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i'd get a covid test but i can't afford it 🤩

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i'm experiencing a sore throat and headaches and muscle aches... let's hope it's just a cold 😣

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Columbia Typewriter Mfg. Co// Bar-Lock # 2 Typewriter (US, 1890)

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i don't know why people like identify as having paraphilias? because that concept is pretty much the most obvious wrong thing about clinical psychology imo. but i guess i too like to knowingly pathologise myself sometimes just for fun and/or ease of communication

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psychological torture is always sexual

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enough about books you love. tell me about a book you fucking hated

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the new ancient greece interest is scary because it has me reading greek mythology ao3 fanfiction when i want a break from the nonfiction textbook

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hotel chain hears the meme about hotel art being basic and decides to switch things up. you open the door to your room and marina abramovic is sitting there

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i had to evacuate the apartment and the fire truck is here and such 😭😭 i'm colddd. and i have READINGS to complete

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i feel like "feminist" anti-kink sentiment is very tail-wagging-the-dog. like male doms playing out bdsm scenes of abuse are not oppressing their female subs that's acting. you're mad at acting. you're those aliens from galaxy quest. same with fearmongering about "booktok". however an eroticized version of patriarchal dynamics being a popular kink DOES speak to the pervasiveness of sexism, bc eroticizing the oppression is a way of coping with living under it. it's women creating a fantasy world where men being menacing to them is sexy and not scary like it is irl, or where it is still scary but in the fun way like a horror movie bc you can tap out at any time by using a safe word or putting the book down. acting like this sort of kink is oppressing women is like if you assumed the thermometer controlled the weather outside. it might be depressing to look at the thermometer and see the impact of climate change, but it's not the thermometer's fault

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i think part of why this is making me feel so bad is that i am still very anhedonic so i'm not even deriving joy from this i'm just maniacal

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they should invent interests that don't make you insane and kind of miserable at first

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yes i've been wanting a new truly intense interest for the last like three years but i can feel one coming on and i'm NOT happy like it actually makes me sick 😭

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