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need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago
(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)
#my hands are still shaking to be quite honest i could not put a lot of effort into this.#but like. brain. why did you do that#literally i have been like hopelessly obsessed with de nonstop thinking abt it for the past couple of days it is Scaring me#it is terminal its soooo fucking chronic#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#for anyone who wants to know i bumped into some guys car that was stopped for a school bus. i think my brain errored and thought#my foot was fully pressing down on the brake pedal but it wasnt.#i am like 99.99 percent sure neither of us had any major damage to our cars but we still filed a police report just in case#because insurance do be a bitch. dudes back bumper was scratched lightly and my front license plate has a dent now#also literally my first ever car accident that ive had ever yippee yay
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felt the need to jegulusify two posts i came across
#this is so silly i just couldnt not do it#the panel is from tgcf fanart of a redraw of a punch drunk love panel neither of which things i know anything about#the arm is just a random photo i found in my art ref tag on my secret blog#they fit too well together hehe#this stretches the limits of what i would usually post on here quite a bit ngl#hp#jegulus#marauders#jegulus fanart#regulus black#james potter#james x regulus#regulus x james#james potter fanart#regulus black fanart#Marauders fanart#Mine#My art#*#if you saw me post this before#no you didnt
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God, I want Childhood Friend!Tim Drake
childhood friend!Tim whom your family trusts with your life for some twisted reason despite your protests about how he's more reckless than you
childhood friend!Tim who your friends all pester you about — well aware of the silly crush you've had on him since childhood
childhood friend!Tim who scared your family shitless when he revealed he dropped out of high school to search for his adoptive father
childhood friend!Tim who despite his status as drop out, your family still asks to have him over for dinner
childhood friend! Tim who has been at every single major event in your life whether in or out of his Robin mantle, flowers always in his arms as he greets you
childhood friend! Tim who has a file of photos of just you
childhood friend! Tim who happens to be... adding to that file at the moment
"Stop covering your face." He mumbles, fingers reaching to clasp around your wrist as you crane your neck to hide from his camera. "Please? Come on. You always look so pretty like this."
You only squirm in response.
"Come on." He whispers, pulling your wrist from your face as he's breathless from the way you look. "There you go. You're so pretty like this, birdie."
You try focusing on the way his camera clicks, but your eyes roll further back as he gives you a particularly harsh thrust — making you see stars. You trust that he wouldn't share the photos even if he was at death's door. You trust him with your life, but it doesn't mean you aren't embarrassed that he wants a photo of you like this so bad.
"Ah, Tim." You try, voice coming out in a whimper.
"Yes, birdie?"
"Close."
"That's right, birdie." A hand moves down to hold you down by the hip, speeding up. "Let me see that gorgeous look on your face when you cum."
You make him swear on his hard drive to never let the photo that he gets of you fucked out see the light of day. (not that he would've either way. only he gets to see you so vulnerable.)
#ever since I saw that leon post by secretlocket this format of tumblr fic writing has NOT left my head (neither has the fic)#i quite fortunately would not fuck my bbsf so instead of bestie like her post I am doing childhood friend#this is like. late night study thirst bc i have a final in 4 hours and im fucking manic rn#☾.nsfw#tim drake x reader#tim drake smut#☾.blend
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My take on a Sonadow fankid! She actually existed for a while now, but the trend gave me motivation to finally draw her!
Most sonadow fankids are purplish and tube-grown, so I decided to make her neither!
Background for the story under cut, in case it gets long!
So in this AU, stories from the more recent games happen when Sonic and Shadow are at most around 20 years old. Back then Sonic was rambunctious and reckless as we know him to be, and Shadow was a depressed, traumatized emo kid. While at first they were rivals as depicted in the games.
Over the years tho, just like their friends, the two matured. They started getting along a lot more, and became official friends, which eventually lead to dating. They both were afraid of getting serious though, so they took things slow and casual. Due to some of their unresolved issues, they couldn't get any closer. But not for much longer.
Some of it has been brought on by a Particular Event, and some of it due to restructuring how they go about saving the world, but things changed. As Forces has shown, putting so much responsibility on One Guy isn't wise. Sonic felt so quilty for failing, but it never should've been his job alone, so they created an organization, to share the load more evenly!
The org became global, with local groups of heroes being recruited all around, meaning that now the characters we know and love now had more time to take care of their personal lives.
While for some the change hasn't been much, Sonic, and to a lesser extent, Shadow, struggled quite a lot. Many of things happened in between, but eventually both of them grew to quite enjoy the domestic life.
They moved in together, and started taking things to the next level, now that both have done some healing and therapy. They found that they get along quite great. After a bit longer, they decided to start a family :)
Shadow came up with the name. He wanted to honor his sister's memory, but Mar-Mar was also a symbol of all his progress. He did go to therapy to make sure that he can handle them sharing a name, to see if it's a good idea, and well, it was!
She's now 4 and very loved, and her dads love each other very much as well. For a certain Sonic though, things won't go so great.
#sonic the hedgehog#sonadow#sonadow fankid#sonic oc#sth#sonic design#shadow the hedgehog#sonic#shadow#sonic au#my art#the art is kinda shitty bc i didnt wanna miss the train#feel free to ask any questions if ur curious abt any details this one is quite thought out#also they're married now :) they used matching earrings instead of wedding bands bc neither likes em#also i couldnt give less of a fuck about the shoes i Really wasnt in the mood so i halfassed it#gave up on shadow's completely ill design him new ones later#mar-mar the hedgehog
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I drew the same comic twice because I didn't think the first one was funny enough. I don't know if the second comic is funnier though??
Here's both of them
Side by side because i couldn't decide which one to put first - knowing the punchline changes the experience?? pick your adventure. read either one first.
which ones funnier i honestly can't tell
#this is what its like in my head when im writing comics#its cool to have an example#of how different the same joke can be#i mean i dont know if you think its cool but i think its cool#i think i have a favorite out of the two of them but its close#to be honest neither of them quite thread the needle for me#theyre not QUITE as funny as i want#but theyre still good#anyways#my art#miraculous ladybug#I did these a while ago. long tags sorry but how else am i supposed to tell you how im doing lately#found a bunch of comics that made me laugh#excited to post some of them#ill organize them soon and do a couple comic dumps
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I want it back / I drag its dead weight forward.
#Better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#This was a style experimentation doodle that took on a life of its own.#In a way it is a great example of 'beautiful failure'. The original goal was to try a pure black and white contrast piece.#Which I very much failed at doing. Not quite ready for that! However what this turned into is something I like a lot!#Different but in a way that really pushed me as an artist. A little less simple; a little more proportional.#I was also recently thinking about LWJ's grieving that we only catch glimpses of.#LWJ grieved his first love for 13 years. His love that was never reciprocated.#He chose to dedicate his heart to that mourning and most painfully of all - he did so knowing there was no end to that grief.#Wei Wuxian comes back to life in MDZS but that is an exception. Not the expectation.#He was dead. Not missing. Not 'maybe in hiding'. He was dead and his spirit unreachable.#Jiang Cheng went forwards with denial but LWJ takes that grief on. He copes by continuing to carry the weight with him.#Let me be clear. Neither are healthy approaches. It is a way to cope but it does not mean that is healing or healthy.#Grief is loved transformed but it is also about endurance and letting go. Grief can change you. You can also change your grief.#It isn't a good or evil thing to experience. It is just an experience.
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Something something Fitzjames and Hodgson are two of the most dandy-ish characters in The Terror but they're also two of the most dangerous; they've both been to war, both do the greatest damage to Tuunbaq using the weaponry they were trained in by the navy (Hodgson with the cannon and Fitzjames with the congreves), and Hodgson is also the one to kill the Inuit family, directly connecting the violence of imperialism with the gentlemanly facade it likes to use.
#the terror#the terror amc#james fitzjames#george hodgson#is this something#also I couldn't figure out how to word it in a way I liked but#I originally also had a second paragraph#about how it's also interesting#they they aren't just outwardly somewhat effeminate#but they're actually both quite sensitive#both in terms of their own emotions and in the way they treat others#as well as neither being particularly aggressive people at all#fitzjames makes a bitchy comment here and there but#he's not physically aggressive even when truly angry#and he seems to try very hard to be patient with people#hodgson of course is extremely mild-mannered#and they're also both artsy types#yet they were sent to war and did terrible things#and also experienced terrible things#and it doesn't matter what effect that might've had on them#because in the end they're just chess pieces for imperialism#tl;dr I was thinking about how hodgson and fitzjames both directly injure tuunbaq#and then realized the parallels
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im on my hadestown bullshit again but im also still on my SVSSS bullshit too so au where Shen Yuan gets transmigrated into a nameless NPC sometime after Bingge merges the realms and becomes the demonic emperor over like, basically everyone. And Shen Yuan manages to become an immortal cultivator and has a few years to himself to explore the world he's in, conveniently avoiding Bingge the whole time. Until eventually Shen Yuan joins what is essentially a traveling theater group.
They all love the strange stories he tells, ones he claimed he learned from far away places, and eventually ask him to write one as a play so that they can share it with the world. He does one better and writes a musical and slightly xianxia-izes Hadestown so it fits with the times better.
Eventually they learn everything, the music is st up, their lines learned, and the group rents out some kind of low-class stage for a night in a town that's neither too big nor too small. One that Bingge is conveniently passing through.
The actor for Orpheus falls 'sick' the opening night, and Shen Yuan gets convinced into taking the role by his. He has the prettiest voice, and he knows Orpheus' lines and character the best! Shen Yuan agrees.
Bingge attends that night too, and sits in the far back, in a seat where nobody can see him that well.
There is nothing to prepare him for the Tale of Orpheus and Eurydice.
Not the actor, who looks distressingly, uncannily similar to Shen Qingqiu, from the sharp curve of his jaw to the sound of his voice. It's Shen Yuan's saving grace that he has just enough differences that Bingge doesn't fly to his feet immediately.
Not the character Orpheus either. Who shares a distressingly similar worldview to the one Bingge once had a long, long time ago. A young man, a boy really, with so much hope for the world around him to near the point of naivety. Who believes that there is still good in the world and the people around him.
There's nothing to prepare him for Epic III. A song the lone Orpheus sings to convince Hades to let him and Eurydice go, one that rends Bingge of his flesh and leaves him feeling raw and wanting.
Suddenly he's no longer watching the stage; he's on it, standing in Hades' place, jaded and bitter and cold and reigning over all. Having become cruel like Shen Qingqiu once was. He stands in Hades' place, tall and imposing and powerful.
And there is a shadow of the past sitting at his feet. A boy in love with the world looking up at him, stripping him down to his soul, and asking him where he's been. Bingge stands in Hades' place, and just like that, becomes a man again.
#svsss#scum villain#luo bingge#luo binghe#svsss au#shen yuan#bingyuan#bingyuan au#tldr: epic iii from hadestown would fucking SCALP bingge i swear and i stand by this decision#bingge in the crowd on the verge of a qi deviation:#shen yuan singing his heart out on stage: thank GOD i never have to do this again#the orpheus actor wasnt actually sick it was a plot to get their Shen Yuan on stage because they wanted to listen to him sing#he has such a lovely voice even when he denies it and he's capable of such soulful expressions when he thinks he has a role to play.#ignore me i will project any and all creative arts headcanons onto my blorbos if i can. shen yuan is my newest target.#there was not a SINGLE dry eye after SY stopped singing. the room was fucking swallowed in a suffocating silence. like five seconds passed#before the next song kicked up because everyone -- even the actors -- needed a moment to recollect themselves and bask in the echoes#of shen yuan's voice. everyone was holding their breath. as if the world had suddenly stopped to listen to him sing#anyways yeah this was all a longwinded way to say: i think epic iii would gut bingge specifically like a fish#bingmei would relate with orpheus quite a bit too and the song would hit him hard#but bingge specifically is getting snatched by his fucking ponytail and dragged by this song methinks#neither binghes are getting out of this musical unscathed but bingge is arguably in the worser shape.
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scribbly sits and squats
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt leo#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt raph#avepharts#i just really felt like messing with pencil brushes and hatching and threw a bit of an artstyle switch in there with it#i quite like it i always like that soft pencil look#anyway i can't sit normally so neither can any of them goodbye
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I keep thinking about the trip back from the Amber Temple...
#theres quite a bit here i dont like but fuck it all will be well (:#not for alek tho#hes fucked.#or Strahd#neither of these two will be having a good time in the future#but i will be and thats what counts /j#alek gwilym#curse of strahd#dungeons and dragons#dnd#stralek#tome of strahd#interactive tome of strahd#cos#cos fanart#Barovia: Bugged#strahd von zarovich#digital art#artists on tumblr
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the thing about lestat and armand is that their relationship is literally incomprehensible. they are boy best friends they are codependent worsties they are archrivals they are platonic soulmates they are telepathic gossipers they are part time haters and full time ride or dies they are insane bisexuals but most importantly. they are toxic exes. despite the fact that they have never once dated. hope this helps
#they are the most compelling dynamic in the entire world anne put something different in their relationship#like god. they love each other so much but they can’t have a normal conversation about it. they just show up when the other is in trouble#neither of them has another relationship quite like the one they have with each other#I’m genuinely experiencing previously undiscovered emotions over them#single-handedly fueling my own lesmand boy best friends fic agenda#iwtv#interview with the vampire#the vampire chronicles#the vampire armand#lestat de lioncourt#lesmand#m watches iwtv
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I've been thinking lately about Vanitas and Noé's first "what is salvation" fight at the bal masqué and what it means about their individual definitions of the concept, and I've realized something about Vanitas.
Noé's definition of salvation is the obvious one. It feels natural. To save someone is to keep them from dying. But in a way, his understanding of salvation is also almost selfish. Noé's foundational trauma is the constant loss of his loved ones. He is the eternal sole survivor. So of course he wants to keep people alive—he wants to "save" the people he cares about in the way that keeps them by his side this time.
It's not wrong to want that, of course. I don't mean "selfish" as a condemnation. It's just that the definition of salvation that Noé starts the series with is inarguably the one that best serves his own happiness.
And it's the same with Vanitas.
When Vanitas kills the little girl Catherine by restoring her true name, he tells Noé he doesn't know what salvation is. He might be lying there, or he might be telling the truth in that he's never put his definition of salvation into words or acknowledged it on a conscious level. Either way, though, I do think he has a definition of salvation somewhere in his mind, and it's a very personal one.
Vanitas sees salvation as the preservation or restoration of one's true self. You're saved so long as you can preserve your essential self, uncorrupted by outside forces. Even if the price of that selfness is death.
While Noé's foundational trauma that informs his worldview is the loss of his loved ones, one of Vanitas's foundational traumas is the loss of his bodily autonomy. Through Moreau's experiments and Luna's mark/bite, he has been transformed into something no longer fully human, and he hates it. From the moment Luna told him he was dying, he said he wanted to die as himself rather than live as their kin, and he has been denied that opportunity.
Nothing is more important for Vanitas than being able to dictate the destiny of his own body, and malnomen are the ultimate corruption of bodily autonomy and selfness. Altering one's true name warps not only their physical body, but their very being on a metaphysical level. The curse takes everything a vampire is and changes it, and doing that to an unwilling victim is the ultimate horror for Vanitas.
Given that context, of course Vanitas thinks that killing a child to restore her true name counts as saving her. He's restoring her essential self and un-corrupting her body and being, and even if her self is only returned for an instant before she dies, it's preferable to living on as something warped by an outside force.
Vanitas absolutely starts the series with a definition of salvation, and like Noé, it's the one that best serves his own happiness. He wants to be saved. He wants to be returned to his human self, and failing that (since he knows it's impossible), he wants to wipe out all traces of the force that changed him and then die without going any further down the path of inhumanity.
Vanitas might not be able to admit that definition out loud (or even to himself directly), but it's there, and it guides him early in the series as much as Noé's own definition of salvation guides him in turn.
#and perhaps noé will learn to see death as a form of salvation when life is corruption#and perhaps vanitas will learn to see the value of preserving (his own) life#and perhaps they'll both find a definition of salvation that is neither of these things 👀#but that's not the point of this post#anyway this is one of those concepts that I've been orbiting around and maybe gestured toward before#but I don't think I ever quite put it in words or thought about this connection so directly#so here we are#vnc#vanitas no carte#the case study of vanitas#vanitas#vanitas my beloved#english major hours
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Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!
yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)
it's so common in fandoms!
I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.
I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔
I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.
anyway here's a doodle!
#that's autism for you#I'm sadly really picky and easily grossed out by things#I'm not even trying to be judgemental#I wish I was such a person that is just chill with everything but I have more icks than likes#so my fandom experience is like 80% discomfort and trying to avoid things without shutting out the majority of content in the first place#from what I heard I seem to have this problem particularly in this fandom bc the series is horror.#and I ship a toxic ship.#but I neither enjoy horror nor this trope. so what the fuck am I doing here#how did I get here. I'm lost guys#but yeah; it naturally attracts more people that are into quite dark or hardcore things#and I'm just sitting here with my soft dick in my hand wondering where it all went wrong#i don't belong here#I can't relate to 99% of people#honestly? I just... like Flug....... I just adore the autistic scientist#and I wanna SMOOCH him but I can't identify too well with myself or thus my sona#so how the fuck am I gonna smooch and love on this man#I need SOME second character for this!!#well Black Hat is pretty cool and easier to draw than the rest; I like his design...#so here we are.#I'm not really in it with my heart. I don't understand the essence of this ship. I'm a fandom blep#that's why a lot of content is probably disturbing and upsetting as hell to me.#but that's just my theroy..... a Joshi™ theory#sorry for rant I am bored and tired😔#enjoy#villainous#villanos#dr flug#kenning flugslys#my art#ask reply
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Back in college, during my first lab job, my cubiclemate Bill, who was like 50 or 60, asked me what my favorite theory of moon formation was. We had a nice little chat about it, he was a fan of the Giant Impact theory. No one really asks that one anymore, it is not really up for much of a debate, but I hope wherever he is, Bill's happy that he won.
#Cool as hell how what we know about the past keeps on increasing day by day#Lotta stuff we used to not know that by the virtue of human endeavor we now do know#He had no idea who my grandpa was when he asked#And quite frankly neither did I in regards to this topic#I don't have a point beyond remembering this guy fondly for a little bit
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late night chat
#meeple.png#inanimate insanity#inanimate insanity invitational#ii oj#ii mephone4#ii mephoj#not inherently shippy but it is based on the weird gay little version of iii in my head#anyway i think they should've had some kind of summer romance in iii that changes their view on their lives forever#and leaves them haunted by eachother in a way that neither will want to address but it sticks with them#oj is Stuck in his shitty hotel job and kind of caged himself into that the more he insists its Just the way it is and hes fine with it#while mephone has simply gotten used to running away and hiding as much as he can#neither are good coping mechanisms but the kind of experience and perspective they have could be exactly what they need to hear#oj needs to Fucking Quit while mephone needs to let himself find community and let others know him#so he doesn't feel like he Has to run or he Has to do it alone#oj has connections albeit some messier than others#and hes a bit of a bitch but definitely more liked than mephone#and mephone has the If It Sucks Hit The Bricks mentality and the bluntness to get that through to oj#oj also has the perspective of being a s1 vet which means he has a very different view on mephone than others might#and that could do some good in getting through to mephone how his host behavior can negatively affect the contestants involved#mephone views oj as more equal to him as theyre business partners. hes very friendly to him (even if one sided.) he might just listen#sorry if this rant is redundant btw im not reading back any of this HAHA
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it was such a risky narrative choice for black sails not to introduce the titular island in treasure island until the very end but I just love love love how it was done. the island is framed like a ghost story to the characters themselves, but of course it's already a ghost story to us, the audience, because we know exactly what it signifies. and even though the characters don't know that, it still manages to create such a deep feeling of mutual foreboding that transcends the fourth wall. skeleton island is a ghost story in the first place not because what has already happened there, but because of what will happen there. but everyone understands that it is a ghost story all too well.
#i don't quite know how to describe the feeling.... 'suspense' isn't enough and neither is 'dramatic irony'#UGH#black sails
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