#neglected patient

[diesarah0]

Tag yourself I am neglected patient🤪

[svtskneecaps]

i'm still stuck on the purgatories so here's a list of purgatory 2 moments simply off the top of my head that deserve to be remembered:

aimsey ducking all of axolotl team alone in a cave with literally half a heart

goose gang fucking descending on the raccoon base and absolutely wrecking shop

ethan crankgameplays clutching up for team panda during the capture the flag game by being the only one hanging out in the center and periodically checking the chests, earning them a shitton of flags and clutching multiple rounds

crow team's egg taking 0 damage

pac doxxing goose gang's egg in the last second

shelby shubble as the last member of her team online writing a letter to aimsey and sharing the world's most devastating ten minutes before her team was eliminated with one of the eye creatures (coco? i forgot lol)

badboyhalo absolutely fucking DEMOLISHING the battleship event on like 2 hours of sleep and a dream

wuant(?) stealing a tv from the battleship event and then playing portuguese ice age on it for the crows lmfao

tubbo djing for his team while waiting for the time for a goose gambit

theguill CRASHING THROUGH THE FUCKING CEILING of the raccoon team's hidey hole like the fucking kool aid man in a last effort to save his team and 4v1 or 5v1 ing team raccoon; he lost but that was such an epic fucking moment

theguill and etoiles pvping and each hyping the other's skills the entire time

seapeekay escaping cellbit and baghera and then stealing their boats and rocketing past to tease them about it; that shit was iconic

kenny going mad with power collecting sand on literally day 1

the english speaking squirrels taking actual physical notes on portuguese phrases (i think)

lgbtiba

i may add more this is an off the top of my head list but like got DAMN i like these events :D i like them a lot

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Resurrected the lab au for a second to make Lab Cesar look worse

[lightningant]

ill never tag a post pro snape because even though the very sight of him makes me explode with a love that brings me to my knees the thing i want to see most is him being put in a position where guilt is not enough and he must slave over the care of everyone he's ever wronged and finally accept that feeling sorry for himself made him a useless bitter cunt. which is not conducive to pro snape philosophy. i support him though

[gentleward]

I love you people who grew up as sick kids who were denied care by caregivers and/or professionals.

I love you people who had to learn how to hide your symptoms and are now so good at acting “fine” that nobody believes you.

I love you people who have always known something was wrong, but were never given the tools to express it.

I love you people who are jealous of those who received childhood intervention and adequate care.

Your experience was and still is in no way less important or less traumatic than those who received care and were allowed to express the pain. In case nobody told you yet or you need to hear it again, your pain has always been real, and you were treated unfairly. You never deserved that. I love you.

[izzyspussy]

we went over the 14yr long torture session in my last therapy visit actually, and i told her that toward the end i was fantasizing about and then actively considering walking into traffic because if i got catastrophically injured then they would have to treat my pain. and she told me that's not an uncommon thing for people to do. that she has heard that many times before.

like think about that. we are so moralistic about drug use and have politicized a particular type of medicine so much, and doctors are so uncompassionate toward and even suspicious of patients who are in pain because of it, that it's NOT UNCOMMON for people who are otherwise not suicidal to start completely genuinely longing to get hit by a fucking car just for the chance to be oh so graciously provided the absolute bare fucking minimum of care.

think about how many different things have pain as a symptom. how many things have pain as the only symptom the patient is aware of. how many of them are life or death crises. heart attacks. blood clots. strokes. bleeding ulcers. those are just what i can think of off the top of my fucking head, AND I'M NOT A FUCKING DOCTOR.

what i had, for example, feels exactly like appendicitis. and they left it for fourteen years because my only symptom was excruciating pain and i didn't fit their stupid little (completely unsupported by evidence, btw) diagnostic mnemonic. if it had been appendicitis, or anything else as immediately deadly that "just" hurts, i would have fucking died the same night i got sent home from the emergency room with "medical" "advice" to take some tylenol and rest - for the first time, that is. out of dozens. how many people do die that way?

because addicts are Bad. and because doctors are too arrogant and biased to practice medicine on the basis of evidence and informed consent when the profit model and conservative propaganda make it soooo easy to stay in the good old days of paternalism instead.

[novadreii]

Mmm actually I think we do owe love and care to our loved ones! We do owe each other things sometimes! There is a duty of care in our relationships that we should do our very best to uphold. It's the basis for human connection? An informal agreement we have with someone dear to us that we will support and cherish them and not just when it's easy and in the ways that feel effortless to us but also in the ways that they feel most loved.

We owe each other consideration. We owe each other a chance to chime in on important things and we should not make unilateral decisions. We owe each other reassurance sometimes too! Gasp!

I know that we're unlearning our generational trauma collectively but what's the point if we draw such hard boundaries around ourselves that nobody is let in, and nobody is helped, loved or considered when they really need it?

What is the point of being connected to another human being if it's understood between the two of you that if shit hits the fan, they are loyal only to themselves and you can get fucked?

I get it. We need to be self-sufficient. We can't rely on someone to the point of falling apart when they leave the house. But entering into a relationship or close friendship (or nurturing our existing familial relationships that are healthy) is a declaration that we CAN but don't WANT to be 100% self-sufficient anymore. We'd like to outsource a portion of our bandwidth to the other person. And in exchange, we take on some of theirs. It can't be rainbows all the time: again, most of us are traumatized by our parents in some way. We have behaviours that make us unpleasant sometimes! But why does that necessarily mean that we cut each other off when we show symptoms? When we actually need to cash in on some support the most? Where pray tell lies the nuance between "cut off abusive people who have no intention of changing" and "sometimes our loved ones can act ugly on the road to healing, but as long as they commit to bettering themselves I will see them through it"???? Does the latter not exist at all?

The act of caring and being cared for is one of the only fucking things we have left that can sustain our hearts in this bleak world. If you don't want to be burdened with the expectation of reciprocation in your relationships then what is the point of seeking connection? You are missing a fundamental fucking variable.

[guardevoir]

In other news, I'm on page 96* of my masters thesis.

So in case anyone was wondering, yes, you can get the actual writing part of a thesis** done in 4 weeks. Would I recommend it? Absolutely the fuck not, but my ADHD hellbrain demands stupid schedules, and at least I actually left myself a substantial amount of buffer for editing and shit and I'm right on schedule, so this is as reasonable and Hinged™ as it's gonna get with me.

Point is, if y'all ever had any questions about the actual "letters" part of medieval manuscripts*** as opposed to the pretty pictures****, now would be the time to ask lmao

I might nerd out about thesis stuff of my own volition some more at some point too, especially because I actually noticed some pretty neat shit here and there, but I need to get the damned thing done first before I throw myself into that rabbit hole. ---

*of 100. About 32k words thus far, not counting footnotes. Haven't added images yet (which count towards my page count), but I'm also gonna yeet a couple chapters so I think it'll work out quite nicely

**of above-average length no less! Standard for most related subjects at my university is 80 pages, I have no idea why my subject in particular wants 20 pages more than that

***(especially pre-11th century but I'm aware of later medieval and early modern shit too I guess)

****I did a bunch of art history too I guess but manuscript illumination isn't my specialty

[crimeronan]

re impending doom post, i think what most keyed my doctor and my rheumatology team in to the fact that i was dying was that i lost the capacity to perform Friendly Patient (TM). it is CRITICAL to be liked by doctors when chronically ill & i lean more fawn than fight or flight in real life situations, which means i am always a joy for doctors to treat. i'm upbeat and apologetic and curious and communicative and i'm like this even when in excruciating pain or in the ER for medical emergencies, because you CANNOT shut down around doctors when in pain, you CANNOT be quiet and withdrawn, you CANNOT be inarticulate, you MUST express your pain clearly and deferentially while being sweet and doe-eyed and complimentary if you want to avoid having "drug-seeking behavior" or "hypochondriac tendencies" written in your chart.

i stopped doing that when i got sick enough. not because it had stopped being important, bc it is important, it Shouldn't be important but it is. You Need To Perform To Survive A Doctor's Office. sometimes i see posts from ppl about how we shouldn't have to do that and i'm like you're absolutely right!! FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD THOUGH. KEEP DOING IT. FOR YOUR OWN SAFETYYY

but there was no fawn reflex when i was really really really sick, just like there was no fight or flight. i sat in doctors offices with a completely blank expression and offered no information whatsoever and relied entirely on my partners to speak and just kept repeating "i'm sorry. i can't talk," over and over.

[sparethedreamer]

Sick and tired of nurses and doctors having no idea what me/CFS is. Sick of hearing, "I've never heard of that.". So very tired of getting, "I've never seen someone in my office with that." I no longer wish to hear, "I have no idea what that is."

There are an estimated 2.5 million people in the USA (where I live) with myalgic encephalomyelitis. It has an estimated global prevalence rate between 0.2% and 2.8%.

Hello?? Medical community?? You might want to do at least a little bit of homework on this. I know you hate us, but especially with all the new peeps with Long Covid (very similar if not the same illness in many cases) you should at least know a tiny bit about this not-exactly-rare chronic illness.

[daftpatience]

From one fat person to another, doing god’s work making Draluc NOT skin and bone. That man needs to be fed.

YEAH!! i think for draluc it is a long and difficult gradual journey vs ronaldo who is able to put on a lot of good healthy weight easily thx to his lifestyle/eating better now that draluc is cooking for him BUT yes like my goal and headcanon is that draluc fills out thx to regularly feeding on ronaldo!!

it probably takes them awhile to do it regularly and draluc has to build up to being able to handle a lot of blood/get used to the feeling of a full stomach again BUT im sure keeping ronaldo well fed and looked after will make it tastier >:)

[diesarah0]

I can't anymore...💀😭

[chiropterx]

Randomly Generated Headcanons

Kirk Langstrom has an incredible long-term memory but an awful short-term memory.

If Kirk was presented with an intergalactic portal, they would enter it without question.

Kirk is smart but also very stupid.

Kirk is not good with social cues.

Kirk is an ugly crier.

Kirk forgets to eat sometimes.

Kirk needs a nightlight to sleep.

Kirk has fallen asleep at their desk while working in the middle of the night.

Kirk is a sleepwalker.

Kirk got hit by a bus once.

Kirk nearly drowned in a river as a child.

Kirk almost drank the lethal dosage of caffine once.

Kirk stole a lollipop at the checkout when they were 5 and they still feel guilty about it.

[toucansafari]

I love my cats but they can be a handful at the worst of times

[ink-asunder]

It's insane to me that doctors talk about "walking on eggshells" around the subject of terminative care and other gender/reproduction related procedures on the basis of "what if the patient regrets the procedure they consented to and sues me."

Bitch, you assclown, you motherfucker, you don't even give a fuck when a patient vocally and vehemently REFUSES consent for a procedure with risks. You just do it anyway and laugh off any reports to the state medical board about it. Give people abortions and HRT. Apologize to the millions of overmedicalized and physically complicated patients you've endangered, traumatized, harmed, and assaulted through carelessness, power issues, and negligence.

[sickpunk-selfshipper]

Your F/O accompanying you to doctor’s appointments and advocating on your behalf/ having your back about patient’s rights/ amplifying your voice so the medical professionals listen

Your F/O sitting down with you and showing you the heaps upon heaps of information they collected/ learned about patient advocacy

antis DNI! This post is not for anti-shippers