#no ones online rn but. seal time

[inkmaze]

I love this one seal I saw. so shaped

[feyhunter78]

PLEASE UPDATE IM BEGGING THIS IS MY BRAND NEW LIFE SOURCE RN

I'm gonna assume this is about Pink Pastels, and gladly give you what you're asking for👀

Pink Pastels Pt 6

Description: It's time for Gabi's field trip, and wouldn't ya know, you and Miguel are in the same group.

Pt 7

Miguel’s never been a chaperone before. During Gabi’s Kindergarten field trip he was away on a business trip, but this time he made sure to be there, not just because Gabi’s class was going to the zoo, and she loves the zoo, but because of you.

There’s this need to protect you, like an itch beneath his skin. He can’t forget the look of fear on your beautiful face, or the way you clung so tightly to him, desperate and terrified. The crunch of that man’s bones beneath his fists, the fear that ran through your attacker as Miguel tore into him, talons and fangs covered in his blood, crimson drip, drip, dripping down to the pavement below, it was an almost ecstasy.

Your broken and discarded shoes are hidden in the back of his closet, along with your hairband. It’s pathetic, really, the makeshift shrine that’s beginning to form, and he knows that his actions could so easily borderline being creepy, but you’re his. He knows it. You’re meant to be together, and he’s simply showing his devotion.

“Papá, Papá, we’re here.” Gabi tugs on his shirt sleeve, her face lit up with pure, innocent excitement, and he resists the urge to crush her to his chest and never let her go.

“I see, where do you want to go first, Mija?” He asks, adjusting her baseball cap and making sure it’s snug on her head. He doesn’t want her face to get sunburned, but she hates the feeling of sunscreen, so they compromised.

“I want to see the hippos!” She says, bouncing in her seat as she turns to talk with her friends behind her, little, high-pitched voices discussing and debating which animals were the best.

“Mr. O’Hara, here’s your map, and safety packet. I trust you went over the info online ahead of time?” You hand him a manila envelope, smiling brightly at him.

Your hair is down today, the crown of your head covered by a white bucket hat, and you’re wearing jeans with a sage green T-shirt that reads SRE Field trip, in big white block letters. He’s wearing the same, everyone is, to ensure if a child is lost, they can be easily returned to their group.

He takes the packet from you, nodding. “Of course, can’t leave my chaperone partner to do all the heavy lifting.”

You laugh a little at that and continue down the bus aisle, handing out the remaining packets.

He lets Gabi pull him off the bus and is soon swarmed by five first-graders, each one a friend of Gabi’s—she makes friends so easily, something he can’t take credit for.

“Okay everyone has their groups, please stay with your chaperone, and your buddy, don’t go wandering off, and meet back here, at the entrance at three o’clock.” An older teacher says, before she gathers her own group and heads through the zoo gates.

You bend down to face the kids, an excited smile on your face. “Alright, what animal are we seeing first?”

“Hippo!”

“Lion!”

“Monkeys!”

“Seals!”

A chorus of answers rings out, and you turn to Miguel. “Mr. O’Hara? Do you have any suggestions?”

You look so pretty, the sun shining down on you, the casual outfit, the way you tap your finger against your lips in thought, clearly putting on a show for the kids. If he ignores all the others and focuses on only you and Gabi, he can almost imagine this is a family outing, not a field trip.

“Last time I was here, they had snow leopards?” He feigns ignorance, but when your face lights up, he feels that intoxicating shot of dopamine.

Snow leopards are your favorite animal, the one you’ve voiced your desire to go see many times while in the school’s teacher’s lounge. One which has cameras, that Miguel has access to. Obviously.

“They still do, they’re my favorites.” You confirm what he already knows, and the children immediately change their answer to match yours.

“Why don’t we go there first, then if the kids see any animals, they want to visit on the way there we’ll see them afterwards?” He suggests, still acting oh so innocent.

“What do we think? Everyone agrees with Mr. O’Hara?” You ask the children, straightening up and throwing him a smile when they all agree to his plan.

Miguel stands back behind you and the children, watching as you join them up at the glass, helping them read out the informational signs, and marveling over the big cats.

The environment set up for the leopards is lush, full of greenery and stone. Perches and outcroppings meant to mimic their homelands, and mounds of snow that they seem to disappear into, reappearing with a flash, causing Gabi and her friends to jump back in surprise then burst into giggles.

You soon join him, your arms tucked behind your back as you watch your students. “I think this is one of my favorite days of the year. I know it’s stressful, and tiring but seeing how excited they all are, just really makes me happy.”

“Gabi loves the zoo, we come here every year on her birthday.” He tells you, desperate to include you in their life, if only through shared pieces of personal information. “I’ve got all the photos in my office, my coworkers’ joke that by the time I retire I’ll have half my office wall covered.”

“I used to go to the aquarium when I was a kid, there’s something about standing underneath those giant tanks, with the way the light plays through the water—it’s breathtaking.”

You’re breathtaking. He wants to say, but he doesn’t. Instead, he says, “I know the feeling.”

You smile shyly at him, and for a moment he’s back on the side of your building, watching you through your window. He didn’t intend to be there, to watch you, he only wanted to ensure you were okay. You were fast asleep, hair askew, in a soft looking oversized t-shirt, the moonlight dancing across your peaceful face.

He couldn’t tear himself away, enraptured by the sight.

You let out a huff, and in his peripheral, he spies the name on your phone. Todd.

He hates Todd.

“Everything okay?” He asks carefully, his eyes on Gabi.

“Yes, sorry, just some personal issues, nothing serious.” You say quickly, sliding your phone into your pocket.

“Ms. Y/N, can we go see the hippos now?” One of Gabi’s friends, Emma, comes up to you, looking up at you with big blue eyes, her hand tugging at your shirt.

“Is that what everyone else wants to see?” You ask, gaze sweeping over the other children.

“Yes.” Emma says confidently, running off in the direction of the large animals, Gabi following closely behind.

“Girls!” You call out, looking from them to the others.

“Go, I’ll bring the others.” He reassures you.

You take off after them, and he gathers the remaining four children, who huddle around him like ducklings.

“Is Ms. Y/N mad? She looked mad.” One of the little boys—Tony, named after the Avenger or a family member, Miguel isn’t sure—asks him, chewing on his bottom lip.

This is that Tony, Gabi’s told him about this boy, how he’s very nice, and funny, but gets scared easily. She likes him, maybe not in a way she yet understands, or that Miguel is ready for, but if his baby girl has to have a crush on anyone, an easily scared little boy isn’t the worst.

“She’s probably mad at her dumbass boyfriend.” Dahlia, a girl he can tell is from the Bronx by her thick accent, speaks up, and it’s all he can do to keep from laughing at the scandalized look on Tony’s face.

“Don’t tell Ms. Y/N I said a bad word, but that’s what I’ve heard Ms. Melissa call him.” She says quietly when she sees Tony’s face.

“I won’t tell if you won’t.” He promises.

“Gabi’s right, you are the coolest.” Dahlia says, grabbing his hand and swinging it back and forth as they walked.

The coolest? He wanted to run ahead and scoop his daughter into his arms, she thought he was the coolest.

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[munsonology]

Well I need a new therapist lmaoooo

I told her I was uncomfortable regarding a certain celebrity.

I don't mind them as a person, though I feel they are v performative on certain topics and exploits things for money. My main issue is they don't tell their fans anything like they don't say hey no death threats. Maybe they have and then I would feel slightly better about the person, but the fans are moreso my issue.

Regular fans are fine, my sister is. But its the rabid stans who want to crawl in the celebrity's ribcage to breathe the same air as them. Crazy. True definition of stan. Like, I know someone who quite literally went to this celeb's concert not once but THREE times. Fine no big deal, enjoy, I've been to a concert more than once just not in the same concert season lineup thing. Except they then begged for money because they had spent their money for rent and their BABY who is going through a growth spurt has no clothes that fit- this person even said they spent the money on the concert in the comments. Like what???? I've seen fans doxx people for having a differing opinion. Just not people I feel comfortable associating with

Normally idc im not involved whatever, just avoid them. The REASON it got brought up to my therapist, wasn't because I just randomly dislike this celeb. That isnt the reason.

The REASON it got brought up is because Spotify wrapped happened and I mentioned that I was uncomfortable because two people who severely fucked me up mentally (one was emotionally abusive and the other harassed and stalked me) had this artist in their top 5. Also My ex friend who ended up posting pictures of my house when she knew I had a stalker (I had moved snd they hadn't found this place until they posted) also had this artist in top 5. (And yes if was malicious, we had an argument and then they posted the outside of my house, sure they deleted the post later but the guy had already seen it as she had a public account and he followed some of my friends on fake accounts. We weren't friends after this)

I made the comment that they all had widely different tastes but all liked the same artist, and I made a joke that I should have known it was a red flag (we had spent the therapy session discussing signs i should have noticed in these people and ways they were alike which made me even think of the artist WHICH is why it was brought up).

And to be fair the reasons I listed of the people who have done things to me are probably why I dislike the celeb.

But my therapist actually called me stupid and wrong because apparently the artist was in THEIR top 5. Which, uh, okay my bad. Started going hard against me, even cursed at me So I again point out that in my mind it's linked to my abusers and people who betrayed my trust, and my therapist went "the majority isnt like that" to which I mentioned the rest of the points about things I've seen online. I guess I could have just apologized but she was coming at me and I was already on edge talking about everything, then they called me stupid and berating me...

Well I was uncomfortable then but i thought "hey, you did insult someone they obviously like, it's normal to be a lil defensive" and was like well we can move past. But no, quite literally this last session sealed the deal, because instead of talking about my trauma or anything, she made me listen to their albums. Which wtf??? Who does that irl?? Explained all the nuances and the theories and shit I DONT CARE about. I tried to tell them, but ok I also infodump on things I care about. Then they told me that my abusers must not be THAT bad because they have good taste. I walked out. Still got charged for the full session, and I filed a complaint. I dont see how they have their license????

I'm pissed rn haha and it actually had the opposite effect and has solidified that I do not like this artist in my mind. At. All.

Aww bestie that sucks 😭 first thank you for sharing! Second, this therapist is completely unprofessional. They shouldn’t have let their personal like of this artist affect how they’re treating you during the sessions YOU pay for.

And the fact that someone spent their rent money and their baby’s money…where’s the priorities, where’s the values, where’s the morals?

For me, I’ve also disliked a celebrity because of their fans and fandoms. Especially on twitter. I could write a whole thesis on how dysfunctional this fandom is on twitter 💀

There’s good and bad sides to all fandoms, I think in general we all have to find where we fit and surround ourselves with people who value us as much as we value them.

Anon, you have every right to like or not like something. That’s what makes friendships beautiful. I hope you’re able to find a therapist that can support you properly anon 🩷😭 some of these people get their license out a happy meal

[deepfriedseagullfeet]

I need a side job for an online shop but I can't afford a printer to make stickers or art posters what are your suggestions of other craft things I could learn?

I thought about pins but I'm not sure how they're made.

this ask actually came at a funny time cause i am closing my etsy shop until further notice cause im not really interested in selling rn haha, but!!! i do have some ideas for you!!

clay pins! these can be really fun to make and i think theyre still popular! theres a lot of tutorials on youtube on how to make them, but youre gonna need white clay and paint (or colored polymer clay if you dont want to paint them), pin backings (you can get these at any craft store) and something to seal them (you can use mod podge or polymer clay glaze for this!) theres a lot of fun designs you can make for these and theyre cheaper than making enamel pins

painted wood things! if you are artistic and can paint stuff, get some mini wood circles/hearts and paint a design, then superglue on a pin backing, then boom its a pin! this is an alternative to clay pins if you dont want to deal with clay haha. i can find small wood pieces at any craft store for cheap and i have too many of them lying around lol

go to any store that does printing and print stuff if you dont have a printer! for awhile before i got my printer i would order printed stuff from staples for cheap. id look into this if you have a lot of ideas for art prints or zines, theres a lot of options!!

if you have some cash to spare, look into stickerapp!! they print die-cut stickers and sticker sheets, and they havent failed me yet, all their stuff turns out good and they have options for different quantities of stickers.

you may want to look into digital products if youre tech savvy! on etsy you can make good passive income from digital items like downloadable prints, digital stickers, desktop icons, templates, etc. this is kinda a hard market to get into cause theres a lot of competition, but theres a lot of different things you can do with digital products.

going back to clay cause its the most affordable thing i feel, you can make trinket dishes, charms for jewelry, keychains, figurines, etc. people always seem to be interested in little things like that, and i feel like clay, especially polymer clay can be a fun rabbit hole to dive down with all the different tutorials and things you can do with it out there :) air dry clay stuff is great too!

resin can be touchy for some people cause it can be messy and toxic if you dont have good ventilation, but i used to make shaker charms with molds i got for like 2 bucks off etsy as well as jewelry! check out some tutorials for this one if you'd like to get into this world, it can be fun!

if you want to get into button pin making, id check out badge-a-minit! they were my first intro to pin making, and you can get a starter kit for like $30 i think?? the price may have changed but thats what i paid for like 3 years ago lol

do you know how to crochet?? crochet plushies and even digital patterns are still super popular!! its fun and relaxing too if you want to get into it

overall these are the first things that popped into my head when it comes to crafty things to sell, i hope it was somewhat helpful ;_; if you'd like to really dive into the world of products and marketing for artists, i highly recommend checking out kelsey rodriguez on youtube!! she has lots of good advice for artists and just recently came out with a video specifically for products that artists can sell!

[dr-gaytorius]

So like I go to an online program for mortuary sciences (the latter which you've probably all goeened bc I mention it pretty often bc I 💜 love it) bc the town my school is in sucks but it's the only school in my state that offers a MS program. But anyway - last semester I finished the last of my gen ed requirements and Im starting the first of my actual ma classes on the 21st and I'm really excited!

But my point RN is that I got my school books in a couple days ago and just opened the box tonight. There's so many even tho I'm only taking 3 classes (preemptively giving myself some time in hopes of getting this job w/pph) which is exciting, and they're all nicely bound, two are even hardback which I really love.

But one of the resources I had to get for my class was just labeled in the bookstore as a "science kit" lol so I'm sure you can imagine my shock when I opened a box and found 5 vacuum packed wet specimens in there lmfao oh my God. I was so worried bc the box had been sitting unopened for two days and I was like ??? OH Oh my God¿ hellow ????? What do I even do with these... Like... How do I store them lmfao?? But apparently vacuum sealed specimens have a shelf life of about a year so I can just keep them in a cool dry dark place until I need to break them out. But God. The panic.........,..................

[aetherive]

I MISSED YOU& THE SILLIES !!! good to hear good to hear highly recommend you pouring all of your genloss thoughts under this reply RN /nf but also /vgen I LOVE BOO MAN dont want him regularly just occasional silly times where im like ooo vod time B] but im not in the genloss loop just the silly gameplays IM GOOD TOOO THOUGH !! just trying to get back to being silly online !!! the people need to hear my crazy thoughts /silly - @unofficiallyswizzy

I LITERALLY HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT GENLOSS OH MY GOD

I primarily have thoughts about Aus now that I have my general thoughts on the show but. I'm so excited about what the team's going to have for us next??? I'm trying not to speculate on generation 2 since gen 1 completely subverted my expectations and I'm trying not to have a repeat of that LMAO but I am patiently waiting in my enclosure (<- surviving off of fanfiction)

I just think it's interesting like. The moral dilemma of the final decision. Like yeah that's MURDER but he would've suffered way more if he'd lived also that one post that goes "he doesn't know we killed him because we loved him" CONSTANTLY rotates in my brain every hour like wow this is an actual tragedy. this is a comedy-horror-tragedy his fate was sealed from the start (Tragedy enough that it made its own creator cry like. jesus)

Ranboo rabbit hole literally grabbed me by the throat and turned me into gl!Ranboo and y'know what. Fine I'll take it </2 /lh /silly

THATS GOOD!! I agree people need to hear your thoughts /silly

[juicywritinghoard]

emoji prompts

🥺you sleep with the stuffed animal I won you??

🤏 truly I am this close to kissing you or biting you and I haven't decided which

🥖 I would do anything to get you to bake me more bread, was that straight up mind control oh my god

🥚babe we cannot raise a dragon egg babe please we live in an apartment 

🧨stop asking me to do crimes with you I am falling in love too hard 

🏆okay I know the two of us are crazy stupid competive and are very close to getting kicked out for our bs but trying to beat you makes my blood pump like it never has before

🌮I'm the celebrity guest on your cooking show trying not to show the whole world I can't make anything more complicated than grilled cheese but I'd do anything to make you keep laughing

🎟did not actually expect to win the lottery with you and now we have to split the cash, but at least I can afford time off work now to run from your insane family that's after the money? 

🎈you're a single parent at this birthday party at my work and I cannot believe I have to keep up the shtick when I'd much rather be wooing you 

🩰we are rivals and I hate your guts stop being so pretty and kind about me getting the lead or I'm gonna have a feeling about it

🔌androids aren't supposed to have souls but we sure are falling in love like you have one 

📚you are my favorite author and you haven't published anything for so long can I help you please please please

🔎my life long dream of inspecting a murder mystery super might get me killed but like, worth it

📬penpals to lovers I'm willing it into existence I know you live so far away but I can't help falling ass over teakettle in love with you, I mean. you seal your letters and doodle and add washi tape how could I Not

🔒I broke into your car to impress you when you locked your keys in and now I have to construct an elaborate lie to explain myself 

🛏this mattress store is gonna kick us out. yep

👑stop kissing me so right I have to assassinate you

🗡four minutes after you, my sworn rival, tilted my chin up with your sword

🎻you keep asking if your practicing is bothering me but honestly I'm so swept away. play something for me. haha I mean freebird not a like, romantic song, that would be, wild

🎩your costume is stupid but just you wait until you see mine

🔇you haven't been online in two days would it be insane for me to drive to your place and make sure you haven't like, died. because I am omw

💍good morning will you marry me

🛒every little moment with you is a sweet adventure, even going to the grocery store, which I hate to bastard death

🥧 I am so sad but this pie you brought me is helping a little. let me get two spoons 

🎂am I the first person to wish you happy birthday today? it's so late :( I'm dropping everything rn let's celebrate you

🦖and don't get me started on jurassic Park as a concept if they had just had some ENRICHMENT, sorry, sorry, you don't need to listen to me go on. I know it's annoy- why are you looking at me like that

🦄so like. Magic is real huh. and you're magic? cool cool cool. I'm gonna be sooo normal about this just. just give me a sec

👽no you crashlanded your spaceship in my backyard I think I'm owed an explanation actually 

😻I'm so sorry my cat keeps escaping to go to your place, Beans is just obsessed with you. haha and who could blame him, honestly

❤️‍🔥may or may not be burning my exes things in the park and sobbing be cool maybe

[needs-to-stop-looking-at-yigas]

Idk why I want it, but. Mipha and Von??? Maybe something spicy?

Weird choice, but hey! Let's mix things up! I mean, I will lewd anyone if asked, so!

Von could behave himself. For the most part. That's what he was telling himself when he was helping Mipha out. Link was out of Hyrule, something about family or whatever, and Kohga, ever the sweet dude, wanted to make sure Mipha had someone to help out. So, Von was in charge of being at her beck and call. Though he was excited, he kinda realized he wasn't the best choice. Because as he was standing there, in her kitchen, he kept checking her out.

Not that it was his fault. She was a cute little lady. Small, sweet, like fresh cherries, and when you combine that with an ass like that, well, he definitely wanted to pop that cherry. But he recalled Kohga's words, vividly;

'If you don't behave yourself, I'm going to tie your dick to a sand seal, and let it fucking run off'

Yeah. Kohga REALLY cared for Mipha.

"Von? I hate to bother you- could you fetch the smoked paprika for me?"

"Sure, sure. The second you stop calling yourself a bother, that is."

She smiled a bit as she contuined her cooking.

"Apologies. I'm just not used to having a man to 'boss around' as Kohga put it. It feels so excessive, I don't expect Zora soldiers to be so ready for an order."

Von shrugged as he reached up to grab the spice she asked, bringing it to the table.

"Eh, you know Kohga. He just wants to make sure you're pampered. Like a sugar daddy, but without the sugar. So like. Splenda daddy I guess-you get my point."

She nodded, a bit of a giggle at her lips. Von didn't know why but...she always laughed at his jokes. No one really did that. He leaned over the counter, lightly bumping her with his hip.

"You like laughing at my jokes, don't ya?"

"You have great humor. My father always said great humor meant an even better heart."

Her eyes went to his chest, before her cheeks flared up, and she returned to her food. Was she just checking out his chest? Nah. Had to be just in his head. He pulled back a bit, realizing he was sort of making her uncomfortable.

"It's uh...good saying. Er, imma go hang out on your couch, come get me if you need me, yeah?"

She nodded, and he exited the kitchen. He hopped onto the sofa, and pulled out the slate. Message from Master Kohga.

'How is she doing? Is she missing Link?'

'If she does, she's not telling me. She seems fine rn, she's making dinner for us. I offered, but she's more stubborn than I thought'

'That's my girl. And YOU'RE behaving, right?'

'I'm being more of a gentleman than I've ever been. Hell, I took the groceries in for her, held open doors and shit- my mama would be proud to see me. If she wasn't blind'

'Just making sure. Glad I picked you for this, hate the idea of her being lonely. Keep me updated, if she looks like she needs ANYTHING, you tell me.'

'Got it boss, ttyl'

He was about to look through some random videos online, when Mipha cried out from the kitchen.

"Von! Dinner's ready!"

He got off the couch, and walked into the kitchen. She set the table up, real fancy looking. Von wasn't a picky eater, so anything she'd make would've been welcomed-

"Are those...pork cutlets?"

"Yes! Kohga told me they were your favorite, and I wanted to thank you for dealing-er, spending so much time with me. You've been kind."

"Huh. No wonder Kohga likes you so much. Well, thanks, I appreciate that."

Von sat at the table, and tucked in. Usually he had better table manners, but holy SHIT was this good pork. Mipha barely touched her food before Von started to pig out, and it clearly amused her.

"Oh, you eat just like Link does. He loves my food."

"I can see why- this is honestly SO good, he's lucky he gets to eat this all day."

"Oh I've never made pork cutlets before."

Von's surprise clearly amused her, and he was so surprised, he had to put his bowl down.

"This is your FIRST try? Ganon, you're a talented lady. Link is real lucky to have someone like you."

"That's very kind of you. Genuinely."

He nodded, before choosing to just shut up and eat. He finished his bowl so fast, he wanted to eat it all over again. She pushed a plate of vegetables towards him, nodding.

"Don't forget your vegetables, now."

"If you made it, I sure as shit won't-er, sorry. Don't tell Kohga I swore, he might beat my ass."

She chuckled as he practically destroyed those vegetables. They were seasoned perfectly, cooked till soft-he could eat this stuff like pigs could eat slop.

"I won't. Believe it or not Von, I'm not some innocent flower as many think. Oh, you got a mess on your shirt."

He looked down at his clothes, and realized he did in fact, drop something on his shirt, leaving a grease stain. He was about to grab a napkin, when she did it for him. As in, she put one hand on his chest, and using his other hand to dab at the spot.

"I'll throw your things in the wash. But you need to dab it first, lest the stain...sets."

Her eyes met his. She had such pretty eyes. Amber, much like her brother's, only softer. He hesitated, unsure of what to do, before she suddenly pulled away, suddenly looking stiff as a board, before she turned, digging into the fridge.

"H-hey, why don't we have some dessert? I got this recipe from Kohga!"

What was that. What the shit was happening? He shook his head. Maybe he was just imagining things. She came back with a rather pretty looking banana cream pie, and he watched as she licked a bit of whipped cream on her finger. She had such a cute little tongue. Not that he was paying attention, he had pie to eat.

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He didn't know when he woke up. He just knew that when he did, that there was a reason for it. He slept in the guest bedroom, while Mipha slept in her own. He got up, decided to just stick to his underwear and mask, and walked into the living room. It was dark. He tried to listen. There was...whimpering. It was slight, but it was there. He was slow as he walked to her bedroom, and opened the door. He wished he knocked. Why?

Because Mipha was currently in there, fucking a dildo that was stuck to the wall. She stood there, bouncing on it while one hand covered her mouth, and the other held onto the bed in front of her. He should be looking away, at least SAY something so she could stop. But he just sat there, watching. She looked good, cheeks all red, eyes all hazy, and her pussy leaking all over the toy.

He didn't even mean to start touching himself. He just. Did. He was stroking himself, just so fucking jealous of that toy fucking such a cute pussy.

"Just a little more, please, I'm so close, I'm so close-"

He wanted her to cum. He wanted to watch that face when she climaxed. But instead, he watched her face as she saw him there.

"VON-"

She was so surprised, she fell to the floor with a rather loud 'thud'. Kohga was gonna fucking kill him. He jumped into the room, and immediately dove down to see if she was okay, not noticing that he just pinned her underneath him.

"Oh no no- Mipha, are you okay? Are you hurt?"

Her eyes met his, and he felt her hot breath tickle his lips. She spoke not a word. She just looked at him, and wrapped her arm around his neck. He couldn't take it anymore. He picked her up off the floor, tossed her onto her bed, and grabbed her cute ankles. He pushed them till they were at the side of her head, and slipped his dick right inside of her.

"You're...m-much bigger than the toy-!"

She whimpered her words, and In a hot second, she was crying for him, practically worshipping him for every thrust inside of her. She was so small, he saw himself bulge inside of her, and he filled her up effortlessly. He buried his face in her neck, loving how she smelled like water lillies.

"You don't need some stupid toy. I'll fuck you. I'll fuck this cute little pussy, I'll stuff it full. You just ask, and I'll fucking give it to you."

She was so wet, she was soaking the sheets below them, she was so loud, he swore people outside could hear her fucking getting it. It was even hotter when she dug her claws right into his back, just the way he liked it. And her bashful nature...suddenly wasn't so bashful. Her small, delicate lips turned into a snarl full of sharp teeth, and her voice was damn near demanding.

"Harder. I want to be properly fucked, and be properly fucked NOW."

He'd be a shitty gentleman if he refused a request from his lady. So, he gave her harder. He gave her faster. He fucked her exactly like she deserved, and when she was close, he reached a hand down below, and rubbed her cute little clit. And he was right. Mipha looked SO cute when she came. Her toes curled, her eyes went hazy, and her pussy clenched around his cock, damn near squeezing the cum from him. How he held it in was a total miracle. He spoke somehow, through his panting and through his sweating.

"I-i didn't ask, should I c-cum inside or-"

She put her hand on his chest, pushing him off. He thought she was mad somehow, only to get on her knees, and wrap her small chest around his cock, pushing him back and forth. No fucking way. He was getting a tit job from a PRINCESS. And he got to finish, all over her face and her chest. He sat there, cock still twitching from his damn good orgasm, when he realized.

NOW Kohga was gonna fucking kill him.

[moonbinning]

Over the past couple of days, I’ve been thinking about how I want to word this and if I should even attempt to address it. I didn’t want to sound pedantic or accusatory—there’s a lot of information circulating rn because of the comeback, so I’m sure a lot of people simply weren’t aware of what was happening. But I think it still needs to be said.

Recently, there have been some comments made by MJ about his weight and eating habits. It’s come up in multiple interviews that he’s attempting to diet (as he diets in preparation for almost all of their comebacks), and the way he’s worded these things—as well as the way he talks about his body—is rather troubling.

I’ve suffered from body image issues and unhealthy eating practices for a long time. While working out and eating whole foods is good and fine, the methods many of these idols including MJ use (namely, yo-yo dieting and skipping multiple meals a day) is NOT healthy, and any weight loss they do have is not sustainable and forces stress responses from the body. In the long-term, it can lead to permanent issues with hormone regulation. There’s obviously a lot of outside pressure to look a certain way since he’s in the public eye, and that’s upsetting enough on its own. But what I have a real issue with is the way Moonbin has commented on MJ’s body.

The things he said in this article and this video (referencing his comments about MJ’s weight loss and MJ being “fat” like a seal) were frankly disturbing and uncalled for, especially since he said them in a public setting and because these interviews are permanent and can continually be accessed. 

And even though Bin’s comments have occurred more than once, no one really seems to be talking about it. I wasn’t even aware of it until someone in my immediate circle brought it up to me. Like I said, I don’t think we can be responsible for knowing everything. But when we do notice something, I think we should talk about it instead of sweeping it under the rug because we like the person in question and don’t want to paint them in a negative light.

I love Bin a lot. He’s one of my ults (if not my top ult), and I have no doubt in my heart that he truly loves MJ. I think all of the boys do. However, I was incredibly disappointed when I heard the interview—there is enough maliciousness from strangers online without having your friend make direct and public comments about your physical appearance. And just because someone you love messes up doesn’t mean that you have to excuse or ignore that behavior. I’m not saying he needs to be “cancelled” (because cancel culture is a farce and doesn’t allow the person in question to grow from their mistakes). But the fact that this keeps happening means something. And instead of staying quiet, ignoring it, making excuses for what he did, I think this is an opportunity to educate him on what he said and why it’s so hurtful. Not just for MJ, but for fans who struggle with body image issues and who put stock in what the boys say. 

[not-reagan]

we literally need to be friends rn

no literally i need this. also I HAVE FIGURED OUT IM AN IMPULSIVE BUYER !!! i’m sick rn and to pass the time i've been online shopping. i bought a little birthday present for one of my irls and then a ring mandrel and wax for sealing. and i was GOING to buy 3 kpop albums but kpop mart wasn't accepting my card 🙄🙄 i mean ig it's a good thing because it's $44 worth of albums and $40 of shipping but like i'm still pissed off

[a-dotrivenitupontop]

30 days of autism awareness

day 1- introduce yourself

hi. my name is ebony dark’ness dementia raven way anthony-riven and i use he/they pronouns. feel free to call me any variant of my name though (eg. riv, anthony/antony...). i am a demibi demiboy. i am a self-diagnosed autistic.

[why im self-diagnosed:

•people already suspect im autistic so really all i can do is wait for a proper diagnosis

•im afab so it’s really hard to get officially diagnosed

•i meet the criteria on the DSM and any ‘hey if you’re this than you might be autistic’ posts (by autistic people)

•i have a sort of connection(?) to neurodivergent people around me (eg. my brother, people from primary school, people online...)

•i relate to the song ‘ketchup’ from the musical ‘over and out’ so that pretty much seals the deal /j /hj

•and there’s probably more stuff like family history i don’t have time to list here!]

my special interests are the osemanverse, musical theatre and i recently had a short fixation on glee (tv show) and historical fashion. some of my older interests have been sketching (particularly eyes lol), jacqueline wilson’s books and peppa pig (you can tell im biritish haha). i may or may not be developing a special interest on the good place (tv show) but i still sometimes say fuck instead of fork so idk.. 🤔🤔🤔

this post is getting kinda long so *lightning round*!!

-i am a minor

-i sh

-high pitched, loud or sort of electric-y tinny sounds are my worst triggers for sensory overload

-i used to do modelling but quit because i was scared of trains

-im currently learning lines for a skit to perform at my theatre group (over zoom) and i get to play a half dragon prime minister who’s secretly a robot

-i still have my christmas tree up because i just Can’t Be Bothered to take it down

-my family probably has the record for most rides on ‘its a small world’ at disneyland /hyperbole(?). in just a one or two week trip we went on it 13-14 times /gen (i think it’s safe to say it’s my brothers special interest. he’s watching a video of it rn as i speak)

[boujeedolls]

rating the girls of the year (inspired by tiktok)

#18 they gave a white girl medium skin bc she has a “tan” lollll what. i dont know much about lea beyond that and her treehouse but when i opened her wikia page and read “1/8th brazilian” i was like close tab lollllllll just make a brazilian doll it’s ok!!!!!!!!

#17. grace was ok but definitely not my taste of person considering she can cook and romanticizes france and gets on a reality show ikufjfwefhuow remember that. and not the cool revolution france but like the macaroons and eiffel tower pandora bracelet after your holiday there tourist france. ag didnt use the ratatouille theme once in her movie

#16. i didn’t get too hype for blair but i feel like she is definitely gonna grow up to be a wine mom karen so i like her for that. also her hair, meet dress and of course....the overall and rainboot combo. she has a subscription to good housekeeping and she’s 10 i just know it. she has a pinterest board full of mason jars and is gonna name one of her kids mckaleigh

#15. saige was cute and love the southwest aesthetic but even as an artistic person i thought she was soooo annoyinggg in the fact that she acted like art class being taken away for a year was the end of the world. ik i sound like a boomer rn but saige you can just paint at home or in the fancy studio you have access to insert the kardashians kim there are people that are dying soundclip. (btw i think it was perfectly cool that they got funding for their school for arts education that’s fine and all but just her PRIVILEGE)

#14. i was obsessed with chrissa when she came out but like... not her. like the movie?? watched the trailor everyday and had the behind the scenes videos practically memorized. the friend dolls that were prettier than her doll. the outfits and most of all......the most chaotic ag product ever released....starburst. 2009. 

#13. mckenna was cool but she kind of scares me. i shant elaborate.

#12. you know what i haven’t read joss’s books at all but the fact that they brought back a surfing theme and finally have a cheerleader AND she has a canon disability makes her cool in my book.

#11. lindsey bergman was a sweet chicagoan jewish girl who just wanted to make people happy SHE DESERVES ALL THE HYPE 

#10. lanie was so adorable. like i really liked her camper even though it cost like a kidneys amount and i love her environmental theme and how truly passionate she was about it. the bunny on the leash is cute and she was the cutest illustrated girl imo also her sister playing the same thing over and over again until lanie lost it is so funny to me as a cello major 

#9. gabi was so interesting and DIDN’T DESERVE TO BE A RECYCLED DOLL!!!!!!!!! love that she was multifaceted and interested in many forms of expression whereas many times this line can get kind of one dimensional. love that we finally had representation for our speech impediment girls and oh yeah she’s still the only black contemporary character IN THE 19 YEARS SINCE AG DECIDED TO START MAKING 18 INCH CONTEMPORARY GIRLS. AND. THEY. REHASHED. A TRULY MEEEE!!! not her fault tho she’s a fictional character.

#8. isabelle was the only goty doll i owned but that’s not the point i mean i like her and her story and the ballet school thing but like....kinda rehashed marisol (i mean, they kinda had the right bc it was a new generation 9 years later and dance is a common interest) and her design was pretty boring but lovely nonetheless. she’s like the chocolate chip cookie of ag. like really plain but good.

#7. i honestly think kailey gets slept on i think she’s super pretty and an environmental queen and all around lovely 2003 hollister california surfer girl i miss when that was cool

#6 whoever thought of luciana deserves a raise someone really said “space girl with dyed hair” and everyone said mint SHE HAD A SPACE SHUTTLE SIMULATOR THING AND A WHOLE ASTRONAUT SUIT? the galaxy print? A STEM THEMEEEE FOR THE STEM GIRLSSSS

#5. kanani akina is like......the prettiest girl american girl ever thought of. like it’s almost unrealistic how gorgeous her doll and illustrations are. speaking of illustrations THE SEAL ONE??? REMEMBER THAT?? i had her in my hand and almost bought her once again gorgeous collection lives like a euphoric life IMAGINE living in a small kauai town and working at your family’s shave ice stand and coming home to your pet rooster goat and dog

#4. nicki fleming i adore her she is a beautiful and socially aware country girl who has trouble saying no i relate to her a lot and she grows so exponentially in her books, i would dare say even more than most of the other gotys. remember when she made cowboy hats look good.

#3. i genuinely love jess akiko mcconnell soooo fricken much our gorgeous girl getting kids interested in archaeology and halter tops her whole collection was amazing i really would’ve loved if they made more books of her traveling with her parents! 

#2. OUR LATINA QUEEN MARISOL LUNA she really was everything from her illustrations, her MEET OUTFIT her TRUNK her CAT her LITTLE MAZE GAME we love the west side chicago dancing queen she was everything no wonder ag decided to do goty every year after her ugh we stan

#1. and finally we have mia. iconic outfits. unique theme. amazing bedroom collection. humorous lawrence yep books. worked her way in custodial because money was tight, fun online games, once again need i remind you WE MET HER WHEN SHE RAN OVER THE BULLY WITH A ZAMBONI  

[yibuo]

Hey, I love your blog ❤️. Can I ask for Uniq full story? I've seen a bits of it online but it's such a mess I can't figure out what's truth. Have a nice day 😁

FUNNY how i received this ask when i was crying about wenhan’s baby angel voice in best friend just earlier

tldr if i ever meet du hua it’s on SIGHT

LOL okay idk if this is the FULL story i probably won’t include details and stuff because i didn’t closely follow uniq during their whole hiatus thing (i had the brainpower to stan one group at a time but now look at me TWO kpop groups AND i’m starting to follow a cpop group AND pd camp 2020 AND am constantly fuming at yibo and xiao zhan’s management agencies for ruining their idol groups )

pls correct me if i’m wrong im small brain ok i’m putting this in keep reading bc it’s too long and a ramble

tldr thanks yuehua for messing w/ 5 guys’ dreams.. even though they’re successful they’re not able to do what they originally wanted to

also there’s this legendary video dragging yuehua

also thank u for ur love sweetie i love u too xoxo i hope ur having a wonderful day/evening/night!

LOOL anyway so uniq is a korean-chinese boy group formed under yuehua ent which has korean and chinese management ... you probably know other kpop artists from yuehua like wjsn (co-managed by starship) or everglow... if you’re into cpop there’s next/next7...anyway they have 3 chinese members(yixuan, wenhan, and yibo) and 2 korean members (sungjoo and seungyoun) and they debuted in 2014 with falling in love, promoted btwn china and korea, released a couple of osts (for like, teenage mutant ninja turtles and madagascar lol lol lol) and then in 2015 they came back w/ eoeo (if you’re into kpop you probably know eoeo at least) it’s their most well-known song, and this comeback was w/ their first (and only lol lol) ep/mini album.

they started garnering a good amount of attention and started to appear on more variety shows in korea and china, started promoting in japan, they even went to brazil in a fanmeet that’s pretty cool lol , (but...why didn’t they solidify uniq’s position in kr/ch with their momentum instead of sending them to different countries??? we love money-minded yeehaw entertainment)

and then china’s hallyu ban happened (which is something that i never really understood and never took the time to fully research because it hurt my brain) but essentially chinese govt restricted k-entertainment from profitting in china because politics, for example a lot of kpop tours and fanmeets got cancelled. and this put uniq in a difficult position because they’re split between being based in china and korea, but eventually the ban got lessened (there’s still tension but like, there’s literally adore u playing in the camp of pd camp 2020 ep 2 so like lol) but yeehaw made NO efforts to maintain the group musically b/c they’re money-minded cows and if they split uniq up into a kr and a chinese unit they can’t make as much money as if they sent the members into acting.... (literally there’s an interview from a couple yrs back where xuan talks about how itd be nice to make music but it doesn’t make as much as acting does in china :-(( ) so while they still had events in japan, they didn’t do much together in their main bases, and acted a lot cool cool

one thing i never understood is why yuehua never just pushed them more in the kr market...there are so many groups in the k-industry w/ chinese members (i literally STAN one, my ULT is a chinese member in a kpop group what the HECK)...but making money right lol anyway so xuan, wenhan, and yibo went into acting in china (and yibo is an mc on day day up), and acting takes up sm time, (gonna quote my chinese friend here who’s a sad wjsn ot13 stan who misses cheng xiao, mmq, and wxy, once ur popular in china it’s goodbye kpop) and sungjoo went into acting in korea (if you’ve ever watched my secret terrius or the disaster that was liar and his lover w/ joy, sungjoo is in those lol) and seungyoun continued to produce and release music as woodz and luizy

but it’s sad because they all trained for so long to perform on the stage as 5 but yuehua’s shitty management in the hallyu ban crisis thing really screwed them over...in terms of being on the stage like come on! THEY HAVE TALENT.. ok in early 2018 they released an ep and in dec 2018 they released their single monster (last single together lol), but again, no group promotion, no being able to perform on the stage, no nothing (oh yeah also yibo was a dance mentor on produce 101 china in 2018 nice)

2019 was a good year for most of the members:

-wenhan went on qcyn (youth with you season 1, the second show in the idol producer franchise) and got 1st, debuting in unine which he’s currently a part of, and got to perform on the stage after years of not being able to, thanks yuehua

-yixuan went on all for one (another survival program from youku), also got 1st, and debuted in new storm

-yibo (as we all know) acted in the untamed and became ultra-popular for his well-roundedness

-seungyoun went on the 4th season/spinoff of produce 101 in kr called produce x 101 and got 5th place, debuting in x1, which later disbanded, THANKS MNET THAT’S ANOTHER STORY BUT anyway i don’t think seungyoun was rigged into place, does yuehua even care that much?? lmOA he was so loveable on px101 and i think the move perf rly sealed the deal for everyone

-sungjoo...was done dirty by yeehaw...he’s a MAIN VOCAL he has SOLo potential but yeehaw just put him in the dungeon thanks.. and he recently enlisted in the army not too long ago

oh also sungjoo, xuan, and yibo performed monster + eoeo together at yuehua’s 10 anniversary concert...seungyoun wasn’t there because of x1 and wenhan performed with unine

wow yeehaw really thought they deserved a 10th anniversaryy celebration LMFAO

***the members are still part of uniq though, survival shows are weird

anyway as we can see each member is talented in their own way and uniq is an unfortunate case of yuehua not knowing how to manage people lol but if you watch their shows you know that they’re genuine and tight-knit, and even though they might not be together rn, in their hearts they’re still a part of uniq (cue pics of their weibo usernames having uniq in them, cue wenhan spamming his dad’s video with “UNIQ IS STILL TOGETHER” when his dad talks about how uniq disbanded) and they haven’t forgotten their identity of being part of uniq even as they get older. their contracts expire in 2022 and w/ kim sungjoo in the army, who knows if they actually will make a comeback but this is why everyone hates yuehua and everyone misses uniq bye

again i know they’re successful individually, i know seungyoun’s able to produce his own music, yibo’s able to turn his hobbies into work, wenhan and yixuan are still able to perform on a stage, they came here for uniq and got separated w/o them ever wanting to

[fromthedeskofelizabeththird]

사랑해요

Sweet JuminV fluff because I’ve missed writing them and also why not! (Also tagging @jihyxnkim just because ;)

Also because I’m just a lil sick rn and need cheering up

JuminV | Mystic Messenger | Sweet, Gen, Fluff

~~~~~

“I love you.”

Jumin sighs, eyeing the suit hanging on his wardrobe door. He spent half an hour yesterday putting it together-matching his socks to his tie and ensuring the pinstripes on his shirt complement those on his jacket.

“I still have to work.”

His lover grumbles under his breath and drapes an arm over his chest.

“You don’t have to.”

“I have a meeting with my f-”

“He’ll understand.”

Jihyun is so much more demanding when he’s half asleep, which never ceases to surprise Jumin. While wide awake, Jihyun is more subtle in his gestures, from touching his fingertips when no one is looking, to resting his hand on Jumin’s leg when they’re alone. Now that he borders on the edge of rest, he grips onto him like a lifeline, stealing kisses any time their lips are close.

Jumin would love nothing more than to indulge him, and heaven knows they have this argument every morning, but the fact remains that he really does need to leave for the office and it’s only a matter of time before his cell phone rings and seals the matter for good.

“I have to present statistics to evidence the potential revenue of our latest project. We need to evidence profit margins before moving ahead, and time is very much of the essence.”

Jihyun stays silent and Jumin assumes he is pouting.

“I’m actually proud of the data we managed to put together,” he says. “I expected it to take far longer, since reports of privacy violations and breaches of personal information online have been so widespread lately. I half expected all of our survey requests to be refused, much less gain a decently sized focus group.”

Jihyun is still quiet and Jumin decides to truly drive the point home.

“In any case, if I do not present the data then we cannot draw any conclusions about a target audience. Without a target audience, we cannot produce a product line. Without a product line, we ca-”

He realises from the steady rise and fall of Jihyun’s chest that he is not pouting at all and the sleepiness in his earlier words was not for show. He fell asleep at some point during his explanation, though looks so angelic in sleep that Jumin cannot find it in himself to be offended about it.

He wonders if it is unfortunate or quite deliberate that Jihyun fell into such a deep sleep while draped across his body and pleading for him not to leave.

He stretches out his arm to his dresser and lifts up his cell phone, keeping the rest of his body perfectly still so as not to disturb his sleeping lover.

Assistant Kang answers after three rings, already in the office and fearing the worst. He whispers his apologies and creates clumsy excuses-conflicts on his schedule that Jaehee of all people will know don’t exist.

He sets the phone back down on the dresser and peers up at the ceiling, taking in the soft sounds of Jihyun’s breathing and growing pins and needles in the arm he clings to. 

Every morning they have this argument and every morning he loses, further convinced with each passing day that he is content to never be the winner.

He runs Jihyun’s words over and over in his head; words that sound out of place from anyone but him. He sounds them out on his own tongue, feeling them out as if he is learning a foreign language. He supposes that isn’t far off the mark; he has never before said this out loud-not to his mother or even Elizabeth the Third. The syllables are unfamiliar and he knows he sounds awkward, but strings them together aloud anyway, content in the knowledge that even Jihyun is not there to listen.

“ 사랑해요.”  

[mikan-neko]

name : Hannah nickname/s : Han, Hannie, Hoona/Hoon height : 5′4 nationality : British favourite fruit(s) : Oranges, lemons and mango favourite season : Autumn and Winter favourite scents :  Cinnamon, coffee and mint favourite animals : Deer, seals and puppers (specifically CORGIS) tea, coffee, hot cocoa : Coffee, I am partial to a mocha too average hours of sleep : I aim for 7 but its typically 5/6 when my blog was created : November 2012 This blog elderly heck random fact : I live in Australia now! G’day and that favourite food : Chocolate, oreos, bbq anything and pizza favourite t.v. shows : Ducktales (a woo ooo), Game of Thrones, One Piece, The Good Place, I cant think rn heh favourite movie : I don’t really have a favorite movie! My childhood faves were The Swan Princess and Oliver and Company if that helps????? favourite vine :  I don’t have a top vine I have 4 fav vines; LIPSTICK IN MY VALENTINO WHITE BAG? The one of that girl watching video of dudes kissing and crying “Don’t tell MOOOAAAAM”, “I SMELL LIKE BEEF”, “SHOOT ME.”, “Lookit, lookit, its fricken bats. I love halloween.” ALL LINKED ENJOY  sexuality : Straight pronouns : She favourite book series : I don’t read often but I just started Throne of Glass and it’s pretty good! favourite video game(s) : I clocked 902 hours on GTA Online last year. OUO;; favourite subject :  art & design guys or girls : girls?????? WAT THE QUESTION. last time I cried : I cried maybe a week or two ago. what I should be doing : Practice learner driver tests. favourite fandom : HONESTLY One Piece is the only fandom I’ve stayed in and it’s been 6 years so..! 

tagged by : I stole this from @sola-armis from dash!~ tagging : ALL YALL. 

[badbitchfiles]

Venting....

I feel so stuck rn.

The plan I had to get out of my low paying job & expand my income fell through, and then my backup plan fell through. My business is making single sales/month, which I'm very happy with bc everyone starts somewhere but baybee the bills are due now lol. Plus I've kind of stalled out on the other business; I have a shitload of stuff designed but it costs money to put it in motion and.....🥴

I'm trying to remind myself that pressure builds diamonds*(which is what I told myself to get through the last time I had a season like this) and that every valley leads to a peak—and it gets really bad right before the peak—but my GOD! How much longer before I hit the peak? This is like the third time I've been through something like this and I'm trying to make this the last mfing time bc this is GHETTO!!! The stress, the anxiety, the confusion, the directionless wandering is for the fucking birds!

I'm between seasons rn, I'm in the middle of a transformation (and headed into—if i haven't already started—my saturn return, not to mention the foolishness that comes with being in between eclipses) and let me tell you the in-between part is NOT fun; the part where the old shit no longer works but you don't know where to even start to develop new shit. And then you look around and everyone else is having fun & living life meanwhile you're in a boat with a hole in it & the flex seal is nowhere to be found 😭 I'm trying to remember that social media is an illusion and even with the rise of "getting paid to be yourself online", most things we see are very much staged, edited and all the other fake things. Part of me wants quick money but then I remember that nothing worthwhile comes quickly and then I'm like "well maybe I need to start losing a couple hours of sleep & put more effort into my businesses" but I know how I function when I'm sleep deprived (which is not at all) and I REFUSE to fall into hustle culture bc that'll lead me right back into the generational trauma that I'm trying to heal from

BUT THENNNNN I'm like "Okay what are you doing differently to ensure that the pattern doesn't repeat again?" And.....I lowkey don't have an answer lol. Yeah I'm writing in my day planner but then I'm not doing the things I write down. I'm not keeping on top of my habits so how am I going to ask for something different when I'm not doing anything to open myself up to something different? I'm spinning my wheels by trying to do too much at one time and I'm looking outside of myself for answers instead of looking within

That being said, here's what I've found out about myself:

One of the first things to be neglected when I'm stressed & burnt out is myself (skincare, meditation, diet, etc)

I run to social media (namely Twitter & tiktok astrologers/tarot readers) for answers instead of looking within & fostering my relationship with my own tarot cards and guides. I've been feeling called to go back to my tarot cards recently too

I've learned that what works for most people probably won't work for me. Idk what it is but my path is to literally go as far away from the cleared path as possible. It's very difficult especially when you're the only one in the family deviating but 🤷🏾‍♀️

I lack patience (wbk it's definitely a fire & air ruled thing lol). It's very hard for me to develop a habit bc I expect immediate results—with the exception of going to the gym bc I genuinely enjoyed that like an alien lmao. I also overthink, get discouraged & talk myself out of changes before I begin bc I focus on the mountain in front of me instead of the stairs that will get me up the mountain in small, incremental steps. Also the best part of doing something is the things you learn along the way and I'm missing out on that

I'll do a separate post on what I want in life rn bc that's been weighing heavily on my mind too

*diamonds are basically worthless & the "value" they do have is through man-made price gouging)