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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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how-i-feel-diary · 4 months ago

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Everything I do is meaningless. Life is meaningless.

#feelings #depressing shit #vent #life in your 20s #my life is on my hands #life #life is meaningless #void

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melomancy · 3 months ago

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the ellipsis is the most powerful of all the punctuation…so versatile…i’m pondering…i’m omitting…i’m implying…i’m trailing off…

#you can pry her from my cold dead hands…#ellipsis 4 life #txt #text post #lmao

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pearlore · 3 days ago

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just thought she was so cute here :> perching

#shield is wrong hand i KNOWWWWW 😩😭#pearlescentmoon #wild life smp #my art #screenshot is from gem's vid hehe #mcyt

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thesensories · 3 months ago

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Living mirrors illuminate the water 🪩

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lab-gr0wn-lambs · 1 year ago

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And lemme know your age (if you feel comfortable!), and when you got your first phone in the tags!

If these options are scuffed I'm sorry, I genuinely have no clue how many phones people are "supposed" to have had (hence the poll)

#polls #I'll go first: I'm 22 i got my first phone at 12 and im on my 3rd phone #never broken one but i left the last one on the feckin bus :(#it was a hand-me-down from me mum so it had a good life #lost me damn photos tho

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hansoeii · 1 month ago

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Ghosts! 👻

#it's spooky season!!#been wanting to illustrate a proper something for my favorite comfort show for so long #If I could only choose one show to watch for the rest of my life it would be bbc ghosts #I get to meet mathew baynton and laurence rickard next week at mcm and I hope I can give this illustration to them!#I'll also be handing them out as postcards to fellow fans!#I'm so excited #my favorite ghosts #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts fanart #ghosts #ghosts fanart #illustration #my art #fanart #digital art

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isjasz · 2 days ago

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Feather and Crystal (I remember)

Set after wild life session 5, under the premise that dd gave each other a feather earring and a crystal necklace back in 3rd life <3 They can be seen in a lot of my past pieces, the og concept was from bugs buggsxp back during dl !!

#goodtimeswithscar #grian #desert duo #wild life smp #wild life spoilers #trafficblr #traffic smp #comic #my art #head in my hands THIS IS SO SELF INDULGENT AND TOOK WAY TOO LONG HAHHAHJWDHAWKJ #just thinking about. them both reminiscing about 3l...#also for clarification. grian basically had that necklace stashed in his back pocket except the back pocket is kinda the void #i made this comic mute and gave myself a giant headache istg LMAOGOJOASKDLADLWAK

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imperceiveable · 3 months ago

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