#no it’s the alchemy and I’m kinda falling in love with it more and more

[skywalker-swift]

obsessed with the alchemy. the ‘everything I used to pray for is falling into place in front of me and I’m not gonna fight it this time. I’m not gonna run’ song.

[cynical-rain-frog]

Albedo x fem? Reader

Themes: fluff, angst, unrequited love (but is it really? *winks*), misunderstandings (but they aren’t annoying)

Summary: You love Albedo but he starts falling in love with Lumine.

Story notes: this starts as fluff which turns into angst which then turn back into fluff. THIS HAS A HAPPY ENDING!!!

Author’s notes: This is my first time writing something this long so I apologize for any spelling errors, grammar errors, or format errors! It is not proofread. Also I kinda wrote this for myself so I imagined a Fem reader but I’m pretty sure the reader’s gender is never mentioned. Please don’t be too harsh but give me tips on things that don’t make sense with the story or aren’t very satisfying! Enjoy!

You loved Albedo. How could you not? He was the first person you met when you came to Mondstadt and although he seemed unfeeling and cold on the outside; he was actually very attentive and sweet. You knew he was capable of love. I mean, he clearly loved Klee, So why couldn’t he love you too?

You would spend hours upon hours with Albedo in his lab in dragonspine. You would assist him with anything he asked of you while you would talk to him about your life and ask questions about his. You felt comfortable whenever you were with him and he seemed to feel the same.

So how did lumine do it? What was different about her? You had gone back to mondstadt in the early afternoon to look after Klee at albedo’s request. While taking care of her you suggested to get some Cecelias and bring them to Albedo. (his favorite flower) Klee agreed and you went out to starsnatch cliffs to gather them.

As you walked up to his lab, you heard Albedo talking to someone. Rare but not uncommon. Rounding the corner into his lab you saw him giving the famous traveler, Lumine, a smile he had only ever given Klee before. Your heart dropped and you froze in your tracks. Klee ran up to Albedo holding the Cecelias.

Klee: “Albedo! We picked some flowers for you!”

She smiled wide and lifted the flowers up to Albedo’s hands. He smiled a loving smile and accepted the flowers.

Albedo: “Thank you very much Klee. These are very beautiful. Did you have any trouble gathering them?”

Klee: “Nope! Y/n got all the ones that I couldn’t reach!”

Albedo’s gaze lifted up to where you were still standing in the entrance to his lab. You watched his smile change ever so slightly as he locked eyes with you. You jolted and walked forward handing him the rest of the flowers.

Y/n: “h… here”

Albedo: “thank you, Y/n”

He turned back to lumine, who was watching the interaction and studied her for a second before tucking one of the flowers behind her ear. You could see a slight tinge of pink at the tips of his ears and you knew it wasn’t because of the cold. You stayed silent as he chatted with Klee for a few minutes before you headed back down the mountain with her. As you walked you felt tears welling behind your eyes. “Why were you so upset? It’s not like you owned him.” you thought to yourself.

The next day you had fleeting hope that the occurrence with lumine was just momentary attraction and nothing more. You were alone with him in the lab again when he suggested you become his apprentice. He could teach you alchemy and help you apply to the knights of favonius. Spending even MORE time with Albedo while also being useful? Yes please!

The weeks that followed were filled with long days learning alchemy with Albedo. To your surprise you had a natural talent for it, especially when creating healing ointments and potions! Albedo commented how you were a good student and how easy it was to teach you. You had to look away to hide the blush spreading on your face.

One particularly cold morning you got the lab earlier than usual. You walk around the corner to greet Albedo with a “good morning” but stop dead in your tracks when you see lumine is also there, sitting on a table while albedo prepares ingredients for your lesson. They are deep in conversation so they don’t notice you at the entryway. Albedo smiles softly to himself as he talks with lumine. You notice he is talking a lot more than he usually does with you though you can’t hear a word they’re saying. Your heart is beating too fast. Something inside you tells you it would be very uncomfortable if you intrude right now, so you decide to wait right outside the lab until the time you usually arrive. You step outside into the crisp cold air and sit down, bringing you knees up to your chest. You look up at the gray overcast sky and snow starts to lightly fall around you. You think back on how Albedo interacts with lumine. You really love him and as much as you wish you could be the person he smiles at everyday, you know that may not be possible.

Despite it being cold in the mountain, the warmth radiating from the lab keeps you comfortable. Combining that with being up earlier than you’re used to, you feel you eyes growing heavy. The last thing you think about before drifting to sleep is how handsome Albedo is when he smiles.

Your eyes flutter open and you see Albedo at a table working on an experiment. He isn’t wearing his coat and you feel very warm. You look around and realize you're sitting on a chair near the alchemy table in the lab. Lumine isn’t anywhere to be seen. You shift slightly and notice you have extra clothing on. It’s Albedo’s coat. Why does he have to get your hopes up like this?

You sigh and he turns his head to look at you.

Albedo: “Ah. Good morning, Y/n.” Y/n: “Albedo…? How did I get here?”

He shrugs and replies bluntly.

Albedo: “I carried you inside. You would’ve caught a cold if you stayed out there.”

Y/n: “Oh. Thank you.”

You’re searching for something else to say. Something to keep the conversation going, but you can’t find any words. There is a minute long silence between you two as Albedo finishes writing the results of his experiment. He stands up and walks over to you. You assume he’s going to ask for his coat back so you start to take it off. He notices you doing this and stops you.

Albedo: “you can keep it on if you want.”

Before you can respond he hugs you tightly.

Y/n: “wha-?”

You are surprised but not upset. You hug back. After a minute Albedo moves away while still holding your shoulders. When he speaks next his voice is soft and full of relief.

Albedo: “why did you do that? I was so worried when you didn’t show up for your alchemy lessons.”

Y/n: “I… thought it would be awkward if I intruded in your… moment with Lumine”

Albedo: “My… Moment…? Oh. You mean the conversation I was having with her? Yes that probably would been quite awkward for you.”

Upon seeing your wounded expression he explained further.

Albedo: “But not for the reason you probably think. You see, Y/n… I….”

He stops talking and sighs. His cheeks turn a slight pink.

Albedo: “Y/n. I think I am in love with you.”

Y/n: “What?! But- but I thought you liked Lumine?”

Albedo: “Ah… are you referencing the day where I tucked the flower in her hair? In retrospect I will admit that was childish of me... I was upset that you hadn’t noticed my feelings so I tried to make you jealous.”

Y/n: “What about the conversation you had this morning? I clearly saw you look very much in love while talking to her.”

Albedo: “We were talking about you.”

His words make your face heat up.

Y/n: “So this whole time… you were in love with me?”

Albedo: “Yes.”

Albedo gently tucks your hair behind one ear. With his other hand he puts a Cecelia behind that same ear. He leans in close and kisses your cheek.

Albedo: “Think of that as my apology.”

His smile is full of love. So YOU were the one he was in love with the whole time. You think about how you acted and feel silly.

Y/n: “Apology accepted.”

You lean in kiss him.

[alyjojo]

Yearly Tarot Reading 2025 🎏 - Sagittarius Sun/Rising

Meditation: Dropped from a ski lift on a mountain, you’re skiing ⛷️ down at an extremely fast rate, moving from side to side and showing off for someone to the side - some not all, some don’t even know them, it’s 50/50; but you end up falling and rolling quite a bit down the hill, turning into a giant snowball and hitting a tree with snow ❄️ on it, which all falls on top of you for the grand finale. This person is on the other side of the tree a little ways, laughing. It doesn’t feel mean, it’s a soft laugh, like a mother chuckling at their child.

General: Temperance 😌

Work: The Chariot

Love: The Hanged Man

Before I even started, I was shown the art on the top of the oracle deck and heard “Sparrow” and then “eye of the sparrow”…y’all I’ve never heard of this a day in my life, apparently it’s both a song and a Bible verse which…idk these verses, I’m reading it along with ya 😆 There are 100 versions of the song so idk pick one, but the verse is as follows:

Matthew 10:29-31

29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. 30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

Your energy makes me chuckle a bit too, you’re late to the party Sag, you’re still working with Libra SN energy because you didn’t apply this to yourself in the last couple of years, so it’s like the new nodes don’t even really take effect until you do - or they’re all going on simultaneously which is kind of exhausting, and that’s here. I don’t believe in mistakes so, there’s a reason. You did win something last year, something you’d been competing for, whether it’s a person, a contest, some kind of recognition, a game show opportunity 🧳, a trip, idk. Before then you may have been kinda hard on yourself and had lacked confidence or recognition, this was a big boost you needed - and it came with some kind of Abundance. Money, a new car, an appliance from The Price is Right, whatever it was made you feel really good. Now, that confidence is back to waning, on and off, you know what you want but do others want the same thing? Will they support you? You fear they won’t.

Temperance is your own energy of taking things one day at a time, incorporating different elements into a successful blend via “alchemy,” being patient and cooperative, not letting things shake you up or get you frazzled. I don’t see any sudden shake-ups, more like a lot of rest, time to think, time to chill, hang out, and consider what comes next. This year is shown as a Growth year, you’re changing a lot whether you know it or not, over time. A big big part of this has to do with boundaries on all fronts - the current nodes highlight your 4th House of Home and your 10th House of Career, both being shown with Boundaries and Libra rev. You could have Libra/Cancer placements that the heavy Aries retrograde (Mercury & Venus) energy in March (and later Saturn) all trigger in you. Or more likely, because Sag and Aries 🔥 are very compatible, this time period could be the catalyst that gives you the courage to address this, it’s like the in-between middle ground you need.

You’re a people pleaser and it’s exhausting not putting yourself and your own goals first, whatever they are, but you’ve been indecisive on where to draw lines. It’s a fluid “I don’t care” kind of energy I’m sure you know well, you’re very go-with-the-flow, but that seems to be being taken advantage of and it’s time to start drawing lines in the sand. Spirit is saying you’ll know when, and also to be patient and consider your actions/words before doing so…be calm and clear. I don’t see you drawing boundaries for the sake of it, they have to be crossed in order for you to be like wait…no. You’d rather not, it’s probably forced & necessary. At least from what I’m seeing here, you’re pretty chill.

With love being The Hanged Man, and The Sun rev clarifying, you may not have been interested in chasing love and/or you still aren’t. Not really. You don’t have faith that people aren’t crazy or you’re going to get in some situation that blows up in your face, but also don’t want to make anyone mad or let them down, with a partner or single, could also be family related. This could be due to some kind of wound, if you say no people will leave. If that’s the case, do you really want people that can’t respect your boundaries? Again I’m not seeing anything crazy, you’re allowed to decide for yourself what is yes and what is no, and people that care about you are expected to understand that, it comes with loving you properly. You hate crowds and loud noises, it would be silly to force you to go to concerts - say no, it’s not for you. Simple. I would assume your people know you like that. You’re more of a tea & biscuits 🫖 kind of person, that’s the example I got and laughed. But if you don’t say anything, then you’re leading people to believe you like xyz and you don’t, you can’t be upset when they don’t understand. You shouldn’t make anyone mad being yourself, that’s a them problem they can deal with.

In your close relationships, this is something that really stresses you out, makes you feel insecure, fearful, indecisive, why though? Doing so will benefit your Growth, it’s your whole lesson of the year over time, and you will Ascend 🎈 to a higher level of maturity and consciousness from being more secure in your own energy with your own preferences. Other people demand their needs be met, it looks like you’re just asking gently. Or you’re being encouraged to. You hate broccoli 🥦 PERIOD. You’re allowed to! It’s your life. I don’t get anyone being against you. If you’re confident about it, who cares? Some people out here with 20 wives, or living in vans on mountains, or TikTok dancing on guard rails or some ish - do you boo 💜 If you want it and it scares you, it’s probably the right thing to do. Someone said that, idk who. If you don’t then you don’t, what else is there? Indecision, you go back and forth or may not even know for sure. If your red flags 🚩 are waving, consider them - Temperance and Hanged Man - take your time and pick it apart, and when you make a decision own it, again nothing feels sudden or unexpected here. You’ve tried broccoli 100 damn times, enough. You know you 💯 If people refuse or give you problems, consider whether they’re hindering your growth - that’s no bueno. Would they put up with the same? Would you expect them to?

For work it’s a similar energy, either you’re super ambitious but afraid to step on toes, afraid you don’t have the cooperation you’d need in order to achieve xyz - or people just kinda bulldoze through your boundaries and rush in with demands and bs you’re expected to meet on the spot. That could be your actual job for someone, a runner, deliverer, driver maybe. You could travel but it’s last minute, and if so it’s happened more than once, like “you’re needed in Mexico day after tomorrow great thanks.” And you just do it. You give off a very passive energy and due to this it’s like people think they can walk all over you, whereas I bet they wouldn’t do that to someone more assertive & confident.

It feels like you haven’t said anything, or if you did, it was/is in a passive sort of comment or something that isn’t picked up on. It’s like others are not learning because you’re not speaking up, not wanting to make anyone upset, not wanting them to just not send you to Mexico anymore. Cooperation is here, it’s also showing you’re exhausted, and possibly breadcrumbed with later, later, later, never happens - at some point you’re going to get sick of it. And still be nice, Temperance is kind and emotionally balanced, while at the same time you’re needing to address your needs directly and be taken seriously. Maybe your hours were changed “temporarily” and it’s been years, clearly not temporary. It’s like Spirit is putting you into forced confrontation on purpose because this is something you need to learn & get more comfortable with, so you can move up, meet your goals, get the cooperation you deserve, you’ve waited long enough.

Basically, if you want something, you’re gonna have to flat out say so, maybe more than once. You don’t have to be rude to be direct but also idk have them repeat it back, give you a date, “per my last email,” ask if you would need to discuss this issue with someone higher up the chain - hold people accountable. Receipts bish 🧾 If that thought terrifies you it’s not time, your Intuition will let you know when you’ve had enough, it’s connected to Exhausted…it’ll take a lot of pushing to get you there but you’ll get there. You could even discuss the issue with coworkers and get support that way, the whole lot of ya confronting the boss like “hey wtf is going on with Sag and this thing?” Some of you may even decide to leave a job or a branch of a job because you’re fed up, and if so the new place feels more open to your input or willing to do what you ask, they listen. There could be a work trip that’s just…ugh, and you never want to go back to this specific place ever again, if so you’ll say so. I’m getting the meditation again here, some kind of trip is not great or inconvenient. A lot of waiting, delays, (minor) disasters, never going there again. Overall, you’ve got a very balanced & peaceful kind of energy, it’s just whether you let other people run all over you because they know you’ll agree. Maybe…don’t agree. Peacefully decline 😌 Its part of your Growth, one that will make you feel more successful, confident, and better able to make moves towards the goals you have (have had, I’m hearing, most feels not new) but may have been indecisive or going back and forth on. I don’t see rejection, that’s a plus, maybe distractions or dude can’t hear but, speak up. Speak more generally, I’m hearing, and I’m seeing Uranus move into Gemini, that’s on May 20 - you may become a lot chattier then or attract people that are, they can help encourage this as well, or even speak for you or back you up. Be patient and kind with yourself like you are with others, expect what you give, and if it’s not that then you’re not wrong for making it clear what you expect. I’m also hearing you don’t have to overexplain or apologize for inconveniencing people either. You’re really growing into yourself this year, I like that you’re not being an ass about it that’s refreshing…the same can’t often be said for most of us 👀 You’re growing into all sides of your personality with grace, even the more assertive bits, we all need to defend ourselves at some point and Spirit’s pushing you to get to that point, probably because you deserve more than you’re getting. Money, respect, consideration, time even, notice. In some way, maybe several ways, depends on you. Who could even say no to that? 💜

First Spirit said to ignore the sparrow card, it was just for the picture, and now at the end they said “flip it over,” and it says Change. Do something differently than you normally do - this is what it’s talking about. Everyone has boundaries, you’re not reaching, or mean, or bad, for making it clear what yours are. You’re just not confident or assertive naturally from what I see, and I’m hearing “practice makes perfect.” Or look into this online with people who have struggled with this even, you’re never the only one 💯 A work/home balance could be a constant for most of you, especially when you’re being dismissed or expected to check all the boxes of both all of the time. Virgo/Pisces is martyr/victim and that’s what’s coming through when it comes to this for you - enough is enough babe, you get to decide how things work best for you personally and others can adjust not always you. Would people rather watch you snowball down a mountain? You’d rather not thanks. Lord knows everyone else makes demands, with no care, at least you do care from what I see 💟 I’m seeing you get the support you need though, a lot of this is being poked to the point of you finally doing something about it because no, you can’t travel in a day, please don’t ask again. While you’re focused on everyone else’s demands, where are yours, how are others trying to meet them or give what/how you’re giving?

Zodiac Signs: Pisces, Sagittarius, Cancer, Scorpio & Leo

Numbers: 25, 38, 13, 52, 79 & 74

7777 with goals and ambitions you have regarding your work, and fear you won’t have the cooperation you need - or fear to even start, what if it fails? Spirit is referring to the sparrow on this card again and I’m hearing “but what if you fly?” 🐦 Birds may be very significant for you this year or in general. You will get the Cooperation you need and whatever it is will be successful 🏆

[livvyofthelake]

now that we’ve been sitting on it for four months i need to rank the tortured poets department for real… it means nothing to rank an album two days after it comes out like that’s pointless fr let’s take this seriously

guilty as sin. this is an insane song. unfortunately i read a book the week this album came out and this song is permanently attached to that book in a small part but as we all know i did my absolute best to remain chill neutral and only weird about tsc at the time of this album drop so it all balanced out in the end and none of the songs are particularly associated with anything cringe. except two. but not this one i only brought up the book because it’s a little bit associated. you understand. the song is a slay of epic proportions on its own of course. i’ve mentally made this one about so many fictional guys it’s crazy… we have fun huh

my boy only breaks his favorite toys. this one was my instant favorite she’s not going anywhereeeee

but daddy i love him. some people don’t understand it but i do… i love her…

the alchemy. honestly? who are we to fight the alchemy…. literally!!!!

the albatross. sort of like who’s afraid of little old me if it was a song i liked more!

so high school. what more is there to say than truth dare spin bottles you know how to ball i know aristotle brand new full throttle touch me while your bros play grand theft auto it’s true swear scouts honor you knew what you wanted and boy you got her brand new full throttle you already know babe…

florida. cunty! florence + the machine!

the black dog. aforementioned two songs. well we knew this would be one. like we knew that the whole time. what could i possibly have done to save this one… genuinely what could i possibly have done. we saved the album in time i know but i mean. we all knew this track was a goner. nothing to be done. it’s a great song though like genuinely let’s be honest… one out of 31 is a great ratio. april 18th me was expecting a much worse percentage tbh

down bad. i just like it :)

who’s afraid of little old me. mildly over saturated. but kinda deserved the hype she slays

fresh out the slammer. one of aforementioned two songs that kinda got ruined. this song is about cbs drama fire country forever there’s nothing to be done. it’s not a huge loss this song is a little mid if i’m being honest. i think it’s too short i don’t fuck with it heavily

fortnight. my husband is cheating!! i wanna kill him!!!!

the prophecy. song that makes you cry…

the smallest man who ever lived. crazy ass bridge. rest of the song. well.

i can fix him (no really i can). i like that this song title is formatted like a fanfiction title that’s a lyric to a taylor swift song…

imgonnagetyouback. like. cute fun song sure yes. cannot get it out of my head that me personally if i had asked for writing credits from olivia rodrigo on a song that sounded nothing like my song, i personally would not have released this. me personally…

how did it end. crazy song that makes you go damn her life suckssss for real… yikes!

i can do it with a broken heart. not even a bad song it’s just the popular one with swifties and i hear it all the time without my consent.

the tortured poets department. can i be honest. sometimes taylor swift writes songs that would be awesome if not for one utterly batshit ridiculous lyric that embarrasses me so bad i can’t even fuck with the song. this has happened many times she’s an embarrassing celebrity to like everyone knows this. it’s not even the “you smoked then ate seven bars of chocolate we declared charlie puth should be a bigger artist” that’s actually fine. it’s what comes directly after that. “i scratch your head you fall asleep like a tattooed golden retriever” taylor. 😐 i can’t. i can’t even talk about this actually. also i can’t stand the lucy dacus and jack antonoff name drop lyrics at all like taylor please stop embarrassing me….

i do not actively listen to any of the other ones anymore so i just didn’t include them because why would i rank songs i don’t even listen to let’s take this seriously… they’re fine. the only one i might describe as a song i actively dislike is chloe or sam or sophia or marcus. like i do not care for that one at all

[eviltiddyproductions]

weird that either I’m down bad for the chemistry of the leads in season 2 or the writing because I rooted for them so hard.

Alchemy of Souls season 2 is kinda rare that way for me because I swear I was ready to throw the whole show away when I saw the finale of season 1. 💀✋

I’m kinda still trying to work my feelings about this show because it refuses to leave my head. Hindsight is 20/20 so I guess now I tire of the season 1 flow a little harder because to me, not enough romance and fluff. I felt it while watching it but my dumbass had thought that the last 3-4 episodes we’d get domestic. 🤩 (LMAOOOO)

on the contrary we got domestic real fast in season 2 and I guess because at my core I’m a romance starved girly I enjoyed it a bit more. Uk and Dangu did a lot to bring humour to the show in season 1 but Jin Buyeon just made everything light. Her interactions with almost everyone on the show were just light and happy and bright. She had literally no reason to be on her toes expect of her mom and no one had any reason to be anything around her because she was already married and very much not a threat.

I want ‘as you can see my beauty is unmatched but I’m not very bright’ framed in my house.

honestly a part of me pined for her and Yul for half a second, even if it meant her saying that she’d get him those pine biscuits next time. begging for crumbs of happiness for my man 😭💔

I think I’m still coping with the character loss a little because it happened like a flash flood like it happened SO FAST lol.

Honestly I haven’t watched a lot of Kdramas so I was surprised that Naksu coming back to life wasn’t anticipated in the last 2 episode. But I’ve learnt a bit more about the creators and we won lol. I had expected it like the ending of season 1 the moment she got possessed. (Like ofc you’d do that to me 😭)

anyway maybe I am coming around to the ending which makes complete sense except to me the transition happened quick and everything after that happened quicker and to be honest they were doing SO MUCH in the last 2 episodes that I just didn’t have time to ponder.

Naksu is Jin Buyeon so she is the happy girl that I’ve loved for 8 episodes so idk I’m mourning her character like she’s right there 💀💀💀 I guess because her character once again became burdened by all she’d done and gone through and became somber I for a minute became a hater.

I’m coming around to it. And at the same time being a little salty because I love the idea of people falling in love again. Even if they had decided that she wouldn’t have been Naksu. Like in Season 1 where our girl was full on using Mudeok’s body and just stayed. I wouldn’t have really mind if they went with that. That she’d always be this cute lil ball of sunshine. But it is unfair to keep this from both of them so I get it.

I guess if they eased into her identity reveal and gave them and me 5 more minutes I’d get to celebrate 🎉 their reunion.

good for them though! fighting relics together ❣️

I just looked up and realised how much I have written- on top of the 17 posts I’ve already written about this LMAO why am I like this 😭 need to find a new thing to latch onto fast like what is this babe

[nemesyaaa]

kkzkdkslzkzz finally be able to read it and wow I read the warnings and i know i will like it too much. was so freaking amazing and well-written. i love when it starts angst and went to fluff to smut. that's a really nice comfort. happy new year to us and tysm for releasing this <33 bodyguard!Rafe x popstar!reader is such a cool pairing. it makes me think a lot Nashville and i say it as a compliment. anyways, i'm grateful ‼️‼️‼️🤩

The lights sweep over you, and the first note leaves your lips. Your muscles tighten as the pitch wavers, just a hair off, but it’s enough for Bella to shoot a look back at you. Your stomach aches, heartbreaking, as you feel yourself starting to fumble while Bella shines. You push harder–the melodies leaving your lips sounding anything but natural. — feel a little sick that someone else shy when i'm the popstar...

“This isn’t the right place,” he warns as he looks through you even still, eyes scanning the crowd. —.like there is a better place, bro ???

He sucks his teeth, holding himself back from cursing you out on sight. His Gucci suit jacket is half undone, his toffee-colored hair mussed, and his sharp jaw is set in a straight line. He looks fuckin’ angry, completely winded, like he's been fighting through thick crowds, going to Hell and back to get to you. Good. Let him be angry. Why should I have to suffer alone? —.im sorry but he's kinda hot, you make it so hot with your writings skills (more than he deserves) but i'm not gonna complain

“I’m sorry, baby. I’m so fuckin’ sorry, Daddy,” he mocks your fucked-out voice again. “Tell me somethin’ I don’t know,” Rafe repeats your words from the fight as he starts to rub little figure eights on your clit. Your body trembles with adrenaline as he continues to work you over with his handgun. The knot in your stomach starts to tighten as you feel yourself getting closer and closer to your peak. “You gonna cum… off a gun? You that big of a slut, princess? You don’t even need a dick?” Rafe mumbles, and right when you’re about to fall apart below him, he pulls it away, leaving you whimpering and fussing for more, your bottom lip wobbling as you look up into your boyfriend’s beautiful, cruel eyes. —.omggg I love when he's mean. when he's mocking me. kinda things that turns me on. such a wonderful job. and all the gunplay scene after that ?? wow wow wow 😋😋

“I see the woman that I love, princess.” — don't care about the professional guidelines at this point. give me that man, i can be his future wife. can't wait for popstar!reader to release a clip and the producer is like ohh you've got a beautiful alchemy with your bodyguard, he should play in it with you. and it's like such a sensual clip so it's a win 🥳 anyways !! just yappin

ℕ𝕖𝕨 𝕐𝕖𝕒𝕣’𝕤 ℝ𝕠𝕔𝕜𝕚𝕟’ 𝔼𝕧𝕖 - ℝ𝕒𝕗𝕖 ℂ𝕒𝕞𝕖𝕣𝕠𝕟 𝕆𝕟𝕖 𝕊𝕙𝕠𝕥

+18 𝓜𝓲𝓷𝓸𝓻 𝓓𝓝𝓘

𝙱𝚘𝚍𝚢𝚐𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚍!𝚁𝚊𝚏𝚎 𝚡 𝙿𝚘𝚙𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛!𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛

warnings: pet names, swearing, angst, fighting, rough touch, kissing, degradation, name calling, possessive!rafe, jealous!reader, protective!rafe, rough oral male receiving, gunplay, spanking, overstim, cum licking (floor), choking, fingering, pussy slapping, dirty talk, teasing, orgasm denial, multiple orgasms, creampie, ownership kink, brat taming, no safe words

from this au if you want to read about the night they got together 🌹

📖 the reader has been secretly dating her bodyguard. During her NYE performance, she learned she’s not the only one he crossed the line with.

⭐ unedited ⭐

Reader's POV:

The backstage area is a whirlwind of costumes, stagehands, producers, and backup dancers. You eye yourself in the mirror, body hugged in a glittering black bodysuit with thousands of sequins that catch every stray light beam.

You should be basking in the excitement of a childhood dream come true—after all, millions of viewers are about to watch you perform a duet on New Year's Rockin’ Eve. But the second she walked inside, any excitement you might have felt went out the window.

Bella Dean.

She's the diva you're supposed to share the big closing number with: petite, curvy, absolutely stunning. Her talent is almost as big as her ego.

Bella’s voice snaps you out of your thoughts. “Look at you, baby,” she coos, sashaying up to you, flashing a smile that makes your stomach flip. “You okay? You look a little sick?” She asks, pouting her lip, her tone almost demeaning; clearly commenting on your appearance and not the state of your health–just being a fuckin’ bitch.

You fake a smile as your pulse spikes. “Sick?” You ask through a breathy laugh as you raise an eyebrow at her.

“Ill? Not feeling well? Under the weather? You don’t know what sick is?” She asks, returning a nasty laugh.

“I feel just fine. Thanks for your concern,” you reply, your face twisting slightly.

"Of course," she purrs. "I think my makeup girl’s around here somewhere… Maybe it’s just because you look a little dull. I’m sure she has some highlighter or something to add a little sparkle,” she adds a little extra sweetness to her voice at the end, her cruelty making you feel like you could lose your mind as you try to remain professional. Your fingers tighten around your microphone as you try to focus on what’s coming next instead of the 5’2” nightmare beside you.

She steps out just before your cue, hitting the stage first, looking back at you with a wink and a smug smile you wish you could hurl your mic at her face.

You take a calming breath, reminding yourself that this will be a few minutes. You have a whole night ahead of you to look forward to. A night with him… Rafe stands off to the side, looking devilishly handsome in his all-black suit. He folds his arms over his broad chest, looking into the crowd, eyes trailing the space as usual.

You turn back to Bella, your eyes finding hers, her ruby-red lips curling into a wicked smile, making a knot of unease tighten in your belly. She quirks her eyebrow, stepping closer; too close for your liking. “That bodyguard of yours…” she says, tipping her head toward Rafe, making her platinum blonde curls bounce. “I haven’t seen him in a minute.”

You fiddle with your microphone, trying to seem as unbothered as possible, but she sees right through you.

“Rafe?” She chirps, making your eyebrows shoot up as his name leaves her lips effortlessly. “Mhmm… Rafey. Ugh, don’t tell me he didn’t mention me,” she tosses her hair to the side. “I’m sure he had an interview. That wasn’t brought up?”

You purse your lips, look out toward the crowd, and try to distract yourself.

“Don’t tell anyone, but we did get a little cozy on my last tour,” she leans in, giddily gossiping like she’s talking to a friend, but we both know what she’s doing. How unprofessional of me, right?” she chides as she smiles out to the crowd, giving them her million-dollar smile before blowing them a kiss.

You feel your body tremble as the adrenaline of the night and this admittance courses through your veins. Rafe did mention he’d once made a mistake by getting involved with a past client, but he never mentioned a name–her name. You swallow hard, clearing the lump in your throat as your mind starts spinning out, thinking of what the two must have done behind closed doors.

“That doesn’t sound like Rafe,” you assure.

“So you didn’t know. Ouch.” She flicks her gaze toward him again. “Doesn’t sound like you’re working the man to his full potential.”

You bite your cheek, lips tightening as you try to hold back your outburst. “Well, if you are and you don’t kiss and tell, just know he has a habit of getting too close. I just want you to be careful,” she pouts again, her voice like nails on a fucking chalkboard as the band starts to play around you.

And with that, she glides away, leaving you breathless and seething as she walks to the front of the stage. Your cheeks burn as you glance at Rafe from the wings. He catches your eyes with a concerned expression–the man no doubt reading your emotion like a book. Even though he has no idea what the fuck just happened, he knows something’s off with you. His eyebrows pinch together, beautiful features hardening.

Bella and Rafe? I can’t fuckin’ handle this right now.

The crowd roars excitedly as Bella’s voice pours out of the speakers. Your heart bangs with the opening beats of the song. You look toward the camera as it pans to you, forcing a smile. Your voice wavers as your anxiety gets the better of you–Bella looking toward the wings at Rafe as well, painting a picture of what their exchanges might have looked like in the past, her stealing little glances at him from center stage instead of you.

The lights sweep over you, and the first note leaves your lips. Your muscles tighten as the pitch wavers, just a hair off, but it’s enough for Bella to shoot a look back at you. Your stomach aches, heartbreaking, as you feel yourself starting to fumble while Bella shines. You push harder–the melodies leaving your lips sounding anything but natural.

Bella steps forward, delivering her verse perfectly, making the crowd scream. Her eyes twinkle as she passes you, making your blood boil. You lose track of the music for a split second, coming in a beat too late, making the blonde smirk in your peripheral vision. Fucking cunt.

You take a deep breath with the guitar break, straining to gather your emotions, trying to remind yourself of the night and how you’ll hate yourself if you let her ruin it for you. You turn toward her, melting your voices together in perfect harmony. The tension between you is thick, but it doesn’t read that way–the crowd, eating up every second of the duet.

The music cuts and the crowd goes wild. Bella moves toward you for the planned hug, but you step away and wave to the crowd. As she waves, you feel her arm wrap around your waist, pulling you in for a half-hug. Bella leans in, looking up at you, feigning concern. “You were a bit shaky. Are you okay?”

“Fuck off,” you hiss through a gritted smile to the crowd.

She gasps surprisedly before resting her head on your shoulder. “Don’t be upset, babes. Let me know if you are ever in the market for a new bodyguard. I always find the best ones,” she winks. “Have a happy New Year.”

You resist the urge to run, walking off the stage gracefully before storming toward your manager, taking your purse off her hands before snapping your focus to Rafe. “Why the hell didn’t you tell me it was Bella you messed around with, huh?” You hiss, quiet enough to meet his ears only as you glare at him.

“This isn’t the right place,” he warns as he looks through you even still, eyes scanning the crowd.

“No, Rafe,” you snap. “This is the perfect fucking place. I just found out about your little fling from Bella. Are you fucking kidding me right now?”

Rafe steps closer, looking you in the eyes, making you draw a little breath. “Not now.”

“Forget it,” you scoff, and before he can stop you, you flee the scene, disappearing into the thick crowd of backstage traffic. You walk through the double doors, looking to the left at the long line of dressing rooms before taking a risk, pushing through the side door.

The winter wind whips as you walk through the tight, dark alley, heels clicking against the asphalt with each step as you head toward the main street. Fans and paparazzi push in around you, yelling your name, but you keep your head down, pushing ahead.

You look down the block, knowing your hotel is close, but how close? You shove through the thick crowd, still waiting to get into the venue. The middle of the road is packed, too, with a barrage of people gathered, waiting for the ball to drop. You lift your eyes for a moment. Halfway there… You cross your arms tighter around your waist, trying to keep warm while holding yourself back from answering the phone vibrating like crazy in your purse.

Silence.

You sigh in relief as you walk into the swanky downtown hotel. The noise behind you falls away. The lobby's hush and glamor starkly contrast what’s happening on the other side of the revolving door—velvet chairs, marble floors, and the soft golden glow of chandeliers hanging overhead.

You draw a deep breath and blow it out slowly, looking to your left. Your head hangs with mental exhaustion as you step toward the hotel bar, pushing through the door before heading toward the rail.

You order your drink, asking for a double, hearing your voice tremble with anger and stress. You stare at your reflection in the barback's mirror, your makeup perfectly done, stage outfit on; your hairstyle to perfection, but that was just a facade. You felt far from perfect underneath–completely broken.

Rafe seems so poised and professional. It was so hard to break his icy exterior…

As childish as it sounds, you felt special. He seemed so untouchable that when you were able to break through, you felt like maybe there was something different about you.

He didn’t seem like someone who would sleep with his clients, and now you can’t help but think just how many people he had took care of like he was taking care of you.

Bella… What if it wasn’t special, though? What if it was just a one-time thing–a fling, and Bella was trying to get in your head? You grab your drink, lifting it to your lips, downing half of it fast, letting it sear your throat, trying to numb your thoughts.

She wanted this to happen. You hated yourself for letting her affect you the way she did. The truth is, she saw you fall apart in front of her, catching every missed step and note; each misstep was a win for her.

The bar is quiet, the low roar of the New Year’s celebration humming outside. The soft jazz piano swells in the background, paired with the soft conversations of the guests dressed to the nines. No one bats an eye at your arrival; no one asks for anything from you, letting you sit for a moment and breathe.

“Sir!” You hear the shrill call of someone from the lobby. A sudden commotion on the other side of the door pulls you out of your peace as Rafe storms in. He looks down at his phone, eyes scanning from left to right. Your heart falls as he zeros in on you, his nostrils flaring with anger, contrasting with the look of relief in his striking blue eyes.

He sucks his teeth, holding himself back from cursing you out on sight. His Gucci suit jacket is half undone, his toffee-colored hair mussed, and his sharp jaw is set in a straight line. He looks fuckin’ angry, completely winded, like he's been fighting through thick crowds, going to Hell and back to get to you. Good. Let him be angry. Why should I have to suffer alone?

Rafe makes a beeline for you, his long legs crossing the room in a few strides. The bartender walks over, asking how he can serve him, his voice quickly fading as he sees the look in Rafe’s eyes. Your bodyguard thumbs through his wallet, slapping $100 on the counter before grabbing your arm.

“We’re leaving,” he hisses, tugging you off the barstool. You gasp, your unfinished drink sloshing onto the floor as he steers you back toward the exit.

You yank your arm back, disregarding the curious glances around you, shooting daggers at your brooding bodyguard. “You don’t get to boss me around right now,” you hiss as you fight him off, but it only makes his fingers twist a little tighter around your arm.

“Once wasn’t enough?” He snarls.

“Spare me the lecture,” you sass. “M’not in the mood for you —fuckin’ drama queen.”

Rafe leans in, his warm breath hitting your skin as he pulls you toward the elevator. “Do you have any fucking idea how reckless that was? Runnin’ out there alone on the busiest night of the year? In the busiest city? Are you insane? And you’re alone-”

“Did I look alone?” You snap as you lift what’s left of your drink. “Didn’t pour this shit myself,” you laugh tauntingly before shooting it back.

He scoffs annoyedly as his grip on you tightens even more. “So you’d rather run away and have somethin’ awful happen to you, risk my whole fuckin’ career than talk to me about what you found out?”

“Correct,” you clip. “Now, let go of me.”

“Let’s make a deal, tough girl. You can get outta my fuckin’ grip, then you can go. I happen to like you... I’m not some insane stalker who wants to wear your fuckin’ skin. Aight? It ain’t safe out there for you, and for some reason, you think that your best option is to run,” he hisses as he bangs his fist against the up button.

The elevator door glides shut, leaving the two of you alone. You both stand next to each other, seething for different reasons. Rafe tosses your arm away when you fight against him one last time, making you push out an exaggerated breath.

Elevator music fills the space around you, so light and cheery it’s almost satirical at the moment. You stand side to side with your bodyguard, arms crossed over your chests, both of you waiting for the other to break.

“You have no right-”

“Run off again, and I swear to fuckin’ Christ,” he cuts you off.

“You wouldn't be mad? Really?”

“‘Course I would be. I'd be fuckin’ irritate, but I’d wait ‘til I got back to the hotel to say somethin’ like a fuckin’ adult. Not run away like a goddamn child-”

“I’m not-”

“A child,” he cuts you short, finishing your sentence as he turns toward you, his voice low and lethal. “You’re not a fuckin’ kid. Aight? You’re a grown-ass woman. Start actin’ like it before you get yourself hurt.”

You turn toward his chest, too, and look up into his eyes, not backing down. “You told me you once crossed a line with a client but never said it was her. She wasn't even mentioned on your resume, Rafe. Why was that?” You ask breathily, letting your defiance and disgust bleed through.

“That shit doesn't change the fact that that was a bad decision, princess,” he returns your same tone, that term of endearment he loves to use coming out as anything but endearing.

“Let’s talk about good decisions, Rafe. Her? I'm questioning you and your fuckin’ taste level. Bella is a cunt. It would have been nice to know this before sharing the stage with her so I could have been prepared for her bullshit instead of being blindsided and ruining that moment for myself.”

“Ruining your moment? What the hell are you talking about?” He asks in disbelief. “Your performance was perfect.”

“The fuck it was, Rafe,” you scoff as you step out of the elevator without him. “Your performance was perfect,” you mock him. “Bella’s performance was perfect, Rafe… And tomorrow, when there’s a review on Rolling Stone, maybe you’ll get it through your thick fuckin’ head.”

Rafe runs his fingers through his hair; frustration etched into every line on his handsome face. “Baby,” he mumbles as he softens his tone and closes the space between you and him. “I screwed up by not tellin’ you before tonight. M’sorry. But you can’t keep runnin’ off when you’re mad. I’m your bodyguard; I have to protect you whether you like me or not.”

You wave your keycard in front of the door handle, rolling your eyes at his apology, if you could even call it that. “Well, Rafe… Maybe you should be better at protecting your secrets,” you grumble, going to shut the door behind you, but Rafe clutches it tight, pushing against you with minimal effort, making you growl in frustration. You toss your clutch onto the sofa, kick off your heels in protest, and rip off your earrings for dramatic effect.

"You lied by omission, Rafe. You said you 'made a mistake' once with a client but never told me it was Bella. Did you honestly think I wouldn’t find out?”

He sighs as he strips himself of his jacket, tossing it off before loosening his tie. “Jesus Christ, baby. I was gonna tell you. Just not right before you had to perform with her."

"How considerate,” you breathe, your sarcasm palpable, making his cheeks flush with anger.

“Bella is toxic-”

“No shit,” you laugh.

“She'll do anythin’ to get under your skin-” he starts.

“Jesus, Rafe! Tell me something I don’t fuckin’ know!”

“I screwed up with her, yes… But do you know how long ago that was? That was at the start of my career. I was still tryin’ to figure shit out. I was young-”

“So, is this a serial thing for you, Cameron? Or am I an exception?” You ask, with a lifted brow as you pop open a bottle of De Venoge Louis, eyes shifting over to him. “Just another one of your favorite pop stars?”

“Enough,” he groans tiredly, pinching the bridge of his nose in frustration as he paces the room. “You know that's not how I see you… You gotta stop.”

“And how do you see me?” You ask. “I know how I see you…” You mutter, foregoing the glasses altogether, lifting the bottle to your lips instead.

“Not gonna tell you how I feel right now.”

“What the hell does that mean,” you laugh, dribbling champagne on your chin as you look up at him, fluttering your lashes in confusion.

“Because you’re actin’ irrational. This is not the time.”

“Stop telling me that it’s not the time, Rafe. Oh my god,” you whine, voice brimming with frustration.

“I get that you’re upset,” he scolds. “But runnin’ off into the city alone after a show and putting yourself at risk like that over Bella Dean was fuckin’ stupid, regardless, and you know that. Come back here… And lose your shit. Hell, you’re yellin’ at me right fuckin’ now. Only difference is you’re safe.”

“Sorry for makin’ you do your job, Rafe.”

He nods his head, a look in his eyes like he’s going absolutely insane. He crosses his arms over his chest, his biceps flexed, looking like it could tear the fabric apart. “N’to be clear. Chasin’ you is my job?”

“Dunno. Wasn’t at the job interview… Not quite sure what your scope of work was, but I assume the details of your job didn’t include sleepin’ with me either-”

“You’re begging for trouble, you know that?” He shouts, his loud voice hitting your chest hard, making the hair on the back of your neck stand straight.

“M’Terrified,” you giggle, trying to hide your nervousness as your heart rate starts to climb. His eyes narrow on yours–a mix of anger and something darker.

He walks over, looking down at you perched on the velvet lounge chair. You gasp as his hand comes around your throat, his grip tightening and tightening. He lifts you to your feet, pulling you chest to chest. “Keep talkin’ back and see what the fuck happens.”

You look at him with dead eyes, seemingly unimpressed by his threats, letting your eyes roll in the back of your head. Rafe tightens his grip a little more, making you sputter out a breath.

“Keep rollin’ those eyes at me, too, while we’re at it,” he growls. “You think I won’t give you a lesson?”

Adam's apple bobs in his throat, lip snarling as you refuse to submit. Rafe yanks you forward, crushing his lips against yours in a deep, desperate kiss. You go to shove him away, but his fingers find your hair, twisting into the strands, tugging you closer, forcing you in place. The air leaves your lungs as he shoves you into the wall, never breaking your kiss.

When he finally tears his lips away, you’re both breathless, chests heaving, longing for more.

“You’re fuckin’ impossible,” he rasps, blue eyes blazing with lust, his rasp voice taut and hoarse. “Run off, you don’t fuckin’ listen, and then you come back here and pick stupid fuckin’ fights, spoutin’ off shit we both know ain’t true.”

“Maybe you deserve it, Rafe. Did you ever think about that-” Rafe silences you with another kiss–more longing and possessive than the last. You wrap your arms around his broad shoulders, pulling him into your lips.

Rafe breaks away again, leaving you chasing his lips. He rests his forehead against yours, the two of you panting into each other, desperate for more.

“I’m gonna teach you a lesson,” he whispers, voice vibrating with tension. “Next time you try this shit, just know I’ll chase you down. Next time you roll your fuckin’ eyes at me, I’ll pin you where you stand. You can’t keep doin’ this shit without consequences.”

Your heart pounds in your ears, pussy pulsing as you listen to all of his threats– his words honestly having the opposite effect. Looks like he’s the one begging for trouble.

“Fuckin’ do it, Rafe,” you dare him, smiling against his lips, “you think I'm scared of you?"

“Think you're braver than you should be, sweetheart.”

“Yeah, Rafey? You gonna punish me?” You ask.

“That’s exactly what I’m gonna do,” he says, firm and cold, making goosebumps spread across your body. He leans in, pinning you against the wall, pressing his big body into you. Rafe kisses along your neck, teeth scraping your ear. “Don’t even think we have a safe word. Do you?” He asks, and you can hear that crooked smile in his voice.

“N-No,” you whisper, trying to recall, but you honestly don’t think you could at this moment, the way his body surrounds you, his rich cologne clouding your senses completely.

“Shit, baby… Guess you’re outta luck.” You gasp as he picks you up off your feet, slinging your body over his shoulder. “Maybe if you start behaving-” Crack! He slaps your upper thigh harshly, making you scream. “Maybe we can think of one together, hmm?”

Rafe throws you down on the bed, making the last bit of air in your lungs escape. He strips himself out of his button-down shirt, quickly working himself out of his pants before tossing his belt and gun onto the bed.

“Wh-What are you gonna do with those?” You ask, hearing your voice tremble.

Rafe clears the space between you, lowering his hands on the mattress as you look wide-eyed at him.

“Aww, princess… You know me. I love leavin’ out little details,” he smiles wickedly.

Rafe grabs the front of your bodysuit, tearing the delicate material open effortlessly, sending rhinestones and beads flying onto the bed and the hardwood floor as he tears away the custom piece without batting an eye. He pulls the material down your thighs, tossing it to the floor before grabbing your hips, manhandling you to your belly on the bed, your ass in the air, and your feet on the floor.

“FUCK!” You scream as his big hand comes down, slapping your bare ass, leaving behind a tingling sensation. Before you can even react, he does it a second time, then a third, making tears pool in your eyes and wetting the mattress. “I’m sorry,” you whisper.

“The fuck was that, tough girl?” He asks through a breathless laugh.

“I-I… Fuck you,” you whimper, trying to stand strong. Rafe grabs a fistful of hair, yanking you back, his head lowered to match your eyes.

“Fuck me? You told me to do this shit, baby girl… You’re the boss. I’m just doin’ my job.” Rafe uses his hold on your hair to push your face into the mattress, pushing two thick fingers into your soaked core. “Listen up, princess,” Rafe huffs. “You deserve this. I’m not gonna put up with this shit, aight? You’re lucky I’m even fuckin’ touchin’ you.” Rafe pumps his fingers in your pussy, finger-fucking you mercilessly as you try your best to wiggle away. “Stop squirmin’,” he chides. “Hands behind your fuckin’ back.”

The second you do, Rafe grips the against your lower back, the palm of his hand clapping against your ass as he fingers stroke your G-spot. Your thighs start to tremble, pussy tightening around his big fingers. “Fuck, Rafe,” you moan.

“Yeah? You wanna cum?” He taunts.

“Please,” you whisper.

“Think it’ll fix that little attitude of yours?”

“Yes, fuck!” You cry.

“I’m not sure it will…” Rafe sighs sadly. “I’ll let you cum tonight. But I swear if this shit happens again. M’not… Not until you’re at my hotel door beggin’ and cryin’ for my dick like a whore.” Rafe pulls his hands out of your soaked cunt, slapping your pussy fast and tough, making you cum hard, sobbing as your pussy flutters around nothing, your hands still pinned tightly against your back. Rafe fucks his fingers into your cunt, darting them inside you at an insane pace, and seconds later, you’re coming again, pussy gushing around his hand, landing on the floor with a little splash.

And even then, he doesn’t stop, his fingers just sopping through the mess as you fight against him, crying in overstimulation and pleasure. “Rafe, please. Please. Please.”

“What?” He spits.

“I-I… Mphff… Safe… Safeword,” you hiccup.

He booms out a laugh. Drawing both his hands back in surrender. Completely mocking you and the mess he made of his favorite girl. “You’re kiddin’ me?” He teases as he rests his hands on the bed, lowering himself to your ear, his chest brushing against your bare back. “Safeword?”

“I’m sorry, Daddy,” you pant. “I’m so, so sorry.”

“Jeopardizing my job, your life, our fuckin’ relationship over a bitch then means nothin’ to me. That’s the least you should be,” Rafe scolds as he grabs your hips, rolling you to your back.

You look between your thighs, eyes following Rafe as he reaches for his gun. He lifts it, making a show of it, eyeing the weapon in his hand. Your eyes fall down his body, watching his muscular chest rise and fall with his rapid breathing, his gold chain glinting in the dim. The ridges of his abs deepen with every level breath, his hard cock tenting out the fabric of his white Calvins, leaving you craving him even more.

He clicks on the safety, lifting the gun, pointing it at your pussy, slapping the piece against your inner thighs. “Spread your shit,” he mumbles. You widen your thighs on the mattress, your glossy cunt dripping with your arousal. Rafe presses the cool muzzle against your pulsing clit, making your muscles jump and your thighs drawn in. “I said ‘spread your shit,’” he shouts, making you flinch. “What’s it gonna take for you to listen? Huh?”

“I’m sorry, baby. I-”

“I’m sorry, baby. I’m so fuckin’ sorry, Daddy,” he mocks your fucked-out voice again. “Tell me somethin’ I don’t know,” Rafe repeats your words from the fight as he starts to rub little figure eights on your clit. Your body trembles with adrenaline as he continues to work you over with his handgun. The knot in your stomach starts to tighten as you feel yourself getting closer and closer to your peak. “You gonna cum… off a gun? You that big of a slut, princess? You don’t even need a dick?” Rafe mumbles, and right when you’re about to fall apart below him, he pulls it away, leaving you whimpering and fussing for more, your bottom lip wobbling as you look up into your boyfriend’s beautiful, cruel eyes.

“Rafe, you’re being mean…” You whisper, your voice barely above a hush. “I said, ‘I was sorry’.”

“And, I told you not to run away again… N’look what happened. Get on your knees.”

You climb off the bed, stumbling slightly from your weak knees. You land on the floor, crawling the rest of the way to Rafe, glassy-eyed and pouty-lipped. You kneel before him, watching as Rafe lifts the gun slightly, mirroring his dick, the tip of it coated with your slick.

“Suck it.”

Your heart starts to race as you look down the barrel of the gun. You look up at Rafe as you wrap your lips around the end of it, feeling your heart bang in your chest.

You take the cold metal to the back of your throat, taking as much as you can get, gagging around his weapon, sucking it clean, bobbing back and forth with your eyes on him. Rafe looks down at you hungrily, desperately wanting your lips on him and giving him the same service.

“Take ‘em off,” Rafe mumbles, and you slide your wet lips off the gun, racing to pull down his boxers fast. And without warning, he shoves himself in your mouth, pushing as far as his dick would go making you sputter and gag. You reach out, grabbing his tights, squeezing tightly, losing all vision as your eyes fill with tears.

You blink your tears away as he slides in and out of your swollen lips, grunting and moaning, using your mouth like a toy. The sounds around you were downright pornographic, making your pussy weep down your thighs. Your mouth leaked as well, saliva and precum dripping out of the seam.

Rafe finally pulls you off his cock, leaving you gasping for a breath. Before he can give you a command, you wrap your lips around him again in a desperate attempt for mercy, swirling and sucking him off just like he loves. You cradle his heavy balls in your hand, and he throats his hand back to the ceiling, a broad smile spreading on his perfect lips. “Atta girl… Fuck, that’s my good girl,” he praises.

You bob your head back and forth, stroking where your mouth won’t reach, trying desperately to please him. You can feel his cock throb and swell on your tongue, his breathing quickening by the second.

“Better swallow it all, princess, or we’re gonna be back at square one,” he mumbles, only half-kidding. He looks down at you, watching you throat him with all you have, his plump bottom lip tucked between his teeth.

Rafe pulls out of your mouth, jerking his cock in your face as you lay out your tongue. His warm cum shoots out of his tip, coating your lips and tongue. Your eyes flutter open as you swallow it all, licking your lips to clean up the rest of the mess as you look up at him.

He clicks his tongue, letting his gaze fall, eyeing a few loose pearls of cum decorating the floor. You rest your hands on the hardwood, lowering yourself to lick it up.

“Fuck, princess,” he moans as he looks down at you in lust and adoration. Rafe reaches for you, pulling you off the floor and into his strong arms. You wrap yourself in his, dressing your arms around his neck as his lips press against yours for a tender kiss. “

“I’m sorry, baby,” you whisper.

“I’m sorry, princess,” he soothes. “No more punishments. Alright? You took that shit like a good girl. Let me take care of you, yeah?” He mumbles against your lips.

“Yeah,” you whisper. “Thank you…”

“Don’t thank me… This right here—this is what I’ve been wantin’ to do all night.”

“Yeah?” You ask breathily, pecking at his lips.

“You kiddin’ me?” He chuckles as he lays you down on the bed, burying himself in his neck before kissing his way up to your ear. “Just wanted to take care of you. Make you feel good. Hard to think about much else when I see you up there. Can barely focus on keepin’ you safe when I’m just thinkin’ about fuckin’ this perfect pussy,” he mumbles as he slaps his tip against your clit.

Rafe slides his cock between your drenched folds, swirling his head around your hole before sinking in deep, bottoming you out with his long, thick dick. You grab two fistfuls of sheets as he grabs your hips in his big ringed hands, pulling out almost entirely before slamming back in.

“So good, baby… Fuck. Damn, you look so good takin’ my cock,” he moans as he starts rutting in and out. You couldn’t even get a word out with the way his dick was slamming in and out of your pussy.

Your eyes roll back in your head, boobs bouncing with each thrust of his hips as you go absolutely dumb on his dick. Rafe speeds up the pace, making your body tremble uncontrollably. Tears of pleasure stream down your cheeks, wetting the pillow below. Rafe reaches down, brushing them away with his thumbs, slipping one between your lips to let you suck yourself numb as he drills into you.

“Come on, princess,” Rafe hums as he feels your body start to tighten around him. “Cream all over my cock. Show me what a good girl does, huh? Let me fill you up. Been so good for me,” he groans as he reaches down, rubbing circles on your throbbing clit as the coil in your belly gets tighter and tighter.

You scream his name, cumming all over his big cock as he fucks you through your orgasm. Rafe gives you a few more rough thrusts, emptying his load deep inside as his hungry lips devour yours, swallowing your whimpers and cries.

“You okay, baby?” He asks sweetly against your lips.

“M’perfect, Rafe,” you coo.

“You are,” he whispers, pressing his forehead against yours. “You mad at me still?” Rafe asks as he presses a gentle kiss on your lips.

“No,” you whisper. “Can’t stay mad at you, baby.”

“Mhmm… I know the feelin’,” he laughs. Buzz. Buzz. Buzz. Buzz. You snag your phone out of your nightstand, pulling out your phone, seeing back-to-back messages from your manager.

Claire Baby: Rafe said you were ok. Stop running away. Thnx.

Claire Baby: Rafe mentioned that there was a history between him and Bella

Claire Baby: I told him to save it til after the show so it didn’t fuck with your chemistry

Claire Baby: I had no idea she was such a bitch. I’m sorry. Pls Forgive me.

“Rafe Cameron,” you sigh.

“Mhmm…” He asks as he pulls out of your pussy nice and slow, watching his warm cum leak out of your puffy hole, swirling his fingers around before stuffing it back inside.

“Rafe…”

“What?” He asks as he tilts his head slightly, lifting his fingers for you to suck them clean. You wrap your lips around his fingers, looking in his beautiful blue eyes.

“Why didn’t you tell me you tried to say something?” You ask softly as you look back up at him.

“‘Cause I deserved it… Shoulda told you from the start,” he answers. “No more secrets…”

“No more running,” you whisper.

You roll your head to the side, catching the time on the clock. 11:58 PM… Rafe kisses your cheek lovingly, wrapping his big body in yours. “How do you see me, Rafe,” you ask softly, pulling his focus back to your eyes. He brushes your hair off your face, cupping your cheek in his hand.

“Well, when I see you, I see the future. I see my dream girl. I see the only thing I want to see.”

You bite your lips, fluttering your lashes, the night's emotions getting the better of you.

“I see the woman that I love, princess.”

“You love me?” You whisper, voice laced with tears.

Rafe pulls you into his lips as the world outside the window roars with the new year, the clock striking midnight as your lips meet, your bodies tangled in sheets.

“Of course I love you, baby,” he mumbles.

“I love you too.”

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[hpalways]

genshin boys jealous of you

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters Included: Childe, Kazuha, Albedo

Warnings: Maybe slightly ooc (especially for Kazuha)

A/N: Hellooo, it’s been a hot minute, but stop by and request something if u want >.< I have none and bc I have none atm, it makes me lazy to write anything,,,, so yea, feel free to force me to write something keke

Childe

will be in the middle of sparring with you and asking you why you have eyes on a certain someone else. he’ll give taunts, teasing relentlessly to weasel the truth from you.

goes to great lengths to pay for your things. because he is rich like the fatui dumbass he is, he will use the opportunity to flex his mora and prove how much better he is than the other person. 

grows slightly clingy, so he stays by your side often. shows up unannounced and follows you to work or when you’re off on break. 

if you talk about the other person, he’ll grow quiet for a moment. his face will stay stoic and his responses to you will be kinda passive aggressive almost. 

starts training even harder before. when it comes that he’ll face his nemesis to win your love, he will do anything in his power to win. he’ll beat them up so you will never lay your eyes on them ever again. 

when you ask him what’s gotten into him, he responds with, “nothing is wrong here, dear comrade. but what’s gotten into you? you’re so distracted lately.”

you raise your brows, before telling him that you had a huge project for your job coming, leaving him feeling like an idiot he truly is.

Kazuha

as your guard, he sometimes accidentally eavesdrop upon your conversations. so to hear you whispering to a fellow friend about some guy, it leaves him in a frenzy. 

protective as hell, he strengthens his guarding duty and if any guy comes near you, he steps up with a mean glare on his usual gentle face. hand gripping the sword hanging on the side, he would not move an inch until you tell him to relax.

he tries not to show his jealousy each time the two of you stumble upon a traveling man, but instead of looking straight forward and staying professional, he always sneak glances at you. 

at night when you and kazuha would stop for the day and sleep under the stars, he sometimes stares at you longingly. wondering endlessly whether or not he has a chance, he brushes your forehead and kiss it while you’re sleeping. 

he wants to ask you outright, but he is also too scared to find the truth. 

his strange actions don’t go unnoticed. one day you come up to him to ask him why he was acting too protective. 

he looks down and kicks at the dirt beneath him. cheeks growing red, he finally blurts it out. “who is that guy you’re in love with?”

you pause for a moment, taken off guard, before bursting in laughter. “i’m not in love with anyone Kazuha...”

BAM! that doesn’t hurt any less. you aren’t in love with anyone, so you weren’t in love with him either. he squeezes his fists and feels more determined. at least he still has the chance to make you fall in love with him. 

Albedo

looks at the situation in another light. he questions the feeling of envy and ponder about it excessively, confused on why he can’t stop feeling this way for you. he wants to solve it through equations and alchemy! 

makes a charts pertaining you, himself, and the other love interest. writing down equations, he thinks up of ways to increase the gap between you and this other mysterious person you were talking about the other day. 

plays 100 questions with you, asking you anything he could think of to find solutions... and figure out who the other person is. very roundabout.... you are also very confused about how personal the questions are, but he brushes them off, convincing you that they’re for research. 

when he finally understands why he feels so jealous, he draws a picture of you. his heart races at the sight of you. then he draws one with you and another person. he has come to the same conclusion when his chest tightens at the drawing of you and another person.

he tells you his thoughts in a very straightforward manner. “after some research, I’ve found something, [Y/N]. I feel very jealous when you talk about that guy.”

flabbergasted, you have no idea what to say. you then tell him that he has no reason to feel jealous, because the person you had been talking about is your brother. 

he runs to his workstation, absolutely mortified and embarrassed. giving you the silent treatment, he digs into his studies and ignores your teasing. 

only when you come and give him a hug does he make a reaction, red in the face. 

[koushou]

hi!! could u do a oneshot for fem!mechanic!reader x childe, zhongli & albedo separately? if u only do one character per request, then i'd prefer childe - also i get the term 'mechanic' is kinda vague so i guess a reader who invents and repairs things could be another way to word it

pairings : childe, zhongli, albedo x f!mechanic!reader (separate)

{fluff, lots of crack}

warnings : none ! 

wc : 1.3k

a/n : i'm so so sorry this took so long TT it’s been a bit busy recently, anw thank you for requesting!! (the reader here is less of a mechanic, she just invents stuff; i hope u like them!)

 “Ouch!” 

Childe yelps as he steps on the hundredth nail that day in your shared home in Liyue, hopping on one foot in pain as you sheepishly send him an apologetic smile.

“Oops! Looks like I missed one.”

“Baby, you’re killing me - literally.”

You hum, happily returning back to whatever strange invention you had come up with that day, as Childe heaves a sigh and retreats away from the danger zone, aka anywhere within a 5-feet radius around you.

He grimaces, inspecting the minor outline the nail had made on the bottom of his right foot, before your voice rings through the air.

“Childe, come here!”

A few crashes and bangs sound from the other room you occupied, followed by a string of curses.

Yup, you really were going to kill him someday.

He makes his way cautiously to where you were, and he was surprised to see you holding a metal bow-shaped gadget with little parts attached on the sides.

“You mentioned wanting to improve on your archery skills, so this, my newest invention - you should be honored, by the way - is made just for you!”

You smile triumphantly at him, beginning to explain the functions of the gadget, the little parts that can assist him in working on his aim, how you could adjust the grip on the bow to make it more comfortable, and -

Childe couldn’t help the grin spreading across his face, he thought you looked the most beautiful when you talked about your passions and interests. Plus, you took your time and made it just for him?

He engulfs you in a hug, breaking you out of your rant, leaving you confused.

“I love you so much. Thank you for this, honey,” Childe suddenly proclaims.

You giggle, about to say it back when one of the small parts on the metal gadget in your hand falls off, landing right on your boyfriend’s foot.

“Ow--!” He limps with his unwounded foot before tripping again on the same nail he had stepped on earlier.

“Childe!” You rush over to him, bending down to offer him a hand before stepping on the nail yourself and falling right on top of him - also accidentally stepping on his wounded foot along the way.

Ignoring your half-dead boyfriend now on the verge of tears on the ground, you gasp at the sight of the nail.

“Oh, that must be the nail I was missing - that’s why the part fell off!”

Childe sighs again.

In Mondstadt, you two were known as the smartest couple. 

With Albedo as the Chief Alchemist of the Knights of Favonius, it was only natural he had a deep understanding in alchemy already. Paired with your unique skill in being able to repair and invent almost anything, experiments with you two were a daily routine.

“Darling, do you mind passing me the warming gadget you made earlier? I’m heading out to gather some ingredients for my next experiment.”

“Of course! Here.”

Being with the most dedicated alchemist of Mondstadt meant traveling quite a lot, especially to Dragonspine.

Of course, Albedo insists you stay home as it could be dangerous, but you argue that you would miss him too much. Plus, you could - quoted from you - “use your inventing abilities to assist him in his experiments.”

It would be a lie if Albedo said your skills haven’t come in handy, especially in situations like these.

“I designed it so that the colder the temperature gets, the more heat this gadget produces! Super helpful, right?”

Albedo chuckles, taking your latest invention from your hands, before smiling at your excited expression.

“Yes, dear. I’m not sure what I’d do without you.”

You giggle, leaning into him, planting a small kiss on his cheek before he sets out on his exploration.

“Ah - just remember to adjust the sensitivity when-“

You gasp suddenly in the middle of your sentence, eyes widening like it always did when you had some brilliant idea for your next creation.

“Wait, dear, what do you mea-“ Albedo starts, but stops as he watches you already busying yourself around the workspace, gathering materials with a wild grin on your face.

He sighs, smiling gently to himself as he decides it was probably nothing important.

-

He regrets not asking.

Albedo shivers, breathing out in relief as he spots the entrance to the camp.

The gadget had suddenly started producing an excessive amount of heat as he was starting to head back, too hot even in Dragonspine.

After the small gadget had become too hot for the touch, it let out a small explosion before letting out a trail of smoke indicating it was no longer usable.

The small explosion had shocked the blonde alchemist, resulting in him falling in a pile of snow.

Albedo steps into the safe confines of the camp, alerting you of his presence.

“Oh - you’re back Alb-” You pause, examining his appearance.

“Why are you covered in snow, dear?” 

He only sighs, as you narrow your eyes at the broken gadget in his hand. 

“Oh no - did you forget to adjust the sensitivity??” You furrow your eyebrows at the now useless tool, taking it from him and examining it carefully. 

“You didn’t tell me-” He starts to explain, before you interrupt him.

“I just made this, Albedo!” You pout at him, setting the broken object on the table, before huffing and walking towards the alchemist.

Grabbing a nearby towel, you start to clean him of the snow he had fallen in earlier, scolding him to be more careful.

“Go sit down, I’ll make you some hot chocolate. You’re gonna get sick.” You huff again, turning around leaving a very confused Albedo still standing.

He then breaks into a laugh, amused by your very unique way of caring for him. 

“I love you a lot, darling, you know?” He suddenly confesses while making his way to a seat.

“W-wha-” You almost dropped the cup in your hand, flustered. 

“Be quiet and drink your hot chocolate--!”

Your giggling could be heard as a confused Zhongli held a small controller in his hands, trying to navigate the robot dog on the floor.

“Zhongli - other way--!” 

“Like this?”

The dog crashed into the wall of your home, leaving Zhongli huffing and putting the controller down.

You couldn’t resist a laugh at your pouting boyfriend. “Aww, Zhongli, here I’ll show you!”

You take the controller and explain the buttons and how to move the dog properly, while he watches with a serious expression.

“Here, you try.”

Zhongli furrows his eyebrows, carefully moving the buttons as you instructed. When the dog finally moves in a direction that isn’t crashing into something, you could’ve sworn you saw Zhongli’s eyes light up.

You stifled a giggle at his excited expression, almost resisting the urge to ruffle his hair with how adorable he looked for such a seemingly mature man.

Without thinking, you leaned forward to press a kiss against his unknowing lips, to which Zhongli froze almost dropped the controller at the action.

“Ah-uhm,” The geo archon clears his throat, facing you with a raise of his eyebrows. “What was that for, love?”

You shake your head, leaning your head on his shoulder. “Nothing. You’re just too cute with that thing.” 

Zhongli chuckles, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. “Thank you for making this, darling. It is quite amusing to play with.”

A smile breaks across your face, sitting up to face him. “There’s a cool trick this dog can do, want to see?” 

He nods, curious as you take the controller from his hands.

Hiding a mischievous smile on your lips, you press a button on the bottom of the controller that sends the robotic dog jumping into Zhongli’s lap, startling the tall man.

The dog starts to lick Zhongli’s face - with its mechanical tongue - as he sputters and finally gets the dog to stay in place in his arms.

“Love - this is...the trick?” 

You burst out laughing at the still squirming dog in your shocked boyfriend’s arms, raising the controller again.

“There’s another trick too! Wanna s-”

“No.”

[wanou-dorm]

HSA - Nextunia - Blake Station 

@hourglassstationacademy /@fumikomiyasaki

𝗕𝗜𝗢𝗚𝗥𝗔𝗣𝗛𝗜𝗖𝗔𝗟 𝗜𝗡𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗠𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡

Name:Blake Station

HDD:  Dusk Heart  

Based on: Noire and Black heart

𝗚𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿: Male

𝗔𝗴𝗲: 18

𝗕𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵𝗱𝗮𝘆:  November 16

𝗦𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗴𝗻: Scorpio

𝗛𝗲𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁: 6’0

𝗘𝘆𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗿:Red , Cyan in  HDD

𝗛𝗮𝗶𝗿 𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗿: Black  into white , 

White into Black ( HDD)

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𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗙𝗙𝗘𝗦𝗦𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟 𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗧𝗨𝗦

𝗗𝗼𝗿𝗺: Nextunia 

𝗦𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗹 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿: Third year

𝗖𝗹𝗮𝘀𝘀: 3-D I just Realized I shoved him in a class with Flynn and Nanoya

𝗢𝗰𝗰𝘂𝗽𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻: Black sector leader / Vice Housewarden 

𝗖𝗹𝘂𝗯: Fencing 

𝗕𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝗷𝗲𝗰𝘁: Alchemy /Movement/Computer 

Sexuality: Pansexual 

Homeland: Fuujin city 

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𝗙𝗨𝗡 𝗙𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗦:

𝗗𝗼𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱: Right

𝗙𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗼𝗱: Freezdried  Cherries covered in Dark chocolate , Steak (medium well ) , Pudding 

𝗟𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗼𝗱: Oatmeal 

Likes: Attention , Friends , Perfection, Cosplay , Voice acting , anime , Singing , His Brother , Epel

𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲𝘀: “ I’m not Plutus’s Assistant I’m the Vice Housewarden  , “ Im not lonely,I have Friends, Yes Epel counts!? !” , I’m not a Tsundere stop calling  me that !, Vil , A lot of Pomefiore 

𝗛𝗼𝗯𝗯𝘆:  Cosplays,Making Games , Having a Secret Idol Identity .

𝗧𝗮𝗹𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀:  Fencing ,Cushioning Falls , Passing as a Girl, Amazing Vocal skills 

𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬 and Backstory: 

Local Tsundere Loner.Who doesn't have any friend a least that's What everyone in HSA Says. Blake is… Kind of super serious about about his Reputation seen as often a Haughty, Stubborn, Bossy  Jerk especially when Comes to how people describe how he treats his Brother and other  students, Being Somewhat dismissive . 

A Boy of Rather Complex  emotions, Blake likes to say “ He only Dose Everything  “ Which is kinda true , Blake is a Perfectionist  to a fault and foremost being someone who tries to perfect everything  he dose to keep up his Elegant and Graceful  appearances to be a perfect  role model for Black Sector .. It’s like If You  put Vil and Leroy  in a blender . Blake  Dose have Hobbies and Interest that  contradict this Elegant, Poised  and Majestic image he’s made for Himself such as a Certain virtual loud and bombastic rocker Idol that  been Heard throughout Melodiva and Evolnation called Onyx and His Love for Anime and Cosplay/Crossplay  this can Easily be used Against him as he’s easily flustered .  

Of Course Blake wouldn’t be called a Tsundere if he wasn’t Soft and Tender on the Inside cause with his Harsh Criticism and Opinions on thing. He truly dose care about the People he  Critique like his Brother  he doesn't tell some of his Dormmates  good Job very much as to  get better work from them as these are the ones who tend to grow lazy and Content when Praised and Thus don’t  innovate mechanics in thier games .

Blake is also super competitive and Stubborn  which is only Amplified In HDD , he also becomes more Similar to his V- Idol  Persona  however  more Subdue and dignified but Still aggressive a lot of people Compare Dusk to Vil.

Unique Magic 

Black Regality/ Only do everything -

Blake will be Become a master at a  selected task for 1-3 mins. During which he’ll do the said task at the level of Professional. He can only chose one task at a time .

Trivia 

Book Five 

Blake was Recurit by Charmix to aid In VDC as they need More People 

Blake Called out , Vil and Epel a few time during the practice before VDC  seeing them around town  he bought Epel ,a slice of Apple pie , Vil Precede to Get mad At Blake for Buying Epel, Ace and Deuce  that Cause “ Thier on a Diet “ to Which Blake Retorted with

 “so What , If He’s Craving something He should satisfy it so he doesn't Gorge himself later , that’s how most people accidentally fail their Diets. “

It also Implied that Blake dose Hang out with With Epel along with his Brother … in secret. Them Hanging out didn’t violate VDC rules as Blake wasn’t Asking about thier routines or Song even though Vil thought they were .

As For Calling out Epel , Blake actually bonked his head for Meaningless gendering thing like dance Moves and Running off giving “ You could get yourself Hurt like doing this you Getting  Kidnapped or something - Urgh!!, still that  Schonheit has a Point  about Your weird Complex about being  about girliness , I mean if I said   Something like I don’t  know your Apple Carving  was girly , would you quit doing  it just because I said it ?” That’s how Epel finally understood.

Epel Respects Blake more than Vil as Blake  Come off as more Genuine in trying  hammer in That There's nothing wrong with “ Girl stuff “  and that Gendering Stuff is Pointless. Mainly Because Blake and his brother tend to point out things and then actually say what’s wrong and give advice . 

This Man is Brave enough to Put his hand Vil’s makeup  filled face, but In Blake’s defense  Vil was getting  to close he just said Hey to Epel and He ask about  his VDC costume .

Again this is a Fix For  Book 5 . Vil is a Nice guy, I like Vil  but I can’t help feel his Actions with Epel  are  Out of Touch and somewhat Manipulative like promoting Epels Families Farm and Village just to get “teach a lesson”  or because he needed something from Epel . It rubs me the Wrong ways. 

Also Epel Doesn't completely Concede to Vil  by The end fuck that let Epel be right atleast once . 

Blake has implied that  Epel would be Suitable candidate of learning HDD …If  you gets The Joke  you get props . He also Says Cater and Kalimantan  are good Candidate  too .

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Stuff not related to Book 5 

his Birthday is same Day Sony Computer Entertainment/Sony interactive was founded

The emblem on his tie is also the Logo of Sony Computer Entertainment.

Blake is the one who implies what he the other  sector  leaders are  saying they were made  from the “Wishes “ of Different   Races in Twisted Wonderland.

Blake also implied that  they Usually don’t lean towards  one Race but cites  Alban as the exception  saying Alban was “Born” during a point where The Wishes of Monster bloods was At their highest  and strongest . 

Blake ‘s HDD share Similarities with the PS5

  

Blake is the Kind of person to do an pretty good improvise   dance number with the homies  to Single Ladies ,Roast Someone,while  doing it and then be embarrassed about  the video’s posted online

He’s Aware that People Fake being his friend..

Most people dont know that Onyx and Blake are. The same person .Charmix knows  this though .

Blake can mimic anyone’s Voice to A scarily accurate results ,  He accidentally tricked Rubina , Nanoya and Flynn  . In succession after a Poisonalle Student asked to hear an impression they almost thought they were going crazy. 

Yes Blake has the Best Relationship with Poisonialle considering  Persona track record … He is  slightly afraid of Flynn and Nanoya

Why? ,Blake got stuck in the Bathroom and  overheard  girl and  pushed off a Cliff and now thinks they got rope into something. 

Onyx is actually his Second V-idol persona the First  was Magical boy Obsidian and… it was  cringy

Voice Claim 

Sylvio Sawatari

Quattro( Onyx/ HDD)

Theme Song 

Shikoku no Sustain

Noire Theme

Banner

[getyourpaybackwithsomepayback]

okay well that’s more than I expected sooo

Latin or partially Latin in red, 9/10 or above in violet, 2/10 or below in green, more than one in pink

all songs from jwpepper, with at least some sheet music online avaliable and full recording of at least one arrangement

1. unconfined wings: to Althea, from prison.

8/10

Classical heavy, but the harmonies are awesome and the lyrics are pretty good

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/1.-Unconfined-Wings---To-Althea%2C-from-Prison/10794614.item

A dragon song

7/10

Dude why to TT unchanged songs hit so hard. Anyways. Meant to be silly song, I vibe w it fr. Points off for being repetitive.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/A-Dragon-Song/11198016.item

A man who wasn’t there

8/10

Oughhhh that dissonance consider my pants creamed y’all!!  Very creepy Halloween-y and melancholy

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/A-Man-Who-Wasn%27t-There/11341990.item

A very scary sleigh ride

2/10

Sounds like the alto line of jingle bells in one part. Do not listen. Angry at it. Lyrics are cliché.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/A-Man-Who-Wasn%27t-There/11341990.item

Ad Astra (LATIN)

8/10

Repetitive, but it’s a classic for me. Super optimistic.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Ad-Astra/10846403.item

Agnus, Agnus Dei (LATIN)

10/10

Amazing absolutely revolutionise that classical song 💯

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Agnus%2C-Agnus-Dei/11510542.item

Agnus Dei (LATIN)

5/10

It’s okay. Pretty basic. Imagining listening to it for the first time in like Ancient Greece tho and I’m vibing.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Agnus-Dei/10044094.item

Alchemy 

3/10

I’m gonna be honest I just like the title because @alchemicalwerewolf

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Alchemy/11513450.item

Autumn gives her hand to winter

14/10

Omg yes. Yes. Yes. Amazing. Splendid. Perfect actually.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Autumn-Gives-Her-Hand-to-Winter/10010720.item

Blow, Blow thou winter wind

7/10

I love the composer, and some of the harmonies are good, but the alto line is super high for my taste

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Blow%2C-Blow%2C-Thou-Winter-Wind/11525375.item

Blow, winds of fall

5/10

Pretty basic stuff. More good than bad, so 6. Point away for using the phrase “my feet”.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Blow%2C-Winds-of-Fall/10028520.item

Cold snap

6/10

Basic song, but the sneezing and coughing accents make it unique sooooo yk. Audience prolly needs a splash zone tho

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Cold-Snap/10590377.item

Come in from the firefly darkness

Biased/10

I’m biased. We were gonna do this song but the soprano 2s kept dicking around and ruined everything for us. Not nice. Good song tho, alto line eats 

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Come-in-from-the-Firefly-Darkness/3296684.item

Day of fire and sun

11/10

There’s a part for everyone in a treble choir y’all it actually eats so hard I love it also my grandpa hates it so extra point

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Day-of-Fire-and-Sun/11393878.item

Does the world say?

?/10

I’m gonna be so honest I can’t remember putting this song into my tab group. It just showed up one day. I don’t listen to it. Not gonna start now.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Does-the-World-Say%3F/11392436.item

Dolly waits

10/10

OUGHHHHH YEP HALLOWEEN the baritone soloist in the recording is amazing and the maniacal laughter on the last page is so perfect it kinda gives Jekyll and Hyde vibes yk

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Dolly-Waits/11569849.item

Dover Beach

10/10

Biased but like. Y’all it’s in my perfect range. Consider my pants creamed. Again. 

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Dover-Beach/11198013.item

Down to the river to pray

5/10

It’s okay, it’s a classic, I’m sad that I can’t hit some of the TB notes

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Down-to-the-River-to-Pray/10514067.item

Ella Sings

1/10

Such cringy lyrics and the scatting is so embarrassing 

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Ella-Sings/11561756.item

Firefly

4/10

Too unison for my tastes but it’s catchy

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Firefly/10029937.item

Follow the river

10/10

Perfect to fall asleep to. Found it because I was looking for a concert song of mine by the same name.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Follow-the-River/10006247.item

Hymn to the moon

7/10

Really classical heavy. Love the arrangement w mezzos and baritone tho. Absurdly long. 

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Hymn-to-the-Moon/10494363.item

Johnny said no!

7/10

Only in there for silly reasons but the rounds and harmonies are pretty good and the hayride verse kinda hits. Poor Johnny 😔

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Johnny-Said-No%21/3303190.item

Lacrimosa (LATIN)

8/10

I mean. Duh. Recording is rlly quiet tho the mezzo forte is not forteing

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Lacrimosa/10636757.item

Lunar Lullaby 

7/10

I get the hype but the recording is really scratchy and it’s not like amazing yk? It’s calming tho

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Lunar-Lullaby/10535552.item

Lux Aeterna (LATIN)

8/10

Very simple and easy to learn. I like it. Catchy too

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Lux-Aeterna/10509971.item

Mystery 

?/10

Rating is a mystery because some people love it some people hate it. Very dissonant. Good lyrics tho. Again, love the composer.

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Mystery/11513700.item

O magnum mysterium (LATIN)

5/10

Pretty basic for Latin, not as easy to learn as Lux Aeterna so lower rating

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/O-Magnum-Mysterium/10586916.item

O Nata Lux (LATIN)

Biased/10

Good song. Got rejected for a trio because one person dropped a week before auditions and the other one dropped two days before

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/O-Nata-Lux/11172875.item

Omnia Sol (LATIN)

10/10

Love the soprano high notes, vibe w the lyrics, my grandpa hates it, it’s a 10. Also the beginning mmm

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Omnia-Sol/10006501.item

Prayer of the children 

8/10

Good to yap over, like the lyrics, really long

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Prayer-of-the-Children/3032307.item

Sing to me

9/10

Starts off boring but gets happy and good and I like it

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Sing-to-Me/10291193.item

Song is not dead 

10/10

I vibe w it (I used it in a TGS edit once)

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Song-Is-Not-Dead/11561823.item

Stars I shall find

4/10

Basic 😔 so so so basic I’m sorry 

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Stars-I-Shall-Find/10047919.item

The Bat

6/10

Kinda cringe, reminds me of a song my choir did last year, like the piano part

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/The-Bat/11503298.item

The Moon

7/10

Eh. Easy to learn at least. Good for autumn I suppose

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/The-Moon/10047188.item

Time

10/10

Everyone I’ve shown this to has liked it so yk yeah it’s gotta be a 10

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Time/11513832.item

Time after time

2/10

Only on here because my friend liked it and I don’t have the heart to take it off the tab group and apparently it’s like a super old pop song

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Time-After-Time/10304394.item

Ubi Caritas (LATIN)

5/10

It’s okay v(-_-)v

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Ubi-Caritas/10810638.item

Whisper!

5/10

Kinda creepy at the end, my grandma likes it, it’s eh 

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/sheet-music/10190894.item

Windy nights

9/10

Reminds me of Dover Beach. Nothing wrong with it, it’s pretty good I’d say. Point off for lyrics: “by at the gallop he goes, and then by he comes back at the gallop again”

Link: https://www.jwpepper.com/Windy-Nights/3701035.item

If y’all have any recs for me or listen to any of these lmk pls 👉👈

choral playlist?

would any of y’all want a full list w descriptions and links of all the choral songs I listen to? Because I really wanna make one cause I have moots with like Spotify @ s and playlists and I can’t really do that so. Anyone interested? (Please say yes I only need one person (more is appreciated tho 👉👈))

[prettypinkpuddles]

More Genshin Headcanons

So I’m obsessed, I pulled yanfei and am currently BEGGING for Zhongli, I have some mora to spare- nope I just remembered yanfei’s talents... crap

But instead of me whining, enjoy more Headcanons

And disclaimer, for people like Klee and QiQi, the Headcanons will have a sibling/ friend dynamic. And these will all be fluffy, regardless of age

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Please.. just tell Ganyu she’s doing a good job, even if she doesn’t want to hear it. Tell her she doesn’t have to be more human or adeptus, just herself.

Ninguang and little parties, like having new imported tea or some new exotic food, like fancy meat. She probably makes a small big deal out of it when she gets something that looks tasty. And SHOPPING. Especially for jades, she wants you guys to be matching and looking so good.

Making cookies with Klee, it’d be such a mess, she’d try to eat sugar by the measuring cupful. Probably mistake sugar for salt in a batch or for herself and quickly learn her lesson.

Sucrose and hunting for alchemy ingredients. That’s all. Just imagine her falling in the lake while looking for frogs. She’d be so flustered and embarrassed so you’d fall with her to make her feel better.

Face masks with Amber, and ofc Barron Bunny.

Lisa loves organizing books with you, but loves reading her favorites to you more. Your head in her lap and her stroking you hair as she reads to you.

Practice with Noelle. She deserves to be a knight and each time she doesn’t make the cut, you go storming into Jean’s or Kaeya’s office demanding to know why and she always has to get you or you’ll end up destroying the entire place.

Imagine ironing Zhongli’s stuff or making breakfast and he comes out the shower and he just wraps his arms around you as his endless hair pools over his shoulders. Give him a kiss plz.

Sing Xiao to sleep. He can’t really sleep until complete exhaustion, but you singing to him will slowly lull him to sleep. And SOMETIMES, he’ll hum or sing for you. If you ask, he’ll tell you about one of his battles. He hates when you stay up with him, until sunrise. He will demand you go to sleep.

Cuddles with Barbara. She’ll ramble on about her troubles and you can give her advice but she’ll just think you’re trying to get her to shut up. So just listen

So those thingumabobs on Rosaria’s fingers, imagine replacing those or filing them back. She’d get a bit mad at you the first time but once you explain that they were getting dull and needed to be kept sharp, she’d kinda expect new or sharpened ones every month or two.

Chongyun and massages. Or just cuddles and little touches. He can handle that kind of warmth and kinda likes it so he’ll want to hold your hand all the time. He might put you in his lap when he’s sitting, give you hugs when he leaves to go purge evil or cuddles when he’s sleepy and I feel like he’s almost always sleepy.

Kaeya loves giving icy touches. He’ll walk past you in the library and poke your rib, but when you turn to him, he’ll just be talking to Huffman. He’ll come up behind you, his chin in your neck and give you cold ass tickles. It’ll make you squeal for him to stop but he’ll only kiss your face and smirk.

You’re officially Xiangling’s personal taste tester. You’ll get better at telling her about the textures, even the tiniest spices. One time she put a bunch of juyeun chilis in the food and... your ears ended up burning(happened to me before) you ended up giving the food to Gouba, he’ll be fineeee

Ok I’m done.

[cafe-de-lune]

Ah matchups are open? Can I have a genshin matchup then please? I am an adult non-binary person who is very short. I’m quiet around crowds but when I find someone I like to be around I can sometimes be quite rowdy and loud. I have adhd and it can cause me to be sensitive towards things. I love to draw and learn about everything about the world, particularly in science things like biology. I think that’s it! I’m an INTP I believe. I feel like I have a very vulture culture or goth aesthetic but very casual goth if anything. I’m very affectionate once I warm up to people. Thanks so much, and if they aren’t open I’m sorry.

꒰ ☕️ ꒱ؘ Order: Cappuccino ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ

I match you up with . . . . ♡

ຳི⟡᎒ albedo ✿ೃ*

. . ⇢ [ falling in love . ] ˎˊ˗ ꒰ ☕️ ꒱

The traveller would have introduced you two. Once upon a time, Paimon and the traveller were hanging out with Albedo and Paimon the emergency food said something along the lines of “hey! This really seems like something (name) would be interested in!”

And albedo would be like “oh? And who may that be?” Paimon would then explain that you helped them with their travels using your knowledge and that you have a vast amount of knowledge in the field of biology

And it would end about there. That was until the traveller but more specifically Paimon, urged you to come along with them in their journey to meet this person named “albedo” who was a seasoned alchemist.

“C’mon (name)! Don’t you want to see the world? It would be beneficial for you!! And plus don’t you want to meet a famous alchemist and learn more things? Or perhaps you’d like to learn more about sweet flower? We know some people!” - Paimon

Paimon would somehow convince you to go along with the traveller and you end up going to the City of Freedom and eventually meeting the infamous Albedo himself. Though the meeting was more chaotic than you expected

What was suppose to be a short and relatively peaceful trip to the Knights of Favonius Headquarters ended up being you, Traveller + Paimon, and Albedo looking for a little girl named Klee who was rumoured to be very very very dangerous

It was needless to say you and Albedo didn’t really have much time to greet and introduce each other before being interrupted by Paimon pointing out a thin wisp of black smoke floating up in the distant

But Klee, this time, proved harder to find. The trails of burnt grass disappeared and appeared at random. But when you do find her, she was sitting down trying to hold her tears back because she scrapped her knee

Your knowledge about the world and biology came in handy this time. You would just so happen find a herb that is good for healing minor injuries and you would tend to her injury (this is also probably because you did it to traveller when you two were travelling) and albedo would thank you for that

And long story short, you two ended up teaching each other about different aspects of the world. Him teaching you about alchemy and you teaching him about biology and the other things you learned while travelling

It’s kinda to the point where you two are assistants of each other. It’s a mutualistic relationship in which you two help each other with your research

And to albedo, even though you were initially quiet and didn’t talk much, you had a fire within you. You weren’t quiet; you were loud and rowdy. You were able to keep up with an energetic and rather loud child like Klee. But at the same time, you have your sensitive side

Much like with the traveller, albedo liked observing you and the sides you show him. There isn’t really a moment where he find it boring with you. And that was when he falls for you. The more he observes, the more he falls

. . ⇢ [ confessing . ] ˎˊ˗ ꒰ ☕️ ꒱

Albedo would confess after a long time of thought. He would think about how to confess for a long time too. And this usually happens when he is cooped up in dragonspine doing “research”. (In actuality he isn’t really paying attention and he isn’t very himself. He would accidentally boil the chemicals for too long and only find out when Timaeus shouts a quick warning.)

He would probably go the traditional way of just confessing to you with a bouquet of flowers or things you like.

But it didn’t work out for him like that. And he was kinda forced to confess a little sooner than planned because of of Klee

one day, you and him were in his lab in the knights of favonius headquarters and Klee was in there as well. And all of a sudden Klee would tug your hand and gesture you to bend down to her height.

“You know you know! Brother albedo really likes you and he always smiles a lot when he is around you. So please stay in Monstadt for a little longer! Pretty please!!!”

Of course, since albedo was in the room, he too also heard Klee inadvertently exposing his feelings towards you. So when you quickly glance at Albedo, his usual no expression face turned into a surprised one with a little pink dusted onto his cheeks

He would be rendered speechless for a few seconds. But then he would be like “Klee, I heard Kaeya was looking for you earlier. Why don’t you look for him?” (It’s a lie. Kaeya was not looking for Klee. He just thought it would be more appropriate. But when Klee went to Kaeya there was a moment of confusion before Kaeya took advantage of the situation and let Klee loose with her bombs.)

When Klee left the room humming, there pups be a moment of awkward silence before Albedo spoke to you and admitted that he has developed some feelings for you. He would the ask you out and patiently wait for your response

if you say yes, he would smile. But that wasn’t all. If you pay attention to the tips of his ears, they would be red and that was how you can tell Albedo was flustered even though his face doesn’t really say it

. . ⇢ [ dating . ] ˎˊ˗ ꒰ ☕️ ꒱

I hope you like or can tolerate the cold because Albedo is often at Dragonspine where it’s cold. If you are visionless, he would be more hesitant on letting you go to Dragonspine to meet him and would thus suggest you two go to Dragonspine together. But if you have a vision, he would be less hesitant on letting you meet him at Dragonspine. But he would still suggest you two go together as he knows the dangers of that mountain

You two would often paint/draw together. Sometimes, you two would be drawing side by side in silence in Dragonspine. And other times, you two would be in a warmer place like Windrise. (And if you look carefully, he would sneak some glances at you from time to time and just have a little smile plastered on his face)

In his sketchbook, ever since you two started dating, he would draw/sketch you a lot. (It’s just because you are on his mind often) And one day, he would probably even gift you with a self portrait.

The exchange of information and learning with each other doesn’t stop. It continues but with more affection (of course behind closed doors). For example, when you are reading something on the book, he would sometimes come over and give you your favourite drink and kiss you on your forehead before going off doing his own things

And on your part, even though he isn’t the most touchy person, he would come to love the affection you show him. Hand holding, kisses, hugs—he especially loves you giving him a back hug and ending up resting your head on his back (but just don’t give him one when he is doing something dangerous like pouring chemicals and stuff)

He is a very patient person (practice because of Klee haha) and so when you are feeling sensitive, he would stop whatever he was doing and go help you. And he honestly is the best at it because he is such a patient person. (Though the first few times he may be a little lost at what to do but because of his good observation skills, he learns very fast)

I can see him unknowingly being very romantic and smooth. At times, he would manifest a Cecelia flower from alchemy and just tuck it behind your ears and admire you. And other times, he would gift you thinks that fit your aesthetic

He is really more of an action speaks louder than words person. (In terms of romance that is) For example, when you two are in Dragonspine, he would craft more of those seelie warm bottle thingys and make sure his camp has a lot in stock for you. And ever since you started to date him, you don’t run out of materials because he checks them periodically and replaces/restock it for you

He is the type of person who would randomly give you a book he thinks you would find interesting. And it always happens to be interesting. And it’s not only literature that he does this to. If he discoverers an interesting specimen or item, you would probably be the first person he tells you about

Albedo would cook for you and his food comes out really good. And if you praise him for it, he would smile and the tips of his ears would turn red just like how it did when he confessed to you. (And ever since then, he would cook for you more often.)

Klee would be such a tattletale but in a good way. He would expose all of Albedo’s secret and feelings that he never said himself. And whenever Albedo is planning something like a surprise for your birthday or something, he would have to be careful Klee doesn’t know or else she would unknowingly reveal it to you

Speaking of Klee, she would come to adore you. She would draw cute little pictures of you, her, albedo and Alice together with her crayons and give it to you every so often (pls if Alice comes back from her adventure and finds out albedo is dating someone, she would first tease the shit out of albedo and then treat you like you like you and albedo are already married)

All in all, albedo would be a very attentive boyfriend who shows more affection behind closed doors. And you two would honestly be a power couple with both of your knowledge combined together. 100/10 recommend

. . ⇢ [ couple pics . ] ˎˊ˗ ꒰ ☕️ ꒱

. . ⇢ [ other compatibles . ] ˎˊ˗ ꒰ ☕️ ꒱

.˚🌙 ༘┊͙ Lisa Minci ;

You have special access to books in the library. And your due date gets secretly extended because you have privileges brought to you by Lisa Minci. And this means access to books about science and biology or whatever suits your interest. And if you want a book that’s in the restricted zone, she may or may not ask Jean if you can read that book. :))

Lisa is a fairly tall lady so the height difference between you two would be really cute!!! She loves to tease you by holding stuff just like an inch out of reach and watch you jump for it. And sometimes, she purposely doesn’t lean down so that you would have to go on your tippy toes to kiss her.

As a scholar herself (even though she may be lazy) she would do her best to support you and your research. When she gets a day off from her Liberian duties, sometimes you two go out in the wild just to see whatever the world has to offer you

. . . . . ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ,, i hope you liked it!!! <333 ⌲˘͈ᵕ˘͈

[mangolover]

Hi! Can I request Albedo with prompt 7? Gender neutral reader. Thank you! And congrats on 50 followers!!!

Hey, thank you so much for the request!

I wanted to write something for Albedo for so long, but I can always think of pure angst and since I just posted some Childe angst, I couldn’t do that to Albedo as well. I decided to turn it into an angst to fluff piece the last minute so yeah.

Anyways, without futher ado, here is your request! I hope you enjoy it!

50 Followers Drabble Event, prompt #7 with Albedo

If you wish to check out the offical “50 Followers Drabble Event”, press here

Title: Lost in the Labyrinth of Love

Prompt: “Come back to bed. Please.”

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Pairing: Albedo x gn! reader

Genre: Angst to Fluff

Warnings: neglect (kinda?), not really a healthy relationship (no communication)

Spoilers: none

Word Count: 900+

Description: Albedo always puts his research before you and tonight you finally had enough and decided to leave the bed when he laid down, only for him to follow you and sleep with you on the couch.

Albedo is like “if you’re not gonna sleep with me in the bed, then i’m gonna sleep with you on the couch” 🥺

Also, this portrays unhealthy relationship. Please be aware that I do not support it and this is a work of fiction. It’s nothing too major, just lack of communication between the partners.

I am also Albedo simp and have a few ideas for him that I want to write, but they are all angsty because I didn’t get him on his banner, I was close 😔

Also I am aware that drabble is supposed to be under 100 words, but I consider it to be under 1000 words

Lost in the Labyrinth of Love

You were laying in your bed on your side, silent tears rolling down your cheeks as your cradled the blanket tightly over your body. Once again, your back was cold because he wasn’t there. The man you let in your bed, was almost never in your bed. You would go to sleep without him and, if you had luck, woke up only to see him exiting the room, only placing a small kiss you barely felt on your cheek before he went back to his research, leaving you behind like he always did.

Today was no exception. You couldn’t fall asleep and the wall you were staring at didn’t have anything to pique your interest anymore. The night was cold, winter was approaching and you just wanted to feel his warmth for a bit, but he wasn’t here. You were sad, hurt, confused, but the most intense emotion you were feeling was frustration. You were furious at Albedo for never being there for you. He never communicated with you, you didn’t have a proper conversation, or any for that matter, for months now. You were always too tired to talk to him and he didn’t answer you murmured words, always leaving the room behind and closing the door. But the hurt you feel because it seems like he always puts you after his research while you always put him first was only adding fuel to the flames inside your chest.

The clock on the wall kept on tickling, the tears kept on sliding your cheeks and wetting the pillow, you kept on staring right through the wall, thinking of what to do next. You know relationship are never easy, but this wasn’t even a relationship anymore, you and Albedo got separated in a labyrinth when you let go of his hand for just a second and now whenever you ran to him, he always disappears. Only thing you can do now is to try and find a way out of it before you get lost forever.

Late in the night you could hear the lock on the main door unlocking and you knew it was your partner, the alchemy genius. You could hear him walking around the house for a few minutes, probably getting ready for bed and then he opened the doors to bedroom. His tired eyes widening a bit in surprise when he found you staring at the wall.

“Are you alright y/n?” he initiated conversation for the first time in forever, but it was too late.

“…” you spared a glance at him before quickly shutting your eyes and burying your face in the pillow.

You could feel his stare on you, he was confused and probably was trying to analyze you, just like he always did, but tonight you couldn’t be bothered to try and explain that’s not how it works. He quickly got into his sleeping clothes and eased himself under the blanket next to you. He put one hand around your waist and pulled you close to him, turning off the candle you had in your bedside lantern.

You wanted this for so long, but you resisted the urge to melt into his warm embrace, instead going stiff as a board against him, your breath hitched in your throat. But you didn’t want this, this was just an illusion in this labyrinth, it wasn’t the real Albedo you longed for so long, so you decided to leave.

You pulled away from him, grabbing your pillow and making your way to the closet to grab the spare blanket you had in there. Albedo was startled and his gaze was full of confusion, he made a small light and looked at you, “y/n what’s wrong?”

But that’s when he finally saw how red your eyes were and the remaining traces of tears that glistened on your cheeks as you shot him a dejected look. So many emotions flashed in his bright teal eyes, he was finally hit with the realization of just how much he hurt you.

“Y/n, listen-“ but you cut him off when you slammed the closet door closed and stomped your way to the bedroom door. As your hand touched the handle you heard him behind you, his tone full of sadness and hurt: “Come back to bed. Please.”

You gave him one more painful look before you opened the door and stepped in the hall. “Goodnight Albedo” you said softly with a sad smile, but your back was turned on him so he didn’t see the new tears already escaping. You closed the door behind you softly and slowly made your way to the couch in your shared living room where you put your pillow and laid down, covering yourself with the blanket, closing your eyes and awaiting the unconsciousness to finally take over.

In a few minutes you felt someone’s presence against your back and felt someone’s warmth against your back once again. Albedo was on laying o the literal edge and whispering sincere apologies in your ear as he held you close.

You smiled and scooted over so he wouldn’t fall from the couch and when he moved closer to you, you just snuggled up to him.

Communication is all you two need and in the morning you two can talk things over, but for now you just enjoyed his warmth, thankful to the Archons that they led him to you instead.

[the-ferocious-kittyrose]

What I would’ve done w/ Lotor’s character

It’s not exactly a secret to anyone who’s been following me for a while that I’m not the biggest fan of canon Lotor. I had high hopes for the character from his 80s counterpart and intro in season 3 but I was really let down by the direction the writers went with him in canon.

When he was introduced, I was so hoping for him to be this cocky manipulative asshole that’s only out for himself. I love that character archetype so goddamn much.

But in canon he was just kinda boring to me. His personality was bland and his motivations never really made sense. He’s introduced using empty promises of peace and comradery to manipulate people, then its revealed that he actually does want peace and comradery and wants to lead a peaceful empire, then that turns into draining Alteans and wanting to kill all Galra...

I also didn’t like how the writers decide to tack on this whole child abuse plot to explain why he was the way he was. As if that’s the only way to make a villain sympathetic. Yeah other versions of Voltron have touched on Lotor’s childhood before and it was never pleasant, but VLD really leaned into that shit, to the point where it felt like the writers were just shoving angst down our throats thinking that equals good writing.

It takes more than a tragic backstory to make a character compelling. It takes an interesting personally and motivations that make sense. And you can make a character tragic/sympathetic in more subtle ways.

For me personally, I wanted Lotor to be a sorta fusion of Loki and Littlefinger in space.

Loki is a sly trickster who grew up feeling like an outcast, unaware of his true heritage. He grew up believing he could be king but when his shity father handed it to his perfect brother he felt he had been robbed and decided to take the throne by force.

Littlefinger is a small man from a small house with no power, and after getting the shit beat out of him trying to win the hand of the girl he loved, he decided he would use his intelligence and skills in manipulation to screw over all these noble lords and weasel his way into the throne. And when he did he would finally get vengeance on all those who had looked down on him.

I feel like this fits Lotor well. Lotor is a prince, so he isn’t small in that regard, but he is not respected in the way a prince should be.

He is a lot smaller than the average Galra. And even though Lotor is still quite strong, developing a fighting style that suits his small form and uses his opponents size against them, in a society so heavily based on physical strength that’s still a big blow to your rep.

He employs half breeds, which we know are looked down on in the empire. And there are definitely rumors about Lotor himself being a half breed. I think after 10,000 years Zarkon would’ve done a pretty good job at hiding Lotor’s heritage from the public but just looking at him compared to the average Galra there’s going to be some suspicion there. On that note Lotor is probably considered butt ugly by the Galra.

And Lotor works in the shadows and achieves his goals through lies and trickery, which Lotor himself says are things the empire looks down on.

So yeah, the people in the empire hate Lotor. Even Sendak who’s all ‘Gung ho empire’ has no respect for Lotor. And because of this it would probably be up in the air whether or not Lotor would even be allowed to take the throne if his father were to pass, even though it’s his birthright.

And in the face of all this rampant disrespect, Lotor decides that he is going to overthrow his father and take the throne. And when he does he will take vengeance on everyone who had ever undermined him and expand the empire beyond anything his father could’ve dreamed of.

And don’t try telling me, “oh that’s so out of character! Lotor would never take pleasure in the pain of others!” Because he does.

Remember Throk? Remember how Lotor sent him away to the worst station in the empire and joked about letting him, “rot with the ice worms?” Remember how Lotor later invaded his station then watched with a grin as he was tortured by Haggar?

Lotor 100% takes pleasure in hurting those who would hurt him, because it makes him feel powerful.

Now let’s talk about Lotor’s planet. The one given to him and destroyed by Zarkon. I always felt weird about this plot. Obviously it’s a very sad thing to have happen, but I always liked the idea of Lotor’s promises of peace to be empty, a means of manipulating people. So this whole situation being genuine feels weird to me.

In my version, Lotor didn’t get banished for being too kind. He got banished because Zarkon caught him in a plot to betray him.

When Lotor was put in charge of the planet, he seduced and married the princess Ventar. He filled her head with promises that her people would be free and they would rule the universe together and convinced her to secretly round up her armies and send word to her ally planets to do the same, so they could start planning a way to overthrow Zarkon.

It’s left ambiguous whether or not he was being genuine and whether he really loved Ventar and intended to keep his promises to her or if she was just a tool to get the throne. But either way, it ends the same. Zarkon finds out, destroys the planet, kills Ventar, and exiles Lotor.

Still sad/humiliating thing for Lotor, and definitely a story that could gain sympathy from Allura.

Speaking of Allura and Ventar, let’s talk about Lotor’s relationship with the women in his life.

(Trigger Warning: Brief mention of of a rape scene in GoLion)

In the 80s Lotor was incredibly misogynistic. He walked around with a harem of half naked women, tried repeatedly to kidnap and marry Allura against her will, and in GoLion it’s heavily implied that he raped Romelle because she looked like Allura.

It’s a common joke in the fandom that he went from this to drinking respect women juice in VLD but I don’t know if I’d go that far.

He’s definitely better in VLD than he was in the 80s, but even in VLD he manipulates, uses, and hurts most of the women in his life.

Allura is the obvious example, but you also have his generals. Acxa talks to the paladins, Allura in particular, about how persuasive Lotor could be. Implying that she and the other general were manipulated the same way Allura was.

Well not EXACTLY the same way Allura was, romantically I mean. Though there are people who believe that Acxa was also in love with Lotor and he used that to his advantage, which I can see.

But I feel like it was more about giving them a place in an empire that didn’t care about or accept them.

I hate The Last Jedi but I really feel like the line, “you’re nothing, but not to me,” fits really well. They were outsiders with no place to go until Lotor swooped in and gave them a purpose.

Do I think that there was a part of Lotor that genuinely wanted to help them because he saw a kindred spirit in them? Yeah. But I also think that at the end of the day, they were more tools than real friends. And he had no qualms about killing them if they betrayed him.

The situation with Narti proves that. As well as the fact that Ezor and Zethrid seemed very scared of the prospect of Lotor being alive and coming for them.

And then you have Allura. Lotor’s lust for Allura has always been a very important part of his character. In the 80s the reason behind his obsession with her was that he had a lot of baggage about his mother and had a thing for women that looked like her. Also the fact that he just didn’t like not getting something he wanted.

There was never any love. He didn’t want to be with her, he wanted to own her.

In VLD, his want for Allura seems to stem more from the fact that she’s Altean than an Oedipus complex. As well as the fact that she’s powerful and skilled in Altean alchemy, which makes her rather useful.

I don’t personally believe that Lotor ever really Loved Allura. I think he liked the idea of her and what she could do for him, but the end of the day she was more a means to an end than anything else.

Allura’s been trough a lot. Zarkon betrayed her family and destroyed her entire planet only about a year ago from her point of view, and she appears to have a pretty bad case of survivors guilt and PTSD. And to make matters worse, while Lotor was on the ship she was fighting with Shiro, someone she clearly cared about. The idea of loosing him after already losing so much must’ve been really painful.

She was hurting, conflicted, and lonely. Which made her all the more vulnerable to Lotor’s manipulation.

He took advantage of her loneliness and insecurities, making her believe she had found someone who understood her and could help her avenge her family and planet. She trusted him, let herself be vulnerable around him, which made it hurt even more when it was revealed to all be a ruse.

And then you have his relationship with his mother Honerva/Haggar.

I talked a lot about this in my whole rewrite/rant about Honerva, but I’m not a fan of how they made their relationship 100% negative. I feel like it robs the show of a lot of interesting character interaction.

It’s sad. The whole relationship is really tragic. Shit like this is literally my worst nightmare. The thought of looking my mom in the face and have her not recognize me as her daughter keeps me up at night.

But the thing is, in canon the relationship kinda falls flat because Lotor and Haggar/Honerva have no connection. Haggar was awful to Lotor and Lotor hates Haggar. What reason do I have to be invested in their relationship?

So If you haven’t read my Honerva rant, here’s how I would’ve done the Honerva Lotor relationship.

10,000 years ago, when Alfor came to Dibazzal to convince Zarkon to close the rift, Honerva went into labor. Alfor and many Galran doctors tried there best to save her and the baby, but the quintessence had damaged her body so much that she couldn’t be saved and died in childbirth.

Zarkon went ballistic and Alfor had the doctors take baby Lotor somewhere safe, fearing Zarkon would take his grief and anger out on the child.

After Honerva was resurrected as Haggar and throughout Lotor’s childhood, they had a strange sort of relationship. Lotor was an inquisitive child and was always curious about Haggar and her work, making a habit of following her around like a little shadow and watching as she worked. And there was also the fact that, while his father was never friendly, he was calmer when she was around.

Haggar had no idea what to make of this weird child following her around all the time. All these big strong Galra were terrified of her but this tiny child showed no fear as he tugged on her robes and excitedly asked questions about her work. And she never minded. She didn’t know why or how to explain it, but she cared for the child. As much as a soulless undead witch could care for something anyway.

But as time went on there relationship became more and more strained. Lotor was a smart kid he was gonna find out about his mother and deduce what happened to her.

He resented Haggar. Resented her for not remembering him. Resented her for the fact that he had to go through life without a mother while she was right there. And he resented her for being loyal to Zarkon, who had been making his life hell for thousands of years.

Every time she showed him something resembling kindness he’s conflicted. He knows he should feel happy that she cares, but at the same time, why does she care? It’s not like she sees him as her son.

He turned to denial, insisting that Haggar couldn’t possibly be his mother, even though he new the truth deep down, and a part of him always secretly longed for her to remember who she was, who he was, and embrace him as her son. He hates that part of himself.

And when he does meet Honerva for the first time, it’s... tense... to say the least. Having his mother reach out to him and acknowledge him as her son is something he thought would bring him joy, but in that moment all the pain he went through rises back to the surface and he lashes out. He draws his sword and is about to cut her down but he hesitates. He’s trembling with tears in his eyes. He can’t forgive her, but he also can’t bring himself to kill her.

Then you have his relationship with his father.

It’s no secret that Zarkon is an awful man and a shity father, always has been.

The explanation as to why is kinda shaky. All we get is Zarkon saying Lotor is his greatest shame because he’s Altean but I don’t know about that. Zarkon may hate Alteans but he loved Honerva and I don’t think he would be ashamed of his relationship with her.

He definitely did his best Lotor’s heritage from the public. But I don’t think that’s the reason he hates him.

In my version of the story, Zarkon hates Lotor because Honerva died giving birth to him and Zarkon blames him for her death. He lost his beloved wife and was forced to watch the son that killed her waltz around wearing her face.

It didn’t help that Lotor was a snarky rebellious kid that liked to show off. He did things his own way, didn’t care much for rules, and had a real knack for finding loopholes. All things that made his strict father very angry. He was an embarrassment. Small and rebellious. That’s why Zarkon began training Sendak.

I personally believe the reason Zarkon was so trusting of Sendak and had so much faith in him was because Zarkon had been grooming him to be his “true heir.” Sendak is the epitome of what a Galra should be. Strong, loyal, and brave. He would be the son Zarkon wished he had. The favorite child.

Lotor obviously hates Zarkon, and rightfully so. Zarkon hates him for something he had no control over and constantly disrespects him.

Lotor may not follow the rules, but he passes every trial. He excels at everything he does but Zarkon refuses to see that all because he blames him for Honerva’s death.

Lotor sees Zarkon as an old fool. He knows that he could do a far better job at running the empire.

Lotor dedicated thousands of years of his life to overthrowing Zarkon. His hatred for his father was his motivation, what got him out of bed every morning, so when the deed is done and Zarkon was finally defeated, in the moments after he felt empty.

But he didn’t have time to dwell on that feeling for long. He still had to deal with his father’s men and take the throne that was rightfully his.

Then you have his plan.

Lotor’s plan in VLD is really weird and over complicated. There was no real reason for the whole draining Alteans thing. Just a lazy way of making him 100% evil.

The plot could’ve been a lot simpler. He gains the paladins trust, gets them to help him build his ships and overthrow Zarkon, and then once he has the throne he pulls an Uno reverse card and is like, “yeah, nothing personal but this was all a trick and imma lock you and your lions up now.”

Obviously more complicated than that but that’s the basic idea.

One of my main problems with VLD is that they had a bad habit of over complicating the plot. People don’t care about VLD because of the plot, they care about the characters and their relationships, the actual plot doesn’t have to be anything spectacular.

It’s strange to say but I feel like the writes tried too hard with Lotor. He had the potential to be an amazing villain but the writers were too focused on tricking the audience and making him angsty that they forgot to make him compelling.

[mrpenguinpants]

hellooo this is not a request but what do u think of the new upcoming character (he'll probably get release like... at least after 2 years ig TAT) Dainsleif?

Major spoilers for Kaeya’s Character Story and Khaenri'ah Lore. 

TLDR: I like the potential Dainsleif has plus his design is really nice. He might be a catalyst or sword user with empowered auto's or he might be similar to Zhongli that uses field effects and has a delete button for his elemental burst. 

I have many theories on who Dainsleif is and that he is either some type of traveler/god/homunculus and he has the element of ash or quintessence. The opposite of dendro and nature. I'd like to believe that the lore of Khaenri'ah relates to his story and his attitude (since he's from there originally) and it's a desolate place with no archon blessings so the people themselves had to develop their own methods to survive, hence the art of alchemy Khemia. When Dainsleif get's introduced, mostly likely towards the very end, we might find out why Scaramouche said the sky and the stars was a gigantic hoax and the truth behind Kaeya. 

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ANON. YOU. YOU GET A COOKIE. I LOVE TALKING ABOUT STORY AND CHARACTER LORE SO MUCH.

Please, if any of you wanna talk about this I’m totally on board. I love Dainsleif and I’m so upset he’ll probably be released towards end game so yeah two years at least;; 

Okay, so level with me. I’m about to bring out the whiteboard for this. I tried to format it so it was easier to digest but this is pure word vomit and I went overboard again. 

What do u think of the new upcoming character Dainsleif?

I’m very excited. I think his design is beautiful and I want those lore bomb drops. 

Firstly, I can’t wait for him to drop. I’m always a sucker for lore and he’s been dropping hints from the start since he narrates all the character’s collected miscellany. He does remind of me Dimitri from FE3H but I’m excited for more Khaenri’ah lore. 

I have some theories about where the story will go with him and  Khaenri’ah but those are some major spoilers so I left a read more tag if you’re interested. 

Tumblr won’t let me upload his splash art but just google it lol.

Which weapon will he use? 

Catalyst or Sword. He might have empowered autos like Diluc and Razor or he might apply a mark like Childe. 

I can see him being a castor since his right arm is glowing. But he might also be a sword user that uses empowered auto’s like Diluc and Razor. Since the name Dainsleif was King Högni's sword during the battle of Hjaðningavíg. According to the reliable source of wiki, whatever wound the Dainsleif sword cause could not be healed. 

I think it would be cool if his auto’s apply a stack/mark (similar to Childe’s riptide mark), and after 3 auto’s the mark is consumed and the enemy gets dealt heavy damage. Or maybe you can apply debuffs like “defense down” or maybe even a blind, based on the number to stacks you have on the mark. 

What vision will he have?

A hydro vision or a custom one (similar to a delusion). Or he doesn’t have a vision at all and uses alchemy or is secretly a “god”.

As for vision, he might be a hydro character since his splash art appears like he’s coming out of a ball of water. I’ve heard people say he might be cyro also, which wouldn’t be extremely off if visions actually correspond with their user. 

Or he might be introduced with an entirely new element (perhaps a new type of alchemy?). His star is a dark blue too so he might have the element of black mist/dust or ash/shadows as a potential power. 

In the Albedo trailer he mentions:

"But I know it well. It hails from Khaenri'ah: The Art of Khemia. Soil and chalk, the universe and earth, pure dust and the birth of life.”

Perhaps this is the vision/power that Dainsleif has? Maybe even the creator or maybe he even taught Albedo’s Master how to do Khemia. I don’t think he really encompasses the Geo vision (I will seriously write an 11 page essay on how vision’s correspond with their holder). We don’t know a lot about Dendro but I think he might be related to it. But just like Khaenri’ah, he’s reflects the opposite. Instead of “birth of life” and tree’s, he’s the “death of life” and ash. (wow doesn’t that sound deep lolol sorry I don’t really know how to explain it). The way he talks in trailers, he says “mortals” a lot but does vouch for them so it makes me wonder if he might actually be a god. 

Also his title is the “Bough Keeper”. A bough means: a main branch of a tree. This makes me believe that he can either do something similar to what Albedo showed us and can create life or he does the opposite and creates ash. Honestly, a part of me believes he might just have generic moveset’s like everyone else but let me dream lol. 

Or he might not even be a vision holder since we don’t see him holding one, but we only have this angle and art to go off on. He might even use stars haha. If anyone remembers, during the falling star event, Scaramouche says the sky and stars were a gigantic hoax. I would not be surprised if the world is actually upside down or the “sky” isn’t even a sky at all. More like a sheet over Teyvat or some kind of illusion. 

Or another theory, perhaps Dainsleif is the god of time since he says in Travail during the Traveler chapter:

“Defeat me, command me to step aside, show me that you are worthier than I to rescue her. Then, the threads of all fate will be yours to re-weave“

It would explain how he knows so much about the other characters and what happened in the past since he brings up “the war” a lot. I’m assuming it’s either the Archon War or something before that. 

Or mihoyo could shred my thesis paper and Dainsleif has nothing to do with this and he’s some random guy from Khaenri’ah with plot convivence. 

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I just want to mention at the bottom of this, but the classical elements are water, earth, fire, air and (later) aether. I find it funny that the male MC shares the name. 

“Aether, also called quintessence, is the fifth and highest classical element. It’s a material that fills the region of the universe above the terrestrial sphere.” 

“It permeates all nature and is the substance composing the celestial bodies. The essence of a thing in its purest and most concentrated form,”

Or this is just a hint to the traveler’s power since the traveler is the only one that can use all the elements. 

Possible moveset?

He might use stars or air/anemo in his moveset. He could be a very good dps with a lot of trapping potential. Or he might be a field effect support like Albedo, but can still do a lot of damage. 

Imagine Dainsleif uses stars haha, throwing them to do damage like Ningguang’s rocks. The splash art of him shows two stars in the top left. He might have a teleport (similar to Keqing + Mona dash), or maybe he could even have some sort of telekinesis with his right arm. I’m just getting Xayah from league of legends vibes where he can throw the star, it places itself at max range, then he can recall them and the star does damage on the way back. Similar to how Keqing’s elemental skill works but instead of teleporting to the stiletto, the stiletto comes back to you when you press e again. (Sorry I play on keyboard). 

The opposite of nature is void or cosmos so that could be relating to his power as well since the only animation we get of him is in Teyvat Chapter Storyline Preview: Travail (I’m just gonna say Travail) and this black mist comes from his hand and he says: 

“"We will defy this world with a power from beyond.”

Could be interesting hehe. He might even be a field effect character like Albedo. He doesn’t really strike me as the guy that likes fighting but in the Albedo trailer he says: 

“I am content to watch most crises play out from the sidelines. But if Albedo were ever to make a single wrong move...I could not let myself ignore it.”.

Seems to be that Dainsleif is pretty powerful or at least has some type of influence. It could be interesting if he’s similar to Zhongli and has a giant delete button for his elemental burst haha. Or he has some type of imprisonment power like Mona’s burst. Or as I mentioned earlier, it would be fun having telekinesis but this is just me taking liberties haha. 

(and yes I totally understand that I’m forcing the story to support my theory BUT IGNORE IT OK.)

Black Mist/Dust and Ash/Shadows?

Uh I gave up on these summaries lol 

I touched on it briefly but I say black mist or shadows since I believe that Khaenri’ah is probably not a good place to live originally. Similar to how Mondstadt was in the past, it is probably surrounded by some type of barrier (hence the mist or even the sky) that both traps and makes sure no one get’s in or out. Khaenri’ah is quite the opposite of most regions besides the whole “no archon” business but in “Travai”, when Dainsleif brings up Khaenri’ah this shows up:

It seems like a star to me in some hidden pocket in the sky and what not. This is what I would assume Scaramouche saw (possibly, we have no idea) and therefore there are people and an entire region that’s in the sky. But why would  Khaenri’ah be above Celestia? Since you can see Celestia in Teyvat. I would like to think that Teyvat is either upside down and Khaenri’ah is actually below everything or this pocket in the sky isn’t even in Teyvat and is similar to how you reach spiral abyss. You have to go through this circle in Cape Oath and you get sucked into this worm hole thing and you make it to Musk Reef. Where we saw Scarachmouche and he tells us the sky is a hoax. 

This idea kinda supports my idea that Teyvat is either upside down or the sky isn’t real since how could Dainsleif know who all these people are (since he narrates all the 5 star character’s trailers). Either the man is just really smart and travel’s around a lot but he’s aware of who Zhongli is, an archon from 6000 years ago. This makes me believe he is either a god himself or if he is also a homunculus. Or he’s in the third category and perhaps he’s also a traveler like the main character’s.

I don’t believe he’s an archon but it would be interesting if he was a potential candidate for becoming the Khaenri’ah archon. Since I believe vision holders (human) can become archons and rise to Celestia but Dainsleif refused or he was capable of becoming an Archon

“A human with a Vision is an allogene — one with the potential to reach godhood; however, it isn't clear if having a Vision is a requirement, or simply makes a person more likely to meet the qualifications to reach Celestia.”

But going back to the state of Khaenri’ah, I’d like to think that since the art of Khemia is from Khaenri’ah that would mean that they had to learn how to make their own food and life since they didn’t have an archon to bless their lands. Barbatos had swept the snow and land away in the region of Mondstadt but Khaenri’ah doesn’t have that luxury. Naturally, I would imagine that there are some downsides of Khemia when it was first being practiced, hence the ash. But ash isn’t a bad thing, in fact you can use ash to amend soil and boost your lawn. 

But obviously having a vision would be a whole lot more useful since it’s literally god given talent/blessing so if you have a vision, you might be able to break out and go to the “above” world of Teyvat. If you have a vision you’re seen as being blessed by the gods and you might be able to ascend to Celestia itself. I believe that Khaenri’ah is secretly the abyss and doesn’t see the sun so it’s always dark and it’s hard to grow anything so the people of Khaenri’ah had to find ways to make their own food, hence alchemy. This could be why Dainsleif is so adamant about humanity and questioning the Archons and visions. 

If we are going on the theory that Dainsleif is actually a normal human, then I’d like to imagine he was one of the people that prayed for a vision or some type of blessing and finally got it. But an incident happened and he lost his faith or resolve in the Archons. He mentions it a tiny bit in the Diluc trailer but this is just me spit balling. 

Also, Kaeya’s talents also mention about an abyss and void before the change. I don’t think abyss was made to relate to the abyss order and more the actual definition of abyss but it’s still interesting. 

What is Khemia?

Well I don’t know and I don’t know how accurate google is but let’s try and go through it together. I have no idea if what I’m about to type is offensive since I do not have a history degree and I’m pretty much paraphrasing what google tells me.

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So Khemia, is an Egyptian sacred science. When Egypt was occupied by the Arabs they added “al-” to the world “Khemia” and “al-Khemia”. Al-Khemia means “The Black Land” and is now seen as a possibly origin of the world alchemy. 

Not gonna lie, I did not know al-khemia meant the black land so idk if my hindsight is 2020 or it was just super obvious for my monkey brain. 

As for the world “Chemeia”, it was used to designate the art of metal-working, specifically changing base metals into gold and silver. The Arabs later prefixed it with “al” and the world “alchemy”. Alchemy came to signify the art of chemistry in general. However the word "Chemeia” was probably derived from the Greek word “chemi” which means “black”. This could be because: 

In the sense of "dark" or "hidden", since the Dark, Hidden or Divine Art was the only name by which this science was known to the ancients.

However, the word chemistry might have had a Chinese origin.  It may have been derived from the Hakka term KIM-MI or the Cantonese term KEM-MAI, which signifies "gone astray in search of gold" or "secret of gold". 

Assuming it’s from Egyptian origin, the ancient Egyptian word khēmia means the transmutation of earth, thereby the science of matter at the atomic to molecular scale. According to some etymologists, khēmia or “preparation of black powder” ultimately derived the name from Khem or Kēme, Egypt, the land of black earth. 

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So if we are going with the Chinese origin, I’d like to think that this is a hint towards the story and people trying to find the “gold” or perhaps a vision. This could explain why Kaeya was sent to Mondstadt to hopefully require a vision and come back. 

What is the lore behind Khaenri’ah then?

So, why do I think the people of Khaenri’ah are looking to be saved or want a vision so badly? Well, time to go through the entire Khaenri’ah lore with you lads. 

The Khaenri’ah lore goes as this:

At least 200 years ago, the Eclipse Dynasty threw the kingdom into chaos (meaning it was the last Dynasty).

The people were cursed and transformed into monsters.

Mondstadt’s Knights and Grand Master Arundolyn went on an expedition to Khaenri’ah to fight off the monsters.

In the present,  Khaenri’ah is still struggling against the effects of the curse. Kaeya was sent to Mondstadt as their last hope and for the sake of the “ancient plot”.

1. For those not aware, China’s time periods were separated into Dynasty’s (sort of). The Chinese characters of “Eclipse Dynasty” are [古国黑日落] or "The Ancient Civilization of the Black Sunset". There is probably some type of history or connection to this since Zhongli’s voicelines are full of them but this post is long enough and I don’t know if people want to or care about hearing Chinese history but um let me know? Cause I’m really into that and I will gladly write about it.

2. We’re not completely aware if the people transformed into Hilichurls or were apart of the Abyss Order. But since the last dynasty was literally called Eclipse I would like to believe this supports my idea that Khaenri’ah isn’t someplace you can easily reach and you have to entire a fucking worm hole to get to. I’m in love with the idea that Khaenri’ah is the spiral abyss or at least part of it, that Childe fell into when he was a younger. Perhaps even the spiral abyss is where he landed since time technically doesn’t pass in spiral and it’s just a wave of enemies. I would 100% not be shocked if we have to enter the that wormhole to get to Khaenri’ah or something similar. 

3. Arundolyn was a previous Grand Master and while he did not possess a Vision, he was naturally gifted through intense training. He was formerly one of the Four Winds and had the title of “Lion of Light”. So Khaenri’ah is possible to get to and someone from Mondstadt has done it, but without a vision. The Traveler also doesn’t carry a vision so it might be interesting to see. Kaeya didn’t get his vision until he was 18? 17? When he had a falling out with Diluc. 

I would like to think that perhaps the Archon’s betrayed Khaenri’ah or someone fucked up in their pursuit to develop Khemia to it’s fullest potential or wanted to make their own vision, hence the delusion and how it transforms Childe into a foul legacy form. The Dragonspine lore could point to how Celestia has the power to seal away Khaenri’ah. This also might have been where Dainsleif lost his resolve (assuming he’s a human and just happened to get some sort of power or is really good at Khemia he saw the past or fate or whatever lol)

“Murals, Record of Serial No., and other lore bits in Dragonspine indicate that those who dwelled there attempted to fight against Celestia but lost. As punishment, the Skyfrost Nail was dropped, and the area was turned into a frozen wasteland.

Therefore, people with visions cannot enter Khaenri’ah because of the Archon’s and people that receive visions (which I still think is highly unlikely if you’re in Khaenri’ah) might be able to break out. Think of spiral abyss as some sort of “purgatory” except to enter Khaenri’ah you go down. To get out, you start AT FLOOR 12 and make your way up. Similar to Kid Icarus and how the hardest level was at the beginning and as you went up, it slowly became easier. 

4. I like the idea that Khaenri’ah is a land that either doesn’t have vision holders or the people that do have visions aren’t seen the same way as other regions. People are are actually cursed by the Gods or people that require visions leave Khaenri’ah because they now have the power to. In Travail Dainsleif says this:

"Some say a few are chosen and the rest are dregs, but I say we humans have our humanity. We will defy this world from a power from beyond”

Naturally these are his ideals and I’d like to believe that Khaenri’ah is actually split on this. Some believe in Dainsleif ideals while the other half doesn’t. If we’re going on the theory that Khaenri’ah is actually the abyss then the abyss order makes a bit more sense. 

Plus the idea that Lumine/Aether (I think the story is just going to stick with Lumine being the “villain ”) working for the abyss, it could be because their twin was separated by an unknown god. Aether was asleep and plagued by nightmares with his sister saying “it was too late”, perhaps he lost his memory since he doesn’t know what he was late for? Maybe this is what she meant since I’d assume the story has you going from place to place and the Archon’s stepping down like in Liyue and the Tsaritsa collecting all the gnosis. 

Why is the Tsaritsa collecting all the gnosis?

“She is a god with no love left for her people, nor do they have any left for her. Her followers only hope to be on her side when the day of her rebellion against the divine comes at last."

I can imagine that Tsarista or the Cyro archon is collecting all the gnosis because she believes in the Khaenri’ah attitude and is apart of the ancient plot or is trying to protect them somehow since she isn’t an evil person based on Childe’s voicelines:

“Her Royal Highness the Tsaritsa is actually a gentle soul. Too gentle, in fact, and that's why she had to harden herself. Likewise, she declared war against the whole world only because she dreams of peace. And because she made an enemy of the world, I had the chance to become acquainted with you.”

Or maybe even more interesting, she was actually a citizen of Khaenri’ah since the Tsaritsa wasn’t apart of the original seven but this is a huge stretch. Maybe she’s collecting all the gnosis to finally break the seal on Khaenri’ah? Plus the people of Sneznaya strike me as “I don’t care if you’re blessed by the gods or have a vision, if you can fight then you’re good in our books”. Plus the people of Khaenri’ah are probably pretty mad at the Archons so when the rebellion does come I’d assume the Tsaritsa wants them on her side. 

What happened to Kaeya?

Now Kaeya’s character story goes into how he met Diluc and Crepus. It’s hinted that it was on purpose since Kaeya’s father left him there specifically. 

"One afternoon near the end of summer a decade ago, my father and I passed by the Dawn Winery."

This matter-of-fact description hides a carefully constructed lie. Kaeya has never once spoken the truth about what happened that afternoon:

"This is your chance. You are our last hope."

Kaeya would never forget the look of both hope and hatred in his father's eyes as he uttered those words.

Now you can interpret this as many things, either collecting all the gnosis and obtaining a vision to hopefully come back to save Khaenri’ah could be what he meant or he want’s Kaeya to stop the Abyss Order from literally setting Teyvat on fire. You can probably sympathize with the Abyss Order if we are following the theory that they are actually the mutated monsters of Khaenri’ah citizen’s during the Eclipse dynasty but it’s also like, how about we not set the world on fire ya know?

But interestingly, the reason why Kaeya’s father left him with Diluc’s family is because they have a long history of participating in the rebellion against Decarabian 2,600 years ago and Vennessa’s rebellion against the Aristocracy. 

What will happen when Dainsleif get’s introduced?

So, I’m fully on board with the “Kaeya being the secret prince of Khaenri’ah” theory. I like the idea that Dainsleif is Kaeya’s servant or trusted advisor but I think that’s mainly rooted in the ship. Dainsleif strikes me more as someone who observes and only steps in if he has to because it might affect fate or whatever.

“I am content to watch most crises play out from the sidelines. But if Albedo were ever to make a single wrong move...I could not let myself ignore it.” 

I don’t think Dainsleif is the King of Khaenri’ah that Jean mentions in her hobbies voiceline but perhaps he was related to them somehow. Maybe the first King or the King that Jean mentions was real and Dainsleif was his friend or the God that helped him become King, then the Eclipse Dynasty happened and everything went downhill. Since I believe in Kaeya being a secret prince from  Khaenri’ah, Dainsleif would still be somewhat loyal to the Kingdom or perhaps he had lost faith after what happened and how so many people got corrupted and turned into monsters. 

I was talking about this with my friend but what if genshin pulls an fgo and “kills” Kaeya? Similar to FGO where Leonardo “died” in a car accident and when we visited a shop, there was just a hologram. What if genshin’s story kills Kaeya in a cutscene, and we can no longer use him since Kaeya was a free character, only to return as - THE 5 STAR WE WERE ALL WAITING FOR - the prince of Khaenri’ah.

When will we see Dainsleif?

According to the “Travail” the order of appearances is this: 

I believe part 1 is finished with Zhongli and dragonspine was just an add on for Albedo. But this makes me believe that Dainsleif and Khaenri’ah will be after we go to Snezhnaya. Also side note, the music for Natlan slaps hard. 

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But yeah, I kinda went a bit off track and started talking about the story haha. I really love lore so if anyone has any questions about other characters or want’s to discuss the genshin story I am all ears^^. Also, if any of this becomes true in two years time I WILL BE BACK TO SAY I TOLD YOU SO. 

Or genshin prepares to rip this post apart and none of it is true. If you actually read my word vomit I appreciate you and you get a free cookie. If you’re wondering where I’ve been, it was writing this haha. 

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VII: reckless; his mistake.

— atsumu isn’t one to take rash decisions but he couldn’t help himself. now, your heart is shattered.

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+genre: crossover(hq x hp); fluff; angst; frenemies to lovers.

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You woke up in the morning, with Madam Pomfrey just by your bedside as she mixed a few herbs together in a mortar and pestle. You coughed, your throat dry as a tumbleweed, as your eyes widened.

Atsumu.

You tried getting up, the pain in your shoulder skyrocketing as you coughed even more. Madam Pomfrey was scolding you, but your ears were ringing—you could only hear a white noise as you coughed and the school nurse forcefully poured a nasty tasting medicine into your mouth, making you swallow it as she held your jaw softly. 

"There. You're good now, darling. Just lay down for a while, alright?" she said, rubbing circles on your back. Your mind raced as all you could do was nod at the woman, who moved onto the bed next to yours. 

That's Rin! 

You look at your figure in a frantic state—bandages wrapped from your left wrist to your shoulder, random purple bruises littered across your leg and arms with gashes in your other leg and torso. You grimaced at your sight, but then looked up and around in denouement. 

The curtains covered the bed to your right; you were trying your best to figure out who all was in the Infirmary with you. Till now, you could see Suna, Sakusa, Osamu, and Aran—

That's Atsumu, you gasped in revelation. Your eyes darting to the tiny space between the curtain and the wall just to get a glimpse of the boy. Just then a coarse voice stopped you, "Don't bother, [L/N]. You won't want to see that right now."

"Rin?" you whipped your head around and instantly regretting it because of the sudden rush of pain. Seeing the brown-haired boy get up as he winced made you feel almost guilty—it's because of you they were so hurt, wasn't it?

"This happens every month, don't worry," he coughed out as Madam Pomfrey scolded him about talking such 'posh'. He laughed it off, saying that if you and Atsumu weren't there, then his wounds would be worse. You opened your mouth to speak, but that was when you heard a grunt coming in from the other side of the curtain.

"Okay, hush now, both of you," Madam Pomfrey says, ruffling Suna's hair lightly as she grabbed a syringe and a bottle from the table and walked towards the other side of the curtain—simply so you two wouldn't have to see how bad Atsumu's wounds really were. 

And a couple of seconds later, when Miya Atsumu's screams filled the Infirmary, was when you realized—you shouldn't have followed him into the Shrieking Shack. 

"You're okay, now. That's all that matters," cheered Alisa as she walked into the Great Hall for dinner a few days later. You walked alongside them, hiding your bandages inside your robe. You hated how Atsumu was still in the Infirmary as the rest of you roamed about freely. It irked you to an extent where your nights felt almost sleepless. 

You would be thinking about him—contemplating whether you should have gone after him. Whether it would be any different if you had just let him go; if you had just waited for the next day to talk to him again. You never knew when you were falling asleep, just staring into the darkness till the depths of the night. 

You visited him in the Infirmary every day till he got discharged. You couldn't help but feel responsible for his wounds because honestly, who wouldn't? And when a week later, he was discharged, he didn't seem to even look you in the eye anymore. 

It drove you crazy—not feeling his burning stare at the back of your head every time you walked to Potions, him not even bothering to yell at you in Quidditch practice, him not teasing you about the Treacle Tarts during dinner, and you just missing his vague southern dialect barking at you for no reason whatsoever. You craved his slightly flirty comments that made your ears heat up in Transfiguration and Alchemy, how he'd say the dirtiest of things without failing to keep a straight face. You even wanted him to annoy you again or hit you with his Bludger so you could go to Hogsmeade with him. 

"You look like the saddest Bowtruckle ever," Suna nudged you as you sat alone in the Courtyard, chuckling as he sat down next to you and began talking, "You're worried about him, aren't you?"

"How do you always know what to say, but you're the cockiest little shit ever?" you ask, closing your book and facing the chartreuse-eyed idiot, scoffing. He looks at you, raising an eyebrow as he says, "Wasn't it you that avoided him in the first place? Dare I say, you kinda deserve this."

"Oh, how I wish the unforgivable curses weren't illegal right now," you gritted your teeth, standing up from your place at the fountain and kicking a stray rock at Suna, "Because I could literally torture you right now."

"You should just kill me instead," he shakes his head. 

"Merlin's beard, you're one depressed little shit."

"You should talk to him," the annoying wolf catches up to you yet again, walking over to your left so he could stop you from turning to the staircases. You huffed, stomping one foot and placing a hand on your hip as you said, "Rin, for Salazar's sake, not this again."

"What? Classes are over, and he's literally rotting in the dorm. If I get him out after Quidditch today, will you talk to him? At least make the damn effort," Suna hisses, flicking your forehead as his expression clearly sprays more venom than his words. You sighed, shaking your head, "I need to think about it."

"Why the fuck-"

"He said he loved me on the full moon," you paused, "By the Black Lake?" you say hesitantly, making it come out more like a question than an answer. Your eyed averted to the floor, anywhere but Suna, who had his mouth wide open and his eyes actually intrigued in what you had to say now. He cleared his throat begrudgingly, coughing once or twice before saying, "What did you say?"

"We.. erm, got interrupted," you look back up to a shocked Suna, who was edging you to continue, "By erm... the Shack thing."

"Oh for fuck's sake," Rin lets out a breathy sentence, his whole demeanor turning into disappointment, "Why are there so many fucking... ugh!"

"Your pain is understandable, pussy bangs," you giggled, grabbing his robes slightly and leading him to the library to complete your homework. 

“Hey, don’t fucking call me that!”

You had continued to meet up with Kiyoko to go to Quidditch Practice that evening. You managed to catch the Snitch in a few minutes, earning a small, dissent "good job" from Atsumu. It made you smile just a smidge, glad for the smallest interaction in the past week that he had been discharged. A scintilla of regret slipping in your mind as you felt the urge to tease him as if everything was okay. 

Practice ended soon enough, you walking back to the changing rooms with Kiyoko and Osamu, talking about something or the other as you walked into the girls' changing room, parting with the grey-haired werewolf as Kiyoko began, "Osamu says he hasn't been sleeping."

"Stop," you sighed, taking off your shoes and socks as you sat on the bench next to the locker, "—you're not helping and you're making me confused. I talked to Suna, and I'm going to try to talk to Atsumu soon. I need to give him time."

"I literally didn't say anything," Kiyoko laughs, pulling on a grey jumper and jeans as she tilts her head, "You're doing good, bub."

"Thank you..?"

You reminisced about the times in third year how Atsumu used to say, "a cold shower is the answer to all problems", chuckling when you remembered the next part of that sentence as you plopped onto your bed, turning over and reaching to the bag of treats to slip them to Bo. You watched the grey owl slowly gulp down the treat, smiling contently as you hugged a pillow close to your chest. 

"God, Bo. It's late at night and I skipped dinner today of all days," you groaned, getting up to sit at your desk, your head on the table. The owl tilted its head, hooting a few times in response as if saying that you should go to the kitchens to get that snack after all.

"You're always right, Bo. Here have another treat," you cooed, feeding the bird one more crumb then walking out of the Common Room in your invisibility cloak. The House Elves were always kind to you, giving you a snack even in the middle of twilight, and keeping quiet when Filch questions them about how a few Treacle Tarts or dumplings are missing. 

You curse yourself when you almost bump into the wretched cat, namely Mrs. Norris, when you walked into the Kitchens. A House Elf gasped, running to the door and closing it immediately after you pulled off the cloak. 

"[Y/N] must not sneak out at night like this, it will get her into trouble!" Missy, a House Elf behind the counter shrieks. You stifle a giggle, petting the Elf's head lovingly and slipping her a scarf—your heart melting at how the female Elf blushed at the gift, immediately adorning it as she quickly reached into a jar and slipped you a few Pudding cups and Treacle Tarts(which you took into your jacket pocket) before wishing Missy a good night and walking back out. You were on your way back to the dorms when you heard a very... questionable noise, per se. 

"What in the name of Godric," you cursed, simply shaking it off as you walked down the stairs to the dungeons, but then hearing a voice that you knew way too well. 

Atsumu?

You gasped, running back up the stairs as you looked around frantically. The cloak covering you barely as you panted, finally finding the source of the said "noise".

To say you instantly regretted that decision, was probably the biggest understatement of the year. As you see Atsumu, pressing a girl against the wall of the empty hallway(which the professors normally don't check at this hour as they've already gone to sleep), as he left marks on her neck. The girl placed her hand on his head, tangling his piss strands with her nimble fingers as she bit down on her tongue. 

You couldn't believe it. 

It took him one week. One week, to get over you, who he had been pining over for years. He hadn't even thought twice to ask if the so-called "unrequited" feelings were reciprocated. 

You were heartbroken. 

So, what do you do? You let a few tears slip—wiping them away almost instantly as you walked back to the Common Room in rue. But what you didn't know, was that someone in their dorm was cursing out their brother as they looked at a very peculiar map in their hands. 

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