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i canât we have to wait over 2 more months and let hundreds of thousands of people die preventable deaths before joe biden maybe shuts down the country. it makes me sick
#like i am so angry right now i donât even know how to describe it#how could people be so selfish. how could over 70 million people vote for someone who could have at the very least stopped so many people#from dying. how could he not even want to shut down the country for at least 2 weeks#the election is over. you lost. you dont need the votes or support of your wingnuts anymore. shut it the fuck down#my school had 9 positive cases in the last week and 5 new ones came in overnight#i just canât believe it. i really canât#also fuck charlie baker for what heâs doing i literally hate politicians so much bro is being re-elected worth people dying on your hands đđ#and like. we donât even know the long term effects of the disease yet in full so when people say ââthe death rate is only .3%! who cares!â#fuuuuck you !!!!!!!#people complain about wearing masks and like. maybe if everyone just wore it for a MONTH we could get this somewhat under control ?????#also some research just came out that says restaurants gyms hotels and places of worship account for 80% of cases like WTF!!! shut them DOWN#also not as important but trump taking credit for a vaccine being close to done bro u didnt do shit stfu#urgh sorry just so pissed like my school just canceled all classes today thru weds bc of it which like fine but im just mad bc of the amount#of cases#mine#covid /
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I'm so deeply sorry for worrying you @ajokeformur-ray and @jslittlebirdie! That was never my intention and it pains me very much to realize how unfair and careless my disappearance was. In fact, I still find it difficult to realize and accept that I'm actually seen, heard and even valued by the two of you, that I may not just be a nobody on the internet, but a very real friendship. I would like to apologize to you from the bottom of my heart for the sorrow that has arisen, for the worries and thoughts that you've made, for the horrific impression that I've given and all the other terrible things and feelings that my sudden absence caused. I swear none of this was my intention and I hope so much you two know that none of this has to do with any of you! I'm all too aware of how it feels and none of you deserve it in the least. For this reason I understand that you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore and yet I hope that you can accept my apology. What I did was neither fair nor justified, I know that, but I still want to let you know that I miss you indescribably. Even when we weren't interacting or I was online, you were always with me, in my heart and mind. The meaning that you've for me is limitless and I could never thank you for all the wonderful, great things that you've done and are for me. I hope to never forget you and I hope so much that my carelessness and thoughtlessness didn't ruin such a meaningful acquaintance!
I was wondering how I could ever get in touch again, tried not to be a coward just once, to admit my mistake and to apologize. I know that I've always needed you more than you needed me, that I've hoped again and again for understanding and acceptance from you. And I realized that this time is probably no exception. So if you're still reading this text, then the READ MORE will be followed by my explanation of why I disappeared at all, why it took me so long to come back and what was going on in my head.
So, as you may know, my apprenticeship started last Monday. In detail, this means that I have two days of school every two weeks and one day of school for the opposite two weeks. In the weeks where I have one day of school, I also work five days in the store, in the weeks with two days of school it is four days. This means that I only have one day off per week and that I'm awake from 5:10 or 6:00 am, until 1:30 or 2:40 pm at work/school, at 2:00 or 3:30 pm I'm at home and go to bed by 9 p.m. at the latest, so really too little time to rest, cook, clean up, etc. So currently I ride my bike about 40-50 km per week. All of this ensures that I'm quite exhausted, plus the overwhelming changes in my everyday life, with completely new and unknown environments, activities, people and above all routines (which is an enormous effort for me). But all of this has become more or less established for me and I very much hope that not too much will change now and that I'll get used to everything as quickly as possible.
All of these things are already exhausting enough for me, but the worst is that I'm now going back to school with people who're all too quick to judge and who've high expectations of me, who've little understanding and openness for people who're different, with problems and difficulties. People like me. I've already had a negative clash with one of my teachers because he asked me to do something that I couldn't organize in terms of time.
But that's not what's worst for me because that's one of my classmates. She has only seen me for two days, hardly knows anything about me and yet she hurt me so much and made me think that I came home and cried, so discouraged and hopeless. Actually, I'm not an overly "openly" emotional person, but I don't have too high an opinion of myself anyway.
She told me that I'm such a shollow person, invisible, irrelevant, that my being alone alienates me from my surroundings, that I would't understand anything within the real life, that all I'm and feel are just my thoughts, that I'm a waste in this world, that I'm alone and always will be because my lack of social interaction and experiences mean that I'm not able, don't have the right, to feel part of any group or society. She told me that I'm a nobody, incapable of anything, with a cold heart.
And let me tell you, I was overwhelmed, scared, sad and hurt. I actually thought there was some truth to it, and maybe it is, but after days of worrying, I realized that I'm SO MUCH more too!
All of my problems, all of my loneliness don't make me angry, bitter or cold-hearted, on the contrary, in fact. My loneliness and detachment are part of me, neither positive nor negative, they allow me to observe, understand and empathize. Maybe I don't belong anywhere, but because of me, no one else will EVER have to feel as if they're not accepted and valued for who they're. No one will ever feel as lost or hopeless as I do. For me, every single living being is something very special and extraordinary. Maybe I don't have a big or important meaning, but neither am I meaningless. If being part of one of these groups or societies means that it's okay to hurt someone, then I NEVER can and NEVER want to be part of them. I prefer to watch the world, stay away from people who have no idea of the meaning of their words and deeds, stay lonely. Because, in reality, my heart is neither cold nor dead, it's incredibly alive, full of warmth and love. My mind is filled with so many wonderful ideas, stories, observations, and experiences; it's not dull or wasted. My amazement, love, curiousity, compassion and appreciation are truly limitless. Maybe I'll never fully understand the people and life around me, maybe I'll never find my place, my home, but that's okay. My mother always told me that if I don't find my place among people, I'll always have one among the stars. I've no idea what or who is popular, how to do this or that, what's considered normal or realistic, what makes the average life special, worth living or beautiful. And that's okay. I realized, more than before, that I'm capable of something, something very important in fact! I feel, intensely, limitless and almost magical. I know what it feels like to have the rain pattering down on me, to feel the wind in my hair, to see my cats happy, to see the smiles of those around me, authentic and beautiful, how amazing it is to look at the stars, to be filled and flowed through by music. I know what it feels like to live, not to experience, but to simply be alive, to breathe, to see and to perceive everything, no matter how small, around me. To be overwhelmed by emotions, good and bad. Should I actually be meaningless, then I'm definitely grateful for all the meaningful things that I can experience.
I'm lonely, out of place, that's right. Maybe I'm lost, but maybe it allows me to see and discover so much more. I have realized that all of my weaknesses and difficulties, my loneliness, make me understanding and kind. Not cold or incompetent, insignificant or indifferent. I wish I could show her, make her understand that there's so much more than popularity or reputation, all of these wonderfully great things that she seems to overlook or perceive as of less value. And even though her words hurt me, I made up my mind to forgive her. I wish she would understand how complex and meaningful words, deeds, feelings, people and this extraordinary world are, I'm sorry that she understands and appreciates so little. In any case, I want to make sure that she, or anyone else, NEVER gets hurt by me.
I'm sorry to annoy you with my rambling, but that's why I needed time to myself. Unfortunately, I'll not have too much time and energy to be very active in the future either, but I'll try to read and answer all of your wonderful messages. I can't tell how quickly I'm able to do this, but I will try my best! After a really exhausting and intense week, I'm definitely back. And I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of the compassionate, thoughtful messages. Their, and your, incredible meaning is really difficult for me to put into words, so THANK YOU!
I miss you both so incredible much and I hope all is well with you.
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And Baby Makes Three
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Happy Valentineâs Day! To celebrate, Iâm bringing some more fluff, but specifically daddy Spencer. This was requested by @one-sweet-gubler. I had so much fun writing this one and got a bit carried away as I ended writing about the whole pregnancy instead of just the labor part, so it may be a little long. I hope you enjoy all the Daddy Spencer feels. :)
Spencer Reid/Reader
Rating: G (fluff)
Word Count: 4,278
Spencer was over the moon when you finally fell pregnant.
The two of you had been trying for a baby for a year, with many difficulties. After a plethora of negative tests and even a false positive, you were over the moon when you found out this positive test was the real thing.
Youâd taken 6 tests to be sure.
After a visit to the doctor confirmed it, you were determined to make the surprise something special for Spencer.
He had been dreaming about having kids almost all of his life. He was so good with children and the children he encountered at his job, an FBI profiler for the Behavioral Analysis Unit. It was usually scary situations when he encountered kids , but he was always there with soothing words and gentle hugs.
You, with the help of his work family, surprised him at work one day. You were so close to his teammates yourself, you knew you wanted them to be a part of the surprise as well.
You showed up at the BAU under the pretense that heâd forgotten something at home.Â
The team had just gathered around the round table to brief about a new case when you walked in. Of course, Spencer was the only one truly surprised one to see you.
Youâd apologized for interrupting and said that heâd left something at home that you needed to bring to him. You held up a paper bag, which only confused him, knowing heâd been sure to grab his lunch.
Everyone had watched in anticipation when he pulled a gift box out of the bag.
Heâd opened it to a white onesie that when unfolded said Hi Daddy, I canât wait to meet you. Underneath it was the first ultrasound picture of tiny baby Reid.
He was so shocked that at first he didnât know what to do. His gaze moved around all the smiling faces at the table, then landed on you, his face breaking into a huge smile.
âReally?â he asked.
âReally.â Your own smile was as big as his.
Heâd rushed towards you, hugging you tight and spinning you around in his excitement before the entire team surrounded you both giving hugs and their congratulations.
You were officially going to be parents.
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Pregnancy wasnât exactly a breeze for you, yet it wasnât as bad as some womenâs.
The first trimester was filled with lots of nausea, vomiting and exhaustion.
Spencer assured you that it would normally pass by the end of the first trimester. Thankfully it did, but until that point you felt like you lived off of crackers and ginger ale.
He was always the sweetest with you, making sure your supply of both never ran out. When he was home on cases, heâd cuddle with you on the couch letting you have pick of whatever show you wanted to watchâwhich of course youâd let him end up picking, no matter what. You would lay with your head in his lap and heâd mindlessly play with your hair. Those were some of the best days of your early pregnancy.
By your second trimester, new symptoms arrived, as did the appearance of baby Reid. By 15 weeks, youâd started to show just enough to look pregnant and not actually bloated.Â
Spencer would always rub the tiny bump and talk to the baby, things that made your heart soar. It was little gestures like that that made you fall more in love with him each day.
Not only had your belly grown, but so had your appetite. You had started craving things with a vengeance, something that would often mix horribly with your unbalanced pregnancy emotions. It would be like the two wires would accidentally cross in your pregnancy brain, leading to a meltdown.
One night youâd been craving avocados so badly, youâd gone downstairs to eat the last one that youâd been saving. You found it gone, not even remembering you had already eaten it.
Spencer found you on the kitchen floor sobbing over the fact there were no avocados. Heâd ended up running to the store at 9 oâclock at night to buy at least two dozen of them. Youâd felt so bad afterwards, but heâd only kissed you and assured you that it was only the pregnancy hormones.
âYouâre growing a little human, youâre allowed to be a little crazy sometimes,â he comforted you.
Besides the mood swings, cravings and even heartburn, you were most surprised at the changes in your libido.Â
You could attest that your sex life with Spencer had never been more steamy than it was then; you were sure he could agree.
20 weeks came and youâd both agreed to find out the sex.
Instead of finding out at the doctorâs, the team had gotten together to throw a gender reveal partyâmainly Penelope Garciaâs idea as she was stoked to have another BAU baby around, so who could refuse her?
Obviously it was a small get together with just the BAU team, Spencer and yourself. JJ had been in charge of getting the results, Garcia had baked the cake with the color reveal in it and of course Rossi had supplied his house as the location, as per usual.
You and Spencer both cut into the cake simultaneously and pulled out the first piece, revealing a pink hued cake.
You were thrilled, but you think it was safe to say that Spencer was ecstatic.
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Baby names were tough.
Youâd yet to start talking about names because Spencer wanted to wait until youâd found out the sex before picking a name.
âI want it to be special,â he whined a little, his bottom lip jutting out, âShe deserves a good name.â
âIâm still not naming my child Aphrodite, Spencer.â
You had left it to him to research a name; he was so passionate about it, you couldnât say no. After all, you wanted him involved in every way possible since he couldnât technically carry the baby.
âAphrodite was the goddess of love and beauty,â Spencer retorted, still flipping through books.
He was on the floor surrounded by text books, baby name books, pregnancy guide books, you couldnât even figure out what else. Heâd always been a big reader, but he made sure thus far to have as much knowledge as he could on pregnancy, childbirth and parenting.
âAfter all, her mommy is a goddess,â he smirked as he flipped a page.
âWhy Spencer Reid, that was actually quite smooth of you.â
You ruffled his hair before leaning down and kissing him on the lips. His hands cupped your belly and he gave it a kiss too.
âWell she wouldnât exist if I wasnât.â
You laughed and playfully shoved him, leaving him to his reading.
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Around 22 weeks, you felt her first movements. At first it felt like a small gurgle from your stomach and youâd stopped what you were doing, waiting to see if youâd feel it again.
When the sensation happened, it was like the soft wings of a butterfly brushing the inside of your belly. Youâd ran to Spencer, thrilled that youâd finally felt her move. He pouted when he realized it wasnât yet strong enough for him to feel from the outside.
âKeep on growing, little one,â heâd whispered to your belly, âDaddy wants to feel your kicks too.â
When she started kicking, she kicked hard.
Spencerâs reaction to feeling her kick for the first time was amazing. You could see all the love in his eyes for the little baby girl youâd both created, growing and getting stronger every day.
âI feel you baby girl,â he smiled at your belly, rubbing the spot sheâd just kicked, kissing it gently.
Then he took your face in his hands and kissed you so lovingly it left you breathless.
âThank you for being amazing,â heâd murmured against your lips before kissing you again.
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5 months had become 6 months. Six nearly had nearly become seven.
You were almost 7 months and at your third trimester and you still hadnât picked a name for baby girl.
Although one day, it just seemed to click into place.
âI got it!â heâd declared, looking up from a baby book.
âOkay, letâs hear it,â you said, intrigued.
âHow about Arabella? Itâs a Dutch name for beautiful.â
âArabella,â you let the name roll off your tongue and you smiled, âItâs perfect for her. Now what about a middle name?â
He was already flipping through pages again, reading fast as lightning.
âI havenât gotten that far. Iâve only gotten the first name down.â
You chuckled, âAt this rate we might name her by the time she graduates from high school.â
He didnât reply, his tongue poking out of the corner of his mouth as he concentrated. It was then that a thought occurred to you, or rather a name.
âHow about Joy?â
âHmm?â he asked, still distracted by the text.
âJoy. For her middle name. Because weâre so overjoyed about her.â
He looked up, thinking.
âArabella Joy Reid,â he said, trying it out, then looking back at you.Â
âItâs perfect.â
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The final trimester was the real challenge.
Your body was swollen and sore, you felt huge and you were constantly exhausted. Spencer was the best at spoiling you and Arabella though. Between the cute baby things he boughtâone being an onesie that said Daddyâs Little Geniusâhe would fix meals when he was home, run a bath for you and cuddle you afterwards.
You would often make remarks about how big you felt but he would immediately squash your insecurities saying you looked even more beautiful while pregnant.
When he left for work or for a case, heâd always make sure to kiss your bump as well as kissing you before he left, his way of saying goodbye to his girls.
As the time crept closer to her being born, his excitement grew. He couldnât wait for your family to expand. It was so endearing to see him so happy and excited. You knew he didnât get to have the same experience as you did currently, so you understood that he was more than eager to have her here and bond with her.
He was going to make an amazing dad.
As much as you wanted to meet your little bundle of joy, the impending approach of labor made you nervous. Obviously being a first time mom, you only knew what youâd heard and read, not what the actual experience would be like.
âSome studies have said that childbirth actually hurts more than broken bones,â Spencer had told you.
âNot helping!â you groaned.
He winced, quickly realizing his mistake.
âWell at least thereâs medication now for labor pains unlike in old days when they used toââ
You stopped him in the middle of his sentence.
âPlease donât finish that sentence,â you said, âYou better believe the moment I can get an epidural, Iâm going to get it.â
âWhatever youâre most comfortable with is fine by me.â
He squeezed your hand, showing you that you truly did have his support. He hated to see you in pain and he knew labor was going to be strenuous, but you knew heâd be there with you every step of the way.
âJust think in two weeks weâre going to be able to finally meet her,â Spencer beamed, stroking your stomach where one of her feet had just pushed hard enough to show an imprint through your belly.
âItâs about time you carried her for once,â you teased, resting your head on his shoulder.
âOh believe me, youâll have to fight me before I give up holding her.â
You had zero doubts about that.
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Your due date was right around the corner when Spencer had to fly to Colorado for a case.Â
âYouâre sure youâll call me if anything happens, right?â Spencer asked for the third time.
âSpence, Iâm sure,â you answered, âBesides my due date isnât for 5 more days and my doctor said thereâs a chance she might be a tad bit overdue.â
âTell her daddy says to stay in there until I get back.â
âI will. But keep in mind, sheâs as stubborn as you are.â
âHey!â he exclaimed, feigning offense.
You laughed, âGo save a life. Iâll call you later. Love you.â
After youâd said your goodbyes, you resumed the cleaning youâd needed to finish up before baby got here.
Youâd successfully washed and put away all her clothes, washed all the bottles and stored them in the cabinet along with the canisters of formula and set up her changing table with wipes and diapers.
Your hospital bag had been packed weeks ago and sat next to the door.Â
Now you just finished small things like washing dishes, folding laundry and vacuuming. Sweeping was definitely not an option since you couldnât bend down for the dustpan. Oh, how you missed being able to bend down like a normal person.
It was around one in the afternoon when you decided to lay down because you had become exhausted and your back had begun to ache.Â
With a quick text to Spencer, you let him know you were napping in case you didnât answer and he reminded you Garcia was on speed dial if you needed anything.
You fell into a restless sleep, waking about an hour later drenched in sweat, the ache now have migrated to the front of your body. You sat up to retrieve your phone so you could time the contractions, just to ensure they werenât Braxton Hicks. Thatâs when you felt a gush of liquid between your legs, soaking your pants and the bed sheets.
Your thumb immediately hit the 1 on screen, dialing Penelope Garcia.
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Spencer was standing in front of the geo map heâd been working on, studying it when his phone rang. He reached into his pocket, seeing it was Garcia and none the wiser thought she would be reporting more info on the current case.
âHey Garcia.â
âDonât freak out.â
His brows crinkled.
âWhy? Whatâs wrong?â
âY/Nâs in labor.â
âWhat?!â His answer was so loud, it startled some officers nearby, âSheâs not due for at least a week more!â
âDonât tell me, tell your offspring,â Penelope retorted, âCause sheâs on her way.â
âHas her water broke? Are they sure itâs not just false labor?â
âHalf an hour ago, theyâre checking her now. Iâm staying here until you get here obviously, but Iâd hurry cause I feel like sheâs gonna want you here to wring your neck when labor really starts.â
 âOkay, Iâll catch the first flight I can and call you back when I get the flight info.â
He said a quick goodbye and rushed to Emily.
âY/Nâs gone into labor and I need to get the next flight out,â he told her, simultaneously looking up flight information out of Colorado on his phone.
âSpence.â
He was too busy searching to catch the worried tone in her voice. It wasnât until he saw the numerous amounts of cancelled next to all flights that he looked up at her.
âNormally, Iâd say go ahead and go. But I donât think youâre going to get a flight anywhere in this weather.â She pointed to the window behind him.
He turned to see it snowing so hard he couldnât see anything else but white.
âAll flights have been grounded until the storm is over. Weâre stuck here.â
âNo,â Spencer muttered, starting to panic.
He paced back and forth, his frustration mounting. In one motion he swiped all of the papers off the desk in his irritation, his frustration and anger at the situation bubbling to the surface.
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â he muttered, sinking down in the chair at the table, his hands covering his face.
His hands pushed through his hair in exasperation, his curls falling back into place moments later.
He wasnât going to make it there in time. He was going to miss it all.
The love of his life and the mother of his child was going to have to go through labor without him.
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âWhat do you mean youâre not going to make it?!â Penelope shrieked.
âAll flights are grounded for the next 48 hours until this damn snow storm is over,â Spencer said.Â
âAnd thereâs no way you can make it back?â
âIâve tried everything,â he said, sounding resigned.
âWhat am I supposed to tell her?â
âThe truth. Garcia, youâre going to have to stay with her.â
âMe? I donât know nothinâ âbout birthinâ no babies!â
âGarcia this is no time to be quoting Gone With The Wind!â Spencer exclaimed, exasperated.
âSorry, itâs just, Spencer I donât know what to do and she wants you!â
âJust be there, hold her hand, give her ice chips, encourage her. Iâm not letting her be alone. Garcia, please,â he practically begged.
âAlright, alright. Iâll keep you updated. Garcia tech-analyst-turned-midwife out.â
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You were laying in bed, covered in sweat from just making it through another contraction.
At your last check, you were only 4 centimeters dilated. You still had one more to go before you could get the epidural.
âThis suuuuucks,â you moaned.
Your contractions were still at least 5 minutes apart, signaling you were still in the last stages of early labor, if not in early stages of active. All of that to mean the pain medication wasnât coming until they got stronger and more frequent.
âAnd they said these are only the mild ones,â you groaned, looking over at Garcia who was grabbing your cup of ice.
She gave you another spoonful and put the cup back.
âYouâre doing great though and the doctor said the epidural will help with most of the real intense contractions.â
âMaybe itâs a good thing Spencer isnât here right now cause I feel like I could kill him,â you muttered.
You were devastated when Penelope told you he was stuck in Colorado. You hated that he was going to miss Arabellaâs birth and you needed him here. But at the moment, you were exhausted, sweaty, in pain and very angry that Spencer had gotten you pregnant.
Of course, that was just the pain talking.
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âIâm so sorry you got stuck with me,â you later panted, having worked your way through the previous contraction.
âOh, sweetheart, no. Iâm honored. Youâve been doing great,â she smiled, wiping your forehead, âBesides Iâm thrilled to meet my goddaughter.â
You smiled weakly.
You were currently waiting for the anesthesiologist to set up the epidural. Your contractions had started amping up big time and were coming closer together. It had been several hours since youâd first been admitted to the hospital, the nightfall just outside your window indicating the late hour.
After being propped up against Penelope and neither of you looking at the needle that was inserted into your spine, the epidural was finally taking affect. The sweet sensation of numbness was a relief. You had gone from being in excruciating pain to feeling absolutely nothing and it allowed you to get some rest while your labor advanced.
A few cat naps later, Penelope had sent a selfie of the two of you to Spencer to let him know that you both were still alive and well; things were going smoothly.Â
You passed the time by watching tv, talking to Garcia and napping. It took hours for you to progress, but slowly, you did. It was nearing dawn the next morning when it was reported that you were 9 centimeters dilated. It was getting closer to time to meet yours and Spencerâs baby and you found yourself wishing again that he was here with you.
Things progressed fast and by 7 am you were pushing your baby girl out into the world. Penelope was holding your hand as you squeezed it, pushing with all your strength.Â
She, the nurses and the doctor kept hollering their encouragement as they told you to push and finally you heard the wonderful first cries of your baby.
You fell back against your pillow, exhausted, overwhelmed, but happy as she was placed on your chest. She was still covered in all the normal birthing elements, but she was beautiful, just like her name implied.
âOh Y/N sheâs beautiful,â Penelope gasped, in awe.
Sheâd followed the nurses when theyâd taken Arabella to clean her off and measure her.Â
âNice and healthy too. Almost nine pounds,â she smiled, âSheâs going to be tall like her daddy.â
You smiled and watched as she took pictures of her to send to Spencer.
You reached your arms out and took her from the nurse once theyâd swaddled her.
âHello angel,â you whispered, âYou just couldnât wait until daddy got home, now could you?â
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It had officially been almost an entire day since youâd had Arabella.Â
Youâd just gotten her to sleep when you heard a commotion just outside of your hospital room. You heard a mixture of voices, but your heart leaped when you heard your boyfriendâs in the mix.Â
Footsteps got closer and you looked up as Spencer practically bounded in, a huge smile on his face. He dropped his go bag and satchel on the floor next to the door and walked over to your side.
âThereâs my angel,â he said.
âWhich one? Her or me?â you teased.
âBoth of you.â
Spencer smiled running a hand over your still mess of hair and kissed your forehead.
âLook at her. You did amazing, Y/N.â
âWell you did kind of help,â you smirked.
âOkay, we did amazing.â
âYes, we did,â you agreed, handing her to Spencer.
âHi beautiful,â he crooned, stroking her cheek with his finger, âDaddyâs been waiting a long time to meet you.â
He sat in the chair beside you and snuggled her close. Arabella stretched a little in her sleep, opening her eyes when she heard his voice.
âSomeone recognizes daddyâs voice,â you smiled.
âWell hello there Arabella. I heard you had quite the dramatic entrance.â
She cooed, eyes never leaving his face.
You watched the two of them, especially Spencer. He was so in love with her and you were so in love with him.
She yawned and gripped onto his finger.Â
âHow are you feeling?â he asked, looking up at you now that she was contently cuddled in his arms.
âTired and sore,â you chuckled, âBut she was definitely worth it.â
âIâll say, I mean look how cute our baby is.â
Spencer held one of her feet that had come out of the swaddle.
âLook at those tiny feet,â he baby-talked to Arabella, before kissing the bottom of it.
She pulled her foot away, beginning to get fussy.
âWhatâs the matter, Princess?â he frowned, covering her foot back up with the blanket.
âSheâs tired and probably hungry. Sheâd barely gone to sleep before you got here.â
His eyes lit up.
âCan I feed her?â
âGo ahead,â you smiled.
You rang for the nurse and while she fetched a bottle, Arabella began to cry.
âI know, I know,â Spencer pouted, rocking her slightly, âA bottleâs coming, baby girl.â
The nurse returned with the bottle and Spencer took it, placing it gently in Arabellaâs mouth. She started sucking greedily, her cries vanished.
You watched them with sleepy eyes, a smile on your face. Spencer looked up, noticing you drifting off.
âHey, why donât you rest and take a nap? Iâve got this.â
âYou sure?â
He leaned over, kissing you gently.
âYes, Iâm sure,â he looked down at Arabella, âTell mommy we got this.â
She made small grunting noises as she ate and he chuckled.
âSee? Weâre good on our own.â
You didnât argue. You knew youâd need your rest and better take it when you had the chance. Youâd began drifting off when you heard Spencerâs words to Arabella.
âI love your mommy so much. Besides you, sheâs the best thing to ever happen to me.â
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Spencer watched his daughter eat all of her bottle while he talked to her. She seemed to listen too, watching him the entire time.
âJust wait until auntie JJ meets you,â he said, âShe might ever want to give you back. Sheâs never had a baby girl.â
He told her all about the rest of his teammates, talked to her about how he waited so long to meet her, he even told her how he and Y/N had met. He set the bottle aside when she was finished, laying her against his chest and on his shoulder to burp her, like heâd read about.
When she was settled, he laid her against his chest, rocking her just a bit. It wasnât long until he fell asleep along with her.
He wasnât sure how long heâd been asleep when a nurse had woken him.
âIâm sorry Dr. Reid,â she apologized, âI was just making rounds and was checking in on the baby. Do you want me to take her and put her back in the bassinet to sleep?â
âNo, I think I want to hold her a little while longer.â
She smiled and nodded before she left the room. He looked down to Arabella sleeping peacefully on his chest.Â
His mind couldnât wrap around the fact that this tiny, perfect little human was his. He was filled with such love for her and Y/N.
He kissed her head gently.
âNot even a day old and you have me wrapped around your little finger.â
He got comfortable in the chair once again, falling back asleep with her in his arms.
Despite all the bad things he saw in his day to day work, good moments like this truly outweighed all the bad.
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2021 Top Games of the Week: Week 1
Football is back! Week 0 was incredibly boring but Week 1 should more than make up for that. Weâve got a load of interesting games this week that should kick off the season in style. Letâs have a look!
The Top Ten Games of the Week
10. West Virginia at Maryland (Saturday 9/4)
The 10 spot goes to one of the fun rivalry games once again kicking off. West Virginia and Maryland have kept their non-conference rivalry going even as both schools changed conferences in the past 10 years. I hope they keep playing it moving forward. Neither team is expected to contend for their conference, or division in the Terrapinsâ case, so winning the rivalry games is #1 on the list for many fans on both sides.
9. Michigan State at Northwestern (Friday 9/3)
The Big Ten is trotting out several conference games to open the season. Michigan State at Northwestern is perhaps the least interesting, but it does feature the defending champions of the West Division. In 2020, the Wildcats came out of nowhere last year to claim their second division title in three years. Meanwhile, the Spartans gutted their way through a season that would have been incredibly disappointing if not for their win over Michigan. Both squads have question marks but with this early conference game weâll get a better idea where each team stands.
8. #4 Ohio State at Minnesota (Thursday 9/2)
Ohio State is ready to kick off another season with a national championship in their sights. The Buckeyes are quite clearly one of the best teams in the country and expect to go 12-0 or 11-1 at the very worst. Minnesota hasnât had an opportunity like this is a while. The Gophers are expected to be loaded for bear as they prepare to take the next step forward under P.J. Fleck. Back in 2019, Minnesota defeated #4 Penn State to catapult themselves into a tie with Wisconsin for the West title. Iâm sure they have a similar outcome on their minds here for OSU.
7. #16 LSU at UCLA 1-0 (0-0) (Saturday 9/4)
This one is going to hold my attention this weekend. LSU has had a strange two years, going from national champions with potentially the best football team of all time to 5-5 also rans nearly overnight. Sure, they have had time to reload now and the Tigers should be fine, but more than a few eyebrows have been raised already. Meanwhile, UCLAâs long rebuild under Chip Kelly has finally started to bear fruit. The Bruins mauled an overmatched Hawaii squad in week 0. Big deal, the Rainbow Warriors arenât on the same level as Louisiana State, who will give UCLA a real litmus test to see how far theyâve come. Also itâs cool to see a PAC-SEC matchup, I feel like those conferences have the most infrequent combinations of matchups among the P5 leagues.
6. #10 North Carolina at Virginia Tech (Friday 9/3)
The ACC isnât quite matching the Big Ten for Week 1 intrigue, but this early bout may have big ramifications on the Coastal race. North Carolina is favored in a race with Miami according to the experts, but things rarely ever go right in this strange division. Virginia Tech are in an awkward position. Things havenât been going well in Blacksburg lately and fans wanted Justin Fuente fired years ago at this point. It would be a huge opportunity for the Hokies to turn their fortunes around if they can jump on the Tar Heels at home.
5. #23 Louisiana at #21 Texas (Saturday 9/4)
This is a trap game for sure. Steve Sarkisianâs first game as Texas head coach and itâs against a team that made their name last year upsetting regular season Big 12 Champions Iowa State. Louisiana will absolutely give the Longhorns a tougher test than they would normally expect from a G5 program and if theyâre not careful UT could faceplant.
4. #17 Indiana at #18 Iowa (Saturday 9/4)
Itâs not a sexy matchup in the conventional sense, but you have to give credit where itâs due. Indiana were one of the darlings of the 2020 season. The Hoosiers shocked the world last season with a breakout 6-2 record. With a full seasonâs worth of games to play now, IU is gunning for double digit wins. Iowa is their usual selves. The Hawkeyes were once again a strong team last year and that should be the case in 2021 as well. Iowa expects to contend for the West Division this year and have to win their cross-division games to give them their best chance at getting to Indianapolis.
3. #19 Penn State at #13 Wisconsin (Saturday 9/4)
The biggest of the Big Tenâs Week 1 matchups sees two of the best programs in the conference square off. Penn State had a bad year in 2020, no other way around saying it. The Nittany Lions need to rebound in 2021 or there will be a lot of question marks surrounding the direction of the program under James Franklin. Wisconsin is their usual selves, meaning the Badgers should once again be one of the top teams in the league but still a step (or two) behind Ohio State. Both Wisconsin and Penn State want to win their respective divisions, a loss in Week 1 would be a crucial setback for either side.
2. #1 Alabama vs #14 Miami FL (Atlanta, GA) (Saturday 9/4)
The defending champions start off the year in a high profile matchup with another high profile team. Miami isnât quite playing up to their potential just yet, but the Hurricanes are on more solid footing than weâve seen in a while. Many are expecting another breakthrough season similar to what we saw in 2017. It might not matter either way if the Canes get back to that level. It will be incredibly hard to unseat Alabama. The Crimson Tide are losing a lot of guys from their championship squad, but new faces with similar levels of talent are coming in to replace those whoâve left for the NFL. It feels foolish betting against Bama but a Week 1 loss would be one of the more likely scenarios for a regular season loss at all for the Tide.
1. #5 Georgia at #3 Clemson (Saturday 9/4)
This one is a no-brainer. Georgia and Clemsonâs on again-off again rivalry is once again heating back up. The stakes havenât been this high since the early 80â˛s, with both the Tigers and Bulldogs attempting to claim national championships this year. UGA is hoping to rebound and reclaim the SEC East after giving it away to Florida last season. The Dawgs are on the short list of 6 or so teams that are aiming to make the Playoff every year. Clemson is one of the other squads on that special list. The Tigers are hosting and may be favored, but we need to be wary of their lack of depth at the QB position. A loss here might not end a Playoff campaign, but it would be a bad start to one as well as a black eye against a regional recruiting rival.Â
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5 G5 Games of the Week
5. Syracuse at Ohio (Saturday 9/4)
Frank Solich unfortunately wonât be the head coach in Athens, but I think his old team is in great position to claim a P5 scalp as hapless Syracuse makes the trek for a rare MAC road date.
4. Marshall at Navy (Saturday 9/4)
Two of the G5â˛s more consistent brands face off. Marshall is trotting out their first new coach in 15 years while Navy is attempting to spit out the bad taste in their mouths after a disappointing 2020 season.
3. Miami OH at #8 Cincinnati (Saturday 9/4)
The Battle of the Bell is one of FBS footballâs oldest rivalries and I love giving it the spotlight. I donât expect Miami to win of course, while they have been a solid MAC program in the last couple years, the RedHawks arenât up to the same level as Cincinnati. The Bearcats are favored to repeat as the #1 G5 program in the nation. Cincinnati havenât lost to their in-state rivals since 2005, giving Miami plenty of reason to try and solve the Cincy defense that gave teams such fits last season.
2. Texas Tech vs Houston (Houston, TX) (Saturday 9/4)
Thatâs right, Houston was able to call on to upgrade this game to NRG Stadium. The Cougars and Red Raiders are throwing a Southwest Conference reunion party and everybodyâs invited. Both Texas Tech and Houston have been struggling lately and this game definitely has high stakes for both programs.
1. Boise State at UCFÂ (Saturday 9/4)
Two of the G5â˛s biggest brands face off as Boise State travels to the Bounce House to take on UCF. The stakes are obvious: the winner here will be the G5â˛s #2 option after Cincinnati moving forward through the season.
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FCS Games of the Week
5. #14 Central Arkansas at Arkansas State (Saturday 9/4)
More likely to happen than you might imagine. Arkansas State moved on from coach Blake Anderson at the end of 2020 and Butch Jones (yeah) needs time to get things set. Central Arkansas has an opportunity to knock off their big brother in Jonesboro.
4. #9 Montana at #20 Washington (Saturday 9/4)
Itâs the revival of an ancient PCC series dating back to the 1950â˛s. Montana will certainly be an underdog against a Washington squad that technically did win the PAC-12 North last year.
3. #21 Northern Iowa at #7 Iowa State (Saturday 9/4)
Iowa State has moved mountains to become this good, but the Cyclones arenât impervious to upsets as last year showed us. Northern Iowa has their own chance to knock off big brother.
2. #6 Weber State at #24 Utah (Thursday 9/2)
This one should be tough no matter how good Weber State is. The Utesâ physical game will be tough for the Wildcats to overcome, but theyâll take their shot at glory no matter what.
1. #10 Jacksonville State vs UAB (Montgomery, AL) (Wednesday 9/1)
Now this is cool, an FBS-FCS game played at a neutral site. I love to see matchups like this. UAB is one of the best G5 programs of the last 5 years while Jacksonville State is one of the most consistent FCS squads in the deep South.
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Title: A Tale of Two Slaves (1/17)
Summary:Â Â "Soulmates donât exist. Fate doesn't exist. Everything is a choice." At that moment, Levi could only watch as she made the choice for him."
Reincarnation AU. Levi remembers everything from their past life. Hange doesn't.
Note:Â This has been sitting on my computer untouched for a while, along with the timeline I prepared for a multichapter fic. Will probs go back to it soon. Feedback is very much appreciated.
Other Chapters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14
Link to cross-postings: AO3
In dreams people only see faces they already know.
It was an interesting fact Levi had probably come across, lazily scrolling through his social media timelines or opening countless tabs after getting into some Wikipedia blackhole in between the long days of schools and the short nights asleep.
He spent a fair amount of time on the internet, reading up about whatever bullshit politics came up with, controversies and bathroom reader fun facts. During his first year of college, it had stuck to him for a time. Maybe because it just seemed too unrealistic, too unbelievable.
After all, ever since he had started college, he felt like he had been dreaming of more and more unfamiliar faces. It could have been attributed at least to the fact that he was exposed to more people in a crowded city than he had been in the small town he grew up in. As time went by, these faces he barely recognized though, had become the main actors in his dream.
The long haired boy with the elvish features. The man with the clean cut appearance and a glint of mischief in his eyes. The oriental girl with subtle European features. The cheeky girl with a beat up pair of glasses and unkempt hair.
They and many others had been regulars in his dreams and Levi had come up with names for them already, names he remembered muttering, names he screamed multiple times in his head. By the time he woke up to the four walls of his bedroom a few hours before his first class, they were vague memories, only as intelligible as his view of the world right after waking up.
Some mornings, he had found himself more exhausted than when he had slept. Some mornings, he found his throat sore from screaming. Some days, his eyes were swollen from crying.
He lived alone in a dormitory and he had wanted to infer that it had been homesickness that had made those nightmares possible. He had never really abhorred being alone though, in fact he liked the privacy that came with having his own room.
He quickly shot down that theory and did not think too much about it soon after. His daily life did not give him too much time to ponder such fleeting and abstract of a concept as dreams in between lessons and training. Â
The dreams never left him, some days they were more vivid than others. After a few years of navigating academics, trainings, and obligations, Levi had gotten used to brushing off that one tear heâd get as he woke up, taking a lozenge to soothe the sore throat or just leaving the lights off in his room to alleviate the pounding headache he would get some mornings.
Daily life and obligations never did allow him the time and space to ponder too much on those dreams. Levi chalked it up to stress and unexplained trauma, easily soothed by ten minutes scrolling through social media or hours reorganizing his room for the third time that week.
Financial and time constraints made it impossible as well to even consider consulting about it and Levi found himself compartmentalizing those dreams into those few hours of sleep he got at night and the one hour he allowed himself each day to adjust to the waking world.
The line blurred one night though when one of those names was nonchalantly mentioned among others.
"Hange Zoe..."
It was just one name in a list recited by their coach before they were all dismissed for the evening. Sandwiched between a few other names before and after it, it wasn't supposed to stand out like that. Oddly, it did.
As Levi rode his bike to his dormitory room after a tiring day of training, he found himself repeating that name again and again. He tried to make sense of the odd familiarity which came with a name he could have sworn he had never heard before.
A family friend? A childhood friend?
Levi entertained those possibilities. Having grown up in a small town, his family friends and childhood friends consisted of everyone in that tight knit community and he could have listed out all their names then and there. She wasnât part of it.
To at least, satisfy his own curiosity, Levi had sent a message to his parents before going to sleep. Just in case he had met her before.
Levi woke up the next morning, his throat a little scratchier, his body a little more tired. The first thing he did was check his phone.
Hange Zoe wasnât a family friend.
Levi put the covers over himself and closed his eyes. His head was pounding and his chest was heavy. He had only noticed a moment later that his eyes were wet, his breaths were coming out in heaves.
What did I dream about this time?
Levi needed the whole morning to recover.
                  A Tale of Two Slaves
Levi managed at least to drag himself out of bed for afternoon training. By then, others have already started warming up. Levi wondered if he would be able to carry his body through a warm up jog, given his state only a few hours ago.
In the end, getting the jog done became a matter of discipline more than anything else and he had finished well above everyone else.
He had always been faster, given his smaller build and he had the natural muscle and athletic skill to be versatile as well. That was what made him stand out as the best athlete in the track and field team. He never cared too much either way about the admiration many of his teammates held towards him.
The recurring nightmares and the aftermaths of these though had left Levi averse to human interaction. Ironically, as he moved away from his small town and into the bigger city, his world had gotten smaller. Levi found himself keeping his world only wide enough to win track and field events and pass classes.
No man could really ever be an island though, no matter how much they try. Levi soon found that out when he saw that aforementioned Hange Zoe on the side of the track, talking to one of their coaches.
âThis is Hange Zoe.â
âYou can call me Hange.â
Levi did not need that quick introduction his coach had just given him. Somehow, the name and the face just clicked inside him. He looked expectantly at his coach and back at Hange.
Hange held out her hand to him and smiled. âI heard youâre the best one in the team. Coach Greg spoke highly of you.â
Levi narrowed his eyes at her. âWhat's she doing here?â
âDidnât I tell you last time? Some of the premed students wanted to do case studies on athletes here for their final thesis. If you could help them out?â The coach turned to Hange. âLevi here is one of our best jumpers. He holds a pretty good record for sprinting, hurdles and throwing events as well.â
âYour jogging form looks amazing! Iâd love to see you in action.â
Levi was not prepared for the invasion of privacy that came a second after. Hange held both of his hands towards her and leaned closer towards him. Before Levi could even stop himself, he had pushed her away and ran, the screaming of his coach to come back had become mere muffled screams in the background.
The only reason Levi did drag himself to training was for the fact that it was still one of the few hobbies he found complete calm yet complete liberation in. Those few moments after launching himself up in the air, those magical few moments high up in the air with only the empty sky above him, Levi felt free.
As Levi powered through, he found within him a burst of energy, built up from an idle morning cooped up in his room.
He had done those same drills so many times before. The excitement he got from flying through the air and running easily took over whatever exhaustion and rattledness plagued him only a second ago. He let his body memory guide him through each drill, concentrating his consciousness on other things like the cool wind on his skin as he shot through the track and the purple sky that stretched above as he performed horizontal jumps.
If Levi had been any more aware of his surroundings, he would have noticed his teammates leaving the track one by one. Maybe, he would have noticed as he started moving to the hurdles that the purple sky was slowly turning into a dark blue and the scenery around him was becoming just a little more than shadows.
It was nothing new. Levi had stayed behind to work on other skills multiple times and his coach and teammates had just learned to leave the club room open. Levi would leave an extra thirty minutes to an hour later than his companions,
At that training though, with little incentive to break away from that small bubble he had built for himself, not  a lot of things could have broken his concentration. Fifteen minutes into his hurdles exercises, the distraction came. Levi was raising one leg, positioning himself to jump a hurdle when he caught a shadow from his peripherals.
Someone had been watching him in the dark.
He was alone. Or he was supposed to be alone at least.
The combination of those realizations and the exhaustion that threatened to take over Levi only caused Levi to stumble on the hurdle in front of him and fall forward onto cold ground.
âHey! You okay?â
It was that same voice from that same conversation Levi had walked away from just an hour ago. The voice was as loud and as annoying as it was an hour ago that even when his shadow was still a good few meters away, Levi remembered how it felt with her forehead once again pressed on his and her grip on his two hands.
Levi was frozen on the ground, his body still in shock at the sudden loss of control and the whiplash of what he had just imagined. Â
âThat looked painful.â Her voice was softer than it was a second ago. Hange put her hand on his.
Levi pulled away instinctively, and winced as his palms protested the quick action. Levi looked at his palms. In the dim light, he could see three long gashes lined up in the middle. Blood was starting to come out as well.
Levi was exhausted. The impact and the aftermath of falling on the ground, front first and the friction burns that followed, only further drained what was left of his energy.
By the time Hange helped him up by the shoulders  Levi was almost motionless, the small movements he made were carefully calculated for fear of aggravating the dull pain.
âLetâs get you cleaned up.â
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âSorry about a while ago⌠People say Iâm just a little too intimidating  but I just get really excited about these types of things. You had such a good running form. You jump so high. You get a really good height above the hurdles⌠â Hange gave him a consoling look. âExcept that last one.â
Hange was closer to him than what Levi would have preferred at first. Oddly, he had gotten used to it quickly enough, particularly because he had no other choice.
The gashes on his palms were bloody and painful. With little to no means to bandage them himself, he was left to rely on the only person there and as Levi soon found out, she had problems with maintaining a comfortable social distance from people.
And she never stopped talking.
âAre the bandages too tight?â Hange asked, in between other ramblings Levi had tuned out.
ââNo.â The only words Levi had said since they had arrived in the club room fifteen minutes ago.
âOkay, letâs move on to your knees.â
Levi had not surveyed the damage himself but he guessed it was probably worse than his palms from Hangeâs concerned frown.
âYouâre gonna need stitches for this. The clinic probably isnât open so you might have to go to the hospital⌠We could call a taxi and---â
âYouâre a pre-med student, canât you do it yourself?â
Hange blushed. âYou trust me to do it?â
"A trip to the hospital will just be a waste of time." Levi admitted.
Hange rummaged deeper into the first aid kit. "This is gonna be painful though."
Better than taking a trip to the hospital now. Levi braced himself for it and decided to distract himself from the discomfort of the whole ordeal. Â
âHow does it feel? Flying in the sky like that?â Hange asked. At that point, Hange had started to talk more purposefully, as if she wanted to get a point across to him.
Levi guessed that it was all an attempt to distract him from the mini operation she was giving him. From his angle, Levi could not see the extent of the injuries, nor did he want to. The pain was bearable, although it was still much worse than what he would have considered a discomfort.
âIâve always wanted to take a sport like that, maybe gymnastics, maybe figure skating or track and field? Thatâs the closest people can get to flying right?â Hange was asking too many questions but it was obvious she was not expecting answers.
Her words flowed as smoothly as the movement of the needle and thread he could see from his angle.
Something about the way she talked to him was comforting and eventually Levi had almost completely relaxed, the pain of needle to torn skin a distant memory. He lay back on the bench and closed his eyes, focusing not on her words but instead on the familiar warm tone as she spoke.
The sensation of needle to skin, the burning pain, the dizziness that followed. They were all too familiar. All accompanied by that familiar warm voice.
Maybe we should just live here together. Right Levi?
If we keep running and hiding, what will that get us.
Hange's voice tore into his daydream. âWhat do you mean? Are you running from something?"
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Teacherâs Pet- A Spencer Reid Imagine
Spencer Reid x fem! psych major! readerÂ
A/n: Hi guys, Iâve watched 9 seasons of criminal minds in 2 weeks, so expect a lot of criminal minds stuff coming! Also, kind of want to write a part 2 to this so lmk if you would like that!Â
Gif is not mine creds to @toyboxboyâ
Warnings: violence, swearing, mentions of blood and knives
Word count: 2.6k
âThe unsub is likely in a position of power, well respected, maybe even admired. He works with young people, probably a teacher or professor. We need to find him, and fast before he kills another young girl.â Rossi spoke to the room of officers. The room disperses to begin searching for the killer, 4 girls are already dead.Â
âRossi, I think I found the connection between the girls.â Dr. Spencer Reid turning away from the board with the bodies taped to it and a file in his hand. âThey all shared a professor.â
âThey all went to different schools, different majors.â Morgan interjects.
âHe is a professor at multiple universities, and theyâve all taken a psych class at some point, mostly introductory level. He must have connected with them during that time.â Reid continues.
âWho is it, dammit, Reid?â Hotch said.
âA Professor Deslaurier, professor of psychology, which explains why he was hard to find. Heâs one of us. But better than that, I think I know who his next target is.âÂ
*campus cafe around the same time*Â
âIâm not saying that Iâm ready to start dating again, but I would love to see what that baristaâs got going on.â My best friend said grabbing her coffee from the counter, winking at the barista drying mugs.Â
âOh my god, keep it in your pants, you and Garrett just broke up. Like 2 days ago. You were devastated, remember?â I remind her, gently shoving her with my elbow as we sat at a table by the window.
âHis name was Garrett so clearly he isnât that hard to get over. But anyway whatâs up with you relationship wise, any new people?â She presses her lips to her coffee cup, as I pull out my laptop from my bag.
âYou and I both know nothing is happening in that department. School and work is taking up all my time, and I canât help but ruin dates with my charming personality.â I pull up my latest essay for my criminal psychology class, only 5 words on the page: my name, the date, and the class.
âStop going all psych major on people when youâre on a first date or youâll be alone forever.â She rolls her eyes at me as she glances out the window. Her eyes squinting in concentration, so I follow her gaze seeing a group of people in FBI uniforms talking to campus security.Â
âWhat the hell?â I say watching one of them glance around and look at the campus cafe and nod his head in its direction. The agent made his way over to the shop and steps in looking around, scanning like he was looking for someone. Then his eyes land on me.Â
He rushes over to the table, but his face and voice remain calm despite the urgency in his walk. âAre you Y/F/N Y/L/N?âÂ
âYes, I am. Whatâs going on?â I look between the man and Y/B/F/N.
âIâm Dr. Spencer Reid, FBIâs Behavioral Analysis Unit, and Iâm going to need you to come with me.â He flashes his badge as fear washes over my face. âYouâre not in trouble, donât worry.â He smiles as I pack up my stuff, my essay still not begun.Â
I say goodbye to my friend, and leave with the mysterious Doctor. âSo whatâs going on and why do you need me? Or better yet where are we going?â
âGood question, do you have an apartment or dorm of some sort where we can go for a while?â
âYea I have an off campus apartment just up the road. We can spend some time there, but why? Am I like in danger or something?âÂ
âWe have reason to believe youâre the killers next target.â He keeps me close as I guide him to my apartment. These are not the circumstances with which I would prefer to have this beautiful doctor be coming with me to my apartment, but it just be like that sometimes.Â
âWho would want to kill me? Why?â I ask as I approach my apartment door, unlocking it to allow us inside. âAnd what am I supposed to do to stop it?âÂ
âThatâs why Iâm here, to protect you in case he comes to harm you, and itâs Professor Deslaurier who is attacking his brightest female students.âÂ
âHank wouldnât do that. He was so kind,â I pause thinking about everything Iâve learned in my classes, âand Iâm an idiot. He was manipulating me so I would trust him. He knew I was vulnerable and exploited that, and heâs a textbook narcissist.âÂ
âPsych major?â Spencer asks as I sit on my couch with my head in my hands, wrapping my head around the fact that my favourite professor wants to kill me.Â
âYeah, so I should have seen the signs. But I guess being a target is what happens when youâre stupid enough to trust the first teacher who approaches you.â I start crying, this sucks. The doctor, Spencer I think he said his name is, hands me a tissue. I take it graciously, a small smile creeps onto my lips at the gesture.
âItâs not your fault, you couldnât have known he was a crazy serial killer. You were just being a good student, but you said that he approached you?â He sits next to me on the couch letting me lean on him slightly.
âYeah, he came up to me after a lecture, raving about one of my essays and how my perspective was fascinating and came from a personal place. He basically decoded me from an essay. Where is he now?â I pull myself together enough to sit up, seeing the tear stains on his sweater. â Iâm sorry about your sweater.â
âDonât worry about it,â he smiles and looks down at the stains I left. âWe are trying to locate him now and put him away so he canât hurt you or anyone else.âÂ
âSo what am I supposed to do until heâs caught?â
âDo you have anything here to work on? Homework or test to prepare for? Iâm a great study buddy if you need help.â He smiles as if heâs not here to protect me from my crazy killer professor.
âActually I do have a criminal psychology essay due in like 10 hours.âÂ
â10 hours?! Why have you been putting it off? Unless the topic is something uncomfortable to think about?âÂ
âYou said your name was Spencer, right? Is it okay if I call you that?â He nods, still waiting for me to answer the question. âWell, Spencer, the essay is about what would make us snap, or our stressor as you guys call it, and kill people. Like searching through our traumas to see what would be the last straw. Itâs not exactly a pleasant thought.âÂ
Spencer looks into my eyes, deep like heâs reaching for my soul. Heâs trying to profile me, but making it look a lot harder than it is. âYouâve been through a lot before: tough childhood, bad relationships, things like that,â I nod my head averting my eyes âBut none of those things means youâre going to become a killer. Stressors only work if you let them, and Iâve had years of profiling experience and from the short time Iâve known you I can safely say you are incapable of killing someone.âÂ
âHow are you so sure? You barely know me?â I look up from my hands and gaze into his eyes, they are the warmest honey brown color.Â
âYou and I both know you can learn a lot about someone without having to know them for a significant amount of time. I am highly skilled in the area of subtle detections and putting together clues to build personalities from fragments.â
âYeah, Iâm aware. I canât hide anything from you because you already know it, so you are already well aware that I am incredibly attracted to you. I may not be an FBI profiler, but I can tell you like me too.â I put my hands over his, seeing his cheeks flare pink at the gesture. I lean closer to him, feeling his breath on my face.
Until he suddenly pulls back, but it was forceful. He didnât want to, but he had to. I was about to apologize for how inappropriate it was, heâs just doing his job, but he starts before I can talk.
âYour essay is due in 10 hours, more accurately 9 hours 47 minutes and 22 seconds, and you havenât started. Work on your essay, itâll distract you from the current situation.â He stands and paces the room as if trying to come up with the best solution to a problem. I just couldnât tell if the problem was me or the case.Â
I was going to argue with him, but I sighed knowing heâs right. I need to write my essay so I donât fail my class. The screen burns my eyes as I stare at the practically blank screen. The sound of my fingers running across the keyboard fills my small apartment as I figure out my story. I stop for a moment after several minutes of furious typing and look up.
âWhat are some typical stressors of serial killers?â I ask Spencer giving him the opportunity to use his genius brain to help me.Â
After 4 tortuous hours of writing and editing done by Dr. Reid, I hit submit on my essay. I high five the young doctor in celebration, but he catches my hand and intertwines his fingers with mine instead. The air catches in my throat, Iâm speechless. Now itâs my turn to blush at a small gesture. He holds me for a moment, gazes locked on each other. I lean up to meet his lips, but a knock at my door disturbs the quiet of the room. Reid puts a finger to his lips signalling for silence.Â
âY/N open up. I know youâre home.â A voice calls from the hall.
âHank.â I whisper, frightfully looking at Spencer pleading for some direction in the situation. How am I supposed to know what to do when my crazy professor shows up at my apartment to kill me? He nods his head toward the door as he creeps in its direction silently, gun in hand. He looks hot when heâs in agent mode. Wait, not the biggest issue right now, focus Y/N. I stand behind the door, looking over at him and he nods. I open the door slightly. âHey Professor Deslaurier, whatâs up?â He looks distressed and frazzled, but I would too if the fucking FBI was trying to find me for being a serial killer.Â
âIâve been looking for you.âÂ
âUhhhh, Iâve been working on a paper. Do you need something?â I stand close to the door, practically hugging it as if my life depended on it. Reidâs presence behind the door went undetected by my professor since he stepped closer to the door.Â
âThe paper must be amazing, you were always an amazing writer. May I come in?â He wasnât really asking, his foot in the doorframe.Â
âI would rather not, Iâm very busy. Deadlines and all.â I push the door closed, but before I could he shoves his way in. I walk backwards into the open space, consciously making an effort not to let Deslaurier know Reid is there by looking at him, which became incredibly difficult as he came closer to me pushing my back into a wall.Â
âYou were always so intelligent and strong headed, but now, youâre just weak and pathetic. Aww look at the panic in your eyes. You canât think your way out of this one.â He pulls a knife from his pocket and presses the flat side to my neck and I whimper. I squirmed in his grasp and in a moment of panic, I look at Reid. Deslaurierâs gaze follows mine and meets the agent standing in my apartment, gun cocked. Suddenly the cold, hard wall I was pressed against became warm and soft as my killer holds me against him like a shield, a knife to my throat. âWho is this son of a bitch?â
âIâm Dr. Reid with the FBI. Release her, put down the knife.â Spencer points his gun at the floor, knowing he would be unable to get a shot that wouldnât hit me.Â
âOooh, a doctor she chooses smart guys to whore herself out to.â I squirm in his grasp. My neck burns as the sharp edge of the weapon presses into me.Â
âIâm just here to protect her from you. You arenât as clever as you think you are, you know? We caught you. You canât hurt anybody anymore. Drop the knife and let her go. Now. I donât want to hurt you, but I will. Let her go.â
âSpencer, please.â I whisper, tears streaming down my face. Iâm probably going to die, Iâve accepted that. I just donât want Spencer to see me go, I can tell this is killing him. Agent or no agent, this is an awful situation to be put in.Â
âDoes she mean something to you, Doctor? I wouldnât get attached if I were you, sheâll just throw you away like she did to me. Best and brightest in my class, but just another stupid girl outside of it.â If looks could kill, Deslaurier would be dead under Reidâs gaze. His eyes soften when he looks at me, giving me hope. With a sudden rush of adrenaline, I swing my leg back into my captureâs knee, dislocating it in the process. The knife sliced through part of my neck, just barely missing vital veins. Spencer takes his shot as the professor falls to the ground, catching me in his strong arms as I fall forward.Â
âHey, hey, hey look at me. Youâre going to be okay. Everything is going to be fine. Weâre going to take you to the hospital and get you stitched up. Okay? Just keep looking at me.â He holds me as we sit on the floor.Â
âSpencerâŚâ I whisper and everything goes dark.
Beeping and whispers fill the room as I open my eyes. Iâm sitting in a hospital bed, what happened? Why does my head hurt so much?Â
âHey take it easy. Youâre in the hospital, you lost a lot of blood.â Spencer says, standing next to my bed taking my hand.
âWhat happened after I blacked out? How did we get here?â The beeping becomes incessant as my heart races.
âRelax, itâs okay,â He squeezes my hand and the beeping softens, âMy team went to your apartment and took care of Deslaurier, I shot him in the shoulder after you kicked him, which good job by the way, even if it caused you to get hurt. You ended up getting a nasty cut on your neck, but it missed any critical veins.â
âThanks.â I smile looking at our hands.
âYou know you scared me half to death when you lost consciousness.â
âWell, sorry, Iâll try not to almost get murdered by a serial killer next time.â I smirk sarcastically as he laughs stroking my cheek.Â
âYeah, thanks.âÂ
âYou know, we were in the middle of something before being rudely interrupted.â I look up at the gorgeous doctor who happened to save my life.Â
âOh yeah, where were we again?â He smirks, lowering himself closer to my level in the bed.
âRight about here.â I pull him close, kissing his pillow soft lips.
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I was lookin' back to see if she was lookin' back...
Yesterday Alex, Mum and I celebrated...
It's been one year since Alex and I arrived at Mum's place in Ocean Shores, NSW Australia.
If you've read my earlier blogs in 2020, you'll know that we had a lot of trouble getting home. Between the government and airlines, at one point it looked like we'd never get here; we were stranded. I was living in constant worry, stress and hopelessness - in fact, we all were: Alex's family in Germany and Mum's family down under.
Our July 2020 flights were cancelled or rescheduled many times, and eventually we decided to buy new, more expensive flights, on another airline through an agency, which gave us some assurances we'd be on the flight. Our new flights booked and confirmed for early September.
We flew Frankfurt to Adelaide, which was not our original plan. Adelaide had no COVID, and the chance of getting on a flight and getting into the country was higher than say, Brisbane, or Sydney. We could quarantine in Adelaide for 2 weeks and then fly on to Brisbane, which is closer to Ocean Shores.
That was like.... so last year...
This area where we now live is known as the Northern Rivers of New South Wales, and when we arrived at Mum's there was no COVID in the area. We are only about 35 minutes south of the Queensland border, about 8 hours north of the big smoke, Sydney.
Now, a year on, COVID has arrived here.
It's been biting at the heals of tourists and essential workers travelling north since Sydney went into lockdown a couple of months ago.
It's not our idea of a good time.
Right now it's school holidays, which is meant to be 2 weeks of families holidaying in caravan parks and hotels, an essential part of this tourist attraction mecca. Byron Bay, Brunswick Heads, and surrounds are usually very popular places; so popular that most locals complain about how busy it gets here during the holidays. You just can't get a parking sport anywhere!
The Northern Rivers was locked down for about 6 weeks through August into September because cases from Sydney were getting into regional NSW. These regional areas affected by COVID weren't near here, but they made a blanket rule for everywhere outside of Sydney, just to be on the safe side.
Honestly, I don't blame them for the rule, regional outback Australia can't cope with COVID, there's few hospitals, beds, or COVID experience in the scrub and farm land.
Anyhow, I digress...
After those 6 weeks or so in lockdown, they lifted the restrictions here in the northern rivers (and other areas of NSW).
And now, after 2 weeks, lockdown is back on...
There are a couple of cases in the area. Snap lockdowns are the government's preferred method of containing outbreaks. Lockdown areas wherever cases pop up for a week or two (or longer) to limit exposure.
It reminds me constantly that life can change quickly at any time. I have decided I will not waste time once this current lockdown has ended (who knows when that will be). I will visit friends, family, and musicians who live close by. I want to see as many folks as quickly as possible, before another lockdown kicks in.
Besides the boring, never ending tale of COVID, there have been a few things happening this past year...
Alex has been working consistently in the real estate industry since her temporary visa kicked in late last year.
Her first job was a few more miles away than any of us locals would consider driving, and the position wasn't as enjoyable or rewarding as she had first hoped. She really dived in the deep end, and while she didn't drown, she probably needed a few swimming lessons before the attempt. It was a life lesson, one she took on board, and when a new job came up closer to home, she nailed the interview (as she always does), and hasn't looked back.
The 2nd job is less than half the distance away, strictly 9 to 5 and in a company which she enjoys. There's a strong company structure, good work ethic, and entertaining colleagues. Her supervisors, colleagues, and managers are all very supportive; I think she'll be sitting tight on this one for a while.
Alex has also found her creative side again, scrap book journalling, instant camera photography, and some kind of couples diary/journal/photo book too. It's become an almost nightly affair of focusing, creating, and having something to show for it fairly quickly. She's very proud of her work, and it's something she does just for herself. I don't expect you'll get a chance to see a photo of what she's done, and she likes it like that.
I had a bit of work late in 2020 and early 2021, nothing special really, but wait until the premier!! It's interesting to think that some day soon I'll be able to go to the cinema and see my ugly mug on the big screen (even if it will most likely be out of focus). I'll be on Netflix too.
Having the opportunity to be an extra on film and TV was a real boost for my confidence after being off stage for so long. I felt creative, met some great people, made some friends, and had a few bucks in my pocket. Happy days.
By jumping into an industry I hadn't been in before right after arriving here, it reminded me that Australia has a lot to offer. I found myself comparing Germany and Australia, and Australia often feels like it comes up short. This was a chance to prove to myself that there are adventures awaiting here down under.
So, I decided to go back to school.
The last time I was in a class room was in 1998!! I am studying a Diploma of Counselling, and am currently half way through my studies. I've found it very challenging, but have passed every assessment so far, and gained some handy skills too. I have a good connection with my teachers, and I really enjoy the company of my classmates; some of which I can even call friends.
I chose counselling for a few reasons, but the first step was really just a process of elimination. Besides being a freelance professional musician for several years in Germany, I had worked in offices, shops, warehouses, kindergartens and various other jobs. While I could go back into IT or something similar, I wanted to use this opportunity to try something new.
I had my fair share of mental health issues in the past (and present). I thought maybe those experiences could help me connect with folks who need support as well. When looking at course options, the counselling course stood out. So now I'm making a mid life crisis gamble that I'll pass the course, and feel confident and knowledgeable enough to take on the role that many others have taken on for me over the years.
The course has helped me find a routine too, one that I didn't know I needed, until it happened. When you're jobless and unfocused, the mind wanders, the days pass. Now my mind is focused on study, and I feel better for it.
Up until the lockdown hit, we were in class 3 days a week and then I'd study from home 1 to 3 days a week. When lockdown hit, we had to go online. However, being on the computer so much has worn me out, and I really start to enjoy those rare days where I am not looking at a screen!
To be honest, it's been challenging every step of the way, and I even thought about quitting several times in the past few months. However, my confidence has steadily risen to each challenge and I felt better for it.
That's the kind of vicious circle I enjoy.
In July I had my first live show in 13 months! In fact, to date I've only had 3 since the pandemic started! Fingers crossed I can cross the border next month and add a 4th.
I was approached by Cherry Divine to play guitar for her. It's a relatively easy gig for me. The songs are fun rockabilly tunes, Cherry sings great, and she already has a band and gigs. I'm helping her write a few songs too, for her next album. I can't thank her enough for sparkin' the fire in me to keep music alive in my life; for a while there I thought it was all a thing of the past.
With the spark has come the possibility of âThe Joshâ solo band coming together. While the band isn't moving at any great speed (the recent 2nd lockdown kicked in right as I was about to arrange a rehearsal), I'm finally eager to get a band together. I miss playing live, and I miss having musicians in my life. I miss the spontaneity of a show, life on the road, and crowd reactions.
I've even started to write some new material, and get those ideas on âtapeâ, well, on the computer. Slow and steady, between studying, family, pets and surfing, music is coming back into my life, and it feels good.
Our family unit here is doing well. Alex and I have been under mum's roof and mum's care for a year now. There are some ups and downs, but mostly I'd say they're ups... The house is big enough to give all of us space, all of us get time outside of the house (except during lockdown, I was mostly stuck at home, but that's OK for me)...
Last night we couldn't go out for dinner, but we did have take away from the local Indian which was really good, and a special treat for us, we don't eat out often.
Alex and I plan to get away every 5-6 months for a visit to somewhere we haven't been. In March we were on the âSunshine Coastâ and checked out Australia Zoo, and in June we went south to the mid north coast to pick up BB Junior.
It's nice to get out and explore. A bit hard to do at the moment, with the restrictions, but we've agreed another trip away (before Christmas if possible) is in order. Those trips are part of the reason why I came home, to see some of Australia, and I'm lucky I get to make those experiences with Alex.
It's also nice to get away from it all. I know we live in a beautiful spot near the ocean, but here, at home, there's the computers, the life and routine, and getting away keeps us fresh and focused on each other. It's definitely something I look forward to!
Speaking of BB Junior, he's almost 7 months old now, and a real character. While he's not the easiest cat to train, I've been getting a few tricks out of him, and he enjoys his time outside, with his harness and long lead. He visits his cousin each week for play time, Charlie, who is another ragdoll of a family friend who loves to play chase all day long with Junior. Alex adores Junior, and Junior adores Alex; they can't wait to cuddle when she comes home from work. He's very vocal too, so even when everyone is at work, I have someone to talk to!
Losing our little boy Mijo was a real difficult experience. I know I've written about him before, but he deserves a mention here, as he was a big part of our first year here. He was full of character and strength, he and I bonded very quickly and not a day goes by I don't think of him. He also brought Alex and I closer together. When she chose him for me, and when he passed, and all points in between, he brought us closer.
I've been focused on sport a fair bit since getting back and settling in. I bought a RowErg, also known as a rowing machine, and I row about twice a week, in addition to riding my bicycle about twice a week. I try to surf every chance I get, which unfortunately ends up being only a few times a month. It's my goal to do something sporty to get my heart rate up every day, and of late, usually I get there too. I don't really do it for any other reason than I love to snack and I can't snack if I don't do sport!
A benefit of my sport/snack workout routine is it helps me stay calm and focused and connected with those I ride and surf with.
I haven't asked Mum how she's feeling about having her middle aged son and his wife living with her recently. Maybe I should, but do I really wanna know the answer? Well, I think she's OK with it. After all, we drive her wherever she wishes! I suspect it goes a little deeper than that, and in all honesty, we enjoy each other's company.
Since Alex and I have been here, I'd like to think Mum has been living a little bit fuller life. I don't think her eyesight has deteriorated much in the past year, but we've been able to provide her with support, eyes to read the small print, driving and help with google, or something around the house. When Mum was diagnosed with celiac disease earlier this year, Alex took her shopping to check over the ingredients of Mum's favourite food, and when needed, found alternatives. It definitely made the transition to gluten free a little easier on Mum and it was a load off my mind that we were around to help her through that phase.
Winter 2021 was over before it even started. I forgot how warm this part of the world is, and I don't know why I own so many jackets! Returning from Europe, where I was wearing a jacket daily for about 9 months of the year, here it feels like, if it's really needed, and I mean if you're desperate, you might need one for 9 weeks of the year. I think the heater was on a handful of times, and the sun was shining just about every day.
I tell ya, it's some kind of paradise here.
It's been a bit difficult keeping up with our European friends and family. I sometimes find it hard to find the time to be proactive to contact the 20, 30 or more friends I'd like to keep in touch with regularly. I know our lives keep on keepin' on, but time passes by so quickly too, and next thing you know it's been 4 months since I last contacted you!
Sorry about that!
Don't take it personally, and I'll get back to you, eventually!
My overall mental health has improved over the year, I'd say it's become quite stable since I started the course. I mean, can't you tell? I write less and less in this blog, because I have less and less to process. I'm not sure if it's the fact there's a lot of self reflection that is inherently a part of doing that kind of mental health course, or if it's the routine of being a student or the new friends I've made and classmates I study with.
It could be that it's taken a year to come to terms with being back here, cause when I first arrived I felt uncomfortable, depressed and worn out... There were a lot of questions; is this a mid life crisis? What am I doing here? Will I ever feel good again? Is my music career over? What am I going to do now? Is Alex OK? Is Mum OK?
My journalling, blogging, and support from friends and family has helped a lot too this past year. Processing my thoughts in words, by clarifying and reflecting, has helped a lot. I've been trying to care for myself a bit more now and then too, I think people call it self care, sometimes I call it sport! Alex has helped me to recognise my achievements, however big or small, and focus less on what I haven't done.
I'm not perfect, but definitely improving.
I was hoping that Alex and I would be in a position to start looking at buying our own house around this time, a year in, but unfortunately, with one of us being a student and the ever rising cost of housing, we have to sit tight on that idea for a while longer. Sorry Mum, you're stuck with us.
There's been many smaller things happen during our first year here. Lots of moments of gratitude, love and support. There's some stuff we've forgotten, or that has been overtaken by something bigger. All in all, I'd say it's been a real rollercoaster home coming!
We're still here, a year on, still going strong, making motions, taking chances, being in love, talking shit, laughing, smiling, misbehaving and focusing... What more could we ask for?
Thank you for reading, for your support and love. I love you too.
Josh
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Finding the Time to Study Fic 2 [Day 39]
Here is my starting post for todayâs study break stories session. See this post for more details and feel free to send me asks to keep me going! Itâs been a lot of fun so far! I will reblog this post with the story as I write them today. Iâll be constantly looking for ideas of times and places for Janus to have missions, so feel free to send in any you can think of at any point!
If you are a new follower or just donât want all of these posts clogging your dash, please feel free to block the tag âstudy break storiesâ as all posts and voting about it will go there. You can still see the finished product of the story even if you are blocking that tag as I will not tag the edited chapters with âstudy break storiesâ but with the tag âfolds in paper.â See edited chapters below. None edited chapters are under the cut.
My Masterpost Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13Â Part 14Â Part 15
I also have a playlist on youtube (because Spotify didnât have one of the songs I wanted). Itâs short, and not really for serious listening, but I had fun with it.
Alright. Time to get a bit of studying done.
Arc II What We Do to Each Other
Chapter 16:
As it would turn out, Janus and Virgil did not get in trouble for hooking up the old phone to Virgilâs integrator, mostly because it wasnât really a mistake on their part. The phone cleared all virus checks that the tech people both from the university and the TPI ran on it. The phone should have been clean and should not have caused an issue.
In fact, they were still trying to pin down the code on the general university server. They could tell that something was mucking about on the system but what or how was a mystery. This also meant that there was no telling what information had been compromised and considering how many things Silver Mountain had its hands in, that was⌠a bit worrying.
 Another worrying thing was there was suddenly more activity of late at the TPI. There were more time distortions popping up every day. Usually they would be few and far in between. There had been 3 total recorded the year before, but over 12 in the last week. Some of them were fake like the one Janus had investigated, but some of them were real. It painted a distressing picture and also was a drain on their resources. Khalid was actually looking to advertise positions to hire new recruits which was something she rarely did as she liked to keep appointments to the TPI in house.
 Theyâd even loosed the number of field agents needed for each mission and Janus and Remus had been splitting up just to get everything done. Today, he and Remus had thankfully only two missions scheduled for the day.
âAre we going together or separate today?â Janus asked Remus.
âThink theyâll burn me at the stake for being a witch if I go alone to either of them?â Remus asked.
âI donât know. Probably. I think weâre getting a bit late into the 1700s for that in Cuba, but I have no idea about Mesopotamia.â
âLetâs just go together. I did not like almost drowning yesterday because I was the only stranger in town when the weather was going wonky.â
âSurely it isnât because you opened your mouth. Ever.â Janus said dryly.
âHow was I supposed to know he was the local clergymanâs son?â
 Janus rolled his eyes. âOn second thought,â he said, pushing a button on his desk to choose Cuba as he next mission, and standing up. âI donât want you coming with me.â Yet, he did not protest when Remus also signed up for the Cuba mission and he waited for him by the office door before going to talk to Rhi.
Rhi was a bit frazzled when which meant quite a bit as she was usually incredibly put together. Remus didnât even seem inclined to tease her today.
âOkay,â she said once theyâd closed the door behind them. She flipped through some documents on her desk. âPicani and Clockson. Camaguey Cuba 1755. Do you know Cuba?â
 âUh,â Janus said. âYeah?â
âLike youâre reading the things, right? I donât have to babysit you, right? You got it? The Seven Year War was happening, but it wonât affect you much as it hasnât really hit Cuba. Itâs the middle of the Camaguey Carnival. Everyone will be everywhere and there will be chaos so as long as you donât really fuck up you should be fine. UmâŚapparent races.â She looked up at them and studied them each for a moment as thought looking at them for the first time despite having known them for years. âItâll work. Go to costuming.â
âShouldnât weâŚâ Janus said, âsign things?â
 ââŚYep,â she said, fiddling with her desktop and then sending documents over to their side to sign.
Janus and Remus both did before sending them back.
âGreat. Good.â She stood and grabbed some things from behind her. âYou can go.â She sat back down as they took their things and Janus noticed a message pop up on her desk. She looked up at Remus looking exhausted. âWhat?â she asked.
âJust open it,â Remus said.
Rhi tapped it and a photo opened.
âI got her a new mouse toy!â Remus said happily as Rhi looked at the picture of Diesel Fuel attacking a cloth mouse.
âThat is⌠appreciated Agent Clockson,â Rhi said. âNow get out.â
 They did, leaving to get their costumes on and checked. Costuming was just as busy and frazzled as Rhi had been and they actually had to wait for decon because thereâd been a mix up with the agents leaving before them. They landed in Cuba without issue. Janus could already hear the festival in full swing outside the small building theyâd were in. Remy was standing there with a very not time appropriate mug of coffee.
âSue me,â Remy said when Janus raised an eyebrow at it. âPlease just⌠get in and out without causing trouble. Seriously. I donât want to have to deal with that on top of everything else.â
 âWeâll do our best,â Janus assured.
Remy pulled his sunglasses down to look at him. He looked exhausted. âGod please do more than your best.â
Janus nodded tightly. âWeâll be in and out,â he said, already glancing at his timepiece. It had been disguised as a golden bracelet which made it a bit harder to actually use, but wrist watches wouldnât be invented for more than a century, so theyâd have to make do. âThe time distortion, if thatâs what it is, should be in the middle of town. Letâs go.â
He and Remus exited the building onto the packed city street.
 Janus was immediately bombarded with all types of sights, sounds, and smells. There were many colorful articles of clothing and costumes as people went every which way along the street talking to other members of their community, playing instruments, and dancing. There was the sound of people speaking Spanish, still mostly almost pure Castilian Spanish with perhaps a bit of influence from Taino as the Haitian revolution had yet to push the Creole language over to Cuba. People must have been hard at work cooking different dishes for the carnival as many different spices wafted through the air. It was sticky hot considering it was the middle of June in the tropics and Janus was immediately sweating despite the temperature appropriate clothing heâd been outfitted with.
 He glanced around their immediate area, just scoping out the crowds. His eyes were immediately drawn to one person near them.
âOh, youâve got to be kidding me,â he said out loud when he saw Pat. Remus looked in the direction Janus was.
Even if Janus didnât recognize him the moment he laid eyes on him, he probably still would have ended up staring as he was the only person in the area who clearly did not know how to do the dance he was attempting.
Remus snorted and Janus shook his head in secondhand embarrassment. âWell, would you look whose boyfriendâs here,â he said to Janus. Make that firsthand embarrassment. âHas anyone told him the Mambo wasnât invented until the 1900s and also thatâs not how you do it?â
 Chapter 17
Pat stopped dancing the moment he saw Janus approaching him, but he still bobbed cheerfully ( and unrhythmically) to the music. âHi Janus,â he said pleasantly.
âYou just have to rub it in, huh?â
There was a flash of confusion across his face, but then he smiled. âWell, I know where in our relationship you are. How was France?â
âYouâre a bastard.â
âYou stole the phone,â he laughed.
âYou stole the bomb,â Janus countered, âand you wanted me to steal the phone. You booby trapped it.â
âNo,â Pat correct, putting a finger up. âWe have security on my phone because in high school I once forgot it in the school locker room and long story short, the three of us ended up in a lake. So, then Lo made sure I always had some sort of tracker on it. When I started time traveling, he updated it and when I met you we updated it again in case there was ever an opportunity like that. Lo calls it using our weaknesses to our advantage.â
 âHeâs a bastard too,â Janus growled.
Pat just laughed.
âIs someone talking about me?â Remus asked, stepping over to them. Janus rolled his eyes.
âOh,â Pat said, blinking at Janusâs partner for a moment. âRemus.â He hesitated slightly. âHow are you doing?â
âMe?â Remus asked. âUh, Iâm doing good. A little stressed out with work, but fine.â
âGood,â Pat said with just a little too much heartfulness to it.
âWhat?â Janus asked, eyes narrowed at Pat. âWhat is that?â
âWhat is what?â Pat asked. He met Janusâs eyes briefly and it made panic surge up Janusâs spine because the look Pat was sending him wasnât one that said he was playing dumb. It was a warning.
 Oh, Janus did not like this. That look told Janus Pat had some foreknowledge that he absolutely could not tell Janus about without messing up the timeline spectacularly. This was why this mess the two of them were mixed up in was so bad, but it seemed Janus did not have much of a choice when it came to Pat.
Despite how bad of an idea he knew it was, he still wanted to push, because whatever Pat was hiding could be very, very bad and it had to do with Remus. There were so many reasons Pat could be acting like that around Remus, but the worst ones were definitely the ones on his mind. Death, injury, illness. They were all possible especially in their line of work and especially with how time was being screwed with right now. And Pat knew. He knew exactly what the answer was, and oh did Janus want to push.
Experience knowing what worse things could come out of having foreknowledge made Janus bite his tongue.
 âSo, what are you two doing here,â Pat asked, and Janus unhappily let him change the subject.
âOh, like you donât know,â Janus replied.
âI donât know,â Pat said innocently.
âThereâs another time distortion,â Janus said, âand while you didnât know what it was the last time I saw you, Iâm pretty sure you do now.â
âOh, I didnât know there was a time distortion here. I can help you if you like,â he offered sweetly.
âOh, yeah, sure. Then why are you here?â
âI wanted to see if I could find the Flying Dutchman,â Pat told him.
âAnd so you went to Camaguey?â
âUh huh.â
âOne of the farthest places from the ocean in Cuba?â
 âIs it?â
âI donât trust you.â
Pat just shrugged. âWell, if you donât want my help finding the time distortion, Iâll just be on my way then.â
âWait,â he said when Pat went to turn away. Pat paused. Janus turned to Remus. âRemus, do you think heâs bullshitting me so I let him wander off and do whatever the hell heâs doing, or do you think heâs bullshitting me into letting him come with us.â
âHmm,â Remus said, looking Pat up and down. Janus could immediately tell he wasnât going to get any helpful answer. âWell, if weâre going with the how much do I get to see his, admittedly very sexy, ass criteria.â Janus pinched the bridge of his nose. âLetting him leave now means instant gratification and a nice full image when he turns away. However, letting him go with us means many more opportunities to get a glimpse, but theyâd probably just be glimpses. So, yeah thatâs a tough call.â
âYou didnât even bother to give me an actual hidden suggestion with that bullshit,â Janus groaned. He glanced at Pat only to see him hiding his very red face in his hands. Janus blinked. âOh,â he said. âYou got him, Remus.â Janus was surprised. Heâd expected a bit more tenacity for someone with Patâs personality. Of course, Janus was used to Remus, so that perhaps had some effect. Pat made a muffled distressed sound behind his hands and Janus raised an eyebrow. âYou really got him.â
Pat flapped one hand around while still using the other to completely hide his face. âItâs just. His face. Saying that. Is weird.â
 Janus could not say that he didnât feel a slight spark of joy at seeing Pat flustered. After all, Patâs weapon of choice had often been flirting with Janus in the past. However, he still smacked Remus on the shoulder when it looked like he was about to continue with something likely far more inappropriate. âWe are here for a reason,â he reminded. He turned to consider Pat and squinted at him. âYouâre coming with us, Iâve decided. I donât want to let you out of my sights. Donât,â he said empathically turning to Remus as the man opened his mouth once more.
 Pat had mostly recovered, though his cheeks were just a bit pink still. âYeah,â he said. âIâll go with you. Where do we start?â
Janus glanced at his timepiece. âItâs not showing up on our trackers yet.â
âIt messed with your tracker last time,â Pat pointed out.
âI know,â Janus said. âWhich means it could be another fake one or whatever is causing it hasnât started yet. If things start going wrong, but it still doesnât show on our radar, itâs almost certainly a fake one, but some of the fake ones havenât blocked our technology.â
âHere, I can check,â Pat said.
âPlease donât pull out an iPhone,â Janus begged.
 Pat stuck out his tongue at him, and then smiled. He reached for the bracelet on his wrist and twisted it back and forth a few times before pressing his palms together. He glanced around them quickly to make sure no one around them was watching and then peeled apart his palms like he was miming reading a book.
âWhat the fuck is that, and how do I get one?â Remus asked immediately. It was innocuous, whatever it was. If someone from this time caught a glimpse of the display, theyâd likely assume it was a trick of the light, but staring right at it, Janus could tell it was a map of the surrounding areas with a softly glowing blue light marking their current location. Janus could see no screen or origin of a hologram. It looked like the image was drawn onto the manâs palms, but as he watched, the image shifted to zoom out.
 âThere doesnât seem to be anything major yet,â Pat said wiggling his fingers a bit. The display changed slightly to some sort of colorful overlay Janus did not understand. Pat hummed. âDid you two come from that building recently?â he asked nodding at it.
âYes,â Janus replied. âHow do you know?â
âThereâs sometimes a slight temperature change when people time travel,â Pat explained. âI can read it on here.â He tilted his head. âThere also seems to be a big enough temperature change in a church a few blocks away that could indicate time travel. Want to check it out?â
âWe might as well,â Janus agreed.
âAnd if itâs nothing, we can get drunk on the communion wine!â
âHeâs going to get immediately struck by lightning,â Janus said.
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âIf we see anyone,â Janus said as they entered the church. âYou keep your mouth shut. Do you understand me? Remus, do you understand me?â
Remus immediately turned to Pat. âYou know, I didnât grow up Catholic,â he said to Pat who looked at him in confusion. âSo the first time I ever entered a Catholic church, you canât blame me for being a little confused about the whole cabinet thing with a wall between them. After all, everyone was singing about glory to god and what not. So IâŚâ
Janus slapped him. âThis is why you were almost burned at the stake yesterday.â
 âExcuse you,â Remus said, putting his hand over his heart. âI was almost drowned.â
âYou were almost drowned?â Pat asked, his voice seeming legitimately distressed.
Remus shrugged a smile on his face that caused a Pavlovian migraine to start up behind Janusâs eyes. âItâs one of the hazards of the jobs, and really it would have all been worth it if Iâd actually gotten to drown in that manâsâŚâ
âWeâre in a church!â Janus cut him off switching from Spanish to Swahili in the hopes that no random passersby would be able to understand him in this time and place. âDonât talk about lewd sex things. Donât talk about sex at all. Itâs a Catholic church!â
 Remus continued to speak in Spanish with no regard for anything. âBut not talking about lewd sex things takes away 3/4ths of my personality,â he pouted.
âMore like 9/10th,â Janus grumbled, âand the other 1/10th is just normal stupid.â
âHey, you shouldnât be mean,â Pat scolded, in fucking English for some reason, âbut Remus, honey, you probably shouldnât be saying things like that right now.â
âNo, no, he has a point,â Remus said switching to English.
âHeâs my partner, I have the right to call him stupid,â Janus insisted.
âAnd I love you too!â Remus said in Greek because he was really, truly, stupid.
 Pat looked between the two, but then seemed to accept it, dropping the concerned expression for a slightly amused one. âIf you say so.â
âCan I⌠help you?â A voice asked. All three of them whipped around to see a young boy looking at them and seeming very confused. Which was fair considering that to his ears, theyâd just been speaking nonsense.
âWeâre here to pray!â Remus claimed, then he turned to wink at Pat and said under his breath in Swahili, âto that ass.â Pat went immediately bright red again, which was doubtlessly Remusâs aim. Janus subtlety stepped on his foot while smiling at the boy.
 âOh,â the boy said. âOkay.â Thankfully, he didnât seem interested in questioning the random strangers in front of him further. âIâm going to go back to the celebration now.â
Janus smiled at him. âHave fun,â he said. He waited for the boy to leave through the front door before slapping Remus on the back of the head.
âOw!â he whined sounding far too pained for how hard Janus had actually hit him.
Janus rolled his eyes. âLetâs just start investigating,â he said.
âSure, sure, you never let me have any fun,â Remus said, pulling up his wrist and spinning the golden bracelets on his arm. âHmmâŚâ he said.
 âWhat?â asked Pat.
âEither I put on the wrong jewelry this morning⌠or my timepiece isnât working.â
âWell, then Iâm guessing weâre in the right place,â Janus said. He turned to Pat. âYour stuff still working?â
Pat brought up whatever device was on his hands. âYeah,â he said, âand it looks like something is just starting.â Just as he said it, there was a violent crash of thunder.
âWell,â Janus said. âWe should probably find the source and soon. Which way?â
Pat glanced around himself and then motioned with his wrist. Suddenly there was a 3D display of the church in front of them.
 Janus could see immediately where the problem had to originate. There was a swirling mass of some sort of energy centered at the top of the bell tower of the church. As he watched, he saw the picture of the church glitch out a bit. He had a bad feeling about that.
âIs there something wrong with your display?â he asked, or more hoped.
Pat shook his head slowly. âI donât think soâŚâ The room seemed to shift suddenly underneath their feet. It felt a bit like time travel, but also wrong. The picture on the display flickered harder, part of the building fracturing and dissolving before appearing back in place. The room settled after a moment, but Janusâs stomach did not.
 âWhatever is going on,â Janus said, âWe need to stop it right now.â
Pat nodded. âThe quickest way up would be that way,â Pat said pointing. The display closed as he did.
âThen, letâs go,â Janus said.
The world was eerily calm as they all started off in the direction Pat had pointed out. In fact, it was almost too quiet.
âWhereâs the nearest window?â Janus asked when they came out on the second floor.
Pat glanced at his hand. âThere should be a couple a few feet that way.â Janus nodded and left them standing there. When he glanced out of the first window he came to, it appeared to be night. Yet, when he walked to the next window, he saw daylight.
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âTime is fracturing,â Janus informed them. âWe need to be careful.â This time distortion was much more intense than any of the other ones the agency had been tracking down over the last few months. It had also come on much faster. Usually there was some time between when the time distortion began and it started having extreme effects on the environment. He was suddenly very glad that he and Remus had not split up today. He was even glad for Patâs company, no matter how aggravating he may be sometimes. Not to mention, he was glad for the manâs technology that seemed to circumvent whatever was blocking Janus and Remusâs timepieces.
He backed away from the windows and returned to the others.
âWhatever you do,â Janus said. âDonât let anyone be in a room alone.â
âI know what time fractures are this time,â Pat promised.
âIt was as much for the idiot as it was for you,â Janus said.
âYou accidently bring a bubonic plague infested rat to 900BC one time and you never live it down.â
âIâd say I should put a leash on you, but youâd twist it into something disgusting.â
âProbably,â Remus agreed.
âWhere next?â Janus asked, ignoring him.
âThat way,â Pat said.
They walked together to the door heâd indicated. âPlease donât be bullshit,â Janus prayed. He opened the door and immediately got bowled over by a stream of salt water.
 Chapter 19
Janus landed flat on his back, a wave of water splashing over him and then quickly retreating, but still leaving him absolutely drenched. He sighed, looking at the ceiling. âDonât,â he warned, âsay a word.â
Of course, he was with the two most impossible people in all of space and time, so neither of them headed him.
âI thought you said we were far from the ocean, Jan,â Pat said.
âYeah, Janny,â Remus immediately jumped on board because he was an asshole. âI thought we were far from the ocean!â
âMaybe Iâll achieve my goal of finding the Flying Dutchman after all!â
 âOoo ghost pirates! Iâve never gotten to fight ghost pirates before. Any good with a sword Patty?â
âMy friend has a sword and he let me use it before⌠but all I did was cut a hole in our couch, and then Lo was mad at us.â
âI mean⌠just pretend the pirates are a couch and weâll be good!â
Janus slowly sat up. There was still water on the floor and every so often a wave would crash into the room as though the door frame signaled the edge of a beach. Pat reached down to offer him a hand up and Janus slapped it away.
 âRude!â Pat claimed, but his eyes were alight with mischief.
Janus shoved himself to his feet on his own power.
âYou deserve it,â he hissed. âFor all of this!â he waved his arms around.
âWater you talking about. I didnât do anything wrong.â
âYou are on thin ice.â
He looked down at his feet with a contemplative expression. âLooks like water to me.â
âArg!â Janus spat, throwing up his arms.
âI donât sea why youâre screaming, Janus.â
âYeah,â Remus contributed. âYou seem overally emotional to me.â
âYes, yes,â Pat replied. âVery em-ocean-al.â
âOne may even say heâs pretty salty.â
âI know where you live, Remus,â Janus reminded.
 âAlright, alright Remus, reel it in,â Pat said.
Remus opened his mouth to respond, but Janus cut him off. âWhy donât the two of you dedicate all of that brain power to figuring out how to cross the literal ocean in the next room,â Janus suggested hotly.
And it was a literal ocean. If one ignored where they were and the fact that there was a staircase climbing out of said ocean about 80 or so meters away. There was sand being washed up across the door frame and a seagull flying in the distance. At least it looked like a nice day in the room with the way the sun was glinting off the water. At least it wasnât storming there. Yet.
Janusâs head throbbed with the thought of what had to be happening with the time distortion to plop a piece of the ocean into one single room in a church. Usually theyâd be calling the TPI for backup or at least for information, but that was a loss. Even if they tried to get out of range of whatever was disrupting their timepieces, time was so unstable, theyâd very possibly get dumped somewhere dangerous. It was better to just get to the time distortion as quickly as possible and stop it.
 âHmm,â Remus said. âI wonder how deep it is. Do you think there are man eating sharks in the water? Or giant jelly fish? Remember that one time I got stung by a jelly fish and almost died?â
âYes,â Janus said, lips pursed, âand it was entirely your fault.â
âI just looked so squishy!â he declared, âI didnât know it was a murder blob.â
âI think I have a boat,â Pat said.
They both turned to him. âWhat?â Janus asked. He was looking at his hands and just hummed in response to Janusâs question. The next thing he knew, Pat made some motion with his hand and a yellow raft started to autofill from his palm. â...Why?â Janus asked.
âI⌠recently started carrying a wilderness survival pack in my time device.â
 âIâm not going to question it. Itâs better than swimming.â By the time the raft was completely deployed, theyâd all been shoved into the walls by it.
âHuh, on second thought. I probably should have put the raft in the room before blowing it up.â
âYou think?â asked Janus.
Pat glared at him over it. âI never really thought about how to open it in a narrow second floor corridor.â
âJust try to shove it through the door without popping it.â
âWhy are you looking at me?!â asked Remus.
They managed to somehow squeeze the raft through the door into the other room after a few minutes.
 Pat squinted at the tottering raft he was holding to the door frame. âAfter you,â he offered.
Janus glared at him.
âYouâre already soaked!â Pat defended himself.
Janus sighed and very carefully climbed into the raft. It tottered dangerously, but he didnât immediately fall out, so that was a plus. The other two of them slowly also climbed onto the raft with him. They then sat in it for a few seconds. âIs there an oar?â Janus asked.
âOh right!â Pat did something else with the device in his hands and an oar slowly unfolded from his hand.
âSeriously, I want one of those,â Remus said.
 âLetâs just get out of here,â Janus said, snatching the oar. The staircase luckily wasnât too far away. They probably could have swam it if necessary, but the raft gave them some modicum of protection. Everything seemed to be going in their favor, which of course meant everything was about to go incredibly wrong.
They were about halfway across the water when the entire world around them rumbled.
ââŚI hope that was a giant jellyfish,â Remus said.
It was unfortunately not a jellyfish or any sea creature at all. The world around them fractured, the ocean seeming to split right down the middle so the water right of the staircase was 6 feet higher than on the left. The sky flashed red and yellow before the water split completely like Moses splitting the Red Sea.
 There was a millisecond as the split widened until it was only a few feet from them, to decide whether when they landed they wanted to be on the side with the water or on the side without it. On one hand, going towards the side without water could mean they fell to their deaths or the water crashed back down on top of them when it settled. On the other hand, if the fissure was closing or shifting to a new area, it was very possible that theyâd end up trapped in the middle off the ocean with no connection to the church.
 Well, the best chance to actually get to where they were going was probably the side without water. It seemed everyone had the same idea at once because as he grabbed for both of them, they both grabbed for him and they all went tumbling off the raft into what could have very well been a bottomless pit.
Janus learned after a couple of seconds of free fall, that it was definitely not a bottomless pit. He landed hard, flat on his back and saw stars. The next moment something landed on top of him, squeezing all of the air out of his lungs.
 Something else fell half on top of his legs.
âOw,â Pat said from near his ear.
âYeah, well youâre the one on the top,â Janus groaned though his teeth.
âWow, I never took you for a bottom, Janus,â Remus said from near his feet. Janus kicked up his legs into whatever part of him was on top of Janus and he gave an âoof.â
Pat snorted a bit and Janus glared at his⌠shoulder? He shifted around a bit so he was less thrown across Janus and more just on top of him. Janus blinked. There was a wooden ceiling above them, so that was a good sign, though there was also a giant dark hole of nothingness directly above them which was not as good.
 Janus moved slightly. He could tell he was going to be bruised later, but he didnât seem seriously injured. âWe should,â he started, but was interrupted as the hole above them pulsated and dumped a bunch of sea water.
Pat shrieked as they were all drenched with the chilly water. Luckily, they seemed to be on higher ground because, while water kept pouring out of the hole, it drained away just as quickly instead of drowning them.
Water still hitting his back relentlessly, Pat peeled his head up to look Janus in the eyes. A giggle bubbled out of his mouth.
âIt isnât funny,â Janus informed him. Pat just giggled more, leaning his head against Janusâs chest and cackling.
 Janus just rolled his eyes. âYes, yes, this is an entirely appropriate reaction. Thank you for your contribution to our very important mission.â
Pat seemed incapable of stopping laughing completely, but he did calm himself enough to peel himself off Janusâs chest and lean forward so their noses almost touched. âItâs hilarious and you know it,â he claimed.
âIn what way is this âhilariousâ?â
âIn many waves,â was the joy filled answer.
âYouâre horrible.â
Pat hummed. He hadnât moved to get off of him even though they really should be moving in case something worse than water came through the hole in the ceiling. He hadnât even moved his face away.
âNo, no, you two just tell me when youâre done being gay for each other,â Remus interrupted. Janus was surprised to see heâd stood up at some point and was now hovering over them.
 Janus flipped him off even while Pat laughed once again. Pat finally drew away and rolled off of him so Janus could sit up. Pretty much everything hurt when Janus moved, but he was able to stand up, so he was probably fine enough. âSo,â he said looking around. âWhere are we now?â
 Chapter 20
Janus looked around himself while Pat booted up his map to try to figure out where they were. They were in a small room that may actually be considered a large landing as there were staircases on either side of it. The water that was still coming out of the ceiling was running down the staircase that led down from the room.
 Something was stopping the water, creating a pool on the steps that was already about to overflow into the room. With the speed the water was flowing, they should have enough time before the room completely filled up with water and drowned them.
Janus wondered if they were in the church or not. It was not out of the question and there was church like dĂŠcor around them, but who knew? He could feel a strange vibration in the ground and the one window in the room shone with green light.
âHmm,â said Pat. âThat looks not good.â Heâd projected his map so they could all see everything.
 The map itself was moving. Rooms were phasing in and out of focus and fracturing down the middle. One room was even spinning lazily around in circles. Janus could see the room they were in. It was connected to the bigger blob of rooms, and there was a black line connecting it to another room from the top which was obviously the hole spewing water at them.
âWell, at least the time distortion is still coming from the bell tower,â Remus said. Janus shot him an unamused glance. Said bell tower was currently upside down and shuddering as well as divided from any other room by at least two inches of empty space.
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âHow are we supposed to get there?â asked Pat.
âWe donât,â Janus said. âItâs literally impossible.â
âThere has to be some way,â Pat argued with a frown.
âIf we try to use time travel, weâll definitely get shredded by the warping time and space around it and walking there isnât an option. There arenât even any entrances!â
âWell, there were at one point.â
âYeah, before,â he gestured wildly to the ceiling that was still pouring water into the room.
âSo?â Pat asked.
ââSoâ?! What do you mean âsoâ?!â Â
Pat shrugged. âWhen one door closes, cut another one.â
Janus froze and looked at him for a long moment. âWhere the hell did you hear that?â
Patton raised an eyebrow. âYou.â
âI donât think like that anymore.â
âWell then I guess weâll die,â Pat said lightly. âOf course, thatâll make an even worse time loop considering Iâve met older versions of you.â
âFuck,â Janus spat. âFuck. Fine. Give me a minute to think. Not that I even know if we have a minute because,â he gestured once again to the room.
 âOkay,â Janus said. âThe room with the source of the time distortion is separated from us by a swirling pool of dark nothingness and there is no way to get to it. But, the only way weâre going to stop the distortion from ripping apart time and killing us as well as probably a bunch of other people is to get to it. That is an impossible situation. There is no solution. That door is closed to us. What other ways are there to look at it?â He looked at the visual representation of the rooms. One of them suddenly went spinning out and his eyes tracked it. We need to be in the same place as the source,â Janus said. âThat is fact, but we donât have to get to it.â
âUm, what do you mean?â Remus asked. Pat shushed him.
 âIf you want thing A and thing B to be in the same place, thereâs more than one way to do it. If you canât move thing A to thing B, you might be able to move thing B to thing A. Pat, you have a working time device. We canât travel with it because that would kill us, but if we can make it do a stutter warp, it could draw the time distortion to it.â
âYouâŚâ Remus said. âWant to create another time distortion in hopes that the original time distortion will be pulled into this room?â
âYes.â
âWell, sounds good to me!â Remus said.
 He maybe had expected Pat to argue, but he didnât. Instead, he moved his hand to his wrist. There had been nothing there before, but when he touched down on his wrist with two fingers, there was suddenly a metal bound around it that Janus immediately recognized from the times heâd seen Patâs timepiece before. How was it made invisible? He shook the thought off as Pat offered it up wordlessly. Janus took it and Pat leaned over his shoulder to look.
Despite the fact that the device looked nothing like his own, the interface was surprisingly convenient. âI assume you have safety setting to prevent a stutter warp,â Janus said. âHow do I turn those off?â
 Patton pointed at a gear icon on the screen. âYou put it under your normal settings?â he asked.
âI have to put in my password or use my fingerprint!â Pat defended.
âIt doesnât matter right now.â He navigated through the settings. He was interested to see that there were many different saved default security settings, but he didnât get much of a chance to read what all they did. He just turned them all off.â It popped up with a message to put in the password and Pat pressed his fingertip to it. Another message popped up warning them that turning off these settings could cause damage to the machinery, the person using it, and time itself. Janus pushed âokay.â A message popped up that asked âContinueâ and Janus pressed âyes.â One last message popped up that said âSecurity functions disabled.â Janus pressed âokay.â
 âAnything else Iâd need to disable?â
âNope,â Pat confirmed.
He navigated back to the main screen and then bought up the manual travel input screen. Yet another message warning him not to do this flashed and Janus once again ignored it. He copied the space time coordinates that the device said they were currently at and put it in the âtravel toâ location. âWell,â he said. âHere it goes. Let it be known that if I die, itâs my own fault for allowing Remus into a church.â
âReally?â Remus said. âThatâs what youâre choosing to be your last words?â
Janus just raised an eyebrow.
âLove you too Janus.â
Janus nodded and hovered his finger over the travel button. He quickly mashed his finger to the button 22 times.â
 The device warmed in his hand enough that he almost dropped it. Time literally froze for a few breaths as whatever Deity that may or may not exist processed their stupidity.
Janus was not a scientist or technician, but he had a good idea of how badly they were fucking up right now. The timepiece was attempting to travel over and over again to the exact same place and time. This basically punched a small hole through time, that if left unfixed would grow and disrupt space time all around them. As it was, their current position, all gathered around it and staring at it while one of them had it literally in their hand, was perilous.
 There was a rumble under their feet and the world tilted on itâs axis. The all went tumbling down in a pile of limbs to new floor of the room which had once been a wall.
Of course, this change of gravity caused the water that had been building up in the staircase to dump on top of them.
Janus would have cursed, but he was too busy being under the water. He maneuvered himself away from the other two flailing bodies and managed to shove his feet against the wall turned floor. His head popped above the water in time to see the ceiling, or well, it would be the opposite wall, rip in two and the other walls/floor/ceiling start to fold in.
 âGive me a boost!â Pat called over the noise of water rushing and walls crunching.
âGive you a boost where?â Janus asked.
âUp!â Janus wasnât sure if âupâ really existed right now, but he still nodded. The water was a few inches over his head, so he held his breath and interlaced his hands so Pat could put his foot in it. He was shoved down into the water, but it gave Pat enough leverage to shoot up out of the water. When Janus resurfaced, he saw that the man had grabbed ahold of the crumbling wall and was pulling himself up into what for all appearances seemed to be absolutely nothing.
 It took a moment, but then Janus blinked, and he was suddenly in a new room entirely or perhaps it was the same room. He honestly didnât know at this point. Remus was next to him. He couldnât recall if heâd been there before the shift or not, but they were both treading water. Pat crashed into the water next to them. Janusâs wrist buzzed as his timepiece came back online. âGot it!â Pat declared when he resurfaced, holding a device up. It looked almost the same as the device theyâd found in France, but this one was definitely different if it was able to cause that much chaos that quickly.
 Janus looked around and pointed at what appeared to be a set of stairs. The three of them swam over and pulled themselves out of the water.
âWhere are we?â Pat asked.
âLooks like a basement,â Remus replied. âA flooded basement.â
Janus pulled up his timepiece and pushed some buttons to stabilize Patâs timepiece. It slowly stopped vibrating and cooled. âHere,â he said, handing it over to him. âI suggest you put the safeties back on now.â
Pat nodded and took it.
âWeâre still in Cuba,â Remus informed them, looking at his own timepiece. âSame church too, but in the basement and⌠two and a half centuries later.â
âRemy is going to be pissed,â Janus said.
Remus shrugged. âHeâs always pissed⌠at least at me.â
âWell,â said Pat, slipping his timepiece back onto his wrist. âThanks for being willing to pool our resources.â
Janus rolled his eyes. âStop.â
âAh, mi sirenito-â
âI hate you.â
â-never.â He disappeared with a pop which was when Janus realized, heâd never handed over device that had caused the first time distortion.
ââŚYou bastard!â he yelled at thin air as though the man could hear him.
âWell,â said Remus, âthat mission went swimmingly.â Janus reached over and shoved him back into the water.
 Chapter 21
âWe should probably get out of here,â Janus said, very much not helping Remus out of the water. Remus pulled himself back up onto the staircase and shook like a dog. Janus crinkled his nose as water droplets hit him. They didnât smell salty anymore, he noted. In fact, there was a broken pipe spewing out water on the other side of the room.
Janus and Remus cautiously snuck out of the church, not wanting to be seen and blamed for the flooded basement. They came out on a city street that was much different than the one theyâd entered from.
 They walked down the street a bit, Janusâs eyes scanning the buildings. His eyes caught on a sign and he tugged Remus towards it.
They entered the small paladare and the person delivering food to one of the tables blinked at them both. Right. They were in clothing from the 1700s and were soaking wet. He met eyes with the woman, challenging her to say something. She did not.
They found a seat at one of the tables.
âAhâŚâ the worker said, approaching them. âEnglish?â
âRon,â Janus said, âpor favor.â
Remus turned and started ordering the both of them food in Spanish. Janus didnât pay attention to what he did.
 After his second shot of rum, Janus sighed and brought up his timepiece to ping the TPI. The reaction was almost instantaneous from their perspective. Remy all but kicked down the restaurantâs door and walked over to them. âHow the fuck?â
âAh, Remy,â Janus said calmly. âHave a seat. Weâre waiting on our food.â
He did, but probably only because people were looking at them. âWhat are you doing here?â
âItâs been a long day,â Janus answered, âand Iâm hungry.â
âYeah, it certainly looks like youâre interested in the food,â Remy said, eyeing the empty shot glasses.
âLetâs just say, Iâm glad Cuba started letting paladares legally serve liquor a few years ago.â
 Itâs clear that Remy wanted to ask them what had happened, but he also was cautious enough not to make a scene here and Janus wasnât planning on getting up until heâd at least gotten his food. âWhy are you soaked, by the way?â
âTurns out the ocean isnât as far away as we thought,â Janus said.
âAlso, a church basement is flooded,â Remus said.
âFantastic,â Remy replied.
They sat there mostly in tense silence until their food came, and then Remus and Janus ate. Remy slapped down some pesos once they were done and then proceeded to all but physically drag them out of the restaurant.
 They were led to an alley way and then through an old almost hidden door. Remy immediately rounded on them. âWhat the hell happened?â Remy asked.
âThe time distortion caused level 5 time fractures in its vicinity, we almost drowned three times, and the worst person in the universe fucked me over again.â
âTo be fair,â Remus said. âHe did save our lives before that.â
âI saved our lives first,â Janus said. âI donât have to be fair.â
âOh, yeah, Mr. Curl Up In A Ball And Perish. Iâm sure we would have been fine without him.â
âAnyway,â Janus said to Remy. âIf you want your lump of flesh, I suggest you take it now, because Khalid is going to murder me, and then fire me, and then rehire me so she can put me on desk duty and make me do paperwork until the end of time.â
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Favorite Royalty AUs
1. Taking Back the Reigns. King Victor Nikiforov was King in name only. A puppet of Parliament - alone, orphaned, and ostrazcized, he floundered through life with no direction and no one to share it with.
With his country teetering on the brink of WWIII, Victor must shed his playboy image and battle a generations-old political party to seize his rightful power from a corrupt Parliament. Finding himself in a morass of treason, violence and dirty secrets,Victor comes to terms with the past and finds a way forward.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/15640674/chapters/36323028
2. The Dragon Prince and the Winter Swan. Yuuri Stark is a noble son of the north, returning to Winterfell in disgrace after the latest disappointment in his checkered tourney career. He hasn't given up his dream of becoming a knight, but maybe it's time to find himself a new path, settling down at home.
Prince Victor Targaryen is the greatest swordsman in Westeros, but he no longer finds joy in competition. Things are uneasy in King's Landing, where politics are shifting and dangerous, and he seizes the chance to escape north in search of the young man who came so close to beating him in a tourney last year â and was so beguiling at the banquet afterwards.
Together they begin a journey to the great tourney of Harrenhal, with intrigue, honor, friendship and love along the way...and inevitable political conflict ahead.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/11951052/chapters/27019995
3. Through the Eyes of a King. âHe was the first Japanese man that I saw in my life. At first glance, he seemed ordinary in appearance, the kind of man one easily overlooked in a crowd. But in his eyes lay passion, and the force of an oncoming storm, revealing the force of nature that he was. A man not to mess with, but to admire.
âThese words, written in the diary of the young man that would one day become king of Russia, had burnt their way into the hearts and memories of the people, Russian and Japanese alike. For Katsuki Yuuri had never thought that he would ever leave his home behind. Called to a foreign court to become the teacher of the crown prince, Yuuri soon finds himself in the midst of a world so very different from his own - and in it King Victor the Divine that tolerates no dissent.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/18791056/chapters/44583775
4. The Rules For Lovers. Prince Yuuri Katsuki has a duty to his country, above all else (his desires, his dreams, and his happiness included), and he knows this alliance will help to ensure the safety of his people. Thatâs the only reason he accepts Prince Nikiforovâs hand in marriage. The pleasant surprise, of course, is the part where they fall in love along the way. The unpleasant one, wellâŚ
https://archiveofourown.org/works/9645131/chapters/21790376
5. when it lasts. Itâs been three years since King Victor fell fast and hard for his Yuuri in the sleepy, seaside town of Hasetsu, and the time has finally come to pop that ever important question. However, asking Yuuri to marry him is easier said than done, especially when all the forces of the universe seem to be working against him. Will King Victor be able to overcome the obstacles in his way and make his beloved his betrothed, or will he be crushed by the powers that be?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/14707139/chapters/33987668
6. The Elusive Vermilion Rose. As the revolution builds in Larussia, a masked vigilante appears to whisk those destined for execution to safety. Not about to have his plans ruined, the king gives his two sons an offer they canât refuse: discover this masked manâs identity if you wish to be heir to the throne.
The youngest prince knows this is his only chance at the throne, while the older prince, Victor, finds himself caught in the middle; as his curiosity about the elusive Eros dances ever closer to affection.
Meanwhile Yuuri Katsuki, a tailor from the neighboring country of Yamato, has been traveling back and forth more than usual... clearly because of the nobility clamoring to have the emperorâs own tailor make their clothes. And Yuuri and his three friends definitely donât have anything to do with the so-called masked vigilantes in the Society of the Vermilion Rose. Nope, not at all.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/16158239/chapters/37754681
7. Chrysanthemum Petals. Yuuri Katsuki woke up one day to receive a fancy letter to tea; from his absentee father. That one moment changed his life from just being Yuuri Katsuki, sleep deprived, awkward high school student to Yuuri, Crown Prince of Japan.
Hesitant to become Heir Apparent to the Chrysanthemum Throne, Yuuri will find reason to abandon all sensibilities in the most charming Duke of Kent.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/14453952/chapters/33389637
8. And A Shimmer Takes My Eye. Walking through the streets of New York, Yuuri balances the phone call on his bluetooth headphones alongside errands for his day off. âI donât know, ChrisâÂ
âYouâve been alone too long, schatzi, his friend chides him. Chris met Yuuri when he was in the costume department at the Met, but since he got a coveted position at the Paris Opera, they can only FaceTime or cross an ocean for quality friend time. Orfeo closes soon, heâll be in New York for business⌠at least enjoy a glass of something beautiful while exchanging a bit of small talk, yeah?
Yuuri enters the cake shop, walking past case after case of treats and pastries. A lovely cassis and white chocolate mousse cake catches his eye, and his conversation lags as he contemplates purchasing it as a gift to his cast mates for their final bow in a week. âWell. Before I grudgingly agreeâ
âThatâs the spirit, Chris jokes.
âIs he at least⌠nice?â Yuuri asks.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/18991204/chapters/45095746
9. King in Disguise. Yuuri is a low-ranked Ability User with a useless power, considered one of the weakest in the Terra Stellata â the institute to unlock a Userâs true potential. But what lies beneath his power was an unfathomable amount of strength unseen by the eyes of others. He dreamed to fight alongside his idol; Victor Nikiforov, one of the strongest Ability Users in existence. He finds Victor willing to protect him at whatever cost.
Will Yuuri ever discover the true worth hidden within him?
Yuuri -- "I've admired you since I was little. You are my hero and will always be." Victor -- "I will always protect you no matter what it takes. If you are my king - then I'll be your knight.
"In a world where demons freely roamed, humans were bestowed with powers beyond imagination - when things went out of control, destiny awaited for a slumbering king to claim his throne.
(Magical/Superpower Fantasy AU taking place in the modern times)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/13525623/chapters/31026489
10. moods, states of grace, & elegies. Victor Nikiforov has traveled far and wide in the company of trader Christophe Giacometti on the silk roads to arrive at Hasetsu, capital of the Great Nihon Empire. He expects to stay a winter, until the seasons change again, and fairer weather and the changing of seasons can return him to his wanderlust.He does not expect to fall in love with the Crown Prince.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/14632119/chapters/33817776#workskin
11. in my head, in my heart, in my soul. Â Drawn into a conflict outside of his responsibility, Victor Nikiforov, the greatest general of the age, appears to have met his match in the shy Prince of Japan who surrenders on the fields of Goryeo.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/15994100
12. Victor the Great. Â At the age of nine Victor became the Tsar of all the Russias with Lilia as regent. One day he will be the sole ruler of Russia, the man who makes all the decisions and gets to do what he wants, with one exception: he has to marry a woman from a Russian aristocratic family. Except that he falls in love with a boy who is a foreign commoner. Will he risk the throne to be able to marry the one he loves?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/12740541/chapters/29055912
13. Our Love will Always Prevail. Almost 10 years ago, Lord Yuuri of the house Katsuki was taken as a ward of the house Nikiforov. A romance blossomed between him and the eldest heir of the house, Viktor Nikiforov. But the path to happiness is not always an easy one, Yuuri and Viktor will have to fight hard to obtain the happy ending they both desperately wish.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/14636100/chapters/33828141
14. Chosen Path. To end a century long struggle between Rus and Nihon the two Imperial families have come to a possible treaty. The only catch, the Emperor of Nihon wants the oldest Son of Rus to marry one of his retinue when he comes to Rus to sign the papers. Victor as oldest of 11 is not looking forward to getting a wife. So together with his siblings, parents, and the help of all his cousins and Palace staff, he sets out to get the one from the retinue he wants. Katsuki Yuuri never thought he stood a chance.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/16161911/chapters/37763492
15. Le soleil est près de moi. The prince moves across the grounds in robes the same shades as sapphires. He walks astride the King, not behind, as he proudly conducts the tour of the incredible grounds with ease. An austere woman follows at a respectful pace in gray and violet. She and the prince both have wide fabric belts in contrasting colors tied at their waists, and the princeâs ebony hair is styled similarly to his companionâs, though hers is vastly more complex.
âHeâs quite comely up close,â Christophe continues with a wicked grin. âThough he seems a touch aloof in humor. Perhaps if I treat him to a little wine, a little of my solitary attentionâ
âVictor gives him a startled look. âNo,â he manages, his eyes immediately locking back onto the prince. âNotâŚnot this one, Christophe.â
https://archiveofourown.org/works/17486264
16. Serendipity. Yuuri never imagined himself to be anything other than ordinary, but a visit from his mysterious Aunt Minako leaves him dealing with his apparently royal destiny. With it comes many trials and tribulations, and love in the way Yuuri least expects it.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/18212267/chapters/43084823
17. Fires. Victor and Yuuri are kings that govern RossĂya. They try to demonstrate, at the slightest opportunity, the love and devotion they feel for each other.
However, although almost the entire kingdom is happy and pleased by this marriage that ended with years of war against Hasetsu, Christophe, advisor of his majesty, doesn't welcome the constant trips the king makes to his homeland, for what is more than willing to discover what Yuuri hides behind them.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/20826122/chapters/49507334
17. Interpersonal Diplomacy. For the sake of ending a centennial war and protecting the lives of his family and people, Prince Imperial Yuuri of Shanjia makes an unexpected sacrifice, placing his life in the hands of King Viktor of Nova. For the survival of their nations' fledgling peace, Yuuri must live on Novan soil alone, surrounded by people his nation just recently considered enemies, and tied to their monarch by the bonds of diplomacy.
However, Yuuri will also find allies, individuals willing to welcome the peace-loving regardless of past history. If Yuuri is to carve a home in this foreign nation, he must earn the trust of the war-weary Novan people.
And in time, Yuuri may find himself drawing closer to the sympathetic but enigmatic King Viktor.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/16072742/chapters/37529747
18. Love Is Beautiful Fear. To become King, Prince Victor has to hold a Selection, to find a man or woman to marry. Yuuri is selected, but will his anxiety keep him from winning Victor's heart?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/9094546
19. love like fools. When Crown Prince Yuuri of Japan escapes his army of minders at his Saint Petersburg hotel, he thinks heâs found the opportunity to explore the city as a commoner.
When investigative journalist Viktor Nikiforov discovers the Crown Prince of Japan on a park bench in Saint Petersburg, he thinks that heâs found his ticket to redemption at the magazine he writes for.
But like the stories of those stranded during the White Nights after the bridges go up, neither of them had anticipated falling in love. (Roman Holiday AU)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/12039732/chapters/27258912
20. Like Magic Woven Through Me. Victor was quiet about it of course, but his love for the Prince had burned bright in his chest ever since he first met him, years before, when Yuuri was just twenty and Victor twenty-four. From the moment Victor had seen the Prince, he knew he was in trouble. Raven hair, big expressive eyes, smooth skin and cherry pink lips. But above all that was Yuuriâs unending kindness, how funny he could be when he let his guard down, his intelligent conversation, the way he used magic like he was dancing. How could Victor not love him?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/21977671
21. On My Life, Love. When Prince Yuuri and Prince Victor were children, they secretly got engaged. Alas, their friendship soon fell apart.
After 14 years of separation, Victor asks Yuuri for his hand in marriage, for it turns out that his childhood promise was a magically binding oath, and now his only options are to marry Yuuri or to remain unwed forever, lest he forfeit his life.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/11844423/chapters/26738385
22. if there's a will, there's a way. Two neighbouring countries in a state of tentative peace. Two royal families trying to protect their own people. And only one thing that can save them all from the war that is knocking on their door â a royal union that will cement loyalty, breed forgiveness and maybe somehow fix things.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/12506060/chapters/28473052
23. And all at once, you are the one I have been waiting for. âThe law clearly states that the regent shall have a mate. It is widely known that being mated keeps oneâs head clearer, brings joy and strengthens relations, both in oneâs professional and personal life. Since I do not have a mate, nor do I have anyone in my life as of right now that I would want to spend my life with in that way, I have chosen to evoke the âCatarina praxi. âLilia will give out the specific details how it will be conducted, but it will be a nationwide search for a mate for me and will require scent samples. As those of you who are familiar with the praxi knows, this means that all omegas that fall into the chosen group are prohibited from entering a mateship until an engagement between me and a chosen omega has been announced. This results in that all unmated omegas from the age of eighteen to twenty eight are now legally arranged to be mated to me, until an official engagement has been made."
The Nicholai Hall explodes with questions from the reporters as Lilia steps up to the microphone, while Yuuri keeps completely still, eyes wide and mouth hanging open, heart pounding in his chest.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/19727131/chapters/46687906
#Yuri on ice#YOI#yoi fanfic#yoi fic#yoi aus#yuuri katsuki#yuri katsuki#Viktor Nikiforov#victor nikiforov#yuuri x victor#viktor x yuuri#victuri#viktuuri#victuuri#yuri plisetsky#yurio#otabek altin#georgi popovich#mila babicheva#minako okukawa#minami kenjirou#hiroko katsuki#toshiya katsuki#mari katsuki#guang hong ji#leo de la iglesia#yakov feltsman#phichit chulanont#christophe giacometti#sara crispino
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where ignorance is bliss - chapter 5: beside your pillow
SUMMARY: Maria and Howard fly out of Monaco and continue to get to know each other abroad. [AO3 LINK]
CHAPTERS: 1 2 3 4 [5] 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 â
November 21, 1959 â Nice, France, Nice Cote dâAzur Airport
My bags packed silently that night, I board a flight in first class next to Howard bright and early the next morning. I had left Obadiahâs ring on the empty pillow beside him as he continued to sleep, and I was content to never think of him again. I did not realize what I was becoming, or even know the word for it, but a girl my age should not be traveling across Europe with a man Howardâs age, thinking nothing of prior engagements.
We had taken one of Howardâs private helicopters from Monaco to Nice, France, and from Nice to who-knows-where. Howard wants to surprise me, and, on the plane, I write a letter to my parents explaining that Iâll be missing Thanksgiving. The letter probably wonât get there in time from France, but Iâll be able to make it up to them at Christmas.
It feels like every flight attendantâs head turns to look at Howard as they stroll up and down the aisles, looking right past me to him to meet every one of his potential needs, recognizing him from last monthâs Vogue cover. Heâs probably the most-attended-to passenger on the flight, offered refill after refill on his champagne. He ends up handing every other glass over to me.
I donât know what face I was making, but when Howard sees it, he leans into me, whispering reassuringly. âThey only like the idea of me. They only know the Howard Stark who does magazine spreads, not the kind you philosophize on rooftops with.â
âYou never did tell me your opinion on natalism.â I smile into my champagne flute and sit up a little in my chair. The cushions in first class are so soft I feel like Iâm being swallowed whole.
âAnother time. We donât want to run out of things to talk about. What are your thoughts on arc reactors?â
âLet me get back to you on that,â I laugh, perhaps a bit too loud, and the couple across the aisle turn their heads sharply at us. I donât particularly mind. Howard decides to explain the reactor to me anyway, how itâs theoretical clean energy that will change the world, and itâs important to get in the hands of people who need it, and how it shouldnât be weaponized. The policies and protocols go over my head, but I enjoy watching him ramble. His hands move excitedly, and I feel held in his warm eyes. If this is what falling in love feels like, I donât think Iâll mind it at all.
After a few quick minutes, he pauses. âYou didnât get any of that, did you?â he asks, almost sheepishly, an awkward smile on his face. His arms fall to his sides, and he fiddles with the seatbelt.
I reach out and take one of his hands in mine. âTruthfully, I didnât understand a lick of it, but Iâm sure Iâll come to understand it someday. I rather enjoy your ramblings, however.â
The rest of the flight goes on incredibly quickly, us jumping from conversation topic to the other faster than the speed of sound (which, as Howard tells me, is faster than light). Howardâs presence is almost intoxicating, but more akin to nicotine than alcohol. I feel alert and present with him, engaged. I donât feel talked down to or stupid for not knowing what a quark is.
Howard doesnât tell me where weâve landed until we leave the airport terminal, and itâs there Iâm accosted by green, red, and white flags and touristy trinkets, and mini Tower of Pisaâs everywhere.
âRome?â I turn to him.
âCarbonell is Italian, right? Meeting you reminded me that I have been to Rome in a while. It always makes me feel refreshed.â
âAnd I take it you know all the best places to visit?â
âOf course, doll. Who do you think youâre traveling with?â
-
By the time the trip is over, I canât remember all the places we saw, or where we took photographs, where we dined, where we shopped, or who we met. He paid for everything, separate hotel rooms, extra dessert, dresses he caught me gazing at as we strolled past window displays, and shipping them back to Peggyâs place. Every moment is like a dream, and I never stopp to think it might be too good to be true. I donât want it to end, but, realistically, I know it must, like all good things.
He waits in my hotel room for me to gather my things and repack my suitcase. As I fold my dresses, something falls to the floor.
âIâll get it,â Howard jumps up and hands it to me; itâs one of Obadiahâs ties. He looks at it quizzically but doesnât ask.
âEmergency tie. He often forgets. Canât have the boss looking bad in meetings.â I take it away without looking at him. Howard looks content at my answer and sits back down on the edge of the bed, but a pit is forming in my gut. I havenât thought of Obadiah the last five days, drowning in Howardâs attention. But what of my job at Stane International? Do I assume that Iâm fired? And my things at his place? I had never completely moved in, cycling between his place and my parentsâ, but thereâs enough there that Iâd miss. I canât knock on the door, look at his face, and demand back my things. Can I? I donât notice Iâm wringing the tie between my fists until Howard takes my hands in his.
âWhatâs wrong, doll?â
My breath catches in my ribs. âI havenât been completely honest with you, Howard.â I drop the tie into my suitcase and sit next to him. âObadiah wasnât just a work partner, nor just my boss. He⌠I suppose we were engaged.â
Howard stiffens, his shoulders tensing, but his voice is soft. âHow do you only suppose something like that?â
âI donât even remember him proposing, it was just something that happened because itâs something you do. You say yes when a nice man proposes to you, even if you donât love him.â
âI donât think thatâs fair, to you or to him â or to any man smitten with you â to get engaged to be married to a man you donât love.â He doesnât look at me when I glance at him over my shoulder.
Tears fall from my eyes, and I let them sit on my face. âIâm sorry that I deceived you, I⌠I donât know what came over me. Iâm not a liar by nature. I do know that Iâve felt more with you this last week than I ever did with him.â
âFeel more what?â
âFeel anything.â
âHe didnât make you feel anything? And how long were you with him?â
âBarely ten months.â
He gently wipes the tears off my cheeks with the pads of his thumbs, peering up at me with softness in his face. âTen months. Hell, if I were with you ten months, doll, Iâd have married you four months ago.â He pauses. âI take it you didnât say anything before you left.â
The tears pour out now, and I hide my face between my hands, the guilt overwhelming me. âI left the ring on his pillow like a damn coward.â
Howard places an arm around me and pulls me into his shoulder. âYou know, I think we have an open lead accountant position available at Stark Industries. In case your job at Stane is compromised.â
I sit up, leaving wet mascara butterflies on his starch-white button-down. âAre you sure? You donât have to do that.â
âI donât have to do anything. I own the damn company. My investors donât control me.â
âI donât think thatâd be fair to the other applicants.â
âThere are no other applicants. The job just opened up two seconds ago.â
âCan I at least submit an application? Resume, cover letter, formal interview?â
Howard turns to me. âLetâs interview right now. Are you good at accounting? It says here you went to Columbia Business School, is that right?â He taps at an invisible paper in front of him.
I laugh, smiling, the apples of my cheeks rising and pushing the new tears down the sides of my face. âYes, and yes. I graduated with honors, even.â
âHell, thatâs good enough for me, doll.â Howard sticks his hand out to me. âYouâre hired.â
I pause before I accept his handshake, thinking over my next move. In one motion, I take his hand, using it to pull myself closer to him, reaching out my free hand to cup the side of his face, and I kiss him. I kiss him more deeply and more earnestly than any other kiss in my life. He reacts quickly, placing his hands on my hips, then to my shoulders, to my face, he canât decide where he wants to touch me. My hands shuffle from his chest, to his neck, to his hair; I tug on his tie because I canât get close enough to him. My tears transfer from my face to his, my lipstick from my mouth to his, I donât know what the difference is anymore; I just want him. His movements feel restrained, almost overwhelmingly gentle, never touching me firmly like the way I want him to.
My body betrays the restrictions of our culture, and my tongue darts out from my lips and grazes his. He jolts straight up, hesitating for the faintest moment before granting me passage. When our tongues collide, his restraints break. He grabs my thigh, tightening his grip on my waist, pulling me in âtil our chests touch, and I can feel his strength through the layers of fabric of my skirt. I inch forward onto his lap to kiss him deeper, my hips starting to grind on their own in an unfamiliar way. I feel desired, for the first time, and I feel warm in places Iâve never felt warm before. And the only thing I know is that I want him in ways Iâve never wanted anything, or anyone, before. The dance between our mouths elicits a moan from my lips, and I sit back, embarrassed.
I catch my reflection over Howardâs shoulder, not recognizing the woman straddling him, with runny mascara, smeared lipstick, and messy hair. I freeze and cover my mouth.
âTell me what you want, doll,â he says hoarsely, pupils wide and lips swollen. He cradles one side of my face in his hand to look into my eyes, his thumb brushing away tears. âIf you want to stop, weâll stop. If you want to stay right here, we can do that, too. Whatever you want.â
I take a deep breath. Not breaking eye contact, I put my hand on top of his â the one still gripping my thigh â and guide it underneath my dress.
âI know what I want, Howard.â
One side of his face pulls into a dopey half-smile, still partially stunned, piecing together whatâs happening.
âYouâll have to use your words, doll.â
I never thought I would be the kind of girl to sleep with a man before marriage, having been raised in a Catholic family and all its associated guilt. I didnât have enough time to let the guilt fester, however, seeing as, right after Rome, Howard and I flew to Las Vegas and were married the next week, and the week after that moving into his mansion in Manhattan.
#where ignorance is bliss#wiib reading#tony stark#iron man#marvel#fanfiction#canary writes a fanfiction
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A tall order | Solo
Layla searched for her old claim forms which she hadnât looked at in ages. Seeing them was painful enough, but knowing sheâd be breaking these rules made it even worse.
1- Â First and foremost, Layla will address the faculty, staff, masters and mistresses respectfully, using the proper terms dictated by the schoolâs norms.
The first rule was challenging as Layla didnât want to be beaten for it. With that in mind she chose Jody. When he came home from work she was a bit rude to him, acting a bit childish as she tried to pick a fight. All the while her phone sat unlocked and opened to the message sheâd been sent. It took a bit longer than Layla had hoped but eventually Jody saw it.Â
When he questioned her on it, Layla felt able to drop the act. She told Jody all about her lofty task. At least he would understand if saw or heard any of the odd behaviour she might begin for this command.
2- Â She may bring any clothing and/or personal belongings that she considers essential but I will provide her with a whole new wardrobe more suiting to my taste. She will also sleep in my bed, unless she has done something to not deserve such privilege.
Some tasks were already being completed by the nature of their break up. Layla hadnât slept in Jasonâs bed for a year now and so every night this rule was broken.
3- Â She is allowed to walk freely around campus grounds but will make her whereabouts known to me at all times, otherwise, the spell will alert me. She must be at home for dinner and always before 10pm, unless she is out with me.
Again, this rule too was broken with every text that Layla sent Jody instead of Jason about her plans and whereabouts. Sheâd broken Jasonâs 10pm curfew over 365 times now.
4- She will do her best in her studies and inquire me first before accepting any jobs or seeking employment anywhere.
Layla set to work on a resume. She had no job experience so there wasnât much to write but she handed in her single paper to a few places in the hopes of securing a job. Sheâd been toying with the idea lately as she wanted to be a bit more independent and having her own money was a good step. However she was limited to asking for beginning positions that she should have had as a teenager if sheâd had anything close to a normal childhood.
5- She is not to abuse alcohol or any other substances.
This rule was laughable as sheâd broken it for a large portion of the last year. A summer of wild parties. It had been a while since sheâd indulged like that but this time around, Layla had some preplanning in place.Â
To begin with, Jody was told where sheâd be and what sheâd be doing. She arranged for transportation home and even prepared herself a sandwich, set out water and even some Tylenol on her bedside for the morning. She picked a bar fairly close to her home and went out for her rule breaking.Â
Though sheâd have preferred a few less drinks, the night was an overall enjoyable experience. Layla had forgotten how fun the atmosphere of a nightclub could be. Perhaps sheâd find a reason to go back to the nightclub life she enjoyed, albeit with much less drinking that before.
Layla returned home as expected, she ate her food and made it to bed with only one bruise from a tumble just outside the house. In the morning her hangover was easily managed and she happily considered this rule broken... again.
6- Â Due to her being under my claim, no master or mistress can touch, compel or feed from her unless permission is granted from me.
This rule had been broken with few of the events this week, beginning with sitting in a masterâs lap to flirt. Jace had most certainly not given permission for that.
7- She is to help me with the cleaning and the cooking in the measure that is possible and will do everything I ask of her, including looking after my pet.
Another broken by the virtue of Layla not living with Jace. She hadnât assisted in cleaning in quite some time.
8- She will treat all my guests with respect and ensure they have everything they wish for to make their stay as pleasant as possible. And, if she wishes to invite friends over, she must notify me first and await my approval.
Nor had she taken care of any of his guests.Â
9- Â In the unlikely case that she cannot travel with me, she will stay with a master or mistress of my choosing and treat them the same way she is to treat me.
He hadnât even chosen Jody when Layla left their home. Sheâd decided on asking the guidance counsellor herself. Jace didnât even know where sheâd gone to when sheâd packed her things.Â
10- Additionally, it is mandatory that Layla puts as much distance between herself and Peter Nowak as she can. She will not address him unless strictly necessary and will do her best to avoid any contact with him. If contact happens, I will be notified immediately.
This rule seemed impossible to break. How could she address him when he was dead to the best of her knowledge.Â
âDeath hardly means anything for witches like us,â she remembered her Aunt Arabora used to say. Laylaâs eyes widened as she felt the spell taking actions. Her body gathered the necessary components and began walking. To where? Layla had no idea, but she was hardly as worried about the where as she was about the stunt she was about to pull.
It was an act of idiocy she could not stop.Â
11- Layla will willingly comply with any further rules that I come up with and be honest at all times. No lies.
Layla had to think on this one. She wanted to lie in a way that wouldnât hurt Jace. Something small and unimportant.
[text] Layla: This whole texting orders week has been weird. Iâm glad I didnât get any sent to me.
A lie and one he likely would doubt, but that was the idea. Heâd either believe her and think sheâd been spared, or he would question her and sheâd admit to her lie. Either way the results would not be disastrous.Â
12- If any or multiple of the above rules are broken, I will punish her as I see fit.
At the end of the list, Layla realized just how much of a right Jace had to punish her in the eyes of the island. The weight of their choices to live apart settled heavy on her shoulders but she saw little else in the way of options. Sheâd just have to hope Jace never saw a reason to punish her as there would be no one on this island who could stop him.
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Episode 5: Why Machiavelli Would Never Wear a Mask (And Why You Shouldnât Either)
12/9/2020
Last weekâs episode of the Young Heretics podcast was about The Prince by Niccolo Machiavelli. The Prince is one of those classics of western lit that Iâve never actually read â or even taken a college class where this was one of the texts. What little I remember about this text is from history class during my junior year in high school. Mrs. Jones (no relation) told us that Machiavelli wrote The Prince as a treatise on political philosophy. He believed that the ends justified the means, and that the best way for a prince to retain power over the people was to rule by fear rather than love. The word âMachavellianâ has always been used as a pejorative description in our modern society, often referring to those people who are cold, heartless, and unfeeling. Machiavelliâs name has become synonymous with those characters in popular movies, books and TV shows that attempt to control other characters and events by using various means of deceit and guile.
Now, to be fair, Mrs. Jonesâ interpretation and summary of The Prince is not entirely wrong. I did a brief Google search on Machiavelli and The Prince, and about half the links of my search results reaffirmed that view. The other half, however, offered a surprisingly different take on The Prince, one that is also shared by Spencer Klavan on Young Heretics. That podcast is now 29 episodes old, but this is the first one that has presented me with something entirely new â both the text itself and the interpretation of it.
In his advice to the titular prince, Lorenzo de Medici, Machiavelli instructs him on how to best maintain power and control of his subjects and his state. The best way to do this, Machiavelli believed, was for the prince to be feared rather than loved. Also, at times, it would be necessary to use what many would consider to be unjust or immoral means in order to sustain that power and control. Hence Machiavelliâs negative reputation in the history books and modern culture.
But Spencer makes the argument that Machiavelliâs reputation is ill-earned. Thereâs more to this Italian philosopher than what has been passed down in the history books. To put it simply, Machiavelli was a realist. He addressed human nature â and human behavior â in harsh, realistic terms. This was how Machiavelli viewed the world. To use our vernacular, he didnât sugarcoat the bad stuff. He understood how people behaved â both the ones in power and the ones being ruled â and he framed his advice to his prince in these simple, realistic terms.
Iâve spent the last several days thinking about this episode, and I donât think itâs a coincidence that Spencer chose this episode to air when it did. All over the country, many state governors have issued lockdown orders for their principalities in response to a renewed surge in positive cases of COVID-19. As any of you who know me â either in real life or via social media â can attest, I am a rabid believer in the battle against face masks and the lockdowns. Iâm also a firm believer in the actual science â as opposed to the political nonsense spouted by Doctor Fauci and his panel of âexpertsâ â that says over and over how useless and pointless the masks are in the efforts to stop the spread of the corona virus. And, as you also know, I have plenty of time on my hands to think while at my day job, and the other day I came to a rather startling conclusion:
We should all be more like Machiavelli.
When exactly did we, the American people, become a nation of whiny, spoiled, self-entitled sissies? A nation of people who are so terrified of the possibility of dying that we happily give up our most basic freedoms and cower inside our homes or behind masks? Because that's exactly what's happened. The basic liberties and routines of our daily lives and, for many, their very livelihoods, were suddenly halted and/or shut down by our state governors who were acting in response to so-called science and medical âexpertsâ in the effort to save a small, vulnerable percentage of our population. I've lost count of the number of times I've read  on social media posts in the last 6 months about how pro-maskers wear a mask to protect their 85 year old grandmother or their 70 year old father. I've been called âheartlessâ and âpro-Naziâ from strangers in the comments section of news articles whenever I respond with the same argument that I'm going to put forth here.
We of the last couple generations have become so soft and spoiled and lazy that we've forgotten just how harsh and deadly real life can often be. And I'm including myself in that crowd. Those of us born in the last four decades of the 20th century have known nothing but prosperity and comfort, especially if â like me â you grew up in a typically middle class household. This is even more true of anyone born after 1995. I'm speaking of the generation that has never known life without Starbucks, Amazon, Google or a cell phone; the generation that grew up using laptop computers and watching TV by streaming it on the internet. In fact, we've become so complacent that we don't even have to leave our comfort zones to order a Big Mac from McDonald's or groceries from Walmart. When I was growing up in the 80s, I remember having to wait an eternity (4-6 weeks) for a toy to arrive that I had mail-ordered from a Sears catalog. Nowadays, I complain if my Amazon package isn't on my doorstep within 24 hours.
For pretty much all of us, 2020 was a massive wake-up call; a Mike-Tyson-punch-to-the-face or dive-into-Lake-Michigan-in-the-middle-of-December kind of wake-up call. None of us were prepared for a pandemic whose projected death toll was in the millions. Everyone from the top down â the president, our congressmen, our state governors, the national and local health experts â reacted instinctively. The medical experts, especially, were very quick to panic, based primarily on preliminary reports from European countries and China. Many state governors â most of them Democrats â were quick to declare a state of emergency and issue a lockdown order for their respective principalities. Hundreds of thousands of Americans were suddenly without work. Unemployment claims shot through the stratosphere. Congress approved an economic stimulus package. Everyone in the government â both national and local â assured us citizens that the lockdowns were temporary, two months at most.
But, of course, two months became three, then four, and by mid-July, many states were still in phase one or two of their âre-openingâ. By this point, even the liberal-controlled mainstream media was reporting on the sudden spike of suicides in the lockdown states. Millions of unemployment claims were stuck in severe backlog, and more and more workers were being put on furlough by their employers â or just simply laid off. Here in Las Vegas, for example, the entire strip was a complete ghost town from mid-March to mid-June. This city's economy is utterly dependent on the tourism industry, and, with all casinos and hotels completely closed, the city as a whole suffered greatly. It's still suffering, in fact, even though most of the strip has been open since mid-July. Almost all the hotels and casinos can only afford to be open from Thursday to Sunday. Thousands here are still unemployed or working two part time jobs for barely minimum wage just to make basic ends meet.
And now, as I write this, our governor â along with those of California, New York, and many others â has declared a second round of lockdowns. In California, both Governor Newsom and the mayor of L.A. have banned indoor AND outdoor dining at all restaurants. And again, we the citizens have been told that this is for our own safety, and that these lockdowns will be temporary. One doesnât have to look far on Twitter or Facebook to see cell phone videos of desperate, tearful, and/or furious restaurant and bar owners engaged in verbal rages about the injustice of all of this.
Hereâs what should have happened clear back in February of this year:
Our leaders â our princes, if you will â both national and local, should have consulted not only the medical experts but also a team of economic and social advisors. The governors of every state should have taken a long, hard look at the long term cost of even a brief economic shutdown versus the projected death toll in the short term if COVID-19 was allowed to run its natural course through the U.S. population. You can already see where Iâm headed with this. Our governors chose to shut down their states, to close all ânon-essentialâ businesses, and ordered all citizens to self-quarantine. This was only supposed to be for a few weeks, at most. But weâve all witnessed the long term effects of these shutdowns â skyrocketing unemployment rates, a rapid, severe spike in suicides and domestic abuse cases, and children who are falling so far behind in school due to âdistance learningâ that many will simply end up dropping out or repeating the same grade for another year.
Our princes should have been more like Machiavelli. They should have allowed life to continue as normal â no mask mandates, no social distancing orders, and most definitely no mandatory quarantines. Instead, the princes should have advised all citizens that the choice was theirs to self-quarantine or not, and that face masks would also be encouraged but completely optional. The result of this, of course, would mean a very high death toll in the short term. There would be no way to avoid this. As we already know now, face masks and social distancing are pointless and useless when it comes to preventing the spread of COVID. The highest numbers of fatalities would be among those older than 65. Hospitals and morgues would be overwhelmed. Emergency triage centers would have to be established in parking lots and empty football stadiums. For a month or two, the news headlines would be filled each day with the most recent death tolls.
But then, into the third month, the death count would start to go down. As herd immunity was finally achieved, life would, slowly but surely, get back to normal. And through it all, there would have been a slight drop in the regular business of many restaurants, movie theaters, and other recreational businesses that rely on tourism and seasonal traffic. But, ultimately, the country would have recovered from this much faster than they will in our present timeline. As it stands now, hundreds of thousands of small businesses across America have gone bankrupt and closed their doors for good. Even major restaurant chains like Ruby Tuesday and Sweet Tomatoeâs have permanently closed many â if not all â their locations. In the alternate timeline, where they had been allowed to remain open with no restrictions of any kind on the number of customers they were allowed to have inside at any time, these businesses would most likely still be up and running.
Yes, that means that your 75 year old father or your 90 year old grandma would have probably died. But thatâs life. Like Machiavelli, Iâm not gonna sugarcoat it. Life is hard. If you havenât figured that out by now, youâre in for a long and frustrating existence on this earth. And lest you think Iâm speaking from some superior, unaffected, condescending platform where I have not experienced any loss or hardship this year, let me remind of you of my blog post about my close friend Aaron Walker from a month ago. No, his death was not the result of COVID, as far as I know, but it was sudden, and it was completely unexpected. Iâm still feeling his loss. But you know what? Life goes on. We mourn the dead, we bury them, and then we move on. Death is a fact of life. Machiavelli would have understood that, and so should all of us in 2020. This year has seen a lot of death, more than anything in recent decades, in fact. But thatâs life. Thatâs the way life goes sometimes, and trying to avoid that inevitability by forcing face masks and quarantine and shutting down businesses on a whim is not going to change that simple fact.
I know many of you reading this are probably screaming at your phone screen right now, calling me all kinds of names and cursing me. âHow can you be so heartless????â you rave. âHow can you allow so many elderly and innocents to die just so you can still go to the movies or sit down at McDonaldâs to enjoy your iced coffee and Big Mac????â âYouâre a murderer because you still refuse to wear a mask in public!!!!â
And you know what? Youâre absolutely right. I am probably infecting others by not wearing a mask. I do still want to go to a movie on Friday night and pig out on overpriced popcorn and soda. I do enjoy going out to eat at least once a week with all my friends. And yep, Iâm perfectly fine with accepting the reality that many people are going to die because our governors refused to sacrifice the whole society in the chance that it might save a few innocent lives.
In other words, âThe needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few, or the one.â That edict is as true today as when Spock said it to Captain Kirk in Star Trek 2 in 1982. Machiavelli would have completely understood that statement, and he also would have understood this: that which doesnât kill us makes us stronger. We humans have been spreading disease to one another ever since Adam and Eve were cast out of the Garden of Eden. Death, you see, is the natural consequence of sin. Death is unavoidable, and death comes for us all. For some of us, we are lucky enough to live rich, full lives. For others, death comes all too soon. My grandfather will be 90 years old this year on December 31st. If I were to ask him today if he were ready to shuffle off this mortal coil and be welcomed into the arms of our Heavenly Father, his answer would be an immediate and resounding, âYes!â. Your 75 year old father or your 85 year old grandmother are most likely looking forward to death. That doesnât mean you should just kill them now by your own hand to hasten the inevitable. But it does mean that they are ready to meet their maker if their number is up. (And, by the way, is not more cruel to force the elderly to slowly waste away alone, locked up in forced quarantine in nursing homes, not allowed to see or even speak to their loved ones until they eventually die of depression, loneliness or COVID???)
COVID-19 is an act of God. Itâs a chance of nature, a random thing that has struck the human race, and none of us have the power to change it or ward it off or protect ourselves and our loved ones against its wrath. As we have been doing since the Tower of Babel, we humans have infected one another and survived many, many plagues worse than this one. So you need to stop your whining, stop your complaining, pick yourself up, and get on with your fucking life. And, while youâre at it, you might want to open your Bible and get acquainted with your Creator. Because, sooner or later, youâre gonna meet him, and if you have not accepted his son, Jesus Christ, as your lord and savior, you will spend eternity in a place that makes COVID look like a summerâs vacation in the Florida Keys.
So, in conclusion, be more like Machiavelli. Throw away your damn mask, rise up against the tyranny of our modern princes, and help me get our lives back to normal. If we do not stand up for our freedoms we will most assuredly lose every last one of them.
Mmmmm-kay???
(And, by the way, if you havenât been listening to Young Heretics, I strongly advise you to drop everything and begin immediately. Look it up on YouTube or wherever you get your podcasts. It will change your life.Â
Youâre welcome.)
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Have you ever tried Turkish Delight? No. Iâve looked up photos of it before and it has genuinely never looked appealing; sorry to those who are delighted (heh heh) by them :/ Iâm willing to try it if I ever get the chance, but I really doubt that Iâll enjoy.
Do you have a Vietnamese restaurant in your town or city? Theyâre a lot less common than other Asian restaurants, but I think we do have a fair share, yeah. The most common are banh mi joints. I think the reason why they arenât super popular in my country is that Vietnamese dishes tend to be veggie-heavy - at least thatâs the impression of most people here - and with Filipinos loving rice and meat in everything they eat, other cuisines simply end up being more popular, like Thai and Chinese.
Do you or have you ever owned a portable gaming console? Yes; we had a couple of PSPs and a DSi as kids. These days, we have a Switch.
Have you ever been in a car with a sunroof? Yeah the Vitara has one. Itâs my favorite trick to pull off whenever a friend is riding with me in it for the first time, haha. Everyone always gets so excited about it.
Do you have to have an occasion to eat out or do you just do it for fun? Back in college I allotted a certain portion of my weekly allowance to be able to eat out once or twice a week. Food is the way to my heart and happiness and it just felt good to have nice food, man. I didnât want to have to wait for occasions to be able to eat at my favorite restaurants.
Have you opened a letter today? No, I havenât.
How far away is the closest cinema from your house? Itâs around a 10-15 minute drive.
Have you ever been to the emergency room? Nope.
Are you one of those people who canât go without their morning coffee? I wasnât for a very long time, but itâs starting to become that way now that Iâve started having a regular 9-6 shift. I find that Iâm way crankier and am prone to crying from anxiety if I donât make myself a cup of coffee. When I do, I feel super productive and more motivated to do work.
Have you ever worn fake eyelashes? Twice. Once for junior prom and the next was for my college grad photo shoot.
Do you know the story of how your parents met? If so, tell me? They both started out as part of the kitchen crew in a luxury hotel in the city, my mom as a waitress and my dad as a cook. My mom started pursuing my dad when she discovered what school he came from lol because priorities, I guess.
What is your favorite Chinese food? Minced pork with eggplants is a huge favorite of mine. Xiao long bao and pork buns (steamed or baked) are also suuuuuper good.
Would you ever work at a movie theater? Probably not at this point in my life. It wouldâve been a nice gig during college.
Do you have a phone charger in your car? Yessir. I need one since I constantly use Waze to get to anywhere for both directions and traffic updates, and the LTE I need for that drains my battery.
Do you live far from your parents? No, theyâre like 10 steps away, in another room.
Have you ever submitted a video to Funniest Home Videos? Nope. I always loved the videos though and the show made up a big part of my childhood.
Have you ever been attracted to an authority figure? Iâve found several teachers attractive before, yeah. The biggest crush I had was on my biology teacher...I think everyone else had a crush on her too lol, she was the personification of beauty and brains.
Do you think you have a wide vocabulary? I mean I guess I know more words than most people my age...but I also feel that my vocabulary still wouldâve been a lot wider if I just continued to read well into my teenage years and now as a young adult.
What was the last hot food you ate? Lumpia.
Have you ever seen a meteor shower? I donât think so.
Describe your current position: Iâm sitting up on my bed, laptop on my lap, right leg outstretched with my left leg tucked underneath it.
Have you used a microwave today? Itâs only 5:01 AM, so I havenât. Weâll see about today.
What was the last electronic device you purchased? I donât really buy electronics. Iâm more likely to buy accessories for the stuff I already have, and the last one I got was a new case for my phone.
Have you ever slept through an alarm? I think so; only a few times though. I wake up from them easily.
Do you have any celebrity crushes? Kristen Stewart and Kate Winslet are where itâs at for me, yâall.
Do you prefer going out for coffee or brewing your own? I can go either way. Coffee is coffee. I donât mind making my own for convenience, or paying a few hundred bucks for a little more quality coffee.
Have you consumed caffeine today? If so, in what form? Yeah I have a cup of 3-in-1 barako coffee beside me. I actually made this cup at like, 7 PM last night...then I fell asleep for a bit, woke up at midnight, fucked around for a few hours and now Iâm back to drinking it at 5 AM, ha.
Do you have lactose intolerance or know anyone who does? I have a mild case of it. Itâs not a complete disaster for me to eat cheese or consume milk, and I wouldnât say that my trips to the bathroom afterwards are emergencies. My body has for the most part been nice to me, hahaha.
Do you know anyone who follows a raw vegan diet and lifestyle? Not to my knowledge, no.
Have you killed a bug this week? Probably.
What was the first food you learned how to cook? I followed a recipe for onion rings a few months ago and that was super fun, but I havenât followed that up yet so I dunno if itâs right to say IÂ âlearnedâ it.Â
Do you have a Bachelorâs degree? If so, what in? Journalism.
How many email accounts do you have? Four, but honestly I barely use the Outlook one anymore. I have three main email addresses on Gmail.
Can you go see a doctor alone or do you like to take someone with you? My parents come with me because they take care of the finances and insurance that go with things like that.
Have you ever made your own pasta noodles from scratch? Hmm, I donât think so.
How long is your average shower? 5-10 minutes.
How close is the nearest park from your house? We donât have any public parks because my country sucks, but my village has a few small parks that residents can flock to and walk their dogs in or bring their kids to play in or whatever. The nearest one is a 10-15 minute walk or a 2-minute drive away, depending on how you prefer to get there. Which household chore do you hate the most? Cleaning up dog pee.
Have you ever been to an all-you-can-eat buffet? So many times. Theyâre very common here and there are a lot of restaurants that solely have a buffet gimmick. Sambo Kojin was my favorite, and Iâm really hoping their business wasnât affected by this stupid virus.
Can you see out any windows from where you are? Yup.
Do you like pineapple on pizza? No, but I also donât like pineapples and all other fruits.
What color is your soap? Green or white. I donât really pay attention.
Is anything bothering you right now? Just about all the time, yes.
Whenâs the last time you had a headache? Sometime this week or last week.
What woke you up this morning? I woke up naturally as I normally do these days.
Are you planning to go see a movie anytime soon? Yeah my workmates have been watching American Murder on Netflix and all of them so far are raving about it, so I want to give that a shot soon.
Will you sleep alone tonight? I always sleep alone.Â
How do you feel right now? Confused at my lack of drowsiness and a little sad but itâs manageable for now.
Is shyness cute? I donât feel any particular way towards it. I suppose it can be endearing and it can also be annoying.
Will you be up before 7:00 a.m. tomorrow? I already am.
What are your plans for tonight? Maybe keep doing surveys or send in my online interview that a company Iâm applying to asked me to accomplish. I didnât even know do-it-on-your-own-time interviews were a thing; itâs super convenient and removes my anxiety of being interviewed in real time by strangers.
Would you rather write in pink pen or blue pen? Blue.
Have you ever kissed the last person you text messaged? Yes.
Who was the last person you cried in front of? Just myself. Havenât cried in front of anyone in a while.
Are your eyes the same color as your dadâs? Yep.
Have you smoked a cigarette in the past 24 hours? No, but could definitely use one.
Were you happy when you woke up today? Nah I woke up crying I think. It was one of the more difficult mornings.
Are you the youngest sibling? Iâm the eldest. Â
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Finding the Time to Study Fic 2 [Day 42]
Here is my starting post for todayâs study break stories session. See this post for more details and feel free to send me asks to keep me going! Itâs been a lot of fun so far! I will reblog this post with the story as I write them today. Iâll be constantly looking for ideas of times and places for Janus to have missions, so feel free to send in any you can think of at any point!
If you are a new follower or just donât want all of these posts clogging your dash, please feel free to block the tag âstudy break storiesâ as all posts and voting about it will go there. You can still see the finished product of the story even if you are blocking that tag as I will not tag the edited chapters with âstudy break storiesâ but with the tag âfolds in paper.â See edited chapters below. None edited chapters are under the cut.
My Masterpost Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15
I also have a playlist on youtube (because Spotify didnât have one of the songs I wanted). Itâs short, and not really for serious listening, but I had fun with it.
Gotta finish my first draft of my research paper today, so letâs go!
Arc II What We Do to Each Other
Chapter 16:
As it would turn out, Janus and Virgil did not get in trouble for hooking up the old phone to Virgilâs integrator, mostly because it wasnât really a mistake on their part. The phone cleared all virus checks that the tech people both from the university and the TPI ran on it. The phone should have been clean and should not have caused an issue.
In fact, they were still trying to pin down the code on the general university server. They could tell that something was mucking about on the system but what or how was a mystery. This also meant that there was no telling what information had been compromised and considering how many things Silver Mountain had its hands in, that was⌠a bit worrying.
 Another worrying thing was there was suddenly more activity of late at the TPI. There were more time distortions popping up every day. Usually they would be few and far in between. There had been 3 total recorded the year before, but over 12 in the last week. Some of them were fake like the one Janus had investigated, but some of them were real. It painted a distressing picture and also was a drain on their resources. Khalid was actually looking to advertise positions to hire new recruits which was something she rarely did as she liked to keep appointments to the TPI in house.
 Theyâd even loosed the number of field agents needed for each mission and Janus and Remus had been splitting up just to get everything done. Today, he and Remus had thankfully only two missions scheduled for the day.
âAre we going together or separate today?â Janus asked Remus.
âThink theyâll burn me at the stake for being a witch if I go alone to either of them?â Remus asked.
âI donât know. Probably. I think weâre getting a bit late into the 1700s for that in Cuba, but I have no idea about Mesopotamia.â
âLetâs just go together. I did not like almost drowning yesterday because I was the only stranger in town when the weather was going wonky.â
âSurely it isnât because you opened your mouth. Ever.â Janus said dryly.
âHow was I supposed to know he was the local clergymanâs son?â
 Janus rolled his eyes. âOn second thought,â he said, pushing a button on his desk to choose Cuba as he next mission, and standing up. âI donât want you coming with me.â Yet, he did not protest when Remus also signed up for the Cuba mission and he waited for him by the office door before going to talk to Rhi.
Rhi was a bit frazzled when which meant quite a bit as she was usually incredibly put together. Remus didnât even seem inclined to tease her today.
âOkay,â she said once theyâd closed the door behind them. She flipped through some documents on her desk. âPicani and Clockson. Camaguey Cuba 1755. Do you know Cuba?â
 âUh,â Janus said. âYeah?â
âLike youâre reading the things, right? I donât have to babysit you, right? You got it? The Seven Year War was happening, but it wonât affect you much as it hasnât really hit Cuba. Itâs the middle of the Camaguey Carnival. Everyone will be everywhere and there will be chaos so as long as you donât really fuck up you should be fine. UmâŚapparent races.â She looked up at them and studied them each for a moment as thought looking at them for the first time despite having known them for years. âItâll work. Go to costuming.â
âShouldnât weâŚâ Janus said, âsign things?â
 ââŚYep,â she said, fiddling with her desktop and then sending documents over to their side to sign.
Janus and Remus both did before sending them back.
âGreat. Good.â She stood and grabbed some things from behind her. âYou can go.â She sat back down as they took their things and Janus noticed a message pop up on her desk. She looked up at Remus looking exhausted. âWhat?â she asked.
âJust open it,â Remus said.
Rhi tapped it and a photo opened.
âI got her a new mouse toy!â Remus said happily as Rhi looked at the picture of Diesel Fuel attacking a cloth mouse.
âThat is⌠appreciated Agent Clockson,â Rhi said. âNow get out.â
 They did, leaving to get their costumes on and checked. Costuming was just as busy and frazzled as Rhi had been and they actually had to wait for decon because thereâd been a mix up with the agents leaving before them. They landed in Cuba without issue. Janus could already hear the festival in full swing outside the small building theyâd were in. Remy was standing there with a very not time appropriate mug of coffee.
âSue me,â Remy said when Janus raised an eyebrow at it. âPlease just⌠get in and out without causing trouble. Seriously. I donât want to have to deal with that on top of everything else.â
 âWeâll do our best,â Janus assured.
Remy pulled his sunglasses down to look at him. He looked exhausted. âGod please do more than your best.â
Janus nodded tightly. âWeâll be in and out,â he said, already glancing at his timepiece. It had been disguised as a golden bracelet which made it a bit harder to actually use, but wrist watches wouldnât be invented for more than a century, so theyâd have to make do. âThe time distortion, if thatâs what it is, should be in the middle of town. Letâs go.â
He and Remus exited the building onto the packed city street.
 Janus was immediately bombarded with all types of sights, sounds, and smells. There were many colorful articles of clothing and costumes as people went every which way along the street talking to other members of their community, playing instruments, and dancing. There was the sound of people speaking Spanish, still mostly almost pure Castilian Spanish with perhaps a bit of influence from Taino as the Haitian revolution had yet to push the Creole language over to Cuba. People must have been hard at work cooking different dishes for the carnival as many different spices wafted through the air. It was sticky hot considering it was the middle of June in the tropics and Janus was immediately sweating despite the temperature appropriate clothing heâd been outfitted with.
 He glanced around their immediate area, just scoping out the crowds. His eyes were immediately drawn to one person near them.
âOh, youâve got to be kidding me,â he said out loud when he saw Pat. Remus looked in the direction Janus was.
Even if Janus didnât recognize him the moment he laid eyes on him, he probably still would have ended up staring as he was the only person in the area who clearly did not know how to do the dance he was attempting.
Remus snorted and Janus shook his head in secondhand embarrassment. âWell, would you look whose boyfriendâs here,â he said to Janus. Make that firsthand embarrassment. âHas anyone told him the Mambo wasnât invented until the 1900s and also thatâs not how you do it?â
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Pat stopped dancing the moment he saw Janus approaching him, but he still bobbed cheerfully ( and unrhythmically) to the music. âHi Janus,â he said pleasantly.
âYou just have to rub it in, huh?â
There was a flash of confusion across his face, but then he smiled. âWell, I know where in our relationship you are. How was France?â
âYouâre a bastard.â
âYou stole the phone,â he laughed.
âYou stole the bomb,â Janus countered, âand you wanted me to steal the phone. You booby trapped it.â
âNo,â Pat correct, putting a finger up. âWe have security on my phone because in high school I once forgot it in the school locker room and long story short, the three of us ended up in a lake. So, then Lo made sure I always had some sort of tracker on it. When I started time traveling, he updated it and when I met you we updated it again in case there was ever an opportunity like that. Lo calls it using our weaknesses to our advantage.â
 âHeâs a bastard too,â Janus growled.
Pat just laughed.
âIs someone talking about me?â Remus asked, stepping over to them. Janus rolled his eyes.
âOh,â Pat said, blinking at Janusâs partner for a moment. âRemus.â He hesitated slightly. âHow are you doing?â
âMe?â Remus asked. âUh, Iâm doing good. A little stressed out with work, but fine.â
âGood,â Pat said with just a little too much heartfulness to it.
âWhat?â Janus asked, eyes narrowed at Pat. âWhat is that?â
âWhat is what?â Pat asked. He met Janusâs eyes briefly and it made panic surge up Janusâs spine because the look Pat was sending him wasnât one that said he was playing dumb. It was a warning.
 Oh, Janus did not like this. That look told Janus Pat had some foreknowledge that he absolutely could not tell Janus about without messing up the timeline spectacularly. This was why this mess the two of them were mixed up in was so bad, but it seemed Janus did not have much of a choice when it came to Pat.
Despite how bad of an idea he knew it was, he still wanted to push, because whatever Pat was hiding could be very, very bad and it had to do with Remus. There were so many reasons Pat could be acting like that around Remus, but the worst ones were definitely the ones on his mind. Death, injury, illness. They were all possible especially in their line of work and especially with how time was being screwed with right now. And Pat knew. He knew exactly what the answer was, and oh did Janus want to push.
Experience knowing what worse things could come out of having foreknowledge made Janus bite his tongue.
 âSo, what are you two doing here,â Pat asked, and Janus unhappily let him change the subject.
âOh, like you donât know,â Janus replied.
âI donât know,â Pat said innocently.
âThereâs another time distortion,â Janus said, âand while you didnât know what it was the last time I saw you, Iâm pretty sure you do now.â
âOh, I didnât know there was a time distortion here. I can help you if you like,â he offered sweetly.
âOh, yeah, sure. Then why are you here?â
âI wanted to see if I could find the Flying Dutchman,â Pat told him.
âAnd so you went to Camaguey?â
âUh huh.â
âOne of the farthest places from the ocean in Cuba?â
 âIs it?â
âI donât trust you.â
Pat just shrugged. âWell, if you donât want my help finding the time distortion, Iâll just be on my way then.â
âWait,â he said when Pat went to turn away. Pat paused. Janus turned to Remus. âRemus, do you think heâs bullshitting me so I let him wander off and do whatever the hell heâs doing, or do you think heâs bullshitting me into letting him come with us.â
âHmm,â Remus said, looking Pat up and down. Janus could immediately tell he wasnât going to get any helpful answer. âWell, if weâre going with the how much do I get to see his, admittedly very sexy, ass criteria.â Janus pinched the bridge of his nose. âLetting him leave now means instant gratification and a nice full image when he turns away. However, letting him go with us means many more opportunities to get a glimpse, but theyâd probably just be glimpses. So, yeah thatâs a tough call.â
âYou didnât even bother to give me an actual hidden suggestion with that bullshit,â Janus groaned. He glanced at Pat only to see him hiding his very red face in his hands. Janus blinked. âOh,â he said. âYou got him, Remus.â Janus was surprised. Heâd expected a bit more tenacity for someone with Patâs personality. Of course, Janus was used to Remus, so that perhaps had some effect. Pat made a muffled distressed sound behind his hands and Janus raised an eyebrow. âYou really got him.â
Pat flapped one hand around while still using the other to completely hide his face. âItâs just. His face. Saying that. Is weird.â
 Janus could not say that he didnât feel a slight spark of joy at seeing Pat flustered. After all, Patâs weapon of choice had often been flirting with Janus in the past. However, he still smacked Remus on the shoulder when it looked like he was about to continue with something likely far more inappropriate. âWe are here for a reason,â he reminded. He turned to consider Pat and squinted at him. âYouâre coming with us, Iâve decided. I donât want to let you out of my sights. Donât,â he said empathically turning to Remus as the man opened his mouth once more.
 Pat had mostly recovered, though his cheeks were just a bit pink still. âYeah,â he said. âIâll go with you. Where do we start?â
Janus glanced at his timepiece. âItâs not showing up on our trackers yet.â
âIt messed with your tracker last time,â Pat pointed out.
âI know,â Janus said. âWhich means it could be another fake one or whatever is causing it hasnât started yet. If things start going wrong, but it still doesnât show on our radar, itâs almost certainly a fake one, but some of the fake ones havenât blocked our technology.â
âHere, I can check,â Pat said.
âPlease donât pull out an iPhone,â Janus begged.
 Pat stuck out his tongue at him, and then smiled. He reached for the bracelet on his wrist and twisted it back and forth a few times before pressing his palms together. He glanced around them quickly to make sure no one around them was watching and then peeled apart his palms like he was miming reading a book.
âWhat the fuck is that, and how do I get one?â Remus asked immediately. It was innocuous, whatever it was. If someone from this time caught a glimpse of the display, theyâd likely assume it was a trick of the light, but staring right at it, Janus could tell it was a map of the surrounding areas with a softly glowing blue light marking their current location. Janus could see no screen or origin of a hologram. It looked like the image was drawn onto the manâs palms, but as he watched, the image shifted to zoom out.
 âThere doesnât seem to be anything major yet,â Pat said wiggling his fingers a bit. The display changed slightly to some sort of colorful overlay Janus did not understand. Pat hummed. âDid you two come from that building recently?â he asked nodding at it.
âYes,â Janus replied. âHow do you know?â
âThereâs sometimes a slight temperature change when people time travel,â Pat explained. âI can read it on here.â He tilted his head. âThere also seems to be a big enough temperature change in a church a few blocks away that could indicate time travel. Want to check it out?â
âWe might as well,â Janus agreed.
âAnd if itâs nothing, we can get drunk on the communion wine!â
âHeâs going to get immediately struck by lightning,â Janus said.
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âIf we see anyone,â Janus said as they entered the church. âYou keep your mouth shut. Do you understand me? Remus, do you understand me?â
Remus immediately turned to Pat. âYou know, I didnât grow up Catholic,â he said to Pat who looked at him in confusion. âSo the first time I ever entered a Catholic church, you canât blame me for being a little confused about the whole cabinet thing with a wall between them. After all, everyone was singing about glory to god and what not. So IâŚâ
Janus slapped him. âThis is why you were almost burned at the stake yesterday.â
 âExcuse you,â Remus said, putting his hand over his heart. âI was almost drowned.â
âYou were almost drowned?â Pat asked, his voice seeming legitimately distressed.
Remus shrugged a smile on his face that caused a Pavlovian migraine to start up behind Janusâs eyes. âItâs one of the hazards of the jobs, and really it would have all been worth it if Iâd actually gotten to drown in that manâsâŚâ
âWeâre in a church!â Janus cut him off switching from Spanish to Swahili in the hopes that no random passersby would be able to understand him in this time and place. âDonât talk about lewd sex things. Donât talk about sex at all. Itâs a Catholic church!â
 Remus continued to speak in Spanish with no regard for anything. âBut not talking about lewd sex things takes away 3/4ths of my personality,â he pouted.
âMore like 9/10th,â Janus grumbled, âand the other 1/10th is just normal stupid.â
âHey, you shouldnât be mean,â Pat scolded, in fucking English for some reason, âbut Remus, honey, you probably shouldnât be saying things like that right now.â
âNo, no, he has a point,â Remus said switching to English.
âHeâs my partner, I have the right to call him stupid,â Janus insisted.
âAnd I love you too!â Remus said in Greek because he was really, truly, stupid.
 Pat looked between the two, but then seemed to accept it, dropping the concerned expression for a slightly amused one. âIf you say so.â
âCan I⌠help you?â A voice asked. All three of them whipped around to see a young boy looking at them and seeming very confused. Which was fair considering that to his ears, theyâd just been speaking nonsense.
âWeâre here to pray!â Remus claimed, then he turned to wink at Pat and said under his breath in Swahili, âto that ass.â Pat went immediately bright red again, which was doubtlessly Remusâs aim. Janus subtlety stepped on his foot while smiling at the boy.
 âOh,â the boy said. âOkay.â Thankfully, he didnât seem interested in questioning the random strangers in front of him further. âIâm going to go back to the celebration now.â
Janus smiled at him. âHave fun,â he said. He waited for the boy to leave through the front door before slapping Remus on the back of the head.
âOw!â he whined sounding far too pained for how hard Janus had actually hit him.
Janus rolled his eyes. âLetâs just start investigating,â he said.
âSure, sure, you never let me have any fun,â Remus said, pulling up his wrist and spinning the golden bracelets on his arm. âHmmâŚâ he said.
 âWhat?â asked Pat.
âEither I put on the wrong jewelry this morning⌠or my timepiece isnât working.â
âWell, then Iâm guessing weâre in the right place,â Janus said. He turned to Pat. âYour stuff still working?â
Pat brought up whatever device was on his hands. âYeah,â he said, âand it looks like something is just starting.â Just as he said it, there was a violent crash of thunder.
âWell,â Janus said. âWe should probably find the source and soon. Which way?â
Pat glanced around himself and then motioned with his wrist. Suddenly there was a 3D display of the church in front of them.
 Janus could see immediately where the problem had to originate. There was a swirling mass of some sort of energy centered at the top of the bell tower of the church. As he watched, he saw the picture of the church glitch out a bit. He had a bad feeling about that.
âIs there something wrong with your display?â he asked, or more hoped.
Pat shook his head slowly. âI donât think soâŚâ The room seemed to shift suddenly underneath their feet. It felt a bit like time travel, but also wrong. The picture on the display flickered harder, part of the building fracturing and dissolving before appearing back in place. The room settled after a moment, but Janusâs stomach did not.
 âWhatever is going on,â Janus said, âWe need to stop it right now.â
Pat nodded. âThe quickest way up would be that way,â Pat said pointing. The display closed as he did.
âThen, letâs go,â Janus said.
The world was eerily calm as they all started off in the direction Pat had pointed out. In fact, it was almost too quiet.
âWhereâs the nearest window?â Janus asked when they came out on the second floor.
Pat glanced at his hand. âThere should be a couple a few feet that way.â Janus nodded and left them standing there. When he glanced out of the first window he came to, it appeared to be night. Yet, when he walked to the next window, he saw daylight.
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âTime is fracturing,â Janus informed them. âWe need to be careful.â This time distortion was much more intense than any of the other ones the agency had been tracking down over the last few months. It had also come on much faster. Usually there was some time between when the time distortion began and it started having extreme effects on the environment. He was suddenly very glad that he and Remus had not split up today. He was even glad for Patâs company, no matter how aggravating he may be sometimes. Not to mention, he was glad for the manâs technology that seemed to circumvent whatever was blocking Janus and Remusâs timepieces.
He backed away from the windows and returned to the others.
âWhatever you do,â Janus said. âDonât let anyone be in a room alone.â
âI know what time fractures are this time,â Pat promised.
âIt was as much for the idiot as it was for you,â Janus said.
âYou accidently bring a bubonic plague infested rat to 900BC one time and you never live it down.â
âIâd say I should put a leash on you, but youâd twist it into something disgusting.â
âProbably,â Remus agreed.
âWhere next?â Janus asked, ignoring him.
âThat way,â Pat said.
They walked together to the door heâd indicated. âPlease donât be bullshit,â Janus prayed. He opened the door and immediately got bowled over by a stream of salt water.
 Chapter 19
Janus landed flat on his back, a wave of water splashing over him and then quickly retreating, but still leaving him absolutely drenched. He sighed, looking at the ceiling. âDonât,â he warned, âsay a word.â
Of course, he was with the two most impossible people in all of space and time, so neither of them headed him.
âI thought you said we were far from the ocean, Jan,â Pat said.
âYeah, Janny,â Remus immediately jumped on board because he was an asshole. âI thought we were far from the ocean!â
âMaybe Iâll achieve my goal of finding the Flying Dutchman after all!â
 âOoo ghost pirates! Iâve never gotten to fight ghost pirates before. Any good with a sword Patty?â
âMy friend has a sword and he let me use it before⌠but all I did was cut a hole in our couch, and then Lo was mad at us.â
âI mean⌠just pretend the pirates are a couch and weâll be good!â
Janus slowly sat up. There was still water on the floor and every so often a wave would crash into the room as though the door frame signaled the edge of a beach. Pat reached down to offer him a hand up and Janus slapped it away.
 âRude!â Pat claimed, but his eyes were alight with mischief.
Janus shoved himself to his feet on his own power.
âYou deserve it,â he hissed. âFor all of this!â he waved his arms around.
âWater you talking about. I didnât do anything wrong.â
âYou are on thin ice.â
He looked down at his feet with a contemplative expression. âLooks like water to me.â
âArg!â Janus spat, throwing up his arms.
âI donât sea why youâre screaming, Janus.â
âYeah,â Remus contributed. âYou seem overally emotional to me.â
âYes, yes,â Pat replied. âVery em-ocean-al.â
âOne may even say heâs pretty salty.â
âI know where you live, Remus,â Janus reminded.
 âAlright, alright Remus, reel it in,â Pat said.
Remus opened his mouth to respond, but Janus cut him off. âWhy donât the two of you dedicate all of that brain power to figuring out how to cross the literal ocean in the next room,â Janus suggested hotly.
And it was a literal ocean. If one ignored where they were and the fact that there was a staircase climbing out of said ocean about 80 or so meters away. There was sand being washed up across the door frame and a seagull flying in the distance. At least it looked like a nice day in the room with the way the sun was glinting off the water. At least it wasnât storming there. Yet.
Janusâs head throbbed with the thought of what had to be happening with the time distortion to plop a piece of the ocean into one single room in a church. Usually theyâd be calling the TPI for backup or at least for information, but that was a loss. Even if they tried to get out of range of whatever was disrupting their timepieces, time was so unstable, theyâd very possibly get dumped somewhere dangerous. It was better to just get to the time distortion as quickly as possible and stop it.
 âHmm,â Remus said. âI wonder how deep it is. Do you think there are man eating sharks in the water? Or giant jelly fish? Remember that one time I got stung by a jelly fish and almost died?â
âYes,â Janus said, lips pursed, âand it was entirely your fault.â
âI just looked so squishy!â he declared, âI didnât know it was a murder blob.â
âI think I have a boat,â Pat said.
They both turned to him. âWhat?â Janus asked. He was looking at his hands and just hummed in response to Janusâs question. The next thing he knew, Pat made some motion with his hand and a yellow raft started to autofill from his palm. â...Why?â Janus asked.
âI⌠recently started carrying a wilderness survival pack in my time device.â
 âIâm not going to question it. Itâs better than swimming.â By the time the raft was completely deployed, theyâd all been shoved into the walls by it.
âHuh, on second thought. I probably should have put the raft in the room before blowing it up.â
âYou think?â asked Janus.
Pat glared at him over it. âI never really thought about how to open it in a narrow second floor corridor.â
âJust try to shove it through the door without popping it.â
âWhy are you looking at me?!â asked Remus.
They managed to somehow squeeze the raft through the door into the other room after a few minutes.
 Pat squinted at the tottering raft he was holding to the door frame. âAfter you,â he offered.
Janus glared at him.
âYouâre already soaked!â Pat defended himself.
Janus sighed and very carefully climbed into the raft. It tottered dangerously, but he didnât immediately fall out, so that was a plus. The other two of them slowly also climbed onto the raft with him. They then sat in it for a few seconds. âIs there an oar?â Janus asked.
âOh right!â Pat did something else with the device in his hands and an oar slowly unfolded from his hand.
âSeriously, I want one of those,â Remus said.
 âLetâs just get out of here,â Janus said, snatching the oar. The staircase luckily wasnât too far away. They probably could have swam it if necessary, but the raft gave them some modicum of protection. Everything seemed to be going in their favor, which of course meant everything was about to go incredibly wrong.
They were about halfway across the water when the entire world around them rumbled.
ââŚI hope that was a giant jellyfish,â Remus said.
It was unfortunately not a jellyfish or any sea creature at all. The world around them fractured, the ocean seeming to split right down the middle so the water right of the staircase was 6 feet higher than on the left. The sky flashed red and yellow before the water split completely like Moses splitting the Red Sea.
 There was a millisecond as the split widened until it was only a few feet from them, to decide whether when they landed they wanted to be on the side with the water or on the side without it. On one hand, going towards the side without water could mean they fell to their deaths or the water crashed back down on top of them when it settled. On the other hand, if the fissure was closing or shifting to a new area, it was very possible that theyâd end up trapped in the middle off the ocean with no connection to the church.
 Well, the best chance to actually get to where they were going was probably the side without water. It seemed everyone had the same idea at once because as he grabbed for both of them, they both grabbed for him and they all went tumbling off the raft into what could have very well been a bottomless pit.
Janus learned after a couple of seconds of free fall, that it was definitely not a bottomless pit. He landed hard, flat on his back and saw stars. The next moment something landed on top of him, squeezing all of the air out of his lungs.
 Something else fell half on top of his legs.
âOw,â Pat said from near his ear.
âYeah, well youâre the one on the top,â Janus groaned though his teeth.
âWow, I never took you for a bottom, Janus,â Remus said from near his feet. Janus kicked up his legs into whatever part of him was on top of Janus and he gave an âoof.â
Pat snorted a bit and Janus glared at his⌠shoulder? He shifted around a bit so he was less thrown across Janus and more just on top of him. Janus blinked. There was a wooden ceiling above them, so that was a good sign, though there was also a giant dark hole of nothingness directly above them which was not as good.
 Janus moved slightly. He could tell he was going to be bruised later, but he didnât seem seriously injured. âWe should,â he started, but was interrupted as the hole above them pulsated and dumped a bunch of sea water.
Pat shrieked as they were all drenched with the chilly water. Luckily, they seemed to be on higher ground because, while water kept pouring out of the hole, it drained away just as quickly instead of drowning them.
Water still hitting his back relentlessly, Pat peeled his head up to look Janus in the eyes. A giggle bubbled out of his mouth.
âIt isnât funny,â Janus informed him. Pat just giggled more, leaning his head against Janusâs chest and cackling.
 Janus just rolled his eyes. âYes, yes, this is an entirely appropriate reaction. Thank you for your contribution to our very important mission.â
Pat seemed incapable of stopping laughing completely, but he did calm himself enough to peel himself off Janusâs chest and lean forward so their noses almost touched. âItâs hilarious and you know it,â he claimed.
âIn what way is this âhilariousâ?â
âIn many waves,â was the joy filled answer.
âYouâre horrible.â
Pat hummed. He hadnât moved to get off of him even though they really should be moving in case something worse than water came through the hole in the ceiling. He hadnât even moved his face away.
âNo, no, you two just tell me when youâre done being gay for each other,â Remus interrupted. Janus was surprised to see heâd stood up at some point and was now hovering over them.
 Janus flipped him off even while Pat laughed once again. Pat finally drew away and rolled off of him so Janus could sit up. Pretty much everything hurt when Janus moved, but he was able to stand up, so he was probably fine enough. âSo,â he said looking around. âWhere are we now?â
 Chapter 20
Janus looked around himself while Pat booted up his map to try to figure out where they were. They were in a small room that may actually be considered a large landing as there were staircases on either side of it. The water that was still coming out of the ceiling was running down the staircase that led down from the room.
 Something was stopping the water, creating a pool on the steps that was already about to overflow into the room. With the speed the water was flowing, they should have enough time before the room completely filled up with water and drowned them.
Janus wondered if they were in the church or not. It was not out of the question and there was church like dĂŠcor around them, but who knew? He could feel a strange vibration in the ground and the one window in the room shone with green light.
âHmm,â said Pat. âThat looks not good.â Heâd projected his map so they could all see everything.
 The map itself was moving. Rooms were phasing in and out of focus and fracturing down the middle. One room was even spinning lazily around in circles. Janus could see the room they were in. It was connected to the bigger blob of rooms, and there was a black line connecting it to another room from the top which was obviously the hole spewing water at them.
âWell, at least the time distortion is still coming from the bell tower,â Remus said. Janus shot him an unamused glance. Said bell tower was currently upside down and shuddering as well as divided from any other room by at least two inches of empty space.
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âHow are we supposed to get there?â asked Pat.
âWe donât,â Janus said. âItâs literally impossible.â
âThere has to be some way,â Pat argued with a frown.
âIf we try to use time travel, weâll definitely get shredded by the warping time and space around it and walking there isnât an option. There arenât even any entrances!â
âWell, there were at one point.â
âYeah, before,â he gestured wildly to the ceiling that was still pouring water into the room.
âSo?â Pat asked.
ââSoâ?! What do you mean âsoâ?!â Â
Pat shrugged. âWhen one door closes, cut another one.â
Janus froze and looked at him for a long moment. âWhere the hell did you hear that?â
Patton raised an eyebrow. âYou.â
âI donât think like that anymore.â
âWell then I guess weâll die,â Pat said lightly. âOf course, thatâll make an even worse time loop considering Iâve met older versions of you.â
âFuck,â Janus spat. âFuck. Fine. Give me a minute to think. Not that I even know if we have a minute because,â he gestured once again to the room.
 âOkay,â Janus said. âThe room with the source of the time distortion is separated from us by a swirling pool of dark nothingness and there is no way to get to it. But, the only way weâre going to stop the distortion from ripping apart time and killing us as well as probably a bunch of other people is to get to it. That is an impossible situation. There is no solution. That door is closed to us. What other ways are there to look at it?â He looked at the visual representation of the rooms. One of them suddenly went spinning out and his eyes tracked it. We need to be in the same place as the source,â Janus said. âThat is fact, but we donât have to get to it.â
âUm, what do you mean?â Remus asked. Pat shushed him.
 âIf you want thing A and thing B to be in the same place, thereâs more than one way to do it. If you canât move thing A to thing B, you might be able to move thing B to thing A. Pat, you have a working time device. We canât travel with it because that would kill us, but if we can make it do a stutter warp, it could draw the time distortion to it.â
âYouâŚâ Remus said. âWant to create another time distortion in hopes that the original time distortion will be pulled into this room?â
âYes.â
âWell, sounds good to me!â Remus said.
 He maybe had expected Pat to argue, but he didnât. Instead, he moved his hand to his wrist. There had been nothing there before, but when he touched down on his wrist with two fingers, there was suddenly a metal bound around it that Janus immediately recognized from the times heâd seen Patâs timepiece before. How was it made invisible? He shook the thought off as Pat offered it up wordlessly. Janus took it and Pat leaned over his shoulder to look.
Despite the fact that the device looked nothing like his own, the interface was surprisingly convenient. âI assume you have safety setting to prevent a stutter warp,â Janus said. âHow do I turn those off?â
 Patton pointed at a gear icon on the screen. âYou put it under your normal settings?â he asked.
âI have to put in my password or use my fingerprint!â Pat defended.
âIt doesnât matter right now.â He navigated through the settings. He was interested to see that there were many different saved default security settings, but he didnât get much of a chance to read what all they did. He just turned them all off.â It popped up with a message to put in the password and Pat pressed his fingertip to it. Another message popped up warning them that turning off these settings could cause damage to the machinery, the person using it, and time itself. Janus pushed âokay.â A message popped up that asked âContinueâ and Janus pressed âyes.â One last message popped up that said âSecurity functions disabled.â Janus pressed âokay.â
 âAnything else Iâd need to disable?â
âNope,â Pat confirmed.
He navigated back to the main screen and then bought up the manual travel input screen. Yet another message warning him not to do this flashed and Janus once again ignored it. He copied the space time coordinates that the device said they were currently at and put it in the âtravel toâ location. âWell,â he said. âHere it goes. Let it be known that if I die, itâs my own fault for allowing Remus into a church.â
âReally?â Remus said. âThatâs what youâre choosing to be your last words?â
Janus just raised an eyebrow.
âLove you too Janus.â
Janus nodded and hovered his finger over the travel button. He quickly mashed his finger to the button 22 times.â
 The device warmed in his hand enough that he almost dropped it. Time literally froze for a few breaths as whatever Deity that may or may not exist processed their stupidity.
Janus was not a scientist or technician, but he had a good idea of how badly they were fucking up right now. The timepiece was attempting to travel over and over again to the exact same place and time. This basically punched a small hole through time, that if left unfixed would grow and disrupt space time all around them. As it was, their current position, all gathered around it and staring at it while one of them had it literally in their hand, was perilous.
 There was a rumble under their feet and the world tilted on itâs axis. The all went tumbling down in a pile of limbs to new floor of the room which had once been a wall.
Of course, this change of gravity caused the water that had been building up in the staircase to dump on top of them.
Janus would have cursed, but he was too busy being under the water. He maneuvered himself away from the other two flailing bodies and managed to shove his feet against the wall turned floor. His head popped above the water in time to see the ceiling, or well, it would be the opposite wall, rip in two and the other walls/floor/ceiling start to fold in.
 âGive me a boost!â Pat called over the noise of water rushing and walls crunching.
âGive you a boost where?â Janus asked.
âUp!â Janus wasnât sure if âupâ really existed right now, but he still nodded. The water was a few inches over his head, so he held his breath and interlaced his hands so Pat could put his foot in it. He was shoved down into the water, but it gave Pat enough leverage to shoot up out of the water. When Janus resurfaced, he saw that the man had grabbed ahold of the crumbling wall and was pulling himself up into what for all appearances seemed to be absolutely nothing.
 It took a moment, but then Janus blinked, and he was suddenly in a new room entirely or perhaps it was the same room. He honestly didnât know at this point. Remus was next to him. He couldnât recall if heâd been there before the shift or not, but they were both treading water. Pat crashed into the water next to them. Janusâs wrist buzzed as his timepiece came back online. âGot it!â Pat declared when he resurfaced, holding a device up. It looked almost the same as the device theyâd found in France, but this one was definitely different if it was able to cause that much chaos that quickly.
 Janus looked around and pointed at what appeared to be a set of stairs. The three of them swam over and pulled themselves out of the water.
âWhere are we?â Pat asked.
âLooks like a basement,â Remus replied. âA flooded basement.â
Janus pulled up his timepiece and pushed some buttons to stabilize Patâs timepiece. It slowly stopped vibrating and cooled. âHere,â he said, handing it over to him. âI suggest you put the safeties back on now.â
Pat nodded and took it.
âWeâre still in Cuba,â Remus informed them, looking at his own timepiece. âSame church too, but in the basement and⌠two and a half centuries later.â
âRemy is going to be pissed,â Janus said.
Remus shrugged. âHeâs always pissed⌠at least at me.â
âWell,â said Pat, slipping his timepiece back onto his wrist. âThanks for being willing to pool our resources.â
Janus rolled his eyes. âStop.â
âAh, mi sirenito-â
âI hate you.â
â-never.â He disappeared with a pop which was when Janus realized, heâd never handed over device that had caused the first time distortion.
ââŚYou bastard!â he yelled at thin air as though the man could hear him.
âWell,â said Remus, âthat mission went swimmingly.â Janus reached over and shoved him back into the water.
 Chapter 21
âWe should probably get out of here,â Janus said, very much not helping Remus out of the water. Remus pulled himself back up onto the staircase and shook like a dog. Janus crinkled his nose as water droplets hit him. They didnât smell salty anymore, he noted. In fact, there was a broken pipe spewing out water on the other side of the room.
Janus and Remus cautiously snuck out of the church, not wanting to be seen and blamed for the flooded basement. They came out on a city street that was much different than the one theyâd entered from.
 They walked down the street a bit, Janusâs eyes scanning the buildings. His eyes caught on a sign and he tugged Remus towards it.
They entered the small paladare and the person delivering food to one of the tables blinked at them both. Right. They were in clothing from the 1700s and were soaking wet. He met eyes with the woman, challenging her to say something. She did not.
They found a seat at one of the tables.
âAhâŚâ the worker said, approaching them. âEnglish?â
âRon,â Janus said, âpor favor.â
Remus turned and started ordering the both of them food in Spanish. Janus didnât pay attention to what he did.
 After his second shot of rum, Janus sighed and brought up his timepiece to ping the TPI. The reaction was almost instantaneous from their perspective. Remy all but kicked down the restaurantâs door and walked over to them. âHow the fuck?â
âAh, Remy,â Janus said calmly. âHave a seat. Weâre waiting on our food.â
He did, but probably only because people were looking at them. âWhat are you doing here?â
âItâs been a long day,â Janus answered, âand Iâm hungry.â
âYeah, it certainly looks like youâre interested in the food,â Remy said, eyeing the empty shot glasses.
âLetâs just say, Iâm glad Cuba started letting paladares legally serve liquor a few years ago.â
 Itâs clear that Remy wanted to ask them what had happened, but he also was cautious enough not to make a scene here and Janus wasnât planning on getting up until heâd at least gotten his food. âWhy are you soaked, by the way?â
âTurns out the ocean isnât as far away as we thought,â Janus said.
âAlso, a church basement is flooded,â Remus said.
âFantastic,â Remy replied.
They sat there mostly in tense silence until their food came, and then Remus and Janus ate. Remy slapped down some pesos once they were done and then proceeded to all but physically drag them out of the restaurant.
 They were led to an alley way and then through an old almost hidden door. Remy immediately rounded on them. âWhat the hell happened?â Remy asked.
âThe time distortion caused level 5 time fractures in its vicinity, we almost drowned three times, and the worst person in the universe fucked me over again.â
âTo be fair,â Remus said. âHe did save our lives before that.â
âI saved our lives first,â Janus said. âI donât have to be fair.â
âOh, yeah, Mr. Curl Up In A Ball And Perish. Iâm sure we would have been fine without him.â
âAnyway,â Janus said to Remy. âIf you want your lump of flesh, I suggest you take it now, because Khalid is going to murder me, and then fire me, and then rehire me so she can put me on desk duty and make me do paperwork until the end of time.â
 âWhat did you do?â Remy asked.
Janus grimaced. âMade a time distortion.â
âYou were the one who made the time distortion?â Remy asked.
âNot exactly,â Janus answered.
âHe made the second time distortion,â Remus said. âIt was actually pretty cool.â
âIt was not cool,â Janus snapped. âIt was irresponsible and dangerous. I shouldnât have done it.â
âWe would have died,â Remus said.
âAnd we could have done worse than dying if it had gone poorly,â Janus argued. âI justâŚâ he tugged on his hair a bit, and Remus gave him an alarmed look. âIâm going to go talk to Khalid,â he said. He didnât give Remus any time to speak, but just waved his hand to travel back to the TPI.
 Remus followed him instantly, of course, but Janus proceeded to ignore him until they were out of decontamination. Janus walked himself straight to Khalidâs office.
He knocked on her door and she called for him to come in. He did and sat heavily in the chair in front of her. She frowned at him. âYou really should go to Cultural Outreach first.â
âJust fire me,â he said.
âWhat?â she asked.
âI just shouldnât work here anymore,â he said. âAt least not as a field agent. Really any type of agent.â
She paused and reached to her desk to pull up some file on the screen there. âIâll fill out the incident report myself instead of Dr. Eran then,â she said. âTell me exactly what happened.â
 Janus explained everything that happened, and Khalid diligently wrote it down. It was far outside her job description, but she didnât explain or really react to anything he said more than nodding to say sheâd gotten it recorded.
When he was finished, she saved the file and leaned back.
âWell,â Khalid said, folding her hands in front of her and scrutinizing him. âHonestly, this isnât anywhere near a fireable offence.â
âBut IâŚâ
âYou went against policy certainly, but policy sometimes has to be broken in disaster scenarios. You know that.â
âIt was stupid,â he bit out, feeling sick to his stomach.
âIs it if it worked?â she asked.
Janus didnât answer.
 âThe major reason I originally assigned you to be a field agent is because youâve always been good at thinking your way out of difficult situations even when they go against the rules we set. You have good instincts that I trust, but you havenât seemed to trust them lately,â she said.
âYou shouldnât trust them,â Janus said darkly.
Janus felt his throat tighten as she considered him for a long moment. âThis isnât the first time youâve asked me to fire you,â she said. âYou wouldnât tell me why then, and I respected it at the time, butâŚâ she paused. âYouâve changed, Janus.â
 âWell then Iâm not any good to you.â
âIâd beg to differ,â she replied, âbut fine.â
Janus was actually surprised by that. He looked up at her. He somehow thought heâd feel better when this happened, but he didnât in that moment. He just felt ill.
âIâm not firing you,â she continued, meeting his eyes, âbut if you donât want to be a regular field agent, fine. I have a particular mission in mind for you.â
âWhat?â he asked.
âThis âPatâ thing is getting ridiculous,â she said. âI donât have enough resources to focus on it right now considering how much is going on, however, but I trust you and youâre already involved. So, Iâm going to reassign you. No more missions. No more dealing with in department duties. You find him and his source of time travel. Thatâs your job. Whatever you think you need to do that job is fine. Request whatever trips or resources you need. Bring on Remus when you need or even Fred and Lena.â
âYouâreâŚâ he said. âGiving me more freedom and resources?â
âLike I said, Janus. I trust you. The one time I didnât, after all, Pat ran off with a timebomb, so I learned my lesson.â She smiled briefly and stuck out her hand. âDeal?â
Janus sighed and once again resigned himself to staying at the TPI. âFine,â he said. âDeal.â
 Chapter 22
Janus sighed. This was stupid. What was he even doing? He glared at the large hologram that took up a good portion of his office now. During the day, he usually shrunk it so he could only see part of the diagram he had up, but right now the office was abandoned other than him, so it took up and entire two walls. He rubbed his forehead. Why had 2pm Janus thought putting a bunch of words on this hologram was a good idea? Even the pictures were starting to look like they were vibrating. He drew a red line between âNick Jonasâ and âiPhone,â and he honestly wasnât even sure why at this point.
His board didnât even make sense. Why did he think this would be a help? He swiped a picture of the first device heâd found that had made the time distortions off to the side with his own (bad) artistic rendition of the one Pat had stolen. There wasnât a pattern with Patâs behavior that he could see other than, perhaps, a liking for early 21st century pop culture.
Frustrated, he turned away from the board. He needed a walk, he decided. He stepped out of his office into the TPI hallway and chose a direction at random. There were still some people in the building as even this late at night, someone had to be on call, but for the most part, the building was abandoned.
 He wasnât paying attention to where he was going, and even if he had been, he likely wouldnât have realized where he was because heâd never been to the AMO offices since heâd gotten his house, and theyâd moved since then.
He paused in front of it the doors, eyes touching on the lit-up names on the doorâs screen. He focused on his own last name until it stopped looking like letters at all.
âDid you need something?â a familiar voice asked.
Janus jumped and whipped around. âYou⌠itâs late, what are you doing here?â he asked Emile.
âThere are at least two AMO workers at the office at all times. Today is my night,â he explained.
 âI⌠see.â
Emile tilted his head. âDid you need anything?â
âNo,â Janus said, perhaps a bit too fast. He bit his lip. âI was just going for a walk. I didnât mean to come here.â
Emile folded his hands in front of him and rocked onto his heels. âI heard that you almost died,â he said.
âYeah,â Janus said. âI fucked up.â
Emile arched an eyebrow. âAnd is that why you got a promotion?â he asked in that mild tone of his that informed Janus that his brother was wholly convince he was an idiot. Janus looked away and Emile sighed.
 âWell then,â Emile said, walking past him to the door. Despite himself and the fact that it was his fault, Janus felt hurt at how short Emile was letting the conversation be. Then he felt disgusted with himself that he even dared to feel that way.
Yet, Emile paused at the door. âIf you ever decide you want that help, I offered, you know where my office is now.â
He wouldnât, Janus thought, but he didnât say anything. He just let Emile push open the door to the AMO and disappear inside.
Why was he even here right now? Janus wondered to himself. It was the middle of the night and he didnât remember the last time heâd slept. He didnât remember the last time heâd been home.
 Yet the house by the lake wasnât home, was it? Going there to the nothing that pervaded the place made his throat tighten. Heâd had different homes in his life. The small childhood home, the claustrophobic apartment heâd had in his college days, the first home the AMO had assigned him which heâd shared with his brother, but none of these were available to him anymore. He brought up his timepiece. There were only three pre-programed space-time coordinates in his device. The first would only take him back to his office with the frustrating board that wasnât giving him any answers and the third took him to the lake house he couldnât bear to see empty right now.
 That left him with only one option. He selected the second saved coordinates and stepped forward into Remusâs house. He landed in total darkness, which was expected considering it was around 3 in the morning and Remus lived about 3 decades before electricity was invented. Janus stumbled forward in the dark, his eyes very much not adjusted, until his shins hit the couch. He carefully turned and sat before blowing out a breath.
âMew?â came from the corner, and Janus titled his head to see eyes shining in the dark.
âHello,â Janus said. âSorry to wake you.â
Diesel Fuel make a little burrhr sound and padded over to him.
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When Lightning Strikes Ch. 8
When your life is nothing but a cloudless sky, lightning can come and strike you so unexpectedly, you wonât even know what hit you.
Or: When Hiccup and Astrid meet, it is as if lightning strikes.
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Her parents werenât home when Astrid arrived. Letting herself in through the backdoor, she scanned the place, grabbed a handful of chocolate chips from the living room table and trudged up the stairs to her old bedroom that now served as a guest room.
The sheets were clean and not a single wrinkle dared to disturb the still sea of cream-colored linen. She felt like she just walked into one of the catalogues her mother had stacked in the giant, neat bookshelf downstairs. The only thing missing was the overly enthusiastic model having the time of her life feeling the fabric, and the book and glass of water decorating the nightstand to give a domestic impression. Looking around, Astrid found only the fine layer of dust on all surfaces betraying the perfect picture.
She dropped her duffle bag onto the tidy floor and let herself flop onto the mattress. Taking a deep breath, she could smell the detergent; the same one her mother had been using for as long as she remembered. Suddenly, she felt fifteen again, but in a room where no sports clothes and equipment littered the floor, the desk wasnât covered in books and school supplies, and the walls werenât decorated with pictures of friends and family and her rigorous, color-coded life plan.
Most of the photos now hung in her own living room, in-between several new ones, her wedding picture framed in the middle. The giant poster of her life plan was collecting dust amidst old furniture and boxes stuffed with her old toys in the basement two stories below. It wasnât like that thing had worked out, anyway. Be the manager of an elite swim team at thirty? She still had a few years to go, but considering how sheâd been training the same team of kids for a while now, that goal didnât seem very realistic.
Not that that wasnât the only part of the plan, which sheâd designed way back in middle school, that hadnât gone as sheâd once been sure it would. The plan had considered boyfriends during her years of building her career, but no marriage and kids until she had the position she wanted. When Eret had proposed to her years before sheâd even come close to that goal, and sheâd said yes, sheâd practically blown the whole plan to bits. And with everything else unexpected that had happened to her around the same time, sheâd realized she couldnât meticulously plan her whole life.
She pushed memories of that brief period away by jumping up and connecting her phone to her old stereo. To loud music, she danced through her room with a rag and a bottle of cleanser, singing and polishing every surface and every corner to the beat.
When she was done, she moved the party downstairs and set the table for dinner. In the past year and a half of being a wife, sheâd jokingly donned an apron once a week and put her hair in an old-fashioned bun, waving a spatula around and putting on the act of a housewife from the fifties, much to her husbandâs amusement. But both of them knew she only did this so she could practice her cooking skills, because she was too proud to admit that she didnât have any.
Which was why there were pots of gratinated cauliflower, potatoes, and corned beef on the table when first her motherâs, then her fatherâs car appeared in the driveway. The meat had ended up too dry, but thatâs why sheâd prepared enough sauce in wise foresight. All in all, she was very proud of her achievement.
Her parents did a double-take when they came in and followed the clang of dishes into the kitchen where their daughter was washing pots and pans, surrounded by an utter chaos of cooking ingredients and supplies.
âSurprise,â Astrid grinned at their baffled reactions.
âI knew that was your car outside. What are you doing here?â her father asked. âNot that weâre not happy to see you, but you havenât been to Berk in months.â
Her mother hung her jacket in the hallway and put her keys in the key holder under the cupboard with the spices, taking in the sight before her. âDid you cook?!â
âYou donât have to act so incredulous.â Upon both her parentsâ raised eyebrows, she rolled her eyes. âYes, I made dinner and itâs not poisoned. Now would you please eat it before it gets cold?â
Drying her hands on her apron, she took it off and joined her curious parents at the table, ignoring their slightly doubtful expressions when they eyed the food.
She took a bite of potato and reached the same conclusion as her mother. âWay too much salt,â Wilma commented, scrunching her nose. âBut the sauce is delicious.â
Although she didnât like to hear it sometimes, Astrid had always appreciated her momâs honest criticism. Itâs how she knew what she could do and what needed to be better. There was no talking around bullshit in the Hofferson house.
Which was why she held her chin up high and sat upright, conveying the notion of confidence and an abundance of shameful failure that she had to hide, while they all bravely put more sauce on their food. She celebrated her small victory when every pot was clean and every stomach full.
âAre you staying the night?â her father asked, scraping the last bit of under-salted cauliflower from his plate.
âActually, Iâm gonna stay a bit longer.â She immediately felt two pairs of eyes set on her face as she started collecting plates and cutlery. Unperturbed, she looked up and shrugged. âEretâs on a convention for two weeks and I didnât want to sit alone at home all day. And since you keep asking me to visit more, I thought Iâd swing by for a while.â
âSince when are you sitting at home all day?â her father asked. âDonât they have any dogs to train at the moment?â
The long answer would have been that ever since the Breakneck Adventure Park over in Bog had opened and the Raven Point Zoo had had a series of vandalism cases, the popularity and financial situation of RPZ had forced every department to cut salaries, even over in the attached dog obedience school Astrid worked at. Either a whole lot of people needed to get a dog that they needed help with training really soon, or their PR team had to come up with a better solution.
She settled for the short answer. âNot really.â
Her father looked like he wanted to discuss her occupational situation further, but she really didnât want to get into it at the moment. She missed the dogs. Talking about her issues wasnât what she came here for; it was rather the opposite. She wanted to distract herself, push away everything she seemed to be failing at.
âDo we have cake?â She opened the fridge and a few cupboards, coming up empty.
Her mother shook her head. âThereâs ice cream in the freezer.â
Astrid made a half-hearted attempt at checking, but she didnât really want ice cream. Ice cream was for summer days and break-ups, and neither the former nor the latter applied to her right now. If she wanted to overstuff herself and quiet the craving sheâd had since last night, she needed cake. And if there was none in the house, she would find a way to get her hands on it somehow. With a determined nod, she set her agenda for the next day.
She slept until noon, went shopping for ingredients, and looked up the easiest cake recipe she could find; one even she couldnât mess up. It ended up a little too crispy anyway.
Trying not to think of what Eret might be doing or not doing at any given moment, she flipped through every magazine her mother had during the next three days, even the catalogues. Still asleep when her parents went to work, they usually found her lounging on the couch when they came back, or dozing in the hammock in the garden.
Her mother asked her about Eret at least twice a day and Astrid quickly grew tired of telling her that he was doing fine. She knew what her mom wanted to hear from her, but she wasnât going to open up that can while she was browsing through the latest IKEA catalogue for the fifth time as if it was the most fulfilling activity in the world.
On her fifth day back at her parentsâ house, she went into battle with the kitchen again and baked three cakes â the first one ended up too dry, the second was perfect except that she forgot to add sugar, and the chocolate cream she added to the third was way too sweet. She ate the whole thing that night and regretted it in the morning when she woke up feeling sick and frustrated.
Pushing away any stupid upcoming worries related to sickness in the morning, she finally decided to leave the house. If everything sheâd left at her own house was catching up to her at her island of refuge, she wanted to do nothing else than run. Channel everything into her muscles, kick at the ground with every step, show the world that this was something she could do perfectly.
She got up and opened the window, then got dressed while the fresh air cleared her head and chased away the queasiness. After she splashed cold water in her face, she already felt much better.
When she came downstairs, her parents were sitting at the breakfast table reading the newspaper, the radio playing the usual morning program in the background. Surprised that she was up so early on a Saturday compared to the past days, they eyed her running gear while she poured herself a glass of orange juice.
âArenât you going to sit with us?â her mother asked.
Astrid shook her head and chugged down the juice. âIâve been neglecting my training. I have to catch up.â She knew that her mother wouldnât object to that. And it wasnât as if she was lying; she did need to train more, especially now that the swimming hall was closed for renovations and her assistant had taken over training the kids at the place that belonged to that damned theme park in Bog. Heaven forbid she betrayed her principles and supported that place in any way, shape or form. But if she sat down now, she might have to listen to her mother asking her about her home life once again.
âBut tonight weâre going out for dinner, okay?â her father shouted after her when sheâd already grabbed a banana and was halfway out the front door.
âSure!â she yelled back and then she was gone.
She ate her banana and stretched on the lawn before she put the peel in the trash and fell into a brisk pace, heading down the street. Running felt invigorating, like throwing off a heavy coat and allowing her cells to be injected with life again.
A soft morning breeze caressed her skin and the beams of the May sun on her back promised another warm day, even though the browning leaves in the front gardens she passed were screaming for it to rain.
The whole city was in bloom. Streets were glowing in white, pink and lavender, rich greens adorned the trees, petals and pollen were flying through the air, and Astrid was glad she didnât have any allergies. A particularly beautiful patch of blue, orange and yellow flowers made her slow down for a moment, listening to the bumblebees buzzing around the vibrant colors. Breathing in the pleasant fragrance, she continued down a narrow path towards the park.
She hadnât bothered to bring her phone and headphones, taking in the performances of various arias pleasantly filling her ears from every direction. A family of ducks crossed her path at the entrance of the park, heading for the lake that stretched through the whole park like a still river. The water was glistening in the sun, its smooth surface disrupted by water birds going about their morning activities and various insects dancing at the top. Plenty of people were already out and about, runners like her, people with their dogs, a few families. A young couple with a child in a stroller caught her eye and she ran faster.
Concentrating solely on the road and the rhythm of her feet and breath, she shut out everything else, as if she were wearing blinders. She counted to ten, sprinted, slowed down, started anew, until her lungs began to burn and her feet were stomping harder on the gravel.
Life was good. Despite her payment cuts, her mostly self-imposed lack of exercise, and what happened last weekend at home, she was okay. A failure wasnât a failure if she could overcome it. It was just a minor hiccup on the road⌠Ha.
One and a half years later and even the word made her stomach drop. She was back in Berk, not just in the outskirts to get to Raven Point for work, to the swimming hall for training, or to her parentsâ house for one afternoon. If she didnât want to return to a quiet house where she would anxiously wait for her husbandâs return, she would have to get over her paranoia that she could run into the one person in all of Berk she didnât want to see. Or rather couldnât allow herself to see.
One and a half years and he was still on her mind. Not every day, sometimes not even for weeks, but he was like that annoying mosquito in her bedroom that, no matter how often she killed it, always respawned the next night. Perhaps if she kept comparing him to obnoxious, bloodsucking insects, her feelings about him would finally change.
She should have brought music. Then she could have just turned up the volume of the most energetic songs she had on her phone and drowned out every thought. Although the rush of running had shaken the layer of lazy languor from her limbs, sheâd opened the corner of her mind that sheâd successfully blocked with ignorance up until now.
She started counting her steps, just to have something to focus on in order to keep her mind from spiraling.
One, two, three, four, five, six, sevenâŚ
She was at forty-nine when she evaded an old couple on their bicycles, and an ice cream cart on the other side of the lawn caught her eye.
It wasnât so much the cart that made her heart stop out of the blue, without any preamble. It was the tall figure waiting in line, it was the auburn hair burning on his head like fire in the sun, it was the magnetism that instantly made her recognize him by pulling at her soul like the moon pulled at the ocean.
She tripped and caught herself on the next best thing, which happened to be a young man with dark hair and a dog leash hanging around his neck like the worldâs longest, ugliest open tie.
âWhoa, there!â The guy put a hand on her arm, a flirty grin on his face. âNo need to fall for me, although I understand why you might.â
Momentarily confused, she blinked at him flexing his bicep and unabashedly checking her out. âWhat?â
He winked. âYou should come to the gym with me some time to work out, you look like you work out.â
âWhat?â she repeated, her brain only slowly catching up to the situation. Her head turned by itself, seeking out the ice cream cart, but there was only a kid delicately balancing two huge cones with ice cream running down his fingers. She blinked. Had she only imagined â no. There he was, a few paces to the left, coming towards her. Coming towards her.
She completely froze, her line of sight pinned to his face, ears deaf to the lame pickup lines still coming out of the guyâs mouth like a waterfall. Then he looked her way, and the moment blue eyes locked onto green, she was transported back to Dagurâs party where sheâd felt like a bolt of lightning had shot straight through her.
He stopped short and stared with wide eyes, mouth slightly agape, face white as linen. Time slowed down, an eternity of mere seconds passed, the universe narrowing down to its only two inhabitants.
âHey, are you alright?â
The guyâs voice yanked her back to planet Earth and she realized she was still holding onto his shoulder, spacing out in the middle of the path like an idiot. Her heart started to beat again at full capacity and she remembered how to fill her lungs with oxygen.
âI⌠sorry,â she stammered and bolted, lightning fueling her, and she sprinted and sprinted, away from the green emeralds boring into her back. Out of sight, out of mind, until she had used up all of her adrenaline and her legs gave out underneath her.
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Hiccupâs understanding of space and time momentarily vanished. Gravity was an illusion. Down was up and up was down. Were dragons real? Words had no meaning. Tuna was a lie. A frying pan was a kind of bird. Colors tasted like witchcraft. The eyes of Astrid Hofferson were even more captivating than he remembered.
He was certain only that last one was true. It was a mystery to him how his heart was still beating. He didnât register the ice cream escaping his grasp and painting a trail down his jeans onto his shoes. He was too occupied staring after the blonde ponytail swinging on her back, shorter than he remembered, as her frame became smaller and smaller until she rounded a corner and was but a fading melody riding the waves of the aftershocks she caused to his heart and soul.
âDude, people are staring!â
Hiccup blinked a few times before shaking the haze off his brain and following the source of the complaint to the man in front of him.
âDid you shit your pants or something? You look like youâve seen a ghost.â
Checking just to be sure, he shook his head. No, he did not shit his pants. He wasnât so sure about seeing a ghost, though. With an awkward cough, he returned to reality and frowned at the sticky stains on his clothes. Typical.
âWhoâ who were you just talking to?â he carefully asked his old friend, hoping desperately he hadnât imagined her.
Snotloutâs face changed from embarrassed to overconfident in the blink of an eye. âThat hot chick over there?â With his thumb, he pointed over his shoulder in the direction she had just disappeared to. âYeah, she totally digs me. Wouldnât admit it, but she did.â
âDid she tell you her name?â
âPsh, Hiccup, my man. Names are for second dates only.â
Hiccup raised an unimpressed eyebrow. âLet me guess, she didnât even talk to you and only accidentally bumped into you?â
Snotlout opened his mouth, closed it, then turned and whistled for his dog.
âThought so,â he mumbled and followed Snotlout to where the manâs dog was pulling so hard on its leash it wasnât exactly clear who was the master of whom. Before they made their way back to Snotâs apartment, Hiccup looked back once more, as if the remaining ghost of her presence would show itself and talk to him. But she was long gone.
On their way back into the city, Hiccup barely said a thing, still miles away. But it wasnât like he was needed to fill the air with conversation since Snotlout was talking nonstop. Hiccup managed a comment here and there, but if heâd been asked what theyâd been talking about when they reached the apartment, he would have been unable to answer.
The inside of the apartment was, to his nonexistent surprise, a mess. Dog toys and barbells were lying everywhere, one side of the rundown couch was full of dog hair, and it smelled of bacon and sweat. But what struck Hiccup the most was the nearly bald fir tree in the corner. Dry needles covered the ground and mismatched baubles and an assortment of cheap wooden decorations were desperately clinging to the twigs like a last lifeline.
âReally? Still?â he asked while Snotlout put dog food in a bowl. âI thought you wanted to throw that thing away weeks ago.â
Snotlout shrugged. âEh. Didnât seem worth the effort. Itâs almost Christmas soon again, anyway.â
âItâs May, Snot.â
âSo? As soon as I buy a new one, I just have to put the balls from one tree to the other. No need to cram everything back on the shelf.â He opened a can of coke and flopped onto the clean end of the couch.
With a defeated sigh, Hiccup decided to free the tree from its misery and started with taking off the wooden stars. In the background, Snotlout was scrolling through his phone and slurping his coke.
âSnot.â
âWhat?â
âAt least bring me the boxes these go in.â
He heard a series of groans and shuffling, a few choice swear words, then an armful of cartons were unceremoniously dropped next to him and the slurping started anew. Sometimes, Hiccup wondered why they were friends. But some bonds just seemed to miraculously never break.
His mind wandered to the park again, to the blonde ponytail highlighted by the sun, to the two blue orbs circling his thoughts ever since. He was electrified in such a familiar way, his heart speeding up again at the mere memory of her frozen face as she stared back at him.
âI think it was Astrid,â he blurted out, for fear he would burst if he didnât voice it.
The slurping stopped. âWho?â
âThe girl from earlier. The one you probably drove off with your obnoxious flirting.â
Snotlout was quiet for a moment. âAm I really that awful?â
Hiccup had to smile despite himself. That was why he was still friends with Snotlout Jorgenson. Because as irritable and annoying and full of himself he was most of the time, underneath all that there was a boy who actually cared. Cared what women thought of him, what his father thought of him, even what Hiccup thought of him. It was rare that he showed his vulnerable side and Hiccup always made sure not to tease him about his honesty, aware of the trust his friend put in him.
âDepends on what you said this time. Maybe stop diving in full force every time a woman so much as glances at you. Usually, they donât like that.â
The slurping continued, followed by a loud belch. âI canât believe Iâm taking advice from you. Youâre not exactly the king of the ladies. And if that in the park was Astrid, then I canât even begin to tell you how far out of her league you are.â
Hiccup didnât need to be told that. Heâd always known that she was unattainable for him, just not for the reason Snotlout thought. Thereâd been a connection between them, and if heâd considered it only a hopeful fragment of his imagination at first, heâd definitely felt it the last time heâd seen her.
âJingle bells, Hiccup smells, Astrid ran away. She will never love you back and Snotlout is the king!â
âThatâs not what happened.â Hiccup regretted telling him about her. In his defense, though, that had been after Snot had put extra rum in his tea during the Christmas party thrown by the neighborhood theyâd grown up in together. And if the woman from the park had indeed been her, then he refused to believe that sheâd run away. General running, thatâs what sheâd been doing. The athletic kind.
âJingle bells, Astrid smells, Hiccup ran away. He is such an idiot and Snotlout is the king!â
âShe doesnât smell,â Hiccup mumbled, overwhelmed by the sudden memory of her flowery scent when heâd stood so close to her under the canopy. When heâd come to her wedding in an attempt to make peace with the fact that they could never be together. Because heâd been too late; because it wouldnât have mattered. She loved another man that she would spend the rest of her life with, and coming to her wedding day of all times to tell her he wanted to be that man would not have been fair. Sheâd made her decision and he couldnât just tell her what to do.
Maybe he really was an idiot.
A part of him wanted to drill Snotlout for details, ask what exactly sheâd said, if sheâd said anything at all. Ask if she still had a nose speckled with tiny freckles and ask if her eyes still resembled a clear blue summer sky.
But he didnât. Heâd sworn to get over her, and so far, that had worked⌠Or maybe not, heâd just chosen to ignore it and to tell himself he wasnât still thinking about her.
âWhat about Angela?â it came from the couch, accompanied by the metallic crinkling sound of an empty can. âShe seemed to like you. Or Crankyhead McPurplepants.â
âYou mean Kristy?â
âIf sheâs the cranky one with the purple pants, then yeah.â
Hiccup shrugged. âNone of them worked out.â A few months ago, heâd downloaded a dating app and dived into the world of online dating, only to delete his profile and create a new one every other week in a vicious cycle of loneliness and breakups when none of them could smother the fire for long that sheâd started within him. He was completely and utterly hung up on a girl he barely knew and yet felt deep in his heart every time a storm was raging through the sky and bolts of lightning illuminated the night.
And if he spent the majority of the next day on a bench in the park where heâd seen her yesterday, then that was just a coincidence. Because even the prospect of being friends with her seemed impossible, and who was to say he hadnât merely imagined her? Maybe heâd seen someone who looked a lot like her, maybe even a cousin or some kind of doppelganger designed to torment him.
But she didnât show up again. His stomach was growling and he felt restless, his right leg jiggling up and down like a bouncy ball on a sugar rush. Who was he kidding, anyway? He was just being pathetic. Giving up with a heavy heart, he left the park and went to the only place in Berk that sold his favorite cheap sandwiches on a Sunday evening.
Entering the main kiosk at Berk Central Station, he headed straight for the fridge, deciding between turkey and tuna, and ending up grabbing both sandwiches. It was only when he turned around that he caught sight of the small corner with the drugstore products.
Her hair was hanging over her shoulder in a slightly messy braid that she kept absentmindedly fiddling with. The jeans she was wearing had a large coffee stain at the side. The letters on her hoodie read Berk Vikings Swim Team and a year in Roman numerals. She was frowning at something on the shelf in front of her.
He blinked once, twice, to make sure it was really her, here, in this very kiosk, at this very moment in time.
Before he could overthink it, he walked up to her and, only hesitating for a few seconds, reached out his hand to touch her shoulder ever so slightly. She winced the same moment he pulled back his hand from the shock that had just rushed through his fingertips at the contact.
She turned around in question and time froze once more.
He swallowed hard. âHey.â
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Please Assist Me (Chapter 18)
Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Â Chapter 9, Ch6apter 10 , Chapter 11, Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14, Chapter 15 , Chapter 16, Chapter 17
Warnings: Explicit Content
He Said
At last in January of 2021, the schools opened and we felt like there was more every day normal going on.  There were a few more restaurants open with outdoor service too so Sophia and I had the occasional lunch out together when he had free time.  I was training hard though so I didnât have much free time which meant we tended to need to stick to Hollywood rather than driving out to the coast off the beaten track and that was our first mistake. Sophia had been my assistant  for almost 2 years now so it  wasnât odd for us to be seen together but as there was almost never any other women seen with me,  Cheryl alerted me that pictures started appearing in gossip rags, putting 2 and 2 together based on their (correct!) reading of intimate gazes and body language.
She Said
In the new year, a few photos started to come out of me with Keanu online and in gossip rags. The publicity wasnât hugely invasive and I wasnât too bothered by it - my family and friends knew the truth so this only really attracted random contact on social media from acquaintances being nosy rather than any real invasion at first.
My first direct experience that the attention was getting invasive came one day at the school pick up. I had noticed a man hovering at a distance from the gates who I was pretty sure wasnât a parent. My attention was torn away when my kids came out but as I turned to take them to the car, I saw a teacher cautiously approach him and after a brief exchange he turned on his heal and left. Thatâs when I spotted the camera slung over his shoulder. A couple of days later, pictures of me and the kids were published on-line on a gossip site. Â The kidsâ images were a little blurry but still, I was furious.
 He Said
âFuck!â
Iâd just clicked on my phone on a link Sophia had sent to me  for a photo news site showing pictures of her and the kids at their school gate. Some low life pap had tracked them down and deemed them newsworthy because of her link to me that had been emerging more and more frequently of late.
I forwarded it to Cheryl and asked her to arrange an urgent  call with her and my lawyer to work out an action plan. Then I called Sophia, nervous that I might be in for a tirade of Spanish insults.
âHun, you OK?â
âNo, Iâm not OK. Que pendejo insoportable!â
Here we go, I thought!
âwho me?!â
âNo, no, the photographer, this isnât your fault!â
âkind of is though isnât it?â
âNo, I wonât let you take the blame â but we have to stop them. The kids need to be kept out of this right?â
âYeah, Iâm waiting to hear back from Cheryl. I asked her to arrange a call with the lawyers. Iâll let you know when they can set it up OK? Â And Iâm sorry, even if you say it isnât my fault, it wouldnât be happening if we werenât in a relationship.â
She sighed.
âWeâll figure it out, OK, I just, I need to keep them safeâ
âI know, I know sweetheartâ
We managed to issue a cease and desist order on that particular photographer to not take further photographs of the children and put out a general statement asking the press to respect their privacy  but that did seem to have the effect of making them more thirsty for pictures of Sophia and I â we were still game.  As pictures circulated of us eating out or on bike rides, this apparently spawned a trend of what I understand are called âTrollsâ seeking out Sophia on social media to send her hateful messages to âleave me aloneâ and to stop âtrying to wheedle her way into my lifeâ  and âget her grubby Latino hands on my moneyâ. And, she said, if they didnât do it directly, there would be comments underneath her photo on fan sites with people expressing their disgust at my choice of romantic partner.  On top of that, there was a lot of denial  - people saying that Sophia was and could only ever be my PA â just like Janey they said. Good grief the world really had gone to hell - why did who I was dating even matter?
Apparently there were many people being kind and saying it was nice that Iâd found love and that she was beautiful, might give me the babies Iâd missed out on etc etc but I could see the comments of the trolls weighed on her mind and lodged there far more than anything positive. Eventually I said she should really just follow me into the social media free wilderness. She could keep an active messenger service for group chats with friends and use a cloud service to share photos of the kids with our parents but for her sanity, she needed to drop Facebook, Instagram and Twitter before she went insane!
 She Said
I knew I shouldnât get drawn into looking at what Keanuâs fan base were saying online but the curiosity was hard to control. I actually only started getting drawn in after the trolls started tracking my down and sending me abusive DMs. That made me want to know if there were any positive voices or if these nasty people basically spoke for the whole of his fandom. I found myself wasting so much time going down rabbit holes trying to find out who these people were but there was no way to do that really.
 When my general tetchiness finally got too much and Keanu said I should join him in the 1990s and get off social media, I knew he was right but at the same time it was infuriating as I had got so used to using it for sharing news, family photos, jokes etc as well as using all the messenger tools to connect with my friends. After all the isolation of 2020, this new isolation felt like a kick in the teeth but I felt so childish to think that way and didnât dare say anything to Keanu. Having never been on social media, he just wouldnât get it! After about a week though, I had to admit I felt better and admitted that his way was probably the sane option â after weeks of anxiety,  I finally felt free from the worry of silly people  out there who didnât know us personally having an opinion about whether we âshouldâ be dating.
Happily, we  also had a trip to New York to look forward to - Keanu would be starting filming on John Wick 4 and we were heading there as a family with around a week free to enjoy the city together before he would start on set.
The kids were beyond excited to be flying, not ever having done so before. They each had a little pull-along case and we booked first class so we would have as little time as possible milling around in the public spaces at the airport. I was sure thereâd be paps about - we couldnât ban them from taking our photo altogether even though weâd asked for their privacy to be respected so I was desperate to minimise their chances.
When we got to LAX, it was literally minutes after weâd got into the building when a fan approached asking for a photo. Keanu started to try and explain that he was on his down time with his family and would they mind if he didnât take one today but he hated the crestfallen look on their face and he quickly suggested that we split up and meet up in the lounge. I rummaged through my bag to get his ticket out and handed it to him with a pointed look at the woman before heading off to check in with the kids, not caring that my silent displeasure might make it online somewhere to be used as evidence of what a bitch I was!
We went on through to departures and waited a good half hour before he showed up.
âHey Keanu why did you take so longâ Eva whined.
He chuckled.
âSorry honey, but I guess itâs because âIâm Duke Caboom, Canadaâs greatest stuntmanâ he boomed, tickling her sides âand sometimes that means people want to say hi and take a photo so it took a while to catch you up.
âOh OKâ she said matter of factly not at all phased by that idea. I guess she knew how excited Julie and Mirandaâs kids had been when they zoomed with him when he was in Berlin so it made sense to her even though Toy Story 4 was the only thing sheâd ever seen with him in so she had no idea just how truly famous he was!
âYouâre too good to themâ I said, still a bit put out that weâd already been separated for a while right at the beginning of our trip.
âYeah, but it never ends well if Iâm an assâŚ. I mean not nice and youâve got to remember that Iâm usually âso highâ on a screen and seeing me in real life is exciting âŚ. to them at leastâ he said cocking an eyebrow at me as if to say that I no longer saw him as special.
âYouâre exciting to me too silly!â I said, relenting a bit from my sulk.
He squeezed my hand.
âDonât worry, Iâll try to give off some âstay awayâ vibes in New York so we can all hang out like real people.
âI know, Iâm being a bitch, I just wanted this to be, you know, normalâ
When we arrived in New York, we had a car waiting so were quickly away from the airport and managed to pass through it without being bothered. On the journey, the kids were pressing their faces against the car windows to see the famous sky-scrapers and there was much anticipation of getting to his apartment to see how their bedrooms looked. Weâd arranged to have them  decorated and bought new duvets and drapes which Keanuâs maid service had taken care of putting up for them. We got take out pizza for the first night and once again I felt safe and cocooned from the outside world of fans and paparazzi.
He Said
It was strange that Sophia and I had been together for not much short of a year before the public interest in me,  and its impact on living our lives, really became a pain in the ass and the source of some conflict  between us. I had to remind myself that Iâd been living this way for about 20 years and had learned to just allow a little extra time in my day for stopping for a photo. It only affected me when I was on my own so I had to learn to see if from her point of view  - it was a shock to her system basically. Sheâd been my PA for 2 years but we had rarely needed to conduct our business in the public eye so she hadnât even experienced the attention when we werenât dating â it was all happening in the context of her being my significant other and with the backdrop of the online trolls and the need to protect her kids.
I guess it would have happened much sooner if I hadnât been away filming for almost 5 months shortly after we started dating so weâd had an extended time of being together but with no-one outside of friends and family knowing. I tried to tell her we should be grateful all this hadnât started sooner. Iâm not sure that was the right thing to say!
My celebrity did have some advantages though and in New York Iâd managed to arrange a private tour of the  Empire State Building  and rink side seats at a Rangers game. Those earned me points but we werenât so lucky in Central Park. My apartment isnât far from there so we headed out for a walk one afternoon, ending up in in the Conservatory Garden figuring that this would be  a nice place to be by some water but not where most people would be like Bethesda or the model boat pond.
Weâd bought some sandwiches on our way (my time to enjoy the pastrami, pickle and Russian salad I so love) Â and settled on a bench to chill and rest the kidsâ legs when I saw a guy across the other side of the pond raising his camera. It was clearly a Pap with a long lens. Iâm normally not a hot head but it was such an intrusion to our pleasant afternoon that I handed Sophia my sandwich and marched up to him.
I was striding fast, not caring much that my stance was clearly threatening and some people idling by the pond scuttled out of my way. The Pap, surprisingly stood his ground until I reached him, squaring up to him.
âJust what in the hell do you think youâre doing? Weâre just having some private time as a family and you come along determined to ruin it!â
I was yelling and drawing the attention of others by the pond but I didnât care.
âhey man, youâre fair gameâ he responded brazenly.
âYeah thatâs right, I, me, Iâm fair game, me not them ,now get the hell out of hereâ
He was a short weasel of a guy and I was towering above him. He soon thought better of trying to take a picture and scurried away. Â A woman a few feet away spontaneously clapped!
âGood for you Keanuâ she said.
I blushed, coming down suddenly from the adrenaline of the confrontation. It has been a long time since Iâd even spoken to a Pap. I usually just ignored them, occasionally putting my hand in front of my face to ruin the shot. It generally wasnât worth antagonising them but this dude had pushed it too far.
I thanked her and returned to the bench. Sophia handed me back my sandwich while the kids eagerly asked why Iâd been shouting at the man. Â I explained as best I could and I think they were grateful that I just wanted their mom and them to enjoy their time without strangers photographing them.
A couple of days later, Cheryl let me know that the guy made a claim on-line that Iâd assaulted him â no actual legal claim was made, I guess because he knew it was bullshit. That was quickly proven when people quickly came forward that they had witnessed it and no such thing had happened. I wondered if the lady clapping was one of them.
  She Said
After the Central Park incident, I was so proud of how Keanu had stood up to the paparazzo but we still made a decision to do most of the tourist things without him after that. I couldnât see us being in Time Square, The Lego Store or the M&M store with him alongside us comfortably. And that was strange and a little sad for me to be back to the single parent feeling, having experienced some very cherished family days.
Our time to go home was fast approaching and I was keen to get one day just for the two of us. Luckily I have a cousin in New York who wanted to spend time with the kids and they offered to take  them on the boat trip to the Statue of Liberty for the day. We made the kids breakfast and handed them over to my cousin with backpacks, ready for their adventure.
We just had coffee ourselves as we were planning on a brunch out for ourselves later after some us time between the sheets!
The minute the door was shut, Keanu was pulling me by the hand back to bed.
We quickly shed our pjs, climbed under the covers and started to kiss
Keanu soon reached down and started to gently tease my folds. I moaned into his mouth thrusting myself against his fingers.
A thought came to me and I pulled back and asked
âCan we um, try something today ?â
âMmmm - what?â
âWell you know your movie, Siberia? â
He nodded
âWell, I watched it while you were away and, um that thing with your thumb ....â
âOh you want that do you?â - a wicked grin spread across his face
âWell we can try that lots of ways âŚ.. so, we can try that from behind. Get on all fours for meâ
I obliged and I felt him slip his stiff cock into me, my folds parting  with a pop. He was moving very slowly, then after a few thrusts as I was moaning softly, I felt his wet fingers reach around to gently tease my clit. He did it just enough to make me  moan louder but not enough to make me cum. Then he pulled out leaving me bereft
âWhat?â I cried out
Then he rolled over on his back and pulled me  onto him.
âAnd then thereâs lady on topâ
I happily sank down on his cock and started to ride him. I was groaning but at the same time I could hear my voice quavering as I neared orgasm once more. He licked his thumb, this time, re-enacting the Siberia moment making me throw my head back in pleasure. I was about to lift off, my voice  raised in pitch but again he stopped me before I could, holding my hips to stop my movement.
The he flipped me over onto my back and straddled me, making me wait a few moments as he played with my breasts and smoothed his hands down my sides .
âAnd finally we can try man on topâ
âWill you do that thing ?â I asked
âWhat the thumb ?â
âNo, well yes, but first the thing where you lift me onto youâ
âOh like our first time?â
I nodded, glad he remembered.
He obliged lifting me onto him, pulling me up,  ensheathing him  slowly so I could feel every vein of his rigid cock and he could feel every ridge of my tunnel.
I was wailing by now each time he pulled me up then released me â I could feel his cock getting even harder when he asked simply
âReady?â
I just whimpered and nodded my agreement.
 He Said
I was so close to coming, I needed to really focus to give her everything she deserved.
I manoeuvred her fully onto her back and encouraged her to lift her legs up over my shoulders.
This allowed me maximum access to thrust in all the way to her cervix and pump in and out.
I could already feel the beginnings of her orgasm, her pussy pulsating around me. It was as if she was a beautiful flower, attracting me with her petals then sucking me in, holding me there in a vice like grip to take what she needed from me. It was primal and all encompassing
As I felt the ripples get more intense, I managed to balance on my left hand and free my right hand, lick my thumb and circle it over her clit.
That was it, it was all over for both of us. She clamped around me, her legs quivering and I shot my hot load inside shouting out as she screamed âyes, yes oh god, yesâ
My thrusts gradually slowed, I was still moaning and fighting to catch my breath. I eased her legs down and lay on her just holding my weight off her by resting on my elbows. I gave her a sloppy kiss before easing off her onto my back. I still couldnât speak. and just squeezed her hand. Tears leaked out of my eyes and I gulped, looking across, I found her in a similar emotional state.
âWow that was - god I donât think Iâve ever, ever come so hardâ
âMe neither - love you so much Mr Reevesâ
âWhy do you always call me that after really great sex?â
âDunnoâ she chuckled âmaybe to give you the respect you deserve for making love to me so, so âŚ.â
âWhat?â
âSo masterfully, so beautifullyâ
âMmmmmmmâ
âLetâs have a snooze before brunch yeah?â
âMmmmâ
I think she was almost asleep already as she turned away and I spooned behind her, holding her warm breast in the palm of my hand.
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