#my poor pc</3

[vegan-kaktus]

My ssd drive is completely full. Not too surprised since I scanned a lot of negatives I got back from the lab recently, and I am in need of a new drive (I have so much stuff omfg) so I got a bigger ssd which my dad made a clean install of Windows on. Yay!

BUT just when I thought I had everything under control, my trash-backup-ish disk "died" (I'm shocked it held on for this long tbh hahaha). Everything I had on there is stuff I have on my C:\ drive so it's not pure panic, but I downloaded Diskdrill to see if I could get it all back (instead of trying to figure out what I had on it, my memory is pure shit) and somehow it even found files I had deleted???? I found a BUNCH (if not all) of the files I downloaded off of carrigon's site some years ago before her 4shared files died. Fingers crossed they aren't corrupt when I restore them, and I can upload them to packrat!

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[solplease]

gonna lose my mind actually. i want the yeonjun figure from his album SOOOOO badly its so cute GUHHHHH. look how cute </3 GUH....

[normal-thoughts-official]

really appreciate the way the lowest quality graphics are called "performance" and "ultra performance" instead of like. "lowest" or "hell graphics for shitty pcs" or "pixel shortage simulator", which is what I'd have called them

[mrd0ll]

["We are both loser, baby ♪"]

[AAAAAAAAAH, I love this series and the song with Angel and Husk j0j So i just take a scene that i really likee damn]

[Husogi belong to me!]

[Background and if Husogi was alone heh ->]

[And the reference/scene]

[alliluyevas]

dragon age discourse but. even if i have considered a cousland dao playthrough because i love alistair and i kind of do want a happy ending with him, i also think that "fem warden cousland marries alistair and becomes queen" or i guess also "male warden cousland marries anora and becomes king" tho fewer people seem to play that is probably one of the most boring storytelling choices you could end up with lmfao

[thepurpleblossom]

Rises from the dead just to share with you guys this super duper cute 20cm Sakura doll I custom-ordered from @cocopines (twitter || instagram) !!!

Super grateful to her for allowing me to be her first customer. She's been super fantastic at providing suggestions/advice whenever needed even during my design draft stage, and extremely proactive in making sure I'm okay with every change and the embroidery and materials!!

Coco also very kindly made an exception and gave the OK to clothes customisation because I just very badly wanted F/HA!Sakura (and ImaginaryAround!Sakura, but we don't talk about that yet) ;w; God knows how many pictures of Sakura I sent her way even though she wasn't familiar with the fandom at all.

Especially when I suddenly decided that I'd also like to have a butterfly embroidery on her chest!!! bless her soul for agreeing to it when it wasn't stated at the start

the quality of the doll is really good (please look at her little heart paws!!) and even the outfit was done really well. I was initially a bit worried how the sleeve would look, but it is 100% perfect, even the clasp and everything. please i adore this so much 😭😭💕💕

Please consider commissioning her for your doll needs too! She does other sizes like 10cm dolls too~ I comm'd her for two 10cms too!

▸▸Details can be found here (carrd || twitter)

[vvyvernicus]

I have decided to undertake making a fanfiction about Baldurs Gate 3 to cope with not being able to play the game myself because the hardware is too strenuous for my almost 11 year old desktop. However, I have run into a mild setback on my progress.

There are only so many YouTube clips I can use to reference and not every conversation between the origin characters is on the wiki for easy viewing.

So, I'm making this post in hopes people can dump miscellaneous information onto me. Stuff like character banter. Mostly stuff about the companions since character/relationship development will be a central point in this fic. I already know plenty about Astarion thanks to all the people uploading stuff online (and honestly would love more), but I would love more info on the other characters. I've been doing my own research, but it would be great to have an inside source or two from people who have actually played the game.

If you have any interest in helping me with this, feel free to direct message me!

[novarex]

I have SO MUCH actual job work today and dumb, feral brain is like "I'm reeeeady to write, hoe! Boot up the smut writing machine!" And I just gotta sit here in Zoom meetings, talking to clients, and sending business emails with a brain full of elf dick.

[vialae]

I still don’t know if it was a bug with just using strong male body, but in a previous run when I did the Haarlep scene and it has this moment after you’ve undressed where it pans behind the player. And it did that and it was genuinely a sweeping shot of my poor durge’s nuts from behind and it was so jarring.

This happened over a month ago and I still think about it sometimes because that is a very funny shot to have in a cutscene, but I also don’t know if it was on purpose

[cirillafionaelenriannon]

me when I only had 46 dollars in my account until spotify charged me 12 dollars and then discord charged me 9 dollars then paramount 9 dollars and then I remembered I got locked out of my Amazon account and they're going to charge me 22 dollars for a subscription I can't cancel and I don't even have the money for it

[maranull]

matching fits for hunting cultists

[spacegay-archetype]

BG3 after I already bought and downloaded it: your graphics card isn’t good enough dude

Me: I’ll be the judge of that

BG3: unplayable

[morganalefay]

i got so excited for the witcher 3 next gen update today, only to realize it’s not available on nintendo switch yet 😭

[avzplays]

Yeah, coming from an oddball herself XD Gotta love Evelyn

[gootarts]

as of 8/3, the most recently updated version of this post is here (it's a reblog of this exact post with more info added)

as a lot of you know, limbus company recently fired its CG illustrator for being a feminist, at 11 pm, via phone call, after a bunch of misogynists walked into the office earlier that day and demanded she be fired. on top of this, as per korean fans, her firing went against labor laws---in korea, you must have your dismissal in writing.

the korean fandom on twitter is, understandably, going scorched earth on project moon due to this. there's a lot currently going on to protest the decision, so i'm posting a list here of what's going on for those who want to limit their time on elon musk's $44 billion midlife crisis impulse purchase website (if you are on twitter, domuk is a good person to follow, as they translate important updates to english). a lot of the links are in korean, but generally they play nicely with machine translators. this should be current as of 8/2.

Statements condemning the decision have been issued by The Gyeonggi Youth Union and IT Union.

A press conference at the Gyeonggido Assembly will occur on 8/3, with lawmakers of the Gyeonggi province (where Project Moon is based) in attendance. This appears driven by the leader of the Gyeonggi Youth Union.

The vice chairman of the IT union--who has a good amount of experience with labor negotiations like these--has expressed strong support for the artist and is working to get media coverage due to the ongoing feminist witch hunts in the gaming industry. Project Moon isn't union to my knowledge, but he's noted that he's taken on nonunion companies such as Netmarble (largest mobile game dev in South Korea) by getting the issue in front of the National Assembly (Korea's congress).

Articles on the incident published in The Daily Labor News, Korean Daily, multiple articles on Hankyoreh (one of which made it to the print edition), and other news outlets.

Segments about the termination on the MBN 7 o' clock news and MBC's morning news

Comments by Youth Union leaders about looking into a loan made to Project Moon via Devsisters Ventures, a venture capital firm. Tax money from Gyeonggi province was invested in Devsisters in 2017, and in 2021, Devsisters gave money to Project Moon. The Gyeonggi Youth Union is asking why hard-earned tax money was indirectly given to a company who violates ESG (environmental, social and governance) principles.

Almost nonstop signage truck protests outside Project Moon's physical office during business hours until 8/22 or the company makes a statement. This occurs alongside a coordinated hashtag campaign to get the issue trending on Twitter in Korea. The signage campaign was crowd-funded in about 3 hours.

A full boycott of the Limbus Company app, on both mobile and PC (steam) platforms. Overseas fans are highly encouraged to participate, regardless if whether they're F2P or not. Not opening the app at all is arguably the biggest thing any one person can do to protest the decision, as the app logs the number of accounts that log on daily. For a new gacha such as Limbus, a high number of F2P daily active users, but a small number of paying users is often preferable to having a smaller userbase but more paying users. If the company sees the number of daily users remain stable, they will likely decide to wait out any backlash rather than apologize.

Digging up verified reviews from previous employees regarding the company's poor management practices

Due to the firing, the Leviathan artist has posted about poor working conditions when making the story. As per a bilingual speaker, they were working on a storyboard revision, and thought 'if I ran into the street right now and got hit by a car and died, I wouldn't have to keep working.' They contacted Project Moon because they didn't want their work to be like that, and proposed changes to serialization/reduction in amount of work per picture/to build up a buffer of finished images (they did not have any buffer while working on Leviathan to my knowledge). They were shut out, and had to suck it up and accept the situation.

Hamhampangpang has a 'shrine' section of the restaurant for fans to leave fan-created merch and other items. They also allow the fans to take this merch back if they can prove it's theirs. Fans are now doing just that.

To boost all of the above, a large number of Korean fanartists with thousands of followers have deleted their works and/or converted their accounts from fanart accounts to accounts supporting the protests. Many of them are bilingual, and they're where I got the majority of this information.

[note 1: there's a targeted english-language disinformation campaign by the website that started the hate mob. i have read the artist's tweets with machine translation, and they're talked about in the second hankyoreh article linked above: nowhere does she express any transphobic or similarly awful beliefs. likewise, be wary of any claims that she supported anything whose description makes you raise eyebrows--those claims are likely in reference to megalia, a korean feminist movement. for information on that, i'd recommend the NPR/BBC articles below and this google drive link of english-language scholarly papers on them. for the love of god don't get your information about a feminist movement from guys going on witch hunts for feminists.]

[note 2: i've seen a couple people argue that the firing was for the physical safety of the employees, citing the kyoani incident in japan. as per this korean fan, most fans there strongly do not believe this was the case. we have english-translated transcripts of the meeting between the mob and project moon; the threats the mob was making were to......brand project moon as a feminist company online. yes, really. male korean gamers aren't normal about feminism, and there's been an ongoing witch hunt for feminists in the industry since about 2016, something you see noted in both the labor union statements. both NPR and the BBC this phenomenon to gamergate, and i'd say it's a pretty apt comparison.]

let me know if anything needs correction or if anything should be added.