters who happen to be Sam stans have warped my view on Sam a little, but I won’t let that get in my way of honest judgment.

Sam. has. done. bad. stuff. DEAN. has. done. bad. stuff. Please don’t compare their trauma, they both have their own issues, one isn’t better than the other.

I might be biased because I relate to Dean so much (like a crazy amount it’s not even funny…), but for the millionth time in a row I DO NOT HATE SAM. I saw someone saying how Dean was the cause of almost every single world-ending event that happened in SPN… like honey no. Another person replied to their comment listing all of the world-ending events… and guess what… Sam was the cause of most of them!! Does that make him a hate-worthy character? No!!

I don’t know what point i’m trying to make here. I just think there’s so much in-fighting within the SPN fandom and as much as I love being in the fandom sometimes you just gotta have a break from all the drama. If you made it this far… go outside or something don’t pay attention to me i’m chronically online.

[anonzentimes]

i had a dream i scrolled far down on your blog and some weeks ago or smthn you answered an ask in portugese and i went back to the top and your bio had the brazilian flag and i sent you an ask that was just "YOURE BRAZILIAN????" in portugese but the whole thing was so confusing that when i woke up and was still half asleep i was thinking deamn i hope i didnt actually send that ask id thatd be embarassing

i'm going to be so honest the first thought I had when I saw this is that I've made it because there is now somebody who has had a dream about me and one of my socials??? THIS IS SO FUNNY THOUGH YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS WAS HAVING AN ENTIRE HEAD CANON OVER MY NATIONALITY I'M NOT EVEN BRAZILIAN I'M AMERICAN HAJFJEKTKDSH I feel like i'd do that too I've had dreams where I accidentally doxxed myself, woke up, and thought "oh man I hope I didn't actually that" and then fall asleep again HFJSHDJB

[catboymoments]

these ppl r being so shitty wtf ☠️wtf is going on i’m so sorry

I made a mistake and posted something I shouldn’t have that was a breach of privacy on my behalf (and was in the wrong to do so) without knowing the history behind a particular infamous/“proship” artist. The tweet in question was a photo of their booth at the convention I went to this weekend with the caption “my jaw fucking dropped.” It was meant for my active followers, but it should’ve stayed confined to dms with people who I knew wouldn’t instigate anything else. I only vaguely knew about lunasol through the grapevine (mostly just that they had a reputation and one of their tweets that reads like a villain monologue that I found funny) and I had no idea that they had been ran off of Twitter and attempted suicide due to constant harassment and threats of doxxing. I honest to god had no clue.

However, despite me apologizing, acknowledging that I was wrong, deleting my posts and owning up to my mistake, this artist’s group of supporters keep finding new ways to put words in my mouth and turn what I say against me. And like. I don’t even know what to do at this point? Because no matter what I say or what I do, in their eyes I’m always gonna be “the bad one” and they’re gonna continue to send me death threats until I deactivate or kill myself. If I say nothing, I’m not owning up to it. If I say something, I’m fishing for attention. If I say “hey please stop sending me threats on all my socials,” I’m playing the victim. If I tell these people “hey what you’re saying isn’t true” or defend myself at all against false claims when defense is due, I’m not “genuine enough.” It’s a lose lose situation.

I’ve directly apologized to the artist in question and I’m not gonna post all of the intricate details about it, but pretty much they don’t want to hear it. I can understand not having the mental energy to reason with someone you’d put your defenses up for, but when I reach out in an attempt to reconcile with the hurt party and stop something that’s gone too far and they essentially tell me to go fuck myself, there’s not much I can do at that point either. Some people will never like me, and not everyone will accept an apology. That’s okay.

Basically. I was very stupid and I’m paying the price now

[weaselbeaselpants]

Lily, I did/do agree with you on some fandom takes, especially back during the DownWithMolestia days. Heck I agree with a lot of your takes in current year. Even if I agreed with you on everything you say I'd still fucking drop you and hope every single one of your fans wakes up and does so to for the right reasons --that you're a predator/lying abuser, not that you hate Gay Rocks in Space-- too.

Like, you wanna hear proof some folks' who I not only liked but REALLY like their videos and still absolutely think are in the wrong?

JonTron and Brad Jones.

I still find myself quoting their damn videos every now and again because god damnit that shit is/was funny, sue me. I loved CinemaSnob especially and god JonTron's videos were so much fun.

Too bad JonTron said some of the worst, most horrendously antiblack shit I've ever heard and has never fucking apologized for it or even BEGUN to have an iDubbz moment. I believe Pewdiepie feels+understands what he did was wrong more than JonTron and that's a bad sign. Jon was funny, a white person. Don't care. I'm never going to follow anything he makes again because the stuff he had to say was heinous and no it doesn't just "go away" because another white yter is in trouble for this kind of thing or it's been so many years since his 'canceling' and 'doesn't matter'. Really?

CinemaSnob is less racist (publicly) but he showed his true colors by publicly choosing to stay with his toxic friends and showing he was a two-sided jerk, and then made up lies about doxxing and harassment just to sweeten the deal. What he did (while roping Double Toasted in no less) was straight up admit that he doesn't care about any of the shit leveled at Channel Awesome, even after CA themselves admitted to hiding a sexual predator, because "he'd still have a career" even after he hurt anybody. Say all you want about any yter, breadtube or whatever, being callous and 'uncaring' or blocking ppl that just disagree w them- "apologize even if you don't mean it = dumb", "Logan Paul filmed a dead body and he still has a career", it's that side you showed of yourself, Brad, that is always going to make me actually genuinely hate myself for quoting your old videos or seeing you show up in an old Phelan or Allison vid.

Whether it be personally or politically, you can look like an ass and even the biggest fans of your work are gonna be shaken up and drop you for it-- to which you'll probably say they were never really "your REAL fans" for being "sensitive" w really it's just people having independence and critical thinking.

I would not be the person I am now if I didn't disagree/look into the drama buzzing around my personal fav yters like Lindsay Ellis and Jenny Nicholson with an open mind. I know (of, not rlly know) these women and their careers and the points where they were definitely getting harassment and if there's any credible basis for shitty behavior they've done - no matter how I feel about their work, I DON'T want to defend it just because I have this parasocial comfortzone in their essays. I don't want to entertain hate campaigns and lolcow farmers, I want to always do my due diligence and genuinely know "wait wtf did 'x' say about 'x'." In the case of folks like Ellis or PanPizza or Quinton Reviews here's usually always some degree of nuance or-"yes soandso isn't a [thing I thought they were cuz of drama I saw], but I'm personally allowed to not like them bcuz of how they handled these accusations"-vibes. Valid asf. That's me with some of the people I watch, like Wendigoon. It's fine.

In the cases of JonTron, Brad Jones, Emily Youcis and now Lily Orchard....no. Fuck this. I'm an adult and it's not the quality of your work you make whatsoever, it's all about your personality. If you are shitty and vile, possibly even criminal (hate speech should count as criminal, Youcis) and you don't even begin to care that you are any of those things...yeah why should I give you the time of day or treat your work like it's different from you as a person?

[pebblysand]

Heyyyy im dying for an update on castles!! Any hope of getting one soon?😭💗

hi anon! thanks for your message! the tl;dr answer to this is: no.

or, i don't know. maybe? sigh. it's just been a lot lately.

it's a funny one, you know? most of you will not remember this, but there used to be a time when i would share (maybe overshare - is that a word? i've always wondered why that is a word when it's your platform and your rules and people can just choose to ignore you) on tumblr. not just about fics and writing and peaky blinders, but also about me. the stuff i felt. the stuff that was going on in my life. lots of things.

i grew up in an era of blogging and livejournal (seeing dreamwidth make a comeback lately is oh-so-bizarre, btw) where people opened up online - sometimes too much. this was before doxxing, before cancel culture, before it became dangerous to do so. people would complain about their jobs, their mates - the internet was an outlet. and, i don't know if it was better or worse, i'm not here to make value judgements and i've always thought people who say "things were better in my day" sound like absolute twats, but it was undoubtedly different. i've had this conversation with someone on discord lately, about the dreamwidth comeback actually, when this person said: 'people get real personal on there, though' and i was like: 'yeah, i suppose it's just the culture of the place.' a place where, unlike tumblr and everything that came after it, most of the content produced was through words, rather than images. when the internet was still made for writers and you weren't afraid of "clogging" someone's dash with posts that were too long to be digested in less than ten seconds.

the thing is: i like writing. it makes it easier to organise thoughts. and, up to 2020 (2021, even) i used to post monthly updates on my writing, but also about my life, for you. remember how i told you when i passed my bar exam? how i quit my job, found another job, and then another one. i told you about the boy and hinted at my break-up. i told you about how one of my best friends sank into a very toxic relationship, from which i couldn't save her. i told you when my dad died. it wasn't even that long ago. and, i explained to you that for these reasons, and maybe others, i didn't have a chapter out as early as i would have liked. and, you understood. you were kept up with what was going on. it was the pandemic and a different time.

but then, gradually (oh-so-quickly and oh-so-slowly), "you" became "many." i like that word - "many" - it's what my hairdresser said the first time she cut my hair: "they are very fine, but there are very, very, many of them." i suppose that between the first chapter of castles and the latest, my follower count grew into the hundreds and i got - well, scared. scared to share: what i thought, why i wasn't posting, how much or how little i was writing, how i was feeling. because there were too many of you. because i started to hold myself up to higher standards, too.

the truth is that no one wants to listen to anyone on the internet complain. it's not fun. and, specifically, no one wants to listen to fanfiction writers complain. why would they? why would they moan about how busy they are? about how creatively drained they might be? about how maintaining a healthy balance between real life, a job, and writing, is hard, if you do it seriously. because it's a hobby. because it's not "real" writing. because it doesn't matter.

well, anon, i'll tell you something. the voice in my head, it goes like this: why are you tired? it's just fanfiction. stop taking yourself and your little stupid story so seriously. stop thinking this is Important because you're writing about something you feel is important. no one cares. and: you only wrote 80,000 words last year, people write full-blown nanos in a month, calm down. it's not that bad, you don't have children. it's not that bad, you don't have dying parents. it's not that bad, you have money. you're a white cis privileged girl who can afford to spend her free time on writing because you don't have to work multiple paying jobs to foot the bills. so many people do. people who are much busier than you write a lot more than you do. shut up, what are you crying about? why are you responding to this poor anon with anything other than "soon, i hope." they weren't even mean about it.

and, i like the word "many" because it encompasses the realness of it, the repetition of it. many, many, many. it's less theoretical than "a lot". you can't say: a lot, a lot, a lot. it's morning as i write this, irish drizzle blown in by the wind against my window, thin droplets like static and i wonder: could i isolate thirty thousand? count up to thirty thousand little drops of rain against glass and imagine what that would look like as people. that's a small stadium, isn't it? and, it's also almost how many people have clicked on castles, in the past three years. it's also how many people, in my head, are telling me to just suck it up and write the next chapter. it's been a month already, hasn't it?

to tell you the truth, i still overshare with some people. there's a very small discord i'm on which is more like a group chat with my best internet friends. it's a lot of fun. and, i'm not going to tag them here for fear that you might come at them with pitchforks, but after i was explaining this to them, how exhausted and drained and lost i've been feeling lately, i had some, last week, tell me i should just give up castles. just stop, recharge, take care of myself. it's just a fic, it doesn't matter. let it go, you know?

so, yeah. you read that right, anon dearest. people who i really love, and trust, told me i should put your beloved on an indefinite hiatus and move on with my life. how's that for an update? and, they didn't say it in a "this is a bad fic and it's not worth continuing" kind of way, but in a "it's not worth working yourself into the ground" kind of way. in a "fanfiction is a hobby" kind of way.

i typically count years from september to august (i'm still in school, in my head, sue me) and this past one has been long and hard. for reasons that i won't explain because of the "very many" issue i mentioned above. for reasons that i also won't explain because as i also mentioned above, i can't help but always compare myself to people who have it worse. but, the fact of the matter is that whilst i'm not really asking for sympathy, i do want to say this, as i hope it will help provide a bit of context to how i'm feeling right now, in terms of writing.

anon dearest, i'm exhausted. i'm bored. i'm turning thirty in 24 days. i'm sick and tired of putting everything in my life on hold "until i finish castles". i would estimate that right now (and for the past three years) castles has eaten up about 75% of my free time. i think the first couple years, i didn't really mind. because it was the pandemic. because there wasn't much else i wanted to do. but now, when i see my friends, i try to schedule it on weekday evenings because i want to keep my weekends for writing. when i travel at the weekends, take holidays, do anything that will take me more than a couple hours, it's a compromise made against writing time. a compromise i often feel guilty about because it delays the next update and because ultimately, it delays the moment when i do finish castles. when i am able to move on to something else. move on with my life and also maybe another story of my own.

these past few months, i wrote almost every day from late march until last week because i knew i'd be going home to france in august and wouldn't be able to write there, so i needed to get ahead. everything in my life is planned around writing and updating and i'm a little bit burnt out, anon. it's typical summer me, nothing to really worry about, i felt the same last year (those who were already here will remember) but it doesn't make it suck less. and, that's why people are telling me to give up. because i keep getting stuck in this cycle of overworking myself, getting burnt out, taking a month off and diving back in again. it's fanfiction and it's a hobby and it's meant to be fun and it's just not fun anymore. it feels endless and draining and like a vampire eating my "good" years. time my mates are spending getting married and having children. and, even if i don't think that's what i want for myself, precisely, i still don't feel like the life i'm currently living is one i want to be living in five years' time.

i don't want to be exhausted. i don't want to be working all the time. this groundhog day of getting up, opening up my (work, or personal) laptop, deliveroo-ing my meals, working until 9:30 pm, and repeat. i have seven chapters left to go to the end, which will take 12 to 18 months, and i don't think i can go on like this for another year. i don't want to. something's gotta give: my IRL life, my job, or this "hobby", and it is logical (oh-so-logical) that it should be the latter.

and, yet. when my pocket friends suggested this, i came at them with pitchforks. i said: no. no, no, no, no. i can't give up. i don't want to give up. i love this story. it's unnerving and draining and exhausting, but haven't touched it for a week and i already miss it - it's crazy. and, it's true: it's not fun, but writing, to me, has never been "fun". it's: fulfilling, exhilarating, meaningful, it gives me the chills and a sense of peace but it's not "fun". i don't know who the fuck writes for "fun". you can enjoy things that aren't "fun", you know? i definitely do.

and, if i had to pick one thing to give up on that list, honestly, it would be my job - 100%. i'd finish castles in six months, if i could give that up. but, i can't, lovely anon. because fanfic doesn't pay. because writing doesn't pay. and whilst i do have a savings account that i intend to use someday to take time off to write, i don't think i could justify using it for anything other than original fiction. because at least, there would be a tiny bit of hope that the book might get picked up and i could make my money back. i can't, like, quit my job to write fanfiction, can i? even if i did set up a patreon, i doubt you all would want to fund me, lol.

so, i don't know. i don't know what to do, anon. i don't want to give up castles. realistically, i probably won't. realistically, i'm probably going to keep ploughing through and overworking myself and feeling like i'm throwing my youth and my free time away into this project that everyone will most likely forget the moment it is finished. right now, to answer your question, i have about 6,000 words on the new chapter. right now, i'm also taking august off writing. to recharge, to sleep, and only write if i feel like it. later? i don't know. i think i'm in a place where i've just got 30,000 words out in three months and i'm too brain-dead to think clearly. i am acutely aware that this issue doesn't have a solution (or at least one that i like) but i might be more willing to compromise my life again after a bit of rest and holidays.

anyway, sorry for being a debbie downer, anon. and sorry i don't have an update for you. i'm dying for one, too.

[adultswim2021]

The Boondocks #41: “Lovely Ebony Brown” | July 11, 2010 - 11:30PM | S03E11

Half-assing this write-up, just giving you a heads up. In this one Granddad has sex. 

In this episode Robert Freeman, also known as “granddad" of "granddad has sex” fame, starts dating a woman who is simply too good to be true. Most of the humor comes out of these fairly isolated but recurring moments of double entendre meta-commentary about the show itself, with this woman saying she wants to become a character in their lives, a “recurring character”, if you will. She’s basically dating the show itself, and commenting on the fact that the show will probably not be on for very much longer. You know, stuff like that. 

Sorta found this one to be light on laughs, but, being white, I did laugh at the Ferris Bueller reference. Matthew Broderick killed a couple of people with his car in 1987, severely injuring Jennifer Gray in the process. Matthew Broderick has atoned for this by being in a sexless marriage with Sarah Jessica Parker. May he never see the light of heaven and may he exist eternally in his current state of hell. He is a bastard

EPHEMERA CORNER:

MAIL BAG:

Sorry for being bad about updating, but my job immediately started making me do homework as soon as I started doing this again. It’s not that much, and will be over soon. Most of this is me having a attitude problem. Hey… let’s answer some letters shall we 😎

Sometimes I think you take delight in saying "no" to stuff people ask you without actually considering why you are saying "no". I know you grew up on Snappy Answers To Stupid Questions but I think it's getting a little tiresome.

Was more of a Cracked Magazine Shut Ups kinda guy but to be honest saying no can cut either way. Sometimes it feels like giving up. Sometime it feels like I'm freeing myself from the burden of effort. But sometimes, and this is very important, no simply means no.

Are the Boondocks the only black people you like? Do they put the BLM in your jixBLMy? Does calling you jixby or even jixblmy count as doxing. If so PLEASE CENSOR IT, I don't want you to get banned on X.

X is the everything app created by Elon Musk and his friend Donald Trump. Unfortunately both are racist and it's weird to be talking about them. Why are you doing this

Ephemera corner for children's hospital those guided by voices videos rob corddry and his brother were in. Don't remember what year sorry

Okay, here it is

I think the paper guys on Frankenhole was a way to save money to easily create new characters by printing out some paper and folding them up. Personally I think it's racist for wh*te people to appropriate the japanese art of origami so I hate it

Thank you Kon (this is kon by the way), yes, I for some reason did not think of this. This show reminds me of a time when it was still fun to use the printer on something.

From what I remember Children's Hospital could be fun and funny but it's setting isn't really a deep enough well. Might as well turn The Californians into an adult swim show (or the Kissing Family if that's not Wainy enough)

David Wain directing a kissing family movie would be a match made in heaven. It's one of the few reasons to be happy that heaven doesn't exist.

[grandwitchbird]

Every time a dev does an ama or makes themselves available on bluesky/twitter and the inevitable happens, I see a lot of sentiments about how this ‘new’ accessibility is a mistake. I don’t disagree.

I’m also a comicbook reader. Since childhood I’ve been reading comics whenever I could, and that means I’ve been reading Q&A sections as well. American and Japanese comics specifically have this tradition. Usually it’s adorable. Especially since the audience has a lot of kids. You get grown artists playing straight man to some 10 year old’s joke set up. You get funny made up stories about mistakes.

Sometimes it’s a conversation about an ethical choice that other readers may not have noticed:

And we’re all a bit richer for it. It especially fosters critical skills amongst the kids. Lovely, right?

They don’t print the death threats. Those aren’t new. They just don’t put them in print. Artists have left the business entirely because the parasocial pressures became too much. None of that is new. Or exclusive to social media. Or limited to comics and games.

Hell. I’m a professional artist myself in a fairly insular niche. I’m well regarded. I’ve gotten those threats. I’ve been doxxed. Even on the lighter end of the spectrum I’ve had far too many clients approach harassment levels of parasocial familiarity. And it’s always a fan.

And yes social media has broadened the phenomenon. It’s also made things harder because there’s no editor to decide exactly what gets seen by the public. This is just something I think about whenever the urge strikes to shake my cane at the sky. The problem isn’t just access.

[claires-thoughts-onthe-mundane]

Today, Claire’s Thoughts are on…

Kpop (specifically the ridiculousness people making fun of others for liking it)

I admit that before I got into any groups myself, I didn’t see the appeal in listening to K-pop. It’s music that you can’t understand unless you hear the music, so why listen to it unless you’re gonna be reading the lyrical translations every single time?

Granted, I indulged in a little bit of Butter and Dynamite by BTS every now and again, sometimes if I really had nothing else I felt like listening to I might’ve let How You Like That by Blackpink play in the background while I did something else. But I didn’t see why anyone would be a full-blown fan. (Note: I personally never bullied or made fun of people. Just plain didn’t see the point.)

Then one of my best friends and I had a sleepover at her house. At one point we were bored and decided to watch some music videos of bands we liked. She asked me if I liked K-pop and I kinda awkwardly grimaced and said I don’t really listen to it outside of the aforementioned songs. She asked me to just try listening to one song from a different group, and she put on the MV for CASE 143 by Stray Kids. Long story short: I’m now a fan of Stray Kids, Enhypen, P1Harmony, and several other groups that I didn’t even know existed pre-sleepover.

Of course, getting into these groups meant I wanted to consume as much media around them as possible. And with all good, there must be bad.

While scrolling through various edits and funny clips of some of my favorite idols, I repeatedly came across videos of antis* making fun of kpop fans for liking the music. It was usually the same stuff over and over — “you don’t even understand them”, “I can’t even tell them apart”, “they all sound the same”, etc. etc. *(Anti = anti-fan, a hater)

As mentioned before, at one point I, too, didn’t see the point. Still, I kept this opinion mostly to myself and never once did I laugh or mock people who did like it. But these antis were being genuinely hateful. They would insult the way idols looked, sounded, dressed, even going as far to say some shouldn’t be alive or shouldn’t be in the groups they earned their spot in**. (**#riizeis7)

But it wasn’t idols that were the focal point of this straight-up cyberbullying. It was the fans of said idols. Antis would go out of their way to harass and make fun of the fans, many often making entirely new accounts solely dedicated to making fun of the fans. Many victims of the cyberbullying were driven off of social media after being malevolently bullied, harassed, stalked, and even doxxed. I’ve heard rumors of some fans being driven to… worse fates, but I’m unsure if any of those rumors are true as of December 15, 2024.

Whether those rumors are true or not, I find myself asking “what’s the point?” Except this time, instead of asking it about K-pop itself, I’m asking it about bullying others because of liking it. What good does it do? Does them listening to K-pop even affect you? Does bullying the idols and their fans make you feel better about yourself somehow?

Really the answers to these questions are as follows: no good, no, and most likely not.

All this to say I cannot fathom why people see the need to hate others simply for liking a kind of media that they don’t like. It’s childish and will get nobody anywhere in life.

To quote James A. Janisse for the second time on this account, Be Good People.