#noah sexton

[evanmarqu3z]

chicago one as things i tweeted

[crockettmarcel]

no because why is this literally noah and sarah

[solesommerso]

whumptober 2023 day 4 : bathroom floor

Chicago med, Sarah & Noah

warnings : miscarriage, blood, might be medically incorrect

“Sarah? Are you okay? I heard something fall.” Noah’s knuckles tap against the wood door of the bathroom in his and Sarah’s shared apartment, and despite what people say, no they aren’t sleeping with each other.

“Um- I’m, I’m not really.” She replies with a shaky voice that makes Noah’s chest tight.

“What’s wrong? Are you sick? Should I get the thermometer?” Or maybe he should grab the complete med kit he keeps stored under his bed, it’s too packed full for a normal person to have, but Noah’s always liked to be prepared for things.

“Can you just grab me some new clothes? Sweatpants and um- some underwear.” He nods along before remembering that Sarah can’t see him so he calls out that hell be right back before turning towards the hall leading to Sarah’s room. Shes probably just on her period, nothing to worry about.

-

“I have your clothes, can I come in?” Noah squeezes his eyes shut after he says it, he should’ve just told her that he can leave the clothes waiting by the door for her. Asking to be in the bathroom with his roommate while she’s possibly bled through her clothes isn’t something a normal person does.

“Yeah, just um- there’s kind of a lot of blood.” The same tightness in his chest from before appears, only growing more when he creaks the bathroom door open and is met with Sarah sat against the wall beside the toilet. There’s blood stained through her light gray sweatpants and tear tracks are visible on her cheeks when Noah looks up to meet her eyes.

“Should I call an ambulance?” He asks too quietly and too hesitant for a trained ed doctor. There’s too many thoughts running through his head for him to think of anything else to say.

“No.” Sarah answers and Noah takes it as enough, she’s a doctor too, she wouldn’t say that if things were serious.

“Do you need help? Are- are you hurt?” The words stumble and Noah walks farther into the room, cautiously kneeling on the tile floor in front of Sarah, unsure what to do with himself in this situation.

“I um- I- I think I’m having a miscarriage, or, or that I had one? I don’t know, I woke up and-.” Her voice cuts off as she sucks in a sharp inhale, eyes not meeting Noah’s, he can still see the glossy tears building in them.

“Are you sure I shouldn’t call an ambulance?” It’s the only thing he can think to say, it’d be easier if he could. Call an ambulance, ride to the hospital with her, get Natalie and only Natalie to look her over because she has the most experience with this sort of thing -at least from what Noah knows- and hold Reese’s hand if she lets him. It’s the only plan his mind can come up with.

“No, no I’m okay. It doesn’t hurt as bad as it did, I’ll be fine.” Sarah says but when her hands press down against the floor her face screws up with a wince and Noah just barely catches her by the arms before she’s slumping back against the wall.

“Tell me what to do Sarah, tell me how to help.” It’s a question he shouldn’t be asking because he’s trained in this sort of thing, but Reese nods and breathes in a few deep breaths to settle herself.

“Help me get to the shower.” That’s something he can do.

It takes a long moment for Noah to get Sarah to her feet without him worrying that she’s about to collapse, but she leans her head against his shoulder and grips at his arms as they stand next to the tub, both of them hesitating to step into it. Sarah looks exhausted and Noah swears the blood stain on her pants has grown larger, he doesn’t want her to fall, or to hurt herself.

“Let me sit down and turn the water on.” There’s not a second between the words and Sarah moving to sit against the lip of the tub for Noah to protest. He would’ve, told her to breathe for another second, put her down a lot more cautiously than her own way of harshly falling onto the tubs side. He says nothing about it and flips the shower on.

“Now help me get my pants off and get into the tub.” Her head stays down as she tries to pull at her waistband, hands shaking and fingers not gripping enough of the fabric for it to work. Noah moves as carefully as he can to help, a sick feeling in his stomach when the pants get pulled off and he’s met with Sarah’s pale skin covered in blood.

“Is the water warm?” More so than Noah normally makes it but Sarah’s always taken hot showers, she leaves behind a steamy bathroom every time.

“It’s warm, do you want to get in now?”

“Can you pull my shirt off? I don’t want to sit in it wet.” It takes all of five seconds for Noah to drag the loose material over Sarah’s head, tossing it onto the floor beside the folded pair of sweatpants and underwear are sitting, they’re a little ways away from where the blood stained ones are sitting in a ball. The image of it has Noah’s skin crawling, something about the blood on the tile feels sickening in a way even an Or after a surgery doesn’t make Noah feel.

“Come here.” He steps into the shower first, not caring about his clothes getting wet, just wanting Sarah to get in without slipping.

“Noah.” It’s meant to sound annoyed, Noah knows that, but it holds none of the normal bite it should, and he wouldn’t have cared even if it did. He sits in the tub with Sarah, her back to his chest, the copper blood washing down the drain as Reese leans back into his chest with a small sigh and her legs outstretched under the stream of the shower.

“Don’t tell anyone about this.”

“I’d never, but you need to get checked out tomorrow.”

“I will. Just don’t tell Crockett.” Despite the questions that arise in Noah’s head hearing it, he nods and tightens his arms around Sarah.

[pushupcontest]

Chicago Med Group Chat

Pt. 7: Connor’s phone

Mental illness specialist or wtvr: Daniel

Pepper spray girl: Sarah

Unknown number 1: Elsa 

Unknown number 2: Lanik

Dude who won’t stfu (maybe ava’s crush???): Noah

Attending: Latham 

Will (can’t fucking spell): guys i hav good new. I have leaenee how to spell (sorta!)

Unknown number 1: Yeah, thanks to me. You are all very welcome by the way. 

Nat: You are fired. He still can’t spell. 

Maggie: Is someone jealous? ;)

Avey ❤️❤️❤️: Hey Sarah ;)

Nat: No, not jealous at all.

Pepper spray girl: Heyyy :)))

April: Elsa, you should have taught him better. Also Nat, you are definitely jealous!

Ms. Goodwin: 🤣

Me💰: who’s pepper spray girl?

Avey ❤️❤️❤️: what are you talking about?

Unknown number 1: You don’t need to be jealous, Natalie. Will is not my type. At all.

Unknown number 2: He better not be…

Me💰: 1 of my contacts says pepper spray girl but idk who that is

Ethan: Oh. That might be my fault.

Will (can’t fucking spell): HEY! Wtf elsea???

Dude who won’t stfu (maybe ava’s crush???): Ohh yeah i remember when sarah did that lmao

Pepper spray girl: …

Mental illness specialist or wtvr: You guys need to be more sensitive. 

Ms. Goodwin: Maggie, the idea you had yesterday really impressed the board. You are the best head nurse!

Dude who won’t stfu (maybe ava’s crush???): But she’s the only head nurse

Ms. Goodwin: 🤣

Me💰: ethan did you change my contacts last night at the bar???

Ethan: I might’ve. 

Pepper spray girl: fuck you ethan

Avey ❤️❤️❤️: 🔪

Maybe: Sam Abrams: …

Maybe: Jay Halstead: I’m so confused right now… 

Maggie: Thank you, Sharon!

April: Ethan, you were at a bar last night???? You told me you couldn’t help take care of Vincent because you were working?

Ethan: Oops

April: Oops? That’s all you have to say?

Unknown number 2: You guys have a kid???

Maybe: Sam Abrams: You guys talk too much, I’m muting this.

April: No, Vincent is Ethan’s sister's kid.

Unknown number 2: Ethan has a sister???

Ethan: Sorry April, but I already see Emily too often now that she volunteers at the hospital.

April: Ethan, you are so irresponsible. 

Me💰: wait i was so confused about the contact that i forgot to acknowledge the fact that you sent a winky face to sarah???

Avey ❤️❤️❤️: yeah…

Pepper spray girl: ;)

Maggie: ;)

Ethan: And you are so critical. How can you blame me for not wanting to spend time with my sister who literally stole drugs from the hospital???

Pepper spray girl: emily did what????

Ms. Goodwin: Ethan, I think you, Emily, and I need to have a little chat… 

Unknown number 1: Why am I not surprised? 

Dude who won’t stfu (maybe ava’s crush???): Omgg drammmaaaa

Dude who won’t stfu (maybe ava’s crush???): Someone’s abt to get fired

April: Noah, you should not be laughing at such a serious situation. 

Dude who won’t stfu (maybe ava’s crush???): No

Me💰: not to interrupt whatever this is but ava??? are you flirting with sarah?

Avey ❤️❤️❤️: yes

Ethan: What the hell, April?? Emily and I might lose our jobs because of you.

Me💰: you’re a crazy bitch we’re over

You have changed Avey ❤️❤️❤️ to Crazy bitch

You have changed Pepper spray girl to Pepper spray girl (ava’s crush)

You have changed Dude who won’t stfu (maybe ava’s crush???) to Dude who won’t stfu (noah)

Crazy bitch: rot. in. hell!!!

Ethan: We’re over too, April

April: Fine, as long as I get your sister in the breakup.

Unknown number 1: And we’re over too, Lanik.

Unknown number 2: What????

Unknown number 1: Jk ;)

Unknown number 2: … Attending: I hope this breakup doesn’t impede you two from acting professionally during surgery.

[purple-dahlias]

“Promise me you’ll still come up here when I’m not around.” Sarah watches the waves crashing onto the rocks below, spraying foam high up into the air. The water stretches out for miles ahead until it seemingly vanishes into the yellowing sky.

“Sarah—”

“Noah, please,” Sarah cuts him off, and Noah hears the desperation in her voice.

“Of course I will,” he tells her softly, winding one of the tassels of her scarf around his finger. Despite it being the height of summer, Sarah was still well wrapped up, and Noah notices her shiver in spite of all her layers and the strength of the sun’s rays.

They’ve been out already too long. She’s wasting energy, he knows, with the bike rides and the walks along the shore. But it’s the only time anyone sees her smile. It’s the only time he smiles as well, these days.

He hates this. They both do.

[chicagomedmadness]

Sarah: I’m into this guy.

Noah: ‘I got a chance.’

Sarah: His name is Joey.

Noah: ‘Damn it!’

[aroacesarahreese]

Just a fun headcanon

Ship: Platonic Sarah and Noah

Headcanon: Noah is a hardcore Ariana Grande fan. Sarah is not. However, Sarah's favorite sweatshirt is in the wash right now and she needs to do some errands. So, she borrows Noah's Sweetener sweatshirt. She runs into a few coworkers while doing errands and they comment on how they never expected her to be an Ariana Grande fan. She is most definitely not.

[asoftepiloguemylove]

AND I'LL NEVER GO HOME AGAIN // YOUR CHILDHOOD HOME AND THE PAST INSIDE OF IT

Maya Angelou // @filmnoirsbian // BoJack Horseman (2014-2020) from The Old Sugarman Place dir. Anne Walker Farrell // Tennessee Williams The Milk Train Doesn't Stop Here Anymore // Anne Sexton A Story For Rose On The Midnight Flight To Boston // Noah Kahan Paul Revere // pinterest // The Woman in Black (2012) dir. James Watkins // Ariel Gore We Were Witches // Katherine Fabrizio A Poem From the Good Daughter to the Difficult Mother // Marble Hornets cr. Troy Wagner // AroarA #6

[nofatclips]

Things I've Done by Nicki Bluhm from the album To Rise You Gotta Fall

[bullet-prooflove]

Chicago Med First Watch Season 5 - OH FUCK OFF NATALIE

Binge watched this last night and I am about half way through the season. 

Thank God we all fucked off Phillip right? Like even his own family said he’s pathological, what a fuckhead. 

Ethan’s dedication to having a baby is admirable but a little bit manic, I get the pressure April feels over the whole thing.

Also Natalie’s memory coming back and her realising she was still in love with Will, seriously I was so fucking glad when he told her it was over. But now she’s like ‘can we be friends?’  - No absolutely not

Loved Marcel and April’s kiss - also the way he gives her an out over the whole thing. These two have some real chemistry. 

OMG with Noah getting the shit kicked out of him, was genuinely concerned for him. 

Seeing Daniel cry broke my heart, I just wanted to hug him. I honestly adored Caroline.

Maggie has had such a great storyline over the past season. I am really happy Ben pulled through!

Also I am positive in ep 1 Marcel didn’t have an accent and then in ep 2 he suddenly did, is that just me being crazy?

[evanmarqu3z]

chicago one as things i tweeted (p2)

[crockettmarcel]

any med fans out there going insane about sarah and noah? anyone out there have taste?

[solesommerso]

whumptober 2023 day 1 : shaking

Chicago med, Sarah/Noah

warnings : anxiety attacks, crying, this isn’t ethan bashing i swear he just irks me sometimes, mentions of noah having bad parents

Sarah moves lightly through the kitchen, humming under her breath as she picks up the dirty dishes from the dinner her and Noah just had with April and Ethan. She thinks it went alright, about as good as any dinner can go with Ethan and Noah in the same room. There’s still unresolved tension that they pretend isn’t there but Sarah sees it, she doesn’t think April does.

“Noah, you gonna leave me all the dishes?” She calls over her shoulder and scrubs at the glass dish that held the lasagna Noah made tonight. It’s one of the only recipes that he got from his parents, Sarah knows because he only makes it when April’s coming over, and he always throws away any leftovers. Never taking them for lunch the next day. Never letting them sit in their apartment for more than a night.

“S-sorry. I can take over.” Noah comes up behind Sarah, his voice cracking slightly before he clears his throat and dives his hands into the soapy water in the sink.

“What’s wrong?” No matter how hard she tries, she can’t see his eyes. It’s something Sarah noticed almost immediately after moving in with Noah, he’s great at avoiding eye contact, at avoiding hard topics, at pretending he’s fine.

“Nothing.” There’s an attempt of a laugh following the words but it sounds too pain filled to be real.

“Don’t lie to me Noah, you’re bad at it.” The smile he gives to Sarah is more real than the laugh, his eyes meeting hers for a split second, he looks on the edge of panicking. The alarms bells in Sarah’s head go off immediately and and she wraps her hand loosely around Noah’s upper arm to take him over to their dining table to sit, eyes growing wide when she sees his hands are shaking once they emerge out of the water.

“Hey, hey, what’s wrong?” Her free hand cups his cheek out of instinct as they sit across from one another, Noah looking anywhere but Sarah.

“I think he hates me.” His voice trembles, far too quiet for Sarah to think it’s coming from Noah, it has to be somebody else. It can’t be her best friend, he’s far too happy, too eccentric and loud, always trying to make people’s days better, always a shoulder for someone to lean on. He’s never looked this small in all the time Sarah’s known him.

“What? Ethan doesn’t hate you, that’s ridiculous.” It comes out of her mouth before she can think about how that is the worst thing she can say. It’s invalidating and she can see how Noah shrinks farther in on himself hearing it. She’s a damn psych resident and can’t even the first sentence right, nice.

“He does, I know he does. I just- I know that I wasn’t great when I first started at med but I think I’m better now- or- or I thought I was getting better, I’ve tried everything to make it up to him. He’s dating April, she loves him, what if she chooses him over me? What if she cuts me off and tells me I’m a horrible person and—?” Sarah puts her hands on Noah’s shoulders before he can continue to spiral into what will no doubt lead to a panic attack.

“Deep breath, in and out. Mirror me.” Her breaths are exaggerated maybe a little more than they need to be but Noah says nothing and does as he’s told, trying to match Reese’s breathing pattern.

“I hate this.” Stray tears slip down Noah’s cheeks as he leans into Sarah, her arms naturally falling to wrap around his back, his head resting against her shoulder as their breathing becomes more relaxed.

“I know. I wish I could fix it.” If Sarah could she’d go sit Ethan down and lecture him about letting things go, tell him to get over himself because Noah is a great doctor and he’s proved himself over and over again. She doesn’t have the guts to do it, and Noah would probably pass out if she did.

“I can’t lose April, she’s the only family I have left.” While Sarah hasn’t heard what happened between Noah and his parents, she knows it’s not good, and she knows April has zero idea that he’s gone no contact with them. It’s one of those secrets that Noah keeps as close to his chest as he can, sometimes she worries how many other secrets he has like that.

“You won’t, she’s your sister and she’ll always be your sister. Ethan can’t take that away.” Her hands pull Noah’s face away from her neck, still a little damp from the sink water, nonetheless her thumbs brush against his cheeks gently.

“But she can tell me it doesn’t mean anything.” The hurt in Noah’s voice is practically tangible, Sarah can’t help but suck in a small breath at it.

“Then that’s her loss. But you can’t jump to that, you still have her. We made it through that dinner and we’ll make it through the next, okay?” He nods faintly, leaning to rest his forehead against Sarah’s.

“Do you really think it’s ridiculous that Ethan hates me?” A light smile shows on Sarah’s face as leans in to press a soft kiss to Noah’s lips.

“Yes. But I shouldn’t have said that, not very psychology resident of me.”

[pushupcontest]

Chicago Med Group Chat

Pt. 6: April's phone

Will🙄: hello

Idiot little brother: Wait you can spell??? 💀

Nat👭: Magic. 

Ms. Goodwin: 🤣

Will🙄: stoppp bulking me 😖😖😖

Ms. Goodwin: 🙄

Ethan ❤️💔: Anyways…

Ethan ❤️💔: Can anyone watch my bird this Saturday?

Idiot little brother: The ptds bird?

Nat👭: You mean PTSD?

Idiot little brother: Yeah ig

Charles: For future reference, Noah, it is in fact called PTSD, which stands for post traumatic stress disorder. It is an anxiety disorder that develops in reaction to physical injury or severe mental or emotional distress.

Sarah: 💀

Ms. Goodwin: 🤣

Idiot little brother: Sarah i’ve been meaning to ask you do u wanna get drinks tomorrow aft work?

Sarah: sorry, i’m very busy tomorrow :(

Ava: 🔪🩸⚰️🪦

Idiot little brother: That’s alright maybe another day!

Sarah: sure :)

April: Noah, leave the poor girl alone.

Idiot little brother: Maybe focus on your relationship instead of mine…

Ava: 🔪🩸⚰️🪦

Idiot little brother: What's wrong with you ava?

Connor (the rich guy): why do u keep doing that? are u into noah or something?

Latham: Why are my surgeons fighting about their personal lives in a hospital group chat?

Idiot little brother: oh… sorry but your not my type ava

April: You’re*

Nat👭: You’re*

Maggie👯: Are you guys stupid?

Blonde med student: Yes, they are.

Lanik (the annoying guy): Exactly, babe.  

April: Since when are you guys dating??? Connor (the rich guy): ava don't ignore me!

[purple-dahlias]

— sarah and noah as roommates aesthetic

[codename-adler]

Seth Gordon. - III

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