#my mum had to help me

[mangostar]

just woke up from a 2 hour nap that i took as soon as i got home and when i sat up and looked down blood just spew out onto my shirt

[aeolianblues]

in the best case scenario my asexuality is a ticking time bomb that will have to be dealt with family-wise sooner or later. In today’s society it’s just not a normal accepted thing to simply be by yourself your whole life. Especially as people start breaking off into the family structure and friends who were once your community and support system become a smaller presence in your life because spouses and kids take precedence— I don’t know any ace people who haven’t worried at some point about dying alone. You don’t simply ‘have a housemate friend’ you live with where e.g. there is someone there for you if you have a sudden emergency. What if you can’t move? What if you’re ill and can’t get out of bed? I’m glad our worlds are better connected today, but the chances that you’ll be with someone safe and known if that happens are smaller than if you’ve got your own family, right? Or is the bleak best case scenario that an ace person has an emergency while at work?

Aces are a pretty small % of the population in general. To say you’ll find another ace person and cohabit is a really small chance. As most people start to move in with their partners, single people, ace people kind of find themselves either priced out of housing options unless rich, or being forced to find other strangers in unusual living circumstances.

I don’t know. I just feel like you are left more on your own in a societal structure that prioritises two-parent-and-children households. Or more generally, that sets you up for marital and couples living rather than necessarily community living, at least in the west.

So what I’m saying is that maybe ‘oppression’ isn’t the word to bring to the advocacy table. It is saying that maybe the thing to remember is that ‘oppression’ won’t look the same for everyone. It’s a reminder that comparing the weight of apples and watermelons doesn’t even make sense.

(This isn’t even aimed at the shortsighted people that think pride is all about labels and being ‘in’ the club. This post is aimed at people that remember pride is a political struggle to improve the lives of people left behind by our current norms. It’s why e.g. disability activists also calling their advocacy disability pride is instantly understood by most.)

It’s why ‘[x] queer group is so not oppressed’ is the emptiest and most wasteful statement you could make in the context of queer rights advocacy.

[gingerbreadpopsolo]

I FED UP WITH THE ARGUMENT

[neurodivergent-mermaid]

"I wish i could be nonverbal it would be so peaceful"

I promise you it wont feel peaceful when you need to call an ambulance

when your in a situation with police

when there's a fire, when you need help, when you are stuck,

when you need to call literally anyone to do basic life things

when you need to answer the door

when you need to buy something from a shop

when you need to have a conversation

when you need to get a job

when you need to participate in school

when you need to do basic life things that involve speech but that never crosses your mind because you have the privilege of speech

Stop saying you wish you could be nonverbal, you dont know what you are wishing for

[THIS IS ABOUT BEING NONVERBAL, NOT ABOUT VERBAL SHUTDOWNS. "Going nonverbal" does not exist. You are having a verbal shutdown. Which is fundamentally a different experience than being nonverbal.]

[lazylittledragon]

ok so this is Extremely specific but it's the middle of the night and i can't stop thinking about it: anyone who was/is involved in the les mis fandom, did i hallucinate the enjolras cosplayer who made a fan novel and also a fan film and then later was exposed for cheating on his partner, divorcing them and abandoning his child with cancer to go and become a jewish lawyer or was that something that actually happened

[danikatze]

I've been rewatching Mushishi and hhh this series is everything to me..!! One thing I just love so much is how it could've been so easy to make Ginko a quiet, brooding and all-knowing, morally pure type of mysterious guy, but he's so not?

He's expressive and funny and likeable and calming and kind of rude! He genuinely cares, but doesn't always fulfil his promises. He's very smart and has a ton of knowledge, but he very often doesn't have the answer to a problem. Sometimes he even gives advice or takes steps that end up doing more harm than good. He's also not above pranking, haggling and downright scamming people lmao.

In conclusion, I love him very much and would like to be his friend :3

[trans-ralsei]

okay i can't find that post any more

but i worry about the trans girls who have gaping holes where their personalities should be.

it takes a lot of effort for a person to sustain your continued spiritual and psychological existence. i've met these trans girls, and i've tried to help (or I think I've tried to help). but the deadliest part of this is that to build yourself up brick by brick requires you to fight against the currents that want you dead, that want you to be the empty husk of a human being.

that's why the whole please stay alive thing is such a resonating statement; you need to stay alive for your own sake.

in the home city that means trying to find your own shelter when rent can easily cost you a third of your wage and landlords fucking suck. that means looking for a job that won't fucking deadname or misgender you, that you can tolerate. that means surviving. that means leaving clingy and transphobic family behind and uprooting what the home city believes should be your entire support system. that means trying to live, to get to the point where you can get hormone therapy, hair removal, bottom surgery.

i can't promise that things will get better. but if you know someone like that. if you know a trans girl like that. please. keep them alive. and help them fight. help them be themselves, and grow and bloom again.

we don't have much in the home city, but there are resources. places. things that we are doing and building so that we don't lose people. allies that are fighting alongside us.

because we will win. and when we win, i hope we don't have to mourn.

[critterzkeeper]

20. What would you put in a microwave out of morbid curiousity, if no harm would come to you or others?

probably an egg. would it really explode? much to ponder.

[enlighten3d]

am i being unreasonable when i tell my mum that i dont want to go out and walk the dog tonight bcs my legs hurt. it hurts, i dont want to do it? obviously? but no, apparently i just dont want to work on myself and am content to stay suffering in my pain because its suchhhhh a convenient excuse!

how the fuck does putting myself in more pain lessen the pain. how. exercise? i guess? i dont blinding know

i cant even argue with her

[clarabowmp3]

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[divinekangaroo]

Was thinking while watching that scene where Pol tells Ada about her abortion.

Polly really doesn't take on the mum role in the family to my mind, or even the matriarch/aunt tbh. And I think, there was some summary somewhere that referred to her as the consigliere and while she does perform a certain bouncing-board, plan formation role with Tommy (and only with Tommy, and only with insight into certain parts of his plans; I'm struggling to think of times the others listen to her without Tommy backing her up, S3 as example of when they don't), her other behaviours in the family also mean this isn't her role at all.

She's the wild older sister who is loving and explosive and hurtful, and incredibly, incredibly fragile, afraid and she feels so very scared, vulnerable and alone, most of the time. She just wants all her loved ones to be happy and safe and in achieving that, Tommy is frequently as much of an obstacle as he is the vehicle to get her that. I do headcanon that Polly lives 99% of her life in fear and on that edge of breakdown, it's just that she's lived with it so long she probably doesn't even acknowledge it any more. Her reactivity is so high.

So yeah, it's no wonder Tommy sort of plays that joint patriarch-matriarch role (arranging marriages etc), because Polly is *not* playing the matriarch.

[ghosts-of-love]

i'm so tired

[figureitoutinthemorning]

Somehow I have agreed to go down to my grandad’s house on Christmas morning, when my dad’s driving down so I can get a lift. And it occurs to me. :) That I don’t. :) Want to. :)

[vaguely-concerned]

nothing makes me feel like a golden god quite like a new recipe turning out delicious on the first try. unfortunately, conversely nothing makes me feel more 'I am god's mistake' than spending all that time and effort on something and having to make a sandwhich b/c the results were inedible if you want to retain your capacity for delight. the duality of home chef

[silveredsticks]

x

[navybluetriangles]

Mixed feelings today. I sewed my squares together! Yay!!! It looks a bit crappy in parts, and I'm definitely not going to get it done for Sunday. Which, is making me a little sad, I really really wanted it done for her birthday party on Sunday.

I had food with my parents tonight which was nice! But also, my mum said that once I'm done with this blanket I should lay off the crochet for a bit, because I basically I need to look after the house more. Apparently she can tell that it's not as good as it usually is. Ngl, that's made me really sad this evening. I know that there's stuff in the living room/on the table, and there's spiders in the downstairs bathroom. I know it. But crochet is my time for myself and I've been feeling guilty for doing so much of it lately, and just when I'm starting to feel okay about it, I'm reminded that actually it's not okay for me to spend that much time on myself. :( I know she means well, but it just makes me feel like a failure again. My house is a mess and I need to rein in my joy.

Also sad because I went to show her the progress I'm making on my other blanket and I found that there's a hole/some damage in one of the central squares. I really don't know how to fix it, or if it can be fixed.

I can't think about that too much or I really will cry about it. 😆😆😅

But anyway, one strawberry blanket almost done!