#my life is on my hands
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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Everything I do is meaningless. Life is meaningless.
#feelings#depressing shit#vent#life in your 20s#my life is on my hands#life#life is meaningless#void
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the ellipsis is the most powerful of all the punctuation…so versatile…i’m pondering…i’m omitting…i’m implying…i’m trailing off…
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And lemme know your age (if you feel comfortable!), and when you got your first phone in the tags!
If these options are scuffed I'm sorry, I genuinely have no clue how many phones people are "supposed" to have had (hence the poll)
#polls#I'll go first: I'm 22 i got my first phone at 12 and im on my 3rd phone#never broken one but i left the last one on the feckin bus :(#it was a hand-me-down from me mum so it had a good life#lost me damn photos tho
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Ghosts! 👻
#it's spooky season!!#been wanting to illustrate a proper something for my favorite comfort show for so long#If I could only choose one show to watch for the rest of my life it would be bbc ghosts#I get to meet mathew baynton and laurence rickard next week at mcm and I hope I can give this illustration to them!#I'll also be handing them out as postcards to fellow fans!#I'm so excited#my favorite ghosts#bbc ghosts#bbc ghosts fanart#ghosts#ghosts fanart#illustration#my art#fanart#digital art
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#furry art#mouse furry#digital illustration#character art#anthropomorphization#my art#time to be cringe i dont know life is not so serious sometimes#also being able to draw furries can come in handy if ill ever do commissions#also it’s fun#also please dont look too much at the hand i drew holding the utensils it’s.. something
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claudia + yellow
#babybeloved#madeleines hand resting on her shoulder in the first one <3#got shadowbanned on teethburied for vpn crimes so i have to post gifs on here again...... my life is really hard#claudia#claudia de pointe du lac#interview with the vampire#iwtv#iwtvedit#*#delainey hayles
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// Hazbin Hotel spoilers I guess
Whoever's running the HH Twitter account deserves a fucking raise oh my lord
#I didn't include this but they replied to someone saying huskerdust for life#like????#YOU CAN'T JUST DROP THAT ON ME AND EXPECT ME TO BE NORMAL ABOUT IT#HUSKERDUST FOR LIKE INDEED BESTIE#SHAKE MY HAND#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel spoilers#huskerdust
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Living mirrors illuminate the water 🪩
#my gifs#stim#asmr#stimmy#stims#stimming#sensory#stimblr#stim gifsets#no hands#water stim#fish#fish stim#marine life#sea creatures#marine biology#marine animals#sea life#sea animals#asmrblog#sensory gifsets#sensory gifset#sensory gifs#sensorygif
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part 2 of the silly isat dunmeshi crossover, with angst and a recipe i made up in 2 minutes :)
Part 1 ✨
#i drew sooo many hands waadakdljsakldjsa#ive had this wip for like a month#and then i found “the brush✨”#and i finished it in a week :)#literally made the recipe in 2 minutes i know how to cook but i was having so mch trouble making something up for some reason#wanted to finish it yesterday but i played tomodachi life until 3 am woop#aight time to sleep#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat siffrin#isat odile#isat mirabelle#isat bonnie#isat loop#woa first time drawing loop#my art
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Holiday Classics
Been thinking about Ford watching the 70s Animated Lord of the Rings Movies... (companion comic to this post!)
#the other two VHS tapes Fidd's is holding are Rankin-Bass' The Hobbit (1977) and Return of the King (1980)! The 70s animated pseudo-trilogy!#A lot of people pointed out on my other lotr 'crossover' post that Ford would have seen the 70s movies!#And i wont lie i entirely forgot they existed. But now i remember i have so many feelings on it okay. Ford my silly LOTR nerd#I dont think he would have seen Bashkis in theaters. far as I can tell it was a VERY limited (likely mostly CA) run in the middle of winter#but Rankin-Bass'? Aired on NBC & ABC. He absolutely woulda watched them or rented a VHS later. Which is why he's most excited by Bashki's#He's just such a nerd. I need him to nerd out. But also lowkey angst on how his single focus on bill/the portal lead#him to neglecting even the small things in life. Like knowing a VHS release of an adaptation of his favourite book series had come out#GF fanart#Gravity Falls#gravity falls comic#Fan art#fanart#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#young fiddleford mcgucket#*holds two random VHS tapes in one hand to check Fidd's pose in the 2nd panel makes sense* Well thats mathamatically feasible!#young stanford pines#stanford pines#ford pines#Book of Bill#comic#artists on tumblr#my art#Grunkle ford#fiddauthor#cause Fidds is not talking about the movie there. Well okay he's talking about the portal but He COULD BE TALKING ABOUT- *I am dragged off*
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🧼: “D’ya think I cuid take my gear off first, Si?”
💀: “Negative.”
#grabby hands always always grabby hands#if i dont draw them clinging onto eachother for dear life know that Something Is Wrong and you Must Send Help my way#anyways this is simon after literally like a week without soap#they are insufferable and everyone on the base knows to steer clear of any hallway after soap and ghost are reunited bc… of reasons#they never make it to their rooms in time#call of duty#simon ghost riley#simon riley#soap mactavish#john soap mactavish#soapghost#cod art#my art#ghostsoap#cod
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My life is on my hands and i dont know how to live it.
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last one i promise(<—lie)
#let’s as a society think more about why adrien wanted to go to school#and what. perhaps. he thought school was#i think the way chloe describes it she really is just a beautiful rich girl with too much time on her hands#and no one at school is treating her accordingly.#abby got so mad at me today because she thinks it’s too cringe that i keep taking about adrien liking ohshc#which is like. how are you gonna know me my whole life and then be disappointed when i’m cringe.#i’ve never hidden who i am. it’s cringe all the way down#anyway#ml#my art#miraculous ladybug#adrien agreste#chloe bourgeois#ohshc#wait i am gonna tag this thirteen actually. just go with me#thirteen
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"I've seen the way you look at him... You're in it."
they shouldn't kiss. they shouldn't kiss at all. they're going to kiss a whole lot
#solavellan#solas#dragon age#solas x lavellan#dragon age fanart#we're so back#it's about the *hands*#it's about the yearning#it's about the way she thinks he's being overly cautious and worried about her reputation#and he's feeling wracked with guilt over what's on her left hand and what he has to do#elmo burning.gif#the hands on this actually tried to ruin my life it was so difficult i redrew each one probably at least 4 times in slightly different pose#pina art
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need to exist in your warmth (id in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#blood tw#ruporas art#love u when i get to cuddle u and love u when i get to feel ur blood soak into my hands#being this close to one another means the eternal suffering of trying to separate love and mission. love for one and love for humanity#i like to think of pre-vol8 vash as someone who struggles with his feelings for ww bc as equal and as trusted he is -#vash knows his responsibilities and he knows/expects ww wouldn't let him stray from it either. for that he can't take to any romantic incli#and i think itd make him view ww in a stricter non-personal way... If that makes ANY sense.#for ww - take someone who youv gotten close to and ended up liking more than you expected#someone who has a belief and follows it stubbornly - someone who'll get into more fights and trouble more than youv had your entire life#ww thinks of him as a monster but he knows theres a limit he himself can take - i feel like hes considered what might be the limit for vash#for Safety measures. just in case. yknow. whenever he himself might have to load the bullet < him hyping himself up as if he could do it#my point being that the thought of vash being dead crosses his mind more than he'd like. i think its a simultaneous dread drop in his stoma#for failure of the mission - but also an Ok? They can be killed? and also a disastrous gunning of his own heart. considering how much they#both live in their own heads some days are Just the worst ever for them in each others company. but also they lov each other :[ sooo much
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