#never-bloomer
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Hormone-fueled venting--ignore;
When your 26 year old bestie breaks off a 7+ year relationship earlier in the year and is now already in another relationship that seems even better than the last one she was in and your 28-year-old ass has never been in a relationship and only ever had one date and it doesn't appear likely to be getting either any time soon, and it's just... 🙃
People try to convince me there's nothing wrong with me, but obviously there's something wrong with me. The fact I don't really go out and still live at home are definitely part of the equation, but there's something more to it than that I'm sure--something that just makes me undatable. Repulsive, even. The only people I've ever attracted are sketchy dudes, mostly online, so none of them count.
And my undatability is just getting worse because I'm setting expectations so high with this Scrooge romance crap that no real man will ever be able to achieve. I try not to let it--to remind myself it's all fictional and idealized--but I know it is. It has to be. No real man is like this--not even the cream of the crop. And this stuff that I'm doing with Scrooge--I want this. Will I ever be able to settle for reality?
Ugly and undatable with a bad personality and high expectations--I'm gonna be alone forever.🥲🔫
#and it's not like i'm not happy for my bestie because I SO AM#she and her guy are ADORABLE and i love them so much#i actually hope i can meet this guy because he seems like such a cool dude and i want to thank him for making my girl so happy#but i will admit I'm a little jealous#it's hard when everyone around you has their lives going and together and you're just...#STAGNANT#left behind#alone and forgotten#and nobody cares or even thinks it's something to be upset about#they all say “you're time will come”#yeah well not all of us get to have a “time”#and at this point i know inhave to be one of them#and no matter how many times i try to convince myself I'm okay with that I'M NOT#personal#don't read#never-bloomer
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he really is just rafe in every universe huh .
#this is taking me tf out#GET THEM BLOOMERS AWF CMON#excuse me 😭😭😭😭#everytime i think back on a film i love#i got back to watch it#and then i’m like WHY ARE YOU HERE#HES ALWAYS IN IT#ALWAYS#SO MANY MOVIES#AND I NEVER REALISED#🎀
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Get in besties, we're sexualizing ourselves on the internet to avoid the crushing weight and sadness of being the perpetually single friend ✌🏽
#i was scrolling tiktok for the first time in weeks#and i swear every other video#was about being a late bloomer in terms of relationships#or being the friend that's always watching their other friends be in relationships#or being the person that's never really been pursued romantically#and like...i already know that's me#i dont need tiktok shoving it down my throat with constant “relatable” videos#ugh ignore me i'm just feeling sorry for myself tonight#i need to go to sleep#princess thoughts
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I appreciate that, in a story full of redemptions and forgiveness and second chances, Shadow Weaver couldn't even do a noble self-sacrifice without being an abusive piece of shit one last time.
#spop#she-ra#she ra and the princesses of power#shadow weaver#I don't mean nobody should be given second chances I just mean it's right to show some folks will never not be shit by their own choice#posting discourse about a show that's old enough it predates me going on estrogen#(i was a very late bloomer)#i actually wrote this in replies of some other post but was like y'know what let's say it here too
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people hate lesbians. PEOPLE HATE LESBIANS!!!
#i hate hate hate hate HATE#and i don't buy that all of these ppl are only upset bc goldstar lesbians 'brag' about never having slept with a man#(they're probably not even 'bragging' and are just being projected onto)#but i genuinely think ppl are uncomfortable at the prospect of a lesbian knowing she's a lesbian from a young age#and choosing to never sleep with a man#this is obviously not to say 'late bloomer lesbians' aren't 'valid' or whatever#but the reality is most of these girlies calling themselves lesbians... are not#ESPECIALLY when i see shit going around like#'well the lesbian masterdoc said that if i'm only attracted to male CELEBRITIES it doesn't count because they're unattainable 😌'#like bestie if anything doesn't that mean you AREN'T a lesbian?#it's common for OSA women to 'let' themselves be more openly attracted to men they'll never meet irl#not being instantly attracted to men you see walking around irl is very common for OSA ppl because most know what men are like lmao#anyways tangent but goldstar lesbians get behind me#lesbian#lesbophobia#radsplain.txt
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DracoEd broke into my house one day and made their bed here ever since
Through the Gate by Preelikeswriting: https://archiveofourown.org/series/781794
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#arakawa I’ll never not love you but not giving Ed’s birthday to this day is pure evil#she’s unreal istg#everyone read ttg or I cry#fma#fullmetal alchemist#edward elric#DracoEd#ttg#through the gate#Harry Potter#draco malfoy#fma x hp#hp x fma#okay so my lore is I was sprinting through TTG when folklore album came out#and I was stuck in 15 days state quarantine#so I looped the album as I read Ed putting his life in danger for draco for the 1728375th time#and draco screaming crying throwing up over it#like that changed me#exile set the whole mood I’m cryingggg#when I hear the intro piano I think about them#what Covid era did to you#Edward elric my baby my king you cant convince me you’ve ever kissed anyone your whole life#he’s a late bloomer it’s okay he committed necromancy at 11!!!!!!!!!
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i’m like 102% confident at this point that all of my “male celebrity crushes” were just me saying i liked their aesthetic
#i’ve never liked a man without creating or knowing his personality#and sex means next to nothing emotionally with men#late bloomer lesbian#late bloomer#lesbian#lgbt#comp het#compulsory heterosexuality#i lack the capacity to differentiate affection and attraction#bisexual#bi#questioning
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for the first time in my life i was just asked if i have kids instead of if i'm in college yet. the years start coming and they don't stop coming huh
#stooooop#i know i have been old enough to have kids for a while but 😵💫#im always behind on all the milestones in life tho but it never stood out before bc people always thought i was 17#literally from when i was 13 until very recently people always guessed i was like 16-19#which was great bc i am an autistic late bloomer who lives w my parents and sucks at being an adult#so giving off the vibe and appearance of being a teenager was fine#but now i look like an adult#🧍♀️🧍♀️🧍♀️#yet i am not good enough at being one for these questions and assumptions 😭#i hate it hereee#anyway weird old guy at the store started telling dumb blonde jokes then asked me if i had kids#never in my life have i been asked that#late twenties fr the worst age bc u still feel young but start getting treated old and also u don't have ur shit and life together yet#but everyone thinks you do or should by now#alas#irl i'm 27 what am i a child bride moment#not that having kids is for old people#but im not even good at being responsible for myself yet let alone an entire baby#i do want kids but im not ready for that yet#also never been in love 🫠#or even seriously dated anyone ever#not that it's a requirement#in fact im planning to adopt esp if i dont get married but still#anyway i do very much want kids im just not in that place yet#and didnt feel that behind in life about it bc nobody ever asked me that before#thsi better not be like how everyone asks you as soon as they meet u about ur job or school i dont need to be fielding this forever
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HOW can you be bad at being a furry???????
IDK BUT I AM
#its like i would consider myself a furry the same way someone who played the recorder in middle school says they play an instrument#im like bare minimum furry or furry enjoyer at best. im like someone who might not even be a furry but share their beliefs etc etc#also its very funny when ppl try to 'clock' me as a furry bc of the 'if someone u know draws dogs like this theyre a furry' litmus test#nah man i just poked around deviantart and have a bunch of deviantart artist pages bookmarked on my browser#not to mention the animation memes and oc AMVs which probably shaped my teen years#but the weird thing is that the things u think would have been some sort of furry awakening for me never actually counted for much#i did read the warrior cats mangas BUT i never actually read the main series. i didnt even play animal jam or pretended to be wolves on the#schoolyard ALTHOUGH i did pretend to be a dog and even had a tail i clipped to my pants but nobody wanted to join in bc i bit ppl#maybe im just not that conscious of it but recently ive been looking at more furry art and now i want to draw more furries#its interesting ^_^ maybe im just a late bloomer#ask#yapping
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Currently reading Late Bloomer by Mazy Eddings and wow, this passage really cut deep.
#passage highlight digitally after I took this photo because I can never bring myself to scribble in the actual pages of my books#late bloomer#mazy eddings
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therapy (alternate title: talking about white boy for 50 minutes straight)
#my therapist proposed the idea that i may be asexual.#like thanks i know. but also thanks for validating me because i still feel like a late bloomer sometimes#the question of the ages: am i an ace lesbian or am i just afraid of men? (or am i aro too)#because i can only imagine myself feeling comfortable romantically around women#but attraction isn’t a factor either way…#and i only feel comfortable with women in general .#touch starved hopeless romantic boy meets touch repulsed full of platonic love and nothing else girl. they both die#THIS IS WHY I THOUGHT I WAS TRANS TOO i felt so ill being in a female body but that was not because#i was trans it was because i felt sexualized and i wanted to be seen as a person before a body#and i felt like if i was a boy that would be the case#but i never felt any better viewing myself that way. i felt worse.#thanks misogyny 👍👍👍#anyway i love you trans people you are so cool it was just not me do not take this the wrong way#🙏🙏🙏#i will just be unlabeled and only date girls. forever#you will never catch me with a cishet dude SORRYYYY 🤞🤞🤞#i like fictional men and that is IT the moment i imagine them with an actual face i get disgusted#whateverrrr#i will stay in my little fictional bubble#pink haired foxian man hmu
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i relate to peter parker because i’ve had six crushes this year alone
damn son save some for the rest of us!!
#sci speaks#i think i've only ever had one crush in my life. wilding. i wish i fell in love easier. it feels wonderful.#oh the people with hyperactive hearts...#i wish i had felt this way at some point when i was younger. it kind of felt like my heart wasn't fully developed yet.#holds my heart in my hands. why were you such a late bloomer. why didn't you feel more things earlier on.#i'm kind of sad that i didn't have teenage crushes or anything. i feel like i missed out.#is it because nobody around me was appealing. or is it because i was too busy on my own planet.#i think i wasn't really close with a lot of people when i was younger. i kind of never came out of my shell.#so nobody got close enough to me for me to like them.#not that it's necessarily how it works. but it takes a lot for me to get there with somebody i think.#i think a lot of the relationships i've been in i'm still To This Day not even sure if i actually liked them back in that way.#squeezes my heart in my hand. why are you so fussy.#i wish i had more experiences under my belt. i really do. but also i don't want to be in situations that are uncomfortable either.#and i don't want to just be there for the sake of it.#lies on the floor and stares at the ceiling. i don't know what i want.#is love the answer?#i don't know. sometimes i want it more than anything. but it's such a ball-ache to get. sometimes you think you're better off without it.#i wish i knew what i wanted. i think i just want to be brave enough to find out.#why do i ramble so much in my tags. it's like tumblr is my therapist or something.#i'm feeling weird about myself lately. just kind of a little tired. i don't feel bad. but kind of perpetually low-energy.#like i never have the time to do things that make me happy. and when i do get the time i don't have the energy.#is this what it's like to live in this world. i need like. a year's break from work. i think.#i need like a year-long vacation. i need a gap year. i need a year to live life.#i wonder if it's financially viable. i think i'd eat through everything i have if i did that. but.#you can get money back. you can't get your time back.
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something something Ponytover and Zebraun
#I made these like a year ago and never posted them#bc I was embarassed#but I have to post them now a textpost commanded me#mlp#my little pony#arcane#arcane 2021#Vi arcane#Jinx Arcane#Vi is an earth pony bc of how she is#I feel like Jinx would be a super late bloomer magic wise#and she would have gotten her cutie mark last#probably in the episode 3 life rending boom :(#my art
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this tiktok as a whole ruined my day but ESPECIALLY this bit. “I will never be someone’s first love” what if i screamed
#I’m really not well#like… being a late bloomer is super weird as a whole#but I never thought of it in these terms#I’ll never be anyone’s first love you know?#that’s rotten#in which i ramble
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It’s wild how so many people are fundamentally incapable of recognizing queer characters unless they explicitly say the words, “I’m gay” on screen
#like season 1 and 2? sure maybe you can overlook Will’s queercoding and believe it’s just a result of the bully’s homophobia#season 3 is a huge stretch but it’s hypothetically possible to believe will is just a late-bloomer or asexual#but how on earth do you watch season 4 and still genuinely have no idea will is gay?#and this is not a rare occurrence#it’s astonishing how many people you have to literally explain the van scene to cause Will’s sexuality never crossed their mind#you didn’t see him staring longingly at his best friend the entire season?#some people’s minds are so aggressively heteronormative that they assumed will had a crush on el#and even after noah has explained that will is gay 50 million times#people still are confused and think it came out of nowhere or they quickly forget#somewhere there’s a fan who doesn’t keep up with stranger things news and doesn’t really use social media#a fan who is the exact opposite of chronically online#who hasn’t heard about NOAH coming out let alone Will’s sexuality#who will walk into season 5 and be utterly flabbergasted when Will comes out as gay (let alone when Byler happens)#and they’ll say that Will being gay is a huge plot twist they never saw coming#and they’ll be 100% sincere#and that’s truly baffling to me#do people think shows just randomly include melodramatic rain fights where ‘it’s not my fault you don’t like girls’ is said for no reason?#do people think the show went out of its way to show wills rejecting the attractive girl in his class cause they were in a silly goofy mood?#I genuinely wanna know what goes on through people’s heads when they have no gaydar or media literacy#even today there are people who still think romantic stobin should happen and think that Robin isn’t really a lesbian#will byers#byler
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1, 2, 12, 13! 👀
1. What do you do for work?
im a theater teacher and tutor!
2. Tell me about your first kiss.
ironically enough. i have not had one dnknfkgf <3
12. Do you have any pets?
yes omg.... my dog is named napoleon and he is my Best friend
13. How many siblings do you have? Are you oldest, middle, or youngest?
i answered this already but im too lazy to link it so - oldest, one little brother!
send me some gtkm asks!
#me: *only writes romance* / me irl: who. is that.#ask#asks#lumiereandcogsworth#ive dated people but never Clicked like that idk. im a late bloomer i guess !
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