#my very first bias plus my current forever bias

[sunlitlemonade]

YOU WATCH F1 TOO?!?!?!?!???????!?? RAHHHHHHHHH🏎🏎🏎🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 can we plz get thoughts on drivers 👀🥺🙏🫣🫣🫣🫦

anon i know you sent this sometime around suzuka but that last emoji made me laugh every time i tried answering this. as for the drivers......... sigh. I'm swinging a very bedazzled bat at a swarming hornets' nest. pray for me.

under the cut because i yapped a LOT. also. uh. possible slander. so like.

Red Bull Racing

Max Verstappen: starting off strong here with my favourite guy of all time. He's Inevitable™. He's fast. He's amazing. He's sweet and blunt and gorgeous and I want everything good for him. He's phenomenal, he moves me, he makes it's so easy to root for him and yet, it's incredibly taxing to be a fan given the British bias in F1 journalism and the fandom, not to mention FIA occasionally losing it's goddamn mind.

Sergio 'Checo' Perez: I'm actually so fond of him. His recent performances leave more to desired, I know, but fuck if he isn't the funniest mf around. Also it's simply a matter of time when he gets back in form [the bias is STRONG here I'm aware]. Also he's an extremely good second driver because I for one think he knows how to handle a team built around his teammate. I don't think any other driver on the current grid would have gelled with Max and Red Bull's structure [and strategy to win] the way Checo has.

Ferrari

Charles Leclerc: Il Predestinato. Saint Leclerc. Curse bearer and curse breaker. He's made to be a dream. He can make the hopeless hope. I know I said Max is generational talent but we're quite lucky to be in this era where we have not one, but TWO generational talents because Charles..... this guy..... you have to be blind to not see the sheer talent and insanity this man holds. Ferrari get your shit together istg. I need a Verstappen - Leclerc WDC fight. IT WILL BE GLORIOUS.

Carlos Sainz: *cough* ok, so, I wanna start off by saying I do think he's a chill guy off-track, ok? I really do think that. He's funny, quick, hot [ofc]. As a driver though. I just. He's good --not as good as F1 media wanted you to believe after his win in Australia and the circumstances surrounding it [WDC material??? Any GP winner now is considered WDC material??? ok]-- but he whines A LOT and I would actually prefer if his aggressiveness on track is directed less at his own teammate and more on their opposition? That would be cool. Plus sometimes he forgets it's not 'yippee we are all friends haha' all the time and inevitably fires up when someone serves cunt on track and he's bearing the brunt of it. I call it the Mclaren syndrome if anyone is interested.

Mclaren

enough said [ignore the shit quality i grabbed the first template i could find sjskdjfke]

Mercedes

George Russell: HES SUCH A HILARIOUS DIVA!!!! WHO DOESNT LOVE THIS GUY?? He's so entertaining and fun and he is a very good driver! I feel like we still have yet to see all he can achieve and I am very excited to see what happens next.

Lewis Hamilton: Legend. I truly have nothing else to add. Forget his fanbase, forget his tunnel vision when it comes to winning [and this applies to almost every driver, most of all my favourite ones lol], he's seven time world champion for a reason. Since we're asking for my opinions here though, I'll tell you this: anytime he wins I'm happy enough to see it [though I will forever want to see my favs on P1], any time he doesn't I don't care much, if he has a bad race I will give it less notice- basically, he exists in the periphery of my vision. I have been in awe of him for years and admire him but I cannot call myself a fan. One thing I can't help but obsess over is how cunty and unapologetic he is [which is also something that I love about Max].

Alpine

Esteban Ocon: He's a good driver, he's grinded hard to be here in F1 and I love to see it. Also, he's geek! In my books, that's always a plus.

Pierre Gasly: He's actually one of the most unremarkable drivers on the grid currently. Like there's nothing wrong with him and every time he pops up in interviews or whatever he's fun to see but that's about it? Honestly he seems like a cool guy, a driver okay enough but doesn't stand out much to me in anyway skdjhsjd

Sauber

Valtteri Bottas: THE MOST UNDERRATED DRIVER EVER MAYBE????? I love this dude and I'm hoping he can get something better than the tractor he has this season, as unlikely as it is.

Zhou Guanyu: Again, he's a nice enough driver and I really enjoy his vibe but he's crawling on the track in the tractor Sauber cooked up and I don't really know what to think of him beyond what I have stated.

Aston Martin

Fernando Alonso: Anyone who has a problem with Mr. Alonso has a problem with me. This is a strict Alonso Stan account, I do not take criticism and idc what anyone else has to say about him. He's a legend, he's an icon, he's the spirit of F1. I'm quite literally obsessed with him. You know what. Max is the Only One for me BUT if Fernando happened to win a 3rd title........... Did you know that Adrian Newey was recently acquired by Aston Martin [MAKE IT HAPPEN NEWEY].

Lance Stroll: idc. truly idc. some hate this guy, some love him. im at the camp of idgaf. just complete indifference.

Haas

Kevin Magnussen: If you've noticed anything by now, it's that I love love love track terrors. Not the stupid bitches who divebomb everyone all the time and start barking when it happens to them. Nah, the ones who race. I fucking love them. I love Kevin. Hoping against hope that he gets a seat somewhere next year, I will miss him so much. He's incredible to watch. God. I will actually miss him so much. Fuck.

Nico Hulkenberg: Another underrated driver, he's actually quite skillful and entertaining to watch. I just wish he had better luck like 😭

VCARB

Daniel Ricciardo: I miss him. His performances had waned and yeah, it had been time for him to go but I will still miss him and idk man I will admit I wasn't his biggest fan a while back, which had hurt because at some point, years back, he was the main reason why I watched the sport at all. But he had slowly wormed himself back in my heart and fuck. His last race actually made my chest clench ngl. He was absolutely amazing.

Liam Lawson: Consider me sat. I'm SO curious to see how he performs. We know he's got potential but just how far can he stretch?

Yuki Tsunoda: How many times have I used the word 'love' already? I'm sorry but what else can I say? I genuinely love this fella. He's so good and exciting to watch on track and also, plain funny. I wish for everything good to happen to him.

Williams

Alex Albon: infatuated with his billion dollar smile. Now that that's out of the way let me also just say HES SUNLIGHT INCARNATE, also I COULD LISTEN TO HIM YAP FOREVER. Idk I'm actually really happy for him because he seems to be flourishing at Williams and I mean this in the best way possible: he shines at a midfield team. [Also, note me saying he's sunshine doesn't negate just how fucking sly & sassy he can be. I adore that about him.]

Franco Colapinto: MY BELOVED. I perk up like a sunflower under the sun when I see him. He's such an intriguing driver. I detect hints of track terrorism abilities brewing here and cannot wait to see more of it. Also! He's so refreshing to listen to. I know like 80 percent of the grid is no-nonsense and transparent but man idk how to say this. He's a fucking comedian. Not a thought that has any sort of filter at all in that pretty little head of his. Just. No PR training at all here.

Logan Sargent: This boy. He did not deserve even a smidgen of what he had to tolerate. I actually detest the collective treatment from the fandom and his own fucking team that he had to constantly weather. I hope whatever racing division he advances to, he fucking demolishes. I hope he has so much fun winning. I miss him and his reserved smiles.

Special mention:

Oliver Bearman: I mean he raced twice this season, I can't skip over him just like that. Anyways, he's a BABY [< girl who's half a year older than him sjedhbwje] and I WANT HIM TO DO GOOD. He's done relatively well till now in the limited time on track [in F1] we've seen him, we'll have to wait and watch how he does next year. This F2 season for him has been... eh but like I get why.

[miss-bruja]

Favorite k-pop group tag game!

Thanks to @epiphanytear the tag!

Who is your favorite k-pop group?

Bangtan Sonyeondan clearly

Which member sparked your interest first?

This is all Jin's fault. I randomly clicked a video of them on the Graham Norton Show and when Jin was being Jin I was like who is this man I'm in love?

Who was your first bias?

Yoongi/Suga/Agust D/Love of my life?

What makes them your current bias?

I am OT7. Genuinely can't even say I have a bias anymore which is very typical of me. I can never choose a favorite of anything so why would I be able to with these seven amazing men? One member might hold more of my attention for a period of time but I ultimately could never choose just one. I love them all for different reasons and if I tried to get into the why of each this would be an entire essay. I am very much unhinged and in love with every single one.

Who is your bias wrecker?

Again, since I don't have a bias, I don't have a wrecker. But also my bias wrecker is El Capitxn lol

Which members are you currently obsessing over that aren't your bias/bias wrecker?

Hobi. With his recent birthday, plus the upcoming album and docuseries I am missing and loving him something fierce. I will say this about Mr. Jung Hoseok, in terms of pure artistry? He is probably one of my favorites in that respect. The creative choices he makes just happen to be everything I love - the old school/grungy sound of his music, the themes of identity and using dark and light as a concept, the homage he pays to hip hop greats, his dance style? plus the zine style packaging he's going for with this new album? hello?? Hobipalooza is my Woodstock - it is the concert I will forever wish I could have been at. Also Blue Side might just be one of the most beautiful songs ever. Let me stress though that I could wax poetic like this about every single member.

When did you first discover the group?

Early 2022. I had a few good months with them before that years now infamous festa dinner lol

Have you ever been to one of their concerts?

I got to see Yoongi's D-Day Tour and it was one of the most special experiences of my life. I stood frozen for the first couple of songs because I literally could not believe I was actually there. It was my birthday and he saw someone else's birthday sign in the audience so he had the whole arena sing happy birthday to them and it was kind of amazing experiencing that.

What are some of your favorite songs by the group?

I will stick with OT7 songs because if I were to get into solo and sub-unit songs we would be here all day. Just One Day, Tomorrow, Let Me Know, Rain, Hip Hop Phile, Run, Butterfly, Ma City, Autumn Leaves, Spring Day, 134340, Black Swan, Dis-ease, Run BTS

Also I'm on like a real Converse High kick right now so I'll include that.

I don't really have anyone I could tag who hasn't already done this so if you see this and would like to participate, have at it!

[minyoongisqueen]

@jeonking tagged me in this haven’t done these in awhile 🥰☺️ I’m gunna tag my og3 bitches @nijoonie @evangelene @kisipie

[fffinnagain]

10 Years of Sherlock (TV)  AO3 stats!

Sherlock fans, new and old, click below to read a long list of graphs and comments about our communities fanworks over the last 10 years. I scraped AO3 again and demonstrate that:

More creators are writing longer works in 2020

Readers engaged more as the fandom changed after S4

Top ten new tags per year for the last 10 years

And a lot more. 

PS the code to gather this data and analyse it can be found way over here. 

Activity over 10 years

The last 10 years in the BBC Sherlock fandom have been tumultuous, but this community persists, with engagement from new fans and continued creative output. To commemorate over a decade of squee, I’ve done another scrape of the fandom’s imprint on the Archive of Our Own and will share some insights from the numbers in these plots. A very late update on my post S4 snapshot from 2018.

Note: This analysis is of completed public fanworks only, about 101000 of the 122000 Sherlock (TV) works available at present. This is to remove the late WIP effect, which adds a bulge to the last few months, and out of respect to creators who wish to have their material reserved for other registered AO3 users.

The works are still coming

Counting the number of works posted per day, we can see the peaks associated with each series airing (in UK and US). After that, the number of works continues fairly evenly, 20-30 per day, plus seasonal peaks. This rate is continuing on without a hint of new canon in sight. So who is posting all this work?

Creator-waves, monthly output

Years ago I started plotting creator waves, basically I group fanwork producers by the year they first posted to the fandom and then count how many of this group are active in later time intervals. This lets us get a sense of how long people are contributing and whether new fans are getting the urge to create. 

This plot of the Sherlock (TV) fanworks on AO3 shows the standard shape of plump participation in the first year of any given set of creators, followed by a slowly thinning tail as they because less active over time. Turnover is natural in fandoms, with most only posting a work or two within a fairly limited amount of time, while a precious few persist for years.  The surprise for me here is that the ratio of new creators is higher in 2020 than it was in 2019. Maybe the excuse of lockdown encouraged more folks to take a turn at creating content. 

Another way to look at the output of fan creators on AO3 is to see the total amount of words being shared across all fanworks. The total has been pretty close to 300-400k words per month since 2018! To get a sense of what that means per work, I also plotted the median number of words per fanwork in these monthly sets. The median in higher in the last year than it had been staying for a while. 

Reader behaviour: Hits & Kudos & Comments

Fan creators are only part of the story. Stats on engagement are a bit trick to interpret, I’ve got some plots here that tell us something about how works have been engaged with over time. 

The obvious first to consider is Hits. Above is the total number of Hits given to works published each month. This is the current totals, not a historical snapshot, so we have a very strong bias  towards early works, what we might call the Classics Effect. Works that have been around longer have had the chance to be seen by more people, and in particular those works that become must-read classics in a fandom, extending their exposure through prominence in top ranked works and recommendations. 

To cut down on the advantage of the classics, we can also consider median hits per work for each month. As most works get a lot attention when they are first posted and then fade out of sight, the median number of hits reflects instead the ratio of readers to creators, basically how many eyeballs are around to look at the latest work, regardless of status. The median plot shows how the hyper-visibility of the few work available before 2012, and then a more steady curve once the fandom had gotten established on the platform after Series 2. Amazingly, the hit rate for the median work was steady through the big bumps in activity with later series, a 1000 hits for median works between 2013 and 2018, followed by a slow decline. I’d expect the 2020 works to continue gaining for a few months yet, but the median is probably 50-60% of what is was when the show was in production.

Kudos counts and medians show a similar story to hits, but there is a dip down around 2013 for kudos reflects the frenzy of productivity that saw the fandom grow during the Series 2 hiatus. Readers were getting spoiled! From the airing of Series 3 (2014) until a year following Series 4 (2018), the median work received an even 60ish kudos and 1000 hits, a niche audience that decreased to 50/750 through 2018-2019. The numbers of 2020 suggest a smaller community of readers again, though these numbers may still rise a bit in the next few months before the median works are forgotten. 

The statistic that tells a different story is Comments. Looking at the total comments counts, there isn’t a drop after Series 3 (2014). Instead, the fandom compensated for changing numbers with more feedback and discussion attached to works. This is reflected in the median comment rate as well, which shows seasonal variation but doesn’t really drop off until 2020.

It’s remarkable that without fresh canon we continue to have new creators contributing to the fandom, and while that may be outpacing the readership somewhat, the standard of engagement has been very high. One could say the fandom is chugging along quite nicely!

What about Tags

So, with all that turnover and shifting population, is there a change in the kinds of works being posted? We can look at tags, all tags and freeform tags, to see if there were any meaningful trends. 

First up, I did a creator-wave like analysis of works just for tags, to see how tags continue to be used after being introduced. Unlike the creators, tags clearly persist for years. After 2015, it looks like the core tag set has been established, with very few tags persisting in usage per  subsequent year.

This graph reports numbers over time that are not proportional to the number of works or creators active. Instead, works on AO3 have been getting more and more tags over the years, with the average steadily growing from 5 in 2011 to 15 in 2020, with freeform tags (not characters or ships) from 2 to 8.

To get a sense of fic and tagging culture changes over time, I counted the most popular NEW tags of each year (wave). Note: this analysis is using exact matches, not the networked associations of tag meanings wrangled into AO3 today, so some things that pop up aren’t new concepts but instead newly popular TAGs for whatever they represent. 

2011: 2752 (First year, so all solid stuff, tags that continue to be popular forever)

Angst                 323

Fluff                 232

Humor                 216

Hurt/Comfort          188

Romance               168

Friendship            168

Crossover             138

Crack                 121

Alternate Universe    119

First Time            106

2012: 11637 (still early, first references to Series 2)

Fluff and Angst                           145

Episode: s02e03 The Reichenbach Fall       97

Kid Sherlock                               54

Puppies                                    50

Sad                                        48

Episode: s02e01 A Scandal in Belgravia     47

Mathematics                                42

Season 2 spoilers                          38

Omega Verse                                38

Feels                                      38

2013: 16176 (Omegaverse nomenclature is growing, Top/Bottom terminology, new challenges)

Alpha Sherlock                               65

Omega John                                   61

30 Day OTP Challenge                         59

Tumblr: letswritesherlock                    56

Top John                                     49

Sherlock Holmes Returns after Reichenbach    44

Bottom Sherlock                              40

Reichenbach Angst                            30

Don't copy work to another site              29

Age Regression/De-Aging                      27

2014: 19256 (Mostly Series 3 related

Episode: s03e03 His Last Vow         249

Episode: s03e02 The Sign of Three    167

Post-His Last Vow                    149

His Last Vow Spoilers                142

Sherlock Series 3 Spoilers           128

2000 AU                              100

The Sign of Three Spoilers            74

Fatlock                               72

Post-The Sign of Three                66

Post-Season/Series 03                 57

2015: 14272 (New challenges, new prominent Sherlolly tags)

Chats                                      47

International Fanworks Day 2015            34

Watson's Woes July Writing Prompts 2015    27

S3 referenced                              25

Sherlock Holmes/Molly Hooper Kissing       22

English Accent                             22

Sound cloud                                19

Eventual Sherlock Holmes/Molly Hooper      19

Protective John Watson                     18

but not that kind of graphic               17

2016: 13517 (New stylistic tagging, TAB references, a lot of epilepsy?)

Slowwww burn                         92

John Watson Loves Sherlock Holmes    37

Sherlock Holmes Loves John Watson    33

post-tab                             30

JME                                  27

Post TAB                             25

Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy          23

Sherlolly Appreciation Week 2016     19

epileptic                            19

fraternal love                       17

2017: 15067 (Series 4 tags and challenges)

Episode: s04e02 The Lying Detective         133

Episode: s04e01 The Six Thatchers            93

Post TFP                                     73

Sherlock Series 4 Spoilers                   69

Episode: s04e03 The Final Problem            60

Post-Episode: s04e02 The Lying Detective     55

Sherlolly Appreciation Week 2017             50

Post S4                                      48

Sherstrade Month 2017                        44

31 Days of Porn Challenge 2017               41

2018: 10733 (Lost of new challenges, seasonal and weekly)

Towel Day 2018                       64

Mystrade Valentines Calendar 2018    25

Kinktober 2018                       23

Pregnant Molly Hooper                23

Soft Smut Sunday                     23

Tom Robbins                          23

Sherlolly Appreciation Week 2018     21

Inktober 2018                        20

established universe                 16

Always1895                           16

2019: 7785 (More prompts, and character attitudes)

Sherlolly Appreciation Week 2019    25

221B Autumn Challenge               21

A-Z Christmas Prompt                19

KatsJohnlockXmas2019                16

Whumptober                          11

Poor Greg Lestrade                  11

Kinktober 2019                      10

Dissonance                          10

John Watson is a Good Friend         9

Sleepy Sherlock Holmes               8

2020: 8074 (Not all COVID related, thank heavens)

Mystrade Monday                           59

COVID-19                                  48

Coronavirus                               46

Mystrade Monday Prompts                   40

Whumptober 2020                           36

warning for a covid-19 setting            33

Flufftober prompts 2020                   24

Do Not Translate                          24

they're all right they're just at home    23

Granada Sherlolly                         21

A little note from looking across all freeform tags, not just the new ones, we see a curious pattern with regards to two actions: First Kiss and Anal Sex. They appear amongst the most common tags as of 2014, neck in neck for two years, than Anal Sex drops off the top ten in 2016. From there out, First Kiss stays in the top 5 from that point on, while anal sex appears at rank 9 from 2017-2019 and is gone again in 2020. This probably says something about the fandom, somehow. 

Bravo for making it to the end and thank you for reading! 

Questions/comments welcome.

[cosmiclatte28]

Casual Intimacy (Mark Lee x you)

a/n : it’s my soft hours I guess? I made this sweet Mark Lee imagine (well for me this is sweet. I want a boy like this... if you’re that kind of man dm me 😜)

fluff, no warning, no suggestive content but kisses, and just Mark being a wonderful man for you. 

Happy Imagining Mark Lee as your s/o! 

People often ask you how you can hold on to your “plain” relationship with your current boyfriend. You seriously do not like them bothering you about your relationship life, but you need to deal with it considering the fact that the man you are dating is the famous Mark Lee of NCT.

He is dorky in camera, and in real life too. You pray day and night to the angels to make sure Mark is not tripping on some random stone or bump a pole. Guess your prayer works, when you see Mark always smiling in front of the camera coping up and working so hard with his endless job.

You yourself work in a famous two Michelin restaurant in Seoul. You’re not going to lie, you met Mark lee on your duty. NCT was holding their debut birthday and you were appointed as the chef to cook for their meal that night. Apparently, Mark Lee was super fascinated by your dish and he requested you to come greet the team when your job in the kitchen is done. Your head cook lets you leave your station once desert is prepared and the plates coming into the washing room is clean.

That was five years ago, Mark Lee got love struck by your simple but attractive persona. His eyes couldn’t leave you as you answer their questions on the dishes and you congratulating them. They’re glad when they learn that you listened to their songs and followed their schedules, just that you don’t have much time to be like the other wonderful fans.

Mark Lee looked so intrigued on you and as you bow to them bidding goodbye, he just returned from the restroom. With his long legs trying to catch his other brothers, Mark happened to slip his number on a piece of tissue paper to your pocket and gave you a genuine smile plus a “thank you”.

You earned a good pay that night and even better, Mark Lee’s number.

Well, he isn’t your bias but come on who doesn’t have Mark Lee in their bias list? Want it or not, conscious or not, Mark Lee is always in the list. So, that night when you finish showering and eating a light midnight snack, you gave the number a shot.

You thought your message will never be replied, maybe Mark will have his phone in silent and only opened up messages from his contact list. You’re lucky when your notification bleeped and from that night both of you learn more about each other.

He kept your number under your name, plain business people say, you also thought maybe he wanted to call you for another dinner party. But the chats he had been sending was far from platonic business. It involves jokes, puns, memories of living in Canada (well you graduated from University of Toronto, but cooking is your passion), and even deeper like late night talks.

The relationship got deeper when Mark Lee called you one night, asking if he can meet you in the restaurant. He said he needed a good meal to write a song he was assigned for. You found no correlation between a good meal and writing a song, but believe it or not, Mark Lee came with one  of the hottest selling song that month. Earning him a title of “King of Lyrics”

Since then, he called you again and again when he didn’t have the idea to write. You finally invited him over to your house when you got closer. Mark got to eat in your small dining table with a simple dish that was made with love and care that Mark said tasted better than any other dishes he ever had.

You laughed saying he is exaggerating, but Mark never exaggerates when he is with you.

“Be my girlfriend will you?” he one night asked after you teach him how to cook a proper egg. Despite him succeeding the challenge back in 2020, he still needs practice. He succeeded cooking eggs after knowing you for more than a year.

“Suddenly Mark? After you can make a perfect runny egg?” you giggle but nevertheless nodded your head.

His smile that night was even brighter than when he received any awards and praises. His eyes spark joys and emotions uncaptured by cameras. The world never knows how Mark’s true happy face looks like, but if his world is you, then the world knows!

For the first two year of dating, both of you are keeping it low. Dates happen in your house (your wage is enough to buy you a house). You always cook him foods, tried new dishes to him, earned a lot of complains on how the food is not “suitable for Korean tongue” which you always shrug off because he himself is a mix.

But thanks to his constant brave inputs, your dishes are perfectly blended and well known. News media and TV shows started to cast you in their weekend shows. You were offered a contract of a cooking show in a known broadcasting company.

Mark told you to go for it. He knew how happy you are about cooking, and his faith told him “if that is what was given for you, go for it.”

He was right. The internet loves you, they love your simple but tasty dishes. Your show was ranked the hottest that month, famous for helping college student eat a more delicious food.

NCT even did a special relay cam for it, each group were doing a challenge on following your recipes.

Mark was caught off guard on that live shooting day. His team consisted of him, Ten and Johnny.

And you may guess, things went wrong but in a chaotic fun way. When the three of them are together, they just speak in English and forgot all of the filters they should have.

Mark spilled his relationship when he accidentally said out loud “Of course I know how to do that, my girl has been teaching me that.” Mark boasted when Ten asked if Mark could make the egg benedict for their dish.

Johnny and Ten froze on screen, well the NCT members knew your relationship with Mark but they kept quiet. Mark realized what he has said was recorded and forever lives in the web. The comment section went wild and the fans are thrilled about the “mysterious girlfriend Mark has”.

He eventually spilled the truth on a press conference. You were there beside him when he faced the board director and when he sit in front of different mics and cameras flashes. No one knows but throughout the time, when your heart is beating faster than when you took your SAT and final tests, Mark Lee held on to your hand whenever you are answering a question directed to you.

The magazines are taking the favor of the rising topic, inviting you and Mark to take a photoshoot. When you were insecure about taking a picture with him (who has did countless shoots), he squeezed your arm when walking past you and gave a small proud smile as he went to change clothes while you start your personal shoot. No one saw that, but his quick reassuring squeeze boosted your confidence that day and the couple shoot was very nice! You could print that as your wedding pictures!

When the internet goes wild when they connect the theories and Instagram posts Mark and you both made (fans are the best in deciphering codes!), you now walk through the streets crowded by fans. All asking how is it like to date Mark, but not few also told you to screw off. One day when you both are going back to Canada for a winter break, the fans are crowding the way. You gulped when you have to walk pass them, but Mark looked so used to it. He just chuckled and landed a small hand on the back of your waist. With the manager hyung and bodyguard pushing to make way, you made it through the crowd with confident steps.

On the Christmas dinner, Mark was invited to your family dinner and vice versa. You had to attend their family lunch and to say you were nervous was an understatement.

“Mark, what if they don’t like me?” you asked on your bus ride to his house from the airport.

Mark laughed, he always laughed as his first respond, “Baby, it’s going to be okay. Trust me.”

You snorted, “You calling me baby is already suspicious, for three years we dated you “dude” me 70% of the time, “baby” was only like 10%”

He did the math, “Then what’s the remaining 20?%”

“You just call me “Bro�� for the res of them.” You squeezed his cheek and planted a kiss there.

“I like it though, not too cheesy.”

He grew red. “Gosh I am having the Jaehyun syndrome. Why are my ears burning?!”

He was not 100% wrong, his parents were nice they grew fond of you especially when you helped his mother prepared lunch. Well you both arrived earlier and you decided to give a hand for the busy mom.

Mark sat next to you on dinner and when you were diving into a yummy Christmas pudding, his parents began asking you the “platonic questions asked to your partner”.

You almost chocked on your pudding when they asked “Are you seeing a future with Mark? Can you make our son happy and us too?”

You were not ready, you expected questions like where you work or where you live. They said “We can find all that answers in the internet, but not the answer to our question.”

Mark’s gentle kick from under the table by your side made you looked at him and he gave you that sincere smile only you have the privilege to see. He nodded slightly and shot his eyebrow to his parents side “Answer them… I am also curious of the answer.”

You grew red, it wasn’t the drink or anything, but his parent’s happy and relieved face when you nod your head and said “I am seeing a future with him, if I get both of your blessing.”

They love you and Mark was right. That night, you invited his family to join your dinner instead. The same question was asked from your parents to Mark and Mark was more than ready to marry you.

But your wedding bells did not chime that fast. He has his career and so do you, both of you just keep the stable relationship going on. Together facing the problems and obstacles in your relationship. Fights occur, bickering occur, threads of breaking up also happened once or twice… but both of you used that to build a stronger bond.

You always melt when Mark came home from a long day. After he showered and savored his dinner, he always ended up leaning on your shoulder in the big snuggle sofa both of you never regret buying. His head on your shoulder, his hand scribbling words to a paper and you whispering ideas to him which brought a big smile to his face.

Writing lyrics has been even easier for Mark, he blended your frustration with his, splattered some love words, and voila a masterpiece! People said his lyrics were relatable and both of you always keep it to yourself that “those happened in our life, no wonder it looked real.”

He always kissed you gently on your lips, tasting the faint cherry flavour of your lip balm. Mark’s lips tasted of medical lip balm, but you love it nonetheless.

You blinked and realized the flashing cameras in front of you. Oh right, someone from the hot magazine company is asking you a question.

‘Can you please repeat your question?” you asked politely to the lady holding out a mic.

She quickly nodded, “A lot of fans are wondering If you are still in a relationship with Mark. Mark was busy for the last months with projects and comebacks. And the interaction update from both of you are little to none. Fans suspected you were over with him, considering that Mark looked like he is the “plain” type in a relationship.”

You pressed a smile, hiding your urge to laugh out loud. Weren’t the fans always picturing Mark as their dream boyfriend? Why did they judge him as the plain boring type then?

You clear your throat and while looking through the crowds, you spot Mark Lee seated in the crowd with a mask and a hat, giving you a nod, and you turned your mic on.

“We’re still going strong; well I think love is not the type of grand gestures or explosive displays.” You started off and caught everyone’s attention.

“It’s made up of little things,” you felt your heart clench upon remembering all the small affections Mark always did to you. “It’s the little things Mark Lee did that say he is here, and he cared for me and that my life has intertwined so deeply into his that there was no need to think.” You take a pause to look at the audience.

Everyone looked impressed, but amongst them you catch one pair of gleaming proud eyes, the pair of eyes you’ve been waking up to for the last years, and the one you want to wake up to in the future years.

“It’s Mark’s casual intimacy that made us both stay strong and stronger.”

Applaud was heard through the room, you were holding your press conference because you were retreating from all the cooking shows and rumor has it you are going to marry Mark.

“Please pray for both of us, as we will be tying our bonds soon.” You leave the room after a bow and the man with mask and hat is already waiting for you outside the big crowded function hall.

His hand naturally makes its way to your waist and you never felt more sure to step into life with this man you love, Mark Lee.

“That was wonderful (y/n)~”

You smile, he did not dude you nor bro you nor baby you. “I love you Mark Lee,”

He leaned in for a peck behind the tinted black van window, “I love you most (y/n) Lee,” he winked and you rubbed your cheeks “Guess I have the Jaehyun syndrome now! Also I like it when you call me with that name.”

He quirked his eyebrow and smirked, “Don’t worry, you’ll be hearing that soon for the rest of your life.” He reached for your hand and kissed the knuckles.

“I met you thanks to your amazing handy work in cooking unforgettable dish.”

You rolled your eyes, “You were so amazed on my egg benedict Mark! How is that an unforgettable dish?”

He shrugged his shoulder, “I don’t know, something about you, cooking, and love made me this love struck and awfully amazed by simple things you did.”

the end

thanks for reading, put in comments for I’d love to interact with you on the story plot .. rant to me what you hate or like idc :D i want to talk with my readers! to thank you all for reading and spending some time here

omg i didn’t know if I made the right choice of making Mark Lee as this character, but I want it to be him.. I’ve been writing a lot of Jaehyun and Yuta fic and I guess Mark can be a refresher. Please let me know if someone else suits this better!

[undeniablycandycane]

Ok I keep seeing that same post over and over again "owen wilson queerbaited in natm" and it irks me every time. First of all I really don't see NATM as queerbaiting, I see it as censorship. I really and truly believe that the actors played them with the full intention to follow through, and that's why they held hands at the end, as the best form of delivery they were allowed to provide.

Moreso, I think Shawn might be to blame for part of the censorship; when Owen says in an interview that Jed and Oct's relationship develops into "almost a love, although they'd never admit it" he is corrected by Shawn, saying "a brotherly love." To be fair, Owen does say "yes" to this, but I don't think he means it. Call me whatever, if I'm wrong I'm wrong, (and I know being a fan of him is obviously gonna give me some bias, I acknowledge that) but knowing that Owen isn't very outspoken in interviews/more of a shy dude when it comes to them, I don't see him agreeing genuinely, especially knowing that he and Steve were intentional in their portrayal in the third movie. I don't know what happened behind the scenes, but the fact that there could have been a spinoff about the two characters... upsets me. They say it's because of Robin's death, but I don't know. There's a part of me that thinks it was probably censorship. Plus, the actors both have stated how homo it is, but especially Steve. He absolutely sells it.

Anyway, the actors genuinely had a blast with Jed and Oct and improvised literally all of their gay-sounding lines. I can understand since Jedediah asks why Octavius wants to hold his hand in the third movie (and gives him weird looks when Oct says stuff about Lance) some people see it as homophobia, I guess? But I see it as a dense cowboy who doesn't realize that Oct has fallen for him, and think his feelings are unreciprocated, and I think that's what the actors might have wanted to portray.

Plus, Jedediah took his hand at the end, so it couldn't be baiting because it actually happened. And he took it right when they were dying, which tells me that Jedediah knew they would be frozen like that forever and wanted to take the chance (and also finally realizes, omg, Oct really means it)

I think the studio and execs wanted to go the route of "this means however the viewer wants to interpret it but also don't let them do anything crazy like, i dunno, kiss" because they didn't want to upset their huge fanbase.

I know a lot of this is speculation, but that's just my take on it and how I currently feel about it all.

[smokeybrandreviews]

Building the Future

Finished all of the Priority ships in my Iron Blood fleet. It’s surprising how fast the last two PR developments went in comparison to the first two but I'm not complaining at all. All the ships that needed to be built, have been, and are in varying stages of leveling and enhancement. I have to say, though, getting these f*cking blue prints is for the birds! I’m going a a decent clip but I'd be lying if i said it wasn’t frustrating and a bit tedious, especially in regards to a very specific ship that i am so excruciatingly close to completing. Anyway, in celebration of my accomplishment, i wanted to revisit this Priority Ships and kind of express why i enjoy them so goddamn much.

Roon

Roon was the first Priority ship i completed She was the first Priority ship that  i actually wanted. It was a whole ass grind to finish her off and i celebrated like it was Christmas and i was f*cking twelve years old! She’s the first PR ship i completely enhances, all the way through the whole Fate Simulation, all the way to level 120. It was arduous getting her there but well worth the effort because, holy sh*t, is Roon a f*cking powerhouse! She’s a front line mainstay in my main fleet and i don’t see her ever not being my main offensive weapon. She’s just that goddamn good. So far, she is my favorite of the PR ships and, if I'm honest with myself, probably my second favorite Iron Blood ship, after my darling Eugen, of course. Admittedly, that’s an assumption from an incomplete pool as i don’t have any of the Inverted Orthant ships. Yet. Please believe i am all over that rerun when it comes back around.

Friedrich der Grosse

Friedrich is a whole ass frustration for me. She was the second PR ship i completed and the fourth Ultra Rare in my collection. I was able to retrofit San Diego and Warspite fairly early on, plus i got lucky enough to roll a couple of Shinano so i was well aware of the explosive potential of those iridescent ships. Friedrich definitely lived up to her rarity. She’s a goddamn beast when you add her to your fleet and even more so just to construct her. Like, holy sh*t, was this a slog! It took forever to just complete her construction and even longer to max out to 120. That was a whole process and I'm STILL trying to collect f*cking blueprints to finish her Enhancement! I am so close and the Research just ain’t coming. She’s stalled at level twenty-five. Five away from the Fate Simulation. Five away from having an absolute unit. Don’t misunderstand, Friedrich is a total beast as she is now but i want so badly to complete her.

Mainz

Oh, Mainz. I have so many complicated feelings about her. She was the second of the PR three i constructed so the process of leveling her up is still in progress. All of the PR three and Four ships are currently on that level up grind. Mainz is the farthest along, sitting at a respectable level 59. That’s a bit low, i know, but i actually miscalculated and built Odin first. I wanted another strong Main ship to go alongside my Graf Zeppelin and Friedrich but misread the specs on Odin. It was a frustration at the time, more because Odin wasn’t part of the plan at that point, but it all worked out. Mainz was worth the wait. I’m still grinding her Blueprints, too, but they are coming pretty quick. She’s already reached a level eighteen Enhancement and is on pace to be the second of my ships to complete the Fate Simulation. That sh*t chaps my ass a little bit because, you know, Friedrich.

Odin

Odin was a happy accident. I wanted Mainz because i needed a rear line ship but i misread the stats and started Odin instead. She Constructed fairly fast or, at least, he grind wasn’t near as hard as i remember. Odin was the third Priority ship i actually developed and coming of those first two builds, Roon and Friedrich, she was downright pleasant to build. I already had a lot of the materials on hand so all i needed was the experience. That sh*t came fast and it came furious. Odin was the fasted PR ship I've completed so far. I don’t know what the future holds, but as of right now, she holds that record. She’s also the third strongest PR ship in my fleet at a rather high 73. She’s been fun to level and experiment with. I run her on some of the lower level Campaigns just to experiment. She’s a dynamo and i really can’t wait to get her. Plus, i mean, i just love her look.

August von Parseval

August is the rare necessity for my fleet. There aren’t many Carriers in Iron Blood, I mean, now there are no, two of the Inverted Orthant boats fill that role, but i missed that event by a matter of days. When i came back after my hiatus, the only Carrier i had was Zeppelin. I missed the Zeppy event but, even then, i would have put her into a secondary fleet because she’s only an Elite ship. I need that Super Rare and Ultra Rare beef in my main Fleet. Fortunately for me, August is a carrier, another Super Rare, and a pretty strong one at that. I still definitely prefer Zeppelin but that’s just personal bias. I am aware that each ship has different strengths and different weaknesses but it kind of doesn’t matter. I have another Iron Blood Carrier. I recently finished her development so we are still incredibly early in the enhancement process. I mean, she’s only at level 31 so I'm literally just getting started with her. She’s got promising potential, though, so I'm looking forward to her completion.

Aegir

Aegir is the whole reason i wanted to revisit my Priority Ships in the first place. I finished her construction today and was pleasantly surprised by the fact she’s an Ultra Rare. That was a legitimate surprise, especially considering she’s a Vanguard ship. The only other Ultra Rare Vanguard i have is San Diego. I don’t know if there are anymore, there’s a few in the Development pool, but i don’t really care. I main Iron Blood and i have both of their URs. Aegir is fresh developed so her current level is only 3 but, best believe, I'm going to go hard at building her into  a proper beast. Her Blueprints are laughably slow to come, just like f*cking Friedrich, but this will definitely be labor of love. I need my second Iron Blooded Iridescent to be as strong as possible, as quickly as possible.

[kwanfairy]

i was tagged by the lovely @choi-hae ​  ♡  thankies!!

so i dont really have an ult group, im a very unloyal hoe and go from one hyperfixation to another sdkajkal & while my current one are the ACE bois, i decided on DAY6 instead given that the fools have already been covered!

Group Chosen: DAY6

Who was your first bias?

Wonpil. I was instantly drawn to his gentle and kind personality and he’s such a pretty boy too (not that the others arent!). His voice is so gorgeous and despite being 2 heads taller than me, i just cant help but go “LOOK AT THIS TINY SQUISHY MAN HE SO CUTE!!”

Who is your bias now?

Still Wonpil! Yes hes sweet and a lil angel but hes also weird AF and Jae constantly side-eyeing is so relatable lmao but i love that about him asl well. Hes a bit hyper but also quiet at times and i also love his laugh OMFG!!

First MV You Ever Watched?

Honestly cant remember. I usually know groups quite a while before i really get into them so i might have watched a bunch of their shit without even realizing it was them jdskal but i think it must have been either Shoot Me or I Wait, most like the second one tho!

What’s your favourite MV?

i feel like DAY6′s MV’s arent all that grand or heavy on SFX compared to other groups but thats why i like them so much! they are just so much fun to watch and thats why i think I’m Serious or I Smile are my favs. they are pretty and just nice to look at.

If you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Definitely Best Part. It’s my most fav song of them right after Love Me Or Leave Me (my life goal is to experience this song at a concert omfg)!

Who would you want to see them collab with?

I dont know enough ppl to answer that lmaobut i did love whenever Jamie sang along on ASC so maybe her!?

What MV concept would you like to see them do?

i really enjoyed their High School AU trilogy sdksalk and i’d be down for another one of those. but also something retro and fun, kinda like Days Gone By!

Have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

Ye! my dreams are really easy to manipulate or like steered into a certain direction. like when i think about something all day i will most likely dream about it in the next few days so i often dream about kpop idols LMAO. anyway, one i can remember was about cuddling up with wonpil, it was very soft and tender sdkjakjk

If you could spend the whole day with a member, who would it be and what would you do?

I think Jae! he just seems like a real fun guy to be with and he has this very strange yet genius brain lol. i would love to just talk about whatever, maybe roast JYP a bit lol, watch funny videos, play video games and eat. something fun yet chill! 

Which member do you think you’d get along with the most?

I guess with Dowoon! I love his humor and he has a very beagle-like personality which i am pretty compatible with i assume dksjklak

Which member do you think you would argue with?

100% Youngk lmao. this bitch just so loud and annoying like, we get youre the middle child of day6 but that doesnt mean you have to act like it dhsjhsajk plus im a foodie too so we would prob be constantly fighting over food LOL

If you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

Prob Youngk and Jae given that they are most likely able to understand my weird ass humor. That being said, i would let themm all have a look but i think id have to explain a lot less to these 2 lol

oof this took me forever omfg but thanks again for tagging me!

i’ll tag @stitchzmile​ @minbin-enthusiast​ @awwfuckno​ @emmy-clou​

yall dont have to do this ofc and it doesnt have to be kpop ofc!!

[confetti-cake-key]

SHINee Ask Game

0, 03, 8, 12, 14, 17, 30, & 57. There were so many good questions! I hope I didn't send too many 🤭.

Thank you for sending me these asks dear!! This will be a lot of fun!! 😆💕 I will do my best to answer these!!

0. how did you come across 5HINee? ❀

Originally, my one friend and I started getting into kpop because our mutual friend in our group was really into kpop and we wanted to bond better with her. My friend knew more about them than I did, so she taught me their names and helped me connect them to their faces and showed me some of their most iconic songs such as Ring ding dong and Lucifer. We also watched SHINee's Hello Baby reality show too!! At the time, DxDxD came out so I was super absorbed into Your Number!! So I bought three of their albums to listen to more of their music and the rest is history!!

03. your current bias and bias wrecker ❀

My ult bias is Key (as you could probably tell from my username)!!! And my forever bias wrecker is Jonghyun!! (However Onew has been killing me with his blonde hair this comeback!!)

08. favorite b-side ❀

My favorite b-side?!? That is a hard question because SHINee has one of THE best discographies in music. If I had to pick, Symptoms would have to be one of my most favorite b-sides. The vocals and the performance for symptoms is just amazing!! Honorable mentions go to: Selene 6.23 and Colors of the Season!

12. song that brings you comfort ❀

Whenever I'm feeling down, I always listen to Jonghyun's "End of the day" and "Before our Spring" because his voice is one of the most comforting and calming things in this world. I also listen to SHINee's "I'm With You" to help pick me up.

14. song that makes you feel sexy ❀

For SHINee, obviously "Excuse me miss" and "Odd eye" are the most sexiest songs!! Plus their stages are 👌👌👌 perfection!! As for their solo songs, Jonghyun's "Moon" and "Red" are really something to experience!! And how could I forget Taemin's "Thirsty" or "Slave" for that matter!! The power that SHINee has is ridiculous when it comes to being sexy, they don't have to go over the top to get your attention their presence alone commands it.

17. song that makes you feel alive ❀

HITCHHIKING BABY!! How can anyone not get lit over the song Hitchhiking by SHINee?? That song is the ultimate hype song! Honorable mentions go to: Stranger, Picasso and Feel good!!

30. favorite SHINee era ❀

Personally, my favorite era of SHINee would be 1of1 and/or 1and1 because that was my very first comeback with SHINee as a shawol and let me tell you it left such a big impression on me. The 90's theme with the suits??? The fact that every song is amazing. The music video for Tell me what to do?!?! Truly iconic!

57. member to go on a road trip with ❀

I would love to take all the SHINee boys on a road trip, but if I could only choose one I would probably choose Key. Because I feel like we would go and see/do things that I would also enjoy because when I watched SHINee on Surprise vacation, a lot of the things that Key did I would have liked to do. Such as visit vintage shops, go clothes shopping and eat out or go ice skating. Onew would be my second choice though, because he's very laid back and we would just take our time to enjoy things. Plus I don't trust Taemin with driving. And Minho might want to do something too adventurous or sports related which is not my speed.

Thanks for sending me these asks!! They were really fun to go through and think of what I would choose. It honestly just makes me more excited about their comeback!! I can't wait to see what their comeback or their songs are gonna be!!

[solastia]

Author Interview : underthejoon

((If anyone wants to make a cool banner for this, please do. I suck at them))

Today is the debut of a new project. Whether it sticks around for long depends on you guys, but for now the plan is to interview one author a month. Creators are often underappreciated on here (or anywhere, for that matter), so this is me doing my part to connect our readers and writers in a meaningful way. Our first interview is with @underthejoon​, someone whose work I myself have enjoyed for many years now. If you enjoyed this interview, please be sure to send in authors you’d like me to talk to for future editions, as well as any specific questions you’d like answered (except for questions about updating, that will get you a ban). 

Where can your work be found?

I’m kind of a mess and so while I attempt to cross post, I’m not always great at it. All of my work can be found on my tumblr masterlist but some of my things are on Wattpad and AO3. I’m also underthejoon on both of those platforms.

Links to where readers can donate:

I made a ko-fi account ages ago that I never shared with the public because I’ve always felt guilty. Which is silly, idk why I do. But there it is!

Main bias (and why if you’d like) 

So!! I have always been a Namjoon bias. From the very first time I saw them/the very first song I heard I was like yes, you. You are the one, I’m a goner!! He’s so wonderful and unique. He’s very mindful and creative and such a beacon of light to me. Plus, he’s very open with his humanity, if that makes sense? Like he is open about his therapy, his feelings about his perceived shortcomings, his excitement about finding place and things and works of art that inspire him. ALSO THOUGH, in the last year or so I’ve also become a Hoseok bias. He is just so dedicated and loving. He’s insanely talented and vastly underrated, in my opinion. And through all the back breaking work, he is kind through and through. He’s seriously just so warm and makes me really happy.

Hogwarts House : 

Okay, the very first time I ever took it I was a slytherin. A few years later, I took it again and got hufflepuff. I like to think I’m a combination of the two but can see myself as more of a puff. 

Describe yourself in five words:

Creative, Extroverted, Empathetic, Intuitive, Inquisitive 

Current favorite BTS songs: 

SO MANY, but I’ll pick 7 for 7 members. Some of these are old as hell but still currently my favorite lol. Love Maze, Love is Not Over, Outro: Her, Dimple, Tomorrow, Like, 2!3!

What was the defining moment when you decided, “Yes! I am going to write the thing!”? 

For like fanfic in general? I feel like I had been reading a lot of it after “discovering” k-pop and then after a few months I was just like fuck it, I’m doing it!! I was always super into writing poetry and never thought I would be any good at anything like this but it sounded fun so here we are now. 

What do you most enjoy about writing BTS fanfiction specifically? 

I think it’s the community of writers. When I started my blog, I met a lot of really amazing supportive writers that I’ve managed to stay friends with and I think that makes a really big difference when you have people that can relate to you and what you’re doing.

Any tropes or au’s that you want to explore later? 

I would really like to try writing some sort of supernatural creature fics. I’ve had this werewolf love triangle universe planned out forever that I would like to eventually write. Maybe like a workplace romance? 

Which of your fics would you suggest for new readers? 

For a completed series i’d say Piece by Piece. My WIP series, Love is Not Over is another one. For a one-shot I’d say, For You. Maybe the sweetness/make it right drabbles too. 

Which of your fics is your favorite? 

Piece by Piece, no doubt. I really feel proud of it and I have a hard time admitting I like anything I write. 

What other fandoms do you wish you had the time to write for? 

I used to write for EXO, Got7 and sometimes Monsta X and I miss it sometimes but also, I feel pretty contented in just writing for BTS. There’s a lot of inspiration there and I always felt I was being pulled in too many directions by my readers when I wrote for multiple fandoms.

What are your writing goals for the upcoming year? 

I’d like to finish three series I have planned, get caught up on my collab fics and at least finish an outline for my original fiction piece I’ve been putting off!

Which writers do you read religiously? 

There’s so many amazing writers on tumblr and I try as hard as I can to keep up with my mutuals when they put stuff out but sometimes it’s hard! I’m gonna be really brief because otherwise my list could go on and on. Okay, first and foremost, Shanna (@kpopfanfictrash) - she’s my best friend and a fabulous, wonderful writer. I would just like to give her a special shout out because not only does she entertain me for hours with her writing, she is very supportive of mine. Other authors I adore as humans and content creators and keep up with most regularly are @floralseokjin and @lamourche !

What is the weirdest thing you’ve had to google in the name of writing?

LOL. Hmm… I’m really boring and feel like I don’t really google that much when writing except maybe like different sex positions when i need a visual or synonyms to certain words. I’ve found some good porn though? Because visuals do help me.

Reader/OC fics within this fandom are often still looked down on and we all have to work hard to make them good enough for readers to look past their reputation. How do you combat the cringe? 

TBH, I don’t think that responsibility lies on us as writers. If people don’t like certain types of writing, that’s on them and they can avoid it. Reader insert/oc fics are just as valid a genre as any. I’ve read some of the most beautiful, creative stories on this platform, some of which could be published if names were changed/reader was switched to a named OC. There’s something out there for everyone and it’s all subjective. While I might find certain things super cringey, others love it. To each their own as long as they aren’t shoving it in the faces of the people they’re writing about or being disrespectful, you know?

What is your personal guilty (or not-so-guilty) pleasure trope? 

MUTUAL PINING/FRIENDS TO LOVERS. I feel like it’s so basic but I fucking love that trope and I think so many people do it so beautifully it is my absolute favorite. 

What is something that you see often in other fanfics that drives you insane? 

I think the only thing that really bothers me is when people romanticize abuse or other toxic/triggering topics. 

Are any of the boys or ships more difficult for you to write than others? 

I think I have the hardest time writing for Jimin and Taehyung but only because I feel I am the most similar to them and for whatever reason that deters me from writing about them often.

We all think we are the most hilarious person there is (even if we won’t admit it), so what is one line or scenario of yours that you like to go back to and giggle over? 

Okay this was actually really difficult for me because I don’t write like any humor and don’t think I’m good at LOL. I think my only attempt at humorous writing was The New Guy in which the reader is high off her ass lying on the front lawn and thinking the world is ending then accusing Namjoon of being the Grim Reaper when he comes looking for her.

ONLY IF YOU WANT TO - A scenario as long or short as you want. Maybe 250 words or less. Godzilla is attacking the city and BTS is your rescue crew. How screwed are you? 

“D-danger, you say?” Seokjin stutters.

“G-giant lizard monster headed this way?” Hoseok chokes. 

The pair exchange glances then turn their focus towards you. Seokjin jerks his head towards the door and you nod in return. 

“I hear what you’re saying, gentlemen,” Hoseok says as he stands on shaky legs. He grabs your hand as if to instruct you to do the same. 

“And as much as we would LOVE to help you…” His grip is tighter now and you know what comes next. 

Before he can finish, Seokjin shoots up from his chair and makes a mad dash towards the door. “Now, now, run, holy shit, NOW!”

Hoseok joins his friend in his haste to evacuate, dragging your nearly petrified form behind him. “No way in hell are we getting anywhere near that thing!”

Seokjin and Hoseok babble horrified nonsense between them but you can’t really decipher much of it. Your heart is pounding in your ears as you replay the name “Godzilla” in your brain.

They wanted you to rescue the city? What were they thinking?

When you reach Seokjin’s car, you have a brief moment of clarity. There are lives at stake, after all. How can you really just abandon the city when it needs a hero?

“What about everybody else?” you ask, voice small and fearful.

“Everybody else?” Seokjin huffs, putting the car in gear. He hardly gives your question a thought before he peels out of the parking lot. “Jungkook can handle everybody else. I raised him on my back, you know? It’s the least he can do!”

[thattimdrakeguy]

Toxicity, gaslighting, hypocrisy, an overall just bad fandom folks on twitter.

I’m glad I’m not involved with twitter comic fandom cuz the amount of people trying  to make Tim look bad like throwing a fit cuz he’s under too much pressure or like-- not being a saint. While calling characters that constantly murder people or violate human rights “baby” is way too high.

Even just the minor lies are nutty, acting like the 90s edgy art style at the time shows Tim is twisted cuz he looks scary in it-- when it’s just dated art

But then-- complain when people say things out of context for other characters-- when the context doesn't make it better. I really can’t process those people. they confuse me.

Also one of them apparently said Tim being a rich white kid makes him a power fantasy? Which is superficial at best  when applied to Tim given when you read 90s Robin-- (Which I assume they’re complaining about, cuz he still lives away from Bruce then-- cuz otherwise Jason would technically count as a rich kid) Tim is just this dorky kid, who’s scared on  the inside, putting on a brave face and fighting crime and his insecurity problem. He’s not some masculine power fantasy, he’s a relateable kid, his wealth besides being able to spend money in his first mini was even portrayed negatively if any thing sometimes with his dad as having been away for a lot of his childhood and leaving Tim without proper social development and being pretty socially clueless to the point it‘s a problem he has no street smarts.

So pretty much just gaslighting and strawman arguments.

You’re racist if you don’t like Damian.

You hate poor people if you don’t like Jason.

You’re sexist if you don’t like Stephanie.

But I’m someone who still likes Jason a lot even if I don’t like any thing in the Red Hood era not done by Winnick (and even then there’s a scene in Lost Days  that creeps me out), and used to like Damian and Steph, I just stopped liking them because I just found myself realizing I don’t particularly like a lot of their writing.

At the same time as well, isn’t it just more reasonable that people don’t like them cuz of simple taste or their character actions?

Damian does kidnap people and violates people’s human rights currently, and did chemically paralyze and trigger Jon in their first meeting, as well as smacks him for freaking out later on that miniseries.

If you made Steph a dude, more people would be very likely to call Steph a sexual harasser for flirting with Tim past  what he’s comfortable with, even with the knowledge he has a girlfriend. Plus she has shown dangerous cynicism in nearly letting criminals die, and even tendencies found in emotional abusers given her gaslighting, ill-trust, and attempts to go behind Tim's back, and even throwing crap at him while refusing to talk as he’s trying to apologize for some thing he didn’t actually do.

Not even to say Tim is a saint, he’s shown to be insensitive, and condescending, but if you start with his origin and not Red Robin, in my experience it ‘s more likely you’ll read him as a socially oblivious boy scout-esque kid rather than an angsty jerk. Doesn’t make what he did not bad, but just more interesting, because if a character is a saint it‘s boring, and Tim's actual original character makes what he does less offending to people. He has gotten incredibly pissed off at his friends, but ... he’s a literal kid that has to lead other kids with super powers. It‘s bad that he threw fits, but it ‘s never done in a way that makes it feel like “Oh i must hate this character”. Damian is also a kid, but what he does is way more notably offending to some people. He has a bad backstory but it is fiction, people have different standards with specific actions depending on how they feel about it. It‘s not illogical to be fine with a socially oblivious kid being insensitive but not be fine with a character  that consistently does bad things even after they’re aware it‘s bad. 

(Heck, Tim even cheated on his girlfriend, but given how that whole storyline chunk was written, it‘s more out of character and an example of bad writing than anything else, given how Tim feels on the topic of cheating before and after, as well as how much he cared about Ari. It was inconsistent and even the writing breezes past reality with how Ari suddenly agrees to mutually break up. I don’t  believe the story actually treats it fully as cheating either, making it feel like they knew. So it feels more like bad writing than a thing to judge Tim on, because that‘s just something people use to criticize bad writing, quite commonly even with many shows or movies. I can still get why people don’t care. It‘s more of a writing complaint. Like Jason being a serial killer is. It‘s inconsistent, doesn't add up, and isn’t a good reflection of the character.)

If you are fine with it is some thing else, cuz that‘s a matter of tastes.

I actually started calling Tim “baby” cuz Damian fans called Damian baby-- which I find a bit more odd (sometimes honestly just worried given the crap he does in the images they say that to some of the time), cuz while I’m aware Damian is younger obviously, he’s only cute in pandering moments that‘d I’d actually deem ooc, using basic standards that it isn’t consistent with anything before and after, as well as not fitting who the character is or even built up properly if they even try. (Also cuz Aunt May called Peter and friends babies and  thought it was charming). My blog as well is about 90s Tim Drake as well, where’d he’d be a year off of the same age as Damian mainly, I may call him baby past that age, but that‘s just cuz it‘s s tuck in my head now. I really can’t picture calling RR Tim baby in fandom usage of the word (which is  the only way I use it) if that was the only way he’s ever been.

Like with characters I start from the beginning (besides Dick and Bruce cuz gosh that’d take forever) and judge what ‘s in-character from there and read, while noticing development as well as things they’ve done. i didn’t read Red Robin first, I read Robin first. I didn’t read Batgirl first I read her Robin appearances first. When I studied Jason I wen t with his post-crisis Robin run (I deem pre-crisis Jason a different character given so much is different the same way i do with the New 52 teen titans core four generally speaking besides comparing to pre-New 52 versions). When I went to study Damian for stuff I read his first appearances forward much the same. And at one point in time I liked all these characters, I judged them based off of reading them.

So I’m not someone with just a bias-- I’m aware some of my friends do, but I’m not my friends if that wasn’t obvious. I’m friends with some people that like vastly different things than me even.

All I can say in the end is that it bugs me that toxic people have convinced themselves they are some victim while spreading harassment, lies, and gaslighting, because other people just enjoy different things or read things differently.

A lot of these people bother me especially because they frame themselves or the character  they like as some victim they have to defend, and even target specific people over, when they themselves are the ones showing basic toxic behavior. they are the toxic ones yet believe they’re the victim-- cuz someone read a comic differently or didn’t like the same character as them.

That is nuts to me

I’ve even had to deal with similar people since I gotten called a racist for not liking Damian-- when I’ve even mentioned that I’ve liked Damian previously, and explained I simply didn’t like his comic or his writing enough to reasonably like him. Meaning I guess the action of not liking Damian-- in of itself-- is racist, which is gaslighting at best. I’m sure someone out there even hates Damian because they’re racist, but why treat everyone (or at least some notable chunk to be worth talking about) that doesn't like him as if they’re that person?

They’d rather believe that people that don’t like what they do must be terrible people of some kind rather than treat them as normal people.

They’ve even showed hypocritical behavior, by complaining of others not  giving context-- while doing the same thing to other characters.

As I said, I’m not on comic book twitter, I have not even interacted with these people. I’ve just seen it, and it‘s just so toxic to me. It‘s a bad thing to see over fiction.

[daggerzine]

R.E. Seraphin molds tiny shapes into big songs.

Though he’s been on the scene for a while now (with different bands) I hadn’t heard the music of Bay Area musician R.E. “Ray” Seraphin until this year via a cassette called Tiny Shapes via Paisley Shirt Records (more on the label below). His first real band was Talkies, which he discusses below (and I have enjoyed), but he seems to have really come into his own this year with that cassette and a new EP, A Room Forever, which came out just a month or so ago. In his music you’ll hear influences of 80’s jangle pop as well as some deeper post-punk stuff (and for more current stuff I hear whispers of Dean Wareham and his bands and Wild Nothing). Reading below he seems very well grounded and seems to have a great attitude about everything (even not being able to play shows during a pandemic or being in a writing slump). I think once this is all over this guy will go on 5-year tour and gain lots and lots of new fans. In the meantime do check out his stuff, you won’t be disappointed.

   Where did you grow up?

Berkeley, CA. The area I grew up in was filled with Victorian homes and dilapidated industrial warehouses. My family home was walking distance from a lagoon and an old, rusty set of train tracks. I felt I lived in an unremarkable college town. There wasn't much activity outside of the school. I discovered Berkeley’s storied political and musical history much later in life. Now, of course, there are many books written about Berkeley, but I thought it was a kinda nondescript city as a kid.

 Do you remember what band made you fall in love with music?

Dating myself hard here, but I remember being floored by The White Stripes’ “Fell in Love With a Girl” video when I was 11. The Top 40 music making the rounds on VH1 and MTV at the time was beyond dreck — a lot of Train, Staind, Matchbox 20. The White Stripes were the first band I was exposed to that made succinct, catchy, no-frills music. I was genuinely enthralled. Plus, the Lego animation in that video still holds up.

 Was guitar your first instrument?

I started on bass. My first instrument was an extremely cheap, pointy BC Rich knockoff monstrosity. I believe I was 13. I had no idea how to play and little interest in learning. For the first year, I putzed around with a Pro Co RAT, a wah pedal, and a tinny-sounding Crate practice amp. I just tried (and succeeded in) being as obnoxious as possible. When I started writing songs, I eventually graduated from playing bass poorly to playing guitar poorly.

 Tell us about your first band.

My first band that played shows was called The Phil Spector Shotgun Experience. That was primarily a cover band I put together with my high school buddies and my mom. We covered Radio Birdman, the Pink Fairies, and the MC5; we also had an unwittingly hilarious original called “Nitroglycerin Man” — the first song I ever wrote (maybe I was subconsciously inspired by Wages of Fear). At some point, we kicked my mom out of the band and started playing as the Impediments. That band kicked ass — we made pridefully dumb American punk music. That was also my only band to sign a record contract, so it’s quite possibly been downhill from there!

 Tell us about The Talkies (unless that was your first band mentioned above).

Talkies (no article!) was a group I started in 2014 as a vehicle for my songs. My previous bands had been more of a shared vision, so Talkies was my first foray into being the lone genius of a group. The sound was mostly drawn from what is disparagingly known as power pop. Basically, I was heavily into the band Shoes for a few years.

We released a few albums and EPs. Did a couple short tours. During that time, the project was dragged from the Bay Area to Austin and back before I finally, mercifully pulled the plug last year. It was time.

 When did you transition from Talkies to the solo stuff you’re doing now? Did it feel comfortable?

Talkies had run its course, but I had a smattering of songs leftover from that project that I wanted to record. Around that time, I learned my good friend Jasper Leach (Burner Herzog) was getting ready to skip town. I had always wanted to work with him and, seizing my final opportunity to do so, we banged out my début, Tiny Shapes, last summer. The whole experience was fairly serendipitous. The stars aligned for that one.

I wouldn't say the process was comfortable. Recording the album felt necessary, urgent — almost compulsory at times. My heart was ready for a new project and I truly wanted to center myself for the first time. I’m glad I did. This is the happiest I’ve been musically in some time.

 “I think therefore I am”

I love the songs on A Room Forever. How did they come together?

So glad to hear that! I got asked to contribute to a compilation back in April. With the deadline approaching and inspiration still eluding me, I took a glance at my bookshelf, noticed a particular Carson McCullers title, and whipped up “Clock Without Hands.” After my trusty collaborator Owen Adair Kelley added his parts, I felt we had stumbled upon a great sound. I tried to harness the creative spirit and pushed myself to finish a few ideas buried deep in the recesses of my Voice Memo app. I got friends Matt Bullimore (The Mantles) and Yea-Ming Chen (Yea-Ming & The Rumors) involved, and that was that. No great origin story — just pure American ingenuity and elbow grease.

 Tell us about Paisley Shirt Records. Who runs it and how did you hook up with them?

Paisley Shirt Records is simply the man, the myth, the legend — Kevin Linn. He is a San Francisco-based musician and artist who records as Sad-Eyed Beatniks.

I met him when I was looking for someone to release my album, Tiny Shapes. He had just put out a tape by Hits — a great local band featuring some friends of mine — and I felt a kinship with his roster. So, I reached out to him. Foolishly, he agreed to put out my album and we’ve been inseparable ever since. Solid dude. High marks.

 Have you done any solo tours? If so where and how did they go?

Ha! No. I had only notched two shows as R.E. Seraphin before the pandemic hit. Likely not doing anything beyond the odd live-stream show for a while. That said, if any tastemaking European touring agencies are reading this — give me a ring!

The latest EP

 What are your top 10 desert island discs?

Ah, jeez. This question. I’ll just say these are 10 (plus one) that I come back to quite often. In no order:

 Marquee Moon by Television

The Everly Brothers’ Best

Forever Changes by Love

Let it Be by The Replacements

Third/Sister Lovers by Big Star

The First Songs by Laura Nyro

16 Lovers Lane by The Go-Betweens

In a Silent Way by Miles Davis

A Different Kind of Tension by Buzzcocks

Something Else by The Kinks

Old No. 1 by Guy Clark

 What are a few Bay Area bands that we should know about.

This is a golden-era for weirdo pop music in the Bay. To name just a few: Galore, Cindy, The Umbrellas, Tony Jay, Flowertown, Healing Potpourri, Latitude, Cocktails, The Reds, Pinks, & Purples, Yea-Ming & The Rumors, Anna Hillburg, the 1981, Toner, Frank Ene, Neutrals, Owen Adair Kelley, April Magazine, Telephone Numbers, Hits, Sad-Eyed Beatniks. Essentially every act associated with Paisley Shirt Records and/or Mt.St.Mtn. My bias is strong.

 Do you feel that the pandemic has helped your songwriting or hindered it (if either)?

A li’l column A, a li’l column B. I’m a natural procrastinator, so I’ve definitely savored the lack of band practice and shows (things that often necessitate new material). That said, I doubt I would have finished A Room Forever had I not been quarantined at home. Without having many obligations and without being able to leave my house, music definitely became my raison d’être for the first time as an adult. I was fortunate to not be deemed an “essential” worker and to be able to focus energy on my passion momentarily. Silver lining.

 What’s next ? A new record by the end of the year possibly?

Hopefully continuing to promote my music and play shows on the ol’ webiverse. A Room Forever will be receiving a small vinyl and tape pressing at the end of September via Mt.St.Mtn. and Paisley Shirt Records. So, looking forward to that.

I was creatively tapped for a few months after A Room Forever. While a new album is possible, it’s not probable. I am plugging away at a few tunes, but I tend to conceptualize albums as a thematic whole and not as a collection of songs. Haven't stumbled onto my next Big Idea yet. Don't count me out, though. I could see myself dashing off a covers album for sure.

 What is one song you wish you’d written?

Too many to name! I’ll reframe that question to mean a great song I could see myself capable of writing in an alternate time, place, or dimension. Maybe one of Peter Holsapple’s songs from The dB’s — “Black & White” or “Neverland.” Also: anything by Wreckless Eric or Martin Newell.

 Final thoughts? Closing comments?

Just finished reading an interview with the great James Purdy, and thought this quote summed up iur current political climate well:

“You go out into the world and no one knows you, you can be ruled because you’re programmed. Everything is stamped, put on the shelf, described, thrown out into the garbage. It’s a political process, and behind that an economic process. But to be nothing, that is the worst of all possible things.”

   www.reseraphin.com

www.paisleyshirtrecords.bandcamp.com

[ot74evr]

BTS Game

Tagged by: @mintjoonlep thanks for thinking of me!

Tagging: if you want to do the thing, do the thing

First BTS song? DNA. I had bought Just Dance as a way to trick myself into cardio, but I grew tired of it after a while. My kid LOVED all the foreign music, especially the K-Pop. So I asked my friend who had been listening to the genre for a long time what she would reccomend and within minutes I had like 14 youtube videos send to me xD. The kid hit on DNA like nothing else and then Idol shortly after and we’ve been hooked ever since.

First bias? Yoongi. I was doing those youtube “pick a thing and we’ll match you with an idol” type videos to learn faces and names and one of them I had done I got 18/20 Suga or something equally crazy. And then I noticed my eyes kept finding him the next time kiddo went on a binge of MVs, lol

Current bias? ah shit. Honsetly this can change by the day. So I guess today is Joon. Tomorrow might be Hoseok or Jin lol

Put the members in order on your bias list. I am ot7. I truly love all of these bois. But if I’m really honest with myself it is Hyungline then Makenaeline with surprising upsets that change day to day lmao

Favorite BTS song? oh god. uuuuhhhhhh. I have a soft spot for Waste It On Me but you could tell me that’s a Steve Aoki song and I’d be like “Fair”. I Need You (Urban Remix) is that same kind of love for me. I just can’t skip it no matter what mood I’m in

Favorite underrated BTS song? Let Go. Begin. I don’t know if these qualify but I do love them so

Favorite song on Wings? First Love. It was the first song I absolutely HAD to look up the lyrics to. It was late at night and some shitty fan cam, but I loved it immediately, and probably boosted my early Yoongi bais.

Favorite song on LY: Her, Tear, and Answer? Her - Dimple. just super cute and fun. 

Tear - Airplane pt. 2. I lobe it all. And watching the guys dance in the rain is always a plus imo

Answer - Mic Drop (Steve Aoki Remix) [Full Length]. Sexiest thing they have ever done on stage. Dont @ me

Favorite MV? Danger? Grape Jin in eyeliner is too powerful to resist. And the shoulder/bicep section????? I also like the general aesthetic of War on Hormone because I am a degenerate 90s baby lmao. Airplane pt 2 again is very nice >.>

Favorite dancer? Yoongi or Tae. It’s easy to say Hobi or Jimin because they are very good at what they do and if they weren’t in this group I am very sure they would be talked about for their styles. Seeing either one or both of them on World of Dance would be a dream come true. But I like the “chip in the polish” that Yoongi and Tae have.They like to dance and are very good at it but it’s the lack of refinement that Hobi and Jimin have in spades that really draw me in to Y and T.

Favorite vocalist? Rap line. I’m not even kidding. Rapline singing is my BIGGEST weakness in this group.I know Joon fucks around and does silly shit with his voice but when he’s serious or his voice lends support on a track? yespleasethanksomg. And the other two have such natural abilty as well. Out of Vocalline though it’s Jin. He has such a unique tone to him that I really like. And that range?? gdlk

Favorite rapper? I dont know if I can pick.They’re each so unique and talented. I’d probably have to say Yoongi tho. His voice just gives me chills no matter what.

Favorite hair color on each member? Any shade of purple/blue really. That anime boi shit is my jam. MintYoongi will forever live in my heart with curly haired Tae tho. I know it’s not a color but I am SOFT for it okay?? Favorite choreography? Black Swan. The shoulder section of Danger. Idol is impressive everytime. I can’t wait to see what choreos they have planned for when they tour again. 

Favorite ship? Joon/books Yoongi/naps Jin/fishing Hobi/sound effects Tae/art Jimin/laying in laps JK/ARMYs

[littlemeowmeowschimmy]

FAQ’s

Personal Information... 

My name is Kas as it is short for a name that was taken from my grandmother. I’m very open about sharing my name and my face, however I usually take my face reveals off pretty quickly. 

I have a personal account as this is a secondary blog. Meaning if you @ me in anything, I will more than likely respond to with my personal account. If you wish to follow it it’s @ / litlemeowmeowschimmy

I’m 20 years old - Jan 21st 1999 

Majoring in Studio Arts and minoring in Psychology. I have an Insta dedicated to my drawings it’s @ / drawingwithkaseroll 

I am mixed. Half White and half African American. I will say that it is really hard to tell what race I am because I am mixed. I certainly am not as pale as my mother and those on my moms side of the family that are white, nor am I as dark as those on my father’s side of the family. 

I am single as a pringle

I got into BTS November 2018 through my best friend who writes as well. I will often mention her as we spend a lot of time together. We have threads on each of our blogs named “Shit my friends say” 

My main bias is Yoongi, however I often add Jimin as well because I jump in between the two. But, I first fell in love with Yoongi and my heart is taken by him. 

I will and forever be OT7 because I certainly do not believe in “solo stans” or being one because all of them bring something special to the table. Plus, they simply wreck me on a daily basis so I can’t get under the mindset on loving just one and hating the others. 

I do not under any circumstances support saesangs or saesange “culture” if there is. I find it disgusting, appalling and everything in between. If you are one then immediately unfollow me. You are and never will be welcomed on my blog(s). 

I consider myself a multistan. With that being said, I realize that I am not a hardcore stan with certain groups as I am with BTS. That is a completely different story and different conversation to have within itself. With that being said, I don’t have a bias or a wrecker in these groups (other than SEVENTEEN) because I simply enjoy their music. I think being able to enjoy different Kpop groups and listen to different sounds without getting completely ripped to shreds by certain fandoms is nice. Some include: SEVENTEEN, EXO, AOA, ATEEZ, GOT7, Monsta X, etc. 

Outside of Kpop I listen to a variety of music. I have always said that I will listen to pretty much classical all the way to heavy metal. However, as I grow older, I’ve really enjoyed songs in foreign languages, “poppy” music, eletronic, alternative rock, and soft metal (meaning not a lot of screaming). My roots have always been rock because my parents love listening to classic rock, so I will always go back to that genre.  

I speak two different languages: English and Spanish. However, I am more fluent in English, and I am semi fluent in Spanish. Meaning, I can understand when someone is speaking to me, I can understand music, and read in Spanish. However, it is very hard for me to produce the language, i.e speak it. I can type it, but that’s very different than speaking. 

I am dabbling in different languages because at the end of my life I want to say that I’ve studied over ten different languages. I can still read and speak a little bit of Japanese and my current obsession is learning Korean. 

Regarding requests and others.... 

The writing tumblrs I am apart of are -- bangtanarmynet // ficswithluv // BTS Writers Collective 

My requests are opened and it will always say in my bio if they are opened or closed. 

I am open to writing certain types of requests. There are a few that I will not write and I have spoken about them here. 

With the expection to the last bullet point: I will not under ANY circumstances write anything that includes: Mass shooting, rape, talk about rape, sexual abuse, etc. Some of you might be wondering well what about UWMA (Until We Meet Again)? I have written a warning post for that series in which you can read. 

Stories that contain dark subjects: As mentioned UWMA and Play With Me have some pretty dark topics. I.e mention of physical and emotional abuse. In those stories I do not and WILL not normalize it in anyway. I mention it and move on. There will be times in UWMA that there is hair pulling, kicking, smacking, etc as well as Play With Me. However, that is and WILL be as far as I go. 

In my warning post I have stated that I’ve grown up in a very toxic environment and under those circumstances I am well aware of how touchy those subjects can and will get. I have and I will continue to state that I am not at all normalizing those behaviors nor am I “romanticizing.” Instead I am bringing those subjects up to the table if they wish to be discussed, and I am going about this in a psychological stance. Being a psych minor I have and always will enjoy diving into the mind. I love how it works and I love writing about it. But there is a line and I will never cross and certainly not with BTS, nor with anyone in general. 

I have no problem writing member x member requests because I certainly believe that giving someone something to imagine is honestly pretty great. However, I want to state that you as a reader should not be pushing these pairings onto BTS. They have stated that it makes them uncomfortable because they view themselves as brothers, not lovers. I don’t mind giving you something to read about and create a fictional world, but you should take it upon yourself to know where the line is. The same can be said about giving me requests. Do not in anyway believe that you are going to get into a relationship with them and be y/n. I am simply providing you with content, creating a fictional world, and having fun. 

I have no problem writing any sexual content (other than what’s been previously mentioned). As you will come to find out, I’m pretty open on sex as I have written it a lot. 

I have no problem writing a male!reader x member. Once again I’m pretty cool with anything (other than what has been already said) 

This is only a BTS blog. I will not under any circumstances write about any other group because as I have mentioned earlier, I simply listen to other kpop groups. Yes, I will mention maybe a name or two in an imagine // drabble // series because I realize that BTS sees and are friends with other members from other groups. However that does not openly give you the rights to ask me to write about another group. 

In order to differentiate the types of post I do, you can read about it in the post here

Regarding my post schedule and other mentions... 

Since being a college student, my schedule is always fluctuating. As I grow older, I have a harder time finding the time to sit down for more than a half and hour and write. It’s either because I am busy with work (in the summer and on breaks) or busy with classes (in the fall and into the spring). I try to post something every week. If that is one story, two stories, or even three (if I’m lucky.) I used to do a story every day beginning out so that people could have something to read. As I have a steady following it has naturally come down to one or two a week. 

I do not mind people asking when I am posting or updating a series. In fact, it brings me great joy to know people are enjoying my content. However, do not ask me all the time if I am updating something on a regular basis.

Rolling off the last bullet point: I want y’all to remember that I am doing this simply because I love it. I am not doing it because Tumblr is paying me, or bangtanarmynet is paying me. I’m just a twenty year old girl, who has an obsession for writing and BTS, giving y’all content. With that being said, no not in any circumstances be demanding and rude. It will not only get you an undesirable response, but it will have negative consequences. 

I want to be able to create a safe space on my blog because I know how horrible the internet and the world can be. I also want to create a space where people can get lost in a fictional world craving for more as authors I have looked up to has created for me. 

Let’s have fun and if there are any more questions feel free to write me an ask 

[somethinglacking]

Why Luciel/707/Saeyoung Choi is my main bias in Mystic Messenger

Let me start off with a confession, back in early 2017 when I was first introduced to Mystic Messenger, I went in blind. I saw some concept art, and it was actually Zen that had caught my eye. Zen bless his soul was, in fact, my first Mystic Romance, and will forever hold a special place in my heart.

Luciel visually didn’t draw me in at the time, but I think it was the over the top style of him that turned me away. The vibrant red hair you see so overused in a certain brand of otome game characters. I also didn’t like his glasses… Seven is gorgeous and I gush over fanart of him and his cg’s btw. I’ve changed my opinion.

BUT!

It was the very first chatroom that made me go “Oh Damn! Where have you been hiding all my life!?!”

Many of you here on Tumblr might know me very well personally, but I’m also someone that can find comfort in humour at inappropriate times, and I’m very well as obnoxious as Seven.

Right away Seven became a very relatable character to me. I saw that he had a route, but at the time I didn’t have enough hourglasses to obtain access to him. Plus, without spoilers, my friend told me to play his route last. (Back before another story btw)

So I played all the other route, gaining a little detail, actually and quite honestly brightening up when a chatroom would open up and I saw that it was Seven. You know- He likes to hang around at 2 am. His character always never failed to make me laugh, and even if the current route I was on didn’t really appreciate my always supporting and cheering for Luciel, it just came naturally.

I was so curious about him, and after all the build-up between him and this hacker guy that apparently knew him, and Seven recognized. Who was Mary Vanderwood the 3rd? Was my baby eating okay?  How did his lifestyle effect him? I had so many questions.

When I finally made it and opened the 707 route I was honestly blown away.

The depth of his character that hit me right at home and my feels in the face. Yes, it wasn’t a huge surprised that Seven was a secretive, mysterious, and tragic character. That was obvious.

It was the solidarity he found in his fake persona, even if it wasn’t all that fake and he just overemphasized and blown it up to be overdramatic. He even wanted you to believe that his chatroom self was his real persona- I can relate to that quite a bit with myself. You know, not wanting to worry people with your own struggles, or lose people by being yourself- So you take another personality that is more welcoming, carefree, and accessible to those around you. It’s better to be fake about yourself then be all alone right?

A lot of the time it felt like this is how Seven viewed the RFA.

When he would open up about his struggles they’d basically ignore him and take it as him making more bad jokes. I’ve actually had this happen to me in real life- It hurts guys. Seven, much like myself would just laugh it off and be like.

“HAH! Totally joking- GOT YOU! You know I don’t have any personal struggles for you to worry yourself over! AHAHAH LOLOLOLOL JOKES!”  

As an isolated person myself and a homebody, and Seven who has felt isolation his entire life. Isolation hurts.

It just makes the wall between true-self and the front you show people all that the more sturdy.

It’s not that the RFA doesn’t care about Seven’s well-being or wishes harm. It’s just when he tries to make a human connection or looking for a way to express himself and struggles, the RFA doesn’t actively take it seriously.

Seven began to feel like more than that class clown and light-hearted jokester, as he starts making a connection and understandings with you via. chatroom/calls. How he seems to be drawn to any form of acknowledgment someone understands what he is feeling and offers to comfort him with their words.

I feel like he never had that before.

That’s what makes you so important to him. You see him as someone, not just the comic relief, you can read between his line for help and understanding. You see past the persona he had gotten too comfortable playing.

He has a general concern for the others, even stating opening he’d give his life to protect the RFA and you- And I don’t doubt the sincerity of these claims even if they all took it as a joke. But not you, you the MC thank him. That to him meant the world to him even if he doesn’t express it.

Seven is a very serious person underneath it all and has lost his sense of self after parting ways with his brother, joining a life-threatening profession, and constantly living life one day at a time not know if he’s still drawing breath in the morning.

That’s no way to live and it breaks me.

Saeyoung had led a hard life.

I feel like people don’t really understand him or why he is so different after the apartment and you finally come in like a wrecking ball and completely demolish his walls.

As someone that has RP’ed Seven’s character actively in the past- I can’t tell you how many times I was dissed for not being “Playful enough” once the relationship develops with the MC. That they want to RP with the “Fun” Seven and laugh. While I was actively trying to bring the actual depth of his character to life.

It’s that mentality that actually makes me mad about RFA even. They also want cheerful and playful Seven 24/7 and even criticize him for being “TOO SERIOUS AND THAT IS WAS TOO WEIRD FOR THEM” lolololol.

Saeyoung Choi is:

Deeply emotionally scarred

Brave

Loyal

Tragic

Playful

Funny

Quirky

DEPRESSED!

Sad

Isolated

Lonely

In need of understanding for his emotions, and life. He needs to be able to show all the sides of him

Not just the playful prankster, though he is still that.

I dunno, maybe it’s because I see a lot of myself in Seven- Minus the secret agent genius hacker things- that his character left such a deep impression on me.

[just-do-kyungsoo-it]

BTS Tag Questions

IntI was tagged by @lux-astrorum (thank you lovely!! :)

1. First BTS song?

I think the first BTS song I ever heard was “Save Me,” but the song that made me stay was “Butterfly” which came up randomly on my playlist one day and I fell completely in love with it.

2. First Bias?

I think my first was...Hobi cuz he was so bright and cheerful my attention was naturally drawn to him.

3. Current Bias?

V aka Taehyung aka Tae-Tae. What an absolute sweetheart I just adore him so much and (gimme a sec to vent) I just love the way he sees the world and his approach to things. I think I let negativity get to me too often, and I see him as someone who actively tries to be positive; I just honestly admire him so much. Plus..his voice is awe-striking.

4. Put the members in order of your bias list.

I’ll just put my top 3 cuz I would feel SO guilty listing all of them out like that (I honestly love all of them okay). But my top 3 would be: Tae, Hobi, and Jungkook.

5.Favorite BTS song?

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?! I’m going to say “Blood Sweat and Tears” just cuz I’ve honestly probably listened to that one the most. It’s just so amazing!

6. Favorite BTS song that is underrated?

I feel like “Butterfly” is underrated, just cuz that was the song that really got me into BTS and people just don’t...talk about it as much as I feel it deserves. 

7. Favorite song of Wings?

Okay so Wings was a masterpiece of an album so that’s going to be SO HARD. But besides “Blood Sweat and Tears” I think “Lie” was my favorite from that album; I had it on repeat for weeks!

8. Favorite Song of LY Her, Tear, and Answer?

Her: “Serendipity,” which is interesting because when I first heard it I honestly didn’t like it. It’s grown on me so much and is on several of my playlists now Jimin’s voice is so beautiful.

Tear: “Singularity”: I had been waiting AGES for this kind of song for Tae, my heart probably stopped beating for a minute the first time I heard it.

Answer: “The Truth Untold,” which I understand is a fan favorite but honestly just found it the first time I listened through the album and fell in love with it - it is my honorary rainy day song.

9. Favorite Music Video?

Again, “Blood Sweat and Tears” was THAT comeback that I will never be able to really get over okay. Everything about that music video was perfection, the aesthetic, the styling, the storytelling tied seamlessly with the music itself: PERFECTION.

10. Favorite dancer?

Hobi, I can’t explain it he almost reminds me of a modern Fred Astaire because he seems to dance so freely and easily but then if you actually watch him he’s incredibly on point all the time. 

11. Favorite vocalist?

I’m going to say Jimin (I still love you tho Tae) just because I always seem to fall for his voice in any of his solo songs - his voice is very ethereal and...wow.

12. Favorite rapper?

Suga, no question. I love his style.

13. Favorite hair color for each member?

Jin - While he pulls off platinum blond quite well, I will forever and always love Jin with his natural black hair color.

Suga - I loved the natural black on him too, either that or that kinda naturalish blond he had for his Agust D mixtape

JHope- The dark red he had for the “DNA” comeback looked SO GOOD guys

RM - I will never get over the light purple from the “Spring Day” comeback - it really threw me because I honestly didn’t expect Namjoon to look so good in like..lavender?? But he looked amazing

Jimin - THE BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS SILVER HAIR

V - He always looks amazing with the dirty blond hair in my opinion, especially with that headband look from “Mic Drop” or the mullet (no one come for me please it looked nice on him)

Jungkook - Tbh I haven’t really seen Jungkook with anything besides black or brown hair...but yeah those brown highlights they did were cute on him

14. Favorite Choreography?

Probably “Blood Sweat and Tears” or “Fire” - both of those had me watching the dance practices on repeat.

15. Favorite Ships?

I honestly don’t ship...sorry all lol

Tagging: @roryotk, @obviouslystillfuschia, @innocentlynik, @my-answer-isexo , @tangerine-jinani, @ksooquishy and whoever else wants to do this!!