#myownposts

[missnobodymadness]

I feel like the loneliness of a person with SzPD is usually overlooked, I'm guessing it is because people assume we can't feel it but that is far from the truth, the loneliness is always there for us and some are occasionally haunted by it.

We're still humans at the end of the day, a naturally gregarious species that depends on each other for pretty much everything, being a schizoid is like living against your own nature and have you seen what that does to a living being? They start to develop stereotypical behaviors and some have a huge impact on their neurological health, causing irreversible damage.

The loneliness I feel as a schizoid person is a strange one, hard to explain but if I had to name it, I would call it "Void", a void that never goes away, sometimes I can ignore it, other times it hurts like a dagger cutting my chest open.

I don't miss the interaction, being around people or going out with my friends, I miss what I was supposed to be as a gregarious species, I long to feel the warm people talk about, the love, care and empathy that are supposed to give color to our lives, I guess my kind of loneliness can be summed to what I never had and know will never be able to have and feel.

[a-secret-land]

𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖘 | Howl’s Moving Castle (2004)

[whatwherewhy23]

browsing my own blog as entertainment this is like tumblr incest

[my-ocs-are-problematic]

I love that ❤❤❤ now looking through a specific tag tumblr will just pull up random posts in-between stuff that's actually tagged❤❤❤❤ post from random fandom that has nothing to do with what I was looking for ❤❤❤ stuff thats not tagged with what I was looking up ❤❤❤ thank you staff❤❤❤

[theriddlerisanerd]

They dropped this on us as if we knew about the Diet Coke button

[prince-aegon-targaryen]

Otto Hightower anytime Daemon does anything

[gorda-das-trevas]

By the way, you have no idea how relieved I was when I saw Jerry was alive LMAO Don’t ever let my precious baby to die, please

[tawnyoftarth-blog]

The Weddings of Game of Thrones

[effingstiles]

[missnobodymadness]

The perfect combo between gracefulness and badass, the one and only Queen, I love this woman.

(So happy to see my favourite manga arc finally being animated, I was very anxious for this but was finishing other stuff so I am late for the party and only now had time to watch these episodes eheh)

[missnobodymadness]

First time I tried an animation and I ain't doing it again, not for me, literally took me a full year to finish 30 frames and for what? For a 1 second animation that is not even original work, it is traced from print screens of the anime because I can't draw. :'D

Anyway, have Myline exploring more about her father's clan, listening to Itachi telling her about its story while showing her the clan's former hideout/base.

The scene takes place days before his death on the same exact place.

[missnobodymadness]

I'm worried for the recent raise on fatphobia and homophobia (as in, the whole LGBTQIA+ community) around social media, I think Tumblr is the only place I haven't seen that happening, but in places like TikTok, Instagram and Twitter it seems to be very rampant.

I'm afraid that we, as a society, are going backwards once again, I'm starting to be afraid of being who I am...again. And I hate it. I'm even afraid of posting photos where my hands are visible, because they give my size away, I am even afraid of simply taking photos of myself, just the thought of storaging them on my device is anxiety fuel. I can hide my orientation and gender, but I can't hide my body in real life and that's really scary for me.

What is happening with this world? Why are people attacking the LGBTQIA+ and fat people so much nowadays? Why are we normalizing fatphobia on TikTok? Especially in an era where you can easily do your own research and stop being so ignorant about the subject. Do people really think that fat people never tried to lose weight before? Do they really think we aren't aware of our weight? And don't get me started on the gym shit, they tell us to go to the gym and yet, won't welcome us there either. Make up your fucking mind.

Oh, and please, pick a dictionary and search for the "romanticize" word, you all really need to know what that word means, maybe you will understand that no one romanticizes obesity, that's not a thing. Thank you.

[missnobodymadness]

Found this super cute free lineart on deviantART and decided to give it a try with my boy Rastakah and my girl Thabisa!

I know this looks really cute but what is happening here is actually Thabisa manipulating Rastakah while secretly hating his guts. LMAO

[missnobodymadness]

Vent below

Today (12th) marks one year that I lost the most precious living being that ever crossed my life. My beautiful son, Slash. It hurts to know that despite all the therapy I've been doing, the pain and void never got better, it is scary how it still feels like it was yesterday, the only thing that went away was the anxiety I felt on that day, everything else is still feeling just as fresh...this wound never closed, in fact, it feels like it only got bigger since then. I've been feeling lonely and totally hopeless since he left. And I feel guilty...for feeling like this, for not standing my ground and giving up, for resorting to my old ways, especially binge eating and self-destruction... I feel horrible because everytime I think about him, I think about how he would hate to see me like this again and it hurts like hell to not being able to get back on my feet for him, I just want to do it for my precious little boy but there is something pushing and keeping me down and it makes me feel like I never loved him enough for that.

I'm crying my eyes out while I write this, that cat was my everything and I have no idea how I am supposed to live without the only being that made me feel like I had a purpose to be here.

Sorry for the rant but I know that you people won't judge me, I am just tired of people saying "it's just a cat" and belittling my pain, they have no idea how much "that cat" meant to me and I'm pretty sure they will never be loved the same way I loved him.

I wish you could still be here with me, Slash, I love you to the moon and back.

[missnobodymadness]

Next backstory I need: Sylvia aka Handler. Please, please, please, she is on my top 3 favourite characters from Spy x Family and I am dying to know more about her story after all of the scenes we've seen of her so far, I'm sure it would make me cry like a baby all over again for sure.

[missnobodymadness]

Crying my eyes out with Spy x Family last chapters, next ones better be filled with comedy because I need a break.