#no but i def need to get back on my meds but thats such a hassle

[ssongsboo]

i 💕 when music sounds like nintendogs + cats its so nostalgic

[claggorstuff]

(male because i don't see any male readers on your page so far)

claggor x male!reader but Claggor is sick and feeling insecure and reader is taking care of him, making sure he knows how important he is

Oh my god i didnt even see this but ill most def do it !

Claggors taken care of by male s/o as hes sick !

Claggor x male reader

Fluff

I walked into the last drop expecting it to be busy as ever, and well, it was, but vander seemed to be rushing and scampering around nervously, so I of course went up to him expecting a soft smile to greet me, instead he sighed and shook his head

"Hey kid, I know yer excited to see claggor but hes real sick.. and im too busy takin care of him and runnin the bar for a quick chat. You best run along before ya catch what he got.."

"What?! Whats he got?! He isnt too sick is he?"

"No no, there aint no doctors needed but lets just say we've had to empty a few buckets.."

"Well I dont care HOW SICK I GET. Im gonna go help him!"

"Uh- you sure kid..? He really aint well.."

"Thats all the more reason to help."

I flew down the stairs to see claggor, and as expected he was in his bed pale and weak, I hastily stumbled over and he opened his eyes, red from tears, my love was probably in unimaginable pain.

"Agh damn.. I really didnt want you to see me like this.."

"Claggor. Youre sick, you need help.. and youre no weaker than anyone else in this state babe."

"Yeah yeah.. I just- I just dont want you to see me weak at all." He shielded himself with his arm, nervously

"Youre not weak. Not to me."

I felt his forehead and went to the sink they used for washing out the cups used at the bar, grabbing a dish cloth and soaking it in cold water, and going back to him pressing it on his forehead

"Hey.. you don't gotta do this now Im fine.."

"Fine? You have a HURL BUCKET! and youre barely able to sit up.. I think you need lots of care."

"Well youve always wanted to help.. but- seriously, youre gonna get sick."

"Dont care, youre the important one right now.."

"Important? Im hardly even sick.." He mumbled, coughing up phlegm, I frowned and kissed his cheek, he smiled a little with a warm redness spreading across his face, I ran my fingers through his hair and he just melted into my touch.. it was heaven for him and anyone could tell, this look, soft, melted, warm, it wiped the sad look right off my face, I saw mylo cooking some soup and sighed, thankfully someone was handling his food and that left me the time to get his spirits up, I grabbed some antibiotics I stole from some pharmaceutical type guy, looking through it to see any flu meds, cough meds, only finding something to help with his nausea, I got a shot glass and filled it up with water, handing the medication to him and watching him stare at it drousily

"Really I dont need this.. if you get sick we need to save the meds for you I'm serious."

"Claggor for the love of god youre sick right now! Take the damn meds. Youre too important to stay sick another day."

"Oh come on.."

"No truly. Youre the main helper for the bar here. And around the undercity as a whole."

"Look I dunno I just.. how much did these cost ya?"

"Stole em." And with those words he downed the ones he needed, one thing about him is he knows to make use of the things we steal, if they just lay around we eventually get caught. I still had plenty left over which made him smile, he was finally happy as he could be in his state. I gently kissed his forehead again and as mylo finished the cooking I nodded in glee serving up the warm liquid to claggor, feeding him with a smile, he just chuckled at my face and rubbed my hand, hopefully he'll get over this sick soon..

[iminaworldofpureimagination]

For the “give me a character” post: Diane Nguyen! :)

GIVE ME A CHARACTER;

and I’ll break their ass down:

How I feel about this character/ unpopular opinion about character/ writing decisions: combined.

Baby girl perfect in everyway

In all seriousness her goals to want to make the world a better place to make herself feel like a good person reminds me a lot of my morality ocd / hank getting off scott free.. i get it but I do find it kind of a bummer than she had ZERO wins too.. ending with the whole billionaires are excused of murder whale plot like whats even the point of trying to be an activist at this point? .. dianes mental health does take a hit but she deserves at least one win and the view towards activism feels a bit cynical but i aint even acitvist sowhatdoiknow. she also has agood heart but is also very passive aggressive she's a very flawed character and the way she lashes out when feeling wrong is detrimental to relationships and just not cool.. Diane told whatshisname..wayne that she wasn't writing a book to tear bojack apart and then.. proceeds to just do that amuses me. I think in a way its her subconscious lashing out after bojack embarrased her in front of her abusive family. I don't know if i have unpopular opinions I think most agree her approach to dealing with bojack upsetting her in intu sub wasn't beneficial to anyone it wouldn't help him change anyway.. now that i think about it after hearing the audio tape she should have confronted him sooner.. . I just thought of an opinion thats prob unpopular. The argument at philbert premiere.. and how the creator handled knowing real life hank liked his show annoys me. you can't control bad people watching /enjoying your show there are zillions of people in this world ou owe it the fans that get your show that they know bojack isn't a good person and don't approve of his actions with penny/sarah lynn/ ect.. I love bojack but i hate when he did to penny and find his actions not forgiveable while still believing in his ability to change. i just didn't care for being hammered over the head with how the handled the message they wanted to get across. .so I find the confrontation of bojack/diane at Philbert to be beneficial to no one and more Diane venting via the creator than trying to make a point that would even help such bad behavior. .. i also really hate when things get too on the nose i prefer subtly ... minusbojackhatesthetroopsbutnevermindthat..

All the people I ship romantically with this character You know its Bojack maybe when i finally rewatch it fully I'll like her/ Guy but at the times it bojack. sure it could be horrible but i thought they vibes they had when high /drunk as a skunk is kinda fun.. but honestly i also like the sweet moments of bojack being in her corner after everyone is against her with hank (this def made her finding out about penny even more crushing) i like the I need you in my life from both of them/

i feel bojack acutally understands diane more than she understood him as he has crushing depression and def sees a lot of himself in diane I think at their best they bring out good changes like bojack writing his letter to her about how being miserable all your life is stupid and it get her to call Guy back/ or encouraging her to take her meds and thanking her for taking him to rehab that ends up with her taking her meds and being in a happier mental state. I know people think they bring out just the worse in eachother but i think if he stayed sober and never made the phone call he prob be invited to the wedding as a best man.... Its not all sunshine and rainbows they had their fights that took things to far and have hurt eachothers feelings in the process. i go between shipping em to pondering is it more of a famial bond?? cause i can see diane finding comfort in bojack being similar to her famil Diane definitely use to idolize bojack their relationship is an interesting case of befriending your idol and having your idol the man that gave you a safe space as a kid turn out to be someone who did such unforgiveable things.. .. i think at the end she still loves him the sad thing about em is they never stopped loving eachother not completely.. but had to move on ..they make me cry..

My non-romantic OTP for this character PB/Diane I think it was mostly worse than her/bojack minus the message he left her.. we spend a lot of time with pb/diane and im not saying diane is without blame in the fails of it but his lack of respect to listen to her not wanting grand gestures / getting annoyed with her for not apprecating them feels kinda gaslighty.. ... he alos got rather violent after the fracking arguement breaking dianes laptop and pinning her to a wall.. that leadtoangrysex. and his reaction to diane talking about his brother was completely out of line. his Belle Room was also trash.. him wanting diane to have a say in their new home makes sense but that belle room was just trash. I dont want to make it seem like i think diane is flaweless as much as i think pb should have listened more.. I do think she overreacted in after party t to me its just a harmless suprise party with friends but im not diane either. .. Im still confused how they made it work for 10 years..

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

Make her family less of a joke and more realistic... might have been nice to see. I wish Diane got a win with her activisim.. one little win.. hmm.. maybe more focus on how going to cordovia traumatized her because some people didn't get she stayed with bojack because her new friend DIED and it traumatized her.. she brings it up at the end of s3 but i think maybe if it was focused more she get more sympathy.. i love how i said i hate things not being subtle then suggest they should have been more in your face .. im such a contradiction .. She's a good rounded character. the kinda of person id love and find annoying at the same time if i knew them in real life.. if that makes any sense. I love people who have passion and she usually means well but i get annoyed by people going a bit over the top with things and she def does. no hat to diane of course im out of things to say. I wish i had a song to share .. songs are usuall good for expressing how i view a character but i got nothing

[honeyflies05]

ITS TIME FOR MY 6x13 THOUGHTS BUCKLE UP PEOPLE!!

WE SURVIVED

WE DID IT!!!

that looks fun wtf

i wanna join that cycling class

I am char char is me

what is gonna happen with the water bottle

yo he good?

apparently not

if my thighs poison me just let me die

WHY IS BUCK BACK TO WORK??? LET MY BOY REST!!!!

Jesus they’re all goin💀

“did he just do math?? in his head??” CHIM-

SCREAMING

ANGELA BASSET WOOOOOOOOO

DAMN SHE RAN CROSS COUNTRY?? makes sense

denny missed the bus💀💀

denny and chim connection?? didn’t know I needed it

CHRIS ASKING HIM MATH WUESTIONS DJCIDHSHW I CALLED IT

BUCKS HANDS WITH THE POWER OF ELECTRICITY ANFJCUSBA

ESP DIFUDHSHSHAHAHA

buck and chris relationship >>

that IS a classic origin story

“HE COULD GIVE ME THE ANSWERS TO MY MATH HOMEWORK” THATS LJTERALLY ON MY BINGO CARD AKFICHDHS

MADDY BACK TO WORK MADDY BACK TO WORK MADDY BACK TO WORK!!!!!

that looks like a pioneer woman dish🤨

poor maddy💀💀

okay we’re back

I DO THIS WITH MY PARENTS ALL THE TIME AKDICHSA

…that house is green

WHO WAS IN THEIR HOUSE????

“you and law enforcement” NSIDHDHSHA

BUCK HAVING A CROWD AROUND HIM AND GETTING MONEY FOR HIS MATH DJCIDUDBWNWJEUW

HIM COUNTING THE MONEY SKFUDJDISBWA I CANT

she’s gonna have an asthma attack aint she

i too want a haircut without my mom’s permission

he seems like a creep💀

i don’t want him to do my hair

NOW GIRL-

WHY WOULD YOU THROW A BLOWTORCH

ALLERGIC TO WATER???

JESUS THE SCISSORS

the dead nebulizer stare AKDJFJDJS

WHERES DENNY

DENNY

…husband???

OH DENNY’S DAD

I GOT A MED EXPRESS AD DURINF THE BREAK ANDIHFHS

denny’s gonna get his ass BEAT

no Karen’s right

no bc see now I’m torn

athena going full police is so,,,,

they’re gonna station someone outside hUH

BUDDIE BUDDIE BUDDIE BUDDIE

RED AND BLUE COLOR THEORY

I’ve seen this part before

why does Eddie walk in here like he does this every Saturday night??💀

THREE MINUTES AND SEVENTEEN SECONDS!!!!!!!

I’m gonna be honest how tf do you play poker

MEHTA IS TRYING SO HARD SKFUUDS

HES GONNA GET CALLED OUT

“maths not his thing” YEAH! ITS NOT!

EDDIE LOOKS CONCERNED

“imagine that” SHE IS SO,,

PLAYBOY BUCKLEY!!!!!

EDDIE IS ONLY ARM CANDY!!!!!!!!!!

BUCK IS GONNA WIPE THEM OUT OH MY GODDDD

WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK

HE JUST LOOKS TO EDDIE

STEAKS???? S T E A K S ? ?

she noticed.

oh so my guy was FR HURT??

no fr why didn’t his dad come to them?? HES THE ADULT.

okay can we agree the looks eddie was giving buck we’re NOT straight

OMG HENS MOM?????

i want denny’s mushroom shirt #imgay

hen’s mom being the mediator and voice of reason is so,,, ♥️💜♥️💜💗💜💕💜

denny had good intentions but also he’s like 12 so

what’s she got stuck up her asshole.

A VIBRATOR??

BUCK AND EDDIE QUESTIONING HIM??

HER BLADDER???

his math ain’t helping💀💀💀

EDDIE YELLING AT HIM FOR THINKING AB HIS PAST RELATIONSHIPS THAGS HOW IM TAKING KT

hen knows how much that must hurt

NOTHING PREPARED ME FOR THAT CALL

buck was DEF on the phone with that girl he fucked in the firetruck

hen and chim bestieism

MADDIE WHY WOULD YOU INVITE HER IN

oh she SNEAKY

ATHENA!!!!!!

oh she wants a LETTER

WHY SHE TAKIN ALL THEIR MAIL????

THENA!!!!💜💜

okay but WHY does she want the mail

coupons💀💀💀

woooohoooo back to prison!!

buck would DEF use jeeyun for money skdichdhsha

my mom says aisha and hen’s mom’s actress are biologically related

hen’s mom is speaking truths with letting denny see his dad BUT telling his moms he’s doing it too and letting them regulate it like ADULTS

“like I got hit by a car” oh so he GOT JOKES???

YOURE AN ADULT??? YOU SHOULDVE SAID SOMETHING.

them being ADULTS and creating ground rules!!!!!

Karen and hen being amazing mothers once again god they stay winning

CHRIS AND BUCK!!!

chris is his sous chef!!!

COOKIES

America not using the metric system has its downfalls once again

“you know what a porterhouse is???”

“Buck.. I’m from texas” THAT HAD THE SAME ENUNCIATION AS “buck you don’t even have a couch!”

I LOVE ANGELA BASSET

that’s the same room Buck was in😭😭😭

henren fans were FED tonight (me)

ARE WE GONNA SEE BUCK FIGHT HIS WAY THROUGH A CROWD BECAUSE IM READY

i can’t wait until I leave for college and my roommate has to deal with me and my 911 brain

[extr3medieting]

god….. i’m still so disgusting. i was supposed to be nearing 170 right now AND I KNOW IM NOWHERE CLOSEEEEE i can’t even bring myself to step on the scale because i know im going to be so disappointed…. i’m pretty sure i gained weight…. maybe i should go step on the scale so i can hate myself and hopefully that will motivate me to actually reach my fucking goals. every time i look in the mirror and see my fat fucking thighs and my disgusting fucking stomach i just want to die…. i can literally feel my back rolls when i walk….

thankfully im working now so i am constantly walking around and barely eating so i’m hoping this gets me back in order. i stopped taking my meds so i could donate plasma but i got a tattoo so i can’t donate anymore and can start taking them again but for some reason i haven’t. i think i’m nervous ab getting used to them again but i can’t reach my goals if i’m still feeling hunger cues. eating less isn’t gonna do anything i need to not consume anything at all and to do that i need to start taking them. i’m gonna start tomorrow i promise. i need to stop putting it off.

my legs and even my fucking calves and SHINS have cellulite like do you understand how fucking FAT you have to be to have cellulite on your SHINS??????? JESUS FUCKING CHRISTTTTTT dont even get me started on my midsection like that alone could make me want to die. i don’t even have morning skinny anymore….. my butt looks so disgusting and fat in a bad way. my arms are fucking massive but atleast i can hide that in my sleeves… but even then my sleeves have been getting tight so that’s another thing. i have this huge fucking double chin that i just dont understand how anyone could be attracted to me. thats probably why no one flirts or talks to me. like i’m literally back to being the fat friend. i can’t even go out because i just look so disgusting in my clothes. i hate going to the gym bc i just look like the fat bitch at the gym but i need to keep going so that i can eventually be the sexy fitness chick. my collarbones are completely enveloped in my body. i just dont understand how i can hate myself so much yet i don’t do anything to change it. well fuck that. its getting warm out and i can’t even wear a reasonably fitted shirt let alone fucking shorts. my roommate was talking about going tanning the other day and i deadass almost had a seizure just thinking about how much of a fat fucking beached whale i would look laying there for everyone to see…

the only good part about me right now is that i’m always going to be beautiful in the face… even then my double chin is ruining that. ive been going to the gym for the past two days so here’s to staying on track with that.

i haven’t had a lay since december and i’m def feeling it lmfaooo but my shame is stronger than my horniness. i can barely stand to touch myself because i just imagine what a fucking whale i must look like laying on my back. theres a cute guy at my job who literally lives in my building and i cant even make a fucking move because i am so disgusting i can’t handle him finding out im actually disgusting

[lovelyladylavie]

Also on the subject of pain management, things like phys therapy and massage are gatekept, offered only for people who can afford it and they're services which are just NOT on a lot of basic insurance plans or basic state medicaid. But they can really help folks with chronic pain from old injuries get off pain killers, so they don't have to feel so dependent on them. (IF thats actually an option, and they dont have a special/ autoimmune chronic pain condition. Some do, and nothing helps but the meds, i totally get that.)

I've met so many people who feel like they're awful people for needing to take them, or that they've let themselves down for using them when they thought they were getting better. I tell them its not a sin to use them when they need them, but they still feel that way. Recovery from injury isn't a slope, its a wiggly line that you /hope/ goes downward.

I ask these people how long it's been since their last massage/phys therapy appointment, and they say they ran out of the allowed number of sessions from their insurance. They can't even afford them otherwise, except out of pocket a couple times a year when they can scrape together the spare cash. It's really disheartening. They were doing so well, but then they were cut off in the middle of effective treatment bc insurance said: 'you've had enough, buddy'.

Massage and Phys Therapy are preventative medicine as well and can help everyone relax, as well as repair their chronic work injuries /before/ they become a problem. But because the people who work the most laborious jobs don't have access to the advanced insurance plans, they can't. They aren't even OFFERED in most cases, you just get what your job has deemed acceptable.

So grocery workers get carpal tunnel from repetitive scanning. Movers get spinal lumbar injuries from lifting incorrectly ONCE, or catching something unwieldy. And uber/lyft drivers get pain in their right knee and tib anterior from constantly working the pedals. *All* of which can be treated with regular massage. But they can't afford it.

I'm a massage therapist, and do you know how many white-collar office workers I work on? Not that they don't deserve it too, but they're like 75% of my job. And it's very predictable work. Neck/shoulders and low back from poor posture at the computer. Every time.

So I'm DELIGHTED to see blue-collar workers come in on L&I claims because i know how much they need it. Janitors who clean whole floors of schools, hospitals, and offices by themselves and blow out their poor shoulders and knees. Construction guys who bent down awkwardly and threw their back out. Bus drivers with repetitive injuries in their shoulders from driving. People who literally can't do their jobs anymore bc those muscles have been overworked. And they can't go to the gym and work out the opposite muscles to help balance it out (as that is the normally suggested course of action to prevent repetitive injury) bc they simply do not have TIME.

I always turn up my efforts to 11 when work injury cases come through our office. I love those people to bits. This is the work that makes me feel like I'm making a difference in the world. They hold so much undue suffering and have for YEARS. But they shouldn't have to. But I know they only have so much time with me. Usually, there are only 6 sessions, and then i never see them again. I wonder how they're getting along.

Never let your employer scare you off of reporting to Labor and Industries if you get injured on the job, even if it comes on from long-term use. (My own sister got scared off from using it once for a sudden injury that was def her store's fault, despite my telling her that that was exactly what they were doing. But that's a story for another time.)

L&I is there for the employees to use in times of trouble. It's your resource, and one fought hard for by your predecessors. Don't suffer for nothing.

(Also, stronger unions get you better benefits, and therefore, those better insurance plans, just a heads up. 😉)

Anyway, check your benefits and see if you've got these already. If not, next time sign-ups for a new plan comes around, see if there are 'advanced' packages with more benefits and services.

It is actually way better for 100 addicts to get their fix on pain pills than a single person in pain go without. I call this the "Torture is bad" principle. You should be able to get the good stuff forever after a single doctor's visit. If you're worried about addicts fund rehab centers and needle exchanges instead of torturing people.

[iwillfeastonyourflesh]

i dont think im a good person. i think im one of the worst types. i see whats wrong, understand that its wrong, and still i let it happen. sometimes i actively participate in it. my oldest brother is kind, and doesnt let anything anyone says about him stop him from living truthfully. but the things people say are fucking awful, and i know that i wouldnt be able to handle it as well as he does. my other brother saw what was happening to him, and decided to not let it happen to him. he became one of those popular kids that has a huge ego, but he saw my brother and never bullied someone else. i saw both the paths i could choose, and walked in the middle. im friends with people who aren’t actually popular, but act like they are and gossip like it. they’re shit people and bully/talk shit about people behind their backs. this includes me. the girl i talk to the most in the group, as shes in most of my classes, spends all the time shes with me either complaining about her family or making fun of people. if shes willing to talk crap about the people she actually likes in the group, shes def talking crap about me. shes said things to my face before, but other than calling me a loser the thing she said that stuck with me most was telling me i was the uglier version of another friend (im going to call her S). ive always compared myself to S, as shes the one i look most like. having an example of what i should be right next to me all the time sucks, but i don’t blame her for it. i have a lot of other friends, but none that i could fit into the group with. im not sure what to do. i know that a lot of people who are “older and wiser” than me will say that what’s happening to me rn isnt a big deal, and im aware of that. i try not to let these things affect me, as there are people who have actual problems and arent just spoiled kids who make jokes too much and accidentally made people think shes unaffected. a few days ago the friend who i spend the most time with (im calling her C) made a joke about one of our friends to her face, but it was the kind of joke thats too far. in response to her doing this, since i was right next to her, i told a “joke” to her face that was too far. i said something about how she ruins all of our conversations with negative comments, and thats why nobody talks to her. i could tell by her face that it hurt. she was almost silent the rest of class. i feel like complete and utter shit for saying it, but i keep trying to remind myself that she needs to learn. she comes from a rich family, and thinks that the few minor inconveniences in her life matter to everyone. her mom has bipolar, and the meds she was taking for it made her severely depressed and she ended up going to the hospital for it. ever since she came back from the hospital, C’s been acting like her mom is batshit insane. she got on the bus one time upset that her dad yelled at her, and ended up telling me that her moms crazy because shes not doing anything to take care of herself. i know people who were abused by their parents, and got beaten half to death but still sent back to their house because of the fucked up system we have. C telling me that pissed me off bc she gets whatever she wants, whenever she asks for it, and has never had to worry about money or whether or not her family would survive a war. im not saying these things have happened to me, but i dont try and act like my “problems” are the most important ones. im really sorry about this if for some reason you decided to read the full thing, and i apologise for sounding like a whiny brat, but i needed to tell someone and this way ill never know who that someone is, or if there is a someone. i wish you the very best, and i hope everything you want to happen will. good night

“Sometimes you just jump and hope it’s not a cliff.” - Casey McQuinston, Red, White, and Royal Blue

[falcqns]

taylor's going to be like

"just don't fall lthis time"

ALSO NO THATS SO CUTE I LOVE JOE GHEY BEST GET BACK TOGETHER HOW IS HE FEELING ABOUT THE BREAK??????

she was so concerned after 😭 she was like “are you okay??? are you hurting??? do you need pain meds??? lemme see the bruise i gotta make sure you didn’t break anything!!!” like bro chill out i fell on my hip i do it all the time 😂

he’s def hurting about it :( he just has this look in his eyes :(:( we were in the grocery store getting my safe foods and getaway car came on and he just got so sad and quiet it’s so clear he still loves her but is only going along with the break up bc he thinks it’s what is making taylor happy when it def isn’t and the whole reason she’s ‘with’ matty is to try and ignore the pain she’s feeling 😭

[rrxnjun]

well idk what kind of url u want but tbh jihoon reminds me of daisies cuz one time he posted them so the only thing i could think of is juhoonsdaisies or sumn like it's kind of cute but it's definitely not like ur other usernames so i don't think i helped;-; but I hope you have already managed to kind of like the url u came up with;-;

aaa don't worry exams suck so i understand so take ur time with it💕💕but very excited about the review🥹

THOSE SLAP SO HARD I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO THEM SO MUCH!!! yessss i love noise music but u can only listen to it so much;-; and i will deff check out more of their songs once i'm not in a music overload�� THAT PERFORMANCE WAS🤌🤌 THE FITS THE VOCALS EVERYTHING WAS SO GREAT🤌🤌 and without you definitely became one of my fav songs rn it's so great and idk what kind of songs it reminds me but i love iiittt

yeahhh i would hope its easier but i know it won't be;-; i'm used to studying a lot but idk if only i feel it as a lot and it actually isn't so we will see😬 and thank u for praying i did really bad lmao so i'm hoping to just get a 45% and i will be good so we shall see in june🥸

EXAMS SUCK SO MUCH ACTUALLY WAHHH;-; my hungarian lit, grammar and history i did surprisingly well i think but i will only know the actual results of them on the 5th of june soooo😬 IM MANIFESTING FOR U AS WELL!!! I HOPE ALL WENT WELL AND WILL GO WELL IF U HAVE LEFT!!!! i hope u are doing well and are taking care of urself as well!!! ahhh it will be only easier in like july so🥲 BUT I HOPE U DID/WILL DO WELL ON THEM!! GOOD LUCK!!!! AND RELAX A LOT AFTER U ARE DONE AS WELL!!!!

AND TODAY OR TOMORROW EXPECT A REVIEW OF UR NEW FIC AND I READ THE SUMMARY AND IM SJHDNFJGKG AND VERY GLAD U HAD THE TIME AND WERE IN THE MOOD TO WRITE🥳🥳🥳🥳(liebestraum anon💓💞)

omg thats def very cute but im more of a cool url kind of girlie 😔😔💔 with how things are going with my writing we'll see if i even use the blog tho but maybe its just my current poor mental health speaking AHAHA also still no review because i SUCK im so sorry 😭😭😭

you can only listen to so much noise music before it gets old imo SJSJAJ i had my strong noise music phase back with stray kids and then nct and the 4th gen but i grew to appreciate calmer songs now ig 😭 like noise music has to be done well to be listenable and thats why i hardly stan 4th gen noise music bgs 💔 nct will forever be the best noise. but im so glad u agree the fits in that perf were so so good the all white ?? magnificent. especially jinyoung. u probably dont know which one he is but thats not important rn HAHA. i think without you will definitely be in my top tracks on spotify for this year ive become so obsessed with the song 😭😭

no i think if u assume youre studying a lot then it actually IS alot bc even now i can say im not studying THAT much but maybe thats bc im a fast learner ??? idk idk. omg is 45% enough to pass there?? 😭 i have to have 65% at least and when i heard that literal med school students only need 50% i almost threw a fit bc how is that possible. how can a psych major need more to pass than a literal ASPIRING DOCTOR. (law majors need 75% tho so that calmed me down really quickly). however i am manifesting for you !!!! im sure u did well and will continue to do well if u have any more exams🤞🤞🤞 i failed one of mine 💀💀💀 but i retook it yesterday and i think i passed this time. i have 2 left and both are kinda difficult but. lets manifest.

[the-kipsabian]

i was thinking about this this morning, and honestly? you could point at literally any of my trilogy kids and call them sleep deprived EXCEPT for james (and alicia)

[carpsurprise]

Would you dooo funny and memory for harvey?

yesyes!! but omg sorry if this seems rushed i finished this full request and then moved my mouse wrong and backed out of the tumblr inbox page.... thus losing all my progress on this. how painful.

funny:

what's a meme you associate/think describes them? 

-ok the first thing that came to mind was the vine of the preacher being like “why”... i think bc i imagine harv speaks similarly but also just.. harvey energy. he’s not a really meme-y person tho!!! i think he’d just be like ??? at memes in general unless they’re like the 2010 pun memes

what is their sense of humor like? 

-mr. dad jokes! gives a full hearty laugh with an iconic dad wheeze at the end. knows too many of them and tells them too often.

what's a funny thing that's happened to them recently? 

-harv tripped up the stairs to his apartment! he was able to catch himself with a hand after dropping some papers but what made him laugh was the ridiculous high-pitched squeak he let out in surprise!! it was so unlike him he needed to clear his throat to try to get his voice back down to normal level

do they have a favorite joke?

-i think he sticks to the doctor jokes a lot, and def tells them to (try) diffusing any tension in the office! stuff like the tooth-hurty joke or the “have you heard of the guy who lost his left side, he’s all right now!”... also not uncommon to see him react dramatically to an apple at pierre’s if he has a friend around.

memory:

what memory are they most fond of? 

-his father (or someone in his family) took him to an airshow as a child! i forget if thats canon or someone else’s headcanon but i love it mwah. seeing the planes up close kickstarted his love for stuff like that! he also got his first pair of those plane goggle-hats that are soo cute as a kid there!

what memory bothers them? 

-i think harvey probably got teased in school a bit before he kinda found himself in college and became comfortable with himself. but i think that stuff like middle school would kinda make him :/ because people would be so rude for no reason just because he was on the quiet side!!  

what is something from the past they've learned from? 

-he always trusts his gut!! if he has a gut instinct he follows it through. if he feels something is wrong with a patient he will be adamant that it is looked at and crossed off as a possibility! he learned the hard way it’s better to be safe than sorry

what is a memory that always makes them laugh?

-something from his time in college/med school! smth like everyone drinking and running into the lake when it was waaayyy too cold to do so, or little things like everyone goofing off in the cafeteria and being friends! small things would matter to him and make him laugh and reminisce! 

[lifesucksheres20bucks]

Thoughts I had for episode 7 of WandaVision

***SPOILERS***

- MODERN FAMILY EP WOOT

- Casual mistake of expanding a town oopsie

- The twins <3

- Oop wanda is losing control

- Wiccan<3

- QUARANTINE STAYCATION

- wanda is like gots no time for kids today

- We love an almond milk queen

- WHOS THE KID MISSING ON THE MILK BOX

- WHY IS THE OPENING CREDITS GIVING ME OFFICE VIBES

- CREATED BY WANDA MAXIMOFF LMAO

- Its a smaller expansion then i thoght

- Hayward hope you die:’)

- VISION

- WHERES DARCY

- “WE LOCKED EYES” I CANT

- Billy is concerned :’)

- HES NOT YOUR UNCLE

- WHERE IS PIETRO

- HMMM

- i know agnes is bad but like i love her

- SHE BIT A KID???

- wanda needs a hug

- JIMMY WOO

- I stg if monicas hook up isnt someone cool

- Okay someone just needs to bring vision to wakanda and have shurie fix him :’)

- BOO ITS NOT REED RICHARD

- Darcy in the circus is hilarious

- Lmao darcy wanting to secretly be on the show lmao

- Wanda really needs a hug

- WHOS ASKING THE QUESTION BEHIND THE CAMERA

- THE FUCKING COMMERCIAL YEAH HONEY WANDA NEEDS MEDS

- billy and the bunny :’)

- WHY IS IT QUIET AT AGNES’S

- i know i should be worried by what billy just said about agnes however im enjoying her too much. All the camera stares lmao

- Also they are really breaking the fourth wall in this ep huh

- It would be funny if the big cameo at the end of the season is deadpool lol

- That truck did not want to go through

- However monica will lmao

- PHOTON PLS

- PHOTON PHOTON PHOTON PHOTON PHOTON PHOTON

- OMG WERE GETTING PHOTON HER EYES

- Omfg

- Another duo i didnt know i needed, darcy and vision :’)

- At least he knows about his death now

- Jarvis<3

- VISION TALKING IN FRONT OF THE TV I CANT

- “IM NOT AMUSED”

- ultron oop

- WHY CANT HE LEAVE

- in what world did monica think storming into wanda’s house would be helpful

- PHOTON

- Oop

- Hayward needs to die

- WANDA U AINT THE VILLAIN STOP

- AGNES STAY INSIDE BISH

- Girls need therapy

- THIS IS WHERE ALL THE KIDS ARE LMAO

- lmao i fucking love vision

- WHERE ARE THE TWINS

- AGNES WHERE ARE THE FUCKING TWINS

- I STG IF THEY DIE

- HMM NEVER GO INTO THE BASEMENT

- NUMBER ONE RULE

- thats def a normal looking, well lit basement

- Def not a witch’s layer or anything

- AGATHA HARKNESS BITCHES

- OMFG

- I KNOW I SHOULD BE WORRIED BUT IM LOVING THIS AGATHA INTRO

- this song just confirms all the things we know already lmao

- WAIT PIETRO IS CONTROLLED BY AGATHA???

- SO IS HE NOT MEPHISTO????

- IM CONFUSED TO WHAT PIETRO IS NOW I KNOW HES NOT PIETRO

- SHE WAS THE ONE WHO ASKED THE QUESTION AT THE BEGINNING OF THE EP

- rip sparky

- FUCK OFF CREDITS

- YOURE THE REAL VILLAIN

- every week i sot here watching the credits bc marvel has fucking trained me

- Why was evan peters name in the credits he wasnt in the ep

- OMFG

- THERES FINALLY A POST CREDIT SCENE

- im guessing thats agatha’s house

- Oop yes

- PIETRO

- MONICAS EYES ARE PURPLE DID PIETRO DO THAT???

WAIIIIIT OMG

i have so many questions

- Is pietro just a puppet??? Like is agatha just using him or is he something too?

- is pietro the one who made monica’s eyes purple or was it agatha??

- I just wanted him to be x-men peter :((

- Oh i just went back to check the scene again. Monica’s eyes became purple when she opened the door, it wasnt pietro

- Why do i now want a monica/pietro team up to save the twins and wanda :))))

My theory rn is pietro is still peter from x-men he was brought into westview from his universe and planted here by agatha. I think hes confused too bc he didnt seem concerned and im jusg hoping we get a pietro and monica rescue team:))

But he might be mephisto, who knows

[thefreakboy]

I'm thinking of a simon-crossover with some of simon pegg's characters and I just have to get that sht out of my mind even though his probably already inexistent fandom is dead AF

Okay, so maybe it starts with Scotty. They're in the Enterprise and they find some weird futuristic artefact, and Kirk's like "hey Scotty, can you tell us what is this?", and when Scotty is investigating it, something happens.

Then, out of nowhere, some random, weird Scotty-clones appear. There's this police officer-scotty, a goth-scotty, a scotty in a suit and at least three different versions of a civilian scotty.

Of course, that thing also brought the people they were closer at the moment (aka there's a friking zombie on the spaceship)

Of course, they all would be freaking out, and probably would be low key agressive with each other (I mean, they were relaxing and having a cup of tea and suddenly they're on a frigging spaceship and they're told they don't know how to bring everyone back to their respective worlds? Of course they'll be angry)

Clive would pass out immediately because OMG WE'RE IN STAR TREK

Graeme would also pass out of exitement, probably

Also, DUDE, YOU'RE MONTGOMERY SCOTT!!!1!!1!!1! they passed out twice

I think Neil would be pretty chill? Like, one day not long ago he woke up and he was basically God, so he'd prolly be like "oof, okay I guess" and roll with it

Ethan would end up causing BIG trouble while trying to find a way to bring everyone back into their universe and you can't convince me otherwise.

Liz was in the garden looking for Shaun when they were transported, so she's there too, and she's angry with him for not telling her he's had Ed's body hidden there the entire goddamn time (we need drama 🤷)

Because I imagine Gary and co would've been catched during the first half hour of the movie, they never met the blanks

Gary would definitely cause lots of trouble because HOW ARE YOU NOT GONNA HAVE ALCOHOL ON A SPACESHIP????

Bones would def want to study Ed, but I think Shaun wouldn't trust him so he would insist to be there to make sure they don't kill him.

Angel and Spock would probably get along very well

Ethan and Kirk, on the other hand...

Ethan has some...authority problems. He just thinks his ways are the best and the only that will work, so he'd definitely try to solve everything on his own. Benji would follow him, as always, despite not being convinced he's doing the right thing.

Clive and Graeme would try to see if Kirk and Spock are together or not (they wrote spirk fanfiction and you can't change my mind. Of course they want to see if the ship is real!)

You know how we never knew if Neil finished his book? Well, this adventure would definitely give him all he needs for some profund sht about how in every universe, every version of him is different because of the different conditions -yet the same, in the very core of his soul, how there is just a spark that tells him yes, we are the same or some sht like that.

Gary would fight some random people at the cafeteria because there's no alcohol. Andy would fight with him all angry at him because you don't wanted to see us after all this time, you just wanted an excuse to get drunk!!!

Then it would happen like in the movie, when they're fighting and Andy sees Gary's arms and he's like "how are you gonna know when you're sobber if you're always drunk?" "I don't want to be sobber!!"

Gary would end up in med bay :/ he might bond a little with Bones and Shaun.

You know what? Ethan would cause some trouble with the klingons

Uhura can't translate, for some random reason, so Clive and Graeme have to do it.

Ethan's journey is learning that sometimes he is not right and thinking that he always is can lead to terrible consecuences.

Look I have zero plot, but something would happen which would require of all of them working together at different things.

Benji's, Ethan's, Danny's and Angel's fighting abilities would help in some fight, whether is hand to hand or shooting. idk the point is that they team up

Danny would be super excited. like a kid in a candy store

Shaun and Liz wouldn't be like a big thing, but they would do their best to do what Kirk says (feel free to imagine Liz shooting at some enemy and being all badass because thats what I'm doing rn)

Gary and co would hand-to-hand fight some aliens

Gary would steal one of those little ships at one point and use it to attack the enemy's big ship (how did he learn to flight a spaceship so quickly?? Idk ask him not me bruh)

Maybe Ethan and Benji would help Scotty to navegate through the enemy spaceship like Scotty, Khan and Kirk did on Star Trek into the darkness.

Neil probably isn't very useful though...

Maybe he could try to distract the enemy.

Clive's journey is admitting that he's in love with Graeme (spoiler: it ends up in a polyam relationship)

Gary... I think he would choose to stay in that universe instead of going home. In the end of the movie he seemed pretty comfortable in the apocalypse vers of the world, so maybe he liked this thing of being in space 🤷

I don't think Graeme would get along with Gary because he's not very polite

On the other hand, Graeme and Shaun (+Clive, though he'd be jealous too) would be friends immediately because ✨N E R D S ✨

Danny would totally LOVE Ethan and Benji when they say they're spies

Also I think Angel would be a little jealous of that, plus he'd learn quickly that Ethan basically never follows the rules and that would only make him dislike him more (also also...probably wouldn't like Kirk either if he finds out about his insubordinations...)

[sleevesareforlosers]

also! i know you’ve mentioned quite a few times before in posts/fics about how party and kobra really only met right before they left the city? and i’m not entirely sure if i’ve just missed it but i would LOVE for elaboration specifically on that. i just!! am super interested to know about them and their lives in the city...and how everything shakes out regarding that 👀

!!!! okay thats def one of the more obscure bits of my canon? bc in universe party and kobra dont rlly like talking about it and on a meta level city life isnt rlly something i wanna devote too much energy to writing but i HAVE thought abt it!

i covered it a little bit in this fic but some details have shifted a bit just irt kobras job/timeline bc its over (i think?) a year old and its short so. not super elaborate

so when i say that they hadnt really met before leaving the city its like. they knew each other and lived with each other but they weren't really themselves. party bc of like. reeducation and kobra bc he was really fucked up with a combination of dysphoria and city drugs both prescribed and not (which i *think* ive mentioned arent a given in the city? most people dont get medicated the same way kobra did and not all the city meds are bad)

i will say that they were pretty close before party got reeducated. as close as u can be when ur thirteen and eight at least. but ofc he got taken and came back Completely different and kobra was a smart kid and kinda realized that directly confronting him abt the change would end really badly for both of them. party was rlly susceptible to the reeducation and its not their fault in any way but they definitely would have reported kobra if he'd tried to make a move.

so then once kobra snapped and cut his hair and party snapped out of the reeducation (combination of time since getting bleached and like. still being a caring and loving person under it all and knowing that he should care abt kobra) they escaped obviously and had to do a little crash course in 'how to be siblings' bc until then they were more just. people that lived in the same house and had nothing in common to talk about so they jsut didnt. i hope that makes sense? they knew each other but they didnt Really Know each other

as for what life in the city looked like for them!

i feel like its kinda important to know that their parents were low-level workers so they grew up in the slums on the edge of the city. not the worst part of the city (the lobby) but not downtown or even a suburban area.

party (post reeducation) became a total model student and ended up in a mid/high-level admin position in hq as soon as he graduated, set to get a promotion when he turned 20 and was in the process of trying to move out to a place of his own actually. kept getting their applications rejected bc they didnt have an "approved reason" to not live w their parents (no long-term partner and not a high enough level to qualify for one of the downtown studios). wasn't necessarily getting frustrated with the company but was getting frustrated with not being able to "start his own life" in his own apartment yknow? also a bit of a superiority complex/classism thing bc of having a higher-level job than their parents, wanting to live in a nicer part of the city like the rest of their colleagues. he had a Few friends, mostly from work, but it was nothing like the crew and friends hed had pre-reeducation bc. you know. obviously. it was just a little group of polite, well trained late-teens bli drones who got up to just the right amounts of bli-approved trouble (android girls and mood synthesizers but only on saturdays type deal). um. probably the least bli-approved thing they did was give spare carbons to broken-down droids in street corners and pretend to listen to the ones preaching the graffiti bible. This is all actually a huge reason Why party is so wanted by bli, like apart from the obvious of being a killjoy and fucking up a lot of shit for the company, he was also So close to being a perfect citizen that rebelling and escaping is a real lemon-juice-in-the-papercut for bli

kobra, on the other hand, was about one and a half Minor infractions away from getting reeducated himself. bli mostly saves reeducation and bleaching for people with confirmed rebellious biases or actions, people they dont think would be trusted enough to take their pills basically. theyd get fed up after enough violations though. kobra was on watch as a nuisance, but not a rebel, so he got away with attempts at medication and therapy that were... kinda effective? but he was Really pushing it especially once he got his job in the lobby and started running with lobby kids. really just imagine an absolute menace shithead of a fourteen year old breaking every law he could get his well-manicured but grubby little hands on. i think at some point ive mentioned that half the reason kobra was so good with tech and wiring was bc he picked it up from fucking with scarecrow cars and reprogramming shit about them? yeah. im not gonna say kobra's friends were like. a bad crowd. they were just chafing against city culture in a very specific way. lots of sex, violence, vandalism, underage mood synthesizer use (and by underage i mean even below the technically-underage-but-bli-looks-the-other-way-bc-they-know-people-need-to-feel-rebellious-sometimes age that like. party and his friends started trying them at). this is when he learned how to knife fight too which definitely saved both his and party's life the first night in the zones. on top of this all is the whole trans thing which isnt something thats necessarily frowned upon in the city, but when kobra finally realized what was up he went about it in a non-city-approved way (hacking his hair off with a set of nail clippers rather than like. submitting a transition application) and that absolutely would have been the last straw for him for the city if party had reported him rather than stuffed him in their car and left.

i dont know how to tldr this one but like. they both led really different lives in the city, kobra being rebellious and breaking laws but not in a killjoy way and party being So close to being a perfect citizen as a result of getting reeducated when he was thirteen, so they weren't honest with each other until party's bleaching broke and they left the city and THATS why i say they hadnt really met until they escaped.

[knife-em0ji]

evens for the ask game! (or as many of the evens as you wanna do lmao)

oh ho ho i’ll do all of them !!

2. how many houseplants in your room, and what kinds are they?

I don’t have many in my room proper since i’m in the basement lol, but I have a snake plant, a philodendron, and a mysterious cycad whose tag i lost but i bought at a botanical garden lmfao

4.  an account on social media whose posts make you smile

this is a trade secret but i’ll give u one guess ;^)

6.  how you get relaxed when you’re struggling to sleep

I either read or watch reddit text to speech videos bc i’m a freak w brain worms

8. if you were going to write a non-fiction book on any topic, what would it be?

HHHHNGNGHHHH i would write an entire expose treatise on the saga of jennifer cornet, ranging from FF7 house to tattle-crime.org, with asides for the sarah saga and otherkin culture in general....it would be my magnum opus

10. something you’ve created in the last year that you’re proud of (a playlist, a piece of art, some writing, a craft hobby, a social media account, etc)

oh ; ~ ; ....definitely my epic length bagginshield fic....i’ve been taking an extended break due to life stuff but i’m hoping to get back into it again ;;

12. if you could make a candle that smelt like anything, what would you pick?

my spice cabinet....it’s the best smell in the world....

14. an artist (of any kind) whose work you look forward to seeing

idk if this means something specific im looking forward to in the future or just in general ??? but im excited for orville peck’s new album lmfao...i was supposed to see green day, weezer, and fallout boy this summer in concert but idk if that’s going to happen anymore :^(

16. how you wake your body up when it’s feeling tired, achy or needs a stretch

Power through it, take my adhd meds, and guzzle cawfee lmfao

18.  a book series you can always escape in

hhhhh i feel so stereotypical for saying this but lol lotr....or lindsey davis’ falco series?? idk thats been a recent fav of mine when i can gather the energy to read fiction lol

20.  a skill you’ve picked up in the past few years

cooking, most def lol

22.  if you were going to dye your hair any colour of the rainbow, what would you choose?

my life for the courage to dye my hair dark green that eventually fades a bit...

24.  describe the most wacky, weird and wonderful at-home outfit you’ve put together

RED LINEN JUMPSUIT, BLACK KNEE SOCKS W ANATOMICAL LEG & FOOT ILLUSTRATIONS, DENIM BUTTON DOWN WORK SHIRT TIED AT THE WAIST, GREEN BOOTS !!! GAY CLOWN RIGHTS !!!

26.  the film you watched most recently that you could watch again and again

T W I L I G H T !!!!!!!!!!! i watched it recently on my birthday and i rewatch it at least once a month ;;;

28.  a good-will story you’ve heard on the news that’s made you feel hopeful

The story about the two 100 year old married jewish lesbians who have survived everything from the early flu epidemics to shoah, and are now quarantining together....they seem happy and fulfilled together, and it reminds me that all things shall pass, and love will survive.

30. a song that makes you want to have a boogie round your bedroom

i wanna be your lover by prince lmfao   

[babajagas]

medication and psych talk under the cut

had an appt with my psych that i kept putting of and re-scheduling and i feel like thats coming from me not wanting to recognise that my current medication is not working because i get along with my doc pretty well. ive been on 10mg lexapro since august and had terrible side effects for two weeks (but was also in a terrible terrible headspace back then which def contributed) and upped my dose in late april or early may to 20mg..... which i also should have done sooner but damn do we love a binch thats got some heavy prejudices n fear about psych meds internalised. sooo went to the appointment and told my doc how i've been feeling and he was not that happy and recognised that i've been not that happy; what's biggest for me right now is the holy trifecta of exhaustion, lack of motivation to pursue my interests, and emotional numbness. feeling like a flat line most of the time, neither happy nor sad but kinda like i'm just floating beneath the surface of an ocean and i can stare up and see that the sun is shining brightly but i don't feel like breaking thru, just floating through space, not having anything affect me much and not caring about much except for anxious spurts now and then. so now he suggested adding wellbutrin because he's had good experiences with cases like mine (where patients feel numb and kinda dead inside) and maybe tapering off lexapro if the wellbutrin seems to be working. again i already know its the smartest thing to do but i'm just tired of the whole ordeal (side effects, meds not working, meds not working like they should, me beating myself up over being depressed, me beating myself up over being so depressed that i need medication) which of COURSE is stupid but i've been depressed for years and years (probably since ive been 13 tbh) and i'm just so so so tired. the doc also suggested a therapy group he's gonna lead from this autumn on which will probably b nice since i won't be getting individual therapy no more but then again i'm tired of seeing ppl like me because it only shows me how many people are also struggling with depression and how people have struggled with depression for decades and how that's gonna be my future as well. all in all i'm sick of saying "i'm tired" all the time because in reality there's so much more to it but this is so hard and i'd like to be better and get better at so many things like my self-worth or opening up more or communicating my needs and thoughts better (even more important for mentally ill ppl) but i cant do any of it while i'm like this. and now excuse me as i search for fanfics w hc mentally ill characters that ideally also rely on medication so i can astral project till the year is over and none of this will matter too much anymore