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your blog is sooo 🫠🥵 so good!!!!
Jealous sugar mommy Wanda has been so on my brain!! Every event you go to she makes sure you look stunning but it’s always an excuse to make sure people stare and flirt so that she can haul your ass out to the car and punish you. Just to take you back in with your head hanging blushing and sore as you try to socialize now. Just. Yes.
warning(s) — drabble: mommy wanda, brat!reader, kissing, punishment, spanking, choking (18+)
AHHH THANK UUUU SWEETIE :P
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i won’t lie i’ve been thinking about mommy wanda and how she wouldn’t tolerate brattiness. or back chat. or any kind of attitude towards her. like at all. 100%… but pushing buttons would be soo much fun, especially when you know all you’d have to do is bat your lashes at someone in front of mommy, and she’ll have you spread over her lap in no time lmaoo.
at first, i think she wouldn’t go so hard on you though just bc you like to “bat your slutty eyes at anyone with cleavage” as she would put it. but it would be the fact you don’t cave into submission after she’s already told you off for your behaviour.
it would drive her mental.
you would say something simple like: “well at least she’d treat me like her gf and not a show pony” or even worse, “bet she’d probably fuck me better too” bc let’s face it, at these events wanda has to be all serious and more than often if she doesn’t need you to win her favours she leaves you to your own devices. it’s not rlly your fault you’ve managed to find someone else to keep you company.
but that is exactly what would do it for the older woman.
and the fact that she’s already spanked your ass red and yet you still have an attitude.
she’d push you off her lap and head for the drivers seat, not saying a word to you and not waiting for you to climb into the passenger seat. she’d just drive home as fast as she could without care if you were in the back or the front or even the roof of the vehicle.
even after you arrived home, she wouldn’t say anything, immediately heading to the kitchen to pour another drink. the silence would kill you, and you knew you were in deeper shit than you wanted. it was supposed to be just a little fun, something to rile her up. not exactly hurt her… so to make it up to mommy, you’d go upstairs and undress before kneeling on the bed waiting for her to join.
when she finally arrived upstairs, you could tell she had began unzipping her dress. her eyes were cold and drifted over your bare frame before heading towards the wardrobe where she watched herself in the mirror as she slid the dress off her frame.
“you know… i got all dolled up just for you baby.” she’d caress at her sides as you took in the sight of the red lace against her alabaster skin,“wanted to take you home after tonight and show you how much i love it when you’re a good girl for me.”
okay so… not upset. but maybe homicidal?
she looked like she wanted to eat you alive.
the dress left in a pile on the floor, she’d now stand in front of you, delicate fingers trailing over your sensitive nipples, licking her lips as she watched your skin shiver underneath her. absentmindedly, you’d raise your hands to grab onto her hips, fingers immediately reaching for the protruding bones of her pelvis you just love to kiss and bite and suck…and that snaps her out of her trance as she steps away from you.
that look of adoration she usually has on her face now replaced with the cold one from before. she’d step back into you, this time crowding your space, as her hand wraps around your throat, and she tips your head back to meet hers. you’d look so adorable, flustered with a little pout on your lips that she’d have no choice but to press few kisses, demanding entrance so she could suck on your tongue, before refocusing on the task at hand.
you had been such a bad girl for her.
and wanda doesn’t like when her girl misbehaves.
“oh baby,” she’d release your lips with a loud smack, “it’s too bad mommy now has to beat the brat out of you, huh?”
#dahlibae fics! ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡#wanda maximoff x reader#wanda maximoff#wanda maximoff x you#wanda maximoff x y/n
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Lil update on how I’m feeling!
Warning: mentions of vomit, IVs, diarrhea, sick stuff
After two IVs, I’m feeling better. Still nauseous and got diarrhea, but I haven’t thrown up in around 24 hours.
One of the worst things is how dizzy and sore I feel. I’m weak and can only barely make it to the bathroom.
Having an IV is so scary, because you have to keep the bag above you at all times. It was hard carrying it with me to the bathroom but I handled it and I’m doing alright.
I’ve got some terrible aches in my belly from throwing up so much.
A tip from your local monster smut writer, take anti acid pills(or tums, whatever) if you’re having super bad diarrhea and you’re vomiting. It takes away the acid a bit. Helps your butt and throat from getting sore from the acidic stuff coming out.
I’m not afraid to admit I cried a lot yesterday. The pain was overwhelming, it’s been a long time since I’ve been this sick. My poor parents were having to get up all throughout the night to take care of me because I was sick as a dog
Sorry this is TMI, but when you get this sick you just wanna tell someone. Warn them, even.
Please, when you’re sick, make sure you try to eat a little something about an hour after you vomit. Banana, crackers, something easy on your belly. Chew thoroughly, the more mushy the less your belly has to work on digesting.
Drink lots of Gatorade, and if possible get an IV. My dad is certified and able to give them, so you’ll probably have to go to the hospital to get yours.
Anyways I’m exhausted. I won’t post anything for a few days, and I’m sorry to any of my commissioners that are waiting. As soon as I’m better I’ll be working again.
Here’s a picture of my second IV. They were giving me that JUICE lmao
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I love your works! Just imagine, giving Quackity a blowjob while he streams! Have a good day! ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧ (Sorry if there are any errors, I'm using Google translate :c)
giving alex a blowjob during stream<3
alex always looked so, so hot when he was getting ready to stream. you'd been watching eagerly from the couch, alex grabbing his props and accessories as you sat behind the scenes. he always looked so focused, so sexy with his bulging biceps and muscled back on full display in his black cotton shirt.
you watch carefully with your knees tucked up to your chest. alex covers his messy dark locks with his signature grey and black beanie, and he´s ready to go. he catches you staring and openly winks at you, coming to stand before your seated form.
"what's up? you're looking at me all, intensely. something wrong?"
you're smiling and shaking your head. "there's nothing wrong."
and there really had been nothing wrong. in fact, things had gone so right, you were now pleasantly seated on your knees with his cock in your mouth. "hey guys!! hi, hi, h-hi!"
you try to keep yourself quiet as you laved your tongue from the base to the tip, heavy balls full as you licked all over his dick. alex's leg twitches and his hand reaches farther under the desk to hold onto yours for support.
"'why do you look like that,' why do i look like what, huh?! you guys are bullies, you're bullying me and—ngh!"
he freezes, and this was such a bad idea based on how your soft, plush lips drag themselves up his length to suck on the lip and lick the slit. you're drooling, getting messy with it, and alex is sorely under prepared as you suck him within an inch of his life.
he claims it was a stubbed toe to the chat, but you know better as you trace the vein that leads up to his leaking, flushed head. he’s throbbing in your wet and warm mouth, hips popping up and driving his dick into the column of your throat. a soft gag escapes you, and his hand squeezes yours in a wordless apology.
“i-i’m having issues with my display, i’m gonna turn my camera off for a bit!”
he’s nearly there, balls churning and breath growing increasingly more ragged. alex slams his fingers down on the mute button, a loud groan escaping him as he grips onto the arms of the chair. you bob your head, nose brushing against the dark curls around his base. he´s so close that you can feel his dick twitch between your hot lips.
you sink down eagerly and alex lets out a pathetic cry. his hands fly to your hair and you can feel the underlying strength in his arms as he pushes you just the slightest—a gag escaping you as he flooded your throat with his cum.
it makes your heart pound in satisfaction as alex uses your mouth, he comes down from his high with shuddering breaths and hands that smooth your hair away from your face. "fuck, i-i'm still live and can barely move..."
you grin and lick your lips. "you should probably get back to them."
you're about to stand and move away, but alex is quick to whine and grab onto your wrist. "stay under the desk, i like having you so close to me."
so you sat prettily between your boyfriend's legs, satisfied and knowing he was going to absolutely ravish you on his desk post-stream. you lean your head on his knee and sigh quietly. what a life.
#quackity imagine#quackity x reader#quackity scenario#quackity x you#quackity x y/n#quackity fanfic#quackity smut#quackityhq x reader#this has been in my drafts#just something quick for yall!#alex quackity x reader#alex quackity smut#alexis quackity x reader
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My Fate Is In Your Hands - Entry 10
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➤ [He asks] to go downstairs. Food is a good idea, but he can’t stay cooped up in this room.
“Mind if I come downstairs with you?” Tango asks, his voice just a little bit raspy, and Jimmy pauses in the open doorway to look back over his shoulder. He looks pleasantly surprised, the feathers around his ears flaring, and Tango carries on: “I, uh…I wanna get out of this room.”
“Oh–! Yeah, ‘course!” Jimmy smiles brightly, and his eyes dart down toward the floor at Tango’s feet. “D’you need help walkin’ down there?”
…ah. Right. His ankle. Tango looks down too. He rotates his foot experimentally, and he decides it hurts decently less than before thanks to the potion Jimmy had given him, though it’s still a bit sore. He might have to wait to go look for his ship until he knows he can stand on his own, as much as it pains him to admit it.
“Probably smart, yeah,” he smiles weakly. “If you don’t mind?”
Jimmy just smiles and nods.
It takes a little effort to get downstairs, though not as much as Tango had been expecting. He can put more weight on his leg than he could before, and Jimmy is patient as they take it a step at a time. By the time they’re stepping down into a modest living space that’s a living room, dining area, and kitchen all in one, Tango is already casting an eye around for a chair so he doesn’t have to keep using his host as a crutch - and he does a double-take.
There’s a woman sitting at the table near the kitchen half of the room, a woman wearing moss-green overall shorts and a purple shirt with puffy-looking sleeves. There are a few flowers that look like they’re growing out of her dark hair, her colors and the greenery reminding Tango (rather painfully) of Bdubs. (He tries not to think about it.)
He blinks. She turns and blinks back. Then her eyes go wide.
“Oh!” she says brightly, jumping out of her chair and nearly tripping over her own feet in the process. She gives off a bubbly vibe, eager and excited. “Hi! The Sheriff said you were awake, but I didn’t think you’d be up! Or - down. Here. Down here. Not that you can’t be down here, I’m just surprised, and - wow, your eyes are red–”
“Shelby,” Jimmy huffs, sounding fondly exasperated and just a little bit out of breath. He adjusts his hold on Tango, who grips Jimmy’s shoulder a little tighter to compensate. “Mind pullin’ out a chair? He’s got a bad leg.”
“A bad leg?” the woman - Shelby - repeats, taking a long moment to process the words. Then– “Oh - OH! Right, right! Chair. On it!”
Shelby spins on the spot and tugs her own chair away from the table, turning it a bit so Jimmy can more easily help Tango settle onto it. It, like the rest of the furniture, is wooden and looks handmade, the tied-on cushion that pads the seat feeling just a little uneven and adding to the homespun feel of the entire house.
It’s…cozy. Pleasant. Homely and warm. Tango can’t deny that it’s comforting, after everything he’s been through as of late.
Shelby drops into another chair at the table with as much energy as everything else she’s done, trying and failing to hide the fact that she’s staring curiously at Tango. He sinks back in his seat and his ears flick back, nervous firelight rippling through his hair. Her eyes follow it, wide and intrigued, before Jimmy clears his throat and Shelby jolts.
“Sorry,” she says, yanking a cup of unfinished tea across the table that Tango hadn’t noticed yet, and pointedly focussing on it instead. Tango chuckles lightly.
She reminds him of someone, somehow, though he can’t be sure who.
(Gem, his mind supplies…though even as he thinks it, the name slips away before it can stick, memories blurring at the edges until he can’t remember why he felt melancholy in the first place.)
Jimmy had called her Shelby, right?
“You’re uh–” Tango shifts in his seat, his eyes darting to where Jimmy is now puttering around the kitchen. His ear feathers keep flicking in their direction. “You’re Shelby. You helped Jimmy save me last night?”
Shelby’s eyes are back on him again, still bright and curious, but he’s grateful that she seems to be trying to act less nosey.
“Mhm!” she hums, nodding. “Well, he did most of the saving. I just showed up afterwards with potions. I didn’t even see the crash…it’s kinda hard to see much of anything from inside the Evermoore.”
The what? Tango must look confused, because Shelby carries on:
“It’s my Empire! In the swamp. Lots of trees, lots of fog - and magic! Lots of magic!”
“And frogs,” Jimmy supplies from where he’s fussing with the furnace. “So many frogs.”
“That too!” Shelby says brightly. She twirls a finger in a circle above her cup and the tea inside begins to stir itself, drawing Tango’s attention. Magic. He’s not entirely unfamiliar with magic thanks to…thanks to Scar. (His chest aches at the thought. He tries to pretend it doesn’t.) But even if he’s seen it before, natural magic abilities are still rare. It’s enchanting to watch.
“Where are you from?”
Tango drags his focus back to Shelby.
“Uhhh–” He stumbles over her question in his mind. “I’m, uh…” He almost blurts out ‘from Hermitcraft’ by force of habit…but that’s not entirely true anymore, is it? He’s fairly certain there’s not a Hermitcraft to go home to anymore. True, ‘Hermitcraft’ is a name that was carried from place to place, and it had been for years, having less to do with location and more to do with the people who lived there…but…but Tango doesn’t even know where the Hermitheus is, where the other Hermits are. And there was a chance there wouldn’t be another Hermitcraft if they hadn’t managed to–
If Tango’s warning message hadn’t made it through to–
If the moon had–
“...Tango?”
Tango jolts, a netherborn wheeze whistling at the back of his throat. There are eyes on him. Shelby looks concerned, almost apologetic, and Jimmy’s no longer in the kitchen. He’s standing at Shelby’s shoulder with a worried look on his face that Tango awkwardly avoids.
He barely knows these people. He doesn’t need to trouble them with his issues.
“Are you alright?” Jimmy asks, warm and concerned, and it’s so, so tempting to lean on his host for support like he’d already been doing this morning. It’s so, so tempting to let someone else help him shoulder the burden he suddenly woke up with less than an hour ago.
But he doesn’t know them. Smoke whisps past his lips and he swallows past the lump in his throat. It’s too much, too fast, and he needs…he needs time.
Jimmy steps around Shelby, standing between her and Tango, his wings spreading slightly to subtly block him from her view. It’s almost like he can tell Tango is getting a bit overwhelmed. He looks a bit uncertain, almost awkward, but he seems like he wants to help.
“Tango…?”
[A/N: Ohhh, three options this time! :D This'll be fun, folks! And rest assured, all answers lead to Tango eating some food, so even though it hasn't happened yet in THIS entry he will still be fed! I saw you all worrying in the tags and comments last entry. I wonder I wonder, how will this go...?
ALSO! Question! Would you like shorter poll deadlines? I've noticed that, since starting this series, a 3 Day poll option has been added...so I COULD make it shorter in future entries if you so wish. What do y'all think?]
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pick your battles
#my art#my stuff#art#comic#original art#pride 2024#pride month#trans allegory..... or not even allegory. just trans .... ^_^#i technically cannot come out yet but i don't think the people who i need to not see this stalk my tumblr#i know they stalk everything else like my twitter and my instagram but this might be safe#so fuck it we yap. this is a comic about picking your battles#this is a comic about how for almost a year now everyone at home in singapore has been crying about my sore throat#my terrible fucked up voice. my you know. etc#i came out as not cis and using they/them pronouns in 2015 when i was 14#but no one ever used my pronouns. none of my classmates or friends even up until i left for college in 2020#from 2020 onwards every year i wrote an angry vulnreable essay about how much it hurts that they dont remember#and people would dm me apologizing on their hands and knees and commending my bravery#and then forget about it all over again. id ont mean 'they misgender me and then catch it and apologize and correct themselves'#i mean they dont even get that far#and so you might ask yourself: why have you kept them around all this time?#and i would have to explain that by pure bad luck i grew up in the most conservative close minded community#that all of my ex classmates that stayed in singapore are cishet and upper middle class and chinese singaporean#that i Am the trans person. that they were able to ignore me for a decade partially because there was no one else#so this is a comic about how there is dignity and grace in staying in the closet sometimes#about how not everyone deserves to see you at your happiest. about how some people can go fuck themselves#you know your truth and THATS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS!!! YEAH!!! i love you
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ladies, I need to wander despondently across a foggy moor asap
#*this also applies to the not-ladies among us#y'all deserve a good pensive ramble across a moor in a really cool greatcoat#just be sure you don't turn it into anything vigorous#this is not the time to be Aragorn we are looking for Jonathan Harker pre-Dracula at best#in regards to the moor: a wind-swept cliffside would also be suffice#it would NOT do wonders for my health of course but hey#fortunately the bestie and I have plans to go hiking next weekend and if we don't have another option I'm gonna beg for the hemlock trail#I'd also take the cedar springs#I just need Nature that isn't the beach#in other news I am happy to report that the week is smoothing itself out somewhat#we're all still on edge but it's not as bad as it was and we've effectively kicked loose the pebble in the the shoe#my darling sister sent me a gift and told me to treat myself so I may get bubble tea after work#and I begged for tomorrow off so I can sleep and then spend the day coughing in peace#(this is such a bizarre cold. I didn't get any of the preliminaries outside of some sneezing)#(and then it was straight to my chest. not even a sore throat first! usually I get a lot of build up and can often get ahead of a bad cough#(thankfully my nose is not congested. I suppose that's the trade-off)#so I'll sleep in and then I may sort some of the filing I'm taking home from the office#by then I'll likely have completely lost my voice#AND I have ingredients for chili because for once I planned ahead. might even make some of my favorite rolls as well.#and then next week...I start a second job#(super simple and it's 2 hours max every evening. once I figure it out it could be an hour tops unless I decide to take it slow)#(the pay is great for the job and it'll give me something to do instead of just...I dunno...reading through the winter I suppose)#(sorry my head is in such a fog I don't know how I'm surviving work)#mine#greatest hits
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I can’t breathe… I can’t do this…
#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha#mha#dabi#touya todoroki#bnha dabi#mha dabi#his voice this whole episode just broke my heart completely… it hurts so damn bad…#when he started to call rei fuyumi and natsuo’s names… istg the goosebumps and tears just couldn’t stop to the point i got a sore throat…#the tear falling long his cheek was the last straw… i lost it COMPLETELY…#i am so not going to forgive horikoshi for this seriously…
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Illiterate whumpee with a sore throat so bad they can’t speak vs a caretaker who is absolute garbage at charades and figuring out body language.
#whump#writing prompt#whump ideas#whump prompt#whump writing#whumpblr#whump scenario#sickfic#sore throat#my husband single-handedly made me good a charades#Because he regularly gets sore throats so bad he can’t speak#And I didn’t realize how much better I’d gotten at charades until we played with friends the other day#And I was on fire
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wow I didn’t think reblogging that tea post and then seeing people’s tags would deal me such strong psychic damage. come over I can fix you I can find a tea you will like. “I don’t like tea” how can you say that as a blanket statement when there are so many vastly different kinds of tea. head in hands
#‘it’s like coffee but not good’#while a cup of black tea does have a great deal less caffeine in it than coffee#it also has a stimulant called l-theanine which is NOT found in coffee#and the more complex combination of the two stimulants hit your system much more slowly#which is why tea doesn’t give you jitters like coffee does#anyone who’s like wow I need my coffee to survive but I hate that it makes me nauseous and gives me heart palpitations and bad breath#to you I say. wean yourself off coffee and onto tea!!!!!!!#but WAIT I can keep going. nauseous? ginger tea. sore throat? peppermint contains menthol which works as a numbing agent#green and black teas are both very high in antioxidants#chamomile and lavender do both have a calming affect#BUT WHAT ABOUT THE TASTE I hear you say#IT TASTES LIKE GRASS. try a floral tea or a black tea or chai or Thai tea#ITS SO BITTER you’re either steeping it for too long or the water you’re using is too hot#not to sound like I’m fucking uncle iroh or something I just apparnerlt have strong thoughts and feelings about tea#I can’t handle ppl going ugh I hate tea and it’s like. overbrewed lipton in microwaved tap water.#anyway MY favorites are jasmine and lavender earl grey#and currently I’m really into this corn silk tea my brother bought me at h mart#it’s like gen mai cha but even more#congrats for making it this far into my tea rant tags. if you comment your tastes I can give you a personalized tea recommendation
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When I was 12 or 13, I got chicken pox.
It was truly terrible, a very severe case. I had a persistent fever, and the itchy sores were cropping up in places I'd never imagined they could. I was coated in calamine and still itching and in pain. The sores were even in my throat, which was excruciating.
I didn't eat for 2 days.
My mom was extremely worried about me. She'd never seen me refuse to eat. So on the third day, I awoke to a huge pancake breakfast. Bacon, real maple syrup, the works. Mom was so desperate for me to eat that she slaved over a big fancy (and critically - SOFT) breakfast for me
Jon has been sick for almost a week. I am now sick with a sore throat and congestion and fatigue
We're making French toast
#i don't really want to eat right now#my throat is so sore. not as bad as it was then. not as bad as when i had strep#but bad enough that i don't want to eat#and that tylenol and halls are not helping enough#so! big fancy tasty breakfast time#mod post#food#sick mod
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How the hell are you meant to write poetry about love. Itd feel like using a fire hose to fill a teacup
#hes snoring softly on call#and i cant sleep yet#and i know his throat will be sore tomorrow and i feel bad about that but rn im just enjoying the sound#and i get to take care of him#and the self loathing demon will always be there saying hes too good for me but i trust him so deeply that when he says he loves me#i know hes telling the truth. same when he says im cute or hot or he likes my smile and voice and laugh#i hope he gets good sleep. i hope i sleep too#because he says he likes when i snore and i havw no choice but to trust him
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bulletproof vest, my only clothing
prompt: friendly fire (alt no.5)
whumpee: sakari nurmi
fandom: karppi/deadwind
heya! this fic is a follow up to the last episode of the series. i did something vaguely similar a while ago but fucked up in re: actual canon and also i wanted to focus more on the emotional fallout of everything with this one. so here's that. hope you like! (title from alcatraz by oliver riot)
Sofia shoots him and it hurts. She shoots him once and he hits the ground, “don’t,” and then she stands over him, expressionless, and shoots him again.
The pain is horrible. Even with the vest on, getting shot at such close range is awful. The first bullet steals his breath, and the second his consciousness.
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Sofia keeps shooting him, in his dreams, night after night. She shoots him and he isn’t wearing a vest. He stares up at her as blood pools beneath him, and she delivers the second, fatal bullet. Or she shoots him and he is wearing a vest, but the second bullet is aimed at his head and the vest can do nothing to protect him.
Sometimes she kisses him before she shoots him. Sometimes it’s his parents she shoots, and he is rendered an unwillingly silent observer. Once, the gun is in his hand but he can’t shoot, and then she takes it from him, places the barrel between his eyes, and pulls the trigger.
It’s been over a month since that day, and multiple times a week, he wakes in the middle of the night, drenched in sweat, the image of Sofia Karppi pointing a gun at him and pulling the trigger frozen in his mind.
He understands. Why she’d done what she’d done. Why she’d shot him, left him there. He does.
But he’d seen the bruising across his chest. Those two especially dark points, where the bullets would have entered his body.
If he hadn’t been wearing that vest, he’d have died.
And she hadn’t known he’d been wearing it.
He doesn’t blame her. It had been Emil’s life on the line, her own child. He knows she’d done what she had to.
He can’t stop himself from reliving it, though. From looking at Sofia from across the room and seeing the gun in her hands as he lies there powerless on the ground with her standing over him, nothing at all on her face.
Besides this, strangely, their relationship is good, stronger even, than it had been before. Sofia seems to have all but forgotten the events of that day, and he’s trying to, too.
Trying being the operative word there. It’s hard to forget when his subconscious is intent on making him relive everything in new and inventive ways almost every night.
Things come to a head on a frigid November night. Sakari hadn’t wanted to spend the night on Sofia’s couch, but it had been late and they’d been drinking and Sofia had insisted. Neither one of them had, he thinks, quite been ready to share a bed—they’ve been taking it slow, still dancing around each other romantically. And so he’d ended up on the couch, buried in blankets and just hoping that tonight would be a rare quiet, dreamless night.
Of course, he couldn’t be so lucky.
Sofia shoots him and he hits the ground, whispers, “don’t,” and she stands over him as he lies there with the breath knocked out of his lungs and terror in his throat and he knows that he is going to die, that Sofia is going to kill him.
She aims for his head and pulls the trigger.
He wakes with a sharp inhale. He’s drenched in sweat and trembling and his breaths come in quick and painful pants. For a second, he’s all the more affected by his surroundings—he’s not in his own bed, so it takes him longer than normal to realize that it had only been a dream.
He doesn’t notice that Sofia is standing nearby until she speaks. He doesn’t really hear what she says, because he’s too busy flinching in surprise at the unexpected presence of his partner, his killer.
She’s standing next to him now, arm on his shoulder. The point of contact is warm. He isn’t afraid of her, never is, in his waking life.
“Did you have a nightmare?” she asks, and he thinks it should sound pitying, as though he is a child who cannot even manage to sleep through the night.
It doesn’t, though. It just sounds like her.
He nods, not trusting himself to speak. He can’t stop shaking.
“Move over,” Sofia says, and he shifts his body, scarcely even conscious of doing so. She sits beside him, steady and warm, and wraps an arm around his shoulders.
He leans into her automatically. She rubs a hand up and down his arm.
“Sorry,” he whispers, after what feels like a very long time, when he finally trusts his own voice again. “I’m okay.”
Sofia tugs him somehow closer, presses a long kiss to his temple. “You’re okay,” she whispers back.
It should be odd. He feels so completely safe in her embrace, so comforted by her presence, yet it’s her that’s made him like this. It’s her that had been willing to kill him.
Except she’s saved him, too, more times than he’s capable of numbering at the moment, and in more ways than one. He trusts her, even now. He wants to be around her. It’s just that there’s some animal, fearful part of his brain that is protesting their continued closeness.
He thinks, maybe, that they need to talk about this. They haven’t really, not properly. They’re not ones to talk about things, usually. They’ve become more willing over the past few months, but it’s still a bit odd, still unnatural.
He thinks that this might need to be overcome. Thinks that, perhaps, if he could talk to Sofia, explain the nightmares and the memories that keep pushing themselves to the front of his mind even though he doesn’t want them there, things would begin to get better.
But this is a job for later. Right now, it is just the two of them and the silence and Sofia’s arms still wrapped around him. She’s falling asleep, leaned against his shoulder, and he feels himself being dragged back into sleep, too. He fights it for a bit, afraid of having another nightmare, of making everything worse, but then Sofia exhales softly, whispers, “sleep,” and he finds himself doing exactly as she says.
He sleeps soundly through the rest of the night, and when he wakes in the morning, he asks Sofia if they can have a conversation, before he can talk himself out of it. She agrees easily, presses a steaming mug of coffee into his hands.
He accepts it, breathes in deeply. Things are going to be alright, he finds himself thinking, for the first time since that fateful night. They’re going to be alright.
thanks for reading!! i hope you liked it <3333
#whumptober2024#altno.5#friendly fire#karppi#deadwind#fic#sakari nurmi#shot in the vest#shot#nightmares#emotional whump#comfort#held#my writing#i say things#guysss i have such a bad sore throat rn i hate itttt#but i do have the week off classes so yay for that#but ough annoying what the hell. anyway. hope you liked etc etc#i'm off to watch some bake off :)
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if you as a fic reader ever become possessed by the urge to do a popularity bracket with the fics other people wrote and shared for fun and for free, consider:
don't ❤️
#just!!!! make a rec list!!!!!!!!!#popularity contests do nothing but drive writers out of fandoms by pitting people against their friends#and invariably result in people being assholes in the comments as if the people who wrote the fic can't see it#like ''oh clearly fic x is better than fic y''#or ''why is fic c even in this poll?''#nobody gains anything by you doing a bracket to see which fic is the ''most popular''#a stat which could be found more easily & less cruelly by simply hitting the sort by bookmarks/kudos button on ao3#anyway ugh. i saw that one of my fics was being pitted against one of my friend's fics in this bracket that's going around#and i have no idea who is ''winning'' because i refuse to look. but either way it's gonna feel bad!!!#because i want my friend to get his flowers so i want him to win!!! but i also would like to know that people like my fic!!!!#so it's just a lose/lose situation even though i generally don't give a shit about numbers#but this turns it into a schoolyard popularity thing#and the emotional response to having people *vote* on if your work is *better or worse* than other fic is hard to ignore#cannot reiterate enough JUST MAKE A REC LIST#or if you absolutely must do a bracket like this do it in a private chat server or something#don't create a public forum for people to pass value judgements where the authors can see it#and feel bad if they get told their fic is ''worse'' than someone elses#but also feel bad if they get told theirs is ''better'' because it came at the cost of telling another author they weren't good enough#ANYWAY i still feel sick with a super sore throat and a headache & am probably extra cranky because of it#(still testing negative thankfully so it's probably just weather/allergen related)#gonna go make some tea and prep the fic updates i want to post today#cass says things#fandom problems#wank adjacent
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thinking abt my universe's school system and deciding to draw them working on an essay
#tzu rambles#losers. get schoolwork. idiots.#okay technically sevyn avoided all that because he literally just knows basic math and how to read+write siccan. he's NEVER done an essay b#(he can read silven ofc but he doesn't usually write it)#and winter+avery wouldve learned a similar amount and then had the choice to go further#which avery did if you even care#but i dont think she hated it. shes the kinda girl who wouldve been chill doing an essay#winter is probably educated on history and science a bit as well. so they both likely did essays#scarlet thistle cash ezra and ibis went to a public school#so itd make sense that theyd have worked on an essay once#koya went to a private school and freyja was privately tutored#i doubt freyja's ever done a genuine essay#this is so random i just want to put them thru school hell bc im in school and my stomach hurts and my throats still sore#koya also definitely got bad grades oops#he's a history kid at heart i think#yoddenlir
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so i'm pretty sure at this point that my roommate gave me the cold she's had for the last few days and honestly the worst part about me personally being sick is how quickly it shuts down my enjoyment of any kind of kink stuff. like come on, i'm supposed to be into this!! this is not fair!!!
#it is in fact just a cold we are both testing and taking precautions!!#and it's not even like a really bad cold rn my throat's just a little sore and i've got a sinus headache but i hate it so much!!!#never feel more neurodivergent than when i'm sick like no one look at me no one talk to me don't touch me don't perceive me#i'm in sensory hell i just want to sit here alone until i either recover or die thanks so much#so if i'm not on much for the next few days that's what's up#still working on both the new years eve au and the campfire fic!! but they are probably gonna be on the back burner for a minute#and frankly my vanilla wips folder is cheering lol#prayer circle that this stays mild and passes quickly and i can get back to my regularly scheduled being horny!!#witchyrants
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i think i’m coming down with another cold pls i can’t do this again 😭😭😭
#i was up at 4 this morning bc my head hurt so bad#and i was like can i catch a break !!!#and then i woke up before work congested and with a sore throat LOL#thriving 😎👍#gg txt
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