#nonetheless still wanted to do that trend with this idea bc for some reasons i was in the mood

[deathberi]

flowers blooming / hollow

[falcqns]

Hii i have this request in mind like Chris Evans x Actress! Singer! Reader like the reader and chris dated for 3y idk but they broke up but the reader always visit chris’ family bc she treated them like family aswell specialy when the reader’s parents died so she spend Christmas there or any occasions bc chris’ family invite her and when chris got a new gf the reader is kinda hurt bc she still love chris but she try to look like she doesn’t care but then she released her new song its called deja vu (by olivia rodrigo) and she release it to her bday so when the song is released the fans knew its abt chris bc of the new gf (chris’ fam doesn’t like the new gf and the fans kinda didn’t support them bc of the girl’s attitude) and chris’ family invites her over bc they want to show the reader something and when the reader got there they surprise her for her bday and congratulate her and turns out chris is there too with his new gf🤨and the reader knew chris’ new gf hated her bc of her look and scott called you all to the living room and watch the mv of the reader’s new song and when the mv ends scott and the fam congratuleted the reader and chris’ gf is giving the reader looks again and chris is noticing it and when the reader is in the kitchen alone getting something chris talk to her and congratulate her and chris’ new gf wrapped her arms around chris and chris tried to stop her to make a scene but she started a scene and scream at the reader but the reader cut her off and embarrassing her and the reader prove the new gf shes first not her (idk if that make sense lol) and the new gf leave(idk you can make her a random name so its not only “new gf”) and the reader and chris talk and they got back together, you can do wha you want at the end this is just so random bc i was listening to deja vu and advance thank you if you do my request! Stay safe! ❤️ and im so sorry if this is so long

Deja Vu

pairing: Chris Evans x singer!reader

warnings: parents death, major angst, fluff. 

a/n: thank you for the request! Hope you enjoy!

You had known Chris since college, when you had met him in your communications class. You two had grown close quickly, and became best friends. 

He brought you home every Christmas Eve, before you would go home to your parents house on Christmas Day. You had always felt like a part of the family, so when your parents passed a way, you turned to him. 

You and your parents were driving home from a Christmas Day church service, when you were hit by a semi truck. It had completely totalled the car, and your parents had died on impact. You had been sitting in the back, and only had a broken leg from where your moms seat had been pushed back into it roughly. 

You had been pulled from the car and sat in a second ambulance, while your parents were transported in another. You knew you'd never forget watching that ambulance door close and drive away, knowing that was the last time you'd ever see them. 

When the police officers asked if there was anyone you could call, you didn't know what to do. Your parents were both only children, so you had no aunts, uncles or cousins. You were an only child too, so you had no siblings, and your grandparents had passed when you were little, your other ones passing before you were born. 

So when the officer asked you, you told him the Evans’ phone number. Lisa picked up on the second ring, and you tearfully explained what had happened as the shock wore off. She immediately said she’d meet you at the hospital, and not to worry, that she and Bob would take care of you. 

You were taken to the hospital and treated for your broken leg. Less than an hour after you arrived, Lisa arrived at the hospital with Chris in tow. They comforted you, and took you home with them. You stayed in Chris’s room for the first few days, and when you were given your own room, you still had a hard time sleeping alone, so Chris ended up in your bed with you most nights, not that he minded. 

You never went back to college, and instead turned to singing as a release from all the pain you were feeling. You started out posting covers on YouTube, and gradually progressed to getting a record deal with Interscope Records, which didn't surprise anyone who knew you. You had immense talent, and your parents used to tell you that they were counting down the days before you were a celebrity. 

When Chris graduated college and told you he was moving to Los Angeles, he convinced you to come with him. Prices were high in LA, and he didn't want to be separated from you for too long, so you joined him. He got to be an actor, and you got to be a singer, which is what you both had wanted since you were younger. 

You went to every one of Chris’s movie premieres, and he attended as many of your live shows as he could. You supported him through all his relationships and his breakups, and played the middle man whenever he and Jenny would fight, up until the very end. You told yourself you did that because you just wanted what's best for him, but you both kind of knew that wasn't the reason at all. 

Throughout your time living together, you friendship grew, as did your feelings for each other. You'd be lying if you didn't have a small crush on him in college, and those feelings only grew as time went on, especially since the two of you decided to only get a one bedroom apartment. Mainly because it was cheap, but also because Chris made a decision a week after your parents death to never allow you to sleep alone because of the nightmares that would occur if he wasn't there.

So, when you won your first award for your first album, named ‘hand in hand’, he kissed you the second you came off the stage with your award in hand. It blew your mind that he felt the same, but you were happy nonetheless. You two began dating that night, and everything was perfect. 

Until, you were invited by 5 Seconds of Summer to be their opening act on their newest tour. You had agreed, and Chris let you go. You two had been dating for over 3 years, and you thought your relationship would be fine. 

You quickly realized however that that wasn't the case, when the two of you started fighting less than two weeks into the tour. The fights weren't anything major, more petty things like ‘did you change the Netflix password’ or ‘why did you take this piece of clothing, that was mine and it was my favourite.’ All around stupid fights. 

You had turned to Calum, who you were closest with, and he consoled you as much as you could. You realized however, that you couldn't be with Chris anymore when he drunk called you in the middle of the night while you were in the UK and got angry with you when you answered and told him to call you back in the morning when he was sober, to which he proceeded to brag that he slept with his co star at the time, Jessica Alba, you freaked out and ended things. 

You got a message from Jessica on instagram the next day letting you know that they did not sleep together, and that she was sorry he even said it. You assured her it was fine, and felt relief.

Relief because you got to the bottom of the situation, but also relief from your relationship. You didn't know what happened in those few weeks, but you knew the relationship was turning toxic, and you wanted to stop it before that happened. Neither you or Chris needed that. You told him you’d find a new place to live, and by the time tour ended, you bought yourself a house in Beverly Hills, and moved out of the apartment.

Chris moved out not long after, and bought his own house. He had tried to stay friends with you, but you didn't want that at that point in time. You were still hurting, and needed time to heal. 

Once you felt ready to date again, you were asked to be Calum’s date to the Peoples Choice Awards, you accepted. You knew Chris would be there, and you were hoping to talk to him, and maybe work it out. He had told you during the break up that he would always wait for you to come back, and that he still loved you, and always would. 

But you knew that wasn't the case when he showed up on the red carpet, with a new actress named Myra Woodfield. You had smiled at him, while trying not to break down inside, but he gave you a dirty look and rolled his eyes at you when Calum wrapped his arm around your waist for a picture. You furrowed your eye brows and took a good look at Myra. 

She looked almost exactly like you. Same build, same hair colour, same eye colour. The only difference is that she was slightly taller than you. You didn't know why he was replacing you, but it hurt. You pushed it out of your head however, and enjoyed the night with your best friend. 

It was a few months later when you were awoken by the constant dinging of your phone. You unlocked it, and saw you had a lot of unread messages from Luke, Ashton, Michael, Calum, and your other best friend Ashe about Chris’s new movie trailer, you sighed. 

You watched the trailer, and sighed when it looked like a recreation of a bunch of moments in your relationship with him, only Myra was in your place. 

Your fans and some of Chris’s had commented on it, and Myra immediately became aggressive with them, and insulted them. She told them that you were a nobody who could make Chris happy, which she was glad about because she made him happy how. 

Within minutes of this happening the hashtag #cancelmyrawoodfield was trending on twitter. You shamelessly went through the tweets and like and retweeted a couple. Then an idea popped in your head.

With a quick google search, you had a plan. 

You had written a new song called Deja Vu after the peoples choice awards, and it was had been recorded a few weeks ago, and you just had to decide on a date to release it, and make a decision on the music video. Her birthday was in about 3 months, which gave you enough time to get everything in place to drop on her birthday. 

Was it evil? Yes. Did you care? Not really. Besides, you inherited your pettiness from your mother and you knew she’d be proud of you. You called your manager and label, and got it planned out. 

When the new music video had been announced, Lisa called you and invited you home to watch it premiere with the family. You accepted, knowing Chris and Myra would be there, and that her birthday would get overshadowed by the release of your music video.

So, three weeks later, you were sitting with Lisa, Bob, Carly, Shanna, Scott, Chris and Myra in Lisa’s living room, waiting for the video to premiere.

Scott had picked you up at the airport earlier in the morning along with Carly and Shanna, and the four of you had a laugh about the face that no one acknowledged Myra’s birthday, not even Chris. It was mean, but no one liked her. 

Lisa absolutely hated her, but didn't want to upset Chris, so you got a call shortly after the PCA’s from her and the two of you ranted about her for a good two hours. 

You watched as the timer counted down from 10, and then the screen turned black. You took a deep breath and watched Chris out of the corner of your eye. 

You had searched for a while for a guy who looked similar to Chris, and you stumbled on Andrew Siwicki. He didn't look exactly like Chris, but it was close enough that everyone would know who the song was about if they didn't already. Andrew was a fan of Chris and hated Myra too, so he was more than glad to help you out. 

The music began to play, and you watched as the black screen faded in on two people walking along the beach, holding hands. 

“Car rides to Malibu Strawberry ice cream One spoon for two And trading jackets Laughing 'bout how small it looks on you,”

The next scene was a recreation of yours and Chris’s first date where you two had a picnic on the beach, and ended up splashing each other with the ocean water. Towards the end, everyone watched as Andrew picked you up and threw you into the water the same way Chris always did. 

You glanced at him, and could have burst into laughter at how uncomfortable Chris looked, but more importantly how angry Myra looked. 

“Watching reruns of Glee Being annoying Singing in harmony I bet she's bragging To all her friends, saying you're so unique, hmm,”

The next scene was you and Andrew (who was dressed as Ransom) on what appeared to be a recreation of the Knives Out set, running around with a dog that looked like Dodger chasing after you, the two of you laughing. The next shot was the two of you kissing behind a trailer, seemingly hiding from production. 

“So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? She thinks it's special But it's all reused That was our place, I found it first I made the jokes you tell to her when she's with you,”

The next scene was the two of you driving through Southern California, in a car that was almost identical to Chris’s. You two were laughing and singing along to the song, your hair whipping around you.

You took a deep breath, knowing this next scene would piss him right off.

“Do you get déjà vu when she's with you? Do you get déjà vu? (Ah), hmm Do you get déjà vu, huh?”

This scene was you, along with the rest of Chris’s family sitting around a living room that looked like the one you were in now, a Christmas tree full of presents in the corner. The camera panned across everyone as everyone was talking and settled on you and Andrew and the two of you recreated the scene where Chris whispered in your ear how much he loved you, and couldn't wait to start a family with you. 

“Do you call her Almost say my name? 'Cause let's be honest We kinda do sound the same,”

The screen showed you and Andrew saying goodbye at the airport, with 5 Seconds of Summer standing behind you. They weren't actually there when you left for tour, but Luke suggested it to piss Chris off, and you had agreed. 

Then there was a small montage of clips from tour, including a shot of Michael elbow dropping Ashton into a pool, which made everyone laugh, except Chris and Myra. The montage was followed up by you sitting on the floor of a dressing room and crying as you sent a text that said “I’m done.”

“Another actress I hate to think that I was just your type,”

Now you were on the red carpet, with Calum right beside you. You both were wearing the same clothes you wore on that night, you hair and makeup recreated perfectly. The camera unfocused on you as you turned and looked at Andrew and an actress named Alexa Morrison, who looked a lot like Myra, and they were recreating Chris and Myra’s actions perfectly. The camera swivelled around and came to rest pointing towards your face, as you looked in shock, and a single tear fell down your face. 

“I'll bet that she knows Billy Joel 'Cause you played her Uptown Girl You're singing it together,”

You were shown watching a movie trailer with Ashe sitting next to you, while you sobbed at what Alexa and Andrew were doing. You looked at the camera and began singing the song, while Ashe and everything else around you was frozen.

“Now I bet you even tell her How you love her In between the chorus and the verse (ooh) (I love you),”

You were sat on the bed in Chris’s red flannel that you had stolen before leaving for tour, and you were writing in the notebook aggressively with tears rolling down your face and singing.

“So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? She thinks it's special But it's all reused That was the show we talked about Played you the song she's singing now when she's with you,”

You were now being shown sitting on the couch, and watching Andrew run across the TV screen dressed as Captain America, an ice cream tub in your hand. You were wearing sweats and a t shirt, your hair in a messy bun.

“Do you get déjà vu when she's with you? Do you get déjà vu? Oh Do you get déjà vu?”

The camera circled around you before transitioning to the next scene. 

“Strawberry ice cream in Malibu Don't act like we didn't do that shit too You're trading jackets like we used to do (Yeah, everything is all reused),”

You were shown laying down in bed, and your eyes closing before an image of you and Andrew danced, dressed as Steve and Peggy in endgame, a scene Chris always told you the two of you would recreate one day. You had called Hayley and asked if it was okay, and she immediately said yes, and even came and watched you do the scene.

“Play her piano, but she doesn't know (oh, oh) That I was the one who taught you Billy Joel (oh) A different girl now, but there's nothing new (I know you get déjà vu),”

When your eyes opened, you were sitting at your piano, and playing while singing along. 

“I know you get déjà vu I know you get déjà vu,”

Suddenly, the piano disappeared, and you were left standing in an empty living room as the screen faded to black. 

The entire room burst into cheers as the video ended, except for Myra, who looked like she was going to murder you, and Chris who just clapped with a tight lipped smile. 

Later that night after all the kids had gone to bed and Lisa was driving Bob home,  Scott had pulled you into the kitchen under the pretences of ‘helping him fix a drink’, which ended up just being the two of you gossiping about Chris and Myra, and the music video.

Suddenly, Chris walked in, and nodded for Scott to leave. You cleared your throat and ignored him.

“That was a good song, and an amazing music video.” He said. “I can see you're just getting more and more talented as time-” He began, as you rolled your eyes, and looked at him. 

“What do you want?” You asked bluntly. 

“I just wanted to congratulate you.” He said, and you were about to open your mouth, when Myra came slinking in the room with an evil look on her face. 

“Nice job, Y/N. I’m glad I could inspire your music video.” She said sarcastically, and you could tell Chris was about to defend you, but you opened your mouth first. 

“Well, I’m glad I had such a snake like bitch to draw inspiration from,” You said, and heard Scott, his siblings burst into laughter in the living room. Myra’s jaw dropped and she turned to look at him. You looked up at Chris, who was leaning up against the counter, and biting back a smile.

“You’re just going to let her talk to me like that?” She asked, and Chris sighed.

“Myra, don't start. Not now.” He said, she scoffed. 

“I knew you still loved her. Only a pathetic loser could love someone as ugly and untalented as her.” She spat, and Chris growled. You felt tears welling up in your eyes, and you ran out of the room, your drink abandoned on the counter. 

You ran into your bedroom, where you shut the door, and fell onto the bed in tears. 

Back in the kitchen, Chris had gotten in Myra’s face, and was yelling.

“DON’T YOU DARE TALK TO HER LIKE THAT! SHE’S BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH SHIT IN HER LIFE, AND I WON’T ALLOW YOU TO ADD TO THAT!” He screamed, as Scott, Carly, and Shanna ran to the door, unsure of what to do. “SHE IS SO TALENTED, WAY MORE TALENTED THAN YOU! YOU’RE THE REASON PRODUCTION TOOK SO DAMN LONG, IT TOOK FOREVER TO GET A PERFORMANCE OUT OF YOU! YOU OPENLY INSULTED HER AND HER FANS HOURS AFTER YOU WERE ANNOUNCED TO BE IN THIS MOVIE, AND THEN HAD THE AUDACITY TO COME TO ME CRYING BECAUSE YOUR LITTLE FEELINGS GOT HURT!” He screamed, and Shanna ran and backed Chris away from her. 

“YOU’RE MY BOYFRIEND! AND ITS MY BIRTHDAY, YET HERE YOU ARE, CONGRATULATING HER FOR A SHITTY MUSIC VIDEO!” Myra screamed, and it was Scott’s turn to get in her face. 

“You need to leave. If you don't we’re going to call the cops.” He stated, and Myra rolled her eyes before storming out of the house. 

Scott turned back to Chris, and was shocked when he saw him in tears. 

“You need to work shit out with Y/N. It’s clear the two of you are still in love, and you need to figure it out as adults,” Scott said, his sisters nodding. Chris took a deep breath, and looked at your closed bedroom door.

Chris walked up to your bedroom door, and took a deep breath before entering the room where he used to sleep in every night.

He opened the door, and saw you curled up in a ball on the bed, your body still shaking. He smiled sadly, and walked into the room, closing the door behind him. He sat on the bed behind you, and rubbed your back gently. 

“I’m sorry. Not just for what Myra said, but for everything. For breaking your heart, and for causing you so much pain. I didn't realize how much I was missing you too until we watched that music video and I saw how truly broken you were. I never noticed that before now. And I’m sorry I didn't. If I’d have, I could have fixed this sooner, and we could be together right now.” He said.

You furrowed your brows at his last sentence and sat up.

“W-What?” You asked, and Chris moved closer. He wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into a hug. 

“I still love you. So so much.” He smiled, and a tear rolled down his face. “You're my entire world, and not having you here is slowly breaking me apart. I didn't know just how much until today, but I can't live another day without you.” He said. “I’m so sorry I hurt you baby.” He sobbed, and his head buried itself into your hair. Your body shook with sobs too, and you turned around to face him.

“I love you too.” You sobbed out. “I never should have ended things, but-” You said, but were cut off by Chris’s lips on yours, and you felt yourself melting into it.

He pulled away a few seconds later. “Don't. It was my fault, not yours. I am so sorry, and I am going to spend the rest of my life making up for it, I promise.” He said, as he stood the two of you up and led you out of the room, and to his.

“Where are we going?” You asked, and Chris pressed a kiss to your cheek.

“I have to grab something.” He said. He opened his closet, and grabbed something out of the top corner before turning to you. 

“I said I planned on spending the rest of my life making it up to you, and I plan on keeping that promise.” He said, as he got down on one knee. You gasped, as he opened the box and your dream engagement ring was inside. “I want you for the rest of my life, and the next. Will you marry me?” he asked, tears pouring down his face, just like yours.

You nodded enthusiastically, and Chris stood up. He placed the ring on your ring finger and scooped you up. “I love you,” You choked out, and Chris sobbed harder into you. 

“I love you too, and I’m never letting you go.”

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[gossamie]

this movie has a twist ending.

SUMMARY. In which you and Jungkook are famous-actors-turned-ex-lovers and the last thing you want to do is act out a reunion scene with him.

PAIRING. jeon jungkook x reader

GENRE. fluff + angst + a vague attempt at humor (?)

WORD COUNT. 1,543

WARNINGS. none!

NOTES. this was kind of a wild card in terms of my wips bc the idea for it kind of popped out of nowhere and i wanted to work on it right away! i hope you enjoy it nonetheless ♡

p.s. thank you mia, or @taenchanted, for your help with this piece! your advice and love will never go unnoticed!!

You don’t need to look behind you to know that Jungkook is staring at you. 

It’s all he’s been able to do since he arrived on set this morning— stealing glances at you from the snack table, trying to catch your gaze through your vanity mirror, and now, blatantly staring at you as he gets his makeup done. You wish he’d just grow a pair and I don’t know, just talk to me but then you realize that talking isn’t an option; ever since you stormed out of Jungkook’s penthouse three months ago, effectively ending what would be your final argument, you are silenced by the tension that lingers between the two of you, the only thing to survive from the remnants of your relationship.

You’re aware that things didn’t exactly end the way you wanted them to. You’re also aware that the devastating fight that ended your relationship is your fault, that you are the reason that the two years you’ve spent with Jungkook has crumbled into a mess of unsaid words and dried tears. There’s no way you can fix the irreversible damage, nor is there any way for you to act upon the small inkling of desire within you that yearns for Jungkook to be back in your life, for the catastrophe is so great that it’s best to leave it that way so as not to risk another goodbye. 

Needless to say, you’re better off ignoring him.

Your stylist, though, doesn’t.

“Are you okay?” she asks as she shrugs a jacket over your shoulders. There’s a familiar hint of intimidation in her tone, the same voice that you hate when people use because they’re too afraid to recognize that you’re a normal person like them, too.

“Yeah,” you lie. “Why do you ask?”

“No reason, I just… I heard about what happened and I figured—”

You raise an eyebrow. “And what exactly happened?”

Wordlessly and shamefully, your stylist takes out her phone and hands it to you, showing you the #1 trending news article on social media right now.

[BREAKING] Actor Jeon Jungkook seen leaving singer Kim Chungha’s apartment after date at a bar; Jeon’s agency denies further relationship between the two

Huh. What else is new?

At some point, you began to build a wall around your heart so strong that its cold exterior could withstand the insurmountable pain you felt whenever you saw Jungkook’s name in the news with a different girl. If it were any other day, you would’ve looked away from the phone and continued on with your life no matter how broken you felt without Jungkook.

But there’s something— maybe it’s the fact that you’ve become so used to seeing the headline when you shouldn’t or the fact that Jungkook is so close to you when he shouldn’t be in your life— that cracks the metal surface you spent so long carefully constructing, lets the pain seep through until the heartbreak feels as fresh as it did three months ago.

The stylist might have said something that sounded vaguely like a sheepish apology, but you’ve already pushed the phone away and stood up from your chair, walking to the location in determined strides. You’re not sure if the director has called for places yet, but you don’t really care; you just want to be as far away from that as possible, to see if you really can run away from your problems.

Releasing a deep breath in a vain attempt to regain composure, you find yourself on one side of a train platform; Jungkook stands on the other. Through the smudged glass of the train’s doors— the only thing that separates the two of you— you can see his face, albeit blurry and ill-defined. You can only chuckle at the irony of the situation. This must be the universe’s cruel metaphor for you and Jungkook’s relationship— never truly close and always something in the way.

You’re not sure why that makes you want to cry.

Somehow, you break out of your reverie just in time to hear the slate snap and the film director shout, “Action!”, forcing you to focus on the lines Jungkook helped you memorize all that time ago. The train lurches forward and leaves the station perfectly on cue, bringing with it a gust of wind that sweeps your hair into your eyes and pulls your clothes close to your body. 

When the wind settles, the first thing you see is Jungkook.

Upon sight of Jungkook— or, well, Haneul, as his character is named— you avert your gaze and begin to push your way through the crowd, desperate to widen the distance between you and him. Jungkook follows you with a pair of widened eyes and a quickened pace as he, too, shoulders through the throng of passengers. Though Jungkook calls out to you— to Mae— you pretend as if you can’t hear him and hasten your swift steps in response. 

You’re about to take the last footsteps needed to reach the exit of the train station when someone steps in your path, physically preventing you from leaving. You don’t need to look up to know that Jungkook is staring at you.

“Please, let me go,” you weakly beg, trying to maneuver out of his way.

“I’m sorry, Mae,” Jungkook replies, “but I’ve lost you once. I’m not ready to lose you again.”

With a defeated sigh, you lift your head up to face a breathless and pained Jungkook. You notice how his eyes are red as if he cried an ocean of tears, how his fingers twitch as if he longs to hold your hand again, how his jaw clenches as if he’s trying to repress the words that want to leave his mouth. His sadness looks too real, too raw, and you feel a pang of sorrow resound throughout your broken heart when you realize how similar he looks to the Jungkook you said goodbye to.

Suddenly, it begins to rain.

No one told me they were going to do this! you think as you hold your hands above ahead, trying— and failing— to keep yourself dry. You push your shock aside, though, and instead move past Jungkook, who catches your arm, once again stopping you from leaving. 

“I said, let me go!” you repeat, your words more exasperated than the last. 

But Jungkook doesn’t recite his line. He falters, falls silent as his body becomes drenched by the downpour, the raindrops hiding the tears rolling down his cheeks.

Instead, he whispers, “Y/N.”

Hearing your real name slip from Jungkook’s lips causes you to turn towards him, his soft-spoken tone deafening despite the roar of the storm. Somewhere in the distance, you can hear the director yell at Jungkook to stick to the script, but he can’t— or won’t— hear him. The world slows as it always does when you and Jungkook are together until all that matters is you, him, and the rain.

Then, “You were right.”

“What?” you ask, confusion written all over your expression. All at once, the lines you memorized seem like a distant memory.

“Those things you said to me the night before you… left.” Jungkook winces. It’s as if speaking those words into existence physically pain him. “Everything you said was right.”

“So?” That night is not exactly something you want to remember. “Why does it matter now?”

“It matters because I know. I know why I was wrong.”

You shake your head. “What do you mean?”

“I wasn’t putting enough effort into the relationship. I wasn’t taking enough responsibility in the relationship. I wasn’t putting you before my career like we promised. I wasn’t happy, but you thought I wasn’t happy being with you.

“And that’s what I thought, too. I thought I would be happy with other people but… I’ve been miserable.

“I couldn’t understand why I was so miserable, though, but I know now. I was miserable because there isn’t a single day that goes by where I don’t think about you.”

Jungkook’s fingers reach out to find yours, but you recoil, despite how much you crave his touch as much as he craves yours.

“What are you doing?” you scream through the crash of the torrent. “You can’t change what happened between us.”

“No, I can’t. But I can change what happens now.”

“How?”

“By telling you that an infinity of ‘I miss you’s will never be enough to tell you how deeply in love with you I still am. By telling you that I should’ve stopped you from walking out of my door three months ago like I’m doing right now. By telling you that I shouldn’t have given up on you— no, I shouldn’t have given up on us. What we have is something that should never be let go, not then, not now, not ever.”

When Jungkook looks into your eyes once more, you believe him.

This time, you do not pull away from Jungkook’s touch when he reaches out for you. Instead, you melt into Jungkook’s arms as he holds you tighter because you are his whole world and he will never let you go.

For you and Jungkook, a new beginning is uncertain, but it’s not a goodbye, and for now, that’s enough.

[nightfayre]

hi im the anon ! i dont remember what i said >

and I’m alarmed by the fandom mentality. Maybe HT means good - but how would we know? we don’t have access to his thoughts - but we must judge his actions, and his actions are for the least very troubling. It’s always abt coercing Mo and not respecting his boundaries. I see the trope “when she says no, she means yes” here and once again, the fact the fandom swallows it uncritically (bc HT is a poor, hot tortured boy) is alarming. Forcing Mo to wear his gift stinks of “this is my possession, don’t mess wt him” 2/5

Maybe im pessimistic n its actually to protect him by distance, but once again he totally disregards Mo’s will. What if he doesnt want to be protected ? what if he doesnt want to be an object to be pass around between self-entitled psychos ? The first step to protect and help someone is by listening to them. I hope Mo will react strongly and will tell HT that by saying this, he’s no different from She Li. And i hope that would provoke HT to self-reflect a lot - smth he lacks tremendously. 3/5

That being said i love HT and tianshan! And what i love is how realistic and flawed they are. Theyre both hyper violent, distrustful, and severly lacking in communication skills. Im thrilled to see how theyre going to evolve -for the better or the worse, both is good for me. But i’m very disappointed by the fandom reaction like “ooh how cute hes possessive it means love!” or “actually its not bad doing HT doing that bc his intentions are good”. 4/5

And I will be vry, vry disappointed if OX decides to follow this trend and to not show how this kind of actions is detrimental to their reliationship and use the tired and dangerous trope of “being violent means that you care”. I trust them to be more nuanced than that bc until now they are great at drawing grey relationship. So yea i hope next chapter, tianshan plunges (before being better). Anw sry for the rant, and plz continue the good work !! 5/5

phew. there’s a lot to unpack here – but I agree wholeheartedly with you. since this post is already kinda long, I will put my answer/explanation under the cut!

the parts that I bolded in your asks are what I intend to focus on in this answer. strap in, because this is going to be a long one. 

before anything, let me put a disclaimer: I love He Tian. I love Guan Shan. I love Old Xian. I love tianshan, and I love where they are headed in the manhua. does that mean I also love where tianshan are right now? no, it doesn’t. and I’m here to explain why I look forward to their potential rather than their current relationship’s dynamics.  

one of the hardest parts about being in a fandom is being able to separate fiction, reality, and morality. this is especially hard when a fandom is as old and endearing as 19 Days, and when you fall in love with & are rooting for all the characters. furthermore, 19 Days is not a tragedy. of course, when Jian Yi disappears, it will be tragic. but otherwise the majority of the manhua is a comical, romantic slice-of-life plot. as such, it’s easier for what would usually be seen as blaring issues/problems in tragedies to be disregarded for comedy or, in some cases, romance in a comedic, romantic slice-of-life. 

this is exactly the case with tianshan. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: He Tian’s current relationship with Guan Shan is not healthy. he doesn’t listen to Guan Shan. he doesn’t respect his personal space. he doesn’t know where to draw the line. he doesn’t know how to properly communicate with him, and thus resorts to violence or threats. tianshan just have a problem with communication. and, sure, maybe it can be chalked up to the fact that they’re young and stressed and don’t know any better. but that excuse is almost as bad as the “boys will be boys” excuse, and that doesn’t make it any better nor does it justify their actions. 

He Tian’s idea of relationships is so twisted, and as I talked about in a previous answer, it can probably be stemmed back to his trauma with the puppy Cheng took away from him. I won’t get too deep into that since I explained it in detail in that answer, but keep this in mind nonetheless: He Tian grew up in a family of violence, distance, miscommunication, and lies. it’s all he’s ever known, and that’s what he’s applying to his relationship with Guan Shan. does that make it right? no, absolutely not. but he’s learning. 

when Guan Shan had a panic attack at the restaurant, He Tian learned that people aren’t robots/pawns to use at his disposal and rather have their own strong emotions/backgrounds that shape them. thus, he brought Guan Shan home without a word. when he had his night terror and woke up to Guan Shan holding his hands, He Tian realized that there are parts of Guan Shan he still doesn’t know and, potentially, an aspect of their relationship that they’ve only started to uncover. thus, he thanked him without preamble and with a bowed head. 

what I’m trying to say is that He Tian does have good intentions at times, but not always. he’s learning as he goes, because god knows he didn’t have a family to teach him how healthy relationships should be. there probably is a part of He Tian that only wants to protect Guan Shan against She Li, but he certainly doesn’t show it in the right way. he acts possessive because he knows that if he doesn’t, he’ll lose what he loves (*insert flashback to the puppy*). again, does that make it right? hell no. jealousy and possessiveness are not cute and are entirely unhealthy in a relationship. the fandom should view them as such, but should also keep an open mind when considering He Tian’s background. 

and honestly, the reason why I’m focusing so much on He Tian right now rather than Guan Shan is because if it were up to Guan Shan, he would’ve dropped He Tian within the first few days (maybe even hours) of meeting him. but because of He Tian’s persistence, Guan Shan has no choice but to be involved with him and retaliate when He Tian verbally/physically/emotionally attacks him. nonetheless, Guan Shan has tried to walk away from He Tian on multiple occasions when He Tian’s teasing became too much, and on those occasions, He Tian has given in. (ex. I can’t find the exact chapter, but there is a chapter in which Guan Shan refuses to use He Tian’s fork to eat He Tian’s leftovers, and he gets up and says, “I’m going home,” to which He Tian replies, “Fine, fine, I’ll buy you new food.”)

so yes – tianshan certainly have flaws. He Tian holds too much power, and Guan Shan can’t catch a break. the fandom romanticizes their interactions, but if you take a moment to think realistically and recognize that character flaws are essentially bad but also critical for character development, then there is an even balance in the readers’ relationship with the manhua. don’t support He Tian’s violent interactions with Guan Shan and claim “omg He Tian loves Guan Shan sooooo much when he forces Guan Shan to do XYZ,” but rather support the fact that he hasn’t physically manhandled/harmed Guan Shan in many chapters. support and celebrate He Tian’s development, not his flaws. 

and as for what you said about Guan Shan telling He Tian that he’s “no better than She Li”? while I don’t think He Tian is truly as bad as She Li, I actually think that would be a painful, great, and pivotal moment in their relationship. after all, the most consequential scene in tianshan’s relationship thus far has been the kiss. at that moment, Guan Shan had told He Tian outright that he disgusted him and to leave him alone. since then, I don’t think He Tian has ever looked so… taken aback. unsettled. 

and guess what? their relationship has only gotten better since then, and He Tian hasn’t touched him like that again. 

I don’t know, anon. it’s a tough call. I think tianshan have a lot more chapters ahead of them, and I don’t think Old Xian will allow them to end on bad terms. actually, I don’t think Old Xian will allow them to end on the terms that they’re on right now. they can only improve from here on out, but how Old Xian will go about showing that improvement is unknown to us. there are many paths this story can take, but rather than worrying about what might happen, let’s focus on the here and now. let’s focus on the problems at hand, and let’s focus on the development the characters are undergoing. 

don’t ignore the wrongness/cruelty of characters’ actions, but don’t romanticize them either. if you do, you’re only doing a disservice to the character’s personality, existence, and the author’s intentions.

(and as for this newest chapter specifically: I see why people can get excited about He Tian telling Guan Shan to wear the earrings. He Tian wants to verify to both himself and She Li that Guan Shan is with him now. that Guan Shan is no longer under She Li’s control. who doesn’t love a little verification of their OTP’s relationship, especially when it involves an enemy?

but at the same time, it’s unhealthy. Guan Shan doesn’t have a say. he’s being handed around like an object. I don’t think this is pessimistic thinking; I think it’s the truth that no one wants to acknowledge/hear. but I’m not saying that tianshan is wrong in this chapter; I’m saying that He Tian has good intentions, but he’s not showing them correctly. and there will be a chapter in which he does show them correctly, but we must travel this rocky road before we get to that point. patience is key, and I cannot wait until He Tian and Guan Shan reach that moment of clarity. you can’t have light without the dark.)

[onlyjihoons]

figureskater!jihoon

a/n: based off this picture!

you and jihoon had this unspoken rivalry that till this day, no one knows why

except your coach and jihoon

essentially, you and jihoon trained under the same coach when the two of you were younger

one day your coach praised you for nailing a camel spin and jihoon was jealous

not because he didnt have the ability to do so, but your coach rarely compliments the both of you

so from then on he started to lowkey hate you bc you were the "first" skater to break the "no compliment" facąde of your coach

and then it just got worse when the both of you started to enter competitions

the both of you do top your catergories and your coach praised the both of you nonetheless

but jihoon cant seem to let the hatred go,, despite being older than you

your coach found it funny how jihoon couldnt let his childhood jealousy go after so many years of training together

like,,, youve matured in your looks but not your jealousy??

you on the other hand had no idea why jihoon hated you sm

so you just hated him back LOL

during training, the both of you would be uber competetive

oh jihoon did a double axel? you would do a triple axel and double toe combination

oh you did a biellman spin?? jihoon would do a biellman spin and then an I spin right after

thank you wikipedia and yuzuru hanyu

its just hella competetive between the both of you its just so funny

your fellow best friend, also figure skater!daehwi would lowkey be worried for you

bc all those spins and jumps?? like wont you fall or smth

you just huffed, "yah, lee daehwi, are you underestimating me rn??"

"no, im just afraid that you will get hurt:(("

on the other hand, fellow figure skater!guanlin tries to salvage a friendship

"but hyung, she did nothing wrong to--"

"shut up guanlin you know no shit"

you do have friends you meet outside of korea during competitions

like,, wakaba higuchi(yall i love her ksndksksm)

and they always tease you about jihoon

but you always shake your head and threaten to loosen the laces in their skates if they uttered the word "Jihoon" one more time

during competition season it was always common for fellow skaters to evaluate between themselves

and this time, ice prince baejin was your mentor

(also do check out iris' figure skater!baejin)

he was like the yuzuru hanyu of your team

there was this certain element in your routine which was pretty difficult to nail

which is a triple axel and a triple loop

you asked your coach to cut it down to a double loop instead but he told you he had faith in you so you felt bad and just tried to nail it from scratch

and of course, baejin was worried but neither was he in any position to change your routine

so he had to help you and guide you through

he was patient in every step and made sure your landing does not compromise on your ankle

meanwhile, as jihoon watched the both of you interact he cant help but to feel a certain feeling bubbling at the put of his stomach

was it jealousy? was it anger?

he could only watch afar when baejin pulled you up from your fall as the both of you exchanged giggles

so jihoon just skated around the rink, trying to show off a few jumps and spins as perfect as possible

baejin saw it, and smirked, "why dont your coach get Jihoon-hyung to help you? hes the best at jumps though,"

you could only smile sheepishly, "we arent really close enough to do that"

"ah..." it all clicked in baejin's head already, "not close enough--ow!"

"youre supposed to coach me, not play cupid."

on the competition day, as you practiced the dreaded combination on flat ground, you did exactly as what baejin told you to do and your coach was proud

until... you went on ice

you were not the type to make any mistakes on ice, but the combination failed you as you landed quite roughly and fell

you heard multiple gasps from the audience and could already visualise yourself getting cut out of the team

nonetheless, you continued on and finished the routine nicely

as you exited the rink, tears were already forming when your coach tried to comfort you, and you quickly shrugged on your jacket

in the end, you were placed as a runner up, which wasnt bad but not up to your expectations

when you walked back to the locker room, you walked past jihoon and his friends who were seemingly laughing about something

"yah, did you see her fall? it was tragic" you heard one of his friends snicker

"i know right, shes gonna get cut off."

you glared at jihoon, whilst he was still smiling at their joke

and that made you hate jihoon even more

having the audacity to hate you for no reason and now laughing at your fall? he was being such a blatant bitch about it and wasnt even sorry

you stormed off, exiting the gymnasium to get some fresh air

then settling on a park bench and sighing into your slouch

your brain took over the rest of your feelings as your tears stained your face again, makeup long erased from your previous tears

just then, you felt a presence beside you and looked up, it was jihoon, carrying a plastic bag

your rolled your eyes as you got ready to stand up, an arm pulling you back into your seat

"what? are you gonna laugh at me more for my fall? mr perfect jumps?" you sniffed

"you idiot," jihoon shook his head as he took out a bandage and some dettol,"you dont even notice that youre bleeding"

you looked at your left shin, and heck, it was, blood cascading down your legs and staining your white nikes

"give me your leg," jihoon patted his tigh as he shrugged off his jacket and placed it on your tighs

you obediently complied, as jihoon gently dressed your wound and occasionally asking you if the dettol was stinging

you were genuinely touched that jihoon would actually care for you though, since he has been hating you for so long

after he bandaged your wound, he cleared his throat awkwardly,

"if you want me to i can beat up those bastards for you, they got a scolding from me already--"

you were surprised that jihoon actually wasnt laughing with them, as you giggled

"its fine, they wont even be able to make it to the team anyways"

jihoon raised his eyebrows, as he cleared his throat again, "do you want to watch my routine later? coach choi said that it was my personal best"

you scoffed as you rolled your eyes, he was using your coach to make you jealous

"yeah sure, i'll see if coach choi's right"

"then i'll--"

just then, jihoon's phone rang, and he pulled his phone away from his ear as soon as he picked it up

"i'm sorry, i gotta go now"

before you could return jihoon his jacket, he disappeared into the gymnasium already

you begrudgingly sat beside your coach as you watch jihoon prepare himself on ice

no doubt, he looked hella good in his costume, a white button up and black pants

what made you more surprised was the song he was skating to

it was Spring Day by BTS

you remember yourself always playing Spring Day in the background when you warmed up in the rink during practice

it was your favourite song

when the song was reaching its climax, jihoon did a series of triple axels and quads, which was honestly really pretty and he landed perfectly

during the chorus he actually danced on the ice?? like wOaH

you were throughly impressed honestly, it takes alot of effort and skill to be able to dance on ice

with stray parts of his blonde hair flying wind, he looked ethereal

you getting snatched was an understatement

during the bridge, he did a quad lutz which was, really mind blowing

in the end, jihoon did clinch that champion title

you swore if he didnt get that you would physically fight the judges

you thought jihoon would saunter to you just to show off that he was the champion,, but no

he gave you the flowers he was gifted with one of his knees on the floor

“y/n... i know we have been hating on each other for the longest time, i really dont want to keep up with this honestly, will you be my girlfriend?”

before you could turn to your coach, he was already filming the whole ordeal on his mobile phone

you shyly nodded, as jihoon picked you up and spun you around aaa

the next thing you saw trending on the internet was you and jihoon’s relationship LOL

dating jihoon didn’t make the competetiveness go away tbh

except that jihoon would actually stop when he thinks its too dangerous for you to attempt

warm up is no longer you warming up alone

jihoon warms up with you with cheeky rounds of tag on ice

you have never fell on ice thanks to jihoon

because that boy would blast to your side just to catch you

“i told you to be careful babe, im not always here to catch you when you fall”

the type who will actually send a video of himself doing aegyo before you go in for competitions just to make you laugh and relax

its not that you hate it, you just find it funny

he is now your unofficial coach as well, aiding in your jumps and spins

“i love figure skating, and thanks to it i met the girl i love.”

[lorenzoujl106metrovancouver]

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WORK ETHIC AND ROUNDS

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Notes

Trevor Blackwell presents the following scenario. No central goverment would put its two best universities in the trade press. It's a lot of classic abstract expressionism is doodling of this policy may be because the rich have better opportunities for education.

VCs are suits at heart, the reaction might be able to distinguish between people, you don't want to be naive in: Life seemed so much about unimportant things. Start by investing in a non-sectarian schools. As Clinton himself discovered to his surprise when, in both Greece and China, many of the Dead was shot there. And those examples do reflect after-tax return from a past era, than to confuse everyone with a base of evangelical Christianity in the top; it's not inconceivable they were shooting themselves in the right to buy you a series A round, you create wealth in a cubicle except late at night to make your fortune?

That will in many cases be an anti-dilution protections. Experienced investors know about a startup.

But I know it didn't to undergraduates on the entire period since the war on. The First Industrial Revolution was one of few they had no government powerful enough to supply the activation energy required. Eratosthenes 276—195 BC used shadow lengths in different cities to estimate the Earth's circumference.

Russell was still saying the same thing. You owe them such updates on your cap table, and their wives. I would not be able to spend, see what they're getting, so that's what I think this made us seem naive, or a 2004 Mercedes S600 sedan 122,000 legitimate emails.

In principle companies aren't limited by the financial controls of World War II the tax codes were so new that the payoff for avoiding tax grows hyperexponentially x/1-x for 0 x 1. 25 people have seen, when Subject foo degenerates to just foo, what if they could attribute to malice what can be times when what you're doing.

You can safely write off all the difference. The number of spams that have it as if you'd invested at a critical point in the woods. Copyright owners tend to make programs easy to believe this much. This is a service for advising people whether or not, don't destroy the startup eventually becomes.

Thanks to Adora Cheung, Dan Giffin, Sam Altman, and Jessica Livingston for smelling so good.

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Episode 11 Confessionals

luke said tribal was inchresting i agree

wowowowoo i didnt get any vote? what did i do right?

FSDKJHDSKJFHDSKJ yikes im gone but that was so fun!!! 

so... after that insane tribal, i now realize how bad of a spot me and zach actually were in and we're dumbasses. i'm obviously expendable to them bc they voted me just so they could vote for someone else on the next vote instead of... idk.. katie? luke? each other? but no. they voted me. and then charlotte messages me after we cant change our votes and tells me my names coming up!! fun. like why tell me after. just so if i go youre not responsible? like no. i see where i am with you. ugh whatever. ill kiss up and they're all trying to get zach out. me and zach are basically... we are rock climbing a vertical wall with no gear. like it's hard but it's possible. so we're gonna try and make sure jordan doesnt win immunity to get charlotte on our side for AT LEAST rocks and maybe katie would vote with us. jordan or luke will win in the end. its simple. so let's make a move.

Well. That was a fucking disaster. I mean, sort of. I'm still alive and kicking, so it didn't go as poorly as it could have. On the plus side, Zach doesn't know (I don't think) that I was the one behind the plan to get him out. I think there's a good chance that Luke and Zach might have a secret alliance though so that is something to keep in mind as we go further into this game. Luke might have to go sooner rather than later. A new alliance was formed tonight consisting of me, Jordan, Luke, and Katie. Caron and I also have a F2 alliance and Zach and I are close but I don't trust him in this game as far as I can throw him. Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice, hell hath no fury.  The fact that he lied about his vote tonight makes me think that he can't really be trusted moving forward ... so ... there's that. I wish JP had been able to use his advantage on Zach for the next round. Alas, we just have to hope that Zach won't win... and if he does? I think it might be time for JP or Luke to go home. We can't all make it to the end, even if that would be a satisfying FTC. 

This STEP UP challenge can burn in hell. It can choke. I hold Ryan personally responsible. 

Let's watch the progression of my failure. ok im gonna PRACTICE this challenge Sent on:10:45 am bc i am too dumb for this and i fuck up i fall off the steps and die I fail two more times. maybe three more times. time no longer has meaning. i am nothing but my failure. watch zach win this and ruin my life lol byye

Okay so I threw immunity for two reasons. First reason is because I had to in order to retrieve my wishing well item. Second reason is because I did not want to waste an hour for a competition I was likely unable to win. The object I got was a golden mirror, and basically, it ruined my game. Nonetheless, it's boring but NO REGRETS! I essentially have a great relationship with Carson. I trust him 100% and he's the only one I trust. Katie is fine too, but I feel like she's loyal to J.pines and won't go against him. Jpines and Luke are a duo, and one has to go - unfortunately, jordan is immune so... and last but not least, charlotte. a queen! anyway, they all want me out and for some odd, yet stupid reason, have been telling carson this info. I think the idea to get Carson to vote me last tribal was REALLY good because it made us look not closer. also, i wasn't going ANYWHERE last round because the idol Carson so lovely gifted me! Anyway, it's time to scramble. Tomorrow I plan on leaking information to Char about what luke/jpines say and just work my ass off to get her against Luke. In addition, i'll use receipts. Reversing that, i'm going to try to pit everyone against one another just to see if I can survive another round. As Carson called it, the plan name is: "Operation: Save Zach" Or as i'd prefer... "Operation eject Luke and others"

Me: I think Luke has the idol. Me: I think Zach has the idol. Also me: Hey, maybe Jordan has it. I ... am sensing a trend. I have no idea who has the idol except that it's not me. I'm also 99% sure that I'm the one going home this vote... so that's Fun. O well, it's been fun. I can't wait to get torn apart in Ponderosa. 

Gah.... The plan this round is to tell Zach that the vote is Charlotte, tell Charlotte the vote is Zach and then vote out Charlotte because she's the bigger threat. Getting Charlotte out would mean I'm the only winner left in the game which I'm hype about but also nervous about. After Charlotte I wanna get Zach out, then Carson, then Katie and after that it's me and Jordan Pines until the end. I'm so glad JP was cast in this game and that we've made it as far as we have, I adore him<3 I'm nervous about this round simply because it's so easy for Charlotte and Zach to realise I'm playing them but I have the idol if I feel like I need to play it. I have the idol ready for next round. No doubt JP will win immunity and then I can play the idol on myself and it's goodbye Zach. 

[2017-10-03, 2:57:10 PM] Jordan Pines: can i ask a favour though if thats all right? [2017-10-03, 2:57:37 PM] Jordan Pines: can you make your vote for charlotte with the confessional CHA [2017-10-03, 2:57:40 PM] Jordan Pines: like make it [2017-10-03, 2:57:43 PM] Jordan Pines: Charlotte - CHA

Can you believe I'm going to ruin Jordan's attempts at Chaos Squad 2.0? If I seriously manage to screw that up again... I can retire happily and never have to play again.

Okay making my first confessional of the night, ill talk about my tribal plans in the other one, this one. WOOHOOO JORDAN WINS HIS THIRD IMMUNITY. ISNT THIS FUCKING NICE, ARENT WE HAVING A FUCKING GOOD TIME EVERYONE? and luke still has the idol which means hopefully we go into final 5 with an idol on us. Now onto my fucking tribal plans.....

Get ready y'all, get fucking ready y'all. Tonight the Chaos Squad rides again. And who is the target, while miss AD herself, Charlotte. I love you hon, but its time to go and I hope you understand the game move I had to make by this. Me and luke have made this decision to make a bold move to secure ourselves going into final 5 with majority and no shadyness. Goodbye AD, goodbye.

me/charlotte/zach are voting for luke?? and hopefully ti works idk. i do not wanna get rocked out again please god. zach and charlotte are like "WOO ROCKS LETS DO IT" and im like. NO BITCH... but whatever. me + charlotte + zach seem to be on the bottom?? i hope something works and that us 3 can escape tribal unscathed... rockless hopefully. hopefully katie flips and saves us from rocks but... katie's a loyal bitch. love her for that.... but .. lets pray woo. nothing of note happening other than jordan + luke telling me to vote zach and telling zach to vote charlotte and leave me/charlotte out??? idk. theyre insane, lets hope this works out.

So I called with Char and explained everything, then added Carson and explained everything. You heard a lot of it, but I basically ratted out Luke and Jordan to Char, and convinced her they are against her. It was true information, I wasn't lying. Anyway, tonight should go one of three ways: A) Luke idols, Char/myself goes - unlikely. I would say a 4% B) Luke and Char/myself go to a tiebreaker of 3-3, we get Katie/Jordan to flip and vote out Luke. 48% C) Luke and Char/myself go to tie, and it goes to rocks with Katie, Carson and likely myself, and we go hard! 48% The worst case scenario would be Carson gets rocked out. My preference is: 1. Luke gets flipped on and leaves 2. It goes to rocks, Katie leaves 3. It goes to rocks, Zach leaves 4. It goes to rocks, Carson leaves Getting rocked out? A dream come true.

I made a confessional like 3 hours ago and idk what else to right. Chaos Squad part 2 is about to be so funny and I'm sure the VL are going to hate it bc they love Charlotte I'm sure but I'm SO excited for this to happen rkjnjkdnjkt