#nikos marauders fics

[nikholascrow]

finally dead - word count: 199 (I felt bad for all my recent angst so here’s reg escaping)

“Regulus black is pronounced dead after his disappearance 6 months ago in october. authorities at the ministry say that it is very unlikely that Black’s case will be reopened due to the many disappearances that have taken place in recent years.” A smile tugged at the corner of James’ lips as he picked up a particularly ripe looking tomato and set it in his basket. the witch on the radio continued. “Regulus Black’s death now leaves the noble and ancient house of Black without an heir as Walburga Black continues to age and her husband Orion passed away last year. Walburga was not available for comment on her son’s death.”

James pulled open the door to his muggle flat and gently set the grocery bags on the kitchen counter as he slipped off his shoes and set a bouquet of flowers down as he opened a cabinet to look for a vase.

Sirius and Remus would be over soon to celebrate once they got through Moody’s extensive security.

a small black cat wrapped itself around his legs and James scooped it up “hello love” he pressed a gentle kiss to the top of the cat’s head “you’re finally dead.”

[nikholascrow]

imagine this happening to the marauders about jegulus- like james tells peter, peter tells remus, remus tells james, and they’re all terrible at acting natural so so sirius is just wildly confused why they’re all acting so weird

[louierecs]

— ୨୧₊˚ fic rec masterlist

The Walking Dead;

Rick Grimes, Daryl Dixon, Glenn Rhee, Abraham Ford, Negan Smith, Shane Walsh, Carl Grimes

Call Of Duty;

Johnathan Price, Simon 'Ghost' Riley, John 'Soap' MacTavish, Kyle 'Gaz' Garrick, Alex Keller, Alejandro Vargas, Rodolfo Parra, Phillip Graves, Keegan P. Russ, Makarov

Criminal Minds;

Aaron Hotchner, Derek Morgan, Spencer Reid, Luke Alvez

911;

Bobby Nash, Evan 'Buck' Buckley, Eddie Diaz

Outer banks;

Rafe Cameron, JJ Maybank, John B, Pope Heyward

Sons of Anarchy;

Jackson 'Jax' Teller, Filip 'Chibs' Telford, Juan Carlos 'Juice' Ortiz, Alexander 'Tig' Trager, Happy Lowman, Opie Winston

Triple Frontier;

Santiago 'Pope' Garcia, Francisco 'Catfish' Morales, Will Miller, Ben Miller

The Bear;

Carmen Berzatto, Michael Berzatto, Richie Jerimovich, Luca

Marvel;

Tony Stark, Bucky Barnes, Steve Rogers, Peter Parker, Deadpool, Wolverine, Frank Castle

Marauders;

Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, James Potter, poly!marauders

Harry Potter, golden era;

Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, Draco Malfoy, Blaise Zabini, Fred Weasley, George Weasley, and Cedric Diggory

Slytherin Boys;

Tom Riddle, Mattheo Riddle, Theodore Nott, Lorenzo Berkshire, Regulus Black

Youtube;

Harry Lewis, Tobi Brown, Simon Minter, Niko Omilana, Sharky, Aj Shabeel, ChrisMD, Willne, Calfreezy, TheBurntChip, George Clarkey

Other Characters One;

Javier Pena, Steve Murphy, Joel Miller, Marcus Acacius, Benny Cross, Agent Whiskey, Eggsy Unwin, Jim Hopper, Bradley 'Rooster' Bradshaw, Severus Snape, Lucius Malfoy, Arthur Morgan, Joel Miller (game version)

Other Characters Two;

Carl Gallagher, Lip Gallagher, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, John Winchester, Oscar 'Spooky' Diaz, Cesar Diaz, Nick Amaro, Sonny Carisi, Joshua 'Scud' Fromeyer, Griff, Sam Rossi, Nate Archibald, Diego Hargreeves

More Recs of my top characters;

Daryl Dixon, Simon Riley, Aaron Hotchner, Spencer Reid, Rafe Cameron and more Rafe, Carmen Berzatto, Frank Castle, Logan Howlett, Wade Wilson

⋆˚࿔ layout credit to @ruewrote 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

[themarvelmarauder]

I just finished dead boy detectives and tell me why Edwin is Regulus coded, Charles is James coded, Crystal is Lily coded, and Niko is Pandora coded. It was literally just a marauders fan fic. Even the Cat King was Barty coded and Jenny was Dorcas coded like omg.

[strawberrystainedfingertips7]

I need a marauders x dead boy detectives fic right now

Jegulus as Payneland (edwin = reg, charles = james)

Pandalily as Palasaki (crystal = lily, niko = pandora)

McGonagall as Jenny

Benjy Fenwick as Monty

Tom Riddle as Cat King

Bellatrix as Esther

Hear me out:

1. It fits perfectly, every character is practically the same. Edwin? Gay. Charles? Pan. Crystal? Bi. Niko? Def queer too.

All the arcs align well

Even the Crystal and Charles kiss would make sense

2. Fav fandom and fav series together in a fic😋😋🤭

3. Silly goofy

-1 points, bc: i have no idea how to incorporate any other marauders era characters into this.

Pls someone write i beg 🫶🫶

[remussl0vers]

requesting guide

updated: 17.06.23

please make sure to read this before requesting anything — i'm hoping that you'll respect my boundaries on what am i comfortable with and with not writing.

MASTERLIST

I tend to curse often in my fics, and are usually comfortable with covering more serious topics, so make sure to check the content warning before hand. I always write warnings when I believe they're needed, but do let me know if you think something should be added!

also senders may request as many as they want <3

FORMS OF WRITING :

oneshot

imagine

headcanon

series

alphabet

I tend to write oneshots over 1000 words, so if you want feel free to specify if you want a long or short story.

CONTENT I WRITE :

fluff

angst

sensitive / triggering topics

gore

smut / spice

most tropes ( best at friends to lovers )

I'm pretty comfortable with writing sensitive topics as well as angst ( anyone who's read my works before will know that they're the things I write best ) however, if I'm not comfortable with the topic as a whole I will DM you, or possibly put it off for a while.

*If you have a writing prompt from somewhere as well, feel free to send it through !!

CHARACTERS :

male reader / ftm

gender neutral

genderfluid

original character

I do not write female readers / characters anymore. If there aren't specified pronouns then I will write it as a male character.

There are also some characters I only feel comfortable writing for with a male reader/character and vice versa, which I'll note who.

PAIRINGS :

love interests

platonic

family

polyamorous ships ; depends on the character

WHAT I WILL NOT WRITE :

support of homophobia, transphobia, fatphobia, racism, sexism, pedophilia, incest ; if they're mentioned in a request in terms of the character being bullied / abused ( in the past ) then i may write it but NOT explicitly, only a mention

a pairing against a character's canon sexuality

rape

pregnancy

female reader

anime

WHO I WRITE FOR :

DEAD BOY DETECTIVES :

charles rowland

edwin payne

monty

niko sasaki ( not romantic )

crystal palace ( not romantic )

DESCENDANTS :

ben beast

harry hook

carlos de vil

jay

mal bertha

evie grimhilde

LOCKWOOD & CO :

anthony lockwood

lucy carlyle

george karim

quill kipps ( friends / family only )

MARAUDERS :

remus lupin

sirius black

regulus black

james potter

lily evans ( not romantic )

evan rosier

barty crouch jr

marlene mckinnon ( not romantic )

dorcas meadows ( not romantic )

pandora lovegood ( not romantic )

mary mcdonald ( not romantic )

MARVEL :

peter parker / spiderman ( tom and andrew )

loki laufeyson

kate bishop

yelena belova ( not romantic )

steve rogers

bucky barnes

pietro maximoff

wanda maximoff

valkyrie ( not romantic )

natasha romanoff

tony stark ( not romantic )

gwen stacy ( emma stone )

gwen stacy ( atsv )

*marvel and particularly the mcu is a fandom i'm more comfortable with than most, so if there is a character not listed, then i may or may not write for them

NARNIA :

prince caspian

peter pevensie

edmund pevensie ( only during dawn treader )

SHADOW AND BONE / SIX OF CROWS :

kaz brekker

inej ghafa

jesper fahey

wylan van eck

nina zenik

alina starkov

nikolai lantsov

genya safin ( not romantic )

matthias helvar

STRANGER THINGS :

steve harrington

jonathon byers

max mayfield

robin buckley ( not romantic )

TEEN WOLF :

stiles stilinski ( *i will take most/all dylan obrien characters )

isaac lahey

scott mccall

liam dunbar ( not romantic )

allison argent

malia tate

lydia martin ( not romantic )

kira yukimura

derek hale

THE HUNGER GAMES :

finnick odair

peeta mellark

katniss everdeen

THE MAZE RUNNER :

newt

thomas

minho

X-MEN :

logan howlett

charles xavier ( james mcavoy )

jean grey

mystique

rogue

erik lehnsherr ( not romantic )

wade wilson / deadpool

kitty pryde

bobby drake

*FANDOMS COMING SOON : PJO, DISNEY, HANNIBAL

[woodandwaxwings]

Guide

if there's no link then I haven't written a fic for this fandom yet, feel free to request. Male and gender neutral reader only and I will write semi-nsfw now but nothing further than that. crossed out I no longer write for.

The Walking Dead Carl Grimes, Michonne, Ricky dicky doo da Grimes, Daryl Dixon, Glenn Rhee, Tyreese Williams (More to add bc I haven't finished the show yet)

The 100 Bellamy Blake, Monty Greene, Clarke Griffin, Octavia Blake, King Roan, John Murphy, Raven Reyes

Miss Peregrine's Home For Peculiar Children Victor Bruntley, Fiona Frauenfeld, Hugh Apiston Bronwyn Bruntley, Emma Bloom, Jacob Portman

It(2017) All of the Losers club

Alice In Borderland Kiuna Hikari, Chishiya Shuntarou, Arishu Ryohei, Ann Rizuna, Tatta Kōdai

Once Upon A Time Peter Pan, Felix, Henry Mills, Regina Mills, Emma Swan

Marauders Era (Harry Potter) Regulus Black, Sirius Black, James Potter, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, Lily Evans, Marlene, Dorcas

Heartbreak High Anthony Vaughn, Spencer White, Malakai Mitchell, (more to be added)

The Order

One Piece (Live Action) Luffy D. Monkey, Sanji Vinsmoke

Dead Boy Detectives Charles Rowland, Edwin Payne, Niko, Monty

Lockwood and CO George Karim, Lucy Carlyle

My Babysitter's a Vampire

sarah rq

Fic Reccomendations

Full Fanfics

Candy Hearts (Quinn Fabray x Male Reader)

Shut Me Up (Kitty Wilde x Male Reader)

[nikholascr0w]

Hey!!! I’m Nikholas I usually go by Nick or Niko but you can call me whatever

— ✮ About me ✮ —

Pronouns: he/him she/her in order of preference

Things I like: marauders (we all knew), sea creatures, martial arts, skating (ice skating, roller skating/blading, skateboarding long boarding), writing, fiber arts, honestly any type of art except oil pastels, listening to people yap about their interests, blanket forts, baking and cooking, pjo, biology, psychology, marine biology podcasts, arcane, making music, cosplay, getting random asks, crows (i feel like that’s obvious

Interaction: I love getting asks and random DMs about fandom stuff or just silly goofy stuff just don’t be weird and you’re all good 👍

— ✮ writing ✮ —

And they were roommates (Rosekiller): currently being rewritten

Untitled country au (Rosekiller): work in progress

You should’ve called (Bellatrix centric noble house of black angst): to be posted soon

Gonna link all my fics here when I actually post them 🎉

[averys-place]

TW: mentions of mental health issues and discrimination 

n a v i g a t i o n

Atlas/Avery | it/they/he | queer | 17

Requests are open

!!Disclaimer!! This will be a nwlnw blog, so all reader povs will be gn!reader or masc!reader, however all readers are welcome on this blog! If gender is unspecified the default is gn!reader.

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•Intro•

Hey! I’m your local cryptid dad, but you can call me Atlas or Avery :) I have AuDHD and this is my first blog! I really enjoy writing and I hope to make someone smile with it!

In all my posts, there will be tone tags and trigger warnings when needed, as I want to make this space as safe and welcoming to as many people as possible!

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•Rules•

no discrimination of any kind is welcome on my blog. Should anyone practice any form of discrimination, they will be blocked immediately. (Meaning trans-medicalism, TERFs, transphobia, homophobia, racism, ableism, etc.)

I am a minor and on the aroace spectrum so I won’t write NSFW content.

Please be patient when requesting! I am still in school, so it may take a little to get to your request but I’ll try my very best! I also have mental health issues that may impact my timing. 

Any inappropriate fetishisation of any kind is not welcome on my blog. Again, should anyone display this behaviour, you will be immediately blocked. (All fujoshis, MAPs, zoophiles, etc. will be immediately blocked and reported)

If you’re gonna be rude, please just leave now.

People of all ages may interact as this is a SFW blog. However, blank blogs can and will be blocked.

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Who I’ll write for at the moment:

Discontinued for the foreseeable future

BNHA/MHA: Bakugō Katsuki, Midoriya (Deku) Izuku, Shinsō Hitoshi, Kirishima Eijirō, Todoroki Shōto, Aizawa Shōta (platonic only), Īda Ten’ya, Dabi, Shigaraki Tomura (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

Haikyuu!!: Hinata Shōyō, Kageyama Tobio, Tsukishima Kei, Yamaguchi Tadashi, Bokuto Kōtarō, Kuroo Tetsurō, Akaashi Keiji, Kozume Kenma, Ushijima Wakatoshi, Tendō Satori, Oikawa Tōru, Iwaizumi Hajime (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

KNB: GoM (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

Twilight: The wolf packs (Jacob Black, Seth Clearwater, Sam Uley, Paul Lahote, Embry Call, Quil Ateara V), Emmett Cullen, Jasper Hale (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

Shadow Hunters: Jace Wayland, Alec Lightwood, Simon Lewis, Magnus Bane (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

Lotr/the hobbit: all male aligned characters (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

Criminal minds: all male aligned characters (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

Harry Potter: mainly marauders era male aligned characters & slytherin boys(fem aligned characters are only platonic)

HTTYD: all male aligned dragon riders (fem aligned characters are only platonic)

The Black Phone: Vance and Robin (I’m sorry Finney just reminds me too much of myself T-T)

DPS (Dead Poets Society): all male aligned characters

Teen wolf: most male aligned characters, ask if unsure (female aligned characters are only platonic)

TOH: Hunter, Edric, Raine (young) (female aligned characters only platonic)

Dead Boy Detectives: Most male aligned characters (Crystal, Niko, Jenny, etc. platonic only)

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•Extra information•

Some characters may be OOC, I apologise for that.

I will do drabbles, headcannons, fics, etc.

I will on occasion write for fem characters (depending on the character) if requested.

As this blog is an inclusive space, all reader features will be left ambiguous, unless specifically requested otherwise (example: genderfluid!reader, curly haired!reader, FTM!reader, etc.)

I won’t do specifically POC!reader because I don’t have the same life experiences and I don’t want to overstep.

All reader POVs will be autistic coded.

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I look forward to hearing from people, have a great day/night! <3

Last updated: 09/06/2024

[floatingseaotter]

Contra Mundum

or Summer in the City

Song - Mind Over Matter - Young the Giant

"...at length" count - 24

STORY TIME: Okay, so a couple of years ago i took a 3 month hiatus in the middle of reading Order of the Phoenix because I didn't want to make myself upset over Sirius dying... The same thing has happened here just with other plot points.

I have now realised that this chapter is named after what Remus wrote on the floor in the shrieking shack—which google translated for me to 'defying or opposing everyone else'—so I've put my keen and penetrating mind to the task and, unlike usual, come to a probably correct conclusion... this is a Remus centric chapter.

"He laughed easily and frequently..." is such a nice little description. Especially for five year old Remus and it is upsetting.

A wedding! I love weddings! Drinks all around!

Unfortunately for Lily, Mrs. Evans, Ira the Cat, and anyone who happened upon the Evans house at that time, Petunia's bridal mania was far-reaching and unstoppable.

-- LMAO.

Omg, Mrs. Evans is called Edie! I like it :) Petunia and her pals are so rude. I... don't know why I am surprised. What I am shocked about is the hints on what's going on with Maid Of Honour Yvonne though!

Oh, Lily's owl is called Niko. I think this is the first time he's been mentioned.

JAMES WROTE HER A TWO PAGE LONG LETTER!!!

This—the owl—is Elizabeth the Second, named for the Lady on the muggle money. My old owl has gone into retirement after an unfortunate run in with my Gran's cat Bertram. It seems that was one cat attack too many, and he now refuses to carry mail.

-- of course she is. I love the way James writes letters and also just how people in general write the temperament of owls in fic because it really makes me laugh that they have such an attitude all the time.

First mention of everyones favourite cousin, Sam! Do we get the story of the "Hopefully with a little more than twenty minutes advance notice..." thing that James is talking about in his letter? Hm.

Have you seen anything of You-Know-Who? Not Voldemort. Snape. He lives near you, isn't that right? Petey thinks I shouldn't ask because it's a sore subject. As if "tact" has ever been my style.

-- 💀

Oh Lily has found herself 'inexplicable pleased by the vague possibility of "meeting up with" James (and Peter)'!

Almost exactly a year before, Sirius had shown up on that very doorstep in the middle of the night, soaking and anxious and homeless...

-- :(

Grace Potter is an icon.

"James," she began, eyes downcast once more. "I hope that you know—I hope that you understand that... that no matter what happens—your father and I will still love you very, very much."

"Don't worry, Mum," replied James seriously. "I'm not pregnant."

-- hahahahahah

Narcissa Black has entered the building!!!!! I don't remember this interaction between her and Sirius in the Leaky Cauldron at all. Narcissa actually speaks to him and her voice is described as being "strange—forceful and a bit defiant" and I love how complex people write Narcissa's character—

"It's not too late, Sirius interrupted. "It isn't too late for you, Cissy."

Narcissa took one step forward and opened her mouth to say something. For a moment, there was emotion in her eyes and sincerity in her expression. And then she froze up again.

It is a turbulent time for the Marauders—

"Right, because the fact that you're a wolf one night a month means you have to be a lifeless, pretentious prick for the rest of the time.

-- very turbulent indeed. That was James that said that to Remus.... oof.

"Soyez bienvenus à ma maison."

Lily raised her eyebrows, and Sirius opened the door.

"Welcome," he modified.

-- My 302 day duolingo streak served me well there.

Lily wants James and Sirius to reunite so bad :(

HAHAHAHA James and Remus being stubborn and then 'trudging' back to one another after not even a minute is so funny to me

OoooOOOOoooo timejump!

Lily smiled broadly, inexplicably amused by the sight

-- the serotonin boost that at every single interaction between James and Lily in this fic gives me. They literally bumped into each other in a book shop but I am grinning at the screen.

"Evans!"

Lily raised her eyebrows at his somewhat over-dramatic reaction. "Hi..."

"Hi," replied James, regaining himself. "Sorry—you... startled me."

-- PLEASE he was so excited its so sweet.

OH MY god and then they go out for dinner, don't they. I hate it so much.

The scene with Remus and his mum talking about his lycanthropy is so good but so sad even though it is so short :(

side note: just had to down a cold cup of tea that i forgot about 👍🏻

"That's the problem with magic," she said. "The magic mind has no sense of awe and wonder with the universe."

-- good old whimsical Lily.

It's the wee off-hand comments that are just peppered in that indicate they are thinking about the other or something that just makes me--

Remus had gone outside to stare at the moon, because—he was told—the full moon was a thing of beauty, and tonight was the closest thing he could really appreciate.

-- ☹️

It began because Jame Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew belonged together.

-- I think its quite a nice touch to have Remus be November when he's watching the moon. How the thing that changed his life for the worse in a way, is also the thing that helps him figures things out? How deep, me.

I don't know why I picture every single character in my head as short. None of them are fully grown but they look like adults. I don't know why this is it really bothers me.

REMUS FORGIVES SIRIUS AND I'M CRYING

It wasn't there yet, but the moon had set (the worst of it was over), and the sky was growing pale (optimistic), and soon (pretty soon), the sun would be up.

I am re-reading The Life and Times

And it is getting documented. Purely for my own benefit.

The Life and Times by Jewels5

She was dramatic. He was dynamic. She was precise. He was impulsive. He was James, and she was Lily, and one day they shared a kiss, but before that they shared many arguments, for he was cocky, and she was sweet, and matters of the heart require time.

[nikholascrow]

Destined - Word count: 211 - Evan and Regulus friendship angst

Regulus made it halfway up to the astronomy tower before he broke down. It was sorta poetic honestly, spiraling on a spiral staircase. Sobs racked his body, his lungs hurt. It was Sirius’ birthday and he couldn’t even work up the courage to walk across the great hall and give him a gift, his own brother. Instead he’d spent the entire day watching Remus Lupin smile at him, Peter Pettigrew laugh too loudly at his jokes, and James Potter pat him on the back, his replacement Sirius’ new brother.

He stayed there on the staircase for what felt like hours until Evan found him, puffy eyed and still sniffling. He hated looking weak but Evan had seen him worse. Evan was always there. He'd been there when Sirius turned eleven and left for Hogwarts, he’d been there when Sirius ran away, and when Regulus found out Sirius had been adopted by the Potters. And here he was again. Sitting next to Regulus, rubbing his back slowly, not saying a word, not judging him. Because that’s who he was who he’d always been. Sirius may have been destined to live out in the sun, but Evan and Regulus were made for the depths below, they were drowning but they were drowning together.

[nikholascrow]

shower thoughts - word count: 423 - pre rosekiller fluff

Barty sat fully clothed in the bathtub, the loud sounds of the overhead shower soaking his clothes and trying and failing to drown out his thoughts. He wasn’t sure how he’d expected this time to be any different. It was always the same. He really should give up on this whole love thing.

The shower shut off abruptly startling Barty out of his thoughts and unseeing stare. Evan plopped himself down on the floor next to the bathtub two containers of ice cream held in one arm and two spoons in hand, he used his free hand to hold one of the ice cream tubs and a spoon out to Barty.

“rough night?” Evan’s tone was casual, conversational, not demanding for Barty to tell him everything just giving him the option.

Barty took a few bites of his ice cream, strawberry, his favorite, before he spoke. “he dumped me” he stabbed his ice cream a little agressively with his spoon “said I was ‘too much’ and he ‘didn’t have the energy to deal with me’ whatever that means.”

Evan didn’t say anything just nodded softly so Barty continued

“The asshole didn’t even have the decency to do it somewhere private. He did it right there in the restaurant and left me with the bill.” Barty scowled at his knees pulling them up closer to his chest as he picked at the rips in his jeans.

Evan frowned at that “Bitch.”

“I know!! and he had audacity to keep my fucking hoodie!” Barty stabbed aggressively at his ice cream again

“I’m pretty sure that was my hoodie actually-“

Barty snorted “that hoodie stopped being yours the second you left it in my room”

Evan laughed, it was sweet and soft and for a while Barty laughed too. they both trailed off after a few minutes and the bathroom was quiet again

“I really thought he liked me this time” Barty whispered, dropping his head onto Evan’s shoulder, his still wet hair soaking Evan’s shirt Evan didn’t seem to mind. He just reached over and rubbed Barty’s back. Silence fell again but it was comforting this time.

“wanna go order a pizza, watch old disney movies and talk shit about him till you feel better?”

Barty laughed “hell yes”

And as they curled up on the couch in their shared apartment, the scent of one of Evan’s hoodies and Evan’s mint chocolate chip breath filling his nose. Barty thought maybe he would be okay because he was never too much for Evan, Evan always stayed.

[nikholascrow]

whisper - @wolfstarmicrofic - word count: 902

Tw: physical abuse / parental abuse

(he gets comforted i swear)

Sirius was having a nightmare again. It seemed like he was always having those nowadays ever since he’d left Regulus in that house, even if he had his brother back now he couldn’t shake the fear, the guilt.

He was huddled in a corner of the kitchen shielding regulus from view as best he could as their faceless mother screamed. flashes of light bounced around the room

“SELFISH. UNGRATEFUL. DISGUSTING CHILD.” she howled every word punctuated by a flash of light.

Each spell missed, her focus disrupted by her anger, eyes wild with rage. Usually she was quiet when she was angry, cold, steely, and cruel. Tonight was different, tonight was red hot and desperate. Another flash of light and he was struck by searing pain, his vision went white hot. Someone screamed he couldn’t tell if it was him or Regulus. there was nothing but pain. endless unbearable pain.

his eyes flew open and he sat up straight, cold sweat dripping down his neck and back. Sirius drew in a shaky breath and pulled his knees up against his chest. He was in the Potter’s house, Regulus was just down the hall, they were safe, they were fine. Despite the fact that he knew his brother was fast asleep and completely safe, Sirius pulled back the covers and slipped out of bed tiptoeing out of his room and down the empty hall. Regulus’ door creaked open quietly and there he was, in bed with James curled around him smiling softly in his sleep, Sirius smiled too. He eased shut the door and stood there, one hand on the doorknob.

“Pads?” Sirius jumped Remus had somehow managed to silently creep out of his room into the hallway

“Jesus christ moony-“ Sirius hissed just above a whisper “what the hell are you doing up?”

Remus raised an eyebrow “I have a better question, why did I wake up at two in the fucking morning to you blundering down the hallway?” Remus didn’t look annoyed, just concerned.

Damn his incredibly pretty best friend and his extra sensitive werewolf senses. “Just checking on Reg and Prongs, someone had to make sure they were keeping it pg” Sirius forced a grin but it didn’t do much to hide the way his bloodshot eyes avoided his friend’s gaze.

“Another nightmare?” Remus asked softly it wasn’t really a question he already knew the answer but sirius nodded anyway. “wanna sleep with me tonight?”

“yes please-“ his voice was barely above a whisper but Remus seemed to hear him loud and clear.

Sirius followed Remus into his bedroom and slipped into bed next to him. He felt so small and weak in the big bed like he was sinking into the mattress and it would swallow him whole, then strong arms wrapped around him and the feeling evaporated. He buried his head in Remus’ chest and Remus ran his fingers through Sirius’ dark curls.

“Do you wanna talk about it?” Remus asked softly it wasn’t demanding, it wasn’t required, it was a simple invitation, and it meant the world to Sirius.

Sirius shook his head gently

“You didn’t deserve it, Pads, whatever she did, neither of you deserved that.” Sirius’ bloodshot eyes were becoming glossy with tears again.

Sirius just buried his face deeper into Remus’ sweater and Remus’ free hand began tracing stars on his back. It calmed him and his eyes began to flutter as Remus whispered comforting words to him that contrasted the screams he’d woken up to. He drifted off to sleep in the arms of his best friend and the boy he loved.

[nikholascrow]

Christmas at the Potter’s - word count: 673 - merry fucking christmas to everyone who celebrates and big hugs to everyone who’s holiday experience has sucked because of family

It was James’ idea. Why must James Potter be bane of his existence first stealing the heart of his best friend and then having the audacity to be nice to Evan and him as well? Barty did not under any circumstances like James Potter. Ever. But now sitting in the Potters’ living room squished between Regulus and a very Sleepy Evan, maybe Barty liked James a Little bit, But only because the couch was so crowded that Evan was partly in his lap and had his head resting on Barty’s shoulder.

James’ grand scheme began one night in the slytherin dorms a week before christmas holidays,

James propped himself up on his elbows and looked up at his boyfriend excitedly “Reg if i turn into prongs would you charm my nose to glow red so i’d look like Rudolph?”

“So you'd look like who?” Regulus looked somewhere between wildly perplexed and mildly entertained.

“like the reindeer- ya know the one with the red nose?”

Evan glanced over from his bed where’d he’d been writing an essay “why on earth would a reindeer have a red nose?”

“He pulls Santa’s sleigh- ya know to bring the presents?” James was looking increasingly more distressed.

Barty sat up from his place next to Evan and asked the question that pushed James over the edge “Who the bloody fuck is Santa?”

what followed was the most chaotic description of Christmas Barty had ever heard after which James realized not a single one of the slytherin boys in the room had ever experienced a proper Christmas.

Less than two days later James plopped down at the slytherin table next to Regulus much to the confusion of most of the contents of the great hall and declared “It’s done!”

all three boys stared at him blankly but Regulus was the first to speak “what’s done-“

James beamed “You’re all coming to mine for Christmas this year! I’ve already asked mum and told Sirius and Remus and Peter and… what?” as if he had just registered how absolutely confuzzled they all looked.

So here Barty was crammed on a couch with Remus, Sirius, Peter, James, Regulus and Evan, his best friend who he definitely did not have a Crush on. Remus, his favorite of the Gryffindors, kept shooting him knowing looks and he was Rapidly dropping down in Barty’s ranking of everyone squished onto the crowded couch at the moment. Barty just glared back at him. Honestly He thought Evan was asleep until elbow jabbed painfully into his ribs and he looked over to see Evan's terrifyingly unreadable Hazel eyes.

then the dazzlingly beautiful blonde had the bloody audacity to smirk at him and push a small perfectly wrapped gift into his hands “merry christmas Bee”

Barty eagerly ripped away the perfect emerald green paper and opened the small box it had encased, the box contained a small oval locket and within that was a picture of him and Evan taken sometime during the summer before 5th year Barty had one an arm draped around Evan and they both wore lazy content smiles Barty remembered that moment it had been perfect he’d prayed it would never end. Bartys face went red and the butterflies that followed could be more accurately described as a rabid raccoon clawing at the walls of his stomach. Barty opened his mouth to thank Evan to say anything but nothing came out, a few minutes of silence later in which Barty was painfully aware of the way Evan was smirking at him he managed to form a complete sentence

“merry christmas Ev” he shoved his messily wrapped gift into Evan's hands unceremoniously and looked anywhere but Evan. Said target of his unfortunately placed affections slowly unwrapped the gift careful not to rip the delicate navy paper, and held up a pretty beaded bracelet Barty has made himself detailed with a silver rose charm. Evan didn’t say anything, just slipped the bracelet on his wrist and curled back up against Barty.

God he was gonna kill James.

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She loves me - word count: 291 - Tw: child abuse, physical abuse

“She loves me.”

“Reg please-“ Sirius was begging him to go, pleading but Regulus was just staring numbling.

“You don’t have to leave” Regulus felt strangely calm at this moment. He should be frantic. He should be trying to convince his brother to stay but he doesn’t have it in him anymore he knows his words are empty.

“You know I can’t stay Reg” Sirius looks exhausted like he’s caving in on himself he’s covered in bruises and his own blood. Regulus should be angry at his mother. He should feel something but he just feels cold and empty. “Please come with me you don’t have to stay here you could come to the Potters and-“

“She loves me Sirius.” and then Sirius is gone just like everything else he’s ever loved. Everything except his mother.

“She loves me, she loves me, she loves me-” He’s rocking himself back and forth on the dusty floor of one of the manor’s broom closets.

“REGULUS ARCTURUS BLACK” a loud bang sounds from somewhere down stairs

“She loves me, she loves me, she loves me-“ his voice grows more desperate the louder his mother gets. There's another loud bang much closer this time.

“DESPICABLE USELESS BOY”

“She loves me, she loves me, she loves me-“ his breath coming out in gasps as the door flies open and harsh light comes pouring into the small space. She loves me, she loves me, she loves me- he thinks as the searing pain hits him.

She's never loved him, not really. He knows that deep down, yet he still can’t leave her; he can't lose the only constant in his life, so instead as the pain consumes him he begs his mind to believe She loves me.

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Alone - Word count: 53

Barty hated christmas. He’d hated it since the first christmas he’d spent alone in that house, and he’d hated it more every year since.

But now leaning against Evan as he read, a blanket wrapped around them both, listening to corny as fuck christmas music, maybe he didn’t hate it quite so much.