#my skin has been so bad
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
heading to the gym for the first time in forever
#i genuinely h8 working out like u guys don’t even get it#trying to get back into a routine bc ive been feeling like absolute GARBAGE lately#eating fast food way too much#not sleeping (this one isn’t my fault it’s capitalisms)#my skin has been so bad#ugh#anywho#ate a fruit and vegetable today woohooo#time to go cry on an eliptical#and then walk out like a gym baddie sex symbol 💅✨#as i didnt just watch run bts n burn maximum 30 calories#im procrastinating okay byeeeee lmao#love you all#drink water pls our organs are deteriorating !!
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
JUDGEMENT
Finally, her fourth and final card for Trespasser!!
1. The Hanged Man
2. The Chariot
3. The High Priestess
#IM FREE#my art#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#shivana lavellan#dai#lavellan#dragon age fanart#dragon age tarot#these have been a blast to make but I’m so glad to be done with them for now#da:i#thanks for all the love everyone has given this series#I’m bad with my words but just know I ❤️💞💕💗💖#thinking about making a post about the symbolism in all the cards. but I make no promises#sorry this one took so long I’ve spent the last month just staring at it#tumblr destroyed the quality#yet again :(#I wanted her armor to look like it was becoming part of her skin#lots of thoughts about knight enchanters/arcane warriors as living weapons#also dragon scales bc she drank from the well of sorrows#also if you missed it I edited her last card#she keeps her vallaslin now :)#art
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
quick lmhs itafushi because god help me i have Not been able to get the concept of yuuji smiling/laughing into kisses out of my head
jjk atla!au with @philosophiums
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#itafushi#fanart#jjk fanart#yuuji#megumi#jjk atla!au#atla!au: art#lmhs#shade skin with green without making the characters look Nauseous challenge#...success???? i mean i sure HOPE success :'>#i blocked in a green (bc lmhs i...usually block in a green...) but then i thought. i will try putting hints of it on the skin Also#and i like it !!! i fr one do not think they look seasick#i love lmhs itfs because the colour scheme is so Earthy (pun intended). moss green... warm browns... my beloveds <333#but even more than that#i love love loVE. drawing yuuji looking at megumi like he is all that exists in the world#bc i Also look at megumi like he is all that exists in the world#also im sure this is a common artist thing to have designated Spots fr characters when drawing them interacting#like fr me . normally when i draw itfs interacting in any way (read: smooching) i default to putting megu on the Right#so this admittedly threw me a bit GHSGJ#anyway!!! i realized it has been a whole WEEK since my last lmhs itfs and that simply will not stand.#my quOTA D: D: D: my self imposed QUOTA#i am going to get a bad grade in long term passion project :( sam is going to kill me and then Fire me#speaking of sam i shant say much but yuuji is currently experiencing The Horrors(tm) in draft1 so he can have a distraction :3 my treat#one of us has to be nice to him and it seems it is my turn#anyway i amn eepyyyy goodnight smile :)
643 notes
·
View notes
Text
mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
218 notes
·
View notes
Text
went out with my cat and treated myself to some skincare 🫶🏻
615 notes
·
View notes
Text
*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
80 notes
·
View notes
Text
kim glove hand in harry mouth now
#back on my bs#harry hasnt been to a dentist in yers so his teeth r Fucked and he knows its fgunna be bad but then cavity destroyer kim walks in with his#cool coat and his skin tight vinyl gloves and puts his fingers all up in harrys mouth and face and he helps him and gives him a lollipop#and harry is excited to come back for fillins and checkups#and then they kiss#but harry has to brush his teeth before everytime#harry du bois#kim kitsuragi#disco elysium#de#my art
92 notes
·
View notes
Text
hello :o
idk how long its been but GOOD LORDDD
#i wanna start playing the sims again :D#i feel bad so lets start by actually updating my cc 🧍♀️#if im not mistaken only the default skins have been affected by the infant update??#(YES ITS BEEN THAT LONG SDJKFGHDF)#has anything else broke after that ???#anyway henlo#chitchat
175 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sure the leaks look cool, but DONT FORGET THE BOYCOTT
For Genshin fans who are seeing the leaks. Listen. The leaked animations, environments, name cards, and everything look really cool and fun- but DONT FORGET ABOUT THE BOYCOTT. Do NOT buy ANYTHING from Hoyoverse, and don't hype up the next update either to keep revenue and attention as low as possible.
#boycott hoyoverse#if you are wondering what boycott#its mostly about Natlan#but also just how ridiculously racist their rep of african-pre colonial america- and other dark skinned people are in all their games#it is Bad. do NOT let this slide#If you're hyped and excited you can genuinely just talk about it with friends or smaller circles. Do not spend guys. Please.#my genshin brainrot and enjoyment has been at an all time low because this is seriously so upsetting#listen to your fucking playerbase for ONCE Genshin. My god#evelynpr genshin#genshin#genshin impact#hoyoverse#hoyolab#mihoyo#natlan#genshin natlan#kinich#mualani#kachina
41 notes
·
View notes
Text
new suicide squad anime got me thinking about the genderbend batman au i made when i was 16 again.
extra (nsfw??? body horror + shirtless doodle lol) art under the cut + drabble.
A mysterious actress appears in Gotham!
Production for the long-anticipated remake of the 1930s classic horror film, "The Clay", is saved in part thanks to the audition of one woman with no credits to her name, just a face and demeanor identical of the late leading actress of the original film.
However, the cast and crew have bigger worries than their limited budget and endless demands from their producers -- everyone involved seems to be disappearing one by one!
While the average gothammite worries that the cult classic's "cursed" reputation might be a little more than an urban legend, The Batman refuses to entertain such unfounded silliness and aims to get to the bottom of this crime against cinema!
presenting BATMAN '63 - THE RISE OF CLAYFACE coming not actually ever lmao
(her hair is brown now because I like the idea of her appearance never being fully consistent lol. shapeshifters gotta do their thing)
#batman au#gotham rogues#genderbend#clayface#dc comics au#i have no idea how to tag this. hi guys.#anyway i rlly do like how silly they made clayface in the isekai anime. i definitely took some inspiration from that iteration but#this version of fem clayface has been. in the back of my mind for literally years. i like the film actor angle for him too much#might do more of these might not. depends on how indulgent i feel ig.#anyway some misc headcanons for this clayface:#she was a struggling actor who was incredibly insecure about her appearance.#before she became clayface she would undergo plastic surgery for every new role she landed. her over the top passion for getting into (cont#(cont) character frightened directors. she gained a moniker for herself as “the woman with 1000 faces”#in this story specifically she's working under the penguin to get rid of some loose ends in a sensationalized way because the targets (cont#(cont) are famous. and she's more than happy to comply because a good chunk of the cast on set have been bad to her in the past.#her shapeshifting abilities have some limitations. she can morph into anything she has had skin to skin contact with however (cont)#(cont) she cannot change her total mass. which is why she has so much hair lol#she also can't copy powers cus that's whack. also only living things she can't turn into a car.#i probably forgot something important but yeah. goddamn you au i made as a teenager#goddamn you stupid ass suicide squad anime for making me think about this au again#cw horror#body horror#oh yeah she's also probably got a weird gender but she doesn't know that#she also can't maintain her not-clay-monster form for long or she starts to literally melt away.#my art
40 notes
·
View notes
Photo
[slams this on the table] HAPPY MOTHERS’ DAY
Extra:
#when i said i'm taking y'all down with me. i goddamn meant it.#enstars#mamagi#niki shiina#hi if you're new around here yes i am aware mother amagi has passed in canon this is just my fun little delusion#y'know if the amagis actually had something nice in their lives#the file for this was created april 28th so you can imagine how long this has been on the backburner#i don't think she's. completely innocent in rinne's childhood trauma (if that's the right term for it)#but she definitely regrets not doing more for him#she loves her boys#and her boys' boys#if rinne has a habit of adopting little brothers she has one of adopting sons sorry#i would've liked to make this nicer but working on things a little too long makes my skin crawl sorry#i love her tho#also read bean's fic. 'safe and warm a loving embrace' on ao3 you know you wanna#also is this the mamagi and niki hug you wanted mutsu. remember when you asked for that. i had this whole thing cooking before you did.#heheheheheheh#MY BAD IT WAS COOKIE WHO ASKED FOR THE HUG#I'M SORRY COOKIE#HOPE YOU LIKE IT THO
201 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sadly, I lost all motivation about halfway through these
Ranting about skins below
A while ago, my sister told me that the skins were alternate universe versions of the phighters, which probably isn't true
BUUUT, what if there were alternate universes for the different skins?
The ones floating in my brain-
1. Broken kingdoms/lost gods/whatever
Jesterspace, Egobwarder, FollowerSword, Cursedshot (Maybes-Valleystaff, Shurilong, Seraphlaser, Sianachkit, guess you could replace Jester with Exor, perhaps moaitana as a gargoyle of sorts? Stargazer also works, but he could work better with sunburst sword and astrobox)
2. Pirates
Shurifin, Vinesplash, Pirate Medkit (come up with some extra skins for characters that don't have a skin with this theme, it makes it much more fun)
Bonus groups
Food [Catshot, Medcarrot, Cocoagraft, Eggsquerade Boombox, Marshmallow sword] Seasons [Kramptana, Witchlaser, ZMK0] Sci-fi [Cybertana, Hoverboard, Sci-fi sword, Buster Rocket]
There are still more skins that you could group up, or different combinations, but I just wanted to share something that's been stuck on my mind.
#for the longest time I thought that egobworder's name was egg-warbler HELP#You can tell which one has been in my head the longest#it's the kingdoms#ranting#If you have any other ideas please share them#Phighting#art#phighting fanart#kinda bad but I think it's fun#I am a little bit more hesitant to include Catshot BusterRocket and ZMK0 in this because they are creator skins#POV Banhammer when some random fish interrupt one of his executions (he's across the ocean rn so he can't stop them)#vinestaff phighting#shuriken phighting#vinesplash phighting#shurifin#egobworder#jesterspace#subspace phighting#skateboard phighting#Ego was trying to get jester to help them without any strings attatched-didn't work#The siblings were just saving their local pirate from drowning#why did Jesterspace turn out so good???#might cringe at this post later lol
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
Finals stress is killing me bro
#this isnt even a tickle post but like?? i just want some soft tickles so get rid of the stress.#as corny as that sounds#ugh#i just want these to be over with#like honestly my stress has been so bad over the last 2 weeks and ive been getting fucking skin reactions from the stress#ughh i just need to be not tired for like a little
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
I really hate how my physical body looks so so so much. unfortunately there isn't much I can do about it.
#ive got fat genetics from both parents families going back generations and ive been trying to lose weight forever#my stupod body likes being fat i can excercise like crazy and eat barely anything and i wont lose anything#i was excercising 2+ hours a day before i got sick and it made me stronger but i.stayed fat. now that im sick im weak and still fat.#and im not the kind of fat anybody can find pretty. if i could somehow not be fat id be decent to look at my face isnt bad#my skin is bad though my skin sucks#in my eyes im disgusting#and its so messed up because i dont think other fat people are gross#but i hate how i look so much that i cant imagine anyone being okay with it#like no matter how kind and understanding and sweet i am to people its never gonna make up for the fact that my body is grossly ugly#and i cant blame anyone for not liking me i get it.#sorry#this is a problem i have#bacause i just usually pretend my body doesnt exist and i wear pretty loose fitting dresses that cover me completely so but#even though i am what i am#sometimes you happen to meet a nice person and they are polite and dont seem disgusted by your existance so then your traitorous brain t#thinks hey maybe this person would be willing to marry us someday if they got to know us. which is so silly becuz theres no way thatd ever#so it makes me sad when i should be happy that a nice person talked to me. yay good job successful friendlyness. but it has to remind me#that i had this expectation from when i was a kid that id marry somone and have at least 3 kids and love my kids and take care of them and#give them everything i needed when i was a kid. and of course that never happened. because i never dated anyone. because people dont just#magically get married out of nowhere. its stupid. so i keep trying to be okay with whatever. but i guess i never stopped wanting a family.#which we know im aroace now so. i need to stop. but my brain is always bothering me about this.#why can't i just accept that no one will ever love me. why cant i be happy that they dont?#ive got cats#someday i will have irl friends again#sorry i think everything would be so much easier if i was just#this isnt a problem with an easy solutiom#i guess im gonna try to do the useless excercises again because at least it will look like im trying even though nothing will change
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
mr beans i hope you win. can you win for me specifically.
#click for better quality#joel smallishbeans#joel limited life#limited life fanart#bad boys limited life#I WILL DRAW THE REST OF THEM but this has been sitting as a wip for about 2 or 3 weeks and i wanted to get it out there slkfdkljsjdk#his skin is so cool#the render on this kicked my ass but im done futzing it is what it is#might redraw it eventually#also i want it known that i was going to draw him with a baguette but that failed to i reverted back to an axe. as normal#i don't even know if he uses one often#my art#mcyt fanart#mcyt
85 notes
·
View notes
Text
im such a loser it hurts. i’ve gained a lot of weight over the last year and it makes me hate my body. my job sucks and pays so little i feel ashamed just thinking about it. my grades are bad and my writing is mediocre and devoid of meaning. why do i even exist
#hate hate hate hate myself#when did it all go wrong#though i guess it was never right in the first place#my whole life ive been pulling through by the skin of my teeth. and of course it doesnt look this way#with the impressive list of high ranking schools i studied in and good grades and aced exams#but it never brought me happiness. it was just something i had to do. was supposed to do because i was good enough#and i never enjoyed studying there. it has been a constant nightmare#and now im working the job which is not bad. but being there makes me feel like im actively dying#and yeah. the salary. it Sucks with a capital s#and all my attempts to find a better paying job so far resulted in nothing#i have a good life. i have a nice apartment with a short commute. a loving partner. enough money to live comfortably#so i feel like i shouldnt complain#but the horrors persist through it all#its just been a constant struggle. and whatever i do it doesnt go away#sorry. im upset and tired and my heas hurts#will probably delete this tomorrow#arnold’s laments
8 notes
·
View notes