#my ivantill tears
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jago-xx Ā· 28 days ago
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The difference between Ivans dying ā€œheartbeatā€ and Tills dying ā€œheartbeatā€ is interestingā€”to me at least.
Ivanā€™s heartbeat is characterized by the beat of drums and is rather passionate and energetic. Its loud, urgent, and suspenseful. Much like the feelings hes held for Till for the majority of his time in The Garden. His yearning is deep and woven into him; the thought of Till is his morning joy and his nights peace. In almost everything we see of Ivan, he is either watching, talking, or helping Till. Though he seems calm and composed most of the time, his obsession runs deep. He enjoys being with Till ā€¦even if Till isnā€™t entirely aware of his presence. Even in Tills rejection, he remained devoted. Till was his everything. We can see this in one of Ivans interviews where hes asked, ā€œHave you gotten everything youve ever wanted?ā€ and he responds: ā€œNo, but i came very close once.ā€ This must be in reference to when he and Till nearly escaped together under a meteor shower.
So its no wonder Ivan would feel this loveā€”this obsession surging through him as he sacrificed himself for Till. Be felt love, sadness, and longing in last moments. His heart was thrumming in his chest, as if it was trying to rip itself from its cage of bones, if only to unite with Tills this once. His heartbeat banged and roared for Till in his last moments, and in his whole life, heā€™d never been more at peace.
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Till, on the other hand, had a meek, innocent, melancholic xylophone for a ā€œheartbeatā€.
Unlike Ivan, Till was deeply wounded in heart and body. His entire life he was abused, used, and treated like trash. He didnt take it lying down, but even the fiercest people get tired of the constant pain. He had gotten used to touch that was hurtful, and to hard hearts. To him, hate and anger were the norm. Those emotions came easily to him, and became part of what drove him forward. He had told himself for so long that his existence was supposed to be pain. That this is just how it is. And Ivan often challenged this belief. We see Ivan help Till multiple times. We see his loving looks and curious stares. Till was not used to suchā€¦attention. It challenged his natural inclination to hate. Ivan, though weird and sometimes annoying, never looked or treated Till like he was a burden. Although his actions, such as when he stepped on his flower crown, knowing they were hidden cameras, annoyed and sometimes angered Till, Ivan never did any of it from ill intent. And even still, he received Tillā€™s anger, because even that type of attention from Till was bliss.
Till wasnt used to this treatment, so he avoided acknowledging it. He didnā€™t know what to make of it. All he knew to do was fight and push on. Run away. He couldnā€™t come to terms with the fact that maybe, just maybe, he loved Ivan. Maybe he liked the time Ivan would spend with him. Maybe he enjoyed his voice, and his touch, and even his weird humor.
Till didnt accept it until he had to watch Ivan die. Until he realized those kisses would be his first and last. He went into round 7 spiraling down a hole of regret and anguish. He did not want to die. He had just realized that love is in fact his to hold, that he doesnā€™t always have to fight. He had just realized that he had something to live for after all. He was weak in the heart and body. He yearned for the even a speck of innocence again, just to feel peace one last time. Mizi was a portal into that innocence, hence his flashback before his death. The girl he idolized was alive and he discovered his love for Ivan. He died when he had finally found reasons to live.
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ro5ani Ā· 8 months ago
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I can't stop thinking about the scene where Ivan finds Till and nuzzles his head against his. He was on that banquet for the same reason as Till, most likely went through the same treatment with the only difference being that he doesn't fight it so it will be less painful (but it isn't really)
So i think he not only felt bad about Till but for both of them. I've seen a lot of takes that say he didn't kiss Till because Till was unconscious and he knew that it was wrong after what Till went through, but i think a kiss didn't even occur to him.
He got out of that banquet and immediately looked for Till, perhaps out of just worry but i think he needs that human comfort as well.
His eyes were glassy the moment he looked at Till, he was keeping it together until he saw him.
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And then he just... holds him close
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miku-meeku Ā· 8 months ago
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https://twitter.com/_k4uo/status/1778757109603279286
chat what if i fucking cry
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bitzi-bee Ā· 28 days ago
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šŸŽ¶ Lost in forever's embrace
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shakingparadigm Ā· 6 months ago
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I'll honestly still be mourning the ROUND 6 that we could have had. The first sketches where Ivan and Till are hugging... Ivan with his arm around Till's shoulders.... The friendly teasing...
I fully understand why they had to change it, but it's still sad to think about all that we missed out on.
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baeshijima Ā· 8 months ago
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it's you
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despite everything,
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it's still you
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purrfectlycontent Ā· 29 days ago
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thinking about all those years ivan spent learning about boundaries and how to maintain healthy relationships but then throwing that away (and, subsequently, his relationship with till) during round 6 by initiating that kiss
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comic translations by @/whatafruit on twitter x (except for the last two, those are mine)
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gold0venice Ā· 6 months ago
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Need to say how the last thing that Ivan actually tasted was his own blood, not Tillā€™s lips
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crustyfloor Ā· 6 months ago
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i think about this part often maybe a bit too much
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ceryulean Ā· 5 months ago
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Ivantill week 2024, day 2: Cool/Cute
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lilmayu Ā· 23 days ago
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why did no one stop me from watching alien stage.....
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aeli-tomato Ā· 6 months ago
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If your emotions are so shallow, why are we all drowning in it?
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nums-bird Ā· 23 days ago
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I lose a year off my life when I am reminded that Ivan's love is fully UNREQUITED.HE DIED FOR SOMEONE WHO BARELY SAW HIM OR REMEMBERS HIMšŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
Oh no a rope has appeared on my neckšŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚
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5oytari Ā· 1 month ago
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i only need five minutes alone with till's stylist to beat the shit out of them
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shakingparadigm Ā· 6 months ago
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urak rings up unsha after round 6 and yells into the phone L BOZOOOOOOOOO
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thewi110w Ā· 30 days ago
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IM GRIEVING NO ONE SPEAK TO ME
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