I almost hate good books because they end, and kids in higher grades because they're graduating before me. I almost hate strangers pets,
and people who sit by me at the airport
and people waiting near me in line
and kids I talked to once in the halls
and weeklong summer camps
and new old dogs.
i almost hate the girl who sat across me mid flight to dallas. I think about her every day.
cuz fuck. i almost loved her. couldve loved them all. see they're all things with an ending I knew before it came, knew when I had the chance to stop it, and I fell for it anyway.
whats it worth, I ask for the thousandth time, when I walk into this again well aware the end isnt one I can change.
what's it worth, I ask for the thousandth time, tracing a worn path, reading the lines of a story I know by heart.
wouldn't it be easier to stay away. wouldn't it be easier to hate beforehand like i say I could. its inevitable what's coming, I know I know. yet i dont care until I do.
wouldn't it be easier to drop them before they can ever get the chance to drop me,
and if so,
why haven't I yet?
stupid question. I know why.
sometimes,
i sing fate like it's a camp song. most times you are singing with me.
Fair lady of seafoam
Away from your watery home,
A kiss of true love you won't get
From a prince you just met.
Back to the sea you go
But as a stream in an eternal flow.