#negative associations evil 💀

[sordidmusings]

AAAAAAAAA I AM SO GLAD TO READ THIS AGAIN 🤍🤍🤍 thank you for asking me to beta!! And thank you for the dedication 😭🫂

Still laughing at the mention of him hoarding the display away from Luffy - it’s a gag that will never tire to me lol and you pace into things so nicely!! A quick setting description to both ground us and show off Sanji’s very characteristic eye for detail and then getting right into reader’s vigilance works perfectly.

On that note, reader’s vigilance with Sanji is one of my fav parts of this - he deserves someone who will pay him as much attention as he does others 👏 it’s also a good and natural way to show how in deep reader is (relatable tbh).

“Sanji was your dream man, but you felt unable to actually touch him, to get to the real man inside the character.”

LOVE this sentiment so much - as I’m sure I’ve said (but I will continue to yell) portraying Sanji with the girl crazies being somewhat of a front and even a defense against true intimacy is ALWAYS a fav it’s just too goooooood and you do an amazing job using little choices of interaction in this whole fic to portray the deeper person beneath that veneer he has.

“No, I want - I like sharing them”

STILL KICKIN MY FEET AT THIS the slip and timidity right after are so sweet and you just know Sanji was trying not to read to much into it even tho he wanted to hear that first version so much

Also, Sanji hating Valentine’s Day because men are disappointing is the realest 💀💀💀 not only does it play on when he overreacts to men as a gag but it also plays to his inherent empathy, which he shares especially readily with women.

Sanji’s speech on how he would treat his love has me in Deep Yearning and idk if I’ll ever recover, I simply need him 😩😭 I love how you filled it out and refined it, it’s just wonderful!! And so very him

THAT DESCRIPTION OF SANJIS SMILE AT RECEIVING GENUINE PRAISE GOT THE KOKORO GOIN I would simply have to give him a little kiss just like reader - who could possibly resist???? Also his reaction is so in character and I’d probably try and run away too whdhfihfjfjfjfnf

MY HEART IS BREAKING BUT ALSO SO SOFT AT THE “I wanted to” AND HIM FLINCHING AT AFFECTION HOW DARE YOU (never stop I BEG)

The description of the kiss is great too, a wonderful pay off for the build up!!! I especially love the “like you’d combust into smoke” continuing the previous imagery of them sharing the smoke together and such. How you describe his affect during the kiss is also a great payoff and I think feels very him and very genuine and a beautiful amount of tender and vulnerable.

Also you’re gonna make my heart melt with all the perfect nickname choices 😩

All in all, a joy of a read and so so tender and makes my heart so full. Thank you for writing and for sharing it with us 🤍🤍🤍

Hearts and Flowers (Sanji x Reader, Valentine's Day Special)

For @quinloki's Love Is In The Air event, I present my (day late) Sanji x Reader. All fluff, no bite. Dedicated to @thirstydiglett and @sordidmusings, my fellow Sanji simps.

@sordidmusings and @gouraminnow beta'd this for me and I appreciate it immensely.

WC: ~ 2k

Warnings: none <3

You swirled the pink colored drink Sanji had made for you as you watched him carefully cut fruits into heart shapes and place them delicately alongside the handmade chocolates he’d prepared in advance. You weren’t sure how he had managed to keep all this from Luffy but his efforts were paying off as the multi-tiered tower of desserts and treats for you, Nami and Robin came together under his watchful eye. The galley of the Sunny was decorated like one of those fancy magazines you’d read but couldn’t afford on islands - the counters were covered in tablecloths with red and pink decorations, cakes in the shapes of hearts and flowers were on the tables, and there was a mountain of wrapped presents waiting for you all, helpfully labeled with tags. 

You hadn’t known Sanji as long as Robin and Nami but had quickly understood the chef’s love of love when you came aboard the Thousand Sunny. He was always looking at beautiful women, always simping for you, Robin, and Nami, always thinking about his future bride and wedding. And yet, watching him place the melons and pineapple on the tower, you had an inkling something was amiss with the Love Chef.

“Sanji, do you like Valentine’s day?” you asked, genuinely curious.

“Of course! Who wouldn’t want to celebrate the love of Mellorines and -” he started to say, a smile on his face that didn’t match the brilliant one you’d come to know and love. You tried to stop yourself but you found yourself watching the chef near constantly when you weren’t working - you knew his body language, his mannerisms, and could even predict what moves he’d use when fighting Zoro on the deck. Which is how you knew the smile on his face wasn’t completely genuine.

“No, what I mean is - do you like Valentine’s day? You specifically?” Sanji’s beautiful hands paused after placing the last fruit on the platter as he stared blankly at the creation he had made. 

“Would you care to accompany me while I go smoke on the deck?” he asked you, reaching for the cigarettes in his shirt pocket. You hoped you hadn’t made him upset in some way; you wouldn’t say anything to intentionally hurt his feelings. 

You would never admit it to Robin and especially not Nami for fear of teasing, but you harbored a huge crush on Sanji. He was sweet, handsome, kind, helpful, and strong, everything you could ever want in a man. Sure, he could get a little silly or flirty, but you felt that if he was in a relationship he would be loyal. Sanji was your dream man, but you felt unable to actually touch him, to get to the real man inside the character.

“Oh, uh, sure,” you replied, hopping off the barrel that had been your makeshift chair. You left your pink drink on the table as you passed in front of Sanji, who was holding the door open for you to exit first. You thought he’d go to the side of the ship but instead Sanji started to walk towards the ladder to the crow’s nest.

“Oh, wow, up here?” you asked, starting to climb. You were wearing a skirt and hoped the view would tempt him to flirt with you a little. It didn’t take anything at all to have him espousing his eternal love or bleeding from his nose and that was well and good. You’d been trying to get him to show a little true emotion but maybe starting with flirting might help loosen him up. Sanji was a lot more reserved than most people gave him credit for. His outward emotions were real and reflected his heart but he didn’t often share the depths of his thoughts or feelings with anyone, much less with the newest member of the Strawhats. 

“Mmh. I don’t want to ruin my Valentine’s Day surprises for Nami-swan and Robin-chwaan!” he said, his tone falsely saccharine. You climbed the rest of the way in silence, going towards the open window to air out the smoke of his cigarettes. Standing next to you, Sanji lit up and inhaled deeply from his cigarette.

“Sanji, what’s going on?” you asked, putting your hand on his forearm in concern.”I didn’t mean to upset you.”

“You could never upset me, mon ange. But I have to admit I am a little surprised to be having this conversation. I - you’re the first person to ever ask me, but to answer plainly - no. I don’t like Valentine’s day. I haven’t since my days at the Baratie,” he explained, blowing smoke out the window. 

“Would you mind if I -?” you asked, sticking out your index and middle finger. 

“My pleasure, mon amor. Would you care for your own?” Sanji asked with a smile as he reached for the pack.

“No, I want - I like sharing them,” you said, aware a small blush was creeping up your face. Sanji didn’t say anything but placed his cigarette between your fingers, curling his long elegant ones around your palm for a moment.

“So, since the Baratie?” you asked, taking a drag of your own before passing back the cigarette.

“Mmh. Every year we’d get all these calls from wives and girlfriends, planning their own valentine's day celebrations. Sometimes the men would call, but not nearly as often. The women would be dolled up, looking incredible, while the men would be plain and boring, wearing unironed disgusting clothes. They’d bring tacky gifts that the women would pretend to like, while the men would pretend to listen to what their partners were saying. It was sickening,” Sanji spat, flicking the cigarette still between his fingers. He placed it gently once again between yours as you continued to listen. 

“It was so disgraceful, so distasteful, such a mockery of what love should be. If I was lucky enough to call someone my partner, they wouldn’t have to wait for Valentine’s day to feel the warmth of my love,” Sanji said with a faraway look in his eyes. You placed the cigarette back in his fingers, though it was nearly out. The tips of your fingers brushed his own as he looked you in the eyes. 

“Thank you, dearest heart. If I had someone who loved me as I loved them, they would know with every fiber of their being that I cared for them, that I yearned for them, that I needed them like I need air and water. I wouldn’t wait for some paltry date on the calendar to tell me to celebrate my love,” Sanji stated, flipping his hair out of his face as he continued. It fell immediately back into place as it was before but Sanji didn’t seem to notice.

“I’d celebrate every morning, noon, and night, cherishing my love with my whole heart. I’d devote every moment to making sure their life was as incredible as they made my own, whether that be in gift giving, or sweet words, or even just a gentle touch at the end of a long day,” he stated, rubbing his hand on the back of his neck.

“My partner would never have to look farther than my loving arms to find what they needed in the world, and if I couldn’t provide it I would step aside and let them find better. Valentine’s day? What a cruel joke. If I had someone love me as I loved them, every day would be as romantic as Valentine’s day,” Sanji concluded, stubbing out the cigarette. You weren’t quite sure what to say to Sanji’s impassioned speech but had a follow up question.

“Sanji, I - then why make the big production? The cakes, the presents, the food and champagne? Why all the work for a holiday you don’t like?” you asked, leaning closer to him. He gave you a soft smile and caressed your cheek with a thumb, his eyes shining with happiness.

“Because I don’t want you to feel unloved. Robin and Nami never had the luxury of having Valentines, they were…busy. And how could I exclude you, ma vie? No, all of you must have the perfect Valentine’s day celebration and who else could pull it off? Not some idiot Marimo that’s for sure,” he said, now pulling another cigarette from his pocket while he distracted himself with thoughts of Zoro.

“That’s so selfless, Sanji. Thank you, this really is the best Valentine’s day I’ve ever had,” you stammered, unsure what to say in the face of Sanji’s vulnerability.

“Then it was worth the effort,” Sanji replied with his true smile, the one that made his eyes close with how high his cheeks rose on his face. Watching him carefully, you placed your hands on either side of his face and pulled him down towards your own. Sanji’s stubble was rough on your palms as his blue eye opened wide. Holding his face between your smaller hands, you pecked him lightly on his full lips. You’d spent countless hours day-dreaming of this moment, of how it would happen, and how he would react.

“Happy Valentine’s Day, Sanji,” you whispered, letting go of his face. Sanji’s face turned bright red as his fingers rose to trace where your lips had been, his mouth slightly open. He wasn’t responding, just staring at you in silence as you fidgeted, gripping the hem of your skirt in your fists. You couldn’t look at him in the unbearable silence so you turned to go back down the ladder. Sanji caught your forearm gently before you could leave, pulling on it without force. As you turned to face him you saw his forehead was scrunched up, the swirly eyebrow you longed to trace with your finger tip tilted up in silent question.

“Mon cherie, you didn’t have to do that. I don’t need any kind of -” 

“I didn’t have to, I wanted to,” you said softly, reaching for his face like he had yours a few moments prior. He flinched back ever so slightly but allowed you to cup his cheek as you looked into his kind face, unguarded and vulnerable for a few moments longer before both of you had to return to reality and get back to party preparation.

“I’ve wanted to for a long time, Sanji. I’m sorry for not asking first, if you never want to talk about this again I, -” your voice was quiet but determined but you were cut off as Sanji leaned forward to return your kiss. One of his hands went to the back of your neck, holding the weight of your head in his splayed fingers, while the other wrapped around your waist and pulled you towards his lithe body. He kissed you tenderly, almost reverently, like you’d combust into smoke should he press too hard. His lips sought yours at every turn, gently coaxing you into opening your mouth for him so he could deepen the kiss. He moaned into your mouth when you nipped his lip gently with your teeth before returning the favor. He was breathing heavily as he began to press kisses into the column of your neck.

“Ma bichette, please, do me the honor of being my Valentine this year,” he mumbled into your skin as you tilted your head to the side to give him more access.

“I t-thought you didn’t li-ike Valentine’s day,” you squeaked as he mouthed over your jaw. His eyes looked up at your own as he smiled.

“You have shown me the error of my ways, mon tresor.”

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Hello! I am SO hyperfixated on the fact that the overblot form CAN be controlled??? That’s the case with Malleus isn’t it? And I guess on one hand I can see how Idia can control it too because of his “curse/blessing” (and sheer will and spite).

Maybe this is foreshadowing that maybe it’s possible for the other OB boys to do so as well???? I don’t know how it’ll work with them but I’m so excited. Overblot cards potential AAAH

I’d love to hear more of your thoughts on this!

[Referencing this post!}

Yeah, I definitely think that OB Idia battle segment opens the floodgates for potential SSR Overblot Troublemaker(s) cards 💀 (RIP to the OB gang fans)

As a refresher for everyone (since it has been a while), alllllll the way back in book 1, Crowley and Cater describe “overblot” as thus: “[… being] overcome by negative energy and[…] losing control of [one’s] magic and emotions,” and “evil berserk mode”.

We’ve seen many examples of these traits in the main story campaign; oftentimes, the OB boy in question is impossible to reason with and has to be subdued via battle. However, it’s important to note that while the OBs may be primarily driven by their emotions, it is not purely rage but rather negative feelings in general. Yes, many OBs (Riddle, Leona, Azul, Vil, etc.) do attack others—but other OBs demonstrate moments of calm (ie when their demands are met). For example, Jamil is tame when he believes he has banished Kalim, secured hypnotized Scarabia mobs, and reigns over the dorm as its new leader. I do believe anger is still a large component of the behavior of one who has overblotted though; that rage most certainly clouds a person’s judgment and compels them to strike out at the slightest thing.

Now, about the idea of “controlling” OBs… I don’t that that can actually be done?? We have to remember that Malleus is a VERY powerful mage—and this alone could give him an “edge” that others don’t when it comes to being fully aware while in OB (though I believe both Malleus and Vil indicate early on they notice their blot building). As Idia’s dad states, Malleus is drawing his magic from nature itself and therefore has a limitless supply it. Secondly, I wouldn’t call Malleus’s OB “controlling” it to begin with. It’s clear that he’s still running high on emotions and is unwilling to hear others out or have them interfere with his plans. These are still traits associated with OB; it’s not as though Malleus is “overriding” the unreasonable thoughts, he is still ruled by them and acts on them. I think what you (maybe?) mean is that Malleus has a much more calculating approach and more precise control over how he wields his power rather than indiscriminately smashing stuff in his path. This, again, could do with his insane power level compared to his peers. Unlike most other OBs, his goal (at least in his own framing) before he overblotted to begin with wasn’t to “take away”, but rather to “gift” happy endings to everyone. This sets him apart just based on interests alone, and that’s perhaps why he acts the most different in the lot.

Now let’s consider the circumstances under which Idia OBs a second time: it’s in a dream, meaning it’s questionable whether or not this would transfer over to real life. Because it’s Idia’s dream, he has more autonomy in it, particularly because he is now “awake”/conscious of the fact that it is a dream. Secondly, Idia bears the Shroud family’s curse/blessing, which allows him to “power up” the more blot is present, as it serves as fuel for his magic. This alone makes him a “special case” which could explain the unusual amount of control he exerts over his OB form. (Again though, I’d wager it’s mostly the dream environment.)

I do see maybe the other OB boys doing a similar “oh, lemme OB to help you guys fight” in a dream situation where there are fewer limits on what they can do, but not in a real world setting. It would put them all at risk anyway, as they lack Idia’s curse/blessing or Malleus’s fae powers. Is that worth the risk, knowing they could all die or potentially turn on their classmates?

I just don’t see OB becoming a “tool” or a magical girl transformation the characters could pull out for combat purposes in the story (though this is possible for like the gameplay outside of the story). I highly doubt OB is like something you could train yourself to control; it’s less like bulking up at the gym and more like pushing yourself to keep exercising while you’re high on adrenaline… Sooner or later, you’d burn out and injure yourself in that overexertion.

If there ever are OB cards, I can easily see them as being the type that don’t come with vignettes because… what reasonable story could you conjure up to explain the OBing again? If there are vignettes, then they most likely won’t fit into the main story canon. You’d have to frame the OB cards as “within the moment” of whatever book they OB’d in, and perhaps go more in-depth about the trauma or something along those lines.

[blue-lotus333]

💀Goddesses of death💀

Ereshkigal: Mesopotamian goddess of death, the dead, and the underworld.

Ereshkigal is the queen of the underworld, the keeper of balance, the punisher of evil & maintains order against chaos. She may have also been associated with the earth & the waters of life in Mesopotamian legend. She was associated with the city of Kutha and featured in the myth of Inanna's Descent to the Underworld. She was also connected to other deities such as Nergal, Ninazu, and Ningishzida. Ereshkigal was said to be the sister of Inanna.

Oya: African Goddess/orisha of death, storms, winds & thunder.

Oya is a powerful goddess/orisha in Nigeria who controls storms and death and is married to the thunder god, Shango. She is a shape-shifter who often appears as a mortal woman or animal while overseeing justice and bringing sudden change. She is also a guardian of women and the dead, able to call forth death or delay it. Oya is associated with rebirth and magic, and her favorite colors are maroon and copper.

The Keres: Greek goddesses of Death, bloodshed & violence.

The Keres were female death spirits and goddesses who personified violent death. They were drawn to bloody, intense deaths on battlefields and were daughters of Nyx, Goddess of Night. They did not have the power to kill but would wait and then feast on the dead. They were described as dark beings with gnashing teeth & claws, with a thirst for human blood. They would hover over the battlefield and search for dying/ wounded men.

The Morrigan: Irish Goddess of death, fate, war & sovereignty.

The Morrígan, also called the Phantom Queen, is a bewitching goddess associated with war and fate, often appearing as a crow, encouraging bravery and strength in battle, & foretells doom or victory. The Morrígan is often described as a trio of sisters, representing the goddess's role as a guardian and warrior. She can appear in many forms like an old woman, a crow, a beautiful sorceress, or a fearsome creature.

Mictecacihuatl: Aztec Goddess of death & the underworld.

Also known as the Lady of the Dead, Alongside Mictlantecuhtli, her consort, she rules over Mictlán, the lowest Aztec underworld realm. She guides the departed souls on their transformative journey from life to the afterlife and embodies the profound duality of existence. The Dia de los Muertos is a vibrant festival that allows families to honor deceased loved ones with ofrendas and calavera imagery, inspired by Mictecacihuatl, who is now called Santa La muerte.

Kali-ma: Hindu Goddess of destruction, death, change & time.

Kali-ma is the wrathful & protective force of Shakti (energy), She's a caring mother to her devotees/innocent people and the destroyer of evil, she expresses the dual nature of the destruction that must come before new beginnings. Kali ma embodies the power of all, transcending good & evil to protect her people against negativity. Kali ma is Mother Nature, primordial, nurturing, and devouring, She is vested in freeing beings, granting salvation.

Hel: Norse Goddess of death, the underworld & decay.

Hel, the half living and half dead goddess, is one of Loki's children, and rules over the realm of the dead, she mostly receives those who died of illness or old age in her realm. Hel is often depicted as a fearsome figure, and in Her realm, Helheim, is considered one of the nine worlds in Norse cosmology and is located in the lowest part of the universe. In the events of Ragnarok, Hel plays a crucial role. It is foretold that she will lead an army of the dead to fight against the gods.

Morana: Slavic Goddess of death, winter, magic & dreams.

Morana is a Slavic goddess associated with seasonal agrarian rites based on the idea of death and rebirth of nature. the death of Morana at the end of winter becomes the rebirth of Spring of the Goddess Vesna, representing the coming of Spring, joy & life. She is still worshipped to this day and is often described as a vengeful, powerful goddess. She is married to the spring/love God Yarilo but their relationship is not seen as healthy.

Izanami: Japanese Goddess of Death, darkness & creation.

Izanami is a Shintō creation mother goddess who became the Japanese goddess of death after she died while giving birth. Her name, Izanami, means ''the female who invites.''. She can create many lands and other divine beings, has the power of death and could command gods/spirits of the underworld. Izanami & Izanagi are the creators of the Japanese archipelago and the creators of the powerful deities Amaterasu, Tsukuyomi, and Susanoo.

[noahsresources]

HOW WOULD YOUR MUSE DESCRIBE MINE ? ( NEGATIVE ASSOCIATIONS )

send an emoji (and/or the description of them) to let them know! if it helps, think about finishing the following sentence from the perspective of your muse: "i think you're _____." (terms source)

😡 [RED ANGRY FACE] — aggressive

😒 [UNAMUSED FACE] — aloof

🤬 [FACE WITH SYMBOLS OVER MOUTH] — angry

😰 [ANXIOUS FACE WITH SWEAT] — anxious

🫵 [INDEX POINTING AT THE VIEWER] — argumentative

👅 [TONGUE] — arrogant

😉 [WINKING FACE] — cheeky

👶 [BABY] — childish

🪃 [BOOMERANG] — cocky

🪞 [MIRROR] — conceited

🩸 [DROP OF BLOOD] — cruel

🚪 [DOOR] — cynical

🔫 [WATER PISTOL] — dangerous

💥 [EXPLOSION] — daring

🌑 [NEW MOON] — dark

⚠️ [WARNING] — defiant

😣 [PERSEVERING FACE] — difficult

🗯️ [ANGRY SPEECH BUBBLE] — dishonest

🖕 [MIDDLE FINGER] — disrespectful

🫠 [MELTING FACE] — ditsy

😭 [LOUDLY CRYING FACE] — emotional

🖤 [BLACK HEART] — evil

😱 [FACE SCREAMING IN FEAR] — fearful

🗑️ [WASTEBASKET] — filthy

💔 [BROKEN HEART] — fragile

🌧️ [CLOUD WITH RAIN] — gloomy

🤑 [MONEY-MOUTH FACE] — greedy

🙎 [PERSON POUTING] — grumpy

😓 [DOWNCAST FACE WITH SWEAT] — harsh

🧨 [FIRECRACKER] — hateful

🤣 [ROFL FACE] — hyper

🙄 [FACE WITH ROLLING EYES] — ignorant

🧒 [CHILD] — immature

😖 [CONFOUNDED FACE] — impatient

😪 [SLEEPY FACE] — impolite

🛹 [SKATEBOARD] — impulsive

🐣 [HATCHING CHICK] — innocent

⚡️ [LIGHTNING BOLT] — intense

💦 [WATER DROPLETS] — irrational

❎ [X MARK] — jealous

🥱 [YAWNING FACE] — lazy

🗣️ [SPEAKING SILHOUETTE HEAD] — loud

😩 [WEARY FACE] — moody

🫲 [LEFTWARD HAND] — needy

🫦 [BITING LIP] — nervous

😝 [SQUINTING FACE WITH TONGUE] — obnoxious

❌ [CROSS MARK] — offensive

👎 [THUMBS DOWN] — pessimistic

🥢 [CHOPSTICKS] — picky

🧊 [ICE] — prejudiced

👏 [CLAPPING HANDS] — proud

😤 [FACE WITH STEAM FROM NOSE] — pushy

🤐 [FACE WITH A ZIPPER MOUTH] — reserved

🍾 [BOTTLE WITH POPPING CORK] — rowdy

💫 [DIZZY SYMBOL] — sarcastic

🐍 [SNAKE] — sassy

😋 [SMILING FACE LICKING LIPS] — scatterbrained

📒 [LEDGER] — secretive

🏴‍☠️ [PIRATE FLAG] — selfish

🥺 [PLEADING FACE] — sensitive

🫣 [FACE WITH PEEKING EYE] — shy

😴 [SLEEPING FACE] — sleepy

💄 [LIPSTICK] — snobbish

👆 [INDEX FINGER] — strict

🥶 [COLD FACE] — stubborn

🤨 [FACE WITH RAISED EYEBROW] — suspicious

😥 [SAD BUT RELIEVED FACE] — timid

🤯 [EXPLODING HEAD] — unstable

💀 [SKULL] — untrustworthy

🤜 [RIGHT-FACING FIST] — uptight

💅 [NAIL POLISH] — vain

⚔️ [CROSSED SWORDS] — vicious

☄️ [COMET] — volatile

🙅 [PERSON GESTURING NO] — vulgar

👿 [ANGRY FACE WITH HORNS] — wrathful

[rainbowdaisy13]

Yeah, that alleged music industry person who trying to tell that OG Kaylor about how Taylor acts in private was just trying to say that they think Taylor seems to have a naturally whiny/bratty personality when she's not in public, they weren't trying to say that she is actually a mean or rude evil person in private but that she acted pretty childish and clingy and just kind of like a bratty little kid in private and that her friends and Karlie were generally okay with it as long as she wasn't being overly obnoxious and that Karlie definitely had the highest tolerance for Taylor when she was being really over the top and also mentioned that sometimes after Taylor stopped being a huge brat Karlie would give her a piggyback ride and that Taylor loved it.

Honestly, I'm just going to say it, even without what that alleged music industry person said, Taylor acts a lot like someone on the autism spectrum, and I've thought that for a long time because I'm a 30 year old autistic woman and I can easily recognize that she has a hell of a lot of behaviors associated with being autistic.

And just autism alone can make being in public super awkward because of our issues recognizing social cues from others even if you don't also have a naturally clingy, kind of childish personality like Taylor seems she probably has. Plus Taylor's parents pulling her out of high school to do weird Bible-centric homeschooling with her while she was on tour with a bunch of adults and no other kids would've just made her trying to figure out how to function around people she doesn't work with let alone her same age peeers "normally" even more difficult for her.

I'm not "diagnosing" Taylor or anything, I'm just saying that I can recognize traits in Taylor that I have and people I know have that are considered to not be neurotypical and that I can sympathize with her having difficulties with interpersonal interaction in a public forum because I have those exact same difficulties but somehow even worse than her lol RIP me, it's truly awful and kinda humiliating tbh 💀

I think it’s totally valid as someone who has personal experience with autism to say “I recognize this in this person” and frankly online spaces losing their fucking marbles over that says more about them having negative internal reactions to people who are different than themselves more than anything else

Thank you for sharing your experience—it has to be really fucking hard sometimes navigating a world that expects communication to always follow a predetermined path

[wondercrushed]

💀

🏴‍☠️

Story Time

Today I spent at least 5h trying to figure out some small tech thing.

Instead of saying that this was such a huge waste of my time and getting super mad at myself though, I'm just gonna go ahead and talk to the tech people at school tmw to resolve it. Instead of getting mad at myself, I'm just going to say one little thing that maybe when we start working on something super little and nit picky, we can give ourselves as much time as we want but as long as we are listening to the same thing all the way through.

As a girlie with a hard-wired brain AND daddy issues I really have so much empathy for other girlies who channel their hard headedness into places like these where your daddy issues can really be your kryptonite and your superpower at the same time.

I started getting so frustrated with myself asking demeaning questions like:

why doesn't my life have any windows? it's so dark :(

why am i like this?

why am i wasting my time like this?

why couldn't i have just been born into a diff era?

why why why ... etc

and then it felt so good to cry. i mean like i tried everything. i called them 1st ofc nobody picked up, i kept reorganizing things, then i emailed someone back, i made like 2 new accounts of sorts and added security to 4 diff accounts and then after i was like why didn't i get any work done... ?

Guess it doesn't matter anyhow -me OK. It's Reality Check O'clock.

1st of all you did get some work done so don't let those creepy crawly wormy ants and brain monsters get to you

This is just the age we are living in.

Whether you want to romanticize it or let it eat you up all the way along with all of your woes, the choice is mostly up to you.

hm

OK but what if we can we marry good and evil? What if we can dare to conjoin evolution and biblical tradition? whatever happened before and after the fall??

This book truly gets at the ruthlessness of our own human nature.

ahem spending 3h sitting in front of ur computer not listening to an audiobook ex: beloved

Looking beyond the simple dichotomy between good and evil, it slyly hints at the misery of the caged and enslaved humani. The very culprit may be the cerebral cortex. However, it is only negative when viewed in isolation...

from the rest of the brain, that being the more ancient subcortical and cerebellar systems. What did we evolve from and what do we appear to have lost that we may be on the cusp of repossessing? How can we view our own brains with the same integrity as the ancients did?? Giving ourselves the same

grace, but less harshness and the recognition that power is a prison and that death is a life.

Now that we have the internet everything is so connected and our association cortex is probably growing faster than ever. Our association cortex is responsible for the complex processing that goes on between the arrival of input in the primary sensory cortices and the generation of behavior... IMPULSIVE SHIT but probably also not being able to stop type shit too. We need not view that part of our brains as apart from the subcortical and cerebellar systems because that simply eradicates the need to hold anyone who does anything impulsive accountable for anything :)

This seems very on par w 2000s energy

To bring my point home, "The people - that great beast." -Alexander Hamilton. Now that we've admitted we are all beasts, we can pray.

I pray that all of the hours you spend daunting over moons so far away are pardoned and you never quite imagined how whole heartedly every second was re payed. The coziest hug you ever imagined was given to you from the other side. Turtles all the way down from the heart of the earth. No moments were wasted or lost and every secret was kept beneath your pillow. On your way to sleep with effervescent spurr like horns when twilight comes blessing your listless memories like these ancient horns that just wilt away into mystical musical ones with time no longer piercing or poking at you. Now they are just like the one hunting horn that Hillarion blows in the ballet Gisselle as a signal for the prince to return, expose the impostor, reveal that Loys was not meant for Giselle and then she lets her hair down and dances herself to death.

[rovermcfly]

Disney characters aren't real people. I'm pointing out an issue in mainstream animation and character design, not in the existence of real women 💀

But here's the subtext of the post spelled out for you:

misogyny, antisemitism and racism have created a media landscape where features such as big noses on women became associated with being evil, which went as far as female disney characters having faces distorted to the point of looking more like bugs than real humans because the idea of allowing anything other than an extreme carricature of western beauty ideals was unthinkable. therefore a movie that puts no such moral value on certain features and shows characters with a diverse set of realistic features is progress that will help real life people not feel branded for their appearance. The negative psychological effect often starts with children getting bullied because their features are only associated with evil and "ugly" characters and has its roots in propaganda designed to stir hate against minority groups (such as antisemitic caricatures or minstrel characters) and it affects the way everyone subconsciously thinks about certain features, leading to a culture where certain minorities are either subconsciously or intentionally looked down upon because only negative associations with their appearance or identities exist.

"#every single one is still too good for you Chad"

They're fake. they're fictional characters. They're animated, fictional characters that aren't real. They can't be "too" anything for me because they're not real and noone can interact with them and they don't exist.

no but the women's noses in encanto 😍😍 it's not just old or evil women having bigger or downturned noses, it's a common feature in the madrigal family and noone has the tiny disney princess button nose that sets unrealistic standards and makes them look like bugs