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what type of love are you according to the ancient greeks ?
      ➻      philautia   (   love   of   the   self   )
  coming   from   the   word   â   self   â   love   â   in   ancient   greek   ,   this   shape   of   love   is   the   most   important   to   a   person.   however   ,   there   are   negative   side   effects   too   such   as   in   the   form   of   narcissism.   not   to   fret   ,   for   there   are   numerous   form   of   selfless   love.   i'd   either   offer   two   pieces   of   advice   :   focus   on   yourself   and   /   or   keep   up   the   focus   on   yourself   for   the   days   to   come.
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#* ⊠đđđ. âź dash games ⯠➻ â#okay who's surprised#literally no one#no eurydice and orpheus for once i won#this does capture him i feel though#when it was like âmeddlesomeâ i was like his thoughts exactly#burden too though he finds all things that tie him down burdensome#love to him is just like a restriction and he needs a challenge not an anchor
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đJUNE FIC REC II
â a greek tragedy by ashÂ
(I canât express enough how amazing this is) 4.6K Words
When Steve started drawing the comic, he drew himself before the serum and Bucky as he remembered him when they worked together to keep from ending up on the streets and dreamed of futures with floating cars. He drew them then and now, scenes against a New York he remembered and scenes against this future he didnât quite fit in, one drawn soft and hazy, the other hard lines. When he drew them in the present, he never drew himself looking at Bucky; Bucky was always behind him, a shadow that followed as he tried to find a trace of the world they used to know in this one. He called them Orpheus and Eurydice.
đŠŸ Â Touch Me Iâm Going to Scream by buffypeppers
(This is a classic in my opinion. Itâs got recovering!Bucky and every trope you can imagine, so very fluffy) 107.5K Words
Only a few days have passed since the Winter Soldier put Sam into a hospital bed but Steve is ready to find HYDRAâs assassin and bring him to justice.
Things won't go according to plan once the Avengers find the infamous man.
đ”ïžââïž End of all Days by Minka ( @minka-gâ on tumblr)
(I was motivated to reread this recently, it kept me on the edge of my seat the first time I read it and it had the same thrilling effect when I reread it too. Thereâs only one word to describe it: thrilling.)Â
(Archeological Historian!Steve x Spy!Bucky) (Indiana Jones & Atomic Blonde AU)Â 116.7K Words
Captain Steve Rogers had thought his military days were behind him, left in the bloody nightmare that was Saigon. Retired and working as a History Professor, the last thing he expected was to get caught up in a cataclysmic Slavic prophesy foreshadowing the end of the known world.
With Cold War tensions running high, Steve finds himself in need of a guide and translator to get him behind the Iron Curtain and into the isolated snowdrifts of Siberia.
Itâs deep in the heart of Bucharestâs resistance fighters that Steve finds the ideal candidate, but swaying the enigmatic ex-operative known as The Winter Soldier proves to be complicated. Trust is hard-won, especially in the world of espionage, and with a KGB death squad nipping at his heels, the Soldier has countless reasons to stay presumably dead.
As the lines between right, wrong and the supernatural begin to blur, Steve is forced to reconsider everything heâs ever believed, right from the sanctity of his own country to the very foundations of creation itself.
â€ïžâïżœïżœ Every Door Opens by Notoska ( @notoska on tumblr)
(This fic, the words and the way they were written, not only yanked my heart out of my chest, it also sunk deep in my bones where I was forced to carry it and think of it for days. Fantastic.) Recovery fic. 73.9K Words
Then Bucky licks his lips, tip of his tongue just grazing the sensitive skin of Steveâs ear and Steve moans. Nothing close to the surge of lust behind his ribs, but a tiny, breathy sound all the same. Bucky doesnât reactâhe must not have heard. Though a minute later he curls his fingers and extends them again, moving just slow enough for it to be a caress.
Just tip your head into his touch. Heâll take the lead and trace the folds of your ear with his tongue until you canât keep quiet any more. Then heâll smother your desperate little noises with his mouth, fingers twisting in your hair. Kissing deeply, tongues reaching to declare your filthy intentions. Find his knee with your hand and slide wolfishly up his thigh until you reach the bulge behind his fly. Palm him through his trousers until heâs panting in your mouth, until heâs pressing his forehead to yours, hips bucking, and you can see his dark eyes, glinting in the screenâs flickering light, pleadingâ
Steve jolts back to the present. The credits are rolling and Bucky is reading them as well. The screen blacks and two fluorescent lights buzz to life. Bucky loosens his hand from Steveâs head, welcoming the world back in.
#stucky fanfiction#stucky fanfic#stucky#steve/bucky#ao3#stucky fic recs#stucky fic rec#steve rogers x bucky barnes#steve rogers/bucky barnes#stevebucky#fic recs
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(kinda sorta)
Life SMP Hadestown AU
//Life SMP Hadestown AU//
Master post for something no one may see.
Idk if this is anything but enjoy
I dunno- this and into the woods is my favorite musicals and Iâve had traffic brain rot for AGESSS and I was finally re-listening to Hadestown and this absolute fever dream of an idea dawned on me during hey little song bird
So yeah. Enjoy?
Hereâs the original post when I got this idea
And obvious disclaimer this are all the character versions of these people not the actual people thank you very much for you patience.
ANYWAY
//Life series Hadestown AU//
Eurydice- Jimmy Solidarity âšthe canaryâš you see the vision. This (joke?) is what started this whole thing so.
Orpheus- Still deciding between Scott and Tango
Tango pros:
- They are soulmates
- the goat horns are kinda vaguely like music/an instrument đ
- ranchers duo is SO SWEET always
- their lives are tethered which in a way fits the story of the show and the myth.
- idk i just like this idea
- why are you still here? Itâs over. Go home.
- c!jimmy seems to be on better terms with c!tango than c!scott soooo
Scott pros:
- they were husbands, Jimmy died first tragically (very accurate to original myth)
- THE FLOWER MOTIF- specifically a red flower. Itâs just so perfect
- they saw each other in the afterlife
- Scott is always attached to flower husbands which seems fitting
- he likes to sing? Empires musical? I donât know but it seems like it works
-flower husbands and desert duo have connections (you will see why this is important)
So yeah leaning towards tango for the vibes but leaning towards Scott for actual similarities in plot and such.
(If someone wants to say Joel or someone I will happily hear you out lol)
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Hades and Persephone- c!Grian and c!Scar/desert duo. The characters were once in love and then it grew into a a more bitter relationship. There are lots of potential parallels with Hadestown older lovers and desert duo. Grian and scar also have flower/plant motifs.
Grian as hades- He is a watcher, which seems fitting. Creator of the games seems fitting for god of death and also the industrial foreman Hadestown has. Original winner.
Scar as Persephone- Now that he is a winner, I personally love the idea of him being the earth, which is perfect for the god(dess) of spring. I also think his secret life skins going from green to black is an accidental parallel.
The only real issue with this is I want to incorporate Grian being the sun but thatâs contradictory;-;
Hermes- My main idea atm is Martyn. This is mostly because storytelling and lore is very connected to him and his character. Who doesnât love some eyes and ears AU/lore
I am also considering pearl just because I like that idea, her being the moon and being connected to g and s, etc
And Ren because he is such a storyteller/theater kid
The Fates- I have several ideas for this
-the watchers(and secret keeper.) Obvious reasons
- the other winners
-clethubs because they are a fun/good trio lol
- ren, pearl, Scott (in case I donât have them as Hermes/orpheus)
- the remaining Evo members: bigb (also he was so creechur in third life ), pearl, and if heâs not Hermes, Martyn (also good since pearl and martyn have won)
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Based on a lot of the plant motifs imagine if instead of a carnation it was a poppy.
Iâm very slow with drawing and have never written any kind of fic before but if people like this idea Iâd love suggestions for the AU and Iâll definitely make some character designs :)
Character designs/descriptions:
Jimmy coming soon to a theater near you
Other posts for the AU:
Full circle lol
Potential name
How to include both Scott and Tango
#this started as a joke#slash weird idea#now here we are#hadestownx life series#life series Hadestown AU#traffic smp Hadestown AU#life series#traffic smp#3rd life#last life#double life#secret life#limited life#jimmy solidarity#Grian#good times with scar#flower husbands#ranchers duo#desert duo#Hadestown#musical theater#orpheus and eurydice myth#Greek mythology#when I am doing a minor in folklore and mythology studies- I really hope my professors never see this#life smp Hadestown AU
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When Shiro woke, everything was dark, and the stone was cold under his hands, and the flickering flame of torches cast a thousand shadows on Adamâs terrified face.
He scrambled to his feet with a gasp, scraping his knees on the rough stone, thin sandals digging into his feet. The dampness was suffocating, a blanket of wet air filling his lungs until he was drowning. He reached out to Adam, to touch and hold him, finally, finally, finally, but his hands would not obey, nor would his arms stretch out. Instead he only stood paralyzed and looked at him, watched as the shadows danced across his face. He wasnât wearing his glasses. Where were his glasses? Adam couldnât see. He needed to see.
âSon of the Skies, Grand Master of the Lyre and the Silver Tongue,â boomed a voice, not loud, but strong, strong enough that the pebbles on the ground shook in fear and the water rushing behind the walls of the cave froze. Shiro looked up, terror making his movements jerky, fragmented, and saw for the first time in front of him a throne grander than any heâd ever seen, woven together with bones and skulls and ash, studded with gold and diamond. The flames of the torches soared, burning brightly, blinding white in the blackness of the cave, illuminating on the throne skin of bleached bone, eyes of crimson rubies, and a crown of blood and marrow, dripping in rivulets down his face.
Hades.
Shiro did not know how he knew the god, from where the certainty came, but he was sure: in front of him, giant in stature and horrifying in posture, the god of death and dying and riches sit before him.
âOrpheus,â Hades thundered, more final than before.
Shiro knew that Hades spoke to him. He was Orpheus. He knew also, somehow, that he was the one who had demanded an audience, he was the one who stood trembling in front of the King and asked a task impossible, implored the mercy of the god for whom mercy was a slight, an insult.
âDo you understand the gravity of what you ask? I am moved by your plea, by your song. But what you demand is an imbalance. A disruption of the natural order. Your lover died of no unnatural means. To send him back to the living would be to risk the delicate balance of life itself, for no gain for anyone but you and your love. And still you ask me?â
Sweat dripped into Shiroâs eyes, even as he shivered from the cold. He looked over to Adam â to Eurydice â who stood frozen beside Hadesâ throne, black tendrils of poison still lining his skin from the venom of the snake that befell him; the lines of betrayal because Shiro could not save him, because Shiro left him behind.
To die.
He would not leave Adam behind again. Not at his own behest, not at Hadesâ, and most certainly not at the worldâs. He would choose Adam, this time. This time he would choose to be selfish.
He turned to the god, resolve hardening his jaw, straightening his spine, even as terror churned in his belly, trembled his hands.
âI understand that gravity of my request. And I make it again â I beg you, Lord of the Underworld, for the return of my loveâs soul.â
This time, he would choose Adam.
The god stared at him for several minutes, unmoving, unspeaking, endlessly. He looked silently ahead for long enough that Shiro felt as if his would skin wrinkle and his hair would grey. He feared he would be trapped in this cave until he perished, and he and Adam would never be free.
âI will grant you his freedom,â Hades said finally. âYour performance and bravery are admirable, boy. You have nearly won your prize.â
Shiro swallowed. âNearly?â
Hadesâ gaze grew cold. âMy domain is large, and treacherous. You have played waylaid your way into it, and now you must find your way out. Your love may follow you, and once you are both in the land of the living, there you shall both stay until the sands of time finally return you to me.â
âThank you,â Shiro gasped out, hunched over in his relief. âThank you, my lord ââ
Hades held up his hand for silence, and Shiroâs tongue grew heavy in his mouth.
âBut,â he warned, âEurydice shall walk behind you. And if you look back, even once, he will remain here for eternity, and he shall never be with you again. These are my terms.â
âI accept,â Shiro said hastily. Immediately. Hades could have suggested any sacrifice and he would have made it. This would be easy; a sacrifice only of faith.
âGo, then,â said Hades.
Shiro hesitated. âAdam, call out to me, so I know ââ
âGo now, boy!â Hades boomed, coming to his feet, and the weight of him shifted the walls and shook the ceilings, a rain of rock falling from the sky. âDo not look back!â
Shiro turn and fled. He ran from the cave, from the throne of bone and blood and the flames that stank of rot and the god that held the souls of everything that had ever lived in his palms. He ran past the weeping poplar trees, silver in the eternal night of the underworld. He ran until his sandals ripped and his feet bled on the unforgiving ground, skin cracked and torn. He collapsed finally to the ground, heavy breathing the only sound in the heavy stillness of the Underworld.
âAdam?â he called softly, once he had his breath again. âAdam, are you behind me?â
He heard nothing, even when he held his own breaths. Not the quiet uptick of an inhale, nor the steady sigh of an exhale; not the shifting of clothes and skin, not the shuffling footsteps of a man waiting. Not even a faint heartbeat. There was no sound but the near-silent rustling of the poplar leaves, and the slow movement of the river Lethe.
âPlease,â he begged. âJust â even a click of your fingers. Please let me know youâve followed me.â
When no sound made known the presence of his love, he pressed the heels of his hands to his red and aching eyes, holding back a sob. He had to have faith. He had made the selfish choice, and now he was paying the price. He would stave forward, eyes steady, until they were both securely back to the land of the living, and then they would both live their lives.
Onward he trekked, much slower this time. He limped and pushed his way over the uneven ground, careful of fragments of forgotten bones and shattered glass, of spilled dreams and broken promises. He walked along the bank of the Lethe until the temptation of its waters grew to strong, and then he followed the bends of the Phlegethon, occasionally plunging his hands into the searing flames of it to drink when the exhaustion grew too great for him to continue.
For weeks he stumbled on the floor of the Underworld, crying out for any hint of his loveâs faith, of him following, only to receive stony silence in return. On some days the hopelessness grew too great for him to ignore, and he would collapse in a heap, forcing his head down so as to not look behind him, and weep. He did not know where he was going, nor how long it would take to finally escape. Or even if he ever would. All he wanted was the barest glimpse, the smallest assurance that Adam had even been allowed to follow him from Hadesâ throne. What if he had not? Hades was not known for his mercy. For him to allow Shiro an audience at all had been a miracle. He had sworn no oath, made no promise. For all that was certain, he had simply said what Shiro wanted to hear to get him away from the throne room, and Adam was still trapped, soul severed and alone, hopeless.
But there was some hope. Shiro could not hear him, could not see him, could not even catch the barest hint of his scent â peppermint and evergreen â but he trusted Adam. Even when they fought, even in anger, he trusted Adam. Even when they tore themselves apart Shiro trusted him. He had to trust that Adam would fight to follow him, and that he was right behind him.
After months at least of travel, although no time passed in the barren fields of the unloved and unliving, his hope was finally in sights. A bright light shined from the side of a mountain â too warm to be from the endless night of this barren hellscape. Shiro knew in his heart that once he reached that door, once he clawed his way up the mountain and through to the light, he would be free. He and Adam both â please let Adam be behind me, please, please make a noise or a sound or even the barest huff of air, please, I need to know youâre here with me that youâre behind me that you followed me that you want to live with me that you want to be with me that you want to live Adam please please please â would be free.
He stumbled finally through the light, out of the frozen and uncaring darkness and into the gentle warmth of the sun on his skin, the scent of the grass in the air, the packed earth under his cheek and his hands.
The land of the living.
Finally.
With relief more palpable than he had ever felt, he turned finally behind him, praying to any gods that would listen that he would find Adam behind him, sandals on the ground, chestnut hair glowing golden in the sunlight, gentle smile rivalling the brightest stars.
Please.
Please.
Please.
Please.
Please.
When he gathered his courage to open his eyes, slowly, too afraid to go quickly, he saw finally the face of his love. Adam stood tall behind him, long and lean and beautiful, one step into the warm beauty of the world.
Only one foot was still behind him, mid-step, toes of his sandal barely brushing the rough stone of the Underworld.
âNo,â Shiro moaned. A freezing dread rose slowly from the soles of his feet up his legs and arms and froze over his heart. âNo!â
âShiro,â Adam whispered, quiet and crackly and desperate. âShiro ââ
As if a thousand hands had grabbed onto his tunic he was suddenly yanked backwards, pulled back into the depths of the unknown.
âShiro! Help me! Please!â
âNo! No! We made it! We were on land!â
Shiro lunged forward, desperate to grab him, to finally wrap his arms around him after days weeks months years of stumbling through the barren wasteland without any indication that Adam was following and he couldnât lose him now, not now, please, they were so close, they were on land! Their feet were on the soil! They were so close, please, no, no â
He reached forward as far as he could, fingers brushing Adamâs, before he was pulled away with a final cry of Shiroâs name and the stone was shut behind him.
âAdam!â
Shiro gasps awake with his hand still outstretched, reaching for a soul that had already disappeared from his life. Everything is dark, but this time there is no cold stone under his hands, only soft blankets. And the flickering of light doesnât come from dimly lit torches, but the strange glow of the Altean crystals that power the castle.
There is no Hades. No underworld. No desperate bid for Adamâs soul.
Shiro buries his face in his hand and cries.
On reflex he tries to touch the gold of his engagement ring, something heâs done to self-soothe for ages, but the stark reminder of why he canât do that anymore only makes him cry harder. The metal of his left hand is cool against his heated skin, unforgiving.
Why couldnât he have been selfish? Or maybe he was selfish, choosing the Kerberos mission. Maybe Adam was selfish, to try to keep him from it. He doesnât know. Heâs thought about it â spent hours and days agonizing over it, locked in a Galran prison cell â and thereâs never a clear winner, in his mind. He knows Adam cares about him. Cared. He still feels the open wounds in his chest, the feeling that his heart was ripped open and bared to the world when Adam slipped through his fingers. It haunts him. He dreams about it often, every single night, in a myriad of different ways. Itâs always painful.
The Greek mythology allegory is new, though. He has to hand it to his subconscious â it never runs out of new ways to torture him.
He forces himself to take a deep breath, pressing his fingertips into his eyes until it hurts.
âYou donât have time for this,â he whispers to himself. âYou have a mission tomorrow. You need to sleep.â
He forces himself to lie back onto his pillows, untangling the blankets and dragging them up to his chin. He slows his breathing, steady inhale, steady exhale, trying to lull himself into a deep slumber.
He lies awake until the alarm sounds in the morning.
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Why did Orpheus turn?
Assured of his many talents
Raised and beloved by muses
Using his voice as a shield of men
Already confident in his loveâs devotion
Now acquainted with the pathway to hellâ
Tread only for the sake of others
Just a few more steps until heâd won
How could such a man falter in faith
Certainly not from doubts in Eurydice
But maybe some in the demons left below
And what joy they would truly allow him
Maybe he couldnât help but feel
The pull of the underworld calling him back
Now that it couldnât be unseen
And it was that abyss he was looking for
As he gazed right through the pale
Fading light of Eurydiceâs eyes
This love had triumphed over nature
But perhaps his own steps into the light
Became his sole focus and he forgot
The journey was made for partnership
For what is the purpose
Taking such a steep risk
Painstakingly climbing in tandem
Investing in the future with each step
Learning how to transport a soul
What was it all for if in the end
He was still alone with no one to blame
But his impulses that he valued higher
Than giving Eurydice time
To find her own light next to his
I worry what will become of him
Where he will wander and who he will meet
Whether he will keep his head
Without me there to hold him together
But Persephone chides me to remember
It was he who cast me back to hell
All the worse because of how far
Weâd traveled to escape it
She says I was placed in the back
Because there was never a doubt
I would catch him each time he stumbled
Even if I wasnât yet solid again myself
Down here Iâm becoming something new
Or maybe Iâm returning to what I once was
I could feel the change swallowing me
The second he turned around
Eurydice as she was can keep her Orpheus
Forever linked in earthly memory
I will embrace the life Iâm finding in death
And bathe in the glow of a million souls
Not get lost in the shadow of one
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âHadestownâ
Itâs supposed to rain all bloody day long! Will we never be able to walk again? Glad I bought the raincoat yesterday, but I still donât feel well enough to actually go out walking in the rain today.
Sundayâs blood sugar was down another few points, to 148. Perhaps because of an actual meal for dinner yesterday. Certainly not due to walking, which there has been none for⊠how many days now? Four, so far. Probably five, counting today.
Once we finished our coffee and brain games, I texted Joe about handling the streaming at church today because Iâm âunder the weatherâ and shouldnât go to church. Itâs nice to be able to take a break. Itâs not the streaming that can be a drag. Sometimes church just doesnât do anything for me.
For breakfast we rustled up some cheesey eggs and toast. A little after noon we had a snack to hold us until dinner. We met Kalen and Kurt and Kathleen and Ronin at the Mezza Luna location in downtown Eugene, just a few blocks away from the Hult Center, where we made our first visit this evening.
We attended a touring production of âHadestown,â a musical with music, lyrics, and book by AnaĂŻs Mitchell, an American singer-songwriter. It tells a version of the ancient Greek myth of Orpheus and Eurydice. Eurydice, a young girl looking for something to eat, goes to work in a hellish industrial version of the Greek underworld to escape poverty and the cold, and her poor singer-songwriter lover Orpheus comes to rescue her.
The original version of the musical was performed in 2006, followed by a tour in Vermont and Massachusetts in 2007. Mitchell then turned it into a concept album, which was released in 2010. In 2012, Mitchell met director Rachel Chavkin, and the two reworked the stage version, with additional songs and dialogue.
The new version of the musical, directed by Chavkin, premiered off-Broadway at New York Theatre Workshop on May 6, 2016, and ran through July. Following productions in Canada and England, the show premiered on Broadway in 2019. The Broadway production received critical acclaim. At the 73rd Tony Awards, Hadestown received 14 nominations (the most that year) and won eight, including Best Musical and Best Original Score.
The 2,500-seat theater was nearly filled, and many of the audience were quite enthusiastic in their reception, evidently more familiar with the work than Nancy and I were. It took me a while to get into it, but by the end I found it enjoyable and very creative.
We hope to see two more touring shows next spring: âDear Evan Hansenâ and âHamilton.â Our seats tonight werenât terribleâwe were on the left side of the mezzanineâbut there are certainly better seats in the house.
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Queen dead on the pyre ever higher
Quivering Dido
Now I don't know
How to guard my heart
As barbarous Iarbas
Seeks to tear it apart
Queen of wit
Queen on piles
Of dirt
Tell me how to avoid tricky Venus' wiles
Avoid the hurt
He leaves
And leave my towers tall
Before I fall.
Seeress crazed
With city raised
By hazed secrets
Cassandra
I draw
Forth your voice
Praise your words
Unheard
By blind men
In the dark hidden
Tell me my future
Only after my past
All to ensure
To outlast all
The heavenly glow
Of jealous Apollo
Tell me how you know
He was not the one
That had his sights won?
Helen
Beholden
To all men
Hell in hell
They tell on
As though you are no person
Just prize to be won
Did you rise as the rose
And down Troy fell
Or did you cry for all
Your love cost
All a great deal
Did you deserve Aphrodite's heel
Upon your face
And to doom
Fool Paris' race?
Eurydice
Did you see
Him turn to you
Unknowing you true
Dooming too
Or set free
And made him see
All doubt
Reflected at he
Without doubt.
Orpheus
A speaker for all us
Who could not trust
The justice
When it's just us
Did he sing with the last song sung
Left to the dust
As you turned to rust
Right before his eyes
Make him realize
How real was
Your love
Till plucked by Hades
Does still he hate these?
Pray did Medusa
Pray till she could no more pray
When the sea embraced her
In a wave she did not embrace
When the storms cursed her
To be a monster
Only in face
Unlike the heavenly grace
Which hides within a cloak of farce
Did she know when her head
Was not hers but dead
And cursed each God once more
Before she turned to bed
Dear Clytaemnestra
Who looked ad astra
And prayed for her love
Who would return her love
In black hate she soaked
He who his guilt had cloaked
In her eyes
As she spied
His own lies
In which bed he lay
As he for ten years did stay
The hypocrisy
Driven her crazy
So she did the only thing she could see
And rid of his infidelity
And laid a breath of ease
Right upon the seas
For daughter lost unto the
Slaughter
Ariadne
What more can I say
Did you pray
For brother warped
By mothers harp
Plucked all wrong
Against god's song
And you paid the price
So that it might suffice
Or had the prayers
Been sent to the airs
And brought along a thesaurus
So you might have words more than the chorus
Until he stole it from you far away
And called it love all the same
Oh muse
Don't just amuse
But tell me the views
In your heavenly eyes
Don't tell me soft lies
Sing your rough cries
And tell the poet
To end the flame
Blow it
Out
Send the blame
And shout anew
For all you knew
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West End 2024 arrives with yet another new version of Epic III. Once again, the lyrics are dumbed down in favor of spelling out the point of the song, and sadly the part that got axed is another NYTW/London original. Once again we sacrifice the beautiful imagery and character work ("And what has become of the heart of that man/Now that the man is king?") in favor of Orpheus repeating that he knows how Hades feels ("I know how it is because he is like me/I know how it is to be left all alone"). But what makes me especially sad is that it also gets more specific about who the verse is about: "His work never done, his war never won/Will go on forever whatever the cost/âCause the thing that heâs building his wall around/Is already lost" can't be interpreted in any way except Hades and Persephone. But the original, "So he keeps his head low, he keeps his back bending/He's grown so afraid that he'll lose what he owns/But what he doesn't know is that what he's defending/Is already gone", describes BOTH men. It uses the vocabulary from Chant, when Hermes is trying to warn Orpheus to look up because he is so consumed by his work that he didn't notice Eurydice left, and the workers' plight, to describe Hades himself. These lyrics hit much harder, presenting Hades as a regular man on the same level as Orpheus or any of the residents of the Underworld. Orpheus sings about himself, and Hades sees himself in him, and he breaks down. We don't need Orpheus telling Hades that they are the same, Hades knows it, and it is the final straw.
And that means that my quest for the definitive version of Epic III continues, my goal now even further away than back when I first wrote this post. The show keeps evolving with each production and I hope one day we'll get our time to shine <3
the effect of first time hearing the chorus joins Orpheus in Epic III is the closest humanity has gotten to magic
#hadestown liveblog#i was boo boo the clown spent the entire chant ii praying persephone is about to drop some bars and instead...#like bro. the first time i listened with context and suddenly understood what orpheus is talking about in those final verses. i was unwell#''he doesn't know that what he's defending is already gone'' DECIMATED me. these new lyrics wouldn't#BUT SINCE THE OG POST WAS ABOUT MAGIC. YEAH. NOW THAT I'VE SEEN IT LIVE. GOD.#the entire audience is washed in golden light and orpheus is there in the centre and you feel like springtime has arrived#it was. insane. INSANE.
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I thought I posted this back in January after I saw the show, but I accidently saved it to drafts (well better late than never).
I've been a fan a Hadestown before it went on Broadway and I was so happy I got to see it on tour. As a fan of mythology I was already familiar with the tale of Orpheus and Eurydice and Hadestown does not fail to deliver it in a new way.
We start the musical introducing the charcters:
The Fates - I would best describe them as chaotic- neutral, because one minute they're having fun and join in with the characters and the next they're sowing the seeds of discord (myth pun). They do move the plot along and ask the characters important questions on their situations.
Hades - God of the Underworld is the equivalent of a CEO, who does bad things, but isn't evil. It's obvious he loves his wife, Persephone, but his actions not only cause damage to the world, underworld, but his marriage as well!
Persephone - Goddess of Spring/Summer and the Underworld is the fun drunk aunt who's just trying to do her job! Though she drinks for fun it's also a crutch for her to deal with her marriage to Hades not going well. She knows it's her reasonability to bring Spring and Summer to the land, but Hades keeps bring her back too soon for her to do her job.
Hermes - God of Travel who helps those reach their final destination. Hermes acts as the narrator, gives great advice, and Orpheus's wingman (pun not intended)
Orpheus our lovesick hero who sees the world in what it can be. While working on his song to bring the world back in order he accidently neglects Eurydice who goes to Hadestown. Once he realizes she's gone he travels to Hadestown to save her.
Eurydice is our heroine who loves Orpheus, but knows love is not enough to survive. When Hades offers her a deal she travels to Hadestown and forgets her life above... Until, Orpheus returns.
The acting, music, and stage was phenomenal! The musical reminds of the world we live in now and what we wish it to be! What I love most about the story is that even though Orpheus failed to save Eurydice he still won by repairing Hades and Persephone's relationship and return the seasons and world back in order. Even though the ending is bittersweet it gives us hope to try and that's why we tell it again and again.
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Myers-Briggs Types as Songs from my Greek Mythology Album
The album is called From the Kindly Ones, and it tells the stories of figures in the Greek Underworld, from the point of view of the Fury Alecto, who punishes or otherwise knows them. Each one teaches a lesson Alecto feels the figure needs to learn, or features some other opinion the Fury has.Â
There are 16 songs, so I figured, why not? Each blurb includes the title, the type, a sample lyric, and some explanation. There are four sections of the album: Kings, Queens, the Innocent, and the Guilty.
The lyrics are here, and the entire album (a rough acoustic recording) is included here if you want to listen to your typeâs song!Â
I. KINGS
Dictator - INTJ
Itâs no fun when you didnât want to be the ruler of the world ? But the job is yours, thereâs no denying
Hadesâ song is about a man in an unwanted position of power, forever set apart with terrible duty and ability from the rest of his kind. But he was granted this broader perspective of the world for better or for worse, and I think the INTJ Mastermind type can relate.
Peaches Before Gold - ENTP
You earned the gold / You made the score / You saw a win and made it yours
Midasâ song cautions against ambition and greed trumping interpersonal relationships. While he gains unimaginable wealth, he becomes unable to show his daughter what heâs won. ENTPs can be prone to falling into a need to âwinâ above all else.
Down - ISFP
Death is no giant; itâs more of a king / Small like a tyrant, and just as inevitable
Sisyphusâ song details why he is condemned to roll a boulder up a hill forever. He was cunning and creative, and managed to cheat death more than once, for which he was punished. The ISFPâs individualism can sometimes make them believe that rules donât apply to them.
The Dictator Remix - ENTJ
Lie on the chaise lounge while they lower grapes in front of you / Go on, keep chasing the high like the dictators do
Tantalusâ song is a mirror of Hades,â showing a man who grasped at power his whole life, trying to cheat the gods, only to hurt those around him and damn himself. The ENTJ can be incredibly focused on success, but needs to understand humility to be truly powerful.
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II. QUEENS
Friend of Fury - ISTP
You drew a bath of roses and you stood behind the king / You heard it then, the sound of blood when it decides to sing
Clytemnestraâs song depicts a woman taken advantage of her whole life, who finally breaks the chains of society to take revenge on her husband. The ISTP is an independent, practical soul who often thinks against the grain and is willing to take swift action, like this queen.
Upside Down - ESFP
Youâre a creature of ego, oh Lady in the Chair / To see Aphroditeâs face beside your own could grant some clarity
Cassiopeiaâs song tells the story of a vain queen who boasted of her daughterâs beauty above that of a goddess. While ESFPs can fall into the trap of vanity, they (like this queen) also have strong bonds with others, especially taking pride in their families.
The Queen of All The Ghosts - ESFJ
I was once like you / I was once a martyr, too / You, a sign of spring / Me, a warning of the justice I would bring
Persephoneâs song gives a glimpse into the mind of Hadesâ wife, and how her internment in the Underworld was more her decision than the myth leads us to believe. Like the Queen of the Dead, the ESFJ often makes quietly strong decisions for their family and for their own needs.
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III. THE INNOCENT
Good Boy - ISFJ
If they would listen to your words and not the mouths that they escape / I think theyâd love you, dear
Cerberusâ song is a sad one, but itâs also full of compassion. The three-headed dog is most often seen as a terrifying figure, but the narrator of this song sees him as an innocent. The ISFJâs desire to care for others and natural gentleness is on full display here.
Falling From Grace - INFJ
So climb the stairs to heaven while I wait here on the ground / Paying no attention to the bodies raining down
Icarusâ song warns against perfectionism, following the story of a young man who up until now has easily navigated the patterns of life. INFJs are prone to god complexes due to their ability to see beyond the surface of life, but they may come crashing down if they are too reliant on it.
Coins - INTP
âCause the ferryman will take it from under your tongue / Doesnât really matter if you die youngÂ
Charonâs song covers the ferrymanâs singular interest in his mission: ferry souls across the Styx and receive payment for it. The INTP can become completely fixated on a certain topic, neglecting all else to puruse what they deem most interesting at the time.
Follow Me, Prelude - ISTJ
One, too bound to his lyre / And one who a liar kept in the ground
Orpheusâ and Eurydiceâs songs are preceded by this very short prelude. While itâs the shortest song on the album (sorry, ISTJs!), the practicality of this piece lines up with the ISTJâs. They are also very to-the-point, and these lines pack a powerful punch, summing up the next story.
Follow Me, Pt. 1 - ENFP
What you wanted was a mystery, even to me / Why do I follow you when I donât even know where youâre leading me?
Eurydiceâs song is the only one on the album from the subjectâs point of view, rather than the narratorâs. The story of her open heart and innocent nature mirror the ENFPâs, idealists who may find themselves in the sad position of loving those who cannot love them back.
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IV. THE GUILTY
Follow Me, Pt. 2 - INFP
Should I listen to men who would tear me apart? / Iâm sorry, my love, but your face isnât worth my heart
Orpheusâ song depicts his devotion to his art and ideals, and how that extends beyond his devotion to Eurydice. The fiercely individual and creative INFP needs to balance their focus on ideals with reality and relationships, which Orpheus has unfortunately failed to do.
Visitor - ESTJ
Hera saw it in your heart (she held it there herself, you know) / And so she knew how it could stain your darkest clothes
Heraclesâ song is about the demigodâs disproportionate strength and rage, and how Hera manipulated both to cause his life harm. ESTJs are strong-willed and tough, and need to be careful of allowing their rigid tendencies to break the softer world around them.
Doomed - ESTP
Sitting on the head of your fatherâs coffin / Sitting on the bed while your motherâs watching
Oedipusâ song tells the story of a man told of his dark fate, who fulfills it in his effort to avoid it. ESTP individuals are bold, which can come at the price of taking opportunistic risks. Like Oedipus, they could end up acting on something with unexpected consequences.
To Cower, To Covet - ENFJ
Theseus, do you think of your friend in the pit? / Pirithous â condemned, while you got away with it
Theseusâ and Pirithousâ song shows the double standard of condemnation when a slight is personal rather than impersonal. The ENFJ is an idealistic leader who may, like Hades with these young men, hold others to a high standard - but who also may be too hard on themselves.
#myers briggs#myers briggs as#myers-briggs#mbti#mbti as#myers-briggs as#cognitive functions#personality types#songwriting#greek mythology#greek myths#mythology#music#album#carl jung#typology#hades#persephone#orpheus#eurydice
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Terraqua Week Day 4 (Legends/Tales)
Summary: Someone calls for help from the deepest depths of darkness. Terra and Aqua trace the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice. || Word Count: 8,983
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A/N: @terraquaweek hooooo if you thought yesterdayâs was angsty dkfjdkfjdk So everyone and their mom compares Terraqua to Orpheus and Eurydice (Orphydice?) and I totally agree. It was time to officially jump that wagon. This one was difficult though - originally, I was going to have them sitting near a fireplace and talking about fairy tales over drinks, but I think I did the sit down apology fic way too many times and needed something different. This one was a huge challenge in such a tiny frame of time though. It took me the longest to write (a whole week, when I normally take months), so I couldnât clean it as much as I would like to. I hope you like it anyway! <3
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The Long Way Down ~ no further debts to be paid
Aqua has been dragging him all over town, following a callâthis gut-wrenching feeling that something is wrong and someone is crying but she doesnât know who or where. Except here, wandering around Thebes, though Terra doesnât mind at all. Keyblade wielders are supposed to follow their hearts. Terra will follow hers anywhere.
What he does mind, though, are these screaming fangirls.Â
He collides head first into a neglected booth of rugs, scampering away from a group of young women who were trying to rip his left arm out of his socket, seeking pieces of his armor. They squeal, they cry, they sigh with all the fever of delusion. Champion! Terra! Youâve come back! Youâre more beautiful than the gods!Â
Aqua strides by him, hiding an amused smirk behind her elegant fingers. âYou picked a good hiding place.â She straightens a bent rug and rolls it tighter, letting it lean on its side by the wall.Â
Terra knocks a rug off of his head. âI did nothing to deserve this.â
âI nearly forgot,â Aqua says in a way that means she didnât. âYou won a championship.â
âYears ago. Once.â He kicks the pile on his back and crawls out. Zack and Hercules would never let it down if they hear about him hiding from harmless girls like heâs a mouse. âIâm no celebrity.â
âI beg to differ.â She unfolds a tapestry. Weaved into the fabric is a figure of a man armored in golds and burgundies, tall with dark hair and wielding a giant key. âYouâre a story they share. Be grateful for your adoring fans.â
The only thing heâd be grateful for is the attention of the person standing right next to him. He never thought about the Olympus Coliseum championship while he was possessed and trapped in Darkness, not once. He thought of her every day and night.Â
âI think youâre jealous theyâre chasing me and not you, Master Aqua.â
âWell, I would handle it with more grace.â She beats dust out of the corner of a rug with her hand.
The way she jokes with him is instinctual, natural, but the way her eyes wander is not, like sheâs not paying attention. Theyâve searched Thebes for hours, and while the city-stateâs stairs for hills and elaborate gardens are impressive, theyâve found no lead as to who Aqua is looking for. She unrolls another tapestry like sheâs reading a scroll. She doesnât even have a name, just a dream that spoke to her one night: Find me, please.Â
âThereâs nothing here, either,â she mumbles.Â
Terra doesnât know how to lift her spirits. âMaybe the answer is not in Thebes.â
âWe havenât searched everywhere.â She pulls out another tapestry that heâs sure sheâs already deciphered.
How many times are they going to circle the marketplace? Terra sighs and risks peeking at the main street from the alleyway. If he stays close enough to Aqua, the fangirls stay farther away, as though sheâs a repellant. Who knew Aqua makes for a good shield.Â
The marketplace swarms with chatter and dust pickup from sandals and wheels. Theyâve been through every store on this block. Theyâve been through museums, theyâve listened to storytellers on the streets, met with sages and fortune tellers. Thereâs not much to deduce out of a whisper from a dream.Â
A high-pitched scream breaks through the loud talk of shopgoers, and Terra summons his Keyblade, watching for Heartless.
It comes from a girl, pointing a finger at him. Everyone else gawks. She shivers from head to toe. âTerra!âÂ
At the sound of his name, like mockingbirds for sheep, they call out. âTerra!âÂ
âDamn the stars,â he mutters and sprints back into the alleyway, a stampede behind him. âAqua?â Sheâs not by the rugs. âAqua!â He turns the corner of the empty alleyway, stuck between choosing a direction in a crossover. Thereâs no sign of her, no sign of his star in the darkness or his shield.
A hand waves at him through a window.Â
âTerra!â the girls squeal.Â
He dashes, throwing himself through the window. He lands on his back, on hard concrete. Aqua cradles his head on her lap and keeps low beneath the windowsill, a finger to her lips as the wave of giggles and cries ride past them and fade away.Â
âYou were gone,â he whispers.Â
Aqua brushes her fingers through his hair. âIâm sorry,â she says, but she offers no explanation.
Theyâre in what looks like the back room of a pottery shop, half of them unpainted with the clay still slick, and the rest completed but possibly not inventoried yet.Â
âWeâre breaking into peopleâs homes now?â Terra asks, grunting.
âYou needed a hiding place,â Aqua says. She sounds unlike herself. Too tone-deaf, too distracted, her heart in the right place to help him like she always does, but sheâs disregarding the consequences sheâd normally consider before making such rash decisions.Â
âWhy are we here?â
Aqua looks at him with a blank expression. âI donât know.â
âYou just waltzed in here?â He sighs. The shopkeeper is lucky Terra hasnât destroyed anything when he crashed. He sits up and holds her chin, checking for vital signs of injury. âAre you feeling alright?â
Aqua grimaces. âMaybe weâre in here for a reason.âÂ
Or maybe sheâs lost her mind.Â
âIs it too early for me to say that Iâm worried about you?â
âIâd say so.â
Terra scoffs and stands up, his knee hitting a table next to him. The vase on the surface rattles and spins. Aqua catches it.Â
When she glances at the artwork, she glares. âThis one.â
âHuh?â
The vase is stamped with an image in black. Two figures, a man and a woman, reach out for each other, but thereâs a wall between them.Â
âYou recognize this?â Terra asks.
Aqua waits before she answers. On the manâs side is a lyre. On the womanâs, wisps of smoke. âNot really. But something about it is so unpleasant.â
Itâs not much, but her reaction is the closest they have ever gotten so far.Â
She takes the vase with her and heads out the window, the door to the rest of the shop locked. âIâm borrowing it.â
âAquaââÂ
âIâll bring it back.â
Out in the alleyway, Aqua cradles the vase gently in her arms, desperately looking around for someone to talk to.Â
As much as he doesnât want to, he says, âWe can head back to the marketplace.âÂ
The shuffle of feet approach them from behind the building next door. A lost girl blinks at them, her makeup smudged and running as though sheâs been crying, her lip color smeared on her teeth. She recognizes Terraâ
âTerra casts Silence on her and pulls her aside, up against a wall. âShhh. Please donât yell, please donât yell.â
Without her voice, her squeals are replaced with gasps. She throws her arms around him.Â
âHey!â
Aqua runs up to them without acknowledging how Terra is peeling this girl off himself. She points to the vase. âDo you know who this is?â The girl stares back. âCan you tell me? Please?â
As much as he really doesnât want to, there are miles heâs willing to trek just for Aqua. âIf I remove my spell,â Terra tells the girl, âand you answer Aqua, very gently, who this picture is supposed to be of, Iâll let you hug me again.â
The girlâs eyes go wide and she nods.Â
He recants his spell, and the girl suppresses her squeaks.Â
âOh gods, itâs really Terra.â She hops, pinning her hands in between her legs. âYou smell so good. I love you, Terra. I mean, umâŠâ Instead of speaking to Aqua, the girl just locks her eyes at him. âThatâs Orpheus. Everyone knows who that is.â
The look on Aquaâs face tells Terra that her heart is stirring.Â
âWhatâs his story?â Terra asks.
The girl is happy to oblige. âHe sings the saddest ballads, all about the death of his most beloved wife.â She twirls a lock of hair. âLost her to a snakebite. They say he went to the Underworld to find her, but he lost her along the way. He wasnât a strong person.â She stands on her toes. âNot like you, Terra. You wouldnât leave the one you love in the darkness, would you? Youâd save them?â
Terra steps back. The onslaught of such specific questions makes him sick to his stomach.Â
The girl leans forward. âCan I touch your hair?â
âNo.â He slaps her hand out of the way.
âWhere can I find him?â Aqua asks, completely serious.Â
The girl rolls her eyes this time, as though itâs such a rude interruption. âIf you trek up Mount Olympus, youâll eventually cross a forest. You can find his head there.â
âHis head?â Terra says.Â
The girl steps up to meet him face to face. âThey say he still singsâthatâs how Death came to meet him. Anyone who hears his songs will be instantly enamored. Man and beast alike. Even the leaves and the stones will move just to be near him. That reminds me of you, Terra.â
Aquaâalready sprinting back toward his direction from the pottery shop after leaving her borrowed vase at its windowsillâcuts between Terra and the fangirl, pulling him away from her by the hand. The hug he promised this girl is cancelled, and Terra is grateful for it
âThank you!â Aqua says, not breaking her speed. The girl is left behind, dejected.
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Thebes is now a miniature, a toy town of red roofs and sandstone streets, that disappears from view as soon as they cross over a cliff, where the face of a forest is tucked away. The quiet greets them, a chirp of a bird here and there.Â
Terra follows Aqua, not knowing where sheâs going.
âSo weâre looking for a severed head?â he asks.Â
âAccording to the girl, yes.â
âIsnât that a bit gruesome?â
âI think what she was hoping to do to you may be worse.â
Aqua skids to a stop. She looks over to her left, and runs in that direction. The treeline gets thicker, casting a dim filter over the ground. Aqua stops at a short, stone monumentâa statue of a head on a pillar. The manâs face is carved with an open mouth, like heâs singing an opera. The trees sway in the wind.Â
âThatâs Orpheus?â Terra asks quietly.Â
Aqua frowns. âI donât hear a song.â
âI donât, either.â
âBut I feel so sad.â She holds a fist over her heart, her eyes watery.
Terra places a hand on her bare shoulder. She feels cold, and he has a sickly feeling that sheâs getting worse. âWhat do we do now?â
âI donât know, yet. Thereâs not much I can do here. Thereâs no text, no clues.â Aqua walks, scanning the ground for a hint.
For a mural, there are no words or poems honored to Orpheus, no maps or glyphs that lend to any guidance. Terra touches the head of the pillar. He feels nothing. Keyblade wielders can be invulnerable to certain spells, but this is supposed to represent grief, and grief is Darkness. How he isnât affected is an enigma to himâhow he is spared and Aqua is not, is worrisome.Â
âYou know what I think?â he asks.Â
Sheâs no longer there. Terra steps away from the statue.Â
âAqua?âÂ
No answer.
He jolts into a sprint, passing tree after tree with no sign of blue, none of her sashes flowing in the air. How did she get so far away?
Terra shouldnât be so worried. The Heartless population here after the Keyblade War is minimal, and Aqua is more than capable of taking care of herselfâbut how sheâs coming in and out of reality is more than Terra can bear. He canât lose her. Not ever again.
âAqua!â
Terra cries out in relief. Sheâs standing in a field of red flowers. Lilies, by the shape of them, speckled in the color of raspberries. Their stems curve over, swaying like bells. Theyâre not stretched towards the sun but hang towards the ground, as if theyâre watching for fingers to climb out through the grass.
âI thought I lost you,â he says when he approaches her.
Aqua crosses her arms. âThereâs something here.â When she inhales, she turns around like she just realized he was there. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to worry you.â
Terra fights the urge to hug her. He loses, taking her in his arms. âI think Iâm going crazy... Iâm so glad youâre okay,â he says, though thereâs so much more he needs to tell her.Â
âWhat a little, perfect, crispy portrait of a love story,â a heedy voice says, pronouncing every syllable with sweet spite, exaggerated by hand movements. First is the creep of black smoke over the grass. A shadow emerges from behind a tree, bald head with blue fire for hair, a long black cloak wrapped around his body. âReally, itâs a photo op, an exhibition, a grand spectacle.â He frames them with his fingers. âBluebird and the Waste of Space, classic. All the children will hear about it.â
âOf course youâre involved in this,â Terra spits, letting Aqua go. He keeps his Keyblade near, in case he needs to summon it.
âOn the contrary, Iâm the victim in this case.â
âHades,â Aqua says, an icy chill to her voice. âThese flowers...â
âYou like them?â Hades flashes a grin, teeth sharp as needles. âA specialty from- you could say a good friend. Theyâre called eurydice, funnily enough.â
Aqua freezes.
âWhatâs so funny about that?â Terra asks, stepping in front of Aqua so heâs a barrier.
âI forgot youâre not the sharpest rock in the canyon,â Hades mumbles, before animating his hands, presenting his words like theyâre a marketing technique. âEurydice, the pride of the forest. A muse, a sprite, a dryad.â He motions quotation marks with his fingers. ââSheâs not like other girls,â whatever you want to call her. A gold prize.â
It comes to Terra like the dawn. Orpheusâs wife.
âWhat is she to you?â Aqua asks, defensive.Â
âWellâŠâ Hades casually places a hand on his hip and relies on the other to tell his story. âThe Underworld is a vibrant culture of flora. Thereâs still some Heartless mucking about in the crevices, little maggots, doing Zeus knows what, butâŠâ He pinches the air with his fingers. âThere was a teeny tiny leak, a blemish in the system.â He shrugs. âAnd she slipped. You want to save her, and I want her back in my perfectly packaged Paradise. We work together and we both win.â
Terra scoffs. âYou lost a ghost in the Underworld?â
Hades bites a breathy laugh, flicking lint off his robe, a gross smile stretching across his face like he knows a dirty secret. âMy Underworld is a tight machine. No. She went somewhere darker.â
Aqua is the first to speak after the silence. âI see.â
âYou see what?â Terra says.
Aqua casts her eyes downward. She usually never breaks eye contact in the presence of an enemy. âSheâs in the Realm of Darkness. Thatâs why Iâm connected to her.âÂ
Aqua has often said that she thinks a piece of the Darkness will stay with her until her final day, a single thorn growing out of her heart.Â
âItâs not a place for the sensitive.â Hades scoffs with false modesty.
This is something no one has the right to ask of her. âWeâre not bringing Eurydice back to you,â Terra says.
Hades disappears in a blink, reappearing by Terraâs shoulder, his hand a warm pot on the stovetop. âYou, my friend, are the last person to bargain.â He disappears again and bursts into flames by Aquaâs side. âArenât Keyblade wielders supposed to keep a worldâs balance at the tip of their fingers? Thereâs only one place everyone ends up in this world. Who says you can take the dead away from me? Where else would they go?âÂ
Aqua wonât give him the merit of a look. She swats his smoke away like itâs a fly.
Hades continues, âYou see, the living owe a debt. You borrow life to breathe here for a few short happy years, and when youâre done, you return back to where you came from. And if you borrow, then you owe.â He flashes the teeth. âTherefore, sheâs mine.â Hades flicks a finger on Terraâs chest. âYouâboth of youâhave cheated. Youâre thieves, you reek of it. Talk about privilege.â
Terra stammers.
âWeâll do it,â Aqua says.
Hades taps all his fingers together. âIâm glad we came to an agreement.âÂ
âWe didnât agree to anything,â Terra says, his eyes begging Aqua for an alternative way to do this.
âDown boy. Your bite is just as intimidating as your bark.â Hades turns over his shoulder. âOh, and one other thing.â He raises a finger, and addresses Terra directly. âHave you ever worked with ghosts before? Miserable company. Theyâre mopey, they babble too much about nonsense. Not the guest you want to invite over for dinner. Theyâre confused, itâs part of their nature. Being connected to one isnât the most sane habit. If youâre not careful, theyâll infect you with their pain.â Hades winks, and nods toward Aqua. âYou might want to keep an eye on her.â
Terraâs heart strikes his chest like a hammer to the blood vessel, and he swallows bile. Aqua doesnât seem fazed.Â
âWell,â Hades says, âitâs a long walk down. Stay healthy, drink water, donât go crazy.â With that, he vanishes for good this time, leaving the wind gliding through the flowers, all looking for someone below.
âSheâs nearby,â Aqua says, her voice breaking a silence that doesnât want to be heard. Like poison to be drunk, denial to be told the truth, thereâs no ignoring this. âI can open a door here.â
âYouâre really going back?â
âI canât let her continue to suffer,â she says. âBut I wonât put you in danger, either.â
âWait,â Terra says, getting in her way. âIâm coming with you.â
âItâs dangerous.â
âI donât expect it to be anything else. Danger doesnât scare me.â Terra takes her face in his hand. âAfter everything youâve been through, you canât ask me to let you do this alone.â
Aqua opens her mouth as if to refuse but she grimaces. âI admit I would like the company this time.â
Terraâs heart thumps, stroking her cheek. âIâll never turn my back on you again.â
âA shame. You look taller from behind,â she says, and he snorts.Â
When she moves away, he feels hollow, a sudden need to hold her again invading his body. He shrugs the feeling off. âIâm texting Ven.â He pulls out his Gummiphone. âHeâll need to open a Door to Light for our return.â
âYes.â
âAny tips for how to survive?â
Aqua summons her Keyblade and points to the ground. âThe Realm of Darkness wants you to feel hopeless and scared. It feeds from your mind.â She looks at him. âYou canât trust what you think or feel. You wonât be able to tell the difference between you or the Darkness.â
âThen how are we supposed to find her and come back if we canât even think?â
Aqua lifts an elegant shoulder. âYou keep your head up. Thatâs your best defense. The Realm will do many things to make you want to give up, to make you doubt yourself. You have to choose your battles. Even if you feel like youâre being followed, donât look back. Donât give in to its tricks.â
It sounds like hell. It feels like a knife to the liverâAqua has suffered so much. His biggest regret is not having the strength to break out of his prison and do something about it.
âAre you having second thoughts?â Aqua asks.
âNot at all.â
The way she smiles this time makes her look like herself. âYou know, I feel better now. Much clearer.â
Terra hopes thatâs a sign of sweeter things to come. The smile he gives is weak when she summons a Door to Darkness.Â
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
The Realm of Darkness is a dirt path in a forest that sprawls under patches of stars, as though someone has taken photos of different skies and pasted them together in a collage. Few lanterns light the way, smokey as if caked in fog. It would be similar to a romantic walk on the mountain in the spring if not for what it really is.
Terra trails close behind Aqua, the cape of her armor bouncing in the air. She jogs with such confidence despite that they have no map and have never been here beforeâwell, Aqua has, but not here. According to her, the Realm of Darkness never stays the same. Thereâs no path back the way they came.Â
So far, itâs lacked excitement, a still silence as though this worldâs heart has stopped beating.Â
âHow do we find her?â Terra asks, his voice loud enough to make him worry if something hidden behind the trees has heard him.
âWe keep going.âÂ
A sudden clank, metal on metal. Terra sprints to her. âWhatâs going on?â
Aqua has stepped onto a metal surface, a sudden cutoff from the forest like mismatched puzzle pieces forced together, spreading beyond what they can see. When Terra steps on it, the boot of his armor reverberates from his weight.Â
âI donât like this,â Aqua says.Â
The river is black and made of torn iron, shards that jut out like shredded waves frozen in time. Lanterns from broken boats wedge into the collisions, a ship graveyard where they all crashed into each other in a hurricane.
âWhat now?â Terra asks, hushed.
She turns to face him, her helmet obscuring her expression. âWe keep going.â
Their only direction is forward. Thereâs no compass, no horizon to see where theyâre going. They curve around mountains of broken war and cruise ships and melted steel, like hills to climb and descend. Whether theyâve trailed a huge arch and are going backwards, Terra canât tell.
Then again, Aqua has said there is no backwards in the Realm of Darkness. But what if this river doesnât have a shore?
âThose arenât lights,â Aqua warns.Â
Some of the lanterns bob up and down, blinking.
âStars,â Terra curses, summoning his Keyblade. Aqua has already conjured hers and is throwing a blast against a group of eyes hiding inside half of a ship, its inner scaffolding exposed like bent needles. The impact combusts.
Heartless swarm up and rain on him. Theyâre stronger here, these small Shadows more resistant, withstanding his powerful swings when theyâd normally be thrown far back.Â
A huge crash rumbles behind them, and Terra is knocked onto his knees. A ship sinks as its bow breaks off. It sounds like a building caving in.Â
Aqua grabs his elbow. âForget it,â she yells over the clamor. They run past hordes of Heartless materializing from the metal as if theyâre being born, more and more and more until the sea behind them is a mass of yellow eyes. Terra relies on nothing but his two legs, pushing and pushing them despite the strain to catch up to her. Ships and boats disintegrate, about to swallow them if they canât find solid ground.
They step onto dirt, a slab of earth suspended in space. Theyâre blocked by a huge stone gate without walls.Â
Aqua turns and slices her Keyblade across, light thrusting forward to cut through the first wave of Shadows.Â
Terra grunts when he jabs his Keyblade, a beam striking the gate in the middle. He summons a keyhole, a plea to enter.Â
The gate opens.
âCome on!â He grabs her elbow and bolts inside. Terra immediately pushes his weight against the gate, Aqua mimicking the sameâa desperate slog at first, his breath hitched and pulsating at his temple, until they build momentum and shut it. At the slam of the door, dust drops from the ceiling and lands on their shoulders.
Behind them is a dim hallway of two choices: left and right. The little light they have here comes from nowhere.
Terra sighs, breathing heavily. The air inside his helmet doesnât smell fresh. âWell, your heart, your pick.â
Aqua chuckles, her voice muffled. He wishes he could see her smile. âEnjoying your stay?â
âYouâre sick.â
âRemember not to get too affected by what you see, Terra.â She holds his shoulder, her glove clunking onto his pauldron. âThe Realm will probe your mind until it finds what it can use.â
She leads the way right, her steps kicking up clouds of dust. The entire floor is sand, sinking the sound of their steps. The hall turns left. It turns left again.Â
Terra canât shake the feeling that theyâre being watched. He eyes the ceiling where the crevices that meet the wall are at their darkest, where he anticipates small, yellow eyes blinking at him.Â
He thinks he hears something, but shrugs it off.
No, he has heard something. Growling.
It thrums louder and Terra is walking slower, growing a distance between him and Aqua who hasnât noticed yet.Â
The growling is coming from behind.
He turns.
Thereâs nothing.
âAqua.â
âWhat is it?â
âIâm hearing an aggressive dog.â
âThere are no dogs in the Realm of Darkness.â
âBut itâs following us.â
âTrust me, there isnât anything behind you.â She waves with her hand. âCome on. The Realm wants you to worry. The moment you start to believe it is when your heart begins to falter.â
At another two-way junction, Aqua chooses leftâtheyâve just gone in a circle. Terra expects to come back to the stone gateâbut as though the Realm has heard him and is laughing at his assumptions, the hallway opens up into a path of eight directions. One of them a stairway up, one a stairway down. The opening next door is blocked from a staircase turned upside down, and the one next to that leads to a staircase that twists and leans on its side.Â
Aqua chooses the way straight ahead, a long uncomplicated hallway.
The hallway turns right. Sheâs no longer there.
âAqua!â Terra dashes forward and the hallway turns dark, like the twist of the knob on a lantern, a flame fading.
He turns over and heads back. âAqua!âÂ
They went left, left, left, straight. All he has to do is trek that backwards.Â
When Terra arrives at the large expanse of eight directions, Aqua comes in from behind him. âTerra!â
She runs into him when he halts and spreads his arms, their breastplates colliding. âWhere did you go?â he asks.
âDown the hall, thatâs it.â Her voice trembles. Heâll have to do better to be braver, for her. Aqua pulls away to look up at him. He wishes he could see her eyes. âWhat did I say about giving in?â
He licks his lips. âDonât go back.â
Aqua swallows as if to stop a sob. âThereâs no going back in this place, Terra. You could have gotten lost. The Realm wants you to doubt yourself.â She nods as if to make a point, her voice thick as if to mask how terrified she is. âDo you understand now?â
No. âWe keep going.â
âIâll stay close to you this time.âÂ
âPlease.â
âI-I canât lose you. Not again.â
âYou wonât, I promise.â
She points to a hallway different from the one she chose earlier, and walks by his side this time, step by step. Down this way is brighter, the stone newer, the sand thinning until they step on cobble. The walls shrink into a tight foyer framed by fully lit torches, parchment and paper scattered all over as though a storm blew through a library.Â
Terra bends to pick some up. Theyâre all blank.
âLove letters and songs,â Aqua says, reading through empty pages, âthat Orpheus wrote to her.â She shakes her head. âThe stories I grew up with were so stupid.â
âWhich ones are we talking about?â
âThose books I used to read when I was a teenager.â
Terra grimaces. âAbout true love.â
âI believed them until the end.â She sighs. âThey seem so silly now. That you could be in love at first sight, without ever bonding with themâwithout ever knowing the ties you create with them and how much it pains to have those cut. Itâs improbable. How does anyone expect them to be willing to pluck their hearts out of their chests and sew them together like that? How is that supposed to be âtrue,â or âpure?â The trials theyâve gone through to prove themselves in the name of that loveâso small in comparison to some.â
âYou mean in comparison to what Orpheus tried to do.â
Aqua swipes her hand over a page to flatten the bends. âI canât imagine how brave he had to prepare himself to be, and how little he cared for his personal safety. That he would descend so deep into darkness for her. After everything Iâve been through, I could sayâthat is love. The fairy tales Iâve read donât come close.â
Terra watches her stack parchment together, tapping the edges so that they align, her movements stiff due to the armor. There are no written words to be read on the pages, but thereâs not a single word that could describe the epiphany heâs having. That she is sitting next to him, that there are things neither of them uttered a sound for, that she is the same person who fell to the depths just to save him, that she is not the same child who used to sneer at his essays. That day, he only had a feeling that he was being hugged until he went to sleep, then he woke up twelve years later.
âYou love me,â he says, part question, part certainty.
Aqua pauses. Her visor reflects his. âI do. I have for a long time.â She scoffs softly at herself. âYou know, the Realm has brought you to me in lucid dreams. Five times. The first three, I told you how I felt. And you smiled. Then you were gone. I got fooled each time.â She hangs her head. âIt was the fifth time that it was really you.â
âI remember,â Terra whispers.Â
âI couldnât say how I felt, but you took those precious few seconds we had to tell me not to give up. I realized later that I needed that more than saying anything.â She sighs, her breath parched from the helmet. âI never expected to say it again, here, of all places, but now⊠Now youâre here. And I love you.â
Terra leans forward, bracing her arm, the cusp between her shoulder and neck. He feels the inner padding of his gloves. They canât take their helmets off, not here, but a swelling of solace fills him. For a moment, he forgets where he is, his imagination only seeing her face, his heart asking to break the metal and touch her.
âDo you have any idea how important you are to me?â he asks.Â
She breathes like sheâs laughing. âI have an inkling.â
He leans his helmet against hers. âWith all my heart,â he says.Â
âI thought so.â She squeezes his gauntlet.Â
When they get out, the first thing heâll do is take her in arms.Â
âI think weâre close,â Aqua says, talking about Eurydice.Â
They have to see the light of day first. When they get out, the first thing heâll see is her smile.
âLetâs do it and get out here.â
Beyond the next archway is a new place: a cavern maze, the walls roughed up by raw mineral, crystals glowing pastel colors in the dark. Itâs beautiful in its own expression, a small memory of whatever the Realm took and couldnât digest. The single paths here are disorienting, the walls littered with natural dips and holes to take shortcuts.
The cave opens up to a jagged, rocky clearing, its natural structure much like a coliseum. He and Aqua stand at the top. The boulders cut off a clear sight of the path below, a single star in the sky and a single fig tree at the bottom, its exposed roots dug into a pond. Terra and Aqua descend, the rocks down here taller.
âPrepare yourself,â Aqua says, taking the lead.
Terra summons his Keyblade too, bracing himself for Heartless. A shadow moves near the tree, hiding behind one of the roots.
A surprised shriek comes from the tree, like itâs been woken up, and it shifts. The roots straighten out, the branches curl over and sharpen like claws. Cut through the trunk is the shape of a heart, empty and black inside. No yellow eyes.Â
âWhat is that thing?â Terra yells before dodging. The tree slams its branches between him and Aqua.Â
Terra trips. A tree root chokes his ankle, pulling him from under the dirt.Â
Aqua doesnât see it happening. She scrambles and ducks behind a boulder before the earth behind her collapses into a sinkhole. She climbs the boulder and jumps onto the canopy.
The tree rocks viciously to knock her off but she stabs the bark with her Keyblade to hold on. It digs its vines and branches into the ground. A flash of purple lighting cracks the boulders into halves.Â
Terra cuts himself free. The root shrivels, and the ground it touched caves into nothingness. He dashes, taking fast cover behind boulders. Itâs hard to tell if heâs effective since he doesnât know whether the tree has blind spots.Â
When roots shoot up to throttle him and fail, they punish the earth instead, ripping away respites and hiding spots. If enough of the dirt sinks, the boulders fall with it.
Terra can only keep running.
The only signs that Aqua is okay are the flashes of light from her Keyblade, spellcasting and waves of reflective blues crushing the tree. Stuck on the canopy, Aqua doesnât have much room to escape when the ground is collapsing at random.Â
Terra yells and charges towards the tree, calling upon his Keyblade to transform into his glider. He slams into the roots, all of his offense and magic building up and combusting against the bark.
The tree tumbles and Aqua lets go.Â
Terra catches her and flies up. He hovers a rock that is still holding on at the edge of a newly formed cliff.
A dark lightning bolt strikes from above and Aqua summons a barrier to protect them.
âItâs her,â Aqua says, straining to keep the barrier intact.
âThat canât be possible.â
âWe donât know what the Darkness can do to the dead. We donât know anything.â Aqua chokes on her words. âBut thatâs Eurydice, I know it.â
The tree scratches at nothing and wails, its roots crumbling hard onto the ground with every step it makes. Eurydice sounds like anger, a need to make sure everyone else suffers with her.Â
âThe hole in her trunk, where her heart would be if she wasnât dead.â
âTerraââ
âSay no more.â
He revs his glider and charges towards the clearing, now a gaping hole sunk down the middle with no bottom. Terra sticks to the cliff sides. Aqua jumps off from the back, high into the sky, waiting for his next move.
Terra lets go and holds on to his Keybladeâs grip. It stretches and transforms into a whip. He slaps one of the branches where it hooks, and slams his fist onto the ground. The tree careens. He keeps pulling, forcing the tree flat against the ground.
From the sky, Aqua points her Keyblade towards the trunk and calls. A beam of light strikes through the heart void, glowing.Â
The tree shrieks and thrashes. Terra is thrown off and the tree slaps Aqua out of its way. Aqua lands on the side of a cliff, climbing up. The tree stampedes towards her with the motion to crush her.Â
Aqua yells and yanks herself over, rolling onto her back, pointing her Keyblade up again. Her light blinds this time, a force that shocks the air and pushes everything with swept pressure. As though Aqua has summoned water, Terra is thrown, the currents taking him away.Â
He lands and rolls. Itâs quiet.Â
His muscles ache and sting. Heâll have bruises but those donât matter. Terra stumbles when he stands, leaning on a boulder near him. He peers over, praying for the image of Aqua climbing over the hole, but what he sees is a picture from before the nightmare: the clearing back in its original state, as though he has hallucinated everything. The rocky exterior makes it hard for him to notice anyone. If sheâs crouching due to pain, if sheâs stranded somewhere, knocked outâŠ
His knees give out when he runs, and he tumbles down the hill. Summoning his glider, Terra asks it to carry his slacked weight. There is no puddle at the bottom anymore. He keeps himself up high where he has a vantage point, calling her name. Thereâs no sight of her.Â
âI wonât be fooled. Youâll take me to her,â he tells the Realm. He scans. No sign of her. What if sheâs buried beneath the earth...
A pale glow flickers between rocks.
He drops.
Aqua isnât here. In her place is a green, ghostly apparition of a woman in a simple, flowy dress that allows for dancing, her long hair swaying to zephyr. Terra doesnât need to ask for her name. His voice croaks. âWhere is she?â
âOf whom do you speak?â Eurydice says. The ghost has no voice but a loud breath, as though she is whispering right into his ear.Â
âAqua!â he calls but he gets no answer. No sound of the pebbles crumpled by her bootsteps, nor the clank of armor.Â
âAh,â Eurydice sighs. âThe one who looks like a naiad. A water nymph.â
âDo you know where she is?â
âIn the labyrinth.â
Terra turns over his shoulder and starts up the hill. Where is the entrance they used to get here?Â
âIf you enter the labyrinth, you will lock her inside, Keybearer.â
âThat doesnât make any sense.â His helmet feels tight. âHow do you know about Keyblades?â
âThe body is an entrapment, a vessel designed to define concepts that we canât understand. What we call prayers, offerings, angels, the Light, the fountain of the gods, Keyblades, Kingdom Hearts, Paradise, Mount Olympusâall bear the same resemblance depending on the language we use. Without a body, I am not burdened by any of those barriers.â She holds her hands together with reverence. âYour armor glimmers like a star.â
âCan you feel her then? Is she hurt?â
âShe is with you.â
Thatâs the same thing people say to him about Eraqus. Your Master will always be with you, no matter where you are. You just need the faith to know heâs there.Â
Iâm sure heâs proud of you.
Iâm sure he knows how much you love him. Heâs with you.
âAqua!â Terra bolts into a run, picking whatever direction because this clearing is a circle and there is no exit. Heâll have to break one open. His helmet presses on the pulse in his neck. Heâs losing oxygen. Heâs gasping. Heâs removing his helmet, collapsing to his knees, yelling at the most his lungs could give him, now that his voice is no longer muffled by metal. âAqua!â
His throat throbs.
âNo panic, no haven for panic, Keybearer.â
Terra stares at the dirt under himâcracked from drought, a single pebble and a patch of grass. âYou should have taken me,â he wheezes.Â
The ground rumbles and he snaps up, dying to see if itâs her. A giant hand pounds towards him, attached to a giant body with beedy yellow eyes and tentacles for a face. A Darkside, towering over him, watching him like itâs going to grant a wish.Â
âKeybearer,â Eurydice warns.
The Darkside digs its fingers into the dirt like the roots of a tree. A black puddle opens up a pathway for the sprawl of eyes to crawl out.Â
Terra would summon his Keyblade but heâs slow and tired. Numb. His skin is exposed to the Realm, and it seeps into him. It lulls him, it quiets him. Thereâs no sanity better than the world the mind makes up.
The Darkside grabs him.Â
Terra is tired, watching for a hint of blue when he sees black.Â
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Terra.
âAqua.âÂ
Terra wakes submerged in an ocean. He reaches for her but grabs air.Â
Heâs gently sinking.Â
So heâs lost her. Heâs failed at his duty of protecting someone who needs his help. This is why Aqua is stronger than him. Terra could never survive in a place like this, he could never withstand twelve years of this torture.Â
âAqua, Iâm so sorry.â He wants to cry but he canât. The Realm wonât let him, anesthetizing the fall of tears.Â
What is in the ocean with him? A monster he canât see? Will it have teeth? Will it swallow him? Or will it watch him float here, waiting for him to turn so he could become one with it? Terra could let go hereâ
âbut a faint glow hovers near, like breath to a limp body, like a light at the exit. Thereâs still time and a chance. If he can open his eyes, then Aqua could, wherever she is.
Eurydice watches the amoebas in the water, floating by herself.Â
Terra swims to her.Â
ââTwasnât a long wait,â she whispers when he approaches.
âIâm sorry for turning my back on you,â he tells her. âIâm glad youâre alright.â
Eurydice smiles at him. She looks sickly, hollowed cheeks down to the lines of her skull. But if she was healthy, she would be the beauty that captivated people in the forest.Â
Terra takes her wrist and gravity takes them. They gently land on solid ground, in the black, in the middle of nothing. Endless dark, endless shadow, endless lack of everything.
âWe canât go anywhere without Aqua. We have to find her first.â Though Terra doesnât know where he is or which direction he should take.
âWe are everywhere, she is nowhere.â
âWhat does that mean, though? She isnât here? Then where is she?â
âBelow. Nowhere and the end. At the beginning, where you canât see.â
Terra jerks forward to beg, but a ghost is the last person to ask for answers. He trembles.Â
âYou have a kind face,â Eurydice says. âThe bards would have sung in honor of you.â
Thatâs no consolation. Terra sobs but itâs dry.Â
âBeware, Keybearer.â
He hears the sloshing of water. His ankles are sunk under.Â
If he despairs, the Darkness will take him. If he stays calm, heâs betraying her.Â
âAqua, what do I do?â
âI called to Lady Aqua because I saw her Light,â Eurydice says, nodding slowly. âThe only star in the dark. I would trust her choice, always. I believe in the Fates.â She brings her hand to her chest. âI believe she brought me you.â
The truth stings, a slap to the face, the swallow of a knife, the burn of the tongue with a lighted match. He canât bear it, but he has to. Aqua would trust him with anything.Â
âIâŠâ He is such a horrible person, looking at the face of the needy and the hurt but thinking about someone else. He canât do it. He has to. âI was supposed to hold her when we got out.â
âWe were to be married.â
Terra feels as though a pail of water was dumped on him. He takes a hard look at Eurydice, at how sheâs trying to warn him with bulging eyes, distorting. Ghosts are emotional. âWhat happened to you?â
âI died. Vipers are the most unpleasant.â
Terra doesnât want to ask, afraid of where this conversation will go. âAnd Orpheus?â
She brightens up, washed over by nostalgia. âHe came for me. With his gift of song, he moved Hades enough to agree to be charitable. Hades granted me freedom so long as Orpheus accepted the terms.âÂ
Of course, Hades and his contracts.Â
Eurydiceâs face ashens more than it possibly can. âI was to follow. Orpheus was to lead me to the sunlit earth, so long as he did not look back at me while I was in the dark.â She pauses, as though her lips are sewn together. Talking about this hurts her. âSo Orpheus led with much enthusiasm. So much at peace. I was to finally be with my beloved again, to smell the pomegranates and taste the olives.
âLove is powerful but Death more so. Every step was a moment to rethink. He could not hear me behind him, for I was a mere shade. Orpheus could not trust Hades. I could feel his anticipation, his desperate need to hold me dearly, his doubt that he was being played.â
âI canât blame him.â
âAt the end, right as the light was about to touch us, Orpheus lost his faith. He looked back to see my face.â Eurydice hugs herself. âI gave him my farewell and kind regards, then I was whisked away, back into the Underworld.â
âIâm so sorry.â Terra swallows, not liking what this is supposed to mean for him. âAqua would have chosen to help you.â
âWill you set me free?â
âYes, of course butââ He inhales. âHow could I leave her?â
The look on Eurydiceâs face stops him. âI did what was asked of me. I followed him. I kept close. I was loyal. I spoke to him though he could not hear me. And yet he turned and tore us apart. I have yet to understand what I did wrong to let him doubt me.â
âHe didnât doubt you.â
âThen why hesitate to trust Lady Aqua?â
Like a knife to the throat, Terra falls to his knees and grips at his chest, the guilt inside so heavy and thick that he wants to rip his armor off and cut it open, dig it all out so he could finally breathe.Â
If she were here, Aqua would have told him to save Eurydice. Thereâs no denying that.
âIâm sorry,â he says, hoping Aqua could hear him. âIâd give you my whole heart if it meant you were here.â He swallows. âIâm so sorry. Iâll be back, just wait for me.â He doesnât want to stand up, for that would mean that heâd have to walk. But he tells himself that there must be ways around this. There must be an exception, a line in the fine print. âWait for me, Iâll come to you. I swear with every will I have to live.â
Terra stands. He summons his helmet. When he wears it, he finally cries, soft tears that feel warm then cool, muted because theyâre delayed.
âOkay,â he tells Eurydice. âLetâs go.âÂ
He wades across the water, ripples that fan out and reflecting light that isnât there.Â
Eurydice floats by his side. âIâm grateful. The vipers are the most unpleasant.â
Terra stops a chuckle. âYeah, you told me.â Repetition is a symptom for the eldritch, an obsession with what life was. Eurydice deserves so much better. âDo you have to go back to Hades?â
âOrpheus is with him. Once we reunite, we will walk the Underworld together.â
âBut itâs a prison.â
Eurydice glances at him. âMan and god are the same. They associate death with misery and see the Underworld as nothing else. But we donât see what you see.â
âThe thought of Hades hating his job is satisfying.â
âHe makes for an upsetting neighbor.âÂ
Terra scoffs.Â
âBut I shall be content. Death is powerful but Love more so.â
Terra doesnât know how to respond, but it spells for him a kind of peace. The Realm numbs everything it touches. As long as they play by the rules, itâs not so bad. Aqua is the only balm heâd need.
âHow shall we escape?â
âVenâmy best friendâis waiting on the other side. You see that light?â Ahead of them, far in the distance, is a star. âHe has a door open for us.â
âBut weâve been walking for so long and yet it does not come closer. Are you not looking forward to seeing him?â
âOf course I am.â Terra slows to a stop. The water has reached to his waist.
Eurydice studies him with sadness. âYou mean to stay here.â
Terra doesnât answer Eurydiceâs remark. âI mean to see you free and happy.â He holds out his hand and she takes it.Â
Nothing is truly ever following Terra here, for the Darkness wants him to think so. So he will stay, walk forward and walk far without a map or a compass. Eventually, heâll have to cross paths with her. There is no other place heâd want to go, and any world without her is a world behind him. With that vow to himself, the star finally comes close, the black fading into gray.
âVen?â Terra calls.
âI have always wondered what it would be like to cross over,â Eurydice says.
Heavy, loud footsteps approach them. Ven appears in the light, in a box colored in white, his armor worn. âTerra? Finally, Iâve beenââ He jerks his head towards Eurydiceâs direction, the sharp rabbit ears of his helmet tilting. He leans forward as if to peer inside. He does not have a reflection in the water. âWhere is Aqua?â
âWe are everywhere, she is nowhere,â Eurydice says.
âYou donât see her?â Terra asks, his voice brittle. A tiny part of his heart was hoping he was wrong.
âDude,â Ven says, âI can barely see you. Youâre like an outline.âÂ
âThatâs proof enough.â
âSuch lies,â Eurydice says.Â
âWhat is the ghost talking about?â Ven asks.
âItâs okay, Ven,â Terra says. âIâm going to find Aqua.âÂ
âIâll come with you.â
âSheâll never forgive me if you follow.â Terra hangs his head. âPlease donât ask me to leave her.â
âThatâs notââ
âIâm not afraid of the Realm of Darkness.â
Eurydice turns to Terra. âSuch bravery yet you are frightened to cross the threshold for her. Is it natural that faith betrays you? Donât do this to her. Donât punish her.âÂ
Ven looks at her, looks at Terra, looks at her.Â
Terra says, âOnce I find her, Iâll be okay.â He moves to turn.Â
Eurydice holds his shoulder. âMany donât know how to love. They only know the fall, and they fall, waiting for peace to replace the ecstasy and despair. But it will not come if you do not beckon it. May you listen to your heart?â
His heart aches.Â
Ven grabs his forearm. âIâm going to listen to the freaky lady. She knows more than you.â
âVenââ
âI canât lose both of you. Weâll figure out an action plan, andââVen uses all his weight and both of his hands to try to pull Terra overââyouâre coming with me.â
âI canât leave her here.â
âWeâre not! Come on, man, sheâs strong.â
âStep forward with me. The vipers are most unpleasant,â Eurydice says.
Terra holds onto the doorframe. The sun hits his gloved fingers, baking them. Aqua, what do I do?
Terra, please.Â
Thatâs Aquaâs voice, far away. For the Darkness wants him to think nothing is following him.
âYou promise me weâll come back?â Terra asks Ven.
âOf course. Anything for her.â
Terra doesnât sob when he wants to. He doesnât make a decisionâhe leaps, stepping forward into the light. Eurydice follows.
But a heavy ton, the Darkness, drags him back. Hands from the water grab his cape into bunches and pull on his neck. They hold onto his legs and bend his knees, desperate, like beggars that need his help, need the stars that glimmer in his armor.
One hand grabs his forearm, metal on metal, like itâs telling him not to forget something.Â
Terra gasps.Â
He grabs that hand and throws himself forward with a yell, ripping away from the Darkness begging him to stay, knocking Ven out of his balance, and pulling her out.Â
Terra lands on his back and hears her gasp and whimper out of shock, relieved. He throws his helmet off.
âAqua.â
Aquaâs blue armor stares at the grass while she takes in the scene, her sobs controlled and hushed.Â
Terra pulls her helmet off to look at her face, stained with tears and tired smiles. âAqua.â
âYou didnât hear me?â she asks, crying quietly. âNo one heard or saw me, I was there the entire time.â
âIâm an idiot.â Terra weeps with her. He dispels his armor and touches her pauldron to dismiss hers. He holds her tightly. Sheâs warm and sweaty, small in comparison to him, folded into his chest like she fits perfectly. âCall me an idiot, I deserve it.â
Aquaâs cries tremble into laughter as she buries her face in his neck, twisting his suspenders in her fists. Terra lets her weight pull him onto the grass. âThat girl was right. You smell good.â
âWhat are we talking about now?â Ven removes his helmet and brushes through his hair. Terra is so happy to see that chubby face. âEverythingâs so confusing.â
âThese girls have been chasing Terra. Theyâre harpies.â She looks up at him and smirks. âI donât think theyâd be pleased if they saw us like this.â
Terra chuckles into her hair. âI donât care.â
âWait,â Ven says, scoffing. âNow weâre going to be murdered by rabid fangirls? Ugh, Terra, why are you always inviting trouble? We donât need it.â He slams his helmet back on. âStay here, Iâll scout to see if itâs safe. Iâm kicking your ass when we get back home.â
Thatâs fine. Terra will hold onto Aqua here, stroke his thumb on her cheek, wipe her hair off of her face, massage his hand over her exposed back, under the straps. Itâs overcast, the clouds a respite.Â
Flowers named eurydice watch over them, their anthers hanging close.Â
âSheâs okay,â Aqua whispers, sighing. Her body relaxes. âThank you.â
Terra kisses her forehead and brings her waist closer. His star in the darkness. She blinks from behind blotted clouds.
#terraqua#terra#aqua#terraqua week#kingdom hearts fanfiction#orpheus#eurydice#AHHHHHH omg i finally finished this monster#the longest piece in the collection for sure#my fic
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PROMPT #25: Silver Lining
"Sappho! Please come quickly!"
For Venat to intentionally disturb her at her desk meant a matter of some grave urgency. Sure enough, when Sappho looked up from the line of her latest epic - For why would the hero have thought to look for the villain in her own shadow? - her lover's face was horrifically pale beneath her mask.
"It's Eurydice," said Venat, and fear gripped Sappho's heart. "She's... something's happened. We must go to her at once!"
Sappho would pause the hard-won pursuit of her craft for very few occasions; the endangerment of her young friend was one of them. She left her desk and sprinted out of her apartment, down each flight of stairs as fast as her legs could carry her, before she could even remember that she had forgotten her mask. Such things no longer mattered, not now, and precious few remained in Amaurot who cared enough for her reputation to chastise her.
A crowd had already gathered around the Bureau of the Architect, most of them murmuring and milling about. Sappho, too, could make note of the oppressive aether that had gathered within the walls, a cloying presence on the edge of her senses.
"Where is she?!" she called. "Where is Eurydice?!"
"She's still inside!" shouted one of the attendants. "She's the only one not accounted for!"
Sappho did not ask if anyone had already gone inside to help: she knew the answer, and to bring it to life would only dull her purpose with rage. Rather than dissuade her or try to hold her back, the crowd parted to clear a path for her, the only maskless figure in an anonymous sea.
"Give me ten minutes," Sappho said to Venat, and she nodded. "If I do not return by then-"
"Find Orpheus," she finished, "and go in after you."
At any other moment, Sappho might have kissed her, but she dared not waste another second. For the first time in all too long, she rolled up her sleeves and spoke a quick word to summon her trusted sword and shield. Thus prepared, she charged alone into the Bureau of the Architect.
The moment the doors closed behind her, Sappho stood in a deeper darkness than any she had ever known. And yet it was achingly, intimately familiar - as if the sun and all the stars had been blotted out from the sky.
Her heart clenched as a cold wave of understanding gripped her.
The darkness roiled at her coming, for it knew her as its maker. Sappho could not hope to oppose it yet, not in this omnipresent gloom; she could only hope to plunge deeper into it, until she discovered Eurydice or some other trace of its source.
She heard the girl before she saw her, all the way from the other end of the entrance hall. Eurydice was weeping, lashing out impotently with her dagger at mere wisps of shadow that had confined her to a small corner.
"Eurydice!" Sappho called. She hurried in and spread her sword wide, generating a flash like the lighthouses on one of the coastal cities she had visited throughout her travels. The shadows writhed and squirmed and faded back into the abyss, though their defeat offered no relief from the darkness.
Eurydice sank to her knees in relief. "Sappho? Sappho, is that you? I can't see you, I'm... I'm so sorry!"
"Later," she insisted. She knelt down and placed a hand upon the girl's shoulder. "For now, we must bring everything we have to bear against this concept." Eurydice was no fighter. For this, just this once, it would not matter. "It will be difficult, but not impossible - and no matter what, we must not give in."
"But-"
"Eurydice. I wrote the words you spoke from a place of great despair - at a time when I lost everything." Her title, her purpose - and most of all, her adventuring. "But I am still here. I have Venat, and I have you. And together, we will leave this place, and we will find Orpheus."
Eurydice burst into tears anew at the sound of that name. "I was so stupid! He doesn't love me, he-"
"Orpheus loves you like no one has ever loved a girl before. And his love may not be the love you need now, but it is real - and if you have any desire to claim it, it will endure." She helped Eurydice to her feet, dusted her off a little, and placed a kiss upon the top of her head for good measure. "But whether you leave this place for his sake or for your own, make sure you leave it."
The words emboldened Sappho as surely as they emboldened Eurydice - yet on the far end of the hall, as if to rise to the challenge, a being manifested from out of the gloom.
It spoke to Eurydice's gift of construction that the summoned form resembled perfectly the darkness that had prompted Sappho to put her quill to parchment: an all-consuming emptiness, a despair that wore her own face. The cloud of darkness floated far above the floor of the grand hall, wearing nothing upon its body but lines of ink and blood, and from its hideously perfect form streamed forth barbed tetrameters, coiled like serpents.
Selfish, stupid, slothful sinner.
"Keep behind me," she murmured, and Eurydice obeyed at once.
The darkness fixed its eyes on Sappho and smiled in recognition. It raised one hand and summoned a single burning orb to throw at them both. Sappho deflected the blow with her shield, wincing as the jolt sent a shock all the way up her arm.
You help yourself and fail the world.
"Ignore it," she muttered. The words were as much for herself as they were for Eurydice. "Whatever it says, ignore it; it means to make you forget yourself."
She shone another light from her sword and the darkness recoiled.
"I do not need to defeat you," she said to the darkness. "I need only to keep you at bay."
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Sappho and Eurydice walked out from the Bureau of the Architect side by side, with their arms around each other's shoulders. The crowd that had gathered near the building had since doubled in size, but Sappho could still make note of Orpheus at the very front: his lyre slung over his shoulder made him difficult to miss. Eurydice rushed to greet him, and Sappho gladly saw her to the safety of his arms.
Emet-Selch, too, stood at the rear of the crowd, distinguishable at a distance only by his red mask. Without a mask of her own, he could see every expression to cross her face in full; doubtless he could read her irritation as deftly as he read her epics.
"Sappho," he said by way of greeting. It was the first he'd called her by her name since she had given up the title "Azem." "I had thought you were meant to surrender all weapon concepts upon relinquishing your role."
"Are you going to hold me in contempt of the Convocation?" she retorted.
His wry smile only widened. "No," he admitted. "I mean only to praise you for a swift rescue."
"Save it," she snapped. "A girl nearly died bringing one of my works to life. Is that what you wanted me to say?"
He was raising one of his stupid eyebrows under his mask; he had to be. "And what is it you want to say, Sappho? It's been nearly a full year since you began working on your magnum opus."
Venat's hand took hold of hers; at her touch, Sappho relinquished whatever harsh words she might have later come to regret. "You'll see for yourself," she replied, and set back off toward her apartment. "When I've finished."
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Orpheus & Eurydice
Excerpt from Ovidâs Metamorphoses, Book XI
Translated by Allen MandelbaumÂ
But Hymen had to leave the isle of Crete. Clad in his saffron-colored cloak, he cleaved the never-ending air until he reached the home of the Cauconians in Thrace; for he had heard the voice of Orpheus, who was to wed--who pleaded for his presence. He came--but came in vain. He did not bless the rite with sacred utterance; his face displayed no joy; he brought no hope, no grace. Even the torch he held kept sputtering: eyes teared and smarted from the smoke; no flame, however much he shook that brand, would blaze.Â
The start was sad--and sadder still, the end. The bride, just wed, met death; for even as she crossed the meadows with her Naiad friends, she stepped upon a snake; the viper sank its teeth into her ankle.
                    Orpheus wept within the upper world; but when his share of long lament was done, the poet dared to cross the gate of Taenarus, to seek his wife among the Shades consigned to Styx. Among the fluttering clouds, the phantom forms of those who had been buried, he drew close to both Proserpina and Pluto, he who rules the dead, the joyless kingdomâs king. Then Orpheus plucked his lyre as he sang:Â
âO gods who rule the world beneath the earth, the world to which all those of mortal birth descend--if I may speak the truth to you, without the subterfuge that liars use, Iâve not come here to seek dark Tartarus, nor have I come to chain the monster-son Medusa bore, that horror whose three necks bear bristling serpents. This has brought me here: I seek my wife: she stepped upon a viper, a snake that shot his venom into her young body, robbing her of years of life. Iâll not deny that I have tried: I wish that I had had the power to resist. But Love has won; to him I must submit. Within the upper world, he has much fame, but Iâm not sure if here that god has gained renown--though I do hope so; if the tale they tell of an abduction long ago is not a lie, why then you, too, do owe your union to the force of Love. And now I pray you, by these fearful sites and by the silences of this immense abyss, reknit the severed threads, restore the life-- undone too quickly--of Eurydice. For all of us are yours to rule by right; or stay above is brief; when that is done, we all must--sooner, later--speed to one same dwelling place. We all shall take this way: out final home is here; the human race must here submit to your unending sway. She, too, will yet be yours when she has lived in full the course of her allotted years. I ask you only this: lend her to me. But if the Fates deny my wife this gift, then I shall stay here, too, I wonât go back; and you can then rejoice--youâll have two deaths.âÂ
The bloodless shades shed tears: they heard his plea, the chant the Thracian had accompanied with chords upon his lyre. Tantalus no longer tried to catch the fleeing waves; Ixionâs wheel stood still--entranced, amazed; the vultures did not prey on Tityusâ liver; the Danaids left their urns; and Sisyphus, you sat upon your stone. Itâs even said that, moved by Orpheusâ song, the Furies wept-- the only tears the Furies ever shed. Nor could Proserpina, nor he himself, the rule of the lower world, refuse the plea of Orpheus of Rhodope.Â
They called Eurydice. She was among the recent dead; as she advanced, her steps were faltering--her wound still brought distress. The Thracian poet took her hand; he led his wife away--but heard the godsâ command: his eyes must not turn back until heâd passed the valley of Avernus. Just one glance at her, and all he had received would be lost--irretrievably.
                Their upward path was dark and steep; the mists they met were thick; the silences, unbroken. But at last, theyâd almost reached the upper world, when he, afraid that she might disappear again and longing so to see her, turned to gaze back at his wife. At once she slipped away-- and down. His arms stretched out convulsively to clasp and to be clasped in turn, but there was nothing but the unresisting air. And as she died again, Eurydice did not reproach her husband. (How could she have faulted him except to say that he loved her indeed?) One final, faint âFarewellâ-- so weak it scarcely reached his ears--was all she said. Then, back to the abyss, she fell.Â
And when that second death had struck his wife, the poet--stunned--was like the man whose fright on seeing Cerberus, three-headed hound enchained by Hercules, was so complete that he was not set free from fear until, his human nature gone, he had become a body totally transformed--to stone. Or one might liken Orpheus instead to Olenus, who took the blame himself for his Lethaeaâs arrogance when she-- unfortunately--boasted of her beauty: Lethaea, you and he were once two hearts whom love had joined; but now you are two rocks that Ida holds on its well-watered slopes.Â
But then--when he had found his speech once more-- the poet pleaded, begging Charon for a second chance to reach the farther shore; the boatman chased him off. For seven days, huddled along the banks of Styx, he stayed; there he shunned Ceresâ gifts--he had no taste for food; he called on desperation, pain, and tears--with these alone he could sustain himself. But after Orpheus arraigned the gods of Erebus for cruelty, he left; he sought the peak of Rhodope and Haemusâ heights, where north winds never cease.Â
#ancient greece#ancient greek#mythology#greek mythology#greek myth#orpheus#eurydice#orpheus and eurydice#ovid#metamorphoses#poem#love#love poem#love story#sad
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Fanfic 2020 in Review
I got tagged by @kasienda @noirshitsuji and @marvelousmsmol and I am tagging whoever wants to play!
1) List of fics completed this year in the order they were finished:
*filters own works to complete and updated in 2020*
1 - 20 of 57 Works by AlexSeanchai
nope. *adds filter to include only works of at least 1000 words*
unless otherwise indicated, these are all Miraculous Ladybug:
âdonât bake it lying downâ, post-reveal Marichat vs Felix Graham de Vanily
âveracityâ, canon divergence from âLadybugâ featuring Mister Bug and Verity Queen (so also Marichat, I guess)
â(no request is too extreme, if) your heart is in your dreamâ, in which Hawkmoth wins, for the thirty seconds or so before Emilie saves Ladybug and Chat Noirâs lives
âtell me you love me and make me believe itâ, in which trans girl Chatonne Noire ropes Ladybug into helping plan her civilian selfâs escape slash social transition
âkingmaker, oathbreakerâ, in which Hawkmoth wins and Emilie watches her son remove himself from the family
âstay and let me watch you break it downâ (Twelve Dancing Princesses), a modern setting
âset a course for winds of fortuneâ, in which trans girl Chatonne Noire has already escaped and Gabriel and Nathalie are trying to bring Gabrielâs son home
âwe ground love in a hopeless placeâ, in which post-reveal Marinetteâs attempt to remain resolutely not in love with her partner dissolves like sugar in coffee when they start a pun war
âring the bells that still can ringâ, in which Alya is deeply confused about why Adrien and Marinette are planning a wedding when last night both were single
âburning wishes at both ends (the cold wind and long loud wail remix)â, in which Gabriel made a monkeyâs paw wish and Emilie makes another
âwords cannot espressoâ, in which Marinetteâs OC roommate is justifiably worried for Marinetteâs safety, and meanwhile Adrien takes care of Marinette
âthe compromise of truthâ (the chronologically second-earliest part posted to date of nine lives, snakeâs eyes), in which Adrien tells his friends how he won some freedom and respect from his father
âAt The Present Timeâ, the Ladrien/Ladynoir marriage proposal follow-up to @art-deco-shrimpâs âYour Presents Requiredâ
âj'ai rĂȘvĂ© (so I don't have to dream alone)â, in which the events of canon must just have been a series of dream sequences, Marinette and Adrien both think, until they both arrive at Chloeâs Halloween masquerade dressed as themselves from the dreams
2) Number of words written:
ahahaha no. I am not counting all my scattered fic drafts and trying to figure out what I did and didnât write in 2020. I refuse.
AO3 says I posted 162K in 2020. it is counting all of keeps you guessing (like any real love), which (a) I started posting in 2019 (b) is co-written by @galahadwilderâ; it is counting all of my meta snippets collection, much of which was written in 2019; it is counting the Vimeo passwords for my vids. but I probably cleared 150K by a safe margin.
3) Your most popular fic:
âveracityâ has a four-digit kudos count, wow, whenâd that happen? this is also the 2020 work with the most hits and the most bookmarks, but âtell me you love meâ has four-thirds as many comments as its nearest competitor.
4) Your personal fav:
âcannot break us, not with a thousand swordsâ, no question about it. this is the one in which Ladybug proposes marriage to Chat Noir via Princess Bride meme on Tumblr. (if you intend to download the work or otherwise to consume it with creator style off, you want the accessible version instead of the primary version.)
5) Your fav scene:
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âokay so this is cheating and I know it, since Uncertain Humors (the one where Marinette/Adrien is both Orpheus/Eurydice and Theseus/Ariadne) is nowhere near finished, never mind posted (maybe I'll get âSanguineâ done to post on my birthday?)
but it is still my favorite of the year. as you might guess from that description of the story, this scene has content notes for character death:
Hell is a maze. Marinette walks.
This acrid passage has little to see but damp stone, seeming blood-stained in the dim carmine light. At about the height of her heart, the faintly glowing thread cuts through the not-clammy air; it ought to be pulsing at the same rate as the heart it's bound to. She might be able to see her own reflection if she looked down at the open sewage pipe, or at one of the puddles that now and again she splashes through, dampening the canvas of her shoes. She might see reflected what's behind her.
She remembers Mme. Mendeleiev lecturing on human physiology. In healthy humans old enough to have learned how, urination is a voluntary action: one may not know which muscles one tenses and relaxes in order to do so, and probably isn't paying attention to those details when one is doing, but one has conscious control over whether one does. Usually. Stress and anxiety mean some people are unable to relax the relevant sphincter muscle and others are unable to stop themselves. It's voluntary for cats, too: it's one way they mark their territories. Cat-boys have other ways.
There is a moment in every human life when all one's muscles relax at once. Some Parisians have had several such moments.
The thread is braided with itself around her left fourth finger, rows of tiny red half-hitch knots, and falls loosely over the back of her hand to loop twice around her wrist. She holds it wrapped between the fingers of her right hand to keep it at a constant tension, as though knitting with this insubstantial thread, so fragile for something two (two dozen, two million) lives hang fromâtoo thin to sew with, no thicker than one strand of his hair. As she walks, she winds it around and around and around her wrist.
Between her ring finger and her right hand, it loops twice.
Marinette's shoe lands in a puddle she didn't see. The rainwater splashes soundlessly onto her bare ankle and on the stone.
(With cat-like tread, upon our prey we stealâ It's a very loud song.)
She walks on.
6) A fic or scene that challenged you:
where the firelight fades, no contest. this is the second story Iâve ever been able to stick with more than a couple hundred words past the 20K mark, but itâs easily the twentieth novel-length Iâve begun. (though also, you know that kedreeva post? well, 90K later, Iâm less than 15K from completing this 10K fic! I think.) and I have been learning so much about long-form fiction.
there has also been a lot of weeping and tearing my hair. case in point: I just trashed the chapter 15 draft because I figured out the reason it wasnât going anywhere! I can probably keep the first few hundred words of that draft without any editing, and another few hundred with some revision...
7) A line of writing youâre proud of:
from âj'ai rĂȘvĂ© (so I don't have to dream alone)â:
Everything about their partnership is fragments of sentences in the dream diary Adrien writes in ultraviolet pen. Disjointed flickers of thought even when examined under the black light he hides in the snack cabinet under packets of Super Yoyo sandwich cookies and bags of cheesy Monster Munch potato chips and boxes of petit Ă©colier butter cookies (chocolat noir)ânone of which explains the gym-socks smell. All fleeting incoherent flashes, invisible between the mundane lines of La Modification shelved at his bedside between Leroux and Dumas. None of it is solid. Adrien has more proof his room's haunted.
okay let me break this down for you!
* Adrien started a dream diary to make sense of the memories
* in invisible ink, in a book that (according to Wikipedia) is thematically appropriate and wonât (if Gabriel sees it) look like anything other than Adrien developing an interest in French literature
* shelved between Phantom of the Opera and The Three Musketeers
* look I didnât come up with the name âblack lightâ
* or âchocolat noirâ for what English speakers call âdark chocolateâ, or âpetit Ă©colierâ (that is, âlittle schoolboyâ) for that sort of butter cookie
* also not my fault that âchocolat noirâ sounds remarkably like âChat Noirâ, which, attentive readers may have noticed, is not a name that appears in the story after the header and before Miraculous Cure
* I found the website of a store in Boston, Massachusetts that caters to French expats, and the yo-yo cookies and the monster chips were right there in the photos, yâall
* the snack stash and the black light live in the cabinet where, in canon, the Camembert lives; yes, that cheese smells in the real world like gym socks
* this storyâs akuma was not able to affect anything but squishy human memory: nobody affected remembers anything about Ladybug or Chat Noir or Hawkmoth, not in any solid way, not even when they read news articles about the subject, and this includes Marinette and Adrien not being able to see or hear or remember their own kwamisâbut you know what Adrienâs Insta post about his poltergeist and Adrienâs Insta post with the floating sock donât show and donât explicitly refer to?
* I love this paragraph so much (my housemates may have been lovingly mocking me over it)
8) A comment that touched you:
there are people (yâall know who you are) who said yâall are studying my style. I ded of blush.
9) Something that inspired your writing:
by volume of fic drafts that can be blamed on any particular person, the winner is probably @norakwamiâ
10) Your proudest accomplishment (that one scene; finally finishing that one fic; posting your first fic; etc):
so that longest-story-ever-written record I set in 2007 with the 89.5K story that, till where the firelight fades, was the only story Iâd gotten much past 20K?
I broke that fucking record!
and then I deleted the draft of firelight chapter 15 đ
11) Do you have any writing goals for the next year?
Iâm starting work on a fantasy novel, a Sleeping Beauty retelling in which I explore (among other things) the economic consequences of the kingâs ordering all the spinning wheels burned, and I want to make significant progress on that. and I want to not make my hands any worse; I kind of need those!
(breaking news alert: bodies fucking suck. so does giving yourself repetitive stress injuries in doing one and a half to two peopleâs worth of work for an organization that was never ever going to pay you more than one personâs worth of pay.)
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Initial impressions of playing Hades for a solid 8 hours straight (spoilers inbound):
Achilles gets the father of the year award
Nyx gets the mother of the year award
Hades is a dick, no wonder Zagreus wants to get tf out so much. Go find mom, Zag, she's out there somewhere.
Usually I don't like roguelikes but?? I like this a lot??
It's not very repetitive, or boring, it has an actual story that goes along with everything that happens. There's a lot of dialogue. Like, a LOT of dialogue. Dialogue that REACTS to things you do. People you TALK TO. How you DIED, even. I've never seen two bits of dialogue the exact same.
SO MUCH VOICE ACTING. SUCH GOOD VOICE ACTING. LIKE SERIOUSLY.
Orpheus is trans?? Trans rights
Chaos is agender?? Agender/nonbinary rights
Apparently you can get into a poly relationship with at least 2 other characters or stay single or go for one of them so Poly rights and Gay rights and Straight rights too and Bi rights and mm yes gimme that repppp
Meg is cool. I like her. Do your job girl.
The other sisters? Especially Tisiphone?? Absolutely horrifying
Is it murder if the souls I kill are already dead? Fuck off Tisiphone
You die a lot. You get gud. Lol
Seriously in these 8 hours straight I've been playing I've managed to be able to regularly go from Tartarus to the Bros/Elysium
By Bros I mean Theseus and Asterius these guys are Bros and I love them and their queer platonic bromance
QPR rights
But seriously bros let me pass please I want to find my mom and make Zagreus happy
And beat the shit out of Hades. I'm pretty fucking sure he's the final boss. IT'S NOT A PHASE, DAD.
Also really want to let Orpheus know that his beautiful muse Eurydice IS ok and figure out how to get them back together
CAN I USE THE KITCHEN PLEASE also how many areas are there in the game that Zag has to fight through
Also love the varied designs of everyone in the game is so,, nice. The gods' portraits perfectly convey their personality and I love Nyx' design so much.
Oh also Hypnos... sleepy snarklord. I'm going to date your brother. Or die trying.
I probably will. He's Thanatos, the God of Death. Sometimes we play a game of 'who can kill more people?'. We've played it 3 times. I won once.
My favorite weapon is the spear.
I never use the spear's spin attack.
I hate the gun. Fuck the gun.
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Of wicked witches and jealous queens - older women in fairytales.
Recently Iâve found myself looking hard at the role of women in folklore. Itâs not as if there arenât any: our fairytales are filled with captive princesses, lovelorn mermaids, persecuted beauties. Then thereâs the next generation: the jealous Queen. The wicked stepmother. The evil witch. The wise old crone. But these are never the heroines; theyâre always the villains, the scapegoats, the ones with the poisoned apples. It seems that folklore and fairytale is not unlike the modern world: young women are valued by men for their looks; the older ones are mostly just jealous.
In a world of magic, as in the world around us, the one superpower older women share is that of invisibility. The young go on quests and journeys; the older ones plot against them, fatten them up to be eaten, lock them in towers, or sometimes just die on the first page, leaving the young hero or heroine conveniently orphaned, and free to begin their journey.
But where is the motherâs journey? Where are the stories of women with agency and experience? Donât bother looking; theyâre not there. The same goes for diverse love stories; unless youâre young, straight and cis, forget it. And what about all the different kinds of love outside of youthful, romantic love? What about platonic love, or love in old age, or the love of a parent for a child? Donât go looking for those either. Romantic love is most commonly at the heart of the fairy tale, and thus is generally portrayed as the only love that matters. And once that love has been secured, the happily ever after ending is only a formality, dismissing those later decades in a single, well-worn phrase.
And yet there are so many different kinds of love - the Greeks had at least eight varieties. Thereâs new love; love in old age; passionate love; playful love. Thereâs the love one has for a friend; the love of a parent for a child. But Eros, the god of romantic love, is the one who gets by far the most press. He even managed to claim for himself the statue on the south-Western side of Piccadilly Circus, although the statue actually represents his brother, Anteros.
But it has always been thus. Eros is pushy and selfish; Anteros, self-effacing and gentle. So why does the brash and offensive twin always land the best stories? And how would a story with Anteros, not Eros, at its heart unfold?
These were the questions I had in mind when I started writing Orfeia. The original Orpheus legend is very much a story of love; but although thereâs no denying the devotion of Orpheus, who travels to the Kingdom of Death to bring back his Eurydice, he is also very much an Eros guy; impulsive, passionate, brave, but also selfish and immature. I wanted my version to look at another side of love. Thatâs why my version of Orpheus is not a young hero, but an older heroine; and her journey is not a simple rescue mission, but an exploration of memory, motherhood, grief, fantasy, temptation - and ultimately, self-sacrifice.
How different is this story from the traditional source? In some ways, not so different. Itâs still a story of love and loss; but itâs more of a song of experience than a song of innocence. And instead of giving the love story to the passionate Eros, it goes to his gentler twin Anteros, so often â like those older women â overlooked and underestimated.
Because mothers, too, have stories to tell. They too have their journey. They too are capable of courage and defiance, passionate love or dreams of romance. Age does nothing to change that. Feelings are universal, and do not lose their potency with time. The heroine of Orfeia is the mother of a young woman in her twenties. It is no accident that I am also the mother of a young woman in her twenties. The experience of motherhood is at the heart of this tale â the love, and also the fear of loss. In Orfeia, Fay loses her child to mental illness and suicide. Thus begins her story; not with the death of the parents, as so many fairy stories begin, but with the death of a daughter; and it takes her on a journey through the real world, FaĂ«rie, Dream, and finally to the land of Death, where she must fight for the one she loves, and make an almost unthinkable choice. Itâs a story that tells of a battle between Eros and Anteros; between youth and experience. By reshaping it as I have, I wanted to make the original myth a more universal story. I wanted a woman at its heart, not as a trophy to be won, but as an adventurer in her own right. Most of all, I wanted to rebel against that happily-ever-after ending that writes off the stories of later life as unworthy of being told.
Tales of magic and transformation are not just for children. At the heart of the fairytale lies the belief that we can all change our lives, our situations and our world; that we can all fight monsters; find love; experience transformations. Magic in its purest form is just a metaphor for change; and in these times of trouble, we need to believe in our power to change our world; just as we need Anteros, the god of compassionate, selfless love, far more than we need Eros, his selfish twin, who flits from one love object to the next with no thought of the consequences.
Most of all, in a world run by men, we need to tell womenâs stories â and not just the stories of those women whose value lies solely in their erotic appeal, or their need to be rescued. I want to tell the stories of those women who rescue themselves; who see further than a Hollywood wedding or a happily-ever-after; who want more from life than just to stay young or to feed poisoned apples to the next generation. Those are the women that interest me. Those are the unsung heroines. And because a woman who refuses to settle for the traditional role is a woman who can fight monsters; have adventures; go on quests. She is the wielder of magic; of change; and Eros is no match for her.
 ORFEIA comes out on September 3rd.
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