#ngl i thought past year
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
the fact that me, as a fan of both lando and oscar without any bias (maybe a bit on lando but not that much), is going to witness both "oscar fans, lando antis" and "lando fans, oscar antis" posts all in my one dash 🥲🥲
also the fact that atp i couldn't even bother enough with this same situation on both lewis and george. now it happens on lando and oscar as well which got me like....
#landoscar#lando norris#oscar piastri#f1#maybe i need to admit atp rn that#this sport is just not built for a person like me istg 🙂🙂#like....i miss the moments 2 years ago where what i only care the most is only football and football only#and couldn't even give a fuck more about guys being in circles vroom vroom#i mean thank god that there's a bayern match just now right after the race ended#which really liften my mood up and distract myself a bit from intimidating discourse and whatsoever#hmmmm ngl maybe the fact that being a football football fan in general especially in this website really brings a comfort in me#meanwhile for f1...idk why but everything about it (especially during race and after race) really overwhelms me a lot seriously speaking#maybe the fact that football is more team oriented sport#meanwhile f1 is more individual oriented despite there are teams consists of 2 individuals#and the fact that me supporting multiple individuals in a one same team despite that f1 is individual oriented sport#kinda gets me digging my own grave atp tbh#i mean when i said individual oriented sport...it kinda means that in a perspective of most of the f1 fans#and now seeing all every kinds of discourse on my dash really makes me overwhelming a lot i'm ngl#that the fact that i couldn't able to curate my own preference for this f1blr space on my dash 🥲🥲🥲#goddddd srsly tho i just want to turn back time where i only cares about bayern frankfurt and germany nt only ffs 🫠🫠🫠🫠#but yeah who am i to turn around the past 🙃🙃...and plus that once i'm getting into one hyperfixation there's no turning back at all for me#so yeah#goddddd i'm so sorry but i'm just being so fucking messy rn#like all the things that i see on my dash really exhausts my brain and my thought process forreal i really need to throw up forreal srsly :(
65 notes
·
View notes
Text
Happy One Year Anniversary to Boy King AU!!!! 🎉
Okay wait before I start talking, look at these close ups and the process!! Aren't they so beautiful aaaahhhh
Wow, can you believe it’s really been a whole entire year since my very first post about this AU? Well technically I first started talking about the statuette a day earlier, but the very first sketch was exactly a year ago!! Let us not forget the incredibly prophetic tag on that post: “also in the sense of this au i think the only ship that would work(historically accurate wise) is Vettonso.” Who knew that after that my entire life would devolve into vettonso, this specific period of history, and the lovely combo which is Boy King AU. Also wow this means it’s taken me almost a whole entire year to actually draw a joint portrait of them hahaha. I drew this sketch around the beginning of the AU, but never finished it. It’s fine though because this one is a lot better, and I’m in love with it. Took me a year to draw a couple portrait, and took me almost a whole entire month to finish said piece.
Okay let me explain this piece, which I am very obsessed with!!! I dragged the process out more than I usually would, but I’m glad, because it was so enjoyable. But also look at that fucking crown, no wonder this took almost a month. Usually I’d write like 50 paragraphs detailing the characterization. HOWEVER! I’ve spent over a month writing little bits of characterization, mostly for fun, but also in preparation for this very post. A lot of the earlier ones, I had this drawing in mind, thinking on how I could expand on the ideas I was drawing. Though there’s definitely some things I could still write about. I’ll probably continue to write more Lore a Days, but yeah, they basically amounted to this drawing where you can actually see the characterization I was talking about displayed. Anyways, here are the explanations of bits in the drawing:
First of all, this is some part of the long process of their wedding. Look at the married couple!! Look at their rings!!!
Okay, but why are there two, almost identical looking pieces?? Because look at their hands!! I talked a lot about how Fernando is the one to give out affection more easily, especially in public, where he knows he can easily fluster Seb. He’s acting all grumpy and out of it, I mean to be fair, it’s probably been such a long ceremony across weeks. But he notices Seb is out of it too, just better at keeping his smile (let’s be honest, even if he’s distracted, he’s super smug.) So Fernando catches him off guard by squeezing his hand. Before that, as you can see, Fernando is just resting his hand on Seb’s outstretched palm, like that one scene from Succession. Very: yes I’m getting married, but I’m not happy about it. The combination of Fernando refusing to even touch him more than lightly beforehand but now going full force, them being in public, and Seb already being distracted catches Seb so off guard he has to try to cover his blush with his fan. He thought Fernando was being super impolite, but now he’s the impolite one!! Getting all blushy and giggly over a simple display of affection, perhaps even ha-
So. Their crowns. Seb’s wearing the crown of Austria, because he is in fact only a king still! Also, because I really wanted to try drawing it after I wimped out of it before in this drawing. Fernando’s a king as well by the point, but the fact he’s wearing only a tiara-like hairpiece is to represent how much of an outsider he still is. At this moment, he’s just Seb’s wi- ,I mean husband, to all these guests. Of course this bitch wears a black veil instead of a white one, to signal that he’s mourning the loss of his autonomy and personhood. Don’t worry too much about his mental state though, considering he’s not depressed enough to be able to resist teasing Seb.
The fan, oh my god. Back in this era, people would gift/make fans for basically any occasion. To symbolize an event, to celebrate something, to show a story, etc etc. I wish I could have drawn something more narrative, but I think the bull vs. horse is good enough. Also you can see those same symbols on the pendants they’re wearing!! I’m so happy when I can fit irl, modern stuff like that into these drawings, it feels so clever!!
It’s so funny, I wrote a lore a day from a prompt about what they’d be like when doing a joint portrait, while I was already almost through painting a dual portrait of my own! So I got to explain some stuff like their clothing colors and poses before I even posted this. I feel very coy about that still honestly.
Hmmm what else? It feels so weird to not expand on the characterization, considering I already did it for myself weeks in advance. I can’t imagine what it’s like opening this read more, and seeing more than 10 in-text citations. Happy reading!!!
Happy anniversary to this wonderful, crazy AU that makes me download 500pg German papers about 18th century etiquette. I drew a couple pieces of fanart before this AU, but I definitely think it jumpstarted my insanity about drawing/making AUs, and literally is what made me insane about Vettonso in the first place. Remember, if I hadn’t learned about Joseph I/Charles VI, most of my blog probably wouldn’t exist in it's current form. Thank you if you’ve stuck around since the beginning, or if you’re even just learning about it now!! It’s so incredibly niche but I’ve had so much fun researching and building this world and these characterizations, and I hope you’ve enjoyed what I’ve made in the process. I hope I can draw/write many more things in the future. I think next, I’m gonna maybe open up requests. I’d like to try to either write ficlets or draw chibi comics about specific Lore a Day posts on request. I think that’d be a lot of fun, but also will probably kill me. We’ll see!! Anyways. PPlease enjoy this absolute labor of love, which is a result of a year’s worth of work.
#idk why I decided that the best time to write all that was right when I have to sleep#who cares about the race!? its boy king au day!!!!!!#waughhhhhh i cant believe its been a yearrrrrrrrr#they are my sons. my babies. borderline ocs im ngl.#i fear that one day soon imma lose my interest in f1 but then just keep posting niche fanart LMFAO#look forward to that day <3#weird to think its been an entire year and think about how much has changed since that day#im really glad ive stuck with this even though its gotten hard for me sometimes#the past month or so has been a lot more creative than i thought#and im glad it could all result in this#it was so weird drawing this over like a month#i didnt wanna finish it too soon and then dislike it when the day actually came#so thats actually why i started writing lore a day. so i could have smth creative to do in the meantime#again. ty if youve been with me since teh beginning of this and if youre just seeing this now. i love you all dearly#thank you for supporting me and this crazy idea :) it makes it 100x more enjoyable#f1#formula 1#<- SOOOOO FUNNY TO TAG THESE LMAO#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#boy king au#catie.art.
71 notes
·
View notes
Text
Valentin Da Silva | 177/??
#Cyberpunk 2077#Valentin Da Silva#Aldecaldos#Masc V#Nomad#Screenshot#Virtual Photography#AHGHF He looks cute in that even tho it's not something he'd wear normally GFHHGF#also cackling cause-- I wasn't planning on popping an april fool mod at all#I never did in the past and was just going to chill this year too#but remember that ask I got about Valentin's wilding outfit#Thinking back on it it's obvious people were getting bored again cause that whole ask was lowkey ridiculous#and I jokingly thought about how people would allow him to only wear stereotypical french stuff since he's half French (other half spasnish#that's how it came to be LMAO#Ngl I was waiting for one cringe fandom person to come into dm with a -oh that mod is racist actually- cause y'know#NOTHING WOULD SURPRISE ME LMAOOO#I say that but I already know there's some people out there who genuinely think that#wish they download Lokiina's grass mod To Touch Some#ANYWAY Bon poisson d'avril comme on dit ici <3
59 notes
·
View notes
Text
movie morro au where morro is literally a fucking criminal in juvie. it’s bad enough that lloyds the son of garmadon, his cousin is considered a mastermind escape artist who might be a high ranking gang member and has never gotten caught for a solid 3 years. no one knows how he does it. it’s like the air itself assists him in escaping
update guys ive got more check #jellos movie morro au in the tags 👇
#haghhuhgaagahuah#many thoughts#he’s a stealth guy#collects intel n shit yk#also robberies#he has robbed multiple banks many times#he was wus past student#and used his training to land himself a high ranking#no one knew it was him during the three years#he went by an alias until he got caught#and it was all over the news#yeahh i might expand on this i’m ngl#it’s kinda fun#what do i call this#jellos movie morro au#i’m so CREATIVE#ninjago#lego ninjago#lego ninjago movie#ninjago movie#morro ninjago#ninjago morro#morro wu#ninjago movie morro#ninjago movie au#movie morro#ninjago au
474 notes
·
View notes
Text
btw my google dino game record on my brother's school laptop
#sunflower rambles#screenshot#thought i'd let everyone know#i have no idea how i managed ngl#i think rhythm games made me significantly better#i never got past 3000 years ago
60 notes
·
View notes
Text
I like how rude you are funny man
#Never thought I’d be obsessed with a Pokemon character but here we are I guess#I finally got Pokemon Sword out a few days ago after not playing it for three-four years and man he’s way ruder than I remember him being#which obviously didn’t help with me liking him a lot cause I love rude bratty men 😭🙏#I find it a little sad that the first time I ever draw Pokemon art is this man I wonder how past William would react to this#Pokemon#Pokemon fanart#pokemon sword and shield#Pokémon sword and shield Bede#Bede#artists on tumblr#my artwork#my art#fanart#Ngl he looks absolutely gorgeous in my art style im scared
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
u know im back on my bullshit
#octopath traveler ii#octopath traveler 2#satsuhart#temehika#hikari ku#temenos mistral#i thought long and hard about whether temenos is a catboy or a dogboy (hound)#and in the end i decided on arctic fox.#i have.... thoughts but theyre all spoilery thoughts like no literally no one can talk about why they like them without mentioning spoilers#ive been seeing it happen on twt for like the past 2 weeks#but anyway (spoiler) (spoiler) just trust me dude. theyre a good ship#it has nothing to do with the fact that ive liked mage warrior ships for the past 5 years. shut up#also i bought csp v2 and the shading assist... she popped off a little w that one ngl#but im still very angry about csp's terrible autosave function#like fun fact that first pic? i dont have it in .clip format anymore LOL#it also deleted the little pic i made about my ship taste but i didnt know and i deleted that tweet bc i was embarrassed#i mean it isnt a big loss i can remake it anytime but like. shaking fist at csp autosave function#tags are really quite dangerous im not even sure if theres a limit? ill stop here tho gn... i am working on a temehika fic 👍#octo2
183 notes
·
View notes
Text
#i needed some minutes to get my thoughts together but this is a more cohesive ... thing of what i feel? idk#i feel like theres just no balance. obvs they debuted at a difficult time and it wouldve been hard to push it back bc of the members etc#its either theyre ignored (quite literally) or they get fucked over. why is there no balance between keeping their essence and also promo#like its SM's fucking fault that they didnt reach their actual potential. and it's their fault on how they handled lu/as' scandal.#if you weren't going to add him back to the group. why did you waste almost two years of their time for no reason? i just dgi. it always#makes me feel sad to see that clip of ten spoiling phantom at a kick back stage. they had their next cb planned like... idek#i feel from omy onwards when they shifted under prism. theyve had a different sound and their focus feels just on the kn audience#which is WILD. they have 127 and dream as it is. and it was a wayv song that got cn banned from being sung on national tv so... ?#sm wants cn money but no effort with their cn group. and this comeback has just pissed me off ngl. i like the songs and the aes but what#is the aim? what audience are we trying to cater to? krn? global? cn? okay. you fucked up in the past but look at what the fans are saying#what they like. phantom was their cb and it broke records. personal and otherwise. why arent we sticking to this? why arent are there no cn#bsides. and ill never forgive them for blaming wayv and kun. i really never will.#and about the sc situation. i think he can do as he pleases and im happy with whatever he picks. but the purposeful sabotaging of wayv & him#shifting the dates so he cant participate. .. SM you'll implode by my hand i promise. and then his fans coming to shit on wayv like they#personally told him not to participate. ridiculousness from both sides.#i don't think its that hard to experiment but also stay with what was liked originally. if theyre a chinese group. give them some cn songs.#to add on. i personally believe they shifted the dates bc lu/as debut was a complete money waste and they desperately needed another avenue.#egg.co
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
It's my burfday today! :D I have another pic in the works that I was gonna post but I won't manage to finish it today so I'm posting this one instead. It's actually for my Riida RP acc on twt. The bonsai tree in the middle is another RP acc I have (it is Saka's bonsai tree lmao yes I RP as a tree) and the pigeon on the right is Riida's PA (cos Riida is disorganised af & needs nudging to do her work often).
Anyway I just wanted to share it here & celebrate my bday with you guys ^^ Thank you for being here with me!
#dragonpigeondraws#happy birthday to me#riida#monsieur pigeon#bonsai#op oc#one piece oc#yes i'm drawing 2 bday pics for myself cos i deserve it#ngl things have been pretty rough 4 me since last year#but actually it's been a long journey that started in childhood#i think i can say i'm proud of how far i've come#i wanna thank everyone that supported me & spared a kind and caring thought for me in the past few days#it's really nice to feel that i'm appreciated & cared about. really really nice#i wanna keep all your precious words and feelings close to my heart always.#i'm just an ordinary person who enjoys ordinary things#thank you for making me feel like i matter
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
HOW ARE WE FEELING TONIGHT???
#season 3 confirmed baby LETS FUCKING GO#Iwtv#ngl i was totally prepared for season 2 to be the last#these past few years ive had so many heartbreaks over canceled tv shows#so i was mentally prepared for us to have only the 1st book adapted#BUT NOW??? ROCK STAR LESTAT HERE WE FUCKING GO#although ill be honest i dont want too many seasons of iwtv#this is one of those shows that has to end well or it can go off the rails really fast and become true blood#5 well thought out seasons like breaking bad and we are looking at a perfect masterpiece
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
me at 13: by the time im 30 i will probably be married and maybe have a kid but for sure i will be living in my dream city and have my dream job. and also a lot of money
me at almost 30: i think i will treat myself to a corn dog this weekend
#i want a corn dog so bad rn#ngl u guys im actually really struggling with turning 30 at the end of the year lmao#not lmao bc it really is bothering me which is so stupid i know I Know#but. and i know we're All struggling with this. but it's like god i have done nothing with my life#like fr. everyone says that but i literally have done nothing. ive never had a real 9-5 ive been freelancing since college#and tbh i guess that's not a bad thing? but self worth wise i feel like a complete loser.#but ive just made one mistake after another and i know that's what your 20s are for and u know what this is my tags and im not going#to keep contradicting myself i feel like shit bc i feel like shit and ive wasted my whole life thats that#i just feel like such a sham like i cant believe this is what 30 is like i on god feel like im still a teenager#not in a carefree kind of way OBVIOUSLY. which i never was anyway. but i just ?? feel like that#scary fucking episode of rugrats where tommy and chuckie become their dads and they go to work and theyre so fucked up bc#well theyre babies and they dont know anything. and even the fact that i just referenced rugrats to explain how i feel lmaooooo#relationship wise well u guys know how that is. and i truly couldnt care less about what people think about me not being in a relationship#ever and tbqh i dont give a fuck anymore either like. and here i go bringing this up again. but after my ex im like ok life truly is so#short fr i dont even care like anyway. anyway. the point is there is just no reality whatsoever where i pictured my life where i am now#once again living with the abusive relative i moved across the ocean to get away from.#no love life to speak of. fr dont care but god wouldnt it be nice to be loved fr.....#no career. living in a state i hate with all my heart. barely surviving money wise. which is everyone rn but#if i had known 10 years ago this would be my life i would have honestly killed myself.#like if i knew it would all turn out like this i wouldnt have moved i wouldve just fr killed myself and i wish i did lol#to be fair. i didnt see myself living past 18 but like. i just thought something would have saved me by now
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
the sinus headaches are already not great but Extra Shit has been added to the pile and im just sat on that right now trying to figure out what the fuck to do
#ive uh not processed it yet and it also wont really shake out for a little while now i guess but .. yeah#long story short my friends who ive been A Trio with since we were 11 might be done with each other#theres a LOT of additional factors but theyre splitting a house share so one can go live with a boyfriend#and in the process it sounds like theyve made a lot of selfish choices for some unknown reason#ngl theyve pissed me off a little bit for being so weird and reclusive since theyve had the boyfriend as well but only with us#its ... yeah i dont know what alls happened because i dont live with them#but i just cant fathom how they got to this point quibbling over the contents of their shared house of 5 years#over a boyfriend whos been around for 2 or 3 years ..... to ruin a friendship of 18 years ????#again i dont know the whole story but i trust what the friend whos still good at talking to us to not lie about them being screwed around#i just dont get it at all how to reconcile what ive been told with who ive known over half my life#theyve felt off .. or wrong for a while now tbh ... i miss them#i havent seen the other one since before may ...#the thought that mightve been the last time we all hang out is kind of killling me inside lol#and it was also pretty weird and stilted again because it was very boyfriend-centric#this always happens to me lol ive lost count of all my school friend groups who end up basically fighting over me after they fall out#its a MAJOR trauma point for me and i thought we kind of grew past that but i guess i was wrong#ive been catching myself with a weepy eye or a single sob all day#i dont know what to do i wanna know what the fuck happened and what was worth doing this for#i wanna confront everyone and ask for a fucking explanation as to why my single life solid bedrock is falling apart#i mostly wanna dig a hole and die in it ... im fine im safe but im bothered by like ...#what a total fool ill look like if i just melt down at work ... i might find the mental health first aiders list and write an email lol#im like not okay cksbdkssj fucking hell#i have some hope but its ... its hard out here#i need to go to bed fuck#id dont neeeeed thiiiiisss im gonna choke on life agaaaiiinnn#the battle to keep my shit together enough to at least not self-sabotage ??? its testing my patience#rory's ramblings
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hello! Just wanted to tell you how much “what luminous worlds await” lives in my head absolutely rent free. I’m not caught up on the sequel because I really haven’t had time to read fanfic lately, but I think about luminous worlds constantly. best time travel story I have ever read, one of my favorite stories of all time. It genuinely reframed the way I conceptualize the universe, the idea that it’s singing to us all the time and is filled with love and care for us will live in my heart forever (the way the luxon loves leylas!!!!! Ahhh!!). Also the worldbuilding you did around the magic tech is astounding! I think about the ruidus life support system allll the time. I wish I could go back in time and reread it blind for the first time and experience the magic of watching the story unfold all over again. You’re an incredible writer and I can’t thank you enough for sharing such a clever and moving story.
Hello!!! THANK YOU!!! I have failed to respond to this for two days and it's cuz I kept needing to scream into the carpet anytime I thought about it. I am ALSO not caught up on my own sequel and it is haunting me at the moment, I'm not gonna lie. I have like... a third of the next chapter written and that's where I've been for months. It's fine it's cool writer's block has not been giving me an existential crisis, nope, none of that here!
ANYWAY I am very 🥺 to know that it had that effect; it was definitely partially a product of me working through some stuff wrt belief and how I interact with the world and knowing it had a small amount of the same impact for people reading it is... wild, honestly, but I'm very pleased that came through!!!
Also I did want you to know that I listen to your playlist for it SO often—I ended up putting a bunch of songs I found from it on a playlist for an original project with actually fairly similar vibes, which I'm hoping will turn out like... marginally as well as I felt like luminous worlds turned out, though that project is currently highly unwieldy (and it always has been lol) so we'll see if that happens.
In any case, thank you for the note; I'm so so fond of this fic and I'm really glad it stayed with you this long! 💜
#ftr that original project also haunts me. in an entirely different way.#cuz I want to be working on it AT ALL TIMES but it has no clear path forward.#I need to finish like seven other projects before I can properly dedicate time to it. it's fine. we don't have to talk about it.#but also I reworked it within the past couple of years and I would not have been able to without having written luminous worlds first#which is delightful. constantly just writing fic trying to work my thoughts out enough to write other things#not cuz fic is like. lesser or a test run but cuz I don't have to do the leg work of building the whole world#so I can think about other stuff#ANYWAY I'm rambling again i am once again gonna go lay facedown in the carpet about it. ideal state of being ngl.
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
The other reason I like living in a car is meeting new people. Yesterday I went quartz crystal hunting with a retired marine corps vet and then he also taught me how to pan for gold. Then he gave me a small bottle of garnets and/or rubies and some topaz he found in Wyoming and Utah respectively. Then we built a bonfire and he let me have some of the meatballs he cooked. We’re besties now lol
#I’ve actually been spending the past few nights hanging out at his bonfire#I will post pictures of the quartz we found when I have better service#I wish I had something to give him back but I don’t really have extras#he literally brought a bucket of dirt from some other part of Arizona and panned gold out of it chfjdkzjjz I thought that was funny#we have ‘used to live in japan’ in common I think u can guess where he lived lol#it’s only been like 2 months but I have a surprising amount of phone numbers from 60+ year old dudes 😂 idk what that means#car life#also I might get to come home for Christmas/new years which like PLEASE ngl I miss the vibes of being at home for the holidays#the bonfire helps tho ngl
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ok guys but cmon…. Reality shifting.
#reality shifting#shifting#literally want to shift so bad#almost embarrassed abt it LMAOOO#like I’m sure it’s possible#if aliens and lucid dreaming are real then shifting should be valid too imo#I remember making a full ass script n shit a few years ago#n I kinda gave up after that but a few days ago I tried and GUYS.#when I tell you I felt the weirdest shit ever#felt like I was going through one of those wormholes u see on tt 🤪#no but I’m being fr bro#why would I lie abt it too like that’s embarrassing ngl 💀#anyways I’ve been trying for past coupl of days cos I thought I would get closer#but NUH UH!#so I’m gonna take a break n maybe try next week#(watch me try shift again tonight)#anyways ya
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
#im going to assume that the fact my life is kind of falling apart rn is the main reason why im. kind of in a creative rut rn#i got hit w the very sudden feeling of ''oh my god the thing i just dedicated the past year of my life to is utter horseshit'' and.#not a great feeling to have! ngl#i think thats the reason ive been struggling to get back to working on it#(i mean. aside from the fact that i could literally lose my job any day now. and the fact that i cant secure a new one anytime soon)#idk i just. i truly in my heart thought i had something good going here#and the more i look at it the more i hate it#idk. maybe i made the right call to take a break thru the end of the year#go into it w fresh eyes in 2025#but idek if thatll make a difference#i just. am starting to vehemently despise anything i create that im not being paid for#and it really really sucks. bc art is the one joy i have in the face of the shittiest day job#i want to just erase it all and pretend it never happened#skip speaks
1 note
·
View note