#no one is safe from the gayness

[s4pphicb1mb0]

Begging for hcs on how Sevika, Vi, and Ambessa go about flirting/courting fem!reader if they don’t know if the readers gay or not 🙏🥹

She loves me not? - Arcane muscle mommies

Warnings: sexual implications, slightly mean Ambessa (tell me if you find others idk I'm done)

MEN AND MINORS DNI!

Vi:

-She's super careful with her flirting 

“Um what are your- um…..do you support the lgbtq community?” and when you say “Duh obviously” she'll be SO confused 

Did you mean ‘Duh, obviously, why wouldn't I support them because I'm such a kind person’ or ‘Duh, obviously, because I'm gay, too’

Just to be safe, she goes with the former. 

she'll recommend you queer artists and ask you your “opinion” and you again, give a vague answer like “yeah super cool i liked them” 

Poor Vi is stressed out.

Then, vi makes the biggest move ever on you

She's done dancing around

No fr like she's DONE

She's about to make such an obvious move in the history of gayness

“Hey, you look pretty today,” she says, not making eye contact because DUH calling someone pretty makes it so obvious that you like them! /s

“Aw, thanks vi.”

She's exhausted at this point.

Why won't you get her signals? :(

One day she invites you over for movie night. She of course had a lesbian flag hanging on her ceiling.

You see it and comment on it

“Oh, I actually have a similar/ (your identity) flag in my room too!”

She's dumbfounded 

Do you have a flag to show your support or as if to say “I'm gay too”

“You mean like, as an ally?” she asks. Sigh. stupid silly vi

“Why would I have it as an ally? I'm gay too,” and that makes Vi’s heart skyrocket out the ceiling 

She's so happy she could almost kiss you

She moves closer and cups your face and stares at you, waiting for a green light

You give a slight nod

and she gives you the softest peck ever and giggles

She makes up scenarios about the ways she’ll “rizz” you up and makes you blush.

But you make her blush by complimenting her gym progress.

Sevika

She gets touchy with you and loves it when you touch her muscles.

She doesn't need to know you're gay or straight. Your actions will tell her enough.

She’ll touch you discreetly. Enough to make it look unintentional, but also not subtle enough

She’ll act protective over you, especially in bars or crowded places.

She’ll practically act like your girlfriend, and you don't mind it either, and Sevika knows.

You both never had to confess. It just happened. You both were at the bar. Sevika was playing a round of poker with her friends and you were on her lap.

Her friends asked her, “Is she your girlfriend or somethin’?” he asks Sevika.

She looks at you, and you look at her. And there's a softness in her eyes and you could read her so well.

You gave her a slow nod, and she turned to her friends and confirmed that you both are official.

Ambessa

You are Mel's college friend. She's seen you for a couple years. She's no fool. Ambessa can see whats going on.

Her way of flirting is bullying you.

             She asks you to help her out with some menial stuff.

“Get me that paper”

“Hold this pot for me”

Despite that, you make excuses to stay longer around her or just linger around.

She hates people who linger.

She will corner you when mel’s not around

And

“Do you wish to say something, girl? Speak up,” she demands your words. You open your mouth without meaning to, but no words come out.

She'll come closer, gently hold you, but her eyes seem so dangerous.

Ambessa had her suspicions about you and Mel being a thing, but with how you act around her, maybe you do have a thing for the wrong Medarda.

She'll release her grip on you and walk away. For the next few times, she distances herself from you, which makes you sad. Now, Ambessa is a woman who gets what she wants. She makes you confront her.

You confront her, being all whiny and needy. Then she taunts you on your neediness (why wouldn't she) before finally taking care of you. But the taunts never really stop. She'll always discreetly find a way to touch you, even when Mel is around.

Grayson

She's such a gentlewoman.

She doesn't need to know if you're gay or straight; this is just how she treats every woman.

Opens car doors, pulls out chairs, says “ladies first,” and just loves to treat you with chivalry. 

You are a Piltovian commoner, and you caught her eye.

Whenever you come across her, she asks if there's someplace you want to be dropped to or picked up from. She'll make polite conversation and move on with her day.

Her sweet gestures make you swoon.

Eventually, one day, she asks you out to dinner. You of course accept.

She picks you up from your place sharp at the time you both decided on. She rings your doorbell, walks you to the car, and opens the door for you.

Upon arriving at the restaurant, she pulls out a chair for you. The waiter arrives, and she lets you order first. It's just a perfect, perfect date night.

Then, she gently holds your hand and kisses your knuckles. (If you somehow were straight, you aren't anymore after all this.)

She asks you

“My dear, are you perhaps interested in women”? You say yes and tell her your sexuality. 

“Well, I'm delighted to know that. But would you be interested in going out with me?

Who could ever deny such a sweet woman?

tags : @sevikalover824

Divider by: @nicodefresas

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[hexhomos]

Maybe I’m that one oomf that’s too woke, but I have a feeling that people being weird about jayvik is a sign of Bad Things on the rise =/ I’m old as balls and I’ve been in fandom spaces since late 2000s, and I’ve never seen people act so hostile towards a fanon mlm ship. I mean precisely in women and queer dominated fandom spaces, dudebros never change, whatever. And of course there were always ship wars. But I don’t think I’ve ever seen people act so oppressed over being into het ships, crash out over their ships not being endgame and demand from fandom content creators to accommodate them. What is happening.

I think this started happening around 2023~ to be more precise bc that's when i started getting weird ass entitled comments on OTHER gay ships. IMHO the real issue here is that we are going through fandom clash with a newgen that did not experience early internet and they take the gayness in fandom spaces completely for granted. As in, they think these little niche holes we've built are the de facto 'effortless norm' and minimize the work that's been done to create these safe spaces. This is the kind of rhetoric i keep seeing pop up:

Many of them have also grown up almost exclusively interacting with art created by old fandom graduates where queerness is presented casually. They're not watching shit from the 90's or 00's. They're not adults, so they don't have a personal contrast experience seeing that 'rep' dwindling consistently over the years. They don't remember a time before this and don't know how bad it was.

OFC there are always old ass conservative weirdos riding on this wave to be even more annoying (certain infamous viktor stan accs... lol!) but #backtotradition rightwing bullshit has been on the rise worldwide, and so are the viral tiktok tradwife alphamale detransition white supremacy grifters. Its a larger cultural problem feeding into the micro stuff we see daily and it's terrible. It's also why I tune this shit out and I stand my ground. I'll draw what I WANT to draw and I'm not going to be twisting myself into pretzel shapes to appeal to anyone and everyone; go get YOUR shit elsewhere!

I *do* think people have been getting way more entitled towards fanworks, and that comes with a heightened level of apathy. You can notice this on the decreased number and quality of feedback across twitter, as an example (seeing as that place has been consumed by the conservative grifter wave) but it's also been reported by every fic writer who's consistently used AO3 for years. Tags on tumblr aren't as widely used. The focus on 'community' has been replaced by 'DOES THIS MAXIMIZE ENGAGEMENT?'. I know from personal experience that there is this one specific asshole who, for almost a year now, has been trawling the trans viktor tag and leaving insanely long transphobic critique comments on works of newer writers to discourage them from writing. (They are always on the cusp of open violent transphobia, but shittily cloaked as 'debates' on ~natural biology~ and fantasy logic so they don't get banned. If you've seen the ao3 pfp of a smirking white haired woman before you know who im talking about.)

Things have been Bad and on the Rise for a while now. Look at the current shit on the news. Look at the presidencies around the world. And it's going to get worse before it gets better, because it always does; that's what forces people to wake up. Be annoying. Be watchful. Don't waste your time platforming or debating weirdos that should be left to die on obscurity - this is how trump got a memeable platform, and look at where we are now. Protect your peace.

[ardentpoop]

on the topic of “homosexism” / “text is so misogynistic it [supposedly] becomes gay”

I want people to examine why they feel comfortable ascribing queerness to narratives so viciously misogynistic that even casual readers can’t really discuss the Accidental Gayness without ruefully nodding to the misogyny. it boggles the mind a bit that large chunks of a show like supernatural’s audience can possibly earnestly describe it as “a gay show” when it has always been and will always be a show with a conservative-white-american ethos primarily centered on “preserving the family” (what kind of family specifically?) and “protecting the country” (again you should ask: from who?)

granted this was also a show that was constantly updating itself based on the whims of its loudest fans, and given e.g. the frequent misogynistic fan backlash to any serious attempts to deviate from The Basic Formular (show spotlighting conventionally attractive shippable white men where women are only ever nonthreatening props at best and permissibly violated Demon Bitches at worst) it grew more rather than less conservative as the years went on and kowtowing to audience pressures became more and more of a necessity to extend the show’s lifespan. you will frequently see claims to the contrary from normie fans - notably, the very same D/C shippers who made it so that female love interests for dean became a complete nonstarter in the later years - who see the show’s eventual superficial attempts to incorporate more underdeveloped female characters, or even queer side characters that the fandom at large ironically barely notices (s12’s max banes might have been appreciated more for his atypical role if he wasn’t portrayed by a black man) - and insist that the show successfully Evolved With The Times. I couldn’t disagree more. rowena is one of the show’s most prominent female characters overall, and look at the key features of her characterization. look at mary’s. look at why charlie was a fandom-favorite female character compared to how fans received jo or ruby 1.0 or anna or amelia or amara.

my main point here is that the text is not “so misogynistic it becomes gay” - from the very beginning it valued relationships between male characters over relationships between men and women. those are the superior relationships because it is the men who represent the Ideal Hunter/Soldier/Protector, and the women they might become romantically entangled with are just that: romanceable distractions from the mission. “weak spots.” or they are innocent little girls who need to be taught not to distract from the mission. or they are evil seductresses and tramps who need to turn good or die. there is no change occurring here, unless you’re referring to safely-ambiguous fanservice scenes included to sate the shippers, who as the years went on became more of a demographic worth catering to for the sake of the numbers.

“becomes gay” is something you can say about how certain groups of fans engage with stories like this, but in terms of the source material the misogyny is a much much more foundational ingredient than any debatable element of queerness that arose specifically in response to fan interest. you can see this, by the way, in how supernatural jokingly insults both sides of its own slash fic community throughout the years. the misogyny is a crucial component of the show’s world and touches all of its characters in some way. the “gayness” is a punchline.

[ingydar-phan]

I think people are misinterpreting my stance on dangender. So let me say more, I guess.

- I am not indirecting anybody. This is a wide topic with varying ideas in it. My stances aren’t about the participants, they’re about the topic itself.

- I do not think having this stance is inherently harmful, transphobic, or unethical. I think some aspects can be rooted in harmful things but believing in dangender doesn’t make someone a bad person.

- My issue isn’t about boundaries themselves or crossing lines DNP have set. I know some people agreeing with me are making it about that, but that’s not what it’s about for me. I am super icked out by people who think they’re doing some sort of holy work by “protecting” their “innocent blorbos” or whatever from other peoples opinions/speculation. I’m not trying to be like “how dare you! If he saw this his feelings would be hurt!”. In fact, I think if Dan were to see dangender posts, he’d probably giggle, tilt his head, and be like “hmm yea ok I see what you’re saying!”. Im not trying to decipher what lines DNP have laid out themselves about what’s ok and what’s too much. Nobody can do that accurately besides DNP themselves, and this is a fandom space, so that’s not what I’m worried about, even though people seem to think it is.

I think it is absolutely true that having queer people in the phandom pre-BIG discussing DNPs relationship and queerness was a huge part of empowering Dan to come out. He’s said it in BIG, he said it in TIT, he’s said it a lot. Their community being nosy gays is how he found the space to come out. I know this. I affirm and agree with this.

My issue is there’s a difference between laying ground for mind-opening, and acting like there’s a confirmed secret being hidden from us when it comes to Dans gender. So, the difference between thinking “maybe if Dan really dug into what his gender could be, knowing it’s a safe space, he may come out with an idea of something more complex than cis” and thinking “he is for a fact trans/enby and already knows this, he’s just hiding it, and trying to hint it at everyone through these secret codes.”

All the jokes about phyuri and DNP looking like lesbians, the calling Dan “she” or “wife”, wanting DNP to watch I Saw The TV Glow, transmascs seeing themselves in Dan, that IS the community opening our arms and saying to be free to feel however you want to feel and express yourself however you desire. That’s so beautiful.

Collecting evidence that you surely know better than Dan himself that he’s actually secretly trans and hiding it is just, different, and is what makes me uncomfortable.

Lest we not forget that gender and sexuality, that queerness as a whole, are intertwined. A young confused traumatized Dan feeling urges to express femininity is just queerness itself, not specifically transness. Queer men are often inherently viewed as feminine, and going outside of strict gender expectations is a part of gayness for many gay men. Feeling like you’re different from your peers, like you want to express yourself outside of the norm, is tied into all forms of queerness. Dan is gay: he knows he’s gay, he’s worked hard to call himself gay. Gayness is queerness, and queerness is unique expression. His complex feelings about non-masculine expression tie into his gayness because he is a queer man. Him having those complex feeling about expression and self image do not mean he’s trans. They mean he’s queer period. What type of queer is up to him; and clearly the expression and label of queerness that he finds most accurate to himself is gay man. You can be a cis gay person and still have your queerness attach to your gender without it making you trans.

May he one day in the future find that that complex expression of queerness goes into his gender to the extent of transness? Maybe! I don’t know! Would I support him? Of course! Would I look back regretfully? No! I’m not attempting to prevent anyone from building a welcoming space. I just don’t like this assertion of specific labels and the idea that you know better than him. That is it.

[thewisewill80sbyers]

Rating 5 moments in the show that make me believe in Byler because I'm bored lol

At number 5 is when during the "love" monologue, and in particular during the most important part of it, Will is framed directly behind Mike and not even blurred out - why are the writers sabotaging their own "main couple"? Why use Will's lie and input to even make this moment happen in the first place, why put the whole monologue in a moment when so much CHAOS and sorrow is happening to basically all the characters and one of our favourite characters who is also Eleven's best friend is literally DYING at the same time? it would have been more merciful and hurt them less as a couple to take them in a field blindfolded and shoot them in the head

At number 4 is the whole bedroom scene where they are sooooo sickly flirty and Mike admits that he now sees Will as separated by his other friends, that they have a relationship that is somehow different from what he feels for his other friends... This is a change that happened for him from season 1 where he said explicitly that he thought of them all as the same, now Will is othered and instead of being in that category he's put in the same one El is to the point he feels like he almost lost him and desperately wants their relationship to be restored to how good it felt when they were best friends

At number 3 a classic, the crazy together scene where they support each other and make the other feel loved and safe, and where the writers told us they will become a couple eventually and go "crazy together" 😉

At number 2 I want to put this scene in the finale of season 3 that has no reason to exist unless Mike has feelings for Will, it's a WEIRD focus on their relationship specifically because he's looking back at Will's house, while in the background we hear all about how Mike is afraid of things changing around him... Right after he looked at Will all smitten in the "not possible" scene.... If Mike has zero feelings for Will this shot is completely useless we already had a scene where we see him be sad when they leave - oh and right after this moment it's IMMEDIATELY connected to Will showing him crying in the car - Will is sad because he loves Mike, Mike was doing exactly the same thing Will is. They are feeling the same thing.

Andddd at number 1 I'm gonna put the reason I started to see the gayness happening in front of my eyes and I raised my 🏳️‍🌈 ??? mental flag!

The hug at the airport!? why would they write MIKE being the one that's weird with Will if Mike didn't have any feelings for Will? That's just extremely confusing for the audience, if their goal was to signal to people that only Will had feelings for Mike then WILL would have been the one acting weird with Mike, and Mike would have been worried about this and trying to understand what was going on with Will...

but NO!!!! we got MIKE doing the "awkward hug because I'm definitely not in love with you ah ah" in denial™ trope.

[lilgarbitch]

Nick Folio Alphabet Head-canons

Thot Tags: @theanarchymuse95 @dontwantthemoney @badomensgoodomens @blade-dressed-in-red @alwaysfightforwhoyouare @thatchickwiththecamera @tosoundlessdarkistare @lacy1986 @follow-me-down-to-wonderland @death-ofpeace-ofmind @fadingangelwisp @heyyoplayer @super-btstrash-posts @chey-h @bluehairpunklol @geminigirlfromfinland @lovesick-evangelist

(If you don’t want to be tagged in headcanons lmk)

18+ ! MDNI below the cut.

A- Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

An absolute sweetheart. Even while he’s still panting, sweat dripping down his face, he’s kissing you and telling you how much he loves you. He’ll hold you close until you’re ready to move and then follows you to the bathroom to make sure you’re okay, even if you’re completely fine. But Folio likes going hard, so you learned quickly that there’s no privacy between you two as he makes sure he didn’t hurt you, having accidentally made you bleed once or twice without either of you realizing.

B- Body Part (Their favorite body part of their partner)

Ass. Everything about it. It’s where his hands land every time he’s hugging you. If you’re lying down, he’s kneading it like a stress ball. And his favorite part is where your ass meets your thighs. The fold of the fat causing his eyes to follow it until it meets between your legs. He’s instantly hard every time it catches his attention. He’ll be grabbing your ass, letting his thumbs fall into the crease and dragging them along until they meet between your thighs, rubbing his fingers against you.

C- Cum (Anything to do with cum)

This man goes absolutely feral at the thought of cumming inside you. He doesn’t always do it, and when he does, he makes sure to be safe about it, but just the thought of spilling deep inside you has his head spinning.

D- Dirty Secret (Hidden kinks and fantasies)

He’s terrified to bring it up, but the thought of being called Daddy would probably make him pass out with how fast it’d turn him on. It’s just the perfect mix of lewd dominance.

E- Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s never been the type to sleep around, despite it fitting with his love for partying and socializing, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t skilled. He’s not a guy who likes to half ass anything. If he has an interest, he does research on it, so he’s definitely knowledgeable on how to make a girl feel good.

F- Favorite position (Self explanatory)

Mating press 100%. Being able to see your face as he pumps deep inside of you will always be his favorite. Being able to glance down and have where your bodies connect, him completely filling you, on display for both of you just drives him insane. And he knows you love it, too.

G- Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment or are they willing to joke around with their partner?)

The two of you are giggling the entire time. Laugh filled kisses and tripping over each other as you tear your clothes off one another. Up until the moment all the two of you can do is moan, it’s all smiles and chuckles.

H- Hair (How well groomed are they?)

Routinely trims. With constantly using his legs on the drums, both clean shaves and long hair don’t mix with the movements.

I- Intimacy (How romantic can they be in the moment?)

An absolute cheeseball leading up to it. Nothing is ever too serious when it comes to showing you his appreciation for you, so there’s no candles or rose petals or Marvin Gaye playing in the background, but he absolutely fucking adores you and will let you know every way he can.

J- Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Truthfully, he doesn’t do it much unless he’s away from you. Even on nights where you don’t want to do anything and he’s turned on, he’s happy to just cuddle for the night. (Except he’s very convincing, so after having his hands on you, the need for you in every move he makes, how he holds you and how he grips at your waist or presses against you, you happily change your mind) But on the nights when he is away, he has a whole private folder just of you. Of pictures of outfits you’ve sent him. Little teases you send as surprises. Even a video or two, either of him pounding into you or of you looking absolutely gorgeous blowing him.

K- Kink (One or more they’re open about)

Fully convinced he has a breeding kink. (Heavily related to needing to cum inside you, heavily unrelated to the Daddy kink) Not to the point where he truly fantasizes about making you pregnant, but just knowing he has the power to. The risk of it all, too. That moments leading up to and the moment when he spills inside you, his mind turns animalistic, bouncing between the thoughts of the gamble of it all and the pure primal need.

L- Location (Favorite places to fuck)

If you asked him, he’d never decide on an answer. Because the bedroom isn’t as fun as a quickie in an empty bathroom. But doing it in public takes his mind off of you because he’s always paying attention to his surroundings, making sure no one sees you. A backseat of a car fuck is great, but there’s no room to change position. Everything has pros and cons. Eventually, he’d just say that he has to try every surface of every room to help him decide.

M- Motivation (What turns them on/ gets them going?)

What doesn’t turn him on when you’re around? Not to the point of him constantly trying to make a move or only ever focusing on sex, but just having you near him sparks a match inside his body. It’s never anything specific that you do, either. You simply exist and he wants you. He wants you as close to him as possible. To feel the energy that your presence gives him.

N- No (Turn offs)

Basics. Not into bodily fluids other than squirting. Definitely into the idea of being rough with you, and if something turns you on, he can quickly get behind it, too, but it still reaches a point. Wouldn’t purposely hurt you too bad.

O- Oral (Preference on giving/receiving, skill, etc.)

I’ll keep repeating it, he is one dedicated mfer. He learns his skills, he has focus, and could probably go for hours. He aims to please and more than anything, needs to hear you, both for his ego and because he just wants you enjoying every second of it. With receiving, he’s more than happy. Unless it’s an offered quick bj, he probably won’t let himself get off, pulling you off so you two could finish together, but the sight of you going down on him is something he wishes he could stare at for days. The feel of your mouth around him has his mind spinning in seconds. Definitely the easiest way to make him vocal, too.

P- Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual?)

90% of the time, fast and rough. But it never takes away from sensuality of it all. He doesn’t need to go slow to get you to really feel the love and adoration he’s putting into it. The effort and care is still there, despite the fact that your mind is most of the time too numb to even witness it. You still feel it. The way he holds you. How he speaks to you. Especially the way he looks at you and reacts to you.

Q- Quickie (Their preference on quickies, how often, etc.)

If the two of you have even the sliver of a chance of sneaking away without being caught, you’re having a quickie. Something about slipping away from the group and finding a small quiet place for a few minutes gets both of you worked up. And people have caught on. Anytime someone notices that the two of you are both missing at the same time, they know what’s most likely happening. But they can’t even be mad. There’s never evidence, you’re barely gone for 5, maybe 10 minutes, and you come back like nothing happened. Besides the wide grin on his face, possible knotted hair, and the fact that you’re squeezing your thighs together, no one would ever be able to tell.

R- Risk (Are they down to experiment with their partner? Do they take risks?)

It’s Nick Folio. That man would eat a live bug for 5 bucks. If there’s something you want to do, he’s willing to do anything. And once he’s comfortable with you, he really means anything.

S- Stamina (How many rounds can they go? How long do they last?)

He’s a drummer. Have you seen how fit he is? He uses his arms and legs nonstop for an hour while on stage. When practicing or playing for fun, he can go for even longer. Between the stamina and focus he holds, you’re already so long gone by the time he’s done with you that you didn’t even try to count how many “rounds” he went. And on nights where he’s extra worked up and desperate for you, not lasting very long, he simply has you cumming over and over again until he’s ready to go again.

T- Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On just their partner or on themselves, too?)

A chance to pleasure you more? Sign him the fuck up. If he sees something online that he wants you to try out, he immediately buys it. You now have a collection for him to use on you and for you to use when you’re alone. And he is anything but opposed to having you use one on him. Once, while seeing just how good you looked like you felt as he held a vibrator to you while fucking you, he had the idea of you using it on him. And the next day, he had a vibrating cock ring in his cart.

U- Unfair (How much of a tease are they?) 

If he’s in a playful mood, he’s absolutely going to tease you. Whispering things in your ear, preparing you for when you get home. Wrapping his arms around you and giving you his signature ass squeeze, letting his hands wander if you’re out of sight from others, but then leaving after a quick peck and a small chuckle. But he only does it because you do, too. And when you tease him, it’s so much worse, so it’s only fair he gets back at you eventually.

V- Volume (How loud are they? What sounds do they make?)

Sounds aren’t always guaranteed, but boy, is he vocal. He’s talking you through it every step of the way. He never feels embarrassed to ask questions. He’s always encouraging you to make noise (unless it’s a quickie) so he knows just how good he’s making you feel. Oh, but when he is making sounds; when you’re making him feel so fucking good, you want nothing more than to make him louder. The choked groans and the soft grunts. The shuttered breath every time he slides into you. When you’re in control, either on top or sucking him off, and he’s getting close, the most beautiful whimper leaves his lips. It’s like his mind is barely working enough to let him breathe, but a dragged out whine still escapes.

W- Wild Card (Random headcanon I have)

He loves dry humping. Those sloppy make out sessions where he’s grabbing at you, pulling you onto his lap and rocking your hips against his. Where neither of you know which to focus on more: the kiss or the movement. Every time a kiss gets a little too heated, it’s almost impossible to stop him. He needs to feel your body against his more than he needs air. Even better if you’re on a couch or bed and he can gently lay you down, holding you tight as he leans between your legs, and start grinding against you without even realizing.

X- X-Ray (What’s happening under those clothes?)

Average/ possibly above average. But ever since I heard the term “Thick Dick Nick” a few months ago, it’s all I can think about. The girth is what you love about it. How he fills you, hitting every spot. The stretch. The struggle when you give him head. How your fingers just barely touch when you hold him.

Y- Yearning (How high is their sex drive? How badly do they need their partner when they’re turned on?)

You and only you: that’s all that’s on his mind most days. It’s not that he has a high sex drive, it’s just that you do it to him. The thought of you. The sight of you. The sound of you. You. And when his mind is set on you, god, he needs you so bad.

Z- Zzz (How quickly do they fall asleep after)

Quickies seem to give him more energy, like a quick refresher before going about his day. But for nights where it’s just the two of you alone at home, once you’re both cleaned up and comfortable, he’s out like a light. That man goes way too hard when he’s enthusiastic about something. He doesn’t even realize how tired he is until his heart rate finally slows again and he’s already snoring away.

[nanami-is-nanamean]

Hi. I have seen a nerdjo fanart and went a little insane.

I specifically saw this art--

and like LJKHFGLKJSHLDFKhGKLSD i know its satosugu or some kind of self insert bUT HEAR ME OUT OKAY--

the thought of a nerdjo nanago where GOJO is the straightlaced person in the relationship while NANAMI is the "bad influence" rough and tough bad guy iS SO GOOD TO MEEEEEEE

BECAUSE LIKE--

we all collectively hc nanami as being some kind of emo punk in hs or at the very least got into some bullshit during his uni/college years when he got out of juju tech and this is just its Natural Conclusion OKAY-- IM NOT INSANE BUT I WILL ADMIT THAT I AM GOING FERAL

Because like-- imagine a college au where gojo and nanami are assigned to be each others tutors in their respective fields (gojo with physics and nanami in economics). Gojo is painting this picture of a mean, money focused economics student that would rather look at the stock market than entertain theoretical physics, a subject that wont really affect his life before meeting him

But then they actually meet each other for their study session for the first time and oh god gojos never felt this gay before-- other than the time that gojo discovered he was gay, dear LORD he didnt feel that bad before KJLGSDGDL

Because while yeah, nanami did show up rockin the stereotypical hoity toity econ student fit-- glasses, collared shirt, watch, shined shoes-- he didnt expect him to be built like a brick shithouse, okay. And even as he fell back on his tried and true method of getting back into focus (which is breaking things down using physics to figure out how they interact with the world), even that failed because he started wondering about the physics of fabrics and how they didnt rip yet from such huge rippling muscles

He does manage to get through the tutoring lesson safely and, thank god it was the physics lesson first because if he had to sit there listening to nanamis voice talk about literally anything for extended periods of time, he may turn into a puddle. As gojo packs up, both his materials and his thoughts that are steering WILDLY into inappropriate territory, he resigns himself into being the fushiguros babysitter for the next 3 weeks because cleaning up baby diapers are the fastest way to get rid of a boner and he cant be popping those everytime hes around nanami

So imagine gojos surprise when nanami hesitates a bit before he leaves. "Are you busy tonight?" "...what?" "Are you busy tonight." "Uhm..."

Is this it? Is his 1 to 2 hour long crush discovered? Is nanami actually straight, found out his gayness, and decided to destroy him????

"...I noticed you didn't have anything down on your planner. A friend of mine got sick, so now im kind of going alone to this concert." "...Oh! Aren't you gonna--" "Sell the ticket? No, its... not really a concert, its an underground diy venue. its more live music in a bar, than an actual concert you buy tickets to. you get to find a lot of small starting artists. its pretty good." "...so youre saying is, there's no ticket to sell?"

gojo's breath hitches, as his deep chuckle graces his ears. "yeah, no tickets." his face is warm, and he has no idea if it shows. nanamis eyes tear themselves away from wherever they roamed and met his again. "you wanna come?" "y-yeah! yeah sure, im down."

he really fumbled the delivery on that one, but thank god nanami seems to like clumsy people because that just widened the small smile on his face. "that's good. see you 8 down at the lawsons?" "8 at the lawsons, yeah sure okay--" a nod, a grin, and he walks off.

Triple Threat Tokyo Groupchat

Sight Impediment: @/Dr. House Kinnie @/The Ball Vorer help what should i wear to an underground bar Dr. House Kinnie: wtf happened on that tutoring session gay boi The Ball Vorer: what else dude, he was being gay Sight Impediment: YOU GUYS ARENT HELPING

[luxiomahariel]

Remembering the victims: Torrence Hill

Torrence Hill, 35, was the founder and owner of Evollusion, a hairstyling and beauty salon in Atlanta. “Hill’s salon offered a much-needed safe space for the Black, LGBTQIA+ residents of Atlanta and its surrounding areas,” Gaye Magazine reports. Hill “wanted to cultivate a space of safety where you can also get the affirming look and style you want, and he did exactly that,” Mathieu-East wrote on Instagram, noting that Black barbershop culture can sometimes be homophobic, and Hill provided an alternative. And his friend Derek Baugh told the Human Rights Campaign, "The loss of Chevy is devastating to not only the Atlanta trans community and his family but to the world. Chevy was a bright light whose mission it was to help others shine on their own. I met Chevy when I founded my organization Ubuntu that focuses on serving Black transgender men. Chevy was one of the first people to ever support me and the organization. He faithfully attended our group, even on weeks when there were two participants-he always showed up. He was well known for his skill as a barber and for welcoming people of all genders and sexual orientations into his barbershop, Evollusion. He was such a good guy with a big heart and he deserved better than this. I will miss seeing him. I want people to understand that gender-based violence affects trans men in a despairing way too. Although he is now a risen ancestor, we must continue to lift his name & others in the struggle against gender-based violence." Another friend, Sylvester XX, told HRC, "Chevy’s memory will be forever etched in my mind, heart and spirit. I met this amazingly caring and head strong human many years ago on his search for affirming resources. His ability to motivate, protect and take care of those he loved was evident from the first time we spoke. Familial support was so paramount to Chevy. So for his life to be taken this way is very disheartening. Some of the larger conversations we have to have are about mental health in Black communities, how rampant gun violence is in this nation, the heightened violence BIPOC TGNC (transgender and gender nonconforming) masculine people endure and how Black communities of marginalized people face overlapping social and economic determinants that no other communities have to navigate. Society learns to devalue Black and trans people’s lives through the many false narratives that have been created and spread by those who oppose LGBTQ+ equality. So, it is important to remind society that we all are human, we all deserve protection and policies in place to keep us safe. Chevy may not have known his true impact, but his legacy and the way he showed up for his community will continue to inspire and change the lives of people who look like him."

https://www.advocate.com/crime/black-trans-man-killed-atlanta

Verna Hill Wilcox, Chevy's mother, told GLAAD her son had let his cousin Jaylen, who was going through some difficulties, stay at his home but that Jaylen had begun to abuse Chevy's generosity. “TK had apparently purchased him uniforms and shoes to start another job,” Wilcox said. “TK had finally reached a point where it was like, no matter what we do for you, you still have a sense of entitlement, and you’re not showing us the respect and love we’re showing you.” “TK got into a verbal altercation with Jaylen,” she continued. “He was chastising him for using their stuff. Terri let them use their vehicle, and he stayed gone for four hours. When he came back, he had an attitude about somebody else’s merchandise, and TK reprimanded him for that and told him to leave.” She believes that led to the shooting.

[absolutebl]

Do you have any recent recommendations for JBL TaiwanBL and KBL? Been rewatching only bls from 2021 2022 and I feel like I'm out of the loop for the more recent ones.

Maybe something from this year or late last year?

Great JBL, TaBL, and KBL from 2023 & first half 2024

asker added:

Genre = mostly anything. But pls avoid homophobic trauma (like Jazz for Two).

Fair. Okay here we go!

2023 Recs!

I picked mostly 9s and 10s for you with a few 8s I felt specifically might suit your taste.

I Cannot Reach You AKA Kimi ni wa Todokanai

Japan Netflix

This classic friends-to-lovers BL is everything Japan does best. Angsty. Emo. Aching. Driven by real thirst. Yamato is deeply in love with his childhood bestie, Kakeru, and has been for ages, unable to hide his ungainly damaging high school need. He wants Kakeru in every way possible and it oozes off of the screen. Kakeru is silly and a little simple, but not frenetic or overly camp about it. He is earnest, and genuinely wants to keep Yamato in his life which means giving a romance (and gayness) a fair chance. We watch him realize his affection and what form it can take in a truly authentic way. This show was impossibly kind to both of its lead characters and I felt almost honored that I got to watch something so lovely and rare play out on my screen.

Our Dating Sim

Korea Viki

This is a perfect short form KBL, an office set reunion romance featuring geeks that really suits 8 eps with no fluff and no chaff. Just comforting and yummy. I adored every aspect from the casting to the pristinely simple premise to the quietly smooth execution. Sure it’s low stakes, but that makes it high domesticity and extremely warm and gentle. This is a fuzzy blanket of a story - a cozy BL. It lives in my rewatch pile and you know what’s best about it? Every single episode is in that pile. There’s no skipping with this one, it might be good natured and calmly sweet but it’s tight and the pacing is excellent.

I don't hand out 10/10 often (over 700 BLs watched, stil don't hvae 10 10/10s yet), these both got that from me in 2023. I consider both of them perfect BLs.

My Personal Weatherman AKA Taikan Yoho

Japan Gaga

This style of live action yaoi really only works from Japan. Basically: boys who fell in love in college end up living together but both are so repressed they actually don't realize they're in love. It's higher heat than we usually get from Japan's HEA stuff, and that part is also very well done, but it leaned into the "why don't they just talk for fuck's sake?" trope which is only exacerbated into undiluted frustration by the fact that they're already fucking. It's great, but watching requires more patience than usual, even for Japan.

Our Dining Table AKA Bokura no Shokutaku

Japan Gaga

A lonely salaryman (+ talented cook) gets accidentally adopted by a college kid and his little brother. I was always gonna love this show if they stuck to the original yaoi (which is very dear to my heart). And they did! Paralleling it almost exactly. It’s a quiet & cozy little parable of found family alleviating loneliness. Possibly too slow for some but definitely high up there for me as the best of what Japan can do with softness (like Restart After Come Back Home). It’s only flaw (if I dare say such a thing) is that it is not really “romantic.” Lovely & sweet but the romance beats are being used to build a family relationship, not just couple intimacy, but that's OK with me. This is a very safe show for anyone to watch.

Jun and Jun

Korea Viki

A delightful office romance about an ex-idol who joins cubical life only to find his new boss is his first love. Others boys are sniffing around too. Operative word being "sniffing" as much of this romance involves smell. With a snappy (sometimes even raunchy) script, enjoyable sides, a pretty as peaches cast, and descent chemistry this show made up for in style what it lacked in substance. I like fluff. I loved this. I smiled every moment I was watching. With tons of rewatch potential (especially the last few eps), my only caution is this is for fans of the BL genre only, I don’t think it’ll work for anyone else.

Love Tractor

Korea iQIYI

Most of this country-set BL had me feral for the beautiful broken city boy and his hot young farmer. Hyung romance, puppy/cat pairing, open frankness meets jaded reserve, language play, water hose frolicking, only one bed, just all my favorite tropes. This show was basically a light-weight Restart After Come Back Home and I’m not even slightly mad about that. But (and you knew there was a “but” comg) something about the cringe of the final 2 eps and the impermanence of the ending (both of which highlight the fact that ultimately these 2 are I’ll-suited: too different and too far apart) left me with the feeling that they probably won’t last as a couple. However, in this case, rare for me, I forgive it this finale for my love of the rest.

The New Employee

Korea Viki

So good, SO QUEER, so soft, a near pitch perfect office BL with conflict derived from that setting. Also found family and a lesbian bestie. Sweet & innocent (and out) Seung Hyun scores the office internship of his dreams. On his first day at work he gets into it with his cool reserved (and also v gay) boss. As you do. Frankly? This is what I wanted from this new crop of office set KBLs ALL ALONG. Rainbow rice cakes forever! Directed by queer activist Kim Jho Gwang Soo (Just Friends?) partly set in the same neighbourhood as the To My Star house. Gotta love WATCHA (Semantic Error, Light on Me).

Unintentional Love Story

Korea iQIYI

OMG the plot, forced into a totally understandable betrayal, falling in love despite himself, put into a corner he can't get out of, the AGONY, the eyes EMOTING at us in PAIN A boy who just lost his job due to faked corruption charges accidentally discovers his ex-boss's favorite artist, now a recluse. Evil manager offers him his job back if he can convince the artist to rejoin society. Instead, they fall in love. I found the artist a bit stiff and reserved but Gongchan (maknae of B1A4) is a fucking GIFT - he carried this show (which I do not expect from the idol element). He was lumous with extraordinarily expressive eyes, just drown in the emoting abyss. The external conflict, social tension and pressure is complex and beautifully executed, plus Korea gave us legit side dishes (NOT a love triangle, hally-fucking-luya). I’m not sure on rewatchability, and it didn’t whip me into a verbal frenzy the way some KBLs do, but it still gets a solid 9/10 for those damn eyes alone.

A Breeze of Love

Korea iQIYI

Tsundere insomniac grump reunited with his sunshine jock ex (human sleeping pill) who now hates him. Basketball is also involved. While the simplicity of a reunion plot makes this more cohesive than most KBLs, it is a tad stiff and slow, never managing to lift itself out of "pretty and pretty enjoyable" - I liked it but I don’t think I’m going to remember much about it. 

Bon Appetit

Korea iQIYI

Romance between an office worker the man from his past next door who cooks well. It was very sweet and cute tale of food as love in the All the Liquors family of KBL. I’m not wild about it, I did enjoy it, I was happy to have it show up on my dash, but ultimately it will simply become one of the KBL crowd.

Why R U?

(Korean adaptation of Thai original) iQIYI

Korea decided to remake, of all possible Thai BLs, Why RU? And that is exactly what we got: a short form, clean & pretty, slightly confusing, uneven chemistry, all the same tropes KBL that kind of cliff-noted the original but with none of the heat or complex relationship dynamics. I just … what world is this? Because it is BOTH bizarro land, and EXACTLY what I expected. How do I rate it? In the end I have to go back to simple questions: did I like it, would I rewatch it, and would I recommend it? Yes. Probably. And probably not. What the actual hell?

It did, however win my best kiss of 2023 which is why it's on this list.

Stay By My Side

Taiwan Viki

I wanted to pick SOMETHING from Taiwan but my other two options both had lots of trauma in them. So I'm going with this one.

This show was an interesting take on the "ghost boyfriend" trope. About a boy who is tormented by hearing the dead, except when he is around one other boy - desperation+proximity = love. Unfortunately, the story was erratic and waffled about. While the leads turned in solid performances and the sappy domesticity was off the charts, it never really had the strength of the narrative convictions such a strong concept should have supplied. Highly rewatchable and enjoyable for that sappy domesticity but not a whole lot more. Still I always give extra credit for the diabetes-inducing sugar content and rewatch capacity.

And some suggestions from 2024

I'm only suggesting stuff that has finished it's run and isn't currently airing.

Although I Love You and You AKA Sukiyanen Kedo Do Yaro ka

Japan Gaga

The promise of this show, younger cook courts older divorced office worker, should have been my catnip. I mean if someone pitched this to me in an elevator I would have downloaded it by the second storey. Unfortunately, it did not exactly fulfill that promise, not in the way I'd hoped. Did I still enjoy the ride, yes, but I feel just a little let down.

Living With Him AKA Kare no Iru Seikatsu

Japan Gaga

Kindly Ryota goes to uni and ends up rooming with his former childhood bestie, Kazuhito. Kazuhito doesn’t have a girlfriend for, as it turns out, cute roommate reasons. Same director as Old Fashion Cupcake, the framing is gorgeous and it is a stylish piece. As a friends to lovers cohabitation narrative this was a classic 2000s sweet yaoi. I enjoy that kind of tradition out of Japan even if it (and the characters) come off as a little slow as a result. Still, it's nice to get a traditional BL out of Japan that is satisfying, not slapstick, AND did not hurt us.

[oldphanny]

So it's been a very long time since I've gone back and watched old DanAndPhilGames videos, and I'm honestly shocked in the shift Phil has had. Like, I'm talking about videos from 8 years ago, so they would have been pre-gayness and probably before ii (?maybeidk). Not that Phils personality as a whole has shifted. He's always had that quirky flare, but he just seemed so... flat in comparison. Like either he was getting tired of shielding his complete self, or maybe he was just generally exhausted from the whole peak of the channel. But compare him from those videos to today, and it's like a total rebirth. The smiles and laughs are so much warmer and brighter.

This has probably all been discussed on here a million times before, but I wonder whether that was the point that Dan was discovering himself and coming to terms with his sexuality and Phil was trying to be accommodating to that journey but feeling like he was neglecting a part of himself that he did eventually want to share. From memory, Phil has mentioned never meaningfully hiding his sexuality, but I'm assuming that if he did say that he was gay it would place a lot more pressure on Dan from us as an audience.

I guess I'm in awe of how much Phil has done to create a safe space for Dan to fulfil his own self-development journey. And I guess I wonder whether that's what has fueled Dan to come back to the gaming channel since Phil was the one to spearhead the return. Dan was supported in what made him happy so now he's returning that to Phil with the reigniting of 'Dan and Phil'.

I'm not saying that I think Phil was busting to come out but I'm assuming he may have been more concious about holding certain comments, actions or ideas back as not to out Dan at a time when he didn't even feel confident in his identity. I guess because I hadn't gone back to pre-coming out videos since probably pre-coming out times, I never really noticed how much that had affected Phils on-screen persona, because in these old videos he seems rigid and almost distant in comparison. Maybe at the time it wasn't noticeable but now it's like night and day.

Sorry for yapping, but I just really admire their relationship, and it's unique to see these kinds of developments captured to view over and over. Imma go lay face down now.

[keepingsecretstokeepyoutk]

So Long London - Full Lyric Analysis

My Gaylor/Kaylor interpretation at a glance: Taylor uses the bearding narrative of her breakup with Joe as an allegory to talk about her reluctant decision to “break up” with her fans/kill off her public persona in the process of coming out. 

The Joe bearding narrative was likely created for this very purpose - an "ex" who didn't allow her to "bejeweled" (be her whole self), who she tried to make it work with, tried to change herself for, before realizing she couldn't keep sacrificing her wellbeing, mental and otherwise. Read through this lens, this song is devastating, so prepare yourselves emotionally, maybe have tissues on hand.

I interpret a number of the "break up" songs on this album (almost all of them) as being about her reaching the end of her rope with being in the closet and trying to slowly change her fan's attitude towards her queerness. So many of these songs imply that she has hit her breaking point, and the metaphor of a failing romantic relationship is the perfect vehicle to express this shift.

I believe this precedent exists in her work, and for this particular chapter, was established with "You're losing me".

This is also one of a few songs on the album that conceptualize her fame (as obtained with her public, hetero persona) as a place. In this song, that place is represented by London (hence, "so long, London"). In Florida!!! she may be running away to Florida from this place, (after she comes out and needs to escape the backlash). In "I hate it here", she dreams of escaping this place, and imagines two other locales within the lore of her songs - "secret gardens", a probable parallel to Betty's garden and the "garden gates" in Cruel Summer, as well as the "lunar valleys" referencing the galactic landscape established in Down Bad.

Lets get into it!

Verse 1

“Saw in my mind fairy lights in the mist/kept calm and carried the weight of the rift/pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away/my spine split from carrying us up the hill/wet through my clothes, wary bones caught the chill/stopped trying to make him laugh/stopped trying to drill the safe”

In this first verse, Taylor introduces the idea of her fans being like a partner who isn’t present in the relationship, and more importantly, a partner that is ultimately rejecting her true self. 

“Fairy lights in the mist” - Taylor has used daylight/light images to represent the end of her closeting/her coming out for at least 5 years. Here she sees small pinpricks of light amongst darkness and the classic metaphor for hiding/confusion, etc - mist. She is saying that in the past she had hope, she saw a possible path forward to coming out while also keeping all of her fans.

“Kept calm and carried the weight of rift/pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away” - Taylor reflects on her years of hoping that she could slowly introduce her fans the idea that she is not straight, then come out with minimal rupture in her relationship with her fans. She tried to keep the faith and looked past a lot of bad behavior on the part of some of her fans, convinced that she could make them see her and that their love for her would extend past their need for her being the persona they have grown attached to.

“Stopped trying to make him laugh/stopped trying to drill the safe” - ultimately, she gave up, having been rejected too many times - ignored when she clearly signaled her gayness and the masses of her fans just refused to acknowledge it. Beyond refusing to acknowledge it, they bullied those that did see it, demonstrating to her how reviling they found the idea that she might be queer. “Drill the safe” is a metaphor for trying to force something that will never happen, she is realizing she needs to let go of something that isn’t for her.

Chorus

“How much sad did you think I had/did you think I had in me/oh the tragedy/so long London/ you’ll find someone” 

Taylor now must ask her fans, how long did you expect me to sacrifice my own happiness while you continue to ignore my pleas for you to see me? 

“You’ll find someone” = you’ll find another idol/para social relationship to obsess over, identify with, etc. This is a reference to Dear Reader, when she sang “you should find another guiding light.” In that song, Taylor warned fans that she is not who they think she is ("you wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking"), that the idea they have of her life is constructed, and strongly lamented her life choices, essentially telling fans they shouldn't look to her for life advice, because she is lonely and miserable. Here, the reference not only underscores the idea that they don't know her, but also that she is making the choice for them to "find someone" else, because she is choosing to come out of hiding, and in so doing, is also choosing to leave behind the misery that made her write Dear Reader in the first place.

Verse 2

“Didn’t opt in to be your odd man out/I founded the club she’s heard great things about/ I left all I knew/you left me in the house by the heath/I stopped cpr after all it’s no use/the spirit was gone, we would never come to/ and I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free.”

I made a post about the "Heath" reference that you can read here. Please note the reblog of it that I added an addendum to about the Heath being a park in London. Heath was a doctor that practiced conversion therapy, meaning that her fans "left her at home" with someone trying to change her. By ignoring her signaling, they told her they didn't want the real her, which kept her in the closet, and I fear kept her more vulnerable to those who may have tried to manipulate her into trying to change herself, or deny her true self even behind closed doors.

"I stopped cpr after all its no use/the spirit was gone we would never come to" - again Taylor is using the of a failed romantic relationship to express her lost hope in salvaging the corners of her kingdom that ultimately won't accept her when she comes out. This is also an example of the frequent gothic/death related imagery Taylor uses on this album, a theme consistent with the idea that something is ending, that she is killing off her public persona.

"and I'm pissed off that you let me give you all that youth for free" Taylor has spent so many years choosing her fans and her current carrer path over the full expression of her life and happiness. Again, she had hope that the people who have given her endless validation and effusive praise for years would accept her for who she is. She is realizing that the love between her and at least some of her fans was conditional, and given what we know of how much her fans have meant to her over the course of her career, this was likely a devastating wake up call that took years for her to accept - undoubtedly a huge factor in her seemingly delaying her coming out so many times.

"So long London/Stitches undone/two graves, one gun/I’ll find someone”

Taylor has said her fans are her longest relationship; the imagery in this song reflects the idea that this is a break up with someone she has tried with over and over again. So she undoes the “stitches” that link her to them. This line references her song Glitch on Midnights, “fasten myself to you with a stitch” symbolizing being bonded with a romantic partner (which represent a portion of her fans in this song).

"Two graves one gun" is likely a reference to burying her public persona self, and the second grave could represent her fans (a parallel to the "cheating husband" in "Florida!!!"?) or it could be a shrouded suicidal thought - the second grave being her private persona - both selves being killed off. This lyric is one of my favorites in this song but I don't have a strong conviction on who the second grave is, I'm very open to others' thoughts...

Bridge

“And you say I abandoned the ship/but I was going down with it/my white knuckle dying grip/holding tight to your quiet resentment/and my friends said it isn't right to be scared/every day of a love affair/every breath feels like rarest air/ when you're not sure if he wants to be there/So how much sad did you think I had, did you think I had in me/How much tragedy/Just how low did you think I'd go/Before I'd self implode/before I had to go be free"

"And you say I abandoned the ship...white knuckle dying grip" Taylor emphasizes her wish for things to be different with this lyric, clinging to her ship as it sinks. We all saw her try to right the ship, she's finally choosing to let go and swim to safety (a nautical parrallel to the manuscript's "my trip to your shores"?).

“My friends said it isn’t right to be scared everyday of a love affair…if you’re not sure he wants to be there”

Similar to when someone is in a bad romantic relationship, i imagine her friends expressed their concern that her relationship with her fans is unhealthy. Although many of her friends are high achievers themselves, Taylor’s success is in another league (monster on the hill) and they would likely have expressed their hope that she can slow down and accept a slightly less monumental career in the interest of her mental health. 

“How much sad did you think I had/did you think I had in me/Just how low did you think I’d go?” “before I self implode/before I have yo go be free”

Taylor imagines arguing with her fans in the throes of the break up, and in this passage it becomes clear that she is convinced they know the truth but are refusing to acknowledge it. That they allowed her to keep faking her straight persona for their sake. That she was a woman pushed to her limits by a partner (fans) who knew they were running her ragged, a partner that didn’t in fact love her, but loved what she could do for them.

 So she asks them, how long did you think I could keep doing this before it broke me? How long did you think I would go along with this, be willing to sacrifice for you? how much would she fake/take the money to keep up the straight persona?

“You swore that you loved me but where were the clues?/I died on the altar waiting for the proof/ you sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days”

The para social relationship is again a perfect match for the metaphor of a partner that uses you but doesn’t meet you in relationship as a full person. The praise puts you on an altar, but their actions don’t reflect the effusive words. “Bluest days” is a red herring to match the bearding narrative/fan rumor that Joe’s mental health affected their relationship, but also could be interpreted as the fans overlooking her truth in the interest of relying on the idea that their favorite pop star has the same boy problems that they do, their "bluest days" were the days they were torn up over a relationship or an unrequited love and needed her break up anthems, and they wouldn't have the same effect if they knew (and weren't in denial) that the songs are about women (or now about them, ironically).

Last Verse/Outro

“I’m just getting color back into my face/im just mad as hell cause I loved this place/for so long London/had a good run/moment of war son/but I’m not the one”

The first line here parallels the language in “you’re losing me”, which uses the metaphor of a relationship literally dying (“i can’t find a pulse”, etc). In this song she is leaving the relationship to save herself, and in leaving she is recovering her health, hence getting the color back in her face after being pale when sick and near death.

“This place” or London, is a stand in for the world, the Swiftverse that she created for and with her fans. It had been her life’s work, her source of pride, self worth, her legacy, but now she must leave, because it was built in large part around a self she created to make herself palatable to the fans she amassed. She can’t be that person anymore, and maybe in some ways “this place” doesn’t even really feel like hers. This parallels Florida!!!, "your home's really a town you're just a guest in/so you work your life away/just to pay for a timeshare down in Destin". She is just a guest in the musical world of the brand of Taylor Swift that she spent her whole life building ("the story isn't mine anymore")

To close, she repeats the main lines of the chorus,

“So long London/Stitches undone/two graves, one gun/you’ll find someone” 

This repetition drives home the finality of this decision - her exit, her killing her public persona, her detaching herself from those that don't see and support her, and her reassuring herself that those people will find someone else to worship, and someone else to see themselves in, and her realization and relief that they aren't her responsibility anymore.

[lochlogie]

If it had been a bj instead it would've still been Lochy's initiative to do it, so I don't think it would make Saxon less sympathetic. It might make Lochy less sympathetic to the general audience IG since it's more serious than a hand but that's a price I'd be willing to pay for no one to still think that's he's straight

No I know, my point being that 1) I think Mike White wanted plausible deniability in terms of the gayness, and 2) I think Mike White wanted to level out the power imbalance between Saxon and Lochlan.

For point 1: a hand job, for better or worse, is a lot less committal. There's a sliver of no homo left. I do like that with how insane we all are, we can still pick apart the scene and be like "Oh well Loch is gay anyway lol," because he totally is, that is a homosexual on my screen. But if he's just giving Saxon a helping hand then both of them could claim there are no feelings involved. Oral sex and especially anal sex are nonstarters.

For point 2: a blow job is penetration, it exposes Lochlan, who is drastically younger, with no sexual experience, little social confidence, drinking and doing drugs for probably the first time, to being in an explicitly submissive position that would be easy for Saxon to exploit (hence my phrasing of pulling on his hair or pushing him down). If Saxon is lying in repose, debatably lucid, then he's not as in as much control, and a general audience will probably not be as creeped out by Saxon in that scenario. That could also apply to a blow job, but even in that version, Lochlan would still be in a... let's say, worshipful, position?

In fact making Saxon less sexually aggressive worked too well, because most people were creeped out by Lochlan and started screaming their heads off that Saxon is a victim (the only thing he's a victim of is his own degree from clown college). But point 2 tying into point 1, if you want Lochlan to have a little more agency or power in this scenario, you can't have him sexually dominate Saxon either, because that would also be gay, and tip the scales too far in his direction. Most people (especially on Reddit and Tiktok) thought the show was going in this direction or wanted it to.

I guess a lot of people want to watch the twink rail the hunk. Hey I don't judge.

A hand job is more neutral, and not too overwhelming for Lochlan. It's not too psychologically damaging for Saxon (imagine his crash out if Lochlan sucked him off for real). Lochlan is actively being taken advantage of by Chloe, I said what I said, and he's got a whole bevy of fuckery going on with Saxon. I think giving him the most agency possible and the least submissive sexual position possible (he was never going to be dominant let's not kid ourselves) was the right call.

You're right though, the audience would not find Lochlan sympathetic were he to swallow that meat whole like a snake unhinging its jaw. They'd yell "fag!" at their screens. They were doing that when all he did was tug at that shit. I've made like four posts about the audience's unsympathetic reaction to Lochlan being influenced by homophobia but whatever. I know a lot of people think a hand job is on the same level as a blow job but... eh? I have to disagree.

Basically, my point is, if the threesome goes thus: Lochlan asks Saxon if he can touch his dick, Saxon can't say yes fast enough... all that jazz... Lochlan could at any point remove his hand. Since it's ludicrous to think he's not the more vulnerable person here that's good for him. He should be as safe as possible. It should be on his terms. But if Lochlan asks Saxon if he can suck him off, and Saxon says yes... can Lochlan withdraw his consent as easily? No... if Saxon were really that kind of guy, he could force Lochlan to keep sucking him off. That's what I mean. It's not as safe. I mean, Saxon could grab his hand and make him keep jerking too, but is that as harrowing as being forced to take a dick down your throat?

It would be too intense for general audiences. Hell the hand job was too intense for general audiences. I think Mike White had grand dreams for this season's unhinged gay subplot and HBO or focus grouping or someone dashed those dreams on a bunch of sharp rocks. I personally am hoping he can write a fucking normal gay romance next season.

[nincompoopydoo]

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ  nincompoopydoo // MCU MASTERLIST

loki laufeyson

⋆ debris and misery [series - on hiatus]: Loki crashes on Sakaar and into your home. you don’t take it lightly when you find there’s a massive hole in your roof. ⋆ to catch someone's eye: During the celebration of Frigga as the Queen of Asgard, Loki finds himself slipping away from the events to the palace courtyard. To where you unfortunately found yourself stumbling towards an escape from your parents. ⋆ in another timeline: stranded on Lamentis, the event of the impending apocalypse seem to mend the fire and fury between you and Loki as deeper feelings begin to come to light. ⋆ for the sake of us: Loki dies (The beginning of Infinity War) and is sent to a place unknown to him, with never ending fields of Asgardian flowers. there, he meets his Sigyn, his late wife. he hadn’t seen her for years ever since her unexpected death of an unknown illness that no Asgardian technology could cure.

sam wilson

⋆ trouble man: you and Sam Wilson are neighbors. never spoke a word a to one another but somewhat developed an unhealthy crush on each other. as a series of unfortunate events that began with the burning of spaghetti, you find yourself entangled in a mess of the appreciation for Marvin Gaye and your fear of cockroaches with the very man himself. ⋆ coming home: Sam’s coming home. ⋆ snowed in: you get a visit from your hot neighbour on Christmas day.

bucky barnes

⋆ whiskey: you’re waitressing at your father’s bar filled with the 107th’s drunk soldiers. In the midst of chaos, you catch the attention of a certain sergeant that goes by the name Bucky. the both of you then realize that one can still find happiness in the middle of a great war.

steve rogers

⋆ pretty beautiful: after the events of Sokovia, Steve and Sam are both on the run, along with Natasha, seeking for a safe house. thankfully, Sam knows the perfect place. ⋆ promises: platonic! you find an unexpected visitor at your doorstep during spaghetti night.

agent jack thompson

⋆ steps of the fire escape: Jack spends the last minutes of New Year’s Eve looking for the morning paper and his cat, Ginny. turns out, Ginny has a knack for discovering those who are spending the last day of the year alone. ⋆ you're gonna be fine, kid [series]: you get shot and the annoying Jack Thompson maybe you’re only hope at surviving after all.  ⋆ knucklehead: where Jack and reader are pissed at each other because you wouldn’t stay off the field and put yourself in danger during a mission while Jack was being a total prick about it although the two of you refuse to admit you love each a little too much. ⋆ pretty confessions: returning to the SSR, golden hour in the midst of New York’s traffic may just lead to some pretty confessions to a very pretty woman in Jack Thompson’s passenger seat. ⋆ unbelievable: you’re strong-witted, frank and independent, and Jack finds it a little unsettling, yet he refuses to admit that he probably adores you a little too much after that one incident at the office. ⋆ babysitter: Jack Thompson finds himself babysitting Daniel and Peggy’s baby daughter. and then realizes he has forgotten how to change nappies. ⋆ baby emergency [babysitter part 2]: you, the Sousa’s neighbour, mistakenly arrive at their doorstep, thinking it was pie night rather than date night. Yet, the sight of a dishevelled, troubled and somewhat handsome Jack Thompson convinced you to help out with baby Nancy. ⋆ call me trixie: you, an aviatrix is partnered with Jack Thompson on a SSR mission.

daniel sousa

⋆ just a gunshot wound: you were badly injured from a mission and Daniel Sousa, your fellow colleague was not the biggest fan of the outcomes of the mission. yet, things get a little heated up, in a bad way, but it may have gave Daniel the courage to act on something he had always wanted to since forever.

[balkanradfem]

So I wrote about my fun with fall chores, but left out another important aspect of my life; losing my mind without laptop or internet. Even though I'm usually not online a lot, I would at least have all my nancy drew games, stardew valley, and a whole lot of podcasts and audiobooks to listen to at my disposal. Now, nothing.

I had a song stuck in my head and couldn't listen to it. It was devastating. Then I remembered, my ancient little phone actually could function as a radio, if I put headphones in. And the song I wanted, sometimes played on the radio. So off I went to listen to the radio!

Radio music is awful and horrible. I fail to understand how anyone can listen to so many aggressively heterosexual songs. I was dying by the time Chappell Roan came on. At one point, I kid you not, Blurred lines played! I yelled and shut down the radio and then continued yelling. In 2024???

It took me a day to realize that my phone actually had a record button. Which meant I could record music and then just have it permanently saved on it. I was both delighted and hit with nostalgia. I haven't pirated a song by recording it from the radio in 20 years. I remember doing it on my cassette player as a kid! And now my phone had the pre-installed ancient piracy tool. They used to make such good stuff.

I had to listen to radio for 2 days to get my two lesbian songs and to finally get the song stuck in my head (it was Too Sweet. I'm basic shut up). I made a playlist and called it gay and was finally free from the radio. Even though wanting to listen to a song and then waiting for 2 days for it to come on on the radio is such a pre-internet struggle, the joy when it finally came on was incredible. I was squealing jumping woooing laughing. It was almost like a quest in a video game; the more effort it takes, the stronger the satisfaction. 

I realized how isolated and small I felt without the internet, just listening to the radio. Every person I know here is heterosexual, and I found myself cut off from community, it became difficult to feel normal. Listening to a lesbian song on the radio was all I had; I knew other gay people were listening, it was a joint activity. I wasn't all alone.

I sometimes wonder if the straight people are hearing it and if they understand what its about. I remember when 'Take me to church' played in the car, I would scan everyone's faces carefully, to see if they understood, if they agreed, if they knew that was anti homophobia playing on the radio. But there was never a reaction. I would then remember that most people here don't speak english, and even if they understood a few words, they don't bother to understand a song from the radio. It's fully possible they're listening 'Hot to go' imagining its a heterosexual song, regardless of how funny that is. Imagine a woman writing a song to get a guy to sleep with her. In what world. 

Looking back, most of my internet endeavors were about finding gay stuff online, first it was gay anime, then fanfiction, and then I got drawn to tumblr in the era where gayness was celebrated and strongly encouraged. I felt safe here! And that was all before I even knew I was a lesbian. And now I wonder, is it endlessly painful and unsurvivable to be a lone gay person without any community? If I waited two days next to a radio to get a gay song, if I used any access to information just to find the writings and media made by gay people, it must be vital like the air to me. When I'm here I feel normal only because I'm exposed to the thoughts and feelings of other gay people, and I know you're reading mine. Without you I'd be lost.

[skxllz]

𝐤𝐞𝐧...

with a partner who's completely opposite of him.

with a partner who wears black, dark red, burgundy, midnight blue, dark forest green, white and grey. not pink nor bright colors.

with a partner who likes different music than he does. ken screams bill withers, marvin gaye, alicia keys, etc. you on the other hand dig more intellectual, hardcore music - mötely crue, metallica, alice in chains, skid row, etc. even artists that are more down to earth on a different level, such as foster the people or arctic monkeys.

with a partner who isn't as open. you keep more to yourself, stay in your own bubble, don't really talk about your feelings. ken on the other hand, he's always in everyone's space. and, even though he thinks emotions are more of a woman's touch, he ends up speaking on how feels; voicing if he's upset or if he feels icky - in his own way of course.

with a partner who doesn't like social settings. ken loves the beach, ken loves to attend parties and the bar and the university nearby just because he can. you though- you only like the beach at night, when it's quiet and peaceful with no one around. you like to walk the street at night, when no one is really out; and if they are, you don't get bothered (unless it's a weirdo). you like to go to the skatepark during work/school hours, and chill at the ice cream shop that doesn't get real busy, and just stay in your room because it's your safe space.

with a partner who is closed off from affection. ken always gives you hugs, kisses, caresses to your cheek and pets to your hair. you return the favor, too.. but that doesn't mean it's as strong as a touch, or as often - hell, it's even awkward because you're not used to it. but ken knows that's okay, he's patient even though he doesn't want to be. he understands... somewhat. not really, but he's trying.

with a partner who loves physical activity that doesn't require as much work. walking along the side of the river, or railroad tracks; jogging a mile; just simply waking up to be productive. ken, on the other hand, loves to surf (he ended up learning). he loves to attempt to cook, to attempt to play volleyball. his favorite? It's lifting dumbbells with impressive weight.

with a partner who loves to lay around and watch movies. you can relax, and smile in amusement at a cheesy horror movie, or laugh during a comedy. ken, though, he's not able to sit still for long periods of time unless it's to touch you. the film's don't capture his attention; physical action does. affection does. you. not tv.

( hi this is all I have for now LOL. I'm new to the barbie fandom, hello 😏 I'll try to add more content in when I can but for now... enjoy this. )

[inspiteofganon]

I think ganondorf would be so confused by homophobia. like yeah obviously hes attracted to men. he took a course on wooing them. obviously hes attracted to women, why wouldnt he be women are great

The gerudo would not give less of a fuck about sexuality i think. i think the majority of them would be married to women and only seek out men to have children with

Oh yeah such a thing would definitely be nonsense to him, I think. Petty garbage for spoiled weaklings to fuss over. "Who cares if someone's attracted to the same sex? Every day my people struggle in the desert etc. etc. Hand Over The Triforce." sentiments.

Most of my headcanons about Gdorf and the gerudo only selectively factor in BotW/TotK-timeline things such as the dating classes, in preference for OoT-and-its divergents-inspired stuff and also "things my roommate says". I must confess I prefer them a bit more on the chauvinistic side... consistent, feisty, and proud... i.e. "everybody keep out" > "men keep out, women/agenders are fine". Why make exceptions for some hylians but not others?? Girl, the imperialists...!

I definitely agree they don't really "give a fuck" about sexuality. Maybe only a sliver depending on context. It's not really relevant to most of them unless they wanna start a family or fall in love. Being a 100% straight gerudo must kinda suck though since your only options are either hitting up Ganondorf (if there's even a gerudo king at home at the moment) or learning how to woo some outsider voe... or transmasc gerudo, if you think they'd have enough of those in the open. I like the idea of there being a lot of lesbian and bi gerudo... I want to see a gay gerudo wedding... they're socially monogender except for the times they have a king, so social sexuality really isn't something I think they'd really think seriously about except for the aforementioned reasons. Just more garbage that the peoples they steal from waste time on! Lame. Even the "vai" others have are so socially different despite physical similarities that they just don't vibe the same as other gerudo.

As for Ganondorf and his own Gay Thoughts... man, where to even start with what I have in mind for that guy. Besides the fact that he can't be normal about anything ever.

If vai take lessons on how to romance and woo voe, Ganondorf I think would at least know how that works. He has to know how the things his subjects consider important work-- how else are they going to respect him?! To hylians, I think, getting to know him long enough he'd start to come off as a guy with an unusually deep knowledge of what most might call "women's business". Up to and including him knowing how to go about getting a boyfriend if he really wanted to. But back to GAYNESS... I think it'd be complicated for him. Because Ganondorf is a very superior man who thinks little of everyone else, especially if they're not gerudo. So if one approached the topic of his orientation-- assuming his response wasn't just "who cares? not me"-- he might not be able to give you a straight (lol) answer on the sole basis that there aren't any other males of his own kind to measure his reactions with, and that he looks down too much on other peoples for him to think they truly count.

But on the FLIP side of that!! Other men could be, for lack of a better word, a "safe space" to play with his own sexuality, since them being of so little matter makes them more approachable in that sense. Goodness knows he's up to his eyeballs in women at home, but men? They're novel, they're disgusting but mandatory to his people (though they insist he's the one good one! they swear!!), and like it or not, the common voe outside Gerudo Valley are lumped into the same category that he is by most. They're so like him, but so not. They don't have the same expectations he has on his shoulders. Perhaps a part of him might envy their freedom and camaraderie... and enjoy intimidating them as a result, and thinking something like "Wow, you're nearly the kind of gender I am... heheh..." while watching them squirm in his presence. What passes for a man in Hyrule is different from what he's been raised to be...

So yeah in my opinion he's DEFINITELY got some gay potential boiling under the lid. He's not gonna think about it or act on it in a sane or healthy way though.