#no i dont. sort of. Its Ok Guys 👍
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wanting your mom to like you is a self imposed hell
#ramble tag#im sorry i cant fix everything. im sorry for all the world's suffering. im sorry.#hiiii im being so normal#theres. worst ways to act ig?#venting to the internet looks pretty healthy compared to. aha.#i hate the internet but if i didnt live in the digital age my body would be a mess#actually all war and suffering is my fault. sorry about that guys :( idk how to fix it#am i about to have an episode. im sayin some real dumb shit rn#i wouldnt. thatd be... Dramatic#my mom is Good im just. Messy#hey miss mother id tear my heart out and leave it on the alter if you wanted. this is normal and fine#i need therapy <3#no i dont. sort of. Its Ok Guys 👍#i want to open up my ribs and give her my organs i think thatd fix me#or gross her out but i do that normally anyhow#so sorry guys. my siblings follow my main lmao#Shiksa Goddess started playing so i think im just gonna like. laugh at that interrupting my weird tag ramble instead of like#idk. im not unpacking whatever that was. god bless 🙏
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wait actually connecting the dots was the guy telling us the fight would go well when we were half a party of first timers also the one who forgot to lb3 us like bro was a tank one of em. jffjjssn he forgor.
#the one guy who does know the fight gjdjsjsbsbsbd#no one doing trial roulette at midnight we were all here to discover it#actually the coach review im doing in my head is critical again i realised i once more forgot to hit SSS like i have to figure out a spot on#the hotbar for me to remember#ok authors notes and definitions ¹LB for Limit Break: staple of FF big ability that you get to use after certain conditions#in this case for the time spent in the fight (+other little things but mostly its about the time spent). in the context of this tale#a protective one was needed to supershield us from death. hence 'tank lb' speaking of ²Tank: one of the three key roles in a fight#alongside Healer (self explanatory) and dps (damage-per-second– hence damage dealers) the tank is solid and takes hits#so that the others dont have to. its sturdy and healthy and looks particularly yummy tovthe enemies to make tjem want to hit Just this guy#in this specific story there were Two tanks#one of them seemingly having knowledge of the specific fight we embarked on#the other likely not. neither of them activated the special limited use bug spell we needed to survive though (only they can)#and for ur curiousity dear scientual i play as damage dealer. so that i cant be the bearer of thus sort of mistake ever 👍#though granted dps also could do LB fumbles in this specific fight apparently. twas the fight disclaimers on the guides jdjfjfd#'do NOT cast dps LB UNLESS the boss himself os casting something or else he'll activate invulnerability and make it all useless'#+8second of invulnerability??? bro i just elected to not even try it even before the fight went. awry.#even tho technically my position is good for damage lb its ok given how it went i doubt anyone would mind that no one hit the lb gjdjsjsjsks#to be fair its one of these situations where its better left to the healer in case all goes wrong again#(author note damage lb does big damage. healer lb does big heal and if maxed out on its capacity can even ressurect anyone dead)#(hence. given the struggle. it was better off being theirs even outside of the odd conditions of the boss turning invulnerable)#dont think anyone used it tho#its ok.
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was brave and talked to my doctor abt my period bs + she said it might be endometriosis without me even having to bring it up... 💀
#shes prescribed me naproxen & tranexamic acid for now bc theyre basically the only 2 painkiller options i havent tried yet#but shes said she'll text me some resources on endometriosis and asked me to book an appt in january to update her#and then she can either issue a repeat script or we can go down the route of trying to diagnose a condition#which would likely take a long time so id probably have to try hormonal meds again in the meantime but she was rly understanding abt#the fact id had negative experiences w them before so was apprehensive abt it. so nice to have a dr who actually cares instead of trying#to fob me off w over the counter meds which is what happened last time lol#she was like wow im surprised they told you to take codeine for cramps thats not smth id recommend due to the side effects 💀#like damn. well ive been doing it for the last few years and yeah its not great#augh.... its ok tho i feel better now im actively doing smth abt it and looking for a diagnosis is an option thats available#bc ik how rare it is for gps to take patients seriously. the average diagnosis time for endometriosis is 12 years in wales 💀💀#my mums had such a struggle with gynaecology in her part of the country too shes been waiting for an operation for almost a year#and they booked her in for it and everything and then when she showed up the doctor was like im so so sorry i dont have access to a clinic#and i wanted to cancel your appt bc obvs i cant carry out the surgery without a clinic but the practice refused to let me cancel it#she showed my mum emails shed sent to management begging them to let her cancel patients she wasnt able to treat bc its such a waste of#everyones time and resources and rly shitty to do but they told her to 'watch herself and think about meeting her targets' 💀#bc cancellations look bad on their records so they were forcing her to hold appts without treatment anyway lmfao#insane country how is the nhs still functioning.#anyway thats todays medical report ik how eagerly u guys have been waiting on my pussy update#didnt ask abt antidepressants bc didnt have time and anyway im handling it better now its just taken a while to adjust to the shorter days#and the cramp stuff is way more pressing bc i get them for a week or two before my period AND when i ovulate now#so im probably spending equal amts of time in pain than not in pain every month now 👍#actually makes me feel fucking insane when i start thinking about it. its fine tho. okay im gonna piss and then go out again to sort out#everything ive gotta do today and then i can just chill this afternoon#how is it only 10am.....#.diaries
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i wrote another rambly dennis analysis and deleted it <3 y'all don't need that
#ada speaks#this happens every time im on my period like fucking clockwork there's something wrong with me#dennis' essence is contained in the ovaries#it was some shit about how he's not actually the cis male power fantasy so many idiot dudebros think he is#and that he's like. ok listen. this will sound insane and probably piss Someone off but.#dennis is like. the worst and most repressed aspects of a female power fantasy#which. the way glenn treats him is.#basically that#yes his character is inextricably linked to misogyny and male privilege but#it's almost like its coming from a perspective that lacks that and he's somewhat of a hypothetical and very opposite exploration#does this make sense#anyway i dont think i can explain this 👍 but i think he's somewhat of a guilty pleasure to write because of this#all sunny characters are sort of meant to be the Worst parts of humanity that you want to Exorcize as glenn puts it#but dennis feels so.#i don't know.#guy who fears loss of power & fights for it not bc he's aiming for the top but bc he is so afraid of being at the bottom ever again#partiarchy and all. you know.#his privilege (primarily in terms of wealth but also his gender) has been just as much of a curse as it has become a weapon#his parents' neglect & their wealth allowing them to throw money at maids lead to him being taken advantage of by an older woman at school#the view of the abuse and it being recontextualized and forced into a positive that shaped the rest of his life because men can't be raped#but i can't explain the. Thing behind this that feels so#pardon the binary#womancoded.#he's like a love interest in a pulpy romance novel written#and i think its partially because he tries to emulate that and its why he is somewhat successful with women#but i don't think it's because he's catering to them i think he's just. oddly a character that comes across like Women Writing Men#i will Not be commenting on what this says about glenn--#cw csa mention#i cant believe i deleted a post and then wrote a rant in the tags about the deleted post this is my curse#the other one was worded better too 👍
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ok i just have to mention i love that ur asks is named spanreed... genius omg.
no hate but wow you post regularly ive been seeing alot of ur posts. very interesting. i do not like moash but i am allowed to dislike characters. i agree he deserves more nuance then everyone gives him. i dislike him in a i dislike his character not him... i dont know how to describe it. you know when you consume a media and the bad guy is so well written you dislike them but also in a 'this is a really good character props to the creator of this media' way? honestly my main reason for disliking him is tryna get kaladin to kill himself (i know his reasons behind it and why he did it and yes i do know its cuz moash would rather kaladin be dead than like him) but as someone who relates to kaladin he just cant live that down. mm very well written character yes he should not be just an object for 'haha fuck moash'
(and also i admit i may like elhokar too much for how sucky he was i was genuinely devastated in oathbringer im still devastated </3)
anyways mmmm very interesting blog yes yes i shall continue to read ur posts. i thought i shall give you this ask. you dont rlly gotta answer tho. i like seeing both sides of a problem.
ok no hate, i’m glad you seem to like my posts and my blog, and i agree that you’re allowed to dislike characters, whether or not you vibe with a character is not a moral action, there are legitimate reasons to dislike moash and that’s fine, there’s no such thing as “liking elhokar too much” if you like him, then you like him, that’s fine! my posts aren’t meant to be like “you HAVE to like moash and HAVE to hate elhokar” they’re meant to point out to people the ways in which a lot of popular opinions about these characters are flawed, but if at the end of the day you’re like “i get that elhokar sucks in these ways but i still like him” great! the way you feel about moash is how i feel about elhokar. i really enjoy him as a character, i find him interesting, and i recognize he has some good qualities, but i don’t LIKE him. that’s fine!
however! why are you in my askbox telling me about it as if you want me to assure you that it’s ok? you don’t need absolution, and i couldn’t give it to you anyway. you’re not the first person to write paragraphs in my askbox that boil down to “i don’t like moash but NOT for stupid reasons, is that ok?” to be honest, i don’t care? and it’s kind of exhausting to sort through all the moash hate i get in my comments and such, because he’s a character i like and reading people say “i hate him” over and over is tiresome and saddening. so like open message to all readers, if you hate moash but enjoy my posts and agree with takes, but he’s just not for you for whatever reason, that’s fine and you don’t need my permission to continue doing that, but don’t send me asks like this 👍
i do have to say, i enjoy that the last paragraph of your ask, you sound like pattern. mmmmm lies yes yes very interesting. love that for you 💕
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PLS YOU’RE SO FUNNY your pspspsps is too strong I’m back with more asks hello how are you I’m loving your takes on sagau! I thought of a contribution by the power of the pspsps imagine like the languages in teyvat are based on the nations’ real life counterparts (like Japanese for Inazuma) but like only loosely. So creator knows like exactly 3 words in Japanese and think they’re gonna take that and somehow make it work but they get there and understand NOTHING. They finally understand like one word but turns out it means something completely different in this version of “Japanese” so they think someone told them hi and they said hi back but they’re just going around saying “fuck” and no one wants to tell them
ANOTHER ONE YUHSSS LURING BACK IN FOR MORE im doing well tysm for asking ya flatterer!!
aw u think im funny??!! 🥰 well geez here i thought i was just going feral over sagau/isekai genshin stuff and it was like a dam burst and all yall were just coming down with me funny or not 🤷♂️
(Hey askers look ive got cookies 🍪🍪🍪 :) if u ask smth ill give u one!!)
Nice to know the humor translates, but holy fuck this ask is like 10x funnier than anything ive written so far or come up with LMAO PLEASE NO ONE WANTS TO TELL YOU-
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This is exactly what Portugese vs. Spanish is like i stg
Im not fluent yet but i know a decent amount of spanish at this point, but when i was first learning it i ran into some Portuguese and couldnt really read it and was like?? Oh ok maybe this is too many vocab words i dont get yet, and showed it to another person who spoke some Spanish and they were like ".. Uh, wtf is that?? What is that???🧐😟 Thats not even Spanish, but why is it almost???" And they just kept trying to read it so hard bc they thought it was so close it should work 😭
Anyway the point is i feel like that is just you in this scenario over and over again lol
Its like teaching a little kid language and they happen to pick up the cusswords the best,
Omfg ur around Beidou about to head to Inazuma (bc i like to think u traveling with Aether/Lumine and they r sweet enough not to abandon ur weird ass)
And Beidou just keeps cussing in Liyue's-almost-Mandarian-Chinese-but-not, and ur like trying to pick smth up bc it sucks none of ur little bits and pieces of lang. from ur world have worked so far, and she keeps saying this one word over and over again, to this angry looking Liyue guy, oh hey wait a minute, that's the Mandarin word for "hello"!! Maybe she's using it sarcastically?? She smiled afterward, oh Kazuha's laughing!! Maybe it means smth different? But they still look positive abt it so eh, cant hurt, and you sort of know how to say it!!
"你好 !! (nǐhǎo)", you do a little wave too :)
(I just used straight mandarin for this pls tell me if not right-)
Hey you did it! Sort of, you didn't really do the tones right, and you look over to see if they got it, and oop-
Everybody froze and looked at you, before Beidou starts screaming laughing, Kazhua's wheezing so hard he's leaning on a barrel nearby, the traveler is trying to keep it together, but u can see Beidou's ridiculous laugh is contagious and is spreading rapidly to crew members and to the traveler,,
The angry Liyuean man no longer looks angry, oh, he's leaving, welp, you can tell u did smth funny, but u havent a clue what u actually said
Every now and then Beidou will come up to you and try to teach u more Liyuean words, but anytime the traveler sees it they shoo her off, she has a shit-eating grin on her face, while the traveler looks unamused or is at least trying to hide their amusement
(There r so many characters that will take advantage of this and only try to teach you cuss words, at least at first, CHILDE, kaveh, VENTI, Itto, BEIDOU, Xinqiu the little prankster, ppl i can think of quickly god i gotta look at a character list)
Beidou BEAMS anytime u say "nîhâo" now, and gives u a thumbs up everytime 👍
You learn much later that you probably should just give up trying to say any of your world's lang. That sound equivalent to each genshin country's lang. bc apparently the few words you know from them are either random shit like "egg, bowl, etc." Or straight up explicit "fuck, shit, piss etc."
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I didnt have too much to add bc that is a GREAT AND HILARIOUS idea all on its own (esp if u did it in front of more serious characters or situation)
So pls forgive if lackluster writing happened!!
THANK YOU FOR THE ASK!! COME AGAIN!! AND YOU'LL GET A FREE COOKIE!! :]
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Cheers,
🌒🌧🌊Aquarius♒️🌌🌘
#genshin imagines#genshin impact#sagau#gender neutral reader#genshin sagau#genshin sagau ideas#my asks#ask box open#please send asks#come hither#i have cookies#pspspspsps#genshin isekai#genshin god reader
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How do you guys feel about fan works outside of canon of the au? (Character interactions with ocs) Writen fics and fanart comics :0]?
Tomb - I'm fine with it as long as it's not disrespectful, NSFW, or weird. I do want people to let me know beforehand though if its character interactions but Im chill with most things. And I don't feel comfortable with anything romantic involving Tobin that isnt with Tali. At all. Other than that, I'm perfectly fine with fanart, headcanons (if appropriate), AUs, whatever
Clocky - Character interactions are a no unless Im involved in the conversations about it. Anything romantic involving Tali is an absolute no unless it's with Tobin. NSFW is always a hard no.
Dia - I love seeing fanart and stuff, if y’all are worried abt mischaracterizing characters just send an ask in here or you can dm (me at least) from my blog tagged in pin. I’m ok w character interactions so long as we chat abt it before hand! Anything romantic would have to be a no but I’m ok w making friends into sibling sort of interactions. Obviously any nsfw is off limits as per the pinned post💕
Sucker/Bonnie- NO NSFW no romance unless w/ ruth. bonnie is a flexible character so fanfics/fanart/interactions/etc are fine all the way >.o i mischaracterize my own oc so im not that worried... questions appreciated but surprises are ok too!
for deepsix/tommie: terms of usage covers anything i wouldn't be okay with 👍
jess/scout: im fine w anything as long as its not nsfw or romantic!!
Yves/Blythe - NO NSFW NO ROMANCE but besides that stuff, fanart/fanfics/oc interactions are all welcomed!!! I absolutely adore fanart and I get so excited seeing it!! And if you think your oc would get along with Blythe, I’d love to see them interact!! I’m open to answer any questions about Blythe if you want to write about her!! :D
Nico/...Nico - i love love love seeing fanworks!! you're all enormously talented, and i don't mind anyone involving nico in anything! No NSFW ground rules are the same as for everyone else, however with Nico i want to add some additional boundaries that include no whitewashing, no major mischaracterization, and feel free to ask about anything you're unsure of!
Daydream/Shannon - No Nsfw, romance is on thin ice. Other than that Im really excited about possible Art or Writing and anything you guys could be cooking in yalls heads. Nothing disrespectful as well, and dont use my character in posts/works that contain harmful messages like ableism, homophobia, transphobia etc.
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Ok do me a Favour and post this message because im also getting the same fucking questions in my inbox about you and its driving me INSANE. use this as a way of me backing you up and getting people off your back. we arent involved anymore. please leave us alone about eachother 👍 im typing this at work in the middle of my shift so i cant make it super long or whatever. but yeah no we're not on talking terms anymore so just sort dont bring it up at all i dont think either of us care too much anymore
— 1999SHOOTERS (The Actual Guy)
you heard it here guys
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it is time for the crackle goes kiwi caper!
oh man. im so close to being caught up. hold on, stockholm, I'm coming and i WILL be on time (i hope)
thats auckland btw
notes under the cut as always
OH okay ive been saving a really old edit for this episode
you're welcome
oh opening thoughts on the episode. ummmmmm its good. i like it. only reason i would have to dislike it is i guess the sort of red crackle stuff from it but i dont hate red crackle on default so it stands as a good episode. i like the dancing and the stakes actually feel pretty high a lot of the time!
not player hacking into the russian government
ah, neal. neal the eel. he is indeed. an eel
also rhys darby is my favorite voice actor on the planet
also also autistic dr bellum real and true
YOU WILL TRY
YUHHH GET IT
neal loving puns 👍
the "coo" neal does after he escapes into the vent is the bane of my existence i hate it with a burning passion
i wonder if "project tripwire" is supposed to be an experiment left over from the cold war or something?
zack is enjoying his sandwich!
that lean over carmen's shoulder one hand on the desk one hand on his hip move shadowsan is doing is the most dad thing
top ten moments before disaster
GIRL THE 3/4 PROFILE IN CS STYLE DOESNT WORK STOP USING IT
i love that the vile harddrive is like. VILE google
CRISPY FRIED CARMEN
player: we need an electrician who knows their stuff so carmen doesnt get electrocuted to death!! the job they need done: wooo slidey thingies....ooooooo dont let it touch the line!! woooo!!
player in s1: we CANT let crackle get ANYWHERE near you he may be a SLEEPER AGENT or put you in DANGER player in s2: we cant 🥺 even bring him back to play for the good guys? 🥺🥺🥺
i guess thats probably because shadowsan confirmed that he doesnt have any memories or sleeper agent tendencies lmaoo
fun fact! graham's cafe does not in fact exist. it is a housing complex/ lookout
carmen could not have picked a more. i mean just what a cover story. obviously i get that its personal to her but imagine being an electrican and this lady who is even younger than you comes up to you and is like oh...yeah i run an international charity. for abandoned children how unaccomplished would you feel wheeze
i will never stop saying this but SAY GOODBYE OR SOMETHING PLEASE CARMEN
interesting that the "cuppa" he insists she has with him kind of sets off a shit ton of stuff for s4. if acme hadn't taken gray in they wouldnt have probably ever been able to help carmen get out of mind control, or it would have taken much longer. she wouldnt have been able to discover and destroy the robots. weird stuff
insert meme about people calling paper star tammy because of that one time she used that as a codename here. except its with player and peter
ALSO HEEY PLAYERS ACCENT FROM S1 PAID OFF...he was practicing...
where did they get that ballet which is perfectly synched up to the lights he needs to turn off
not bellum's ominous green lighting black shiny lab. so subtle
also you would think that the power station bellum draws ALL her power from would be better protected wouldnt you?
did they let crackle practice the "lights" because if they didnt- yikes that sucks and if they did- bellum's security mechanism just going haywire as he practices pjgkkjsghd
mm this scene is good
OH also. eternal bounce looping gif because mmgh that animation is good
that animation of gray adjusting the slides where he goes in like. an arc in reverse. good shit
carmen is so not normal about the electric fields i love her. i get you're supposed to be dancing but girlie just run and jump its ok
even more bouncy because i cant be stopped
I LOVE HOW BOUNCY SHE IS. LOST IN THE SAUCE (the sauce is tchaikovsky)
a nearly electrifying performance is the best way to tell your best friend you didnt just die in a really horrible way
honestly the quip about sheep is a pretty good one. neal is SO COOL his fight scenes are really fun. takes a lot of ingenuity for our mains to outdo him
also his score is SOOO COOL its like. its slithery idk how to explain it
HAHAHA SHE PROTECTED THE FACE AND HE WENT FOR HER LEGS
i love how she was just like "nah fuck this" and ran the other way
HIS "OUGH" WHEN SHE TRIES TO KICK HIM IN THE FACE DHGDJHGKD. WASNT EXPECTING THAT ONE I GUESS
she goes down really hard a couple times fighting him. you can hear after he mule kicks her against the wall that it hurt
carmen's signature move, the titty twister
that "slick" line has become a line i just repeat with the same inflection like five times a day wugewghdh
player's kiwi went a little irish there
why did he go out the back door looking for carmen if the rest of the "theater" was supposed to be the other way 😭
oh okay nevermind he's just. he just doesn't listen
gremlin bellum appreciation
gray is literally the luckiest motherfucker alive please
didnt carmen lock the door behind her also??? im so confused how did he get in
"carmen?" "sandiego" (clapping noise from the intro)
the little confused noise gray makes pls its so funny
also love how his first question is "what kind of concert hall is this" and not "why are we sprinting down a hallway"
THATS THE NIGHT THAT THE LIGHTS WENT OUT IN AUCKLAND (sick guitar) THATS THE NIGHT THAT THEY H wait a minute
so hot i love her
kill, my queen
WILHELM SCREAM!
i love the disgust and annoyance that immediately overtakes her face when neal shows up again
are we ever going to talk about how neal was trying to snap her neck or no
no? okay
it would have been really funny if that crackle rod was set to lethal
i love how she says "zackivy" as one cohesive unit
pls carmen looks so short next to cracker
sharon muthu is such a queen
love also how carmen is more concerned about gray recognizing the voice than bellum threatening to take out auckland. yes girl priorities
fantastic shot of her grinning and then getting all smirky about it. she's so hot. again
michael put his whole pussy into that scream/crikey
"it won't blow up in our faces will it?" "um just. stick your hands in there okay"
i love when cs uses "bad" colors like the red flashing warning light to indicate goodness like carmen winning
the crikeys are killing me
THE TRIPLE SHOT OF THE TRIPWIRE PROJECT BLOWING UP IS SO ICONIC
i love neal going from horrified at the explosion to looking at bellum like. what did you just say
crying over how carmen just looks at him with no expression on her face after he makes a kiwi joke
and now a series titled "OW!"
thank you
also carmen does a WHOLE FLIP when she crashes (not doing photos because its hard to see) but she goes down on her neck, does a flip, and then slides in on her stomach
wow! good thing carmen is okay after crash landing in the woods due to something going wrong with a glider flight. im sure that won't happen again, and even if it did I'm sure the consequences couldn't be that terrible!
it would have been funny if he had died on impact im just saying
maybe he did and the power of carmen saying the wrong name brought him back
if the copyright wouldnt blow them to hell and back im a thousand percent certain they would have had crackle ask if carmen was like james bond
carmen: ill explain over that coffee also carmen: explains nothing
wow look the line that jumpstarted me writing fanfiction. my first fic was a red crackle fic based off of this scene/the afterscene of acme looking at the cameras and speculations of gray joining acme. guilty ✋
carmen vaporizing on the spot and leaving graham with thousands of dollars is a vibe
yeah vile didnt lay eyes him. yep
ALRIGHT FUCK YES IM CAUGHT UP WITH CS WEEKLY!! STOCKHOLM HERE I FUCKING COME ON TIME YES BITCH MY FAVORITE EPISODE
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omg wait tell me more about ur ocs... :O
SMILES IN HEREE!!!!! ok so i have like. several universes. buttercup and rika are florists who are like. cow girl hybrids? (sorta based on the moobloom + moolip from minecraft) and they are dating.
ive written a post about unnamed dilf / milf / secretary / winona before but i cannot find it. essentially dilf and milf are dating and also work high up in the mob (?) and then milf realizes shes a lesbian and tells dilf and hes kind of sad but hes a good guy so hes like ok. what can i do to support you? and shes like idk 👍 im leaving the country tho bye. and she goes and she meets her secretary and theyre evil and kill together Lesbian Style. but uh oh! she had a cryptic pregnancy (didnt show much + assumed other symptoms were stress from new country) so now shes 8 months pregnant and is like fuck i dont even vibe with this baby like at all. but she knows dilf always wanted a kid so she shows up at his house after the baby is born and is like hiii. heres your kid. ok back to lesbian sex and murder byeeee. and hes like what the fuck! okay! but hes a REALLY good dad. hes still an intimidating mob boss but he has a baby that he loves a lot. winona is the babysitter and the baby likes her a lot.
ive also written a post about lydia / john / daphne before but essentially. john is a shitty husband and cares more about work than his wife (lydia). lydia is fed up with this and also in love with his secretary (daphne). so she and daphne plot to kill him and run away together.
darryl is like if a demon was a hot older guy and also was forced to do Demonic Paperwork all the time while he and his assistant (june) try to capture an angel (none of them want this arrangement so the three of them pretend to fight tom and jerry style then go out for drinks)
hans is my curent fav oc and my BABYGIRL. hes a serial killer hes tall as fuck and hes very quiet hes also german and the worlds biggest service top. his gf is like a foot and a half shorter than him and super cute but she wears the pants. scariest man on the planet gets dommed by tiny cute girl? more at 7.
i dont have much sorted out about the executioner / knight / princess trio but essentially they all love eachother very much and the knight and executioner are not afraid to get their hands dirty for the princess.
ophelia and the nameless evil being are pretty underdevelopped too but essentially. evil being (he/it) who doesn't have a name and has been around for a long time and is scary as fuck meets girl who has problems but isnt afraid of him and is nice to it once and its like ohhh okay. well i will protect you with my life now. meanwhile shes like STOP KILLING PLEASE >:( and hes like :( but- and then she rolls her eyes. he does not understand that deer carcasses are not gifts most humans enjoy (it has no idea what humans eat.)
#THANK YOU FOR ASKING.... MY SPECIAL BABIES#<- half of them are murderes whatever#save#<- so i can come back to this
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tell us abt fallen london !
ok!! i dont know much lore so thats not what this is about i will just talk about the game in general👍
(for talking about the story/events of the game ill just use first person the whole time it feels more normal i think.)
the basic idea of how the game works is it's a desktop text-based rpg game where you do stories and tasks and get items.
the story begins with you having just gotten to london (which is underground.). you were immediately arrested and taken to new newgate prison, where your cellmate helps you escape. and then you pick where you live (this can change its just where you start). different places focus on the four main "attributes" one can have which are shadowy, watchful, dangerous, & persuasive. i picked spite which is the shadowy location!
(also there are other attributes apart from those four, including respectable, dreaded, [these next two are more skills] monstrous anatomy, & mithridacy. those are just the ones i have. there are "menaces" as well which are basically the bad attributes. those are nightmares, wounds, scandal, & suspicion. and others but theyre less common & i dont have those)
right now i am situated in someone's attic. the rat that lives with me wants me to move somewhere thats not an attic but i have bigger things to worry about.
i currently have a job as a minor poet (i want to become a campaigner or journalist eventually) 👍
there are groups one can be associated with like criminals, the police, revolutionaries, artists, the church, &c... as i've said i've been trying to be associated with the revolutionaries! i will need a lot more money for a special pin though </3. and i dont really know at all how to make money other than selling things....
the main story of the game is called your "ambition", which from what i've heard take about a year to complete, as opposed to smaller stories you can complete in a very short amount of time if focus on them. these include "nemesis", where you try to hunt down the murderer of someone you knew; "bag a legend", where you try to catch some manner of beast i suppose; "light fingers", where you try to steal a big diamond but apparently about a third of the way through there's a big twist and it turns into a really dark horror story; and "heart's desire", where you try to get involved in a gamble for your soul so you can win your heart's desire of course. im probably going to do "bag a legend" when i feel ready to start one :-)
by the way the current event i've been talking about with the airships &c. is an annual thing called "estival". this year it's gardening + a war of sorts. (note: by the time i got into doing this event it was pretty much over; i can still play through it but im not actually helping the war effort im just getting items). i grew a nice plant and got a prize and then i went to a building related to the gardening competition, where a stalactite fell on the building and also on me. sad! and then these ghouls called "starved" started crawling out of it iirc. i ran away and did some helpful things and the ghouls were fought off. but it turns out that they plan to expose london to the sun and burn it to a crisp, i guess? im not really sure i cant remember anything. so we have to go look at the ceiling to figure out whats going on exactly. and someone was like "hey guy still severely injured from a stalactite falling on you!! come captain an airship and look at the ceiling!" and i did and it didn't go very well but i was able to obtain more items. and now im in the midst of the final(?) mission where all the airships are going together
this is kind of a mess but yeah there is something about fallen london !!
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3, 4, 6, 8 for reigen :3
oh heavens the freaker ... the jerkr
3. How did your oc discover themself? Did something cause them to question, or did they always know?
i rememebr i wrote this down somewhere but 2 me he realized he was queer of some sort when he went to one of his sisters friends quinceanera and made out w the birthday girls older cousin behind the venue ... this was when he was like , a highschooler in arizona still . after this he was liek Hmm i think somethings up . he didnt act on these feelings until he was hitchhiking to jess' apartment like years later tho ..... not much else 2 think abt besides how you might be gay for your friendon the open road and such .
with his gender i think he always kindve knew , early on his dad kindve picked up on it and went "heyy y. i dont mind if you ... experiment . with your gender . yoru still my kid all the same 😁" to rei who, at the time, went "? Ok (doesnt think about this encounter until years later)". its also a main reason (2 me ) as to why connor bullied him a bit - in my brain milwaukee is a pretty ... closed minded town , so its only natural people would spread their bigotry onto their children < which is why when connor saw how rei was like "im a MAN" but (in connors mind) didnt make any "real" effort into presenting masc , he 1 thought rei was just doing it for attention and 2 sought out to "fix" him ....... < cornering him and cutting his hair along w just. General torment
4. Is your oc's environment supportive about their identity? How does this impact them?
until he was around middleschool he only really had the support of his dad < his mother being a devout catholic whereas his dad was laid back and also queer himself . after he died and they moved back to arizona rei just kindve caved in on himself and gave up on any presentation gender or sexuality wise ... until one day he felt too suffocated by it all nd went back to the one place he ever really Did feel accepted < milwaukeeeeee 😁and by extension jess nd ashe . the latter i dont know if they met later but i think their presence helps rei greatly ... nervous cheetah and emotional support dog type thang . when hes back w the gang he feels pretty comfortable w them and while he still has his moments of doubt from time to time he still feels confident that theyll never judge him (which they wouldnt thankfully). ave maria
6. How does your oc feel about labels? Theirs, or in general?
he would rather be gutted like a fish than talk about labels ... i dont think he feels all that comfortable w himself to say hes for sure gay ... and as for being trans , he keeps that shit LOCKED UP !!! very stealth with it ... even if being called a woman bothers him hed rather just take it and smile than out himself and risk being harassed . as he gets older he just stops gaf. i think hed just call ashe up randomly one day nd go "Hey .im gay." and then just hang up . theyd understand
8. Have they had struggles with their identity, be it due to internal or external reasons?
hes the prime struggler and transgender allegory ... if hes not actively repressing his feelings for guys then hes trying as hard as he can to come off as a cis guy . i think it stems from the hostile environment milwaukee generally is as well as internal stuff < after his dads passing his mom blamed his homosexuality for it and deemed him a sinner ... her side of the family also just talked shit abt him a lot 😭this diswayed rei Greatly from ever being open . even in his 20s i think despite him being more cool w being gay nd stuff hed still be a little nervous ... i dont think his anxiousness abt it would ever go away for realsies , but with time he wouldnt think abt it too much 👍
AVE MARIA can youtell i want him dead
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☭ zionists fuck off ☭
block button is our best friend ( zionists , conservatives , & other fash will b blocked on sight )
play our (WIP) Choose Your Own Adventure story here
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birdhouse system ( DDNOS ) :
> spencer 🟩 | he/it | trans guy ( human )
> k ⬜️ | she/they | human
> len 🟦 | he/him | trans guy ( human ) | blog ( this is specifically a vent blog . if you're gonna be a dick go somewhere else )
> corvid 🐦⬛ | they/he/ve | bird guy/angsty teen
> mimic ❔ | he/hit/hits | shapeshifter/chronic liar - can be anything you want . and also things you don't want . actually that one's more likely tbh | blog
> ku 🐺🪽 | it/its | angel dogthing ( holds angel & beast )
> angel 🪽 | it/its | angel
> beast 🐺 | it/its | dogthing
> don 🐈⬛ | it/he | kitty cat !!! miau !!!!!!
> mary 🐑 | he/him | mareep little | blog
> kiri 💜 | she/her | trans girl ( human/digitalgirl ) kittygirl | blog
> miku ( yes THAT miku ) 🩵 | she/her | girlfag digitalgirl kittygirl
> zyga ( nickname ) 👽 | it/its | alien ( looks like a zygarde fragment )
( any tag with @ and an above emoji is from one alter to another )
some tags we use on this blog ( i'm not editing every single thing here 2 b accurate 2 plurality . jst deal w it ) :
- #vetted - any vetted campaigns relating to liberation struggles in palestine , DRC , sudan , etc. go here !!! check this tag if you want to donate !!!!!!!
- #i reblog every bear i see - bears here
- #long reads - this tag is for posts that are long and may take more mental energy to read
- #long reads ( no paragraph breaks ) - not necessarily a long post , but due to formatting , one that may take some time to get through
- #q - queue
- #saving this for later - for saving posts to look back in later when it’s pertinent
- #self-reblog tag - sometimes i reblog from my other blogs . mostly my art blog . reblog my art, cowards
- #i don’t go here - for when i reblog shit from fandoms i’m not a part of . the individual post is funny but don’t expect more content from that fandom
- #fagdyke hours - anything gender fucky , but mostly those posts talking about “i’m a boy who is a girl” and shit like that . also p much anything that uses the word fag
- #gender envy or something - posts that talk about being a cringe failson pathetic meow meow boy or whatever . posts that talk about being a guy but in the most pathetic way possible . i really wonder what sort of image this paints about me . i hope it makes you want to study me for science
- #this bird speaks - my original text posts go here . i dont do those often tho lol
- #disabledposting - me talking about being physically disabled . i don’t currently have a tag for mental disability
- #hope for the future posts - this tag is for posts that make me feel ok about humanity and the state of things . browse through here if you need some hope
- #important - any information that i believe is important to share / for people to know . this tag overlaps with long reads a lot
- #little magics - posts that make me feel good about the world ! shit doesn’t always suck . i suspect this tag will be a lot of nature and animal posts . look through here if you want for your heart to feel full !
- #corvidsstuff - stuff about corvids . funky little men
- #the human condition ( positive ) - stuff that to me seems fundamentally human . stuff that aliens would view as a hallmark of the species . only the positive stuff tho bc sometimes i like being happy
- #the human condition - same as above but not necessarily positive . not necessarily negative either tho !
- #kill maim bite - grrrrrrr baf baf * bitse you * ( fleshcore / meatcore )
- #blasphemous jokes - jokes about christianity / christian views that defy god
- #serotonin video - good vibes only . will probably mostly be cats tbh
- #My Mechanical Girlfriend - computer4computer . computer sex
- #BEASTLY - sometimes being trans is about killing yourself to the eyes of god and the people who said they loved you and being a monster and being a fallen angel and being evil and being so so so so holy
- #batty !!! - goth shit !!! prob mostly gonna b outfits & moody vibes
- i do my best to tag potential triggers but i forget sometimes / don’t realize someone would b triggered by it, so please lmk if i missed something !
this is an ongoing list which will be updated in future , and most of these tags are relatively new , so many of my older posts will not be tagged according to this list . also i forget to tag things sometimes , so not everything i post will be tagged appropriately
also if anyone knows how to do the thing people do where they underline text n it links to the tag or whatever pls lmk i’m confuse
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3, 13, and 21 for violence
gonna throw a quick disclaimer at the top here that i just. do not read many fics at all n i feel like a lot of gripes people have with fandom stem from fic tropes that i just. do not encounter 👍 so that should paint my answers a bit
3] screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr OK SO FOR LIKE. all of these im assuming ace attorney EXCEPT for this one bc ive got like a particular person in mind who just. always had batshit takes anyways the one im thinking of is that they would (maybe still do i stopped lookin at their shit) on fuckin. long ass rants about how any sort of serialization or continuity is making tv shows worst and how people who would like. make theories or guesses about where a show was going is LITERALLY killing storytelling. and ofc this was about fuckin kids cartoons and they were talking about how. how star vs the forces of evil having antagonist outside of the silly saturday morning cartoon archetype is why that shows ending was ass. fascinating really that person was full of so much shit
13] worst blorboficiation I know people get fuckin pissed at the clay fans but like who cares ur never gonna see him if u dont go lookin for him. not enough people write apollo right they dont make him an ASS they make him a little stary eyed novice whos world surronds phoenix and the whole point of 4-1 is that he DOESNT phoenix fuckin PULLED SHIT he punched him in the FACE apollos a guy where u plop him in a weird situation he loudly exclaims WHAT THE FUCK.
21] part of canon you think is overhyped will you kill me if i say the trilogy 🥺 ik the post trilogy only has 1 game thats good i know the trilogy is the fuckin trilogy but would u kill me if i said the trilogy in its entirety
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grab some ambrosia! and let the nectar flowwww
why is everyone scraping part of their plate in the fire? is the food here really that bad? 🤨
offering to the ✨gods✨ because it’s not enough that they’re omnipotent and all powerful, they need to feel ✨appreciated✨
to the gods, TO THE GODS!
OH THINGS COULDN’T BE WORSE WHEN YOUR PARENTS RUN THE UNIVERSE, OH THINGS COULDNT BE WOOORRRSSEEE WHEN YOUR FOLKS RUN THE UNIVERSEEE
my dad is HERMES he messengers things, you’ll know his sign by his shoes with those wings😒 id wait by the phone, but the phone never rings, oh noooo
OH NOOO
when your dads a god, life can be tough, i met the guy ONCE and ONCE was enough 🫠
annaBETH!
now my moms athena, she’s smart and she’s wise… she’s sworn off gluten and she’s sworn off guys, but if she came to camp it’d be a surprise oh noooo😬
OH NOOOOO
oh! and my stepmom, well she hates me and my dad works all daayy so i left virginia and i ran away😌🙃
wait!? is that true??!!
OH THINGS COULDNT BE WORSE WHEN YOUR PARENTS RUN THE UNIVERSE, OH THINGS COULDNT BE WOORRSSEEE WHEN YOUR FOLKS RUN THE, UNIVERSE
alright who’s next-
oh-oh let me see!
‼️MY MOMS DEMETER ✨gOdDeSs Of GrAiNsS✨‼️ she gets excited when it starts to rain🙄 but planting and planTING AND PLANTINGS A PAIN!!!!!!! OH NOOOOOO
ohhh noooo?
for their sixteenth birthday, my friends got a car… i got A FERN IN SOME DUMB MASON JAR🤬
ooh ooh my turn!
IM THE CHILD OF PAN 😌god of the wild😌 FOR THOSE WHO LOVE NATURE THEYRE OFTEN BEGUILED😍 he’s not really my dad? but im sort of his child?? oh noooooo😰
ohh nooo?
he went on a hike…. to explore new frontiers, aND NO ONE HAS SEEN HIM FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
OH THINGSSS COULDNT BE WORSEE WHEN YOUR PARENTS RUN THE UNIVERSEEE OH THINGS COUODNT BE WOOORRRRSSSEEEE WHEN YOUR FOLKS RUN THE ✨universe✨
chiron! who’s your dad?
oh
well
my father is kronos
🦗🦗🦗🦗
remember my lecture… he ate his children😀
fhh chiron wins🫢
yeah… his dads definitely the worst
😃how about you silena😃
🥰goddess of love my mom’s aphrodite😘 she’s tries to be cool, but mainly she’s flighty☹️ ill bring home a boy, and she’s thERE IN HER NIGHTY???!!!!!
OH NO!!!!!!
soundtrack: ITS SO EMBARRASSING GUYS.
actual musical: she’s garbage, people😤
i tried to seek help from even the faAtEeS cuz she steals my mascara and ALL OF MY DATES. 🤬🤬🤬😭😭😭😒😒😒
actual musical: sHeS wHy I cRy😢😥😭
*awkward*alrighttt percy its your turn…
if i try to sing it’ll probably cause an avalanche😅
oh it’s ok yeah we’re all friends here👍
ok umm. my mom was named sally, she loved scary movieEs… and food that was blue-
he’s doing it wrong. ya who’s ur godly parent?
oh. i don’t know.
it’s alright, a lot of half-bloods never know their godly parent. just give it a try😊
*incoherent mumbling that is the definition of 😒and 🤬*
alright😒😒😒😒
soo my dad is some ✨gOd✨
that’s great. i guess🤷♂️
did he not want me or not want the stress?😔😥
too bad he’s the worst, and my life is a mess! ohhh nooo
OHHH YEAAAHHHH PERCY😏🤭
i hope he shows, even a trace… CUZ IVE GOT SOME CHOICE WORDS TO THROW IN HIS FACE😏😤
YEAH PERCY THATS WHAT WE’RE TALKIN BOUT PERCY🤩🥳
OHHHH THINGSSS COULDNT BE WORSE WHEN YOUR PARENTS RUN THE UNIVERSEEE
OH THINGS COULDNT BE WORSE WHEN YOUR FOLKS RUN THE UNIVERSE-
BUT I DONT CARE WHERE OUR PARENTS MAY BE AS LONG YOU ARE HERE WITH MEeee
but we don’t care where our parents may be, as long as you are here with ME. AS. LONG. AS. YOU. ARE. HERE. WITH. ME!!! 😃😃😃
camp half blood campfire sing song 🎵 you bet they chose the most annoying songs to sing at full volume to piss off Mr D lmao 💀
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pokespe reread: yellow chapter - closing thoughts! 🟡
that's the end of yellow and gen 1 as a whole!! before i (very excitedly) move onto GSC, here's my closing thoughts ft. me talking way too long about blue for some reason
(before we start i want to reiterate that i use they/them for yellow. i just cant use anything else sorry. i also use "yellow" and "amarillo" interchangeably 👍)
ok, i wanna start by talking about yellow's personality bcuz MAN! i am so glad i reread this chapter in particular bcuz i really forgot so much. as a child i 100% woobified yellow very badly and basically any trait of theirs that wasnt "sweet nice pokemon-loving healer" got destroyed in the process
there's so much else to them!! they're headstrong, they're brave, they're determined.... and while inexperienced, they're literally stated to have power on the same level at red's at certain points!!! amarillo is not just a little cinnamon roll or whatever, and i really appreciate being able to remember that via this reread.
i also really love their pacifist streak! i like how they're kind and prefer not to fight not out of naivety or stupidity or cowardice, but as a conscious decision that they make because that is what they want to do. and i think that's really admirable! sticking to ur principles while being informed and everything. and it def leads to a lot of interesting situations where they're able to win without actually attacking, which is cool to see
ok you know me. ive gotta talk about yellow's gender.
i love yellow bcuz they're one of those characters where everyone has different interpretations of them gender-wise but we all sort of agree that they are not cis LOL. those kinds of characters are fun to me
i def can read yellow in different ways, but i personally see them as an afab non-binary person. (tho i dont think they would've had the words for it until later) that's just how they read to me. and im definitely even more attached to this hc now that i myself am trans LOL (not that i wasnt before. you know how it is)
anyways, when it comes to what's actually in the text, i actually like how yellow's gender was handled! i really like the fact that as a reader you go through almost the ENTIRE ARC thinking they're a boy before it's finally revealed. i think that's definitely preferable in this situation to the audience knowing from the start.
not only does it come as a surprise (i mean. if it's your first time reading obviously lol) but it sort of asks you as a reader to inspect your own perceptions of characters when it comes to their gender, esp probably when this came out. how does your perception of amarillo change once you find out they're actually a girl? should it change? idk i just find that interesting
i also do appreciate that yellow's abilities and personality (at least for this arc) dont change between before and after the reveal. like thats a low bar lol, but i appreciate that they're still shown to be strong in their ways once you know they're a girl, and they also still act the same. again low bar but it would've been easy to treat yellow more like A Girl afterwards so im glad that doesnt happen.
(im a little wary for the future since yamamoto definitely draws yellow more overtly feminine-looking than mato, but lets hope that stays about the same. ok?)
^ while im mentioning that btw. i fucking loveeee how mato draws yellow so much. they're so perfectly androgynous looking it makes me happy :) and again that doesnt change at all after the reveal so yayyyyyyy
but anyways. i also rlly like blaine's reaction to finding out in particular. he asks about it, a little bewildered, and when they request that he not ask about it right now, he obliges and does not bring it up for the rest of the arc! and doesnt treat them any differently! its fucking awesome i love blaine so fucking much guys
amarillo's gender in general was a lot less of a big deal than i remembered/expected it to be? like it really does not matter in the grand scheme of things and i think thats pretty cool ^_^
on the subject of that scene though...
bro im sorry this is not the reaction of a cis girl who's only been caught pretending to a boy 😭 the "dont ask right now" thing i could understand, but this line??? this feels wayyyyy more personal. fym you feel naked without that hat? the hat that hides your ponytail and girlness?? you feel exposed and bad without hiding the fact that you're female? interesting.
like to me. yellow might've had some preexisting feelings, but blue telling them to pretend to be a boy (i'll get to that later) and getting to go around like that was their trans awakening for sure.
but what i find interesting is that despite blue saying that, yellow doesn't... actually ever introduce themself as a boy? like literally not a single time. they hide their ponytail and dont correct people when they refer to them as such (although now that i think about it i actually cant recall if anyone actually calls them a boy or uses he/him for them in their presence, but it probably happens) but never do they actually call THEMSELF a boy or anything like that
like despite blue's instructions, yellow doesn't really pretend to be a boy so much as just go around with their ponytail hidden and have everyone just assume they're a boy. which i find interesting, and its why i so strongly see yellow not as transmasc but as non-binary. they're a "girl" but everyone assumes they're a boy, but yellow themself doesnt ever comment on the matter. truly goals oh my god if i could go around and just have everyone think im a boy even if its technically more complicated than that my life would be blessed. anyway
that's the sort of subtextual reason as to why i view yellow as non-binary, but in terms of my actual hc, this experience is their awakening not because of them getting to be a boy, but rather them getting to not be a girl. and i think once they get to live like that for a little bit that's def what leads them to think about it more and eventually figure all that out :)
ANYWAYS. getting back to the actual text. i wanna quickly talk about the other characters bcuz i really like how everyone was incorporated into this arc
i thought this arc did a great job handling all of the different characters. i like how each of them gets a chance to shine without it feeling too crowded, and it's really cool seeing what everyone's been up to in the 2 years since RGB.
obviously you've got blue leading yellow, green training them, and the whole thing with red (which i'll get to in a little bit), but also the gym leaders (both good and bad), bill, blaine and mewtwo... they all felt important in their own way. no one felt glossed over or anything.
that little peak we get of green's childhood + him teaching that little boy was cool :D i love green so much.
i particularly liked seeing blaine and mewtwo's bond after 2 years of them healing and training together, and the twist of giovanni being the one to let red out of the ice genuinely had me shocked, i did NOT remember that. him showing up at the end to save yellow (and using the same move red beat him with!!!!) was a really cool moment that had me freaking out
the elite four were also really fun (and very intimidating) villains! i like how they each had their own point of intrigue, they never felt like just one unit without their own personalities. lorelei is the one who froze red, bruno was being manipulated, agatha mostly sticks to the shadows but has her past with professor oak, and of course everything with lance. their goal is insane but they really do feel like actual threats so it never feels ridiculous
speaking of lance, he is the PERFECT foil/antagonist for yellow. having them both be from the viridian forest, both with the power to read pokemon's minds and heal them, but with vastly different outlooks on the relationship between people and pokemon is just suchhh a good dynamic
amarillo uses their power for good to help both people and pokemon, while lance uses that same power in pursuit of helping pokemon but via a plan that would've surely only ended up hurting both..... very very good...
i like how the story does sympathize with lance's cause and points out that YES, humanity has problems, and their actions and pollution and everything have hurt many pokemon. but that's not a reason to wipe out ALL humans; it's instead something to try and improve so that both people and pokemon's lives can be improved and they can live in harmony. lance's motivations are noble but obviously the way that he goes about it (attempted global genocide) is uh. not
i also like how its shown near the end that lance's efforts won't just hurt pokemon if he gets his way, but are actively hurting HIS OWN right now. his dragonite was suffering in silence in pursuit of his goal, and thats not to mention all of the trainers opposing him's pokemon who could've gotten seriously injured battling with him. and of course that's not even getting into the fact he FOR SURE killed at least a FEW people in the midst of destroying an entire city. and partially destroying several other cities. noble cause, but bad actions in pursuit of that cause. i always find that kind of thing interesting
rq before i talk about red and yknow. the main plot. i wanna circle back and go on a small tangent about blue because she makes me insane and even though i already said some of this in the tags of a previous post i need to get it out here
this line made me spiral into my years-long sadness about blue and the loss of her childhood and i just. need to talk about it. going ahead and giving the disclaimer that a lot of this stuff was definitely not meant to be that serious (because this story is written by a man who was definitely not thinking about the implications of stuff like this) but the way that it ties into blue's larger backstory makes me want to grab someone by the shirt and shake them violently
blue saying "until you can use the fact that you're a 'woman' as a weapon" is soooooo fucking sad dude. blue is a girl who has been using flirting and her position as a "woman" in the world to her advantage since AT LEAST 11 years old in RGB. literally in order to survive on the street
we can assume (and hope) that nothing bad ever happened to her, thank goodness, but that's still a very dangerous position for a little girl to be putting herself in. and it's always been really sad to me that she's had to learn how to weaponize being a girl from such a young age.
how did she learn that? somehow blue had to learn that she could get her way by flirting with men and making herself look and act as appealing as possible and i really dont want to think about a little blue out on the streets learning to play into the desires of men to survive, something she should NOT have to be dealing with that young. she should be getting to play!! to discover who she is!!
and this is AFTER already getting kidnapped, groomed into being a perfect trainer, and having to basically raise a kid only a few years younger than her in the midst of all that trauma. unintentionally or not, blue is literally like a personification of what it's like to grow up as a girl and how awful it can be and it makes me SO fucking sad.
blue had to grow up far too soon and i feel like this can even be seen in her want to get her own pokedex in RGB. she has had such a hard life and she's only 11 fucking years old (at the time). she's either had to play mother or be an object of desire to make ends meet, OF COURSE her deepest wish and motivation would be just to go on her own pokemon journey like other kids her age!!
so while again i could just chalk up blue telling yellow this to "a man wrote this and it wasnt meant to be that deep", i do genuinely believe blue WOULD say this. because this is what she's had to do to survive and she thinks it's fucking normal!!!
OK. ANYWAYS. SORRY. this chapter is not about blue i just had to rant for a second bcuz she makes me so sad and im not normal about her. let's move on and wrap this up lol
red's disappearance is such a fantastic event to base the story around. i totally forgot that we see him in the very beginning, but i like that all we get is him getting the battle invite, and then it cuts to oak and misty discussing how he's gone missing. (for whatever reason i thought that he was missing for way longer than a month? i guess my child brain just exaggerated that lol)
i feel like not seeing red at all before he goes missing could've been interesting? but i think getting that small glimpse at the beginning is good for reestablishing his character, especially since you've gotta account for people who are just now tuning in.
but anyways, the mystery of what happened to red is really well done. i like how it's really unclear what happened for a long time and even after getting hints like learning he was frozen by the elite four, it's still unclear exactly how he got out, where he went afterwards, why they froze him, etc.
you don't even SEE him in action besides the opening for quite a while, which i reallyyy like. all the information is coming from people OTHER than red, which gives him a really interesting, vaguely "haunting the narrative" type role in the arc as a whole. esp since the protagonist this time is yellow, someone who's only met red once or twice briefly when they were younger and therefore doesn't really know him.
the scene where we finally get to see red and bruno's battle is sooo impactful too. you watch as it starts off normal, as red is able to overcome challenges over and over again like normal, and then in an instant it all goes wrong...
watching red accept that he's not gonna be able to get out of this one by himself and sending pika away to get help.... his sad little smile before he falls..... him struggling on the ground, realizing that it'd be basically impossible for pika to be able to properly communicate with anyone, before he finally succumbs to the ice....
it really does hurt, ESPECIALLY considering his previous role as hero. he always manages to win in the end, but not this time. and his last thoughts before getting frozen are literally him starting to think that it might be hopeless. and reminder that he's literallyyyyy 13 during all of this. lorddddd
LAST THING I WANT TO MENTION
this arc does a reallyyy good job at subtly setting up for GSC. like throughout the arc, blue mentions how she's still working on trying to figure out who kidnapped her as a child; it never becomes relevant during yellow's plot but it keeps it in the back of your mind.
and then of course you get silver's cameo midway through + the direct tease for GSC with him showing up at the end and everything. obviously a very minor part of the chapter overall but it does a great job at keeping this plotline fresh in your mind so that it can be really delved into later. very awesome
AND SPEAKING OF GSC. I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED THIS FUCKING POST oh my god its like 3am. i really did not mean to write this much but i just love pokespe so much and i have thoughts. ok?
ANYWAYS. it's officially time for GSC babey. i was thinking of maybe splitting gold & silver and crystal into two separate arcs? i know they're technically the same arc but this is also the longest arc in the whole series so maybe that would be good.....?
although then "gold & silver" would only be those first two volumes, and i also dont remember if those leave off on a good point.... idk i'll probably just put them all together. "gold & silver reread" and "crystal reread" just look better than "gsc reread" ....... T_T
oh well i'll figure it out tomorrow when i continue onward. it's finally time for SILVER BABEYYYYYYYYYY (and gold and crystal i love them all dearly. but i do have a favorite)
#serena.txt#pksp reread#yellow reread#also side note i realized that i've been pronouncing amarillo wrong my whole life and i feel very embarrassed. ALSO i learned today#that the spanish name was just an english localization thing and it/smthn similar doesnt exist in the og japanese?? i did not know that#normally i would be like ''well its not in the original so-'' but im sorry latina yellow is so fucking good that i cant let that go#its real to me. ok?
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