#my two friends literally hate me for hating this show BUT I LIKE SHOWS THAT DONT MAKE ME EXCRUCIATINGLY CRINGE OK
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Gems from the second half of S1:
Megatron is trapped and Jack refuses to kill him, so he goes "I will be sure to tell all about our little conversation to Optimus, on the day I extinguish his spark!!" Bro you're literally being crushed by a mountain rn why are you STILL thinking about him
Also the way any time Megatron shows up to fight the Autobots the FIRST word out of his mouth is "Optimus" (with the certain reply "Megatron!")
A doom prophecy has come almost to fruition and Optimus immediately is like "yeah Megatron's gonna think this is all about him"
So he busts into Megatron's ship and CALLS HIM saying "Megatron! I am here, on your ship. Come and face me!!"
...And of course Megatron immediately radios his ship and says "Any Deception who lays a hand on Optimus Prime will answer to me!" 🙄🙄
"Soundwave, lock onto my coordinates--and lead my opponent to his destiny!" ...do I even need to comment?
THEY LITERALLY FINISH EACH OTHER'S SENTENCES!! "One shall stand..." "And one shall fall!" SHUT UPPP
Megatron knocks out literal Satan (Unicron) to save Optimus AGAIN. Deliberately Saving Optimus's Life Counter: 3
And then he dramatically aims his blaster at Optimus--before giving him a hand to help hiM UP I'M CRYING
"I have a proposal" + threat-flirting two inches from each other's face
"You know me all too well, Optimus." Losing my mind
They team up after EONS and they can still do the "long wordless glances that communicate everything"
"You can always be relied upon to listen to reason, Optimus!" Bro at this point I could make a whole post just of the compliments Megatron gives him
Ratchet saying "But with Optimus and Megatron together again--" with his whole chest
They literally fight back to back,,,, they have each other's backs I am sobbing,,,,,,
"Don't you remember, old friend?" + "Our mortal enemies! We're outnumbered--go!" *puts his hand on Optimus's shoulder* "I'll cover you!" MEGATRON I HATE YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT
So I'm fully in a Transformers Prime binge rewatch and holy SMOKES I did not remember how gay this show was. Like obviously Starscream is twinktown central and Knockout is very flamboyant, yes--but Megatron is so obsessed with Optimus (and vice versa) it's not even funny! Here's a compilation of the best moments from *just the first half of S1*:
Megatron returns after who knows how long and one of the first things out of his mouth is "No one rids me of Optimus Prime except me!!"
Megatron "dies" and Optimus is immediately depressed to the point where Ratchet asks about it and unlocks Sad Reminiscing
The Autobots are trying to figure out what the Decepticons are up to and Optimus starts with "Starscream is no Megatron, but--" just say you miss him
Megatron is literally comatose and his coma dream is him and Optimus fighting over and over again. Optimus just keeps respawning. Bro is LITERALLY living in his head rent free
In fact when Bumblebee gets inside Megatron's head Optimus is literally the First Thing he sees
Why is Bee in there? Because Optimus is deathly sick! And one of the only things that rouses Optimus from his nearly catatonic state? Learning Megatron is alive!
Megatron is also the only one who has the knowledge to save him so now they're both on their deathbeds together and their fates are linked etc. etc.
Bumblebee gets the info he needs by telling Megatron that if he doesn't give them the cure, Optimus will die (and Megatron will therefore not get to kill him)
Megatron (who had figured out this was all about Optimus before Bee even told him): "After our deep history together, to NOT watch the spark ebb from his eyes with my very own...well played, Scout." And then he gives him the cure
Starscream is about to kill Optimus and Megatron--as the FIRST thing he does after getting out of his coma--literally knocks him out of the sky, saves Optimus's life (priorities), and completely lets Optimus go. Which brings the Deliberately Saving Optimus's Life count up to 2!
Will add on as the show continues, but this is just like. 14 episodes in. At this point, forget allegations, they've been fully tried and convicted lol
#transformers prime#optimus prime#megatron#megop#megoptimus#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#the hyperfixation is hyperfixating#the wheel has turned again...#my meta posts#kind of meta but not really
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is it weird that I have multiple personalities and I’m completely aware of it??
they even have their own names and pronouns dude! like there’s :
Nyx-(they/them/(anything))-fairly charismatic, relatable, a little empathetic, fairly nice, open about their mental problems, funny(in my opinion), kind of outgoing, a little nugget, artistic, nosy, aroace (their the one I use online and w “friends” at least I think)
_(my actual name)_-(she/her)-polite, two faced, manipulative, pathological liar, rude, lazy, apathetic, cold, quiet, intelligent(at least everyone says she is), sometimes thinks she’s better than everyone else, unempathetic, aroace (the one I use in front of my family and people I don’t particularly like/know)
Raine-(they/them)-aggresive, angry, manic, psychotic, likes destroying stuff, likes doing an activity that y’all would probably hate me for so I won’t say, manipulative, impulsive, is willing to do anything(and I mean ANYTHING) to fuck w u emotionally, obsessed w guns and knives and blood, probably has a blood kink, unempathetic, aromatic (Literally have never showed this personality to anyone even online only by myself)
_(don’t currently have a name)_-(no pronouns or at least no particular ones)-depressed, desperate for distractions, sewercidal, multiple eds, $3lf h4m$, hates existence, kind of Christian, doesn’t care about anything or anyone, likes only monster energy and a certain brand of lollipops, hates eating, likes to smoke and do drvgs, bedrotter, doesn’t like politics, has insomnia, too tired and depressed to get out of bed, cries every 2 hours, convinced that they don’t have emotions, gaslights themselves, multiple mental illnesses, very introverted, doesn’t want to interact w anyone, always tired, video game obsessed, no self respect, can’t take a compliment, aroace, unempathetic, non-judgmental tho. (probably my real personality and usually only comes out when I don’t have a distraction)
#lol which personally is ur fav?#nyx tag!#nyx nonsense#nyx rambles#nyx ed#tw ed implied#nyx answers#tw ana rant#tw ed ana#tw ana bløg#tw skipping meals#tw depressing stuff#I don’t have memory gaps so Im convinced I dont have DID yet every time I do a test for one it says I have a “high risk” of it
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do you know the show outer banks? I don’t watch it but for some reason the TikTok algorithm thought I was important for me to know everything that is happening behind the scenes and as a larrie I just had lo laugh.
Apparently two of the actors (a man and a woman) of the series had and incredible chemistry off and on the screen, so much that the writers decided to make their characters a couple even tough that wasn’t the initial plan. Anyways they’re the best friends ever and are constantly together, inevitably people start shipping them irl too and at first they laugh about it and is all fun and games but them both of them got girlfriends and everything went downhill. They stopped hanging out together, people started noticing and asked about it and both of them and their respective girlfriends losed their minds and in multiple occasions told people that they needed to stop asking about them and their girlfriends were uncomfortable and that they weren’t an item and so on.
Given my background of course I thought they were just trying to create a little bit of drama for pr reasons but the more I learned the more I knew the similarities ended there because those two really hate each other now, the videos of them doing press for the series are painful to watch, they look at the other like they have the plague, their respective circle unfollowed the other one, they had to use body doubles to film a scene where they were hugging, the man not only deleted every photo of her of his Instagram but also the pics of him she took and the pics random people tagged them together and finally they killed his character of the series because apparently they can’t work together anymore.
Anyways, I laughed because not that I didn’t knew but this made more obvious how forced harry and louis was/is, you can’t fake two people hating SPECIALLY when they really love each other and are soulmates and all of that
hjdcjhdskjds my daughter actually told me they killed his character off, but I don't think she knows all of this (she hasn't watched it in a long time). I agree with you, though. It's so obvious H/L don't hate each other. Even if they broke up, they don't hate each other. It's just such a stupid thing to keep pushing. Louis has literally spoken a number of times about how proud he is of Harry blah, blah, blah.
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Trying on the cosplays imma wear to a con in a month and getting excited that ill be cosplaying said characters in a month
#prince's talk tag#yo its gonna be so fun!!#im doing h/omura‚ p/ers/ona3 protag and my boy rui in that order#h/omura was supposed to be a duo with my friend (they were to cosplay her gf)#but theres a s/tar r/ail meetup that same day and there wasnt one last year and they wanted to go so they're gonna do that instead#and the other two days i have cosplay meetups i wanna do so there went that#but its ok i know my friend really wanted a meetup last year so im happy theyre getting one this year#imma show up to the p/r/s/k one again and give out extras I get from buying the cd singles bc i dont need all these#plus i wont just be in his school uniform i bought his new troupe outfit so ill be in that!!#and for the protag i got his new battle uniform from the remake so thatll be fun!!#i brought an evoker prop but i need to find like orange tape to put around the muzzle so they know its fake and it cant shoot#the picture showed it with it on so i thought it would come with it but nope!#gotta hope security will be find with the tape on it#like it literally can't shoot the trigger doesn't move its just meant to be posed with#we'll see i guess#i was looking at the panels and i saw some that interest me but ill doubt ill go to bc knowing me ill spend my time in artist alley#but there was one i was really interested in but its at the same time as one of the meetups so i have to forgo it OTL#its a manga industry panel. i went to one at a different con like 9 years ago and i learned a lot about how they publish and print manga#so i kinda wanted to see how other companies do it if theres a difference#tho there is a manga lettering panel the next day and that doesnt interfere with anything so maybe ill do that one if anything#bc i have a love-hate relationship with type#man i can't wait for next month!!
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Tysm for the tag!!!! Also oh my gosh happy birthday!!! Hope you had an awesome day, your taste in stuff is top tier 👌 👌 (I also hope the in love with friend disease isn't hitting too hard. been there, it sucks)
Last song I listened to: Monster from Epic the Musical!!! While I was supposed to be doing homework :D the end of year burnout is so real, but I've been having an Epic Moment ™️ since the Vengeance Saga released a few weeks ago so. here we are
Favourite colour: Pastel, Lilac-ish purple. Personally I think that if there was a heart emoji in this colour the world would be a cured at least a little of its horrors.
Last book I finished: it is depressing how long ago this was (I hate that I never have time for reading!) but I think it was Heartstopper, the first volume, for about the 600 billionth time. Watching Nick and Charlie fall in love never gets old <3
Last show I watched: I started Outer Banks a little while ago! Been too busy to watch it for about 4 straight weeks but John B and Sarah were so cute and funny in the most recent episode I watched. I approve.
Sweet/Salty/Savoury: I am suuch a sweet tooth lol. I am a firm white chocolate enjoyer and dark chocolate HATER (it is bitter and disgusting and tastes like sadness and anger). Of course, though, milk chocolate is the best chocolate of the three!
Relationship Status: what an interesting question that is.... haha. he.
Complicated
Most recent google search: it was 'embroidery wildflowers'. I was looking for inspiration for a piece!! (I am so lucky it was something this inembarrassing)
Current obsession: Epic the Musical. Every time a new saga comes out it takes over my brain and consumes me completely. Genuinely my favourite musical ever I think!!!! I would die to play Epic's Penelope, her songs are so beautiful
Looking forward to: The summer holidays. Two more weeks!! I'm so close, and then 8 weeks of freedom with absolutely no commitments or work to do. I am currently being destroyed by burnout so I am literally holding onto these holidays like a lifeline :)
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No pressure tags: @krakoansam @hawkinsunderground @emily-mooon @pizza-feverdream @anxiousalene and anyone else!!! Peoples interests are fun to learn about!! Especially when I want ideas for new things to do/read/watch :DD
10 people i’d like to get to know better
Tagged by @poetichibiscus ! 👋 Thankssss it's fun getting to know people on here
last song i listened to: other than the lo fi beats i'm listening to at work, I think it was either Gucci Gucci by Kreayshawn or Can't Sit With Us by Honey C. They're part of my "hype up on the way to work" playlist, lmao
favorite color: purple all the way!
last book i finished: ohhhh man i'm not sure. i have a terrible, terrible habit of starting books and not finishing them. i THINK the last book i actually finished was a re-read of Venus in Furs by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch, and that was a while ago. Last book I started wassssssss either the Gottfried or Thomas of Britain version of the Tristan & Isolde romance (I kinda been bopping back and forth between them like an animal)...
last show i watched: slkfhalksd i think it was Yu-Gi-OH! VRAINS. i haven't had time to sit and watch a show in a while, either 😅
sweet/salty/savory: savoryyyyyyyyyyyyyy
relationship status: single and oh lord i have no idea how to mingle h el p
most recent google search: "can you buy me tampons text meme" <- important search
current obsession: the embarrassing obsession with disney's pocahontas is still ongoing. tbh, when you've gone out of your way to buy a laserdisc player because you needed to hear the commentary track found only on the 1996 special edition and nowhere else (bc you've scoured the internet for it and found NOTHING) there's probably no going back. incidentally, i think i'm gonna get into archiving media once i've made time to hunt down some more interesting laserdiscs to justify my impulse purchase with. (and if anyone wants a copy of that commentary track btw i made an mp3 of it all you gotta do is ask. just sayin'. just so you know.)
looking forward to: getting through this paralegal program so i can get a raise and maybe also upgrade apartments bc that would be Nice
Tagging: @subway-dove @anisaanisa @iveneverbeenmorestressedinmylife @elephantlovemedleys @t3acupz @mandoratheevilchaser @devilatelier @spacedewey @intrinsicallydisordered @ithinkimaperson and anyone else who wanna 👍
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My Blacklist: *organized, checked, checked, and triple checked to make sure I have everything on it and any variation.*
Twitter Search:
#am I doing something wrong I don’t understand#tfw your ick notp is the most popular ship in the fandom#this is specifically about the fact my hazbin notp is alastor and lucifer can’t stand it#and because I was on call with friends last night and I found some with a tag I *have blacklisted* while looking for vox and velvette#I don’t understand why are you like this twitter#twitter was literally only showing me my hazbin ick ships so I made sure they were blacklisted heavily#I *get* I’m weird and lots of people like it so there’s a lot but I really really *really* don’t#and if I want to cater my account and my space to not having a ship I hate on it every two posts I should be able#Creame brabbling#venty venty toasty posty#text post
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I see people getting enthusiastic about the player polycule but will they still be there when I'll start talking about JoshBeat, BeatShiki and Joshiki? not so sure. a shame since those three ships are extremely interesting as well
#you might tell me. but Léa they don't interact a lot! in fact Shiki and Joshua never interacted at all! how can we be there for that?#MY FRIENDS. i don't care <3#the important part is the POTENTIAL of the dynamic!! what you can create!!#JoshBeat? the funny potential is too powerful here. it could be literally anything.#Beat is just too easy to mess with and Joshua certainly won't hesitate#but tbh i'm also a big fan of the idea of two characters who don't like to show weakness#(Beat because he believes he has to be strong to protect Rhyme)#(And joshua because... it's Joshua. he likes being in control of everything and showing weakness is not being in control#it requires trust. trust in the one you're with that they won't use that weakness against you. trust that they'll help you.#that they won't push you further down.)#and i dunno. the idea of these two trusting eachother enough to be vulnerable with eachother#it's so soft and cute. i love it#BeatShiki? can we talk about beatshiki for a sec. they're so sweet. remember how they immediately became friends when they met?#Beat hating Neku's guts but still accepting to help them because it was for Shiki?#the wait? the wait during 3 years as they were the closest ones from Neku#drifting apart to the point that Beat doesn't recognise Mr Mew anymore? what happened?#the idea of being different but wanting the same thing. aiming for the same goal. sharing something despite these differences#being brought together by that similarity despite everything else and sticking together because they're the only one who get you#they're the only one who knows what it's like to lose someone like Neku. to not know where he is. to wait or look for him everyday#joshiki? did you guys forget how Shiki was the one to ever break Neku's shell of self-isolation against the world?#and how much this characteristic of Neku is paralleled with Joshua?#don't you think it would be interesting to have her meet him? see how much she could change him?#also it would be funny af to have Shiki (extremely easily flustered person) and Joshua (big flirt) interact. you cannot disagree.#it would be hilarious. anyway i'm very normal about these three ships as you can see#léa rambles#twewy#hachicule#beatshiki#joshiki#joshbeat
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Spending hours trying to figure out why I feel so irritable and sensitive today and I’m only realizing now it might have something to do w being invited to a birthday party full of an entire family I’ve never met and like seven very small children and the person inviting me assuming I would love that. I want to support her bc I like her and she’s family now, but I cannot---I will not---go to another family event and be pushed into the kitchen doing dishes with the women or cooing over someone’s baby who just stares at me and whines when I try to mask and say hello.
#my period ended so it ain't that.#maybe i'm a horrible person. i just want to be left alone for seven solid days. and i certainly do not want to be forced-#-to interact with children. they scare me. real bad.#maybe this also has something to do with my readings for this week and the fact that we're going to be discussing 'womanhood'.#like the subject is 'what IS a woman to you?' and i am not really looking forward to listening to 15 cis girls tell me-#-how awful it is and how much pain they themselves endured while entirely not acknowledging the existence of trans women#or gnc women.#why am i so irritable jfc.#every time i talk like this to my partner they give me that look lol. the look that's like 'uh huh. i know a trans person when i see one.'#and i'm like shhhhhhh. no. don't say that. shhhh. i don't want to be. i hate myself okay and my family scared me out of it.#wish i could fucking shapeshift. wish i was just fucking born with a dick and a flat chest. actually i wish i was two people.#so i could decide from day-to-day and not have to worry about irreversible changes.#how much of my alleged transness is just internalized misogyny? <- this is a question i ask very very quietly to myself#because i think it's what my mother thinks. and most of the world.#how do i learn to be comfortable AS a masculine woman? i have no one to look up to who can teach me or show me it's okay.#i have transmasc friends who are elated to go on T. i'm scared that they will make me want to do it again. why tf am i scared of that...#irreversible changes. society. literally everything. fucking hell............#no one talks about this particular experience of gender. no one talks about the in-between and the immense fear. at least no one to me.#why am i even taking gender studies in university if every class is full of cis women who don't even know the terminology of transness#or of gender-expansiveness...#i think i've become a very sour person in the last few years.#need to vent through writing or something. like through fanfiction.
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OH MY GOD also guys. please literally go to any amateur theater or whatever that u can near u. i went to a live performance of the it's always sunny ep where theyre doing the nightman. or whatever. it was soooooooo silly and so fun and in that room i could feel centuries of people gathering in rooms to laugh together. this is what can save humanity
#abby talks#i want them to do another one...#then we went to this sketchy weird party. well FIRST we saw one of my old buddies at the show!!!!!!!#hes gonna help w my thesis film and then he was gonna come to the party but by the time he was ready we were leaving#it was crazy me and my friends were so high and we were just in this absurd house. fucking maze ass layout#so anyway these dudes r playing mario kart. i asked my friend if there were going to be mostly straight ppl there and well that was a yes#these two dudes trailed me until i found a way to perch in a corner with my friend next to me. anyway. these dudes r playing and bring up#brba bc of course. im sorry u guys know when we talk abt that show its extremely thin ice. bc this guy is ofc hating on skylar and we're#lit all like ok misogynist like. she was just a woman living her life with an insane gaslighting husband. but he Kept his values the whole#way thru... ok. anyway hes like genuinely getting mad like we can see him take pics of us and angrily type to someone LOL and them hes just#pissily playing the game. so anyway yeah then we went back outside. then left after watching ppl do keg stands#i get so scared for college girls. literally felt like i was staring daggers at all the guys around the vibes were just off.#anyway. so fun night.#the show was genuinely amazing im so excited to see the one person in my class this week. she played mac
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what do u meannnnnnn i'm abt to be post college graduation 🧍🏻♀️🧍🏻♀️🧍🏻♀️
#apparnelty some family friends coming to my graudation#bc ig i'm the first in the generation to graduate or whatever the fuck#and like whatever that's fine but ffs i wish they would've come to my show instead#that i co directed and literally love sos o so oso sosososoososooo much#so so so proud of that#i don't give a shit abt my graduation tbh lmfao TT#so it lowkey doesn't mean much to me that they want to come to my graduation ;-;#it would've meant so fucking much if i knew they would be able to come#and want to see that and i could like suggest hey instead come see this show LMAO#like it probably wouldn't have happened but whatever#also just like i have like no motivation and no interest in stats at this point lmfao#ALSO bc these ppl all gonna be fucking talking abotu and asking abt what i'm doing after#I DON'T KNOWWWWW what i'm fucking doingggggggg#i alr get enough talk from my mom abt how i'm not applying to enough jobs#i dont need family friends to also be asking me and my answer just being ha idk#i'm fucking staying at college tho like on campus bc i'm a fucking loser and don't want to move on#like not rly. i'm kinda trying to see it as like#the alternative would've been me at home being a loser lol#and that would've been so annoying and even if this isn't the 'right' thing to do or most traditional#at least i'm choosing to do it ig#and i get to stay in this club w my bestestestestest friends for another yr#idc if i'm like not moving on when i should LOL too bad for me that's a future problem#and also kinda figure out this weird right after college time period w my friend who i'm rooming with#ok. slay that was. acool turnaround from me lmfao just . yeah ok that's the positive side ig lmao#anyway i also dont give a shit about graduation bc i hate my university rn lmfao :) and the world is burning down#jeanne talks#i am . procrastinating#imagine knowing what the fuck i learned in this class this whole semester#ugh literally two group projects to end on and two of the most boring annoying group project experiences i've had LMAO
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GODDDD i just miss being able to watch new episodes of riverdale live and have FUN with them. i remember watching the josie and the pussycats episode in my tiny single dorm room with like 5 of my friends packed onto my twin bed and when archie kissed kevin on the cheek we all ERUPTED in a screaming fit. and then a few weeks later we all did the same thing with the next to normal episode and again like when charles burst into the room singing we stood up and cheered like our sports team had just scored a touchdown or whatever. and even though i didn’t really like s6 very much it STILL had moments like these in the majority of episodes. but now every week i watch it alone in my bed on my laptop and i spend the entire time brain rottingly bored at best and genuinely upset and angry at worst. like what happened i miss riverdale!!!! :(
#i just feel nothinggggggg anymore it makes me actually want to burst into tears. riverdale nights used to be the most exciting nights of my#week and now i forget it’s even airing until like an hour before it starts. feels fucking bad man#not to keep beating a dead horse about how much i hate this season like I know I’ve made it clear. last night just really really did#something to me man. and it’s because they mentioned stonewall prep and i got SO excited because I was like ok FINALLY they’re gonna give me#a moment thag makes me stand up and yell like I used to be able to do. they’re gonna put bret on my screen and I’m gonna scream and run into#the other room to tell my sister about it and it’s gonna be fun and it’s gonna feel like how I’m used to feeling while watching this show.#but then they were like hey here’s two made up stonewall preppies who you’ve never seen or heard about before and who yoh certainly don’t#care about. that’s what you want right. and i literally think something in my brain snapped. irreparably#so now I’m just sitting here thinking about how the time of my life hen I got to watch my favorite show with my friends every week and jump#up and down and scream and laugh and cheer every 5 minutes is over and im never gonna get to do that again. which is awesome <3#this is so fucking melodramatic i know im sorry it’s just that I’ve snapped like I said. something happened last night & now im busted#but anyways. how are you guys doing#taylor xoxo
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Everyone’s been talking about byler vs others shows lately and can I just say I can’t scroll for 2 seconds without seeing a post about “Heartstopper” or “The Summer I Turned Pretty” on any of my socials and I’m getting really annoyed? 😭 The cast of both shows seem so sweet but I don't care to hear about it! And I don’t want to be a hater but it feels to me like it's really hard to curate experiences anymore. Ik its the Internet so you’re going to see things you don’t want to see and both shows are pretty popular right now butttt post after post?…broooo those fucking cartoon leaves are going to haunt me atp but I'm glad to know I'm not completely alone.
And I know this might seem so stupid but I’m really tired of seeing heartstopper in particular discussed in the Byler tag. I don’t have a problem with people who enjoy that show trying to find other bylers who watch it or necessarily talking about moments on that show they want to happen with byler I mean ppl can do what they want but yeah. I prob come across miserable but this hiatus is just sucky and people will probably feel this way about Byler/ST when S5 comes out so 😂
lmaoo i recommend filtering your tags for what you dont wanna see. you can do that here and you can mute specific words on twitter. not sure if you can on instagram, and for tiktok if you see something just hold down and hit “not interested” or even block them if their whole page is edits for a show youre not into. i do this and i rarely see heartstopper stuff anymore and i never saw tsitp to begin with bc all my algorithms have figured out im gay and dont show me the super hetero shows lmao.
i understand about the cross tagging thing. if you do filter heartstopper you’ll be able to scroll past those without clicking on them but i think people treat the byler tag as more of a giant groupchat with things most of us would be interested in. like if im talking about lumax i usually tag byler bc so many bylers also love lumax but i dont tag lumax when im talking about byler bc those tag followers may only be interested in lumax you know what i mean? i dont think theres any stopping those kinda posts but again, filtering the tag will help.
#‘those cartoon leaves are going to haunt me’ made me giggle#i hate all the doodles too#my two friends literally hate me for hating this show BUT I LIKE SHOWS THAT DONT MAKE ME EXCRUCIATINGLY CRINGE OK#my friend told me to finish watching rwrb but i dont think i cannn#i haaaated the way they filmed all the phone calls before their first kiss like why was henry in the room with him it was so over the top#i think they took inspiration from heartstopper just bc of the numbers it had and that makes me upset#eden answers
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Tiktok realized I was feeling off with my friend before I did
#pov: you slowly start hating your bsf *song on the back sick of your voice sick of your face sick of~*#and i was like whaattt noooo i dont hate *him* and thought of that one while at the time we supposedly were a trio#i saw two tiktoks like that#and then he send me one like 'haha why is tiktok showing me that?' or something#haha lmao dude same!! i also saw 2 of those i dont understanddd#and its been months#and just the other day i was talking with my mom and i told her how I felt and how hes been annoying me for no reason or done/said stuff#that bothered me#sbsjjsjs#and also. the last months im speaking daily with someone else and maybe not even exchange a word with my 'bsf' even though we sit together#in the bus and like- when sometimes i compare the 2 of them or how their reactions to stuff i say are-#idk i feel like hes constantly judging me or doesn't care about what I have to say so sometimes i dont even bother#like at this point im looking forward to the days hes not taking the bus back home so i can listen to music instead of sitting in silence#its an unspoken rule to always sit on the same place and i dont want to break it. even though the other day he was like 'sit on the front#cause im studying'#ahhshs ugh the other day I was like 30 minutes anxious he would judge me about something I did wrong but he never did#like am i just making shit up?? idk sometimes he just annoys me and i feel like an asshole cause we've been friends for so many years but#i do feel a better treatment by the new people im hanging out with most of the time like;#i never pay attention when you talk/oh yeah i remember that random thing you mentioned last year#and like i get he doesn't care about what we were talking about but literally saying 'i never pay attention to you 2' like ok. why even#talk to each other then? ... Also im sick of everyone who says shit like 'once we graduate we'll never see each other again' like yeah#if you have an attitude like that. like half of us are neighbors. i literally heard someone say 'can we be friends until july to go to the#concert?' and the other person was like why are you talking like that why wouldn't we be? and my bsf is one of those people who cant wait#to graduate and never return here#...oof ok im gonna go take a bath Goodbye#sugarenia talks#sugarenia diary#sugarenia has friends#sugarenia doesn't have friends
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Komi can’t communicate hits a little bit too close to home
#im watching the kyoto trip episode and god did i feel like that every single day of my life#im not even a second choice ik for a fact ppl were disappointed to be paired with me#I remember clear as day when one of my classmates asked the teacher why she was stuck with the weirdo#in my case its not just my imagination i faced sm rejection without even trying to approach ppl#when i was a scout girl i was always with the other girls of my age group and one day they asked me why im following them#i couldnt even cry bc there was no place where i could have privacy on that day#and these are my most vivid memories from my middle school years!#i started hating myself and life as soon as i stepped into that school#before that some ppl would dislike me bc i was a foreigner but then i had other friends i could count on#in middle school I literally had no one#i was weird chubby ugly had extreme social anxiety and didnt even answer ppls questions#life was torture#only two very sweet girls accepted me into their group and i would hang out with them sometimes i was so glad i could hang out with someone#during lunch break or whatever#idk why i went on this tangent!!! but yeah this show is bringing back some stuff man#every scene im like same komi same!!!#now im not super popular or anything but im surrounded by nice ppl who care about me and i love spending time with them even though#sometime i still feel that i cant communicate properly😭#anyways#social anxiety girlies it does get better at some point#i even have the best bf in the world now! before I thought id die alone fr#im not trying to make 100 friends like komi tho i feel like the ones i have are good for now#hfkskg
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#i have nothing to show you so i just chose the last pic in my camera roll to rant#my best friend and i both accidentally posted big ass essays on our favorite indie horror games at the same time#like quite literally at the same time in the middle of the night. almost in the same minute#both of us encouraged others to play our respective fav games because we're extremely enamoured with them so we made a deal#i will play her game if she plays mine. sounds fair and fun#my game is this very philosophical bizzare thing that forces you to think about life and death#despite the gloomy visuals and the tragedy tag its not creepy and/or disgusting at all. i would even say its cozy at times#perhaps this game even warms my heart a little. its called pathologic#her game on the other hand. i dont know what to say about it except that its triggering as fuck#after contacting with such things you want to go into boiling water just to get rid of the palpable dirt on your body do you get what i mean#but no matter how much you try to scrub this dirt off yourself it wont ever come off. because it had grown into your bones#no matter how clean your body and surroundings appear to your eyes the dirt will never really go away#but i guess the thing i talk about is not the game itself but the things i went through that it reminds me of#perhaps i just described the triggering process#i didnt even play the game i just read the summary and watched a little of a gameplay but it made me physically nauseous#when im forced to witness some form of abuse without being able to do anything all i feel is rage. not even a hint of sympathy or sadness#this is dumb. i dont get it. why would you willingly want to witness... this. is it some sort of a kink or something#its called mouthwashing if you're interested#i get the symbolysm and all that but dude. i guess this tells a lot about our society#i told her i hate her game and she told me she hates mine so i guess it makes the two of us#we're so different in almost every possible aspect possible but at the same time so painfully similar to each other#but not gonna lie if a person i just met told me this is their fav game i won't talk to them willingly ever again#this rant doesnt really have a purpose i think i just got really surprised this thing triggered me this much#so i got uncomfortable and decided to ground myself in this safespace
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Guys do I water myself down and be boring or be myself for people wo don't care/don't like me/will possibly judge me. (Rhetorical question)
#i obviously know the answer.#i just dont want to be weird for people i just met/barely know#even though it doesnt mayter and never will#i have to do a get to know me video for a class and did a room tour/stuff i like in my room#and yeah the autism shows#my room is also so messy and i dont want to show people that#it genuinely does not matter. i know that being myself wins in almost any scenario and i dont NEED these people to like me#i dont even necessarily like them.#its just i WANT people to like me#theres literally one person in this class who has any chance of liking me#(other than my one friend in class and like two other people who i DONT want to be friends with)#i hate highschool so much. i dont hate being autistic because i am an interesting and cool person in my own way because of it#but lowkey i hate being autistic#because i am genuinely a weirdo and its so hard to make friends and not be embarrassed by literally everything about me#ill probably share the video. ill be embarrassed. whatever. in the grand scheme of things its nit even a blip#and ill be proud of myself in the future. but not now.#time to ruin any hope i had of seeming normal to these people.
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