#my psychiatrist

[mashupofmylife]

@heartbeatsandrainstorms replied to your post “For reasons that I now can't remember, my...”:

So...did you bring the stuffed animal to therapy with you? Inquiring minds that also sleep with stuffed animals want to know :)

​You bet I did! And he's such a child psychiatrist that he picked up on the nickname I use for her and has since used that nickname to follow up and ask how it felt to bring her to therapy and said that I am welcome to bring her whenever I want in the future.

We ended up talking about my attachment style and pattern of relationships and some trends with relationships in my family which all came out of me bringing her which was productive and academically interesting, not that I've been able to operationalize it or anything like that.

[traaumaa]

*has several debilitating disorders* idk maybe i'm just lazy

[all-my-ocs-are-evil]

more dc x dp doodles

i've realized that this fandom either has a bunch a of shitposts or some type of angst. so i offer you one of each!

(mainly to cover up the fact that i'm not very good at either lol)

[arthur-side]

Idc what the outcome will be but I'll probably need the motivation

If this post gets:

350 notes: I'll start properly writing the Vigilante AU that I'm struggling to do

500 notes: I'll start to clean my household that's dusty af

1000 notes: I'll start studying for my Journalism(I have to catch on a lot hwlp)

2000 notes: I'll start art studying more on the face

3000 notes: I'll start actually exercising the whole week(I've been needing to take vitamins because of how much I just sit and struggle to do something with my body)

4000 notes: I'll start actually studying for my school

5000 notes: I'll try stopping the voices in my head that says that all my injuries/suffering are just little and actually start trying to ask for help more

10000 notes: I'll go and fight my trauma and start trying to cook more food other than rice and eggs because I still remember that fire back when I was around 5(It's funny because I wanted to become a chef before and now I joke a lot about arson, ironic, ain't it?)

Why so much? I really want to do these and yet there's something in my head making me scared of doing these

No rules, go insane if needed

[wimsiecal]

“it's not like I lay awake at night thinking about her!”

“…uh oh”

[pinep-ne]

lovely sketch BY the lovely @veckati made in (honor? regard?) to my charthur propaganda (cozy charthur doodles)

i must compose myself. i really love this drawing a lot. i was having heart palpitations this morning

[renyaia]

“Not fond of eye contact are you?”

“Eyes are distracting– you see too much, you don't see enough"

[fuck-powered-art-machine]

Listen I have a lot of things I need to wait for today, a lot on my mind, a tiny sketchbook and about 7 different ballpoint pens stolen from different offices

I need to occupy myself somehow, so I'm putting him in situations

[bixels]

I hate how ADHD has made just the act of eating difficult. My psychiatrist and doctors have told me that eating food is none-negotiable and a part of my medication, but it’s still hard to self-motivate. I have to struggle every day not to purposely starve myself. It’s gotten to the point where I won’t eat anything for a whole day and will feel fine and that’s bad. Or stomach growling feels good.

[kaijutegu]

I love seeing a bright fresh scale next to one that's about to shed, but it's a little bittersweet seeing how much lighter her head is getting- she's losing the last of her baby colors! My little girl is growing up... it's almost a year since she came home already. I have many feelings about this.

[galactic-rhea]

Hi, I wanted to say that I never really got Anidala before. I watched the clone wars as a kid and I just never... got it, it didn't click at all, I actively disliked it in a lot of ways. I found their episodes together to be a bore at best and annoying at worst. I just didn't like them.

The I found your acount, and that comic you did, about Padme seeing herself as more than a person becuase she's survived so much and Anakin just seeing her as... as herself... and I get it now. It's like that one thing just made it all click.

Idk if it's my favorite ship, but I can certainly say: I get it now.

sorry for the late response, this must be one of the biggest compliments ever! Making someone change their opinion on a ship is quite hard, if i know something about fandom! So thank you very much, hahaa :' ) I'm glad you liked that comic and hope you keep enjoying my art! <3

they trauma bonded you honor

[crimeronan]

the last time i went to therapy they told me there was nothing wrong with me and that the clinic was for people with real problems.

this sounds like a joke about how i'm in denial about my mental illness but it's an actual legit thing that happened.

the reason it happened is not very fun or funny or punchline-like though. what happened was that i walked in and started the intake paperwork and one of the papers was a court document telling me to sign away my right to refuse ECT and force-fed antipsychotics. this document was included with no explanation in a stack of other more standard consent forms. i was at a low income medicaid clinic that serves a lot of homeless people who don't have legal counsel warning them what they're signing.

after several panicked texts to my partners, i overcame the fawn response just enough to ask the receptionist, "hey, is it okay if i look this over before i sign it?" and they replied, "oh, yeah, that one needs a legal witness anyway."

but it was included with no explanation in the consent forms. a document telling me to sign my name stating i'm incompetent and can be held down and subjected to 1950s horror torture if the doctor feels like i should be.

so i went into my appointment and i answered all the questions as brightly and neurotypically and sweetly as i could, and they told me i was incredibly self-aware and well-adjusted and that there was nothing they could do for me, and then i went home having been dishonest with my therapist.... but ALSO still having the right not to be Fucking Lobotomized For No Reason.

now don't get me wrong: i'm gonna guess the Vast Majority of therapist's offices do not do this. i'll even guess that this was flagrantly illegal, although i'm not super familiar with my state's specific patient rights protocols.

but it is Very Important to know that when you say "go to therapy, therapy is beneficial, and tell your therapist everything, because lying is counterproductive"

....some of the people you say that to. are going to walk into clinics like this.

so like.

please.

for my sake.

please understand.

Lying To Therapists... And Not Going To Therapy... Is Good, Sometimes ,

[h0use-fly]

lazy

[all-my-ocs-are-evil]

Jason's been pestering Danny about why he looks like a borderline walking corpse for ages and Danny has decided to put his lying skills to the test. (he has none)

rambling below cut

I've been playing w the idea that the more Danny transforms, the more his ghost form gets "lively" while his human form gets weaker and more sickly. He knows that if he keeps transforming like this then, one day, he's not going to have a livable body to go back to, but he really doesn't want to think about all that. He's more interested in the weird "totally dead but not dead" Wayne son who may or may not have a thing for his sister.

everytime i do one these im like "this time I'll keep it simple so I don't have to suffer through colouring bc I have zero foresight—it'll be greyscale at most" and then all of the sudden its 4am and i'm trying to finish a stupid comic but i decided to add "some" colour to spice it up and hide my shitty ink job and then SOME COLOUR ALWAYS BECOMES FULL COLOUR WHY CAN I NOT ESCAPE THIS STUPID CYCLE!!

(did this all stem from me not being able to decide between a super pale character design and one w a vibrant tan bc I love white hair + tan but I also love extremely pale albino so I forced myself to find a way to make both work? never! that's absurd!)

[cheburekich]

I love them. They deserve to be happy T_T

[wimsiecal]

Maybe 2020 me was cooking something