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rechererdureveperdu · 2 years ago

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#I can't seem to write anymore #I wrote this maybe a year or more ago and it feels so good and natural #it feels like me #and yet #every time I think about writing #I just...#don't #my hands feel so empty #my life so pointless #and yet the idea of writing hurts #it feels like i can't tell any story #i shouldn't tell THE story #because it's a story that I have to take command over #and by defining the right and the wrong #i will be setting my point of view over someone else's #I was on the phone to the vet today #and they asked me if she was Ari's other owner #and I did laugh it off #I was like 'hmm might be awkward for her to get info about Ari'#but in my heart #I was remembering taking her cat to the vet when she was sick #and how Ari did not like her #I know my point of view #I am uncomfortable with it though #the idea of having a point of view is too hard #too sticky #too much #no one wants to know #but sometimes I read my stuff #and the world cracks open

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ghost-bxrd · 24 days ago

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((I caved and maybe-kinda-sorta started a liiiiittle bit on Jujutsu Kaisen and—- wtf do you mean a fifteen year old is totally a-okay with being executed eventually because it serves the greater good????? And everybody is just like “cool,” like it’s totally normal????? WTF??? Like, sir, ARE YOU AWARE YOU ARE LITERAL SUNSHINE INCARNATE———))

#remember my short foray into the parksborn hellhole?#I think this has similar vibes #also wtf man this kid is so ready to die while also being full of life #it makes me feel things and I don’t like it #just—- that kid OBVIOUSLY wants to live and have fun and experience everything life has to offer #instead he gets doomed to be executed as soon as he’s fulfilled his ‘purpose’?#and sir wtf do you mean you’re basically taking a kid under your wing just to kill him later on #like— I’m saying this with all my heart but- WTF #((this is gonna break me isn’t it))#jjk #jujutsu Kaisen #pointless rambling

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cent-scratchnsniff · 2 months ago

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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #hod #hod lobcorp #lobotomy corp spoilers #I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form #lobcorp spoilers #and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic #other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her #i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally #she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en #up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression #tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on #her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees #she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health #sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work #but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager #yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the #way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does #yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what #is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and #not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing #its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good #sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where #her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling #as she is interrupting their free time in the company #which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there #but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end #EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough

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dailyjasontodd · 2 months ago

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Hi! I saw your last post's tags, and I was wondering, what was your favourite theory for Robin Lives? How did it get debunked? Somehow I haven't seen proper speculation for this comic, only criticism 🥲

Oh my very early first theory (like literally thought about it after reading the very first issue) was that Jason's therapist would kill the joker, there was a page that could've been really neat foreshadowing if it went that route, but well. -🐅

#like the therapist getting attached to jason and doing that for him would've been interesting bc it would've #played with the role 'mother figures' always have in jasons life and other stuff thats pointless to elaborate on now #bc it wont happen #pretty cliche tbh but thats me. i like cliches unfortunately for every writer #asks #mod post #?#oh also i love speculating about comics but i rarely share my thoughts bc they never become real #if you have seen my dms about the batman v catwoman arc.. i had so much faith in that event LOL

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months ago

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favourite stupid relationship dynamic: idiots who would immediately protect and defend the other but never themself

#still thinking about how lxl just takes whatever life throws at them without fighting back (esp in the lxl movie)#so it was up to the other (mainly yujiro) to do the protecting (of aizo) since he was clearly not going to do anything about it #poor yujiro never fought back against the longleg/shortleg until aizo was brought up… no sense of self-preservation with that one #‘you can mess with me but not my bf!!!!!’ kind of energy #ig aizo did kind of defend yujiro in the [redacted] anime ep 4 nonsense and pointless scandal scene but that’s about it…#give aizo more chances to play the hero for his cute bf!!!!! the princess carry wasn’t enough!!!!#though. ngl it’s kinda funny how aizo’s always portrayed as the husband and yujiro the wife in their r/s (see: meoto)#but yujiro is always the one fighting for aizo’s honour. l&k novel (i think; still havent read it). lxl movie. chizu hallway scene (kind of)#and even in honeypre he got aizo the werewolf costume (instead of the pumpkin). he was the one who gave aizo a gift on white day (like a bf)#he even turned aizo into a worried wife when he (the bumbling husband) wandered out till late in kyoto to look for a *phone strap*#hm. well. im not sure what the point im trying to make is other than the fact that lxl are idiots for each other ig #they may be really really stupid but they love(?) and support each other (in a sense)… two menaces in a pod.#they should just get married (again)#though speaking of lxl marriage remember when that music magazine spread misinfo about how meoto was set in the sengoku era #and everyone believed it? the mv sure shocked everyone in more ways than one lmaooooooo #lxl twt was on fire that day. ‘horns??? a fantasy setting????? what happened to the sengoku era?????’ it was so funny you h a d to be there #but. hm. we’ve had quite a lxl content drought… disregarding the [redacted] mv they havent been seen in 4 months #throwing out a guess that they’ll get a new song for a winter comiket cd or sth. idk #sure hope that lxl do not get a new song or mv before kimikawaii release though bc that’d be unfairrrrrrrrr

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autistic-katara · 7 days ago

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icl i would be at least a little happy with almost any ending for stranger things but one thing that would ruin all of it would be an epilogue (of a decade or more later)

#it would just kinda ruin the fun of imagining them doing whatever tf i want them to these days yk #like even if everyone got together the way i wanted them and got the jobs i think fit etc it would still just kill the creativity #+ even the small things would annoy me like what if i just don’t like what one of them named their kids. or dresses like in 20 years #maybe i wanted them divorced by then but that would’ve angered the fans #maybe i wanted to imagine that single person’s future spouse myself (or keep them single in my head)#what if i want them to recover from this or that or still be working on it. what if i the adult/older actors look shit #anyways point is do not do an epilogue timeskip of more than 5/6years PLEASE i am begging u duffer brothers #stranger things #byler #<- u guys get me on this yk #even if byler isn’t canon at the end i can still at least imagine they do in uni or in their 30s or whenever #as long as there isn’t some fucking scene where mike and el r old and married in 2023 or something #would just kinda ruin all of it; making us see them as old ass adults with their entire lives set it stone yk #manifesting a few month/year timeskip where everyone gets a happy ending isn’t all “and then they lived a nice life in this specific way”#and especially manifesting that we don’t get an #“i haven’t seen you guys in decades how’ve you been? sucks that erica died in a car crash last year. she was almost 40”#type epilogue (if we must have one)#like no hate to amphibia and that one 80s movie but it just kinda makes what happened before a bit pointless if it focused on their #relationships at all #like cool we spent years watching these friendships grow and adapt only for u to go “yeah and we’re strangers now soz :)” like ok so none o #that lasted #idgaf if it’s “realistic” if i wanted realistic representation of childhood friends into adulthood id think about real life and shit #idk random rant if they do any of this shit i WILL kill all of them and then myself #ryan shut the fuck up

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all-pacas · 16 days ago

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morning! like probably the rest of you i both slept and feel like shit. In a way, that’s why this tumblr exists for me, to detach: I’m on a personal level going to take a couple days off of news and phone alerts and block the politics tag, just to level out and calm down. And that means I’m also going to go back to my usual spam here. Disassociation. 🙃

#like for real. for my own mental health i need to have a conversation place that is just #silly fun fandom things #for better or for worse my tumblr is it #i sometimes worry i come off as callous or uncaring #but like. i don’t want to do performative shit either #make this tumblr a politics and real life blog to prove some imaginary people i care #which is no knock on politics and real life blogs #i just need a space. for silly pointless shit that doesn’t matter #to stay sane #anyway i am legit exhausted so not sure this made sense #don’t take my quick return to fandom stuff as a sign i don’t care about things etc #that’s all

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snixx · 28 days ago

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you know as a neurodivergent person I only have two fucking requests of anyone I consider a friend: 1) do not cold shoulder or get aggressively angry with me for something you didn't bother to communicate you had a problem with and 2) do not fucking infantalize me and treat me like a naive fragile broken child who is a burden on everyone in my life. shouldn't be too hard right??? insane how many neurotypicals are fucking incapable of doing the bare fucking minimum

#literally the only prerequisites i have for someone to be my friend #like if I love you legitimately everything else is a non issue. it doesn't even occur to me to get mad #and it's not even in a “sigh i will look past this for you” way. genuinely there's very little you can do to bother me if you're my friend #ill just assume you had good intentions #because i trust that you wouldn't intentionally hurt me if you're my friend so getting angry is pointless #but i genuinely don't know how to handle it when people i care about get mad at me. it scares the shit out of me #ugh i can't explain what i mean #but god some people really just don't give a shit once they dont need me anymore huh #it's the way they go out of their way to make me feel like a helpless 13 year old who can't do anything right again #vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com #i swear if you manage to lose ME as a friend 9 times out of 10 there's smth seriously wrong with you #because i virtually have no standards and will put up with everything #and am the person who cares too much in almost every relationship in my life

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linusbenjamin · 2 months ago

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Grimm —3.01, The Ungrateful Dead

#grimm #grimmedit #tvedit #scifiedit #dramaedit #horroredit #monroe #rosalee calvert #wesen: blutbad #nikolatexla #s4 was my favorite until i found out... adalind is gonna have nick's baby? that was so stupid #just when i thought juliette has become a hexenbiest (which was an insane moment for me wohoo) and nick would understand her #and they'd team up against adalind and future villains...#obviously nick can't look at her anymore and juliette is tired of nick's bullshit and only wants to get revenge now #i guess shipping them is just pointless. im team juliette tho. girl's gotta get revenge from people who fucked up her life

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brick-van-dyke · 12 days ago

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If there's one thing I've respectively noticed from Zionists and defenders of Israeli war crimes, it's that every source, argument and potential avenue to explore each explanation is riddled with cherry picking, moving the goalposts and mental gymnastics to explain why their conclusions, which typically are barely even related to the sources they use, somehow overshadow literal reality and what we see with our own eyes.

While scrolling, one example I came across was the repetitive misrepresentation of BLM, antifa and quotes from Martin Luther King Jr, as well as statistics, scholarly journal articles and government website information. These are all good sources, yet every single time they're mangled completely until the only possible "interpretation" of any of them is "well Israel is right to defend itself after shorting rockets beforehand because the retaliation was brutal and all Arabs are bad by default therefore". As if any of these sources are even about individual exceptions of Israel versus hatred towards Arabs.

I think what I find most absurd, as someone in the middle of their own studies, is how every bit of critical thinking and logic goes out the window as they do every single thing possible to do what professors worldwide say NOT to do when evaluating sources. It's like watching a race to see who can tangle and misconstrue scientific information to fit their world view the fastest. Then said people say "um actually I studied at university before so it's actually not wrong that I'm doing this exact this everyone is warned not to do because I have a permit". Ignorance I can forgive, but willful and arrogant manipulation? That's another thing entirely.

#zionism #my gods y'all need to get a grip and start remembering that confirmation bias exists #and y'all use sources continually in this way while just generally having so much bs of presenting How To Not Use My Own Sources #or actually to be more correct you clearly do know you just choose not to because you'd rather be justified in resource theft and profit #Like the while tome it's been about either material gain or feeling good about yourself while you shit on strangers #and then I also see y'all make other accounts ro harass random Arabs for fun and random queers who aren't even related like #the fuck is wrong with y'all go sit down and think about why you all do this pointless bs #it's such a waste of your own life spending it looking for fights to help with your bottomless insecurities #Israel #fuck israel #long live palestine #like you can say hamas was bad all you like it doesn't actually change the situation and what y'all have been doing for 76 years #and actually longer but y'all arent ready for that conversation and how Zionists butchered Jews and helped Nazi Germany historically #like sorry that Was a thing that happened and if you want to label yourselves as The Sacred Protectors of Jews then you have to face that #Pretending history didn't happen isn't helpful to anyone including yourselves y'all just making Zionism look even worse and like idiocy #I mean it is but you all aren't helping yourselves by being literal holocaust deniers #and being like “but Zionists saved Jews afterwards” as if that somehow erases the fact they ALSO helped the Nazis #like history is full of contradictory bullshit so when you say “but what about this” you know that doesn't erase the other things right??#“That's worse. You DO see how that's worse right?”#I'm shaking you all and yelling this like it is WORSE that they killed Jews and then started playing the saviour and fellow victims #You do see how that is really bad for Jews today to be in a place created for political power plays and material gain through any means #like you see how that could be REALLY dangerous for Jews if they're that expendable to Zionist entities and the government #and you do realise that is literally what we are seeing from the actions of said government #and how they acting sadly very predictablely when you consider the historical contexts for its existence?#People who research this shit aren't surprised because it happens every single year and has been happening for centuries -#- before Israel the holocaust etc. It's been like this for as long as political Zionism and the French Revolution #It's been going on since pre Marxism and pre a lot of differing things but y'all pretend Zionists haven't ever harmed Jews ever when -#- there's a long history of internal conflict and in fighting that formed modern Zionism and plenty of internalised antisemetism within it #Yeah there's a genuine desire for return to the land (Not Own It just return and live peacefully)#but that is very very different to Political Zionism that formed as a socialist nationalist movement

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skyburger · 8 months ago

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dang gameclam slim ultimate looks crazy !!! mistar whyte went all out for this one

#rtvs #wayneradiotv #mistar whyte #gameclam slim #roblox #(?) (does anyone check the roblox tag on here. idfk)#gameclam #in case you were wondering which im sure you were not:#yes i did spent like 350 ish robux on this outfit. yes i can wear this in roblox now. life is beautiful #and also i spent a stupid amount of time editing the background of this like. i had to dig up the original background image from E3 i think?#i only know that because they showed it on the gameclam slim commentary stream #and then i had to take two or three sceenshots of wayne singing gamelam lover so i could get the background without him in it #that was the easy part thank god #for the record im being dramatic. it was not that hard and i enjoy a pointless challenge like that #muffin mumbles #sorry for putting tags on this but thats half for my sake because i WILL lose this post if i dont put shit i can search in the tags

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bean-spring · 7 months ago

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Not to mention Voltron and Klance/Allurance in our year 2024 but I find it very telling how they didn't have anything planned for the ending and how they made Lance choose Keith on "The Feud!" by saying "He's our leader, plus he's half-galra so he's like, the future" when a season later he refers to Allura as "the best thing that has ever happened to him".

And yes, you can love somebody to death and yet think somebody else should get to be the one to live, logically thinking, but Lance is pretty much the most emotional out of all the paladins. He's loverboy Lance. He speaks and acts with his heart all the damn time and thinks about the people he loves first and foremost. And I am not saying this is "wooahhh Klance proof!" because we are pretty over that. Just saying it feels like they didn't have shit planned for the last season because Lance (a Lance who is in love with Allura, in theory, from the start) would have never, even if it's logically speaking, let another person that wasn't her get out of there alive. And even if he wasn't in love with her, he has said multiple times how much potential, strength, and importance he sees in her role.

So it is just stupid to make him vote for Keith and say something extremely damn endearing like "he's the future" instead of saying it about his romantic interest.

Not to mention that they could have easily fixed this if they wanted Allurance to be canon. They could've made the bond and conflict Allura has with Keith deeper by making her vote for Keith and saying he is the future for being half-galra (something that is personal to Allura and it would've made more sense for her to say and eat her pride and hatred towards the galra. Character development who?). Then it's just easy to make Lance vote for Allura and make him go "She's our princess and her strength is what the world needs and the universe would be lost without her" or some bullshit like that. And then make Keith vote for Lance because the joke was actually perfect and I have nothing against it and it's pretty in character for him to say "I don't wanna be stuck with him" instead of saying that he truly believes Lance is crucial for the future. And idk, make Pidge and Hunk vote for each other because they are best friends and it makes sense to reaffirm their bond (although I do find really cute and in character their original votes).

I am just saying what we already knew and is that Allurance was so not planned and they could've written a way better build-up. And look, it would've still been shitty and forced and awful but at least it would've been written thoughtfully. Kind of. Instead, we got... Deeper bonding between Lance and Keith? And I am the first one to say that they barely have scenes together with the amount of drama people make about their canon relationship but... Why give these two this moment (plus the other two only emotional and well-written scenes of season 8) that could've been great to build up another romantic relationship?

#pointless and wasted potential is what i call the last two seasons of voltron #okay i am so sorry for talking about this show again but look. i made a rewatch #finished s8 yesterday and i have so many stuff to say that i couldn't years ago bc i was dumb and didn't know how to analyze shit #but this is just-- this doesn't make sense in the slightest #we speak a lot of s8 being dumb but s7 is equally as worthless because what the hell was this #voltron the legendary defender #lance mcclain #allura voltron #keith kogane #klance #allurance #tagging the ship bc even if i don't like it this is pretty much on their favor like. they could've done it wayyy better #and i don't like the ship but damn people who did ship them i am. very sorry for what they did to you #honestly all the ships suffered in this show we should stick together instead of fighting what the hell was this #i do NOT miss this era of my life idk why i rewatched this

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spookythesillyfella · 1 month ago

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wanted to experiment a bit with my art today !! yaaay !!! ¥_^

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can anyone else hear those bells ominously tolling in the distance ?

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★ lyrics : "Melancolia" – Caravan Palace

#im thinking about changing shrig's design up a bit #tbh . in my eyes . these little ears look a lot sillier on him than the other ones #and uhh i also didn't completely FORGET to draw the crown or anything . i left it out COMPLETELY INTENTIONALLY and for a GOOD LORE REASON #I SWEAR !!!!#oh yeah the background is on fire if i didn't make that obvious enough #dhmis #dhmis art #dhmis au #high voltage au #its not exactly canon to the au but whatever . its whatever #who even gives a shit #im too tired to care anymore #i can't even make a good piece of art for the life of me #i know im not supposed to base my worth as an artist around the engagement i get from my posts #but seeing so many cool people on this platform make great art and then looking at mine ...#im utterly disgusted with myself ...#sigh #i was supposed to be studying for a test and writing an assignment that's like a week overdue #and what am i doing ?#drawing pointless doodles that i should have discarded of the moment they crossed my mind ...#i just want a god damn break from my life ...#i want to disappear #genuinely #dhmis shrignold #shrignold the butterfly #dhmis hv shrignold #tw blood #cw blood #tw fire #cw fire

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silvashapeshifter · 2 months ago

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spooky God ✨

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angelstrawbabie420 · 5 months ago

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genuinely the worst emotion- or lack thereof?- ever to me is boredom. chronic emptiness. a lack of stimulation so horrific you feel it deep in your bones and boring a hole in your chest. and the worst part is nothing fixes it. you try to do smth you love and it just isn’t enough, it doesn’t help. NOTHING gives you dopamine. you just have to fucking sit through it. it makes me want to crawl out of my goddamn skin. at least with sadness, anxiety, anger, there’s something to try to distract from, find an outlet for- you can find peace in something that quiets that emotion. but emptiness is just, nothing. nothing to do nothing to say nothing to feel. hell on earth. and brother i’ve been feeling it FAR too much lately

#the way ive relapsed into sh majorly bc of this just to feel something is. quite ridiculous actually #i pick up a hobby i KNOW i like and just. fucking sit there with no motivation or creativity or joy. it is ruthless #literally woke up feeling like this today and it’s just like. my life is so pointless and useless lol

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colorisbyshe · 1 month ago

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i had to be nosy and check back on the op of post and apparently you are privileged if you think it's silly to think you would have entirely different taste in music if you were straight and not gay/bi and that straight people don't know brat.

also he posted his spotify playlist proving he's too gay to have any other taste in music and it literally was just half slayyyter half charli with a sprinkling of sophie, fka twigs, and tove lo like sir you are just hte average popheadscirclejerk poster with no expansive music taste beyond their memes. plenty of straight people there.

this is truly the "i'm not like you PLEBS i have diverse taste in music i listen to dua lipa AND mitski AND megan thee stallion" all over again

#i understand the 'if i was a different sexuality my life experiences would be radically different so via butterfly effect we can assume i'd #have different taste in music'#but that's laso true about like... any life difference? not sexuality #but i liked a shit ton of hte music i like right now when i felt and truly embodied being a cishet lil girl #and share my music taste with a lot ofcishet women and men #so... idk #beyond pointless philosophical 'if i wa sa different person i'd be different' ponderings #just shifting my taste from all genders to one shitty gender isn't gonna change what sounds good in my ears #especially since i was a fujo before i was gay myself

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